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forestdeath1 · 2 months

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Hopelessness

@prongsfoot-microfic

It turned out that this microfic is 1600 words long, so if it's more convenient for someone to read on AO3, here's the link.

It's jilypad.

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Sirius kisses Lily’s belly, stretched by a muggle T-shirt with Black Sabbath on it, his gift. The air's filled with the light scent of jasmine from the open window, letting in the cool June breeze. Lily isn't really into Black Sabbath, but Sirius hopes the band's symbolism might somehow influence Harry’s musical taste, since he’s got no hope with Lily and James. As Lily recently said, she wears that T-shirt solely because it features a "handsome vocalist" who reminds her of Sirius. Sirius is quite pleased with that outcome.

They're sprawled on a wide sofa under a soft blanket, Sirius snuggled up beside Lily. The quiet of the Potter home, only interrupted by the ticking of antique clocks, always puts Sirius in a peaceful state. Lily gently strokes her rounded belly, while Sirius, with his arm around her waist, draws patterns on her skin, occasionally leaving soft kisses in response to the baby's sharp kicks. James, sitting opposite in a battered chair once favoured by Fleamont, reads the newspaper, his eyes scanning the pages gloomily.

"Oh," Lily exhales lightly. "He's been kicking all day. Extra lively today."

"Harry," Sirius murmurs softly, amazed at the depth of feeling he has for a child not yet born. "My handsome, smart boy."

"When did you get so sentimental?" James asks, not looking up from his paper.

"Since you married this incredible woman and started your own amateur production of 'Tiny Humans.' Even my frostbitten heart had to defrost for the premiere."

"Oh, my love," Lily, smiling softly, reaches out to gently ruffle Sirius's hair, "sometimes I think, what if I'd married you instead of James? How much prettier would my child be?" Lily's light, carefree laughter makes Sirius smile.

"Hey," James perks up, pretending to be offended. "There’s a lot of Blacks. And only one of me. Harry's gonna have the most unique hair in all of Magical Britain."

"And the dullest sense of humour," Sirius shoots back, still focused on the belly, speaking in a teasingly sweet tone as if talking to Harry. "Hopefully, you’ve got a better one. You got a bit short-changed on the genes from one side, but I promise to teach you."

"At least my humour doesn’t make people want to off themselves," counters James.

"You adore my jokes, don't kid yourself."

"Haven't heard one yet."

Sirius flicks his middle finger at James, who just chuckles, then removes his glasses and rubs his nose bridge in mock exasperation.

"Everything alright?" Lily asks him, concern in her voice.

"Yeah," James replies, trying to mask the worry in his voice. "Just going to make some tea."

Rising from his chair and heading to the kitchen, James leaves a trail of unspoken thoughts behind him. Sirius watches him go, and Lily, with a soft sigh, shakes her head.

"He's like this all day. Lost in thoughts about the war. Sticks to me like glue. Fancy taking him out somewhere? Hit a pub? Even stay out all night. He needs to get out more. He can't keep guarding me from God knows what," Lily adjusts a stray lock of Sirius's hair, a simple, familiar gesture.

"Alright, but not tonight," Sirius responds tenderly, kissing Lily's belly one last time before gently running his hand over her soft skin and carefully standing up from the sofa to not disturb her.

"Patrol?"

"Yeah," Sirius glances at the old wall clock, "and I'm already late."

"Why don't you move in with us?" Lily stops him with the question she poses every month.

"Don’t start," Sirius says with a light reprimand. "I'd end up covered in old people's dust here, sipping teas and reading newspapers. Tea? Seriously? When was the last time I drank tea?"

Her laughter, bright and full, fills the room, reflecting off the warm glow of the candles. She could easily shift from a pensive mood to mirth, and really, it took nothing to make her laugh. Lily was always so light, Sirius adored that about her. Like an autumn maple leaf playfully dancing with the wind – always ready to soar at the slightest breeze.

"Come here," she extends her arms, and Sirius leans in, allowing Lily to plant a tender kiss on his lips. "I love you," she looks at him, her gaze filled with care and tenderness, "Be careful."

"You too," Sirius smiles and ruffles her hair. "Look after Harry."

Stepping into the hallway, leaving Lily resting on the sofa, Sirius grabs his jacket from the coat rack and pulls it on, whistling a tune he caught in some noisy muggle café.

"James! I’m off."

James peeks out from the kitchen, holding a pack of tea.

"Not staying for tea?" he asks, knowing the answer already.

Sirius isn't much for tea, yet James has been offering it to him for years. In an attempt to make the drink more appealing, he once even started spiking the tea with Firewhisky. That gimmick worked for a while, but soon not even Firewhisky could dispel Sirius's irritation with the whole tedious, monotonous process.

"No, got patrol."

James looks slightly disappointed, tosses the tea pack onto a table cluttered with books and newspapers, and approaches Sirius.

"Lily suggested we should hit a bar," Sirius mentions.

James shrugs, adjusting his glasses absently.

