#Whatever happends all we can do is make the best out of the situation and learn and work in it

[iateyourparents]

i want to write you a song | c.b.

pairing: colby brock x musician!fem!reader

summary: you were an artist. when you were heartbroken you didn’t just cry alone in bed. you’re just making something out of your emotions.

warnings: kinda angsty, break up, use of y/n, bad writing and grammar(i’m sorry, english isn’t my first language)

an: inspired by ‘I want to write you a song’ by One Direction. (btw guys i’m slowly running out of ideas so if you have something you would like to read you can request it/write to me or in comments <3)

pictures are from pinterest:)

You wanted to lie in bed all day. You really wanted to. But you weren’t this type of person, you couldn’t just lie all day while not doing anything but crying. It would just make you more frustrated.

So instead you just decided to pour your emotions on a paper and write a song.

You really wanted to make some energetic song where you would just badmouth your ex but you still loved him too much to do that, so instead you wrote a goodbye song for him. And it was really good.

“I want to write you a song, one as beautiful as you are sweet” you hummed to yourself trying to make a melody that would be perfect with your song.

“Already sounds great sweetie.” your manager, Ellie, said coming into your studio room. You deeply regreted giving her keys to your apartment. “What got you writing something like that? It doesn’t sound like love songs you made about Colby.”

“It’s a goodbye song for Colby. I actually wanted to call him an asshole and viagra taker but I just couldn’t make myself do that so I decided to do this. And I actually feel pretty good after writing this.” you shrugged and put your gituar in its place.

“Oh honey, what happend?” she sounded concerned.

“Colby broke up with me because he ‘didn’t felt as he should feel’ he just…wasn’t in love anymore.” you felt tears pricking at your eyes. Ellie gasped and hugged you tightly. “Don’t feel too bad, that song is amazing.” you laughed even though tears were already streaming from your eyes.

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“Okay guys, so I have this new song and you’ll be the first ones to ever hear it before it comes out today at midnight.” you told the crowd which started screaming with excitement. “That’s actually a form of a goodbye to someone who was, still is, important to me and even if we won’t ever talk again I want him to know I wish him the best.”

Well, maybe that wasn’t the best way to announce your break up to the world but whatever. It’s not like twitter and tik tok detectives weren’t starting to notice little things.

Music started playing right when you started playing your gituar and crowd got silent to listen better to new song.

“I want to write you a song, one as beautiful as you are sweet…” you continued singing and people started to get what you meant, and who you meant, in your little speech and well, you never heard a silence quite this loud.

“I want to write you a song. One to make your heart remember me, so anytime I’m gone you can listen to my voice and sing along. I want to write you a song.” you ended the song with tears in your eyes. Singing it out loud in front of thousands of people made you realize how real that situation was. You were no longer with Colby. And it still hurts.

You could see that some people in the crowd had shock on their faces and tears in their eyes. It was the first time ever it was so silent after you ended a song. And it felt weird but also so right.

It was like a minute of silence for you and Colby and for your relationship. For your memories.

You and Colby were popular couple. Many people said you’re the perfect example of right person in right time, so you knew these news would be heartbreaking for some of your fans.

“I know it’s probably a lot to take in just a moment but it actually felt good singing this out loud. Yeah, some chapters in life ends but that doesn’t mean there’s nothing waiting for us. New chapter is just a new chance and I’m gonna use it as best as I can.” you did a little speech and your fans finally recovered from the news you dropped at them and applaused for you. “I love you guys, I wouldn’t be here without you. I’m so fucking grateful for y‘all. See you soon!” as you were coming off the stage you could hear squeaks, shouting and clapping and it made you smile. You made it. And you will make it through this negative feelings. And you will be fine again.

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You were in a bar. It was your friend’s birthday party and as much as you liked her, this party sucked. Everybody was so sober and awkward that it made you want to leave.

“Oh hi.” you heard next to you. When you turned you saw Colby.

“Hi” you smiled to him. He looked really good. His black button up was revealing part of his chest and his beautiful blue eyes were shining in dim light “How are you?”

You tried to be civil with him. You were almost used to thought that you are no longer together. It still hurt, especially with world still talking about it since you announced it just few days ago even though you were broken up for few months.

“Good, thanks. And you?”

“Fine.” you smiled awkwardly. You stood in kind of awkward silence and just from looking at him you knew he wanted to tell you something but wasn’t sure how. “Just say it.”

“I like the song you wrote.” he finally choked out and you felt your heart squeezing. You didn’t expect him to start this topic but you just gulped and faked a giggle.

“Thank you.” when you wanted to say something else he stopped you with his words.

“I know I hurt you. I regret it like nothing else in my life but you deserve better. I just didn’t feel like I loved you enough. Not as much as you deserve to be loved. So I didn’t want to hurt you even more with pretending. But maybe…” he quickly shuted up and then changed his words, or rather tried to avoid saying what he started saying. “So I thought that would be better. But I still love you and think that in some way, I always will. But I think it’s better if you find your perfect match instead of being stuck with me. And it might seem cruel for me to say this now but I just wanted you to know that it would be impossible for me to forget someone like you. You changed my life, y/n.”

You wanted to say something but before you realized it he was out of your eyesight so you just sighed and took a sip of vodka.

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It’s been a month and you couldn’t stop thinking about Colby’s words.

Did he meant what you thought he meant?

He still loved you but didn’t think it was enough? Didn’t think he was enough for you?

You had so many questions and it made you sleepless trying to think what you should do or what are answers to these questions.

So now here you were, at Colby’s door in the middle of the night, still in your pajamas, hoping he was home.

You inhaled an air into your lungs and started knocking. Maybe more aggressive than you should but you just were desperate for answers and you couldn’t give up.

Finally moments later, the doors opened revealing sleepy Colby who looked at you confused and then he suddenly were more awake looking at you with concern.

“Everything okay? What happened? Are you hurt or in danger?” he looked over you as if to look for any visible wounds.

“Yes, I mean no.” you sighed and started explaining. “Since Doris’ birthday I can’t stop thinking about your words and it’s fucking crazy. Like, what did you mean?”

Colby could see desperation and tiredness in your eyes and it make him feel bad because he was the reason of your distress.

“I…”

You interrupted him.

“I thought about it so much that i got to a conclusion that you still love me but don’t want to be with me because you’re too… scared of something, like hurting me or whatever. And it hurts so much anyway because I don’t think I can function without you anymore what is so funny to me because I literally wrote a song to get over you. But it didn’t work because I still fucking love you and want you back and I hope i’m right and you also still love me because I think it will break me for good if I’m wrong and you don’t love me anymore. And I might sound so pathetic right now but I don’t care becau…”

This time he was the one who interrupted you. But with the way he did that, you couldn’t be mad.

He kissed you to make you shut up.

You gladly reciprocated the kiss and after a moment he took his lips away just to place his forehead on yours.

“You’re right. I’m still in love with you. But I just felt like my love wasn’t enough, that you deserve so much better. Someone who will always be able to show you his love and share your passions with you and…” now you were the one shutting him up with your lips.

“Don’t say anything. You’re so stupid, Colbs. You’re the only one I want, even if you have your own hobbies. And you showed me your love in a way I loved. I want you, only you.”

Colby smiled at you and took your hands to lead you inside his home.

“I’m so glad you were brave enough to come here because I missed you so much but was afraid to confront you after Doris’ party.” you laughed softly at that and squeezed his hand.

Maybe now you will be back to writing love songs about this man.

#colby brock x reader #colby brock #colby #katrina stuart #music #one direction #sam and colby #snc #sam golbach

[hearmeoutno]

Chapter 2: Vecna's Curse

Cw: use of the f-slur (I'll censor it ofc), smoking

(13:18)

"Chrissy Cunningham? You're sure it was Chrissy?"

Max just rang Dustin's doorbell with the news that Chrissy was murderd. He saw the news, hell everyone is Hawkins has. But to think that Chrissy could be the victim? That's something no one will believe.

"Yes, in her cheerleader outfit. Same thing she was in when I saw her with Eddie. I saw that Mackenzie girl go in a few minutes after but why she was there I have no idea."

Max saw Mackenzie there alot, she doesn't really know why but who even cares. Probably just for some drugs and alcohol. But Chrissy doesn't fit into that scene at all! What business does she have in Eddie's trailer that left her like that the next morning.

"Did you tell all this to the cops?"

Dustin's main concern right now is making sure his friends are save, although Mack isn't in Hellfire they still talked and were pretty good friends. She introduced him to the wonderfull world of rock music, along with Eddie of course.

"No. No, but I- I can't be the only one who saw them together. I mean they all stand out."

Pacing around his room trying to make sense of this whole situation, Dustin tries to set the scene in front of him.

"Eddie the freak along with Mack the weirdo and Chrissy the cheerleader?"

"Exactly. You know, their names aren't in the news yet or anything, but I guarantee you they are suspect number 1. I saw one of the cops pick up a tape right outside the trailer right where Mackenzie was standing."

Sometimes never being able to sleep has it's perks for Max. The headaches may not be such a fun part of it, but imagine what would happen if Max wasn't up and alert?

"That's crazy. Eddie and Mack didn't do this. No way. No way."

"Well we can't rule them out."

"Yes we can!"

"Dustin!"

Dustin doesn't know what drew Eddie and Mack to him and Mike, but whatever it is they made him feel safe. They can be mean as much as they want to, if he needs it Eddie and Mackenzie are right there next to him.

"You don't know them like I do, Max."

After a short but pretty loud argument, Max sighs, sitting down next to Dustin on his bed.

"Why haven't you told the cops this?"

After they just had an argument on if they're dealing with violent murderers or not, you'd assume she would run to tell everything she knows to the cops right?

"I... I don't know."

"You don't know?"

This is all sound sounding like bullshit to Dustin at this point.

"After I saw Eddie and Chrissy go in the trailer... something else happend. All the lights began to flicker and the electricity got all weird. I heard Eddie and Mackenzie scream and they just ran out toghether. They were absolutely terrified Dustin, they were running for their life like something was after them or whatever."

Taking a small break to collect her thoughts and figure out how to say this, she sighs and continues talking.

"This morning, I started to think back and...I don't know. The look on their faces. They were scared, Dustin. Really scared. Maybe they were scared because you know, they... they just killed someone, or... Maybe, um... Maybe because, I don- I don't know. Maybe..."

Still distraught by her witness, she takes another second to just breath and relax herself Dustin finishes her sentence before she can

"Something else killed her."

Looking at Dustin, nodding with a nervous look on her face, Dustin looks away scared of what this being this... this thing that killed Chrissy could be.

"But that's impossible... right?"

Looking over to Dustin again, who has a slight gloss over his eyes doesn't give her the best feeling, and neither does his answer.

"I don't know. It should be, there's only 2 people who know what actually happened..."

"Eddie and Mackenzie."

...

(This takes place after 27:09, theres some original dialogue before the actual dialogue you'll see if you're watching the show along)

"How about Mackenzie Ryans? Have you seen her talk with Chrissy?"

"What? That freak of a f*g? No, I mean they have math together but Chrissy is smarter than that. But what do they have to do with all this? Did those freaks hurt her?"

Jason thought he was just going to have to deal with a noise complaint, never thinking he'd have to talk about Chrissy and those 2 freaks. They just celebrated their victory and Chrissy didn't show up! She could've just stayed home because she was tired, right? Right...?

"They hurt Chrissy? Did they hurt Chrissy?!"

As he storms out of the building some teammates follow him

"Jason. Hey, man, you all right?"

"Jason, what happened?"

"Where you going? Is everything good? What did they say?"

Blinded by the pure rage he felt, realising that Chrissy is probably dead in Eddie's trailer for some reason, he just keeps walking and ignoring his friends.

"Are they gonna call our parents?"

"Jason!"

He walks faster until he's too far in the woods to hear his friends. He drops to his knees crying, mourning the lost of his love, sobbing and screaming.

...

(43:50)

"And I think Eddie, he's the wrong type of person, right? You know, he got lost. He thought Chrissy was just a part of his... his sick game. He used that Mackenzie to spy on Chrissy. And chances are, he's still in the game. Meaning-"

"He's gonna kill again."

...

(This is some more original dialogue)

Unlike some people may think, hiding in a cabin scared for your life isn't that fun! There's only so many things you can do without a radio. Sure, having an air guitar contest is fun, but you try and be the judge of who can play an invisible guitar best.

"Okay Eds, let's get real for a second... what are we going to do? We're like, the first people they would hunt down as killer. It happens in your trailerand my tape with my name written all over it is laying right fucking there!"

Mack is pacing the most she can in a cramped boat house, trying her best not to scream and run around like a maniac.

"I would love to reassure you right now Mack but I am in probably the worst state to do that right now. We are definitely wanted for murder and we just... ran. We ran instead of helping her."

Grabbing a pack of cigarettes out of her pocket and lighting one, she rolls her eyes and sighs

"Ed, what could we have done? All her bones snapped while she was against the fucking ceiling! What, did you want me to smack her jaw back in place and call it a day? She's dead Eddie, we were helpless there. By the way you want one?"

Nodding his head he takes the cigarette she offered and let her light it for him. He just wanted to give her what she asked for, god he is never touching drugs ever again... or at least not in the near future.

"We need to make a plan to get out if he-"

(1:02:00)

Eddie gets cut of by the sound of the doorbell ringing, feverish knocking and unintelligible screamin. They throw the cigarettes in the water and hide back under the tarp, Eddie taking a broken glass bottle with him for protection. He whispers to Mack

"When I say run, you run. When I say it's safe, you can get out."

She nods and gets a little closer to Eddie, in hopes of relaxing a tiny bit.

As the footsteps get closer, they put a hand over their mouth as to not give them away and don't move a single muscle. The door creaks open

"Hello? Is anyone home?"

It's a female voice, Mack recognizes it but not knowing from where. The floorboards creak around them, Eddie would guess there are about 4, maybe 5 people standing around them?

"What a dump."

That's when it hits him. Steve. Fucking. Harrington. Knowing Steve's reputation he knows not to trust a single word coming from anyone who's with him right now. Yes, Eddie often caught himself staring at him when Steve was still in high school, but kept denying the King himself would ever notice him, let alone befriend him.

As they hear someone pushing something on the tarp that's covering them, they freeze and barely breathe anymore. The sound of the tarp deafens them from whatever dialogue is happening above them. Not that it would be any of their interest, they're way to troubled with getting caught to care about these intruders.

Eddie saw Steve's exact position, and when he stopped poking them with whatever he had in his hand, he takes his chance and lunges at Steve with the broken glass. The group screams as he pushes Steve to the wall, bottle threatening his neck.

"Whoa, whoa, whoa, Eddie! Eddie! Stop! Eddie! Eddie!"

Looking to where his name was shouted from, Eddie recognizes Dustin

"It's me. It's Dustin. This is Steve. He's not gonna hurt you, right, Steve?"

