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beingsanket · 6 months

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hypomanicdaydream · 1 year

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Love Letters for Dying Stars

What if my brain were not a dying star?

So crammed full of matter,

What matter?

Shimmering colors, grand schemes,

So many dreams that I won't have the energy for

By the morning. So close to burning out;

I can't sleep. So close to imploding,

But I can't think in a straight line,

Or even about one thing.

I take a star a billion years to do

What I do in one irrational, incorrigible moment.

My wondrous, astonishing self-destruction,

More train wreck with skin

than magnificent implosion.

I can hear their voices, steps from me, but

nobody can pull me from my own burning body.

The supernova, my own hopeless mind.

No hands can reach me, but at least

They slowed down to watch. What after?

All great shows fade to black.

Hold the applause, please. Do not encourage me.

Dark night sky full of smoke,

The black hole I left behind,

The headstone to mark where

My history lies.

My graveyard of notebooks,

Things I never meant to buy.

What if my mind were not a dying star?

I would be not so destructive,

Neither, so beautiful.

If I must endure this-

This shining and imploding-

If I must swallow all that comes near,

If I must make my trips around the galaxy-

To the other stars that burn with me,

To the moons that have loved me,

I hope, at least, you enjoyed the colors.

by K.R. (rosewatercinnamon)

#bipolar #bipolardisorder #bipolar2 #bipolar1 #bpd #manic #manicepisode #bipolarpoetry #creativeoutlet #prose #original poetry #poemblr #mentally exhausted #deep feelings #life lessons

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milfingainteasy · 2 months

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Resources, because you're not alone:

10 self-love tips for people with bipolar disorder, written by Hannah Blum, author of The Truth About Broken: The Unfixed Version of Self-Love:

https://halfway2hannah.com/2020/08/05/10-self-love-tips-for-people-with-mental-illness/

Daily bipolar mood tracker:

https://www.dbsalliance.org/wellness/wellness-toolbox/wellness-tracker/

It is more common than you think:

https://screening.mhanational.org/content/how-common-bipolar/#:~:text=About%201%20in%2040%20American,affects%20men%20and%20women%20equally.

Loving someone with bipolar disorder:

https://www.healthline.com/health/bipolar-disorder/relationship-guide#:~:text=Be%20open%3A%20It's%20vital%20to,plan%20created%20by%20their%20doctor.

Loving YOURSELF with bipolar:

https://psychcentral.com/bipolar/when-youre-struggling-with-self-loathing-in-bipolar-disorder

Get your sleep, friend, you need it:

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5579327/

Find your people. You deserve it:

https://www.dbsalliance.org/support/chapters-and-support-groups/find-a-support-group/

You can persuade the minds around you, but presentation matters:

https://www.camh.ca/en/driving-change/addressing-stigma

Applying logos, pathos, and ethos to advocate for mental health awareness:

https://www.ipl.org/essay/Mental-Health-Ethos-Pathos-And-Logos-P33QJEQMG5PT

Adrienne Maree Brown and Pleasure Activism, a response and promotion:

https://minnesotareview.wordpress.com/2020/02/19/why-i-am-reading-adrienne-maree-browns-pleasure-activism/

#mentalhealthresources #adriennemareebrown #ethoslogospathos #manicepisodes

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itbe1964 · 1 year

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when you get to feel like you’re on uppers without actually being on uppers #manicepisode

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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woemegrims · 3 years

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One big misconception

about Bipolar type 2 Disorder is that it is the 'milder' over-all form of Bipolar Disorder but the truth is, it's not. Yes, in Bipolar I, the symptoms of elevated mood reach full-blown mania, meanwhile in Bipolar II, it consists of hypomania which is the less severe form of mania. However, the depressive episodes of Bipolar II disorder are often longer-lasting and may be even more severe than in Bipolar I disorder. There are cases where in some people with Bipolar I may not experience a depressive episode but only manic episodes which is still very severe that it can cause hospitalization. The thing is Bipolar II disorder is not a milder form of Bipolar I disorder, but a separate diagnosis. Both types are severe which causes significant impairment and dysfunction.

