#im sad empty and lost

[wingardium-levioshiiit]

When you come to the realization you're having a mental breakdown and panicking about what to do and how control this before it spirals out of control....... all of the what ifs....the cauldron is starting to bubble over and the fire is still raging..... I'm so tired.... my body is so sore and exhausted.... I need stability.... structure, routine....I need a living environment that makes me feel at home....a job that doesn't constantly slap me in the face with using other sources for ideas I come up with.... am I not a good artist? I'm not over the top amazing but I'm not terrible.... why can't I succeed? Why won't people use my talents? Uu<ggggghhhhhhh

#vent #venting #mentalbreakdown #mental breakdown #:( #im so sad #im sad empty and lost

[mermaidinthedeepocean]

#anxious #sad quotes #anxienty #dead inside #depressing post #depressing quotes #depressing shit #effy stonem #darkness #dead #exhausted #mentally drained #mental illness #emptiness #late night thoughts #mental disorder #im crying #insomnium #im fine #im lost

[suntails]

⚔️🦈

#twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #floyd leech #suntails #adding tags retroactively bc i dont want to be too worrying. so ppl know my brother almost tried to . and i had to take care of it #and i got a 900 dollar medical bill today. and im unemployed. so it um. kinda broke the last straw. and twt has been miserable to touch #got in a small fight w my friend and i felt physically sick and ive been having little mini breakdowns like 3 times a day and im not used t #i dont get sad like this. i dont GET soul-crushingly upset. i dont get nervous. i normally j shut down and get thru stuff so im rly lost #sry for the vent i dont intend for it to act as such. i j wanted to give context for whats been going on bc a lot of ppl here r tumblr-Only #i rly liked this when i drew it bc i love silly meme outfits. i drew minions a lot when i was into hq so it felt like returning to my roots #im sure when i feel less empty ill be happy w this again

[floating-ocean]

Today I read something that said:

"Someone who overthinks is also someone who overloves." And I felt that.

#love #my post #my heart #im hurtin #i want to cry #txt post #text post #text #sad but true #poems on tumblr #im bored #im tired #i feel empty #feeling lost

[lugwen]

AU in which etho attended the charity event, just didnt tell anyone until he joined them at the after-party + had to drink the nervousness away

#i really want to read a fanfic with this plot #begging someone to write it and tag me #maybe i just drew that cause im sad my wine is empty #lost the reference and cant find it anymore rip #but its a pretty popular meme #ethoslab #ethoslab fanart #my art #mine

[late-for-the-sky]

Shooting Stars, Franz von Stuck

#shooting star #wishing for death #death wish #night sky #stars #franz von stuck #suicidal #lost #falling apart #depressiv #borderline personality disorder #bpd #suffering #don’t wanna be here #tw suicidal #shooting stars #tw depression #broken #empty #im sad and tired #tired #kms

[siriuslynephilim]

half info now keep guessing <3

you're so evil shut up im not good at this atleast tell me where did you go fir i can guess THIS IS TOO BIG

#saumya btw pata hai. im going to eras movie tomorrow???? #idk how this happened i met my bestie na yesterday and she was telling about how her psychiatrist told her to go to movies go out w friends #bc she's too sad #and i was like hey mere saath movie chal pls pls pls and she just said yep sure?? #im shocked and scared to be excited i thought i lost my chance bc i thought diwali ke baad wala weekend would be last show and dad wasn't #letting me come home and sis isn't even here??? #but yay!! #i hope #theatre is still empty but she's excited abour free refills of cheese caramel popcorn? idk aise bhi hota tha #saumyuuuuuu

[all-dead-inside21]

A lot of people don't know that daddy issues aren't positive things only. And if these negative things kicking I feel so fucking lost. I don't know what to do and there is no one where my body can rely on... Or my mind. I'm crying the whole day and hope these feelings finally stop. Cause I have no Man who can calm me down with these issues...

