#actually traumatized

[mysticalhottubstarfish]

Everyday I try to look at cute Leon Kennedy stuff there is ALWAYS. And I mean ALWAYS some disgusting incest, or like non-con type shit. LIKE HELLO???? WHAT TF ARE YALL ON?! WHAT IN THE SWEET HOME ALABAMA 😭. I just want cute Leon Kennedy stuff but yall are FREAKS with being turned on and writing about incest, abuse, and non-con. About an extremely traumatized character is actually crazy. 😭😭😭

#leon kennedy #leon kennedy x reader #resident evil #resident evil 4 #resident evil 2 #resident evil leon #resident evil leon kennedy #why are yall like this #actually traumatized #wtf is wrong with people

[chronicallyonlinesworld]

#bpd stuff #bpd #actually bpd #bpd feels #bpd life #bpd blog #actually traumatized #childhood trauma

[the-jesus-pill]

You’ve got to forgive yourself for being traumatized and needing to learn how to function again. 

Recovery isn’t always nightmares and depression, it’s forgetting to eat, being scared of what others might see as completely normal things, it’s getting random panic attacks, not knowing how to take care of yourself, not knowing how to live like an adult, even if you’re twenty, thirty, forty, fifty, of feeling like you’re failing to function in a world where everyone seems to have their shit together. 

If you need help, ask for it. Go to forums and ask for advice. Take advantage of community resources. Buy pre-sliced veggies and fruits, eat instant meals if you can’t cook for yourself today. Hire someone. Ask a neighbor for a favor. Buy any item you think might make life easier, even if you feel like you aren’t ‘disabled’ enough to have it. 

Some of the depression posts (ie open your windows, take a shower, go outside, call a friend) are really helpful but they’re not always enough. I’ve found advice for spoonies, people with chronic pain or other disabilities have the best tips because they know what it’s like to be bedridden, out of energy, stuck in a brain fog. 

You may never return back to the energy you had when you were younger and you might always need to use crutches to help you through life. It’s the same with medication. 

Trauma is a real thing that happens to you, it physically alters your brain and it’s alright to have lasting scars. 

You’re not broken, your life is not over and you can still be happy. 

It’s not your fault.

#felix speaks #trauma #recovery #deconversion #ex cult #ex religious #ptsd #cptsd #healing #disabled #actually traumatized #spoonies #things i need to remind myself with too #it sucks to have to come to terms with the fact #but youll be so much better off once you stop denying yourself the help you need #also re: buying items meant for the disabled #do it! #you are not taking resources away #if you need it you need it #and the more in demand these items are the better theyll be made in the future

[actuallyverynormalbtw]

realizing youre Real is .weird,,

like you can exist for Years??? never noticing??? never thinking about Yourself. assuming you are the host, or assuming you are another alter.

it is WEIRD to sit there with your morning coffee, having a conversation, and just suddenly the stars align . and you realize how different you are from "you" . you realize you werent "you", you were actually YOU the whole time.

I KNOW THIS DOESNT MAKE SENSE BUT I HOPE SOMEONE GETS IT

#traumagenic system #endos pls dni w this #actually DID #did osdd #did system #did alter #polyfragmented #polyfrag system #actually traumatized #osddid #actually plural #endos dni

[unstablemotions]

Hey, you! You who suspect you might have PTSD, DID or another trauma disorder, but you think you didn't experience trauma "bad enough" to have developed a mental disorder from it? Let me suggest looking at it differently:

"If there's smoke, there's fire"

Do you experience symptoms of PTSD, such as hypervigilance, trouble sleeping, flashbacks, memory problems, dissociation, ect? Then yes, it was "bad enough". Maybe you don't remember anything "really bad" happening or you don't "feel like" it affects you, but listen to your body. The body remembers and the body doesn't care if you think it is "stupid" or "weak" to have a panic attack when someone touches you or that you still have nightmares about that thing you saw when you were 4 years old

Trauma isn't what happened. Trauma is the reaction to what happened. So what I'm trying to say is that if the reason you think you can't have PTSD/DID/OSDD/ect is because you didn't go through anything horrific enough for that, then maybe forget about what happened to you for a moment and just look at the evidence your body and mind are showing. And then, most importantly, be compassionate with yourself. You're going through a lot and it's gonna be okay in the end. Take it easy, okay? <3

#posting now instead of forgetting it in a draft per usual #actually traumatized #actually ptsd #actually did #actually cptsd #actually cdd #actually osdd #actually dissociative #actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #actuallydissociative #actuallydid #actuallycdd #actuallyptsd #actuallycptsd #actuallyosdd #personal #my posts

[disorderly]

When you've been told your whole life that expressing any emotional reaction is dramatic so now you can't tell the difference between whether or not your emotional reaction to something is dramatic or normal

#bpd #vent #bpd vent #bpd problems #bpd things #actually bpd #borderline personality disorder #traumatized #actually traumatized

[enchantingducktheorist]

"my brain said"

