Inferno
Pairing : Firefighter Bucky x Reader
Warnings : Major accident, fire, mild smut, major loss, references to death, manipulation
Word count : 6195
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You always had so much fun at the fireman's festival each year. Even as you get older, it’s nice to see the kids running around and having fun like you once did. Nowadays, you sit and chat with the firemen's wives and older kids as you all eat together.
Your dad had been the fire chief for the last 5 years after serving the community for at least 15. He was a good, honest, and hardworking man, and to him and your two brothers he was your hero. All of the men and women he’s worked alongside have been family to both him and all of you.
You had been laughing at something with your mom when you decided to get up for more barbecue. The ribs were amazing every year, and you weren't gonna miss an opportunity to have seconds while the line was short. You stood behind about five people and waited for your turn when you felt a tap at your shoulder.
"Hey." His smile was bright and oh so inviting. His eyes were a cheerful blue, and his hair was a dark brunette that was combed up and nearly fluffy. He was handsome, but you had no idea who he was. Yet, you didn’t want to be impolite, so with your same sweet demeanor, you greeted him back with "Oh, hello."
"You’re Chuck’s daughter, right?"
"Uh, yeah. Do you know him?"
"Damn well should; he’s my boss now." He chuckled as the line moved up.
"Oh, are you a new recruit?" You asked as you stepped forward, and he followed a little too closely, yet his new proximity wasn’t uncomfortable. In fact, as his shoulder brushed yours and he flashed that bright smile down at you, your heart started to beat a little faster.
"Graduated from the academy a couple weeks ago. I’m one of a couple new guys."
"Oh right, it’s nice to meet you...uh"
"James" he said as he extended his hand to yours, and you let him pull your little fingers into a firm shake before he continued with, "But you can call me Bucky."
His hands were strong and warm to the touch, making the heat from his fingers spread around your arm and up your neck.
"Will I be seeing you often enough to do that?"
You must have been blushing as you noticed his smile curling further up with satisfaction before he let your hand go and answered, "I hope so."
The line moved up again, and without fail, he inched closer until your back was almost touching his chest after you’d turned towards the line. When you looked back at him, his smile had started to fade as he looked out at the crowd. You matched his line of sight to see the gleaming bald head of your father breaking through the small sea of people. He seemed to be glaring between the two of you as he quickened his pace towards the line.
His goofy gray mustache was tilted in an unsavory direction as he came up to you and spoke with an odd sense of urgency. "Your mom needs you over by the picnic tables, sweetheart."
"Oh? But I was just there; I was gonna get.."
"I’ll get ya another plate; just go back to your mom, ok?"
"Uh, ok." You turned back to Bucky and bid him a goodbye before leaving the line to let your dad take your place.
When you make it back to the picnic tables and your mom says, "Hey sweetie, weren’t you getting something to eat?"
"Dad is grabbing me a plate; he said you needed me."
"I didn’t tell him I needed you."
"But he said..."
Your father walks past you before turning and handing you a plate full of saucy ribs, and you give him a brief "uh, thank you."
Your mother questioned him immediately upon his return.
"Chuck, what did you tell her?"
"Nothing..it’s just.." he turns towards you this time, "you don’t need to be around that young man."
"What?" You asked as your face scrunched with visible confusion.
"Charles!"
"Now, I mean it. There’s somethin not right about him." Your father said this as he sat down next to your mother.
"He’s like new; you'd barely know him." Your dad’s overly protective behavior was often exasperating, and you weren’t afraid to voice as much.
"My gut tells me there’s something off."
"Are you sure it wasn’t that second helping of potato salad?" Your mother said as she side-eyed your father.
"Don’t joke like that." He spoke back to her.
"I wasn’t entirely joking, George. You sound a little ridiculous." She said
"He sounds overly protective." You piped up before scooping up a bite of food.
He gives you both a glare. "I’m just doing what a dad needs to do."
You’ll only ever meet Bucky a handful of times after the fireman’s festival. He was always sweet, yet every time he had a chance to talk to you, your dad would often intervene and direct you in a different direction. If you took a second to look back at the other man, you’d see his smile would be gone and his jaw slightly clenched.
