#anhedonia

[detkauwu]

𝖘𝖜𝖊𝖊𝖙, 𝖒𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖓𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖑𝖆𝖒𝖇 // 𝖎𝖙’𝖘 𝖆𝖑𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖞 𝖇𝖊𝖊𝖓 𝖉𝖔𝖓𝖊

#ethel cain #mother cain #southern gothic #cemetary #anhedonia

[mournfulroses]

Chelsea Wolfe, from a song duet with Emma Ruth Rundle titled "Anhedonia," released in 2021

#music #chelsea wolfe #anhedonia #lyrics #words #selections #fragments #writings #lyric collection #p

[schizopositivity]

Here's a reminder to fight the internalized sanism/ableism in your head.

If you have executive dysfunction, don't compare your productivity to people who don't.

If you have anhedonia, don't compare your struggling to keep up with hobbies to someone who doesn't.

If you have paranoia, don't think of your fears as any less valid than the fears of someone who doesn't.

If your meds make you tired constantly, don't compare your energy levels to someone who doesn't take those meds.

If you have issues with concentration, then you won't be able to pay attention as well as someone who doesn't.

If you're in the deep end of a pool, then you can't compare how well you keep your head above water to someone who is standing in a kiddie pool.

Please try to think of these things when you feel "lazy" or "childish" or "a failure" compared to other people that don't struggle with the same symptoms as you. If you have a mental illness that will affect how you act in everyday situations, then it will in fact affect you in everyday situations. It's not an excuse, it's just a reality. We need to try to be kinder to ourselves.

#mental illness #mental health awarness #mental health reminders #neurodivergent community #neurodivergent #neurodivergency #schizophrenic #schizophrenia #schizoaffective disorder #executive dysfunction #anhedonia #paranoia #tw medication side effects #concentration issues

[neurodivergenttales]

Nobody talks about how exhausting it is to be numb to everything

To drag yourself through every day knowing that you’re not going to get any pleasure or enjoyment from anything you do

To feel blank towards everyone and everything

It’s a never-ending cycle of looking to everyone else like you’re alive but feeling completely rotted down inside

I just want to feel like a person again

#neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff #mental health #mental illness #journal #journaling #diaryposting #sadcore #anhedonia #sorry for being depressing #sad thoughts #late diagnosed autistic

[wallacepolsom]

Wallace Polsom, Anhedonia (12 Dec 2023), paper collage, 18.4 x 24.6 cm.

#wallace polsom #anhedonia #paper collage #collage #collage art #art #artists on tumblr #analog collage #contemporary art #handmade collage #handcut collage #21st century #wallacepolsom2023 #surreal #surrealism #surreal art

[schizoidvision]

4 Reasons Schizoids With Anhedonia Can Still Have a Strong Survival Instinct

Schizoid personality disorder is a complex and multifaceted condition that contains many paradoxes. This is primarily related to the internal fragmentation of the self and inner splits between different aspects of their being. One seemingly contradictory aspect is related to why schizoid individuals who experience anhedonia can still possess such a strong survival instinct. This can be partially explained by their heightened sensitivity to safety. This article aims to explore the relationship between anhedonia, the survival instinct, and the schizoid's underlying safety sensitivity.

1. Understanding Anhedonia in Schizoids

Anhedonia, in essence, is the inability or diminished capacity to experience pleasure from activities usually found enjoyable. For the schizoid individual, this might manifest in a lack of interest in social interactions, hobbies, or even basic human experiences. With such a significant reduction in the pleasure derived from life's experiences, one might assume that the will to live or survive would be diminished. However, the schizoid dynamic is far more nuanced.

2. Schizoid Inner Pleasures

Anhedonia is related to the lack of pleasure from engaging in activities. However, because schizoids live primarily in their heads, their main source of pleasure tends to come from thinking, rather than taking action. Schizoids tend to be creative and have a rich inner world, from which they may derive a lot of pleasure. For some schizoids, pleasure is derived from being a passive observer of the world. This means that even with anhedonia, there is potential for gaining worthwhile pleasure from being in existence.

3. The Strong Survival Instinct

Despite their emotional detachment and diminished drive due to anhedonia, many schizoids exhibit a strong survival instinct. This means that survival doesn't necessarily stem from a passion for life, as experienced by many neurotypical individuals. Instead, it may be rooted in a fundamental desire for self preservation and safety. The world, as perceived through the lens of a schizoid, can often seem threatening or overwhelming. This perspective, combined with their inherent desire to avoid harm, means that survival is not just about living for external rewards, but about preserving a state of safety and true self survival. It's not merely a biological impulse, but a deeply ingrained psychological need.