Translation: an alter said something funny that I must share with you

#mental health #dissociative identity disorder #did system #actually did #did alter #endos dni #plural system #plurality #traumagenic did #did osdd #system memes #dissociative system #system stuff #traumagenic system #sysblr #sysblur #actually mentally ill #actually multiple #actually traumatized #actually dissociative #actually plural #actually traumagenic #did memes #did humor #did host #system problems #system humor #plural things #plural community #plural memes

[growing-home]

i feel like we don’t always talk about the smaller ways that having a dissociative disorder (and not being “out” about it) can really disable a person— i’m in a choir, and idk how to explain to the musical director that SOMETIMES i am a soprano and have no trouble hitting high notes while other times i feel like i physically cannot sing that high. or how sometimes my guitar feels like an extension of my body but sometimes i don’t even remember how i’m supposed to hold it properly. or in art therapy when i only sometimes have access to my adult level of artistic skill while sometimes i have the skill level of a five year old. my dissociative disorder very much disables me, and this is something i don’t see people talking about outside of the ways that PTSD disables those with dissociative disorders. what i mean is that sometimes i do not have the ability to do very basic tasks. dissociative disorders are developmental disorders, and i am very much developmentally disabled much of the time.

i don’t plan on ever being publicly out about my dissociative disorder in a non anonymous setting. i have a hard time even talking about my parts in therapy even to the clinician that diagnosed me with DID. it feels unbearably vulnerable and not safe to tell people about my parts. i feel like we’re seeing more and more people on tik tok start talking publicly about their DID, and while that may be very helpful for them, i honestly can’t imagine ever being fully out with it like that. keeping it secret is what has kept me safe, it is how i survived the last twenty years of my life. my experience with DID also does not line up with most of the DID content i’ve seen online— and i don’t mean this to invalidate those whose experiences are different than mine, it’s just that it can feel really lonely and isolating to have a dissociative disorder that doesn’t fit with the worlds preconceived image of what a dissociative disorder looks like. this is part of why i typically just say that i have dissociative disorder instead of DID.

tldr: dissociative disorders can really impair basic functioning and i feel like people forget that when they focus so much on the parts of DID that are more sensationalized in the media.

#i hope someone out there relates to this #DID #dissociative identity disorder #actually dissociative #dissociative disorder #dissociative disorders #did osdd #osdd #actually traumatized #did system #actually did #my words #mine

[love-me-love-my-weirdness]

Shout out to the people who never had a safe place. Who didn’t have a before trauma. Who were loved but not protected. Who were collateral damage in someone else’s breakdown. Who got fucked up so young that they’ll never know who they could have been.

Shout out to people who’ve never felt safe. I hope you do someday.

#npd #cluster b #did #actually dissociative #trauma #trauma recovery #cptsd #complex ptsd #ptsd #actually traumagenic #actually traumatized #actually narcissistic #child abuse #abuse

[muttgirl]

I am not that fifteen year old girl anymore.

#mine #my stuff #oddcore #weirdcore #corecore #schoolcore #traumacore art #trauma edit #sickcore #liminal spaces #liminalcore #dreamcore #unreality tw #ventcore #actuallymentallyill #actually traumatized #backroomscore #trauma vent #actuallyabused

[disqualified-human-1103]

I’m sick of going to bed and knowing things won’t be better tomorrow

#bpd vent #actually bpd #actually borderline #bpd feels #actually traumatized #bpd shit #bpd stuff #depressing post #personal vent #trauma survivor #bpd favorite person #tw abuse #bpd fp

[tryingtogetaway]

me when i realize that the media i consume during bad times that makes me feel seen and understood is also making me wrongly believe that refusing to let anyone in is a reasonable coping skill, fueling my self-hatred, and worsening my ability to be vulnerable with the people i care about:

#i had to stop listening to car seat headrest when i decided i wanted to get better #vulnerability #fleabag #bojack horseman #normal people #a little life #phoebe bridgers #car seat headrest #csh #sharp objects #skins #euphoria #coping #coping mechanism #childhood trauma #actually traumatized #bpd #actually bpd #bpd stuff #bpd problems #actually borderline #anxious attachment #attachment issues #cptsd thoughts #just cptsd things #actually cptsd #ptsd #actually ptsd #actually autistic #traumatized autistic

[screaming-heart]

when you’re healing, you will fuck up. maybe you’ll relapse, maybe you’ll do something you know is gonna hurt you, maybe you’ll deprive yourself of something you need, whatever. but healing isn’t linear, its wibbly wobbly and weird. you’re not terrible for messing up, you’re not terrible for not being ready to move forward, you’re not terrible for not being perfect. you still deserve healing, and you still deserve respect.

#osdd system #actually did #dissociative identity disorder #trauma shit #trauma #The Colony Talks #childhood trauma #DID System #actually osdd #actually traumatized

[inbredlamb]

Mother ✞

#appalachain mountains #appalachian gothic #southern goth aesthetic #southern gothic #southern style #occult #occultism #religious trauma #ethel cain #mother cain #ethel cain live #ethel cain photography #mother cain our queen #preachers daughter #sons of cain #actually traumatized #trailer #queen of the gas station #american gothic