#are they /always/ healthy? no but thats why i have many aus

[ninjasmudge]

I love how in your aus Wukong looks like he could strangle anyone with just a look without even trying and then there is macaque who is still an asshole.... But he is a nice asshole somehow

I love it-

i LOVE to think abt how swk took down all of heaven and killed probably hundreds of people and i love it when he LOOKS like it. theres an AWFUL lot of power contained in that monkey. chaos is his nature he just chooses to be kind

and macaque... i like when hes just a dude. he is just some guy to me, he isnt cruel to people because hes trying to be evil hes cruel to people because he's a selfish individual and cutting people down (with words or violence) made him feel better in the moment. if you remove him from those circumstances he'll change some. this doesnt mean hes secretly super nice and circumstances forced him to be mean, it just means hes a guy who reacts to things.

and its also because i like to put them together and see what happens. maq brings out swks 'grab him in your teeth and shake' instincts because hes really annoying, and swk might throw maq through a wall if he goes too far being nasty with mk or anyone so he has to behave

#i like them theyre fun #are they /always/ healthy? no but thats why i have many aus #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #mk

[alexisomnias]

— "THEY WERE ROOMMATES" . . . | twst

⤷ you’re their roommate!

angels note: modern au

characters | dorm leaders

RIDDLE ROSEHEARTS

Your Roommate who nags you like a housewife, always telling you to clean up your room, to always keep on top with etiquette. Even ruling “no elbows on the table!”

Your Roommate who knows all your favourite foods and makes you breakfast in excuse that “you need to stay healthy.”

Your Roommate who always makes unknowingly makes two servings of meals, ensuring you don’t starve.

Your Roommate who unconsciously stays up later then usual to ensure you return home

Your Roommate who gets all jealous whenever you bring someone home, you should’ve asked him first! (and just not… have them come over..!)

Your Roommate who wants to be as close to you that your lives intertwine and his friends are yours and vice versa…

Your Roommate who all his friends think you two are something more then just roomies. but noooo thats not true… right?

Your Roommate who buys a bunch of plants to take care of, and which results into you both being plant parents

LEONA KINGSCHOLAR

Your Roommate who leaves everything on the floor, for you to pick up. You can barely even walk through the living room without tripping!

Your Roommate who will indeed beat a bitch up and risk imprisonment (he can buy his way out) if someone insults you

Your Roommate who mixes your laundry often so at this point its shared clothing

Your Roommate who throws away money for you at a moments notice, and will pay your side of the rent if you’ve been struggling.

Your Roommate who’s apparently a star athlete and who invites you to all of his games as a front row seat. (he looks for your face in the crowds of thousands)

Your Roommate who teases you about your meal plans, but never complains about the food. In fact he himself has asked you to cook him food.

Your Roommate who sleeps in your bed with you because “your mattress is way better.”

Your Roommate who gets grumpy when you show up home late, he might just get impatient and show up to your work too.

AZUL ASHENGROTTO

Your Roommate who you moved in with purely just because of cheaper housing

Your Roommate who runs a restaurant and never fails to bring home your favourite after work

Your Roommate who has a collection of shiny things he sometimes shares and gifts to you

Your Roommate who you have to cuddle with because he’s always cold and you guys are late on paying bills

Your Roommate who pays your half of the rent just so you can take him on a dat— dinner out to repay him

Your Roommate who you share an umbrella with when it rains because you guys only have one collectively bought?

Your Roommate who you go grocery shopping with because your food is his food and you share the fridge

Your Roommate who gets jealous whenever you go out on dates with people.. (your not dating though)

KALIM AL ASIM

Your Roommate who has unending energy and literally wants to do everything with you

Your Roommate who never fails to invite you out when hes going to a party, or hanging out with his friends. Regardless if your an introvert or extrovert.

Your Roommate who is so fucking rich you even wonder why tf he’s sharing an apartment with a broke kid like you???

Your Roommate who pays your half of the rent because he wants you to be happy

Your Roommate who gets you so many gifts you don’t have enough room! and the gifts are kind of romantic too???

Your Roommate who’ll buy you anything if you even stare at something a bit too long

Your Roommate who never fails to wish you a good morning and good night.

Your Roommate who says I love you even if you don’t say it back (does he mean it in a platonic or romantic way???)

VIL SCHOENHEIT

Your Roommate who is LITERALLY FAMOUS???

Your Roommate who does your makeup and hair in the morning! Girls Night vibes.

Your Roommate who when out shopping will buy clothing for you that he thinks you’d look good in (he knows your sizes too!!)

Your Roommate who always holds the door open for you, regardless of where you are. Its only polite

Your Roommate who nags you about your skincare and buys expensive products and teaches you how to apply them

Your Roommate who you share towels with sometimes, and stealing blankets from each others rooms

Your Roommate who has an entire photo album made for you both, with a picture wall in his room.

Your Roommate who gives you a backstage seating to all of his movies, and meet and greets (although you technically don’t have to ‘meet’ him, he just wants more time with you… in a friendly way!)

IDIA SHROUD

Your Roommate who almost never leaves his room except for food 😭

Your Roommate who you play games with into the dusk of night, and you two end up sleeping on each other

Your Roommate who probably picks up stray cats (if your allergic thats fine, he hides them.. since they’re not allowed in the building)

Your Roommate who is a streamer, and you accidentally enter his streamer life by entering his room and asking what he wants for dinner. (his audience ships you both HARD)

Your Roommate who payed for your Wondercord nitro

Your Roommate who you caught writing roommate fanfiction of you both with the ‘roommates’ tag.

Your Roommate who you’ll see at 3am because you coincidentally decided you want both a meal at the same time (you end up eating together)

Your Roommate who will binge your favorite animes, movies, etc) just to have talk about them with you because he knows you love them.

MALLEUS DRACONIA

Your Roommate who’s adoptive father figure put you and Malleus under the “and they were roommates” audio on twsttok

Your Roommate who you spend holidays with, because they’re always more fun by each others side

Your Roommate who makes up silly excuses just to be with you, he wants to do things and learn things about ‘commoner’ (ouch) life with you

Your Roommate who stares at you when you do ANYTHING around the house with so much love its hard to consider it platonic

Your Roommate who calls you over simple problems just because he wants to talk to you (he’ll literally call because his “phone won’t turn on.” “malleus it is on.”)

Your Roommate who pretty much has his own space in your room because he’s in there so much.

Your Roommate who’ll accidentally stretch your clothes because he wants to wear them because they smell nice.

Your Roommate who’ll laugh at any joke you tell even if its the dumbest one ever. you said it so its endearing.

#twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #riddle rosehearts x reader #leona kingsholar x reader #azul ashengrotto x reader #kalim al asim x reader #vil shoenheit x reader #idia shroud x reader #malleus draconia x reader #riddle rosehearts #leona kingscholar #azul ashengrotto #kalim al asim #vil schoenheit #idia shroud #malleus draconia #suns pencil.

[bonny-kookoo]

Jungkook: Velvet Heart 🔞

There's something wrong with Jungkook.

Tags/Warnings: Yandere AU, Idol!Jungkook, captivity, emotional manipulation, violence (not against mc), injury, medication and abuse of such, obsession, OCD, blackmail, very shady ways of the company in regards to JKs issues, fluff but its.. You'll see, NSFW mentioned but not descriptive

Length: Short

!! Disclaimer: I do not believe Jeon Jungkook to be like this, God no. This is pure fiction, and meant to be seen as nothing but entertainment. Thank you.

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Jungkook has always been an odd kid.

But nowadays, there's no denial that there's something terribly wrong with the now young adult. He's social when needed, a perfect actor in front of the media, shows himself as both sexy and cute to please a broad variety of fans. But he's not quite right in his head, and everybody knows.

Onve you know what he's capable of, what he's already done, that smile of his looses its innocence. Those eyes of his change in their sparkle. His grin is no longer cute- it's dangerous. Menacing. Like a wolf snarling in your face.

It's not a smile of happiness. It's more like a warning.

No one's ever allowed in his hotel room - not even room service. He himself actually has a habit of bringing along his own bedsheets, so you'll never leave a trace of yourself anywhere, but at his own home, he shares with you. If he has to bring you along to schedules, no one's allowed to look at you, speak to you, nothing. You're basically to be treated as invisible. Only he can ever interact with you.

And you? Well.. you don't have many memories apart from him.

Found by him at the side of a lake, washed up from your own failed act of jumping out of life, you'd suffered harsh injuries to your brain, leaving you with not only amnesia, but other problems as well. When he'd taken you home, late at night, you couldn't even talk, didn't know how to hold cutlery. He'd instantly done his own research, had looked up ways and therapies he could manage by himself- and so, he somehow helped you learn to exist again.

Maybe that's why you're so attached to him. Horribly so.

You still have a hard time speaking most of the time, but he understands you just fine. Or maybe he doesn't care. You don't mind.

You remember however, when you'd learned the word 'hate'.

You'd spoken it to him one day, randomly to ask what it meant, and he'd suddenly developed an entire mental breakdown. Hands on your shoulders slightly shaking you on the couch, eyes wide open and filled with terror. "No." He said, chanted almost. "No, no, no, no, no!" He shook you, back and forth. "Dont say that, don't ever say that to me! Ever!" He barked before he stilled. "I know you hate me. Everybody does. It's because I'm me, isn't it?" He'd laughed, shaking hands holding your cheeks, before they held your neck. "You do, don't you? You hate me?" He smiled, but you shook your head. He copied the action, amused, emotions all over the place. "No?" He chuckled. "You're such a liar, princess." He laughed, thumb running over the front of your esophagus, before his hands traveled again, forcing your face to look at him. "Thats fine. I still love you." He mumbled. "I'll always love you." He grinned, before kissing you softly.

Sometimes he's like that.

Jungkook doesn't trust anybody, not even himself. He's terrified of loosing you, has invested in a simple portable camera to set up in the hotel room wherever you might stay, so he can watch you like now, as he's getting his makeup done. Everyone, including the other members of the band, know this isn't good. This isn't healthy. But he's a major part of the success they all have.

If he's exposed as a high-functioning sociopath who's keeping someone hostage out of twisted love, everything would crumble to ashes.

So reporters are paid off if they ever find hints. Lawyers are always on call if things go south, or if Jungkook breaks another staff's jaw for accidentally mentioning you. Psychologists are there if one of the members has to watch the youngest pull someone's teeth out from their throat again after snapping out of control because the guy had been smiling at you.

Jungkook had even expected a thanks for it. He'd saved the guy's life, after all.

It's not healthy. Not at all.

But money rules the world- and Jungkook makes them all a lot of it.

Without him, the house of cards will fall and burn.

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On the twelfth of January, he always celebrates with you.

You don't know why, and you also dont know what. You're sure you know it's not your birthday, and neither is it his, but then again, you don't really care either way. You live from one day to the next, and you exist because Jungkook wants you to. So you're happy when he's happy.

"Do you like it?" He smiles, holding out another spoonful of cake to you. You happily accept it while your legs swing back and forth from the height of his lap. He likes feeding you. It reminds him of the earlier times, when he'd just found you. Sometimes, when he's feeling gloomy, he'll Revive those old habits. He'll help you eat, help you clean your face or brush your teeth.

He loves reminding himself that without him, you'd be read. Rotting next to the waters, eaten by bugs and torn apart by animals.

Instead, you live a lavish life under his watch, enjoying what the world has to offer every day. He's trained you like a dog, after all these years. He can trust you. You won't ever run away.

You're way too scared without him, after all. As you should be.

You fall asleep in his arms a bit later on the hotel bed, filled with sweets and his love, while he scrolls for some stuff on his phone. He smiles when he looks at a photograph from the news on the TV he took on his way home one day.

[Missing girl officially declared dead after only one year and two months, police reports. Parents: "we want to move on." All investigations closed as of yesterday, as the case comes to its end.]

Recorded on the 12th of January, three years ago.

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It's quiet around him, these days.

With the lawsuits wrapping up behind closed doors and far away from the public eye, fans worry about the maknae due to his silence. Meanwhile, he himself couldn't be happier, having spent the third day in a row waking up late during the day next to you, sleepy as ever, still resting. You sleep a lot. Always have.

Sometimes more, when he wants you to. Then you'll get some help slumbering off from him. He knows how to measure the dosage. He's done it a thousand times.

In his dreams, you sometimes scream. He doesn't know why, takes it as a warning to hold you even closer, and when he dreams such things, he will be restless. He will sleep with his length inside your warmth, as far as it goes, so he can stay as close as humanly possible with you. He doesn't mind the mess you both make.

It's proof of your love.

Sometimes he wants to take you outside. Go to dinner, walk alongside Han River, but then he realizes that you might remember what had happened that Night. You might loose all dependency on him, all love for him, all memories- and it makes him angry at himself, makes him pull his own hair in frustration necause he can never let that happen.

Everybody knows he's hanging on by a thread.

And if you ever step out of line, if you ever leave-

That fragile little chain keeping him grounded will snap, freeing the beast.

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Will you ever be free? Do you want to be?

If freedom is away from Jungkook, will it ever be enjoyable?

You don't have to think about that. Not when his hands hold your wrists down into the mattress so hard they will surely bruise. Not when he almost growls like a predator at every thrust he pushes into you. Not whe he kisses you like he doesn't care about breathing.

Not when he's got you all chained up to his side, like a dog, loved and loyal.

