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samwise1548 · 2 months

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Because I'm a silly goose and kinda obsessed with my own art rn (rare), I'm gonna share some process sketches and junk of the tmagp characters as I was figuring out designs. Nobody will see this but that's okay!! This is just for me anyways lol.

Gonna put it all under this cut cuz it is loooong.

These are kinda the first iterations of Sam and Alice once the actual show was released (I had drawn Sam before, with the trailer. These versions of Sam are more similar to my first few attempts at him.)

[ID: Two drawings of characters from The Magnus Protocol. The first one features Samama Khalid and Alice Dyre talking together. Alice is a trans woman with albinism. She's wearing a blue jacket and a red plaid skirt and yellow diamond earrings. Sam is a brown man wearing a black suit with a red collared shirt and a white tie.

The second drawing is only of Sam, looking confused at some papers as he walks. He's wearing a short sleeve shirt and baggy pants. \End ID]

Alice was always gonna have albinism. It just took a bit to figure out her clothes and actual silhouette. Sam, I had to redesign his hair on 5 separate occasions before I was satisfied.

And speaking of Sam... How about some close ups on his newest design!!!

[ID: A drawing of Sam Khalid. It is the same pose as the previous drawing, but the sketch has been altered and colored in. Where Sam had straight hair before, now it is curly and light brown. He has an earring on, and his outfit is now with a brown overshirt above it and a pair of red pants. He also has a beard now. \End ID]

I kid you not, I have like 4 pages of sketches in my sketchbook just on Sam Khalid. I love him so much <3 . I dunno what it was that made me change his hair to curly exactly, but I'm glad I did. He is now my corduroy boy ^^ .

Some things you might have missed or were not visible from the lineup drawing:

[ID: Two images of drawings done on paper.

The first image is of Sam Khalid drawn twice. The doodle on the left is a closeup of his face and curly hair. The second is of his outfit, similar to the one featured in the previous finished drawing. Between the two is a sketch of an earring design, with a red flower and green leaves. An arrow leading to it says "plant earring right"

The second image is of a tattoo design of some sort of house plant done in green marker. An arrow points to it and says "plant tattoo on left forearm." /End ID]

I know in my heart that Sam is a plant dad and no one can tell me otherwise u_u

... And lastly, Teddy, since he was not actually in the lineup. I do have some idea of his design, even before I started on the lineup. And I was so tempted to include him anyways! But the bit was too funny to compromise on. I promise I'll draw him later!!! For now, here's the innitial sketch I have of him:

[ID: A doodle of Teddy Vaughn from the Magnus Protocol. Teddy is a black man with short hair and a beard and moustache. His smile is being stifled slightly, like he's holding in a laugh. \End ID]

Not a lot to go on for him, I know lol. I'll get to it later dw. His story isn't over yet, I'm sure of it :)

#this is mainly about sam lol #hes just my special little boy!!!!! <333 #gwen im still not sold on to be honest. her design might change again idk #tmagp #the magnus protocol #samama khalid #teddy vaughn #alice dyre #my doodles #my art #long post

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starheirxero · 3 months

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yk. i mean. how much does KC actually need to look like Moon?? Like, from a "your worst flaws personified" perspective, KC looking like a twisted and monstrous version of Moon is extremely fun!! But I feel like during its "just some guy" arc, it doesn't really need to resemble Moon anymore, yk?

I always think a good moment for tsams characters like this is a moment where they realize they're allowed to build their own identity and not feel intrinsically tied to Sun and/or Moon. So, although I don't know what exactly KC would look like once it starts to build more of its own identity, I think it'd be cool if there was more changed to its silhouette n stuff that clearly sets it apart from Moon.

#xero says things #i had an olddd idea #about a 'dust sans-ification' of KC #where it would have a big scary cloak with a hood #and the hood did that 'shadows the entire face except the eyes' thing #and i still rlly like that idea!!#i just don't know if it's a vibe KC would want after his redemption #i am mainly mulling over this because i need to make a design for KC in IRD and its. hard LOL #idk tho i think i'm just kinds thinkin' about loud. shrug.#tsams #sams #killcode #sams killcode

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setyourfireonme · 2 years

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happy wincest wednesday! what's the fic that converted you to wincest? not necessarily the first you remember reading, but the first that impressed you and stayed with you all these years?

ooh ty, such a good question. and happy saturday, this clearly took me a while but believe it or not i cut out over half of this response lol. sorry in advance for the messiness of this answer <3

i have to say that since that was in 2014 (so the year after i started watching spn), i don't remember what fic really "converted" me (i do remember what finally made me find it compelling in-show: teasers from s10 the summer before it aired), or a fic that has stayed with me since that long ago (my memory is a black hole lol), but i always love a good excuse to go through my ao3 bookmarks and history, so let's see...

the first wincest fic that apparently impressed me the most back when i read it in late 2014 was sight lines by kissyn because it was, and i quote from my bookmarks, "the fic that made me want to use bookmarks". i reread it just now and while i wouldn't have called it an answer to this question before that, it might actually be one after all. and it still works, even when some of my preferences and views of what's IC and not have obviously changed since then. i guess that fic portrays that beginning for me quite well, it's a few months into me reading wincest fic and it shows how i had started reading fic for them, while sharing qualities with what i had read before (heed the tags lol). i was starting to get an idea of what i was looking for in s/d fic and their relationship in general, even if that fic wasn't it yet or now (but i contain multitudes,,,). i’ll let the beautiful opening paragraph speak for itself:

There's something eerie about driving into a small town just as real autumn twilight sets in, especially the kind of small towns you find in rural Appalachian territory. Tall pines loom in close over the winding roads and block all but the narrowest strip of overcast sky with their skinny grasping branches. Sweeping hills and valleys seem to tuck each village into its own isolated world. Impending darkness, already deep in the gaps between trees, makes claustrophobia threaten. Sam is used to long stretches of plains, where he can see on and on over yellow grass. Here, each curve in the road hides the next quarter mile. Gas stations and rundown liquor stores and intersections spring on them with no warning. ––

and i realised that these lines actually have stayed with me:

Sam has a theory that there are two types of people in the world. The first kind are regular people, like him and Dad and Mandy and Nancy the bartender, they're the sort that other people start to love over time. Not that the love is less powerful or real, but it's a growing thing, and it has to be nurtured, coaxed, earned, built into a lasting relationship brick by brick. They're the kind of people that not everyone is going to love, or even want to love. Then there are people like Dean and, Sam thinks, his mother. She must have been like Dean, else where did Dean get it from? They're the second type. People that go through life and everyone around can't help but fall a little bit in love with them. And it's not safe or good, it blows up fast and too often it dies just as quickly, but they barely know they're doing it and even if you recognize what's happening to you, you can't help falling anyway. And when they leave you behind, when you really did love them, that's how people like John Winchester happen.

i can't still really say that or any other fic made me be properly into wincest, it was a group effort with the show and tumblr (and this exploration into those beginnings has just left me more confused lol, this answer is me simplifying a lot), but it's probably the best early example? especially since while i did start reading sam/dean fics a few months earlier and there were some other formative and memorable fics from before, most were honestly pwps that IIRC i didn't read primarily for the sam and dean of it. the lines were blurry, but then another impactful "conversion" for me was maybe a year later when i found authors such as fleshflutter (forever <3 i wish i could link a specific fic but i just blanket bookmarked all of them) and candle_beck (although i never read that many fics from them until last year), who among others definitely left a mark. and then i took an almost four-year break from the fandom and had another ~conversion a year ago, which was especially important when it came to sam and dean's relationship for me. some things changed, some stayed the same...

