#i lost myself

[xx-stay-strongxx]

Immer mehr merk ich wie die Zeit an mir vorbei zieht und ich nicht vom Fleck komme, wie meine Träume immer mehr zerplatzen.

#tränen #schmerz #verletzt #verzweifelt #am ende #verletzbar #angst #gedanken #einsam #kaputt #i hate this #i hate my brain #i can't help it #nachdenklich #müde #allein #bps #i lost myself #lie

[jt1674]

#radiohead #karma police #ok computer #i lost myself

[howifeltabouthim]

. . . I ceased to be whoever I thought I was.

Catherine Lacey, from Biography of X

#loss of identity #loss of self #i lost myself #i lost myself when i lost you #identity #self perception #quotes #lit #words #excerpts #quote #literature #personal #cessation #cease to be #catherine lacey #biography of x

[vizthedatum]

Always with the illusion of choice unless they’re love-bombing you.

#healing #narcissistic abuse #I want them to clearly articulate the things I’ve done to them #I know that there was stuff I did that wasn’t right #most of the time I did benign things that they didn’t agree with #They did not understand how ableist they were being #they literally drove me down the ground #my body was flaring so hard #I lost myself #isn’t it weird that people judge you for talking about bad behavior #what else am I supposed to do? #stay quiet and carry all the trauma inside like I’ve been doing and see my body rot from the inside? #maybe if people read this (both narcissists and codependents alike) then maybe we can all do better #spot patterns of behavior and do better #including me - I also want to do better #calling out behavior means that I can more easily spot my personal red flags and literally run away

[dramasetter]

For a minute there

I lost myself, I lost myself

#dramasetter #radiohead #karma police #i lost myself #Spotify

[iwlhfti]

Might just end it all tonight. Not like anyone would care, and Im so sorry but Im running out of the reasons to keep fighting this fucking war in my head.

#su1c1d3 #all the things i never said #i lost everything #war of hearts #this is the worst #i cant handle this #i am so done #this is the life #nobody loves me #im going to kms #sorry for being depressing #i cant take anymore #i can’t #:/ sorry #i lost myself #this is so fucked up

[hannahkayx]

I could never love you enough to put the bags down

How could you believe in realities where we were sweet?

You are the fire I never put out

The thunderstorms never ending

You hardly remember who we are from the drugs stealing you from me

Sobriety was a metaphor surrounding life conspiring against you

Treachery in a romantic fantasy

The only romance being in the heartbeats stolen from me

When the drugs wear off; I can’t compare to the woman in your head

Borne in a hopeful afterlife

Will be our restless souls mended

Hannah kay poetry

#poet #poetry #spilled poetry #new poets society #poetscommunity #poetsandwriters #love #spiritual #aesthetic #mountains #requiem for a dream #jared leto #clean and sober #addiction #i lost him #i lost myself

[tilting-at-windmills]

Almost (Sweet Music)

Your favourite season is probably summer. You lost someone, either that be yourself or someone that was close to you. You tried to find something to cover up for it, to replace whatever you lost. Replacing is impossible. Did it ever stop hurting? I bet it almost did. It almost felt like everything was fjne again. It'll be fine one day, but for that you have to accept the loss and live with it.

#uquiz #myself #i lost myself #i do love this song though

[youonlyzingonce]

Can you imagine if it didn’t happen? The first hello goes unsaid. The first phone call never dialed. The first note never written. And the first kiss never tried. Hands that were never held. The late nights never had. And I think after all these years that I’d know, I’d know there was something missing. Some great void in my cosmos. And even if I’d never met you, I think I’d be so very sad. No matter the hurt, no matter the pain we’ve caused, I love you so very much. And to have never known such joy, it would be as if a ghost haunted me. And I’d know. I’d know.

#you only zing once #zing #too the moon and back #forever and always #soulmate #i was worth it #we were worth it #you broke my soul #i hate that i still love you #you should be here #i lost everything #i lost my son #i lost my best friend #i lost my mind #i lost you #i lost myself #you were everything I always prayed for #missing you #i hate this #i hate your not here #i hate this time of year

[murnswhyte]

Trying to Start Over

Cat in a drawer-

Light, wooden floor.

Air mimicks breeze

But falls short.

A new place

But same things.

I must relinquish,

For accumulation

Overwhelms the soul.

Feelings numb, eyes heavy.

Thoughts so clear,

Inspiration clouded.

