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Hi!! , I just read one of your fics and absolutely loved 🥰 I’ve never requested anything before but I saw that you’re are open so here goes nothing…

A Tsu’tey x reader ( jakes younger sister) who was one of the first dream walkers who was sent ahead of her brother and went to graces school to learn along side the children of the clan who they had hoped would be seen as less of a threat and could lean more and get abetter footing in the clan for them , when the school was attacked the reader ran away scared of what the rda was capable of asking the clan for help and since she was still considered a child they took her in when jake gets to there he’s told his sister had died and instead he comes to find her alive within in the clan mated to Tsu’tey and with a family of her own but she’s terrified of her brother

Hi Hi so so terribly sorry its taken me this long to respond! That is an excellent idea and i wish to kiss your brain because the FLAVOR this has is mwah! I hope you enjoy this

Actually i quiet enjoyed this a little too much.

To Lose, To love, To be afraid

When you came here Around four years now you were fresh to the world of possibilities. You were 17 one of the youngest personal that had been selected for the avatar program. Down on your luck you reluctantly joined. You had never seen yourself live the life you currently had.

You were clumsy at your feet in your new body and new height. Young was your avatar too. Seeing as how some older avatars and Na'vi were just taller than you. Dr. Augustine had been your guide in your new life. The school had been running for 8 years successfully and you were new to said studies. Lucky for herself and you, you were quick to learn.

You were always by yourself. never really fully talking to anyone the first few months. But then Neytiri was the first one to speak to you. You spoke to her sometimes until one day where she caught you outside of school following the gentle flowing of an Atokirina

"what do here Sully?" She asked you stopping you from following any further. It wasn't until she spoke that you realized just how far you were from the RDA camp.

"oh Pardon me. I guess i just got too caught up in Pandora's beauty"

From then on you continued to talk as if you were nothing else than sisters. She has made great company while you were extremely homesick and missing your only family Jake and Tom.

then Came Sylwanin and Tsu'tey. You knew they came to school. Tsu'tey sometimes when ever given the chance and you had grown to really grow fond of them. A little circle.

Grace had been happy that you had made such progress within the year. You were shown how to hunt, what and what you shouldn't eat. You were being taught much more than grace could teach. Little by little the earth you knew as your home was now a long forgotten past.

And then tension grew. You were dining waiting for Sylwanin and Neytiri when you heard the hushed whispers of the Omatikayan

"Sky demons do not belong here, Walk in a suit of flesh and plan to take over our way of life, We must do something"

"Do not be foolish. Hush your howling and continue to eat least of all do not cause trouble"

"I just think we should speak to One of them. they continue to destroy our land, coming here not knowing what to do"

You felt guilty yes, Felt like this could all be your fault and yet you knew that it wasn't the case. You were just here lucky to be one of the people to hopefully unite humans and Na'vi people.

But the fates are cruel and unkind.

Somehow without your Knowledge Sylwanin and a few other hunters had Destroyed what Humans saw most valuable than some 'savage' lives.

In turn causing one of your friends to die. With a broken cry you yelled helping Dr. Grace to get the remaining children out alive. And with it you ran way with them too.

Your heart sank when you realized that somehow you had managed to drag Sylwanin's body back to the people. Begging Praying that somehow she could still be alive.

Heartbreakingly that would never be the case. Mo'at's cries or anguish, Eytukan's wails of rage and the silent sobs of Tsu'tey and Neytiri was all you could hear. You wanted to cry. Hell you did cry, But your crying could never be the same as them. Life is sacred. You had learned that now. So many lives were lost. You knew that sooner or later you would have to wake up from this horrible sight and awaken in your human body.

But all you did was beg and cry with the family that this was not the way it should go. You spoke that if they banished you. If they sought to kill you then you wouldn't mind. A life for a life.

However Neytiri refused. Knowing that you had done all you could to save her people's children and bringing back what was sacred to her family clan.

You were young. You were like a baby and for that reason perhaps too had Mo'at allowed you to stay.

But you could never let go of this guilt. You told them that you came here to seek peace to hopefully live united. But humans can be cruel and no doubt would never see anything wrong with killing sentient living beings.

For humans can be selfish and don't see people as people. But obstacles.

You swore that you were of the people. That you would do what you can with your human body to help the Omatikayan people. But you knew maybe not all of them trusted you. You had grown wary of what you say or that of how you speak.

When you awoken in your human body you went to console Dr. Augustine. Who in her heart break yelled and screamed that what they did was detrimental to what they were trying to accomplish.

But her status meant nothing to men with power.

Threatening her to silence.

"How are the people" she asked you sometimes when you came back from your walking with the Na'vi. And you relied what information you could. Wary of prying ears.

It was only weeks and already You had before one of the people. You would soon be able to make Your bow from home tree. Neytiri congratulating you. and begrudgery Tsu'tey as well.

He Grew to like you once before. But after the death of his promised he had grown to be avoidant of you. Heartbreak was a rather hard thing to get over. You can deny it all you want but you had lost two friends that day.

"You did well" He spoke to you.

You couldn't shake the feeling the immense guilt. The spark was brighter yes but it was anger, discomfort hatred for what you once were.

"are you well?"

"I am, You have proven yourself to be with us"

"That is not what i mean Tsu'tey"

He bit his lip. Ears flattening as he looked at you. You were once what he hated. But it never was your fault. He couldn't forgive that which was only ever filled with greed.

But you weren't to blame. and he could not be angry. For better or for worse things happen as Eywa deems it to happen. He lost someone and in turn found someone with you.

"It keeps me up at night"

"im so sorry"

"do not apologize, You were never the one to blame." he spoke hand now resting on your shoulder. " you and i are one in the same now. You are one mighty fine warrior. I am sure if you were to choose a mate then they will be lucky to hold you"

" i dont think i deserve such thing"

"why? did someone say something like that? just say the word."

You couldn't help but laugh just a little as you sat down. It would be a while before neytiri would call you to receive your paint and be celebrated as that of the people so you could only figure to kill time

"once, Back home"

"Someone said that to you?"

"Yes. But i hold no ill will no malice. Perhaps they are right"

"none sense! Y/n you are mighty and you are strong! Who ever said that is foolish"

You saddened a little. To have someone say that it was different. It felt nice to be told you were something that you never saw yourself as. "Humans are cruel"

"i know"

"Humans kill each other. they kill that of what gives life. Our mother's dead. She died a long time ago and we killed her. Tsu'tey if i am honest i dont want to return. I don't ever want to blindly follow that who brings sorrow and destruction. Tho i know i cannot leave my human body behind." You didnt know where this was coming from.

But he just sat there and listened to your troubles.

" i think it be cruel to leave my potential mate while i live with humans one moment and return the next. That is not right i know it. To be without your other at night. Its dreadful to think about"

Tsu'tey listened to that and somewhere deep in him. Something enlightened. Some crazy idea. he would bring it to mo'at once you had chosen your mate.

However somewhere inside him he began to frown. Was he angry, no he was..lost. Truly he had never held romantic feelings for anyone but Sylwanin and even then it was solely cause he had so much time to try and develop something for her.

Once he was chosen to be her's well he saw no greater honor then to burry his thoughts of choosing someone for him, and here you were disassembling everything he build up.

However now he was promised to Neytiri and while he saw her as a younger sister he had taken that role too. Eywa had her plans. But had she placed you right here in front of him? making his heart beat a little more for you than anyone else?

"Do not worry im sure something will work out"

"Ah Sully there you are" Neytiri said now looking at Tsu'tey and then at you. "good Tsu'tey can help too"

He frowned a little before sitting in front of you and Neytiri behind you.

Your eyes were down cast as you felt the two Na'vi paint you. Not wanting to think too much. There was a lot to think about but that would be all for tonight.

Tsu'tey was having trouble however. How could someone he have hated for being a demon now become someone he longed to protect too? no. You weren't a demon now.

His fingers now lingered on your lips as you stared at him. his eyes staring at where his fingers remained. Before looking at your eyes.

You were uncanny and yet not at the same time. Your eyes were just a little smaller than theirs. Your lips a little fuller than theirs. Your figure was just the tad bit more fuller. You were a dream walker yes.

"You are Omatikayan now"

you wanted to cry a little. but didnt want to ruin the paint before the ceremony.

But once you returned to your human body you didn't tell Grace. You could not tell her. Even if you trusted her. For you were going to try something absolutely insane with the help Of Tsu'tey.

-*-*-*-*-*-

"Y/n Sully is dead" Was all grace got suddenly when your lifeless body came back. Your mask hanging off your face where no doubt this planets atmosphere had killed you.

She wept of course but pushed on as to guide the new people But she mourned you as she had Sylwanin, as she mourned the many Na'vi children who caller her Sa'nok.

You were happy. You had lived 2 full years with the Omatikayan people. In your once fake body now your fully in soul and mind. In those first few months of being fully Na'vi Eywa seemed to test you. You weren't strong like these Women You had always left the fighting to your two older brothers. So you took up the role of a gatherer.

But you were mighty as Tsu'tey had said. Which caused him to seek guidance within The Tsahik and Olo'eyktan. He didn't want to dissapoint them he hadn't wished to grow to fond of you. But you had helped save many children. You adored your role now that you were of the people.

And he could not deny his feelings anymore. He wanted to have you if you would ever so much as liked to have him too.

You had been out when Neytiri had brought you back. Your basket filled with goods as you entered Tsahik's hut.

"Oel ngati kameie, Mo'at" You greeted. Setting your basket in between you and her. Her gaze was one that had looked through you a lot of times. one that before had caused a chill to run up your spine.

That time she had seen you.

She told you what Tsu'tey has asked. She had never seen him be serious like he had been in asking, pleading with her to be with you instead. She understood that Her remaining Heir did not love Tsu'tey and so with guidance from Eywa she let it be.

You would not take long to return those feelings. And it wasn't long after that of which you two had mated that you fell pregnant. Life was not as it once was for the Omatikayan people. Never had a sky demon infultrated their clan and lived along side them.

It wasn't as it once was. The threat of the RDA still rose high. And yet you had welcomed a healthy baby boy into pandora.

That had been almost six months ago and counting. Tonight you had decided to accompany Neytiri in her hunt. Tsu'tey had been reluctant of course, Having to take care of a six month old and then you with your prominent belly full of your second child.

However as night fell You watched as Neytiri pointed to a figure.

You looked from where you stood. An Avatar. It caused your body to run cold. You had not seen an Avatar in over two years. But never the less you followed Neytiri's lead.

Jake Had been told that you had lost your life due to the harsh world of Pandora. Now left alone in this cruel life. Tom and yourself lost to this world that he wanted to help conquer. He hadn't seen your body. But Dr. Augustine had been frank with him. This oxygen killed you.

The Training killed Tom. And now facing off the dangers he was going to get killed too.

Within a blink he had seen two fierce figures jump to his aid. Slaying that of which he could never understand. Before stopping to thank one.

Then They turned to look at him.

"Don't Thank, You do not Thank for this. This is sad" She spoke with vigor as she had been furious.

Jake Turned to look at you and in that instant you felt your body run cold.

"you... Jake or Tom?" you asked between a hushed tone as you looked at said Avatar.

"Y/n? but. But your dead! Dr. Augustine said you were she saw you, you were dead" he exclaimed. At that tone you instantly knew.

Marine. It was Jake and maybe that's why that sinking feeling of fear dropped to your stomach.

Jake knew your features. They were one of a kind. He knew instantly he did and yet it made no sense as to how you were here in front of him. How were you alive when you were dead? You died two years ago did you not? meaning you were now twenty one? but how could it be

how is it possibly to continue to live once you died.

"Quiet!" Neytiri spoke breaking you out of your haze as she began to ask you in Na'vi to come. To let him be lost to the forest. With fear in your heart you did. Running ahead of her and by default Jake as he tried to reach you to talk to you. Trying to get answers and thank you at the same time.

You wanted to retort back before you stopped. The great mother that had guided you here long ago now there she was. Floating gracefully down to your brother.

which he then swatted at.

"Kehe!" You yelled

"Ftang nga!" Neytiri retorted.

Jake Paused before trying to swat again.

"Rutxe. No" Neytiri said now holding his arm as she was the one closest to him. "Atokirina!"

You looked at each other in awe as more seem to go down around him. "Atokirina.."

Neytiri turned to you now. "Lolu Aungia"

Biting back the fear you felt you nodded as you helped guide Jake back. Neytiri telling him to follow.

And when Jake would wake once again in his human body he had quiet a bit to tell back.

-*-*-*-*-*-

When Dr. Augustine was welcomed back to the clan She sought you our first and foremost. She could not believe what jake had told her. It was impossible to believe. That an Avatar was no longer that but a breathing conscious body that once was human.

Moreover she could not believe when She had tried educating Jake on the roles of the people that Tsu'tey no longer was the next Olo'eyktan in line. She could not believe that you were now a mated pair

She was morbidly curious about your offspring too. So once she had gotten permission from Mo'at she went to talk to Tsu'tey.

How big he had gotten. How strong he was.

"Tsu'tey, Oel ngati kameie" She greeted him formally before he turned to look at her

"Sa'nok! Oel ngati kameie, how long its been"

She agreed and Asked him to sit down and talk. And talk they did. She asked how life had been treating him and if he was happy. And once that was all she apologized.

"Forgive me for what they done to Sylwanin"

"Don't fret. It is not your blame." He spoke reassuring her "she lives within our great mother now."

"yes i know...How, no.. is it true that you and Y/n have.."

"It is. She has bore me one strong son. And we await the arrival of our newest member of our family clan"

As if right on time you barged into your home. A babe strapped to your chest resting atop your swollen bump. and a basket resting on your hip.

"Y/n!" Grace spoke without even thinking. hugging you tight. Ever so grateful that Jake's words ran true. You were alive. You were spared.

"Grace?"

"You're alive."

