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onlyjaeyun · 7 months

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What especially gets me about certain fandoms, is someone will literally request something, then get mad you didn't copy and paste the idea they were thinking of from their brain, like if you have an exact idea of what you want, write it yourself, don't send me a request then get mad since my interpretation isn't what you wanted. That gets me as well, like this is a hobby, we are here writing for free, and you have the audacity to get mad I represent something differently than the idea you had built up of that idol in your mind. It's so irritating, since it robs the joy from something you enjoy doing, then you have people complaining why don't you do this or that anymore, and it's just like because of you.

I was in the NCT fandom right when 127, U, and Dream debuted (showing my age here since I was here the day they debuted), and it was a wild time, like 40 year old smut writers were interacting with 14 year olds, and like I don't even write smut on my blog since I personally just don't, but like that ain't gucci, ain't cool, interacting with kids young enough to be your actual child nah. Engenes seem to be a lot more respectful than other fandoms I've seen, which I feel is wonderful. Like the other day my whole feed was nothing but people sharing minors that write smut with each other so we can all block them, which I feel is so nice, since I remember in my NCTzen days, people would say stuff like oh it doesn't hurt anyone, and it's just like it's hurts me, my heart, minors don't need to see that stuff or interact with it they are children. I know, like you wrote like 10 things about him, then are all oh I didn't know his age, like I don't believe you at all, but okay; I'm surprised they didn't try to pull a 'I meant Taki Riki not Niki Riki' since Taki's 18. The only fandom I feel I can compare to the Engene fandom in how chill the tumblr writers are(or seem to be at least) is the Wanna One fandom, like I had some younger writer friends that called me mom; if anything was weird about the interactions, it was usually them, I'd be like 'go eat dinner and go to sleep you have school tomorrow', and then they would be all '1-800-get-that-dick go get laid you old lady'.

THIS THIS THIS!!!!! when i tell you back when i started writing it was mostly bc i barely found people who wrote content rhe way i wanted it to so i was like fuck it imma do it myself and i wish some people would do it themselves bc how are you gonna get your crusty ass in an inbox and requests smth super specific just to be UNHAPPY with what the WRITER and owner of the blog wrote like get the fuck out of here 💀

and yeah, i experienced similar things in the anime fandom like i lit had mutuals aged 17/18 and then moots who were in their thirties and besides one of them i just felt like both sides overstepped boundaries all the time like girl PLEASE 💀 that's probably why i always stick to my 99/00/01liner babies bc my irl friends are also in that age range and i feel the most comfy with them. (i dont mind you ger or older mutuals ofc) and honestly that whole riki part is just so icky bc they probably kew exactly what they were doing and only felt "sorry" bc they got called out for it yk? but yeah, older fandoms used to be way more chill when it came to the whole different ages but gladly i havent had any problem among engenes on here yet so fingers crossed 🫰🏼

#; mailbox 📬

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love-nakamura · 4 months

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For the character ask game, Percy Jackson numbers 4 and 18?

first of all HI FRIEND<33 thank you for asking you are so brave and amazing and I love you

[so the thing about Percy is 1. I love him and 2. I havent read the source material in.... Years.. but I shall answer most honestly]

4: If I could put Percy in any other media where would I put him?

a) technically he does have 2 movies hes in a TV show now my baby!!!!!!

b) actually I think this question is asking if I could put him in another world maybe..?

If so, with the pre-requisit he travels with Annabeth, I would honestly love to see him in a Brandon Sanderson universe, specifically the Reckoners series. I think it would be interesting to see him fight other People with 'powers' rather than gods/non humans.

All of the Percy Jackson series in my head always has people fighting for causes that are blamed on a higher power or another group/being (eg. the fights, although against another demigods, are people who side with demigods vs people who side with gods, titans, monsters, etc. to fulfill human desires/pride... yet at the same time these guys are being manipulated by others... ) and I would love to see him navigate slightly more human-blamed causes and issues!!

Also he would just be so cool and strong!!!!! hahah

18) A relationship Percy has in canon that I admire

all of them m...... Percy has great chemistry with Everyone, but two more specifically:

a) Grover. I think theres so much missed potential tbh in the series as time goes on. Grover is like a full ass adult but theyre also best friends. technically Grover lied by omission to percy for like the start and basis of their friendship but also they have an emotional and mental bond that connects them for life. they have saved each others lives a hundred times over. theyre brothers. also theyre stupid.

I think Grover must have felt a lot of like.. fakeness? Imposter syndrome? at first because dude hes basically a spy whos in charge of taking care of this kid, specifically a kid who reminds you a lot about a kid he Failed before.... and yet Percy forgives him and loves him and the fact that hes a half goat and an adult is like hey whatever since we're friends

It speaks a lot about Percy's character (and his loyalty) to me and also if you've read the other series you'll know Grover doesn't really go on quests anymore/show up a lot and yet their love for each other is still there and hey thats what friendship is yeah?

b) Nico. AHHH NICO *ahem* anyways. I Love Percy and Nicos relationship. one sided crush, percy is So Cool and like the Awesome Older Guy™ you know whose like..??? everything to you?? and also you're Gay and Percy freaking Hurt you and you feel like he was Wrong and Broke a Promise to you but you also realize as you grow older that guy is Literally Just A Guy™ and a Child at that.. and for Percy like.... this kid who looks up to you and hey this is actually like..? the First time in your life where someone explicitly states they think youre cool and a good role model and that Pressure!! and you feel that responsibility but also youre like 14????

and then later when you both get older you realize that the other person is so much more than you can ever see or understand and the portrait you had of them in your head barely scratches the surface and thats a Good thing because it means that people are so much greater than you knew and your past does not define you and moving on from something doesnt mean you dont love it anymore

I think Percy and Nico's relationship is admirable because theres so much forgiveness (both for each other and for themselves as they navigate what it means to have/make/maintain relationships with people that you've never experienced before) and thats beautiful to me.

this was Super Fun and I hope you have a wonderful day muah <3333

#me #pjo #ask game #THANK YOU THIS WAS SO MUCH FUN #I honestly didnt realize I had this many thoughts but like #I loved this #hope the answers were not too long or boring!!!!

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thisdreamplace · 1 year

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Do you agree with Kriston on the belief that you do not cause your reality as a singular consciousness and her belief on it being delusional? I agree with some of the things she mentioned such as the gaslighting and bypassing but some of her content doesn’t resonate. When listening, it felt like she would disagree with some aspect of manifestation but then her rebuttal sounds quite similar to what she is disagreeing with…liked her episode though.

such a good question bestie. yes, kind of ? LOL like. because people who talk like that literally call their human self god and don't actually realize their human self is not god and never was. so yeah, what she said made sense from that perspective. i just dont think everything is as clear cut as we wanted to believe it was when we first learned about everything. (like no its not as simple as thoughts create, etc etc) and i think its the secret a lot of coaches wont tell you. (not all, but the ones who care more about money or popularity than they care about actually helping people). people rly be thinking their human self is controlling life and thats just so far from what any teaching ever said. (this is why i have the bible verses i have in my bio, bc the difference is so overlooked) so on a level yes, but i also cant elaborate more at this moment. lol

tbh where i'm at on my journey rn and what i have experienced this past year has instilled this deeper understanding within me that i just havent been able to fully put into coherant words yet. guess thats why i dont rly post on anything specific these days. cuz im just out here experiencing, rather than just thinking.

i also agree with you on that, how she disagrees but also sounds like she agrees at the same time. its because kriston isnt actually against the law and hasnt stopped believing in manifestation. its moreso because she disagrees with how its being taught these days and the misguidance that is popular in the community on the basis of money and clout. so yeah, i think thats why she can sound contradictory; if you dont realize shes not actually against the law as a spiritual practice it may sound that way.

also. love how youre able to be open to other perspectives but also know when something doesnt work for you. we love a multi-dimensional person with an open mind. at least i do. i live for it. <3

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urboymutual · 2 years

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hiii i think youve got some good thoughts on things and I was wondering what your thoughts on transandrophobia were?

