#actually traumatised

[traumatizedjaguar]

“You’re too available, you’re too giving, too understanding and too trusting. Your good heart makes you a target for those who deceive, take, envy, gossip and lie.”

It’s not about limiting your kindness, it’s about having strict boundaries and setting them when needed and being loyal to your boundaries.

Toxic and abusive people will see you being loyal to your boundaries as disrespect to them, as being unkind to them. You’re not being unkind or insensitive, you’re loving yourself loudly and confidently as you should.

#my text #actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #codependency #recovering codependent #actually bpd #actually ptsd #actually abused #actually anxious #actually traumatised #actuallymentallyill #actually disabled #actually traumatized #actually mentally ill #got the quote from someone online #describes me perfectly #gaslighting awareness #gaslighting #gaslit

[psychiatricwarfare]

i dont understand why people yell at me when i say im slow (mentally), i mean it. its not derogatory or offensive unless YOU use it that way. i am slow. it takes me longer to understand and process things than most do, thats literally what being mentally slow means

#disabled #reclaiming #dpdr #dissociative #actually dissociative #osdd #(<- potentially) #mentally disabled #neurodivergent #actually autistic #actually adhd #actually traumatised #ptsd #just because a term was originally meant to be derogatory doesnt mean i cant reclaim it for myself if it fits #its a term i can use and most NTs will understand what i mean #without lots of explanation #i dont get something right away? #i just apologise and say 'im Actually slow' and they understand #cus NTs know what that means #even if they themselves dont use the term theyve heard it before #its so infuriating to me when i enter disabled spaces and use language that feels right for me #just to get yelled at for using ableist language #there is nothing ableist about being realistic to MY experiences #i am slow #and thats OKAY #b talks

[worms-in-my-brain]

Abusive friendships need to be discussed more.

If you have a friend that lies to you, excludes you, doesn’t respect your boundaries, does not make themselves a safe person to say ‘no’ to or otherwise criticise, refuses to take responsibility for their actions, if they force you to therapize them but then drop you the moment something else comes along, if they recurrently threaten suicide—they are abusing you.

All of the above are personal experiences I dealt with. In fact, they are likely what led to my symptoms of conduct disorder to stabilise into ASPD.

Friendship abuse is real and traumatising.

Just because it’s a friend telling you they’d kill themselves if it weren’t for you being in their life and not a romantic partner doesn’t mean it’s suddenly okay. Just because it’s a friend who is making undue and invasive comments about your body and life and not a family member doesn’t make it okay.

#trauma #actually traumatised #actually traumatized #aspd #actually aspd #aspd safe #cluster b safe #abuse

[unstablemotions]

Reminder: it is not "a waste of time" or "unproductive" to do something you find fun or relaxing. It is taking care of your body and mind. So don't feel guilty for having hobbies, going on a trip, taking a nap or binging youtube. You deserve to have that

Your worth is not the profit your can make for others. Your worth is innate. You deserve to be happy

#this is also for myself honestly #actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #actuallyneglected #actuallytraumatised #actually traumatised #actually traumatized #actually abused #actually neglected #trauma recovery #pro recovery #my posts #personal

[psychopathic-safe-space]

Forever angry at how my needs went completely ignored and unmet for so long.

Angry at how I was treated as a child. How having sensory meltdowns was met with punishment instead of compassion. How I was hit because I, “wouldn’t behave.” Makes so much sense that I would go on to develop two different fucking disorders often related to neglect and abuse.

#trauma #actually traumatized #actually traumatised #aspd #cluster b #actually cluster b #actually aspd #aspd safe #actually antisocial #actually low empathy #actually dissociative #osddid

[im-traumatised]

This came to me out of sheer curiosity. I'm sorry to everyone who has been hurt you deserve better...

#aceofdragons #tumblr polls #actually traumatised #actually traumatized

[killabeeblog]

My childhood trauma didn't make me stronger. it made me a people pleaser. it made me forgive way too much. it made me not speak when i'm supposed to. it made me an extreme empath.

#sadnees #feelings #love #thoughts #past #leave the world behind #childhood #childhood quotes #traumatic experience #traumatic childhood #im traumatised #actually traumatised #actually traumatized #trauma #never forget #forgetting #forget #life quotes #empathy #stronger #my weakness #weaknesses #serious weakness #weak #self image #self worth #self help #self portrait #self care #love yourself

[thetoytroupe]

This is a shout-out post to those who:

Still live with their abusers and are unable to begin their healing journey because their abuse is ongoing.

