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harmonysanreads · 1 year

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Thinking about Yandere!Sumeru Boys and the sweet, lovely bartender who's become the talk of Sumeru recently.

After receiving the news of the Sage's downfall and Lesser Lord Kusanali's rescue, you, who'd been out venturing Teyvat to learn about its global gastronomy and arts, decide to return to your homeland and help your father's busy Tavern. The knowledge you've gained from your travels prove to be fruitful as Lambad's Tavern reaches a new peak of popularity. Though, not everyone's point of interest is the menu — no no, in fact, many have become frequent patrons simply to get a glimpse of the new face behind the counter.

You and Kaveh click almost immediately. Your shared views on arts and beauty is one thing checked off, but the way your actually understand him? Unlike most people when they hear his story, you're not quick to put a lable on him ; instead, you make him feel heard and normal for the very first time. Listen patiently and don't throw factual advice on how to fix his life. No wonder he poured out his entire life story to you, all on his first conversation. He's left wondering where you've been all his life as you share a portion of your own struggles, views on life and snippets of your adventures. To this day, Kaveh recalls the conversation along with your benign smile and feels his heart thump as if he's become a teenager again.

Every ensuing visit to the Tavern has his belief strengthen as well : you two must be soulmates. He's even started (half) jokingly calling you one as well, which never seems to move you the way he wants though as, all you do is adorably giggle and ask him to pay for his order. Oh well, he supposes that's an indication that you do not pity him solely because of his financial status. Kaveh's life had gotten a lot better with your presence ; he no longer drinks himself to oblivion, sleeps better than before and doesn't even pay heed to his roommate's sharp comments that'd otherwise end in a massive argument, thoughts preoccupied with what kind of trinket he could bring to impress you. For a brief period, Kaveh had felt like he'd finally found his light, his reason to keep living. He'd only wish he hadn't introduced his friends to you.

You first ‘officially’ met the dusty-rock-of-a-roommate of Kaveh (his words) when you took the responsibility of dropping him to his place of residence after the architect had passed out from taking a sip of the Sneznayan Fire-Water. You weren't sure what you were expecting from Alhaitham, but a talk over books that spiralled a little too late into the night and ended with him walking you back home certainly wasn't it. You can see where Kaveh came from, The Acting Grand Sage did not have the countenance that invited friendships. You'll have to thank your profound interest in all genres of books and an equal ease to share your opinions to not be at the recipient of that attitude. It takes you a little too much time to notice that since that night, the Scribe has found himself a second home in your radar. You see him at Puspa Cafe, the Grand Bazar, the streets and after a little while, even at your father's Tavern almost frequently. So much so, that calling him something of a friend might not be as far-fetched now.

In Alhaitham's defense, he's simply intrigued, it's not everyday he meets someone who can keep up with him. It took him only a glance at you to realize you're the person who has Kaveh blushing and giggling like a madman at random times. The architect's creepy behavior aside, at least, it seemed as though some of your sense of responsibility had rubbed off on him so, less headache for Alhaitham. You're easy to talk to ; granted, you don't always have agreements but that doesn't pose as an impediment from keeping the conversation flowing. In fact, you treat him no different ; neither his status nor his prolonged disappearances that'd no doubt affect anyone else can change your easygoing persona as he approaches you, the coffee and dishes you make are rather good too and— ah. Alhaitham understands now why Kaveh is so smitten with you.

Lambad's Tavern is a prominent destination for fans of Genius Invocation TCG, you like the game, too. But because of your duty, you can only resign yourself to watching from the counter as some rejoiced in victory and others had their heads in their hands from loss. It's entertaining to a degree, frustrating to another as you have to remain silent while the players make dumb choices. You digress, whatever they do is none of your business. But if you had to pick one group that produced the most entertaining show out of this game ; it'd be the friends Kaveh brought along with him. Most of the times, they'd just be reduced to Kaveh's ranting pillows and really, only one of them—and by that you mean the General Mahamatra who seemed to truly care for the game. You're curious about him, actually. He seemed so different from the rumours that were floating around. And thanks to Kaveh's impulsive announcement that you'd be dueling Cyno one night, you had the opportunity to satiate that curiousity — and flex a win against the master of TCG altogether.

To say Cyno was flabbergasted would be the understatement of the century. He'd repeatedly demanded for a second match that time (all the while Kaveh looked like he could die of pride) but you'd shut it off with the (not really) threat of charging extra for your lost time. Since then, he'd been hot on your tail, too. Trying to coax you into a second match with every strategy he can think of : bribing, bargaining, cracking awful jokes to befriend you — his hard work paid off, but the sight of a win against you still seemed to be far. At one point, those concerns were lost as you both simply found fun in each other's presence. Cyno, in the meantime, had noticed that your amiable personality was both a blessing and a curse. Do you not see the corrupt glints in their eyes? The wanton touches and disgusting saccharine lacing their words? No can do, they do not deserve your courtesy. Do not blame him for taking matters into his own accounts or show any semblance of concern after the personnel mysteriously disappear the next day ; its just a little favor for his TCG buddy.

Out of all of them, Tighnari took you the longest to get to know properly. Given his usually passive personality in the presence of others, no wonder he'd strayed a little from your attention. The forest ranger wasn't behind in knowing you, though. In fact, it seemed as though he had been picking up on clues his other friends were missing. Tighnari had been the first to take notice of your ennui, which he had surmised to be a result of all the people you have to deal with everyday. Turns out even you have your moments. One evening as Kaveh, Cyno and Alhaitham were preoccupied with debating over who-knows-what, Tighnari took the opportunity to approach you about it. He couldn't ignore the darkening circles under your eyes or the brightness in your optics dimming any longer — he's glad he did ; in truth, your life had gotten crazier than it was back when you were traveling, you'd confessed. You no longer felt truly...alone, even in moments that you're sure is securely private. Tighnari listened intently, for once the roles being switched. He sent hand-made remedies to help with your stress, frequently wrote to you to check your well being when he couldn't visit personally, anything within his power.

He felt sympathy for your state, such a precious person like you doesn't deserve this, you should be treated better, he could treat you better — now if only you're at arms reach to the forest ranger. Alas, for now he'd have to be content with this development. Tighnari has an inkling about who is, or are, responsible for your building misery. Does he intent to do anything with that knowledge though? Yes, coaxing you to his side, preferably.

The innocent, nameless wandering boy you'd taken with you on your return to Sumeru, suddenly returned home with a glowing anemo vision in the span of a few hours one fine afternoon. Nothing really seemed out of the ordinary though, he was still as glued to your person (though nowadays he seemed to venture out more than usual), he was still the harmless boy you'd grown accustomed to. So then, why did it feel like something was amiss? Was it how often he'd find himself at the brink of an angry customer's fist? Or was it because that only occurs when you leave the counter to get something and that same customer just so happened to have been pushing you for a date beforehand? Your suspicions always end up fleeting though, you can never even raise an eyebrow at the boy, not when he looks at you with those glossy puppy eyes. In the end, it's always the other man that's handed over to the guards, it's always the others, in general at the face of your displeasure — not Wanderer, never Wanderer. If only you could see the same grin he directs at the retreating men behind your unassuming back.

You never did regret letting him trail behind your person (except maybe the bombarding allegations from your family of him being your significant other, it took one whole week to convince them otherwise, after all.) ; he was sweet and so.. clueless, as if he were but a newborn child. Your heart couldn't resist the poor thing and that's what brought you to this situation. Wanderer revels in the others' jealousy at the sight of you two's closeness (who could guess this same man had tried to take over Sumeru). He can do many of the things your other admirers can only dream of ; lean on your shoulder, fall asleep on your lap, play with your hair as you prepare a drink, whisper things in your ear with a purposefully lowered voice and get away with anything. All is well with the lost boy you'd picked up from the last turn of your travels, it's just that, you can't quite shake off the feeling of a strange familiarity everytime you look at his otherwordly eyes.

what do you call this? a love hexagon? 🤔

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mogai-sunflowers · 2 months

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🇵🇸 Free Palestine- A guide for getting involved (Somewhat USA-focused)! 🇵🇸

This post is going to get very long, so I'm trying my best to break it up into manageable sections! Some parts of this post are applicable to people outside America, but at this time, I'm only knowledgeable enough about the movement in America to make a post about it!

Find Out About Local Organizations To Get Involved With

The best place to start is to find out what's already happening locally! If you live in a large/larger town/city, chances are something's already happening nearby!

For Americans: Look here to find out about the closest PSL (Party for Socialism and Liberation) chapter to where you live! They are involved in direct activism all across the US!

Find out if there's a PYM (Palestinian Youth Movement) chapter near you! They are extremely active

For college students in the US: Find out if there's an SJP (Students for Justice in Palestine) chapter on your campus! If there isn't, try founding your own! Look at their website here to learn more!

Also for college students in the US: Find out if there's a YDSA (Young Democratic Socialists of America) chapter on your campus!

Participate in BDS (Boycott, Divestment, and Sanctions)

Find out how to get involved here

Hold Local News Outlets Accountable

Find out about the local news outlets in your area

Keep up-to-date with their publications

If it's a digital source, search it for any and all publications related to Palestine and Israel- if this search yields results, are the articles supportive of Palestine and its supporters?

If you encounter an article/multiple articles that lean towards or outright try to justify Israel's actions or spread propaganda, then you can do a few things-

1) If the article is digital, make a public comment correcting any misinformation in the article. Try to keep your comment straight to the point and factual.

2) Find out who wrote the article and reach out to them personally to discuss said article and the issues you have with it. Share your point of view and discuss misinformation and harmful language contained within the article.

