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alicewritten · 9 months

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pinterest comments that make you scream and wail and pull your hair crouched on the ground in hope

#alicewritten #gentle reminder #softcore #soft concept #spilled journal #spilled ink #commonplace journal #self worth #self improvement #positive affirmations #recovery is not linear #inner child healing #mental heath support #hopecore #note to self #self love #growth

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ihathbenobiwankenobied · 8 months

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I just realized that if you haven't watched the clone wars or rebels, rex is just some random clone with a single, insignificant line

meanwhile I'm over here losing my shit about it

#recovery is not linear #and in this case does not exist #my mom just texted me and asked why ahsoka was fighting on the same side as the stormtroopers #ahsoka #ahsoka series #ahsoka spoilers #captain rex #rex

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iamenoughonmyown · 7 months

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Reasons to recover #8

For my younger self. She deserves to feel happiness, love, comfort and safety. 💘🍂

She deserves it all after struggling all her life and feeling left out, unloved and alone, feeling like she didn't fit in anywhere. She deserves to love herself and feel love. ( crying as I write this, it's a difficult journey but I'm trying for her)

#reasons to recover #reasons to live #mental illness is real #reasons to keep going #reasons to stay #recovery is hard #recovery is not linear #mental health matters

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aestheticemi01 · 7 months

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Friendly reminders;

-Your thoughts matter🍀

-Your mental health matters so much, even if it doesn’t really feel like it does✨

-You are amazing🌸

-You are strong. You have survived every.single obstacle up until this point! 🦋

-You are loved by so many people🌱

-You deserve to take care of yourself💐

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tenderbittersweet · 4 months

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The difficult reality of recovery that a lot of people don’t want to face or talk about is that you absolutely do have to put effort into hygiene, socialization, and hobbies. You have to cut off toxic “friends” and family whenever possible. You have to set boundaries and respect other’s boundaries. You have to apologize and make amends for anything toxic you’ve personally done to others. You have to change the way you talk to and about yourself. It has to be a conscious, active choice every single day.

I strongly recommend looking into Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Dialectical Behavioral Therapy with a professional, if possible, but there are several books and workbooks from actual professionals—not celebrities and/or influencers! You can start your recovery journey by looking into things like “toxic positivity,” “unhealthy coping skills,” and “negative self talk” to start unlearning unhealthy habits and behaviors.

I’ve refrained from making posts like this purely because I know I’d be accused of ableism or classism or something of that nature, but I think it’s an important message. “Self-care” can be—and often is—complicated, messy, and confusing, but if you don’t build up a tolerance for doing hard things, it will never get easier. I know this is easier said than done, but it is the only way forward.

You can do this!

#mental health #mental illness #recovery #recovery is not linear #toxic positivity #boundaries #personal #op

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enoughdonegone · 6 months

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Hey. If you're still having sympathy and compassion for the person who hurt you, it's really ok.

I said 'fuck that guy' in my last post. But it took me a really long time to get there. Also, that may never be how you feel about them. That's ok too. You don't have to hate them.

Your feelings toward them don't invalidate what happened to you. And your feelings certainly are not evidence that it 'wasn't that bad'.

I think there are a lot of people out there that think that there's a single 'correct' way to heal. You can process and heal in whatever way works for you. You don't have to follow someone else's blueprint.

Give yourself space, grace and time.

#healing #survivor #recovery #emotional abuse #ptsd #trauma #spousal abuse #recovery is not linear #enough #i'm done #i'm gone

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socialist-microwave-laser · 4 months

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suddenly losing the people who helped you recover from abuse is not fun. it may make you second guess the strides towards improvement and self-actualization that they helped you make (maybe if i didn't stand up for myself they wouldn't have left)

just as you made it through the last struggle, you will make it through this one too. sometimes we just lose people. and time will dull the pain of this loss just as it has so many other pains

recovery is not linear and sometimes it fucking sucks

#self reminder #vent #abuse recovery #recovery is not linear

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iwasntborntobe-a-skeleton · 1 month

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My brain is being so brrrrrr so here are some affirmations

Recovery is a choice you have to keep making every day. I’ve been in recovery for more than 2 years, I haven’t actively engaged with my bad thoughts for months, but that doesn’t mean I’m completely forever healed. I have to keep making this choice, to be better, to exist, to take up space, to be okay with my body changing and showing the evidence of a life well lived.

