#mentally ill writer

[lovelythethingsbrainrot]

Sometimes it takes me 3 years to perfect 6,000 words and sometimes I knock it out in two days, and sometimes all I want to do is write and sometimes I look at a half-finished document and want to vomit.

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[finntheehumaneater]

TW GORE, MURDER, CANNIBALISM

Might write a movie script about a girl who get’s high off of psychedelics at a party in the 70s and then kills and eats everyone in the house, eating parts of herself in the end before she shoots herself.

because I’m mentally unstable and has a weird dream last night.

I don’t need to be put in a mental institution I swear.

I just listen to too much heavy metal music.

I’m fine.

#Screen play #writing community #creative writing #horror #horror story #horror movie #extreme gore #mentally ill writer #They peer pressured her into taking the drugs to see what would happen even though they knew she was severely mentally unstable #And had a track record of violence in the past #Even being accused of killing someone in her neighborhood #And only getting away with it because they didn’t have enough evidence to prove her guilty #Why the hell am I like this—

[pearlmoney]

OPEN COMMISSIONS!!

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[poetic-beats]

Just Another Statistic

I fear I’ll end up just another number. Another statistic on a spreadsheet.

Lost in the wave, all those souls forgotten.

Will anyone remember our names. What will I become to you?

Just a number; One hundred and thirty two. Which one am I to you? (132 is the average number of suicides every day in America)

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[mertaii]

im ??? so bored nd my creativity is bubbling so much?? the urge to just completely throw myself into a story, write nd plan it all down to the last detail, write a couple of chapters only to forget it even exists

#writerthings #mentally ill writer #oops im also gay did i mention that

[flowersintheasscrack]

I wish my brain worked properly because when I take my antidepressants, I'm such a functioning individual! Like my anxiety levels are down, I'm slow to burn out, and I don't have to spend a large portion of my time talking myself out of going away. But when I don't take my antidepressants, I'm literally dead from the waist down and everything I write is trash

#mental illness #mental instability #depression #anxiety #writer #mentally ill writer

[keehoe69]

this one's even better

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[inked-fables]

i used to be what some might call a prolific writer. actually, some did call it that. i wrote during math class, i wrote after dance class, i wrote in my head during dance class for god’s sake. i read all the time, too. i didn’t start keeping track of my yearly books until the number started going down, but i was reading many, many novels a year from the time i was three, reading rainbow magic fairy books during recess until grade seven, reading the fault in our stars and i’ll give you the sun during library period.

i don’t know what happened to me.

my goodreads (until i transferred my book count to storygraph) goal this year was 50 books. that’s less than one book a week. i’m currently five books behind.

i’ve been writing the same novel for nearly two years, and i’m almost halfway done. the last time i finished a full-length story was for a school project, genius hour, and that was more than two years ago. i barely write once a week, if that—i used to spend every evening on one of my parents’ computers writing until my eyes hurt.

i still love to read and write. i still need to read and write. it keeps me sane. but how can i call myself a writer anymore, when i can barely write?

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[zykamiliah]

the only yandere character i respect is luo binghe and that's because he learned his yandere-y actions would get him nowhere.

reformed yandere should be in his resume

#svsss #i love how mxtx turned the trope upside down and showed us how mentally ill the yandere character can get #and how harmful it can be to the character themselves #why aren't other writers doing this

[youneedsomeprompts]

~ IN A VOID ~ FORESHADOWING DEPRESSION PROMPTS

requested by: @crochet-cafe request: How can I foreshadow or hint that my character has severe depression? I want to make the reveal a big deal when it happens and catch readers off guard

Feel free to use and reblog!

having other characters associate the person's mood with their character traits ("they're always grumpy")

masking their depression really well but being absolutely drained and a lot worse as soon as they're alone

appearing as a 'neutral' person, when their neutral mood actually indicates the emptiness they feel inside

their growing passivity makes them fade into the background

the more excited other people get the more downcast the person becomes (they get perceived as a killjoy)

they don't accept invitations anymore

they always say they're busy but can't answer the question what exactly they're doing

they show no emotional reaction in a fight

everyone says about the person that they have such a hard shell

they usually have been very caring and sensitive to everyone around them but suddenly they seem like they couldn't care less

for more inspiration/how to help: ~ SHOWING SUPPORT FOR SOMEONE WITH DEPRESSION ~ WRITING PROMPTS

note: If you or someone you know feels that way and really needs help, please seek professional help <3

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[lovelythethingsbrainrot]

Gonna be honest, I'm still in a horrible writing slump. I hoped editing would help get the juices flowing, but I'm struggling even doing that. There will be updates...