"I can't leave her alone. Every time I go on patrol, you know it’s torture for me. I keep thinking something might happen, that they might attack our home, and…"

"I know," Sirius cuts him off. "That’s why I’m not inviting you. Just passing on Lily’s words."

James gives a soft smile, tilting his head slightly.

"You’ll come over on Friday?" he asks.

"Yes."

"And stay the night?"

"Of course."

James nods and hugs Sirius, pressing his face to his neck. Sirius leans into his ear, kissing it and breathing in the scent of earthy moss and the morning forest. James's scent always carried the notes of their moonlit adventures, as if his skin had absorbed the essence of those nights. They stand in silence for a moment until the soft hum of an old radio playing a vintage jazz tune Lily adores drifts in from the living room.

"Everything will be alright, James, hear me?" Sirius whispers, probably a bit too roughly patting James on the head as his movements have grown more abrupt lately. "I promise. Everything will be alright. With Lily, with you, with Harry."

"Yes," James says, rubbing an eye then running a hand through his hair. "Of course. It'll be alright. With you too."

"I'm not that important."

"Don't talk like that," James responds in a strained voice.

"I’d do anything for you, whatever it takes," Sirius says in a matter-of-fact tone, as if they’re discussing a Christmas dinner menu, not talking about things people usually don’t say to each other when everything’s fine.

James steps back, looks up at Sirius, and smirks, chasing away the worried shadows from his face.

"Have I mentioned you’ve become sentimental?"

"I've spent too much time around a mushy sod like you," Sirius grins, shrugging. "Bad influence."

James laughs, shoving Sirius's shoulder then pulling him in close, as if wanting to hide away in Sirius's broad embrace.

"I love you, you idiot," he kisses him, fingers threading through Sirius’s hair, tousling it. "Don’t be late on Friday. Lily’s making your favourite blueberry pie."

"I won’t," Sirius breathes out huskily.

James nods, and Sirius steps out the door. The June air hits his face, a warm breeze flicking a lock of hair from his forehead. The scent of night flowers mingles with the smell of fresh paint – someone nearby decided to give their fence a fresh coat.

Sirius moves a few meters away, casting one last glance at the Potters' house. James stands in the doorway, leaning on one shoulder against the frame. Sirius catches his worried gaze and nods subtly in response.

A moment later, Sirius apparates, but James's troubled face lingers in his mind like an echo. Usually, James's face brings peace, but this time it leaves a quiet itch, a reminder that Sirius is missing something, yet can't quite grasp what it is.

The war makes everyone nervous, anxious, and lost, and Sirius knows better than to succumb to these draining sentiments. But seeing those feelings in James – the person who made Sirius believe that even in the coldest winter, there's an unbeatable summer living inside him – Sirius realizes things are grim.

Of course, Sirius will come over on Friday. Perhaps he'll stay for the weekend, and they'll spend it together, like old times, before the threat of war knocked so clearly on their doors. They'll wake up to a late breakfast in the garden, reminiscing about school under the rustling of green leaves and birdsong, and perhaps even making plans for the future where the war is just a distant memory—a future where Sirius already knows exactly how to raise Harry and what gifts to give him from the very first months of his life.

A future where they're together.

After breakfast, they'll apparate to the lake, where James will set up broom races, beating Sirius yet again. Lily, always rooting for Sirius, will put on a theatrical display of disappointment and spend the day cheering him up, recounting for the hundredth time the tales of James's rare Quidditch misplays at Hogwarts—as if Sirius didn't already know each one by heart.

After dinner, James will suggest a game of wizard chess, and Lily will pick out a book to read aloud by the fireplace. Soon, she will head to bed early, as has become more common since she got pregnant, and James and Sirius will go out to the garden, lie on the grass, and spend the night forgetting all worries, remembering that it's moments like these for which they're fighting and ruthlessly suppressing the hopelessness that seeks to consume their souls.

#james potter #sirius black #lily evans #prongsfoot microfic #jilypad #it seems to me this might be too saccharine #prongsfoot

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slayingqueenchal · 1 year

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two of hearts, the prank, and the moon | remus lupin x f!reader

Summary : you were apart of the prank, but in the process, you turned into a werewolf but now remus hates you (and sirius)

Warning : angst, happy ending, pet names like 'love'

"Severus!" James screamed, immediately pulling him out of the shrieking shack, but in the process, turning into a human. You and sirius looked at each other. You two messed up.

Remus came howling at the two boys, and running to them. Sirius tried to use his wand but, nothing worked.

James was your bestfriend, although severus was not, you didn't want him to die, so, you did the unthinkable and the most stupid thing in the world.

You thought that if you stood in front of the two, James and severus would be alright, and, you were right, they were alright but, you'll need to pay for it. "REMUS,NO! " James screamed.

That was the last thing you heard other than dog barks, rat sounds, and severus's heavy breathing. That was the last thing you heard before you woke up in the hospital wing.