3) Find out the editor of the article, and write a 'letter to the editor'. Such letters may have a word limit varying between different news outlets, so keep your letter brief yet powerful and deconstruct your issues with the article

4) Reach out to the owner of said publication and ask if you can try your hand at writing an opinion piece for them. Sometimes, it can take awhile to get one of your opinion pieces accepted, but if it's something you're passionate about, keep trying!

If a particular news outlet has a repeated pattern of dehumanizing and villifying the Palestinian freedom cause in their publications, try getting in touch with local activist groups! They can help- from organizing letter campaigns to actual protests outside the news headquarters!

Urge Your Town/City to Pass A Ceasefire Resolution-

First, check and see if there's already an organized movement in your town or city to pass a ceasefire resolution (via pressuring your local town/city council)- NOTE: If you live in a very small town, the chances are smaller that there is already an organized movement- but that doesn't mean you can't help to start one

If there is already a movement, find out when the public comment sessions for your town's/city's council are, and find out how you can sign up to speak- if you do so, you can also try and connect with the organizers of your local movement for advice on writing a statement in support of a ceasefire resolution

An addendum to the previous point: if you sign up to speak, find out if you can also provide a visual presentation for your statement- these are often especially powerful

If there isn't an organized movement yet, that doesn't at all mean that one can't be started. I recommend reaching out to the nearest town/city you know of that has an organized movement for a ceasefire resolution

Send emails and letters, and call, to all your town/city council members to consistently urge them to pass a ceasefire resolution

Pressure Your Representatives to Vote against Aid to Israel-

This is not US-specific- if you have representatives of your local area on the national level, you can pressure them through calls, emails, letters, setting up meetings, and direct action, to not sign off on aid proposals for Israel

Setting up meetings is particularly impactful- you have a chance to speak with them or their reps one-on-one with your point of view

Call/email EVERY DAY! Pressure only works if it is consistent, and ask your friends and family members to join you in contacting them to build even more pressure

Donate To-

These fundraisers to help various families leave Gaza

Your local/closest Palestinian Children's Relief Fund's chapter

1 or more of the Global Rahmah Foundation's projects for Gaza

ANERA

HEAL Palestine

Local drives for the World Food Pantry and other local fundraisers are also super important!

This is not an all-inclusive list of ways to support Palestine, it's just intended to be a guide for getting involved for people who want to get involved but aren't sure where to start. Please suggest or correct anything for this post, and please spread it around! @fairuzfan @palipunk @tamarrud @el-shab-hussein @apollos-olives @metalheadsforblacklivesmatter @bfpnola

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astro-royale · 4 months

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How to “make it” when you live in a toxic environment

‼️Disclaimer: This is my personal opinion based on what has helped me and is by no means professional advice. Please take what resonates according to your situation.

1. Drop your expectations. People who have shown you consistently that they don’t care will not change.You need to preserve as much energy as you can for yourself and your goals. Stop setting yourself up for disappointment. Yes, it’s sad. Do the shadow work and don’t tell people things YOU KNOW they will react negatively to.

2. Don’t expect people to be happy for you or support you. Move in silence. People’s subconscious fears will be projected onto you and your goals, why do you need those curses placed upon you when you have so much to deal with anyway.

3. Take what you can get. Accept whatever help you can receive that you know will have no repercussions. Sometimes people can help you with some things and not others.

4. Shift all your efforts towards being able to leave that environment. Do research on how you can expand your finances, and that may mean doing something out of your comfort zone such as creating a social media platform etc. Never compromise on your well being however.

5. You need to believe in yourself as much as you can, even if people won’t.

6. Take advantage of the free help and advice on the internet. Can’t afford something? Well you have time more than money at the moment so use it to research. That research can be used as an asset to help you now and maybe later it can be the reason you start a particular business or are inspired to help people.

7. BE SOLUTION ORIENTED. focusing on problems only creates more problems. You’re going to have to try over and over again in life. Focusing on what’s wrong all the time will not allow you to step outside of the box and see things from a detached point of view where you can actually see a solution.

8. Prayer. I cannot stress this enough. Prayer has caused miracles in my life. Rely on God/Universe whatever you resonate with as much as you can. Your connection to yourself and your higher power is something you always have access to and if you believe and have faith even in times of darkness your high vibration will cause the ripple effect you’re looking for and problems will be solved. I recommend praying and setting up an intention every morning and night.

9. Even if you’re in survival mode 90% of the time. That 10% you spend meditating and praying. Even a little 10 minute meditation, if you can do it and have that time to be in complete surrender and serenity it will still make a difference. It’s not about how much time is spent on something but rather the quality of that. Allow that 10 minutes to be sacred, profound.

10. Ask for all the help you can get from where you know you can. you may get turned down, life is about risks. But always keep going.

11. Create time if you don’t have it. Give something up in order to gain something else. You may need to compromise on something for the time being to be able to create a prominent change/shift in your life. But make sure it is something that won’t affect your health and well being. Example; less time watching tv, more time spent on cultivating faith

12. Be very consistent in your efforts. Consistency towards something is what creates that energetic momentum which will eventually lead to a manifestation.

13. Daily affirmations and listening to affirmations when you sleep is also a great method to reprogram your subconscious and set you up for success. Again, so many free resources out there you can use, you just have to consciously use your will power and pray to receive the strength you need so you can push through.

I’ve linked my energy healing playlist as well as another energy clearing I listen to. I will also be posting more energy healings , always listen with the intention to receive. You don’t even need to pay attention when listening to those.

The meditation I linked says “love meditation” but I’ve used it to manifest other things and I’ve received answer to my prayers immediately.

I hope this helps and I’m sending much love to everyone needing this.

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cheapshrimpysheep · 11 months

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First Date - Scarabia

SUMMARY: What would your first date with him be like? I know first dates might not go so well, but let's pretend these are different. ;)

CHARACTERS: Kalim Al-Asim & Jamil Viper

TAGS: Fluf; GN Reader; Flirting; Kissing

WARNING: Spoilers from: Book 4 AND A Firelit Sky: over the Sands

WORD COUNT: An average of 670 words per character.

Heartslabyul / Savanaclaw / Octavinelle / Scarabia / Pomefiore / Ignihyde / Diasomnia

COMMENTS: I managed to write this one in one day. First because there are only two characters. But second, because I feel that Kalil is relatively easy to write and because I'm similar to Jamil in many ways, what I write about him tends to flow easily.

I hope you enjoy ;)

Kalim's already taken you on a carpet ride, took you to Scarabia’s Oasis, taken you to his homeland, showed you the fireworks of Al'ab Nariya. What the heck is he going to do for your date?!?! JAMIL HELP!!! First of all: No animal parades!

They both discuss it for some time until Jamil says that it’s not a bad idea to do something you've done before but in a different way. Kalim's taken you on a carpet ride before, but not in a romantic context. And you two have been to the Oasis, but not alone.

He still wants to do something new, something bigger, but he trusts Jamil's opinion and advice. After all, he knows you too, maybe he's right and that's enough for a first date.

He surprises you one night. You hear someone knocking on your bedroom window, which is on the first floor. When you draw the curtains, he's there, sitting on his flying carpet. And he invites you to go with him, somewhere. It's a surprise. Do you trust him?

You ride around the NRC for a while, enjoying the view of the campus at night, before he takes you to Scarabia, to fly once more through those skies, this time at night. And it's Beautiful! The sky was clear, revealing all the stars surrounding the large half moon. And this time, you weren't talking about Jamil, but about each other.

He talks and smiles a lot. He asks a lot about you, you likes, your world, etc. He's so curious about the person he has a crush on. And he ends up getting very close to you without realizing it. Your shoulders touching. Maybe the carpet fakes a little turbulence to get the two of you even closer, to the point where you're in each other's arms. If you don't show yourself uncomfortable, or on the contrary, even smile about it, then you will stay that way for the rest of the ride.

You arrive at the Oasis. The moon reflecting in the calm waters. He helps you get off the carpet and starts looking around muttering something like “Where was it again?” The carpet flies to one of the nearby palm trees and returns with a basket and picnic blanket, and Kalim thanks it. Needless to say, it was Jamil who put the basket in there and prepared the food.

The two of you continue talking as you eat, sitting on the picnic blanket by the water. He looks like he's having as much fun as you are, until his expression gets slightly less excited because he's remembered something: “Um... (Y/N)?... Are you enjoying the date? I mean, I think you are, you're smiling a lot. But... is this really enough? It doesn't feel enough.”

You tell him that this is enough, of course it is. The two of you being together is enough to make you smile. Being alone with Kalim like this, on an official date, is more than enough. And he's so glad about that! He is so relieved that he can make you so happy with so little. That means he can always make you happy and see your wonderful smile.

He hugs you and tells you how he’s felling, how happy he is that you are happy by his side. Then the carpet nudges him in the shoulder. He looks confused for a moment, until he realizes what the carpet brought him that he had already forgotten about. “AH! Yeah, I was having so much fun I forgot. You're a lifesaver.” he says to the carpet.

He gives you a big bouquet of jasmines. At Scalding Sands, he told you about the story of the thief who gave jasmines to the princess he loved, remember? You look at the beautiful flowers and Kalim's big and sweet smile. You have nothing to give him... except for, maybe, a thank you kiss.

Jamil is always busy and stressed. Yet somehow, he managed to arrange a night for the two of you. He's managed to get some Scarabian students responsible enough to take care of Kalim while he's with you. However, if something happens he won't be too far away, because he took you to Scarabia anyway.

He took you to the empty room where you stayed when... well, he kinda kidnapped you... You had no idea what he had planned until he opened the door. It wasn't empty. It had cushions on the floor, a small table for eating, opaque and translucent fabrics decorating the walls. It reminded you a little of his dorm lounge, but more romantic. And it was night, so the only things illuminating the interior were the moonlight coming through the small window and the lighted lamps. He did all that for you?