hi anon thats nice of u to say!

but um im not sure exactly what ur looking for so ill try to answer ur question to the best of my abilities fjfjjf

as a transmasc dude i dont think i personally ever experienced transandrophobia? just like my own experience (frankly i feel i def have more privilege compared to transfem people but thats my opinion ofc) but i've experienced transphobia for being a trans man but never like. specifically for being a trans man idk i definitely dont wanna discount other trans masc people's experiences but its not something i feel i ever struggled with? (like if anything i feel like being a man of color has more of an impact vs like being a trans guy if that makes sense ((for my own identity ofc))

tho another reason i kinda have this mindset is that ive been in communities with heavy transmascs populations compared to transfems like in high school there were like. 20 transmasc students and ive only interacted with 2 transfem ppl and one was a trans woman who i think dropped out bc of the transmisogyny she experienced so :/

yeah idk bc i know a lot of ppl talk abt (expecially on the r/ftm reddit which i lowkey like . hate the vibes of . like a LOT . i only used it for looking at other ppls top surgery experiences) transandrophobia and like the invisibility of being transmasc but like i said ive mostly been in heavy transmasc communities. like even going to t-camp which is a camp for transgender college students in california there were like . 10 transfems compared to the 40 transmasc ppl so it was like . idk transmasc ppl havent been invisible to me at least.

and i do know there r like some statistics abt how like transmascs r denied hrt and surgery coverage more compared to transfems tho its also im not educated enough i guess but why does it no longer become just like transphobia. why is it considered transandrophobia when transfems also get denied hrt and surgery coverage just maybe not at the same rates?? but like i wonder if the statistics took into account like population variables? bc if ur gonna have 60/100 transmascs denied hrt compared to 30/60 transfems denied hrt like of course its going to be like transmascs being denied more hrt??? idk this is kinda becoming ranty so im just gonna wrap it up

i personally haven't experienced transandrophobia but i wont try to like . discount other transmasc's experiences. tho i do not think like transfems can perpetuate transandrophobia towards transmascs and transmasc individuals still have a certain degree of privilege over transfem individuals . i hope that makes sense and answers ur question!

#r/ftm is literally the most 😭😭 fucking reddit community #so many of those guys r like. idk i saw a transfem make a post like i hope its fine for me to be here bc i just wanna be educated on-#transmasc issues and the guys in the comments were like UR OPRESSING ME WOMAN. by commenting on this forum as a transfem ur SILENCING ME #idk theyre such whiny ass babies like transmascs ppl dont speak over tranfems constantly #tho i try to. hold it in bc i know some transmen think the way to achieving 'masculinity' is silencing womens voices lol #but ofc like idk maybe there r some transmascs out there experiencing transandrophobia #idk anon u got me thinking abt this now 🤔🤔

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hacknet · 2 years

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ok so im wondering if like. they tried to make skyrim the exact opposite of oblivion? granted i havent played oblivion in YEARS now but from what i remember anyway:

oblivion is in cyrodiil which is mostly warm weather except up north, and for the most part its a very civilized country where most people live in proper cities or towns and there are well-established roads. when asked to give resources for it, the leaders of each city are united in their goal to stop the daedra invasion. there's a couple awful people but in general the races arent treated much differently. the thieves guild wants to steal from and embarrass the corrupt guards, and never mess with the poor people. the ruins are even pretty intact and well kept looking despite only skeletons living there.

skyrim, on the other hand, is freezing cold and everything looks a little unstable. there are roads but they don't seem much safer than walking through the wilderness. the jarls are unwilling to help with the dragons until the civil war is dealt with. it would be far easier to count the people in skyrim who are not racist than the ones that are. the thieves guild IS the corrupt power structure that SPECIFICALLY fucks over poor people. every ruin in skyrim looks like it should have crumbled to dust 500 years ago

theres probably more but i do not remember the oblivion mages guild quests and never played the fighters guild ones. like....is this on purpose.

making you into whatever you weren't before in these quests? blade to dragonborn. thief with morals to corrupt mafia guy. experienced assassin chosen to be a listener for their skill to listener who doesnt know anything about anything and just happens to be the most special boy in the world

you see where im going with this right. i think they really could have done something with this concept if they tried hard enough (or were trying at all...? still unclear) but a lot of what i would consider important parts of this also have things i would change.....

i think a lot of what made oblivions work is that again it never came out of nowhere when you were given the high ranks in guilds/factions you always had to earn it. like even when you were made the leader it was never like "Well the leaders dead now. you may as well take over even though everyones still rude to you" because i am not kidding that happens 4 TIMES in skyrim. i half expected to be able to kill the jarls and take over for them. let me kill arngeir and take over the greybeards too why not.

actually yeah they should have let me become the world eater after i killed alduin. i slurped his soul like a soup i should be allowed to.

anyway idk. i think the opposites in skyrim/oblivion are neat. the comfortable and occasionally even friendly travelling in cyrodiil vs the constant hostility and violence in skyrim. the people in oblivion only giving their life story when you ask (generally). vs skyrims "I work for belethor at the general goods store" "if you want a handout speak to my husband" "once i save up enough coin im going to buy the inn from hulda" "my name is (bfbdgxgxv) blah blah great clan battle born a name im sure you know well" "this feud with the gray manes is as stupid as the civil war" (<- this one is stupid because a huge part of the feud in the first place literally is the civil war) NOBODY SPEAKS LIKE THIS TO SOMEONE THEY JUST HAPPENED TO WALK BY

#my post #skyrimposting #this is beyond incomprehensible sorry. im sleepy again

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hopeshoodie · 4 years

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Inspired by having to get my coworkers cars unstuck in the snow, I thought about how the LITG islanders would deal with snow the whole drive home when I wasn't sliding through a red light.

Bobby: Cannot drive in snow. Even if there's just a dusting on the ground, he'll refuse to go anywhere. He slid off the highway once while trying to take an exit and it 100% made him anxiety cry. He just assumes that if it's snowing, no one else is traveling, then gets confused when people say "um no... life goes on..." Plus Bobby's shitty little car gets stuck so easily, and his tires has zero tread, so he probably shouldn't be driving it any ways.

Hannah: one of those bitches who will still drive even though she doesnt know how to drive in snow. She doesn't know the techniques of when to turn the wheel, how to control drift, how to break, or how to floor it when you need to go over a plow bank. She'll get stuck, you'll help her get unstuck by pushing, then she won't give it enough gas and will get stuck two meters away.

Gary: Loves helping getting cars unstuck. He gets weatherproof mats specifically to help with traction and always keeps kitty litter and a shovel in his trunk. He gets up at dawn every morning to shovel. When he and MC have kids, he has infinite patience with them """helping""" shovel (re:playing in the snow while he shovels). He takes a lot of pride in his snowblower and will do the neighbors' sidewalks as well.

Graham: you know he has tire chains. It's just a fact.

Lily: is so damn stubborn and will always try to drive even if there's an advisory and she really doesn't need to. She's gotten stranded a few times because of that, and it takes a LOT of snow low visibility to convince her it's bad enough to pull over.

Lottie: is late to literally everything because the 'roads were bad'. That's partially it, but she also doesnt start digging out her car until 5 minutes before she needs to leave.

Marisol: hates shoveling and will pay for a company to come and plow her driveway. That being said she loves the aesthetic of snow- how it dampens all the sound and makes everything look clean and crisp. She definitely sits in an outdoor hottub while it's snowing or wrapped in a blanket on a porch. She's pretty happy to work from home if the roads are bad.

Noah: is the most careful when the roads are bad- drives super slow, always gives ample following room, hardly ever comes to a sliding stop because he's really good about breaking gradually but intermittently. He always insists people text him that they got home safe, and will happily drive for someone who is anxious. He's probably over cautious, but it serves him well.