The two of you would become better acquainted after one fateful night. You would be awoken by the insistent beeping of a single smoke detector in the hall by your bedroom. In a matter of seconds, the entire space had been filled with smoke, and you were left on your bed struggling to breathe. You couldn't see any more than a few inches in front of you, and it was a miracle you hadn’t suffocated in your sleep.
A thick gloved hand broke through the black clouds and reached towards you, slipping under your shoulders as another slid under your knees. The gleam of the glass protector that covered your Savior's face was all you saw as you were carried out of the blazing building.
The fresh air hit unerringly hard as you were rushed out your front door directly towards the flashing lights of an ambulance. Your body was rocking in time with your Savior’s steps as they deposited you onto a gurney.
Their mask, once clear, was blackened over by ash after they had to burst out of the flames that ate away your home. Yet, even through the soot, a pair of piercing blue eyes could still be seen. The paramedics crowded around as the tether between you disappeared among the sea of uniformed people.
Your own eyes rolled away as the ambulance blurred into a mix of black sky and sterile metal walls. You wouldn’t open them again until you reached the hospital, where they’d treat your burns and later put you under observation. The few you had were small and would leave only mild scars behind, and at the very least you were thankful to be alive.
Waking up on your second day in the hospital, you didn’t say or see much, only watching the hospital staff as they periodically checked your status. You’d hoped to see your family, but there hadn’t been any sign of them.
It was a pleasant surprise when a nurse arrived to tell you that you had a visitor. The image of your parents popped into your head, only to vanish as your guest walked in.
"Bucky?"
You would have never expected to see him, especially since you’d only managed to speak to him a few times thus far.
"Hi doll. How are you feeling?" He asked with a bright and inviting smile. He had a bouquet of fresh yellow and white flowers with a pink bow twisted around a ‘get well soon’ tag.
"I'm alright. What brings you here? I haven’t seen you since…" Your memory was so fuzzy from all that had happened, but you didn’t need to finish your sentence as Bucky cleared his throat and continued it for you.
"Since the fire, we were all so thankful that I was lucky enough to pull you out on time."
He set the flower on the table beside you as he took a seat by the bed. Just as your shocked and painful face twisted when the tears pushed their way out into the company of this stranger before you could catch them, "I-I can’t thank you all enough that I’m even here right now."
"Hey.." He snatched a tissue from one of the counters out of your reach to dab at your wet cheeks. "It’s all a part of the job."
You nod, trying to shake the pain that started to knot inside your belly from finally taking in the reality of what happened. "Thank you, Bucky."
Another smile pulled back over his previously grim expression, but this one was much sadder than the first. "I came by to make sure you were doing better."
"I am doing a little better. They said the burns were minor and that they might let me out in a day or two. It’s nice that the boys at the station care so much." You can feel the tears dribble out again, but you don’t want to cry right now, so you try to force them back in.
"I’m sure my dad is beside himself."
He let out a short cough before addressing the new issue: "Actually, he..he went in to save you too, and he didn’t make it out. I’m sorry, but..here" He pulls his phone from his pocket and searches up the article that had already graced the local news.
The first image you see is a picture of your burning home, the next is a smiling snapshot of your dad, who had been pronounced dead not long after the incident, per the article.
This was the absolute worst way to find out that your dad had perished in that fire, while trying to save you no less. It’s a solid cinder block to the chest, and you can feel it sucking every ounce of oxygen out of the room.
Bucky is there beside you, arms wrapping around you as you gasp and sputter into his shoulder.
He was the only thing you could burrow into at this moment, until the thought of your mother crossed through the cloud of grief.
"Oh my god, my mom. Can I use your phone to call her, please?" Your nails dug into his shirt as you begged.
He picked up his phone from your lap, only to put it back in his back pocket.
"No, please." You pleaded as you grabbed his sleeve to keep him from taking it.
"It’s going to be alright; we were able to recover this." He reaches into his coat this time and hands you a plain black phone. Once you tilt it up, a familiar flowery background flashes over the screen.
It was a sight for the sorest of eyes to see your cell phone, and it’s even pristine so you could use it right away. You thank him over and over for saving you a new life line since you hadn’t spoken to your family since before the incident.