A quiet and comfy place where he can have a dinner and rest with you, this is what he prepared for you two. You enter and sit on the cushions in front of the table full of food prepared by him. He made your favourite foods, his favourite foods, new foods that you said at some point you wanted to try, an authentic feast to the taste of both of you.

He will look at you discreetly while you eat something you like, to appreciate the face you make when you're delighted by it. When you try something new, he will offer to feed you, again because he wants to see your reaction. Of course everything is delicious, he doesn't have to worry about you not liking the dishes and he knows it. After all, he was careful to make things he knew you would like, removing all the ingredients you didn't like.

You're on a date, which means you have a crush on each other and which makes him allow himself to be more cheeky. At the end of dinner, he will take advantage of you leaning back a little and lay his head on your thighs. When he sees your blushing face he smirks a little. Truth being told, he's blushing a little bit himself. You can see he's tired, despite his attempts to hide it from you. That and you can feel his body relaxing. After all, it's his date too.

You start petting his head his head and playing with his hair, and you see a smile so sweet and so rare that it warms your heart. He reaches out to caress your cheek. “Can I ask you something?” you nod and he smirk once more “Could you feed me some grapes?” you raise an eyebrow, still smiling a little “Please? I've always been curious to know what it felt like.”

You take the bunch of grapes and bring them close to you so that you can take one grape at a time and feed it to Jamil. You see his expression is a little smug, but grateful and appreciative too. You two chat while you feed him the grapes, until he gently takes your hand before you can take it back to the bunch of grapes and kiss it.

His kiss was so soft and caring, you couldn't help but wonder what it would feel like to have them on yours. He gets up, sits beside you, and look you in the eyes. Your first reflection? After what happened when he took you to Scarabia the first time? Quickly look away, as if dodging something.

He lets out a low gasp. “Wait, no, I’m, not...” he gives you a moment, until he brings his hand to your cheek “I'm sorry, really sorry. But I promise you I won't do it to you ever again. It's different now. I didn't know you. But now I do.” with his other hand, he takes yours “I don't do that to people I care about. And know I care about you. Please... let me see your eyes.” You give in and look into his eyes. And you feel nothing but your heart racing. And his face comes even closer to yours.

If you would like to read more from me, you can find it in my pinned post: INDEX

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elysiansparadise · 7 months

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Hi Elysian! I hope you're having a great day ^^

May I ask for your opinion on Mercury in the 10th house?

Thankyou!

Hello love! I am, I hope you are having a great day too.

Mercury in the 10th house

These people are usually seen as very capable and intelligent by other people, it is likely that they have a skill or talent that makes them stand out greatly in one of their circles. Many of these natives tend to be a recurring topic of conversation for people, whether in their family or work area. Since I mentioned work, these people can find it very easy to climb the ladder, achieve promotions or get close to bosses. They may have in mind that they must progress, that they must be constantly doing something and that they have to be productive. The idea of not continuing to improve or stagnating can make them very nervous. They tend to have an inner perfectionism that makes them not believe or accept their own abilities or demand a lot from themselves. Burnouts and stress are very common with this placement. They have an insatiable curiosity and enjoy continuing to learn, so it is very important that they look for jobs that allow them to expand their mind, acquire new knowledge, or that it’s not so rutinary.

They tend to be people who are anxious about the future, they are also somewhat restless both physically and intellectually. I have noticed that many people with this placement do not seem as sociable as they really are, even if they fall into the introvert category, people may feel that it is easy to talk to them about any topic. They have very diverse interests and in different categories, and they can stand out in more than a single interest. It is precisely for this reason that in terms of the labor field, they can have quite a few options, some of the most common are: writers, communicators of any type, public relations, sales sector, teachers and even public figures. Many of them tend to look younger than they are and can be very good at communicating with all types of people regardless of their age. However, they may enjoy talking more with people older than them or with more experience on topics that awaken their interest. Despite their open nature, they are people who, when they have a problem or moment of tension, may prefer to isolate themselves to resolve it. They have difficulties with the idea of being able to rely on or ask for advice [and even help at times] from others. They have learned to figure things out. out by themselves.

Their way of speaking arouses the interest and curiosity of others easily. They are very dual people in their communication, oscillating between charisma and professionalism. It is very likely that their words frequently inspire others or that their advice remains impregnated in the minds of those who listen. These people prefer to stay realistic and can be very objective in their way of seeing things. They like to have things told to them clearly, as they take their time to make people understand their point. Despite being very realistic people, they have a high degree of creativity and can be quite inventive. They understand and learn things through practice and things that are only theoretical can seem overwhelming to them. They think very carefully before making a decision and do not usually allow themselves to be influenced by others. Ironically, many may turn to them when they do not know where to go, what to do, or generally feel clueless/lost. They are people capable of understanding the points of view of others without changing their way of thinking, they can see the same situation in different ways.

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lvckyyz · 2 months

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Hello, you recently wrote a text about the relationship between Iris's cabin and Hades' cabin. I am a Nemesis and I am curious about the relationship of my cabin with 14 (Iris) and 5 (Ares). It's a bit random (and I hope it's not repetitive) but I found the headcanon really cute! Thanks! :D

“i trust you”

cabin 16 x cabin 14 friendship

nemesis’ children are known for not being afraid to confront other people if they think something is wrong, and sometimes their sincerity can put them into some trouble. unfortunately it is kind of common for cabin 16 to be vandalized or be the target of some pranks as a revenge for whatever they’ve said

but we are talking about the children of the goddess of revenge so don’t expect them to be okay with that. of course they had their revenge planned already, but the other minor gods’ kids tried to call them down.

and when i say “the other minor gods’ kids” it means cabin 14 and 18, but mostly just the iris kids.

iris kids care a lot about harmony and peace, but some of their neighbors, like cabin 16, weren’t exactly the calmest ones. however, they were determined to keep the nemesis’s kids out of trouble.

cabin 14 helped them fix their cabin and that’s when the nemesis’s children started trusting the iris’s kids a little.

their friendship was something that took a long time to develop, and i mean years. there were one of two campers who became friends more quickly but the majority of nemesis’s kids waited until cabin 14 proved to be 100% trustable.

after some time, these two became like siblings. the nemesis’s kids showed a playful and relaxed side of them and the iris’s children showed to not be as naive as people think they are.

they gossip a lot. the iris’s kids usually know everything that happens around chb and of course they’re telling everything to cabin 16.

they like listening to each other’s opinions; their ways of thinking are completely opposites so they usually ask for each other’s advice or thoughts on a particular topic to help them understand different points of view

nemesis’s kids usually aren’t used to physical touch, but the iris’s kids are and they make sure to give them hugs everyday.

cabin 16 is extremely loyal to their friends and want them to be safe. sometimes one of nemesis’s kids checks if cabin 14 is okay before going to sleep.

iris’s children once had to stop their friends from screaming and mr. d when he said something stupid about the minor gods.

the nemesis’s kids want to teach cabin 14 that they don’t have to be nice all the time and that are some people who don’t deserve their kindness.

the iris’s kids want to show cabin 16 that there are still good people in the world that they can actually trust.

they work well together; the two of them have really deep personalities that could work really well together, and that will probably be the kind of friendship where they’re constantly learning something new about themselves.

“i dare you”

cabin 16 x cabin 14 friendship

i think these two would have a kind of playful rivalry, like they’re friends but compete in everything.

they already tried to team up in some games like capture the flag but it didn’t work well, so they started this “who’s the best” thing.

i personally think cabin 5 and 16 got along pretty quickly, some people thought that they’d hate each other but the friendship between them started naturally.

they’d understand their problems, especially if the problem is their parents since nemesis and ares are really strict with their children.

but would never talk about what they’re feeling, they think that’s embarrassing.

i think they’d be the kind to give the other some space or try to distract them from their issues.

cabin 16 is always scolding cabin 5 for bullying others and making them apologize for it.

their little competitions can get a bit dangerous sometimes, the apollo’s kids are already getting tired of them going everyday to the infirmary.

cabin 5 will make cabin 16 listen to their favorite songs

they act like they don’t care but they’re always taking care of each other

cabin 16 convinced cabin 5 to help the new campers to learn how to fight (without bullying little kids in the process)

they’d have some weird jokes that only they understand

they argue a lot about everything but eventually will be back to normal again

the two cabins always sit next to each other during campfires and once cabin 16 got mad at cabin 5 and almost burned them “by accident”

nemesis and ares children would be a good couple👀

⤷ author’s note:

i really hate school. that’s all.

#percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #heros of olympus #pjo hoo toa #pjo imagine #pjo tv show #rick riordan #riordanverse #jason grace #headcanon #cabin 5 #cabin 16 #nemesis #ares pjo #luke castellan #clarisse la rue #nico di angelo

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elumish · 3 months

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Do you have any advice for writing characters I disagree with? I have a character who I think would be politically conservative, and I am not. They're not supposed to be good, but they should be likeable. I keep switching between giving them really bad strawman opinions and just giving them my own views, and none of those are right for the character. It's really difficult to get the nuance right.

I think the key here is thinking about how people end up with the beliefs that they end up with.

Whether it tracks through with facts, belief systems are generally built on some sort of logical infrastructure that would then show up in this character's thinking.

If you take anti-immigrant views, for example, there are a few types of things that you see, often ultimately based on fear and/or anxiety. One of the biggest fears is that immigrants are "stealing" people's jobs. This may be based on the character's own anxieties about economic access or instability, or it's based on having been fed a constant stream of media noise about it, etc. Alternatively, their fears may be about race or religion--about the idea that people with the same cultural, religious, and racial background as them will no longer be the majority. This may manifest in thinking about what "type" of country it is, or about economic or political access, or about fears of oppression by a previously marginalized group.

