Virginia Woolf’s Handwritten Suicide Note: A Painful and Poignant Farewell (1941)
[Dearest,
I feel certain I am going mad again. I feel we can’t go through another of those terrible times. And I shan’t recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can’t concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don’t think two people could have been happier till this terrible disease came. I can’t fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can’t even write this properly. I can’t read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that – everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can’t go on spoiling your life any longer.
I don’t think two people could have been happier than we have been.]
Her suicide note, written to her husband Leonard, is a haunting and beautiful document, in all its unadorned sincerity behind which much turmoil and anguish lie. you can hear a dramatic reading of Woolf’s note, such a wrenching missive because it is not a farewell to the world at large, but rather to a trusted friend and lover.
我赢了。
I won.
- 我与他十年前海上一战,赢了他半招他却死了。
I fought him on the sea ten years ago and won by half a move, but he died.
-你说既然笛飞声没有死,那李相夷一定还活着对不对?
since di feisheng is not dead, it must mean that li xiangyi is still alive, right?
- 我快死了...你不惜一切代价却救不了我。// 好不容易救你出来,你可不能死。
I am dying...you have done everything no matter the costs yet you couldn't save me. // I saved you after much difficulty, you can't die.
君武勇之处,世所罕见,心悦诚服。
your valiance is unparalleled in this world. to which I am wholeheartedly convinced.
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We shouldn't let beautiful things die just because they're not always practical. Send a handwritten letter to someone you love, sit by the candlelight, pick up autumn leaves and feel free to overdress for every occasion.