You couldn't help but smile. Trying to hug her as best as you can before your son began to fuss.

"oh Shit sorry" she excused herself seeing the little tot fuss at suddenly being squashed.

"What is his name?"

"Tsaro Rongloa Tsu'tey'itan." You proudly stated Sitting down finally to let yourself rest.

Dr. Augustine stayed and spoke with you two. Far longer than you had thought you may have allowed before she had to leave. Leaving you and Tsu'tey to speak.

"Something troubles you"

"i am afraid as to Why Jake is here"

Tsu'tey rose a brow.

"you've seen first hand how the RDA are. And what greed does to them. My brother was a marine when i left and he came here armed. And i know he is family but i am afraid"

"i dont like him either. He is a threat to my family"

You smiled feeling his large hand on your growing bump. Looking down at your son.

Your fear was justified. You lost friends and people to the RDA. And if what jake told you was true about Tom. Then you had lost family too.

Your fears were Tsu'tey's but you felt safe within his embrace, unbeknownst to you however Jake would be what would bring you peace one day.

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please excuse if my ages make no sense. I really couldnt see how to mathmatically make it make sense so im sorry if it troubles anyone.

EITHERWAY i do hope you enjoyed it

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tismrot · 5 months

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ARE YOU A CROWLEY? Hello, how are ya? Let’s be friends.

I, too, started out as a loud, emotional child who was into ✨SPACE✨. I’d ask questions wherever I went - some adults found it endearing that a four-year-old asked the types of why’s they didn’t have answers for, others asked me to shut up, be quiet. I realize as an adult I asked a lot of uncomfortable questions, having no idea i shouldn’t.

Home life was turbulent. My dad had the same issues as me, probably, but his generation never talks about anything, and he became an unpredictable, emotionally distant and sometimes explosive presence. The words he used to call me still hurt, way more so than any bruise he left. Mom smoked cigarettes in the kitchen, reading difficult books instead of daring to look at the difficult lives we all had. It was the 90s, after all. Nobody ever did anything about problems.

I should have been sent to some sort of screening, of course. But I was a girl, and hyperlexic. Diagnoses were for boys who couldn’t spell their own names, who threw chairs at teachers and brought knives to school.

My anger issues and social naivety, as well as unconventional intensity of interests, alienated me from my peers. I usually played alone, even though I was extremely extroverted. I was bullied relentlessly until I moved away for high school. There, I was only shut out, I didn’t have anyone yell things after me anymore. It was a freedom.

All my friends, from early childhood until now, have been the other misfit freaks. Some of us were extremely damaged, but all of us had baggage. I’m only friends with a few of them still, we all had dramatic lives and quite many of them are now dead, in self-imposed isolation or have managed to turn their lives completely around (which means they cut out me). Self-imposed isolation became my way of dealing with my past, and I’ve cut out a lot of people. I don’t judge anyone for deciding I wasn’t the friend they needed. I’ve done dumb things, I’ve made bad choices.

I was extremely extroverted, happy (despite the anger), motivated and creative. After family, school and life happened, I became a socially paranoid, bitter, arrogant mess. I said I hated people - the truth was that I suspected they all hated me. I self-medicated with (almost) everything I could get my hands on (but I preferred stimulants), until I got stimulant prescription medications - I’ve stopped doing everything else and life is very predictable. I’m healthy and reliable, I can talk about weather with strangers on bus stops, I don’t always say the weirdest thing one could say in any given situation (and realize only two days later). I work out to stabilize my hEDS (the connective tissue disorder that made me walk funny, sit funny, move in strange ways, made everything hurt all the time), I read up on traumatic family dynamics.

Would be boring if I didn’t still vividly remember where I’ve been before.

So. Seeing Crowley on screen actually DID something to me. I know, fatal brainrot, but I see myself in him. Whatever he does in the show, I get it. I see parallels to my personality, my neurodivergencies and my trauma. It feels affirming and I feel represented in a way I didn’t know I needed. I mean, it’s almost uncanny/silly - I, too, wear only black, have a thing for snake themed jewelry (for years, not related to Good Omens at all) and I almost always wear sunglasses (light sensitivity). It’s dumb, almost, but it’s true. I dressed up as him recently and only had to buy the lenses - all the rest, including the sleeveless turtleneck body, was already in my closet.

(Oh, and ✨Flex Time✨, kids absolutely dig me. They climb on me and tell me beautiful and horrendous things from their lives without apprehension, and adults often don’t like that. I talk to them like I’m a kid myself, I don’t try to be above them. I work with kids now, and the other adults always send me the stink eye, but the kids apparently need to talk and I hope I’m making a positive impact in their lives.)

And the best part? Via Tumblr I’ve learned that my experience isn’t unique. So many of us see ourselves in Crowley, for these exact reasons. I love that about us!

So. Are you a Crowley? Let me know. Add me. Let’s be a group of the all of us.

(GIF: Accurate depiction of me watching Crowley In The Beginning, him not understanding how questions could be dangerous - then remembering how many teachers absolutely hated my precocious, arrogant, eight-year-old ass for always raising my hand to ask something that would reveal how little the teacher actually knew, and I had no idea that was what was happening until I tried to be a teacher myself and actually ENJOYED having kids ask me weird questions).

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luvxoxo · 2 years

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✿ doubts

husband!Oikawa x reader

warnings: none

“ if there’s one thing i’m sure of, i am sure that you have always belonged with me ”

- akif kichloo

at certain points in life, we come across people who stop by to drastically change our lives in a way, that will never be the same again. and sometimes? those people walk in to stay permanently.

oikawa tooru. a man widely known around the world. he has the looks, the skills, not to mention the capability to achieve things that hasn’t been done by others.

looking back at yourself, never in your wildest dreams would you have thought , that you’d end up with him. it’s always the unexpected people that turn out to be the best in your life, and maybe that’s why we should cherish those who end up staying instead of constantly finding ways to push them aside, simply because we think we’re not worthy of having them.

lately, a question has been plaguing your mind and no matter how much you put yourself into work, or try to drown it out, it doesn’t work. casting it aside only makes you focus on it more whether it’s directly or indirectly.

“why did you marry me?” without realizing, the question slipped out from your mouth. typically, you’re not an insecure person. you have your days where you think you’re the hottest bitch alive, but there are days where you feel extremely self conscious of yourself and your actions. safe to say, it’s one of those days. except this particular doubt wasnt going away.

oikawa stopped mixing sugar into his usual coffee and set aside his spoon. turning around with the mug in his hand, he looks into your eyes, almost as if he’s wondering why on earth you’d ask him such a question on a lovely sunday morning.

you take the time to engrave the scene in front of you. oikawa was shirtless. only wearing low waisted grey sweatpants, where his v line was slightly noticeable. his beautiful body was on display just for you. like a mannequin dressed in pretty clothing for people to stare at. only difference is, he was for your eyes only. and not not for the world. you start feeling lucky to have witnessed such a delightful sight.

“why did i marry you, you ask?” oikawa questions again, making sure he heard you right.

nodding your head slowly, you allow yourself to focus on the mug he was holding in his hands. trying to distract yourself from how nervous you were feeling, when in reality, you had nothing to be nervous of.

oikawa brings the mug to his lips, sipping as he sighs internally.

“well. let’s see then” he puts his mug down on the marble countertop and walks out to the balcony where the white curtains could be seen swaying from side to side due to the morning breeze.

you curiously follow him, wondering why he had to change spots to answer your question. oikawa stands outside and rests his hands on the railings, palms facing down, lightly gripping it. he looks out to the distance and takes in the view of the city. it was quiet. peaceful. traffic hadn’t started yet. people were in the comfort of their homes, sleeping. you gaze around , taking in the sky and how the sun seemed to shine brighter than ever.

finally, after what felt like forever, oikawa turns out to look at you. feeling shy, you gaze down at the ground, taking in how empty the streets looked in the early hours of morning.

“i married you because you made me feel comfortable in my own skin”

looking up as fast as you could, you notice oikawa shyly gazing at his hands that haven’t grown rough throughout the years, though he’s played volleyball and still does. of course according to him, he applies strawberry scented hand cream every hour of the day

inhaling a deep breath oikawa collects his thoughts and starts speaking again. this time, with confidence.

“i married you because talking to you makes me smile. it makes my chest bloom with this.. this happiness that i’ve never gotten in my entire life” he smiles to himself, not realizing that he was doing that. he was reminiscing the memories that he created with you in the past

“i married you because the thought of you being in someone else’s arms physically killed me inside” his face hardens momentarily at the mere thought of it, before deciding to resume answering your question.

“i married you because my body literally aches at the thought of never seeing you again. i married you because i like the way you dance to music when you think no one is around” oikawa let’s out a snicker as you repeatedly smack his arm.

oikawa wraps his sturdy arm around your waist, slowly pulling you into his chest. you rest your palms on his chest, feeling satisfaction in the way his heart beats at a regular pace.

“to tell you the truth. i don’t have much to offer. but i’d give you everything i’ve got. i’d give you late night drives, food at 3 am, someone to talk to, a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold, all of it”

he finishes with a sweet, warm kiss on your forehead, somehow hoping you’d feel his unconditional love for you that only seems to increase every single day.

you gaze up at him and smile, feeling overwhelmed by the amount of love you were receiving. oikawa grasps your left hand, using his thumb to gently swipe across your wedding ring. he brings your hand upwards towards his face, pecking your skin. that small act seemed to have spread goosebumps across your entire body.

“ if there’s one thing i’m sure of, i am sure that you have always belonged with me ”

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tsunauticus · 11 months

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Mike is not a stupid person, but is he a stupid boyfriend?

I stand by saying that Mike is one of the smartest characters in Stranger Things. He figured out how to flip the car in the mall in season 3, he was able to recognize Will talking through the Walkie-Talkie in season 1, and throughout season 2 he’s very perceptive to Will being used as a spy for Vecna. Even in season 4, Mike notices Max having a bloody nose before he leaves for Lenora

So if Mike is showed time and time again to be perceptive, how is he so bad at seeing how Eleven feels?

In season 4 there’s arguably never a moment where they’re both happy together.

The airport scene?

They seem happy enough, but we also never get a clear view of Mike’s face, but with that too, is the reintroduction of Mike and El’s biggest issue of season 4, that was hinted at in season 3. How Mike can’t say that he loves El.

Maybe Rink-O-Mania is better?

Definitely not

At dinner that night, Mike doesn’t try to empathize with his girlfriend even though he’s been bullied his whole life. El was there when Mike shoved Troy, so she knows that Mike can probably understand what she’s going through. But he doesn’t. He’s agitated and rude to her.

I’ve seen several people make this connection, but I agree that the whole scene is very similar to the Wheeler family dinner in season 1 as well. El and Nancy both storm off, but in this case, instead of Mike trying to vouch for a friend, he’s acting like Ted Wheeler, and doesn’t understand he said anything wrong

Throughout the rest of the show, this pattern of Mike missing the mark continues again and again. El confronts him about not being able to say that he loves her, and he shows he physically can’t say it to her when they’re alone and in private. He makes El cry but can’t acknowledge he did anything wrong.

When Mike and El reunite, we still see Mike loving El as a superhero. From a writing standpoint, this could’ve been the perfect time for Mike to tell El he loves her. There’s no stakes, there’s no one around to judge, and he’s had plenty of time to think about saying it, getting advice from Will several times.

But he doesn’t. Instead we see Mike look over at Will and his smile drops. Which is… weird from any standpoint as we don’t see this expression built on at all.

Mike is horrible at noticing when his girlfriend isn’t happy, or when something is important to her (like saying “I love you”). We also see he’s rarely forthright with El, when he would have no reason to lie. He should be able to be honest with El, especially when Eleven is known so much to honor honesty.

But who have we seen Mike being really attentive towards all season?

Will.

In the airport, Mike can’t figure out the issue with writing “From” in his letters, when El always writes “Love”, but he’s able to quickly put together the painting from El’s letter was the one Will brought to the airport. He’s able to look Will in the eyes and ask him questions about his life, even if it’s extremely stiff (yeah Mike your best friend of ten years is seeing you for the first time in 6 months and you punch him on the shoulder??)

At Rink-O-Mania, Mike has a massive argument with Will because he’s been “sabotaging the whole day” when Will’s just tried to be quiet and stay out of Mike and El’s way, yet Mike is unable to tell that El was crying while sitting right next to him? He can’t see that, but he’s able to notice several of Will’s micro-expressions throughout the day?

Mike even is able to apologize to Will and acknowledge what was wrong with how he acted towards him, when he’s unable to do the same when El calls him out in the same way. Will does it at Rink-O-Mania, and El does it in her bedroom. But Mike is only able to really own up to his actions in one of these scenes.

Guess which person he owns up to?

Will

One of these scenes ends with Mike developing a closer relationship with a character, and the other ends with the opposite character choosing to leave Mike behind because they don’t feel valued.

But if Mike is so good at righting his wrongs with Will, why can’t he do the same for El? Why can’t he be such a good boyfriend if he’s so attentive with all of his friends?

Because Mike doesn’t know how to be a good boyfriend. Well, he knows. He’s seen Lucas and Max, and he’s seen how Dustin talks about Suzie. He knows how to be a good boyfriend just fine. But he can’t do it with El. He can’t reciprocate feelings the way El wants him to. That was the whole point of season 4.

And sure, someone can argue that the pizza monologue helped. He told El he loves her, that the arc was to further their relationship. But in doing so, Mike told El that his life started the day Will went missing WHILE WILL IS STANDING NEXT TO HIM. And, if the speech worked, why has Eleven “barely spoken a word” to Mike since that ended?

From any standpoint, whether you want to argue that Mike and Will are a romantic endgame, or just that Mike and Will are really close friends, Mike does have the full capacity to be loving boyfriend. He’s shown to be caring, smart, and protective. And yet he’s barely able to act like that around El.