This graph is a good representation of the differences between Bipolar I disorder and Bipolar II disorder. The Major Depressive Disorder (Unipolar Depression) is also included here. As you can see, in Bipolar I (blue), it reaches mania. On other hand, in Bipolar II, it only reaches hypomania. Meanwhile in MDD (yellow), it's in the depressive spectrum only, not reaching hypomania and mania. For the depression in Bipolar II (red), as you can see it is quite severe compared to the Bipolar I.

Some facts about Bipolar II disorder that you may not know:

Bipolar type II patients are more likely to commit suicide than their type 1 counterparts.

Those with Bipolar II cycle from hypomania to severe depression more frequently than Bipolar I does from mania to severe depression.

Bipolar II are more likely to experience rapid cycling than type I.

Bipolar II patients typically experience longer depressive episodes than their type 1 counterparts.

Compared to Bipolar I which psychosis happens during a manic episode, in Bipolar II, psychosis happens during a severe depressive episode.

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hinsil · 3 years

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That moment when you are aware that you are having a hypomanic episode but you just shrug it off and continue being impulsive asf.

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ladymacabrebeth · 2 years

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I do not wish for anyone to see the plagued corners of my mind. And so I descend into the deepest trenches of my ocean so that the worst beast in me won't hurt the ones I love. In solitude, I ravage the ecosystem. I am the monster the world fears. And so I retreat into the four walls of my mind, so that the ones I love will never see the evil that lurks within me.

Lady Macabre Beth

#depression #depressed #anxiety #mentalhealth #mentalillness #manicepisode #manic #violence #violent #shadowside #shadow #shadowself #shadowintegration

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fcked-up-sometimes · 4 years

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This is for everyone who I’ve met who says there isn’t stigma around mental illness because “everyone is always talking about it”.

What symptom/s do you have that aren’t socially acceptable to talk about?

For my bipolar it is

• Having no filter/ boundaries with strangers (when manic)

• Being reckless and impulsive, because I’m obviously invincible 🙄 (when manic)

• Rage and agitation (when having a manic/ mixed episode)

• Lack of hygiene: not showering, changing my clothes or cleaning my teeth (when really manic, mixed or depressed)

• Isolating myself, being unreliable and always the sad one (when depressed)

• Psychosis (at my worst during any mood episode)

• Being hospitalised involuntarily (during manic, mixed or depressive episodes)

• Harming myself or trying to end it (when depressed or during a mixed episode)

• Loss of insight “how can’t you understand that you weren’t well”

For my eating disorder it is

• Having am eating disorder at all weights... surely I can’t still have an eating disorder and be in a bigger body 🤦‍♀️

• Wasting money on food that I would go and b/p

• The physical affects that having an eating disorder can cause - like my hair thinning when I had bulimia and losing my period and being freezing when I was anorexic. It’s not pretty

• Having times when you don’t want to recover

For my anxiety it is

• Being the inconvenient one who can’t ‘just catch a train’ because of crippling anxiety so stays home

• Random panic attacks

• Not having a reason for the fear

• And yes still struggling *even* though it’s been ages

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gunpowdergardenpoetry · 5 years

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Not what you thought you knew

No matter how distorted the world gets

So dark

So evil

You have yourself

Your body

Your mind

You can trust in that

But wait

There’s been a mistake

An error in the code

A sabateur on the inside

Suddenly what you do does not fit

They would laugh if it wasn’t so damn tragic

Your thoughts

Of floating

Of flying

They’re irrational

No one understands how everything would be fixed

if you could just join the waves

washing peacefully along the coast line

No one else hears that

They didn’t see that

Those creatures crawling over your body?

Nothing but a chemical misfire

Those tiny legs

Writhing into your skin

Sinking into your scalp

Slithering along your spine

Locked into your legs

They aren’t real

You’re just a girl

Crying in a room

Scratching at the crazy as it leaks out of your bloody skin

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hellopsychobutterflies · 6 years

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Hey everyone!