"Y/n? " Sirius puts his hat down. "Y/n, y/n? You're awake! " Sirius smiled. Though his eyes were a bit dark, he looks happier than ever.

"What happened, siri? " You opened your eyes thoroughly, looking at the bright lanterns around. "Our prank didnt end well, and, i-i think this will be a shock, I think I should tell you after you heal" Sirius Stuttered, his eyes not daring to see yours.

"Tell me, Sirius, it's remus isn't it? He hates me, he hates us right now" You sighed. But to your suprise, Sirius shook his head "way worse than that.. That night, you tried to protect James and severus, and you did, but, well, remus, this isn't remus, but it is remus, remus is not remus when he turns into a werewolf but remus just-"

"Sirius, stop, just tell me" You pulled your blanket, eager to know what Sirius was gonna tell you. "Remus, or, his wolf self, bit you, but, you won't feel it right now, madam pomfrey gave you a lot of painkillers and spells". Suddenly, you didn't want to know.

From that day on, you were a werewolf.

"Does remus know? " You asked, "no" Sirius shrieked. "Does the others know, including Severus? ", " Yes, but, Severus swore not to tell anyone" Sirius said.

"Is remus okay? " You asked, again, Sirius replied "no, not quite" He paused "he's physically alright, but mentally.. Not so alright. Hes been going crazy, talking shit about us, but, we deserve it, well I deserve it, and, don't be surprised if he doesn't want to talk to you for awhile"

Your stomach dropped. You did the wrong thing but, you thought, remus, your best friend, who, you've been flirting with for years, and what you thought was liking each other, hates you now.

"Y/n? " Sirius said. "Sorry, that was just a lot to take in"

From that day forward, you hated yourself more than anything. Most of all, you hated yourself for thinking youre still allowed to love remus and you hate your self for loving remus, after the things he had said.

It was as if the full moon was close for, everyday. Remus became an asshole and a sweetheart. But for you and Sirius, he became an absolute asshole. You hated it. You still have a soft spot for him. You still hanged out with the same friends, and slowly it was turning.. Unbareable.

Everyone slowly starts to disappear, Sirius barely being there, remus talking shit and flirting with other girls, which, is fine but, you've had enough.

So slowly, you drifted away from everything, staying in your dorm longer, and what was so unlikely was being friends with Severus.

"You swear you won't tell anyone, about remus, and my condition" You asked. "I won't, and, why do you care so much about remus now, I've seen or, well, everyone has seen, remus has been a git towards you" Severus said.

"Well, I've never really had a friend like him, well, Severus, how about we make wolfsbane" You gave a small smile. "Let's make it then, attempt number 7,i think this is it" Severus smiled.

In the process of making wolfsbane, remus was not having it at all.

Remus scoots over to his bed in the common room. "Didn't know why I'd care for such a bitch anyways" Remus scoffed. "Moony, everyone here knows you don't mean that, you'll never say something like that about y/n" Sirius said, only receiving a shrug.

"Hey, you know sirius's right" James said. "Really? Cause she certainly made me think that I had to pack up and leave Hogwarts. " Remus rolled his eyes. "You know, we're slowly losing and missing her, and, she's know friends with Severus" Peter said. "Pete, I don't care about her, I don't care if she's friends with him".

"Rem, what happened to 'I love her'? " Sirius asked. Everyone's eyes on him, remus replied "w-well I won't say that has changed but, she for sure has changed".

"Moony, y/n loves you and you need to talk to her, the girl has been running like a lost cat searching for its owner, everyday the only thing she asks was if your were okay, if you wanted to talk to her, if-if you knew-" James said, but was cut off by Sirius "that's enough".

"Continue, James". " I can't" James say, but remus forced him to. "That night, she, she tried to protect us, but- it's not your fault but, you accidentally bit her,"

"What? " Remus said, his heart beating faster, his palms were wet, and his faces suddenly becomes pale. Everything became slow. "No, no, how long have you guys- guys knew- know this" Remus was so shooked and scared that, he was not talking proper English anymore.

"Ever since she got bit, Peter, Sirius, Severus and I know, and, she told us not to tell you, and that, it was because you kept avoiding her and talk shit about her that she became friends with the slytherins, because- she felt like a first year to.. To like you, and she hated herself for it, and she said that she felt more like a fan than a friend, and that, Peter, Sirius and I should keep a distance between her and us, she said that, if she keeps hanging out with us, she might mess up even more" Now James weren't even sure he was using the correct grammar or not.

"But, what? She likes me?, and she turned? She, she, where's y/n, I need to talk to her" Remus stood up from his bed, catching the map that Sirius throwed to him.

The library.

Remus never runned as fast as this. He looked for you in Everysection, and there you were. Sitting and reading your favorite book.

"Y/n" He said. "Rem? " Your voice were soft "what are you doing here". " Is checking for a friend a crime? " Remus asked.

You looked away, tears was coming out of your eyes "friends you say, after calling me a slut and what ever things you've said about me".

