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When too much thinking becomes zero

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Get out of “that” darkness: the darkness that keeps you stuck in agonizing turmoil; the darkness you can’t make use of as in like converting into something beneficial for you; the darkness that doesn’t serve you well, not all darkness. Why am I trying to articulate this? Because we all have darkness. And there is no such thing as “darkness is poopoo”; or that you can/should get rid of it.

Learn to get to know & communicate with your shadows and get along with them so that you can make the adjustments you need to co-exist in harmony before it fully takes control of you and dominates your life. Same goes for the light. Too much light = blindness which throws you into sheer darkness.

Light is good of course but it can mean so many things: not just to cross darkness to say “go into the light.” Light is a significant life force (so is darkness) and a tool to see, think and feel things clearly, but since there is no such thing as just light; and since the beauty of the stars only appears in darkness, we have to embrace the shadow as a permanent part of us instead of trying to eliminate it. As long as you have a light shining upon you, you will be accompanied by a shadow, simple as that.

Daemons are known to be bad and evil by general public but they are also angels and have light in them. They may represent and include darkness more than the regular “angels”, but so the angels have dark sides. Working with angels can be as risky and chaotic just as much as with daemons for that reason.

Like I always say, nothing is perfect and nothing is just about one notion defines and perpetuates it all. Balance is important between the two. That doesn’t always mean the ideal ratio is 50% 50% either. Your journey itself and keep going forward, embracing it all while staying true and loving to yourself is one big of a settled fact in human lives.

(I will not elaborate what “into the light” call really means in my artwork as the right audience will get the message right away)

So be it.

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eclectic-ways · 10 days

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The House of an Outcast Mermaid Transforming into a Siren

Note to Anti-AI-ART People:

You will be blocked right away.

You have no right to criticize someone based on your assumptions. The amount of time and efforts I put in creating my ai images; editing and photoshopping; music edit with purchase; visual effects and etc. cross none of your mind somehow. I don’t just post a basic ai image created by a bot.

Making artworks through AI is not my only hobby. There is a reason the page has the title “assorted page of a peculiar artist”. I am also a filmmaker, photographer, music composer, writer, a witch and more. I don’t need to explain myself, my talents, beliefs, ethics or intentions to anyone. I express myself through various ways.

For all the people misinterpreting me and this page... I hope you heal and stop spending your time trying to hurt or offend others because you are hurt.

Though know this: when I do AI artwork, AI is just the vessel. I transform a series of images into a whole another level and make it a visual music art mostly. I work for hours or days on many of them meticulously. Not to mention most everything you see in these videos are manually done or made by me, not bots. There is no such bot, app or whatever to do what I’m doing. Even if they would, still wouldn’t even be close when it comes to quality and authenticity.

This account on tumblr is literally the mix of everything I am and do.

I will not explain myself about this again. I OWN my efforts on all of my artworks whether based on AI or not. Not you, judgypants.

You don’t like it?

Scroll the fuck away.

#ai artwork #ai generated #artists on tumblr #multi talented #kiss my curves

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eclectic-ways · 12 days

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WE have to come TOGETHER

a CALL to all the Starseeds, multiverse & astral travelers, light & shadow workers, empaths, multidimensional beings, Mystics & Esoterics and whatnot...

This is a hypnotic artwork of mine that has a collective purpose in which oneness shall make a positive impact universally.

You can use this for your practices on similar collective intentions so we all can gather up and connect.

So be it.

[song credit: Morwell - Let Us Make]

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eclectic-ways · 13 days

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“The line between what brings us pain and what sustains us is far thinner than one imagines.”

- The Originals

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The original pic & writing doesn’t belong to me. I only edited/altered and turned it into a gif.

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eclectic-ways · 14 days

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Dear Tumblr,

Please fix your members not receiving any notification for literally anything even within your app. This has been going on for months now. As a blogging website/app, this is not acceptable.

You… got this (?),

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Is it just me or using stimulants (Vyvanse, Adderal, Concerta) amplifies/exacerbates/triggers/intensifies our pain for us Fibromyalgia sufferers? And not just that, once you come down of it the same day, you legit become a living zombie, a very harsh comedown…. aaand the next day everything is usually worse both mentally and physically including fatigue, depression, sensitivities etc.

I have adhd and my freaking brain (treatment resistant chronic depression) is just not producing dopamine, seratonine, oxytocin etc. no matter what I do and use for almost 2 decades. Stimulants really & mostly help me get things done and make me function normal or to be at my best/better capacity. But I guess it’s just the enemy of fibromyalgia…

I got a potent muscle relaxant 2 hrs ago that also has Diclofenac Sodium in it and it barely helped my pain. I’m so much in pain, my back is killing me and this happens often once I use stimulants I observed…

What do you guys think? And what are your individual experiences about it?