Eventually.

Probably.

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[mewtwo24]

I finally finished reading the fourth volume of svsss in full, and thing is--the first time through I only read the bingqiu content because I was ravenous for more of their happy ending.

Turns out that was a perilous mistake.

Because I started reading the airplane extras. And I swear to god. MXTX is trying to kill me

What do you MEAN demon lord Binghe was sitting on his big fucking throne. All stoic and forbidding. Surrounded by his demon generals who don't know shit about human courtship. Asking them what he should do, fully demoralized by constant rejections from sqq, only to have airplane tell him to act more pathetic and needy. Which is already hysterically funny and insane, UNTIL LBH'S RESPONSE IS THIS, KILLING ME INSTANTLY:

LUO BINGHE. WHY DOES HE SAY IT LIKE: "I already tried that, didn't work--nothing works :/ not mean, not maidenly, not housewife, not spicy, not capable disciple. Is doubling down on clingy really all it will take? What's a born hater with only one love in his life to do????"

The dichotomy of him sitting there like 'how can I reach the unfathomable depths of shizun's heart?' A HEART HE'S ALREADY WON OVER, MIND and then in the Holy Mausoleum solving the puzzle without blinking and being like 'oh yeah you just have to hit the acupoints, no sweat.' Literally the comedy writes itself I'm so--

How am I supposed to be normal about this. MXTX understands the juicy quintessential queer joy of a person with the world's power at their fingertips wishing only for love. Willing to do anything to earn that love, when unbeknownst to them it's already been freely given. Totally not screaming and yelling and clawing at the walls

And that's not even touching airplane's uproarious account of events. The way he's like 'lol what's next, lbh and sqq are best friends now? smfh' only to see lbh TACKLE SQQ LOVINGLY. FOR SQQ TO BE BASHFUL ABOUT IT BUT SO SO FOND OF THE LITTLE SCAMP. This when we've been experiencing sqq's constant inner monologue of 'I'm so cool and so dignified about my role, truly the epitome of propriety and poser-level fortitude.' Meanwhile, in their universe:

Airplane constantly flaming???? Sqq and lbh in his observations????? His absolute bewilderment and confusion????? Legendary. No notes every single second of this shit was hilarious.

Airplane's comment that sqq + older adolescent lbh traveling together was just watching a couple in their honeymoon phase. OR the fact that lbh is exceedingly petty and refuses to share their food in the wake of airplane's interruption of their time together, until sqq relents sheepishly and insists airplane eat what's left (ONLY AFTER PLACATING LBH WITH MORE FOOD FROM HIS PLATE, SOBBING)

Watching airplane salivate over Mobei-Jun and acting like that's totally normal behavior. Finding out mbj and airplane got together first. Finding out sqq encouraged airplane. LIKE THIS. WHILE HE IS STILL IN DENIAL ABOUT HIS OWN FEELINGS:

Mobei-jun clearly thinking their arrangement is a forever thing, heartbroken his human abandoned him with all the hapless fury of a scorned wife swept away by false promises of fidelity. Airplane writing demons to be the type to beat up their crush lovingly and still unable to connect the dots about mbj's feelings. Mbj letting him go and respecting his wishes, only relenting when there's indication airplane was poorly processing his own feelings and didn't actually want to leave. Mbj caring for him and listening to him as soon as airplane voices what he needs directly and with clarity. None of these gays are functional and it's everything to me

Unrelated, but I physically can't hold this information in anymore:

I'm still reeling from younger lbh having his sexual awakening from the image of sqq wrapped in the immortal binding cables. Condemn me as you like he was so, so real for that.

And no I will not be taking any comments about how luo bingge couldn't bear to see luo binghe cherished in ways he never got to have and all the haunting implications of that. I will also not be taking any comments about luo binghe's instinct to look for sqq in that alternate universe, only to be shaken to the very core to be unable to find his shizun anywhere. The unspeakable and latent horror of his relentless mind likely piecing together what happened, but unable to say it; to suspect what is true, and live with the harrowing confusion of his double's actions. To blame himself, to assume that he had let his anger get the better of him in that world and result in unspeakable folly...

I also refuse to talk about how heartrending it is to hear Tianlang-jun weakly say "In the end, I really can't bring myself to hate humans." The implication that the foolishness of that hope and bright-eyed fondness--the very thing that put him through such unspeakable agony--couldn't be beaten out of him entirely. To discover that his faith in Su Xiyan hadn't been misplaced, to the contrary: his beloved hadn't scorned him at all, but rather fought to the miserable end to protect the fruition of their genuine feelings of love when she couldn't protect tlj or herself.

