#actually cptsd

[wheelie-sick]

Based on the final lines of Dante's Inferno, walking through hell and reaching the other side

[ID: a digital art piece done with a sketchy style. a wheelchair user with medium length black hair looks up at stars in the sky. he has a slight smile. he's wearing a black t shirt with a skull on it. he has his left arm out stretched and his right arm tucked behind his wheelchair, his left arm has many scars on it. surrounding him are the words "where we came forth and once more saw the stars"]

this piece is a reminder to myself that there is another side of hell, that you can walk out and see the stars again. I first saw this quote from Dante's Inferno used to signify healing in a memoir about depression I read for one of my classes, it stuck with me. I've been thinking about it ever since and decided to draw something based on the quote and this particular usage of it.

I messed around with some different brushes for texture this time, it was fun

‼️ Reblogs okay but do not trigger tag my scars ‼️

#digital art #actually OCD #actuallyOCD #actuallyCPTSD #actually CPTSD #actuallyPTSD #actually PTSD #neurodivergent

[recoverr]

i don't know who needs to hear this, but guilt, self-hatred and shame are not sustainable sources of growth and healing. you can't hate yourself into feeling better, or being better. you can't repeatedly punish yourself for your flawed humanity and expect wholesome results.

#mental health #recovery #self care #self love #positivity #reminders #healing #be kind to yourself #actually mentally ill #cptsd #actually cptsd #recovery suggestion #trauma survivor #trauma recovery #mine.

[starfishinthedistance]

I talk to many people who say things like "oh I have trauma but I don't have PTSD", but then when I talk to them a little more I realize that they most likely do, they just can't recognize it as such due to how lacking PTSD awareness is, even beyond the whole "it's not just a veteran's disorder" thing.

The main reason they think they don't have PTSD usually has to do with flashbacks and nightmares, either they have one but not the other or have neither. But here's the thing, those are only two symptoms out of the 23-odd recognized symptoms. Flashbacks and nightmares are two of the five symptoms under Criterion B (Intrusion), which you only need one of for a diagnosis. The other three symptoms are unwanted upsetting memories, emotional distress after being reminded of trauma and physical reactivity after being reminded of trauma (i.e. shaking, sweating, heart racing, feeling sick, nauseous or faint, etc). Therefore you can have both flashbacks and nightmares, one but not the other, or neither and still have PTSD.

In fact, a lot of the reasons people give me for why they don't think they have PTSD are literally a part of the diagnostic criteria.

"Oh, I can barely remember most parts of my trauma anyway." Criterion D (Negative Alterations in Cognition and Mood) includes inability to recall key features of the trauma.

"Oh but I don't get upset about my trauma that often because I avoid thinking of it or being around things that remind me of it most of the time." Criterion C (Avoidance) includes avoiding trauma-related thoughts or feelings and avoiding trauma-related external reminders, and you literally cannot get diagnosed if you don't have at least one of those two symptoms.

"Oh I just have trouble getting to sleep or staying asleep, but I don't have nightmares." Criterion E (Alterations in Arousal and Reactivity) includes difficulting sleeping outside of nightmares.

"But I didn't have many/any trauma symptoms until a long time after the trauma happened." There's literally an entire specification for that.

Really it just shows how despite being one of the most well-known mental illnesses, people really don't know much about PTSD. If you have trauma, I ask you to at least look at the criteria before you decide you don't have PTSD. Hell, even if you don't have trauma, look at the criteria anyway because there are so many symptoms in there that just are not talked about.

PTSD awareness is not just about flashbacks and nightmares.

#ptsd #post traumatic stress disorder #cptsd #complex post traumatic stress disorder #complex ptsd #trauma #actually ptsd #actually cptsd #mental illness #mental health #mental health awareness #ptsd awareness #cptsd awareness #neurodivergent #ptsd thoughts #awareness #important #mentally ill #actually mentally ill #psychology

[honeypleasejustkillme]

who else mourning the person they could've been if they were treated kindly as a child

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd #bpd fp #actually borderline #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #bpd problems #bpd vent #bpd mood #actually cptsd #childhood trauma #if only i was treated better as a child #maybe i wouldn’t be so fucked up now

[ed-recoverry]

To anyone who was suicidal at age 14 or younger, here’s your permission to grieve. Here’s your permission to not joke about it or just flat out ignore it. Here’s your permission to acknowledge that lost child who felt way more pain than any child should ever feel. You’re allowed to cry for that child, whether you healed or are still suffering the same thoughts. Finally allow yourself to grieve for that child filled with undeserved hurt.

#I feel like I’ve never done this and I want to start to #mental health #positivity #self care #mental illness #self help #recovery #pro recovery #ed recovery #pro a4a #ed bllog #ed not sherran #skinnni #actually cptsd #actuallytraumatized #actually dissociative #actually ptsd #mental health awareness #childhood trauma #traumacore #bpd #i wanna be weightless #self h@rm #baby cvts #self mutilation #self destruction #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #mentally fucked

[gh0stgirl-hotline]

Born to love cursed to be unlovable

#tw bpd vent #tw bpd #bpd #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #tw ptsd #tw trauma #ptsd #love #heartbreak #actually cptsd #actually borderline #boarderline personality disorder

[flittermousemoth]

Self-aware of my self-destruction, yet unable to stop myself.