Rahim: so I have this ongoing headcanon that Rahim doesn't drive- he gets chauffeured or rideshare everywhere- so Rahim can't drive in the snow. But highkey, I think he would be the best person to be with in a crisis situation. You get caught in a blizzard with him and he knows exactly how to calm everyone down and prioritize what needs to happen. He definitely has an emergency kit that he travels with, and at his apartment. Imagining waiting out a blizzard with Rahim in a no-tow zone 🥰🥰🥰

Talia: I think she enjoys shoveling because it gives her a sense of accomplishment, and it's a physically exhausting care task. Nothing like working up a sweat to take care of your home. She's a good driver like Noah but takes a few more liberties with speed and risks.

#yeah this is such a specific thing that lots of people havent experienced #but my blog recently has just been getting more and more niche #litg #headcanons

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steveharrington · 3 years

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this is a rant about a very specific issue but i must put my thoughts somewhere cohesively. so. this trend on tiktok thats like “put a finger down” and then at the end you’re like diagnosed with a mental illness or just source of your problems is very very very bad and its especially bad that i just saw one made by a LICENSED THERAPIST who said that experiences like “not knowing what you’re feeling” and “feeling empty” are signs that you had a neglectful childhood. now can these things be a result of having a neglectful childhood? of course they can. but they can also be a result of many other things! first of all the broadness of the statements makes it impossible to narrow down the cause of the issue. someone watching this video might feel empty because they’re in the middle of a pandemic and they havent had real human interaction in over a year. they might feel empty because of an emotionally difficult event that they’ve experienced recently. there are a million specific ways that individuals might experience a feeling of emptiness, but this video basically just picked one and told them it’s probably that. not to mention that therapy requires time! you cannot be diagnosed in a 60 second video. your feelings need to be articulated by YOU not verbalized by a stranger on the internet. the frequency of your symptoms needs to be taken into account. feeling empty every once in awhile in passing late at night is drastically different from feeling empty every day to the point that feeling real emotions seems foreign to you. all of these complexities and specificities are important. and why does it matter? because under the tiktok made by the Licensed Therapist there were comments from people saying “hey i put my fingers down for a lot of these but i feel as though i had a supportive family growing up” to which the answer from this therapist in a second video was “yeah but maybe they didnt fully support you and you just didnt realize” and THAT type of shit leads to people having a false understanding of the root of their feelings and behavior. it can detract people from being diagnosed with something they ACTUALLY have. there is overlap in symptoms between mood disorders, but if someone just assumes they have whichever one popped up on their fyp because well a therapist said it so it must be true.....it might delay them receiving an accurate diagnosis! its dangerous and its shitty and this therapist made a whole other video to say “hey btw these symptoms could be indicative of something else” but of course that video had several less thousand views because when a teenager scrolls along their fyp and sees the original video, theyre likely not gonna stop and explore this person’s entire page. and if you think im not giving teenagers on tiktok enough credit to understand this differientiation themselves, just scroll through the comments! literally hundreds of people commenting “wait........i put all my fingers down :O i never realized.....” because they’re eager to accept an explanation for their feelings from someone with credibility. its dangerous and it fucking SUCKS

#whew

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souryogurt64 · 2 years

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hi i'm the anon that was lamenting about getting older and not experiencing things as a teen anymore and everything you wrote really hit home for me. It's really really comforting to know that you only really started this stuff at 19, because i see you as like some music scene connoisseur who has had all these awesome fun crazy experiences and shit. And yeah remembering that Gerard was kind of a hermit until MCR when he was already a young adult is calming too because he's genuinely so fucking cool in my eyes lol at least younger gerard like he's my hero. Anyways yeah it was just really really helpful to read all of that, thank you so much.

Also, this is just out of curiosity, when you say you've interviewed 150 bands,,,, how lol jksfdhlkjfdgh like if you're currently almost 23 (with the past two years being pretty much ruined bc of covid) and started at around 19, how did you do so much? Like, how much of your time/life did you specifically dedicate to shows and bands and stuff? How often would you say you went/go to shows? these questions are so random and irrelevant lol i'm just curious bc i'm gonna be going to college next year and am trying to picture how my life could possibly be.

(also, I was born in Iowa City and moved away when I was 10, so I definitely get the small town thing. why were there so many more bullies there than where I am now, is it just a small town thing? are people bored so they torment those around them?? weird as hell tbh. sorry the iowans were bitches to you. I'm glad you're somewhere where you can really thrive now though.)

its just under 150, but 150 interviews over three years is about 4ish interviews a month or one interview a week, which is doable. that amount fluctuates depending on life in general. i started the zine in july 2018, so its been three years and four months ish. i turn 23 in february.

ive been to 65 shows in my lifetime according to my journal, ranging from house shows to stadiums, but i might be missing a show here or there. not all of the interviews i do are in-person, most of them are over zoom or the phone. the vast majority of those shows were pre-covid-- ive been to six post-covid. i probably went to 0-4 shows a month in college.

we work with a few small PR agencies and they help by sending some artists a template interview that they fill out and email back. weve also worked with artists that don't speak english fluently, and in that case we send the questions to to someone from their label that can translate the questions and answers.

there are a few interviews i havent been able to make, and i have people from the team sub in or my cohost does them alone but i usually do transcripts and formatting and write questions still.

i would say i realistically dedicate probably around 10 or more hours a week on average to the zine and have for the past year+. before that it was waaaaaay more sporadic and i did it way less. most of that time is emails, formatting, spreadsheets, editing, looking up contacts, and transcription. cool interviews and tours are really only a small part.

i stepped it up when i started doing radio shows from august 2020-may 2021 and only launched the website in january 2021 when i was about to turn 22.

i dont work alone, i have a very dedicated friend/cohost that puts in as much work as i do, and we moved in together and moved to chicago in october. most of the biggest strides weve made on the zine have been in the last month since were able to work more effectively together and have started to invest money in things like software and a domain name. theres a handful of other people who do stuff like art or photos or music here and there.

if you have any other questions id be happy to answer them!

also i literally think people are just bored and have a lot of time to engage in psychological warfare and overthink tiny interactions and play 4d mean girl chess. i dont really think anyone has time for that in a big city.

theres also stuff to do so you dont have bored mean teenage girls coming into your work to film you and try to get you fired or showing up at your house trying to vandalize it. people are just too busy.

also in iowa youre kind of stuck with the same people, like i was neighbors with this absolutely vile person that terrorized me on and off from middle school through college and i was kind of stuck with her because we were neighbors. in cities theres millions of people and nobody is stuck with anybody.

sure, people will be rude to you or borrow money and not pay it back or whatever, but no one has time to bully people quite like they do in small town iowa lol.

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awkwxrdapple · 4 years

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“I’m Ok” - Peter Parker (Soulmate AU) Imagine

Summary: When Peter falls through the reader’s window, hurt and wearing the Spiderman suit, the reader learns two things. One that Peter Parker is Spiderman, and the other that she has a soulmate. (The lore of this specific soulmate AU is explained in the imagine :))

Word Count: 2.2k

Warnings: Mentions of blood (Peter is hurt)

Peter had gone missing again.

How he managed to skip so much class, and still remain at the top, astounded you. Yes, you were at Midtown too, so were naturally clever and bright, but you found you still had to put the effort in with studying to make sure you had the grades you wanted.

He should have been in Physics with you this period. But his seat behind you was empty. You tried to focus on the practical that was part of your final grade, but you kept wondering and worrying, where Peter was. Why was he skipping class? His enthusiasm for learning has always been obvious throughout the time you'd been friends with him. Ever since the first day of high school when you'd both gone for the same seat in Math class, and he conceded graciously and let you take it, moving for a seat further back in the classroom. It was a weird encounter, rather awkward but at the same time... cute? You and him had become friends, along with Ned. Peter and Ned were very close, as you would expect two male best friends to be, but you and Peter were also close in your own way too. You couldn't imagine high school without him. And now, yet again, you were staring at his vacant seat.

After that period had finished, you found Ned at his locker in the hallway. He had Spanish with Peter next, so maybe he knew something. Maybe he knew that Peter would be back. You greeted him normally and then hit him with the question at hand.

