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spinningjupiters · 2 years

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// happiness is not for sale //

What does it feel like to be trapped. A confinement without escape. No place to go. Or a door to exit from. There is no fire exit or an emergency pathway. You're trapped. But it isn't an imprisonment. Because that means you were convicted and then punished. It is actually years of conditioning. Of always being complacent and obedient. And pleasing everyone in authority and giving them the autonomous right to your happiness. It is telling the world, it is okay if I am unhappy at the sake of your comfort. I do not deserve to live my life on my terms, you can dictate how I spend my days and years. Nothing matters more to me than your happiness. So you just let them override you. Your value is only gauged by their standards of how well you follow their instructions. So you just let things be the way they want to be. And soon you want nothing for yourself. No joy, no escape. You mould yourself into the fabric of their being and soon you are no longer yourself. Just a manifestation of what they want life to be like. And it's painful and yet numbing. Knowing how insincere you are to your own self. And how unworthy your own happiness is. And how you never mattered to yourself. You only wanted the world to love you, and make you complete. Because you're just deeply broken. And no one wants to mend a broken jilted lover. All they do is take all that is left. Because it is rare. To see someone offer themselves, so heartlessly and take nothing in return. What is like to see a house made for someone else and live there like you're supposed to belong there. May it wouldn't hurt to spend lifetimes trying to prove otherwise. What else have we got to lose?

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soul-xhoney · 2 years

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01:19

Every time I peer through these doors, I remind myself of the mistake I made…

Letting him enter our sacred place. I so badly wanted him to be a part of my world—

To understand. To understand me. To understand why I am the way I am.

Why I like the things I like. My hopes, my interests

How I cope. How I release.

And it’s my fault really, for thinking he could be a part of this world. My world. Our world.

It is for this reason, I could not find the courage to come back—

To reopen the door and fully immerse myself in it like I did once before.

So for now, the door remains slightly ajar, until I can find my way back

Wait for me,

Remember me…

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woahwoajwoah · 4 years

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“It’s not that I want to die, put it like this, if I wasn’t born, I wouldn’t really mind.”

~ @woahwoajwoah

#sad #depressed #help #i dont know #poetry #words #soilled ink #spilled ink #i dont care

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windshed · 4 years

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Week#11 Capstone (H)

#smoke weed #cannabis #homemade #toke #weed #homegrown #bake weed #bong #bong tokes #stoner #707 soil #soil health #soilscience #soil #soil propagation #tf2 soilder #soilled ink #potting soil #soilmechanics

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charming-oddities · 3 years

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From my book, A Light In The Dark 💛 available on Amazon now! Grab your copy here: https://amazon.com/dp/B08KZBCDC5

#Gina Clingan #Writer #Writing #Poet #Poetry #Love Quotes #Soilled Ink #Rain

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sunflowerletters · 5 years

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Last night I had this dream, That you were rushing around my home in the morning, mismatched socks, and disheveled hair. You were on your way out, whether it was to school or work; I can’t quite remember. Just as you were about to rush out, I pulled you back by your collar. Wrapped my red scarf around your neck, it's cold out and you have to walk, and gave you a quick kiss. You flushed bright red, a grin arching onto your lips, before tugging me back to you for a deeper kiss. Last night I had a dream that I wish wasn’t a dream at all.

Excerpt From a Book I Might Never Write, Dream Man

#excerpt from a story i’ll never write #excerpt from a book I'll never write #excerpts from a story i'll never write #soilled ink #spilled thoughts #spilled prose #Spilled Love #poetry #love #love quotes #quotes #quote of the day #love story.

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airyfairylazy · 4 years

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#writblr #writing community #new writeblr #new writer boost #new writers cafe #new writers corner #new writers on tumblr #writerscreed #writers on life #writers on tumblr #writers cafe #inspiring quotes #soilled ink #inspireamuse #spilled quotes #spilled poem #spilled ink #writer lift #quotes

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officialleehadan · 5 years

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Skills Already Known

Hello darlings! It's your regularly scheduled Poll Winner! $5+ Patron Prompts will resume on Sunday as always! Enjoy!

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The air smelled different. That was, surprisingly, the thing that Adrienne couldn’t quite get over as she sat on the floor of her house with her gear spread out around her. The backpack wasn’t heavy. After some discussion and experimentation with Yvarian, talking through the scroll that, apparently, functioned as the in-game chat, they discovered that their backpacks never got any heavier.

Adrienne tentatively thought that the backpacks were working just the same way their inventories in the game did. When she tried it, reached for the gold pouch she vaguely remembered buying in the style parlor months ago, she discovered that it never emptied.

READ THE WHOLE STORY HERE!

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Cybersecurity 101

Adrienne is one of her server’s top players, but the game is more than a game, and she will have to face love, and betrayal, to survive.

Cyber Finals

For the Experience

A Quest Never Completed

Reorienting Home (Subscriber Only!)

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bonniealder · 5 years

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thericecakerabbit · 5 years

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One day the depths

That have shaped you

Will make sense

You’ll see a grand canyon

Within yourself

And all the years of pain

Will suddenly be worth it

To reach a peace so surreal

There are no words left

#mine #writing #words #poetry #soilled ink #spilled words #spilled poem #spilled poetry #growth #thoughts #writer

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spinningjupiters · 2 years

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// blood moon //

And yet I cried

For another night

Broken by the blows

Of your unkind assaults

Inside I know

All bruises heal at last

For when I spoke to the sky

Of a pain even it could not fathom

The blood moon appeared in the dark

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soul-xhoney · 2 years

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And too many times I think about the end,

My end, that is.

How easy it would be for me, to release all the hurt,

And all the pain, to release all those who said that they loved me in vain.

To release the stress, to finally rest...

Rest In Peace.

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themathpoet · 5 years

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Think Better

They say we think better at dawn

But why do the words only flow at dusk

When I am half way to dreamland

And my eyes can barely stay lit

Maybe... it’s that

In this state of being

I let down my relentless guard

my emotions come tumbling out

Forcing me to feel them

Telling me to write them

Making poetry out of emotion

Letting my heart speak the words

That my brain never would

Thus my heart

must think better at night

#poem #poetry #spilled poetry #soilled ink #my poetry #my poem #poetic #spilled writing

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woahwoajwoah · 4 years

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I disguise my pain under prepossessing, rosy words. However, my pain should not be compared with a flower; my mind is a thunderstorm, it is obstreperous. The famished tasmanian devil searching for its next victim, the victim is I. I am suffering in my own mind, and I’m afraid I can not hold on much longer.

~ @woahwoajwoah

#help #is it depression #or sadness #or do i crave attention #poetry #words #sentences #soilled ink #auotes #spilled ink #quotes #im sorry #i hope i didnt forget anyone

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windshed · 4 years

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Thinned and tipped.

7/5/2020

Capstone (H)

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sorenalver-blog · 5 years

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Swept up with the glitter

n gold

tarnished,

blackened.

Chain smoke

stain naked

on my teeth,

dry on

split

buds.

Wilted,

by disengagement

of vocal cords

to mouth.

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