#bpd problems #bpd #bpd memes #fearful avoidant #fearful avoidant attachment #avoidant attachment #cluster b problems #ptsd #actually cptsd #actually bpd #self destruction #self aware queen #self sabotage

[to0needy]

i don’t know who i am anymore, there’s too many versions of “me”

#borderline #borderline personality disorder #borderline thoughts #bpd #bpd vent #actually bpd #tw ptsd #actually ptsd #bpd feels #bpd thoughts #borderline things #bpd shit #bpd mood #bpd problems #ptsd vent #ptsd problems #cptsd vent #actually cptsd #tw depressing stuff

[unstablemotions]

Hey, you! You who suspect you might have PTSD, DID or another trauma disorder, but you think you didn't experience trauma "bad enough" to have developed a mental disorder from it? Let me suggest looking at it differently:

"If there's smoke, there's fire"

Do you experience symptoms of PTSD, such as hypervigilance, trouble sleeping, flashbacks, memory problems, dissociation, ect? Then yes, it was "bad enough". Maybe you don't remember anything "really bad" happening or you don't "feel like" it affects you, but listen to your body. The body remembers and the body doesn't care if you think it is "stupid" or "weak" to have a panic attack when someone touches you or that you still have nightmares about that thing you saw when you were 4 years old

Trauma isn't what happened. Trauma is the reaction to what happened. So what I'm trying to say is that if the reason you think you can't have PTSD/DID/OSDD/ect is because you didn't go through anything horrific enough for that, then maybe forget about what happened to you for a moment and just look at the evidence your body and mind are showing. And then, most importantly, be compassionate with yourself. You're going through a lot and it's gonna be okay in the end. Take it easy, okay? <3

#posting now instead of forgetting it in a draft per usual #actually traumatized #actually ptsd #actually did #actually cptsd #actually cdd #actually osdd #actually dissociative #actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #actuallydissociative #actuallydid #actuallycdd #actuallyptsd #actuallycptsd #actuallyosdd #personal #my posts

[systemofmemes]

#actually cptsd #trauma memes #bpd meme #just cptsd things #system memes #tags how we read the meme #as always anything can be read differently by different people depending on what theyre bringing to it #a meme gives as it needs and takes not what it doesnt

[nothing0fnothing]

being like this and living with someone who doesn't understand is so hard.

#narcissistic abuse #parental abuse #cptsd life #complex trauma #just cptsd things #actually cptsd #cptsd recovery #living with cptsd #cptsd problems #mental health #mentally fucked #actually mentally ill #overwhelmed #therapy #coping #mental illness

[interruptedsblog]

I feel empty, I feel a hole in my chest while sadness and anguish are invading me. I don't have enough strength to get up, move, concentrate and eat.

#bpd #mental illness #actually cptsd #just cptsd things #mental health #ptsd #cptsd vent #intrusive thoughts #trauma #tw vent #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff #sorry for being depressing #anxienty #stress #csa vent #bpd vent #vent post #vent

[yourhealingjournal]

i read this post about someone simply accepting their depression is not going to go away & instead of resenting themselves for never getting rid of it or trying to find so much energy to banish the sadness away or to be fully "healed" from it, they just focus on adding more happy things in their plate.

and that is something i can resonate with.

#might not resonate with many. might not even be the hopeful amazing tone i usually keep up in this blog #but something clicked so #be kind to yourself #cptsd recovery #trauma recovery #actually traumatized #just cptsd things #living with cptsd #actually cptsd #bpd recovery #actually mentally ill #actually borderline #rose.txt

[anexperimentallife]

#audhd #neurodivergent #actually audhd #adhd #autistic #actually autistic #actually adhd #tbi #traumatic brain injury #ptsd #actually cptsd

[ed-recoverry]

Shoutout to people who “just” have anxiety and depression. I’m sorry the severity of your disorders are downplayed. I know from personal experience, when I was dealing with “just” anxiety and depression, that this was something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. Depression is severe. Anxiety is severe. There is no “just” anxiety and depression.

#mental health #positivity #self care #mental illness #self help #recovery #pro recovery #ed recovery #actually cptsd #actuallytraumatized #sad #sadcore #sadnees #sad thoughts #heartbreak #mentally ill #ana trigger #body positivity #body positive #self h@rm #trauma #childhood trauma #traumacore #depressing quotes #depressing shit #self mutilation #baby cvts #actuallyabused #actually anxious #actuallymentallyill

[explodingsaturn]

maybe i should just stop talking. i want all of my secrets back.

#cw #tw #tw selfhate #tw self destructive thoughts #self h@te #self h@rm #ed bllog #actually ptsd #actually cptsd #actually traumatized #actually mentally ill #trauma #trauma vent #tw abuse