The boy has currently holding is shivering, scared and trying to get his body as far from the makeshift weapon.

"Right. Yeah."

Is all he can say, barely above a whisper. Dustin still noticing how uptight Eddie is, tries to reassure him.

"Steve, why don't you drop the oar?"

Steve drops the oar with a quiver, groaning in panic when Eddie pushes the glass closer to his throat.

Dustin, worrying about his best friend tries his best to reason with Eddie

"He's cool. He's cool."

"I'm cool, man. I'm cool."

Yes, Steve may have been beaten up by angry Russians. But he's pushed against a wall while a broken bottle is held ti his neck. He gets very mixed feelings about this, but mostly fear, alot of fear.

"What are you doing here?"

Still not trusting The Hair Harrintton, he's not backing down from his current position.

"We're looking for you."

"We're here to help"

"Eddie, these are my friends. You know robin, from band"

That's when the realisation hit Mack, still hid away under the tarp, trying her best not to chuckle at Robin pretending to play the trumpet.

"This is my friend Max. The one which never wants to play D&D. Eddie. We're on your side. I swear on my mother. Right, guys?"

As they're all muttering swears on Dustin's mother, Eddie backs away from Steve and tells Mack it's okay for her to get out.

"Hey everyone... how's life going for you? We're just wanted for murder, nothing special"

An obvious quiver in her voice causes her to light another cigarette, passing it to Eddie so he can take a drag too.

Eddie slowly drags against a wall to a crouching position, Dustin following infront of him soon after.

"Eddie. We just want to talk."

He reaches out to touch Eddie's hand, Eddie flinching away before Dustin retreats his hand.

"Okay?"

"We want to know what happened."

Seeing Eddie so distraught finally brings Mack to the reality she lives in now. Before Eddie can answer, she jumps in."

"Fucking hell happened. No one will ever believe us so it's best you just call the cops on us already."

Wiping away a tear that fell down her cheek. Max gives her a reassuring look.

"Try us."

...

(1:17:30)

"Her body just, like, lifted up into the air and, uh... And she just, like, hung there... in the air"

"Then... then I came in, i mean the lights were flickering and he was screaming and- my fucking God sorry, uh she shot up to the ceiling, like laying flat against it. Her bones... snapped, just out of nowhere everything broke and then the eyes... the fucking eyes..."

Sitting there, next to Eddie, trying he best not to cry her heart out. Leaning against him for the slightest comfort and shivering from the cold and angst. It was definitely not what she was expecting her week to go to.

"It... it was like there was something, like, inside her head, pulling. We... we didn't know what to do, so we... we ran away. We left her there."

Tears running down her cheek from the memory, she swallows and scoffs.

"You all think we're crazy, right?"

"No. We don't think you're crazy.

"Don't fucking lie man! I know how this sounds, it sounds like we had the worst trip ever and actually just killed an innocent girl!"

Mack gets up, her hands flying to her hair and starts pacing around again.

"We'll go down in the history of Hawkins as the freaks who killed the innocent."

"We're not lying Mackenzie"

"We believe you."

Shooting them a glare, she looks deep into Max's eyes

"Call me Mackenzie one more fucking time and you're dead"

"Mack calm down"

Look, she can't help it. As Eddie gets up to calm her down she gives Max an apologetic look and decided to just shut up for a few seconds before she starts turning her stress into to anger again.

"Look, what I'm about to tell you might be a little... difficult to take."

Eddie nods and mutters a word of agreement before letting Dustin talk again.

"You know how people say Hawkins is... cursed? They're not way off, there's another world. A world hidden beneath Hawkins. Sometimes it bleeds into ours."

"What in the Ghostbusters are you talking about? Ghosts? You're talking about ghosts?"

Can you tell humor is a coping mechanism for Mack?

"There are some things worse than ghosts."

"Jason Voorhees? Bubba Sawyer? What are we talking about here?"

Clearly, her try at making someone laugh doesn't work here so she let's Dustin continue his story.

"These monsters from this other world, we thought they were gone. But they've come back before. That's why we needed to find you guys."

"If they're back again, we need to know."

Max seems really concerned about this, but Mack can't think about that long enough before Robin joins in.

"That night, did you see anything?"

"Dark particles, maybe?"

Mack and Eddie both shake their head, not knowing where they're going with this. So Dustin explains more.

"It would almost look like dust, swirling dust."

"No, man, there was nothing you could see or, uh... or touch.

You know, I tried to wake her man. She Couldn't move. It was like she... she was in a trance or something"

"Or under a spell."

Dustin's expression starts to worry Mack, who's not saying much right now about it. She doesn't feel exactly usefully, only being there when she was off the floor.

"A curse."

"Vecna's curse"

This was the last string for Mack, standing up again.

"So now we're playing D&D? Great! Why don't we go see a movie too!"

"Who's vecna?"

"He's from D&D Stevie, described as an undead creature of great power"

"A spell caster"

Eddie fills in, and ontop of that Dustin puts

"A dark wizard"

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A/N to the people reading this, thank you so much. Every single read motivates me to get started and write more. Last chapter was short, I know, but now I'm at 2,5k and who knows how much that number can go up. So please let me know what you think, I really appreciate it! :)

Missed chapter 1? Here it is! :)

Wanna read more? Here's the other chapters I finished!

#oc #st oc #strangerthings 4 #stranger things #rewrite #steve harrington × eddie munson #they are so gay omfg #gay #robin buckley #eddie munson #dustin henderson

[ayuki-ikuya]

I come bringing ideas and headcanons.

OK, so we all already know what The Three oldest archons abilities. So I’ve come up with my own ideas we could use for the younger archons! (And yes I’m grouping Ei, Venti and Zhongli as the older siblings since Ei Is 1000 years old Venti is 2,500 and Zhongli is 5,000-6,000 and the other archons are still in the hundreds I think)

Again these aren’t canon just stuff you can use for future Requests for Twisted wonderland x Teyvat God! Reader

For Dendro archon!Reader

Definitely a Bow User. And Is a Healer. But the their Ult can cause damage

I have a theory That during the Archon War The dendro Archin created the Regisvines to fight for them, and only two were left. I also Headcanon The dendro archon can bring plants to life and overwrite what each plant can do. (Maybe even bring mushrooms to life 👀).

Maybe They can create a giant plant from the ground that spreads Healing energies and since this is a god where talking about can Cure Curses (Ahem Vils Curses Ahem) and major Diseases and what not.

For Their Ult maybe a giant plant monster (kinda like how Gouba and Oz exists ) that will attack for them (could make for fun combos with different elements like if the dendro archon was wet Hydro Plant monster)

For Hydro archon!reader

Polearm or sword (theirs way too many Hydro Catalyst) Healer and Dps, Why? Cause I say so.

You’ve mentioned how Hydro archon summons a giant wave? I’ll do you one better and their E skill summons a giant sea creature of your choosing to soak the fighters (A cool visual is their polearm turning into a big dream catcher then going swoosh and Baam Maybe like A giant Water Koi fish finna drown your ass *ahem ace ahem*)

Now mihoyo likes to reference Their character form honkai impact into genshin impact (and since they took a characters look from Honkai and another characters abilities with the whole Dual ego thing for Raiden shogun and Ei) I’m gonna base this Ultimate Skill From a character from Honkai (for research search up Herrsercher of Sentience)

Since the Hydro archons whole thing is about Justice. Now here me out here. WATER WHIP. Just a giant whip of water that can go on for miles (maybe it’s salty maybe it’s like fresh water depends on our readers mood lolol). Like, It’s whip of water strong enough to cut diamond or whatever it would be very cool (Kalim would wanna see if he could do something like that with his UM Que jamil trying to stop him)

Maybe their hair turns into water too.

Pyro archon! Reader

Claymore. A Big strong war god needs a big strong weapon. Dps and Defense.

Now It’s not just one claymore, It’s DUAL-CLAYMORE, why? Cause it’s a war god that’s why!

I like to think the shield is like Xinyans and XiangLings combined and it’s constantly sending off tiny Fire Discs. Or just symbols shooting fire like what the Pyro Abyss mages can do

For Ultimate I like to think it’s like Childes Daggers but Bigger and on fire just a huge sword made of fire.

The pyro archon doesn’t think just BURNS. and STABE

Cryo archon! Reader

I can’t really come up with much for Cryo archon. But maybe a Catalyst that can summon a giant blizzard that drops down giant ice swords (kinda like Ganyus)

Definitely a sub DPS.

Maybe a healer too since The Tsaritsa is The archon of love?

What do you think about these abilities? Since you mentioned that the students and staff would assume their just strong mages I tried to be very creative with these abilities.

Also how I think the lore could go is maybe somewhere after leonas overblot and before azuls, Crowly has found a way to send Yuu home reluctantly. Yuu, grim and the aduece duo, and maybe some of heartslaybul or savana claw whoever you want come with them to the office to send them home. But Yuu is contemplating whether or not they WANT to go home now. But something goes wrong, maybe grim messes up the spell for the portal to work becuase (although he doesn’t want to admit it ) doesn’t want Yuu leaving, and their greeted with a surprise guest. Now this gives Yuu time to decide if they genuinely wanna go home and when teh archon finally has the materials they need to create a portal Yuu will tell them to leave the portal open (maybe put it into a tiny pocket mirror like the how we have the teapot) because they wanna stay for a little while or just until grim graduates (Que a happy fire cat ) and the archon whose grown attached to some people here was like ok “let our friends visit whenever they want, only if their headmaster allows it”

Now onto the headcanons

Anemo Archon! Reader and Mondstadt! Yuu

Everyone expected a lot of things not a person with Green eyes and (H/C) hair with green highlights. And an odd thing about them was the glowing stone on their person, Yuu didn’t have that?

Everyone’s freaking out because they’ve accidentaly taken another person from Yuus world.

And since Venti Is a well known famous bard In teyvat let’s say or Dear (y/N) is also a known bard and is not at all freaking out about what’s going on in fact let’s say our dear reader recognizes Yuu! And so now (Y/N) is now a new student (and a new headache for Crowley) in the ramshackle dorm! Yup! Just an ordinary human bard, Ehe~.

I’ll leave the rest of this up to you, Where Yuu has to explain what the world of teyvat is like (and why Yuu doesn’t have a phone (and a vision) because Twisted wonderland is far more advance in Technology and teyvat has JUST invented the Camera)

Also I head canon that people with Visions can summon their weapons and object with their visions, ok? Ok. To make things make more sense when reader pulls out a lyre from floating glitter.

Geo archon!reader and Liyue! Yuu

Same things happend here, but hey! We’ve summoned a Funeral Consultant! A very (ahemATTRACTIVEahem) Wise funeral consultant at best!

Our dear Friend (y/n) is very calm about the situation as well. After all everyone and liyue knows their god was killed and The Adepti are watching over them

So Our dear reader is seeing this as a free vacation 😊

Electro Archon!Reader and Inazuma!yuu

Since the god of Inazuma isn’t “Dead” or hasn’t left and the people know what their beloved archon looks like, Yuu will definitely Be Freaking the fuck out

“YOU DIDNT BRING ME HOME YOU JUST SUMMONED MY PEOPLES FUCKING GOD OH SHIT”

insert the meme of the womens face that gets zoomed in on the second panel “the. WHAT.” 😃

And y’know how Eis “Hello” voice line where she makes the traveler her guard she says the same thing to Yuu except “I recognize you are one of my people as your archon I shall be your guard and keep you safe from any danger in this Foreign world” and let’s say The puppet will not be used and Reader will be in control becuase they don’t have to worry about erosion right now so the puppet will be resting while (Y/N) is in control protecting their Precious Inazuma citizen is ok.

Well until They can get the materials they need to open a portal. I’ll let you figure out the rest, but congrats ramshackle you now have a god in your abode 😃✨

-Plot Anon 💗

PLOT ANON-SAMAAAAAAAAAA ILY!!!!!!!!! Thank you for your hard work sob

Anyways, for skills of the archons-

Dendro Archon

I think they'd use a sword or a catalyst tbh, if the skills you listed, it makes a little more sense to have them be more of a catalyst

For their elemental skill, I think they'd summon/throw something similar to Klee's and Aloy's elemental skill except they heal if someone in your party is nearby, their healing could scale by their EM or ER.

For their burst, I like your head canon for the Dendro Archon, so I might go off from that and your idea for their burst, just more tweaking. The dendro archon would be able to summon a large plant that heals AND deals Dendro damage by sapping mobs hp. The amount of life sapping it does and the healing would scale off their original HP (artifacts that give hp won't be of use)

Hydro Archon

I agree with hydro polearm or sword. Too many catalysts

Mmm... To be honest, I think you should have the burst be her skill... The whip idea is intriguing, but I think it would work more for a skill which can allow them to use it several times before waiting for the CD to go down. I think the whip skill would work better with Crit as well.

AND AS FOR THE MENTIONS OF WAVE AND A SEA CREATURE, I'LL DO YOU ONE BETTER BUT FOR THEIR BURST!!!! They summon a large tsunami which takes form of a monster/animal and lunges at the mobs (similar to Zhongli tossing down a dumbbell), however the amount of damage the burst can do is depending on if they are afflicted by the wet status the mobs are afflicted by. If already afflicted with hydro, the mobs would receive double damage while those with other elements afflicted on them would receive the element combination DMG and normal DMG while those that aren't affected by an element, they would receive normal damage. The amount of damage the burst does is scaled by EM.

Pyro Archon

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA CLAYMORE

Hmmm.... I think the skill would be they set an AoE with magma, mobs will receive damage from it and will continue to receive damage if they stay on it, but those who are in party, they will receive an ATK boost that scales from HP.

For the burst, I think I'll use a character from Honkai Impact with their special move which is Murata Himeko in Vermilion Knight: Eclipse battlesuit. Pyro Archon uses their claymore and another claymore but made of pyro and is far more larger and their cut scene has the Archon raise the pyro claymore above their head and slam it down to send pyro erupting from the ground (similar to the pyro axe wielding hilichurls)

Cryo Archon

I agree with catalyst

Mmmmmm.... I'd say her skill would beeeeee... Trapping several mobs or so in ice. They can either do 2-4 ice traps depending if you got their c1. (The ice traps are similar to Mirror Maidens traps BTW but it deals or affects the mobs with cryo)

For burst, I like the idea of summoning a blizzard/swords, but it's similar to Ganyu's. SO I'LL DO YOU ONE BETTER!!!! Cryo Archon will summon a blizzard which freezes mobs without having to use hydro, the freeze status lasts for a total of 15 seconds or higher if you got their c3

Hmmm... I like the idea, but imma tweak it a bit. The archon was in fact summoned through that portal because Grim decided to mess it up just for Yuu to stay a little longer, and so the Archon now resides in Twisted Wonderland as well in order to aide them until they can return back to their world. That way it makes more sense and makes it more fun.

Anemo archon

Yuu would be a bit jealous about them because they got a vision.