You tap in your code and find your mother's contact immediately before addressing your only visitor.
"I’m sorry, I just..I need to call her. Can you give me a minute, Bucky?"
"Of course." He said as he pushed up from his chair before leaving the room to let you use the phone. You clicked the green call button as soon as he left, listening with a heavy heart only to have it drop into your stomach when the call rang out into a ‘beep, beep, beep’.
You hung up and tried again, only to get the same busy tone. You tried again and again, until you couldn’t bring yourself to click the call button another time.
The room felt disgustingly silent as you squeezed the phone in your hand and choked out some fresh tears. When Bucky knocked at the door to check on you again, you just let him come back in.
"Any luck?" He asked as he sat back down beside you.
You could only shake your head before letting it fall back onto his shoulder again. He was right by your side, ready to hold you.
"It rang busy." You mumbled into his shirt.
"I’m sure she just has a lot on her plate with all that’s happened. The next time she’ll pick up, ok?" He grabs you some more tissues to help dry your tears as you nod and try to give him a reassuring smile to show that it will be better.
He stayed and chatted with you until visitation time was over. He leaned in and kissed the side of your head on the way out, saying, "I’ll be back tomorrow; hopefully you can get ahold of your family."
"Thank you, Bucky."
"It’s no problem, Doll." And with that, he left again to see to his own life, making the room depressingly quiet.
You tried to dial up your mom again, as well as a few other people, only to get similar results. There was either a busy signal or a disconnected number, and each failure to connect with someone left you more and more disheartened.
There was only one number you were able to get a hold of, and it was just the insurance company regarding your house, or at least what’s left of it. You had good insurance, and they assured you that damages would be covered in full, but with the cycle of bureaucracy, you wouldn’t see that check for a while.
Bucky came back the next day with a takeaway lunch for the both of you. Anything was better than the hospital food, and it was nice to have his company as you tried to figure things out.
Even though the damage to your body was minimal, your house was beyond repair. You didn’t have very many resources and hadn’t been able to get in touch with family, so you weren’t sure where you would be staying upon being discharged.
Upon hearing about your plight, Bucky leapt at the opportunity. "You can stay with me, just until you get this all figured out."
"I can’t do that to you; you barely know me." He was still a stranger, and you couldn’t bring yourself to burden him like this.
"Everyone at the station knows YOU, and so many of us care a great deal about you," he says, taking your shaking hand in his and pressing warmth into your skin as fresh tears rolled down your cheeks.
"Your dad was a good man, and I’m not about to let his daughter end up on the streets after something like this."
You stared up into those soothing blue eyes, like a calming lagoon, as they pulled you into a comfortable place.
"I can’t thank you enough, Bucky." You push forward on the bed and pull him into a tight hug. He embraces you back, pressing his palm to the small of your back as he buries his nose into the side of your hair.
There wouldn’t be anything to grab from the house; there was no house anymore. No clothes, no important documents—all of it was gone, and you’d have to rebuild from almost nothing. Thankfully, Bucky wouldn’t be far away to help you stand strong through the whole ordeal. He’s the only one who had visited you in the hospital over the past few days.
You’d often remember that whenever you thought to dial up your mother's number again. You didn’t bother pressing that little green call button anymore, not wanting to relive the disappointment of the call ringing busy again.
Bucky came back the next morning with a change of clothes, so you didn’t have to leave in a hospital gown. The underwear were granny panties at best, and it was accompanied by a plain sports bra. He would have had to guess your size, but everything seemed to fit alright.
The t-shirt was a v-neck in pink, paired with black workout pants, white socks, and a pair of sneakers. It was jarring that you truly had to start over so far behind that a man you barely knew had to buy you clothes just so you could leave a hospital.
This man had to be a saint for going this far out of his way for you.
By the time you were ushered into his car, you were thankful for the radio as it kept the creeping silence at bay as he drove you away. You’d been through a lot, and a little bit of music went a long way as he took you through unfamiliar neighborhoods to his home.
When he pulled into his driveway, he turned towards your somber presence. "Are you alright? I know a lot has happened.."
You shake your head and mumble, "No, I don’t think I’ll be alright for a while, but I’m so thankful for your help. I really am."