"Ned have you seen Peter today?"

"Yeah I did first thing this morning, but I havent since. Why?" He asked, swapping a textbook from his locker to his bag.

"He wasn't in Physics." You state. "He's missing a lot these days. I'm worried about him."

You didn't mind admitting that. And you knew that probably Ned was too, if he didn't already know what was going on. But Ned's frown at what you had just said led you to believe that he knew as little as you did.

"I am too." He says, confirming your thoughts. "Whenever I ask him about it though, he just says he needs time off sometime. And he doesn't seem upset by anything, so I hope everything is fine."

You hoped everything was fine too. But this time you don't say it, just ponder silently on what Ned's said. You agree that Peter doesn't seem upset at all. If anything, he seems to have more energy. He still looks tired from time to time, but he seems to have more bounce in his step. Like he's been exercising more or something. Maybe that's what it is, Peter's decided he doesn't want to sit in a classroom for hours on end even though he enjoys learning, and that he'd rather be out running or something.

"Anyway, I'll see you later Y/N." Ned says with a smile, and trots off behind you to Spanish. You turn to your locker after watching him leave, and pull you gym bag from it. You go straight to the changing rooms as you might already be late after talking to Ned. As you expected, you are, as the changing rooms are deserted as everyone seems to already be in the gym.

Throwing your bag down onto the bench in front of your other locker, you realise how much time you had spent today thinking about Peter. You thought you were just worried about where he was, so you tried to stop worrying. But telling yourself to stop worrying was like telling a giraffe to stop being incredibly tall.

You pull off the shirt you were wearing and folded it to put into your locker. You caught a brief glimpse of your reflection in the mirror in the door. Your hair was already tied up off your face, you preferred it that way, made it more practical. But on your chest, right over your heart, were two words etched into your skin.

Soul-marks appeared sometime during childhood. No-one had yet worked out why, or when exactly they would appear for each person. It seemed to be random in timing, and showed no distinct pattern. Yours had appeared a few days after your eight birthday. You had overheard your parents discussing it one evening when they thought you were in bed. Neither could work out why then, and as you had yours so young, you didn't really notice it for most of the time.

They are sentences, or words, that are spoken by your soulmate to you, at the moment you realise you're in love with them. You're meant to know instantly that they're the one, apparently you just know.

Yours was staring back at you now in the mirror of your locker.

I'm ok.

You had always thought that was an odd mark, not that you had seen many others. People generally tended to keep theirs private, like it was a sacred thing that should only be shared between them and their soulmate, which you has figured made sense. But you had heard of peoples being their names, or lucky for others, their soulmates names. Some were dull sentences, some were peculiar.

You finished changing by pulling the shirt over your head and down your chest to cover your mark, and headed into the gym.

The rest of the day went fairly quickly considering your mind was wandering elsewhere. You tried to focus on the rest of your lessons but nothing was going in like it normally does. You couldn't throw yourself properly into anything.

As soon as the final bell of the day went, you started home and sent Peter a few texts on your way. You asked if he was ok, and if did need anything, that you would want to help.

You received no reply. You had eaten dinner and had studied for hours and nothing had come back from him. You hoped he wasn't sick. But it was unlike Peter to be sick. You kept trying to think of reasons but you just ended up going round and round in circles.

The sun had set over the buildings by the time you stopped working. The sky had turned an inky blue , but not black, the sky never turned black properly in New York because of all the lights. You had been so engrossed that you hadn't shut your curtains. Closing your textbooks and stacking them neatly again, you walked over to do so. But as you reached up something, or someone, fell to cling onto your windowpane.

You let out a strangled yelp before seeing who was there. You fumbled quickly with the lock on the window to open it. Peter was hauling himself up to sit precariously on your window sill... in the Spiderman suit.

Even though it was fairly dark, you could see he was injured. He really didn't look good. He didn't have the mask on, Peter is Spiderman... and he was clutching it in his hand. He had dirt all over him.

"Peter?!" To say you were shocked was an understatement. And you heard it evident in your voice. You could hear how startled and concerned you were.

He rolled off your window sill and landed on the floor with a loud thud. You winced because you hoped you parents didn't hear and then come to investigate, and also did Peter just hurt himself more? He already seemed so battered. Him falling literally through your window won't do him any favours.

He lay on your floor his facial features contorted into a grimace, showing you how much pain he was in. He was clutching his left shoulder with his right hand. Now he was in the light of your room, you could see a faint trickle of blood was seeping from under his collar bone there too, as well as half his suit being torn away from his skin. The initial shock of Peter being Spiderman has dissipated. You had no time to worry about that now because of his current condition. You could talk to him about that later. Right now, he needed your help.

You leant down onto the floor next to him, and carefully moved his right hand to further down his body so you could have a better look at what you were dealing with. You started to a feel an unfamiliar burning sensation in your chest, which you quickly realised was emotional pain for Peter being so hurt. It physically hurt you to see him in so much pain. You couldn't bare to look at his face as it just reminded you of that. So you kept focused on your task.

His suit was pealing away from itself and him. Leaving open to the air a flesh wound seeping blood slowly, which was good all things considered as it didn't look too deep. The blood could have been coming out much faster. And it was seeming to stop as if it had already begun clotting quickly to seal the wound. The skin that wasn't covered in blood, was bruised purple, which you guessed was causing Peter most of the pain.

"I need to get to you shoulder." You said as gently and softly as you could. You wanted Peter to trust you and allow you to care for him. But seen as he had turned up at your window, you hoped he already did.

You went to carefully remove some of the torn suit to get a better look when Peter spoke.

"I'm ok." He said, voice cracked from the pain he was experiencing, but it was so soft, and vulnerable.

Before he had even finished speaking you felt it. A strong surge of energy flowing right through your body, and coming to rest in your chest, right where you heart was. You looked at Peter now, looking straight into his eyes as you simultaneously felt ecstatic, and calm at the same time.

You loved Peter Parker. Peter Parker is your soulmate.

"Y/N?" He asked, his voice now full of concern for you.

"I..." You couldn't get any words out. You didn't even know what you wanted to say. He was lying bleeding and hurt on your floor and you couldn't exactly turn around and say, "I've just worked out that I love you."

You hand instinctively goes to your chest, your fingers lightly touching the words above your heart. You didn't even realise you had done it until Peter looked down to where your hand had come to rest. His eyes widened as he clocked what you'd done. He wasn't stupid.

"Y/N..." He said again but this time it wasn't a question. It was tender, with the concern still there.

You sat in silence. Both of you working out what to say to the other one. But you were both thinking the same. You both knew what had just happened. The pleasant buzz of energy still hadn't left you, making you feel high on it. It you weren't so overwhelmed you would have probably been grinning.

It was Peter who broke the silence.

"I have something to show you."

In one swift movement he lifted himself up on his better arm to sit facing you, and touched where you had been touching his suit. He very carefully tore more of the suit to show more of the skin on his chest, until four words were visible for you to see.

Sorry, you take it.

"Peter they're-"

"The first words you ever said to me, yes." He finishes for you, a light blush appearing on his cheeks. They're the words you said to Peter when you both went for the same seat in your first ever class together.

You're stunned into silence as it clicks into place in your head what this means. Peter loved you, since the very first time you met.

You sit back from him as your weight shifts so you're now properly sitting onto the floor. You hadn't realised that your had been sitting uncomfortably because of everything that was happening.

Peter loves you.

You love Peter.

This is what he's doing instead of being in class. He's Spiderman.

A soft, but forceful pair of lips on yours pulls you out of your thoughts. Peter kisses you like it's the last thing he will ever do on this Earth. And you kiss him back with just as much feeling.

Maybe you had always been in love with Peter. You had only just realised tonight though that you were. It took him falling through your window for you to realise that. It was just that final push of seeing him hurt and at his most vulnerable that made you see how you truly felt. Why you were so worried about him not being at school.

