#mentsl health

[lxa-seelenwind]

Ich hasse es, das ich von dingen heilen muss die nicht meine Schuld waren...

#toxic parents #toxic family #toxic people #schmerz #m?de vom leben #erinnerungen #erinnerst du dich #depri #still life #smile for me #mentsl health #healing #mental health #ich habe dir vertraut #wieso immer ich #ich hasse es #ich kann nicht mehr

[mstudi0s]

📦 - 𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝘀 𝗮 𝗠𝗮𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗵𝗼𝗻 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗮 𝗦𝗽𝗿𝗶𝗻𝘁 : 𝐧𝐞𝐠𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬/𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 : 𝐚 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 👇🏻✨️

I feel that we're way too hard on ourselves when it comes to having negative thoughts or thoughts that don't align with the highest version of ourselves. And this could come in the form of intrusive or even just angry resentful thoughts--label it, however. 📦

And something that I've recognized is those voices that are inside of me are basically beings of their own, and similar to how if I had a kid that was throwing a temper tantrum because they wanna be heard--whether they're outburst is justified--its the same with my thoughts. 📦

The childs cries are a symptom of hurt/ neglect, and my thoughts are the same. It's showing me that there's still a part of me that needs to be assessed and tended to. It's similar to people who are dealing with treatments that take up months of time until full recovery. 📦

So be gentle with yourself throughout the process of healing and still having those thoughts. It's ok if you've been doing this for days, weeks, or even months, and you still have some of those thoughts. It just means there is more healing that is needed, and that's okay. 📦

Some parts of us just need more love than others, and there isn't anything wrong with that. 📦

👏🏻 The End

#affirmyourlife #manifesting #affirm and persist #affirmdaily #manifesation #loa #loassumption #law of assumption #sp #manifestsp #psychology #psychologyfacts #psychologytips #psychological #mentsl health #mentalwellness

[crps-chronicpain-ptsd]

Chronic pain problems •

#crps #fibromyalgia #chronicpain #spoonie #ptsd #living with pain #crpsproblems #chronic illness #crps warrior #crps fighter #complex trauma #complex regional pain syndrome #mentsl health

[rwsiko-tauraki]

Sometimes it gets so dark You can't see You can't brush your teeth You can't take a shower You can't even get out of bed You hold your breath And hope it all ends It feels like there's no end No end to the darkness you somehow got yourself into You try to crawl out of it b But the is unclear and seems endless And you can't see the light You're in despair All you see is darkness It's so intense You feel powerless Insecure The only place you feel safe is your room, the comfort of your bed. The mere thought of going is terrifying. ... Then... All of a sudden mania hits The high feeling excites you It doesn't last long You feel sad Sad because you know It's only gonna get worse from this point You want to end it all To feel the relief running through your veins But you're scared So scared it will hurt Your thoughts are blurry They cloud your mind.

Val

#original post #spiled thoughts #spilled writing #spilled words #tw depressing thoughts #bipolor #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd problems #bpd feels #bpd #bpd mood #bpd shit #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #borderline thoughts #living with borderline #mentsl health #mental health #mental illness #self h@rm

[iminmypeace]

#black women #black girls #women in luxury #self sabatoge #self love #imposter syndrome #self doubt #mental wellbeing #mentsl health #planners #productivity

[sawrunnerr]

I want to k.ms so bad

#transgender #sky cotl #transmasc #ranfren #steven universe #puella magi madoka magica #sky children of the light #trans ftm #trans pride #ame chan #cutecore #corecore #saya no uta #mentsl health

[aplaceforyoutoheal]

You know what really works for me... listening to my body

#never regretted this once #but still scary to do sometimes... #discipline #self love #self care #mentsl health #recovery #trust yourself

[i-died-three-days-ago]

I wish it didn't hurt so much to exist

#mentsl health #mental illness #trauma #loneliness

[spaceyshideaway]

House of Cards

Ah, home sweet home – or, in my case, home terrifying home. Growing up in my run-down abode was like starring in a dark comedy, complete with a dysfunctional cast that would give the Addams Family a run for their money.

Picture this: I was the girl in the window, like a melancholic Disney character minus the whimsical soundtrack. While other kids were out playing, I perfected the art of isolation, learning to be content with just staring at the clouds. Two younger brothers graced our peculiar household, but alas, our family dynamics were about as connected as Wi-Fi in a haunted house. Non-existent.