"It’s fine, really. I just want you to be safe." He gave you a sad smile before he clicked the door open and rounded the car to let you out.
His home was nice, painted a warm beige on the outside and decorated with white, navy, and black on the inside. He walked ahead of you with a plastic grocery bag of new clothes to last you a few days. You shut the door behind you and followed him to his guest room, where you'd be staying. It was another beautiful white and navy layout, with a bit of gray thrown in.
"This is it. Please, if you need anything, let me know." His voice was sincere, but his eyes seemed sad as he spoke.
"This is more than I could have asked for, Bucky. Thank you." You wanted to crawl into those navy sheets and never come out, yet a part of you longed to curl into his warm and inviting arms just as you did when he came to visit you in the hospital.
He seemed to read it on your face as his next move was to pull you into a hug from your side, and you felt some of the tension in your shoulders collapse.
When his arms loosened, he told you he wanted to let you get some sleep, and he left you to settle into the room. You sat at the foot of the bed and just took in your new surroundings. Beside you was the bag of clothes and amenities Bucky had left you. There was some soap, similar plain clothes, and even some tampons. Of the few practical things, there was a plain black dress, black dress shoes, and some black stockings.
He’d bought you clothes fit for a funeral, and indeed, those were their intended purposes. Your heart started to sink all over again as you stared into the bag.
In a way, it was a small overstep, but it was incredibly helpful. There was no way you had enough strength to buy a dress for a funeral you didn’t even know was already planned, so you were thankful that it was taken care of. Right now, you only wanted to sleep, as Bucky had suggested. So, you undid the bedding, crawled into the comfort of the guest bed, and waited for a sad slumber to take you.
Your nap continued on into the night and became restless sleep. The black void was deep and heavily fogged by smoke and ash. You waved through it as a faint pair of blue lights seemed to lead you down an endless path.
The lights would often blink on and off as they disappeared further and further ahead of you, leaving you to choke on the clouds of smoke. There was no more air left to breathe, and your vision blurred as ash surrounded you.
You awoke, coughing and sputtering as the dark room came into view. The thumping of footsteps could be heard down the hall as they drew closer to your room until their source ran into your doorway. Bucky flicked the bedside lamp on before pulling you into his arms, petting your hair, and shushing away all the bad memories.
His embrace was warm and safe. It’s the only place to welcome you, and you don’t want it to leave you. So, he stayed beside you until you fell asleep again and didn’t leave until the morning came. He found you still sleeping on his arm, and he almost couldn’t let you go.
He knew you needed him now, and that's exactly how he wanted it to be. To be there, sleeping beside you and making the bad dreams go away, was more than he could have asked for. It was all going according to plan.
He made sure to take good care of you throughout the next day since you had been in the hospital. The news about your father’s upcoming funeral was difficult to hear from someone you still barely knew, but after finding the mourning clothes among your new and only possessions, it wasn’t a total shock. It would be in the next 5 days, and 5 days too soon, but Bucky was still there for you.
Your family hasn’t spoken to you since the accident, and each day that ticked by without any word from neither your family nor your friends made your heart sink lower and lower.
The day of the funeral finally came, and the only reason you were able to show up was due to Bucky’s invitation. You weren’t even invited to your own father's funeral, a stab that cut deeper and deeper each day as it drew closer.
You barely remember the drive there, too far into the pit of your own thoughts as the trees in the windows flew by. Yet Bucky was still there for you, one hand on the wheel and the other tightly wrapped around yours.
The event was somber and gut-wrenching as multiple people suddenly started to fawn over you after well over a week of no contact. Bucky helped fend many of them off and wave away their prying questions. If they wanted to know if you were okay, they could’ve visited you in the hospital.
Your mother didn’t even look at you during the entire service, keeping silent with an air of resentment.
You never wanted any of this to happen, and you certainly wouldn’t have ever wanted to lose your father in exchange for your own life. To know that your mother stood across the room at his funeral, blaming you for his death, was heartbreaking. You didn’t know how much you could take by the time it was your turn to view his casket.
Bucky was right by your side during the whole service, not giving a single person a chance to speak to you for anything more than a few pleasantries. That was until you left him to say a final goodbye to your father's casket by yourself. This gave an old family friend an opportunity to talk to you.