Mike isn’t stupid. He’s not a bad boyfriend for laughs in season 4, though that was the joke in season 3. He’s actually just a terrible boyfriend to El, and if the Duffers really wanted to portray El and Mike as happy together, the two of them wouldn’t spend two entire seasons arguing with each other when other couples like Lucas and Max, are able to have healthy moments.

Mike’s not stupid, and he’s not a stupid boyfriend either, Mike is just unable to acknowledge he can’t be a good boyfriend to El. Regardless of what that means for his character in season 5, so far, Mike has shown he just can’t be a good boyfriend to El, and that he constantly struggles to offer her the bare minimums of honesty and empathy in a relationship (and at times El does too, but that’s for a different post).

#byler #mike wheeler #will byers

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justsomerandomfanfic · 1 year

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Hiiiiii ! could I get a romantic marauders era and lighting era harry potter matchup?

i just turned 19. I’m bi with a lean towards males. Im black. I have brown black eyes, i have mid back EXTREMELY curly black hair but my natural hair is shoulder length and brown. Sometimes(rarely) I wear black circular glasses. im 5' 3” almost 5’ 4”. I’m not plus but I’m not thin either and I’m natural hourglass. Barely noticeable tho.

i'm ambiaverted, so like I like talking to people but I don’t like approaching the person and then I’m pretty awkward when I talk to people for the first time. When I’m with my friends I’m the loudest in the group unless I’m annoyed or just don’t like you very much. In public tho I don’t talk at all if I don’t know anybody.

Im academically smart and a bit street smart if I really think but I’m also really lazy when. I want to be. People tell me I’m a really fast learner.

I’m very loyal to my friends to the point were I end up getting myself into deep trouble. Most of my fiends are loud and spontaneous, but calm when need be while I’m calm most of the time but can be loud when I feel like it.

i play cello and love singing. My music taste is all over the place and I pretty much will listen to anything if it sounds good imo. . i love painting and drawing. my love languages are physical touch, words of affirmation, and time.

I have HUGE self image problems and insecurities, both physical, emotional, and mental. I’m really insecure about pretty much everything I do.

I have a verrrry large family. When I mean large I mean fourteen aunts and uncles, family members living in all seven continents, five half siblings, siblings I haven’t even met (my family is weird), my family tree is probably intewined with at least five other trees, etc. but i grew up with just my mom so I’ve always been kinda lonely and felt unwanted.

sorry for the long description ik this is probably hard to match up and doesn’t make any sense but I would REALLY appreciate this! tysm :D

Hey! Thank you so much for requesting a matchup!! I hope you enjoy it!! <33 Come back soon! :)

Harry Potter (Marauders Era);

Sirius Black:

🐾 You had known of Sirius all throughout your years in Hogwarts, sharing a few classes with him along with having heard of his pranks with James Potter; at first, you didn't know what to think of him, but that changed quickly

🐾 You watched him from afar for the first couple of years, but at a house party with your friends, he came over to talk to you; you

🐾 You were a bit awkward and hesitant, but having your friends near helped a bit, and you were thankful that he came to you instead of vice versa; surprisingly, the conversation easily flowed, minus a few awkward hiccups here and there

🐾 You had thought after that party that maybe you had embarrassed yourself to the point that Sirius would never speak to you ever again, but he surprised you again by stopping you in the hall when you were on your way to class; you couldn't even believe your luck when he asked if you wanted to go to Hogsmeade with him

🐾 You were a bit worried that Sirius was only talking to you because of his... Playboy persona, that he wanted to add you to his list, but when Sirius took you out on that Hogsmeade date... You felt incredibly special

🐾 Sirius took you to that tea shop where you spoke about your favorite classes, professors, hobbies, and such; that's when Sirius confessed, somewhat awkwardly, that he wanted to ask you out for a while, ever since third year

🐾 It didn't take long for the two of you to start dating, and Sirius just loved to show you off, by the end of the month, everyone in Hogwarts knew you were an item

🐾 After graduating from the magical school, both you and Sirius were able to find a nice quiet cottage in the forest where you and Sirius spent the next couple of years; your time together was spent painting, practicing your cello Sirius had gotten you, and hanging out with the fellow Marauders

🐾 Sirius always makes sure that you know that he loves you, everyday he would tell you how much he admired and adored you, how wonderful and beautiful you are; he'd shout it on the top of your cottage roof if he had to, (and he would, Sirius wants the whole world to know how much he loves you)

🐾 You were so happy that you went to that party with your friends, and you were so happy that Sirius came up to you; you love Sirius so much and you can not wait for the years to come

Harry Potter (Lightning Era);

Fred Weasley:

🃏 You met Fred when you curiously wandered into his and his twin brother's shop one morning, your curiosity got the best of you and you had to know what was inside

🃏 While you were browsing, a tall red-head popped up beside you asking if you were looking for anything specific and/or needed any help

🃏 You felt a bit awkward, slightly flustered as you told him you were just looking and the young man gave you a smile, before offering you his hand to shake; he introduced himself as Fred Weasley

🃏 At the name, you realized you knew who he was, you had been a year older than him in Hogwarts, seeing him with his twin going around pranking professors and peers alike

🃏 For the next week or so, you gained the courage to come back to the shop, even though you never purchased anything, you merely came to see the eldest twin

🃏 You were surprised when Fred offered you a job at the joke shop, and you decided to take it, finding that your job was an easy one, restocking shelves; it also gave you more time with Fred

🃏 After a while, Fred asked if you wanted to go to dinner with him, to which you were a bit hesitant, as you were his employee after all; Fred had the same worries, noticing your hesitance, telling you that it was alright if you didn't want to go

🃏 You really liked Fred a lot, so the next day at work, after the children and skeptical parents left, you nervously asked Fred out to dinner; you could still remember the smile on his face and the way his cheeks and eye lit up

🃏 Dinner was amazing, eating at a small restaurant near the shop, you and Fred spoke about everything and anything, and Fred was happy to see you open up; he fondly admired the smile on your face and your sweet laugh as he retold a prank of his and his twin's

🃏 Fred cares deeply for you, making sure you are alright mentally and physically, and if you aren't be prepared to be bombarded with a lot of hugs, sweet words whispered in your ear, and all the time with him in the world

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thevillanonyan · 8 months

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The Rotwell Murders

Chapter 2:

The South facing side of the Rotwell building had been cornered off by Deprac for the last week, none of us were allowed to train in our usual rooms which unfortunately meant sharing with the older kids.

No one in the agency had taken the news well, not many people knew the victim, those who did said he was a respectable man. I remember sometimes seeing him before going out on cases, walking down the hallways enjoying the quiet empty building, he would sometimes glance over to us and smile, a confused smile, on occasion it looked like he was embarrassed. Only past agents tended to look at you like that; I wondered if he had talent when he was younger.

The marketing branch of Rotwell was furious when they heard the news, how were they meant to convince the public that The Rotwell Agency are going to keep them safe when there are deaths happing in their own building. I heard talk of them pretending it wasn’t a murder and saying it was ghost touch instead, but they ultimately decided that would hurt their brand more. Going down the large steps at the entrance, one of the journalists had said that a murderer would make a nice change of pace from all the hauntings in the newspapers, personally I wasn’t convinced it would make the people of London feel any safer, especially since the police had very little power or presence compared to the years before the problem, but I guess they know what they’re doing.

I has been working as a full-time agent for a year now, I went through the general training program and got picked out by the Rotwell agency. Most of the other kids from my area went to smaller agencies so I was seen as a golden child. That changed as I struggled to keep my place though, the other agents at Rotwell were very polished in their work and have a great drive to be the best, throughout the year I’ve seen my rank go down and down. When I first arrived, I was put on one of the top twenty teams (which is impressive for my age) but now I’ve been put on the substitute list. Until someone from a team gets registered too hurt or dead, I get drafted into a different team weekly to sort out very minor disturbances. All of this, being an extremely long way to explain why I find myself sitting alone during my lunch break (which really should be renamed breakfast, as for most agents it’s the first meal of the day).

Back when I was in a team, we would take lunch together at the dinner hall. Most agents do this as it gives a place for us to talk to other people, gather useful information and show that we are united (as a team, but also as an agency). When you’re on the substitute list, you’re not as welcome in such spaces. In general, I take a walk during my breaks. Recently I’ve started going to The Rotwell Grounds (a fancy name for a graveyard of children) for my walk as less people go there (for obvious reasons) and no one goes during lunch hour, it feels strange to see it during the day, honestly daytime in general feels strange since I’ve started working. I’m so used to seeing things at night, most of the daytime is spent training and waiting for nightfall. Even during the winter, the sun makes everything feel too warm, there are also so many people everywhere, the noise of them is completely overwhelming. Agents are trained to keep as quiet as possible and fully alert with all of their senses at 100% the second it becomes dark, its no wonder I feel so out of place with the hustle and bustle of normal life.

As per usual, I sat beside a grave marked ‘Elouise Martain’ to eat my sandwich, she was one of my friends when I first joined, I didn’t know her super well, but she was one of the first people I saw die on the job, so she always stayed prominent in my mind.

I was three bites in when from my left side I heard the squelching of mud. Probably just someone else going for a walk I thought. No one else walks through here at this time though, I know that. I felt a sharp piece of metal collide with the side of my neck, dirty and rusted it cut though my skin. I was too slow to react, my agent senses had been dulled due to the time of day, if only it had been dark! I would have survived. Instead, right beside the first friend I saw killed, I was murdered.

#lockwood and co #l&co. netflix #lockwood & co #l&co #anthony lockwood #lucy carlyle #l&coaw2023 #lockwood #lcokwood and co fic #lockwood amd co fanfiction #fanfiction #fic #lockwood and co fic #hope yall like it

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thehappiestgolucky · 2 years

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Alright [sits down with popcorn] im ready to listen to your rambling :D

Ok so I’m gonna sketch dump the more plot oriented points so I’ll instead ramble about the kids themselves! I’ve got a lot of skykid ocs but there’s only some that’ll interact with Xero (for my hands sake) and by god will I take this chance to ramble about them. But I will also give a quick ramble of my personal Sky Headcanons and what the rules are gonna be.

For starters all skykids are flat out kids. They max at the age of 15 and simply live forever (since they can’t really die) - there can be very tall skykids, but I know some people have like grown up skykids? This doesn’t apply here. Skykids can take on older sibling or mentor like roles to the younger moths that arrive! But that’s as far as they can realistically achieved, they don’t know how to be a parent. Skykids might also end up being a couple, but the expression of love is completely innocent. Like permanently stuck in that child period of puppy love and crushes type of deal.

Skykids are also all inheritely genderless, with a wide array of gender expression to however they please. Really not much to this one, they got no gender.

Skykids and wearing masks is both a cultural thing but also like, a safety measure type of deal. Skykids are internally bright light and that exposure radiates through their eyes - and the last thing they wanna do is blind people. As such, masks are designed in a way that reduces that to a subtle glow whilst maskless, skykids close their eyes.

There’s a mixed feeling about the cycle of death and rebirth for skykids, whilst a lot fear it - there’s a select number that will constantly go through the cycle to help others - with near every skykid going through Eden once. There is a way they can permanently die, but it’s not a method that has been produced yet (killing the core of light within them that not even Eden nor Darkness can achieve) but some kids fear that one day there won’t be a return. Death also just flat out isn’t fun-

The rest will be under a keep reading to avoid getting too long!

Desmond. He/Him. 15

Determined and strong minded, he more often than not ends up feeling like an older brother to other skykids, especially moths. Whilst many would assume he’d be one to cause as much chaos as possible, he actually prefers to stick to the rules - getting upset at other kids who ignore his concerns in favour of fun. That doesn’t mean he also doesn’t have bad ideas himself - he’ll simply prefer that he get in between danger than the other kids. This often makes him vulnerable to Krills and even Crabs. Rather self conscious about his abilities and often finds himself comparing himself to younger kids and how much better they are. This can make him snap back at others sometimes and his emotions fluctuate a lot.

With regards to Xero, initially he’s insisting to put him back where he was - a mixture of a sense of duty to help spirits, and insecurity of this much better protective figure.

Detsis. She/They. 14 (thanks @hollowedartist for the name suggestion in your tags!)

Quiet and chaotic, she’s the one that often helps makes bad decisions for the sake of fun. Doesn’t talk as much and pops up mysteriously out of nowhere (scaring everyone else) - somehow they’re always cold no matter how many layers they wear. They hate the Forest because of this with a burning passion. Often is the shoulder to cry on, especially to her friends feelings of self doubt and often resorts to flicking his mask to make him listen to her. They have a particular liking for the strangely morbid - wondering how the Darkness even occurred in the first place - though flying into Krills isn’t going to help with that-

Initially extremely curious of Xero and wonders what chaos he’ll get up to - though is completely unsure he can even be returned like the other spirits could. He doesn’t even resemble them very much,,,

Bibi. Any pronouns. 8

A rather new addition, they love mimicking other Skykids and their fashion for fun. She is a skilled drummer and adores putting on performances in the Performance theatre for the other Skykids who attend - managing to fill a stage even on his own. They come into this story as part of Skykids interested in this new addition, wanting to get all the outfits she can do maximise his wardrobe. Think of all the shows and musical pieces they can put on! Went to Eden once and vowed he would never go again - because of how terrifying and scarring it was. Hasn’t had a chance to make a lot of close friends yet.

Incredibly interested and attached to any new spirit that arrives, Xero immediately took their attention and she follows him around a lot.

She/Her. 10

A lonely skykid, known to watch others from the sidelines. Shy and closed, many haven’t had a chance to talk to her - but she has helped them on occasions as many kids do. Wonder where that eyepatch came from…

There are other skykids that arrive as cameos, but these are like the main crew™️ I thought it’d be easier to use screenshots than doodle them so I can use all my doodle energy for interaction drawings. Heres what the others look like!

