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theaddictspoetry · 15 days

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Since you left,

i feel lost, out of place,

as if no where is truly home.

Since you left,

the memories replay, over and over.

i think of whats been left unsaid,

what i should've did, couldve did.

When you left,

part of our hearts were taken,

you hold the pieces that held us together,

one day we'll be whole again, together.

(Till we meet again.)

@theaddictspoetry

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theaddictspoetry · 1 month

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My dearest brother,

I miss you, so much.

You're like no other.

My sweetest brother,

I've loved you from the start,

I'll carry you in my heart,

That way, we'll never truly be apart.

My brother, my friend,

I'll wait for the day, I'll see you again.

10.6.2006 -3.7.2024

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theaddictspoetry · 5 months

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When we were younger,- we used to say " we're just fucked up kids, telling other fucked up kids it'll be okay." Well, now we're the fucked up adults pretending everythings okay, aren't we?

-ThoughtOfTheDay @theaddictspoetry

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theaddictspoetry · 6 months

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Done letting darkness eat at me inside,

I'm still standing,

And as long as I breathe,

I'll never lose sight,

Of this fight.

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theaddictspoetry · 8 months

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It's a weird feeling-

Feeling like you never belong here,

That you're not made for the world

I simply feel too much.

Words pierce at my skin,

People leave, and everything caves in.

Constant wonders,

Of what its like to be normal...

To not have to stay so busy,

Just to be sane...

Whats in my brain? Whats all this pain?

I search everywhere i go, in everyone i meet,

For a cure. An antidote.

Just something to free me,

even for just a second-

Hoping to free myself of my insanities.

@theaddictspoetry

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theaddictspoetry · 8 months

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That's what addiction does.

It makes you believe you're indestructible.

That you have all the time in the world.

That'll never happen to you.

But then,

You miss your grandmas funeral, cause you were stuck withdrawing, with suicidal thoughts.

You still live with deep regret about that.

Then, you get infections, that make you end up in the hospital.

Your addiction is so bad, you leave the hospital to use even though they told you, you can die if you leave.

But you do anyway.

Cause you no longer care.

You start losing everything

Friends, family, everything you own.

Including your mind.

Its no longer your thinking.

Its the drugs, the addiction.

You're losing time from your life, your family won't live forever,

You're slowly dying. Its a slow suicide.

It's never too late to start over,

Its okay to ask for help.

Don't waste your whole life looking for something in drugs,

When its really inside of you this whole time.

All the love you need is inside of YOU.

You just have to realize.

The drugs don't love you, nor do the people you're doing them with/gettin them from.

Love yourself, be who you need the most.

Cause in the end we have - ourselves.

@theaddictspoetry

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theaddictspoetry · 8 months

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Don't deny,

You love to get high,

You love the feeling you get inside,

"Inner peace". --

Silence of the mind,

Though you're acting blind

Thinkin you'll never run out of time,

Darling,

You use,

Just to get by,

But times not on your side

It'll run out....

And you'll be left alone

With not one soul by your side.

-Don't deny your addiction-

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theaddictspoetry · 9 months

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I don't wanna just survive

I don't wanna just 'get by,'

I want to LIVE,

Be known, be remembered,

I've lived thousands of lives,

Yet I'm still alive,

I'm done trying to hide,

Done letting darkness eat at me inside,

I'm still standing.

And as long as i breathe,

I'll never surrender.

So tell those who said I can't do it- that I've only just arrived.

@theaddictspoetry

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theaddictspoetry · 1 year

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I'm always trying

So hard

To stay strong,

I try to remember where I'm from

Cause I'm in too deep,

I can never ever sleep

Everything keeps on repeat

And it gets hard to breathe-

Just trying to be me,

Is my daily battle,

Can't you see?

@theaddictspoetry

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theaddictspoetry · 1 year

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In her head,

all the flowers that grew are dead,

and when it rains, it pours instead,

she's always stuck in her head,

cause a whole storm's up there-

that no one else can hear,

her cries, her screams

yet everything stays the same......

@theaddictspoetry

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theaddictspoetry · 1 year

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Always looking for a remedy,

to get rid of what's inside of me,

all this anxiety,

wish I understood it, what's inside of me...

I drown in these 'happy' pills,

they claim will help me,

when i just feel even more empty....

@theaddictspoetry

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theaddictspoetry · 1 year

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repost

Addiction, addiction,

Why was I so drawn to you?

Oh how I wish you were fiction,

You put me in the worst, life threatening positions,

Cancel me from this subscription,

I no longer want these sick, twisted expeditions,

Leaving everyone predicting,

Just how I'll end up

As just another dead edition,

I should've followed my damn intuition,

Thought this shit was fiction,

It's really a contradiction-

I wanted peace

But ended up in my own inflictions,

Caused by a damn prescription.

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theaddictspoetry · 1 year

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i think there are times

where you miss the version of yourself

who never knew

what its like to be under the influence,

i know you never meant

to dance with the devil,

but when you're in his grasp

everything seems so free,

i promise you're not free,

not at all,

not until you say NO

thats the hardest part-

to say no, to a beautiful devil.

an evil, masked so beautifully.

@theaddictspoetry

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theaddictspoetry · 1 year

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you're always there for me

even when i wish you weren't

i've given you everything,

every last thing i own ,

every last piece of myself-

just to regret it and drown in self hatred

i despise you

yet i keep coming back for more

it makes no sense does it?

they wish they knew what goes on in my head,

i say i wish i understood it myself....

@theaddictspoetry

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theaddictspoetry · 1 year

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I tried to destroy my life,

for a piece of mind I'll never find.

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theaddictspoetry · 1 year

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I keep my guard up,

Cause I've been burned one too many.

Bruised and scarred,

By the ones i thought would always love me.

So i keep my heart caged,

Never open to attack.

Still, I watch my back,

The aftermath in my mind.

I keep my guard up,

So the ones i thought loved me, can't hurt me.

@theaddictspoetry

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theaddictspoetry · 1 year

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I feel so deeply,

It's like words are shards of glass

Against my skin,

Ripping me apart within.

I feel so empty,

As if I'm just a shell

Of a girl I used to know.

@theaddictspoetry

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