#tw depressing stuff #death tw #depressiv #left alone #being alone #dying alone #tw #im sad and tired #head empty #borderline personality problems #bpd blog #bpd splitting #daddy issues #negative #lost #i am alone #all alone #alone #physical contact #kinda depressing #depression #depressed

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

You are seriously my favorite blog right now. You opinions and meta for ikevamp are so spot on. You somehow are able to flush the characters more than the canon. I just wanted to say I appreciate all the time you put into your writings and I love everything you have written so far!!!!

In Comte and Leo we trust 🫡

Aww, thank you so much! 💛💛💛

Honestly I have no control over the brainworms, I feel like Ikevamp is so saturated with implications that extrapolating becomes so much natural fun for me. I started writing and analyzing (with no supervision to stop me, big mistake) and I'm still so fascinated with it. I can't believe it's been almost what...four years? Five years? Since I started playing the Japanese version where this all began. I'm frankly flattered a lot of people agree/like my takes, it makes sharing my work really rewarding in ways I never expected~

I don't always have time for more than Comte thirsting and silly quotes these days, but you're more than welcome to enjoy what I've curated here! I imagine I won't stop shitposting until the app is discontinued, and even then I'm not confident I'll shut up 🤣🤣🤣 Comte's the best baby girl I've ever known lmfao

o7 PUREBLOOD STAN OR BUST HELL YEAH!

#tysm for such a kind ask! this made my day <333 #pureblood propaganda #(people need to stop validating my breaching containment it only makes me more powerful /j) #sometimes I wish the eng ver implemented more of the depth and hank pank from the og more consistently but alas #localizations are a bit of a hit or miss business im afraid #i also love how i've inadvertently created a sad pureblood fan club over the years (not you vlad) #(you can join after you've had your time out like a good boy) #but in all seriousness i find their lives strikingly saturated with complex emotion and subtle tragedy/melancholy #ig for a lack of a better description i just feel like they're relatable? #like yeah if i was leonardo and my abusive family could harass me forever #i would also be incredibly guarded and set in my ways to protect myself and probably hate vampires and their power plays #if--like comte--i felt a sense of identification with the people i was pressured to subjugate #i'd feel lost and empty too; unable to co-exist with my own kind but also inevitably at a distance from humans #both scenarios create an emotional and relational quagmire #and i think what's even harder about it for both of them is that they just have no choice--and rather few allies besides each other #all they can really choose is duplicity if they wish to remain true to themselves and reasonably survive #and i think that's a really exhausting/somewhat self-impoverishing position to be in #comte tries to subsist on ephemeral moments he shares with people--with varying levels of success (little) #leonardo forces himself into stasis bc if he doesn't he'll keep making the same mistakes #aka getting too close to people and getting hurt when their time ends #ive prbly said all this before but idk in light of so much i've learned since starting this blog #the allusions to vampirism being a vehicle for certain 'othered' identities seems boundless to me (domestic abuse/class structures/nd etc.) #vlad is a pureblood but he seems like one of those flat movie vampires pandering to the aesthetic obsessions of a v particular audience #any story needs both flat and round characters--so naturally his existence serves a purpose/function; nothing wrong with that #but i find myself to be too Shrek to be v invested in him (FAVES HAVE L A Y E R S) #ig i just think its very easy and a bit bland to associate vampires with horror/gore/unmitigated violence/extreme emotionality #but much more engaging to explore the status of monstrosity as it relates to oppressed identities and unconventional kindness #or maybe that's just the monsterfker in me--in which case sorry everyone being cringe on main (it will happen again)

[why-its-kai]

i am straight up not having a good time right now (being alive)

#december gets harder and harder every year #my life stagnated #im not getting the support i need bc the ppl there suck at communicating and im too tired to keep begging #lost interest in my hobbies #do hardly nothing every day and feel terrible that im not doing anything #tired agitated sad mad empty frustrated etc. #dreading the holidays #like what do i have to look forweard to any more lmaoooooooooooooo #dw im not gonna do anything to myself i just have to complain bc its tearing me apart inside

[speakfrommysoul]