4. Schizoid Safety Sensitivity and Defenses

Central to understanding the schizoid survival instinct is the concept of their underlying safety sensitivity, which may be conscious or unconscious. This sensitivity to safety isn't just about physical harm but extends to emotional and psychological well-being. Therefore, schizoids often feel a pressing need to protect their true self from the outer world. The external world, with its demands, judgments, and potential threats, is navigated with caution. Any threat to their well-guarded inner sanctuary is met with a strong defense mechanism, whether that's through withdrawal, avoidance, distancing, or masking. By avoiding negative attention, they safeguard their inner world from external threats.

Summary…

The schizoid personality with its complex thought processes, behaviors, and feelings, defies simplistic explanations. Their strong survival instinct, despite experiencing anhedonia, is a testament to the human psyche's resilience and adaptability. For the schizoid, the world is a complex puzzle of potential threats and safe havens, with survival not just being about life but about the preservation of their true self. As we seek to understand those with schizoid dynamics, it's of value to approach their experiences with empathy and open-mindedness, recognizing the depth and richness of their internal worlds and the strength it takes to navigate a world that often feels overwhelming.

Video From My YouTube Channel: The Schizoid Defense

#schizoid #schizoid dynamics #schizoid pd #schizoid personality disorder #schizoid vision #cluster a #schizoid adaptations #szpd #anhedonia

[flashy-mf]

Love how some articles about dealing with anhedonia are like “do stuff that makes you happy!” Ummm, that’s kinda the thing about anhedonia!! I don’t enjoy anything anymore!!!

#flashy ✨ thoughts #cluster b #actually cluster b #aspd #actually aspd #actually antisocial #antisocial personality disorder #anhedonia #chronic boredom #loss of motivation #loss of interest

[noxcaelestia]

“Oh, ‘dreams’? I had those once…”

#oc #traditional art #mixed media #artists on tumblr #anhedonia #I like the look of this one better #it’s more exaggerated and abstract #I didn’t use my g-pen as much so the results are a bit softer #honestly this is the feeling when you’re chronically ill and too fatigued too often to feel like you’re able to do the things you wanted

[aspd-thoughts]

Every now and then, it just hits me like a giant stone that this is permanent. I’m stuck this way, I will never be normal and there is nothing I can do about it. I can lessen my symptoms for others convenience, sure, but that’s not going to solve anything for me. I will never be happy.

#Vent #life of a cluster b #aspd #Anhedonia

[schizoid-culture-is]

Questioning szpd culture is thinking "I can't have the disorder because I'm not in distress, I'm just a solitary person" only to get punched with that anhedonia/alexithymia/avolition chronic boredom combo and suddenly realize, oh, right, my self-isolating behaviour and inability to regulate my emotions DOES actually cause distress.

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#schizoid culture is #szpd #scpd #schizoid #schizoid pd #schizoid personality disorder #personality disorder #cluster a #cluster a pd #anhedonia #alexithymia #avolition

[ridreamir]

Older Kieran x Reader Quick Snippet

[TW: Depressive behavior, angst] [Potential Spoilers for The Scarlet and Violet DLC!]

It's been a long time since he made his own parchment. Then again, it's been a long time since he's been back at his desk, in his childhood room, in his hometown. Wax stars set aside with the custom stamps he'd once whittled out of apple wood, he dusts off the top of an old letter book his grandfather once gave him. He doesn't know how long it's been. Those years he spent locked in his room, perfecting his craft, outlining each and every ridge of Oni Mountain and rereading every book he had on that small bookshelf in the corner. Each rewritten letter, every stroke obsessed over, every flick and scratch controlled over and over until he got it just right... Every step of the process enacted by him...

Now he pulls out a notebook full of pristine blue lines, mass reproduced, tidy, artificial, looking to scratch down his spiraling, unpredictable thoughts. It's... been so long since anyone has heard from you. It's been even longer since he's been able to successfully create something. He has all the polymer, all the wood, all the string, straw, and beads.

He... rips out another page and crumples it up, the perfect, smooth surface irreparably tattered in his tight fist while his hair pools down to cover it. His head sinks lower, and lower, and he loses all the strength he had to hold himself up. He sits there for a while.

#x reader #pokemon #reader insert #kieran x reader #kieran pokemon #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff #anhedonia #angst #aged up characters #pokemon x reader #short story #pokemon scarlet x reader #scarlet and violet #fanfiction #dlc #depression #no happy ending #creative burnout

[schizopositivity]

could you share any more under-talked about symptoms of schizophrenia, like executive dysfunction?