Peter has pulled you gently towards his lap, so you're half sitting on him and so your bodies are unbelievably close. You know you're getting dirty - but you don't care. Nothing else matters now. You've found a soulmate in your best friend, and you're currently kissing him. And it's an amazing kiss.

You stop kissing him for a second to rest your forehead on his and just to take in what's happening.

"You have no idea how long I've wanted to do that." He says breathlessly.

But you think you do. You now know everything. And everything is clicking into place.

Masterlist

#i'm actually really happy with this one #soulmate au #peter parker #peter parker x reader #peter parker imagine #peter parker imagines #tom holland #tom holland x reader #tom holland imagine #marvel imagine #spiderman #spiderman x reader #spiderman imagine #storyofavengers

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quirklessidiot · 3 years

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aoba johsai’s sport’s journalist (h/c’s)

just crack+ fluff + platonic-ish relationship (gn!y/n) (w: language!) a/n: this has been bugging me for awhile now since i havent seen headcanons of this yet (if their are do send them on my ask box) and since im on a slump, i decided to write this down. this is completely fun, easy-going, and self-indulgent, really perfect for someone stuck on a slump ksks. idk if i should make some for the other schools but oh welp enjoy! happy 900 btw werkwerk uwu so weird to reach this when im not even very active.

Now let’s be honest here, it’s no surprise that the volleyball team of aoba johsai has their own sports journalist. Like, c’mon, they’re one of the best in the prefecture.

But let’s start with the basics here, shall we? Let’s start with you, how this all goes through, and how you got into this heaping pile of mess.

Yep, you.

There you were in high hopes to get into journalism for college so what better way was it than to apply for the school paper? It would definitely look good and pretty in those college applications *chef’s kiss* you’re a second year btw idk if that matters but yeah..

Much to your surprise no one was applying for the news section which was kind of sad since you wanted a buddy there.

but-but it turns out though everyone was applying for the sports section completely understandable, next to feature, it was the most exciting thing to write because there was going to be a special section and writer for the volleyball team.

You knew that volleyball was kind of a big thing around your school?? you just didn’t expect it to amass like that much people.

The editor in chief is obviously surprised, you were the first person on that day to come in there and actually apply for something else.

and guess where that led you to?

Yep, the sport’s section, specifically the volleyball team’s personal sports journalist. Your brain goes brrt brrt because you were not a sports writer at all and you were, ironically, scared of ball games.

VOLLEYBALL WAS COMPLETELY NEW TERRITORY FOR YOU.

Your editor in chief laughs it off and says, “you’ll do fine… its like news bUT SPORTS! IT’LL DEFINITELY LOOK GOOD IN YOUR APPLICATIONS!”

You’re not sure if you should be terrified or terrified?

It doesn’t help that on the first day when you enter the gym you look terribly constipated and panicking a lot because of all the stray balls being spiked and tossed around.

It also didn’t help that you crash course the terminologies and the member’s name a night before and you were just running on iced coffee that day.

Yeah, way to make a first impression, huh?

When you approach the coach, you’re not exactly sure what to say and you were this close to chickening out until you saw one of the players come up to you and ask if you were alright and if you wanted to talk to oikawa.

you’re loading for a second there.

and the poor guy who asks you if you were alright, starts looking actually worried because you weren’t responding at all.

“OH, oH IS THAT THE CAPTAIN?”

the guy literally looks very confused?? because what kind of rock were you living under that you didn’t know Oikawa???

so you go ahead and introduce yourself and say that your name was Y/N and you were the new sports journalist for the team.

“....soooo you write?”

“...”

at this point on, you’re also confused too

and idk man, first impressions do indeed last because you ended up (unknowingly) sharing the same brain cell with Matsukawa Issei.

you both were just confused there, straight up looking like two kids who got left behind by their mom in the grocery check-out line.

anyways...

He tells you the team’s pretty chill and you should stop looking like they spiked a ball on your puppy or something.

Basically introduces you to the whole team after,

no questions asked, just go with the flow.

You basically just click and vibe???

Not only because you crash coursed and related to whatever they said,

you literally all shared the same brain cell together.

Kentaro was another story though, kid basically hated your guts at first, it felt like if you were to say one sentence to him that day, he’d literally spike a ball at your direction.

“we’re basically the same year tho :(” -Y/N

“lmao well do i’ve got news for you, y/n-chan.” - Oikawa and basically everyone on the team.

you gradually start to understand the coolness of the sport since you had to incorporate visiting them once or twice a week during practice.

but suddenly it becomes almost a daily routine after a month because they’re just really friendly people??

like wow, they’re all friendly giants.

You’re literally just there to write about them but they’re really patient and kind, they even invite you to practice games so that you could practice out your skills in writing since you mentioned that you’ve never written for sports yet.

they even give you some added key terms that aren’t found in books and online.

you’re def closest to iwaizumi and matsukawa.

iwaizumi because he makes really funny fish jokes about oikawa (yes you arent supposed to be laughing but man theyre funny af, oikawa would usually call you and iwa corny because the jokes aren’t even that funny) and yes its canon that whenever iwaizumi sees an oikawa fish in textbooks, he starts laughing and joking about it.

no explanation needed why you ended up being close to matsukawa.

its obvious after that first meeting ya both would be besties.

same brain cell bros go brrt brrt.

incredibly!! supportive!! I CANNOT STRESS THAT ENOUGH

like when you release a new write up about them, Oikawa would usually go, “It’s such an honor to be apart of your first steps, can you sign this?”

dramatic but hella supportive, we stan the gr8 king

“oh, wow, i thought you said you didn’t write before? how come you sound like a professional already?” - Hanamaki

another dramatic best boi.

akira + kindaichi getting shy because they’ve never experienced this yet. So whenever you try to interview them about stats or something for a special issue, they usually end up a stuttering mess

“w-well, L/N-san...”

kentaro slowly warming up to you but still looks like he wants to spike a volleyball at your face 90% of the time but unlike before you’re used to his whole thing already.

“Move, extra.”

“You were great, by the way. That was a powerful spike!”

you may or may not be included in random ramen nights with the team

yes, oikawa buys you your own bowl of ramen

itadakimasu.

he doesn’t mind tho, he really loves how you write them.

so its sort of a thank you for giving the team justice when you write about them.

team says you’re technically part of the team so they make you your own jersey. Now when you watch your games people ask if you’re like the manager or smthng.

“ no :’) “

When they lost against shiratorizawa and karasuno, you were bawling too like you were apart of the team.

this pretty much cheered everyone up despite the loss because your crying face was apparently very funny and memable.

oh right, your article was passed on to the town’s newspaper

it was literally like 7 am on a saturday and your notifs went zoop.

they added you to their group chat and spammed you with pictures of the articles that you wrote.

“...wOW I CAN’T BELIEVE IT?? YOU GOT FRONT PAGE FOR SPORTS???” -Oikawa

“we didn’t even win the tournament but we still get a feature?? thats so cool?? holy shit?? CONGRATS KSKSKS” -matsukawa

lmao idk matsukawa looks like a keyboard smasher tbh idk why

pretty much its normal for you to even start hanging out already outside of the court and after practice to get steam buns.

more chaotic mess and clumsy you running around.

your volleyball sports writing experience wouldn’t be complete until someone accidentally spikes a ball at the back of your head amaright?

ironically, it’s yahaba who does that to you. poor smoll bean.

“wow, you’re dumb.” -kentaro says to you

“ :’)” -you.

“y/N-SAN I SWEAR IT WAS AN ACCIDENT.” -yahaba

overall, you found yourself in a safe haven with the volleyball team and yes, you also cried when the third years graduated.

the third years have a picture with everyone on the team + you with a very red face from all the crying?? once again, you’ve proven yourself to be a meme.

continued to write for them up until graduation.

and its def obvious you kept in touch with all of them after, duh.