i'd love to rec some All Time Favourites and give a clear answer so i'm still not satisfied with this, but there are so many deleted ones and ao3 history doesn't work like i'd want it to, not to mention lj... and the fics i read didn't maybe necessarily always reflect my thoughts about their relationship, which i now have a clearer and dearer idea of. and apparently i didn't even end up bookmarking that many sam/dean fics back then (it was one relationship among others for me but also i had some struggles finding fic among all the [redacted] that i came across)? also i could be misremembering everything here lol. anyway @ past me please start bookmarking more fics and also start doing it earlier thanks. this isn't probably the answer you were looking for, more just me pondering than talking about specific fics, but maybe it's something :)

#IDK #let's ramble some more because this made me think #the reason why i wasn't that into wincest at first was 1) i binged the show and while i liked their relationship the blogs i followed were #mainly of the dean and cas variety so that was what i started shipping (also maybe dean/benny since s8 was airing etc.)?#and 2) i didn't 'ship' sam with anyone because of prev and other reasons plus more uh superficial ones (not the case anymore lol)#but then something flipped in my brain and i started seeing it myself (after wondering about it but just not caring that much yet? maybe?)#2014 was apparently when i started actually thinking about the show more #also i started reading john/dean before sam/dean but i can't remember if the sam/dean was connected and if there's a specific fic #asks

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kuiinncedes · 2 years

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this . GUUUYYYYYY FI NAAL LY --

#this is stuck in my head rn lnfjdgdkg like mainly this part but #WHAT I WANT THE FRIEND I NEED #just . FRIENDS NOOOO CHEMISTRY #yes the american version :) lol #bc the sam pauIy version :D #her 'this . GUUUUYYYYY'#yeah #also i blame the video sam posted yesterday or something of kiersten singing this part #for this being stuck in my head rn XD #it was so funny no one knows what i'm talking about lol #competely unrelated i'm going to campus this weekend and seeing a friend yayyyyyy #and then it's my birthday slfhgdjgfk for which i will be doing . nothing lmao #this . GUUYYYYYY ok stop lmfao anyway #jeanne screaming lyrics #is what i'm counting this as i guess XD

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blues824 · 10 months

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Can I have headcanons about how Malleus would react when he tried ice cream cake (a combination of both his favorite and least favorite foods), fried ice cream and gelato for the first time, especially during his birthday? Bonus points if he compared ice cream and gelato and tasted both of them just to see which one he likes better.

Gender-neutral reader.

Malleus Draconia

When you invited him to Ramshackle so he could taste-test a few different things for his birthday, he was very excited to do so. You said that you had ice cream, and he loved both of those things: his Child of Man, and ice cream. He actually wasn’t patient enough to go there normally, and actually teleported to your dorm in pure excitement.

However, the ice cream came in a plot twist: it was in different forms!

The first thing you had him try was ice cream cake. It was a bit hard to get him to agree to try it, as he didn’t like cake, but you promised that he only needed to have a small slice and that he needed to try all three layers. He decided that it wasn’t a full cake, and thus he had no need to worry. Plus, you were holding the fork up to his mouth, so if he was being fed by his beloved, it wouldn’t be so bad.

He actually quite enjoyed it. It was a two-layered chocolate cake with ice cream for the filling, and he actually wanted another bite. After all, it wasn’t eating a whole cake if you were sharing it with your beloved. However, his feelings kind of soured when he learned that you had baked the cake with Trey Clover. You’ll have to excuse him: his draconic instincts make him a bit… possessive.

Anyways, the next thing to try was fried ice cream. At first it didn’t make sense, but you told him how exactly you did it and it started to click for him. However, since he had the first bite of the ice cream cake, he deemed it your turn to have the first bite of the fried ice cream, so you did. It was definitely very sweet but also very crunchy, and you held the fork to his mouth again and he took a bite.

Malleus ended up liking it better than the ice cream cake, mainly because it was topped with whipped cream and a cherry. He did that thing where he took the cherry stem and tied it in his mouth, making you a bit flustered. He told you that growing up in isolation had him learning many different tricks, and tying cherry stems with his tongue was one of them.

Up next was what looked like normal ice cream. You said it was called gelato, and he made a note to research about it later. Anyways, it was thicker than the ice cream his retainers would get at Sam’s shop. You held a spoonful up to him, and he took a bite. Bro immediately fell in love with the gelato. It was his favorite that he tried that day.

You found the look of joy on his face absolutely adorable as he gently took the spoon from you and scooped up some, and brought it to your lips this time. You took a bite, and you accidentally bit into it. You shivered and when he asked what was wrong you told him that your teeth were sensitive to the cold (so are mine lol) and you bit into the frozen dessert. He let out a laugh before continuing to dig in.

You then asked if he liked gelato or ice cream better, and he declared that gelato was his favorite over ordinary ice cream. He asked, like a very happy little boy rather than the future king of Briar Valley, if he could have some more and you nodded your head with a smile. You then told him that it would be at his birthday party that you were planning for him, and he grew even more excited.

#twst #twst x reader #twst wonderland #disney twst #disney twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #twisted wonderland #malleus #malleus draconia #malleus x reader #malleus draconia x reader #twst malleus #twst malleus draconia x reader #twst malleus draconia #twst malleus x reader

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bhpop · 4 months

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So I'm working on a Deuce version of how the characters first reacted to seeing Eyeless-Yuu. {Might take a while since I can get pretty lazy ngl lol.}

So we all know Ace is a jerk right? {Our little jerk} Well he's a bit insensitive and obviously a jerk when he met Eyeless-Yuu after the ceremony. {This is when In-game Yuu and Grim were at the statues}

{This is mainly if y'all want Eyeless-Yuu having romantic interactions/relationships with the boys [except the staff, Ortho, and Grim] or platonic ones I don't mind.}

In case you can't see it well, for the first one he's saying "Oh your the eyeless weirdo from the ceremony...geeze your freakier up-front.", for the second one after getting to know Eyeless-Yuu he says "Even if you can't see me, I'm always happy to see you...".

So yeah Ace is a jerk towards Eyeless-Yuu {not physically but he's pretty snarky with them at first}, but he warms up to Yuu and offers to be their eyes when walking to class or down/up the stairs {he holds their hand or gives them piggy back rides so they won't get hurt}. You know when Riddle insulted In-game Yuu, I don't doubt Ace would have also punched him for saying something about Eyeless-Yuu's vulnerable state and past. {Riddle wouldn't take it too far but he'd still be mean about it, he cringes at himself in shame when he randomly remembers what he said after redeeming himself after Chapter 1}

Bonus: So when Eyeless-Yuu needs help down/up stairs there are those who will hold their hand or carry them.

Will hold their hand:

Riddle, Carter, Ace, Jade, Azul, Vil, Epel, Ortho, Idia, Silver, Lilia, Kalim {edit lol}

{Staff: Crewel, Sam, Trein}

Will carry them {bridal style}:

Trey, Deuce, Leona {no arguing he's carrying Eyeless-Yuu}, Ruggie, Jack {he's a gentleman}, Floyd {hes pretty bold}, Jamil {edited}, Rook, Sebek, Malleus

{Staff: Crowley {he's generous and feels too bad for Eyeless-Yuu}, Vargas {he ain't putting them down till they make up to the very top/bottom}

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jackfrombaskinrobbins · 1 year

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road trip as a teenage avenger headcanons!

type of writing: headcanons / scenario

word count: 1k

request: yes / no

dynamic: avengers x teen!reader (teenage avenger series)

characters: lots ofc but i'd say big emphasis on reader (duh), harley keener, peter parker, miles morales, scott lang, clint barton, bucky barnes, sam wilson, tony stark, happy hogan, natasha romanoff, and bruce banner. more are prob in it but i don't wanna type it all out lol

a/n: y'all i think my pictures are getting more chaotic & tbh i think it's a good thing anyways requests are still open, send in an ask whenever :)

taglist: @nutellani @thecloudedmind

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it was an annual tradition for the avengers to go on a road trip.

steve always said it was "team bonding". it was honestly kind of fun.

better than the other "team bonding" you did, which mainly consisted of running long distances!!

anyways, they usually would do it soon after you, harley, peter, and miles finished school (also yes im including miles now bc i love him)

tony would come over the intercom while you all were lounging around and tell you to pack your bags.

packing is always a big issue.

let's just say that SOME people are big overpackers...

