I've been having some thoughts lately just as to what some of my "whispered things" tag is. I'm starting to think it might be a combination of things I pick up on (as if I'm a radio receiver tuning between channels involuntarily), and maybe even something oracular? I've noticed in the past few days I have felt different in a way like how a person would open a geode. Cracked open. I've felt this before and I'll admit this feels more like myself than usual. I feel that is possibly contributing (as I share in the vaguest of manners). Anyways, the point is I've been getting small blips of things. Fragments of conversations much more often. I just haven't been recording them here as they're fleeting.
is submissive | is dominant | prefers to top | prefers to bottom | likes to switch | identifies as heterosexual | identifies as homosexual | identifies as bisexual | identifies as pansexual | identifies as demisexual | identifies as asexual | enjoys sex with men | enjoys sex with women | enjoys sex with multiple people at one time | initiates | waits for partner to initiate | spits | swallows | prefers sex in the morning | prefers sex at night | prefers sex any time | no sex drive | low sex drive | average sex drive | high sex drive | hypersexual
* body / appearance:
small build | medium build | athletic build | muscular build | curvy build | voluptuous build | wears boxer briefs | wears lingerie | goes ‘commando’ | shaves/waxes | doesn’t shave/wax | cup size a-c | cup size d-f | 1-5" in length | 6-9" in length | 10" or over in length
is silent / makes little to no sounds | is very quiet | is very loud | grows in volume over time | bites hand / partner / pillow to muffle themselves | calls out partner’s name | curses | fakes/exaggerates | prefers a quiet partner | prefers a loud partner | is turned on by dirty talk | is turned off by dirty talk
* turn-ons / kinks:
having their hands pinned | pinning their partner’s hands | having their hair pulled | pulling their partner’s hair | being watched (by their partner) | being watched (by a third party) | watching their partner | receiving oral | giving oral | calling their partner ‘daddy’ | being called ‘daddy’ | giving praise | receiving praise | biting / marking | being bitten / marked | spanking | being spanked | teasing | being teased | having toys used on them | using toys on their partner | giving anal | receiving anal | choking | being choked | dirty talk | being tied up | tying their partner up | being worshipped | worshipping their partner | humiliating | being humiliated | degrading | being degraded | knife play | blood play | being pegged | pegging
Seriously all my favourite characters are ones I project on and usually in a self deprecating way?
Like Chuuya, for ages I couldn’t tell you why I liked him, I’d be like I dunno he’s pretty and I’m a dumb lesbian that thinks he’s funky. THEN I REALIZED: he’s got the whole human expertement backstory, a reason to doubt his humanity and like, I can’t remember the last time I genuinely thought of myself as a human being?? That sounds edgy but I spent a lifetime knowing I was weird and different but with no explanations so I figured myself an alien or changeling depending on what I was into at the time (thanks undiagnosed mental illness!)
Or Keith VLD: can’t relate to people and is awkward and impulsive, projected on!
Oikawa Tooru? The boy we’ve all read or wrote fics about him overworking himself to collapse because he isn’t good enough despite his efforts? Yup projected on.
My previous post about Akaashi, same deal.
Jaskier from the Witcher? Loud and obnoxious, can’t shut the fuck up, nervous rambling? You guessed it, projected on!
What a perfect night to snuggle up with my f/os and kiss them as much as I want for as long as I want and know that they enjoy every minute they spend with me. To be held by them in a hug or while cuddling in bed and they’re happy to stay like that, holding me for however long, without them pulling away first and cutting the contact short before I’m ready to let go. For them to murmur little statements and confessions that make me smile or make me blush. They won’t find me or my requests for affection annoying, they won’t make me feel embarrassed or insecure about my size, they won’t give me a hard time about my anxiety and other weird mental health fluctuations, they won’t interrupt or speak over me like other people in my life like to do sometimes and will actually listen to what I have to say.
What a perfect night to be overwhelmed with love and emotion for my f/os to the point that I can’t even put into words how much I love them and just hoping that they somehow know, and hoping that somehow they can feel it too. What a perfect night to know that they can, in fact, feel how much I love them, and for me to know that they do, in fact, love me just as much. They love and accept me for who I am and that’s a real nice change of pace for me after so many years of self loathing
Sorry that I haven’t been around too much today! It’s been a busy one, but I’ve got a few drafts that I’ll answer tomorrow and some messages I hope to get back to tonight. I’ll be around for plotting and dashcomm.
But I was busy today for good reason. I got back into cosplay for the first time in about a year and a half for a local event (with proper precautions taken).
Examples of my fandom outside of writing this blog under the cut. Yes, it’s precisely the character you would expect.
I took precisely zero good pictures at the event itself, so have something from before I left the house. The costume itself is new, and smaller than my previous version, and the wig is new as well (and very lush and heavy!).
And from the gaming restaurant/bar I attended tonight, as they do monthly cosplay events. Funny enough, this bag is still incomplete: I have some keychains and pins I still need to add to this. I also have Sonia’s school ID badges in the badge holder as well. But this is my usual nerd travel bag.
I have another cosplay event I’ll be attending at the end of the month that I’ll probably wear this version of Sonia to again, after I’ve fixed up the wig and repair/embellish a few things. I miss conventions and shoots so much.
I’m noticing that one of the consistent themes I see in Akaashi fics is that we all seem to give him the same perfectionistic streak and the similar self deprecating thought of “I don’t deserve good things/decency”
And honestly it took so long to figure out why exactly I was as attached to certain Akaashi portrayals as I am. We’re all similar and calling each other out and I love that about fandom.
In life, you will realize there is a role for everyone you meet. Some will test you. Some will use you. Some will love you and some will teach you. But the ones who are truly important are the ones who bring out the best in you. They are the rare and amazing people who remind you why it’s worth it. Alhamdu lillāh
harry dated a couple other people before he dated ginny. he really started properly dating people during sixth year, but he and cho went out briefly during his fifth year. the relationship was doomed from the start, and i think they only went out the once before realizing it wasn’t going to work, and had a semi-amicable ‘breakup’. things are awkward and complicated for a little bit, but they eventually get past it and are friends again by the end of the war, even if they aren’t close.
harry and seamus dated from mid-autumn to late winter of harry’s sixth year before deciding to break up and remain friends. they stay close during the rest of school and after graduation. they kept their relationship quiet while they were dating, but in later years, joke about it and discuss it openly.
harry gets together with ginny in late spring/early summer after the final quidditch match of the season. they break up after dumbledore’s funeral, but that too is an amicable breakup. they don’t get back together right away when the war ends, but there’s always feelings there, and become officially boyfriend and girlfriend again during the summer.
harry headcanons. dating habits
harry doesn’t date people that he isn’t friends with. he gets crushes easily, but things he’d want to actually act on? rarely, and always impulsively when he does. a lot of the time, harry’s crushes form towards people he’s got a lot of respect for. cedric, cho, and ginny are all fellow quidditch players that he deeply respects ( namely seekers, though ginny plays chaser usually except when harry is unable to play ), and that camaraderie ( whether between rivals or teammates ) is something that frequently translates into a crush.
harry’s a pretty good boyfriend. he doesn’t always say the right things, but he’s emotionally honest in relationships and won’t date someone he can’t have that with. he also won’t date anyone that’s mean to his friends. he’s loyal, dedicated, and while he sucks at being romantic, he’s quite sweet, which kinda makes up for it.