129 notes
·
View notes
I want to retreat into my notebooks and live in the solace of my words. Maybe I always wanted to live in my mind.
28 notes
·
View notes
Seitdem du mich verlassen hast
fühl ich mich auf einem verkehrten Planeten
grundlos wie im Meer treten
finde mich ins Leere beten
hab dir doch mein ganzes Herz gegeben
und dennoch nicht gereicht
jedes meiner Gefühle gab ich dir in vollen Zügen
aber wenn mein gesamtes Herz zu wenig ist
wie soll ich jemals irgendwem genügen?
18 notes
·
View notes
my own muse.
my own inspiration.
my own best friend.
my own lover.
my own mentor.
my own student.
my own experience.
my own version.
my own journey.
my own destination.
my own heart.
my only self.
8 notes
·
View notes
In a house where echoes whispered lies,
She learned to dance beneath judgmental skies.
Narcissistic shadows, looming tall,
In their shallow world, she felt so small.
Alone she stood, with no one to hold,
In the silence, her story untold.
Emotionally immature, their hearts remained,
Leaving her in darkness, feeling drained.
But through the tears, she found her might,
In the depths of loneliness, she saw the light.
With each step forward, she broke free,
From the chains of their toxicity.
No longer defined by their cruel decree,
She blossomed into who she's meant to be.
In her own strength, she found her way,
A survivor of darkness, now thriving each day.
-NLee
2 notes
·
View notes
*Stitched Me* by Bron Rauk-Mitchell [text + image versions]
he loved only these specific parts of me,
and hated everything else about me, so,
I cut away the unloved parts,
and discarded them in the trash;
stitching together everything else that remained …
but this Frankenstein’s monster no longer appealed to him, so,
he threw me in the trash, with those unloved parts,
and went off in search of other parts to love.
23.07.2021
2 notes
·
View notes
i want to apologize to all the women (after rupi kaur)
i want to apologize to all the women
who have been made to believe that their spirits cannot crush mountains
i’m sorry for the ways in which your spirit
has been broken piece by piece
but i see the ways in which you have tried to build a mosaic out of what remains
from now on when the world tries to minimize who she is
i will remind the world that she is backbone of life itself
she is galaxies yet to be named and oceans not yet discovered
women are not just strong enough to mold mountains
women are so much more than that
(cc, 2022)
23 notes
·
View notes
Been working through Rupi Kaur's 'Healing through Words' book (at my own pace of course). The activity I'm on challenged to pick from some emotions to write a list poem about. Here is what may be the most raw poem I've written to date.
.
.
.
Grief is
Unexpected
It creeps in from nowhere, quietly
Be gentle with me, please
Such sadness
Overwhelming
The gravity of it all is so heavy
Grief is that inevitable feeling
I don't escape it, it seems
It comes and goes
Now my heart is a ghost town
Grief is consuming
Dense
It covers me
Flows precisely over every wound
Drowning now
Does it ever go away?
Grief
Pain
Guilt
Does it ever go away?
Grief
I'm left here in its wake
Empty
Alone again
Love is knocking
But grief...
Grief is always the one to answer
I just need to get there first.
4 notes
·
View notes
~ working through 'Healing Through Words' by Rupi Kaur
3 notes
·
View notes
Mystery Ink
He walked into my life
A dreamy, mysterious sight
With inked skin and piercing eyes
He left me breathless, mesmerised
His tattoos, like a story told
Of love, loss, and adventures bold
I longed to trace them with my fingers
And unravel all his hidden triggers
But he remained a mystery
His thoughts and feelings shrouded in secrecy
I couldn't help but feel intrigued
By this man who was both wild and meek
He came and went like a fleeting dream
Leaving me with a sense of longing extreme
Yet, I couldn't forget his tattooed allure
And the way his presence made my heart pure.
4 notes
·
View notes
If nothing lasts forever,
why does the pain still persist?
If nothing lasts forever,
how does this love for you still exist?
𝚑𝚎𝚢𝚔𝚒𝚌𝚔𝚛0̷𝚌𝚔𝚜
7 notes
·
View notes
i was all over you
you were too good to be true... when you asked me out that first time I thought you were joking. you told me I was different. you made me feel special. we talked for hours in a crowded bar but it felt like we were alone. you had a strange look in your eyes. maybe you were trying to see right through me. I kept embarrassing myself but that made you laugh. it was the first time I didn’t feel judge for being ‘me’. maybe it was the drink, or maybe it was just you. you had that attitude. letting people think that you were selfless. but I could see it was something else. I kept blushing. I couldn’t look at you in the eyes because I was scared that if I did you’ll see me the way I see myself. you made the night special. I don’t even know how you did it. it was the first time I did not feel anxious to eat in front of someone. that meant a lot for me.
nothing happened when you took me home that night but I liked it even more that way.
I wish you knew why I was scared. I wish you knew why I couldn’t take things as fast as you probably wanted them to be.
when you first kissed me I ruined everything. I was so scared to be bad at it. even though you were not the first boy I had kissed, it was different. with you I didn’t want to ruin everything.
I took things too slow and when you told me you were not ready for a relationship that broke me. not because you were not ready but because I thought I was the problem.
and when you found someone else I felt empty for months. I kept wondering what was wrong with me. but I think the real issue was that I was waiting for you to give me the love I couldn’t give myself. it still hurts to think I was not the one you wanted to settle for but I'm still grateful you made me grow.
2 notes
·
View notes
Some days the waves of sadness hit so hard, I feel like I’m drowning.
But when I finally come up for air, my breath feels deeper than the last.
Moving on hasn’t been easy and I still feel you in my heart, but I’m going on without you.
Something I thought I could never do since the moment I laid my eyes on you.
6.15.22 23:55
2 notes
·
View notes
me + the sun = 🌈
coming into my own space of creating with pleasure, desire, authenticity, and all forms of expressing myself has been the most rewarding part of moving through the emotions that are most difficult for me to move through. shame.
i have always known how much my shame has blocked me from being vulnerable and feeling safe within that. but coming into a space where the shame grows smaller and feeling safe in my vulnerability, sensuality, and sexuality have become where my strengths are is my self-proclaimed super power.
as a scorpio stellium, this did not always feel like the case but is also one of the most obvious ones. navigating through how others may want to perceive me to feel safe within themselves is exhausting and is a misplacement of where my energy, my love, belongs.
- an observation
10 notes
·
View notes
first exercise in rupi kaur’s “healing through words”
what trauma looks like:
my four words/phrases were
1. jumbled mind
2. heart
3. smile
4. dark
The crack in the glass
once perfect, now shattering
into a jumbled mind
A perfect heart, now torn
ripping with every flashback
at the hands of every moment
that is silent and alone
Hidden behind a bright mind
a kind soul
and a sweet smile
After every “good bye” it goes dark once again.
4 notes
·
View notes