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theaddictspoetry · 1 year

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i think there are times

where you miss the version of yourself

who never knew

what its like to be under the influence,

i know you never meant

to dance with the devil,

but when you're in his grasp

everything seems so free,

i promise you're not free,

not at all,

not until you say NO

thats the hardest part-

to say no, to a beautiful devil.

an evil, masked so beautifully.

@theaddictspoetry

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bupphaofficial · 21 days

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#bupphaofficial #filmmaking #filmmaker #short film #writer #writing #screenwriter #acting #actor #actress #drama short film #indie short film #film about mental illness #film about drug addiction #drug addiction awareness #mental health awareness #men's health #drug abuse #child abuse prevention

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neuroticboyfriend · 1 year

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If you struggle with substance abuse but not addiction, you still deserve support. If you struggle with suicidality/self harm urges but don't act on it, you still deserve support. If you struggle with psychosis and paranoia but have insight, you still deserve support. If you struggle with anything but are "coping with it," you still deserve support.

You dont need to be in imminent crisis to get help - safety planning, harm reduction, resources, and accommodations. You're still struggling. You're still suffering, You're still at risk/in danger. You deserve better - you need better. Your health and wellbeing matters.

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artofkhaos404 · 6 months

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In life, I believe we are all just addicts struggling with our drug of choice.

For some, it may be actual drugs. Meth, cocaine, heroine, marijuana... whatever suits them. For others it is alcohol or cigarettes or other tobacco products.

It may be pornography. Or self harm.

I have wrestled with my drug of choice for about four years. Indulging daily or weekly. I'm accustomed to counting wins by the day.

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Tomorrow, I'm going out with some friends to celebrate two months clean. Eventually I may relapse back into my old habits, but that's not the point. The point is proving to myself that I am able. Recovery is possible.

I WILL NOT BE A SLAVE TO MY DRUG.

And I'll encourage you to adopt the same mantra. These addictions and this society that fuels them? It can't hold us. We are free.

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mybodyispeace · 7 months

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38 hours clean from drugs. i wish people wouldn't romanticise addiction. ive been sat here for nearly 2 days unable to do anything but puke and have the shits, ive had 3 hours sleep because of insomnia and one minute im going from freezing and sweaty to burning alive and goosebumps. my head hurts and the lights too bright for my eyes, my stomach kills and my body feels stiff and sore. i can't eat and im struggling to stay hydrated, my hearts palpatating and all the noises seem so distant and muffled. my body won't stop shaking and i have big bags under my eyes, ive got spots popping up and i constantly need the toilet. it's been one of the hardest things ive ever gone through, ironically it feels like when i overdosed, but i wouldn't change it for the world. within a few weeks all my physical symptoms will be gone and ill be left to heal from the psychological problems my addiction and withdrawal have caused me.

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angelnumber27 · 2 years

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Overdose awareness day was yesterday.. for those who didn’t know, I was addicted to OxyContin, heroin, and then fentanyl for about 3-4 years. I got clean in December and it was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. It was the sickest I have ever been in my life, and lasted for months. To give you an idea, I did enough to kill probably 10 people who have no tolerance every hour of every day. Towards the end, I did it just to not get horribly ill. There were many many times that I did a line and then passed out and fell over and went unconscious for several minutes. I would wake up on the ground minutes later confused about why I was on the ground. I overdosed a LOT and never really even acknowledged it until I got clean. I could have died on any given day. And the saddest part is that I knew that and acknowledged it and even welcomed it. I truly did not care if I lived or died at that point. In my life I’ve lost too many people to overdoses and sometimes I feel a bad survivors guilt and a confusion as to why I survived so many times and others didn’t :( but I believe that I am meant to be here.