You exist for him.

You're alive because he wants you to be.

You've survived because he loves you more than anyone else ever could.

You're his.

And don't you ever forget it.

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#bts imagine #bts fanfic #bts fic #jungkook imagine #bts yandere #yandere bts #yandere jungkook

[alexanderlightweight]

*Wednesday is subjective and can last up to 36 hours due to insomnia. Wednesday starts on Wednesday and ends when the author passes out sometime later.

The Rules + Notes

Only Malec prompts accepted

It’s okay to prompt another chapter for an existing fic, even the oneshots. There is a chance i won’t be able to or want to fill it, but i’m always willing to consider. Just be polite.

I write a lot of dark stuff, so feel free to specify if you want to avoid something or want something specific.

I really do enjoy just the fun of building a fic from a single word, but I’m also happy to try and tackle any longer and more complex prompts. 

If your prompt isn’t filled the week it’s sent it, I’m still going to write it. I always respond to an ask to explain why I won’t fill it if I’m not going to.

If I can’t/wont fill a prompt, I’ll post it and explain and say it’s okay to send another.

prompts are only open on writing wednesdays or if i specify otherwise (this was changed because of how many prompts i get easy wednesday and thats the specific prompt day)

feel free to ask me if i've got your prompt but please know it sometimes takes time to get to all of them and I write verses based on the mood I’m in

I don’t post all of my fic fills to ao3 but I do try to do about half of them. Posting takes a lot of spoons and I generally end up adding more to the fics when I post them so it takes a bit.

I want it very clear that I do this because it’s fun and healthy for me and everyone who prompts is super sweet and I don’t do it to get feedback from prompters (but I always enjoy it)! It's really just worth it to me for the expression of shared art. Because I wouldn’t write half of the fun stories I love creating and exploring without the prompts from others to tickle my thoughts.

However, my partner and I are very protective about my mental health and I have social anxiety to the degree that I sometimes still need my handheld after strangers talk to me so I don't go rolling into a blanketball and scream.

If you are rude, I will sic my boyfriend @saeths (who is an asshole) on you and they will happily come down like a blistering gust of burning wind from an out of control wildfire. Seriously, they think it’s fun to fuck with people and they’re very protective. {i have npd and a lack of acceptable targets -saeth}

They would enjoy it, except the part where it made me upset. 

So don’t make me upset and I won’t set saeth on anyone.

Also saeth and i tend to flirt in posts on our blogs back and forth. so if you don’t want to see that because you’re here for fics and want to avoid it the tag is always ‘saeth & kitten’

- Lumine

The Author likes to write

darkly!soft romance

magical realism & magical flora and fauna 

Dead Dove: Do Not Eat (3DNE)

Magnus/Cat/Ragnor friendship 

Exploring the eldritch and angelic natures of nephilim and the fallen divinity of greater demons

Alec’s Institute and shadowhunters being competent 

creature!character fics

soulmates

The Author won't write

non-con/rape

cheating

major character death

hurt no comfort

sad endings

any main pairing besides malec

mpreg/kidfic

camille centric fics

non-magical mundane/shadowhunters inverted au’s

Verse List (under cut)

this eldritch delight – soft-horror malec (Alec is the Trueblood heir, Addams Inspired) 

star eater – sentient!shadow Alec Trueblood au 

the agony of living – chronic!pain alec

Elysiums Tears – Alec is cursed with visions of the future(s)

all your cracks I’ll paint gold – deruned Alec 

the bonds i'd break – all your cracks i'll paint gold au

in his wake, petals fall – Alec loves flowers and Magnus loves indulging him 

cider verse – Alec and Magnus are in a secret relationship since before canon 

pray to the hunters – Alec worships dead shadowhunters instead of Raziel 

the price of lust – Manipulative dark Magnus 

a stolen blade – assassin!alec au soulmates

dressed to kill – mob!wife Alec

flames of triumph – Phoenix Magnus & unicorn Alec 

ripples of magic – Sentient Institute & wards

in the light of the night – Alec hunts circle members to feed the angelic core 

the core of me belongs to you – Alec is the institute 

rituals & souls – Magnus summons an alec for himself after meeting the possibility of him 

to find, to yield – power imbalance, dominion magic

the frost of fury – competent Alec takes no shit in his institute

to break with fate – the circle wins 

all my fears forgotten – alec has amnesia 

like real people do – dragon!alec 

saint & sinners – shadowhunter!magnus & mentor/mentee

hoarfrost kiss on lips aflame – nephilim are more eldritch than mundane and it presents in the most chilling of ways

heartbeat like fire – sentinel!magnus & guide!alec 

spoils of war – Alec is a political hostage disguised as a groom 

devotion across worlds – Alec Trueblood (sentient shadows) is summoned to another universe and mistaken as an angel

marriage of inconvenience – Magnus marries Alec to save him from marrying Clary 

running from my dreams – alec has to work through past trauma when the Institute is poisoned 

walls of adoration, claws of desperation – Magnus and Alec are pre-canon secret relationship. alec is older in this fic, he's 7 years older than izzy and was raised by trueblood grandparents

bleed for desire – Magnus is king of the east coast and happily steps in to take care of newly born vampire Alec 

art of obsession – au of bleed for desire (instead alec ends up falling into Edom and Magnus decides to keep him there for a bit and go on vacation for a bit)  

your heart is full of jewels – alec is mistaken by mundanes as a sugar baby

an extension of you – alec is known as belonging to magnus' and that means something for downworlders

not all that glitters is gold – dragon!magnus with a lot of kink and monsterfucking

for you the world will burn – maryse isn't a good person, but she is a good mother and that is sometimes the more dangerous combinations

finders keepers – alec ends up in another universe and that magnus decides to keep him

feral sweetness, like honeycomb – incompetent shadowhunter and Alec deals with them and Magnus is there watching *its how they meet

soulfire – magnus summons another magnus bane to help him save his soulmate. magnus/alec/magnus

flames so cold they shatter – alec gets the lightwood family gift and remains the lightwood heir... and the only lightwood left

to tremble from your gaze – BDSM verse, dom!magnus and sub!alec

the craft of adoration– alec manipulates his way into magnus' arms

the most fragile of poisons – magnus pretends to be a damsel in distress, aka enjoying overprotective alec

undertow – kelpie!alec au with accidental courtship and BDSM

the treasure of kings – alec and magnus aren't impressed to find that lilith's son takes after his mother (aka wants to bang a lightwood)

the same sky – malec time travel to back a few years before canon, both of them

a warlock's hoard – a/b/o universe, omega/omega malec

to be or knot to be – a/b/o universe, alpha/alpha malec (look it was punny, i couldn't knot use it)

the worth of a life – asmodeus asks for the parabatai bond instead of magnus' magic to save jace

the desecration of souls – lilith has a claim to alec as her son thanks to valentine's experiments

the bonds i'd break – au of 'all your cracks i'll paint gold' where alec takes a chance and steal leaves nephilim/shadowhunter society but keeps his runes

guided by my unchained heart – alec resigns from the institute when jace is made hoti and goes to magnus

the taste of his magic – dragon!alec and magnus (he can shift into a cat) meet because alec can't keep his claws off of magnus' garden

(i'm trying to add some stuff but saeth will come back and fix it!)

#malec #shadowhunters #prompt request #writing wednesday #long post #request rules #art by saeth #lumine writes #lumine rants about words #writing wednesdays

[lollytea]

You said that asks may help you formulate your au thoughts and prompt you to talk about it so if it helps- I'm very curious about the cliffhanger the last lore dump left us on, re: Luz! Very curious to see how she fits into all of this. Sidenote about hunters deal: is Belos like. A stagemom in this au? A stage uncle? Highly entertaining if so. Demoted in power but still just as evil

Hmm!! Yeah I think it would absolutely be easier to drop info about the AU in little bits at a time depending on what questions I get. I've already thought about almost everybody in this AU and where they're situated but I guess I was getting overwhelmed with thinking about writing it all down at once.

Anyways!! Miss Luz Noceda!!

In this universe, the "fancy hospital" was located in California so Luz and her parents packed up and moved from Conneticut when she was a little kid. Her Dad Manny spent a few years drifting away, slowly at first, and then all at once. And Luz, a girl who's already a bright and imaginative storyteller, falls deeply in love with the fantasy book he left her.

What begins as a healthy coping mechanism devolves into escapism as Luz desperately clings to fiction in order to endure the difficulty of real life. School is hard, making friends is hard and nobody really understands her hobbies and passions, not even her mom (Even if she tries. She tries so hard.)

Living on the outskirts of the world of showbusiness, Luz quickly takes an interest in the magic of the screen. More than anything else, Luz wants to create. And creation comes in many forms and she has no intention of being confined to just one. Luz wants to be an actor, a writer, a director, an artist, an animator, a singer, a dancer, etc etc.

It's when her mom Camila finally puts her foot down and insists that Luz needs to learn to separate fantasy from reality, that her life really kicks off.

The Reality Check Center, an after school program which Luz is meant to attend every week day at 3:30pm sharp.

But after meeting somebody special, this is not where Luz goes every day after school.

Instead, Luz is hanging out in the house of Edalyn Clawthorne, an ex-starlet who Luz recognized on sight as Hecate in the 1980s Azura film adaption.

It's always been a mystery why Eda did not reprise her role for any of the sequels/spinoffs that Hollywood churned out for years afterwards. But upon meeting her and learning a little more of her story, Luz learns the truth from behind the scenes.

Eda has a chronic autoimmune disease and she was considered too "inconvenient" to have as a star of the franchise, so she was quietly let go after the first film released. She hasn't acted since and really has no intention of returning to that life.

Luz idolizes Eda and quickly latches on to her, demanding that she be her mentor and show her the ropes of showbiz. Eda hems and haws for a while before being worn down by Luz's persistent enthusiasm.

Luz meets Willow when the latter is trying to talk herself out of having a complete meltdown and the two quickly bond over being a pair of neurodivergent academically and socially challenged silly billies.

Willow is weak for pretty girls so she lets Luz talk her into sneaking her on set. Predictably, Luz causes havoc and gets banned from the premises within a few hours.

But that's okay! Because guess what! Turns out Luz is a perfect third musketeer for the funky little friend group Willow and Gus already had going on.

Luz does tons of stuff. She writes fanfiction. She has several notebooks full of anime art. But most notably, she has a YouTube channel.

Remember mid 2000s YouTube? Before it became the corporate husk that it is today? Back when it was just kids dicking around and posting their dumb silly vlogs.

Thats what Luz does. She posts dumb silly vlogs. She infodumps to the camera about her interests, she films herself while she's out with her friends. She just has fun, yknow?

Willow and Gus have fun too. Considering they are featured in like 90% of Luz's videos, laughing and joking around with her. But thats not all they do.

Willow, who has spent several months being the butt of the joke in the the Hexside show, is experiencing what it's like to be behind a camera while being respected and loved.

Willow is an exceptionally talented rollerskater. So of course Luz is filming her do tricks around the skatepark, whooping and hollering and chanting her name. Willow has a huge interest in botany. And superhero comics. And photography. And romcoms. And Luz will let her share fun facts about her interests, or maybe even babble for a bit, and Luz will act as though she's privileged to speak to a professor of the subject. It makes Willow blush and giggle, pretending it's not a big deal.

It's a huge deal actually.

It's through Luz's vlogs that Willow's authentic personality finally bleeds through the screen. Willow Park is not Paulina. She's not ditzy. She's not unobservant. She's something else entirely.

Willow Park is soft spoken but opinionated. She is witty and expressive. She's tough and sporty. She's wise beyond her years. She's wild and mischievous. She's sweet and silly. She's so many things that she'll make your head spin.

The scripts of the final Hexside S1 episodes are beginning to trickle out around this time and honestly? The writers are sick of Paulina. They're tired of the character. They're tired of the "She's stupid" joke. They feel like they've hit a brick wall with her, in a creative sense. But now they have Season 2 to work on and...ugghhh...

That's when one writer just happens to stumble across TheGoodWitchLuzura on YouTube and finds two young actors that they know very well, just existing outside of the set.

Willow is different on Luz's videos. While on set around the likes of Amity and Adrian, she simply keeps quiet, keeps her head down and does what she's told. She doesn't really spark any inspiration, yknow?

But after seeing this? This bright, sharp witted, skater girl on a griny camera recording? Well after seeing that, they really start feeling the urge to maybe spruce up Paulina's character a bit. Make her a little more compelling.

So, in that way, Luz Noceda completely changed Willow Park's life.

Willow still doesn't think she believes in God but if angels exist, Luz is definitely one of them.

If you said this to Luz, she'd disagree. She'd prefer to be a Demon >:3

________

ANYWAY!! On to the Belos question.

See, I think I'm going to take inspiration from the show's canon version of the Wittebane family as an endless cycle of pain and suffering.

Philip and Caleb Wittebane were a pair of orphan boys that managed to somehow weasel their way into the spotlight at an early age. It fed them well. It kept a roof over their heads. So that meant that this was a nice life, right?

The two brothers were considered timeless stars and their names would go down in history as some of Hollywood's finest.

In the year 1990, Caleb Wittebane was found dead in his home at the age of 30. Based on the evidence, it appeared he had taken his own life.

Philip was then given custody of his brother's infant son and promised that the boy would be raised to understand just what a wondrous legacy his father left behind.