"Hey." An older man called your name and prompted you to turn towards him in the line. Dave was an old friend of your father's, and you and his daughters were practically raised together.
"How is everything?" He asked. It was weird seeing him in such a somber light. "Everything is being taken care of."
You simply nod, giving a weak “yes.”
"Getting back on your feet well enough, cause you know if you ever need anything, me and the missus wanna be there for ya."
"Thank you, but Bucky has been a big help since I left the hospital." You nodded in the younger man's direction as you spoke to Dave. He turned to see Bucky staring at the both of you with sharp eyes before clearing his throat and speaking again.
"I see. You know your mom has been worried sick; she’s been wondering why you haven’t called her."
The second he said that, your blood started to boil. The amount of heartache that woman gave you after dodging your calls made you sick to your stomach.
"Call her? I’ve been trying to call her since I was in the hospital. She hasn’t picked up the phone." You started to raise your voice a little, drawing unwanted attention to yourself. Just as you try to take a deep breath to calm down, Bucky crosses the room to place his warm hand on the small of your back and steady you.
"It’s gonna to be alright, doll." He turns and addresses the older man with, "Can you not hound her right now? She just lost her father."
Bucky was given a sour and untrusting look from the older man before he walked away. Bucky instead stayed by your side in the line, massaging circles into your shoulder with his thumb as he turned you back towards the casket so you could pay your final respects.
Service ended shortly after, and Bucky quickly corralled you towards the car and took you home after helping you into the vehicle.
You’d held your tears in as best as you could today, not wanting to give any of them the satisfaction of seeing you cry after they’d all abandoned you, but when the car pulled away and it was only Bucky and yourself, they started to spill out over your cheeks.
You never in your life thought your mother would treat you like this, and it made your stomach twist with growing guilt.
"Maybe it is my fault..that he’s gone."
Bucky was quick to stop you, wiping a tear from your cheek and giving you reassurance. "Don’t say that. None of this is your fault."
The car pulled to a stop at the shoulder of the road so he could better address your downward spiral.
"Never blame yourself for this! Everyone just needs time to cope, but none of us would have wanted you to die in that fire. Especially not your dad."
You felt as if you could throw yourself over the center console to bury your face in his chest like you had for the past week. He provided a dark and safe place, holding you tightly together when you started to break. But, your tears were soon halted by the abrupt feeling of his hand pressing against the top of your thigh.
It didn’t feel inappropriate at the time; it was only a little shocking and slightly heartwarming. In the moment, it felt as if he was anchoring you, yet you still held your breath as you felt his warm palm through the fabric of your stocking.
You wait a second or two before you place your hand over top of his whispering a sad "Thank you, Bucky."
He leans in to wipe a tear from your cheek with his thumb as he whispers back, "It's the least I could do. I want to be there for you, doll."
He leaned in so that his face was in line with yours, and he matched your gaze, pouring his blue eyes into you. You didn’t register the space between the two of you closing until the shock of lips pressing against yours shook you from your fear and pain. Your eyelids only dipped instead of closing all the way as he stole the air from your very lungs.
You’re somewhat startled and a little shaken, but after he pulled away with the sound of your lips slowly breaking apart, you didn’t stop him from stealing another and then another until you were lightheaded in his hands.
When he pulls away from you, your head is left to sway as you slump back into his seat. Another small tear pricks at the corner of your eye as you take in a sharp breath. The longer the ride, the more suffocating the car became, and oddly, the only tether you had that kept you from slipping into the flood of emotions was his hand still pressed to your thigh.
You had been vulnerable, and he took advantage of that, but at the time you found him too comforting to push his advances away.
The rest of the ride was quiet, and upon your return to his house, he let you scurry back to the guest room to bury yourself in the bed for a night of restless sleep. Smoke and fire plagued your dreams again that night. Bodiless hands reach towards you in the flames. Yet, they don’t save you; instead, they hold you down until the fire eats you.
You wake, screaming out into the dark room, to find actual hands trying to steady you in the bed. Bucky was there, trying to help wake you from your restless sleep.