Are disabled and will have to live with their abusive parents for the rest of their lives because they aren't capable of living alone.

Suffered trauma that is often seen as "invalid" or "not bad enough," such as verbal abuse, COCSA, forced masking, etc.

Suffered lots of severe, prolonged abuse but have a small system headcount, or vice versa. Numbers do not equate to severity or validity.

Became abusers themselves due to how they were abused, whether it was accidental/ignorance or a programmed response.

Are diagnosed with OSDD but aren't a system. I am sorry you are always left out of the conversation, people with subtypes other than OSDD-1.

Desperately need but have no access to therapy, or have had terrible experiences with therapy in the past.

Have only recently realised their experiences were traumatic or otherwise unusual and are learning how to cope with that.

You're all so strong. We see you.

#ptsd #osdd #tw abuse #osddid #did #pdid #cptsd #actually plural #tw sa #actually traumatised #trauma #actually dissociative #actually traumatized #actually mentally ill

[acorpsecalledcorva]

I legitimately don't know how people talk about their alters so much. You mean to tell me your head isn't completely consumed by static the second you even entertain the possibility of sharing a detail about them???

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#sysblr #actually did #system things #actually traumatised #did system #system community

[nikitasys]

I am so mad at certain family members for "protecting themselves" (basically by looking the other way) from my trauma & the suffering it entails.

I am angry because I don't have that privilege.

I don't have the luxury to choose to protect myself from hearing/talking about it.

I don't have the luxury to just ignore the pain.

I have no choice but to feel the gaping wound all the damn time.

— Kita, host/caretaker

#system stuff #did stuff #dissociative identity disorder #did osdd #actually did #plural gang #plural community #did system #multiplicity #plural system #traumagenic system #trauma healing #trauma #trauma processing #trauma recovery #actually traumatised

[traumatizedjaguar]

“The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling."

- Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace.

#depression #depressed #actually traumatized #actually cptsd #actually abused #actuallyabused #actuallytraumatized #actually ptsd #actually traumatised #actuallymentallyill #suicidal #sui vent #sui mention #tw sui #tw sui ideation #tw sui implied #suicide #tw depressive #cptsd #tw depression #depressing quotes #david foster wallace #mental illness quotes #glad I don’t relate to it as badly anymore things have definitely gotten better for me in recent years #emotional flashbacks #cptsd flashback

[rubyjaneaxx]

i tried to give wattpad another chance and now i’m traumatised 🤕

#sturniolo #jake webber #chris sturniolo #matt sturniolo #nick sturniolo #johnnie guilbert x reader #sturniolo x reader #tara yummy #wattpad #carrington #fanfic #actually traumatised #send help

[thoschsass]

Made a tactical mistake of not reading the tags properly. Halfway through the fic I was wondering why it is ME who is giving the Master a bj.

I’m just gonna pretend that the Reader is a character.

#thoschei #the master #the doctor #actually traumatised #The Master/The Reader

[unstablemotions]

i've recently learned that it is not normal to only have nightmares! it will in fact make people worried about you when you casually mention it! just a fun fact i learned at age 27

#i may be stoopid #actuallymentallyill #actuallytraumatized #actuallytraumatised #actuallynd #actuallyneurodivergent #actuallyptsd #actuallycptsd #actually mentally ill #actually traumatized #actually traumatised #actually nd #actually neurodivergent #actually ptsd #actually cptsd #my posts #personal #trauma memes #nd memes #ptsd memes #cptsd memes #mental illness memes

[reidiot]

i just want a cute little apartment, daily trips to the bookstore, late lunches while i'm watching people rushing to go places, i wanna buy plants and decorate my bathroom, i wanna bake cookies and watch gillmore girls in my fave pjs. i wanna go for night drives, i wanna feel the wind caressing my skin and i wanna hear the universe whispering in my ear 'you've got this.'

#life #thoughts #way of life #life quotes #random thoughts #actually traumatised #idk lol #academic life #academic validation #bookstore #bookworm #booklr #faithful #universe #dark academia #quotes by me #journal #journal entry #it do be like that #guidence #not alone #existential thoughts #existential crisis #in my 20s #why do i do this to myself #darling of tumblr #should i stay or should i go #writing #gilmore girls #aesthetic

[prehistoric-faggot]

#vent #mental health #trauma #actually traumatised #cptsd #ptsd #actually ptsd #actually cptsd #mental illness