Lost on you…

#empty #hurtful #i feel numb #lost #night thoughts #sadness #alone #emptiness #i need you #im tired #sick and tired #i miss you #i want you #im sad and tired #lost love #romantic soulmates #sad thoughts #take me back to the night we met #nostalgic #strangers again #lostonyou #justifyoucouldcutmeloose #lost in your eyes #lostlove

[mermaidinthedeepocean]

#anxious #sad quotes #anxienty #dead inside #depressing post #depressing quotes #depressing shit #effy stonem #darkness #dead #exhausted #mentally drained #mental illness #emptiness #late night thoughts #mental disorder #im crying #insomnium #im fine #im lost

[dogcollarpunk]

actually extremely sad coming back to neopets its like a shell of its former self

#beef trimmings #SORRY FOR THE LONG OFF TOPIC RAMBLE BUT #no games and so many things on the site dont work anymore or are super hard to do #flash I miss u sm #im sorry my brain was too stupid empty to really Get into neopets as a kid!! I played it & the little games n stuff but I was just too #dumb to google guides 💀 #ugh and now im an adult and understand things and I can code HTML I can make my little neopets page NICE BUT #LIKE!!! THE SITE IS HALF BROKEN #<3 also my uni friend joined up as well and we're each others first neopets friends ever kajsf #but im sad it makes me sad so many games were lost #and who knows how long itll take for them to update things on the site if they ever truly will #dies a thousand little deaths

[drowning-in-the-nothing]

The Harrowing Pt. 1

I’ve found a poison inside myself

It’s draining and crippling

The little thoughts and ideas

Have started tightening their grip

I want to be okay just for a day

But I’m not so sure I can keep the fight

I’m drowning in myself

No one hears the screaming in my head

No one sees the agony behind the smile

No one knows the scars I’ve mentally carved

It’s a great facade I’ve developed

The empty smile

The dead glint in my eyes

The hollow laughter

This isn’t where I’m supposed to be

This isn’t how I’m supposed to live

This isn’t what I’m supposed to feel

Yet here I am and not a damn soul knows

Every one of them dumb, deaf and blind

To the torment in my head

Oblivious to the raging War of Self

Ignorant to the self sabotage inflictions

The bleeding going on in my head—

The stains left on the tile and porcelain

The tears and fissures in the skin

But they’re only mental wounds…

Kyle Stewart

6/1/23

#poetry #self loathing #emptiness #self deprecation #self h@rm #lost #self reflection #in my head #darkness #idk what im doing #i’m sad #i’m not okay #drowning #mentally fucked #mental instability #mentally tired #mental wounds #self sabatoge

[im-sad-too-lol]

I cannot even share anything to anyone, anymore.

#sad #anxiety depression #late night thoughts #mentally drained #tired #emptycore #empty inside #depressing quotes #overthinking #insecurities #self confidence #self esteem #relatable #not worthy #lost #im tired #i'm so fucking tired #alone with my thoughts #tired of this shit #thoughts #mental health #sad poetry

[m0e-ru]

one of my most outstanding achievements I like to be aware of is that I am a "adachi tag most used tag" blogger and I haven't drawn edgy villain "I'm sick of the world" art of him once

#kommento #// no bored looking lazy tired expressions nor him posing him in front of a tv #// like I gave him TV trauma already and the best youll see is that ive hit him w a bat and cruelly kicked him around like a stray animal #// hes far from a poor little murderer meow meow ive made him a sad crying sopping wet cat who lost everything after learning to let things #// fill his emptiness which makes him severely regret that and why he doesnt do that in the first place #// I don't say 'posted' because I've gone through archives of all my art and doodles a million times to look for something to eat #// even at the start of my persona phase 2017-present there is NOTHING of me making him look like That #// I don't find it in me to ever draw him like every edgy anime keyart he's in or the general genre of how he's depicted in canon or fandom #// closest thing to source is that I can draw him as a goofball. and at the opposite end of the spectrum is me making him cry like a baby #// there's so much to do with tohruadachi than. uhm. whatever rokurosaito does. im the girl filling a niche THAT IS THE MOEL HONOR ‼️‼️‼️