Anyways, if you are going to be using substances, please be safe. Please test your drugs before using them. You never know what is in these drugs off the street and it is worth it to test it. If you can access it, please keep Narcan on your person and also in your car, you never know when you may need it and it could save a life. When using, please remember that you can always do more but you cannot do less. Do small amounts and add more as needed if you really need to. If you are using deadly drugs, please don’t do it alone. Also, please take into account any mental health issues you struggle with and do not do things such as psychedelics that could make these problems much worse. From my own experience, doing drugs does not help. It is a temporary gratification, not a lasting happiness. It puts you in a place in which you feel stuck and unable to move forward. I have been using since the age of 14 (10 years) and it has done nothing but made things worse for me and my physical/mental health issues. Let yourself feel your emotions naturally instead of blocking them out or bottling them up.

https://harmreduction.org

#addiction #narcan #fentanyl addiction #drugs #drug addiction #harm reduction #overdose awareness

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exjunkiebaby · 2 years

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I fucked up really bad

I had 6 months clean - the longest stretch of time since I was 16 years old. I was doing good, but not really. Mentally I was beginning to crumble. My mind began to wander. I couldn’t stop thinking about using. The obsession began and I could not make it stop. I went to meetings every day. But I didn’t talk about it. They told me to find a sponsor, but I never called her. They told me to be of service, but I sat on my ass. So the thought of using crept in, and it stayed in my head until I eventually would succumb to my demons.

It started with xanax, of course. But that wasn’t enough, of course. I then got ahold of fake oxy30s - the blues. The blues became crystal. I found myself twisting the pipe and holding the straw in between my lips. I was a junkie again. And I kept it a secret, because I was so ashamed.

It gets worse. After smoking the blues, my ex asked if I wanted to hit some pure fentanyl. I said yes. I took one hit - and wow. Did I feel good! I took another hit, and blackness overcame my blurry vision. Just...black. Nothing. I suddenly woke up, gasping for air. There were hospital lights above me. I was naked. Doctors and nurses surrounded me. Oxygen was flowing through tubes up my nose. I was confused, then hit with the sudden realization that I had overdosed.

It was horrible. I silently wept, ashamed and sickened that I had ended up here. The doctor told me I had turned purple. She told me that my heart had stopped beating and that I was not breathing. She told me if I waited any later, I would have been dead. I am so disgusted with myself. I can’t even look in the mirror.

This happened almost 2 weeks ago, and I can’t get it out of my head. I haven’t used since Sunday. It was so hard to stay clean today. It was so hard to stay clean this week. I want to use again, and it’s completely fucked up. I am fucked up mentally and I don’t know what to do. The worst part is - is that nobody knows. I kept my overdose a secret and I don’t intend to tell anyone - maybe I will if years pass me by. But, I’m lucky to be alive. I’m lucky to be typing this.

I feel so alone. I feel like my soul has been sucked out of my body. I try to pray to God; I cry to Her every night. Sometimes all day. I can’t seem to get out of this funk, and that is why I am writing right now. Please, pray for me. Pray that I can stay strong. I need help. I don’t know what to do. So I just type, and type, praying for relief.

#overdose #OD #addiction #iv drugs #fentanyl #awareness #hospital #ER #emergency #perc 30 #xanax #tweakend #crystals #meth #personal #diary #lonely #depression #mental health #death #help me

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slugandthorn · 4 months

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The coolest gender thing in the 2009 Japanese video game persona 3 100% how hard they coded shinjiro as the dead mom

#.txt #i got soooo mad in the car driving home thinking about how his drug addiction is essentially the classic anime heart condition.#in that the only side effect of the suppressants is that they will kill him. like?#i realized for the longest time i had assumed the chest pain and sweating came from the drugs but thats. castor. obviously.#it doesnt affect his mood or his awareness its like a mood stabilizer pain relief pill?#its so odd that hes framed as like. being addicted to illegal street drugs. BY THE NARRATIVE.#when its more like hes on the most insane experimental medication that they wont even test on like. rats.#also im not fact checking any of this before posting. so i might be lying about things.#idk if it was all of strega that had trouble controlling their personas but like. chidori was because of the Experimentation.#and shinjis just like. mentally ill coded. in a bad way 😭#The inability to regulate a mood/stimuli to the point where he can be unsafe to himself or others.#broad ass symptom of disorders that are not treated well. its also interesting that its not brought on by a specific event.#like the childhood fire is there. but you have akihiko right there to directly compare it to. and hes arguably more effected by it all.#and he seems to be coping well 10+ years on like some coping mechanisms are kind of weird (protein) but nothing super out of the ordinary.#so the problem is really the october 4th incident which was just a pure honest to god accident.#the fact that it gets covered up as a car accident does feel like the best like. emotional equivalent.#because it being shinji being unable to control his persona his true representation of himself and it resulting in death is sooooo bleak #and it weighs on him for 2+ years of being suicidal and unhoused until finally he goes through with his suicide by martyrdom.#i lost the plot a little bit on the gender situation with the vague allusions to fraility when story convenient #acting as dorm den mother and cooking and sewing long hair jacket sillhouette reading like a dress #was referring to that before mental illness took over. woman under the influencing this anime boy.#long way of saying i think he should have a over the shoulder ponytail when hes older. and he should have a mood disorder.

