#actual survivor

[little-bloodied-angel]

As someone who's permanently physically disabled as a result of an abusive relationship some of y'all's takes on Izzy are fucking UNHINGED. Like "I hope you never go near an abuse survivor, EVER, in your life" levels of revolting. I shouldn't be struggling for breath with a panic attack after trying to scroll through a blog for pictures but here we are.

Nobody, nobody, can ever deserve being physically mutilated by someone they trusted. Nope, not the assholes either. And nobody can do that to someone else and claim it was their fault for being an asshole. And nobody can traumatize MULTIPLE PEOPLE and point to that other person as the source of the problem. What the FUCK are you talking about.

(ok to rb but if you start arguing that "well, actually" I'll block you)

#me #personal #izzy hands #abuse tw #israel hands #israel basilica hands #negative #swearing #edward teach critical #some people on this site need to take a long walk off a short pier #actually disabled #actual survivor #not me getting VIOLENT flashbacks to my ex threatening or outright hurting other people if i didn't comply #the guilt i still carry from that is devastating #fuck off #mutilation

[stumbling-after-happiness]

TW (CSA)

A hard thing for me about being a CSA survivor/victim is that it can be like living a double life.

I’ll stand in the supermarket check out line like I didn’t have a seriously effed up childhood, holding some discounted fruit. And no one around me knows that I’m trying to cope with the earth-shattering knowledge that my own mother and father were my abusers. And most other people seem to be waiting in line with their supplies as though they have no idea the pain that someone can inflict on another.

Some people sadly probably do know about this deep pain. However, we just wait there with our waiting faces, trying to get our food and go.

It’s like I’ve just survived a horrendous ship wreck and I’ve pulled myself to shore. My hair is matted, clothes hanging off, pale skin, dirty nails, shivering, no shoes, and a wild desperation in my eyes. And the people around me are just walking past.

The invisibility I feel as a survivor is no one’s fault, however it’s so strange living in a world where many others have no idea of the suffering I’ve experienced.

And the expectation is there that I should be a fully functioning adult with a job, neat little life, and average levels of happiness. When I’m still coming to terms with what I lost in a storm.

#life #freedom #cptsd #csa survivor #child abuse survivor #ptsd #actual survivor #survivor #childhood ptsd #ptsd thoughts #poem #vent #trauma #trauma vent #childhood trauma #healing #healing trauma #rough childhood #actually ptsd #cptsdwarrior #just cptsd things #cptsdawareness #cptsd recovery #tw cptsd #cptsd tag #cptsd vent #artist #quote #art

[recoverr]

i don't know who needs to hear this, but guilt, self-hatred and shame are not sustainable sources of growth and healing. you can't hate yourself into feeling better, or being better. you can't repeatedly punish yourself for your flawed humanity and expect wholesome results.

#mental health #recovery #self care #self love #positivity #reminders #healing #be kind to yourself #actually mentally ill #cptsd #actually cptsd #recovery suggestion #trauma survivor #trauma recovery #mine.

[bitsbug]

Slugsign is a language of many uses

#rain world #rainworld #art #slugsign #five pebbles #rw monk #rw survivor #slandering him and he doesn't even know it.... #this includes a new sign that isn't in the legend post btw #actually two. though 'loser' is basically just T-bagging

[stealingpotatoes]

do you think ezra would be upset at all the harmless little guys cal and luke have slaughtered over the years (namely the rankor and oggdo bogdo)

yes but rebels/survivor au brainrot hit so we’ll have to save luke for later:

(commission info // kofi support!)

#ive never actually killed the rancor in JS. died twice and decided failure was not a necessary part of the path #rebel survivor #ezra bridger #cal kestis #kanan jarrus #star wars rebels #jfo #jedi survivor #jedi fallen order #my doods

[kelocitta]

Anthro Au Survivor drafts feat. too much worldbuilding because I cant just put pants on a slugcat like a normal person & my godawful handwriting

The Survivor (Their full, scavenger-given name includes the 'The') was separated from their family while traveling between colonies and stranded in the dangerous unpopulated wilds. Against all odds they managed to survive (and wander) far longer than they should have been able, but rather than reconnecting with their (or another) slugcat family, they instead made contact with one of the many wandering scavenger troops- But unfortunately not one that had ever met a slugcat nor had any idea what to make of a stranded one. Regardless the group gave it their best, ended up committing to the role of slugparents, and The Survivor and their troop still consider themselves close family long after Survivor finally reconnected with their sibling. (They're a bit of a mess though, understandably)

#rain world #rw anthro #subject to change and sorry if you actually try to make sense of this #but since arti is more anti-scav and survivor is a lil 'plain' i thought mixing scavengers in them would be a fun thing to explore #with the vanilla slugcats #unfortunately it means survivor was a very confused child who is a still confused adult #Also just cause of the way this is set up I think they have reconnected with Monk at this point #making this all so much harder on myself by not just going 'yea theyre in high school they ride bikes and drive cars' instead im being weir #and theyre turning more to rw if the creatures were sentient enough to do taxes #scribbles