"It’s ok! It’s ok. You're safe here." He started to carefully rock you back and forth once you stopped flailing your body. You curled into his hold, digging your nails into his soft T-shirt as you shakingly cried into his shoulder.
He laid you back into the bed, repeating the words "you’re safe here" as he pressed his lips to your damp forehead and weaved his fingers into your hair.
You nuzzled into his chest as you tried to catch your breath, and you could feel his arms tightening around your body.
He left a few lingering pecks from your hair to the top of your forehead, whispering, "I’ve got you, doll, just let me take care of you" as they migrated to your cheek. And it worked; it melted the tension in your body. That is, until his lips steal over to yours to lock them in another kiss. This time it was more of a shock than when it had happened in the car, and your eyes flew open as he weakly tried to push him off of you.
You had no strength left, both physically and emotionally. You end up letting him take advantage of you, making love to you in the night. His hands were the first to wander through your body, desperate for you to accept them.
His fingers pressed into the T-shirt you'd worn to bed in the absence of pajamas, pulling it upward to expose your silly skin to his hungry eyes and wanted hands.
Those same hands feel as if they are all over your body as that same reassuring voice grounds you.
"This is what you needed, doll." Let me help you. Let me put you back together." His sweet tone becomes low and rough as his teeth start to dig into your skin as he nips at your neck.
His fingers hooked onto the end of those plain cotton panties he’d bought you before dragging them over the side of your hip. You stop fighting, wanting instead to find that comforting part of him. So, as the uncomfortable cotton fabric is pulled from your hips, you lift them so he can easily drag them down your legs.
Soon all that covered you from him was pulled away, and he quickly followed suit before letting his fingers slip over your stomach and towards your pink folds to delve into your sensitive core.
He’s hard and hot as he presses his member to your thigh, guiding himself into your tight channel with a heavy, satisfied sigh. He’s gentle at first, caressing and softly kissing your skin as he drags his cock along your inner walls. But, soon his touch is heavier, digging into the soft fat of your thighs and grazing his teeth along your neck as he gradually pumped himself in and out of your open flower.
It’s enough to make your head ache and your vision fuzzy as he pulls you apart with his bare hands. His body had engulfed you, becoming the only thing you could breathe in for fear of suffocating without him.
You let yourself be engulfed by him, lulled by the deep blue of his eyes as you ran your fingers through his dark hair. You wanted the distraction; you wanted his warmth, but you didn’t know if you wanted this, and yet you couldn’t bring yourself to stop him from pulling the pleasure from your body.
You turned your head to bury it in his bare shoulder as cock stirred your core into an unanticipated frenzy, pushing a wail from your chest that came out muffled against his skin. He wasn’t nearly done yet, and it seemed to go on for the rest of the night as he twisted and snapped a tightened spring within your belly until he spilled into you with a heavy sigh he breathed through tightly closed teeth.
You slept better that night than you had any other, and it would go on to become a nightly ritual for the remainder of your time spent at his home. Your waking days felt haunted, but you feared that without his presence, you’d wilt beneath the weight life had left on your shoulders.
Everything seemed to fade away in the wake of Bucky’s increasingly large presence in your life.
Your family was the first to go, as all contact between you had been severed by an unseen hand. The second would be your job, as after many days away and being unable to reach you, they were forced to let you go.
At some point, Bucky decided that a move for the both of you was what was best. You don’t recall exactly when your lives became so entangled, but you didn’t fight the change, as it felt right to start over with someone that you felt cared for you.
You have such little pushback against all of this. The brief stay at his home, once meant to help you get back on your feet, turned into a permanent residence in his bedroom. It was bizarre to have so slowly and yet so abruptly turned into someone's domestic partner, as if that would be your new identity.
This facade would eventually fall when you helped unpack after a lengthy drive all the way to New York, where Bucky had gotten his new job. You found a small box tucked away with his clothes. Upon opening it, you found items that didn’t seem to belong to him.
Inside the small shoebox were photos and mementos from your old home that you thought had perished in the fire. Pictures of your family and childhood, your birth certificate, social security card, and ID. All of which were tucked away in Bucky’s personal effects.
You nearly battled down the stairs as you ran through the house.