"Y/n, I'm sorry" Remus said. "What are you sorry for, I'm the one who's supposed to be sorry, I betrayed your trust, and, you- I'm sorry, I really am.. I suppose you know already? " You asked, still not looking at him, even though he was sitting next to you.

"About, uhm, about me biting you? " Remus asked. "Knew you'd find out sooner or later" You accidentally squeaked.

"Y/n, are you crying? " Remus asked. "No, I'm not crying" You sobbed, even more. "Hey, y/n, y/n, love, look at me" He said, grabbing your hand.

"I'm sorry, Remus, im really am sorry, I swear I didn't mean to do that, and all the things you said were right, and things doesn't need to go back like it used to be but-but, please, just, forgive me" You covered your eyes with your hands.

"I forgive you and I'm sorry, about the things I've said, and I'm really sorry about it, you know, it" Remus said. It was visible that his eyes were glassy.

"Remus, it was my fault, it was my fault that I brought Severus with me, you don't have to be sorry, and thank you for forgiving me.. "

"What now? " Remus asked. "Forget about each other's existence? " You sniffed.

Remus's face were visibly disappointed. "Before we do that, I want to tell you something" Remus said, and you swore that you could heat his breathing getting faster and faster.

"I love you". That was it. "I-i, remus" You shook your head. "I get it, like you said, we could forget about each others existence and move on".

"No, remus, we've wasted so much time" You said. "By that.. You mean? ", " How dense can you get, remus, I love you too.. " You said, finally smiling.

"Really? "

"Really. I do love you, and, I'm sorry about everything that has been going on"

"I'm sorry, my love, I don't mean any of the things I've said"

"Prove it, then"

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backgroundbaker · 7 months

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Cat: Fic 2 for @remadoramicrofics

Thank you so much for the likes and comments on the first fic! This is a short one with a lot of Sirius in.

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Ever since she's learnt about Sirius' bond with Crookshanks in his time after Azkaban, Tonks has been determined to buy him a cat for his birthday. Remus isn't convinced this is a wise idea, but somehow he has allowed himself to be dragged along to a muggle cat shelter just two days before Sirius' 36th. Why he's there, he isn't sure, but he finds himself doing whatever she asks far too easily sometimes and it worries him a bit.

"Oh, look at this one," Tonks coos as she crouches by what must have been the twentieth cat they've looked at. "He's adorable!"

"You've said that about every cat we've seen so far," Remus grumbles in response. He kneels down next to her, trying to ignore the painful cracking in his knees. He has to admit, this one is particularly cute, with black fur and white socks. It wanders up to him and he holds out a hand for it to sniff. Seemingly satisfied, the cat offers him its neck to scratch.

He suddenly becomes aware that Tonks is watching him whilst he is playing with the cat. He looks up and catches the soft smile on her face.

"Looks like you could do with a cat friend too," she says.

He shakes his head, "pets aren't really for me."

"Well maybe when I buy Sirius this one, you can help him with it - if you like?"

"I still think this is a bad idea," he tells her, then dropping to a whisper he adds, "and you do realise Crookshanks was half Kneazle, I'm not sure how a cat from a muggle shelter will cope with Grimmauld."

"I guess we'll find out!" she replies, excitedly jumping to her feet and running off before Remus can stop her.

They end up buying Sirius some cat supplies as well as the actual cat, much to Remus' dismay, and Tonks insists on giving it to him straight away. Sirius is slightly bemused by the gift, but manages to plaster on a smile and thank Tonks genuinely. She seems extremely happy about this - positively beaming - and stays around a while, watching Sirius interact with the cat.

When she's gone, Sirius raises a questioning eyebrow at Remus. Remus merely shrugs back.

"I guess another pet won't hurt," Sirius mumbles, "I can put him upstairs with Buckbeak. Maybe I'll start a menagerie."

He dubs the cat Palepaws and suggests Remus buy him an owl he can name Wonkywings to add to the collection. And though his words are dripping with sarcasm, Remus notices that he doesn't move the cat from his lap, nor does he stop stroking the soft fur on its back. He thinks he even catches the ghost of a smile on Sirius' lips when the cat begins to quietly purr.

#remadora #nymphadora tonks #remus lupin #sirius black #remadora microfics

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sheshirkat · 2 years

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Eddie "The Freak" Munson as King of the Upside Down : a thread

He wakes up with a demobat licking his blood. He doesn't stop it. There's something that he can't really pinpoint that's reassuring and weirdly healing about its tongue on his wounds. And also weirdly, there's no other demobats around. ("Hivemind remember...where the fuck are the others?")

Turns out demobat's venom can be as deadly as it is healing. Boy got no idea how long he was in between life and death, in "the dark", but he woke up with the demobat and there was scars and pain but it wasn't nearly as bad.

So he gets up, and the upside down is changing around him. Accelerating. With the four gates opened, the upside down stuck in Hawkins S1 is changing for Hawkins S4.

He goes back into his trailer only to find that the gate is closed. ("It makes no sense, the gate should still be here whether or not the fourth gate has been opened so why isn't it here..?")