Dad, the elusive workaholic, was a rare sighting at home. And when he was, his tired or angry aura put up a "Do Not Disturb" sign. Mom, a master of the disappearing act, was either sleeping or in a committed relationship with her cigarettes and weed. Breakfast and dinner were served, but emotional support? Well, that was asking for the moon. Plus, I'm quite sure the meals were there to hush us up or with my dad in mind

My brothers, those enigmatic beings, were like riddles wrapped in mystery. I was their sister, so naturally, they wanted nothing to do with me. Yet, in the twisted web of family ties, they were all I had. Eventually, I became an expert at the solo act, escaping into the digital realm to find comfort and friendship. Virtual friends: 1, Family connections: 0.

Fast forward to my teen years, when the sitcom took a darker turn. My mere existence seemed to trigger the family chaos button. Once, I skipped my group therapy meeting, and the fallout was worthy of a Shakespearean tragedy. Dad, in a moment of misguided concern, decided my throat needed a hug. Who knew teenage rebellion came with a side of near-asphyxiation? The fun part: I had to clear my dad's guilt by providing him with acceptance and understanding. "Of course, it wasn't your fault Dad. I should've known I couldn't walk home. I'm so sorry for thinking I was grown."

But wait, it gets better – or worse, depending on your sense of humor. I once got into an argument and Dad broke my bed in a fit of rage, and to this day, I can't recall the crime that warranted such furniture destruction. Sleeping on a twin-sized air mattress became my nightly adventure for about a year until a friend mercifully gifted me a used futon. I don't think I had a proper bed until my 17th or 18th birthday. Before that, it was always hand-me-downs from my brother's old bed (did I mention I was the oldest, and somehow I was getting the hand-me-downs) or having to share one with my grandmother. Happy 17th or 18th birthday to me, indeed.

The pièce de résistance? My father's selective amnesia. Last New Year's, in a stellar display of inebriation, he declared he'd never laid a finger on us, physically speaking. Cue my internal laugh track, complete with flashbacks of all the hits and bashings I endured. Smiling through it all, I played the role of family healer, a position I apparently secured for life.

But hey, amidst the chaos and broken beds, I never became an emotional icicle. While my family mantra was "blood is thicker than water," I embarked on a quest for love and comfort that led me to dark places with even darker characters. I clung to the hope of finding warmth in a world that seemed colder than a polar bear's pajamas.

Even now, I shower my family with an abundance of myself, a habit ingrained since childhood. Yet, I'm learning to let go, preparing for the day when I might hit the "no contact" button. Terrifying? Absolutely. But I cling to the dream of a home that is stronger than this house of cards.

#aesthetic #family #childhood trauma #trauma #complex ptsd #actually ptsd #ptsd #dysfunctional family #dysfunctional household #pain #growth mindset #growing up #growth #spiritualhealing #spiritualjourney #spiritualgrowth #journey #journal #coping #mentsl health #mental illness

[emlaux]

Relaspe is a part of recovery

#artists on tumblr #my art stuff #my own art #small artist #sh awareness #sh recovery #sh related #selfharmrec #anxiety awareness #awarness #mental help #mentsl health #mental health awareness #mental disorder #mentalheathawareness

[dependently-und3cided]

For once I'd like the ability not to OVERTHINK everything

#personal #overthinking #late night thoughts #autistic #actually autistic #anxiety #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff #neurodiversity #autism #mentsl health

[lxa-seelenwind]

Ich hab versprochen stark zu sein, aber wie viel muss noch passieren bis ich endlich zusammenbrechen darf?

#leben #erinnerst du dich #still life #stark sein #mentsl health #mental breakdown #zusammenbrechen #schmerz #m?de vom leben #heartbreak #erinnerungen #depri #smile for me

[tootiredtoname]

Headache is more of a childhood friend to me, at least it checks up on me every other day.

#school #student #classes #family #mentsl health #self healing #high school #headache

[scotianostra]

Sorry not posted much today, struggling a wee bit, will try and catch up tomorrow

#mentsl health

[waterdragon1995]

#memes #funny #humor #shitposting #dank memes #dank mene #actually autistic #mentsl health

[truthandconsequence]

Chapter 4 

It's been three weeks since I've started working with Abel, and as much as I hate to admit it this isn't the worst job I've had. But getting close to him is going to be harder than I thought. I know Cash and Lamar more than I know him... 