"What is this?" You could barely speak as each word caught in the back of your throat.
He looked at the box in your arms but didn’t answer, instead ignoring the question to place a bowl on one of the shelves.
"Answer me, Bucky!" You forced it out as loud as you could to echo off the walls and windows.
"I think you already know what all of that is."
"But..why do you have it? I thought.."
"Thought what? They burned up? No, I made sure to recover a few personal items before the fire started."
You choked on the air and listened to him unfold a terrible tale. He’d never spoken to you this harshly before, and it made the hair stand up on your arms.
"Before it started? Did you burn down my house?"
"I did what had to be done so we could get closer to one another."
"MY FATHER DIED IN THAT FIRE!"
"Now that was unintentional." Or was it?
"Why did you keep these if you didn’t want to get caught?"
He just shrugged before leaning against the kitchen counter before answering. "It just seemed like it would be something our children could have after we’re gone."
"Our children?" You nearly choked on the very words, your stomach twisting with disgust and fear. You almost felt as if you could wretch at his feet from the sickness building in your belly. It’s a slap in the face to really see how far he plans to go and what he did to get here.
"What is wrong with you?" You bit out at him.
"I think it’s time to go to bed; clearly you're tired." He grabs at your wrist only to have you yank it away and growl out, "Don’t touch me!"
His eyes narrowed, and his smile fell, giving him a more dangerous demeanor. "What now, then?"
"Where do you think you’re going to run?" His voice was barely a shout, but it still stung to hear it because he was right. You had no bridges left to run to, and the realization made everything spill right out.
“You don’t have anyone anymore.” His voice was soft and yet menacing, as if he spoke to you like a little mouse stuck in his maze.
He still reaches for you to wipe your tears away, saying "But, you have me, and only me." His voice will be dipped in this sickly, sweet poison that he’s been feeding you for so long. "That’s all you ever have."
The less you knew the better it was to accept this. You’d re-hide the box and leave it as a false memory at the back of your mind. You wouldn’t ask about it, nor would you ask about all the numbers in your phone being wrong after finally checking your contacts more thoroughly. It was all too late.
You couldn’t bear started over again.
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This took me so long to do with my job becoming increasingly busy, and losing half of it in the proofreading machine. I’m am so glad I got this out but I wish I could have finished sooner.
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Bucky x reader
Play nicely
(tw it's kinda creepy. Evil Steve. Your hydra name is Dove)
"Ow! That fucking hurts!" you shouted as the winter soldier looked at you angrily while he was stitching up a cut on your hand.
"Well, maybe if you stop fucking moving it won't hurt." He growled as you kept your mouth shut.
"Maybe if you hadn't fucked up the mission I wouldn't have got hurt." You growled as he pressed his thumb into the wound making you scream.
"Stop!" You screamed before he went back to stitching it up.
"That's what I thought." He growled in response as I turned away from him and kept quiet.
"I would hope you two weren't fighting again." You heard a voice say as you looked up to see Captain Hydra, aka Steve Rogers.
"No, sir." You and Bucky both said as he chuckle softly.
"Good, because you two are my best soldiers. I don't need you trying to kill each other. Now what do we do when we've had a fight?" Steve said as you glared at Bucky.
"We weren't even fighting." You grumbled as Steve looked at you.
"Now, my sweet girl. You know I don't like when you tell fibs." He said as you looked at Bucky.
"Let's just get this over and done with." You grumbled to Bucky who sighed.
This was the routine, Steve was sick and twisted in so many ways.
You leaned froward and quickly pecked Bucky on the lips, before backing away.
"Good girl, good boy always being so good." Steve said as you kept your eyes away from him.
Steve liked to treat you and Bucky like you were his kids in a very twisted way.
"Head back to your room and rest, sweethearts." Steve said as you stood up and walked out with Bucky.
Steve walked behind you both as you kept your eyes down.
Once you finally reached your cell you stepped inside and crawled into your bed.
Steve smiled and kissed your forehead before doing the same to Bucky and leaving.
"Do you think this is better?" You whispered as Bucky looked at you in confusion.
"What do you mean?" He asked as you cuddled the blanket close to your chest.