#haikyuu!!#haikyū!!#haikyuu imagines #haikyuu headcanons #haikyuu fluff #haikyuu aoba johsai #haikyuu scenarios #aoba johsai x reader #haikyu headcanons #haikyu scenarios

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carcinized · 2 years

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uh hey sorry you don’t have to answer this but how do you know if you are disassociating? -statdYst

uhhh i dont know if theres a surefire way but i can describe it to you + link some things!!

warnings for discussion of dissociation/derealization/depersonalisation under the cut!! stay safe ^_^

keep in mind that this is only MY knowledge and MY experience, written by someone with chronic (near constant) dissociation & derealisation plus occasional episodes of depersonalisation!! i know a lot but im not an expert ahaahah

okay so theres basically three main types of dissociation to my knowledge, mainly Dissociation™, derealisation, and depersonalization.

Dissociation™ is basically just being on autopilot and not being able to get off it, spacing out, no thoughts head empty, feeling far away, etc. it's basically your brain's natural response to trauma, and its actually really nice when you're in the middle of a bad moment. that feeling you get when someone's yelling at you where it feels secondhand kinda? and far away and weirdly emotionless? THATS dissociation. it's just a general disconnection from reality/yourself, and it's only bad when it's prolonged.

derealisation is basically when the world AROUND you doesn't feel real. for me personally it changes from a simple "nothing feels real and i'm floating through empty space" while also seeing things in front of me and responding on autopilot (its hard to explain 😭) but ranges to the more extreme things such as "i'm living in a simulation" "this is all a dream" "i'm in a coma dreaming i need to wake up NOW" "i'm alone in the universe and this is all fake only i am real" "i'm dead this is the afterlife" ETC ETC ETC. you get it basically anytime your brain is telling you your reality around you is not.... your reality.

then depersonalisation is when YOU don't feel real. examples of this are looking in the mirror and not recognizing yourself, feeling like a spectator of the world around you (for me personally, it gets bad enough that i'll talk to myself and be surprised when people hear me. because i forget i and my talking are real), feeling like you're not real but everything else IS (similar to the last one), etc etc etc i havent experienced this one as much so i dont have as many examples oops.

but yeah if you see yourself in any of those things yeah youre probably dissociating or derealised or depersonalised!! other symptoms/signs of general dissociation but sometimes the other stuff can be:

being forgetful/not knowing where you are/that type of thing

lighting!! feeling wrong!! like that feeling when you walk inside from the sunny outdoors and everything is b r i g h t and you can still see but also what the fuck why is it so bright

looking like when a camera doest adjust right? and its weirdly dark? yeah thats dissociation a lot of the time

blurry/unfocused vision

i dont know if this is just a me thing but auditory processing issues + just worse hearing in general?

i'll fuck up taste too when it's especially bad. i've had mint gum taste like so many things ranging from bubblegum to peanut butter and i'm pretty sure it's a dissociation thing because dissociation is basically just your brain logging information in wrong

general weird sensory stuff. idk

the need to check double check triple check EVERYTHING. before i go to any class every day i ask my friends "what day of the week is it, what period is it, what's my schedule" and STILL dont feel like i'm in the right class when i get there.

thats all kinda. ive lived with this for years and if youre just getting it now you probably dont have a lot of the specifics ive named PLUS theres definitely more and im not an expert BUT heres a couple dodie videos that super helped me figure stuff out when i was first trying to understand what was wrong with me? [x] [x] [x]

#sorry this took FOREVER to type out i hope it helps #ask #stardust !

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partnersatfazbear · 3 years

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Fazbear Frights Analysis: Friendly Face / #10

I was at my in laws last few days and shopping for decorations with my bff yesterday so I had time to read the Friendly Face book. I'm a few pages into the final story so havent gotten to the epilogue yet. Its fairly more pages than normal so suprised I havent stumbled on spoilers yet.

The first story was okay but stupid ending (I think it could work if it was set up better ie making the Friendly Face seem like it wanted revenge rather than playing--and yes this was kind of creative but didn’t really feel satisfying as an ending.) and the second story was very Goosebumps like ( Seabonnies are assholes but also kinda adorable. Seabonnies are the Sour Patch Kids of the FF universe... ). The third story.. Every character annoys me so far and its a slog. We got some cool animatronics and as I guessed early on it seems like a mini love letter to Kings Carrie. Read my thoughts below, since I had stopped reading before we got to the good stuff.

Nothing really Willry/Helliam relevant lately, unfortunately. Hoping there’s something in the epilogue though. (Now that I read it: Yeah, I think we have a Henry stand in, actually)

More on the book later.

***

So, turns out the last story was the most relevant, at least for me. It gives us more insight into the springlock suits (maybe more specifically the second set of them, not sure). They are described similar to Funtime Freddy in terms of the stomach cavity, but they are springlock suits. There is a switch on the outside that is stated to sometimes fail that converts it from suit to animtronic mode / vise versa. We get a pretty cool description of a character death inside of it--and well, it’s about how you’d imagine it [and pleasantly suprised close to how I remember writing it in my fic]. What’s odd is the springlock suit appears to be immediately “haunted” by the first, then the second girl in the story. I don’t think the number is as relevant as the fact that the souls attatched immediately. I guess Mrs. Carrie-Pig (Rosie Porkchop) may already be infused with remnant? It’s never explained. The springlock suit is also programmed outright. I think this was assumed before, but we get some insight into how it’s done. Also, this furthers my theory regarding Springtrap chasing the voices in FNAF 3. It’s definetly programming. The ones in this story are listed as specifically avoiding adult voices and targeting children’s voices.

Epilogue and theory is under the cut:

The epilogue... you guys, I don’t know where to begin with this. I’m gonna write my initial thoughts here and then scour Freddit for some clarification. The beginning starts with Larson looking into the DNA samples and connecting them to a bunch of incidents, mostly involving a skeletal figure which appears to be Eleanor. Next, we get confirmation that Eleanor took over Renelle at some point. Eleanor goes to the house of “her father”. The description does hold many similarities to the Afton household, specifically a couch with a lamp next to it reminded me a lot of Sister Location, but it’s not enough to really confirm anything (the lamps are different types too). The man is a remnant-specialist named Talbert. I feel like I remember the name being mentioned before. The story specifically points out a photo of him and his partner, Phineas. (This should ring so many bells for anyone in the Willry/Helliam ship..). However, Eleanor as she was or is is NOT Talbert’s daughter, who is shown in a photo and described with: black hair and brown eyes. Most people would probably associate it with Cassidy, but my mind went more to Charlotte. So Talbert seems to be a Henry stand in. He seems shocked to see his dead daughter, yet can believe she’s alive (probably because he’s very experienced with remnant or maybe The Spark). Talbert takes remnant to give to his “daughter”/Eleanor who is disguised as her. We know she can project her appearance with the locket and I guess she does that here. If I wasn’t speed reading too much, it seems the Plushtrap chaser might be there too? Eleanor starts turning into another wierd rabbit-bot-monster thing at the end, too. I’m assuming this thing is related to Pit-Bonnie, but we don’t get many details here. The entire thing also has a long segment of Larson’s “visions” going through all the events of the Fazbear Frights we’ve seen so far and even explaining Blackbird in more detail.

I don’t know what to think about it...

Having checked Freddit: I guess this went over my head, but the most important detail seems to be that Eleanor is harvesting remnant and/or agony to grow stronger and was also behind many of the events in the stories. As in, not just setting them up sort of way, but like... being one of the doctors in Step Closer and having the Plushtrap chaser... and being present somehow in 1280. I think it’s wierd, bordering on dumb, but I’ll roll with it. Also worthy to note, she appears to be bringing all the remnant/agony back to the ballpit. I’m secretly really hoping it’s all an effort to revive William (despite the epilogue that sort of contradicts it, where Eleanor steals agony from AlmagAfton--although I see this as a last ditch kind of move to save it rather than destroying him--it’s clear the Puppet did that, isn’t it?) I even had the thought when they discussed Eleanor specifically having the Plushtrap chaser that it reminded me of the Spring Bonnie plush at the end of FNAF: VR / HW.