(these three are part of the same friend group as Desmond and Detsis!)

#happy screms #ant dad and skykids #skykid #skykid oc #there’s occasionally moths too but they’re lil moths just exploring the world #my skykid is extremely small (birbdessa) so desmond and detsis is actually a lil smaller than max height #dw… the last kid is deliberate <w<

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thetruthaboutnolan · 1 month

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HOW HAS IT BEEN RECENTLY?

Smooth sailing, nice and quiet again. That’s probably from the Bitch Be Gone spray haha. Some still occasionally try to start a convo by laughing at the crazy fans I got as a not so subtle way of bringing them up as a conversation though. But the general consensus is that they are just drama llamas, obsessed with me, and at this point just laughable at how bitter they are that life has been great to me and not them.

It’s fun seeing but not as fun as the time I have in the groups I made and run and those I staff on. Joined a couple of others to where my posting is laxed. Had a few questions on there since I did use the Nolan alias but they just felt sorry that I had some stalker still.

WHY ARE THEY SO OBSESSED STILL AMOST A DECADE LATER?

Because they have no life outside of thinking of me? I had a recent conversation with several people about things like this and how some people just get an almost sex like high over assholes to other people. It ranges from their own lives being shitty, having no purpose in life, or just being too stressed from having to live that they get a thrill out of making up drama, bullying others, and stressing others out online. It helps with how easy it is to keep yourself hidden, pretend to be someone else, spread make up stories enough that people subconscious register things as ‘fact’ since they heard it so many times.

In my own experience, I just happened to piss off one person who had an over inflated sense of self worth and ego. A narcissist who believed they were too good for anyone to dare not like and worse, openly show they didn’t like this person. So their need to get a thrill out of being a bully, a stalker, and their narcissistic patterns had forced them to DARVO me while making sure that if this one person who was so important in the rpc hated me then everyone else had to as well.

It’s also irony that this person would then later delete everything and instruct people to stop harassing and talking about me and their issue with me then leave the rpc. It also is extremely telling that everyone else has also given up on it. Everyone that Raven questioned 10 years ago has since admitted that they either start up lied about what they told Raven or blamed things going on in their groups on me because it was just easier than admitting they had fights with other people.

It’s not just people I never interacted with or friends of a friend of the person who admitted they made up their story that seem to wanna keep stalking me.

Was I the perfect gentleman who never did anything? Nah. I would post and continue to be part of communities back then thinking there were no issues if no one said anything. How was I meant to know that sending someone an ask asking them if they saw my post and were planning to reply was a bad thing when they messaged me how sorry they were for not doing so yet and would do that in the hour? Or that how I posted making my own character move around in posts was being a friend who never said anything feel like he was being power played because he felt he had to react to everything I made my character do instead of plan out their own post their own way? Especially when they would tell me they loved my posts and would post within minutes all day with me?

But as long as no one said anything negative, I always just assumed things were good. And to be honest, I didn’t give a shit and fully made myself believe that as long as no one came to me about anything or said anything publicly then everything was fine. If they did, we talked and I did everything I could til they said they were good again and went back to my delulu thinking it’s all fine. And if something like what happened on WOTNA went down where they suddenly turned hostile and were coming at me, I swung back and hit them harder than they hit me. It’s been TEN YEARS now I’ve learned not to just think everything is great just because people laugh and smile and talk with me like we’re best friends. I’ve learned a lot of people keep things in because they think someone will go off on them if they say anything. That I have to take this possibility into consideration and check in with people more and more.

Growth and making sure everyone is happy and good is something that happens in life. While the latter may be a goal we will never truly achieve, I just always believed back then that as long as no one said anything they were happy. Growth is hard and at times confusing but some of us can do it. I have, but it seems my fans are still in that immature mindset of thinking bullying and harassing someone is fun and good to do as long as that person is ‘the bad guy’ in their eyes. They haven’t matured or grown but dived deeper in their insecurities and immature child like way of thinking. It’s sad and they really need to talk to someone about it.

As for those that made up rather insane stories about me….. I dunno never knew these people existed or just didn’t care about them as I never knew them or interacted in any way. Get some help? Or at least try to get better? I know a lot of you guys are eternal victims of multiple people and/or are the types that get a thrill out of being bullies and then play victim so everyone gives you internet hugs. Poor creatures. When you have to make yourself known as a victim just to get the satisfaction that Internet strangers feel sorry for you…. Well, there something wrong with you mentally and you really need to talk to someone or just move on from the internet. Especially those of you who are parents, why do internet strangers matter to you at all?

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lissss · 7 months

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10919 Pt2

We met when I was 14, but we didn’t start getting close til I was about 18. I used to find him so intimidating, he had this whole larger than life personality, a joie de vivre. He was the type of person who you just naturally gravitated towards. It seemed like every time we hung out we had an adventure. We originally started talking more because we were both away from home for the first time. We used to trade off for the weekends, I would go see him or he would come up to the dorms with his friends. We started getting close and I confided in him, told him things I didn’t tell my best friend or even his sister. I told him that my older brother and I hadn’t talked in about two years for some stupid ass reason. He became a brother to me always picking up the phone when I needed him. Or just making sure I would get home safe. He would give me advice and eventually helped my OB and I fixed out relationship.

F8 - I once went to a wedding in AZ with him and his sis. we danced, had fun, and I almost got beat up for it. J told the family that invited us that we were related, and the MoH had a huge crush on him. So all evening he had been trying to avoid her, but she just kept popping up everywhere. So when we were dancing, she kept asking our friends if he and I were really related bc she didn’t believe it. Apparently she was really pissed about it, and I was scared of her. She was way taller and bigger than I was, but I doubt she would’ve don’t anything lol

F/W9 - When he was on first his travels I told him I wanted a souvenir. And he brought me the cutest coin purse from Thailand. Unfortunately, his sister asked him for it and he said she’d have to ask me for it, and she put me on the spot. I mean, I couldn’t say no, that bitch already had her stuff in it. I regret agreeing to it. Especially because I ended up with what he brought her. It was a watch from Hawaii, but it was a 2 pack type of watch one for her and one for someone else, felt like a last minute type of gift. Every time she would brag about the purse her brother brought her, I would get so annoyed bahaha

I remember his sister dragged me once to see an old family friend of theirs. The guy was telling me stories about their childhood, and it was such a fucking privilege to hear anything like that. (He never liked talking about his childhood due to his mother.) The guy told me that when he was little they used to make fun of his bubble butt. until one day he had enough and just replied, “I can shake it too!” accompanied by a little dance. When he came home from base I started calling him bubble butt and he didn’t like but I loved annoying him.

I remember when I was about to 20, I was over at their place. He was going out and I asked if I could go with, but he told me, “when you turn 21, I’ll take you everywhere”. Unfortunately that never happened, he left overseas soon after and when he came back he started doing his on thing.

S12 - When he came back from overseas, we went to the opening of a bar of one of his friends. It was a good location, good drinks, good food. It was around 11 and we were getting ready to leave, and out of nowhere he got so stiff and quiet. I didn’t know what was going on til he told me to move to the side. Apparently, some guy wanted to pass by but he got to close to me, and instead of saying anything he was just standing behind me. But the aggression coming from him surprised me, he was always overprotective but this was extreme. I knew he came back a different person, but this was off.

S - I’ve always been the type of friend that hates the people you hate. I don’t know why, but if you dislike someone, we dislike someone. And I’ve only met 4 people like that. He was like that. I remember I was at his house and we were dropping off his sister at some modeling event, where you pay to see if you can get scouted. This was the first time we were hanging out alone and at this point I was still intimidated by him. She invited this friend of hers who did not like me, only because his sister and I were close. His sister told me the friend wanted to be the only one close to her. When we picked her up, I was polite and greeted her, I didn’t really care, I can be possessive of my friends but his sister wasn’t one of them. When we dropped them off, he asked me if she didn’t like me since she had ignored my greetings. I told him the story and I told him I didn’t care for her. He got mad and said, “what’s her problem? She’s just a butterface.” I didn’t know what that was so I just laughed, but I asked his sister later what it was and she told me. That was when I knew he was my type of person, a kindred spirit.

S - The first he went overseas I was lucky enough to be invited to see him off. The day before I had gotten in a really bad car accident, and I should’ve stayed home to recover, but I wanted to go and say goodbye just in case he didn’t come back. The whole drive was nerve wracking, I was flinching every time I get a car was too close. I never told him what had happened, he has too much to think about. This was the moment we were dreading since he went in, and I didn’t want to add to it. He always felt the need to shield me from things so I didn’t know he had his own personal problems at that same time. The girl he had been dating was just toying with him and did unspeakable things, so he was already short tempered. It sucked seeing him this way but he always refused the help. Sometimes I think her actions also contributed, but I won’t ever know. We stayed with him in a motel, and that’s where I met my other friend K. K was awesome, but as always he was warned off from me. In the morning when we dropped him off, he seemed better but it was still sad knowing we wouldn’t see him for the next 8 months. The good thing was that he had internet access on the ship, so keeping in touch was easier.

F - we kept in touch through email, but to be honest I was doing most of the talking and barely getting any responses. That was to be expected, but it was a bit tiring, especially because he was expecting long letters and I didn’t know what else to keep writing. We did make plans to travel that upcoming summer. We said we’d take the Amtrak from LA to NYC. We were actually exited about it but when we looked at the prices, it was cheaper to fly and get a hotel for the days that we would otherwise spend on the train. That idea died quickly lol

S10 - a few months after his return, he entered a new relationship. I thought she was perfect for him, especially after hanging out with her for the first time. He did have a short temper, so when he got mad, he was pretty much annoying for the rest of the day. When I met her, we went to the beach to play volleyball, and for some reason, he and his sister started bickering. That was common, she was always picking fights with him. So he got mad, and we pretty much knew to leave him alone for the rest of the day, but not her. She started poking him, making fun of him, and in less than a minute he was back. I hadn’t seen that before with any person, so she won me over. I hated that his family didn’t like her because she wasn’t what they considered pretty and she didn’t suck up to them. She made him happy and that’s all that mattered.

F - it seemed like there had been many changes in his life in such a short period. He and his last gf broke up that spring, and although he pretended to not care, I knew he was sad. He began seeing someone knew, but he made it clear that she was just a fwb. I still treated her like his gf. I never understood why his ysister and his mom always disliked everyone he dated, so I tried my best to be supportive. I always told his sister that eventually he was going to settle down with one of these girls, that she should establish a friendship. Especially if they decided to get married or have children, but everything I said was ignored. That November he took us out to eat and told me they were expecting. I was happy for him, but sad at the same time, I still had hope that he and his previous gf would date. I was also a bit worried because neither of them looked happy. But I hoped this baby was what he needed to settle him down.

Sp15 - it was one of the last times I saw him. I knew once I ended my friendship with his sister, he would stop talking to me, or at least distance himself. He had a couple of bad months the previous year, but I thought everything was looking up. It seemed like he was happier now that he had a plan since his relationship had ended. But eventually he and his SO reconciled. I understood why she returned even after everything that she had done the previous year. He had changed, she probably wanted to keep an eye on he child. I noticed that he was way too strict with his child, almost to the point of abuse. For the first time I was scared of him. I tried telling him to have patience with his toddler but it fell on deaf ears. I did try keeping in touch, sending messages but it wasn’t the same. Even though he knew my reasons, he would have never kept the friendship the same.

F8 - the first time he went up to the dorms, he brought some friends. This was after his 3 months of training. We weren’t that close yet, but we were friendly. I remember I hit it off with one of his friends but while I was somewhat fresh off a break-up and only looking for friends, The Guy wasn’t. I didn’t find out til 2 months later that TG had asked him for my info but he warned him off. We did talk for a bit but I wasn’t into TG. That was the first time I saw his overprotective side. Years later he told me he expected me to only leave my family home once I got married. I, of course, gave him shit for that. He wasn’t married and was about to move in with his pregnant girlfriend, but he said it was different for me. I still don’t get his reasoning lol.

F - I knew how he was so I never told him who I was moving in with. I did end up telling him, but maybe 2 months after I had, but through email. He couldn’t use the phone on the ship that often, and I didn’t want to hear it lol. His reply was just a bunch of questions about them. I ignored it lol.

Su15 - this was probably the last time we saw each other. Things weren’t great. He had changed a lot. It seemed that every time he got into an argument with his sister to the point of cutting each other off, he would also cut me off. Before if they cut each other off, he would still talk to me and we would still hand out, but little by little that changed. He would ignore me at times and I hated it. I would get angry at his sister because I knew how she was, she loved picking fights with him, and then turn around confused as to why he wasn't talking to her. He was also tense, and harder to communicate with, anxious at times. I also noticed that he was getting really into conspiracy theories. I mean, I like reading those, and believe in one or two myself, but he was deep in there. I truly believe he would eventually have believed all that q-anon stuff had he been here for that. I knew he had his new family to focus on so I tried to be there for them however I could. I knew he had anger issues but how can you help someone who doesn't want it?

10/08/19 - I had recently created an instagram account for some of my pictures but only a few people knew about it. At this point, I had ended the friendship with his sister the previous year. He and I had barely talked. And I've never told anyone the following. for some reason on this day, I stumbled on his ig account and wanted to add him, he's one of the few people who I would trust no matter what. But I decided not to add him right away. I figured I had all the time in the world, I would add him later, one more day wouldn't hurt. I regret not adding him so much. The following days (years), I would lay in bed asking if it would make a difference, if I could've helped him at all. I just picture him being in pain that day, and needing a friend. Deep down I know it wouldn't have mattered, I wouldn't have made the difference but it kills me.