Crowley needs to hide his money

Sam has been strictly told to not give them wine that Sam stores in his shop...

Vargus is conflicted about them because they legit float without magic

Trein recurved a major headache

Divus is praying to whatever god existing to take them back

Ehe

EHE TE NANDAYO!?

Geo Archon

Yuu feels awkward meeting the consultant of the funeral parlor having to meet the Director...

Crowley is praying for dear god for them to go away.

"STOP TAKING MY MONEY YOU GORGEOUS FIEND" - Crowley

Train + Crewel + You = Besties

Sam was literally threatened to not joke around with you with business.

You legit did not fuck around with people when in contracts.

"Osmanthus wi-"

"SHUT THE HELL UP" - everyone

Electro Archon

Yuu is literally terrified in "your" presence.

Shogun malfunctioned due to being in an entirely new world so you had to disable Shogun's rules and create new ones regarding this world.

Yuu is still unaware of Shogun being a puppet

Crowley is no longer safe.

The staff (specifically Crewel) is supporting Shogun/You to beat Crowley's ass into shape.

Only the Diasomnia dorm knows your predicament with you and your puppet(s).

You are the definition of Queen/King/Royalty of the school. If you search up NRC, your picture literally plastered on it as the definition.

#twisted wonderland #genshin impact #twisted wonderland x genshin impact #archons #NRC

[honeyabyss]

When Mc gets sick

Lucifer:

will scold the hell out of you

"didn't I tell you to take care of yourself?"

you can have only a slight cold and he will insist on you staying in bed for the rest of the week

humans are weak and die easily, and you're apparently stupid on top of that for getting sick even after his warning

will constantly sigh, scold and act like it's a huge nuisance taking care of you

says he doesn't care

actually cares a lot

keeps his brothers away from you, so you have peace and silence to recover

if your condition worsens he will grow panicked, he doesn't want to lose you!

will take you to a human world doctor so you can get the right treatment

after your recovery, he will be so paranoid and overprotective for the first few weeks, will wrap you up in blankets, constantly makes sure you drink and eat enough, will put his coat over your shoulders if he even just gets the idea you might find it cold

Mammon:

"that's your own fault!"

someone like the great Mammon would never get sick

leaves the room only to come back half an hour later panting and packed with bags full of medicine and other stuff you might need

he didn't know what you need so he got one of all

there isn't the right thing among it? oh well no worries he'll get you whatever you say

after all he cares a lot for his human, even though he denies it

he will keep you company and try to distract you from your pain through telling you about his new money making schemes, or try to get you to laugh through telling you about stories where he failed and received Lucifers punishment

he doesn't like that you  have to go through this so he tries to help you however he can

if you'll ask for some quiet time, he will struggle, it's not like he doesn't want you to have some rest to recover, it's just he is so worried and confused, he feels more at ease when you talk to him or laugh about his stories, if you answer that is prove you're still alive and breathing

once you've recovered everything goes back to normal, Mammon will be confident in his ability to take care of you...for now that is, it's probably diffrent once you're actually sick again

Leviathan:

stupid normie! An otaku like him doesn't get sick, because he never leaves his room and avoids interactions with others

he, of course, secretly cares though

"Mc? I brought you these anime that we can watch together to pass the time"

"oh and in case you want to rather read something in silence, I brought you some manga recommendations, but please don't sneeze all over them..."

does the online RAD lessons with you as he stays at home almost everyday anyway, so he can show you how they work and help you

he will awkwardly sit next to you on the bed, trying to keep a small distance between the two of you A) because he is shy and nervous and B) because he can't get sick, he would miss all his in-game raids

will ask if you want to play games as well, but soon realizes that you two won't be making much progress with your current reaction time, so he chooses an easy and fun game for you

he wouldn't admit it but he might have set the game to the easiest settings and he himself plays slower for you

he is actually kind of disappointed when you recover so quick, he will miss you now that you visit RAD again instead of doing the online lessons with him, but he is glad you're feeling better again...maybe you could stay home more often with him though?

Satan:

he will buy and read every single human medicine book so he can find the best solution to your illness

will obviously read them in your room, because he can't leave you alone in this state

makes sure to keep you warm and makes you herbal tea depending on your symptoms

will skip school in favour for your well-being, especially keeps this behaviour up when Lucifer gets mad about it

will yell at everyone who dares to try and enter your room while your still sick, how dare they disturb your rest

will get embarassed about yelling and actually being the disturbance to you himself, will apologize and leave your room to keep reading somewhere else, still checks up on you occasionally and brings you light novels to read so you don't get bored

will come in stumbling into your room with the perfect medicine to cure you, only to find that you're already feeling better

gets embarassed yet again, but says it was worth reading all these books as he can now react faster the next time you get sick

will keep a check on your health and make sure you're always taking care of yourself

Asmodeus:

keep your snotty face away from him, but also come cuddle

he is very conflicted, because getting sick is not good for his skin, but he also wants to make you feel better with his hugs

will wear a mask so he doesn't get infected that easily

Asmo doesn't know much about medicine but he knows that certain herbs are good for your health, so he'll make you a nice herbal bath to boost your healing

also will take over your skin care routine and adjust it while your sick so your skin doesn't get worse, says he will only buy a refreshing face mask, comes back with more stuff though... I mean what did you expect from him?

will stay in bed with you and constantly cuddle so you don't feel lonely

he will most definetly whine if you ask him for some space or alone time, but does comply...fo at most half an hour, look this is hard on him too! His darling is sick and he can't do anything but be a moral support for you

if you thought he stops to cling to you once you've recovered, then you're mistaken, he will give you so many kisses and hugs having missed being able to do that

Beelzebub:

"Will food make you feel better?"

"You don't feel like eating?"

the poor boy is so confused, you're going to die if you don't eat! He will ask Satan what humans need when they're sick

will make yoou the perfect meal based on your symptoms, he'll even hold back on eating from it

he has a huge smile on his face while he watches you eat what he prepared, he is so proud that you like what he made you

eat as much as you can, Beel will eat everything you can't, all this boy wants for you to eat at least a bit so you have enough strength to recover

you get cold? cuddle time!

there is no way Beel will leave your side for as long as you're sick, he'll hold you close and share all his warmth and food with you

is so happy when you're better again. Will celebrate it with inviting you to a restaurant

Belphegor:

being sick is like being sleepy right?

he will just go back to sleep next to you as if nothing happend

wakes up because of your coughs and pretends to be annoyed, but is actually worried

will leave the comfort of the bed to get you some medicine, before wrapping you up into a blanket burrito and cuddling into you

don't expect to be getting up any time soon, he wants to sleep...you better not have to go to the bathroom

sleeping is best medicine but Belphie takes this a bit to literally, you two will almost only sleep

once you're better he will still want to sleep using you as a pillow, good luck getting out of that situation

Diavolo:

"Are you dying Mc?"

"Barbatos turn back the time before Mc got sick! -Wait you're going to be okay?"

Don't scare him like that! He is always ready to save you from death!

He will let you live at the castle for the time being and appoints the best doctor to take care of you, because he still isn't completly convinced you're going to make it

Does his work in your room, so he can keep a check on you

will not do much work much to Barbatos dismay, Dia is just so worried about you and will constantly ask if you need anything

his breaks consist of hugging you gently and drinking some tea with you

he will literally cry and almost crush you in his hug, when you're finally healthy again. This man was so anxious about losing you, even thugh he could've commanded Barb to just turn back time

Barbatos:

*smiles*

he knew you were going to get sick, so he's prepared

knocks on your door in the house of lamentation, before you're even able to tell anyone that you're sick

made himself a very strict schedule for everything so he can help you and still attend to his duties as a butler

gives the brothers various tasks so they can indivdually take care of you in the time he isn't able to be there for you

he will get back to you in the evening after having finished all his work for the day

will make you a light dinner and sit next to your bed

stays with you until you fall asleep stroking you hair and holding one of your hands, when you wake up the next morning Barb await you with a small breakfast, if he stayed over night or left and came back in the morning will stay a secret of his

is relieved and at the same time sad when you've recovered, will miss coming over and seeing you, maybe you can return the favor and visit him at the castle sometimes...

Solomon:

is a human so he knows what to do...

but magic is quicker!

he tries to heal you with a spell, but he just end up making it worse

"Oh no Mc I'm so sorry! Let me make it up by taking care of you!"

undefined matter soup a la Solomon, "eat this", he said, "You'll feel better", he said ...you don't feel better...

the brothers will get so angry and throw him out of the house, he is only allowed to come back once you've recovered, actually scratch that he's not setting foot anywhere near you again if it were for the demons

but Solomon finds his way into your room through your window...will stay over the night, cuddling you and constantly apologizing

will laugh about the whole ordeal once you've recovered

Simeon:

he is so calm, like yeah? Humans get sick, but they recover soon if taking care of correctly

Simeon is just the best!

he knows the right food to make for you, will give you the best medicine and make sure you're taking it at the right time

will make sure you're always comfortable

bored?  "let me get you a book!"

tired?  "let me fluff your pillow so you can sleep better!"

he will sit next to you the whole time looking so calm and confident

he will pray for you to get better quick so you don't have to suffer too long

promises you to take care of you again if you get sick in the future, this man just wants to be there for you

Luke:

"Are you dying Mc?" Version 2.0

no seriously are you? Will you become an  angel? We can live together in the celestial realm and bake desserts for Micheal!

Mc why are you so angry? No you misunderstood I don't actually want you to die!

Is so sorry he couldn't protect you from getting sick, he will feel so helpless

Simeon and you will cheer him up and tell him there wasn't anything he could have done to prevent it

Luke will bake you light desserts so you can eat some sweets while recovering

will visit you daily with Simeon after school and tell you about the day

crushes you in a big hug once you're healthy again

#obey me swd #obey me shall we date #obey me headcanons #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me leviathan #obey me satan #obey me asmodeus #Obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor #obey me diavolo #obey me barbatos #obey me simeon #obey me luke #obey me solomon #headcanon

[babiesdreams]

Nct reaction to their s.o giving them a silent treatment Part 3

REQUESTED BY ANON

Part 1 Part 2

--requests open--

I would mark my favs, but honestly, all of these make me so soft.

Renjun: The glass breaking is the only sound left on the room. You start crying, at the pain of the cut the glass left behind. Renjun runs towards you, not believing his eyes. “What have you done?” He says holding your hand in his, studying the cut’s depth and how much blood there was. “Are you gonna still quiet?” He says angrily while he cleans your cut with some water. “I thought you didn’t realize” You finally say sobbing. “How wouldn’t I realize? I thought you didn’t want to talk” He explains now wrapping a bandage around your hand. “It’s just... Lately we barely talk, and I thought you just didn’t care anymore” You let out, scared that he might judge you. “I’ve missed you too, but we’re both so busy lately. We should definetely have some days off and go out together” He says smiling at you and you simply nod. “Now, how did the glass fall for you to be like this?” He points out and you laugh at the situation “I don’t know”

Jeno: The boy’s hand travels a long way and stops in your thigh, where his fingers start moving in a familiar pattern. You close your eyes and concentrate on the feeling of his touch on your sensitive skin. “I’m here” You’re able to process. You look at him in his eyes and smile lightly, you always knew this unique way of comunication that the boy has is one of the reasons you love him. The atmosphere makes it hard for you to speak at that moment, so you just copy his communication mechanism. “I love you” You type with your fingers on his hand. Jeno hugs you tightly and writes a “Me too” on your back. After a couple of minutes, you’re finally able to tell him why you were feeling down and what was going on in your mind, and he’s there to listen every single word and try his best to help you.

Haechan: “What is it?” Donghyuck says cupping your face in his hands. You look right into his eyes and start melting at the coffee coulored eyes. “I don’t make you as happy as you deserve to be” You say looking down, avoiding eye contact. “What?” He says confused “Why do you say that? He asks, searching for eye contact again. “Because I’m always sad, and you’re constantly taking care of me, and I feel like that’s affecting you as well” You confess, getting his hands out of your face, not wanting contact at that moment. “But you make me happy, and if you need that support to not be sad, I’m more than glad to give it to you” He says holding your hands tightly, letting you feel the heat in his’. Then he leans down and places a smooch on your lips, leaving you completely speechless.

Jaemin: He keeps doing cute things for you to at least react, but you don’t. It’s hurtful for you to think about this sort of thing. You don’t wanna keep ignoring your boyfrien, but what are you supposed to do? You are just scared of what might happend. You don’t wanna do just whatever that psycho tells you, but you don’t want Jaemin to get hurt either. So when your boyfriend starts tearing up, you lose all the strength remaining in your body. “I don’t want you to get hurt” You simply say, with any further explanation. He looks at you confused “You’re hurting me now” He says with puppy eyes, which make you lose it. “Do you remember my ex? The one I told you about?” He simply nods, not fully understanding the situation. “He’s out of jail now, and he said he wants me back, if he finds out I’m with you, I don’t know what he’d do” You say, scared, recalling the angry nature of your ex-boyfriend. “I won’t leave you like that” Jaemin finally says, looking into your eyes. “I don’t want him to hurt YOU” You look down not really knowing what to do and he just places his hand on your back, in a comforting gesture. “We’ll figure this out, together” He finally says emphasising the last word.

Yangyang: “I hate this game” Yangyang says giving up on trying to guess what you wanted. “It wasn’t a game. I wanted to know how long it would take you to notice that I was ignoring you” You say smiling. “I noticed half an hor ago” He complaints, and you laugh evilly. “I just wanted to tease you a bit” You say laughing and he gives you an angry stare. You chuckle when he stands up and you do the same, running away from him as fas as you can, but he catches you right away, holding you in his arms and whispering to your ear “You’re gonna regret that” He, then places your body on the bed and starts tickling you nonstop until you beg him to stop in between laughs.  Don’t touch me, I’m soft now 

Shotaro: “Why don’t you say anything?” You say, taking the book out of Jeno’s hands. “I was reading” He simply explains, completely confused by the given situation. “I was ignoring you” You say with a pout. “You know, if you want to ignore someone, you don’t really talk to them right?” He says chuckling while standing up and grabbing his book back. “I did, for a looong time” You explain gesturing way too much. “We just talked a couple of minutes ago” Shotaro says tapping your head, you pout again, looking at him with a fake angry expression. “Just admit, you can’t live without me” He says with a smile. You furrow your brows at the teasy answer. “Never” You say. “Sure?” He replies as his hands get to your waist and start tickling you.

Chenle: "If you don't talk I won't either" he says sitting on the couch. You look at him, with teary eyes. "Just why did you have to say that?" The boy looks at you, surprised that you finally spoke. "Say what?" He asks confused. "That fucking joke chenle. I know you are rich and your life was perfect, but I was poor as hell, Do you know how much it hurts to hear you joking about that?" You spit out while tears keep appearing in your eyes. "I didn't mean it that way, it was just a joke" he explains himself, now conscious of the effect his words have on you. "Jokes can be cruel" you simply say leaving the room. He runs to you and hugs you from behind "I won't do it again, I'm sorry" he says placing his head on your shoulder.