I'm oversimplifying a bit, but my point is this: people with every viewpoint, whether it's one we agree with or one with think is cartoonishly evil or anything in between, has a foundation to that view. That is how you write someone who believes something different from you: you decide what the foundation is of their beliefs and then you write them from there.

And sometimes you'll write them and hold your nose and say ick ick ick and know it's still the right way to write them because they accurately reflect a point of view that you hate.

(Also I just have to say - the concept of politically conservative, which was always a little complicated, has become extremely complicated in the last decade. Is their conservatism based in fiscal conservatism and being a deficit hawk? Is it based in the Christian right? Is it populist? Is it based primarily in racism? Are they a neo-con war hawk or an isolationist? Do they fall more in "everyone should pull themselves up by their bootstraps" or "we should be bombing abortion clinics"?)

As for making them likeable--you can't make every reader like them, no matter how you write them. But if they're supposed to be likeable to other characters, then that is likely to do more with personality than with beliefs. There are charismatic conservatives, there are kind conservatives, there are generous conservatives--maybe not to everyone, but to the people who they like (and, to be fair, liberals/progressives are not necessarily kind or generous to people they dislike, either).

Someone can have anti-immigrant views and be good with kids. Someone can have fiscally conservative views and be sweet to their husband or wife. Someone can be anti-feminist and help their friend move. Political beliefs don't preclude personal kindness or charisma.

#conservatism #likeable characters

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safety-pin-punk · 6 months

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A joint statement from @polyamorouspunk and @safety-pin-punk- this is NOT a divorce kids, it’s just setting some bOuNdArIeS

Dear Punks,

We are gathered here today to talk about a shared view of the punk culture specifically in the tumblr bubble that we share between ourselves and also with so many of you.

To be frank, we get a lot of asks, which is a joy for both of us, and we love answering your questions with our opinions, other’s opinions, bouncing things off each other and our other mutuals, and directing you to anything that you might find helpful in your inquires. However, we get a LOT of asks specifically asking for permission or “Is it okay if I…”, and we really want to stress a point here:

Asking what you can and cannot do to be considered “punk” goes against being punk.

We get so many questions asking “will I be considered a poser if” and the best answer we can give you is: whatever your question is, the answer is PROBABLY going to be ”no, you wont be considered a poser”, BUT, asking if you’re going to be a poser if you do ‘xyz’ thing is gonna be what makes you look like a poser. Part of being a punk is deciding what’s right for YOU. It’s going AGAINST the grain. If you are ASKING what is acceptable, you are not ACTING in a punk manner. Punk isn’t about doing what someone says is okay, its about doing what you think is right.

Not only that, but it is very draining on both of us to receive numerous asks like this. As much as we want to answer every ask that comes our way because we genuinely WANT to help, for people to ask us questions, and to come to us for advice, when there’s a buildup in our inbox of questions asking for permission, one after another, they can be really draining. (And honestly, with how often we get asks about being a poser, the term feels very overused and watered down to the both of us). (We are taking the term poser away and putting it on the tall shelf kids).

Key loves getting asks about punk history and culture, and Punk loves getting asks about DIY tips, what’s worked for them, and both of us love talking music. In fact, we both listen to non-punk genres quite a lot as well, such as metalcore and pop rock. So, yes, we’re both team “You don’t need to listen to punk music to be punk”. But like with everything else, there’s a level of subtext in that statement. There are so many different genres of punk music. There are also so many different genres of alternative music in general. When the two of us say “You don’t need to listen to punk music”, we are not talking about the people who listen to music that explicitly goes against punk values. And we would hope that if you are existing in punk spaces online, that you can reason your way to understanding that without us having to explain it every time it gets brought up.

And that goes for more than just that specific idea, there’s a lot of things we say that should be taken with nuance and your own critical thinking skills should be applied to. And on top of that, its also important to remember that we ALL come from different backgrounds and have different life experiences that have shaped our views and opinions. Because of this, we would also like to point out that you should not be asking us questions that involve us being your moral compass. Asking for opinions is one thing, but asking for what right and wrong is another.

There are punks out there who we’re both mutuals with who have differentiating opinions on topics, like whether or not punk is a music-based or political subculture at heart. Us having differing opinions than some of our mutuals doesn’t mean that us or them are less punk than each other. Since part of being punk is about thinking for yourself and going against what the mainstream and the masses think, then it makes sense that we don’t all agree on the smaller details. When it comes down to the real big problems, on topics like fascism, or bodily autonomy, or queer rights, etc., that’s what really matters.

We’re not the perfect role models for punk culture. We’re messy, flawed, human beings like everyone else. We like problematic things. We say shit that doesn’t always come across the right way. We can get irked easily from things on tumblr, either by asks we get or posts we see. We’re more than just our blogs. We have whole other lives outside of our punk worlds. We have different styles of fashion, different music tastes, etc. We do not live and breathe being 100% the perfect punk 24/7, but we try our best to make a difference where we can.

We genuinely enjoy being part of this community, but we also reserve the right to not answer asks that make us uncomfortable in any way, even if they come from a place of genuine desire to do what’s right. And again, we both do genuinely enjoy questions that ask for our opinions on topics, but asking for our opinions is a LOT different than asking for permission, which is something that we’ve both said a few times, but we feel like might not be reaching everyone who is thinking about sending in an ask like that. We thank you for taking the time to read this, and hope that our friends and followers understand where we are coming from and respect our wishes and boundaries on these matters, and hope you choose to continue along with us on both our individual and joint content.

#not a divorce

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cepheustarot · 8 months

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What advice do you need to hear right now?

Attention! This reading is for entertainment purposes only. You make your own decisions and are responsible for them yourself, so it's up to you to listen to advice or not.

Choose one or more cards. Trust your intuition.

Card 1: Invention: Burning with passion Although the card said about passion for work or your projects, i added other cards and created next situation: here we are talking about workaholic, who work very hard, they are completely immersed in process, they are giving their forces and energy for complete tasks on the work. And they can neglect their own rest and free time, deny themselves pleasure. If you continue to work hard then everything will end in burnout and lack of strength. The cards advise you to reconsider your work schedule and your strength it is important to relax and spend time for your own pleasure, for example, alone with yourself or with people who charge you with energy. It is important to let yourself relax and not think about projects, work, but devote time to yourself and your rest. It is also very important to be able to delegate your work to others; here I see people who prefer to do everything on their own, but in this case it is very important to be able to share responsibilities, not to be stubborn, but to ask for help from others. As a result, this will save you, if not from all the burdens, then from most of them and you will be able to continue working at your usual pace.

Card 2: Knowledge Here we are talking about people who are in a difficult situation and do not know how to act, how to resolve it because of many thoughts in your head, you get confused and do not know what to do. Maybe you asked for advice another people but it is useless because they see the situation based on their views and their experience, and you have a completely different position and also a different experience. In this situation very important not to rely on the opinion of other people, but it is important to listen to yourself, determine the pros and cons, look at the situation from an objective point of view. Most importantly, in no case should you act to your own detriment, since in the future not very good consequences can be expected. Always choose yourself, put yourself and your interests first and this will save you from problems in the future.

Card 3: Challenge: Standing up for your rights. First of all, I would like to note that you are on the right track and you do not need to doubt it. Maybe you are facing difficulties and think that everything you are doing is a waste of time and effort, but! You should get out the thoughts and continue to move on, defend your position, fight for your goals, dreams, plans and then they will definitely come true and happy moments will appear in your life, you will feel stability, people will reach out to you offer their help or vice versa ask you for help (naturally not for free, in return, you will receive payment, whether it is money, guaranteed help from a person in the future or anything else). So be confident in yourself and in your path.

Thank you for reading! I will be glad of any feedback <3

#oracle cards #oracle reading #tarot #tarot reading #pick a card #pick a card reading #advice for you

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Ok but the big question is this: who amongst the sins approves of Alastor?

Considering Bee stated in an episode that the sins are all like siblings, and Viv mentioned that they’re like aunts and uncles to Charlie, would they give Alastor the shovel talk at some point?

Oh hell yeah! I love talking about this!! Gives me the chance to flesh out my sins more

Satan and Alastor do not get along. Alastor finds Satan's temperament to be overbearing, and Satan thinks Alastor is a dick. Alastor is always in control of his emotions, while Satan is never in control of his rage. Satan doesn't approve of Alastor because he thinks Alastor lacks emotion and doesn't actually care for Vox and wants to take advantage of him. They have no issue hiding their distaste towards one another

Lucifer also doesn't approve of Alastor because he's convinced Vox can do waaaaay better. Lucifer hasn't given Alastor the shovel talk because Alastor knows Lucifer hates him and would gladly kill him if given the chance. Lucifer does respect their relationship nonetheless and warms up to Alastor a bit when he sees Alastor genuinely cares for Vox

Levi doesn't have much of an opinion on Alastor. He knows Vox is happier with him, and Vark likes hims- so that's enough for him. Levi did find out about the fight between Vark and Alastor and did yell at him for that. Vox mends the bad blood between the two by showing that Vark forgave Alastor, and he explained that Alastor wasn't in the right place of mind and was trying to protect Vox. Levi trusts Vox and Vark to make good decisions, so he respects their decision and can be alone with Alastor with no problems

Bee LOVES Alastor. She thinks his whole gimmick of killing abusers is cool and likes how happy he always is. Bee was the only one who knew of Val, so she was extremely pleased when Vox announced he had broken up with Val and was dating Alastor. Bee was the one who gave Alastor the shovel talk, but once she found out about how he killed Valentino, she trusted him immediately with Vox's life. She likes to send them both gifts in the mail, and she'll send Alastor little notes about different things Vox likes. Alastor is a bit intimidated by her outgoing personality, but he likes her and can see why her and Vox are the closest of all the sins. Plus, Alastor just gets along with women a lot better than the boys, so Bee was an automatic win because she was a woman in power. Alastor was scared of her judgement the most because she is one of Vox's best friends

