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Does anyone else think that there’s a chance Harry's memory loss was caused, not by pale exposure or acute encephalopathy triggered by alcoholism, but by his skills trying to save his life?
(I’m a latecomer to the fandom so my apologies if this has already been discussed ad nauseam!) At the second tribunal, Judit mentions Harry has lost his memory before; after two cases that would've been triggering for Harry.
JUDIT MINOT - "But, Detective Vicquemare," she interjects. "He *has* blanked out before." YOU - "I have?" JUDIT MINOT - "Yes, a couple of times. After some of the more... serious benders." She pauses, remembering. "One was after the Two Drunks case, the other when we looked into that mural."
I think after each of these cases, Harry could’ve hit crisis mode: in the former, the sheer horror/disgust at what he’s done and how he’s become the type of cop that nearly beats someone to death, and in the latter for the mural dredging up bad Dora feelings.
Then, when talking to Joyce, and getting stuck in the "Mr. Evrart is helping me find my gun" loop, the skills have an interesting little exchange:
CONCEPTUALIZATION - He seems to be in some sort of *loop*. ELECTROCHEMISTRY - Well, *that's* not good. Looks fine over here. You sure it's not some sort of *glandular* problem? REACTION SPEED - No, it's not that -- it's... I have no idea. This is bad. VOLITION - Executive function is completely shot. I keep pushing buttons and nothing is happening. ... LOGIC - How do we get out of here? SUGGESTION - What makes you think we *will*? INTERFACING - Yeah, we need to pull the plug, there's nothing else to do. EMPATHY - Are you not afraid it'll kill him? ENDURANCE - *Physically* he should be fine. Or at least no worse than usual... ENCYCLOPEDIA - What if he forgets everything *again*? INTERFACING - Okay, I'm gonna do it. Hold on...
What if after THE UNSOLVABLE CASE, THE NEXT WORLD MURAL, and his bender/breakdown/rock-bottom in Martinaise, Harry attempted suicide and his skills, in order to stop him, "rebooted" his brain causing him to have amnesia? Perhaps they act due to the influence of Shivers/the spirit of Revachol to save Harry because she needs him to save her?
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jellyfishdoodler · 15 hours
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My Experience in the Cult-Like Cosplay Server Known as BeTraist, ran by CuttyRen and ChubbyArcherz
I've spent about 3 weeks writing this entire statement of my experiences in Ren's server. It's 11k words with well over 65+ screenshots of evidence of abuse and manipulative behavior from the users @/cuttyren and @/archyboi-innes towards myself and SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE including some of their now-ex partners.
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If you know Ren from all of his bullshit on Tiktok and Instagram, then you already have some context of how horrifically he treated his ex, but the TLDR is Ren ran a smear campaign against their ex for about 2 YEARS once he broke up with them.
And beside Ren, there is Archer. Two ex-partners of theirs have recently physically gotten away from their abusive situation under Archer and recently made their own statements, giving me courage to write this one (you can find links to their statements within my own).
I'm begging you all to please take the time to read what I have written if you are a part of the JSE, Markiplier, and SandersSides cosplay communities (Tiktok or otherwise) or communities in general.
This is my story and my perspective of how they treated me and my friends. There is so much awfulness that has happened and I wasn't even one of Ren or Archer's actual targets. I was essentially just in the same room and was still affected by them deeply over the course of over 2 years.
Trigger warnings included in the doc, but please take care and read with caution. There will be discussions of cults, manipulation, gaslighting, adults flirting with minors, su*c*de, and more.
I am laying my story on the table because I want to give the people of these communities a WARNING about these rancid individuals. Please keep each other safe.
Thank you for reading.