[shrimpricebowl]

oh thank god

#art from a while back #i played hk first and deepnest was like. the most uncomfortable ive ever been playing the game #mainly because its just so DARK #as for rw... when i got to shaded...... what the actual Hell #i eventually got used to just dying in the dark and exploring the first parts of the region but like. Why is it pitch black #i didnt even realize there was a path to the scav merchant at the first room..... i got to memory crypts before finding it in my next run #hollow knight #rain world #hk ghost #rw slugcat #rw survivor #artatat #?!?@?@?@?@ the alt text got removed for a sec Sorry about that im not sure why or how that happened #also im completely aware deepnest without a lantern is much darker but atleast it isnt pitch black. You know #i also wanna add on the fact i entered deepnest after the mantis lords and thought. “what kind of winning gift is this!?!?!?” #and felt like cornifer for the first couple of minutes LOL #but i had nowhere to go so womp womp :P #to clarify: i dont hate shaded its actually my top route to go from industrial to shoreline #but i hate deepnest with all my heart❤️ godbless #reading the rbs here is so fun.... so true guys

[witchyykitten]

everyone talks about cutting off a toxic parent

but no one ever talks about the pain of wanting a parent but knowing yours cannot love you the way they should

#toxic mom #toxic mother #toxicmommy #toxic family #toxic parents #child abuse #narcissistic abuse #parental abuse #mental abuse #emotional abuse #abuse survivor #actually abused #why my family don't love me? #i hate my family #family issues #dysfunctional family #family #dysfunctional household #dysfunctional parents #dad issues #toxic father #father #toxic dad #emotionally unstable mother #emotionally immature parents #narcissistic mother #childhood trauma

[dysmotility]

please please please don’t forget to include intellectual disability, psychosis / schizospec disorders, level 2-3 autistics, folks w dissociative disorders, and others with “severe mental illness” from ur conversations about mad liberation.

these are some of the most vulnerable and disenfranchised mad people, and we need to give them a voice.

these are the places where liberation is needed the most

#mad liberation #mad pride #psych survivor #autistic #disabled #sanism #cripplepunk #intellectual disability #psychosis #actually schizospec #schizo spectrum #neurodivergent #level 2 autism #level 3 autism #level 1 #actually autistic #disability #queer cripple

[disqualified-human-1103]

I’m sick of going to bed and knowing things won’t be better tomorrow

#bpd vent #actually bpd #actually borderline #bpd feels #actually traumatized #bpd shit #bpd stuff #depressing post #personal vent #trauma survivor #bpd favorite person #tw abuse #bpd fp

[ben-marco]

It is okay to mourn the child that you were, or the child that you could have been. It is okay to be sad or angry that no one protected you like you should have been protected. It is okay to grieve.

#actually did #actually dissociative #ramcoa #ramcoa survivor #did osdd #did system #dissociation #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #osddid

[borderlineangel222]

i never felt loved by my family which is why i always searched for it in the worst places because when you’re about to die of thirst, even a drop of poison tastes like heaven.

#bpd #borderline personality disorder #borderline #actually borderline #actually bpd #bpd culture #bpd anger #bpd rage #bpd fp #bpd favorite person #trauma #generational trauma #trauma survivor #ptsd #post traumatic stress disorder #actually ptsd #ptsd thoughts #cptsd life #bpd problems #bpd life #bpd vent #bpd blog #daddy issues #mommy issues #attachment issues #abandonment issues #childhood neglect #not my words #thought of sharing it #actually mentally ill

[focshi]

GDFHDHDHFKDKDBDHDJSHSHSJS THEY'RE SO TINY I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!1!1!1!1!1!1!

The fact they are the size of her pups but are full grown because they are just a smaller breed of scug is very funny to me, like she's just like "oh these poor sick babies"

Local woman meets short people for the first time.

short scugs? all I see are pups...

#saint is actually around their size as well #but they smell old #my art #art #artists on tumblr #ask #digital art #rain world #rain world artificer #rain world survivor #rain world monk #rain world rivulet #rain world spearmaster #arti adoption au

[met4lwhore]

I killed a part of me to keep you alive.

And u never noticed

#borderline personality disorder #bpd #mental illness #borderline culture is #bpd safe #bpd splitting #bpd thoughts #depressing shit #actually borderline #attachment #alive #survivor #notice #leave me alone

[hajihiko]

Akane therapy moment or sth

#Might make this a little Survivor series actually #an art #Akane Owari #She doesnt dwell on things! she doesnt remember how to or if she ever got the chance to

[pigeon-system-boys]

I LOVE YOU SYSTEMS

YES YOU TOO

Even if you were told that you are gross

Even with alters with PrObLeMaTiC Source (don't care, you aren't your fucking source!!!)

Even if your persecutors and protectors act like pieces of shit (they are trying and are fucking up. A lot of times. But they're trying!!)

Even if your littles are sexual protectors (VALID) (YOU DON'T CHOOSE ALTER ROLES)

Even if you can't heal right now

Even if you are happy that you are system

Even if you ARE NOT happy about being system

Even if you have NO CLUE what tf was your trauma

Even if you have your trauma 360° full HD scarred into your brain

If you want to know your trauma and if you don't

If your system is full of abuse (don't say you are bad person, you aren't, your brain tries to COPE)

Even if your trauma was "not enoth", even if it was "too much"

Even if you don't love yourself

Especially if you don't love yourself

I am here for you

#dissociative system #system alters #system #system stuff #did system #osdd system #polyfrag system #programmed system #sysblr #traumagenic system #system memes #hc did system #osdd stuff #did stuff #did osdd #actually did #hc did #actually osdd #actually polyfrag #osdd #system positivity #did positivity #osdd positivity #tbmc survivor #ramcoa system #did alter #osdd alter #did memes #osdd memes