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Hi! So I read your post about manifestation gurus. I have borderline and well, your post really helped me, but at the same time I'm confused. Believing that I am able to get whatever I want and manifest it and I always create my reality has helped me, but at the same time I'd hate to believe that I "manifested" getting borderline or other terrible things in my life. How do I cope with this? Or how do I find a middle point in this?

I’m sorry for the late reply. I don’t get any notification even within the app when someone mentions me, asks questions etc. somehow.

Good question. It’s all about the balance really; not only for us BPD fighters but also for every single person on the planet. Once the scale weighs significantly heavier than the other side, there is a big impact usually not a good one unless we’re weighing gold over copper here, lol… If your hardworking trait, for instance, is much more dominant than the chill you or just the hedonistic self, then you will actually miss a lot in life. All that effort, time, stress and sacrifices you made may pay off in the end for whatever you had aimed, but you will also be left with “that gap” you chose not to fill but pass. Now you gotta work on what you really need = the shadow created by you has its thorns and will hurt your loved-ones as well. Point is… The balanced work and pleasure time is the best way to consume our mortal lives, same goes for many other human-related life philosophy.

Spirituality helps immensely to BPD-sufferer, (excessive manifestation mindset does not though and I don’t even regard manifestation concept as a subcomponent of spirituality) but science also helps to BPD, right? Balance… The mainstream manifestation belief system is based on conditioning your brain and nothing else. And “conditioning” is a very powerful trick in psychology field (science) to do great things or overcome big obstacles in life, even when it comes to surviving. If you’re about to lose your mind because of loneliness or being stuck horribly, for example, conditioning and playing mind games with yourself will save you (happened to me many times in worse conditions.). Yet again, it has its limits. Conditionings won’t get you your fp back or get you find the best looking man/woman with best manners. Not in most cases at least :)

Spiritual or magickal based manifestations are the healthier practices in my opinion unless you go overboard with obsessions and delusions. Because you simply set your intention; do your ritual/prayer/ceremony etc. to lay emphasis on what you realy want and send it to the universe or God; followed by doing “your part.” Not dreaming and wishing. Actively and consistently keep doing what all the steps will get you closer to that intention in real life. If it doesn’t happen in months, do a self-reflection. Maybe it’s not the best thing for you to occur in life — maybe you’re doing something wrong with one of your methods — maybe it is not what you actually want but rather a need of your shadow side that you need to work on. So alter what you do; or change your route and maintain manifesting “that”. If it’s something realistically really can happen within a year and still not happening; then it is just NOT meant to be. God, source, universe whatever you want to call it, does not allow it to happen for (probably) a (better) reason. Move on. I mean really believe that it’s for the best and get it out of your mind; do your best to get over it and move past it. And so now you think and believe that you did your best, but God didn’t make it happen. Hmm wonder why? So now you know and/hope you have better things to come and find out why soon.

No blaming or questioning yourself and everything you do. You see, the new era manifeststion bullcrap is all about making it happen, and God forbid if you can’t, there is something wrong with what YOU do, say, think and be. It’s your fault that it didn’t happen. How in the world you think this version of manifestation practice is healthier even for a normal person with no mental disorder. aaand BPD? We the king and queen of self-criticism, self-depreciation, self-doubt, self-hate, identity crisis etc. lacking self-love, self-confidence and stable mood or mindset. Let’s say you improved and healed some of these bpd symptoms over time, Wouldn’t you think if you firmly believe in “you create what you are and what you live = you deserve what you got” would throw you back into that tornado in the void you’ve had suffered so much in already?

We’re all able and capable of doing a lot of good even great things. That doesn’t mean you can or should get everything you want in this life. Also, Let’s say you simply want to get mentally healthier which you totally deserve and should work on. But nothing changes for years or perhaps it gets worse. In the meantime, you always wanted to be a great writer; one day will come, you will come to your wits end and you find yourself writing one of the best books out there; or that book will serve humanity even centuries after your lifetime. Perhaps that was your mission in your current incarnation to begin with? The best artists and writers in the world are always the ones suffered beyond comprehension either or both physically and mentally. You see my point? This was just an example but also based on true stories. Helps you dodge the victim mentality as well.

Leaving it be after you tried your part enough or did your best-ish is peace which is what we need the most even more than love for us BPD warriors. Stress is our worst enemy. Inner-peace can only take place through how you navigate your mind and soul upon “things” happening or not happening, NOT by what you achieve/get or not.

I hope I was able to clarify it better for you because my mind is really foggy and going through adhd shift right now.

Feel free to ask or talk to me more if you need more support.

Remember the darkness and light need each other to prove their individual worth; earn gratitude and appreciation. No one can be without darkness. Everyone has shadows. You just gotta get rid of/lower/manage the ones that are not serving you well.

Hope you to embrace yourself with every part of you; and to catch joy in the little things that actually matter the most.

So blessed be 🤍🖤✨

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Here I am — once again — spiraling through the vicious circle of patterns. Being stuck in fear, dilemmas and ultimatums. It’s a goddamn controversy. It’s overbearing and unforgiving.