10/09/19 - I was celebrating something that day, I was just waiting for my cousin to get home. Around 6 while I was getting ready to leave, my mom saw someone in our hallway heading to my room, I only believed it because my dog coincidentally barked at the same time. I saw that she was actually scared so I went to check but no one was there. When I got to my cousins, I started feeling overly anxious for some reason and I wanted to leave but I didn't, it was a milestone celebration for her, and I wanted to stay for a bit. I stayed as much as I could but I left when I felt like I was about to get a panic attack. After I left I felt better, but I didn't know why I felt like that to begin with. I actually fell asleep early, which was surprising and the next day I went to see my dad to help him with something. For some reason I missed some messages his sister had sent at 2am, when I saw them, I knew exactly what had happened. She wasn't clear about anything and she only told me because she wanted money. But I didn't trust her, their other sibling, or their mom with anything. I'm still angry at them for how they treated him. Since I didn’t send them any money, I was deleted off some of pages, and his sisters. Can they honestly blame me for not trusting them? I only trusted his partner, and they never liked her, I didn’t trust that they would do right by her and their children. I’m still angry about being deleted, all those memories gone.

J11 - over the winter break I got sick. I had been sick for a while, but since it would go away, I just ignored it. But during the holidays, I got worse and had to be hospitalized. I don’t really remember much since I was sedated most of the time but I do remember waking up one day and seeing him there. I assume his sister told him where I was and I was confused because I didn’t expect him to visit me. Especially because my other close friends didn’t visit me. She told me later that she didn’t think I’d leave since I was only getting worse, and I guess she told him how I was. I remember talking to him briefly but the medication was way too strong and I would drift in and out of sleep. But that’s how he was, making time for those close to him when he had no time.

This walk down memory lane has been bittersweet. It’s been somewhat awesome remembering all those adventures we had, and while I didn’t write them all down, I did write the ones that weren’t that identifiable. This has been therapeutic and it did help me remember how he really was. He wasn’t perfect, I always gave a disclaimer when introducing him to new people.

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cheshrae · 1 year

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I started typing these lil rants to get things out of my brain and into the void. While I did this previously because I felt hopeless and alone, now I do it just to help clarify my thoughts and share my feelings where I won’t necessarily have a lot of people see it. So for those few who read these, expect a couple to come.

I am learning so much about who I am and how I love, and it's made me revaluate so many of my relationships. I’ve had fallouts with friends and friend groups, and luckily most of them haven’t been terrible fall-outs by any means, it’s just me realising what I want. I really struggle with setting boundaries, like way more than I ever realised. At first I thought it was because I couldn’t tell people that I wasn’t okay/happy with their actions until it got far too bad, but I have also recently learnt it’s just setting boundaries within myself. I would let myself fall into poor friendship habits or routines where I would reach out to the wrong person, or I’d feel bad because of how someone had treated me/was treating me, and just let it continue on instead of changing it. I know it can sound a little farfetched, but setting boundaries on how I communicate with my friends, and who I choose to talk to when I’m happy, sad, want to rant about something, want to squeal about media I love, is something I am reevaluating now and making sure I am actually reaching out to the person who will suit my needs, and not just to who I have always reached out to.

I really struggle with older friendships where we either we both act a bit how we were back in the old days instead of who we are now, or where there has just been one to many moments in the past where I let something go because I didn’t know how to communicate or didn’t want to create conflict. It’s like I fall back into a toxic mindset or I never know how to express my selves properly to them, and because it’s such a history of me being quiet (I would never drag up such old stuff, but things like that do leave little scars).

This is a slight tangent but something I really need to say. I have OCD, some parts are quite mild and not bad, others can take over my life quickly if I’m not aware and adjusting. I know the new thing is that everyone has ADHD, and while I am really happy it’s much easier to be aware of such things, especially getting a diagnosis to make you feel like ‘oh, that explains it’. That being said, as someone who tends to be on the opposite side of ADHD with OCD, a lot of the things that are always ‘fine bc I have ADHD’ really really effect me. While I always understand that people can’t reply right away or they don’t have the energy, that kind of stuff effects me really poorly. I find myself anxiously messaging people because all I can think is ‘if I needed them right now, they wouldn’t get back to me for a few days’. I know that’s extreme; OCD is not always a logical disorder to have, but that’s always the first thing that pops into my head. I love being supportive for my friends who experience ADHD symptoms, but a part of me also can’t help but think ‘why aren’t they supportive of my OCD symptoms?’. My brain, especially on bad days, cannot handle any notifications anywhere, an unanswered message will literally drive me insane unless I reply, and waiting on a reply can also drive me insane. Again, I know I need to manage that bc I can't expect everyone to bend over backwards for me, but it really hurts when friends don't even consider how I feel, and what my disorder requires as well. It’s not about one being worse than the other, but about two completely different people meeting in the middle to work for both parties, instead of just blaming every action on a disorder especially when you haven’t tried to compromise. Again, I know others will be more extreme and won’t be able to compromise, and that’s fine. It’s also fine if I can’t have a deeper relationship with someone like that then. I always had guilt for feelings like that, but it comes down to my issues with boundaries again. I need to set these internally otherwise I let anything go, get into bad habits, and feel like shit without ever realising why. I hadn’t realised how much this was effecting my friendships until I actually realised it, and was lucky enough to compare it to friendships where we have both compromised, are open with each other and they just understood who I am now. I think making friends now is easier than much older friends, because I sometimes default into old me who didn’t know all of this, which is why I have to set quite tough boundaries with those people now, just until I heal a bit more and can go back to them properly with the person I actually am now.

One more thing before I finish this post - the most important thing I have learnt recently is that letting go of someone, or something because it brings more sadness than joy, doesn't mean you will lose it forever. As an example, I had to leave my D&D group because of a guy who was very unpleasant, and then it really escalated where I realised I couldn’t play with him. I felt really sad - I have had this game for almost 3 years, it was there when I sick, I loved my characters and the story, how could I leave it? I quickly realised (again I was so lucky to have another lovely game going) that if I missed it so much, why not do it again but actually make it better? I started my own game, with people I trusted, and I am soon to start another. I replaced my toxic game with amazing new stories and found a way to take back control of D&D. I am taking back control of stories an my characters, and creating ways for them to be healed within my new games. D&D is so personal that you put your everything into, so when it’s taken such a hit, it can be hard to love it, and then I feel like I’ve lost it. Allowing myself to tell stories how I want, keeping open communication between players and myself, and between myself and my DM has been a huge help. I was also sad, because it meant I wouldn't travel to fairs with them again. Well, my family and I booked to go to the main fair this year at the absolute most amazing place, and there won’t be any travel stress or anything like that. I randomly asked a friend ‘hey want to drive to this fair with me?’ and they said yes! Instead of just feeling only pity and sadness I had to let something go, I found a way to do differently, especially because (ignoring nostalgia and rose coloured glasses, which I know is not always easy but it needs to be done) these experiences would be so much better because it won’t have all the horrible stuff that made me leave in the first place. It also doesn’t have to always be the same thing, but rather find the base feeling you think you will lack, and find a new way to apply that. I really struggled with two of my close female friends lately, so I finally got the courage to reach out to a few people at work and it is beautiful. Sure, they aren't at the same depth of those other relationships, but in some ways it’s better. We can not only build towards that if we both want to, but they are also meeting me as I am now, without the poor history. Instead of sullenly sitting in the sadness when you give something up, even if you know it’s for the better, I’ve been much more focused on what I still have, but also how I can fill my life and spirit back up. Looking for opportunities and others I can include in my magic.

While I still have a lot to learn in regards to all of this, I am just so pleased I am at least aware of it. This year is much more about understanding the inner me, and loving the world and people around me while unearthing all its magic. I have taken really good steps so far, and I know I will stumble and mess up, but it truly is only up from here, and I love all these things I’ve done (and it’s only March!) to make me better on so many different levels.

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ah, okay! i just wanted to see your take on yūji and sukuna "sharing" a s/o. you had only started dating yūji recently and, sukuna, being the little attractive shit he is, would sometimes interrupt your quality time, switching out with yūji when you're, say, cuddling, like one second you're running your hands through yūji's hair with him kinda dozing off in your lap, the next thing you know sukuna is smirking up at you. or when you give yūji kisses: a peck on the cheek—sukuna's mouth would appear there, or for long lasting ones, when you pull away, you'll see your "boyfriend" has gained tattoos. at first, sukuna does this solely to annoy you both, but somehow ended up lowkey enjoying the affection you're providing (you weren't bothered that much, most of the time just going along with it—it wasn't like he can switch for long periods of time anyway), so much that they resort to this childish competition over yūji's body; anyways, yeah, headcanons or scenario, whichever you prefer! i hope my specifications aren't a bother—if they are, pls feel free to ignore this request!! tysm 💖

really sorry for this being late oh my gosh. but oh my god all of these scenarios??? anon you made me feel sum type of way on god.

warnings; poly relationship ig? some nonconsensual stuff but it’s not extreme! mention of nsfw

honestly though? you said it all

at the start of your relationship, yuuji would be super hesitant to be alone with you. he has control majority of the time, but it’s always a risk and at least when he’s around many people sukuna isn’t as much of like this itchy nuisance.

sukuna would find the whole idea of the relationship trivial. like he’s watching from the sidelines as you spend more time with yuuji, can feel the swell of emotions threatening to burst in yuuji’s chest. it’s annoying! a waste of time! and it’s not like he kept his opinions a secret. any time yuuji would go out to meet with you, sukuna would be pestering him like you could be using this time to grow in power and train yuuji’s just like bruh on god i will switch with you and jump off a cliff

first few months, sukuna would view you as an itch that won’t go away no matter how bad you scratch at it. he interrupts you two all the time. if you lean in to kiss yuuji’s cheek, sukuna’s mouth is there, licking at your lips to pull you away. jokes on him you’ll lick him back. oh you wanna go skinny dipping at 3 in the morning with yuuji? too bad it’s sukuna now. yuuji’s hands resting on the back of your neck while you kiss/or just because? sukuna’s mouth appears to just bite at you

it’s bothersome and infuriating how unbothered you’re always are about it though. any time he appears you always laugh it off, or annoy him back until he himself goes away. if he switches with your boyfriend, you always roll your eyes and just go, “aight gimme back my bf now.” you’re not being put off by any of this! if anything, he’s finding that it excites you more. puts even more life into your relationship.

he continues to do it anyways, but once, as you’re leaning in to kiss yuuji, sukuna unexpectedly switches with him, but not in time enough for you to notice the change, and you end up kissing sukuna instead. it’s not a passionate, long lasting one, not the same ones sukuna has had to endure watching and feeling yuuji go through. and yes, he can, in some way, feel you when you kiss yuuji, but you’re kissing him now. it’s the same, but it’s incredibly different. it’s soft, slow, and it sends a tingling down sukuna’s spine that he can’t decide whether to hate or love. and in a fit of shock, sukuna realizes that — that it’s good. and he’s kissing you back, and you’re still kissing him. why aren’t you stopping? — he doesn’t want you to stop. shit!

yuuji switches out with sukuna before you pull back and open your eyes, and when you do, you see him just as shocked as sukuna had felt. you’re so confused, asking if he’s okay (“it’s like i’ve never kissed you before what’s wrong?”) but he decides to keep quiet and not mention anything. when he’s alone, he says out loud to an empty room, “did it feel good?” he hadn’t been expecting sukuna’s reply, but it was curt, a short and simple, “yes.” and that was the end of that.

yuuji didn’t like the fact that sukuna had kissed you without your permission, even if it had been accidental. you didn’t know it wasn’t yuuji. and he hated that he hadn’t found the courage to tell you. but he was intrigued at the prospect of sukuna finally accepting you. so in the midst of cuddling you, while you slept in his arms, he shifted with sukuna, unexpectedly and without warning. imagine the curse’s surprise to look down and suddenly see that your arms are wrapped tightly around his middle, your head on his chest as you sigh gently in your sleep. his arms are holding you close to him, and the feeling is only faintly familiar, a sense of deja vu because of sharing yuuji’s body. and then, just like that, it’s over.

again, as he lays with your head on his chest and his eyes on the ceiling above him, yuuji asks sukuna, “did it feel good?” and again, sukuna replies, “yes.”

that’s how the idea of sharing you began. they’re both still yet to discuss it with you, but it’s obvious that it’s weighing heavy on their minds. and because you know him so well, you can tell when yuuji’s been hiding something from you, so you ask him to just out with it. it’s a very interesting conversation. you go from shocked, to neutral, to confused, to intrigued, to teasing. it’s all over the place. but it’s the most shocking to him when you fix him with a determined smile and glance and say, “i wanna try.”

it’s very clumsy at first. sukuna and yuuji fight over yuuji’s body like fucking children. you have to like establish ground rules and some sort of routine to actually get them to settle down. nights are altered between them, with who gets to sleep next to you — one night yuuji, one night sukuna, unless either one of them is experiencing a bad day of sorts. you give two kisses now instead of one, and it’s very comical because you kiss yuuji, he steps back and he’s essentially the same person but with??? tattoos??? sukuna’s not a fan of dates, so it’s always yuuji taking you out, but nights in are really endearing with sukuna, because he gives incredible massages while in the bath with you. like i said, at first, it’s all over the place because they make it out to be some sort of competition between them, but then steadily they fall into a rhythm.

i’ll briefly talk about nsfw. this is something they cannot, for the life of them, get accustomed with. if yuuji’s being a lil shit to sukuna for the day, he will switch out with him right as yuuji’s about to orgasm just because. wow king of edging and orgasm denial! he switches out with yuuji a lot, especially when it comes to you going down on him (them?). it’s not like yuuji doesn’t do it back, because he does. he so does, especially with how he has more control than sukuna does. the one thing that they can agree on is pleasuring you, and it’s always a priority no matter who holds the reigns on yuuji’s body at the time. sometimes you’ll need sukuna to be absolutely ruthless with you and split you in half and yuuji will respect that, because sometimes you need the mixture of yuuji’s soft hands and rough thrusts instead. it’s all about the balance, my loves.

anyways! i feel like i have more to say but i can’t think of anything else rn. being with sukuna and yuuji? best of both worlds. the end!