COUGH scott COUGH

no offense to him but like ppl have had to sit in the trunk before because of him

and he overpacks with stuff that rly doesn’t make sense

like once y’all went to colorado

and he packed snorkeling equipment

and so you were like “scott. seriously?”

and he looked at you with such a serious face

“y/n. what if all the snow melts? then we would be underwater!! i have an extra snorkeling mask too. i was gonna give it to you, but now idk….”

HAHA

bruce overpacks too

but he overpacks in a good way

guys bruce is like the mom on vacation

well him and tony both

you’d think steve would be but he is NOT

like the man doesn’t even wear sunscreen

and then here comes bruce with a tote bag full of snacks

which tony eats half of by the way

smh

the best part of having thor on a trip is that he will ALWAYS pick you up if you’re too tired

like once he had you and peter under both his arms like footballs bc u got tired

and clint was sad bc he was tired too

he tried to get scott to pick him up but scott wasn’t ready and they both fell and they like hit their heads

that was an interesting day

ok so setting the scene again

you, peter, harley, miles, natasha and bruce were in the middle of a very competitive round of uno

like y’all

competitive doesn’t even begin to cover it

anyways you were about to get uno

you put down your card and suddenly

“HEY EVERYBODY” “SHHH you’re being too loud” “ohh sorry HEY EVERYBODY”

you started laughing at the quite obvious blunders of thor and clint in the intercom room

“thor, buddy? you don’t need to be kissing the mic when you speak, alright?”

tony, from another room, always quick with the jabs.

“AH! MY BAD STARK. HAHA! THIS MUST BE BETTER”

natasha just shook her head but you and peter, harley and miles were DYING

“ANYWAYS IT IS ROAD TRIP TIME. EVERYONE PACK UP AND BE IN THE FAMILY ROOM IN TEN MINUTES… what? MY MISTAKE. ONE HOUR. THAT’S RIGHT ONE HOUR.”

with that done, you all got up, groaning.

“uno.” natasha smirked at you, noticing that you only had one card.

“darn it!!!” you said. “well, doesn’t matter now. we have to go anyways.”

“we can always resume it later, y/n :) “

“fine, nat. but i’m going to win this time!! right bruce??”

“well, kid, you know i’m usually on your side, but…”

“aw, come on!!”

ok fast forward.

you were in the family room

aw guys isn’t that cute that they call it a family room

bc ur a family

awwwwww

ok anyway

and here comes scott with his fifty bags

“relax sharpay, we’re not gonna be gone for THAT long”

guys i wanted a cool tony nickname and tbh i just remember vaguely that sharpay had like suitcases on the cover of her movie i never even watched it so i could be wrong but that was my intention

“tony, these are my essentials.”

“scott, why don’t you just shrink that down? like seriously, man.” miles remarked, and you couldn’t help but agree.

“hey, y’know what? that’s a great idea miles!!”

and so he ended up shrinking his luggage

but then he couldn’t find it

oh scott

sigh

anyways tony and happy did a lot of car assignment work

to make sure everyone would get there safely

and your car

was

drum roll please

ok also this was only for the trip there

the trip back would be different

ok the car was

tony, happy, clint and peter

tbh this was not a bad car at all

poor miles and harley were stuck with scott, bucky, sam and steve

natasha and wanda and pietro and thor were the other one

although here’s the issue

guys

tony is a bad driver

but happy didn’t feel like driving

and u were just starting to drive so clint was like “NO WAY do i trust y/n in a car!!!”

that goofy clown fr

so tony was driving

oh and btw y’all were going to the compound

tony told you and you were like

“dude, that’s not a road trip”

and he was like “we’re in the car for more than an hour. it’s a road trip, kid.”

and miles and harley kept texting like theorizing about where u were going

harley said europe

and you were like

harley

anyways ya

so tony is like swerving and speeding everywhere

ok maybe thats dramatic

but happy was holding the little bar

and he was like yelling at tony to slow down

meanwhile clint is just singing along to the music thats BLASTING

and u and peter are ready to accept ur deaths

like u literally texted sam a video of what was happening and he almost called happy to tell him to pull over 😭

sam’s got ur back thats for sure!!

anyways tony pulled into a drive thru

bc he needed coffee

guys hes tony stark he needs stuff like that

and he got u and peter and clint happy meals :D

and clint was so excited like 💀

love him

happy made sure u and peter had ur seatbelts on

he said it was bc he didn’t want to have to explain to midtown why yall didnt come back for the next year 😭

that and “too much paperwork”

smh

anyways tony finally got it together

u and peter decided that he just needed an acoustic song on the radio bc as soon as something more relaxing came on he was a lot better lol

the rest of the drive was pretty alright

i'm gonna do another headcanon set about the avengers actually on vacation but yeah there ya go :)

thats how the road trips work yahoo

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molotovgirl45 · 3 months

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Sebastian x Reader headcanons ( Zuzu city edition )

Summary: How Sebastian from Stardew would act when taking you on a trip to Zuzu city!

I hope you guys enjoy!! <3

Sebastian really wanted to go on a visit, but wasn't very sure with how you'd react.

Of course he only wanted to go if you went, though.

If you said yes, he would get you two a room or two ( depending on whether or not your relationship is platonic ) at a nice hotel.

Then when you two were ready, he'd buy you a helmet and bring you there on his motorcycle. He gotta make sure you don't die on the way there ofc

When you two went to go shopping, although he doesn't really know what he's doing, he'll try and give feedback on clothes if you ask him to.

When he's buying his stuff, he's a little shy about it since he mainly just wants to go to hot topic lol

You can tease him a little bit, but be nice for the poor boy 🥺

If you like hot topic too, he'll totally geek out.

Youll just have the best time, and you guys will just be coming back home with so many bags of stuff from there.

He'll be so happy to finally be able to talk about this stuff with someone since Sam isn't really interested in it and Abigail isn't *that* gothy.

Sebastian probably won't take you out on anything fancy unless you really want to.

Hes more of a takeout, then netflix and chill guy

Like you guys will go get Chinese then binge a bunch of movies together.

#stardew sebastian #stardew valley #fluff #headcanon #sdv #sdv sebastian #sebastian sdv x reader #sebastian stardew valley #stardew farmer #stardew sebastian x reader

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paletigers · 11 months

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Some Stardew Valley redesigns/reimaginings!! these pics were about a week apart from one another so theyre in two different styles lol

some explainations below the cut!

For Context: A lot of these headcanons are based off of my own personal lived experiences! They're also just my preferences for their characters in general. I have only romanced Sebastian in-game but looked at Alex's Wiki page for context on the background for his character. I don't really know much about him canon wise, I've only read fanfics with him in it LOL ANWAY!

Sebastian: -25 yrs old + Transman + Gay/MLM -I really liked how he had a motorcycle in-game but thought that there wasn't much to say about it, so I wanted to make it apart of his core as a character! He's a sport motorcyclist as a hobby. He loves high speed racing.

-He's still a programmer, but he's now a Game designer! This is mainly because my lovely boyfriend is a game designer irl and he's like my muse and I love cramming his traits into my favorite characters.

-He plays bass istead of keyboard in Sam's band. I dunno, I think keyboard is fun and all (i actually own two keyboards and played piano in hs) but like. cmon. Bass would suit him so much better.

