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i cried in therapy AND enlightened my therapist on what fanfiction is. what a time to be alive.

#good times #therapy #therapy ftw #fanfiction #ao3 #writing #mental health

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OMITB update. For everyone struggling with an ed/ body image issues, here’s the content warning I wish I would have gotten:

There’s a massively triggering self-hatred scene in 3.09. Like, viscerally, painfully sad.

Not criticizing the show or anything, just saying I wish I had known in advance. Might not have watched in my current state of mind.

Take care of yourselves. Lots of love. I hate this shit. We can do this 💕

#written by someone who has therapy in less than 8h and cannot go to sleep now #take care of yourself #as best as you can #kindness #only murders in the building #omitb #omitb season 3 #ed recovery #is particularly exhausting these days

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damn the only murders in the building score really slaps

#only murders in the building #omitb #omitb season 3 #light and jaunty until it kicks you in the gut and breaks your heart

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Just so you all realize and see it in action:

This fic was finished in 2015 and the author hadn't had a comment since 2016. They appreciated the comment even though it was just emoji hearts, they were happy and surprised to receive love on their older fic.

Don't stop commenting just because it's an old piece or because you think you can't come up with something smart, witty or thoughtful to say.

Just say anything. Just put an emoji. Just let them know you appreciate their work.

#we live for this shit #fanfiction #ao3 #writing

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No body, no crime// Taylor Swift+Elite

Lu&Carla edition

I’m in a Taylor mood this weekend, so here’s a throwback to one of my fav entries in my TS/Elite collection!

Carla's eyes drifted out the window into the jet black night. Her chest ached as if she'd taken a hit with the hammer herself.

With a shaky exhale, she turned back to Guzman, whose right side of the face was covered in blood from where she had smashed in his forehead.

"I should have pushed her away. I should never have become Lu's friend, because that was how she got close to you. Through me."

Carla pressed her lips together. Come on. Don't stop now.

"She fell so hard for you almost immediately, I could tell, and I played into it. The double-dates, Polo and I and Lu and you… I thought it was fun. I encouraged her, because I didn't see it yet – you were my friend and I never believed you would be so cruel. And by the time I realized, it was too late. She was in too deep and she never managed to get out again. Maybe if I had been more insistent in college while you were broken up… But the second you stepped back into her life it was obvious she would be pulled under by your current again."

For a moment, the pain was so overwhelming that Carla thought about jumping overboard and sinking to the bottom of the sea. Then she looked at Guzman, who was fading fast.

She had let Lu down, and her best friend had died as a result. Carla was not going to do it again. She would stick to the plan and finish this.

#elite #fanfiction #taylor swift #evermore #no body no crime #lucrecia montesinos #carla roson #guzman nunier #lu x carla #lu x carla friendship #lu x guzman #in the worst way possible #this is not a happy story

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hey, tag this with a food people get really upset about you not liking

#cheese #only acceptable as a thin (!!!) layer on pizza and casseroles

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via x

#i’m sure this has made its way here but just in case #tumblr #(affectionate) #or is it??? #ttpd #taylor swift #john green #the tortured poets department #who’s afraid of little old me

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collection of posts for a very specific dynamic

#so koel x sharan damn #koel kalra #class netflix #class #sharan gujral

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via insta

YashKo when?? We deserve it 😭

#there’s always s2 #yashika x koel #yashko #yashika mehta #koel kalra #ayesha kanga #naina bhan #class #class netflix #cla$$ #class cast

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characters in their 30's and older exploring their sexuality and discovering themselves beyond their teens and twenties is so important and beautiful and worth telling

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everybody’s always on writing prompts like “what if there was a world where everyone had a timer ticking down to their death… but you met someone whose timer said infinity!” or “what if everyone had their cause of death tattooed across their forehead… but you met someone whose forehead said THE CREATURE!” Enough -

enough. stop with the shock value. there is no need to insert THE CREATURE; the benign concept of such a world is horrifying enough. not even in urgency, but just in banal, everyday interaction. imagine you meet someone and their timer says two years. not tomorrow, not urgently soon, but two years. enough to do quite a lot. they could fall in love in that time - could they get engaged? have a baby? you might otherwise get to know them, befriend them, but perhaps you opt not to, make a conscious choice not to invest in your own grief. what balancing act would every individual person have to participate in - I have ten years, is that long enough to be a good mother to children? is that long enough to secure a caretaker for my own mother? my wife will die a few months before me. my newborn’s timer reads nineteen years.

and cause of death. you interview for a job and emblazoned across the healthy, smiling face of the HR lady is MALNUTRITION. your country is prospering, safe, but every person you meet on the street from the babies to the old women read BOMB. BOMB. what kind of havoc would fate wreak on the world? what about the loss of privacy? how would that shape our notions of hope? idk man I think a lot of those ancient poems were right, and the fates are monsters. I’m interested by the framing of these ideas as trite horror tales when the premises themselves are so much more disturbing if simply taken to their logical ends

#damn #writing

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Where’s my skylight to sit under to listen to the rain while I play ttpd on repeat?