Sungchan: "Just tell me and we'll figure it out" he says calmly, placing his hand on your knee. "I can't go with you" you finally say, still looking down, afraid that, if your eyes meet you would cry like a baby. "Why?" He asks, with a dissaponted tone. "I don't have enough money. They kicked me out of the bar I was working on" you say while your fingers restrain the material of your pants. "I'll pay it for you then" he says caressing your hand. "I don't want you to do that" you say shaking your head. "I'll try to get the job back" you say while tears drop from your cheek into the boy's hand. "Why did they kick you out?" He asks looking at you, but you don't stop looking down for any second. "A guy, he was drunk and started touching me, I just hit his face, but apparently, I can't do that, so they kicked me out" you explain, as the memories start replaying in your head. "I just couldn't talk to you, I know how much you wanted this trip, and I fucked it up" you say bursting into tears. "Okay, first of all you are not going back to that bar" he starts saying, holding your chin up so that you're looking at him "and second of all, I care more about you than about this trip, okay?" He simply says before hugging you tightly.

Jisung: “Talk to me pleaseee” He says cutely grabbing your arm. You chuckle unable to keep it any longer. “You lost” Haechan points out from the other side of the room. Jisung looks at the boy confused “It was a challenge, how long she could stay without talking to you, and she lost because she laughed” Haechan explains and Jisung rolls his eyes at him. “That’s stupid” He simply says. “I’m sorry babe” You say placing a smooch in his lips quickly.

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#nct #nct imagine #kpop #nct reactions #nct u #kpop imagine #kpop reactions #nct 2020 #nct fluff #kpop scenarios #renjun #jeno #haechan #jaemin #yangyang #chenle #sungchan #shotaro #jisung #requested #requests open #requests

[thisdreamplace]

ashamed to say the 3D reflects our true inner reality, yes? my ENTIRE family has turned against me, after some atrocious conflicts in which they all ganged up on me nd judged me, name-calling, very hurtful things too, provoked me. i been dealing with some serious mental uh 'issues' on my own nd when this happend i was already on the verge of a breakdown nd the good news is while the conflict happened i kept telling myself theyre only reflecting me u can get thru it etc. Later i looked at the hard facts nd realised some of the hurtful things they said were my deep secret feelings abt myself. BUT my question is why the HELL cant they talk to me like normal people? confronting one person vs whole family, why?! i felt so small nd like an object, nd not a single person defended me. am i not a part of the family?

Part 2 is simply its been a week and theyve still been cold towards me as if I yelled AT THEM ABT THEIR PAINFUL 'tRuThS' in front of EVERYONE LMAOOO. At first if i was around we'd have dinner together while they'd all talk to each other like best friends aka sickeningly overly friendly while completely IGNORING me while i sat there. i could tolerate it. I WAS PISSED AT THEM TOO Now its too painful. They're having dinner without telling me, yesterday didnt leave enough food for me knowing i hadnt eaten, serve tea/snacks without my portion. i honestly feel so unspeakably trigered nd sad. worst is these things r reminding me of deep school memories when id feel excluded like this by other kids at parties or class activities nd its like im back there. anyway im glad i controled myself a bit nd didnt counter with horrid things abt them to THEM yet they think they can say the same to me. im so hurt rn i cant even tell u lol i was okay the whole week but now its too much,, ive been crying the whole day

thing is, ik this seems like 'im a victim oh noooo they ganged up on meee'. Nope its more like how do i change myself to change them?! u could say why not talk to them how they made u feel, except whenever ive defended myself in the past regarding hurtful things they/anyone in family did, the siblings/parents would say irritating things like: "oh so YOU'RE the one hurt? Oh thats right, its because YOU'RE right! yes, yes, you're always right. Forgive me for saying anything against the perfect person u are." Or one of them says: "You?! I hurt YOU? What about me? You don't care about me! So you think what ur doing is okay?" or "no, who do YOU think u are to tell ME what to do?" it just goes in circles like this! i dont deserve to hurt myself or do smth to myself even if they dont give a damn, even if years of silent suffering of the 'mEntAL pRoBlEms' (which my lovely parents have already told me is my fault years ago, hence why I NEVER show it to them, unless im crying too much then lol they just mock me, but idc abt THAT bcoz now ik i hav a right to let out my emotions)). i mean this is worse rjan usual. its kinda insane nd when guests come they start talking to me as if nothing's wrong then when they leave, they ignore me!

this whole twisted dynamics, feelijf left out nd helpless is ig some crazy assumptin from childhood of being alone nd unable to defend myself. plus when they argye with anyone, they become overly self-righteous nd over the years its clear they can only scream, blame the scapegoat and never talk abt serious matter like normal ppl. And yes, in the past when i bring this up, they like to reply with stuff like: "no YOU'RE the one who doesnt talk to US bla bla" like, when i do u just shut me down? have belittled my mental 'issues', mocked me when im at my worst, stabbed me with cruel silent treatments nd thinking its alright "bcoz of self-righteousness blegh". Or maybe i think its okay for them to punish me? or whatev? Like law says u get what u r. if these ~~~ keep doing this to me, im doubly ashamed to say this means im the one at fault?! i let this monster assunptin grow nd now idk what to do. the worst thing imo is how i failed to tell them,even if they ignored me in the past, how i feel when anything like this or a conflict happens nd none of them stand up for me, or at least are neutral to me. bcoz now if i do, they say nope, u dont care what we do, YOUR the shameless one :! so yeah they hav the advantage of 'numbwrs' while im too afraid to stand up for myself lol. btw they never apologize nd i suspect they expect ME to apologize to TYEM bcoz everything's already ruined bcoz of 'me'..... i give up on them, i really do, but my heart hurts. Either i harden my heart, nd save up to move out, OR i try to change my self or whatev assumptins i have. But how do i do that? i try afirming: "my familys so nice to me, im respected by them" but it feels so fake tears literally enter my eyes lol

firstly i want to say, thank you for coming here to vent and being open about your feelings. it’s so important sometimes to just let it all out, without holding back. so that way you can move forward more bravely, to create the life you truly want to experience. that being said, i am going to be completely honest with you here in hopes that perhaps it may inspire you and you will be ready to do what is needed for the life you truly want to experience.

“BUT my question is why the HELL cant they talk to me like normal people?” -> “i felt so small nd like an object, nd not a single person defended me. am i not a part of the family?” here is your question, and here is your answer. i think that being completely honest when venting your feelings can actually be so helpful, because if you read back what you have said, you will be able to clearly find the patterns that are creating your personal hell. FEELING IS THE SECRET. ASSUMPTIONS HARDEN INTO FACT. the true way you feel, becomes your experience. Feelings/assumptions/beliefs come first, and the experiences come second to confirm them. That’s all that’s happening here.

i am glad that you were able to keep your reactions to a minimum! that's wonderful and as many of us know, it can sometimes be hard to do in such hurtful circumstances. but you managed to do it, this shows just a small glimpse of the power you truly hold within. although emotionally you may feel out of control, there is still the choice to choose better for yourself which you demonstrated through your reaction to them. good for you!

the truth is, you acknowledge the victim mindset to seem like you’re not engulfed in it, but no, you’re still very clearly engulfed in it. as i have said before, you can’t be a VICTOR and feel bad about it. feeling bad about taking responsibility, about everyone is you pushed out, about any of these types of concepts automatically shows a victim mindset. talking to them won’t do anything, because there are no second causes. you could talk to them nicely, you could be the nicest person in the world. but you can’t pretend your way out of your inner world. your inner world is the one and only cause of your experiences. until you change the story you tell yourself, they will stay the same. this is a hard pill to swallow sometimes. and it can feel heavily, because it’s ultimately only you’re choice. they can’t change until you do. the heaviness of the situation may make it seem impossible to turn around, but that’s just an illusion. your emotional attachment to the situation makes it seem so real and hard to change, but no. that’s just an illusion too. however, it’s ultimately your choice. Do you want to take responsibility for your life, or do you want to keep being tossed around like your lost at sea, victim to the merciless angry waves? Because we always have a choice. No one chooses your inner world, you do. No one can go into your mind and decide things for you, that’s only your job.

you can harden your heart, but who would be the one who suffers more? It won’t be your family, i can assure you. it’ll only be you. by doing that, you keep that old story alive and therefore you keep experiencing it. you keep those stories alive that are desperately showing themselves to you, saying “LET US GO.” but you remain identified with those painful stories, so you grip onto them tight. you keep on thinking of possible reasons for their behavior, but you could just read your entire ask back to yourself and you’ll see every reason. your reactions, your beliefs about them, your emotional pain. its your refusal to let those things go, and focus on what you truly want that keeps you in this state and keeps them in this state. sure it’s painful to face the responsibility at first, but it’s not a blame game. thinking its about blame is just a misunderstanding of the teachings. it’s not about they’re so perfect and you’re so not, so you have to change your ways. it’s about this is how life works here. this is about... you can ONLY ever experience self. whatever is going on within, will be reflected in your outer world. it’s about how they can’t change, UNTIL YOU DO. so instead of feeling sorry for yourself, you have to decide to give yourself the gift of a wonderful life because you have that power too. you stop deciding they can be in control of your experience, and you decide your experience yourself.

to change your assumptions, stop trying to affirm over them and actually face what’s keeping you from believing in your desires. yeah, it’s going to be painful and uncomfortable. but you need to face the pain that you’re running away from, so that it can finally be released. you have to realize, it only stayed true because you believed it to be true. and if you are to live a life free from that story, and experience a more desirable story, then you must let the pain go. give yourself love and grace as you work through it, and know that there is a more beautiful side of life that awaits for you to accept it in.

No One To Change But Self

There is Nothing to Forgive

How to Sit with Your Triggers

give yourself the time you need, it's not race. the love that you wish to experience exists, allow it in. 💖

#eiypo

[words-for-holland]

Quarantine Series: Secret Cuts & Kisses

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Summary: Y/N gets hurt...again but this time she tries to keep it on the down low from Tom.

A/N: The Songs in Our Life Part 1 comes out tomorrow. If you want to be in a taglist for TSOL or Quarantine Series send an ask or message!

Check the Rest : Burnt Out | A New Look | Secret Cuts & Kisses | Breaking Friendships |The Birthday Week | Movie Night | Silence is Golden?|

Read TSOL -> (X)

There are three types of people in this world. People that are clumsy, people that are accident prone, and then there’s Y/N, who happens to be all of the above and more.

“Man, Im starving.” Y/N stated out loud as she made her way down the kitchen. She had just finished up an hour long meeting for work, when her stomach decided it was time for a break. Harry was also sitting down at the kitchen, reviewing the script he and Tom were working so hard on creating. He looked up to see Y/N grab an avocado, onions, tomatoes, and limes. It was then that he knew exactly what she was making, and could only ask the most appropiate question.

“Can you make me some guac too?” Harry asked with a sheepish smile.

Y/N laughed out loud as she went to grab more in order to make enough for the both of them. “Why did I have a feeling you were gonna ask that?”, she questioned herself, shaking her head.

“Hey, its not my fault! You make the best kind. Better than Sam’s and that says a lot.” Harry defended.

“Whatever you say Harry.” She smiled as she focused on cutting the onions and tomatoes. Y/N then opened up and deseeded the first avocado with no problem. Sadly, the same couldnt have been said for second one. She had cupped the avocado half firmly in her hand , positioning the knife to make sure it hit the seed when she whacked it. Unfortunately, Y/N didnt realize how slippery the fruit was, when she whacked it. The blade went thru a part of the seed but slipped on to her hand. She could feel and see the cut forming on the palm of her hand and side of her thumb.

Y/N and Harry’s eyes widened at the trauma. Dont freak out! Dont freak out! Dont freak out! Y/N repeated over and over again as she worked quickly to run her injured hand under cold water. “I’ll go get Tom!” Harry yelled, as he was about to run after his older brother for help.”Tom! To—”

Y/N used her non-injured hand to grab Harry and stop him from panicking and calling Tom. “Shhh! Its fine! Im gonna be fine! Tom does not need to know about this.” She whispered yelled to him.

“Y/N! You just butchered your hand like it was a scene from Scream! You have to tell him!” Harry tried to convince you, but he forgot what she was like in situations like this.

“C’mon Harry. Think about it for a second. You know how Tom gets when I get hurt. He gets moody and pissed, like a mama bear. Its two cuts theyll heal.” Y/N hated telling anyone if she was hurt or sick. Seeing her family and friends worry about her, hurt her more than when she gets injured herself. Her motto was that she can always fix it and pretend like it didnt happen at all. “Just please please please dont say anything to him. Look they dont even need stiches.” She showed Harry her injured hand which still continued to drip blood down slowly.

Harry hated keeping secrets, but Y/N always had a way of persuading people. “Fine.” He grumbled. “But if Tom finds out he’s going to lose it with the both of us, me especially.”

“Who’s gonna lose what now?” Tom asked coming in with the most impeccable timing. Y/N and Harry froze as she slowly tried to throw away all the bloody paper towels she used

“Nothing!” The two yelled out.

Tom was indeed confused looking at the both of them, something was up and he was going to get to the bottom of it. “Nothing? Are you two sure about that?” He saw Y/N leaning over the sink when he saw paper towels with a red hue on them. It a moment to click until he put two and two together. His eyes widen at the realization, and rushed towards the sink, seeing his assumptions were correct.

“Damn it Y/N, what the bloody hell did you do to yourself!” Tom yelled, worry written all over his face. He picked up her injured hand carefully as he inspected the wounds.

“Relax Tom, it was an accident. The cuts are not that deep.” She stated, rolling her eyes.

“Everything with you is an accident.” He muttered. “I cant believe both of you were about to hide this from me.” Tom pointed at Harry, who now shows signs of fear as he raised his hands up in defeat. “And you, I’ll deal with you later.”

“Listen man, she was the one asking me to not say anything and I told her it was a bad idea.” Harry defended himself as he quickly left the room.

“Come here, let’s see if we can bandage them up.” Tom grabbed Y/N’s non-injured hand as he led her to their shared bedroom. He quickly grabbed the first aid kit from the bathroom and started to clean up her wounds. “I hope you know Im still mad at you for keeping this away from me.” He said to her, eyes focusing on her cuts.

“Tom, Im sorry but this was what I was trying to avoid. Anytime I get hurt, you act like this. I just didnt want to see you upset or worry over nothing.” She winced as Tom rubbed her wounds with an alcohol pad.

“Sorry.” He muttered. “Of course Im gonna worry. It’s my job to worry about you. I want to be the person to take care of you when youre sick or injured, but I cant do that if you wont tell me. God, if anything happens to you...I —” Tom shook his head to get rid of the terrible thought.