Also, since I jumped to the idea that Renelle was Charlotte, I missed a specific detail about curly black hair, which gets reiterated. [TBF, I based my Charlotte off of game-Charlotte, so I depict her with black, not brown hair. I didn’t see the ‘curly’ word specified or missed it] A theory I like and really agree with is Renelle WAS who became Andrew. We all know Andrew is our Cassidy stand in... and what has the fandom been fighting over? The damn gender. If Renelle died and forgot who she was, she could easily reimagine herself as a male spirit aka Andrew. This solves that dilemma. As an extra note, Scott’s voice request for the angry spirit was listed as ‘male or female’.

I think that’s all the important stuff.

#fazbear frights #initial thoughts #friendly face #fnaf theory #fnaf spoilers #spoilers #cassidy #andrew #eleanor #giraffe baby #fnaf theories

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robinisaghost · 3 years

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animatic ideas :0 (ramble away, i would love to hear them!!)

mk thank you for enabling me, i will now be yelling

anyway

this is gonna be so obnoxiously long i am so sorry

can you add read more's on asks? eeeekkkk because this got so damn long lmao

mild dsmp spoilers obviously

this is the playlist, by the way

-im sorry boris (wilbur soot)

i think it would work really well with mmm slightly post lmanburg niki. andby slightly i mean. well when she leaves (that is the whole thing of the song gdfjkhgsdf) also side note at like 1 minute 11 on that song theres a discord notification really subtly in the background and it makes me paranoid every time i hear it. anyway god its such a nice song. even for just like. the end of lmanburg. not necesarily paired with a character, just the sense of leaving a place that was so highly populated before it got blown up twice and was like. the main part of the smp. yeah. anyway also the lines "they'll knock down the pubs before helping you...they'll let you jump under trains before helping you" yeah those four lines have big niki vibes but also i think the song could work well with exile tommy or actually even with the finale when tubbo is about to sacrifice himself? mmmmm yeah

-this is home (cavetown)

mmmm got exile tommy vibes innit. a lot of these have exile tommy vibes tbf i just like sad songs and also exile tommy. plus the song has a lot of like. the message is sort of like. changing yourself to appeal to others? like with "ill cut my hair to make you stare" but also the repeated thing of "ill figure out a way to get us out of here" which is clearly the main character of the song trying to help everyone when they are clearly not in a good way themself. yeah thats got big tommy vibes in general tbh but more like. pre finale tommy. i think he got a bit more independant after that.

-soldier poet king (the oh hellos)

ok this is self explanatory and has been done to death already but d a m n its kinda funky. anyway i had thoughts and actually started this but then lost motivation and deleted it all lmaooo. the only proof of its existance is a shitty storyboard in my draw which will hopefully never see the light of day again (unless anyone wants to see it :eyes:) anyway i had the thought of like. sbi? so soldier techno poet wilbur and king tommy. but tbf tommy and techno are kinda interchangeable with that, cos while techno is obviously the better fighter, tommy is used a lot, especially in lmanberg era and also i think he probably will be now that wilburs back

-pyjama pants (cavetown)

ok so i honestly dont remember why this is on the playlist but tbf this could go well with a bunch of characters. thinking like. phil and wilbur? or wil and tommy, or tubbo and ranboo are two that like. i know for a fact that i did not put the song on the playlist specifically for them but god thinking about it now it works so well with them

-boys will be bugs (cavetown)

OH BOY THERES A LOT OF CAVETOWN ON HERE HUH (i feel like that probably says something about me but shhhhhh we dont need to talk about that) ANYWAY

I think this could probably work really well with tommy? because of the whole like. trying really hard to come across as not caring about others, but really being like. very vunerable. but at the same time it could go really well with wilbur for the same reasons. also the song fucks ok cant deny it. to be fair i think it works better with tommy, because he's younger and also he really likes bugs (unless i am mistaken) which is just a cool coincidence but still)

-brother (kodaline)

FUCKKKKKKKKKKK THIS WORKS SO WELL WITH SO MANY CHARACTERS AND IS ALSO ***SO ANGSTY*** WHAT

anyway

i added it because of tommy and tubbo because holy shit, but also it could work very very well with wilbur and tommy, techno and wilbur, probably techno and tommy, and oh my god i just thought of this but this would work so well with phil and techno!!!! but yeah i originally thought tommy and tubbo because i thought it was a funny coincidence with exile tommy waking up underwater, and theres a line that says "if you were drowned at sea, id give you my lungs so you could breathe" and like. just thinking about the compasses especially. me gusta.

-feel better (penelope scott)

fundy. that is all.

no ok this works well with fundy but also probably karl sapnap and quackity, and also very much wilbur, like it works well with both. just mainly fundy idk why its got big fundy vibes tho. very poggers.

-as the world caves in (matt maltese)

ok but like this goes very very well with the explosions of lamberg. either of them. i think probably the first one is better, but i think it goes well with both. probably the first one, because it was way more emotional i think? cos it was the first time that their homes had been destroyed and everything, but also because it was so personal, because wilbur was the one who did it. i think that also it would work well if it was set during the explosion but also focussed on different facets? so like. one bit about wilburs perspective, one bit about tommys, one about phils, one about fundys maybe? idk just a bunch of lmaburg citizens' povs for this. its good. as the world caves in is a song that can be so gender tbh.

-do you hear the people sing? (les mis)

obvious obvious obvious...... but like..... also tbh it goes well with a bunch of things. like, mmmmm wilbur in pogtopia. the butcher army. lmaburg independance war (obviously ghdskj) but yeah. also this song just goes so hard like b r u h

-wolf in sheeps clothing (set it off, william beckett)

SO MANY OF THESE ARE LIKE. PRETTY OBVIOUS IF YOUVE HEARD THE SONG

but yeah. it would go so well with like. well any betrayal basically. so eret, from tommys pov maybe, or about wilbur from nikis pov, or wilbur from anyone pov tbf, or quackity from charlie/purpled/foolish/sams pov, or sam from tommys pov, really it works well with so many people which says a lot about the characters tbh but shhhhhhhhhhhh

-need you here (idkhow)

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

mk mk mk mk FUNDY AND WILBUR THO

like b r u h that works so well with them

also i started this one as well but didnt like it, theres a story board in my draw as well for it because like. oh my god its such a good idea i just am shit at animating and don't have a decent enough program :')

also also

the line "daddy has to go, and that makes me sad, but daddy will always come back, he promised" fuckkkkkk that works so well with like. say for example, idk, when they're celebrating schlatts death and wilbur leaves to press the button? the sheer fucking angst of that is enough to kill any one person istg that is in fact the entire reason why i started the animatic in the first place. just that line. also all the lines sung by the child voice. fuckin angsty as hell. also ust generally a banging song, as is every idkhow song

-green (cavetown)

another cavetown song huh. ok sure.

mk so wilbur and sally and fundy. like. for a start, the imagry of a fish at the start? boom sally.

anyway the lines "you looked so good in green, i hope you're well, and you look so good with him, (schlatt ig?) and I'm proud of you still (wilburrrr and fundyyyy) i miss your perfect teeth, i was too blunt, i hope you feel happy, that's all I want"

FUCKKKK

the whole song is about missing someone you used to love and only hoping the best for them!!!! and wishing that they are happy and safe!!!!!!!!!!! and hoping they still think about you!!!!! but even if they dont its fine because all you want is for them to be happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

-achilles come down (gang of youths)