I've actually been meaning to make a post like this but keep forgetting (lol that's a symptom). As a disclaimer, not everyone with schizophrenia has every one of these symptoms, and people can have a lot of these symptoms and not have schizophrenia (if they don't have the psychotic symptoms). Not all of these symptoms are seen as diagnostic criteria, some have just been observed to be very common in people with schizophrenia. (I'm excluding hallucinations and delusions because they are more well known)

• Paranoia: a pattern of behavior where a person feels distrustful and suspicious of other people and acts accordingly. This can go hand in hand with hallucinations and delusions.

• Disorganized thoughts: this can mean a lot of things. It can be not having a linear train of thought, having incoherent thoughts, thought blocking, general disorganized thoughts. (It can be hard to define because it is often hard to describe for the person experiencing it).

• Disorganized speech: this is often a result of the disorganized thoughts. This can include loose associations like rapidly shifting between topics with no connections between the topics. Perseveration, which is repeating the same things over and over again. Made up words that only have meaning to the speaker. Use of rhyming words without meaning. Word salad, which is when cognitive disorganization is severe, it can be nearly impossible to understand what the person is saying, but the person speaking doesn't know they aren't making sense.

• Trouble concentrating: lack of concentration, switching from topic to topic, not being able to focus on one thing. (This is pretty self explanatory).

• Movement disorders: catatonia can be repetitive non goal directed movements. It can also be complete or partial immobility, mutism, vacant staring, and rigidity. Although not a symptom, tardive dyskinesia can occur in schizophrenia as a result of antipsychotics medication.

• Anhedonia: a loss of pleasure in activities that the person once enjoyed. Or the inability to feel pleasure at all.

• Atypical or non-existent emotional expression: Flat or blunted affect is an inability to show emotions characterized by a lack of facial expression, a monotone voice, and no hand gestures. On the other hand people can also have inappropriate affect, where the emotional expression doesn't align with typical reactions or even the person's own feelings.

• Alogia: when someone speaks less, says fewer words or only speaks in response to others. This can be a result of disorganized thoughts.

• Social withdrawal: avoiding people and activities that someone once enjoyed. Not actively being present during social situations. Can progress to total isolation.

• Avolition: a severe lack of initiative to accomplish purposeful tasks. This is a big reason some people with schizophrenia can't work/go to school, can't do chores, and can't keep up with their basic hygiene. Even if the person wants to do these tasks, it may be extremely difficult or impossible for them to get themselves to start or complete the task due to the lack of motivation.

• Executive dysfunction: a behavioral symptom that disrupts a person's ability to manage their own thoughts, emotions and actions. This can include focussing too much on one thing, being easily distracted, spacing out, struggling to switch between tasks, problems with impulse control and trouble starting difficult or boring tasks. Several schizophrenia symptoms fit into the umbrella of executive dysfunction, so when researching you will either see the specific ones listed out, or just simply described as executive dysfunction.

• Alexithymia: significant challenges in recognizing, expressing, and describing one's own emotions.

• Poor memory: this can include working memory deficits like trouble planning, organizing, and carrying out daily chores such as running errands, because it requires mentally formulating a “to do” list organized by time and location. Many people with schizophrenia also report trouble with their episodic memory, which means they have trouble recollecting things in the context of their place and time. (A lot of sources say "trouble with memory" is a symptom but they don't specify).

• Trouble with decision making: people with schizophrenia have been shown to have trouble with decision making due to a decline in the understanding and reasoning aspects of it.

• Sensory processing deficits: this has been widely reported in schizophrenia, and include impairments in visual processing, auditory processing, olfactory and sensorimotor systems. This can lead to having strong positive or negative reactions to sensory information.

• Sleep troubles: though disturbed sleep isn't included in the diagnostic criteria for schizophrenia, it is still a significant problem that up to 80% of people with the condition experience. People with schizophrenia may have various sleep problems, including insomnia, excessive daytime sleepiness, and trouble with consistent sleep routines.

• Anosognosia: also called "lack of insight," is a symptom that impairs a person's ability to understand and perceive their illness. This is a big reason people with schizophrenia may refuse to get, or stay with treatment.