Caleb Wittebane may have been buried 6ft under but Philip had no intention of letting him die. His DNA was still preserved, attached to this fat clump of an infant.

This baby was Caleb's second chance to live. Philip was going to make sure his stupid brother made the right choices this time.

Caleb wasn't going to throw it all away this time. Philip wouldn't let him.

#La La Land Machine AU #suicide tw

[thelemonsnek]

There are a lot of fun questions that come about from a tma-verse. How faithful are we talking. Are they full blown Avatars? Do they have to feed their patron? If so how would they go about it? I do believe a subway system would be pretty rich in targets as they have commuters that come day in and day out.

[vibrating at a speed that shatters glass] I am SO glad you asked

It is very faithful to tma canon, because instead of being eebied to Hisui, Ingo instead ends up in tma London! So the first part of the au is quite literally in tma. There's a whole running gag that Jon used to be into pokemon, and he gives Ingo and Emmet a copy of Pokemon White to play and they mark it with the Spiral and Buried respectively, and eventually it just gets marked by so many different avatars that that's what starts the apocalypse instead of the statement Elias gives Jon. Ingo and Emmet do get back to the pokemon universe before that happens though so it's fineeeeee

(They also bring the entities to the pokemon universe in coming home)

Are they full blown avatars?

Yes they are!! Ingo became an avatar when he became the Distortion, and Emmet became an avatar to escape Ingo's subway :)

For context on that, when Ingo and Emmet first reunited, it. Didn't go well! Because Michael had latched onto Ingo as a perfect victim (he was literally questioning the entire foundation of his reality, how could Michael resist?) and used Ingo's vague memories to torment him with the idea of the man in white

So Ingo doesn't think Emmet is real, and they end up fighting, and in that fight it comes up that Ingo has been eating people bc. He's the Distortion, that's what the Distortion does. And Emmet is like WHAT THE FUCK. THATS NOT OKAY. And anyways things continue and Ingo is convinced of Emmet's realness and is like oohhhh. He was important to the person Ingo. He could make me be that person again (bc the Distortion is a what, not a who, but just like Helen, he wants that anyways)

So he says to Emmet, "I have missed you so much. We can catch up, on the subway" and there, impossibly on the wall, is a sliding door leading to a subway car

Ingo is Emmet's brother. He will always trust him. He walks through the door, and finds himself in an impossible, endless subway

By now their argument has caught up with Ingo, and he's like. Ah. Emmet, the thing that anchored me to myself for the first time, said I shouldn't eat people. So I won't. And he goes on a hunger strike

Problem is, because of him doing that, Emmet can't get out. There is no out

But, a pressure at the back of his head whispers, there is a way down. And he Becomes, and begins to understand why Ingo took those people. He understands, because he has his own subway now

Do they have to feed their patron?

Also yes :) and yes, the subway is a verrrry convenient way to feed, especially since their domains are both subways as well! Very verrrry easy to be in a rush to get to your destination and take the wrong door :)

It's a bit of a perfectly awful situation really! They're both each other's anchors, which is great because they're good anchors to their sense of selves. The problem is, they kind of have this massive echo chamber going on, where as long as the other agrees and says that the act was justified, anything goes. And of course, with feeding, it keeps the other person healthy and alive. Why wouldn't they want their brother, their anchor, to stay safe? So their morals degrade rather rapidly!!

As far are their domains go, they're both differently flavored subways that have some degree of overlap (meaning it's possible to start in one, and end up in the other). Ingo's an endless maze that should not be possible. Trains that just never stop, stairwells that go on forever only to lead to nowhere, windows that show cities that don't exist

Emmet's is much more centered around the claustrophobia of the subways. Passageways that are a little too small, ceilings that are surely too cracked to hold, the weight of the world bearing down above you, held off only by the flimsy, crumbling cement. The trains are tight, dirty. There's never enough light to properly see anything

This video reminds me a lot of Ingo's subway :)

And this post is both of them tbh, in my tags I explain how it's Emmet, Ingo I think is self explanatory

#furby screams #tma au #subway boss ingo #subway boss emmet #submas #ask #dargonics #i have sooooooo many thoughts about this au #this is just barely scratching the surface #ive got a whole outline :3c #id love to write it someday #but unfortunately my track record with writing down my aus in anything more than bullet points is. not good. #btw elesa is an eye avatar #she doesnt know whats going on with her friends but she is /going/ to find out #i havent decided exactly when she becomes yet #maybe sometime after the trial #:)

[n3ayora]

Counting Parts: Part 2

Word Count: 800+

Pairing: Taehyung x reader

Summary: Your study sessions at a Café are getting more interesting as you catch yourself losing focus over a guy who is studying at the same Café as you. Maybe it's mutual?

"How many times do I have to tell you Jimin!?? Leave it alone." A wide grinning Jimin was sitting across of you while sneakily trying to take a glance at the guy who made you appear distracted and blush, nearly looking like a tomato for about two months now. He was glancing obviously behind you and eyeing every guy who's eyes were moving near you. Seconds after his eyes went back to your face as he widely grinning observed your movements. You nervously fidgeting and obviously trying to go back to your deep learning mode while trying to ignore his stare. You knew you couldn't continue; not after having meet this eyes that were suddenly making you interested. Ignoring Jimin you made a decision shocking yourself and your friend at the same time as you turned around to search for the person nonstop rumouring inside your head. Turning your head in all possible directions you suddenly felt Jimin's hand on your shoulder, turning you around to whisper quietly in your ear. "He is at the counter, if it's him. But I strongly suppose it is...". Turning your head in the final direction you hesitate for a moment before you get up and walk up to the counter. Walking towards the counter he currently was sitting at you sigh at the sudden lack of your confidence. The positive attitude had disappeared and soon after you find yourself lining in the queue to get an unnecessary cup of coffee. The plan of cutting coffee out of your schedule had failed again and you had to accept that you would always stay a coffee addict. The person in the queue in front of you had placed the order and without realising you found yourself on the head of the line. It was your turn. "A café au lait please", you blurt out without thinking and immediately regretting not having approached chocolate guy and that you just ordered your not so healthy addiction. "Whats wrong with me?", you murmur in your state of mind when without notice a body stands beside you and a deep soothing voice appears to talk to you.

"I don't think café au lait is gonna solve your math problems. At least not the amount you are consuming!". Annoyed from your failed mission you turn your head to look at the person speaking beside you. That's when you realise who it is. Staring into his chocolate eyes you close your eyes to make sure you are not hallucinating: opening them again you find eyes waiting for yours. "Well at least it's gonna make me not fall asleep", you respond shyly smiling at him and turning around to the barista making your coffee. "Thats the only reason why? You seem like a coffee addict to me"; he laughs. "I honestly don't know why I came to order", you laugh and turn your head at him. "So coffee it is not?", he asks widely grinning at you, showing you his boxy smile. "I can hardly ask the barista to throw the coffee away I ordered, can I?", you respond wanting to get out of the queue as people behind you are listening to your conversation. "You trust me?", he suddenly asks as he smiles to the barista and turns to you waiting for your answer. "Why would I? I don't know you", you reply regretting your abrupt answer immediately only to see him smiling even wider at you this time. "Trust me ones. You're gonna see". Hesitating you look at the barista, waiting for your answer while making your café au lait and suddenly you nod. No, you don't nod. Your body nods, but you don't seem to have control over it. It's like your thoughts didn't reach your motoric sensors, like they lost connection. But you let it be and wait while he places a new order.

"Café au lait for me and for you I've got ginger tea", he says as he glides you to his seat at the counter. Ginger. He must have seen you drinking and loving ginger tea the last months. How could he possibly know that? You didn't know. But it also didn't matter because you were now sitting besides each other and you felt him looking at you. Turning your head to meet his eyes you slowly turned your head back, blushing and shyly staring at the counter for way too long before you murmured a silent thank you in his direction. What was wrong with you? Normally you weren't that shy but in his presence you appeared to be. "You know I know why you got up to order, right?", he suddenly blurted out and shyly smiled at you. Gulping you looked at him in disbelief. "The least I could do was to order something else for you since you are trying to quit coffee and got up because of me, right?". Trying to find out if he found it cute or just wanted to mock you looked at him. "So are you done mocking me?", you asked finding him only with a confused face. "I wasn't trying to mock you. I just wanted you to know that-". "Hey Tae!", a sudden voice interrupted his talking and made you flinch. You knew that voice too well. It couldn't be. "Jimin-?", you gasped turning around finding Jimin grinning wider than before. "So you met Tae!".

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Hope you liked it! I am new here soo thank you for supporting and reading. <3

#taehyung fluff #taehyung x y/n #taehyung x reader #taehyung #tae #bts ff #tae cute #tae eyes #chocolate #bts #bts smut #taehyung smut

[acaciapines]

What does the post ending of 'The Holiday-Dreemur Kids' look like? How does it compare to what's featured in 'So I'm Waiting For The Teeth' and 'Dear Dess, Love Asriel'? You're are genuinely my favorite deltarune author and 'i know i'm not well (but i'm alright)' is by far my favorite deltarune fic (and in my list of all time fav fanfics) and I would LOVE to know what if any future you've envisioned for the cast?

ok well first off THIS IS SO SWEET THANK U SM......i dunno it always makes me so happy 2 know people return to my fics and me being your?? favorite?? deltarune author???? wild.

n all honestly i didnt really envision any sort of future once i finished up the series, i essentially see both homegrown hearts (for the kids) and dess, after (for dess n azzy) as the futures for the cast as i wrote them in i know i'm not well! this means theres a Whole Lot Of Life unaccounted for yes lol but that leaves it open for you to decide! they made it through the hardest part now they get to live their lives.

tho i will say some cute things ive always sort of pictured would be ralsei going to high school w the rest of the fun gang...she gets out of the dark world pretty early so she's got like, two or three years of high school experiences. i imagine kris susie and noelle really run with the bit of ralsei being a foreign exchange student (from their school's closet) just to see how far they can push it. i doubt they're super secretive about the dark worlds after this tho lol once ralsei gets out its like. why keep the worlds separate?

all the kids are way more mentally healthy here lol since they wouldve worked out the worst of their stuff earlier! im not sure what they'd do as adults...kris and noelle sharing a dorm room is still the funniest thing EVER to me. i also really like the idea of ralsei studying religion...as someone who doesnt study religion idk exactly what that would look like, but i think she'd find it really interesting and really relate to the idea of finding meaning in a world, though im not sure i see her as being like. actively religious herself after the dark worlds. i just feel like studying it is a way for her to forgive her past self, in a way? for how she clung to the prophecy. dunno. might do something with this idea one day. probably not, but we'll see.

on the dess and asriel side of things, asriel would meet chara! in this universe xe was dess's friend first but xe and azzy would hit it off too. asriel and dess playfully fight over xir and chara thinks it is very stupid (xe can have two friends!) but also won't complain about the pair of them doing all the chores xe doesnt want to do lol. i feel like prooooobably one big difference would be chara and azzy not having a qpr? that's an idea i like which is why i explored it in dear dess, love asriel, and i like xir having one with dess which will be seen in the dess raises kris au, but for this particular universe i think both dess and azzy being there means theyre all just close friends! chara doesnt let dess babysit though. dess is fine with this. she is not a huge fan of being responsible for children lol.

dess and kris continue to repair their relationship. for missing so many of kris's birthdays theres a good ten year span where dess goes super all-out. probably plans a surprise party that kris 100% knows about but thinks is really sweet so they dont say anything until the very end.

but thats just a few ideas i came up with! none of these would ever be written in any way bc i cant see myself writing more for the holiday-dreemurr kids universe...those stories are over and while i hope to write more deltarune stuff in the future (i have a LOT of ideas for the dess raises kris au), these particular fics are all in the 'it's free real estate' territory. their futures are whatever you could picture!