Belph also gave Alastor a shovel talk - well tried too. She accidentally fell asleep during it, and Alastor laid her on the couch and tucked her in. That was all the information she needed. Belph likes Alastor the most out of every sin and actually prefers him over Vox because he's a lot more laid back. Alastor doesn't like her party drug habits, but she doesn't care about his opinion. He is her friend and he has no saying in it. She also got an automatic boost to Alastor's 'I like you' meter because she is also a woman

Asmodeus was the hardest to gain approval from. Once he found out about Valentino- Ozzy didn't trust any of Vox's taste in men. Once Alastor passed Belph, Levi, and Bee's judgement, that was when Ozzy finally decided to give him a shot. Alastor refused to do anything different around Ozzy to really prove a point to him. Ozzy found him a bit egotistical, but he was also intrigued by the lack of lust Alastor felt. It's not every day you meet an aroace person when you're the embodiment of lust. It took Alastor a bit of time, but he won Oz over eventually, and Ozzy is Alastor's go-to for relationship advice. Ozzy understands Alastor's struggles, and he tries his best to help him, Alastor feels safe with Oz because of his rule of consent. Oz is Alastor's favourite despite being the embodiment of lust, which makes Ozzy feel flattered. Asmodeus has also given him a shovel talk

Mammon viewed Alastor as a problem at first, but the amount of power outages went down in Greed, so he eventually grew to like Alastor because he was helping him make money, even if Alastor wasn't aware of it. He doesn't care for Vox's feelings or emotions and only cares for the power Vox supplies him with, so he never once tried to get to know Alastor

They all view Vox as their family. He's like that one friend that just somehow gets adopted by your parents

#hazbin hotel #anonymous #vox hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel alastor #radiostatic #hazbin hotel asmodeus #hazbin hotel beelzebub #hazbin hotel mammon #hazbin hotel belphegor #hazbin hotel leviathan #hazbin hotel satan #hazbin hotel lucifer

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polyamorouspunk · 6 months

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A joint statement from @polyamorouspunk and @safety-pin-punk - this is NOT a divorce kids, it’s just setting some bOuNdArIeS

Dear Punks,

We are gathered here today to talk about a shared view of the punk culture specifically in the tumblr bubble that we share between ourselves and also with so many of you.

Asking what you can and cannot do to be considered “punk” goes against being punk.

#not a divorce

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tamelee · 2 months

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I love the way you write, you're so articulate, I wish I could write like that 😭 I'm guessing you get good grades in school? Do you have advice on how to write articulately and clearly while also sounding professional? Like in essay writing?

Huuuu, that’s very kind of you 🥹;-; I’d never imagine anyone saying that to me… ever.

Well, my grades are good, I have my last exams soon ^^

I do have a few tips! Or rather, there are things I’m still currently learning that may be helpful to you as well📝:

(Sentence) Structure: I read a book called ‘elements of style’ by William Strunk (revised edition) recently and I learned that no matter how grammatically correct your sentences are, there are still ways to improve its structure. (I had to learn it all over again in English -.-) This is a big topic so I'll name a few specifics you can dive into.

Learn the difference between active and passive voice (passive isn’t bad and sometimes necessary, but active is almost always preferred). Don’t mind all this on your first draft though. It’ll only hinder you.

Study MRU (motivation-reaction units), often used in Fiction writing, but it helped me for essays as well. It is the logical pattern of cause and effect introduced by Dwight V. Swain and I read about it in 'techniques of the selling writer'. Here's an article on the topic as well.

Mind paragraphs. There are different rules for this depending on what you’re writing, but it helps its readability. For Essays especially it’s always good to keep topics separate and lead the reader to your conclusion in a way that makes sense. (It's sorta like holding their hand and going like "because of this... there is this... and therefore... and so.... that's why....") This may need some reorganizing of your premises/subjects at times. I especially need to organize my thoughts before I even start writing.

Understand what it is that you need to write about and delete everything that isn’t relevant. If you’re like me and you get a ton of new ideas once you delve into a subject, then it’s good to keep a folder (or something similar) for these new ideas. Often these are entire topics on its own and including these into another will only make both unclear and your conclusion muddy. So, ask yourself whether it strengthens your point, or if it’ll make it more confusing. If it won’t make a difference then delete it anyway or save it in your folder for later.

I always learned that objectivity is important in order to sound professional, though it depends on the kind of essay you’re writing. If you need to convince the reader of something then transparency about your own opinions can help your conclusion be more honest, but be careful of sounding preachy as well. I had to learn all these things when I still studied marketing/communication in entertainment, but it often makes me feel slimy because it’s all very manipulative. (Hence, I quit that path.) It's in fiction as well. Some authors let their own views bleed through their characters in such a way it becomes uncomfortable because it doesn’t argue for the story nor adds to the character— it attacks the reader’s personal morals which possibly gives them an ass-spanking while they’re at it which just really isn’t necessary. Emotional language is fine I think. Sometimes I got compliments from teachers especially because I didn't sound too professional, it requires a bit of knowledge when you can get away with it probably. Just make sure you can back up your arguments/statements and possibly add different views as well. In a way it's more about the confidence in which you present an idea than sounding professional and not being able to understand all the 'why's' I believe.

This one isn't that relevant for school-essays, but sometimes when writing one the question isn't clear. It helps both you and the reader to reformulate it in the beginning. Essays as well as stories are often nothing more than a problem you need to give an answer to. Even if there's no question, it helps to make one anyway so you don't wander off endlessly and drown in a sea of possible subjects you could write about.

Something that may help you as well— I created a roadmap for myself and the different types of things I have to write. That way I always know what to do first and it helps me structure both the essay and my process as I can get easily distracted otherwise. Making more decisions than necessary makes me freeze up, but with a roadmap I don’t have to do either.

Uuh, I've probably picked up on tons of helpful things lately, but I think these are great to start with. I hope they are helpful to you.

I always wanted to (story-)write, but gave up on it and decided to learn how to draw instead. Then, I sort of realized that I was being an idiot, because that desire never left and I had to write other things anyway— like this for example, and simply accepting the fact that no one can understand the load of incomprehensible rubbish I wrote, just wouldn’t do. You can check my older posts… it’s awful. If I ever intentionally want to give myself another headache, I’ll go and read those.

It’s definitely not perfect now, but hopefully I improved though. I think so. Sometimes I still get scolded as I tend to ping-pong between thoughts suddenly and I can hardly tell the difference between BrE/AmE. (As I grew up I learned English mostly through a sort-of-aunt figure from Canada that always forced me to watch British tv with her.) But, the past few months I especially had to write many essays and (argumentative) case studies so I decided to learn and become better in writing. If that translated back to Tumblr then I'm happy and you’ve made my day ><

#asktamelee #talk about writing #essay writing

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mbti-notes · 9 months

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Anon wrote: Hi, I’m a 22 year old INFP in college. I’m at a point where I am deeply unhappy with my position in life, and I’d like your advice for how I should proceed. I want to change so badly and have been trying for so long, but somehow my efforts seem to never amount to any substantial change. I’m really sorry, this is going to be long and contain a lot of backstory. I have a lot of respect for you and have been reading your blog for years, and you seem incredibly wise; however I understand if you do not have the time to answer this. But if so, I appreciate it more than anything.

I come from an extremely dysfunctional family, whom I still live with. My mother is truly a narcissist, and I believe she’s an xSFP. She’s extremely dysfunctional and can hardly handle herself let alone her children. She has extreme nonconformist opinions (anti-vax, total disregard of modern medicine, arranged marriages, etc) and has instilled so much self-hatred into me. She cannot handle anyone who thinks differently from her. She blames me, my dad, and my younger brother for everything wrong with our household. For the past few days she’s been especially horrible, constantly berating me and calling me a failure. She’s extremely toxic but believes herself to be a saint.

My father is an ISFJ who is a total enabler. He suffers at the hand of my mother too yet will throw us under the bus whenever and never stick up for me or my siblings, even though he too gets treated horribly. I believe if he married a better woman he would’ve been salvageable, as he seems to just adapt to my mom’s views, although he gets so much shit from her too.

I don’t think I’ve experienced genuine love from my parents, ever. They’ve always wanted me to be something I’m not. They never approved of my interests (arts, humanities) or valued my opinions. When I was 17 they discovered that I was self-harming regularly, and instead of helping me, my mother shamed me for months and called me evil, a child of the devil. My father cried and asked me, how could you do this? What did we do wrong for you to end up like this?

I have a whole lot of pain in my heart. I’ve worked on myself to the point where I, when needed, can speak relatively objectively about who I am and my strengths. I no longer self-harm. But in my darkest moments, I have completely adapted the label of “evil” and beat myself up over it.

Despite being 22, I do not have my driver’s license. I’ve had my permit since I was 16, but cannot legally drive on my own. I think I could pass the test if I practiced more. However, that would require spending time with my mother, who’s temper stresses me out to no end while on the road. Its because of this that I’ve put it off for so long. I am too unwilling and fragile to deliberately put myself in a situation where I know I will get yelled at and degraded.

Despite being 22, I am not allowed to dress in anything “revealing”, nor get my nails or eyelashes done, I am not allowed to drink, I am not allowed to date, I have a curfew, and I am not allowed to move out.

A few months ago, I tried to take control of my life. Despite all of my misfortune, I am lucky enough to have a lot of genuine friends who care for me. My best friend and I decided to move out together. We leased a place, made payments, and started packing our bags. Right before our plan to move officially, without even knowing, my parents decided to go on an impromptu road trip to our hometown. I decided not to tell them until we were driving back from the trip… huge mistake. I was mentally tortured for the entire drive back (3 days). They degraded me to no end, guilt tripped me, cried, acted like I had murdered someone. My mom even accused me of being a lesbian for moving in with another girl, which is not only disgustingly homophobic, but also makes no sense!!! At one point my mom screamed so loudly and banged on the car door in anger while my father was driving, and he ended up pulling over on the highway. She blamed me and basically said if we died it would be my fault. Scared me and my younger siblings shitless.

