#actually neglected

[traaumaa]

i give up

#despite peoples approval it will never be enough i'll always think they're lying #they only say nice things bc they dont really know me #im the one with myself 24/7 i know the disgusting person i am #mine #traumacore #trauma #actuallymentallyill #actuallytraumatized #pink #actuallybpd #actuallyborderline #actuallyneglected #actually neglected #actually bpd #bpd #i hate myself

[ed-recoverry]

This post exempts you from any and all “If you don’t ___ this, ____ will happen.” You are hereby immune to it all. You are now protected! Be free!

#I know it stills gets me a bit anxious every time I see it so figured I’d give everyone a pass #mental health #positivity #self care #mental illness #self help #recovery #pro recovery #ed recovery #actually cptsd #actuallytraumatized #actually anxious #actually anxiety #gentle reminders #gentle reminder #wholesome #body positivity #happy #actually traumatized #actually ocd #actuallyocd #actually obsessive #happiness #actually mentally ill #actually disabled #actuallydid #actuallymentallyill #actually autistic #actually neglected #actuallyneglected

[unstablemotions]

Reminder: it is not "a waste of time" or "unproductive" to do something you find fun or relaxing. It is taking care of your body and mind. So don't feel guilty for having hobbies, going on a trip, taking a nap or binging youtube. You deserve to have that

Your worth is not the profit your can make for others. Your worth is innate. You deserve to be happy

#this is also for myself honestly #actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #actuallyneglected #actuallytraumatised #actually traumatised #actually traumatized #actually abused #actually neglected #trauma recovery #pro recovery #my posts #personal

[small-but-mightyy]

#my art #okay to rb #vent #vent art #trauma #childhood trauma #mentally ill #anger #all my rage #actuallyabused #actually traumatized #actually dissociative #actually neglected #actually borderline #traumacore #ventcore #complex trauma

[something-existing-somewhere]

I wake up with less than 0 energy, I feel like I'm literally dying every day but still I have to live to survive. The trauma I've been repressing for years is finally catching up to me physically.

#chronic pain #fibromyalgia #actually mentally ill #chronic illness #aroace agender #spoonie #chronic fatigue #disability #actually disabled #chronic disability #actually cptsd #complex ptsd #actually neglected #childhood neglect #actually traumatized #tw abuse #tw death

[traumatizedjaguar]

Having emotionally immature parents is so draining, it’s draining to have parents who live their lives in the most boring, un-engaging way. I feel sorry and guilty for them but like it’s the truth. There’s no emotional empathy, there’s no emotional connection or engagement. There’s no intimacy, I’ve noticed it’s just who they are because they can’t do it with anyone. Every abuser is like this. The conversations are bland, the only things they’re capable of is manipulating others, using unnecessary stupid charm because they’re only out for people to like them, and being fake with “deep” topics about aliens or science, oooo, but it comes off SO OBVIOUSLY FAKE, THE INTIMACY OF THESE “deep” CONVERSATIONS COMES OFF SO FAKE, and it’s because they only bring it up because “normies do it” and then cut it off too quickly, are bland even talking about “deep” topics, and so it comes off obviously fake because it is fucking fake. Because they lack emotional connection to you. You end up with chronic emptiness and feelings of being like a void or zombie around them. It sucks. There’s no deep discussions about feelings, emotions, or deeper things you’d engage with a person about, getting emotionally invested in each others lives. Abusers can’t do intimacy. They are boring beyond boring; the lack of emotional connection they don’t have for you.

YOU NEED EMOTIONAL CONNECTION WITH YOUR KID TO RAISE THEM HEALTHY AND TO MAKE SURE THEY AREN’T NEGLECTED!

Holy fuck they are so fake and superficial. And they have the fake ass annoying glib being all fluent and voluble but insincere and shallow.

They are:

Insincere,

Shallow,

Fake,

And manipulative

That sounds like every abuser and who wants to be around that shit? Fuck them

I can’t stand shallow people theyre boring. The superficial charm wears off so quick then it’s right back to getting rid of their asses like they’re nothing.

I can’t stand fake people.

Fuck fake people. Our world needs a cleansing.

Bring back the floods lmao im serious.

#my text #trauma talk #let’s talk childhood abuse rn #neglect #cptsd #ptsd #actually neglected #actually bpd #actually abused #actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #actually cptsd #cptsd problems #cptsd vent #childhood abuse #traumatic #traumatized #abusive home life #parental abuse #emotionally immature parents #actually borderline #borderline pd #borderline personality disorder #cptsd symptoms #cptsd life #actually traumatized #actually bullied #fake ass people #superficial charm #traumacore

[theunknownrecipient]

You have to talk to me 24/7 or I'll think you're abandoning me.