-I gave him a battle jacket he wears over his normal hoodie. I feel like he has a couple of these from over the years that are DIY with his ever growing music taste. Battle jackets are such a staple in the alt music scene I felt like its a crime he doesn't have one in game. Sebastian you would love battle jackets.

-His motorcycle is a sportsbike instead of a standard/chopper. His helmet also resembles a cat, but definitely not on purpose! Definitely not.

-He has a LOT of scars. Some self inflicted (but he's recovering), others from surgery! He has top surgery scars designed to resemble spider webs, a phaloplasty skin graft scar on his left arm, and gnarly huge scars on his ribs down to his legs.

-He suffered a motorcycle accident resulting in his bike being damaged as well as giving him a limp. He's constantly fixing up his bike since then, wanting to ensure another wipe out won't happen again and that his bike is reall okay to ride again.

-HIS PIERCINNGNSSSSS he has a shit ton of piercings! Not shown, he has a Jacob's ladder piercing. :3c

-His personality doesn't really change much from in-game. I'd personally prefer if he was less bitchy and more just a rarely speaking type. The kind to keep his comments to himself. Bitching about your step sibling and your step dad gets stale, bro

Alex: (Sorry to any alex fans, I changed him a LOT)

-27 + Cismale + Closeted Bisexual

-An ex-pro hockey player (goalie). I don't really care for "gridball" since it's just a couple of sports mixed together (from my understanding) so I decided to just give him a real world sport to play. Plus, hockey just kind of suits him for some reason?? I dunno

-Moved back to Pelican town after the news of his Mother's condition worsening and his Father jumping ship. In my version, he got recruited straight out of highschool to go pro for hockey. He had reservations about leaving his Mother with his Dad, but decided it was the best solution to the shitty situation. This way, he'd have more money to help her medical costs since his Dad's insurance was shitty anyway. A few years go by with constant health updates from his Grandparents, when one day his Dad just calls it quits on caregiving, deciding he doesn't want to waste his life away caring for his wife, and leaves. Without physical support from his Father to help around the house and help his Mother, Alex makes the choice to move back home and become his Mother's caregiver. He struggles with the emotional weight of this job ontop of how extremely demanding it is, but does his best for his Mother. She dies, and now he's taking care of his Grandparents. -I really wanted him to be a caregiver to his grandparents because my family were caregivers to both my Mother and my Father's parents LOL we spent all 23 years of my life taking care of them, so i thought it would be fun to think about. I imagine Evelyn and George to be my grandparents and constantly give them their favorite gifts in-game. (mainly george. i love him) (hes not homophobic hes just OLD and STUPID i LOVE HIM !!!!!!)

-Alex is constantly worried he won't be the same after caregiving for this long. He's worried he won't be able to go back to pro-hockey without reliving the stress of his mother's death. He's been having trouble keeping asleep at night, often waking up every few hours and being completely restless. He'll decompress at the sauna at unbearable hours of the night just because he can't sleep.

-He's the town helper! I thought it would be cute if he's the guy the town usually went to if they needed serious physical help with something, like setting up festival decorations, fixing fenceposts, shit like that. He loves helping out the town and INSISTS sometimes to be the one to fix a problem. When the farmer first comes into town and starts being the more dependable one, he starts feeling hopeless and easily emotionally distant. It's hard being the one everyone depended on to suddenly not being needed anymore. (It's not all entirely in his head, but he gets really worked up sometimes about feeling useless)

-Still an arrogant little shit! Instead of dreams of stardom, it's kind of a "washed up" celebrity kind of arrogance. He thinks he's hot shit because he travelled the world playing games for a couple of years. This backfires in his face, he'll sometimes sit for too long on his "glory days" and spiral, getting depressed about not playing anymore and his role as a caregiver despite loving his grandparents immensely.

-This headcanon is just silly but i think he likes to fish. He's so arrogant that he thinks hes amazing at it but fish rarely bite his line and when they do, they drag him into the river or sand at the beach. It's even more embarrassing because he thinks he's fine and continues to fish despite having sand and dirt all over himself.

-He's covered in moles! I also gave him freckles in places where his skin sees the most sun. (He's also got chest hair bc yall know i love hair on a man LMAO)

anyway. Long post! My bad. I was thinking of writing some Stardew Valley fanfics while working on some other stuff bc I want to explore my versions of Alex and Seb, and also maybe they explore each others bodies???? Let me know if that's something you'd guys like to read/offer up suggestions!!!

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thehollowwriter · 2 months

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The Official Bio of Cosme Da Costa

Basic Info:

Name: Cosme Da Costa

Homeland: Seas of the Shaftlands

Species: Portuguese Man O'War (jellyfish/bluebottle)

Birthday: March 10th

Age: 32

Height: 190cm in human form, in his mer form he's about... 300cm (most of the length is his tentacles)

Dominant hand: Right

Occupation: NRC's head of discipline, he also teaches astrology, NRC alumnus

Unique magic: No name yet, but the basic idea is that he can paralyse just about anyone until he decides to let them go

Family:

•Unnamed siblings

•Unnamed parents

•Unnamed niece

Possibly dating Crewel??? (This out of place addition was brought to you by Cater Diamond, aka NRC's resident rumour mill)

Preferences:

Hobbies: Playing guitar, stargazing

Likes: Making lanterns, mapping constellations, fashion, Crewel (goddamn it Cater stop it), reading, the stars

Dislikes: Rule breakers, Riddle (ironically enough), cloudy nights, rain

Favourite food: Sushi

Least favourite food: Unagi

Appearance:

Cosme is tall and thin, almost noodle-y, with dark skin and dark blue eyes. His hair is purple, white, and blue and is short and slicked back. He's got fangies :)

In his mer form, he does not have a tail but extremely long tentacles that are blue, white, and purple and do, in fact, paralyse you just like his UM, but the effects are temporary and he does not control them. His skin is dark blue, and his fins are purple. He has claws as well.

What his hair looks like (just pretend it's short, though maybe it was long when he was a student?)

Personality:

Still in development, but my basic idea is that he's a guy that seems very serious, but he's actually pretty chill (at least he likes to say he is but he has a short temper lol) and he mainly wants what's best for the students of Night Raven, which is why he took his position in the first place. He is very wise and creative and thinks of unusual solutions to problems students come to him with. He's stone cold and vicious when he wants to be (especially of something that's happened puts people in danger) and is very unlikely to feel sorry for the students he punishes.

Some Fun Facts/Extra Info:

•He's Portuguese, I'm not sure what the twst equivalent is, though?

•When he gets really mad or emotional, he starts swearing or just talking in Portuguese

•He finds Riddle incredibly annoying, I'm sorry. He even wanted him to have his position taken away because of how ridiculous he was. Like, yes, it's good that Riddle takes rules seriously, but seven damn it most of the rules Riddle takes so seriously don't even make sense. Wants to yell at him to stop reporting/punishing students for breaking Queen of Hearts rule number who-really-gives-a-

•He takes great interest in Finn's paintings

•Found it amusing when students came to him complaining about Azul's contracts

•He's friends with Sam

•He does not like Vargas

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A/N: New oc! Tbh I got the idea for him and my other oc while watching Blue Planet 2 in bio lmao

Tagging: @distant-velleity @krenenbaker @cyanide-latte @ramshacklerumble @kitwasnothere @the-banana-0verlord @officialdaydreamer00 @theleechyskrunkly @elenauaurs @jovieinramshackle @boopshoops @oya-oya-okay @whspermy-name @cynthinesia @elysia-nsimp @br3adtoasty @quartztwst @skrimpyskimpy

@the-trinket-witch @ghostiidasponk

#cosme da costa #riddle rosehearts #heartslabyul #finn clearcove #azul ashengrotto #octavinelle #twisted wonderland #twst oc

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conspiracy-crows · 4 months

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Round robin fic writing is the best.