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daenqyu · 3 years

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— they accidentally confess to their crush

includes: shinsou, bakugou, midoriya, todoroki and hawks

warnings: swearing

a/n: thank you for requesting <3 i love this idea! it’s so cute🥺 also, hawks’ may be a little longer than the others because it’s my first time writing for him and i got a bit excited👉🏼👈🏼

ps: i don’t mind writing for hawks if it’s a headcannon and/or texts! so feel free to request him :D and yes, this is a repoost because the algorithm hates me.

( gif isn’t mine !! credits go to @tetsuruo )

shinsou hitoshi:

it would happen so randomly and out of the blue

as i said before, i think shinsou is a really reserved and quiet type of guy

but that seems to vanish whenever he’s around you

he’s more talkative and constantly goes out with you so you guys can have some quality time together

you also make him really nervous

he’s pretty chill with everyone and seems to not give a fuck about most things

but with you?

that’s a whole different story

whenever you keep your gaze stuck on him when he’s talking and his eyes meet yours, his heart never fails to do backflips because fuck you’re so cute

(oh to have shinsou think i’m cute D:)

ok back to the actual hc,,,

you two were hanging out in your room, listening to music and just talking

even tho your best friends, shinsou never really tells you much about his personal life

of course you know the basics like his hobbies and all his favorite things

but he never talks to you about...crushes or anything

and you don’t like that because :( friends are supposed to tell each other this stuff, right?

it’s fun and makes the bond even stronger

so you decide to ask him because why not?

“hey shinsou?”

he’s sitting down next to you on your bed, your legs draped over his

which makes him feel all warm inside

it’s stupid and definitely not a big deal,

but it’s little things like this that make him fall more and more for you

“yes?”

“do you have a crush?” you wiggle your eyebrows at him in a teasing way, although he’s not even looking your way

a part of you is nervous to hear his response

because unbeknownst to shinsou, you reallyyy like him

and have been crushing on him for quite some time now, but since you’re so sure the feelings are one sided, you don’t tell him

he’s too invested on the game he’s playing on your switch, eyebrows slightly furrowed as he concentrates

so he almost misses your question

and when he does answer, he’s not even paying attention to the words that leave his mouth

“apart from you? no”

it takes him a good minute to process what he said

meanwhile you’re sitting there like :o

you certainly weren’t expecting THAT

like it’s a good thing!!!! but you’re kinda flustered

especially when shinsou finally looks up at you, eyes widened in surprise at his own bluntness as he opens and closes his mouth a few times, not knowing what to say now

“wait! i didn’t mean it like that!”

“you didn’t?”

he notices the slight pain in your voice and the way you move away from him slowly and he’s quick to apologize

“shit, okay...yes i like you but i didn’t say anything because i don’t want to make things weird between us or ruin what we have right now”

he’s looking everywhere but you

because he doesn’t exactly want to face you when you reject him

but you don’t ???

instead you giggle and before he can ask you what’s so funny, you climb on his lap to hug him, causing him to blush furiously

“i like you too, toshi”

the nickname makes him hug you even tighter while he hides his face on your neck

it was such a cute confession and even when you two start going out, you never stop bringing it up

which makes shinsou extremely embarrassed

“hey remember when you confessed and-”

“y/n, we’ve talked about this”

“oh come on! you were so adorable”

he pouts at you

“were?”

people think he looks so scary but he’s actually a whole ass baby

you roll your eyes before leaning down to give him a sweet kiss,

“you’re such a baby”

“hm, your baby”

“oh my god you did not”

yeah no, he’s in love with you👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨

( gif isn’t mine !! credits go to @bakugousmyboy )

bakugou katsuki:

i feel like it would be pretty difficult to have bakugou accidentally confess directly to you

he knows how to control himself and his emotions so i doubt he’d actually ever do something like this

however,

he’s not that good at hiding his crush on you and mostly everyone on class 1A knows the boy is an absolute sucker for you

except you because apparently you think he’s just being nice

and everyone else is like wtf????

like he’s ALWAYS screaming at everyone

but when it’s you he doesn’t

in fact, sometimes he even lowers his voice so it won’t bother you

so that behavior is the one that caused him to be stuck in the situation he is right now

he sat in the common room with kirishima and kaminari, trying to eat his food in peace but the two idiots, as he likes to call them, wouldn’t shut up

he had completely blocked out both of their voices, focusing on finishing his meal and getting the hell away from them

until he heard your name being mentioned

“dude when are you gonna ask y/n out? everyone knows how much you like her so might as well you know,” kirishima bumps his shoulder against the blonde, only to receive a glare. “get some action”

“yeah bakubro, she’s super cute too” kaminari buts in and bakugou is about to punch them both in the face

“shut the fuck up. i don’t like her” bakugou scoffs

“but you’re such a softie for her”

“huh?! i treat her the same as i treat all of you extras!” oh but he knows he’s lying, you can’t even compare to any of your annoying classmates

kirishima smirks, “i’m pretty sure you’ve never once, raised your voice at her”

“so? that doesn’t mean shit”

kaminari looks at kirishima and the redhead nods at him, giving him the green light

“well since you don’t like her, you wouldn’t mind if i ask her out? because i’ve been wanting to-” kaminari can’t even finish his sentence before bakugou grabs him by the collar of his shirt

kaminari yelps, looking over at his other friend for help but he moves his head quickly, knowing better than to get involved

“you try and make a move on her and i swear to God i’ll blast you all the way across japan, dunce face”

bakugou’s voice is threatening and low, and kaminari knows he means every word so he quickly raises his arms in defeat and nods his head

“okay, okay! i swear i won’t”

little do they know that you’ve been standing behind them for a while now

you’re happy to know your feelings are reciprocated

but of course you want to tease bakugou about it

“hm did my ears deceive me or does boom boom boy have a crush on me?”

kirishima and kaminari take that as their cue to run away to their rooms, leaving you two alone

“tch, how long have you been standing there?” even as he glares you down, he can’t hide the blush on his cheeks

he didn’t want you to find out this way

or at all tbh

you walk over to him, a wide smile on your lips

“long enough”

afterwards you ask him if he wants to go watch a movie with you the next day and he’s lowkey mad because he wanted to ask you on a date first, but he doesn’t say no

you end up having way more fun than expected and you actually confirmed that bakugou was a softie for you

(turns out you were the last one to find out because literally everyone else knew)

( gif isn’t mine !! credits go to its rightful owner )

midoriya izuku:

OKAY HE’D BE THE MOST FLUSTERED OUT OF ALL OF THEM

he can barely function around girls in general so like, what does that tell you?

he likes you so much but he’s so scared

but he’s also so sweet to you even before you start dating oml

midoriya is a sweetheart, we all know this

and he pays so much attention to you

like if you are the mall one day and you see something you really like but can’t buy it for whatever reason well…

a few days later he gets it for you

he would say something along the lines of, “you seemed to really like it so i got it for you”

“you didn’t have to, izuku!”

“but i wanted to”

you’ll try to pay him back in some sort of way but he absolutely refuses

he loves pampering you

yet whenever you try to do the same he doesn’t let you and it’s: ✨annoying✨

anyways,

you were supposed to go to the movies

but midoriya had forgotten he had some homework to do, which was due the next day

“i’m so sorry y/n! i completely forgot, but i promise i’ll finish quickly” he tried to reassure you and you chuckle at the boy, so cute

“it’s okay, izuku. i don’t mind waiting”

you lay down on his bed, trying your best to keep your eyes open

but as much as you tried, you eventually fell asleep against the soft sheets, your best friend’s bed being just too comfortable

midoriya sat on his desk chair, writing down the answers as fast as he could so you guys could go watch the movie you were so excited about

he let out a sigh of relief when he finished, before taking his phone out to check the time

6:37PM, the movie starts at 7PM so we still have time

he stood up to tell you he had finished, but was met with your sleeping figure

your eyes were closed and soft snores left your slightly parted lips, hands gripping his sheets to your chest

the curly haired boy almost combusted at the sight

you looked so peaceful, so pretty

a smile grazed his lips as he made his way over to the bed

he sat down beside you, quietly admiring your features

feeling the mattress dip thanks to his weight, you began to wake up, but quickly shut your eyes when you noticed midoriya was looking at you

truth be told, you just wanted to scare him by suddenly jumping

but his next words made your breath hitch

one of his hands moved up to your face, resting it gently against your cheek as his thumb massaged the skin

your heartbeat was out of control and you forced yourself to calm your breathing so he wouldn’t notice you were awake

his touch was so gentle and sweet, you couldn’t bring yourself to push him away

“i wish i could tell you how beautiful you are” he whispered and if you hadn’t been so close to him, you probably wouldn’t have heard him

after hearing him say that you couldn’t stay still

you opened your eyes, a smile quickly spreading across your features as you turned around to face the green haired boy

midoriya almost had a heart attack when you moved, hoping you hadn’t heard him

but based on the mischievous grin you wore, he knew you had

“well you just did”

“y-you were awake?!”

“yup, i’m glad i was tho”

hE’S INTERNALLY SCREAMING

your gaze is flirtatious and you’re still grinning and he’s just >_<

“now let’s go or we’ll be late!”

midoriya can only nod before following you outside

once you’re on your way to the movie theater, you notice midoriya fidgeting with his fingers, his eyes glued to his shoes

you smile as you suddenly take his hand in yours, interlacing your fingers together

midoriya looks at you with a nervous expression, what is she doing?

“you know, you’re beautiful too”

you were looking at him with nothing but love in your eyes and he felt so embarrassed yet excited at the same time

because holy fuck you just called him beautiful AND held his hand???

he thinks it can’t get any better than this

and then it does when you kiss him a few weeks later😳🤚🏼

( gif isn’t mine !! credits go to @ambershaydeoffical )

todoroki shouto:

like bakugou, i don’t really think he’d be clumsy enough to accidentally confess

however, he does like to speak his mind and isn’t afraid to do so

he’s just really honest and blunt

way too honest

which gets him in trouble sometimes but oh well, that’s just the way he is and everyone is pretty used to his personality by now

though, after figuring out he liked you as more than a friend, he started to think more before talking

sometimes you liked to get his opinion on your outfits and/or hairstyles

so you’d drag him to you room and force him to be honest and tell you which one he liked most

it doesn’t matter what you wear, you always look beautiful

he wants to say that, but instead he goes:

“they all look good, i think the purple shirt really fits you tho”

“i was thinking the same thing!”

he doesn’t want to scare you off or make things weird

so he forces himself to hold back on his bluntness

at least when he’s with you

but one day he just can’t help himself

you were on your way back to the dorms after a tiring day at school

todoroki walked next to you, eyes glancing over to you from time to time so you knew he was listening\

you were currently rambling about how shitty your love life was

claiming that there must be something wrong with you since no one seemed to pay attention to you- at least romantically

“i mean seriously, am i doing something wrong or is everyone i’ve met just not for me??”

you had your cheeks puffed out, a pout on your lips as you kicked the small rocks on the floor

todoroki smiled softly at your complaints, thinking irony could be quite funny sometimes

until you spoke up again,

“maybe i’m just too ugly or boring, that’d make more sense”

todoroki almost stops dead in his tracks to see if you have a fever

how could you say that????

you’re so gorgeous to todoroki, and interesting

you’re probably the first girl he’s ever liked this much in his life

and you have the audacity to doubt your worth just because other people can’t seem to appreciate you??

uh uh, he’s not having it

and so, the words come out before he can even register them properly

“if you were as ugly as you say are then, i don’t think i’d like you as much as i do”

your eyes widened and you stopped walking, wondering if you had heard him right

todoroki stops walking too, and once he realizes what happened, he’s looking away, trying to come up with a valid excuse as to why he said that

you, however, can’t stop staring at him

finding the way he glares at the ground adorable

a sense of happiness takes over your whole body when he doesn’t say anything to deny his sudden confession

because he cannot lie to you

you walk towards todoroki until you’re standing right in front of him and before he can even question what you’re doing, you plant a sweet kiss against his cheek

“good thing the feeling is mutual”

your words make him smile and he looks so happy

probably the happiest he’s ever been

and you feel proud of being the one responsible for that pretty smile of his

neither of you really rush into making things official

but the way todoroki lets you cuddle on his left side whenever you’re cold or how he waits for you every morning so you can walk together to class makes it more than clear that he really likes you

( gif isn’t mine !! credits go to its rightful owner )

takami keigo (hawks)

he’d be the type to not give a fuck about it

like he already confessed so what can he do?

nothing. exactly

he’s so cocky and flirty the whole time oml

he’d be shocked for a few seconds, but after seeing you were way more flustered than him, he’d just start teasing you

in a loving way of course

he’s also surprised you hadn’t noticed earlier on, considered how much he flirts with you, but then again, that’s part of his personality so

kinda makes sense you didn’t suspect anything

but he’s so cute and soft for you 🥺

okok so it happened the same day you got your results for your midterms

(you’re a college student here lol)

you had studied your ass off for this tests

staying up until 4AM and having to ditch your friends when they invited you to go out

so you were really positive

you squealed when your teacher hands you back the papers and you see the grade on the right corner

you felt happy to know that all your hard work wasn't in vain

the nerves you had been feeling since the day you took the midterms quickly vanished and were replaced with the feeling of pride

as you walked out of the building, you dialed the person who you wanted to share the news most with

he picked up after the second ring

“what’s up?” his voice was raspy and you ignored the butterflies that appeared in your stomach at the sound

“hey, i have great news!”

“care to elaborate?”