Having bad thoughts is okay. I’m not going to let them rule my life. I made the choice to get better, I put weeks and months and years of work in to being better and happier and more alive. I’m more in control now than I ever was then.

#eating disoder recovery #ed recovery #anorexia recovery #recovery #mental health #recovery is not linear #body neutrality #body image #eating disorder recovery

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mq-writes-ig · 2 months

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I am only allowed to be sad at night

In the morning I will paint a smile onto my face and pretend I love the sun

I am only allowed to be sick at night

To hold my heart in my hands and breathe

I have to be recovered in the morning

My playlists of sad songs are only for after twelve

Before that, i am healing

I hold others’ grief and limit mine to when only I can see it

Mom, I’m so lonely

Will you hold my heart for a while?

It is so blue, it makes me cry

Mom, I cannot be your friend anymore

I am not allowed to forgive you

But I can cry for you

Only in the night

In the night, I will mourn

I will scorn your name when the sun rises

-astre

#mommy issues #recovery is not linear #I feel like I’m lying #when I say im recovering #because the nights are preciously reserved for my sadness #poetry #thoughts #writing #anxiety disorder #small writer #mentally fucked #tw depressing stuff #can you tell I wrote this listening to Mitski

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novasvent · 10 months

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Guys. I'm gonna try to stop this post might get some hate and scoffs in the sh community but I think I'm ready. I have such a victim mindset but I'm trying to take responsibility for my life. My actions will refine my future, not the factors I can't control I'm living for my future now, and for god. If I mess up so help me but at least I'm going to try. I think soon I'll throw away my box. I've had it for more than a year it has my tools and some old bloody bandaids. Some scars will fade and it will no doubt be difficult but I think I'm ready. I'm done. It's so freeing but oddly scary. I haven't sh'ed in a few weeks but I was more than ready to do it if I need to. I'm not doing it anymore. I wanna be done forever. Forever ever until I die I never wanna feel that feeling again of trying to take care and cover up a fresh cut. I'm ready

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fantasyfantasygames · 3 days

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Falling

Falling, 20xx Games, 2015

Falling is a game about having a really, really hard day while being so badly depressed that you literally fall into an alternate spacetime below our own, and your climb or flight back out.

There's a big content warning right at the front of this game - Falling focuses on depression. It was written by someone with chronic chemical depression, the sort that's part of your brain chemistry. It's very good at getting you to understand what that's like. If you also suffer from chronic depression, this game is very explicit about not being the right place to get help.

You make a character by drawing a hand of cards, writing a hundred-word summary of your character (a la some other games I've reviewed), and giving a short explanation of what pushed you into Underspace. During play you use descriptors from your character bio and inciting incident to draw more cards and change the ones you have. You need specific combinations of things in your hand in order to do specific things, so it's not just a matter of "better poker hand wins". Black cards are strength and toughness (both emotional and physical) but also depression. Red cards are connection and wisdom but also either mania or obsession, player's choice at chargen. You might need three red cards for one thing, or a small straight in black, or one very specific card. It's all about adapting to the situation. Go too hard and you'll regret it. XP lets you boost traits by underlining them, or cross out some that aren't helping you and write new ones.

Underspace is a massive vertical shaft, a gaslamp fantasy idea of what an enormous abandoned mine would look like. You encounter its odd denizens, many of whom are part fungus. Some of them will try to help you leave. Others are there to drag you down metaphorically or physically. There's no shortcut to get out - it's step by step. As the name of the game implies, you're probably not going to make it out in one smooth climb. The book details one particular settlement with the idea that you could use it as inspiration for others.

The art aims toward DiTerlizzi. It doesn't quite get there, but the rough lines and dark shading make it a good fit. Fans of Planescape will definitely feel at home here. Layout is fairly standard, and there's nothing wrong with that.

One of the rules for the endgame is "It's not about the inciting incident." Whatever pushed you into Underspace was a side-effect, the straw, or a total coincidence. You can't fix your depression and return to Superspace just by fixing or reversing that event.

Falling is ultimately a hopeful game, but not an easy one to play. You're going to get pulled in emotionally, and there will absolutely be serious setbacks that erase a whole session of progress. I wouldn't say you need to be a masochist to play, but you do have to want to do something emotionally challenging.