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ladylingua · 2 days
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what’s so absurd is I really didn’t feel super strongly about the John/Mariko of it all until he volunteered to kill her
it’s like just such an insane culmination of everything between them-
like first of all, it's the fact that no one showed up for her to do her even the basic respect of being her second and so he will step up because by god has she earned HIS respect
and also obviously he loves her and doesn’t want her suffering to be prolonged and so he will do what he can to spare her as much pain as he is able, and to bear that pain for her by continuing to live after having killed her
and of course it’s him understanding her greatest relief would be him taking that final sin off her hands, delivering the killing blow himself, as he said to her he already knows hell and can handle it
but I think what really, really got me is the way all season long she’s been trying to explain to him her worldview to, her feelings on loyalty and morality and courage and the value of life and death, and he couldn’t get past the death thing, like he just cannot ever really see her views on what it means to be dead vs alive and how life can feel like endless suffering and death can feel like powerful freedom
and yet when the time came he didn’t try to stop her or rescue her or impose his views on her. instead he loved her enough to embrace death with her, to ensure her death has the meaning she choose for it and that it will be the freedom she deserves to gain. you can tell by the way he was gripping that sword, the look in his eye- he was taking every part of him that was afraid or screaming to not do it and stuffing those parts deeeeep down because he was so determined to do this for Mariko, to honor her
and it just, oh my god it got me so hard, like fully as of one episode ago I was like “I don’t really feel anything about their pairing, it’s nice and all but I’m more interested in the political intrigue” to like going fully feral and wailing as he stood over her with that sword adjusting his grip
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anywho- with regards to the specific way my brain has been broken to find one lover ritually murdering another to be the height of romance, I blame Tamsyn Muir
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https-hunter · 17 hours
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My thoughts about Hetty’s storyline in 3x8, holes are bad. I wrote this in the ghosts 18+ discord server, but I thought it would fit here. Spoilers for that episode and a content warning for suicide
That poor, tragic woman. Her demise fits and works so well for her character. She spent her entire life surrounded by people who didn’t care about her and failed her repeatedly. There’s a poetic kind of sadness in the fact that what was supposed to be her saving grace — the telephone — was ultimately what destroyed her. The part when she unravels the cord to save Flower, I gasped and went “oh…oh, Hetty.” She used her greatest shame to save one of her dearest friends. She took that power back from a moment where she truly felt powerless and trapped. And when she talks to Sam and Isaac about it, oh, my heart. She spent her whole life being either feared or unloved and gets to share her deepest secret with people who care for her deeply, all without judgment. Isaac’s line “You were in a hole. Those are hard to get out of” had me feeling things. Hetty learning that there are people who love and support her and that everything Elias and Thomas did wasn’t her fault was such a big moment for her and I’m so proud of her character development. That was a long Hetty ramble, but I love her so much and this episode just strengthened that for me
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soapsinthebox · 3 days
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I promise ill post actual art soon
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ikamigami · 2 days
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How could this person - imbecyle from tsams confessions - say that Sun isn't suicidal is beyond me..
Like in the second therapy with Earth (the one imbecyle brought up as well) he admitted that he thinks that it would be better if he was dead but I guess it doesn't hacking matter to those idiots..
And then they have an audacity to say that they're paying attention to the lore..
Yeah, stop lying..
You only pay attention to what happened in the span of few months..
Like, come on!
He said "sometimes I wonder if it'd be better if Moon and I never separated"..
Which should be obvious to what he reffered and what it actually means..
Like even people in YT comments know better 😭
But folks from here and Discord are so dumb.. it's both frustrating and embarrassing..
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drawkivi · 3 days
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house-md-imagines · 3 days
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y/n and kutner play fortnite but kutner is shit at it
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hopefully you get a victory royale next game anon...
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borderline-culture-is · 17 hours
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bpd culture is he hasn't messaged in 12 hours ...... killing myself he definitely hates me and wants me to die and doesn't love me anymore
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my mom thought I was suicidal in my early teens because neither of us knew what intrusive thoughts were until I was in high school 😭
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vampyrsm · 23 hours
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yeah. the first comment on cor unum i wanted to read on my birthday was someone telling me they’re going to be committing suicide
can you guys fucking not. do you not have any fucking understanding of the world because thank you so much for triggering an episode, i’m going to go throw up now because of the panic attack ty
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don’t do this to people. holy fuck. is that so hard to grasp
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halcyon-autumn · 2 days
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Bless his heart Fabian is SO down for a death pact in this epsiode. Kill yourself to escape academic jeopardy I totally get it
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wu-sisyphus-gang · 2 days
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Weiss: Suicide wouldn't give you relief. You wouldn't experience anything since you'd cease to exist.
Jaune: Your terms are acceptable.
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mooncalf87 · 8 hours
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God. All of their faces when they see Hetty pull out the cord.
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When they realize that their Hetty, the matriarch of the house, their sweet and silly Victorian girl, committed suicide. Trevor, by far, looks the most shocked. He spent months getting to know both Hetty and her body, but he never noticed the cord tied around her neck.
Sass, Isaac and Thor look absolutely stunned. They knew Hetty the longest, and Isaac knows her the best. And yet- they had no idea. They watched Hetty grow up, but then they got lost down the hole, but when they got out, Hetty was dead. And she told them right to their faces that it was a Morphine overdose.
Pete looks absolutely terrified. Scared that a woman as strong as Hetty did that to herself. He looks like he wants to run over, hug her, and never let her go. You can't barely see Alberta due to how far back she is, but her hands and her mouth say it all. Her best friend- her sister from another mister- the mother of her killer- revealing her deepest darkest most shameful secret to save Flower.
And, of course, Hetty. I chose this photo specially because under all her fear, all her pain and regrets, in this shot you can see in her eyes that she is relieved. Relieved to have finally told them all a secret that has been eating her for over a century. And it was all to save the dirty hippie girl that she, no matter if she wants to admit it or not, she loves very much.
(Hetty photo under cut because TW as she has visible wounds on her neck due to the cord)
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bugbashir · 3 months
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When I was a very suicidal trans activist in Texas, Benjamin Sisko saying “sure, you would [die for your people]. Dying gets you off the hook. The question is: are you willing to live for your people?” changed and possibly saved my life. It’s up there with “if we are going to be damned, let us be damned for who we really are” from Picard. Star Trek not only shows us a better world, it teaches us how to make it there
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fairycosmos · 1 year
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instead of killing myself i will watch documentary about the ocean
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