“Hey” Y/N whispered. Tom looked up into her eyes, as she held his face with her uninjured hand. “Im okay. Im always going to be okay. No matter how many times I fall, bruise, bleed, whatever. You’re not the only tough guy around here.” She leaned in kiss his cheek, as Tom went back to fixing up her cuts.

“Does it hurt?” He asked rubbing small cricled on the back of her hand, after bandaging her hand.

Y/N shook her head. “Not really, just a little bit.” Tom picked up her hand, leaving a long soft and gently kiss on each band-aid covered cut.

“How about now?” He looked up, smiling.

“Better. Thank you for taking care of me.”

“Of course thats what superhero boyfriends are for right?” Tom chuckled as he stood up to kiss the top of Y/N’s head. He was about to put the first aid kit away until she stopped him, pulling the back of his shirt.

“Actually...I think my face is hurting a bit. Can you help me, Spiderman?” She smirked.

“Oh? Is it now? What happend to being a tough girl that can take care of herself?” He challenges, kneeling back down to her.

“Well this happens to be something only a hero can fix.”

“Where on the face does it hurt, pretty girl?” Tom question as the two continued to lean towards each other.

“The forehead.” She stated. “Think it might need another kiss.”

Tom smiled as he placed a soft kiss to where she pointed. “Better?” He asked.

“Kinda. The nose is hurting a bit now.” She pointed to the tip of her nose, where Tom place another soft kiss. He didnt waste any other minute, and kissed her the place where he wanted to kiss her the most. Tom pressed his lips against Y/N’s as her hand instinctly wrapped around his neck. She returned the kiss with the same amount of passion, and they stayed in this moment for what seemed like forever, only breaking the kiss when they needed to breathe.

“I dont know Tom, with the way things are going...I might have to get hurt more often.” Y/N joked, as she tried to catch her breath.

“How about...you try to stay out of trouble and Ill give you an even better time than this?” Tom compromised, laughing as his hands slipped under her shirt and gently caressed her sides. He looked her up and down, showing off that smoulder that always made Y/N weak in the knees.

“Better put me in a human bubble then.”

#tom holland #tom holland imagine #tom holland x reader #peter parker imagine #peter parker x reader #peter parker

[more-than-a-gentleman]

Just what did Nami mean by “Depths of Fear itself”?

Would you agree with me if I said depth of fear is another way of saying “worst case scenario”? Or perhaps an event that is soo bad it was completely unexpected?

Ever since this chapter came out it made me scratch my head too many times. It feels like her emotions are all over the place, but....

Let us get some context:

So I tried my best to do some analysis on what ^^that^^ could possibly be refering to. So I set up two questions:

1- What are all the bad things that happened that moment?

2- By process of elimination, what are somethings that she already experienced before, and what are things that she should be expecting to happen?

I came to a conclusion that there is 1 thing, only 1 thing, that happened in that moment that all One Piece fans in general did not expect to happen nor believed it did even after they read the chapter. Me included...

First things first....Bad thing Number 1: Internal fighting and future expectations:

As you can see, it already happened before with Ussop, dont get me wrong, she was extremely sad and she felt fear.... however, what we are talking about here is something that she stated herself to be the “depth of fear”.

So internal fighting has happened before ✅

What about expectations?

So here Zoro clearly states that if someone was to disrespect the captain and Luffy acts soft he will be the one to leave the crew. I am not talking about Zoro fighting Sanji later on and that they will not accept him back... No no no that is complete nonsense. But what I mean here is that after Ussop’s incident, everyone keeps in mind that leaving the crew is a big deal and could happen.

Not only that but Luffy mentions if Sanji is leaving the crew in Zou. So all of them had that possibility in mind.

So expectations are there ✅

Bad thing Number 2: Luffy is badly hurt

The captain being heavily injured is a cause of concern for anybody in the crew. But I am sorry, I dont understand how Luffy being injured is her “depth of fear”. For one. Luffy always, always, gets injured and he just fought a Sweet Commander right before the moment. Two, if Luffy being injured is her deepest of fears then would she sit around all sad or would she look for the glass shards to speak with the doctor Chopper? After both Ussop and Sanji’s duels with Luffy, that is how she felt... she knows Luffy is tough (therefore it cant be that):

That is what you call disbelief...

(Ussop’s case): Disbelief that someone left the crew out of a disagreement that could have been avoided. And he was Luffy’s best friend.

(Sanji’s case): Disbelief that the worst case scenario happened, and he actually left like a different person with no explanation.

Happend before? Duh.... countless times✅

Should it be expected?

A man with 500,000,000 bounty (at the time), aiming to become the Pirate King, already allied himself with Trafalgar Law to defeat a Yonkou which they already angered!!

Expectations? One of the first things that comes to mind ✅

Bad thing Number 3: In the middle of the enemy territory

She was locked in a cage infront of a Warlord in Alabasta, she was alone on a ship in front of a self-proclaimed God, challenged the World Government in their base and was in the middle of a buster call. What happened with Kuma. In the plaza between 100,000 enemies in Fishman Island.

I would say it happened before😂✅

Was she expecting something like this to happen again? Just look at her reaction:

Fully aware... ✅

Moreover, Nami specifically says “for throwing me down to the depth of fear itself” to Sanji. Her coming to Big Mom’s territory is something she decided to do by herself, it had nothing to do with Sanji to begin with.

Sooooo.... 😐😑😐 the moment ended. Just what is it that made her admit that whatever happened was one of the absolute worst of her fears?

But then again, remember what I told you. It is something I am sure even YOU never ever thought was possible, yet it did happen:

Happened before? ❌ 0% chance

Expected? No way in hell...❌

Imagine leaving like this /only to return like that

Why I am using this panel in particular is because that *glare* was aiming directly at her compared to all the others aimed at Luffy.

Did you ever think that in 799 chapters (from 45 to 844 since they met) at any point that you will be seeing this? If you say yes, then I am sorry but I highly extremely immensely doubt you.... greatly.

That is someone who has looked at her with nothing but heart eyes. The furthest he got was disagreeing with her on certain topics (like Zoro on Ussop’s situation or Afro power) but those do not even start to compare.

What makes this even more powerful is what happens after it. Luffy and her get captured, they don’t meet up with Sanji and the first thing they hear about him is:

To end this off, I want to show how Nami reacted to Ussop reconciling with Luffy vs Sanji reconciling with Luffy. As well as Officially back Ussop vs Officially back Sanji:

She was really happy for both of them. But when it came to Sanji, it was never about Luffy.

“You guys look so lame” to Ussop and Luffy...

“For throwing me down...”, “I’ll never forgive you”, “I’ll drag you around if I have to, got that Sanji-kun?!”.... it is all her, her and her....

They are worlds apart.... people like to compare Robin’s officially back moment with Sanji’s officially back moment but in Robin’s case, every single one of them knew she was sacrificing herself for them, but they did not know about Sanji’s intentions (therefore the meaning behind the hug differs).

#nami #sanami #sanji #one piece #sanji x nami #sanjixnami #sannami #vinsmoke sanji #black leg #cat burglar nami #depth of fear #cat burglar #kuroashi no sanji

[svnarintaro]

forgiveness is a virtue..

read part one here

authors note: an anon asked,, so THOU SHALL RECIEVE,, also i hope y'all like fluff cause i can't write another angst for a while, i gotta stop crying for a while 

synopsis: after kendo called out shinsou for being a grade a jerk, he goes off and gets immensely jealous, and he hopes and prays that he will be able to make amends

words: 1.3k

warnings: !quirkless au! and fluff

!f*ckboy! hitoshi shinsou x reader

“okay we have to put operation: bring back soft boi back into play todoroki.” kaminari was becoming crazy, he was in todoroki’s house trying to convince him to help cheer up shinsou. the poor boy had his heart torn to shreds by his crush’s best friend, he was absolutely miserable cause he was so sure he screwed up a relationship with you before he could ever start. “keep it down denki, my dad is home right now, that’s why you had to get in through my window,” todoroki mentally cursed at denki for having the worst timing imaginable. “i’m sorry dude but i really and worried about shinsou lately.. i just want to be there for him, cause i honestly think he really liked them..” the two boys were solemn without the missing person in their little trio. “so how exactly can we get remotely close to her friends without killing us?” in full honesty they were both deadly afraid of kendo. “we gotta pray to whatever higher power up there cause there is a high chance we are going to be found dead in a ditch if we aren’t smart about it.”

you on the other hand knew what happend that day, you knew how to crack at monoma for him to tell you the truth, but you just wanted to talk things out with him, you wanted the shinsou you knew back. you just wanted shinsou. “kendo i’m not mad at you at all, i understand where you’re coming from but you can’t hit people that aren’t close to you..” you hated that the two of them fought. “in her defence y/n he was in a two foot radius of kendo, i think that was close enough.” you decided to end your mini lecture then and there,”i can’t stay mad at you guys for too long~” your best friends were smiling like fools. “but do you think that he is okay? i haven’t heard any news about him from anyone.. i’m really worried about him.” oh how you just wanted to see him, you didnt even want to talk, you just wanted to see him happy, even if the source of his happiness was not you. “it has been like a week, he will go back to school sooner or later.” kendo reassured you, as much as she hated the guy she had to admit that he made you really happy. she looked at monoma and mouthed the words ‘we have to fix this.’

monoma remembered that he was in the same english class as one of shinsou’s friends and he was starting to regret saying yes to helping kendo. ‘i really have to go around talking to a peasant now? oh the things i do for those two..’ he continued to walk towards a certain boy. “hey.. you, benki or whatever do you have a minute?” denki looked up from his current napping position, “yeah no i will not let you borrow my- OH MY GOSH YOU’RE FRIENDS WITH THAT SCARY GIRL,” denki created a significant amount of distance between him and monoma. “for your information she is more than just scary, but other than that do you know where that nuisance shinsou is? if not proceed to never interact with me if it is not necessary.” denki was slow to decode the big words but he got the picture, “wait, i don’t know where he is, but i do know how to get him to show up somewhere.” and with that the two started scheming.

you on the other hand had no luck seeing shinsou walk through the door of your chemistry class, the guy in front of you noticed that you were in a little distress, “so shinsou didn’t come again? so you wouldn’t mind if i sat with you right now?” you were weary but you needed to get your mind off of this whole shinsou situation, “it’s okay if you don’t want to, i just saw that you were kinda lonely lately.. oh my name is yuki.” the boy in front of you brightly smiled, “no it’s fine here you can sit across from me.. just thank you for trying to cheer me up.” you were happy that there was someone considerate enough to hang out with you. however shinsou was around the corner witnessing yuki get super up close and personal, ‘who does he think he is, y/n is my seat mate.’ gritting his teeth in annoyance. 

you got a text from an unknown number that made your blood run cold, school was over, and the sun was down. the text read, ‘hi, this boy in the park named monoma passed out on the bench can you pick him up.’ and you were getting you jacket on and bolted towards the park. you knew that he made stupid dumb decisions ever since you met him, ‘if he doesn’t end up alive i’m throwing a fit,’ you thought. you hoped that you weren’t too late. 

“SHOOT SHE’S FREAKING FAST I SEE HER COMING AROUND THE CORNER” kaminari complained as he saw you coming towards the park, he was the one to text you about monoma. they just needed to get you to get to the park but they didn’t know that you would come to the park but they underestimated your speed. “it’s okay we got it done.” todoroki assured denki that it was okay, kendo and monoma gave them the thumbs up to indicate that they were done and all they needed to do was hide, “i feel like you guys only keep me around because of my dad’s money..” “todo i like having you around but we gotta boogie outta here cause toshi toshi’s gotta shine right now.”

the moment you got to the park you noticed the trail of candles leading to a small gazebo that was at the park, and you were going to walk away but you saw that there was a note with your name on it that wrote “y/n please follow the path,” ‘okay what is going on here,’ you thought as you walked forward, following the candle lit path. and once you met the end you looked up to see shinsou. he was in black ripped jeans and a write t-shirt, the gazebo was decorated with white fairy lights, making shinsou look like a prince in the lighting. shinsou turned to see you here, in font of him, he had the wind knocked out of his lungs just by seeing your face, “y/n..” he slowly walked towards you and continued to talk.

“i know that i resorted to go back to my old ways.. i know that i could never be good for you, i know that i was..” he breathed in to stop himself from crying. “scared, i was scared of you not feeling the same way that i felt about you and in the end i hurt you. i hate myself for doing that, and i know that i have no right to come up in front of you and tell you that i like you when i have no actions to make up for it.” you were in tears, what he was saying was absolutely beautiful. “there is no words that can express how much you mean to me, and i hope that you know that, i know that forgiveness is a formidable virtue that is invaluable and you don’t have to accept anything.” you took a step forward, “shinsou, i know that you think that you aren’t good enough for me.. but the fact that you changed, the fact that you want me to forgive you.. it shows that you changed for the better.” you were now in arms reach of him. “now if you want my forgiveness, then please..” you wrapped your ars around him, taking in his warm scent, “please don’t go, toshi.. please don’t go, i want you to stay.” shinsou cupped your cheeks in his hands, his eyes shined as if his whole world was in his hands, you were his world. “y/n is it okay if i.. courted you?” you smile, and grabbed the outside of his hand, you felt his warmth and nodded. 

#bnha #mha #bnha imagines #mha imagines #bnha x reader #mha x reader #bnha scenarios #mha scenarios #bnha oneshots #mha oneshots #mha fluff #bnha fluff #mha hitoshi #bnha hitoshi #bnha shinsou #mha shinsou #bnha shinsou x reader #mha shinsou x reader #shinsou imagines #hitoshi imagines #hitoshi shinsou imagine #shinsou scenarios #hitoshi scenarios #hitoshi shinou scenarios #hitoshi fluff #shinsou fluff #hitoshi shinsou fluff

[janevx]

i didn’t mean to scream that much| woo wonjae

woo wonaje x reader parents au 

Being mother and wife was one of the hardest things in your life. You, Woo y/n were wife of AOMG’s rapper - Wonjae and you were also mother of yours son - Jaemin. Life yours and Wonaje’s was good but not always. He does music, work on music and everyhting with music, when you were with your 7 year old son. He is sometimes that busy,  that he is outside about few days. He loves you and Jaemin, but also he loves music. Thats makes a lot of arguments between you two, but you always could deal with this.

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 You were lying down on couch watching some dramas on NETFLIX, when you heard your phone ringing. You didn’t know the phone number, but you answer the call.

“hello?”

“hello! mrs. woo? i’m lee minsoo, i’m teacher of your son. could you please come to shool as soon as possible?” your heart skipped a beat.

“why? did something happen? of course, i will.”

“i can’t explaint this trough phone. your son had some troubles and you need to pick him up and we need to talk with you mrs. woo.”

“i’m gonna be there in 10.”