#answered #mental illness #nd #schizophrenia #neurodivergent #schizophrenic #psychosis #actuallyschizophrenic #mental health awareness #pseriouslypsychotic #executive dysfunction #paranoia #word salad #avolition #disorganized thoughts #catatonia #concentration issues #anhedonia #flat affect #blunted affect #inappropriate affect #alogia #social withdrawal #isolation #alexithymia #memory issues #sensory issues #insomnia #excessive daytime sleepiness #anosognosia

[thelensart]

Been filling my dear little sketchbook while hugging plushes to stay sane, and neglecting my homework. This one character fully represents my current mood.

#arte #art #sketching #sketches #sketchbook #sketch #drawing #artists on tumblr #artist #anhedonia #illustration #ink drawing #hand drawn #traditional art

[noa-ciharu]

Sometimes I think how growing up with depression fucks up your ability to enjoy things and makes you be satisfied with minimalist lifestyle

I see people online buying mangas and paying for streaming services and go like "why waste money when there are free sites online for that?". Similarly with media I find myself dropping 90% of it cuz I just can't get into movie/series/book. I see a cute outfit and think how I don't really need it since I have enough clothes already. I see others pampering themselves with takeouts and going to restaurants and go "well, I have food at home that's more economical". I get money for bday and parents are like buy whatever you want and I just don't buy anything. I guess partly cuz I have no real desire for things and partly cuz part of me feels guilty for buying stuff that aren't a necessity

#each summer mental health goes down the drain i can't believe it #tho i guess frugality is partly cuz im a student hence no income #but on other hand financial situation ain't bad rly i even have parents encouraging me to want stuff #and i just don't cuz nothing really bring me joy #anhedonia #mental health

[schizoidvision]

Depression vs Schizoid: Spotting the Key Differences

Understanding the nuanced differences between depression and schizoid personality disorder sheds light on the complex nature of mental health disorders. Both conditions affect individuals' emotional experiences, relationships, and self-perception, yet they originate from and impact lives in distinct ways. This exploration delves into their origins, emotional experiences, self-esteem issues, and relationship with anhedonia, providing a clearer picture of their unique characteristics.

1. Difference in Origin:

- Depression is often tied to losses, whether real, imagined, or symbolic, leading to an intense mourning process and sometimes pathological mourning.

- Schizoid personality disorder stems from early childhood attachment difficulties, resulting in protective defenses aiming to preemptively defend against loss through deeper withdrawal from relationships.

2. Self-Other Perception:

- Depressed individuals may desire intimacy but are blocked by negative self-views and emotional turmoil, often yearning for connections they feel are unattainable.

- Schizoids may lack a conscious desire for intimacy, with defenses leading them to withdraw to maintain autonomy and avoid emotional engulfment, often substituting real connections with fantasy.

3. Difference in Emotional Experience:

- Depression involves deep emotional suffering, inward aggression, and unresolved negative feelings towards others, contributing to self-punishment, guilt, and existential despair.

- Schizoid individuals exhibit a limited range of emotions, preferring solitude and defending against existential pain through intellectualization or fantasy, avoiding the deep-seated guilt and anger typical of depression.

4. Low Self-Esteem and Worthlessness:

- Depression leads to internalizing feelings of worthlessness, becoming a core part of self-identity, often managed through self-criticism.

- Schizoids protect their self-esteem by disconnecting from the need for external validation, maintaining self-sufficiency and avoiding situations that might challenge their self-worth.

5. Relationship with Anhedonia:

- Depressive anhedonia is linked to feelings of worthlessness and loss, making desired life aspects and joy seem unattainable.

- Schizoid anhedonia stems from a protective withdrawal and a devaluation of the physical world, contributing to apathy and a decreased motivation for engagement in pleasurable activities.

Summary:

Depression and schizoid personality disorder, while sharing some superficial similarities, diverge significantly in their origins, emotional experiences, and approaches to self-esteem and anhedonia. Depression's roots in loss and mourning contrast with schizoid's early emotional detachment, shaping distinct pathways in their emotional worlds, perceptions of self and others, and engagement with life's pleasures. Understanding these differences is crucial for appropriate recognition and treatment, highlighting the importance of tailored therapeutic approaches to meet the unique needs of individuals with these conditions. It is also possible for a person to experience both of these conditions which can add complexity when making a diagnosis.

Video From My YouTube Channel: Depression vs Schizoid: Spotting the Differences

#schizoid #schizoid dynamics #schizoid pd #schizoid personality disorder #schizoid vision #cluster a #szpd #schizoid adaptations #depression #anhedonia

[flashy-mf]

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#flashy ✨ memes #cluster b #actually cluster b #aspd #actually aspd #actually antisocial #antisocial personality disorder #boredom #chronic boredom #anhedonia #laziness #lack of motivation #executive dysfunction