Specifically with one of my besties!!

We're working on a dcxdp fic, ghost king Danny and Jazz are on vacation! They have been working very hard for several centuries cleaning up Pryah's messes, they deserve a break!

Where do they go? Gotham, because even if he already has a couple degrees Danny can't actually use them here, and Gotham U has some great engineering and astronomy/astrophysics degrees! A human lifespan(minus the child bits) Isn't too long for a vacation! He wants to work on space stuff! he didn't get to last time!

And we're just bouncing off each other so much it's great!

We've decided that Constantine flirts with pretty much all the Fenton siblings, although Ellie is the only one that really responds much. Danny and him don't meet much and Danny makes jokes out of most stuff (There's ethical concerns, he owns like, as solid 2/3's of John's soul!) and Jazz just, ignores it. Not her type thank you!

Lady G and Danny teaming up to help Red Hood with his corrupt ecto situation, and maybe Jazz can help him find a good therapist because not all of that is the pits my dude. (possible Dead On Main, with a side of Dick/Jazz)

I kinda wanna talk about having Sam and Tuck visit at some point. Mainly cuz we've decided that Sam has been working on a personal project in the Realms for a while, and I kinda wanna make it the Green, and I want her to call Poison Ivy "one of her babies!" the way Ivy calls her plants her babies, yknow? Meanwhile Tuck and Technus have been just, on a tear updating and creating new Realms Tech and code and stuff.

Totally gonna see if I can convince my buddy to either let me post it(and add her as a co-author) or get her to post it when we get to a point where we have more than a couple pages of slightly disjointed scenes lol.

#fanfic #round robin fic #dc x dp #dpxdc #danny phantom #batfam #jazz fenton #jason todd

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mamaestapa · 11 months

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•pairing: Joe Burrow x reader

•series summary: Y/n Hubbard, the younger sister of Cincinnati Bengals Defensive End Sam Hubbard, finds herself in a difficult situation after a steamy hookup with her brothers best friend, who just so happens to be the quarterback for the Bengals. In just nine months their lives will be changed forever. How will Y/n and Joe manage to to go through parenthood together? more so, how will Sam take the news he is going to be the uncle of his best friends baby?

•chapter summary: A couple weeks have passed and you’re still feeling under the weather. You decide to take a test and the results leave you questioning everything…

•word count: 1.6k

•warnings: Pregnancy, language, pregnancy tests, mentions of unprotected sex, birth control, mornings sickness (pretty much all of the pregnancy symptoms) slight fluff and angst

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January 14, 2023

4 weeks pregnant

2 weeks.

2 weeks had passed and you still hadn’t gotten your period. You tried to stay calm as your thoughts ran wild. You had no idea what you would even do if you were pregnant. You live in a one bedroom apartment, you have a very busy schedule, you’re only 24, and hell, you’re not even in a relationship with the baby daddy! Well, he'll only be the baby daddy if you are pregnant, which is really looking to be the case.

Oh god. The baby daddy, Joe. What would you tell Joe!? How would you even tell Joe!? And then there’s the whole situation with telling Sam. If you are pregnant with Joes baby, how would you tell Sam!? You can’t just say: “Hey Sam, I slept with your best friend and surprise, he knocked me up!” You started to panic, regretting everything from that one steamy night that ensued between the two of you. it felt so right in the moment—and even the morning after. But right now? Boy did it feel so wrong.

Y/n, calm down. You don't even know that you're pregnant yet! You thought to yourself, trying to ease your worries that you just knew were going to be true. You sat on your bed and pulled out your phone, deciding to seek advice from someone who is going through your exact dilemma. Okay… maybe not exact, but she is currently pregnant, so maybe she could help you out.

You- Hey emma. Do you have a second?

Emma-Oh, hey Y/n! Always, what’s up?

You- Well, I won't give any details...yet. It’s kind of personal, but I could use your help.

Emma- Everything OK?

You- I don’t know yet. I need to know, what were your earliest pregnancy symptoms?

Emma- My earliest pregnancy symptoms? Why do you need to know that?😂

You- because I just do. What were they?

Emma- Omg?! Y/n, are you pregnant?

You- I don't know! That’s why I’m asking you about your symptoms so I can evaluate myself lol

Emma- This is crazy. Who’s the baby daddy!? I’m so excited. Does Sam know!?

You- As much as I would like to tell you, that is classified information. And no, Sam doesn’t know. I don’t usually discuss my pregnancy scares with him.

Emma- Makes sense. Well, my earliest symptom was definitely feeling super tired. I always had a metallic taste in my mouth too. I also got really horny over everything Sam did. I just looked at him like he was a big slice of cheesecake😍

You-Oooh, I could go for cheesecake right now

Emma- Me too👅😏

You- Ew, that’s my brother you’re talking about. But i don't have any of those symptoms, except maybe the tiredness.

Emma- Well, what are your symptoms then, babe? maybe I can let you know based on those?

You- Nausea, vomiting(mainly in the morning), sore boobs, being grossed out by certain smells. I hate coffee now and I swear my hearing has changed.

Emma- Awe Y/n, go buy a pregnancy test right now. you're definitely pregnant.

You- Seriously?! You think so?

Emma- Girl. Sore boobs, the morning sickness, being grossed out by certain smells. There is definitely a bun in your oven, honey.

Your heart dropped and a pit formed in your stomach as you read her text. Tears began to well up in your eyes as you grew overwhelmed by the emotions you were currently experiencing. There’s only one way to be sure. You need to take a test.

You-Oh god...I guess I’ll go take a test. i'll keep you updated. Thank you for helping me, Em. love you!

Emma-Of course! Hey, good luck okay? No matter what the results are, I’m always here for you, got it? So are the other girls. love you!❤️

With that, you turned your phone off and let out a shaky sigh of defeat. Time to go buy a test and pee on a stick that’ll change your life forever—for better or for worse.

~time skip~

You quickly opened the door to your apartment. You made your way to the bathroom. shutting and locking the door once you were inside. You placed the plastic grocery bag from Walgreens on the countertop. Here goes nothing…

You took a deep breath as you opened the bag and took out two different types of pregnancy tests. One Clear Blue digital test and the other, a First Response test. You’ve seen advertisements for both and we’re unsure which one was more effective, so you decided to buy both. Taking multiple tests won’t hurt. You opened up the containers that held the tests with shaky hands. You’ve only ever experienced a pregnancy scare one other time before this. But this time felt much different than the first. Because there’s a chance you could actually be pregnant. Your eyes scanned over the directions. You slightly laughed to yourself at the step-by-step directions provided by the pregnancy test companies. You pee on a stick—it's pretty idiot proof. What a way to find out you're bringing a little bundle of joy into the world, huh? Who knew peeing on one little white stick could bring you the best or worst news you’ll ever receive. Although you’re extremely nervous for the results, you do know one thing. Even if the test is positive, as much as it would be a shock and certainly unplanned, this baby would be so, so loved.

You didn't feel like making a mess, so you decided it would be best to do your business in a small cup. However, the clean dishes you had only had in your kitchen were wine glasses. So you decided, fuck it, you’ll just pee in a wine glass. Which is exactly what you did.

After successfully peeing in the wine glass, you set it on the counter and dipped the tests in there for about eight seconds. You didn’t really know how long you were supposed to dip the tests, but you figure if you’re pregnant it won’t matter anyways since the test will detect it right away. You put the caps on both tests and flipped them over. You didn’t want to see the results right away. You set a timer for three minutes and waited anxiously, chewing at your bottom lip as soon as the timer started to tick down. As you waited for the results, you slightly hoped the tests would be negative. You were so worried about what you would do if they come out positive. Of course you would keep the baby, but you absolutely are not ready to be a mother yet. Your nerves were currently through the roof as you paved back in forth in your bathroom, waiting for the test results that held your fate. You decided to text Emma to ease the nerves.