How MXTX has sqq deliberately draw parallels between their situation and that of ygy+sj and tlj+sx; desperately wishing it might not be too late for them. The concept of breaking cycles of abuse and harm pervasive throughout the newly devised story, how it evolves for the better only when love takes the place of power, pride, and domination. How the moment sqq chooses vulnerability instead of saving face, the genre shifts to the so-called "cringe" girly genre where most if not every character is more fulfilled, more true to themselves. How the "male-oriented" former genre was aimlessly sensationalized and sexualized, how it was a sustained performance of aspirational toxic masculinity. How men objectify other men without end. All of the unspoken gendered implications that come with that.

Anyways. Going to go put my head in a sandbox and try to process everything I just witnessed because even a second reading is not enough to find a modicum of closure.

#svsss #bingqiu #moshang #i swear to god this series is just 'gay man who doesn't know shit inflicting his delusional reality on everyone else and inciting chaos' #and literally it's slapstick levels of hilarious every single time; mxtx never change #also i fully agree that we did not get NEARLY enough mobei-jun and sqh/airplane content #the amount of mental illness to mental illness communication going on there was astonishing #mobei-jun being afraid of his uncle and bringing sqh because that's the only person he trusts fully (WAILING NOISES) #sqh having a tantrum but running away because for the first time he was honest about his needs + his dissatisfaction with catering to other #how that reflects his narrative compulsions and how he felt forced to warp more creative story paths for the sake of survival as a writer #how sqq's restoration of much of his original intent--as well as mobei-jun's acceptance of his needs--helps airplane begin to heal #how his happiness begins; how just like sqq he wanders in such confusion and denial before he's forced to realize what truly matters to him #SHREK VOICE: STORIES HAVE. L A Y E R S #it feels like modern day shakespeare and when i say that i don't mean it in a hollow elevating sense i mean it more like #mxtx just hits that perfect balance of poignance but also hilarious concentric circles of botched communication and brainworms #okay but real talk for a minute? .........;-; #the way lbh constantly struggles with such a crushing feeling that he'll be abandoned over any little mishap/thing/problem #really hit me where it hurts??? if only because its so clearly an anxiety that stems from original goods' upbringing #the way it becomes even more heartrending when you think back to all the sect leaders clamoring that he should have been killed as an infan #that he should have been aborted as a fetus--insisting right in front of him that his birth was a mistake and a disgrace #over having demon blood in his veins. like my god that scene is so viscerally upsetting i struggle to read it #the way its so easy to see the demons as a manifestation of otherness in precipitated form #how both sqq and sqh are influenced by human rhetoric without evening meaning to--assuming the worst against their better judgment #how both sqq and sqh both struggle with their own otherness in different ways and only find solace when they begin to accept who they are #how their lovers (lbh and mbj respectively) both are willing to navigate those confusing waters with them #how both demons love them as they are--accept them as they are despite how difficult forgiveness of perceived betrayal is for them #ty mxtx for changing my brain chemistry #as i get older i have such a fondness for the messiness of thematic queer self-discovery and growth into self-acceptance #that and how youth can so easily be defined by perfectionistic self-harm and the violence of repression

[pearlmoney]

I need help moving out of home

Hello I know I've posted this so many times but I am really struggling for money. I can't get a job because of my mental illness and it doesn't help I'm too young to really get employed. I'm moving out in a few months and I don't have enough money to cover any costs. This is becoming an emergency honestly and I really need some help. In the document linked, all the information about my work and the commissions and guidelines and stuff. I appreciate any help given, I also take tips on my account. Thank you so much for the help <3

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[petiolata]

the urge to do something creative is there but it's squashed by me having all the energy of a wet paperbag

#chronic illness #chronic fatigue #disability #artist problems #writer problems #personal #op #when ur mental health is playing ball for once but ur body refuses to join the game

[transmasc-wizard]

"should autism exist in my fantasy story?" yes. "should psychosis exist in my fantasy story?" yes. "should personality disorders exist in my fantasy story?" yes. "should ADHD exist in my fantasy story? should intellectual disabilities exist in my fantasy story? should dissociative disorders exist in my fantasy story? should trauma disorders exist in my fantasy story? should anxiety disorders exist in my fantasy story? should mood disorders exist in my fantasy story? should--"

yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

you don't have to include their real actual names and you don't have to have main characters with every single one of these things. But neurodivergent and mentally ill people should EXIST in fantasy stories and fantasy societies, because we exist in real life. We deserve to be acknowledged.

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[leafsea]

at least the chaos made sense // 1.27.2024

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