#ask #deltarune #this was such a delight 2 receive tho... #havent thought about these characters for a bit (deep in my owl house daemon au) #but deltarune is one of my favorite things Ever im always happy to think about it more <3

[azumasoroshi]

going fucking insane over one of my wips because it's for a really small subgroup of a really small fandom of a really small fandom of a really big fandom that everyone fucking hates because people are cancelled like every other week and basically i cant talk about it with anyone without needing to explain like 60 pages worth of story that I wrote PLUS no one wants to talk about me because it's one of the cringiest ships in existence that sounds HORRENDOUSLY heteronormative on paper and like half the fandom calls them siblings even though they have been confirmed multiple times not to be and the other half is like oh the girl would never be in love with the guy because she's in love with the player!! as if being in love with her ideal of the player is healthy for her all and can't change or she can't fall out of love with someone whose interactions were limited to basically just looking at her, clicking through her text and DELETING HER

yeah so is about monipai as in monika from ddlc and senpai from friday fucking night funkin (i know. im sorry) im so down horrendous im on like seventeen doses of copium and counting and there's 11 total monipai works on ao3

one of them is mine and the other ones are either written by a 10 year old (because it's fucking fnf, what sane adult would write unironic fnf fanfiction) or unfinished (because fnf fics get no traction and unless you're fucking insane like me and have 60 pages of pure brainrot there is NOTHING keeping you going for such a nonexistent audience) and oh my god why am i here

the other fandoms ive been in recently are vashwood and shizaya and those are great!! those are normal!! vashwood has been getting boatloads of content that i cant stop looking at/reading and im getting fun ideas for aus and there's so many people in the community rn to interact with

and shizaya is a bit of struggle because the fandom is smaller but there's so much older content to go through/reread that it's fine and my posts about them get some traction and in some places you can actually talk to people who have been in the fandom from the beginning of time and overall it's a good fun time

AND THEN THERE'S MONIPAI. the ONE straight (bi4bi according to me and im always right) ship in fnf that no one likes because they're "sibling coded" for some god forsaken reason (and im usually all for sibling headcanons/prefer them over romantic ones but NOT THIS ONE SENPAI LITERALLY CONFESSED HIS LOVE FOR HER IN THE MOD) and it'll only make sense to people who like DDTO enough to not forget about it after playing like 19832529 other mods and even THEN like half of them ship it in the really cringe heteronormative way that dudebros ship them like GOD FUCKING HELL GET ME OUT OF HERE

ive never been madder about anything ive shipped ever. i LOVE getting comments on my fic and im surprised ive gotten any at all but holy shit

you know that one person who made like 3000 fics for their honeyworks throuple. honey i feel you cuz what the fuck is this

and with my usual ships i can send them to my friends who know what to expect and be like ok so these are the gayasses you're obsessed with this week but with this one. like the very premise is so ridiculous id be laughed out of their dms but this is literally like the most in-depth and serious ive gotten about any of my fanfiction plots ever (there's like themes and callbacks and motifs and everything, thats how you know it's bad). this is probably better written than my book drafts and it makes me SO MAD

ive even considered like. what if i just made them my ocs, since i've developed them so much and the plot is entirely my own creation. that might even be easier but the fic is so heavily based off of canon content that it just wouldntd make SENSE how am i supposed to rewrite all that canon lore when i take them out of it. i cant. im stuck tying them to ddtoverse

back to what i was originally talking about: basically i got this really nice comment on ao3 on my monipai fic and i was smiling really hard and spinning in my chair and i was inspired to try and write again so i update my. oh it's 71 pages. 71 page document to try and update chapter 3 and i end up going to my other ideas and workshopping them and suddenly ive penned down ideas for 4 DIFFERENT CLIMAXES?????????? AND THEY ALL HAVE THEIR PROS AND CONS AND THEY ALL BASICALLY LEAD TO THE SAME ENDNIG AND I DONT KNOW WHICH ONE TO CHOOSE AND I CANT ASK ANYONE BECAUSE IF THEY'RE INTERESTED ENOUGH TO READ IT I WANT THEM TO READ THE FIC AS IT'S BEING UPDATED BUT NO ONE'S INTERESTED ANYWAY

and trying to ask about which one i should choose while removing all incriminating details (read: monika and senpai's names) is so hard because there's SO much i have to explain as backstory and no one even responds to it anyway so there's no point :sob:

anyway i love monipai and specifically my version of monipai and it's legitmately ruining my life how's your day going

#soro rants #soro rambles #long post #cannot emphasize how much you probably dont want to read this post LMFAO this is literally a mental breakdown #i dont even fucking know dude i CANT TALK ABOUT THEM WITH ANYONE #the only other ship i have that comes close to this level of obscurity is n and colress from pokemon #which might be worse tbf because of the age gap that 10 year old me did not comprehend (i thought they were both 20-ish) #(they are not both ~20ish.) so there's like an actual moral reason to not ship them. #but like. there's only so much i can write about that and ive already published most of it. my brainrot isn't this bad for them #tachigin is also obscure but like. there's a discord server for it with like 7 people and a decently sized ao3 collection #why am i only into straight ships that no one ships wtf #why couldnt i have fixated on like. bf x gf thatd be so much fucking easier cuz literally every mod has them #but noOOO it has to be the fucking obscure ones that even the most heteronormative of dudebros are like 'why would you even consider that' #hell even tabi/agoti has more of a following than this like dawg #ddlc #fnf #monipai #ddlc monika #fnf senpai #btw if that person who commented today reads this: hi i love you #god i try to never rant like this because it's unprofessional and i never read anyone else's rants but like im LOSING IT #i usually keep it in the tags which is really easy to skip over or just dont say it at all guhhh #people who write nothing but rarepairs/oc stuff i have NOTHING but respect for you i snap like a twig at the lack of an audience #please teach me your ways how do you cope. maybe ill start brainstorming with chatgpt #not feeding it prompts to write fanfiction with of course because only whores do that

[captainbobbin]

Ask game, TerraIsa or XemSai/XemIsa?

Thats a tough question. 

(long answer under the readmore :p)

The way I see it, they're both very similar - its a venn diagram of sorts, not just because Isa/Saix is in the centre. And I don't think I can pick just one over the other, because they're kind of rooted into one another.

For me, if you're doing moonrocks (Terra x Isa) stuff and doing it with some attachment to canon (as in, it isn't an au that's really out there) realistically there should be some element of XemSai in there somewhere. For Terra and Isa to connect in a (semi)canon way, I think there's gotta be some form of acknowledgement of 'oh yeah, Terra and Xemnas overlap one another in some ways, and Saix was connected to one and now potentially the other'.

I've shipped XemSai since KH2 came out;;; I was always super super into it. But then DDD happened, and there was the big Xehanort/possession reveal, and it kind of made me look at the whole relationship like 'Oh, this is for sure onesided. Like there is a powerplay going on here that is way deeper than a simple boss/employee' kind of thing.

I still love XemSai - as I hope you can all tell by the things I draw and write ahahah but I see it as a pairing as something kind of indulgent, physical and ultimately somewhat unhealthy. Neither of them are people, neither of them canonically get an eventual happy ending with the other, neither of them have real emotions. So as a relationship it's kind of parasocial - there's a sense of use, of gain, of just getting by and having the other near as a means of temporary comfort. Sure, in time they could have grown hearts and learned to love, but a large aspect of both characters is tragedy. Saix has been screwed over time and time again and is continuously at a loss, always letting aspects of himself go to waste and be ruined by others. Xemnas wants to be many things, wants to understand the heart, wants to figure things out and remember what love is like - but he can't. The two of them together don't make a whole - its all just a temporary fix that helps them forget the worst of it. Thats not even getting into the fact that Saix was actively trying to take the Org down from within.

I'm currently writing a piece which kind of looks at the relationship under the lens of 'what is real and what is fake anymore? How much of this is an act, and at what point did I just begin to go along with things? Why does it not bother me that my plans have changed, and now I see myself reluctant to let this person go?' and I think that is something I really like about XemSai. The basis of it all is just. Surviving. Doing what you have to. Seeking out what you can when you have (and are) nothing. It isn't something that starts off nor ends nicely, in a way. Neither of them are people. Neither of them are good.

(In general, I just love writing XemSai stuff where there is an undertone of ‘oh this will not end well, but they just can’t help themselves. They are all they've got.’)

Terra and Isa, meanwhile, have room to grow. After so long of being separated into parts of themselves they're people again, able to reflect on mistakes and learn, form bonds that are actually real. They have flaws and may slip up from time to time, may need to reassess who they are as people, but now it is something genuine and without a sense of dread and distrust hanging over them. They both share a lot of attributes and can see themselves in the other - and the bond they have can be one that is realistic, organic, and healthy. Not just healthy - but healing. They can lean on one another without fear, face aspects of themselves they were unsure about, look at internal self-issues knowing that there is someone nearby that gets it. Amongst all the pain and darkness and past cruelty and possession between them, there is more of a sense of innocence to it all - they're both picking up pieces of themselves and trying to find how it all fits together, working out how to go forward, figuring out how their hearts have brushed against each other in the past.

That, and its post 3 - after reconsiling, after moving on a little, after having others nearby. They have people around them that want the best for them. The situation has changed and so have they. All around, things have improved and now they can improve themselves. Together, hopefully.

I think moonrocks has a more sweet sentimentality and an aspect of continuous improvement and gentleness where XemSai's flavor is darker, richer, and laced with an undertone of regret. I've joked before that Moonrocks is just XemSai with extra steps but there is far more to it than that. Terra is such a wonderful character that has so much more to him than is on the surface, and the separation of Saix and Isa is something I really enjoy delving into.

I love both and am gonna be continuing to make content about both :)

lmao sorry for the essay. tl;dr - both very very good for similar but different reasons and my life revolves around them both hahahha

(Obligatory link to my written work where I channel these kind of vibes teehee :p)

#look out guys its time for Bobbins inane ramblings #moonrocks #xemsai #ask meme #kh #kingdom hearts

[diodellet]

music chain! list 5 songs that give off this vibe: unhealthy romance

send this to the last 5 people who were active in ur notes (+ anyone you want) with a vibe of your choice (as vague or specific as you want)

ouh now u can't just do that to me oomfie 🤧🤧i have too many unhealthy songs...they litrally inspire everything that i write ouhhhhh vestie how could you /not srs

🌿My Love is Sick by Madds Buckley

(if you listen to the bridge... you can hear "hold me, let me go," no...i'm ok i'm deffo ok... no im not crying UR CRYING ABT A LOVE THAT IS DISGUSTED BY ITSELF DHMU)

You make it better You make it worse You're my killer And my Christ (But I'm the one twisting the knife)

🎹Natalya from Preludes

(i used a line to title one of my jamil hcs but GOD this song is not healthy, "do whatever you need to do to make yourself whole again" and "just do it quick, before i get sick of you. i don't ever want to get sick of you" LIKE STAB ME WITH A KNIFE ITLL HURT LESS)

You are in a hole And so I jump into the hole But I can't get you out

💐Goodbye Ms. Flower Thief by Mer

(i heavily associate this song with oyasumi punpun, i mean... look at this prechorus bit iykyk... sure it gets kinda hopeful near the end but is that the codependency cycle restarting itself? u tell me maen)

Give me love, give me love I want to eat that love up She said "Strangle me with those hands."

🌇Vague Lust Lover by koyori

(the way vflower is tuned here just adds to the emotional anguish of the persona even if its mainly revolving around the ambiguity of articulating your feelings and having them be received "kindly" GOD when kindness feels like a knife, when kindness feels like staring into the sun's glare I AM COMATOSE!!!)

I always end up forgiving you, Infected by a strong, irritating illness "I like you, do I like you?" always saying things like that Even though I've chanted it a thousand times, this magic seems to be useless

🫧Only Sorrow by Yorushika

(so many of yorushika's songs are codependency-coded, if its related to elma and amy or just the "thats why i gave up on music" album then ur in for some pain au chocolat OHHH and the prechorus for this song "always, always, always, always, always / i am only chasing after you" LIKE OWIEEEE MY HEARTTT)

I don't need such a self I don't need anything Money or fame or love or praise, I need none of them Just like this, I want to go somewhere far away

special mention to: these three songs

#dellet-asks #dellet-asides #i love yapping abt my fave songs #i have so much to say #they have inspired so many mental animatics #that i will keep to myself until i go crazy #jessamine-rose

[penguin--person]

hey. hey you. I’m way too nervous to leave an actual comment on it but the rain world fic you posted recently. Fucking slaps. It’s so good. Idk how to put it into words but it’s like you make the characters so clear and and…idk but I think your fic is so cool and good. AND I DONT EVEN RAIN WORLD IS SUPPOSED TO BE. I came in through PAFL but I’ve been curious about rw for a while now, and this has made me want to check it out even more. Also, take your time on the swap au!! Stay healthy(physically AND mentally. They both matter) and don’t burn yourself out! Always remember that you are priority #1, and that your needs should always come first. Alright that’s it bye :D

AWAWA!!!! wawawwaaa!!!! explodes and diessssss ..n"!!! thanke you!!! thank you:3!!!!! your kind words are always so!!! nice and cool!!! and a pleasure to receive!!! <3333 rain world my good friend rain world... its a game for sure!!! ive been engaging less w the fandom lately, but, i still rlly like the game:3 ive been into it for. checks steam achivements. like two years now (i got into pafl not long after i think) !! rain world has these thangs tho - slugcats! :) the link leads to my rw pafl au... i have. SO Many pafl aus. you dont even Know. i havent even posted half of them. you dont know about my wandersong pafl au. you dont know about my buddy sim pafl crossover. you dont know about my pathologic pafl au (yet) (>:3). and thats because i never draw anything for them ❤️might write smth tho... ..

mm . youre rlly cool. thank you again!!! for your support!!! as a thank you, heres what ive got so far for the next chapter of swap! its not much, and mostly just first draft, but! just for you ❤️the '*' signal words/sentences im gonna italise

It’s another day. Just like always.

Half-asleep, Yura glances at the door, halfway through his breakfast. His mother’s standing there. She’s already fully dressed, while her son is still in last night’s clothes. He hasn’t had much energy as of late. It’s not like he ever has any energy, even more as of late, with the trip to the zone coming up... Not to mention everything that’s happened with Dmitry.

Yura grunts at the thought of that… *monster. 

Why didn’t he stick around? Maybe he’d have been able to convince Sergei to let him stay, or at the very least, not report him. Maybe he could have helped Dima escape. Maybe he could have seen the police coming and warned him. Maybe if he had used his brain, he’d have told Sanya to let Dima stay at his place and avoided all of this. But, no amount of *maybes is going to change the fact that he’s gone. Dead, maybe, for all they know.