(Like the cloud we've seen at the end of the episode is actually a huge ass gate but has to be developped before it can reach full potential and allow passageway. Until then it's kind of like a black hole, everything that comes in each way ends up in a different time period of hawkins, and can't get back in or something like that, since the upside down is accelerating and morphing through time.)

"HENDERSON!"

No answer. Unsurprisingly.

"HARRINGTON? WHEELER? BUCKLEY? ANYONE?? HEYYY IM ALIVE !!"

Having a mental breakdown in all Munson Glory.

Only to notice the previous demobat at his feet. Not attacking him. It just followed him and is pulling on his jeans.

"What the---" it nuzzles against him.

He tentatively puts his hand on its head.

It does like that cat thing where cats push their heads onto your hands to make you caress them.

Eddie goes to check the Creel House "why not, everyone who might still be alive probably think I'm dead, there's no gates and Vecna didn't come to smother me in my deadly sleep. I'll take that as a sign."

The house is empty. And if he sighs from relief, a bat in his shaking hands, well, no one has got to know. ("No one will ever look for you anyway", a voice that sounds too much like himself whispers in his head)

The demobat is still here. He sits and carress her for a while. And while she FUCKING PURRS WHAT THE FUCK he notices she's purring master of puppets of all things.

In the asylum where victor creel is, they use music to "reach parts of the brain that other things can't"

Turns out eddie's rendition of master of puppets resonated in the demobat and she took quite a liking to him. Apparently.

He calls her Minnie. (Idk why I'm just rlly thinking about sirius black's nickname for mcgonnagal) (eddie and sirius do have much shit in common tho)

Also the tentacles hive things disappeared. Not that he'd know but while Henry/One/Vecna was still alive, he was weak, and lost touch with some of the upside down he had control with.

Since no one and nothing is here, he takes his shield, his weaponery, his guitare, a backpack, Minnie on his shoulder, and goes to explore.

First time Minnie goes away, he's hella fucking scared, not far away from skull rock, and crouch down under the rock (not) ready to blast a bitch.

She gives him hell of a scare when she comes back, another creature he's never seen before in her mouth. She eats a part of it. And dump the half on his knees.

He's hungry as hell, and a demobat saved him, so why the fuck not?

"Why the fuck not?" Becomes his motto.

First nights where he tries to sleep he's got awful nightmares.

Minnie stays besides him. He sleeps a bit better when she cuddles with him, humming the tune to master of puppets in a near perfect imitation.

He gets to the big cloud eventually, but Minnie doesn't want to let him inside, and he doesn't know why, but he trusts her. Crazy thing, but he doesn't feel as alone as he used to. Not with her there.

So he keeps exploring. Roams the upside down for god knows how long.

He and Minnie fight good against demobats and demogorgon.

First time they fought demogorgons Eddie was scared. He had managed to kill one out of three and the two others had Minnie in their eyesight ("does that thing even have eyes? C'mon Minnie you know they gotta be blind asf"). He ends up face to face with both demogorgons and his favorite demobat right behind him. They knock the shit out of him, but he does manage do get a few clean hits. On his back, ready to die for the second time, hoping minnie will at least get enough time to run away, his mind hazy and his soul almost leaving his body, he sees something.

Minnie's metal as fuck. She splurts fucking fire.

Yeah because Minnie's a fucking demodragon because "why the fuck not."

She grows real quick. Eddie's got no real idea how time passes in the upside down, it feels like he needs to eat and sleep less than in normal Hawkins.

He and Minnie find a few rogue demobats. There's no more hive mind, the demobats are just in total chaos. Some attack them. Others attack each other. There's no pattern.

Once in what he named "the batcave" afterwards, eddie takes out his guitare, and plays master of puppets, Minnie purring the tune on his shoulder.

Also Vecna's out to build an army and get back his power full force somewhere else. Don't tell me the upside down is only Hawkins' upside down. There was gates in Russia. The upside down's wayyy bigger. I'm talking like the whole world bigger.

So when Vecna's back and attacking Hawkins a year later, after the start of the reconstruction and healing, it's Vecna's army of hiveminded demobats and demogorgons against the kids and the scooby gang (minus eddie).

And eddie comes out of that huge ass cloud Hawkins kept freaking out about (and built a wall around it) ("like anything's gonna actually care and stop at the gates" "thanks for the positivity steve"), and he comes out, guitare on his back, bat and shield in his hands, onto Minnie's back, who became a full height demodragon by that time.

"Come with me if you wanna live big boy." "Didn't I tell you not to play hero?" "Oh but aren't you glad I didn't listen to you Harrington?" (If steve's eyes were shining a bit from held back tears or lack of sleep, no one can tell.) (Self indluging headcanon of steddie powercouple on demodragon Minnie's back tho)

Dustin says nothing. He just hugs him. Really hard. "Hey henderson, not that I mind your enthousiasm, but could you step aside two seconds, got few demogorgons to smash, be right back"

"No No No don't jinx it you idiot! "

"-okay I *splash of blood* won't *gets kicked on the ground* be right back *stands up and slash demogorgon's head*

After the war, Minnie's a bit jealous at first. Okay, a lot. She did put fire to Dustin shoes. But when Dustin makes her taste chocolate bars, she's a little more keen to accept that he's close to Eddie. The others are up to you.