When will it ever end or change for good, you ask yourself. Wondering if you could be any stronger and less emotional, where would you be now? If I haven’t had all the health problems & “traumas”, would I then finally unlock my ultimate potentials and be proud of myself?

I have more “treasures” to make use of with everything I’ve had for sure. All the traumas, experiences and the lemons I’ve gathered still awaiting to become the most authentic lemonades of all times. My ambitions and dreams are still devouring me inside out while I can’t and don’t do anything about them. On the other hand, it’s “a good thing” as someone who is (very slowly) healing from anhedonia yet….

My emotions and thoughts are too dense. Always have been. Ever avoided listening music for a long period of time so that your emotions wouldn’t kick you in the ass, and all that burst of desires, passion, rage and thoughts of avenge in you wouldn’t be resuscitated? Yup. That’s me.

Here is the thing though: At this point, I think —a big part of me does— I’d rather have less treasures and more ease and peace. “This” is all gonna end sooner or later. So let’s be present and suffer in presence, eh? :) kidding, I guess?

To be serious, the glory of presence is comprised of your entire past, future plans & dreams and the current psyche of yours. It’s never been only about presence or being present. It’s never about one thing that matters the most. It’s the combination of a lot of significant notions gathered in oneness.

I took this selfie and wrote what I did above yesterday | April 28, 2024

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A part of the upcoming series I’m creating as my AI artworks.

Theme of inspiration: Fibromyalgia

Do you really know what it is like to lose hope?

Do you even know what it is like to draw away from your dreams, desires & potentials increasingly every day?

Do you know how it feels like to wake up to each day just to go through the same mental and physical agony over and over again?

Do you know how hard it is to fall and stay asleep with all the built-up frustration, sorrow, regrets and rage inside?

Do you know that STRESS did this to us?

Do you know the synonym of desperation & misery? It’s called fibrof***algia.

Do you know…….. this can go on for pages and I’m so tired. Will head to bed in the middle of the day.

So yeah.

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(In general) This could be you or others being “wrong” as in claiming wrong info or behaving wrong.

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“The discovery of truth is prevented more effectively, not by the false appearance things present and which mislead into error, not directly by weakness of the reasoning powers, but by preconceived opinion, by prejudice.”

-Arthur Schopenhauer

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If you’re currently in a serious relationship and most of the above don’t sync well with your partner; I urge you to save your time, efforts and soul, and move on.

It is what I did with my ex I broke up with a few days ago and we were about to get married. After all the things I’ve endured to contain the relationship; him totally (kept) being a narcissistic ass, thoughtless, selfish, fussy, scrappy, aggressive and aggravating EVEN during my severe fibro flare-up days (due to all the stress he’s had me put me up with previously); and not to mention reversing what’s happened in his head blaming me for everything; refusing to acknowledge or own all the wrongdoings; was the final straw.

I was also feeling very suicidal for days. I had a few “attempts” and many plans & strong “wishes” as well. And he knew and witnessed all of it. Our last day: He pushed — I backed off; he pushed — I said “Please, not today, I feel really sick. I can’t right now.” Then he got even more triggered as I was not responding to his aggression. He felt that I don’t care about him and don’t love him. And that it’s always about me. None of this is true, I swear to God.

“You always excuse your illness to treat me bad. I won’t let you manipulate me anymore. I don’t care about your illness anymore. I’m going home.” while proceeding to pack up. What a projection eh… All I did that day was to interrupt his sentence twice to assume what he was gonna say in a joking manner. And yeah…

All the “improvements and healing” I thought he’s had during these 6 months we lived together was just a facade I madly wanted to believe in. I still love him so much and this is gonna be real hard for me. But something deeply shut down in me. If someone is still crossing the line when it’s a matter of life and death, that right there is NOT love.

The sooner I choose myself, the less damage I will get which I’ve had more than enough in life let alone in this relationship. I’m sick of getting stuck in fight & flight mode, traumas, stress; being in shocking frustration; having to express and validate myself and health issues; giving up from myself for the sake of “love”. Not anymore.

Na-uh.

I thought I’ve healed a lot and had a big enlightenment over the last 2 years of isolation enough not to put up with bullshits like this. I’m disappointed in myself. Even though, I had certain boundaries and rules in the beginning and was never willing to negotiate; he crushed me hard progressively.

He unloaded all his baggage in time. I resisted a lot but eventually I watched my ID dissolve and my soul fade away. I wasn’t even doing my spiritual practices anymore, for instance, because he judges and mocks. And there are so many other things like this and different things…

Anyway. I hope I survive. And when I do, I hope I can be more than my survival and finally start living rather than just existing. My potentials still await me. I know it.

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#comics #eclectic witch #hilarious #religious kink #religious jokes #spiritual humor #witchyvibes #witchy

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