 You were scared as hell. Jaemin was akways good child. He had never any problems at school or whatever. You really didn’t know what’s going on. You were alone at home, because Wonjae was at company making some music for his album, and you were only parent, who can come as soon as possible. Of course, you thought about inform your husband, but you said that it’s not time and you going to contact him later.

 You were at school few minutes later. You walked in and you were looking for  your son or teacher Lee. You finally found them at teacher’s room. Your son was sitting down on the chair next to another guy from his class.

“so, may i know what’s happend?”

“mrs. woo, your son had fight with his classmate kihyun. he punched kihyun’s face that hard that he fall. also, jaemin used a lot bad words towards him and towards mr. park. kihyun and his father decided to not inform police or something, but we have to give him punishment.”

 You were standing there in schock on your face. You couldn’t belive that your precious son did this to his classmate. Jaemin was sitting and looking at the ground. He didn’t dare to look into your eyes, because he knows that he dissaponits you so much. You nodded and came closer to your child.

“of course, thank you mr. seo.” you bowed “i’m really sorry about jaemin, he isn’t like this, i don’t know why he did this. but me with my husband take care about what he did. also, i agree with punishment in school.”

“i hope so.” mrs. lee nodded and came closer to desk. “i think he should help our charwomen in help about month. i think it’s be enough.”

“okay, we undestand.”

“also he is going to get reprehensible grade about this. you know mrs. woo that three grades like this and we will have to kick him out of the school.”

“yes, i know. i promise it’s never gonna happend again.”

“you are free. you can go.”

 Both of you get out of room. You couldn’t understand what’s happend and you really wanted to yell at him in front of all the kids in school, parents and teachers, but you choose that the best is calm talk inside the car. Jaemin didn’t say a single word, because he was scared. He knew that he will get punishment for any mobiles and that his father would yell at him in the house.

 You sat and Jaemin followed.

“so, can you explain this to me or you ain’t gonna say anything, son?”

“mom, i don’t know.” he pouted “kihyun was just really rude to me, so i punched him. i shouldn’t but he start this off.”

“okay, but you shouldn’t fuckin punch him! you should goes to teacher and told about this, not fight him. you know what will happend when your father find out? he gonna beat your fuckin ass.”

“i know mom, i deserved this. i’m really sorry.”

“oh, jaemin. i hope he ain’t gonna be too angry when he come back.”

 you doesn’t usually yell at your son, but in situations like this you have to be strict. jaemin went to his room, and you were waiting in living room to your husband. wonaje should be in home about one hour, so you decided to make a dinner for all of you.

 you were about to final, when the door open. you checked out who is it, and it was wonjae. without smile. without any emotions. only his strict face. he was a little bit confussed, because his son didn’t greet him as always.

“is jaemin out of the house? or at extra lessons?”

“he is at his room.” he looked really curious and confussed.

“did something happend? you doesn’t look really happy, rather mad. and i’m usually only one in this home, who is mad or sad. so?”

“our dear son punched in the face kihyun. his classmate. thanks god, that his father let’s go of this, because it’s only kids and he don’t have time to police.”

 face wonjae turned into red, when he heard what you did say.

“my son? JAEMIN! come here!”

 your husband also know, that jaemin isn’t the type of child who could punch someone. you wanted found out what’s happend, but you choose to talk with wonjae by your side.

“yes dad?”

“come sit here.” he patted place next to him “what the hell happend and what the fuck did you did?”

“i punched kihyun.” he said that quetly that you barely understood.

 both of your hearts break into pieces, when you saw his face. tears in his eyes and sad look.

“but can you explain me why? because, damn i don’t know why.”

“ey, wonjae calm down.”

“kihyun was talking really mean things about me and dad and you mommy. he was really rude and said that we are broke and we are stupid. he also used some curses. that’s why, but mrs. lee or mr.park didn’t listen to me, when i was trying to explain.”

 tears fell down from his eyes. your heart hurt when you saw this, when you hug him really thight. you pulled his head to your chest, trynig to comfort him and calm him down. wonjae now was furious. not at your son. not a you. not at this kids, of course he was fuckin mad at this piece of shit, but he was the most mad at teachers, who doesn’t care about jaemin’s point of view. you were looking at his face and you could tell that he could easily destroy something.

“in the morning i’m going to school with jaemin. what a jerks didn’t want to listen to my kid. this little shit start off and curse at us, and they didn’t do anything?! did they have any fuckin idea, who am i|?”

“wonjae, calm down and we should apologize to jaemin about screaming.”

“i’m sorry jaemin, i didn’t mean to scream that much.” wonjae pressed light kiss to your son’s forehead.

“i’m sorry too.” you looked into his eyes. “we love you and we always gonna listen to you no matter what. you can also trust us, because everyhting we do is for your good, got it bunny?”

“or we can beat some asses, if it’s needed. you know jaemin, me with uncles aren’t weak.”

“damn, wonjae!”

“what?”

“he is still kid! we can’t talk to him like this!”

#woowonjae #wonjae #aomg #aomgwonjae #showmethemoney #smtm #parentsau #au #kpop #kpopau #khiphop #khh #jaypark #sik-k #school #ff #imagine #wonjae scenarios #angst #angstau

[lesbiancarat]

This is going to be very venty and weird but

The whole mingyu situation has just made me feel so isolated from this fandom

And someone who has to deal with these obnoxious brash middle school jokesters finding out a person i take comfort in was one of them hurt.

Seeing ppl brush it all aside ,calling the victims childish for saying how it affected her and relating " boys will be boys" rhetoric, using age as an exuse has made me like my comfort doesn't matter

I want to like svt again I want to enjoy it again but it will take time and seeing ppl tell others to get over it and act like nothing has happend makes me think..do I even want to be here?

Do you think I am over reacting? Did I just see the bad side of carats or do truly not fit in just like victim

i totally understand that. i also had to deal with those types of people growing up. while I'm fortunate that those experiences haven't impacted me much into adulthood, i totally sympathize with you and OP1 and everyone else who experienced something similar :(

honestly i am often frustrated by the fact that carats don't really have a set of shared values. bc when something like this happens there's guaranteed to be differing reactions, which creates discord when we most need solidarity. and as someone with a strong moral compass i often get upset in these situations when i see so many people doing and saying things which are against my morals. and this has certainly been one of those times

that being said though, given that carats don't have a shared set of values that also means that there are plenty of carats in a similar boat as you. if you want to try and stay, i think it's definitely possible to find a small group of carats who share your values and stick to that small part of the fandom

it could also help to just step away from the fandom side of things entirely, or just for a little while and ease back into it. i have a friend who was having a hard time, and they still stan SVT but they stepped away from stan social media and the fandom side of things and they're a lot happier now

i know when you're feeling isolated from a community you're a part of 'make your community smaller' and 'step even further away from the community' are maybe not the best things to hear. but making your community smaller can make it closer, and therefore actually make you feel less isolated. and i think sometimes it can help provide some clarity to take a step back for a bit, and then ease back in. or don't! while fandom and community can be a great and fulfilling thing it isn't required to enjoy something. you can find communities other places and with other things and still casually enjoy svt

but also if you think unstanning/leaving the fandom is what's best for you, that's totally valid. it's not an overreaction. fandom is supposed to be fun and enjoyable, and if it's not then that's enough of a reason to leave. it doesn't have to be a big moral dispute, you can unstan for whatever reason, no matter how small. you don't have to feel guilty for it

hopefully even if you leave you can still think back on some fond memories and value the time you had as a carat. even if it ends, doesn't mean that time was meaningless :3 there's actually a clip of minghao talking about this sort of thing which i think is relevant (it's at about 7:24 of this video)

i won't tell you if you should stay in the fandom or unstan. i think if you stay there are ways you can make your fandom space more limited and comfortable to you, but i recognize that can also be work to make that happen! and you shouldn't feel guilty if in the end your choice is to unstan

i hope this helped ease your mind a little bit, and I'm sorry this has been a rough time for you. regardless of what you choose, thank you for being a carat <3

#melia.ask #anon

[tsukkis7th-hoesblog]

It was a misunderstanding.

Warning : nothing to bad , swearing

Tsukkishima ×reader , kuroo x reader ,akaashi x reader ,bokuto x reader .

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The boys were still all practising even though the coaches had called it a night. And you just finished cleaning the gym with kiyoko and were heading to the kitchen to prepare dinner .

As you were walking past the gyms a ball flys out and hits your head . You fall back from the impact ,which leaves ur butt on the concrete . You look up to see kiyoko. She has a worried look on her face . Then from the corner of your eye u see a tall white figure rushing towards you , it was tsukki .

He bent down towards you , you were about to tell him that u were alright but he just grabs the ball and stand back up . He just looks at kiyoko once "is she ok?" You nod and he just turns around and started walking toward the entrance of gym 3 .

"Hey! Tsukki who the hell do you think u are ?" You scream as u quickly get on your feet and move towards him . He swiftly turns around and you hit your face in his chest . "What?" He says wiping his shirt . "Your not even going to apologise to me " you say putting my hand on my hip . "You said you were fine so nothing even happend , stop over-reacting " with that he just turns around and walk into the gym .

You were used to his bitchy side , but u wanted to piss him off the way he always does to you . So like a dumbass you walk into the gym forgetting that other people are also practising ."tsukki !!! You son of a bitch , I'm gonna shove that ball up ur big white a-" you stop ,seeing kuroo with the ball in his hands . He just looks up with a disgusted look on his face "wait , this ball ?" And throws it to bokuto .

You quickly palm ur face and grab the ball from bokuto and hit a serve towards the tall blonde head that belonged to tsukki . His back was facing you so saw his glasses hit the floor . But by Akaashi's reaction you realized you might have over-reacted a little .

He slowly turns around , his glasses still on the floor. He just grabs the ball and walks towards me . You were terrified , u put ur hands behind ur back and looked at ur feet . Now he was right in front if you , towering over u . You try to say something but is cut off by tsukki putting a finger below ur chin ,making you look into his eyes. And for a few seconds u were speechless . You have never actually seen him without glasses , and he actually looked hot when he was so angry like this .

"I didnt throw the ball out of the gym so I didnt think I needed to say sorry to you , but either way I dont think u needed to throw that ball at me ?" He says with a raspy voice . He just puts the ball in my hands . I look at him confused "wait , u arnt gonna scold me ?" You say confused .

"It was a misunderstanding, beside I dont have the time " he says with a straight face , then turns around to walk towards the benches and drink some water . You were still in shock and only now realized that three of the gym 3 squad were staring at u and tsukki. Kuroo was wearing tsukki's glasses and bokuto had his elbow rested on kuroo's shoulder . Even akaashi stood close to them not saying a thing but just watching the commotion.

"What are u idiots looking at ? " you say as you ran to kuroo and grab tsukki's glasses off of him . "Hey! I look hot with those on " he whines as I clean the lens with my shirt .

Y/n pov .

"Damn y/n , that jump serve was really good . Who would have known you become a pro when u get angry " bokuto says as he towers behind me . "Oh shush, "

"can I have my glasses back ?" Tsukki asks with his hand extended .

I hand it to him and he simply just walks away . I felt a little sad and move towards akaashi and softly said "that's too bad , he actually looked really hot without those glasses" akaashi looks a little surprised but then smirks and leaves me to go practise . And I couldn't help to think of tsukki in that way , he usually just annoys me and I annoy him . It's how it's always been , but I find his rudeness kind of amusing .

Idk what pov this is :

you thanked ur bad taste in men and began cleaning up the gym . You only then realized that kiyoko had left and u were left to clean the entire gym .

You were wearing a sweatshirt but you were getting kinda sweaty after cleaning around and decided to take it off. You only had a light purple crop top with short white shorts . You didnt really think much if it and tied ur hair and began doing the heavy lifting .

Third pov .

Bokuto was just about to hit a strike but the ball stopped a few meters in front of him . He froze in confusion to why the ball was too short, he turns to akaashi .

To see ,akaashi standing still and was staring at y/n . Her hair was tied up and she was practically wearing nothing . Now all the boys realized .

Bokuto felt his heart drop as he saw how short ur shorts were, and they were practically invisible because they were so tight .

Akaashi wanted to grab ur waist and slide his hands up ur shirt .

kuroo wanted to grab ur hair and rip ur shirt off and take you right there in the gym , he then felt his shorts get a little tighter .

If u think these boys were starstruck , tsukki had a much different idea in his head .

He didnt even realized anything until he saw the players attention elsewhere. He noticed how u look when u tied your hair , as u almost never had ur hair in a high ponytail. And he knew he'd already seen you wear that shirt before, but with those shorts he felt like he had seen u for the first time .

You were still oblivious to the situation the boys were in ,until you realized that they were too quite for too long. You turned ur head to see all eyes on you . "What" you say with a bench in your hand .

The boys looked around all shy until kuroo came rushing towards u " you shouldn't be doing all this by yourself, here let me help " he said as he took the weight of the bench . Now you were even more shocked ,"its my job but thanks " you say as you smile at yourself like a idiot .

"What are you smiling about?" Tsukki says as he grabs the empty water bottles that were laying on the floor . You turn around to see bokuto grabbing the towels from akaashi's bunch . You were really confused now . But you let it be , after the boys where done with ur job they just stood in front of u with their hands behind their backs .

"Ok you guys are acting really weird ,what happened?" No one said anything. So you quickly thought of something .

"Ok if you guys are done I'm going to hang out with daichi and asahi, he was calling me a while a- "

"NO !" All the boys scream and stretch their hands out .

"Why are u guys acting so weird? Bokuto tell me now !" I say knowing bokuto too well .

He gives me puppy eyes and takes one look at akaashi , who was giving bokuto a death glare . "Sorry y/n "

" You just look so hot in those clothes today " kuroo blurted.

"What " I say , my eyes almost popping out of my head by the change in character and situation . The other boys groan in annoyance and tsukki just tskk.

You raise ur eyebrow at the boys " ok thanks for the ego boost I was feeling a bit insecure today but like what the fuck , u guys are so weird " I say laughing. "Why are you guys making such a big deal out of this ? " akaashi was the colour of a tomato , and his eyes not daring to look you in the eyes .

"We just couldn't focus on the game with you doing.. well the things you were doing .We are only men can u blame us ." Bokuto says with smirk on him face .

" you are still boys but you guys are the real ones to talk " I say bending down to grab my sweatshirt as akaashi and tsukki sit down on the ground. "Whats that suppose to mean ?" Tsukki asks drinking from his bottle .

"Are you guys that dumb ?" I say as they all give me confused looks. "You guys are 6 feet something boys wearing booty shorts and tight shirts while jumping, screaming and sliding on the floor . Theres a reason I became manager without even knowing it was a volleyball club. To be honest you guys are probably the hottest boys I've ever seen "you said too much . As if these boys weren't cocky before , you knew u had actually killed them . "I mean only when u guys play in a proper match "

"That's why you used to come to every practise first and then leave the last " tsukki said .