In the end, it was more trouble than worth. Me and my friend called it off easily, having not signed a real lease and only giving a verbal agreement. We paid the rest of the month off and continued to live at home. I had felt like such a failure. I didn’t have a job or anything, but I was so confident that after moving out and being away from all the horrible shit at home that I’d be able to get ahold of my life, develop good habits, and become my own person… but my dreams of independence and freedom were ultimately crushed, and I remain in jail.

Because of that same trip and failure to move out, I became even more depressed. My parents had overstayed by almost a week despite my protests and their apparent dream of me doing well in school, and the school work and feelings were so overwhelming that I dropped almost all of my classes that semester. They don’t know of course, I’d be dead.

I truly wish I could get my life together, learn to love myself, and move so far away from them. I never want to speak to them again, as cruel as that is. They want to marry me off one day. I can’t handle it. But I have no money, no car, I’m struggling in school… I am always thinking about how I can improve or turn things around, and I always take one step forward and then fall 5 steps behind. I hate my body, I hate my incompetence, and I hate my life. I’ve been trying for so long, reading, writing, thinking, yet I can’t seem to get anywhere.

And then there is the matter of my little siblings. 17 and 8 years old. My younger brother (17) told me during that trip that if I moved out he would kill himself because he wouldn’t be able to handle them on his own or deal with them potentially getting even stricter once I left. It made me so sick, that I wanted to throw up. Luckily, he is most likely moving away for college next year after he graduates… which they are okay with, because he is a boy I suppose. My baby sister is a trooper and understood why I wanted to move out and even pretended to be on my mother’s side. However, when I tried, my mom said she would forbid us from talking because I am a horrible influence. The thought of abandoning her with mother makes me want to cry. I thought that maybe I would secretly buy her a phone before I move out and let her keep it a secret to talk to me with. But if me moving away and living my life the way i want to made her life worse, I dont know how I’d forgive myself or make up for it.

But either way, I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to move out. I hate my body and my bad habits. I try to get clean and become healthier all the time but I can’t stick with it. Something always happens with my mother having an episode and it depresses me to no end and I lose it, try again, lose it. Then with driving. I keep thinking I’ll get my license soon. I never have motivation to practice with her. I need to be able to take my self places to get a job. And even if I do get a job, I know based on my old ones that the stress of home life, my self esteem, and fragility will make it so hard to hold down a job without breaking down constantly or just giving up. And then there’s school. I want to be educated and do well so badly, but it’s so hard with how things are. What should I do? How can I change? I want to escape this nightmare and live for myself more than anything. I want to be content with who I am and comfortable in my body and in my life decisions. I want to be able to voice my opinions and follow my values without being punished, stifled, or suffocated. If I don’t figure out things soon, I fear everything will come crumbling down and the life I long for will never be realized. I promise I try to be positive and appreciative of what I do try. I try to do things that will make me happier and take steps towards a better life. I try to deconstruct my mind so that I don’t fuss over everything and accept even horrible things as they are… But I always get shot down. It always becomes too much, and my progress always becomes undone. It’s like I’m trapped and can’t get out. All I want is the basic right to be myself, unapologetically.

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You are a young adult and it's an important aspect of young adulthood to establish an independent mindset. I believe you have it already, but your environment is not allowing you to express it fully. This is not your fault, so there is no reason to blame yourself for it.

Blame is a distraction, and it can even lead to problems like self-harm. Blame keeps you hyperfocused on the negative aspects of situations, which drains the precious mental energy you need for moving forward in positive directions. The sooner you can let go of your blaming mindset, the better you will feel and the more rational your thinking will be when tackling problems.

Remember: The blame you direct at yourself is an echo of your mother's way of blaming you. Do you want to internalize her negative attitude? If you truly have an independent mindset, you should be able to separate your own thoughts from someone else's. Where will you find the truth about you: her words or your heart?

With regard to confidence: Most people experience times in life when it seems that problems or obstacles are too big to surmount. The best approach is to break them down into very small steps and manageable goals (requires proper use of Si). By doing this, you allow yourself to feel a relatively continuous stream of small wins that gradually improve your self-confidence. Believing that you are capable is half the battle, isn't it?

With regard to motivation: You say you have good friends to support you and that's a great resource to draw from. Whenever you're feeling down, reach out for some emotional support. Whatever it is you're having difficulty with, get input or assistance from someone more knowledgeable than you. For example, is your mom the only person in the world who can help you with driving instruction? Getting encouragement and support at crucial stages of your path helps keep your motivation up.

Failing to achieve a goal doesn't make you a failure or a bad person. If you believe it does, you are still thinking like a child and it is yet another manifestation of an unhealthy blaming mindset. Failure is really an opportunity. It helps you learn new things. It helps you improve your knowledge and skills. It helps you find a better direction. What mistakes did you make last time? What do those mistakes tell you about how to do better next time? An important aspect of personal growth is learning how to turn failure into something educational, edifying, or valuable.

For INFPs, Ne development is necessary for learning how to be resourceful and making the best use of what you have, rather than always getting lost in thinking about what you don't have. You've spent a lot of words telling me how your situation sucks so that I can understand where you're coming from. But I wonder: What is good about your situation? What resources, both internal and external, are available to you? What's the best way to use those resources to achieve your goals?

#infp #auxiliary ne #tertiary si #self esteem #self confidence #blame #failure #making mistakes #ask

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ididntseeurbag · 1 year

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turning point

pairing: heeseung x fem!reader

genre: (hints of) enemies to lovers, angst (?), fluff if you squint

warnings: none (i think? let me know if you spot anything!)

in which i-land is a program to make both a girl and a boy group and you and heeseung are the trainee ace rivals of hybe who are forced to perform together against the grounders.

a/n: part one of my mini-series! part 2 here | part 3 here <3

it was late at night, and the i-land building residents had decided to go to bed so they had energy to practise for the ground vs i-land battle happening five days later. well, all of them were sleeping but two: heeseung and y/n.

the both of them were in the main practice room, still trying to cooperate and coordinate their moves, for they had to do a mixed stage. they were performing butterfly together, both cursing whoever decided that suddenly making a change in groups and mixing the male and female members was a good idea.

nevertheless, they ended up agreeing to suck it up and try to work as one so the team could get a high score. and there they were, still not matching each other’s energy.

stressed out, y/n stopped dancing and paused the music. “this is clearly still not working out,” she stated. “either we do something about it now or i’m going to bed.”

“what do you think we have been trying to do for the past two hours?” heeseung asked her, then muttered. “or at least i’ve been trying.”

y/n scoffed. “i’m sorry? mind you, i led this practice all afternoon and you always countered my opinions,” she said rather quickly and slightly offended. “i don’t know if you can call that trying, but sure.”

the boy sighed, visibly tired and not wanting to get into a fight again. “look,” he started. “i may not have been of much help-”

“clearly.”

“-but,” he continued after being cut off. “i didn’t do it to go against you, only to try and test things out from a different perspective.”

“well, we tried my and your ideas, and none are working,” y/n said. “maybe we need another point of view that’s not ours.”

heeseung looked at her through the mirror. “i can’t believe i’m saying this, but i agree.”

half an hour after y/n left to find help, she, surprisingly, came back with rain. how she had managed to get to him, heeseung didn’t know, but he was secretly grateful she found him out of every other producer.

they explained the situation to him and he nodded along. “so, basically you don’t know how to dance together without clawing at each other’s throats, huh?” he told them, although not waiting for neither to say anything. “and here i thought they were dating,” he muttered to himself. “talk about enemies to lovers.”

not hearing what he last said, y/n looked at the man and spoke. “do you think you can give us advice to turn this into a good performance?” to which he nodded with a warm smile and told them to show him the whole act.

they did just that, and right after the first chorus ended, rain stopped the music. “i know what’s wrong,” he half shouted. “you’re not close enough, both physically and mentally,” seeing the looks of not understanding the two teens were giving him, he continued. “you have to reach for each other, to feel what the other does and not put a barrier in between, you have to be as close as possible in order to make this credible.”

y/n and heeseung locked eyes and then turned to the producer. even though they thought rain was close to mad for even thinking they could get along, they nodded and thanked him for the advice. the eldest then excused himself and told them to record themselves if they improved so he could see it.

silence fell upon both of them and stayed that way for a bit, until the boy spoke. “i guess we have no chance but to try,” y/n agreed shortly after and pressed record on their tablet before they placed themselves in the initial position of the song.

with rain’s advice in mind, they started to sing and dance. firstly, they were doing nothing to cease the awkwardness, but during the first chorus they got a bit more near each other. unconsciously, they danced and sang closer and closer until there was little room between them.

both heeseung and y/n felt different as they saw they weren’t so separated, and loosened up when they realised that rain’s advice was actually kind of working. they met gazes more often, and fully made physical contact when it was needed in the choreo, instead of awkwardly hovering their hands over the other like earlier.

anyone that watched that last part of the song would’ve thought they had never had trouble with one another and they were inseparable from the day they met. in fact, when rain received the video, he saw a big spark of hope between the duo’s relationship.

the song finished with the ending pose, consisting of holding hands next to their faces and looking into each other’s eyes. it was supposed to be a fast ending, with them just standing like that for five seconds, but none seemed to want to let go. they kept staring at each other, their gazes then lowering to the other’s lips. they unconsciously leaned in and reduced the space between them, slightly closing their eyes-

“ayo,” anna (one of the female trainees and also one of y/n's best friends) and jay barged in through the door, anna shouting the short greeting. “have you seen my-”

y/n and heeseung quickly separated and put distance between them, looking at their friends with awkward smiles. y/n couldn’t believe herself. what was she doing, almost kissing her supposed rival?