Or maybe she dies and Eddie goes absolutely feral idk

I'm tired as hell, wrapping this shit up. Maybe I'll make a fanfic out of it, who knows. Saw a post about Eddie king of the Upside Down and I just HAD to make this. Also Minnie & Eddie Friendship vibez : Oh Ana, Mother Mother

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annabtg · 1 year

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So I went to check what smutty stuff you’d written (guilty) as I love love love your fics, but I was shocked to see your smut is only Lily/Sirius. No hate! It’s fantastic but I’m curious, why haven’t you written any Jily smut?

Hi anon! Thank you so much for the love! 💕 I appreciate you trusting me enough to check out a different ship!

I expect that, since you're sending an ask, you're looking for the long answer xD so here it goes! Cut for length!

First of all - my most active years in fandom before I got back were between the ages of 15 and 20. I wasn't even able to consume smut legally for the better part of my stint (my old fandom had restricted 18+ access), plus I had no experience and frankly, no interest in smut.

When I got back, older and more experienced 😁, what hadn't changed was that I still was most interested in Jily getting together. Some of my fics don't even have kissing - I tend to write about teenagers discovering love, and that's usually more innocent and less physical. So there was no space for Jily smut there. Jily as an established or married couple are not as interesting to me.

Now, Sirius/Lily came a bit out of left field - I hadn't thought about it until I read fic about them as friends and it got me thinking that they'd make a good couple. So I set out to write a fic about how they'd make a good couple, which then became a fic about how a relationship can be beautiful and loving and still not mean you'll stay together forever. So I had to follow them closely through their relationship.

Ngl when I reached the point where they have sex for the first time, I was ready to fade to black. I had never written smut before and I was afraid the Sirius/Lily action would cost me basically all my Jily readers. XD Yet I thought that showing them discover sex together the way they'd discovered love would be important for the story; so I plunged ahead. There are three sex scenes in My Best Friend's Girl and I think none of them are gratuitous. They served the story, so I wrote them.

And now for the spicier confession - I think Lily and Sirius are hot together. They are two good-looking individuals with great chemistry (headcanon, perhaps, but I stand by it) and there's no point in depicting them in a pre-relationship stage because they don't get together in canon. With Jily, you can end a fic with a kiss or even just stop it at flirting and then canon does the work for you - you know that in the end they get together and they're happy. But if you're going to write about Sirius and Lily being romantically involved, there's no satisfaction to be drawn from it unless you actually see them together. Hence, I'm more interested in Sirius/Lily *as a couple* (which is not only for smutty reasons, but also because I find a good challenge in having them together and still not ruining their relationships with James) and that's why you find me writing more Sirius/Lily smut than Jily smut.

That is not to say I am opposed to writing Jily smut! In fact, my WIP Nom De Plume (which has been stalled because of my eye surgery) is planned to contain explicit Jily smut, as the plotline isn't resolved until some time after they get together. And the smut will greatly serve the story there too. ;) No idea how it will come out, mind you, buuuut... XD

Thank you for this so interesting ask, anon! I hope my answer satisfied you :) Stay tuned! ;)

#anon ask #answered ask #sirius/lily #blackevans #my best friend's girl

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justsomerandomfanfic · 2 years

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Dog Days - Sirius Black X GN Reader

Title: Dog Days

Sirius Black X GN Reader

Additional Characters: Remus (Mentioned), Peter (Mentioned), James (Mentioned), Lily (Mentioned), Harry (Mentioned), Weasleys' (Mentioned), Voldemort (Mentioned), Dumbledore (Mentioned), and Harry's Aunt and Uncle (Mentioned)

Requested

WC: 3,608

Warnings: Mentions of Voldie, Mentions of death, Mentions of murder, brief suggestiveness, medium level angst, and some sad feels

Y/N hummed as they swept their kitchen floor, softly dancing to the song that was playing on the radio. The lyrics were something about someone who had lost their lover and was trying to move on by singing. It made Y/N sad, but they couldn't help it. They loved this song. They'd heard it the first time when they first started working at the Ministry of Magic. The song reminded them of their past, at their time at Hogwarts.

Y/N was completely in love with Sirius Black, and he was in love with them. They had met on the train to Hogwarts in their first year. Automatically becoming good friends with each other and the other Marauders. Together, the first few years at Hogwarts flew by fast, with studying nights, trips to Hogsmeade, and so on. It was at the end of the third year that both Sirius and Y/N confessed their love for each other.