20xx Games isn't in existence any more. Falling didn't sell particularly well in PDF, never made it to print, and their other big project ran into unspecified legal issues involving Capcom, so the whole company tanked in 2017. I'm not sure what Falling's copyright status is these days. Hopefully one of the company's partners still has the rights to publish it - I think it deserves to be out in the world.

#ttrpg #imaginary #indie ttrpg #rpg #review #depression #cw depression #recovery is not linear

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confusedraven1 · 9 months

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remember when zuko betrayed aang/katara/iroh and reverted back to approval seeking behaviors/attitudes at the end of book 2 in ATLA? i feel like that’s exactly what’s happening with aziraphale.

it’s not a bad thing to want approval, to want “forgiveness” and redemption, and he’s done a TON of work trying to stay faithful to the “mission” of his station, despite all of his superiors constantly berating and looking down on him. so of course the first time in the entirety of his existence he’s being offered a chance to Make Decisions and a difference, he finds himself falling back into old habits.

fingers crossed that we get season 3, but, say if we do, aziraphale may have a similar journey zuko had in maturing and understanding that the things you’ve longed for (only cause you’ve been told that’s what you should want) isn’t necessarily what’s best for you. or perhaps you’ve outgrown the confines those things try to force you into.

breaking away from a toxic family is difficult, especially if that’s all you’ve really known. aziraphale made a questionable and heartbreaking decision, but it’s understandable. and he’s always been a stubborn one, so i’m not surprised he didn’t run back to crowley once he realized what the metatron said the “project” was.

#good omens #good omens season two #good omens spoilers #neil gaiman #terry pratchett #aziraphale #crowley #atla zuko #old habits die hard #aziraphale just wants to love and be loved #damn what an ending tho amirite #neil gaiman i love you #but im also in your walls #but i also love you #thank you #recovering from trauma #recovery is not linear #even for celestial beings #💔

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carladuquette · 13 days

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via instagram

#ed recovery #recovery is not linear #hugs #you are not alone #mental health

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aestheticemi01 · 8 months

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In case someone needs to hear this today;

You are beautiful✨

You matter🌻

The feelings you are feeling right now are valid🌸

You deserve to be heard and taken seriously. Do not let anyone tell you otherwise🍀

You are fighting so hard. You should be really proud of yourself…🌿

You deserve to be happy💐

It is important to feel ALL of your feelings… The beautiful ones, the harsh ones, the difficult ones and the heartbreaking ones. They all deserve to be heard and recognized🌹

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ed-recovery-affirmations · 8 months

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Hi ! I don't know if this is a vent, a question or anything else, but I needed it out and I needed to be understood. (I prefer to warn you that I will be talking about weight, not in precise numbers but still, and just negativity):

So, I'm in recovery, after a relapse. For my first time recovering, I ate with no restriction, everything and anything I wanted. I had lost maybe 10kg, and was very close to, well, dying, so I think eveything went really fast, as it needed to, you know. After two months, I had no fear foods or anything anymore, I did not care much about my body. But one day, left alone at home, I don't know why, I weighted myself, to see I was at my normal weight again. And I don't know, I didn't expect it, and I really panicked. I couldn't tell, nobody could, because I am naturally very lean and honestly the weight gain was not very visible (except for the fact that I was more lively and a little less bony).

So I relapsed, for one whole year again I think. I'm very sad about all the time I wasted. But now, each time I want to recover, I'm so afraid. I'm reminded of all the nights after relapsing blaming myself for getting ''like this'', being ''disgusting'', taking picture and pinching my skin and crying and crying so much. I'm afraid this will just be the same cycle over and over again.

The problem is I want to recover, I want my life, but 1, I'm scared of it, as I fear I will relapse and be in pain again, and 2, an eating disorder is very comforting and I find peace in that (I know it is messed up).

For some months, I've been able to eat more and be more relaxed about this by aiming at a lean and a bit muscular body type, in a healthy way. I read nutrition books and I try more and more to include carbs (wich I forbid myself or felt guilty about), protein, ect, and I tell myself I'm doing this for something healthy. I exercice a bit less than I did before and now install rest days, things like this.

But I still can't look at my body. Every time I put on something and it feels different (maybe just an impression, maybe because I've been working out to get toned legs, I don't know), I panic. Just now, I tried on a pant and it suits me but I'm paranoid it's more tight than before.