“-beanie,” anna continued, realising she had interrupted a moment. “you know what? nevermind, i’ll search for it tomorrow,” she then dragged jay away with her. “let’s go, jay!”

“wha- but-” jay tried to speak just to be shushed by his friend while she pushed him towards the stairs.

after some excruciating silence, y/n took the courage to say something. “i’m... going to sleep, if that’s okay with you?” she didn’t even know why she asked for his approval, she could do whatever she thought best.

“sure, yeah,” the older answered. “i’ll go to bed too, then.”

they both walked to their respective rooms and went to open the door, but simultaneously turned around before twisting the knob.

“so-”

“well-”

“you first,” y/n let him speak.

“tomorrow at eight a.m, breakfast, then practice again?”

y/n was surprised to hear that he wanted to eat breakfast with her instead of being on opposite tables like they did before, but she gave him a barely visible smile and nodded. “eight a.m it is,” she turned and opened the door, looking back at him. “good night, heeseung.”

heeseung stood there after she had already closed the door, smiling to himself when he registered the fact that y/n had called him by his name and not his surname (like she always did until that night). “good night, y/n,” he whispered, still smiling, then went inside his room.

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ladylovesloki · 1 year

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Something Real: Chapter Ten

Pairings: Loki X Reader

Warnings: Language & Angst

Summary: Loki asks for some brotherly advice but…it’s a little too late..

A/N: I’m sorry..

Loki tossed and turned all night, ultimately not getting much sleep. He spent most of the night thinking about how he was going to get to the bottom of this situation. Even though he couldn’t sense a lie from Maza, he still didn’t believe he truly had an affair with her. He does remember you saying that his variant spent a lot of time during the day dedicated to the duties of the Allfather, hopefully he was doing just that…

He decided to get out of bed and maybe get some of his frustrations out with an early morning workout. Loki was in the middle of warming up when he heard the back door open, he looked toward the door and saw you with your robe wrapped around you.

“Heyy…you’re up early…”, you point out the obvious, you’re not quite sure how to approach him right now.

He continues to warm up his body before he begins his actual training, “couldn’t sleep…”.

“I see that…”, an awkward silence is there between you two now.

“I’m going to Thor’s later this morning..”, he tells you dismissively.

“Ok…any particular reason why?..”, you’re trying to get any piece of information that will help you figure out what is wrong with him.

“I have to ask him his opinion on something..”

“On what?..”

“Y/n..can you just…leave it be for now? I will explain all of this to you I promise, I just need to talk to Thor.”, he’s frustrated, you can see the cracks of his resolve. Whatever it is that’s bothering him must be pretty bad if he is so broken up about telling you.

“Ok..”, you say dejectedly, “I’m gonna go make some coffee..”

You don’t say anything else, you just go inside to the kitchen and start making a pot of coffee. You’re lost in thought about Loki when a little voice from behind you reels you in from your thoughts.

“Mommy?..you ok?”, Narfi asks in a soft concerned voice.

You look down at him and you kneel in front of him to give him a hug, “I’m ok baby, I think you and your dad need to work on your seidr today..see if he can help you stop feeling all of these emotions all the time..”

He nods and you pull him in for another hug, “why don’t you get ready for school baby and I’ll talk to your dad about your lesson later..ok?”

He nods again and leaves you to get prepared for school, you turn around and get your coffee ready along with Loki’s and take both mugs outside. Loki is currently doing some crunches and you can’t help but watch the view. Loki is so beautiful, he has the body of..well…a God and you appreciated every form he took. He was beautiful to you, no matter what. You were so worried about him since yesterday, you thought everything was fine. Yesterday was a normal morning and then when you got home from work he was acting completely different. Something had to have happened at the market, maybe one of the Asgardians in town held a grudge against him from before and said something that upset him. Whatever it was, hopefully he talks to Thor and feels better.

Loki sees you there, mugs in hand and stops his work out. He walks over to you and as he’s taking his mug he gives you a soft kiss. “I’m sorry. I should not have spoken to you so..forgive me?”

“I forgive you Loki, I’m just worried…you haven’t been yourself since yesterday afternoon…”

He nods his head and looks down, “I know..I promise I will explain everything to you…after I speak with Thor..”

“Ok…after school will you speak work with Narfi? I think he felt my anxiety this morning..”

Loki nods at you, “yes of course, I don’t like the discomfort this ability brings him. He is far too young to be feeling all of these emotions.”

You nod, “thank you..”, you lean up and give him another quick peck, “I’m going to start getting ready for work.”

Loki nods at you and you leave to go get ready, you can hear the boys getting ready for their day as you are making your way to your room.

Narfi was still a little quiet at the breakfast table but you were sure to keep your mood in check for the rest of the morning. You had faith that Thor was going to be able to help Loki get through whatever it is he is going through right now and all of you would be feeling much better later.

Loki portals you all to the school and you say your goodbyes, Loki gives Narfi a longer hug and promises to speak with him later. He then creates a portal to the hospital, you wrap your arms around his neck and give him a passionate kiss.

“Have a good talk with your brother. I love you.”

He looks at you for a moment, like he’s memorizing your face, “I will try, I love you too y/n.”

He kisses you again and you leave him to walk inside.

Loki quickly creates another portal, this time to Thor’s house.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

Nothing.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

“Thor! Wake up oaf!”, Loki yells outside Thor’s door.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

“Alright! Alright!”, Loki can hear shuffling and a small crash, then the door swings open. His brother is on the other side looking very annoyed.

“What is it brother?..What has you disturbing me so this early in the morning?!”

“I need to speak with you.” Loki doesn’t wait to be invited inside, he just walks passed his brother into his home.

“Please. Come in.”, Thor says sarcastically. “What is this about brother?”

“Do you know an Asgardian by the name of Maza? She works as a barmaid at the new establishment I recently took y/n to?”

Thor thinks about it for a moment but shakes his head, “no I’m sorry brother, the name does not sound familiar to me..what is this about?”

Loki took a deep breath, once he tells Thor what happened with Maza the more real this situation is. “I was approached by a woman named Maza yesterday while I was in the marketplace, she told me that her and I were…”, he didn’t even want to say it.

Thor looked at him impatiently, “yes?..”

Loki took a deep breath, “she said we were…involved…that my variant eventually grew tired of y/n. According to her, we”, Loki shakes his head “they were having an affair behind y/n’s back and he was actually planning on returning y/n to Earth before you arrived and revealed his disguise.”

Thor looks at Loki is shock, “this can’t be true. You would never do such a thing to y/n!”.

“I know Thor but that is the problem, I could sense no lie from her so either she is using some kind of spell to cover up the lie or…”

“Or…she’s telling the truth..”, Thor finishes his sentence. “Oh brother…this is not good.”

Loki nods his head, “I don’t know what to do. Y/n already expects something is wrong, I told her that I was going to speak to you today about whatever was bothering me..Narfi is able feel my emotions and I do not wish to be dishonest with my children. I don’t know what to do brother.”

Thor thinks for a moment and nods, “you need to speak to y/n about all of this.”

“How?”

“From the beginning, tell her as you told me. Loki, it will be worse if she hears it from somewhere else. Or what if this woman has darker intentions, y/n needs to be aware of any dangers that might come for her or her children.”

Loki knows Thor is right, he was just terrified this conversation with y/n will ruin everything they have been building these last few months.

“Do you wish for me to be there when you speak to her?”, Thor asks nervously. Loki knew he was just offering to be polite, the last place Thor wanted to be was around an upset y/n.

“No, thank you brother. I already knew what I needed to do, I think I just needed to hear someone say it back to me.”

“Anytime brother, good luck.”, Thor pats Loki on his back.

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You were in the cafeteria moving your pasta salad around your bowl, your appetite not really there today. You can’t stop thinking about Loki and how moody he was yesterday and this morning, you really hope Thor is able to talk him through whatever it is he is going through. It makes you a little sad that Loki doesn’t want to confide what he is feeling with you, it makes you feel like he doesn’t trust you as much as you trust him.

“Not hungry?”, Kelly sits at your table noticing your barely eaten pasta salad.

“Not really..”, you respond sadly, not even lifting your gaze to make eye contact with your friend.

“Nightmares again?”, Kelly knew you had been plagued with nightmares a few weeks after the incident with the addict but you have been nightmare free for a little while now thankfully. You weren’t going to say anything to anyone about what you were going through with Loki but you needed someone to talk to about what you were feeling.

“No..Loki has been a little distant since yesterday. I think he might be hiding something from me..”, you tell her.

Kelly’s eyebrows shoot up in surprise, “hiding something? Like what?”

“I don’t know, he was acting weird yesterday and he said this morning he needed to go talk to Thor and would talk to me about it later.”

Kelly looks at you with a contemplative look, “I don’t think he would do anything to hurt you y/n. Everyone sees the way he looks at you..”

“I know..I just can’t help but feel like something is going to go terribly wrong.”

Kelly rubs your back, “hey…try to think positive, hopefully it’s nothing and Thor helps him get over whatever is bothering him.”

“I hope you’re right..”, you go back to “eating” your lunch.

Once your lunch break was over you make your way back to the nurses station and continue with your file entries.

“Ahem..excuse me…Ms.Y/n?”, you look up and you see a young girl…she looks very familiar.

“Hi..can I help you?”, you ask.

“I think so..my name is Maza…”, the girl says shyly.

“Oh! Maza! Our waitress from the other night right?!”, you ask happily.

Maza smiles at you, “you remember..”