“you’ll find out when i get to your house”

“oh? and who said you could come over?” his tone is teasing and you can practically hear the smirk on his face, which makes you roll your eyes

“i did, now bye. i’ll be there in five minutes and order some pizza to celebrate” you don’t even get hear his complaints because you’ve already hung up

anyone who saw the way you two acted with each other would automatically think you guys were a couple

you were rather affectionate with each other; occasionally holding hands while you walked down the streets and even calling each other by your first names

that was just the bond you two had, and you loved it

he brought you so much comfort

it was almost ridiculous the way he was able to make you smile by simply calling or texting you

you had grown quite attached to the number 2 hero, but you constantly told yourself you needed to snap out of it

because you were friends

nothing more and nothing less

oh but how you wished there was more to your relationship than just that

you shook your head, as if that could help you get rid of the thoughts

true to your word, you soon found yourself outside of keigo’s house

the college you went to wasn’t that far away from there so

you pushed the doorbell and waited around two minutes before a sleepy looking keigo opened the door

his hair was messy and the way he rubbed his eyes and kept yawning let you know he probably had been taking a nap

you scoff, “were you sleeping?” you ask him as you walk into his home, smiling at the familiar scent

he chuckles from behind you, following you into his living room, “maybe, but you woke me up”

“can’t believe your lazy ass earned the number two spot”

“what can i say? it’s a talent,” he shrugs before sitting down next to you on the couch, resting his face on his hand. “so, what’s the good news?”

“so you know i took my midterms last friday, right?” keigo nods. “well, i got my results today” he raises his eyebrows in surprise and waits as you look for the papers inside your bag

once you get them out, you place them in front of your face so he can see for himself

keigo smiles proudly and it only widens when you look up at him expectantly, biting your lower lip

“holy fuck, that’s amazing! you did so good dove”

the nickname makes you weak on the knees but you’re quick to brush it off

you should be used to it, since keigo has been calling you that for quite some time now, yet it never fails to make your heart beat insanely fast

you nod excitedly and put the papers down before you start talking about your experience

keigo can’t help but admire you

you look so happy and cute

it makes him want to kiss you

he wants to shut you up by kissing you, and it sound mean and disrespectful but you just look so gorgeous 😡

and instead of randomly kissing you, he blurts out a confession

“math was probably the hardest but i managed to pass it too, surprisingly, so i-”

he doesn’t even know what you’re talking about anymore, too focused on your smile

“God i like you so much”

you shut up instantly

did you hear that right?

or was your mind playing tricks on you?

keigo looks away momentarily, before locking eyes with you and tilting his head to the side, waiting for a reaction

which he gets soon after because you can’t handle the way he’s looking at you

you look away, hiding your face the best you can

“w-what did you say?”

he smirks after hearing the stutter in your voice

he gets closer to you, until he’s right in front of your face, before saying:

“i like you, y/n”

you don’t know what to say

what are you even supposed to do???

keigo just confessed

your best friend and crush just confessed to you

that’s not something that happens everyday

“i um, like you too” you don’t look at him and he almost chuckles at your shy expression, but decides not to embarrass you any further

“happy to hear that”

he doesn’t say anything for a while and you wonder what the hell is going through his head right

he’s probably just messing with me. oh my God he probably is and i just said i liked him too so what-

your train of thought is cut off when you feel the blonde ruffle your hair while looking at you lovingly

you slowly look up to him

“i’m proud of you, dove”

fuck

“t-thanks”

“now, i think this is something worth celebrating and i’m not talking about pizza. so let me take you out”

“it’s fine, keigo. you don’t need to-”

“can’t hear you, give me about fifteen minutes and then we’ll get going”

you try to tell him no, that it’s fine and you can just eat pizza but he ignores you and still takes you out to eat

i’ll say it again: he’s so sweet :(((

he pays for the food and gives you his jacket when you get cold

he even treats you to some dessert !!

he also kisses you good night when he drops you off at your house <3

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the-lone-witch-and-secret-room · 3 years

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Camila Noceda and Flawed Parenting

A perspective by a flawed person with loving but extremely flawed parents

I’m genuinely baffled at some people’s hostile reaction towards Camila. Like… do any of you have flawless parents that always know the best solution instantly, make no mistakes and never get emotional?

My parents are great. They’re super supportive and I love them very, very much. Overall I think I got very lucky in the parents department.

But god, they are far from flawless. I still live at home, and despite all the good, there’s moments when I can’t take my dad anymore. He’s the kind of dad that stayed up until two am to help me with homework when I was in school, and he does so, so many things to make sure I’m happy. I know that. But despite all of this, I have told my mom in emotional moments before that I’m not sure if I can keep living with him, because for all his good sides, he has a couple of fatal flaws that sometimes make him unbearable.

My mom listens to me and is very open to being educated on certain topics, but she has her flaws, too. She hates when I fight with my dad, and gets so torn up about it that I’ve once apologized to my dad out of fear of her getting into a car crash otherwise. She’s very vocal about certain flaws of mine, and sometimes uses the things she does for me as leverage against me when she gets very emotional.

And both of my parents pay a lot more attention to my brother because he needs it more, because he’s more of a “problem child” while I “seem so capable” even when I’m not.

And guess what? I’m not a perfect child. I make mistakes sometimes, some of them pretty severe. Just like Luz, I’m the kind of person that struggles to communicate certain issues of mine to her parents. I’m stubborn, and when I get emotional, I say very hurtful things sometimes. So do they.

And this has nothing to do with my parents being horrible or abusive. They’re neither of those things.

The takeaway from this should not be that my entire family is made up of terrible people, but that we’re all flawed in our own ways, despite loving each other and trying our best. There’s things about my parents I wish I could change, and there are things about me that my parents wish they could change. And to an extent, that’s perfectly normal.

In our strengths and flaws and frustration with each other, we’re all human.

Specific, spoiler-y Camila and Luz things under the cut since this got very long.

We have no indication that Camila has a pattern of emotionally manipulating Luz. Her “emotional manipulation” as I’ve seen some people put it, is people for some reason thinking that the second you become an adult, you’re suddenly perfect and can no longer make mistakes, lest you’ll be dubbed horrible and abusive.

The whole concept is absurd to me. There is no perfect way to parent. There simply isn’t. Of course, there’s some genuinely abusive patterns that are horrible and inexcusable. But out of the parenting styles that aren’t, which one works depends on a number of factors, one of which absolutely includes that every child is different and has different needs. Camila is an amazing parent for Vee, giving the kid everything she’s ever longed for. She’s not an ideal parent for Luz. And that’s because Luz and Vee have fundamentally different needs.

Likewise, Luz is a pretty great child for Eda, but not a perfect fit for Camila. Luz relates to Eda a lot more than she relates to her mom, and that’s why the two of them have an easier time understanding each other. Both of these mother-child relationships exist, and one is not more doomed to fail than the other, but I think you’ll agree that the better you understand someone and where they’re coming from, the easier it is to communicate, pick up on certain signs, etc.

As mom and daughter, Camila and Luz are both flawed and have issues seeing the other’s perspective because of how different they are. And we should simultaneously acknowledge both of their roles in the issue and give both of them the space to learn and grow past those issues.

Luz struggles to communicate her problems. She doesn’t want to burden people in the demon realm, and it’s a given that this started out as not wanting to burden her mom. So she keeps quiet about her issues. Camila tries hard but can’t read her daughter’s mind, so there’s only so much she can do to understand and help the way Luz needs her to. Hell, Eda, who Luz is a lot more open with than her mom, struggles to help her, because Luz doesn’t tell her what’s wrong. I don’t see anyone calling Eda a terrible mom for that.

Camila tries her best, but she struggles to understand her daughter because of this, and because of how fundamentally different they are. She loves Luz’s creativity, we actively see her supporting it in the new episode—she keeps the weird stuff Luz made because she thinks Luz will regret throwing it away, and even plays along in what she assumes to be some elaborate role play because “she’s glad Luz kept her creativity even though it’s not made things easy for her at school”. But at the beginning of the show, said creativity got out of hand and people got hurt. Luz could’ve gotten hurt. So of course Camila had to interfere. I love Luz dearly, but she thought it was okay to bring snakes to school and set off fireworks inside a school building. Creativity is great. Doing reckless stuff that causes people to get hurt is not.

In sending Luz to camp, Camila tried to have someone else fix her issue because she didn’t know how to help Luz. That was a mistake, and a bad one at that, but she’s realizing that. She looks disheartened when Vee tries to throw out Luz’s stuff, because she never meant to change her daughter or take that part of her away. She just thought Luz needed a reality check—which, for the record, is something the narrative actually agrees with.

Luz spends her time in the demon realm getting reality check after reality check, realizing that even her ideal fantasy world where she has everything she always wanted doesn’t mean she’s free of consequences. She goes overboard constantly, causing:

-Eda to be forced to fly into a trap because Luz is chasing a fantasy (Witches before Wizards)

-Eda to almost be branded by her sister because Luz doesn’t think through why Eda doesn’t use magic to publicly announce her presence constantly (Once Upon a Swap)

-Eda and the twins to get kidnapped by a Slitherbeast because Luz stole Amity’s wand (Adventures in the Elements)

-Her friends to get hurt when she goes overboard trying to help Willow (Wing it like Witches)

-Eda to be captured and almost petrified because Luz thought she could just steal from the Emperor with no consequences in an attempt to help (Agony of a Witch)

I’m like 90% sure these aren’t even all. None of those make her a terrible person, for the record, but as all humans are, she is flawed and makes bad choices. She learns from these experiences and matures, just like her mom had hoped she would at camp. She’s also made friends there, which was another thing Camila wanted for her daughter.

You’ll probably realize that a lot of Luz’s behaviors I mentioned follow one of two patterns: 1. Luz’s idealized fantasy world causing problems, when she walks around with rose tinted glasses and gets people in trouble in the process because she hasn’t thought about the consequences, and 2. Luz trying to help someone she loves, but instead making things worse in the progress. The issue with this one is often that she doesn’t communicate her ideas/listen to the people she’s trying to help—like when Willow and Gus said they’ve had enough of Grudgby, or how she never actually talks to Eda about the healing hat idea before doing something reckless.

…does the latter one sound familiar to you at all? No? Because it’s the exact same thing that Camila did.

Some of the things Luz does are reckless and actively endanger others and herself, and that’s something that I think we need to acknowledge before judging Camila. As Luz’s mom, it’s Camila’s job to interfere in those situations. That she made a mistake while trying to protect Luz doesn’t make her a terrible person, especially as, again, the narrative proves her right to an extent.

I’m not saying her making Luz promise to come back and stay isn’t something that hurt Luz—it absolutely is. But it was born out of desperation. She’s emotional and in shock. She’s so full of pain and regret. She just wants her fourteen year old daughter home safe, and there’s nothing abusive or even morally ambiguous about that.

From Luz’s perspective, what she says is absolutely heartbreaking, but from Camila’s, it’s perfectly reasonable. I doubt Camila has the full picture, but even if she does, she’s had a full fifteen seconds to process that her daughter has not only been lying to her for months, but chose to leave her, and is in the demon realm of all places. Of course she’d be emotional and upset about that! Who wouldn’t? Camila isn’t a robot. If she’d been calm about this I’d be way more concerned, honestly.

My parents don’t get mad that easily, but if I would lie to them for weeks on end, they’d be pissed off too, not even taking the running away from home part into account. That’s a normal thing. People don’t like being lied to. Camila is absolutely devastated in that moment because she’s scared that Luz left because she hates her, when Luz actively states that her leaving wasn’t about her mom—which is another thing we should really be acknowledging.

Abusive parents suck and abuse should obviously never be apologized or trivialized, but saying something hurtful in the heat of the moment isn’t the same thing as being an abusive parent. My parents have done this. I’ve done this. And yes, those things can be emotionally manipulative, but there’s a huge difference in whether that’s a habit or a person speaking out of hurt and desperation in a very specific context. I doubt there’s anyone on the entire planet that hasn’t had a bad moment where they’ve said something like this because they were hurting. People lash out when they hurt, and they beg for reassurance when they’re scared. That’s something we all do.

The whole mindset of “all parents have to be perfect and can never get upset or make any mistakes” is harmful as hell, and honestly also very unrealistic. No parent is perfect, and especially people like me who have a relationship with their parents that’s very good overall should know that.

Once you have a child, parenting is a non-stop learning process, every day for the rest of your life. Taking away that room to grow and expecting perfection isn’t helping anyone, especially not struggling single parents.

And I see Camila as someone who is very willing to learn, because at the end of the day, all she wants is for Luz to be happy. Let’s give her some time to wrap her head around this whole situation. Let’s see what she says once she sees for herself how happy Luz is in that world, may it be via the videos eventually coming through or Camila visiting and meeting Luz’s found family, her friends and her girlfriend.

Ultimately, I don’t think Camila will force Luz to stay at home, but we have to give her some time. She wants what’s best for Luz, and she’s gonna need some convincing that a dangerous magical world is what’s best. I feel like that’s very normal considering the circumstances.

Her and Luz need to work on their communication on both ends, they both have things to learn, but I’m certain they’ll manage to fix their relationship in the long run.

If the bunk bed is any indication, I think Vee is gonna stay in the human realm permanently while Luz sleeps at home but keeps attending Hexside in the daytime. That feels like a solution that keeps everyone happy, and allows Luz to spend time with all the people she loves. I can’t see her being forced to choose at the end.

As a closing statement: Eda isn’t an ideal mom, Amity isn’t an ideal friend or girlfriend and neither is Luz, Lilith isn’t an ideal sister… but that’s because no one is ever an ideal anything. Being flawed is a big part of being human. Everyone has different facets to their personality. Their flaws are what makes them such great, relatable, believable characters.

And I feel the same way about Camila. She’s an extremely believable character that reminds me of my own parents, flawed but very loving nonetheless.