You- Hey! I just took a couple tests. I have about two minutes left on the timer and I’m so nervous right now. How did you do this, Em?😂

Emma- Awe, Y/n. Well, I was prepared for the results, and I had Sam there as support. If I was in your situation though, I would've been a nervous wreck. But you'll be fine! Promise.

You- Yeah, that’s true. Thank you for the reassurance<3

Emma- Of course. Good luck!

You shut your phone off and the timer went off about 10 seconds after your screen went dark. Your heart rate quickened, the palpitations making you feel like your heart was going a mile a minute. Your hands got clamy and your tummy churned with nervous butterflies. Inhaling a deep breath, you spoke to no one in particular—just yourself. "Okay, Y/n. If this is positive, it's going to be OK. This baby will be loved no matter what. You have a huge support system, and even if Joe decides he doesn't want anything to do with you or the baby, it will be fine."

"Here it goes..." you murmured, getting ready to flip over the tests sitting face down on the bathroom counter. Your hands shook as you turned over the Clear Blue test first. Your worried eyes scanned the white and blue stick. Your heart dropped as you read the results, tears immediately welling up in your eyes. You picked up the test and put a hand up to your mouth in disbelief.

Pregnant 3+

You held the Clear Blue test in one hand as you flipped over the First Response test. Two dark and distinct pink lines had developed on the previously all white circle in the middle of the test.

You’re pregnant.

You picked up both of the tests, holding them in my hands as you choked out a sob.

"Oh my god...there's no way." You set the tests down, thinking hard about how this was even possible. Yeah you and Joe had unprotected sex, but on birth control, how could this happen!?

You mentally scolded yourself in the moment. You know brith control isn’t 100% effective.

You set the pregnancy test on the counter and n swiftly walked out of the bathroom. You grabbed your package of birth control pills that sat on the nightstand. You examined the pack. No missed pills. Until you saw it. There it was, staring back at you, sitting on your nightstand, a small yellow pill. You smacked your forehead, remembering when you missed a dosage a few weeks back. You told yourself you would take it the next day, but you never did. You sat down on the bed and hunched over. Resting your head in your hands as sobs began to wreck your body. You could blame it on hormones, but you knew it really wasn't just from the pregnancy hormones.

The truth is, you were feeling scared and utterly alone. You didn't feel prepared to be a mother at all. You had no idea how you would break the news to Sam or your parents. And Joe, you don’t even want to think about he’s going to react to the news. Will he stay around or is your baby going to grow up without its daddy? It broke your heart just thinking about telling anyone, especially Joe, about your pregnancy.

You slowly lifted your head up and hastily wiped your wet, bloodshot eyes. You were so overwhelmed right now. As you sat on the bed, contemplating all of your decisions from the past month, you let your mind wander to your pregnancy. You let out a sigh as you stood up and walked over to your body mirror by your bed. Once you were in front of the mirror, you pulled up your shirt and examined your belly in the mirror. No bump yet. You placed your hand over your lower abdomen, gently stroking your soft skin with your thumb to let the little guy or girl know you knew about their existence in your womb.

"Hey baby...what are we gonna do?" You spoke softly,!voice cracking with emotion as you gazed at your still flat tummy. As you looked in the mirror, you couldn’t help but smile as you thought about all the milestones i'll get to experience in the next nine months. The cravings, the baby bump, the first kick, finding out the gender, decorating a nursery, labor and delivery. Part of you was so excited for this milestone in your life, but the other part of you was absolutely terrified.

You have no idea how you’ll break the news to Joe that he’s going to be a daddy. You just hope he reacts well…

hey loves!

so this chapter was a little short, but there was really no way to drag this one out any longer lol. the next chapter is much longer though :)

how do you think joe will react to the news? if you think he reacts in the best way possible…you may want to think again👀

i’m having so much fun with this series and i hope you are too! i’ll have a welcome to the jungle update out sometime this weekend or beginning of next week. i REALLY need to update that series, i sincerely apologize for the lack of of updating. i’ll make it up to all of you, i promise!

i hope you’re all doing well. as always, thank you for reading🤍

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#joe burrow #joe burrow x reader #joe burrow x y/n #joe burrow x you #daddy issues

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sleepanonymous · 5 months

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hello fellow worshipper ^^

so from most of II’s drum cams i’ve seen, you can barely hear Vessel’s vocals… like do you think that ever makes him sad? not being able to properly hear his pretty siren voice on stage? :(

ofc feel free to ignore, i’m just a curious dude :)

Heeey, thank you for the ask! And I’d never ignore you or anyone else (on purpose, but my object permanence is as bad as a newborn's, lol) 🖤🖤

So, I have two answers for you. My first answer is that, yes, II probably does feel some type of way about not hearing Vessel’s amazing live singing (or even the Vesselettes, or III and IV). It’s obvious he’s a fan of the music he writes with Vessel, and he gets really into it during certain songs like Atlantic, where pauses between the percussion parts exist. But if it makes you feel better, II absolutely loves what he does and fully kills it every time he goes on stage. I’m sure it’s a sacrifice he willingly makes.

My second answer is much more technical and would apply to any touring drummer/musician, not just Sleep Token, so I’m just gonna shove it under a cut to hide my nerdiness, lol (and also not to shatter anyone's illusion with how much planning and work goes into live performances).

What we hear in II’s live drum playthroughs and what II hears while playing is a lot different. Performing musicians wear unique earplugs/earphones called in-ear monitors (I’ll abbreviate them to IEMs). The IEMs have several purposes, mainly to protect musicians’ hearing and allow them to hear themselves and backtracks while performing over everything else during a concert (because concerts are loud, obviously lol). But the IEMs also enable the musicians to hear other things, like the stagehands/sound techs can speak to them, they’ll more often than not have a metronome going, and they may even have spoken cues like, “Verse Two in 4 3 2 1.”

I can guarantee that II has at least a metronome going during all of Sleep Token’s rituals. Since none of the band really speaks on stage (I don’t count III’s yelling), II also might have either Sam (his drum tech) or an automated voice telling him what song he’s playing next, along with a numbered countdown for the beginning of the song. II might even get in-the-moment verbal queues from Sam, or Sleep Token’s FOH, Thom.

This isn’t Sleep Token, but the video below is an excellent example of what I’m talking about. I don't expect everyone to watch the whole thing but it's great, tempo changes, count-ins, and everything. Flash warning, just in case.

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The two screenshots are from the same video and add a bit more information on what a musician might hear in their IEMs during live shows.

I might be alone here, but I really wish Sleep Token would release at least one of the live drum recordings with an in-ear mix like the video above. I’d nerd out so hard over hearing exactly what II or any of the other Eepy guys (especially Vessel during The Summoning, omg) are hearing live in their IEMs.

I know there are people who do mockups on YouTube of Popstar’s supposed IEM mixes and I swear if I had any musical knowledge or video editing skills it would be my self-proclaimed mission to put an in-ear mix into all of Sleep Token's live shows 😅😅

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scoobydoodean · 1 year

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You know what just really frost my cookies with the whole "Dean doesn't care as much about Cas" discourse??? That post you reblogged about how strong their relationship was in s4/s5 got me thinking about this, but like they had two seasons of such intense relationship building and camaraderie, that Dean was literally fighting Bobby and Sam (his two most important people!!!) over not trusting Cas in s6, and it was DEAN who tried to keep a relationship with Cas s6 - s8, like that man tried everything to keep their relationship going - and that's not to blame Cas, he had his own shit going on (well except for s6, I do blame him for that lol his position is understandable, but it was still his fault), but Dean tried and it still just never worked.