"No I'm a just the best manager in the world "I try to defend myself.

"I always knew u had a thing for me y/n " kuroo says as he grabs his bag ,

"no thats not what I said , I said u guys are hotter when you play , and I dont like you guys in that way " you were obviously lying but you had to keep cool .

"Whatver u say y/n , but just know I'm only one floor away . If you need more help with any matter just call me anytime u like " he said with a wink .

"Shut up , besides I gotta go now to make you guys dinner , please dont be late to dinner again . There wont be any more food left " you say as you blush at bokuto remark . "Ur lucky I like being bossed around from time to time " kuroo said pushing a stand of my hair behind my ear and then I practically run out of the gym .

Third pov .

"Damn shes hot when she's shy " kuroo says . "Yea too bad she is into me more " bokuto says in kuroos face .

"What!! she never said that ? Did she ?"

"I actually thinks she likes tsukki " this was the first time akaashi opened his mouth about this topic . "What!?!? " the boys said at the same time .

"A few minutes ago she said that tsukki looked good without his glasses , so I'm guessing she likes tsukki more "

tsukki gets all shy and defensive and says . " she doesn't like me , today she told me how much she loves your hands , and some weird shit "

"What " akaashi says as he looks down at his hands . "Yea she told me that too , I think she has a hand fetish " kuroo said .

"Well whatever she told me she loves bokuto's cake , I didnt even know you baked cake " akaashi asks bokuto. "I dont bake cake , and I haven't even seen her eat cake . "

Kuroo starts laughing " you know cake mean ass, right ?"

Bokuto in shock now " she said I have a good ass , omg she does like me "

"What about kuroo? What did she tell you guys about him ?" Tsukki asks a little too eager . But the boys just look at each other .

"Relax , whatever she likes about me she has already told me face to face , she even called me her captain once "

"What , that's not fair ,I'm a captain too!!" bokuto sulked as kuroo stuck his tongue out .

They were laughing as akaashi's phone rang . He answered the call " ok ok we are coming , relax y/n !" He said as he quickly cut the line .

"You have y/n's number !?!?that's not fair , she said she would give it to me but she forgot . " bokuto said grabbing his shoes .

And the boys then made their way to their rooms to get ready for dinner .

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Idk what this is but I might add more to this .

@haikyuu-texts @teawithlemonacid @tsukkisuki @tsukki--daisuki @keiji-n @kotaro-kun @keisdumpling @kozumebabie @bokutos-eyebrows @bokuto @bokutokoutarou @bokutosbiceps @bokuotaku @akaashiisbae @akaashikeji @akaashiofficial @akaashikoutarou @akaashisstar

#haikyuu!! #haikyuu daichi #haikyuu x reader #akaashi scenarios #akaashi icons #akaashi imagine #akaashi haikyuu #akaashi x reader #akaashi x y/n #akaashi x you #tsukkishima kei #tsukkishima x reader #tsukki headcanons #haikyuu tsukki #tsukki #haikyuu tsukishima #kuroo smut #kuroo x reader #kuroo x y/n #kuroo fanart

[narvana27]

The Childhood of Raimundo Pedrosa in my headcanon of him part #2:

[Disclaimer]:

Since I post part #1. I saw a couple of post's about Rai being a clown in the chronicles, and no one was happy with that, which I can fully understand. I can fully get that, and tbh I learn that law in Brazil wouldn't let someone under age work as a clown, and situation with circus isn't like show has shown to us, but it didn't change my view and back story of Rai. It is simply because I have this version in my head for so long now, it's been couple of years, so it isnt that easy to forget and change it, so you have to forgive me (or dont, that's up to you ofc) and let me do him my way. Rai make me love Brazil so much, but Im not in power to know everything that I maybe should know if I want to create a proper back story of someone living there, but I hope that whatever I would write here wont hurt anyone in anyway 🙏 So:

As I explained earlier, because of living in a poor family Rai wanted to have money to be able to afford everything he didn't have as a child and teenager. He also wanted to accomplish something big, like fame or being famous footbal player. (that's in xiaolin canon, not only mine) But he also wanted to just relax. We often see him not wanting to train that hard (especially at the beggining of the show) or to clean the whole temple, so I figured out it's because of the fact he had to work his whole life since he was a kid. He wanted for ONCE just do nothing. But even tho he didnt like that whole training thing (as Wuya once said) he still did that, because he knew that the temple is his chance to have a diffrent life, to not be a slave anymore. We can see him loving Rio and Brazil still, and even saying "I shouldn't leave beautiful Rio de Janeiro" but that was said while beimg angry and under the influence of feeling unappreciated. I also think that that if he would return to Rii, he wouldn't return to his family house. He would rather find some job, even a shitty one, just to find some room somewhere and could help his family escape from the tyrany of his father. He stayed at the temple whatsoever and tried his best to became a xiaolin dragon, still having in his mind helping his family one day. The way he get himself into the temple in my imagination looks something like this: In the Episode when he got promoted he said that Fung chose him to be a monk cuz he knew he could became a dragon of wind. That could mean Fung really chosed all of them by himself - Maybe he talked to their parents also? So he chosed Rai because of his story, he wanted help him escape his household and prevent him from living on the street or something like this. So he talked with Rai's parents, hoping he will be able to convince his father to let Rai go to the China with him, but ofcourse, it didnt happend. He spoke to Raimundo himself, and at the beggining he wasnt sure if he could leave his family alone. Master Fung told him to think about it, and Rai talked about that with his mother. She told him he have to go, not only for himself, but for all of them. She wanted to help her kid having better life than she, so she was ready to take everything to take anything that her husband would do to her for letting Rai run away. She helped him escape at night, and the next day she was beated by her husband, but the rest of her kids stand up for her. Since that time Rai's sibling finally realized that even tho Rai's gone, they have "Group power", and they could change their father's bahaviour even a little bit.

Part 3 coming up.

#xiaolin showdown #xiaolin #raimundo pedrosa #Childhood of Raimundo Pedrosa #Raimundo's Pedrosa childhood #Headcanon #My headcanon #Brazil #Jack Spicer #kimiko tohomiko #clay bailey #omi #heylin

[thechaosthatismybrain]

Ok so here it is! My first fic! I’m happy for all kinds of comments or feedback, good or bad. Please let me know what you think! Hope you enjoy!

Fandom: NCIS Ship: Ellick, Ellie Bishop/Nick Torres Words: 1873 Chapter: 1/? Tags: angst, fluff, happy ending, past relationships, canon death

Chapter 2  AO3 link

We do, friends don’t

It’s not like Ellie hasn’t been in love before. Hell, she’s even been married once, and engaged for that matter. She knows the feeling well. That’s why she came to terms with her feelings towards her coworker a long time ago. They’ve known each other for about five years now, and she would be lying to herself if she said she didn’t know there would be something special with this relationship from the day she met him. 

Nick was special, unlike the other men she had dated. Jake was a safe choice, but she had still loved him. When they met they connected easely over work and from that everything went pretty fast, and within a year they were married. She had liked being with Jake, but when she left the NSA it didn’t take long for her to realise their connection didn’t run as deep as she had thought. When she found out about his cheating it dawned on her she should have left years ago. 

When she met Qasim she was still in the process of healing. Even with their connection not being as deep as she had thought, she never imagined that Jake would cheat on her. It scared her, if she was being honest. If the man who was supposed to be the safe choice could hurt her like that, what were the others capable of? She was reserved in the beginning when she met Qasim, but he showed her she didn’t have to be afraid anymore. He forced her out of her shell. Even when he proposed to her all he wanted was for her to stop being afraid and hide her feelings. She has a lot to thank him for really. 

But in all of this was Nick. He was her best friend, with her through everything. They did everything together, especially after Qasim had died, and then Reeves. They supported each other through everything. Ellie knew her feelings for the man went beyond that of a friend, had done for quite a while. Maybe even part of her was in denial when she was with Qasim. She didn’t like to think about that though, it seemed too unfair to Qasim. At times she even thought her feelings were reciprocated, but nothing ever happend. 

Her feelings for Nick grew stronger, and she realised this might be a problem. But how could she not love him? He was funny, charming and could talk to anybody. He was so confident when he was interacting with people, even complete strangers, he always seemed so sincere. But Ellie knew there were some things he only told her, and she liked knowing she was the one he trusted most. It also didn’t help her feelings that he was beautiful, she could stare at his tanned skin and beautiful brown eyes for days. Their babies would be the cutest little things ever. 

Ellie would have done something about the situation a lot earlier if she would just get some clear signals from the man. That was the biggest problem, Nick, it seemed, could not make up his mind. He would talk to her for hours on end and tell her things he hadn’t told a soul before. He would tell her she was beautiful and that he loved her eyes. He would take her out to dinner, just the two of them, insisting on paying. In Ellie's book, that was a date, and it seemed like her friends agreed with her to. They would even drink wine and get drunk together. But despite all of this Nick could never wait to tell Ellie about all of his recent hookups. She knew about all of the girls he’d been with, for some reason she was always the first to know. He would complain to her every time he had a new crush who didn’t like him back and she would just sit there and tell him it would be ok. 

Ellie had tried to move on, to forget about her feelings, she had even gone on several dates for goodness sake! But nothing really seemed to work. She remembered the time they were on that double date, it was a mess from start to finish. The words “you’re like a sister to me” seemed to be permanently etched into her brain. She just wished Nick would stop treating her like she was something more than a sister or just a friend when she clearly wasn’t. Ellie was growing more and more tired of playing this game with him. She knew she was going to talk to him soon.

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As usual when they had finished a case, they were on their way to Ellie's place with too much takeout for only two people. Nick had given her a lift to work that morning so they were in his car. Ellie was nervous, she knew this talk would have to happen tonight, or never. 

“Nick, can I ask you something?” Ellie asked when they had settled down on the couch with their food. 

“Ask away!” Nick answered with food in his mouth.

“What would your perfect date be like? Or what would you do on a first date?” she said not wanting to meet his eyes. 

“Easy!” the man explained. “I would take the girl to a nice little restaurant, everything wouldn’t be perfect but we’d have fun and laugh over the weird food. We’d have a glass of wine and, of course, I would pay. Then i think we would just walk around town and talk about anything and everything.” He had a glint in his eye when he said it, and Ellie couldn't help but smile at how happy he seemed. 

Elle took a deep breath and said “Then how come you’ve done all those things with me if we’re not together?” she really didn't want to meet his eyes right now but she couldn’t help herself. The man looked like a question mark just blinked at her.

“Eh..what do you mean? He forced out with what Ellie could swear on was a laugh to joke away the whole conversation. 

“I mean what I just said. Why is your dream date something you’ve already done with me?” Her tone was harder now, but she couldn't afford not to say everything she needed to say. “You want to go to restaurants and have a glass of wine and walk around town and just talk. You want to pay for dinner and everything and be a real gentleman. Well, newsflash Nick, we’ve been doing that almost since we got to know each other.” She had started now and she couldn't stop, it was like the floodgates were open. Not even all of the emotions flashing through Nick’s face could make her stop. “I know friends do those things to Nick, i'm not stupid. I really don’t just want to read something into this if there’s nothing here but you need to be straight with me Nick. You talk to me like I'm the light of your life sometimes, other times it’s like I don't exist. You take me on what even you now describe as dates and you tell me I’m beautiful and all kinds of things. But then you hookup with every other girl you see and tell me, me Nick, about it? Friends can be close yes, but not like this. We do things friends certainly don't do. You have to be straight with me Nick because I don’t know how much more of this I can take!” She was almost screaming now but she couldn't help it. It felt so good getting it all out there. 

Nick just sat there at first, without saying a word. He had put his plate down on the table and just sat there, looking at her. Anxiety started to rise inside Ellie and she began to regret what she had just done. How could she possibly have thought this was a good idea? She had probably just ruined any chance at a relationship or even a friendship with this man. She had promised herself she wouldn't cry but she came closer and closer to breaking that promise for every second Nick was quiet. 

“I...I eh ..I” Nick stammered. He didn’t know what to say. Of course he knew that they were close, like the only time he didn’t spend with her was when he was asleep and even then it would sometimes be at her house. He hadn’t thought about it like this before, he knew he could be stubid sometimes when it came to feelings, but not this much. Everything Ellie had said maked sense. 

“Ellie I.. I’m” he tried again. “I’m so sorry Ellie! I’m so stupid, I’ve never wanted to hurt you, you have to believe me!”

“But you did hurt me Nick. I have come to terms with my feelings towards you, even if you don’t feel the same. I just need you to be honest with me. I can’t go on hoping for something that will never happen. I have to be able to move on without being pulled back in every time I see you.”

Nick could see in Ellie’s eyes and hear in her voice how hurt she was. The fact that he was the one who had caused that made something break inside of him. 

“Ellie I’m so sorry, I have never wanted to hurt you” he said seeking to meet her eyes. “I’m not good at talking about my feelings but I’ve been avoiding the truth because I was afraid. I was afraid of not being enough for you, because you deserve the whole world Ellie. You deserve someone better than me. Someone who isn’t afraid to tell you he loves you Ellie, who isn’t broken like me.” Nick was reaching for her hand now, something inside of him needing to hold on to her, to comfort her. 

“But what if it was you I wanted Nick? Don’t you get that you are my world? You are perfect to me. Shouldn't I get a say? Before you decide you’re not “worthy” or whatever?” She was holding on to him just as much now. She was still hurt but just hearing him being honest with her for the first time made her heart begin to heal. 

“I’m so sorry Ellie.” Nick’s hand reached up to cup her face and wipe away a tear that was inevitably falling down her cheek. “If you’ll let me, I'll make it up to you for the rest of our lives. I love you Ellie and I want to be with you.” 

“I love you too Nick” and with that Nick wrapped his arms around her and pulled her into his side. He leaned back against the sofa and pulled her with him. 

They sat like that for a while without any of them saying anything, It didn't seem necessary at the moment. They had each other and that was all that mattered. They knew everything wasn’t perfect but it was enough for now and with Nick holding on to Ellie like he was never going to let her go, she felt her heart heal a little more.

#ncis fanfiction #ncis fandom #ellick #ellie bishop #nick torres #fanfic #angst #fluff #I wrote my first fic #i did something today #author is not at all projecting her own drama on to these characters #where did you get that from #hehe #bee's writing

[theproblemsofdonhi]

cap.- 6

(”quotation marks” means we pass fron catra narrating to that scene)

The moment I realized where I was and how I looked, I was paralyzed.

And the sword... the sword fell from my hand. Before I even noticed it, I had returned back to normal.

"Catra was agitated. She was breathing frantically and her whole body was shaking. Her head jumped from thought to thought - h... how did I get here?! Someone saw me like that?!?! W-Where is Adora?? !! Nononono ... I don't know ... I don't know what  to... - all that information moved in her head like a swarm of bees, her ears began to buzz and the force of her feet was fading, it was mess.