(Also honestly, I think it’s pretty telling that some of you guys immediately bash the black single mom that’s obviously trying her hardest while giving the benefit of the doubt to Alador, who has been portrayed as neglecting and threatened his six year old daughter on screen. This was already a thing before we knew much about either of them, and I’m disappointed but unfortunately not very surprised that it still is.)

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Hi, I’m so sorry to bother you but I’ve been feeling down lately and I really enjoy reading ur blog. Is it ok if you do Jason, micheal, bubba Thomas, Brahms ,pyramid head, asa and Harry warden if possible with an S/O who’s usually happy and willing and all of a sudden she breaks down one day bawling on the couch or something and she didn’t know they were there, not wanting to make them upset or sad? Sorry if it’s really sad, I just need a lil love, I love u and ur blog! Thank you! Take your time and drinks lots of water!

Jason

Uhm, excuse me bitch what in the fuck is going on? You gave you the right to scare the shit out of Jason like that?

When he first came home the weeping made him freeze. He was positive it wasn’t you, he had never even seen you frown before so this absolutely cannot be your crying. Yet, as he walked in to see you whip around, tears streaming down your face as you look at him in pure shock you almost send him falling backwards

He doesn’t even care what made you cry of feel this way he’s going to be up your ass the entire day. Coddling, kissing, rubbing, and doing any and all for of comforting that he knows how to do

Jason absolutely hates seeing you cry, especially as hard as you did. You’re more than welcome to talk to him about it for as long as you want whenever you want and all he will do is listen and comfort you

Jason is a very physically affectionate man, even though he is a bit hesitant at first, so when you feel yourself in a time like this, you bess’ believe that he’s going to be around you 24/7. Even a few days after that, he needs to be your therapist (which he’s real good at)

Michael

You won’t be able to see it, but Michael is panicking and sweating bullets underneath that mask. It’s an immediate fight or fight response

Michael, overall, isn’t too good with handling other peoples emotions, so don’t be surprised when he doesn’t come to you right away for any sort of comfort in those "typically ways"

Hugging, coddling, cuddling, and any typeof caressing is going to come later in the day when things have begun to quiet down. Not only is he completely unused to having to comfort you in anyway like this, but he's pretty pissed at whatever made you come to this point

The main thing Michael wants you to do is to talk to him, tell him what's wrong so that he knows just how to handle the situation: either to kill or to... not know what to do

It's very safe to say that he will get better with knowing how to comfort you if this does ever happen again, which he really hopes it won't.

Bubba

There is a lot that can make Bubba cry, at this is one of the times he wasn't expecting to. Everyday, no matter how hard it was for him, he knew he could count on your cheery face to great him when he comes running back inside

His first reaction is to panic; he's never been put in this sort of situation before with you and he really doesn't know how to approach you. He sort of just sits awkwardly next to you and whines

Comfort does eventually find your way with pets and hugs, there aren't really any verbal affirmations he can give you, but for what he lacks in communication he can make up with physical affection one way or another

A downside to Bubba, however, is that he almost has an out-of-sight-out-of-mind personality realistically. So don't get too upset if when you have some space from him that same day that he'll sort of forget you've been upset

In that case, be prepared for the exact same meltdown when he figures out how upset you've been for the second time

Thomas

Thomas' defense mode in immediately activated. Never would he have thought that he would have to be on the comforting side so you'll have to give him a minute, but it really isn't even that long

He's gentle and patient, he knows what its like to feel such extreme motions and most of all that they are pretty hard to get out, so take your time and he'll be here with you until you're back up on your feet. Literally

To say you scared him would be an understatement, but he pushes that aside to genuinely make sure that you are not physically hurt, because if that was the case whoever did it should be the one scared

Instead, Thomas has somewhere quiet for you to go with him, the least he would want is for Hoyt to complain about such "loud" crying in the house. It's better for him to give out physically comforting, too!

His go to's are hugs and petting/caressing, it's what he would want. It's comforting to say the least, but the fact that you can't even breath right doesn't go down well when he's crushing your spinal cord in a bear hug

Braham

However oblivious, he's oddly able to tell that you're acting different before you even get the chance to melt down. From all of the time spent watching you from within the walls, you can say that he knows you like the back of his hand

Brahms has absolutely no clue how to address you. Of course he's fended for himself for a long time but any sort of emotional help is foreign to him

He'll come around, of course, the moment that you do breakdown he's by your side and he's ready to do just about anything you tell him to do but he's on edge

However, the sort of comfort you will get from him will be physical, it's the best way he can quickly show any form of care for you that he thinks will work. Brahms absolutely hates seeing you this way because he want to be able to fix the problem and he just doesn't know how

He insists that you tell him whats wrong as he holds you, curled up, in his lap. Gently caressing your head and face as he listens to your soft cries and explanation. It's the best he can do for you and he knows that that he'll have to pay close attention to when you baby him next, that way he's prepared for whenever this might happen next

Pyramid Head

What the fuck even? Pyramid Head isn't going to catch on too soon, but the moment he hears your cries from anywhere he is by your side immediately

He hates it the most out everyone on this list, and I mean that heavily. Not only does he go on rampages because he doesn't know what's wrong, but it pisses him off to no end that he doesn't know how to handle it

Pyramid Head wants so bad to be able to comfort you and understand what's made you this upset that he can come across as a little overbearing, but mainly clingy. He doesn't leave your side well after you've stopped crying and makes sure to keep an eye on you from now on so that he can possibly be there before this happens again

While he isn't able to properly communicate to you, a lot of his body language displays signs of uncomforted alongside you. Just about any emotion you feel he absorbs and feels it right with you, mainly because its his way of showing you that you're not alone and he's here to spend this time with you

Just please don't ever do that again it's so stressful he likes seeing you bubbly not sad omfg-

Asa

Asa is the most unreadable, really. He's able to keep his composure the entire time as you bawl your eyes out before him, but inside he's shaking up a little. He doesn't like seeing you upset whens it's not for play of course, so it comes as a bit of a surprise for even him

He's a little hesitant to comfort you because he is surprised, but is also just one of the most distant when it comes to comfort in this way, While being used to your much brighter personality, eventually he'll get better at it for for the time being, you don't have to deal with much of him

There is some physical reassurance, so you're not completely neglected, but Asa does have other things to do. He gently takes you in his arms and leads you up to the bedroom where he lays you down, caressing your head and covering you up

He'll leave to get you water or a drink and some other small things like your phone or a small snack if you haven't eaten, but mostly your phone so that you can call or text him if you need him. From there he'll shut the lights iff and let you get a bit of sleep

Asa stays in the house and cancels any outside plans for the day and makes sure that his phone's ringer is on at all times. By the time you call him for something he'll be up to your room before the ringtone even ends

Harry

Harry is most definitely clueless and will feel like he's going to cry right alongside you. Harry is not good at handling his own emotions let alone yours

He adored being around your bright and shining face everyday, it was something that could regulate his own and he clung to you like a moth to a lamp. So, you can only image the confusion and terror Harry experiences when he comes home to you the complete opposite

It's a very frantic sort of comfort that he gives you, moving from one thing to another to try to figure out what's wrong and what do to. It's really almost as if Harry feels your emotions stronger than you do, but he wants to do everything in his power to fix you

He comes home extra aware in the future, always prepared to be there by your side in hopes to deal with your feelings better, but he still doesn't like it at all. He goes out of his way to do more things around the house of for you in general to lessen up any stress, even if there was none in the first place

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aot men as fluff starters!

pairing: armin, levi, jean, reiner x gn! reader

warnings: fluff! a little hurt/comfort on armin‘s and reiner‘s part but nothing too overwhelming. [anxious armin/ touch starved reiner]

note: i’ve been feeling extremely depressed so i decided to write something happy. also thanks for all the likes on my last post! made me feel happy :) personal favourite is levi‘s part pls this feels canon i’m screaming. [MISSED WRITING FOR LEVI SM]

armin. „can i hold your hand?“

armin had nerves of steel. or that’s what he‘d like to believe. reality seemed much crueler to him. always getting picked on, facing death almost every day were just a few casualties in the life of armin arlert. naturally people break down under pressure, naturally armin does as well.

however, knowing he had someone to call home, someone that treasures him without wanting something in return made him feel at ease.

you haven’t known armin since long but you clearly remember the first day you two met. it was a warm, colourful spring day when you decided to catch a breath of fresh, cold air in response of your tiring day as a server at the local tavern. it was your best hiding spot and yet, the second you arrived, you made out another person sitting on the rooftop.

you were just about to leave when you heard ugly crying noises. the blond tiny boy was panting like crazy so you approached him rather quietly. out of fear to say something weird or mean, you decided to remain quiet, just trying to comfort him. he was shaking a little, obviously upset about heaven knows what. back then, armin didn’t mind your presence and after a good amount of time passed, you placed your hand upon his own. his crystal blue eyes starred right into yours back then.

ever since armin formed a habit of holding your hand, wether if he was feeling anxious, happy or tired. he knew there was at least someone who would always reach out to him, holding his warm hands.

„armin! where are you? we are about to leave.“ you yelled into empty rooms of your shared house. years have passed and you decided to join the scouts. there was only one missing and it was your boyfriend armin.

unfortunately there were no signs of the blond but you immediately knew where he, surely, went. back on the rooftop, you found him, face placed on his knees.

once you placed a hand on his shoulder, he started trembling. „i knew i could find you here! are you oka-“

„can i hold your hand, y/n? i’m scared.“

you didn’t have to respond as you intertwined your fingers with his.

levi. „i think i’m sick. my heart won’t stop racing whenever i think about you“

[small note. i don’t see levi behaving like this in the current timeline but he surely had these moments when he was younger. fight me on this.]

levi knew how to kill a man in god knows how many ways, he knew how to clean his shoes and hustle his way through the underground. never did he think about having to experience love. not once. well, until you showed up that is.

there wasn’t a clear day when the two of you became close, you just used to stick around with isabel and farlan until you met him. levi ackerman. a rather lonesome but deadly man from the underground. the three of them quickly became your best friends, your found family. and your growing feelings for levi could no longer stay in denial.

it was obvious to everyone but levi that you had fallen for him, for the coldness in his eyes and yet warm touch, for his weird habit of cleaning and making the best tea.

certainly you wished you could stay like this forever, admiring from afar but one day, you started noticing levi acting strange. he‘d stare right into your eyes while cleaning the kitchen or stopped talking mid sentence as soon as you entered the room. for you, it felt like he suddenly started avoiding you. but why?

you really couldn’t tell.

so it happened that levi even considered eating alone instead of joining you and your old friends. not even farlan who seemed closest to the raven haired knew the reason for levi‘s sudden chance of heart. naturally you decided to confront him and stormed right into his bed. if he had a problem with you, you at least deserved to know why.

„levi! you have been acting strange.“ you started, arms crossed. however your gaze drifted to his bed where he was cuddled up in dozens of blankets. „wait, what’s wrong?“

„y/n, please go away. apparently i’m sick.“ he exclaimed rather annoyed at himself for becoming sick in the first place.

„you rarely get sick, levi. what are your complaints? doesn’t seem like a cold.“

„no. it’s just my heart. it’s starts beating too fast whenever you are around. makes me feel dizzy.“

„wait. what?“ you couldn’t believe your ears. did that mean he had a crush on you? you couldn’t help but to laugh.

„tsk. you think that’s funny brat? maybe you are the cause of this cold!“

„seems like i am“

jean. „honey, can i brush your hair?“

jean did anything for you. and he would continue to do so until he might perish. to think that someone would love him for him, recognises his actual personality, someone who’d fall for him,besides behaving like an idiot sometimes was enough for him to promise to protect you no matter what.

what he treasured the most were the moments spent with you alone where he could just be himself, without fearing of what others might think. he was able to show you his vulnerable side and he loved nothing more than that.

jean was reminded of that every time he’d wake up and see your sleepy face in his arms. the sun already was up high, colouring your shared bedroom in a heavy gold. your skin was literally glowing next to him.

however, when you opened your eyes you suddenly froze. it was already noon? you couldn’t believe you overslept so you quickly got up, ignoring your loving boyfriend for once.

„sweetheart, what are you doing? it’s sunday.“ jean‘s eyes fixed you in amusement. and he thought he was the idiot in the relationship!

„it’s what?“

„yeah. now come to bed again.“

you sighed deeply before you let out a small laugh. what were you thinking? it was great having a boyfriend!

„now that we are awake, why don’t we just prepare breakfast? or lunch?“

„only if you let me brush your hair!“

another deep sigh. jean was a handful but you had to admit that him playing with your hair was extremely relaxing so you agreed.

naturally, brushing your hair ended with jean actually braiding and styling it. he‘d do anything to have you by his side for just a little longer.

however, jean suddenly remembered something unpleasant. he might have been wrong. it really was monday. and you two were supposed to train alongside the cadets already.

„honey?“

„yeah?“

„i think it really is monday.“

reiner. „i think i forgot what a hug feels like.“

you were a sunshine. at least in reiners eyes. never had he met someone like you, someone that could lift up his whole mood with just their presence. it felt strange.

he had this longing feeling to touch you, to feel your warm skin under his fingertips or brush the hair out of your face. not in a weird way. of course not. but just in a way that would show you how deeply he feels for you.

but reiner couldn’t do that. he just couldn’t hug people. he longed for it more than anyone on this planet though. of course he didn’t have an easy childhood and never fully experienced what it was like to feel loved, to get a simple hug. he never got one of his father to begin with.

he knew he was touch starved but he also knew he couldn’t just run around, hugging everyone.

that’s why he was so irritated now that your arms were hanging around his broad shoulders, warm skin on cold skin. he could make out your soapy scent until he finally came back to his senses and pulled you into a tight hug.

„i’ve searched everywhere for you!“ you whispered, relieved he was safe and startled he was clinging onto you like a fragile boy. „hey are you okay?“

„i’m perfectly fine now. i think i forgot what a hug feels like.“

„you can have as many hugs as you like though! from me at least.“

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