Maybe this is just me, but I've always kind of viewed their relationship in the later seasons as, Dean worked hard to keep them going for so long that eventually it kind of just...hit him that maybe Cas didn't want that? So he stopped trying quite as hard, he remembered the times Cas left, and he interpreted them as rejections, which is in part why the Divorce Arc happened - it was a culmination of many many MANY things, not just the "obvious". That's just my interpretation though, and obviously others have and can interpret it differently.

In summary I see it as, early seasons Dean chasing and pining after Cas, eventually feels rejected and betrayed, later seasons Cas chasing and pining after Dean

Though to be fair and admit to my biases, I was watching s6-s8 in real time on TV, and then I drifted away mid s9 and didn't go back and watch the rest of the seasons until recently, so my strongest impressions of Destiel are of those earlier seasons, so I tend to view it in a different light I think than people who started watching later (or more specifically after Nov 5th and/or for Cas - not that anything is wrong w watching for those reasons lol)

Yeah I think it is very very silly to think that Dean doesn’t care about Cas as much as Cas cares about him. Like wildly so.

I think this line of thinking comes mainly from focusing too much on one character's POV. I think Dean came off a few times in season 6 like he saw his relationship with Cas as transactional—even though that isn’t imo how he actually felt about Cas (just like we can analyze Cas as thinking of his relationship with the Winchesters as very transactional but he does care about them despite how it appears). I think Dean was just kind of hurt because Cas had ghosted him for so long and he thought they were friends and they'd built this bond? So in season 6, he was reacting to what he thought were the boundaries Cas himself set—boundaries that suggested Cas—the guy controlling the means of communication—did not want a friendship with him. Cas ditched Dean in the car at the end of Swan Song and then just invisibly watched Dean rake leaves. Dean was right there. Dean could only pray to Cas. Cas wouldn’t respond. In season 6, without giving Dean a say—while watching Dean rake leaves and considering whether to ask for his help—Cas decided (again--unilaterally) he wouldn't involve Dean, and I do think that decision was out of love, and also probably because... well—he probably thought "what can Dean actually... do?" But ultimately, he wanted a person he cared about who had been through a lot to just be able to rest—that's what he says. Not including Dean (and Sam) continued after Dean came back to hunting as well, because 1) Cas was still thinking about protecting Dean 2) He didn't think Dean could do anything to help (which I think is... probably pretty reasonable—he originally considered including Dean I think mainly for his tenacity) 3) the whole thing had ballooned and Cas was making deals he probably didn't even fully agree with himself—so he was ashamed to some extent, but also knew... he wasn't going to stop, and that Dean would ask him to stop.

Cas is... well—I'm going to say "more morally flexible"... and I don't think that's always a bad thing. This is a useful quality in the line of work TFW is in, honestly. He is more ruthless than Sam and Dean and he also knows that he is, and I think he actually likes to position himself as the ruthless one. He likes being the person who is willing to do what is necessary to get shit done and he's willing to sacrifice a part of himself to do it... because he can take it. He planned to kill Jesse behind the Winchester's backs to spare them the unpleasantness (and the same, later, with Kelly and Jack—when Sam and Dean were looking for a way to save both of them and Cas just went to go find Kelly and kill her). He broke Sam's wall and killed a very good friend—Balthazar—because his friends were standing in his way and he was focused on his ultimate purpose which was stopping another apocalypse. He mind tortured Donatello because it needed to be done. I think that Dean understands that Cas wants to position himself as the ruthless one, and I think Dean also understands that this isn't always a bad quality. I also think it's an obvious point of contention, because Dean is the least morally flexible in the group and is the most tenacious, which I think Cas, in turn, appreciates about Dean—but it is going to lead to clashes between them as best friends with one being tenacious about choosing the least morally crooked path when possible, and the other saying "Can we please just get on with it? I'll do it if you don't want to—I don't mind."

And that's... to some extent, what is happening in season 6... besides the lying and the hurt besties feelings and secrets and betrayals. The actual soul swallowing plan? It's Dean's tenacious insistence on following a more prudent path versus Cas's "Let's get the fuck on with it"... and there's fairness to both sides of that imo... which is why I'm annoyed with certain individuals trying to make this a "sides" thing. It isn't the actual plan as much as it's what he did around it that's the issue, and Dean isn't obligated to agree with him or to trust him after he lied so many goddamn times. Like. Dean's trust was not something to which Cas was entitled, point blank.

You're right—Dean didn’t think Cas would ever lie to him like that in season 6. He couldn’t believe it. He refused to believe it. And I think fans do this thing actually where they hear Cas say in season 6 that he’s always trusted Dean and he always comes when Dean calls and they just buy into that and go “Yeah! That’s so true!” and build an entire analysis on that (and then post insufferable parallels between that and 4.21 thinking they are saying something about Dean's "trust issues" when they are... making a very different parallel lmao). What Cas is saying about always trusting Dean isn’t true—and what’s more, Cas knows it isn’t. He knows suggesting Dean doesn’t trust him enough isn’t fair. When he was spying on Sam and Dean and Bobby he made specific note of “Dean trying so hard to be loyal” and defending him fiercely. (In fact—was there anyone Dean trusted more at that point in his life—despite also clearly being hurt by Cas ghosting him? Bobby, maybe. That's about it.) When Cas came back and tried to retroactively claim entitlement to Dean’s trust, he suggested an imbalance of trust because he was trying to dig into that part of Dean that is loyal to his friends. In other words, he was telling a lie for manipulation purposes, and that's just the damn truth. It isn't some crap about Dean having trust issues. It's Dean not buying some crap Cas is trying to sell—a twisted picture he is trying to paint to avoid doing something worse to get Dean out of his way.

It is insane for people to say Dean doesn't care about Cas as much as Cas cares about him though when you consider Cas hurt someone Dean loves just to keep Dean out of his way—he broke Sam's brain—Sammy's brain—and Dean still found a way to forgive that despite all of the trauma he has wrapped up in protecting Sam, and then he fought 360 degree combat through Purgatory looking for someone who abandoned him. Then while that person was beating him to death he was looking up at him calling him family and Cas again abandoned him. Any time Dean expressed affection for Cas there was a good bet Cas leaving would follow quickly. But Dean approaches Cas in a way the majority of fandom refuses to approach all of the characters—with an understanding of his motivations and hangups and intentions and what is in his heart (and Cas approaches him the same way). Despite it all, Dean knows that Cas cares about him. He doesn't understand why Cas won't include him though—or he does, and the reasons aren't okay with him and Cas will. not. stop. and that is the ever growing festering wound that leads to the divorce arc. It is absolutely 100% a "straw that broke the camel's back" situation. Dean's frustrations with Cas's unilateral decision-making are not... ever dealt with. Cas wanting to ghost Dean is not ever dealt with. Cas Malewifing sidelining Dean whenever he damn well feels like it by just refusing to answer the phone is not ever dealt with. Because each time it's discussed, it happens again. The ultimate narrative is just that Dean should be expected to accept it, and be grateful, and I don't think that's fair. I don't think that refusing to communicate is something that Dean should have to put up with from his best friend. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ But more than that, I'm sad that it's something Cas isn't allowed to grow from, because that tendency—that desire for that secrecy and control of the means of communication and that desperation for martyrdom—that is coming from a place of great pain for Cas—a wound—and it's a deep one, and he deserved to get to start to close that wound up and heal.