"Hey Abel, I'm heading out." I say sticking my head through the door.

"Hey wait Anaya before you go."

"You know that's not my name." I sigh crossing my arms.

"Sorry." He says with a smirk.

"Sure you are. What do you want? Technically I'm off..."

"Just want your opinion on this song."

"Don't you have a group of yes men for that?"

"Funny come on." I comply waiting for him to press play. "Here." He says putting the headphones over my ears gently. I ignore the butterflies in my stomach listening intently. 

"So what do you think?" He asks once the song is over.

"It's good I really like the beat." 

"Thanks." 

"So what's it called?"

"I'm not sure yet I was thinking Mood Music, but I think I like The Hills more. I have to figure out which one fits best."

"Hmm you know all this time I thought you were this fly by the seat of your pants type. But now I'm starting to think you're some type of control freak."

"Maybe a little." He shrugs. "Hey I know you're off but I'm having this party tonight..."

"I don't know, I'm not the party type."

"This isn't just any party, it's an XO party."

"Sooo..." 

"I'll pick you up at ten."

"Ten! Man, I'm already in my pajamas, bonnet, and everything!"

"Amaya, you're ruining my image of you in bed, please stop. I'll see you later." He says walking out. I try not to focus too much on the last thing he said, walking out to my uber in a huff. What am I thinking? One night of lost sleep could be worth it, especially if it means gaining more of his trust...

"So how do I look?"

"Wow, auntie Mya shouldn't you be showing more boobs with that skirt?"

"What!" Matt sputters choking on his soda.

"Come on daddy I'm nine years old now, I'm almost a woman!"

"That's it I'm canceling the damn cable." He mutters making me laugh.

"Cori try not to make dad's head explode while I'm gone ok."

"I'll try but I can't make any promises." She shrugs going back to her coloring book. All I can do is stare at her in shock for a minute before kissing both of them on the cheek, and walking out the door. When I get outside there's a black G wagon parked out front, with tinted windows. I stand there for a minute when the door opens Abel walking over to me. 

"What you waiting for?" He asks leading me over to the car and opening my door. 

"So you just expect me to hop in some random ass car? You could have been a murderer!"

He rolls his eyes sitting down next to me. "This car is nice." I say once we start moving. 

"Thanks." He says not looking up from his phone.

"Gee you're some date huh?"

"Who said this was a date?" He says finally looking up.

"Uhhh."

"No, I'm sorry you're right I am being a bad date. You look great tonight."

"Thank you, you do too." I mumble happy that it's dark in the car so he can't see the blush on my face.

"You know it's funny..."

"What?"

"I always thought your titties were bi-"

"You better not finish that fucking sentence..."

"Never mind." He says going back to his phone.

"Asshole!" I snap turning my attention to my own phone. I knew us getting along wouldn't last.

When we get there the party is crazy, at first I feel a little overwhelmed but after a couple of drinks, I find myself relaxing a lot... Abel and I are posted up in the back talking. It was actually nice or maybe I'm drunker than I thought...

"You want something from the bar? Maybe some water?" He asks after I keep giggling at the comment he just made about Lamar's head. 

"Umm sure ok, hey Abel?"

"Yeah?"

"You drunk way more than me why aren't you even phased?"

"Please this shit is nothing." He smirks walking away.

I sit there just people watching when someone comes and sits next to me. Thinking it's Abel I smile. 

"Finally you were taking forever!"

"Sorry baby." He smirks licking his lips.

"Whoa, who are you?" I slur getting up, trying to walk away but stumbling a little instead.

"Easy gorgeous." He says grabbing me, trying to hold me up against him.

"Get off!" I shout noticing no one could possibly hear me scream over this loud ass music... 

"Relax." He says his hot breath blowing in my face. He's about to cover my mouth with his hand, when suddenly the weight he had on me is gone. I open my eyes, seeing Abel throw the guy to the floor punching him in the face repeatedly...

To Be Continued...

#the weeknd #beauty behind the madness #xotwod #abel makkonen tesfaye #abel tesfaye #fanfic #ryan destiny #fandom #mentsl health #wattapad #mature audiences only