Um, holy cow, I haven’t been on Tumblr in a hot second months

But guess waht I’ve been up to! I’ve graduated nursing school and as soon as I take my NCLEX (exam) I’ll be a Licensed Practical/Vocational Nurse. It’s basically one step below an RN/Registered Nurse- and I am pretty excited!

I have also been working on running a pin shop through Etsy. I have a cute Faerie Mermaid design for sale, a character pin modeled after a Cleric character class- and the newest addition to my shop are these Positive Peonies!

I designed these pins to have a semicolon in the center of the flower in honor of everyone living with mental illness. As an artist with Bipolar Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder, the meaning behind a semicolon is near and dear to my heart.

For those of you who don’t know, semicolons are often used in tattoos, drawings, and other artwork to represent a person’s individual decision to continue their life instead of ending it abruptly. This works in much the same way a semicolon continues a thought or idea into a longer sentence when the author could have used a period to end the thought instead.

This idea was made popular by The Semicolon Project, and I encourage you to check it out!

As for these pins, you can see above in the photos provided that they are almost done at the factory. They’re adding color now, and will be electroplating the metal soon to make it a nice rosy gold color.

These pins are available for pre-order on my Etsy (https://www.etsy.com/shop/PositiviKitty?ref=seller-platform-mcnav) and all pre-orders will receive a free “Break the Cycle” pin.

“Break the Cycle” is the mantra my nursing instructor gave our class. Whenever we saw something unfair, or saw patients being treated as less-than-priority we would come to her for advice and sometimes just to vent. She always told us “Remember the way you’re feeling now, and break the cycle when you are a nurse.”

We don’t have to sit idly by and watch things fall apart around us when we have the power to make things better.

To everyone out there struggling with Mental Illness, or to anyone who knows a friend who has faced that struggle head-on, hang in there! Your story isn’t over.

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themarylust · 6 years

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My life is too much right now... . . . #manic #manicepisode #anxiety #stressed #freakingout #cleaning #organizing #panic #toomuch #toomuchshit #sendhelp #donating #moving #stress #hobbies #crafts #collections #help

#anxiety #donating #hobbies #panic #help #freakingout #stressed #manicepisode #moving #crafts #sendhelp #toomuchshit #organizing #collections #manic #cleaning #toomuch #stress

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captainpirateface · 3 years

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#pornographyontheradio #bipolar #bipolardepression #bipolardisorderawareness #CaptainPirateFace #chemicalimbalance #sighthsandsoundsofinstagram #pleaseshare #fyp #foryourpage #gooniesneversaydie☠️ #gooniesneversaydie #manicepisode #manicepisodes https://www.instagram.com/p/CS4yCJPLSED/?utm_medium=tumblr

#pornographyontheradio #bipolar #bipolardepression #bipolardisorderawareness #captainpirateface #chemicalimbalance #sighthsandsoundsofinstagram #pleaseshare #fyp #foryourpage #gooniesneversaydie☠️#gooniesneversaydie #manicepisode #manicepisodes

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hinsil · 4 years

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for some insane reason, I dont want to recover. i want to relapse and suffer

#depression #dark #mental illness #mentally ill #anxiety #depressing thoughts #bipolardisorder #bipolar #depressing blog #manicepisode

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butterfliesandburnmarks · 3 years

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I have bipolar 1 disorder. This mean I experience extreme bouts of mania. For some reason, my second Covid vaccine has ignited said mania and the last few days have been interesting. Here’s tonight’s saga. 😅😅 #bipolar #bipolarawareness #bipolardisoder #bipolar1 #mania #manicepisode #weirdthingsidowhenmanic #atleastitsproductive #destigmatizementalillness #destigmatizebipolar #unglorifiedmania #myreality (at Concord, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/COZzynAFGHU/?igshid=1ievymvxu8c75

#bipolar #bipolarawareness #bipolardisoder #bipolar1 #mania #manicepisode #weirdthingsidowhenmanic #atleastitsproductive #destigmatizementalillness #destigmatizebipolar #unglorifiedmania #myreality

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