The door clicks shut. He’s alone now. Anya is either at school (Is there school today? What day is it?) or, more likely, at Olya’s right now. She probably won’t be back for some time. Yura will be all by himself until then, getting swallowed up by unnecessary feelings.

… Whatever. He only knew him for a week. He shouldn’t care. His eyes shouldn’t sting at the memory of the guy. It doesn’t matter that Yura wasted so much time and money helping him out. Feeding him, giving him a place to stay, hanging out with him even though he was *such a pain in the ass.. But none of that matters now. Never will matter, because he’s gone.  The only thing that matters is that he- *it, Yura corrects himself - killed a few people in Sergei’s flat.

… Well, not really people. Not ones that matter, anyway. Three or so cops. Blew up their heads, Sanya said, that it looked like that’s what happened. Yura got the feeling she didn’t tell him more than she had to during their phone call. It was clear that she wasn’t pleased with how things turned out. Maybe she was hoping Sergei could help Dima. Let him live with them.  Find some place for him to stay, at least.

Yura can’t find the strength to not blame her for this. The rational side of him argued that she was the *least to blame, actually, she didn’t know this would happen. Most likely, she didn’t even know that Dima’s a mutant. Still. Though the final nail in his (hopefully only metaphorical) coffin was decided by Sergei, *she took Dima to him. She should have known.. but, how could she have? There was no way for her to know.

A frustrated groan escapes the teen. There’s really no need to be thinking that much about him. About *it.

He groans again, frustrated by his inability to call Dmitry what he is. It’s not like he didn’t know the truth all along, either. Again, he internally reprimands himself for getting attached. Sanya isn’t to blame here- no, she’s not the one responsible for all of this. Maybe for getting him reported so quickly, but that was always going to happen, one way or another. Better soon than later, the teen thinks. Before he let that not entirely uncomfortable feeling grow more than it already has.

Before he can ponder this any further, his phone buzzes. With one hand, he rubs his eyes, with the other he picks up his phone.

*We need to talk, a message from none other than Mr Kazarin himself. The tone of the message makes him sound like he wants to break up, Yura thinks to himself. Funny. Maybe it is one. Yura runs a hand through his hair, staring at the message. His stalker times are over before they even started, his only hope at making it in this godforsaken world, all because of that.. *thing. Nothing he can say could fix this.  

Luckily, before he can ruin Sergei’s view of him any further, another message. An invitation, if one can call it that, to meet up at an unimportant location. It’s not like he has much choice in this - so, he sends back an *ok, gets dressed in his unitidy clothes and heads out.

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something something sergei angst

“You know what this is about.” Sergei proclaims. Yura doesn’t need to reply for him to know he’s right, but he still does, accompanied by a dry chuckle. “‘Course I do. It’s about Dimochka.”

“*Don’t call it that.”

The air is thick with tension. Despite this, Yura nonchalantly holds a cigarette out to him. Like nothing’s happened- like this is just a regular training session. With a sigh, he takes the cigarette, and with one quick motion, he takes out his lighter. Yura is fiddling with his own. 

#<333 thank you

[ydlmaiki]

⚠️This Short Writing Scenario is an AU of Good Omens but with my OCs, So it has minor spoilers to Good Omens s02 e06 last 10 min. or so

If you haven't seen Good omes and is planning to watch it, I dont recommended reading it, but if you dont care, then go for it I guees, you are your own Lord, no one can tell you what to do⚠️

🔴⚠️ Mention of slight Abuse⚠️🔴

🔴⚠️Slight Homophobia ⚠️🔴

🔴⚠️ People Kissing⚠️🔴

Norman's Point of View

as I was waiting for my friend to return from chit-chat with Lord Mauri outside, a Lady & Man that We tried to hook up entered the bookshop, it was my friend Hanah and her "friend" Tom

Hanah: Hello Norman

Norman: Hana and Tom! what an pleasure to see you both, would you like a cup of tea, or perhaps, coffee?

I asked as I started walking upstair to the kitchen+livingroom (both of them were following him)

Hanah: Not really for me, what about you Tom?

Tom: Hm, Can I get water please?

Norman: of course

I said as both of them sat on the couch, I gave the water to tom and he thanked me, I took a chair from the kitchen part and put it in front of them and sat

Norman: Soo, what brings you here? I guess it isn't some books right?

Hanah: Isn't it obvious Norman? you and your boyfriend have been trying to hook up us, even tho, I already have partner

I was suprised by her "boyfriend" I mean, he isnt my "boyfriend" he is my Best friend, even tho he is supposed to be my enemy

Norman: We aren't a pair, We are just buddies, ya know? what is the term that you use here, Homies? I think it was like that

Hanah: Yea sure then, Anyway, why were you trying to hook us up? like, he isn't even my type

Tom looked kinda sad and disappointed

Tom: I mean, she got a point, We both wants to be left alone in peace, and not some two gays trying to hook us up

Gays?! I am sorry, But I am not in LOVE with him, I guess sure he looks pretty, with his Raven black hair that just waves in the wind, or his whiskey/Hazelnut eyes that just shine against the moonlight, but thats like all

Hanah: Look, I am just kinda worried about you, you should talk about how you feel about him, its not healthy to try hook up other people instead of hooking up with each other

Tom: thats true

Normam: Uhh, so, what do YOU want ME to do?

Hanah: just tell Mr. Gersch how you feel and talk stuff out

Norman: hahaha, thats hilarious, we have knew eachother for many years, we dont have anything to talk about, we know eachother, we are like family

Hanah: Norman, there is something in you isnt it? I have noticed how you were sometimes staring at him in lovey dovey way

as she finished the sentence, I kinda was lost in thought, I mean, He is indeed a beautiful Angel, one of the most Kindest and yet Overprotective Angel I have seen.The different popular fashion styles that he wears everyday and always say "whaaaat? black is an popular colour, and if we are supposed to blend in, then it works perfectly" somewhat maded me Chuckle and blush always. He even once wore an crop top and hoodie over it, I almost faint on how se-

Norman: Ou

Tom: what is it?

Norman: emm nothing, but yea, I will try to talk to him okay?

I stand up and walked them out of the store and then waved at them

I closed the doors, and decided to look through some Books that I have, I got stuck in the young adult/romance section.I then started looking through the books and was repeating the same line over and over again "Do I love Aaran? Do I really love him? Do I-" I heard an Bell ring when Someone enters the shop, I turned around and noticed it was Aaran and he had happy face and was moving happily, you could say it like that

Norman: by the face you have and the way you move, I guess we aren't in that big problem?

Aaran: surprisingly, no, Even tho, it was quiet chaotic what happened, Anyway! I have some very great news for you my dear

I looked confused, what great news could Lord Mauri gave him? he isn't the nicest guy, so I am not sure

Norman: What is it? also, I would like to talk about something later

Aaran: ou, okay? so em, Me and Lord, we were like talking outside at the cafeteria about what will we do with the free space of Supreme Archangel since traitor Rozzie and Enemy Janne left

he started walking closer to me

Aaran: sooo he gave me the idea to become the Supreme Archangel, but thats not all my dear

he was standing right in front of me with an big smile and happy eyes

Aaran: he aslo promised that he would bring you back as Angel! isnt that just great?

I was shocked and left speechless

Aaran: We can be together in heaven, and make it a better place

Together? in heaven?

Norman: What? please tell me you said no to that

he looked at me suprised and sad

Norman: tell me, you said no, please

Aaran: I mean, I said that I need time to think about it, but he said "what there to think about? its an amazing choice dude" sooo I then emm

I looked devastated and disappointed on him, Why he would agree to be The Ruler Archangel or how is it called

Norman: Angel, did you forget what they do? they are heaven, they don't care about anyone, all they care is power, and I dont want the same happen to you, okay?

I said as I touched both of his arms

Norman: Please, I want you to stay with me okay?

Aaran: but we can be together in heaven

Norman: no, its definitely some trap, If I would go back there ,I would get killed for who I am

Aaran: why would they kill you? is it because of the Armageddon?

at that moment I realised that I never told him about my gender preference, its true we knew each other over 6000 years, but we never talked about our secrets

I then Decided to stop holding him

Aaran: I am sorry Norman, but I have to do it

Norman: do what?

Aaran: Be the Supreme Archangel, I can change the heaven to Better place

Norman: so you would rather choose heaven over me?

when I finished the sentence, it seems like the wind here got thicker. Aaran looked at me suprised

Aaran: wha- of course not, I wouldn't leave you

Norman: then dont go, stay with me, on OUR side, we don't need them they are toxic

Aaran: but my dear, you can go back being angel, being the Almighty Zalkien, the one who is capable of magic and healing

I felt sad when he said it, to be honest I am happy that I have fallen, that place is horrible than the hell.I wanted to cry, so I decided to walk up the stairs to my room

Aaran: where are you going?

Norman: I am leaving, so you can go being the Supreme Archangel without me

Aaran: but I care about you

Norman: Can you just fu**ing leave me alone, like everyone else did?!!

I looked at him from the stairs as I shouted those words

He looked at me with an fear in his face, but he also seemed worried

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I was shocked that he drove at me like that, his face had small tears on his eyes, Oh Amolos, what have I done? He then ran up the stairs, before I could even catch

Aaran: WAIT PlEA-

I couldn't even finish and he already slammed his door wich maded loud noise

I looked at my hands and everywhere in the room, it was my fault, what I was even thinking? of course he won't like to go back because he is demon. No, he doesn't wanna because he wants to be with me here, I felt Horrendous, I felt like I should go upstairs and calm him down, I heard someone open the door wich maded the bell rink, but I didn't turn around to look who it was, I was staring at those stairs and thinking what I have said

Mauri: Soooo Is he going with us ooorr?

After of thinking and regretting my choices, I decided to stay, its the best option for both of us, because even if being supreme Archangel where you have almost all power to do whatever you want, it won't be good without him there, there is no point in doing it without him, so I turned around and looked at him

Aaran: I think I will rather decline your offer

Mauri: what are you talking about? is this some joke?

Aaran: I am saying, that I don't wanna be the Supreme Archangel

he looked at me shocked and waved his arms in the air

and laughed of bit

Mauri: You are joking right? because normally, an Angel would kill someone to be an Supreme Archangel

Aaran: Well, I guess I am different then. The offer does sound nice, but I em, prefer being the emotional support side-kick then being a leader

he looked at me pissed and then looked at the stairs and back at me with some disgusted smirk

Mauri: did HE told you something? because I bet my ass that, that the fucking homosexual demon did some of his miracle to change your mind

I was suprised, Homosexual? its kinda weird, because Demons and Angels dont have like gender. I get that he wouldn't date Someone who looks like a woman, but why he never told me that?

Aaran: what are you talking about?

Mauri: ouuuu, he never told you, did he? why do you think he fell, huh?

Aaran: I dont know, he never talked about him falling

Mauri: Yea makes sense, He was Gods favourite Angel you know? but he just one day, told me that he wouldn't date someone who looks like woman and also kissed one of his "boyfriend" so thats why he fell, well, main reason

I felt sad for him, it makes sense he wouldn't like to comeback because of that, but then they said something that maded my blood boil

Mauri: He is an A***ole, they should have killed him there, we had to torture him before he fell

Aaran: you what?!

I said with suprised voice and kinda pissed

Mauri: what? oh c'moon, it was joke Xavier, and also it was funny how he used to cr-

I got closer to him wich maded him stop talking. I was soooooo close to just kill him, I dont like when someone is talking bad stuff about him behind his back and how could a person do those horrendous stuff, especially an Angel for hergot sake

Mauri: Whoa Whoa man, No need to be so offensive, he is Demon in the final, so it doesn't matter you know?

Aaran: but he still have feelings, you guys hurted him

Mauri: why do you care about him? he is just a fagg-

I slapped his face, I will not let him use slur against him, no one should be mean towards people who loves the same gender as them

Mauri: Ou, that hurted you know?

Aaran: leave, NOW!

I shouted and pointed at the door

He looked at me very pissed and still holding his cheek

Mauri: Fine, but dont expect you will return back like nothing happened

he turned and stomped his way out of the shop

I went up the stairs, there was small hall with three doors, First on the right was his room, second one on the left that was in the middle was kitchen and living room, and the last door that was completely back on right was bathroom and there is window on the end of hall

I stand in front of his door and knocked twice

Aaran: Dear? are you okay there?

I asked but heard nothing

so I knocked again but louder

Aaran: May I enter?

I heard like someone waking up and walking to the door

Norman: What do you want?

he said behind the door

Aaran: Hello dear, may I enter?

Norman: why? you hurted me enough

Aaran: what? no! I would never ever hurt you on purpose

Norman: well, good job, because you just did

I let out small disappointment sigh

Aaran: Norman, I am so sorry, it was my fault for acting stupid and trying to force you to do something you dont wanna, i am really sorry

then there was silence

I heard unlocking door, he opened the door a bit and had his fingers on the edge of the door

Norman: Do you truly feel sorry?

Aaran: of course I do

he then opened the door fully and stand in the door. His beautiful ginger curly hair was more messy then before and the hair hided his eyes, but his eyes were stll visible and also bit tired.He also have dried tears on his cheek and is wearing black long sleeve shirt and grey sweatpants

Aaran: Oh my Amolos, I am so sorry

I said as I got closer to him and wanted to touch his face ,but he catched my hand and looked into my eyes. He then let go of my arm

Norman: I- I am sorry, I wasn't supposed to get too emotional over that, it was stupid from me to drove out like that

Aaran: no no, its okay, I get it, you just had rough life up there

Norman: did Mauri told you something?