You smile back, “of course! Loki and I had such a great night. Is everything alright? What brings you to the hospital?”, you ask remembering for a moment where you actually were..you know…a hospital..poor girl probably needs help and your sitting here reminiscing about a dinner from days ago.

“Actually I really need to talk to you about something if you have some time..”, Maza said nervously.

“Um..yea..sure..”, you look over and see Kelly, “hey, do you mind watching the nurses station for a bit for me?”.

She nods, “sure thing.”

You walk out from behind the desk and walk with Maza to a private room, you shut the door and you both had seats.

“Ok Maza, how can I help you?”, you smile at her.

“Well Ms.Y/n…do you remember your time on Asgard?”, she asks.

You look at Maza puzzled, suspicion starting to rise, “…yes...”

“Before Ragnarok?”, she clarifies.

“Yes..Maza..what is this about?”, confusion and more suspicion filling her.

“I knew that Prince Loki was disguised as the Allfather..”, she admits quietly.

You were getting a little annoyed now, what was this girl getting at? “Yea.. I think that became common knowledge when Thor came and forced him out of his illusion.”, your voice a little clipped now.

“I knew before then Miss..”

You look at her for a long moment, “how?”

“He came to me…showed me his illusion..”, she admits again looking down.

“Why?”, you ask, scared to hear the answer.

“My lady…the Prince…the Prince and I were having an affair…I wasn’t sure if I should be the one to tell you so I spoke to Prince Loki about it yesterday and…”

“Stop talking..”, you interrupt her. Your head was spinning, all of your fears about Loki eventually leaving you for someone different, moving on and making a new family with someone else..all of them echoing in your mind.

“You and Loki were sleeping together? On Asgard?..”, you needed to hear it from her mouth plainly.

Maza nods her head, “yes Ms….he did not wish for you to find out for obvious reasons...no one in New Asgard is really sure about how Prince Loki is back so I assumed he was still keeping our secret or he simply did not remember…he is a lie smith Ms…I’m not sure what to believe…”

You take a moment to think, if she’s telling the truth it was Loki’s variant that had the affair not the Loki that is with you now. You’re not sure how to feel…you’re seeing your life crumble down around you and all you can think about are the boys and how devastated they would be if you and Loki didn’t work out. But knowing that a variant of Loki cheated on you…you had to know the reason why..it was still possible this woman is full of shit.

“Why? Why did you two start sleeping together? Why tell me about this now?”, you ask.

She looked down at her hands, “he said he was bored of you, that he should’ve known a mortal lover would never be able to satisfy his true needs…and as far as me telling you…you are such a kind lady Ms…I didn’t want him to hurt you and your sweet children with a falsehood.”

You close your eyes and the tears that have been building in them spill, your fear of Loki growing bored of you confirmed..it was only a matter of time before this variant does the same thing. You open your eyes and look at Maza, “you should go…please..”

She stands, “of course, I’m sorry.. I didn’t wish to disrupt your family, you are very kind Ms, I just…thought you should know…”

Maza walks out of the private room and you lay your head on the table having a full on breakdown. You’re sobbing into your hands, you try and calm yourself with deep breaths and start frantically wiping your face dry. You take some more deep breaths and pull yourself together before you walk out. You go back to the nurses station where Kelly sits waiting for you to come back, she looks at your face and stands up in concern. “What happened?!”, she places her hands on your shoulders.

Your tears start falling again, “Kelly I need to go..I need to talk to Loki…”

“Ok…did you want to talk about it?”, she asks you concerned, clearly not wanting you to leave in that state.

You shake your head, “no I just need to go and talk to Loki about…all of this..”

“Ok..just be careful getting home, text me later..”, she gives you a tight hug.

You let go and give her a soft smile and grab your things to leave. When you get home Loki isn’t there yet, you assume he’s still at Thor’s house. You put your purse down and sit down on the couch. What were you going to do?..Clearly Loki was eventually going to get bored of this relationship. You couldn’t stop thinking about the boys…

You hear the door open and close, footsteps and then you see Loki who is surprised to see you. “Hey..you’re home early..”

You nod your head not responding to him verbally. He takes a moment and really looks at you and notices your puffy red eyes, “are you alright?”

“Did you have a good talk with Thor?”, ignoring his question.

“Yes…why have you been crying?”, his concerned look and voice irritating you.

“What did you talk to him about?”, again ignoring his question about your wellbeing.

“Tell me why you are upset.”, he demands.

You stay quiet, deciding what you want to tell him, “I had a visitor today at work.”

“Did they do something to upset you?”.

You shrug, “her name is Maza…know her?”.

Loki’s back straightens and his eyes go wide with shock, “y/n..allow me to explain..”, he sits next to you on the couch. You immediately stand up as soon as he sits and run your hands through your hair, “oh God, it’s true..”, you say out loud in a sad whisper.

Loki stands up and moves toward you with his arms out, “darling please..give me a moment to explain..”

You back away from him, “explain what? Explain why you wouldn’t talk to me about this yesterday when I asked you what was wrong? Explain why you thought waiting to tell me so that I can find out from the woman your variant cheated on me with? Everything that I was afraid of happening…happened!”

Loki holds his hands out to try and calm you, “y/n..I’m sorry..you’re right..I should’ve talked to you about this yesterday, I just didn’t know how to..you should not have heard it from that woman, if I could go back I would.”

“Was that why Narfi was upset yesterday?”, you ask not caring about his apologies.

Loki looks down and nods, “he felt my anxiety about the situation. He is afraid I will leave..y/n please don’t make me go..we don’t even know if she is telling the truth, we have no other word but hers..”

You shake your head, “you couldn’t tell if she was lying?”

Loki looks down again, “….no….”

“What’s the point of all of this Loki? I asked you a long time ago if I didn’t have the boys, would you have stayed? I think I have my answer.”

He reaches for you, “darling..no..”

You retreat backwards, “don’t call me that right now..”

“Y/n…please…don’t do this…don’t make me go..you and the children are my life…I love you…I love our family..”. He gets down on his knees and grabs your hands, “I need you y/n…”

You shake your head, “I need time to think Loki..maybe you should stay at Thor’s for a few days.”

Tears are streaming down Loki’s face as he looks up at you miserably, “y/n…please..let us discuss this..”

You interrupt him, “we will, I just need time and I need it to be away from you for a little bit..”

He starts to hyperventilate a little, “what about the children, how will we explain this to them?”

“We’ll tell them that Uncle Thor wanted some brother time and you’ll be staying with him for the next few days…I just need some time Loki…”

He stands and nods, “I understand..I will leave you now..”

You nod at him, “thank you..”

He gives you one last heartbreaking look and walks out of the house, leaving you to fall back on the couch sobbing.

To be continued…

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maxkirin · 2 years

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Does it matter if you went to college for writing books? I did go but the scholarships for college I got were from people who told me creative writing was not a real career and I was encouraged to chose a different major and I ended up dropping out but I still want to write (I just did not want to teach English) books but i was told before you needed connections to get published, even though I think that is not true anymore but all of it had a really negative impact on my ability to write. I still have ideas I want to put down but I feel like I don’t know how to write even a little bit after several years of having to set it aside for a career I don’t want.

Thank you for your question! There's a lot I want to cover so don't mind me breaking your question down 😊🌻

1) Do you need a college/university creative writing education to write books?

Nope! And anyone who tells you otherwise is trying to gatekeep you. I had a very good, and very lovely experience with my creative writing professor in college—but I have heard nightmare stories from people who paid good money at fancy universities just to have a professor waste their time with bad, bad, baaaaad writing advice.

You want to know what we did in my writing courses? We wrote. The teacher gave us prompts. We wrote in class. We gave each other feedback. We would sometimes have a theme or writing element we were working on, but it all felt secondary. To me, the goal of that class was to give us the room to comfortably write and talk about our craft.

You don't need to go to college to do any of that. In fact, I did some of my best learning once I got out of college. You want to get better at writing? Here is what I recommend:

Write

Read Books

Get Feedback

That's it. Writing keeps your mental tools sharp (and it's also very fun). Reading helps you see what works and what doesn't. Getting feedback helps you get out of your head and look at your writing from another person's point of view.

2) How do you get back into writing when you haven't done it in a while / you feel like you have lost your touch?

For better or worse, the answer is quite simple.

You get back to writing.

Pick a story you've been meaning to work on for a while, or create a new one, and write a little bit every day you can. That's it. I know it sounds the opposite of easy or simple, but that's the truth.

Writing is a verb. It is something you do.

Think of it like this: if you wanted to get back into running marathons after a long hiatus, how would you go about it? Well, it's simple enough: you would get back into running, little by little. It's the same.

Take baby steps. Write a little at first. Get your writing-legs back. And be consistent. That's really all there's to it. Trust me, I've been kicked in the butt and had to crawl back to writing more times than I can count. The solution is always the same: start writing again.

3) Do you need connections to get published?

I think anyone reading your question can agree that whoever you talked to was reaching for reasons to discourage you. I'm really sorry you had to go through that.

Now, about connections…

In this day and age going viral is the new hotness. A traditional publisher might be more interested on your social media numbers than anything else. It probably wouldn't hurt to have connections, but that's an old way to look at things. Honestly, the person who told you that was probably also of the mind that you had to submit to literary magazines to get noticed. No offense to all the literary magazine enjoyers out there, but that isn't as important as it once was.

There are many ways to get noticed now, and you don't even have to aim for a traditional publisher if that's not part of your goal.

At the end of the day, don't let other people's opinions or worries about publishing keep you from creating the stories that speak to you, call to you to write them.

I can only speak for myself, but I don't write books to get published.

I publish to make money. I write because it's fun, and because I want to fill this world with wholesome, queer, absurd stories. 🌈📚

— M. Kirin

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