#having to listen to the rain hit my normal windows instead ugh #life truly is a struggle #i can’t work like this! #work being obsessing over each song while i take notes #ttpd #taylor swift #the tortured poets department

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beauty is a beast that roars

down on all fours

demanding more

#i‘m fine #i‘m fi #i‘m not fine #so damn accurate #taylor swift #the tortured poets department #ttpd #clara bow

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DANNA PAOLA ATARI (2024)

#danna paola #wicked throwback! #girl just looks good in green lol #atari #childstar #danna

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VICTORIA PEDRETTI as DANI CLAYTON THE HAUNTING OF BLY MANOR (2020)

#daniiiii #dani clayton #the haunting of bly manor

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As an answer to @carladuquette:

Mike Flanagan character draft

Rules are simple: pick your top 6 characters from the Flanaverse. Series only! If a character appears at different ages, specify which one you want on your team. Can be characters you love, love to hate, whatever. Ready? GO!

(There will be no Midnight Club-characters, because I haven't been able to bring myself to watch it since I know that the cancellation would frustrate me to no end, if I got myself engaged to it.)

This was way harder than I thought it would be! So many others would deserve to be here as well. If you haven't seen these shows and want to avoid spoilers, stop here.

But okay, here we go...

Riley Flynn (Zach Gilford, Midnight Mass)

It tells a lot that I saw Midnight Mass for the first time just this Easter, but I couldn't imagine anyone else getting the first place. Such an underrated character. He had such a sad backstory and a kind soul...he truly did his best and helped so many people when he had every possibility to be selfish. His relationship with Erin was very special too. I guess he got his happy ending in a way, but all the possible could've beens and fix-it-fics about him that I will probably never write haunt me.

2. Luke Crain (Oliver Jackson-Cohen, The Haunting Of Hill House)

I debated with myself for a long time, which Crain-twin I should put here, but Luke and his journey just moved me deeply. I'd like to write much more about him, but it would become an essay so I'll pass. It would be so inspiring to see Riley and him to have a conversation, now that I think about it. During my every single Flanagan deep-dive, I am awed how Oliver could play both Luke and Peter - such opposite characters - so believably. *standing ovation*

3. Hassan Shabazz (Rahul Kohli, Midnight Mass)

I had an eeny, meeny, miny, moe whether the third prize should go to him or Owen, but I had to pick this loving father and a wonderful sheriff. In this case, I can't even fully explain why, but he just managed to stand out from the middle of all these other fantastic characters in an unique way.

4. Verna (Carla Gugino, The Fall Of The House Of Usher)

I feel like I don't really even have to explain myself when it comes to this choice. Carla has always been talented and beyond, but she really exceeded herself in this role. In the wrong hands, this character could've become very corny and comical, but with her behind the wheel, there was no fear of that. I lost count how many times I got shivers, was lifting my jaw off the floor and crying while watching Verna. I almost wanted to include a gif of her and Arthur (since I love him too), but I thought it might be cheating, so...

5. Hannah Grose (T'Nia Miller, The Haunting Of Bly Manor)

Okay, listen... I love Dani and Jamie, both as a couple and as individuals, and their story is very bittersweet and heartbreaking. But when I think of Bly Manor, my mind always travels first to Hannah, her relationship with Owen and to episode 5. She is amazing and deserved the world. A little restaurant in Paris, with the love of her life... Gaah, even writing about it makes me tear up!

6. Tamerlane Usher (Samantha Sloyan, The Fall Of The House Of Usher)

I almost feel bad for not putting Lenore here, because she obviously was the purest one of the Ushers and didn't deserve what she got in the end. But I can't help being intrigued by Tammy and her complexity. Surely, she is far from perfect - quite a despicable human being, actually - but the episode centered around her made me feel a bit sorry and sympathetic towards her. She is my favorite Usher-sibling (Leo being a really close second) and belongs on this list. Samantha deserves way more recognition of all her roles, to be honest.

Phew, I did it! *victory dance*

Anyone can participate. Let's show appreciation to this marvelous saga, pretty please.

#yesss on riley #i did not see his ending coming and was so impressed with him #hannah 😭 #i so wanted to include her in my list but figured it shouldn’t just be bly characters lol #mike flanagan #midnight mass #the haunting of hill house #the fall of the house of usher #the haunting of bly manor #flanaverse

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reblog and put in the tags the weirdest or dumbest thing you’ve heard a healthcare worker say

(dont come for me, okay? this is coming from a healthcare worker)

#my gp calling my ed ‘subjective’ because my weight hasn’t fluctuated #your weight is fine so clearly your ed is all in your head! #never mind the unhealthy behaviors or thought spirals #eds are about weight only 🙃 #sarcasm off