A nice walk this morning with my Step-Mum. My daughter really enjoyed it and was really smiley. I can really see her getting more confident around other people and it makes me feel good.
That I felt brave enough to make myself go into a food shop for the first time since early March 2020. It was kind of spur of the moment which is actually quite rare for me but sometimes it does happen like that when it comes to my Anxieties.
I didn’t redrive my route on the way home even though I was anxious and felt like I wanted to.
Having a nice time playing in the garden this afternoon.
Cooking us a lovely tea.
My husband has been out today so it’s been a nice evening having him back home.
Nothing has more potential of scaring you the most than your own mind. Because it knows. It knows every little thing about you. Your darkest desires, your deepest fears, your best kept secrets. There isn’t and never will be anything or anyone that knows you better. So it can conjure and concoct demons just for you out of your own personal hell. To bring to your the worst possible nightmares.…
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Mental illnesses can be extremely exhausting. So here's your reminder that it's ok to feel down, to feel sad, empty and to just want to scream it all out crying. You are loved, no matter what. And now go hydrate and feel your power, bestie. 'Cause once sad hours are over, it's bad bitch energy time 👑
😭😖💔I'M BREAKING DOWN AND CRYING AGAIN, LOOKING THROUGH XMAS PICTURES OF US, I MISS HER SO VERY MUCH, I THINK I'M HAVING AN EMOTIONAL AND MENTAL NERVOUS BREAKDOWN, I'M AT THE END OF MY ROPE WITH THIS...... 💔😖😭
So remember to help yourself, little by little, by...
• Getting a good night of rest / dedicating time to appropriate hours of sleep.
• Eating healthy meals, but also respecting your cravings (it’s okay to have them!)
• Keeping yourself clean, even if it is just having a shower and brushing your teeth! (It can help to boost your energy for the rest of the day!)
• Drinking water!!! But also being okay when you choose a more ‘unhealthy’ option!
• Going for a walk / spending time in nature.
• Engaging in acts of self-care. This can be a bath, skin-care / makeup, doing your nails, trying a small workout, whatever feels comforting for you!
• Spending time with a pet you love!
• Keeping your space tidy! (This can really help in making you feel relaxed)
• complimenting yourself!!! (You have a kind personality, you are a pleasure to be around, your body is perfectly made for you) Remind yourself that your ‘flaws’ are not all that you are!
• Surrounding yourself ONLY with the people who make you feel happy / appreciated / supported!
• Allowing yourself to take breaks from stressful situations in your life!
Remember that it’s okay to not feel like yourself, and go through a rough patch. It’s okay to not know who you are yet, and feel a little lost. It’s okay if all you did today was stay alive, and you are NOT in competition with anyone!
Take care of yourself, and respect the feelings of loved ones / strangers, today and every day ♡
I cooked yesterday and the smell of onions are still on my fingers, it’s really strange how you can never really get rid of anything no matter how hard you wash.
On another note I made kimchi jjigae yesterday, but the kimchi was not Korean and...I made too much, I ate two bowls of rice and I was so full yesterday god help me. But it was nice. My first attempt at making kimchi stew was quite nice and I was proud of myself, I scrapped the whole pot empty and I think I’ll be adding that into my book of dishes :)
Yes, this has been my accomplishment of the day hehe
Self-care is very important. Make sure to embrace yourself, make yourself some tea, wrap yourself in a blanket and do something you love. Watch a movie, read a book. Make sure to relax. Everything will be OK.
Ima start doing these since people seem to actually value mental health talks.
About a year ago I was scared to leave my house and couldn’t get a candy bar at the gas station without hyperventilating. Now I have flown home to see my mom twice in two months despite being horrified of flying. I still reward myself for challenging my anxiety, because it’s a form of maintenance, and slacking leads to more frequent relapse! (Sometimes relapse is inevitable though, don’t beat yourself up.)
Ofc you don’t always need to buy yourself a monstera for braving the grocery store -it can be as simple as saying “I’m a badass” and an acknowledging your achievement- but the more you praise yourself for overcoming obstacles the easier they’ll become to manage. It’s a slow process, I know, but wouldn’t it be fun if you actually started to look forward to the thing you were scared of because it means you get a treat? 😂
Here’s your friendly neighborhood novelist-in-the-making with an important reminder for all my fellow creatives: don’t let today’s downfalls drown your hope for tomorrow’s triumphs.
Am I the only one who can become blinded by temporary pain or disappointment that you’re ready to throw in the towel at a moment’s notice? Us artists do have a reputation for being dramatic, and I serve as no means of refuting that claim.
But just because our present supports the belief that we will never be more, be better, than we are today does not make it so. Tomorrow will bring new evidence with it, evidence that can open your eyes to possibilities you would never have had faith for the day before.
If you can’t write today? Believe you will tomorrow.
If you can’t draw today? Believe you will tomorrow.
If you can’t create today? Believe you will tomorrow.
And if tomorrow proves no different, rinse and repeat the process until you find yourself in celebration of what at last you have achieved. Achieve nothing? Then celebrate how at last you have become someone of unshakable belief.