Aaran: nothing much, he just told me that when I would return to heaven, that they won't be so nice

Norman: Makes sense, anyway, could you please help close the shop? its already pass the time

Aaran: of course my dear

We went down the stairs and checked if everything is on the place, I picked up my plants and some other stuff that I had in the bookshop for while, bcs Heaven got my place moved out after the Armageddon, so I had to stay for while in the bookshop until I found new one.

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As I helped him getting his stuff into his MPV car I decided to ask him if he would like some drink before going

[CB] Aaran: No thank you, I need to drive home sober

[CB] Norman: I didnt ment wine, we could just, drink tea or cup of coffee

[CB] Aaran: Well, if you insist, I guess good cup of coffee would be good

so we both went back into my book shop and he sat on the couch while I maded the coffee

Norman: here you go

I said as I bring him the cup of coffee and sat next to him

Aaran: thank you my dear, its really kind of you

Norman: oh c'mon Angel, you are my friend after all

Aaran: yea "friend", hehehe

he said and drank the cup of coffee and had suprised face

Aaran: how come it is not hot and just warm?

Norman: I dont boil the water until the kettle scream, I let it boil for few second and them turn of

Aaran: interesting

he said and drank from the coffee again, Then I remembered what Hanah told me today, to talk to him about how I feel, but I didn't knew how to start, so I decided to start like this

Norman: Do you remember back in like 17th where we were on the first showcase of guillotine?

Aaran: you mean how some man got his head cut of by huge blade?

Norman: Yes, what was his name? Nick I believe?

Aaran: yea something like that, why are you asking?

Norman: Well, remember how I invited you to my house and drank some wine?

His face went suprised and started chuckling

Aaran: Oh my amolooos! You mean how we got sooo drunk that we couldn't remember much what happened?

Norman: Yeaa! I mean, it was such an fun back then

we then both were laughing and talking about humans and french renaissance. After a whille of talking, we were touching our thigh's and I was staring at his pretty face while he was laughing, he then looked at me smiling wich turned into suprised

I turned my face blushing

Aaran: Aww Norman, you are still the same guy, you didn't even changed a bit after those 6000 years

he laughed and pat my back

Norman: Yea, I em, I wanna tell you something about how we got drunk in the france

Aaran: yea what is it?

Norman: you see, when we em were sitting next to eachother, Talking and laughing while you were em kinda laying on my chest

it was hard for me to talk about it, without putting my head in my hands and blushing

Norman: and then after while our heads were soo close that we could em almost k-kiss?

I swallowed after that sentence

Norman: I mean, I did em pushed you after emmm that, hehe

I let out a small laugh and looked at him smiling in nervous way, he had his mouth open slightly, gosh

Aaran: Oh My-, I- I dont remember that happening, I was definitely totally drunk at that time, I am so sorry

Norman: nono its okay, I just em, woaw! look at that time! it will be almost 10 PM

I said as I pointed on my clock on the wall. We both stand up and walked down the stair

As I was standing between the ile of books and he was in front of the door about to leave, he turned around and ask

Aaran: why did you mentioned the drunk accident? I thought we agreed to never talk about it again, if I remember correctly

I had an big surprised face, I couldn't say to him that it was, because I wanted that to happen again, right?

No, I shouldn't wanted it, so I decided to say a lie

Norman: Well em you see, I thought that em it would be cool to talk about the em guillotine history

I said and smiled at him

he crossed his arms and looked at me with smirk,

Aaran: Norman, we both know you cant lie, especially your feelings towards me

Norman: what? I wasnt lying angel, I was speaking the complete truth

as I was about to leave to my door, something that I thought would only happen in dreams happened

he come up to me, grabbed my face and kissed ME, not some girl,no, it was ME who HE KISSED! A GUY! I had my eye open fully and arms opened, I thought he would stop, but he was continuing to nimb on MY LIPS! so I closed my eyes and hugged him,gosh, why I am doing it? I shouldn't like it, but it feelt so good.He then put his hands around my torso and went with his tongue wich maded me pull out from that

he looked suprised and had red cheeks

Aaran: why did you pull out now?

Norman: I- I was just suprised you did THAT!

he then chuckled a bit and smiled at me

Aaran: You seem to quite enjoy "that"

he said and kissed my cheek and lips

Norman: I- f**k, I em

he put a finger on my lips

Aaran: no need to use words Dear, or should I say

he went closer to my ear

Aaran: Love?

that sentence maded my brain explode, gave my heart 10 heart attacks and maded my stomach turn 180° both ways

Aaran: use affection my Love, if you wanna say something

he looked at me with his adorable puppy eyes and his mouth slightly open, Oh my Megeran, I cant believe this is real, Angel Aaran Gerch just kissed a Demon Norman Fell, and to be honest, I LOVED it, every second of it, his soft lips on my cold one, I- I wanted to do it again, but I wasn't sure he wanted to

Norman: could you em, do "that" again? please?

Aaran: you mean me kissing you?

Norman: Y-yea, please

he chuckled kinda and kissed me shortly, wich kinda maded me angry, so I kept repeating again and he repeatedly kept kissing me shortly, until we both started to chuckle from that and let out tired sigh. We were staring at each other eyes, holding each other and just smiling and blushing, wich maded me realise one thing that I didn't know until now

Norman: I loved you since the first day on the garden, Love

Aaran: I know my Dear, I know

he said and kissed my lips

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Author Notes

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Oh Lord, To be honest, it is longer then I expect it, soooo yea I hope you liked it, I just wanted to write the last 10/20 min. of Good omens ep6 in my style with my OC's, which is a LOT different (Good Omens was more tragic but mine was supposed to be more lovely-Dovey)

anyway have a nice day and yea

(left one is season 1 and the right one is season 2)

Norman = Ginger

Aaran = Black Hair

#good omens #au #oc #writing #good omens au

[jayflrt]

haha im going to my friend's prom! she went to mine and im going to hers. ngl her's was kinda more fun bc of venue 😭 IT WAS SO MUCH BETTER THAN MINE it rly gave that royalty au vibes i got so many pictures 😁 and also finally met her friends so it was fun!

my last week of school was nice and chill i was mostly scrambling to finish my chem final and just getting people to sign my yearbook! i got this set of colourful pens i got on my birthday that i never got to use and i finally used them so my yearbook is very colourful which i like bc there's so many msgs and having the different colours rly helps with reading them 😭

i unfortunately got covid so i had to miss my graduation 😭 i completely recovered now but i was rly bummed out for a couple of days, esp on the day of. i retraced my days and figured out by timelines that i contracted it on my last day of school and thats so 💀 one of my friends said the school left me a parting gift 👹 apparently some people with covid went to grad anyways but i didnt want to be one of those people even though i rly rly wanted to go anyways

my clubbed performed a dance! i also had a short solo towards the end and it was jusy rly fun so at least there's that good memory left from my school ig ansjdffkv hehe thank you for the virtual flowers 💓

and i did listen to bts' comeback! i was an army for a while previously so seeing them always flickers an old flame in me even though i dnt "stan" them anymore. all the new songs are great! i love the vibes of run bts but searching it on google is a hassle bc theres their show and also their song from hyyh era 😭

also this 😭😭 not the livetweeting while getting eaten by a titan. also imagining that era having technology would be so. funny. and weird 💀 imagine the subtweeting between the outside and the inside of the walls 😭 absolute chaos.

anyways i hope you've been well! i can rest properlt now bc im covid free now and my symptoms werent horrible but it was still so annoying going through it 💀😭 stay safe and healthy !

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omg i’m so glad you had fun !! 🥰💖 also royal vibes??? i’m so jealous omg 🤩🤩 i’ve been seeing these tiktok’s of recreations of the queen’s ball from bridgerton and it looks like an absolute dream 🤧

AHHH THE COLORFUL PENS 😌 NO SHAME I BOUGHT A WHOLE SET FOR MY YEARBOOK TOO but everyone only used purple or blue >:(( but yesyes it’s so much easier to read that way !!! when everything in the same blue/black ballpoint pen it gets confusing and you just have to distinguish by handwriting :’)

OMG NOOOOOO IM SO SORRY 😭😭😭😭 I HOPE THEY MADE UP FOR IT AT LEAST <//3 if it makes you feel any better i heard a lot of schools have been fucking up graduation this year (ig bc it’s the first year of being back in person??) but i met with my friend and she was telling me our high school’s graduation ceremony was super messy this year and they were unorganized and didn’t account for students in the heat bc ppl were passing out :( i’m rlly glad you’ve recovered tho !! 💖 a happy graduation from me tho !! congrats on making it so far and here’s to the rest of your future <33 not your parting gift being covid 💀💀 at least it’s a memory to remember !! 🥳

WAIT THATS SO COOL IM SURE U SLAYED 🥰🥰 what club is it ?? :o if you don’t mind sharing HAHAH but that’s so awesome that you got a solo :o i’m glad you got to do it before covid tho ! and you said it was your first in person event right?

omg same here :’))) i don’t stan as much as i used to but i still feel nostalgic looking at content ,, plus i’m getting back into them (even tho they’re on a break LOLL) but jeon jungkook and jung hoseok…… 🧎‍♀️ HAHAH YEAH OMG but they better use that for their next run bts season openings

TBH IDK WHY THAT IDEA EVEN CAME TO MIND LOLLL i wasn’t even rewatching aot or anything 😭😭 ig i was just thinking of how much more convenient phones would be instead of eren screaming ab killing the titans and everyone running after him 🧍‍♂️

i feel u omg :(( my symptoms were rlly annoying too even tho i’ve had colds worse than it 🤧 i’m glad you’re better now tho and i hope you’ve been staying well and healthy !! do you have any plans for your break now? :oo

#💌 : love notes #🌻 anon

[almondtqfu]

falling out of love headcanons ✦ kazuha, xiao, albedo, eula

✧.*.:｡ gn reader / modern!au ✧.*.:｡ warnings: angst with no comfort, sad endings, mentions of breaking up, showings of both healthy and unhealthy communication ✧.*.:｡ req: "So like i saw how u write angst and immediately fell in love <3<3<3 can i request for kazuha, xiao, albedo, and eula (or if thats too many characters then any of the four of ur choice!) In a relationship with reader but fell out of love so they try to break up w reader?? (feel free to ignore this btw if ur not comfortable!!)" ✧.*.:｡ ✉️ : thank you anon for requesting this, honestly i don't write a lot of angst but this was fun to write, i hope you enjoy it, it ripped my heart out a bit ngl~ :)))

kazuha

Kazuha loved you. He really did. After a while though, he could feel the sparks he once had dying out.

You’ve always been together since you both started college, it was only natural for him that he his feelings for you began to grow.

You did everything together, and it made Kazuha realize that he didn’t want to do any of these things without you.

The day he confessed, and you accepted, was probably one of his happiest memories—and it always will be—in time it won’t hurt as much, but he knew this needed to end.

Deep down though, you knew too.

You two had been growing apart. What with Kazuha talking about applying to an abroad university for his masters, and you with your new job that’s kept you so busy.

You’ve barely had time anymore to see each other without being exhausted.

This led to arguments, things you didn’t mean sent back and forth at each other. In the heat of the moment some words were said, and those words couldn’t be taken back.

You both knew that the growing distance you had was due to both of you, not one or the other.

As much as you two started out bound by the hip, now it was time to let go.

The innocent sparks weren’t there anymore, and nothing else was to blame for that but time, and distance. Two things you just couldn’t overcome together, and that’s okay.

After having a talk about it all, you two mutually agreed it was time to end your relationship.

There were tears, there was one more embrace, and like that Kazuha left you with a final kiss to your forehead, and a wish that you have a happy life.

xiao

Xiao is a man who doesn’t show his feelings often. It’s not entirely his fault, he really has never had a relationship before.

You understood that, but Xiao had no excuse for the way he’d been distancing himself from you.

He knew it was wrong, but whenever you interacted, he began to feel this disconnect.

He thought he was falling out of love with you, so he began to distance himself.

It was that typical "If you hate me, you can move on" card.

Xiao was also afraid of getting hurt, so he thought perhaps if he ended things first, he could protect himself from further loss.

He had lost several people in his life, one day he would lose you too, he didn't know if he could handle that.

So he asked you to meet with him at his place one night.

Deep down, you knew what was coming, you hated it, but you knew.

With the distance Xiao had been putting between you both, it was only natural to you that him asking to break up was coming.

As you expected, he told you that he thought things should end.

You stood there for a moment, quiet, and sad.

In the end though, the distance felt too far to cross anymore. It began to be too painful to be with Xiao anymore.

He never truly explained why he was ending things, and you never asked, it simply went unresolved.

Xiao thinks of you every now and then, and if he's lucky enough. he'll catch a glimpse of you.

Seeing you happy—albeit without him—is enough for him.

A glimpse of your smile was all he ever deserved to begin with, or at least, that's how he felt.

albedo

Albedo is still learning about emotions and relationships, and he enjoyed the one he shared with you—for the most part.

Over time though he noticed he wasn’t quite as excited to hear from you.

He wasn’t really as excited to see you visit his place.

Nor could he feel that blossoming feeling of excitement he'd just learned to experience when he would listen to you talk about your day, your work, anything really.

He found himself growing very indifferent with you.

