I get lost inside my mind: This just means you just don't know what to do and don't know what is the right thing to do. Life can affect people differently, and a depressed person will usually see things worse than what they actually are.
I just remembered Orpheus and Eurydice. And it's such a human thing, to do something against the rules, even if we know the consequences, isn't it. Orpheus knew that he'll never see Eurydice again, if he just waits that one moment till they come out from the underground. And he knew that it wasn't a trick, that she would disappear. Her resurection could have been, but the catch? It would be true. Gods are just like that. And yet he did it. He was so close. He saw the light of the world of alive. So why did he look? In the myth they said he just couldn't wait, that he thought one glance wouldn't be enough. But he wasn't stupid - he menaged to come to Hades and come out, and he wasn't of weak will - it was shit tone of work. So why? I think it's just human nature. We're not ment to follow the rules - who never wanted to do something illigal? Even if just to see if the consequences are true? Sometimes you get away with shoplifting, sometimes they catch you, but the first option is always there. Orpheus knew theoreticaly, that there will be consequences. But he made it so far, he was great! Undefeated! How would Hades know? With how much he could get away?
So he glanced back, at his beloved Eurydice that he heard only steps of. And then she disappeared. And he was alone. And there was no way back, because he broke the deal. He was fully capable of not doing it, and yet his nature made him do the thing he was not supposed to. We do this so often, with small things and get with it away. But what if we make a mistake of doing it in an important moment? What would be our Eurydice, and how could you live with yourself after losing it?
But bowling was fun! I got to enjoy my b-day until I didn't 😌 I'm on medication now which is very new to me.👍 And breathing can be really hard sometimes, but all in all the week has been sad and I've learned a few things. But this link actually made me really happy, he looks like he's havin a good time.🥺
"Jesus!" "Thats too much pressure" "What if a pair of boobs just spawned in front of me" "Sweet!" "Dude." "This might make me get fat. I dont wanna get fat but im hungry as hell" "Im mentally unstable." "Im poor man." "Scissoring..." "Penises." "I could post this on my tumbly" "Oh my god Im turning into Tweek" "Oh my fucking- [insert name of south park character] is so dumb bro"
Framed train ride, blogging thoughts for something,
.. but also craving a natural green scenery at the moment.
Wishing that we are able to help nature and ourselves to recover and heal from all the scars we are leaving on her skin as well as, for all the loss of loved ones humanity has endured this last few years.
my heart goes out to you *