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Hey girl! For by drabble request, it would be for pwyc!bucky with the #4 gift giving scenario, and Dialogues #5, #11, #17, and #21. Thanks!

thank you so much for sending this in! it did not go how i expected but hopefully you enjoy it 👀

gifts 🎄

pretty when you cry series masterlist

pairing: pwyc!bucky x curvy!reader

warnings: none? this blog is 18+ only.

words: 1.5k

notes: i hope you all enjoy - not sure how i’m feeling about this one 🫣. haven’t decided if this will be canon or not yet.. let me know what you guys think! also steve’s girl has a name now so there’s that lol

Driving back from Eva’s Christmas party, you were inspecting the white elephant gift you had chosen with a quirked brow as you sat in the passenger seat.

“Do people even use nutcrackers? Or are these things just for decoration?” you wondered aloud as you played with the little lever that moved the nutcracker’s mouth.

“I’m sure someone somewhere still uses them to crack nuts,” Bucky responded, mainly to humor you.

“Humph.”

“What?” he asked, stealing a glance at you as he drove.

“Nothing. It’s just.. This thing is kinda creepy, don’t you think?” you cringed.

“I wasn’t gonna mention it, but yeah,” he chuckled, “it is.”

“Would it be rude to regift it?”

“To who?”

“I don’t know.. Or maybe I could just drop it off at one of those donation places,” you mused.

“No, we should regift it,” Bucky smiled deviously. “I know exactly who to give it to.”

You rolled your eyes, knowing he was planning on gifting it as his Secret Santa gift to Sam. Steve’s girl, Rosalie, was like the real life embodiment of the Christmas Spirit. She had decked the shop out completely the moment she got the go ahead from Steve and managed to get everyone to agree to doing Secret Santa this year. Bucky had previously refused but after Rose wouldn’t stop pestering you to pester him, you finally just agreed on his behalf and sort of forced him into it. He was going to call Steve and get him to take his name out of the mix, but it didn’t take much bribing from you to get him to just go with it.

“You have to play by the rules, Buck,” you admonished.

“How am I breaking the rules?”

“You have to buy him something, something he’d actually like,”

“Who says I can’t give him two gifts?” he challenged. You didn’t respond to that with anything other than a scoff and another roll of your eyes.

“Are we still going shopping tomorrow?” he asked.

“If we must,” you groaned.

“I can’t believe the girl who forced me to decorate the house just weeks ago is the same girl who hates going Christmas shopping,” he taunted.

“Shopping is very different from decorating. Decorating includes pretty lights and soft christmas music and cookies and cocoa and a soft ambiance in the comfort and privacy of your own home. Shopping includes big crowds, dumb people who don’t know how to walk properly in public, loud music, and those annoying perfume samplers who are like everywhere all at once,” you complained, already not looking forward to tomorrow. “I hate Christmas shopping,” you grumble.

“I love Christmas shopping,” he said.

“You love shopping, period. And if you keep buying everything you see, I’m not gonna have anything to give you.”

“You don’t have to get me anything, sweetheart. You are my gift,”

“Always so sappy,” you teased. “Plus, you can’t say that when you’ve already crowded the space beneath the tree full of gifts for me,” you sighed. Bucky put his hand on your knee, squeezing you lightly.

“If I’m being honest, half of them are for me,” he smirked, moving his hand to slide further up your dress and along your thigh. You moved his hand back to your knee, giving him a side eye.

“We’re like five minutes away - you think you can manage keeping your hands to yourself until we get home?” you asked, almost condescendingly.

“I’ve been working all night to keep ‘em to myself, angel. I don’t know how much longer I can last,” he simpered as you watched the speedometer tick up to 75.

“Well let’s try for five and we’ll see how things go from there,” you replied with a light smirk.

“I think you and I both know how things are gonna go,” he grinned.

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A week later and Christmas Eve finally arrived and you found yourself at the shop, surrounded by many familiar faces. As you were talking with Loki, Rosalie began ringing a little christmas bell to get everyone’s attention.

“Secret Santa time!,” her melodic voice sang from across the room.

“This should be entertaining,” Loki mused before he moved to join the growing circle Rose had organized.

You were a little worried about the gift you had gotten Wanda, but there wasn’t anything you could do now but hoped she liked it. As you approached the group, you took your seat next to Bucky, whose arm was already around it, as he spoke to Steve who was sitting on the other side of him.

After giving her little speech, Rosalie started off the gift exchange by handing her gift to Thor. Thor welcomed her gift readily and handed his gift to Yelena. Yelena had Steve, Steve had Clint, Clint had Loki, Loki had Kate, and so on and so on until it was Peter’s turn to give his gift to Bucky. Then it went from Bucky to Sam to Scott, who handed his gift to you with a smile. When everybody finally had their gift, Rosalie instructed everyone to open them.

Peter had gifted Bucky a nice set of whiskey glasses with an expensive bottle of whiskey to go with them.

You unwrapped your gift carefully as Scott looked on, looking more excited to watch you open it than he was to open his. Under the wrapping paper you found a gift set from your favorite beauty brand and a box of assorted See’s candies under it.

“This is perfect, Scott,” you smiled sincerely, getting up to hug him as you spoke. “Thank you so much!”

“I knew you’d like it! I mean, it was what you wrote on your paper, so duh, but still. I’m - I’m glad you like it,” he smiled his signature smile.

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The party continued well past midnight and you and Bucky got home a little after two in the morning. As you tried to head upstairs to get ready for bed, Bucky stopped you and instead directed you to sit on the couch by the tree.

“I thought we were gonna do gifts in the morning,” you said skeptically as Bucky bent down to search through the abundance of gifts sitting under the tree.

“It technically is morning,” he pointed out. “I want to give you your main gift right now.”

“Well, wait. I want to give you yours first,” you argued. You knew you were going to be shown up gift wise either way, but you figured you’d feel less bad if he opened his first.

“Doll -,”

“Please,” you said softly.

“Okay,” he conceded.

You got to your knees and looked for the box that held his ‘biggest’ gift.

He looked a little skeptical at the long thin box you handed him, but opened it anyway.

You were holding your breath as you watched him, still not sure how you even felt about it.

He opened it then looked up from the box, almost stunned, watching like he was waiting for you to say sike.

You just nervously bit your lip before looking down at the box yourself.

“Tickets,” he said. You nodded slowly.

“You know my sister lives here,” he said as he gestured to the plane tickets you had printed out.

“Yeah.. I, uh, I figured..if you still wanted us to meet, we could g-” your trepidatious explanation was interrupted by Bucky’s lips crashing into yours as he grabbed hold of your face.

“This is the best gift you could’ve given me,” he smiled. “You’ve really made my Christmas this year.”

You didn’t say anything, still fighting your anxiety at the thought of meeting anyone from Bucky’s family, and instead forced a smile. You knew he could feel your nerves, but he didn’t call you out on it. He took your hands in his and squeezed gently, leaning his head against yours for a moment before he pulled away and went back to looking for your gift.

He pulled out a small wrapped box and turned to you as you both sat kneeling in front of one another. He gently pushed you back so you were sitting completely on your heels. Your name leaving his lips, the first time in a while he’d actually used it, immediately had your undivided attention.

“Sweetheart. You know I love you. You know you’re my everything, and you know I’d do anything for you. You’re my soulmate, nothing could ever change that. We belong together. You’re mine,” he emphasized as he gently caressed your cheek. “Forever.” He pulled away only slightly to open the little box he held in his hand. You felt like you couldn’t breath as you stared at it, just blinking while he snapped open the lid. Suddenly, with the smallest movement of his hand, gleaming right at you was the most stunning diamond ring you’d ever seen. “You and I both know that. But I wanna make sure everybody else does, too.”

There was silence between you as you continued staring in shock at the ring he held. “Whadaya say, pretty girl?” he asked, finally getting you to break away from the ring and meet his eye again with the gentle nudge of his fingers along your chin, all the while you were trying to gain control of your breathing. “Marry me?”

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