That next year, Sirius asked them to the Yule Ball, and obviously, they said yes. Why wouldn't they? Before their confessions, Y/N thought Sirius was just another playboy with a hidden soft side that only he showed them, most of that was true. He was a playboy of sorts, but he always had his sights set on Y/N since the beginning. He never thought they would go for a guy like him. He was a playboy for crying out loud! He went out with a different girl almost every week. He knew about his reputation.

It took a lot of willpower and a lot of convincing on James, Remus, and Peter's part, but Sirius finally confessed to Y/N at the Astronomy Tower. Heart beating fast and hands sweating, he poured his heart out to them. Y/N couldn't believe their ears. Sirius? In love with them? Since the second year? Impossible! It's got to be a prank. But, it wasn't. He assured them. Y/N still didn't know what to think.

~~~

"I'm sorry," Sirius whispered. "But I've fallen in love with you. And, was wondering if you want to go out with me?"

Y/N looked up at Sirius, eyes wide. "What?"

"You're beautiful, smart, funny, and everything I could ever want. You have no idea how long I've wanted to tell you this. Ever since our second year on the train."

Y/N felt like a fish out of water. "Are you serious?"

"I am Sirius." He tried to joke, but Y/N joking glared and gently slapped his arm.

"I'm serious." They tried but Sirius chuckled awkwardly.

"No, I'm Sirius." He insisted.

Y/N sighed and tried to leave, but Sirius quickly took their hands in his, pulling them back.

"Okay, I'm sorry. But, I am serious, Y/N." He spoke softly, face red.

Y/N pulled away from him, unsure if they should laugh or cry. "Well, I don't know what to say."

"Say you'll go to the ball with me next year?"

"Why do you want me to go with you?"

"Because I want you there. With me. As my date. Hopefully, as my partner."

Y/N laughed and shook their head. "Sorry, Sirius, but I can't."

"Why not?"

"I don't really believe you. How do I know this isn't some prank by you and James?" Y/N asked and Sirius shook his head repeatedly.

"No, it's not. I swear."

"Then why did you ask me to go with you? And, on top of that say that you love me?"

"Because I want to spend time with you. To get to know you better. I am telling you the truth that I truly love you, Y/N. I solemnly swear."

Y/N stayed silent for a moment, thinking. Sirius bit his lip, furrowing his eyebrows.

"Trying to confess to you and all I get is silence?" He spoke, overwhelmingly embarrassed as he rubbed the back of his neck, looking away.

"I'm sorry, Sirius. I just can't. I've been hurt before, and I'm scared to trust again." They spoke sadly.

"How could I have possibly hurt you? We've only known each other for years!" Sirius spoke, getting slightly frustrated.

"You have a reputation, Sirius. I know what you do to all those girls. You get bored and you throw them out." Y/N spoke, shaking their head and crossing their arms.

Sirius threw his hands into the air, "Screw my reputation! I don't care about that! All I care about is you, Y/N!"

"Well, then prove it to me," Y/N spoke, taking a step towards him.

"What?" He asked, dropping his arms down to his sides.

"Prove to me that you aren't a player. Prove to me that you're not going to leave me as everyone else has."

Once again, taking their hands in his, Sirius nodded, biting his lip once more. Looking straight into their eyes, he gave them a small smile.

"I promise to prove to you that I no longer have those playboy tendencies, that I will not leave you in the dirt. That I am telling the truth, that I truly do love you. And I promise to prove that to you." Sirius spoke and Y/N stared at him, eyes watering a bit.

Nodding, Y/N gave him a small smile. "You said that you would prove that you love me. If you really do love me, then prove it. Right now."

"What?" Sirius questioned, tilting his head to the side.

"Just... Prove it," Y/N spoke, smiling a bit.

Finally, Y/N believed his words.

Sirius nodded and took a deep breath, holding his hand out to Y/N. Y/N took his hand and he pulled them close, kissing them softly. Y/N shivered and wrapped their arms around Sirius' neck, pulling him closer. He kissed them harder, making sure that Y/N knew and felt that he loved them too.

"So, are you ready to go to the ball with me?" Sirius asked, smirking.

Though, inside, he was freaking out. Dying with anticipation.

"Yes, I'll go with you."

~~~

Y/N sighed as the song came to a close, setting the broom back in its rightful spot. Their beginning together was a bit bumpy, with the confession, to Sirius's fangirls, but they got through it. Every bump life threw at them, they passed right through, stronger than ever.

Slowly, Y/N's smile faded, thinking about their time together. After the ball, and the years after. Graduating from Hogwarts, getting their first job, and buying their home. Everything was going perfectly, James and Lily even got married, and their son, Harry, was on his way to being born. Sirius even proposed, giving Y/N a beautiful ring that they loved so much. Everything was perfect until James and Lily were murdered.

Y/N can remember the day perfectly. When Remus came to their door, on their day off. With tears in his eyes, he told them what had happened, that Sirius. Their Sirius. He had murdered Peter and some Muggles. Y/N didn't believe it, they couldn't believe it. Sirius wouldn't do such a thing. On top of James and Lily's death, Sirius was taken to Azkaban.