Where are the words

Which used to wake me from sleep?

Searching for that elusive paper-

That was once my friend, my love.

We spoke so often,

I never thought they would leave me.

Or have I lost them?

Are they there still,

Being shrouded by this ‘reality’?

A new world I’ve entered,

(Was it two years ago only?)

And I think already I’ve lost my way.

Unpublished Works

Seppie

July 2012

#poetry #mine #Canadian #moved into a new house #was in a terrible relationship #I lost myself

[kolezankajezusa]

Czy wciąż myślisz o tym jak mogło być?

jak miało być

#smutne myśli #smutne #smutne cytaty #zaburzenia psychiczne #cytat na dziś #zlamane serce #problemy #cytaty o depresji #narkotyki #cytaty po polsku #mysli samobojcze #zaburzenia odzywiania #bipolor #bipolar disorder #cyataty #tesknie #tęsknie za tobą #tęsknie za nim #i lost myself

[xx-stay-strongxx]

Ich spüre wie irgendwas in mir weinen will, wie die Augen schon brennen und der Kloß im Hals wächst. Doch keine Träne kommt.

Mein Magen krampft und ich starre in die leere, seit Stunden läuft das selbe Lied, dabei atme ich ein und aus. Jeder Atemzug fühlt sich schwerer an, wie ein Anker der mich runter zieht.

#tränen #schmerz #verletzt #verzweifelt #am ende #verletzbar #gedanken #einsam #kaputt #endtimes #angst #müde vom leben #i lost my mind #i lost myself #leer #leben #enttäuscht #erfahrungen

[akai-ito-official]

And then she disappeared

If I disappear, will they weep?

Will they see the pain?

Will they finally notice the emptiness while I was around?

Will they know what’s going through my mind? How the dark crevices of my mind contains the most grim thoughts, little coward me couldn’t convey through words.

Will they understand that disappearing is the only way I can be finally at peace?

No one will understand.

Only oblivion can save me.

#dark poem #poemsdaily #sad poem #poems and quotes #dark poetry #depressing post #and then she disappeared #disapear #lost #emptiness #my mind #i hate myself #i hate everything #i hate this life #my pain is immeasurable and my day is ruined #i lost my mind #i lost myself

[ek-ranjhaan]

I look up at the stars

a faint smile strolls

beneath the tears and scars

A star twinkles

She waves down to me

the smile widens,

convincing me even more

that they love will never set me free.

Another star twinkles,

heart feels a bit more wrinkled

as he smirks down upon me

Taunting me for my tears,

Like the stupid one he is.

And she twinkles even more,

scolding him to the core.

Looking at that silliness

my head starts shaking

Heart continues aching.

And just then,

A gentle breeze goes by

I feel embrace,

their embrace.

so warm and familiar,

and I know they are here.

He ruffles my hair as she caresses my cheeks.

In a second it passes

and then comes the still,

so blank and crystal

Refracting the reality upon me

The memories resurfaces.

Their blood and my tears.

Their ever lasting final smile.

Their hands holding each other forever.

Them closing their eyes,

Only to never open again

as I continue to hold and beg them,

to come back to me

and leave never again.

#deaths and fatalities #death and dying #dead poets society #dead poets edit #dead poets aesthetic #dead poetry #death #killed #lost them #i lost you #i lost myself #i lost him #i lost her #they are gone #i miss her #i miss writing #i miss him #my poem #chinese poetry #poetry #deep poems #poem #love poem #love poetry #my writing #writing #poets and writers #desi poetry #poets on tumblr #poems and quotes

[bee26s]

I locked a piece of myself in the deepest part of my heart and furthest part of my brain.

I have to keep a part of myself hidden, to remain sane.

HB

#childhood trauma #repressed anger #repressed feelings #repressed memories #i don’t know who i am #who am i #I lost myself #mental illness #mentally unstable #emotionally unavailable #bipolar disorder #i don’t want to talk about it #unhealthy habits #intrusive thoughts #my thoughts #mood disorder #sleep disorder #things that keep me up at night #i don’t understand #why do i keep doing this #why can’t i move on #can’t get over this #i can’t explain this #i cant live like this #trying to get better #let it go #i’m stuck #i’m tired #general anxiety disorder #anxiety

[madthehatter]

#sadgirl #lonelier version of you #lonelihood #lonesome #sad poem #there is absolutely nothing lonelier #family problems #loneliest #my poem #poem #i lost my mind #i lost myself