You noticed this too, of course.

Part of you worried you'd done something wrong, however when you asked Albedo, he simply denied it, saying it wasn't you at all.

This confused you, it didn't add up with his behavior.

This was Albedo we were talking about.

Every action he performed had meaning. Every step had purpose.

He wouldn't feel so distant, just because.

When you finally sat down and talked with Albedo about this some days later, he told you everything honestly.

He had no intention of hurting you, but he could felt that twisting in his stomach at the sight of your tears.

You forced a sad smile and told him that what he was feeling sounds a lot like falling out of love with someone.

Albedo didn't fully understand the concept, but honestly if that's what this was, it didn't feel good.

After that conversation, you also began to distance yourself.

If Albedo was slowly losing his love for you, you'd let him go.

As much as you loved him you would never force him to stay with you.

Neither of you deserved that.

You knew you'd have to be the one to end this, Albedo wasn't adept at sensing emotions, or reading the room.

You knew if you didn't say something, this distance could go on for much longer than it needed to.

Neither of you deserved that.

As you stood in front of Albedo's apartment door, you took a long look at it. Gazing fondly at the doorknob that you'd turn nearly everyday to see your love.

A shaky deep breath, and you turned the knob for what was most likely the last time.

Albedo turned to you, his emotionless face, his turquoise eyes.

It took everything in you not to crumble and ask him to stay, try again, start over and see where you go from there; but you had to do this.

It'll all be over soon, that's what you'd tell yourself.

eula

Eula truly cared for you, really she did.

Over time though, she felt as though she was forcing herself to keep that same connection as time went on.

She doesn't know when or how it happened, but the feelings just gradually started fading away.

However it wasn’t just her, you felt it as well. She could tell in the ways you weren’t quite as enthusiastic in your conversations like you used to be.

Or how her holding you or even kissing you, didn’t quite hold the same passion or affection it once did, and you didn’t mind it or ask what was wrong.

You both were growing apart and while it was painful—it’s the end of a relationship after all—both of you had made peace with this.

The feelings simply didn’t carry on past your “honeymoon phase” of your relationship.

Surprisingly enough to Eula, you had no rebuttal when she had said that it may be for the best that you two decide to call it.

You in fact said that you agreed. Things were only going to get more forced; more strained, as time went on.

Eula didn’t know whether to feel relieved that you felt the disconnect too, or hurt.

It was a mixture of both she decided.

As much as she knew you’d grown distant with her as well, it still hurt that you made no attempt of any kind to try and keep the relationship.

However this, was a blessing in disguise, Eula decided. You were right, deep down she knew that.

It just... hurt.

But Eula was never one to properly express her true feelings often now was she?

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Shattered

Broken Things to Mend

Part 1 of 1

Word Count: 5998

A soulmate au where you have the first sentence your soulmate will say to you tattooed on your body in their handwriting.

TW: Abuse, neglect and starvation mentions (I’m sure theres more pls let me know if I need to add anything)

You were roughly thrown into a cell and the door shut behind you with a snap, exhausted you fall to your knees and stay on the floor rather than trying to fight your way back out. You were tired, so, so tired. Your body ached, cuts and bruises littered every inch of your skin, mere hours ago you had felt invincible but now you were nothing but broken. You collapsed to your knees and cried on the floor wondering how you had fallen so far.

Here you were locked in a cell on Asgard, and here was where you were going to stay until the humans had something properly set up to contain you. Why you had tried to take over that planet you weren't quite sure, tired of feeling weak had lead you down a dark path. A path from which you couldn't return, and had been regretting as you walked down it. But you couldn't stop yourself and now it was too late.

Broken was the only way to describe yourself, you had been broken for millennia and had finally thought you could piece yourself back together when you'd found the infinity stone. The power stone. You'd thought yourself strong enough to use its power, to stop those who had hurt you and others who wanted to hurt innocents in their paths. You had soon found you weren't strong enough, you were alone and it had corrupted your mind, having no one to anchor you to reality. That's when he had shown up. The purple Titan set on reforming the universe, making it a better place, and in your broken state of mind his plan had made sense, you had agreed to help him, to take out the biggest threat in his way.

You had failed, you had lost to that group called the Avengers and soon enough Thanos would be coming after you himself to remove any loose ends. You weren't the first he had sent but you were most likely the last he'd send on their own without him to lead them directly. He'd only kept you because you were able to hold the power stone in your hands and not be destroyed, someone broken who he could control who could keep the stone safe until he was able to wield it himself.

As soon as he'd seen you failing to take earth he had taken the stone from you and left you for dead. Once you were no longer in possession of the gem you had come back to your senses, seen all the havoc you'd wreaked upon that innocent planet. But it was too late, you were already the enemy and they'd never understand if you tried to explain. So you had fought, continuing to try and protect yourself and your life until they had finally overcome you.

Now you were sitting in a cell, back to yourself but now shattered rather than having just a few chips on your broken soul. You'd ben controlled and manipulated your entire life, by those who claimed to be your friends and family, but it was only ever for the power which you had. Seemingly the last of your species, dark and wraith-like nothing more than a wisp of what you could be and easy to control. A child who could wield the power of the infinity stones, any powerful person would want you in their control.

All of that manipulation had left you more than a little broken, to the point that as soon as you had actually been able to get your hands on that gem you'd instantly turned on them. Then you'd gone after all the others who had manipulated you and dictated your life. You'd been passed from hand to hand as a slave would be, malnourished to keep a leash on you. Sometimes you were sold, other times traded, but mostly those who had been holding you were attacked and killed so that somebody new could control you.

Despite having wielded the infinity stone less than a day before you were back to that state you had been in. The stone had been the only thing sustaining your life and making you seem to be anything more than someone who'd been a broken child and was now a broken adult. You fall asleep on your place on the floor in that cell on Asgard, you were powerless to do anything and you knew it, sleeping was the only way you'd be able to ignore the crushing guilt you felt for all you had done.

All too soon you're woken up, the drapes over the glass door of your cell being opened wide and exposing you to the glaring lights. You preferred the dark as any wraith would, it was your natural state to be in the dark, so natural that the light almost hurt. Once you're awake you look over your thin arms and legs, the bruises and cuts from the fight before all healed, thats why they'd opened the drapes, you'd had enough time to heal in the dark but they didn't want to leave you in the dark. The darkness brought you power, not as much power as that gem had, and not as Much as any sort of nutrients would but it had allowed you to heal.

After your eyes finish lingering on the elegant script on your forearm you pull your sleeve to cover it and look up. Across the hallway was another cell, this one containing a raven haired man, his gaze fixed on you and not breaking even when you meet his stare with your own. He looks to be in good shape and everyone else there would think so as well, but you were able to see the haze of magic over his room. You couldn't see through it, you didn't know what he was hiding but there was something he was keeping from prying eyes and you could only applaud him for being able to protect himself in such a way.

~~~~~

Loki had looked up from his book when the drapes across the prison hall were drawn away from the cell they'd been covering from his view. Inside was a person most unusual, a wisp of a being, with grayish skin and sunken eyes which had seen so many things. What were they? He asked himself, intrigued as he'd never seen anything like them before. He's surprised when they meet his eyes and don't look away immediately as anyone else would. The few moments of eye contact are brief as the figure gets up off the floor and seemingly drifts over to their cot.

Peculiar, a long dark robe covered their grayish form, ending a foot or so from the ground revealing no legs or feet touching the floor. There was a faint cloud of dark mist that seemed to surround them, which pooled around where their feet should have been. This was their natural form, no magic concealed who they were as he did with himself. He watches as they take a seat on their cot, the mist around them gathers and forms some spindly legs. Intriguing, now that he had seen that he couldn't unsee it, their entire form seemed to be made of mist, there but not really there, but by the way they sat thy definitely has a solid form in there somewhere.

~~~~~

You'd moved to your cot, hoping that movement would break the stranger's eye contact but when you sat and turned around his gaze was still fixed on you. You hated being perceived, anytime someone looked at you there was a thirst to their gaze, a desire as they wanted to own you. His gaze was different though, more curious than wanting to control you. It eased you ever so slightly, but you still hated it, so you stared back.

Most wouldn't hold your gaze for long before breaking it, they found you horrible to look at with your grey skin and sunken eyes. You weren't always like that though, when you'd had the power stone you had found your true form, what you'd look like if you had been properly taken care of and healthy. Even then, in your true form, people wouldn't hold your gaze, you were no longer the disgusting monster you were currently but they could see the inside. Your grace and power which flowed off of you in that form intimidated them and they'd look away, but this man didn't.

You stare back at him, allowing yourself to break eye contact knowing intimidation and fear would get him to stop, so let him look at the monster you were. You were the most horrible creature someone could set eyes on in their lifetime, if he wanted the sight of you burned into his retina who were you to stop him? So instead you take your own turn to observe him, taking in his features, taking time to notice more than just the raven hair that flowed to his shoulders. His emerald eyes were the first thing which you noticed besides the hair, but it wasn't so much the color that intrigued you it was the pain and loathing you could sense behind them. He did well to hide it but not from you, you had seen that look in your own eyes too many times to not recognize it.

Who knows how long the two of you spend staring at each other across that hallway, but you both allow it to go on. Him, intrigued by never having seen anything like you before and you staring as the face before you feels familiar. You hadn't spent much time around other beings, recognizing faces was not your strong suit but picking a voice out of a crowd was easy. Finally you place it, you place him. A face you'd seen many times in your nightmares. He was the one Thanos called Laufeyson, the one who had gone before you to earth to try and take over. The other one who had failed. The other one Thanos would come after in his rage. The other loose end was sitting there across the hallway from you.

For some reason the fact that he was also here brought you peace, it brought you hope. Maybe, just maybe he had also been controlled. Maybe he would back you up and make an attempt of explaining who Thanos was and what his plans were worth it. But you could be wrong. He could have done nearly the same thing you did but all of his own accord. He could've enjoyed hurting those people.

It was that thought that prevented you from trying to talk to him through the glass. You keep quiet except for when you're being questioned, then you give nothing but honest answers and they aren't believed so you're questioned again and again, tortured and punished for what they take to be lies. At least they allow you to sit in the dark after you're through with the torture, only long enough to heal, but it's long enough to bring you some solace and block the prying eyes.

The constant pain wasn't anything new to you, everyone who had kept you before this had done the same thing if only for different reasons. They had been scared of you, wanted to hurt you to keep you weak, the Asgardians though, were not scared of you. They wanted information and not to keep you on death's door, so their torture was nothing to you.

It becomes routine for you, one day of torture, one day of darkness and one day of nothing before the cycle begins again. One day you find yourself waiting for the guards to come get you, able to guess nearly down to the minute they would arrive each time, but today they don't come. Why they don't come you haven't a clue, until an hour later when a soldier comes storming down the stairs and the man across the hall gives him directions to somewhere.

Then after more hours pass then another guard, this one a guard of Asgard comes down the staircase and talks to the man across the hall. You watch as the magic haze over his room flickers before steadying out once more, whatever he had just been told upset him, and you could only hope it wasn't Thanos coming for the two of you.

The next morning you gain somewhat of an answer, the broad shouldered blond comes down and speaks to the raven haired man, Thor you believed his name was. He was one of the heroes who had protected earth from you. You're surprised when Loki's illusion is lifted from his cell, revealing the state he is in along with all of the broken furniture that had seemed pristine moments earlier. Then even more surprisingly Thor opens up the cell to release him before turning to face you and making your glass cell wall melt away as well.

"You are a wraith, yes?" he ask and you merely nod.

"A wraith you say?" Loki asks, his curiosity piqued once again by you.

"Brother, I need your help to watch her, she tried to take over Midgard as well, but we need her help," then Thor shoots you a look, questioning silently if you'd help.

You couldn't help but wonder how stupid he was as you nod, signaling you would help. He didn't know you, you were nothing but a monster so how could he so willingly trust you? His hand resting on your shoulder startles you, "very well, Wraith, I can see there is good in you-"

"Even with all those people I killed?" You ask, breaking your silence.

"Yes, I have heard the reports from the guards. You've remained steady in your story that you were manipulated into doing all of that and at this time we need all the help we can get and I'm willing to take the chance," he responds confidently.

You nod, once again, thoroughly confused but willing to follow him and his brother through the halls of the palace until you meet with a woman. "Loki, Wraith, this is Jane Foster- the dark elves are here because of her, the aether as fused with her body and they are trying to take her and destroy the nine realms."

"Are you serious Thor? You think that we stand a chance against the might of the dark elves?" Loki asks, irridiculously with a glance in your direction.

"We do, we have you brother and Jane is stronger than she seems," he tries to rest a hand on Loki's shoulder but the other man dodges the hand.

"What does the Wraith have to do with it?"

"When she tried taking over Midgard she carried the power stone in her hands and did not crumble to dust. The aether is much like the power stone and she should be able to protect it from the elves-"

"And you're just going to trust the fate of the nine realms to two criminals?" Loki asks, sounding like he just wants to argue.

"Yes. We must be getting out of here though," Thor says once again with that same confidence.

He leads the group of the four of you through the halls of the palace, taking some sudden turns and winding your way about until you come to an odd looking ship which he has all of you get in before he starts it up and begins flying all of you out of Asgard to who knows where. Once in the ship Loki turns his attention to you for the millionth time and you, as always, maintain eye contact. For some reason Loki's frustrations seem focused on you as he turns once more to Thor, "you've heard tales of the Wraiths and their power how can you trust this one so easily?!" he sounds outraged.