#emotional abuse #abuse survivor #actually mentally ill #actually traumatized #mentally fucked #narcissistic abuse #tw abuse #abandoment issues #abandoned #actually neglected #fear of abandonment #heartbreak

[angryshards]

I SHOULDNT HAVE HAD TO GROW UP LIKE THAT!

I SHOULD HAVE HAD PEACE

I SHOULD HAVE HAD COMFORT

I SHOULD HAVE HAD A CHILDHOOD

#actually traumatized #anger #cptsd culture is #cptsdsurvivor #cptsd #actually neglected #actually abused

[medicated-fairy]

I was a child once

every single day I was a child,

I wanted to die.

I'm an adult now

every single day I have to find purpose

to stay alive, for I didn't think

I would make it this far.

#traumacore #sheep talks #ventcore #actually traumatized #actuallymentallyill #actuallyabused #actually neglected #childhood trauma #suicidal #suicide thoughts

[nagisama]

Spent my birthday inna hospital 2/22

#lgbtq #goth girl #alternative #gothcore #goth aesthetic #emo girl #emocore #goth boi clique #goth boy #gothic #ignored #actually neglected #birthday #happy birthday

[catatombi2]

3/20/19-6/19/19 they're just busy

waiting. waiting. waiting waiting im waiting, ive been waiting, all i do it wait where is the end. im waiting for it to end. i want it to end, i want to end will i be let out, will i see more than this. im getting sicker, throwing up. so much vomit. my leg was weeping i am weeping, the pain is too much, my skin is disintegrating, it smells, it smells it smells, do i smell? my leg smells. its my fault, its my fault, i was asleep, its my fault i cannot control it, i should control what i cant, so its my fault he made me go to the ER, he demanded i do, my leg was weeping, i was weeping, the surgeon thought i was dying i should've been dying, i could've been dying and i'd still be blamed. because it was my fault i was sick waiting for it to end, i want it to end, where is the end, i want to go, please let me go, it shouldve taken me years ago

why are you smoking, why are you high, why wont you feed me, why cant i sleep yet, why does my leg smell, why cant i have my medication, why cant i leave, why cant i be bathed, im itchy, why wont you believe me when i say im suffering

im writhing and you are watching i should be thankful

#vent art #ventart #blood #tw blood #tw gore #tw death #tw injury #tw animal injury #fursona #furry #neglect #neglected #tw neglect #actuallyneglected #actually neglected #medical neglect #abuse #catatombi

[unstablemotions]

Shout out to my dad who turned down the diva interview with me and made my mom (whom I deliberately didn't ask bc she's abusive) do it because "i dont remember much about you as a child" when he fucking lived with me until I was 22 :)

#childhood neglect #childhood abuse #actuallyabused #actually neglected #parental abuse #parental neglect #absent father #abusive mother #actuallytraumatized #my posts #personal #actuallyneglected #actually abused

[small-but-mightyy]

#my words #not my art can’t find source #vent art #vent edit #implied child abuse #cptsd #ptsd #bpd #did osdd #trauma #childhood trauma #mentally ill #actually traumatized #actually traumagenic #actually abused #actually abandoned #actually neglected #actuallydissociative #severe trauma #ventcore #traumacore

[alostlittleriverlotus]

cw slight trauma dump

My mother described how she's experience brain fog and I forget the other thing from her getting over COVID and I just laughed and said "I experience that 24/7."

She did not hear me as expected. I had to phrase it as a joke so she would actually hear me and she didn't. Cause I've flat out said that's what I have before and she doesn't hear.

Joke or serious, when I bring up something concerning, she ignores. That's why when my friend goes "that's concerning" I just kind of go "OuO I mean, it's just normal."

I'm literally so used to not being validated that my experiences are abnormal that when someone actually does it, I want to deny it.

We do love neglect UwU

This is why I can only express my pain in the form of jokes. At least I'm getting better with being aware and knowing what's normal and what's not. Disabled community really helped there.

#light hearted #I make jokes to show my pain #actually traumatized #actually neglected #actually disabled #invisible disability #this is why I value my friends so much #brain fog #chronic fatigue #chronic pain #chronic illness #slight trauma dump #cw trauma dump

[traumatizedjaguar]

Do you peeps ever like start tremoring when writing about your childhood trauma?

#my text #actuallybullied #actuallyabused #actuallytraumatized #actuallymentallyill #actually neurodivergent #actually neglected #actually bpd #actually cptsd #tremors #okie glad im not the only one #familial abuse #family abuse #parental abuse #sibling abuse #I only had one cousin apologize to me #the other cousins are shit #and the aunts are shit #and the fam is shit in general #lol

[liquidpaperfoundation]

This is what my mother does.

#Hoarder #actually neglected #Hoarder house #hoardercore