Until suddenly, everything became clear. Without realizing it, Catra stuck her own nails in one of her legs.

 The pain became the new priority and thus, catra could focus. The mountains surrounding the center of the horde were still a two-hour walk away and there seemed to be no patrol on the surface of the ravines, Catra was still far enough  that they hadn't seen her. So she still had a chance to go home. "

Glimmer - we know you entered. But how?

Catra - Look. I may not be the best soldier there is. But even I know some protocols form the place I live in.

It could be a small patrol or a full squad that was returning from a mission. I just had to wait for someone to appear and take me.

Bow - why not just enter through the door. So serious was your injury?

Glimmer - No, what happened was our dear friend, the hordian, wanted to take the sword with her. And she couldn't do it without hiding it somewhere first.

Bow looked at Catra - I thought you didn't want anything with the sword.

Catra looked down in frustration - you don't understand. I did it for security.

Bow - whose?

Catra - mine! Of course. If Shadow Weaver was furious with me, all I had to do was give her the sword so that at least she wouldn't kill me.

"After spending half an hour waiting, Catra finally spotted a transport of supplies. Leaving the sword on the ground, away from sight, Catra got up and began making signals with her arms until the transport noticed her.

as it approached, Catra had already thought exactly what she would say.

When it parked, the pilot and a soldier went out to see the situation.

- Soldier, lucky we found you here, it seems like a serious injury on your leg -

Catra - That problem is for later. Listen, I wasn't alone in the woods. A friend got lost just like me, I thought I heard her in that direction - pointing towards the woods -

But with my leg like this, I can’t move very well. So please, go and check if she is  there.

Both, soldier and pilot exchanged confused looks, as Catra sat back down on the floor again. The soldier said - Well, the woods are right there and it’s just us here, I guess we don’t lose anything to check a little - while the pilot helped catra with the wound on her leg, the soldier pulled a small vehicle from inside the transport. in which both went to the entrance of the forests, as close as possible to the place that catra indicated them.

At the moment that both were no longer visible to catra, she got up immediately, her lie worked better than she expected. Now with an opportunity in front of her, took the sword and headed for the transport.

Searching quickly where to hide it, she end up put it in a tool compartment, as deep as it could be, behind all the other things there.

By the time both soldiers returned, Catra was waiting for them next to the transport - and well, did you find anything? - She ask pretending to be worried.

- No ... I'm sorry but we didn't see anything- one said.

- it's okay. I guess it's best to ask for help back in the horde - Catra said. - I'm going to travel in the back of this thing if you don't care -. The soldier nodded indicating there was no problem and Catra climbed back. Both went to the front of the transport. The engine started and now it was only a matter of time to return home.

passing the desert, entering one of the great ravines and finally stopping in a resupply hangar.

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"- Hey, thanks for helping us land the leftover material - the soldier said to Catra.

Catra - well, I have to start returning the favor in some way. Besides, my leg is not SO bad - She joked reading the transport's identification number - Eh! What is supposed to happen with your transportation now? - She ask simulating curiosity.

- Not much, really. This one, for example, is stored in hangar 5 when we don’t use it.

Catra - oh... okay. Sounds... tedious. But. Nice to have found your partner and you... you… umm...

 - my identification number is G5 C614

Catra - yes ... I’m not gonna  remember that in my life. I'm going to tell you 14 nothing more.

- I guess that's fine for now-.

while they were talking, the pilot approached them running. he looked exhausted - hey men, we... we need to go back out there. we have emergency orders of going to a specific point -.

his partner responded - what? there was an attack or something? -

- I don't know, they never tell us nothing.-

The soldier turn back to catra and said - well i guess this is it for us now. I hope you recover well, soldier catra -.

Catra - And I hope you both don’t die in whatever your gonna do now.-

Catra walked away while both said goodbye with a gesture.

 Catra walked slowly to her sector in The Horde. passing by the big metal buildings, some patrols of soldiers moving together, the smoke of the factories in the air. All covered by black and scarlet clouds. When she finally reach the outskirts of the cabins, she notice that there was no one around the area - I guess it's time for training ... for everyone ... at the same time - She said when she saw the desolate scene. Upon entering the building, she found more of the same. practically nobody in sight, just a couple of soldiers guarding in the distance.

But in the end, after so much walking, Catra arrived at the door of her cabins. She took a moment to breathe before continuing. When he opened the door, she saw dozens of empty beds. Catra approached her’s - I guess Adora still doesn't come back - she told herself when she saw the drawings at the headboard, but before she could even sit down, She heard

 - Catra, I see you came back safe and sound.that’s good. You had us all very worried.

"Catra - Sh ... shadow weaver, what are you doing here?

S.W. - The same as everyone in the sector, looking for Adora and ... you.

Catra - That’s why no one is here?

S.W. - Correct, I can't let a recently named force captain disappear just like that.

Catra - That make sens...

S.W. - AND SO! I think we all benefit if you tell me where. is. Adora.

Catra - well to start, this was not my...

S.W. - NO! non. of that.  Answer the question.

Catra - the whispering woods.

S.W. - Why were you there?

Catra - Adora came out at night one day ago. I knew something could happen to her if she went out alone, so I followed her but, I couldn't stop her before she reached the woods.

S.W. - I see. So ADORA was the one who decided to break the rules of her home and leave the horde.

Catra - yes. That's how it happend. So ... I think the best thing we can do is, let me to rest a little and as soon as I get some strength back I can help find her.

S.W. - Then you didn't find adora after entering the woods.

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Catra - ... no. I didn’t find her.

 Catra approached her bed again, supporting herself with the metal bars of this one, she went to sit down but, even before she got to touch the mattress, catra was motionless, her whole body was stiff as rock. Gradually the shadows that held her body become more visible.

- What?!! What are you doing, Shadow Weaver? -

S.W. - I know what it's like to blame others for your mistakes. I did that a lot as a child. It is called "an easy way out" for a reason.

- What are you talking about!!! I am telling you the truth!!!

S.W. - Your TRUTH is a little ... incredible, in the bad sense of the word. There is only one way to really know if you lie to me or not, my girl. And that will be when we find Adora. We, not you. Meanwhile, you will wait -.

 Catra turned her head towards Shadow Weaver - okay okay, let's not go crazy, okay? I know that what I told you doesn't sound like Adora, at all but, it's what happened. Do you want to clarify things? No lie? Good for me. Just... let me help you find her. And she will tell you the same thing that I just told you.

S.W. - But there is the matter, catra. If you're lying to me now, that guarantees me that you won't convince Adora to lie for you later. ”

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Catra - I thought she would put me in a cell while they found adora ...

Bow - how nice of her not to do that.

Catra - yeah ...

 "Shadow Weaver took Catra to a small room in the building where the black garnet was stored. It had a bed, a toilet, a sink, a shower and a small radio lying on the floor. All lit by a dim green light.

- Here you will wait - said S.W.

Catra voluntarily entered the room, completely unimpressed by "the tremendous penance" in front of her - oh well. If this is what I have to do, to prove that I am telling the truth. I accept it - Catra said. "

Catra - it was fun while it lasted ... Until the doors closed.

 "- Well, I hope you don't have such a bad time, catra. - S.W. exclaimed as the door closed.

Now alone, Catra dropped the act. Her ears start buzzed again and her head began to spin - what happens if Adora telling her about the sword? that I lost it and that's why I also lostAdora. Nonono... ñm Adora could read the room, yes. She could lie as soon as she was asked what happened ... yeahyeah... no, the girl is too innocent for that.

What am I going to do now? - her eyes stopped moving erratically as soon as he saw his bandaged leg - very well, catra. Remember plan B. You did it for a DAMN reason. As soon as the door opens, we will use THAT “card” as best we can. 

Time began to passing, even if she wanted, she couldn’t sleep, her head didn’t let her. She didn't have much to distract herself with. nothing more than lying on the bed and moving the radio levers.

that thing only transmitted general information about the horde, patrol schedules, supply arrivals, "princesses bad, horde good", but suddenly after an hour all the signals began to transmit a single message - communications center, priority message is reported for Shadow Weaver, the force captain, Adora is back in the horde, I repeat, force captain, Adora is back -

Catra's heart began to pound faster. The time was approaching. But out of nowhere. The message was repeated - communications center, priority message is reported for Shadow Weaver, the force captain, Adora is back in the horde, I repeat, force captain, Adora is back - catra took the radio to see what It happened. She brought it to her ear while the message was repeated a third time, but it was no longer coming from the radio, But from the walls. The fourth time was different - Adora is back in the horde, I repeat, captain of the force, Adora has returned - the tenth was even shorter - captain of the force, Adora has returned - the twentieth hereafter was simply - Adora is back - catra knew it was SW Playing one of her games. She knew that old witch just wanted to mess with catra’s head, but knowing what it’s happening doesn't always make you invulnerable to it.

After two hours, Catra was about to smash her head against the wall. Every once in a while she shouted at the ceiling - EH Shadow Weaver I BELIEVE THIS JOKE LOST GRACE 500 ADORAS AGO! - although she received no response.

After 2 hours, the voices stopped and the door opened. Shadow Weaver found catra, with red and scraped knuckles 

- I see you had fun - said the witch.

Catra - who didn't you see me play your little game of voices ?? !!?

S.W. - Not really. I Just leave it repeating so you didn't feel alone. lets just go straight to the point, ready to talk, dear?

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The Perfect 2020 Storm

It’s been too much these last few months. I’m not even sure where to begin. The situation in this country is still showing no signs of getting better, everything keeps getting darker, tempting me to leave. I commonly found myself looking for reasons to stay, but one by one they all just fade away. Let’s start with the Storm that had been growing without me noticing...

My friend’s GF has always assummed I am the worst. For some reason, every little thing I do seems to be used by her to justify her rage against me. Over the past few months I have thought about what it could be. Maybe she was insecure and needed me to be as well, maybe it was because she like my girlfriend, she even tried to hit on her when I wasn’t present, suggesting that we were not meant to be together, which is fucked up. Maybe I remineded her of someone that treated her baddly. The thing is, I barely even talked to her, she always seemed unstable and I didn’t want to be around people like that anymore, but I never told her this or did anything against, and even then... Why?

Things with my girlfriend had also been rough, I love her but every week she would get upset about the littlest of things, I talked with her about this and she always ends up saying that it’s because she doesn’t feel loved, even though I told her I loved her every single day, I sent her food when she didn’t want to eat because she was feeling down, and hold her next to me when she would wake up from nightmares. She nevered seemded to remember this things when discussing how I didn’t love her enough, it was never enough. She told me that I was damaging her emotionally, that she couldn’t accept it anymore... Honestly, it was shitty for both of us.

A few weeks ago we where going to play DnD with my friend, her GF, mine two other people and me. We had been playing Divinity original sin 2 with my GF, but she was already moody because the game had a weird interface and supposevely I had made a stupid choice for both of us (We were only 30 minutes in the game). We realised we were late so we stopped the game. When we got into the discord call I asked her if she save the game just in case and she told me that she had already closed the game as if my question was stupid. I didn’t want to make a scene so I brushed it off. We started playing and eventually got to a point where my GF’s character realised who the murderer’s of her family were, obviously her character was shocked and she made very clear that another character should talk to hers. Now, my paladin was known to be a selfish jerk from the beginning, so it made no sense for him to approach out of the blue her character. However my friend’s GF insisted that it should be me, making very clear that she was implying that it was my GF and I should talk to her. Because breaking inmerssion in a fictional game instead of talking things directly is always the best. Eventually we got into combat, my GF was trying to give the finishing blow and used a spell that according to her never misses. I told her that that’s not how the spell works and she got upset saying that that’s how it has always been, even though I had told her before after another session this wasn’t the case. She then got angrier and asked the DM what to do, and the DM told her that if that was what the rules said then that’s how it is. She got really upset and began implying that I was a selfish cheater and that I made up my own rules. Honestly this made no sense but I didn’t want to make more drama now so whatever. After the game she kept saying that I had no right to say what I sad and that I should let the DM handle it, I explained that it was a very basic rule and that the DM even agreed to it, but she didn’t care. After all that unnecesary bullshit I had had enough...

The next day I talked with her and let her know that it made no sense for us to be togegher if I was always going to be a pain for her. She tried to say that we could work it out but I made very clear that we tried before and it wasn’t going to work, she also told me that apparently in a different group they had they all agreed that I was being super annoying in the game. Yeah, sure, my friends GF is in that group and has had a history of telling my friend that I was being mean to her and needed to be stopped, even though we hadn’t even spoke. I asked my friend about this but he told me the main issue was that not everyone was having fun, never really admiting to saying anything against me. I gave them the benefit of the doubt, even though they could have talked to me about this supposed issue themselves instead of me finding out because someone told me while fulled by rage. So I texted them in the group saying sorry for explaining the rules of the game. But my friends GF was not taking it, she was making passie aggresive comments immplying that I had gone TOO FAR, and that I made everyone unconfortable. So yeah, my GF can tell me that I’m a cheater but if I explain a rule I’m making everything awakward... Another who I talked very little with even came to defend me, saying that I was just explaining basic rules and didn’t think I deserved all the things she was saying. I wanted to see if the would reconsidered, but instead he could me a liar piece of shit who talks shit behind everyones back (But you did....Whatever) and that ever since she knew me she could tell I was going to be an asshole. Shen proceded to kick me out of the DnD group... Wow...

Honestly, it was too much for me. The worst part is that NO ONE even talked to me after, not even my friend. They haven’t add me back to the group even to this day. When I tried to talk to my friend to know if I did something to upset him he just told me that it was his GF that was upset because I treated my girlfriend poorly. I told him that she said I made him cry and talked shit behind him and if asked him if he could told me when this happended but he avoided the questions saying it was because of how I treated my girlfriend... He never took responsability of how his GF acted... Honestly I lost a very old friend that day, he was distant and it was like talking to someone in a parallel dimension.

That day I realised that a lot of people were talking shit behind my back, even possibly my best friend. My now ex-girlfriend told me that she sometimes talked to them about how she felt, but it never occured to her that it would cause this, insisting that it was actually about how I never talked to my friends GF... How can someone even come to that point? We barely spoke so how?

The part that still stinks is that my friend insisted in adding her to our close friends whats app group. And now she is still talking there, as if nothing had happended... I though you hated me but apparently you have no issue being in the same group as me now? It just pains me too much, it pains me a lot because now some people are just going to hate me, because they feel that was she said was true...

Today I talked with my group of friends about this and they all seemed to agree that she crossed the line. I focused to much on avoiding drama but I can’t take it anymore, she verbally abused me and it’s not fair. I don’t know how my friend will react to her GF being kicked, but honestly she took it too far...

After all of this... I just want to leave, I just want to move to another country. This place has been giving me nothing but reasons to live. I’m not in a relationship anymore, I lost one of my oldest friends and the economy is going down...

 I just want to be happy, I just need peace...

 Please?

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