You turn away from him and take a deep breath, despite not having a reaction to all of the torture the sound of him yelling terrified you more than anything. So many times you'd been shouted at then beaten, scolded then thrown in a room lit so brightly it burned your skin. You needed to focus, try and figure out if Thor was being truthful in his trust of you, or if he was trying a different tactic of manipulating you. All you knew he was telling the truth about was that the woman, Jane, has an infinity stone bonded to her and it is slowly killing her.

You don't even realize that she has taken a seat next to you where you have your head in your hands and tried offering words of comfort. You shake your head, "no, Loki is right, it is foolish of Thor to trust me. I'm a monster who has never left anything but pain and destruction in my path. It may not have been my choice to attack earth but I was so filled with pain that I allowed it to happen and even if I can contain the power of the Aether I do not know how it will effect my mind."

"Useless," Loki spits at you.

Then you stand up, feeling anger as you face him, "I know who you are Loki. Thanos is coming for you just like he is coming for me because we failed to take down his enemies, do not act as though you are better than me, the power stone corrupted my mind because I am weak but I was never given a chance until now to do good and I am taking it even if you doubt me. I've learned the hard way I don't need other's approval."

You were going to continue but it is at this point you realize Loki's expression has changed from one of nearly disgust to shock. His masks had fallen down as he stares at you and you glance at Thor who is also looking at you in shock and by the time you're back to Loki his expression is stone cold once more. "What did you say?" he asks in a low tone.

You'd thought his shout had been bad but this terrified you so much more, he was far too calm. You take a shaky breath and say, more gently this time, "Thanos sent me when you failed. I was easy to manipulate because the power stone took ahold of my mind and he used that, I wouldn't doubt if he did the exact same thing to you-"

"Not that-" he says, that angered tone returning as he snatches your right wrist and lifts your sleeve to reveal your soul mark on your forearm. There, shining gold and beautiful against your grey skin was one word, "Useless."

~~~~~

A much as he hated to admit it the Wraith intrigued him, but the part that hurt, the part that made him feel angered towards them was that Thor had so easily trusted them, a complete stranger. Loki and Thor had been brothers, and sure Thor was an idiot for trusting Loki to help with this situation but him showing trust to a total stranger in the same minute he'd offered a second chance to Loki stung.

This is why he questions Thor, why he snaps at you, it's all a test to see if you truly could be trusted. You much like he had had tried to take over Midgard, you could be a good ally but with the situation at hand how could he know he could trust you. So he pushed, working quickly to find what things set you off, what things got you to break the state of silence you were always in.

He had found it, the one thing that made you angered enough to lash out was him spitting that single word at you. Your reaction had surprised him, how quickly you'd been on your feet and in his face. How your entire countenance shown with a deeply hidden power that it seemed even you were unaware of. But the part that surprised him the most were the words that left your lips as you faced him.

"I know you Loki." You hadn't said it with malice, but as a fact, now you knew him he hadn't a clue. He's in too much shock to hear the next words you say, stating how you won't be useless any longer.

He quickly masks his face once again when he realizes you had stopped speaking. He can't stop the hint of anger that crept into his tone. He was far from angry now, but anger was the only thing that kept anyone from getting close enough to him to see through his walls, "what did you say?" he asks in a low voice.

He sees the hesitation in your eyes as you go to respond, "Thanos sent me when you failed. I was easy to manipulate because the power stone took ahold of my mind and he used that, I wouldn't doubt if he did the exact same thing to you-"

"Not that-" he says but doesn't have the patience to explain. He catches your right wrist in his hand and lifts your sleeve to reveal your soul mark. He doesn't realize that his masks once again drop before you as he stares at the elegant script that covered your forearm. His cold finger runs gently over the word written on your soul, "useless," the first word he had uttered to the one who was his soulmate.

~~~~~

It's as his index finger runs over the mark on your arm that you realize what he has said. The first word he had spoken directly to you, the one that had brought you hope in some of your darkest moments, the one that had also broken you completely, even your soulmate thought you were useless. You can't help it as you snatch your arm away from him, how dare he- How dare he call you useless then stare at your soul mark- Even if he was your soulmate.

You're surprised when he actually lets you walk away to the other end of the ship without stopping you. Your heart is pounding in your chest as you stare at those beautiful yet painful letters on your arm, somewhere in the back of your mind you register Thor and Jane having a whispered conversation. Without turning around you know that Loki hadn't moved from his place and was still staring at your back, damn him why did he have to be like this.

You had only shared looks across that hallway for months, you'd never done anything to warrant him being rude to you in this way and now, knowing as well as he did that your souls were linked hurt. If you weren't already so broken you're sure it would have broken you more, would have been the final straw to tear you apart... There isn't time for you to dwell on that as the ship rocks back and forth, coming into contact with the turbulence of an atmosphere, you were landing and it was time for you to take your chance to do something good with your life. With that thought in your mind you pull your sleeve down to cover your arm again and turn to stride past Loki to the front of the ship.

~~~~~

Loki could only gaze after you when you walked away, he recognized a broken soul when he saw one, it was what he saw in the mirror everyday. He had seen the disdain and hurt in your eyes as you ripped your arm away from his grasp, and knowing you were the one he was meant to spend his life with, the one most likely to love him back and he had already hurt you. The feeling was so much worse than any torture that Thanos could think to inflict upon him.

When they were going in for a landing and you strode past him without a glance it was like a punch in the gut. He had ruined any chance he had of gaining you favor in less than and hour, just because he had to play stupid, stupid, mind games. He just had to try and push your buttons and test you as he always did with anyone he saw a possibility of being useful.

~~~~~

You look at Jane for a moment before gently resting your hand on her shoulder, "I'm going to try and take the aether from you..." you glance at Thor, "if I loose control I want you to do whatever it takes to keep me from hurting more people even if it means killing me." You make eye contact with him for a few moments before asking, "can you please promise me this?" You ask in barely more than a whisper, letting your shields down for once as you ask, you don't care you just don't want anyone to use you anymore.

"I will promise you Wraith, I will not let you bring harm to anyone else," Thor says confidently, though you do notice his glance at Loki.

That allows you to relax, you take your time as you come to a landing on the red desert planet below you to focus your attention on taking the Aether out of the human. By the time you all land you've been able to take it from her it's power flowing through you. This stone is much more subtle than the power stone, you're able to keep control of your own mind when the reality stone latches itself to you.

~~~~~

Loki can only watch as you take the Aether from Jane, hearing you didn't care how Thor stopped you only confirmed his fear he had scared you off with his childish games. Nevertheless as he watches he's amazed with the transformation your body goes through as you harness the power of the infinity stone.

Your grayish skin changes to a more human color, your body fills out, your wispy figure disappearing. The years of abuse disappearing from your form, revealing your true beauty and the confidence someone with your abilities should. He can only stand in awe of you and your appearance as you turn to then step off the ship onto the desert planet.

When he hesitates to follow Thor walks over to him and puts a hand on his shoulder, "brother, it is not too late. You can see through lies, you would know if all that the Wraith has said is true or not. They are clearly as broken as you are, Brother, but they are willing to change. I'm sure that if you do, they also hold forgiveness in their heart." Thor gives him a firm pat on the shoulder as he turns to also leave the ship, "now let us go, and defeat the dark elves before they can take the Aether."

~~~~~

You stand and can see the ship of the Dark Elves' in the distance. If this was your end then so be it, you could finally rest with peace knowing you had aided Thor as some level of recompense for the damage you had caused. Jane comes to stand next to you, breathing deeply as she gently says, "thank you."

"I'm just glad that I am able to help the universe in some way," you respond, your eyes can't help but linger for a moment on her soul mark, on her right forearm where everyone's was. Part of you hoped that Loki wasn't your soulmate, it was only one word and not specific enough to guarantee anything, but you knew that wasn't the case, with the way he had reacted you knew the words on his arm were the first that left your lips when speaking to him.

"I know that you will," Jane says, removing you from your thoughts.

Thats when Thor makes his way down to the two of you, "Jane, you stay here but not on the ship, it is where you will be safest."

"Thor I am not going to just sit back and watch all of this happen, I might not be as powerful as the rest of you but I will be doing my part."

Thor can only nod, and you can see the fond smile he has on his face as he looks at her, "very well, but as soon as the convergence begins I will be placing you back on earth to do your part there." With that he leads the way towards the other ship, not waiting to see if his brother would be joining them. It would be very helpful to have the trickster at their side during this but after the words which had been spoken it made sense that Loki would need a moment.

As you walk Thor asks you if you know what you are capable of. "No, I don't I have been told of the things I can do as a Wraith but I have been kept subdued my entire existence so I haven't learned anything more that what you saw on earth... But I do have control of my own mind at this time," you add trying to make sure he wouldn't misunderstand you.

"It will be enough," he says and once again places a hand on your shoulder, but quickly removes it when you flinch. The group of twenty or so Dark Elves stand a few hundred feet in front of you when Thor speaks again, raising his voice to shout, "Malekith! Today is the day you meet your end, I will not allow you to destroy the nine realms."

"Thor," Malekith responds with a eerie smile on his face, "I thank you for delivering the Aether to me, unfortunately you won't be around to see the realms brought to perfection." It's with that that he points a finger towards your group, signaling for his followers to attack you.

Everything happening flies past, much like it had on earth, you fight alongside Thor using the power of the Aether to aid you, but then you come face to face with Malekith. The Elf has some sort of hold over the Aether and by extension you, he lifts you into the air and begins to take the Aether from you. No matter how you struggle you can feel not just the Aether but also your life slipping away from you, he wasn't taking just the infinity stone but all the power your weak body held. You try and fight, and try to hold on but before it your vision goes black.

You didn't expect too but you're able to open your eyes again hours later, the Aether has left you so you are back to your grey wispy form but your body doesn't ache as badly as you had expected. This planet was dark so it made sense, you'd been able to heal yourself in the shadows. You sit up, your eyes already adjusted to the dark, but just now noticing that there was nothing on the planet around you. There was some rubble of the ship nearby but besides that nothing, no Dark Elves, no Thor, no Jane. You were alone and how exactly you felt about that you weren't sure, you'd never been left so completely alone before.

Your reaction comes slowly, you can only assume that since you are alive you had done your part but it doesn't stop you from crying as suddenly everything sets in. You'd been able to do something good with your life, finally, but as you always had you'd left a trail of loss and destruction behind you. Sure, it was fine the Elves were gone but Thor and Jane had abandoned you here, on purpose or not was unclear. Though, the thing that hurt the most was that you had met your soulmate and you had instantly pushed him away, just for him to do the same. Sure, he had hurt you but you turning your back so quickly once you realized had to have hurt him as well and now you were on this barren planet where you'd eventually die of starvation.

You sit up as you let the tears roll down your cheeks, your hand naturally grasping at the floor for any sort of stability. You're shocked when you don't find that though, you lift your hand to your tear filled eyes and look at the dirt filling your palm. You were outside for one of the few times in your life and something about that calmed your tears, they were still present but weren't flowing as freely. You continued to let the feeling of dirt running through your fingers to ground you, you were finally free even if- no don't think about the long slow death awaiting you here just enjoy the fact that you are free that you could stand up right now and take off running without  anyone hunting you down. Thats it- thats what you'll do, you'll run for the first time in centuries and just let the wind blow around you. You stand up, wiping the tears from your cheeks as you take a shaky breath, let out an excited laugh and look ahead of you.

Standing in front of you is him, Loki. You hadn't noticed he was there, how much he had seen of you crying on the ground you had no idea but the fact that he was there created a strange sensation in your chest. "I- Loki I didn't-"

Once again he cuts you off but this time it's much gentler, "no, I need to apologize. I've been captivated by you since the moment I first laid eyes on you then when we were finally able to speak I lashed out with childish games, Wraith-"

It's your turn to cut him off, "my name isn't actually Wraith, it's y/n," you pause and decide to extend an olive branch of your own, "you can just call me y/n."

"Y/n," he says thoughtfully, letting the name flow off of his silver tongue, and once again that strange tightening sensation strikes your chest. "That is a lovely name, y/n," he concludes.

You bite on the tip of your tongue as you look at him for a moment, "I need to apologize as well. I walked away from you without giving you a chance to explain yourself. I know we are little more than strangers and you calling my trustworthiness into question is only logical."

He seems a bit taken aback by your honesty but he smoothly take your hand in his, lifting your sleeve once more to look at your soul mark. "Would you be willing to give me a second chance to make up for my mistake? I have a feeling we are both broken and bruised, similar yet different with much to learn."

You cant stop the small smile that tugs at your lips. You take your hand back from his and take ahold of his right arm, taking your turn to lift his armored sleeve and view the words written there in gold, "I know you Loki," you read them out loud then meet his eyes once more, "I'd be happy to give you a second chance as you call it, as long as you are willing to give me one as well."

The relief behind his eyes is clear to you, but what isn't clear is why he cups your cheeks in his hands. He gently wipes away any remaining tears on your face, "of course I will give you a second chance," he states it gently, but firmly and once again your chest tightens. It was then that he made his intentions with his hands on your cheeks clear, as he used them to pull you into a cautious kiss, that becomes more sure when you return it.  

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