"Him treating us like this, is it better than how the other agents get treated? Or would you rather just get beaten." You whispered as Bucky looked at you sadly.
"Don't think about those things, Dove." He replied softly as you nodded a little.
"I'm sorry." You whispered as Bucky continued to stare at you.
He always knew exactly what you were feeling, and right now he knew you wouldn't stop thinking things over in your mind.
"Come here." He whispered, lifting his blanket up.
You quickly got up and shuffled over to Bucky and cuddled into his arms.
"Don't think, doll. Just focus on me." Bucky whispered as you nodded and closed your eyes.
Bucky was good at naming sure you didn't think, something about him made you fall asleep instantly.
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You woke up about an hour later feeling cold metal around your wrists.
"Soldier?" You called out weakly.
You looked up to see Steve above you.
"Sir? What's happening?" You asked in fear as you tried to move.
"Shh, it's going to be alright, my sweet Dove. You're such a skilled little solider for me, but I know you can be more powerful. I want to make you just as perfect as the winter soldier, make you a super soldier." He said as he brought out a needle, you looked at him in fear and shook your head.
"No! No please please! Sit, please I don't want to." You begged in tears as he smiled.
You'd seen what it had done to Bucky, you didn't want to be next.
You hated it, but you knew what you need to do.
"Daddy, please. Please, it'll hurt." You whispered as Steve looked down at you and ran his finger over your cheek.
“My sweet little girl, it’s going to be okay. Daddy will be right here beside you.” He said as you thrashed in the restraints and screamed as loud as you could.
You felt a sharp prick in your shoulder as you began to feel drowsy.
“No…” You whispered as you slowly fell unconscious.
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Back in your shared cell Bucky kept throwing himself against the bars, he could hear your screams of agony and it was driving him mad.
He screamed and used his metal arm to rip the hinges right off the door, he ran as fast as he could to the lab.
He saw Steve and two doctors around you, injecting you with things.
He grabbed a knife and slit the doctors throats before he punched Steve.
“Get off her!” He screamed as he pointed his knife at Steve.
“Look at you Soldier, so powerful when she’s in danger.” Steve said in amazement as he felt his face.
Bucky heard you sobbing as you tried to break free.
“Please, soldier.” You cried out as Bucky slowly stepped back and looked at you.
You had dark circles under your eyes and your skin was awful dull.
Suddenly Bucky was knocked out by Steve and you cried even more.
“Well, my darling girl. Looks like the serum didn’t work, but that’s alright. Just means you can be something even more important now.” He said as you looked up at him with tears in your eyes, you knew what he meant.
After everything he’d injected into you, you would be weak now and not being able to fight.
You’d go from Soldier to whore in just a day.
Steve undid your restraints from you, he thought you would be completely weak, but knowing what he was going to do to you you felt even stronger.
You grabbed an empty needle and stuck it into Steve’s neck, making him drop you.
You stood on your unsteady feet and grabbed one of the needles that still had some serum inside.
You were hoping it was a sedative.
You plunged it into his neck and injected it as he slowly fell to the floor.
You fell to your knees beside Bucky and rested your head on his chest as you cried.
“Wake up, Soldier.” You cried out, you heard him groan and his hand reached up to your back.
"Dove?" He whispered as you pulled away and looked at him.
"We have to get out of here." You replied as he nodded, you helped him to sit up as he looked at Steve.
"Look away." He growled as he grabbed a knife.
You looked away and blocked your ears, you knew you couldn't leave Steve alive.
But a twisted part of you would miss him.
Bucky tapped you on the shoulder and you turned around and quickly got up.
He gave you a gun and he kept a knife in his hand.
He grabbed two lab coats from a closet and you both dressed in them.
"Stay close to me, and don't say anything." He said, grabbing the two key cards from the dead doctors.
You secured the coat around you and kept the gun in your pants before you headed out.
You kept your head down as you past other agents and doctors.
You made it to the hanger doors and saw two guards waiting, the doctors cards wouldn't have access.
Bucky looked at you as you nodded a little.
You both ran up and chose one each, taking them down as quietly as possible.
You swiped their cards and got into the hanger, looking at all the jets.
"So, which one?"
(part 2 here)
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