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mariemariemaria · 4 months

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Does anybody else feel like mental health awareness has done very little to help them in material reality

#i was gonna say done nothing to help but that seemed too harsh #like there definitely is more knowledge about it now. maybe more people feel comfortable speaking about it which is good #but personally i don't feel that. like idk. workplaces will post about mental health awareness and then do nothing to help employees #the same w universities. my uni cut back the already meager mental health support #and then the government is doing absolutely fuck all as well #like idk im just back in a place i thought id gotten out of long ago and i still don't feel comfortable talking about it with people #maybe that's a me problem or maybe it's cultural or something idk. but in the 10 years ive been depressed (🫠) i don't think it's gotten a #whole lot better. teenagers are still dealing with the same shit i did and they're still not being taken seriously #women's mental health is not even spoken about.....anxiety depression sh eds etc are still ignored or seen as hysterical behaviour in women #or just normal esp with disordered eating. society hasn't changed people still want women to be stick thin and weak #like i know 10 years is a short time and there has been massive improvements in mh awareness if we look back over the past 50+ years #but idk i just think that it hasn't gotten better for a lot of people #i think specifically of belfast and like god. the amount of trauma there is the amount of homelessness the amount of substance abuse #drug abuse in particular that has gotten visibly worse over the past decade or so*#and i connect the dots n see the 2008 recession + a tory gov defunding the nhs + dehumanisation of homeless people & addicts + the troubles #+ ptsd + generational trauma + a negative peace + classism + paramilitary drug dealers + parties linked to those paramilitaries #and its like hmmmm i think we live in a society. and a mental health approach based on individual actions like journaling and meditation #isn't the way to go. or at least is not the be all and end all which is what a lot of mental health awareness raising seems to promote #*visibly worse on the streets. it was always a problem ofc but even a decade ago my parents never imagined it would be as bad as it is now #and it's become so normalised. i do think there's less individualism here than there seems to be elsewhere which can be good and can be bad #but i think we are becoming more and more individualistic. slowly. there's still a sense of community here but i do think it's changing #and callousness towards homeless people is one of the most obvious examples of this.#love when i put a wee asterisk in the tags of a post. like i have A Lot To Say lol

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lttleghost · 1 year

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literally the people in the BrBa fandom who like think its super important to focus somewhat on the bad things Jesse's done instead of just acknowledging those things tend to have misunderstandings on either how selling drugs increase harm (which while there's other complexities to parts of the drug trade, simply making and providing drugs alone does not increase the harm those drugs cause) or they have misremembered some of his actual actions as being more in his control than they actually were, and with some people it really feels like it comes from the stigma against addicts even if they think they're not falling into that

and like again this lack of understanding around everything relating to drugs and addiction especially, even from people that mean well, is the whole reason it's more important to focus on the good in Jesse and how he's the victim rather than acting like there's no one acknowledges his flaws and the bad things he's done, cause a huge fucking swath of people outside our little tumblr circles do and act like every single bad thing in his life as entirely his responsibility without aknowledging any way that the world worked against him or the abuse he faced and see him as less of a person because he's an addict

and like I do think if Jesse wasn't the type of person that sees his own flaws and ultimately tries to do his best to change and learn even in the terrible situation he's in that doesn't want that change to happen, and instead needed people to like... constantly tell him to be better, then yeah it'd definitely be much more important to focus on those flaws and the bad things he did... but that's not the case, even the one thing he plans to do that was awful AND fully his choice (trying to sell drugs to the rehab group) was something he snapped himself out of when he was able to concretely see a consequence he hadn't considered before, this doesn't negate that trying to sell drugs to the rehab group was wrong, but it does add complexity to how we judge that action playing into Jesse as a whole

like you can't just sit there and act like ur so smart for aknowledging a character written like a real person is complex without thinking about the greater social commentary you're getting across when you insist we can't simply aknowledge the bad things a character does and have to still really judge them on those things or say calling them a "good person" erases the bad they've done and not consider if what you're saying is like... useful on a wider scale in combating the stigmatization of characters like Jesse (especially surrounding drug selling/making/using drugs) or if you're just refering to "woobification" bullshit that isn't particularly prevalent in the wider world

