It's been quite a while since i last posted something unfortunately nothing has changed for me I'm constantly depressed with bipolar disorder nightmares and ptsd but i am learning how to cope with these things with counseling it is helping but i am still feeling the same way I've been feeling depression hurts
This breaks my heart to watch, and I know it’s comedy gold, but man… Action Bronson’s short lines hit me hard. Especially when he says “tell my father I love him and I hate him at the same time, and I forgive him”
And then “tell my sister I know she’s my mother”
This goes to show you can’t tell by looking at a person how screwed up their childhood must have been. Those two heart crushing lines took me back to the memories of all of the men in my life whom I found out had such traumatizing lives and they held in the pain for so much time.
One of my dearest friends in highschool had such a similar life. An abusive father, and a sister who was raped by his father and actually birthed him. He was being raised in a lie of such a disgusting act. I couldn’t imagine living that life and finding out who I was.
If y’all ever wanted to know what being bipolar is like: I just went from feeling like I wanted to break my phone and scream and die to like.. everything’s fine and I’m laughing at memes and watching a show lol Nothing has changed, except for a switch just turned off in my brain. It’s annoying. Mostly because usually the angry/depressed episodes last about twice as long as the clear headed ones. *sigh*
...surprises me with pizza for dinner, relaxing place to nest ( I call it nesting, since being chronically ill I don't like moving once comfortable ) and then cues up Devil May Cry 5 on her gaming system.
Then tells me: "I got this for my enjoyment, watching you play and dork out over. Have fun." She sits back and watching me sob a bit, while playing. This series means a lot to me. Like, I can't put into words how much but the Sparda boys are my comfort.
I played from 5pm to 3am; and beat the game in a single night. Because I know them so well. Their move sets, and etc.. I've needed this. Needed to see my friend and get away for the weekend.