I tell myself I'm getting muscle, it's normal. I tell myself that my body knows what is is doing and that maybe it is normal that my body won't be exactly the same than is was when I ate nothing, or than my 17 years old body (I'm 19 now). But I still can't wear many things, I still can't walk normally in fear of my legs touching or sleep without a pillow between them. I'm so exhausted of this.

What can I do to let go? I have no idea. I want to be okay again and to simply go on with my life without my thought going aroud only my body and food. Yes, I want to eat healthy (of course with balance), I want to do sports (because I like it and because I know what I want to look and feel like), but I don't know how to let go of this disordered way of thinking about it.

I am moving out of my home in two days, and going to live alone in a flat for my studies. I am scared that, without anyong reassuring me, without imposed meals and help, I will break out and eat nothing, having to start on square one again.

If you can help me, in anyway, if you have an idea of what I could do, please, do tell me, as I am desesperate and scared of how I will manage all of this. (and thank you for reading this massive thing)

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Hi anon! I know it took me a few days to get to this, but I hope getting this all out helped you somewhat.

First of all, you don't lose your progress or waste anything when you relapse. I know it feels like it, because you spend so much time trying to get yourself out of a bad place, and put in so much work, and then you have to work hard to get out of the hole all over again. There's a lot of shame, frustration, and hopelessness wrapped up in that, I imagine. But you didn't forget what you learned while you were healing, did you? You can take up the journey again and resume learning. You are worth it, even if you have made mistakes and slipped up as so many of us have before. Beating yourself up and calling yourself disgusting won't help - you cannot hate yourself into a person you will love. Why not instead look at your body when it's suffering and treat it like you would a small child in distress? "You are really struggling! I had better take good care of you now." Same with your emotions when you are hating on yourself and your body. "You are having a very hard time! I'd better take good care of you."

I don't know what to tell you about the body image stuff because I honestly still struggle with it. I'd just continue telling yourself that it's healthy and good to grow and change. That you will not deprive your body of its natural journey out of hatred. Perhaps you can also prepare yourself some nutritious snacks and meals ahead of time, like bulk cooking, and set yourself phone reminders to eat that fit in with your day? Only you can hold yourself accountable to do this.

But it sounds like in order to address the impulse to restrict, you need to address the self-hatred and self-frustration you seem to want to cope with via restriction. If you can't do body positivity, maybe try body neutrality, but there's also the general frustration you frequently have toward yourself. How can you talk kindly to yourself, and guide yourself like you would a small and vulnerable child? You wouldn't speak to the child cruelly, even when the child made a mistake, right? You wouldn't fail to notice all the unique personality traits that make the child who they are. Their interests, hobbies, and unique self-care needs - you would make these things available to the child, wouldn't you? Perhaps you can incorporate these self-care activities into eating and make time to truly enjoy your food and your self-care activity, just unwinding if you're able to get some downtime during that meal and making it into something you look forward to every day, because you are spending quality time with yourself.

Perhaps you can find online or in-person support groups in your area. Do you have a therapist you can check in with about supporting your eating schedule? Who else can be in your support system? What can the people in your life, far and near, do to be supportive of your mental health?

No matter what, don't be too discouraged by struggles. That one meal you stress during because instead of getting to sit with yourself, you have to get work done while you eat today. The surprise invitation to go out and eat with friends when you haven't practiced that. The urge to relapse (so many of us feel it!)

Oh, and take yourself shopping if you need to. Go thrifting if money's tight, but allow yourself to buy new clothes that make you feel good if the old ones are triggering you. Remember, weight naturally fluctuates and if you lose or gain some you can get more clothes. It's so hard for me to let go of old clothes that no longer fit me, but giving yourself permission to get clothes that feel good for you is SO liberating even if it's really, really hard.

I hope this helps!

#ed cw #restriction cw #body image #ana cw #body description #weight mention #long post #advice #self care #healing #recovery is not linear

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enoughdonegone · 10 months

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Trauma symptom: rushing in the bathroom.

It's been a while since I've had jarring ptsd symptoms, but yesterday I did get a feeling while I was using the restroom : Hurry! Before he realizes you're in here!

I've learned to get myself through these, so I'm fine. But oof.

#unwelcome blast from the past #ptsd symptoms #emotional abuse #trauma #psychological abuse #spousal abuse #horrible memories #ptsd #cptsd #recovery #recovery is not linear #bathrooms never had a good lock

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