#okay I'm not that great with words but i hope this is understandable #jesse pinkman #jesse brba #jesse breaking bad #jesse pinkman brba #breaking bad #el camino #brba #like okay i may not have given this one person time ebough to respond to the last few things I've said but #im so blown away by like me trying to be like hey with Jesse as a character for wider commentary its not a good stance #to focus on his flaws #even if you are ultimately presenting a complex picture of him #because of the stigmatization and demonization of addicts #and when i asked for examples of Jesse CHOOSING to do things wrong outside of se3 #a) i got the selling drugs to the rehab group which like YEAH DUH THATS HIS 'im the bad guy' bullshit im alrady aware of that and agree #but i also was presented with 'while the war on drugs is bad meth is also bad and he chose to make and sell meth'#which.... demonstrates a misunderstanding on how that works #AMD THEN..... THEN I GOT 'Jesse talked about and used drugs around Jane and was responsible for her relapse'#and... EXCUSE ME? did we watch the same show? maybe Jesse was naive to think he could keep Jane away from all that stuff but #HE TRIED HE TRIED TO PROTECT HER #like in that case it just feels like... ur blaming him for being an addict wether or not he tries to keep it away #from someone else at risk #which like goes into its stupid to simplify people into obly good and bad actions #and I'm just #fucking furious #meat.txt #this is my girlfriend don't touch him

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gilettefusion5 · 7 months

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I stand my ground on this point

#just as addicting if not more than plenty of “street drugs”’#which I’m very aware of and why I try not to keep wine in the house because I’ll drink a whole bottle in one night #but yeah do coke on TikTok everyone

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theaddictspoetry · 2 years

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Addiction is like playing with fire Before you know it everything goes up in flames Everything destroyed, Nothing will ever be the same.

@theaddictspoetry

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bupphaofficial · 1 year

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A cartoon teaser version of I'll Be Alright short film🎬

#animation #movie teaser #movie trailer #i'll be alright film #short film #mental wellbeing #mental heath issues #drug addiction awareness

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neuroticboyfriend · 6 months

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this just in! substance use disorders don't exist only when someone uses substances. there are a bunch of other experiences that come with a substance use disorder. this includes cravings, withdrawal (physical and psychological), tolerance, dependency, obsessions with substance, anhedonia, needing to recover from use, and more! recovery isn't as simple as not using substances (especially since not everyone's recovery involves not using)! and, as with other conditions, it is still possible to lead a fulfilling life without full recovery <3

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cherryflavoredbutch · 1 year

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it's so funny to me that hazbin hotel is referred to as an adult cartoon. that show is about as adult as a 13 year old stealing his first cigarette from his dad and then puking when he tries to smoke it.

#which is to say that it is only adult if you have a childish lack of understanding of what adulthood is #like other adult shows are immature but they're self aware in their immaturity #(which doesn't make them good it's just different)#there's something very specific going on with hazbin that I find fascinating (i mean this in a bad way)#like was anyone else making ocs and writing stories back in middle school where you were dabbling in adulthood by playing with adult themes #like drugs and alcohol and addiction #but your understanding of these things was restricted #because you simultaneously understood them solely as a metaphor for some deeper more 'meaningful' issue #AND as a source of edgy cool flippant devil-may-care adult-ness #and as a result you couldn't tell whether you wanted to condemn or glorify things like substance abuse and toxic relationships #so the message just came out very muddled? like anyone else have this very specific experience?#thats what hazbin is to me. this very specific view i had of adulthood when i was 13 that I grew out of #it's not immature. it's straight up childish #okay to rb. btw

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fella-lovin-fella · 7 months

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having a long line of addicts in your family is crazy bc I'll be like "ooh maybe i'll have a few cocktails and smoke some weed tonight" and immediately go "what's next? meth?? crack???" like girl it's fine.

#it's important to pay attention to your habits #even if you dont have addiction in uour family #but i have GENERATIONS of alcoholism and hard drug addiction #so it's def something i have to be aware of #plus i did have an alc and drug problems when i was a teen #tw addiction #tw drugs #tw alcohol #tw alchohol mention #alcohol mention #not mlm #dantes talking again

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