OK I THOUGHT IT COULDNT GET ANGSTIER

so like. tw suicide but thats what the entire song is about and bing bang boom i just think it works so so so so so so so well with not only exile tommy (who obviously did try to kill himself) but also wilbur in a slightly more metaphorical way? so like. his self destructive habits leading him to a point where he had no choice other than to kill himself and to take his country down with him. and its all about other characters trying to help them and persuade them not to but also near the end there is a second voice trying to persuade them to go along with it, which im thinking like. if its wilbur, either dream or maybe just himself. his own brain persuading him to continue down the path that would inevitably lead to his and his countries destruction. also it works well with schlatt for the same reasons, except he doesnt want to die. maybe (since the song is so goddamn long) like. one verse for tommy one for wilbur and one for schlatt? dead gang poggg but also like. the verses cover fairly different things which work with one character but not so much the others, for example the first verse would be tommy because its mainly about persuading the person to not kill themself (which tommy did himself but shhh) the second for schlatt because its literally about drinking and smoking away your problems, and the third for wilbur since its more of a fight between the "good" and the "bad" sides, which is obviously what wilbur was experiencing. also obviously i have a soft spot for this song because its string instruments and french, basically my favourite combination ever (also i like his voice idfk lmao)

ANYWAY THATS ALL THE SONGS ON THERE SO FAR

i literally thought of another song while i was in the shower today but i dont remember which it was but a n y w a y the playlist will most definitely be getting longer, especially since there are so many more songs that are good for this but i just havent added them yet lmao. anyway ive been writing this for like an hour gsdfjhgdhfsg but still oh my god this was fun to write

#long post #tw suicide #only a mention at the end but still gotta be safe :)#dsmp #dreamsmp #dsmp animatics #robin talks #ask #thank you so much for the ask tho cos like. i dont wanna be annoying or anything? but also like. i really wanted to talk about this gsdfkjg #god i hope the read more worked or this is gonna be annoying to everyone ever #its fine probably maybe not really

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The Bracelet

X-Men Hank McCoy x insecure! female reader

Specifics/Warnings: angst, fluff, one-shot, race neutral reader

Words: 1,345

Requested: By @queengiuliettafirstlady do you write a lil angst insecure reader with hank like she thinks she is always the second wheel for evryone because first she fall for logan who loves jean and then she fall for hank who loves mystique and then once she yells all her frustation at remy his best friend and hank listen and then confronts her about it and then he confesses he loves her and she at first is angry because thinks he is lyng and then he swears he was telling the truth and kiss her and she says that she loves him too sorry if it was too long or too difficult to write I hope you will have fun and I am sure You will surely doo a great job because I already adore how you write last favor tag me when you publish it I Thank you have a nice day or night

Authors Note: my first hank fic. havent written marvel in a while so i kinda missed it. sorry i havent written in a while guys but i hope you like this.

Hank had just finished one of his latest projects and everyone was proud of him. He was so smart, most likely always the smartest in the room. It was something he had been working on it for quite some time now and you wanted to give him a gift.

In all your time at the X-mansion you had fallen in love and quickly have realized that you are not the one.

You smiled looking at the present you made him. It was a beaded bracelet you made that spelled out U R Awesome! “Its perfect,” you said lifting it high in the air to see it gleam within the sunlight.

You quickly raced to Hank’s room and accidentally bumped into Logan. Your eyes widened and you almost choked, “oops, sorry.” You were about to walk away until you saw Jean. Jean chuckled as she helped Logan up and leaned against him. You clutched the bracelet you made tightly. Your knuckles hurting. It was once upon a time but you had this immense love for Logan. He trained you in X-Men and you two had gotten close. You thought close as lovers but he thought friendship and instead went with Jean. The feeling has dissipated and instead been replaced with feelings for Hank. But you always felt worthless and unloved. You loved this guy and thought the world was yours and his and turns out no wait there is a third person in the mix and she is more important than you. You always felt like the third wheel with them and every person in the X-mansion that had a lover.

“No problem, just, be careful next time,” Logan grunted as Jean held onto his hand and they went on their merry way.

You pushed the past away and instead had a glimmer of hope with Hank. You skipped your way to his room and thought of all the things he would say. Would he like it? Is this too much? Would this give him the right or wrong ideas? You wanted to ask him on a date but you were nervous to. Pausing at his door you inhaled. You were an X-men. You’ve dealt with aliens, monsters, dead people coming back to life and yet this seemed the most challenging thing out of all those.

You opened the door and found Raven laughing with Hank. She had that glow. The glow that was present on people when they were in love. You experienced it too. Her cheeks were pink from blushing and she had her hand on Hank’s shoulder. That made you irate but what got to you was when she lifted up a box with a bow on it to Hank.

Your heart stopped and your lips trembled. You were too late. Hank opened the box and inside was a key?

“What is this?” Hank asked with a gleam in his eye and a raise of his brow.

“This is a key to your new set up. You got a desk, a ton of sciency stuff and more machines and notebooks to help you with your researches.”

Hank couldn’t believe it. He was shocked just as much as you. She was good. Really good. You stared down at your gift and grimaced. Seriously? A bracelet? You bit your lip to keep the tears and cries inside.

Hank couldn’t stop himself from saying his thanks. He hugged tightly Raven and kissed her cheek.

This sent you over the rail. Of course she got him and where were you in this scenario? Well, you were left with nobody. All alone while everyone had someone to love. You felt like Freddie Mercury, can anybody find me someone to love?

You shook your head and started to the vending machines to eat your sorrows away. Your body darted away while Hank finally saw you. He was concerned and set off to find you.

“She’s just standing there and gives him a freaking key? Can you believe it and guess what? It goes to a ton of equipment for him! She’s smart. Really smart and apparently rich.” You rambled as you took a big bite out of a candy bar.

Remy stared at you wide eyed, trying to enjoy his gyro for lunch, “still. Even though she game him a gift like that yours is different and unique and its from you and it means a lot to you. Plus, you made it from your own bare hands so I guess it makes it pretty special. You should think more of yourself darling.”

You shooed him off, “how can I think so high of myself when all the guys I love don’t even notice I’m alive. I feel like 5th grade all over again.”

“I think you need to tell him how you feel. You don’t know. Hank is a strange guy and he’s a bit shy, maybe he’s shy to tell you the truth. What’s the worse that can happen?”

You stood up, “whats the worse that can happen? C’mon, you’re my best friend you should know by now. The worse thing that can happen is he gives up on me. He doesn’t look at me! He ignores me forever and maybe makes fun of me! Why is it so hard for Hank to see how much I love? Every time I see him my heart hurts and he never knows that! He never acknowledges me!”

Remy took a moment and then chuckled, “well you told him yourself.”

You turned around and low and behold Hank was there. Hands in his pocket like a lost man. His brows knitted together in hesitation and confusion. While anger was evident on your face. His blue eyes searched yours as if seeking for answers. “May I speak to you y/n?”

You huffed, “why? So you can just tell me how right I am? Oh, I’m sorry but I don’t feel the same way.” You packed your things and were going to room but Hank grabbed your sleeve.

“No, please. That’s not it. I do have feelings for you. I was just too nervous and shy to tell you. I’ve noticed you y/n. Your beautiful face as well as your beautiful soul. I do like you y/n.”

You ripped your hand away. “Yeah right. I know what guys think. Don’t pity me. I know the truth. I saw you and Raven in the room. Who wouldn’t want to be with a girl like her?”

“Raven’s great and she’s my friend but she’s no you. You are so kind and so sweet to others and you put others above yourself. I love the way you scrunch your nose when you laugh or how your smile lights up the whole room you’re in. I’m sorry if I made you feel insignificant because y/n l/n you are everything but that. You mean a lot to me and I’m terribly sorry if I made you feel bad. Please forgive me.”

You searched in his eyes for a sign. A sign if this was a prank or a lie but you saw nothing of the sort. Instead all you saw was a man completely smitten over a woman that wanted him.

“Okay.” You didn’t resist no more.

Hank opened up his arms and you took the opportunity to get closer to him. You hugged him tightly to show that you were serious about this.

“But first I have to give you this,” you dug into your bag and brought out the bracelet. “I know its not as great as what Raven gave you but I made it. Also you don’t have to wear it if you don’t want to.”

Hank looked at the colorful beads and what it said and his smile grew big and wide. He brought you close and kissed your lips mid sentence. His lips were made for yours and it was in perfect sync. Your stomach was doing back flips and you saw fireworks the whole cheesy lot.

“I love you so much.”

You nuzzled your nose with his, “I love you more.”

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