Y/N never got to say goodbye.

Pushing those awful memories away, Y/N forced a smile on their face, going to the living room and sitting down in their favorite chair and picking up their book. Over the many years, Y/N had to redecorate, they couldn't deal with looking at all the old decor that Sirius had picked out. The only thing Y/N kept was Sirius's favorite chair, which sat untouched in the corner. All the pictures were gone too, kept away in a steel, fire-proof box in their closet. The pictures were replaced with somewhat current ones. Baby Harry before he was taken to his Aunt and Uncle's home, Y/N with Remus on their monthly hangouts, and Y/N's pet, who honestly had more pictures than anyone in the entire household.

Looking up from their book, they saw a black flash outside. Turning to the side, Y/N looked out the glass slide door, seeing nothing but their backyard, full of life; shrubbery, trees, and flowers. Furrowing their eyebrows, they went back to reading, shrugging it off as nothing. But, it was something. It happened again. Turning back to look outside again, they still saw nothing.

"Just a bird." They mumbled, licking their finger and flipping the page.

The black flash appeared and left again, causing Y/N to turn to the door once more, freezing as they saw a big black dog, sitting patiently next to Y/N's poppies.

"A dog?" They asked, tilting their head as they stared at the dog.

The dog stared back, tongue hanging out of its mouth, as it tilted its head in response.

"Smart dog..." Y/N mumbled, getting out from their seat and going to their kitchen, grabbing a plate and some sandwich meat quickly, they placed some slices of salami on the plate. Sliding the glass door open, Y/N sat the plate outside for the dog, and closed the door.

Going back to their chair, they sat down and grabbed their book once again, continuing to read. Soon, Y/N fell asleep, falling asleep peacefully. Something they haven't done in a long while.

When Y/N woke up, the sun was already high in the sky. They picked up their fallen book and sat it down on the small table beside them. Stretching their arms high in the air, they let out a small yawn. Looking around, they noticed that the dog was gone.

"Where'd you go?" Y/N questioned, sighing.

Y/N stood up from their chair and walked over to the sliding glass door, opening it slowly. There was no sign of the dog anywhere. Walking around the house, Y/N found no trace of it. Just when they were about to give up hope, Y/N heard a whimper coming from some of the shrubs in the backyard. Cautiously walking over, Y/N lent down, moving some of the leafy branches away their eyes widened. There was the dog, laying on the grass, licking its paw.

Its paw was bleeding, and Y/N couldn't just not help the poor animal. Tentatively reaching out, Y/N slowly began petting the dog's fur. The dog didn't even flinch, pausing its licks and looking up towards them. The dog whined again, staring back with big puppy dog eyes. Staring into those dark eyes, Y/N felt an aura of familiarity, but they brushed the feeling off.

"You poor thing, your paw must hurt." Y/N spoke softly, petting the dog's fur more.

Thinking for a moment, Y/N stood up, tapping their knees gently, and they smiled at the dog. "Come on, I'll help you."

The dog whined as it stood up, limping on its hurt paw, the dog followed after them. Opening the sliding door, Y/N let the dog in, who hobbled over to the untouched chair in the corner. Jumping up on the chair, the dog curled up and continued to lick its paw. Y/N quickly shut the sliding door, going to their bathroom to grab some gauze, and to wet a small washcloth. Going back to the dog, Y/N sat down in front of the chair, petting the dog's head softly.

"I have to clean it, bubs." They spoke, gently taking the hurt paw in her hand, patting the wound with the wet washcloth, cleaning off the blood. Once it was clean enough, they began to wrap the paw in the gauze. The dog sat quietly, watching as Y/N fixed its paw.

"It looks better now, doesn't it?" Y/N spoke, petting the dog's head, who gave them a small nod.

Y/N finished wrapping the paw and petted the dog's head once more before standing up. Going to the kitchen, Y/N began making a sandwich for themself, along with another plate of sandwich meat for the dog. Picking up the plate with the sandwich, Y/N sat down in their chair once again, but not before feeding the dog some of the lunch meat. After a few bites, the dog laid its head on the armrest of the chair.

Watching the dog from across the room, Y/N rested their hand on their cheek. This dog reminded Y/N so much of Sirius when he went into his animagus form.

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"Are you sure you want to do this?" Y/N asked softly, sitting in the back of the library with Sirius, hidden and away from any eavesdroppers.

"I'm positive, Y/N," Sirius answered, putting his arm around Y/N's shoulder.

"I just don't want you to get hurt," Y/N whispered, burying their face into Sirius's chest.

"Don't worry about me, I can handle myself," Sirius replied, kissing the top of Y/N's head.

"I know you can, but I still worry," Y/N mumbled, nuzzling into Sirius's chest.

"I'm sure that I'll be fine," Sirius reassured, kissing the top of Y/N's head again.

"I hope you're right." Y/N sighed, looking up at Sirius.

Sirius just smirked, resting his chin on the top of Y/N's head, "I'm always right."

Y/N just huffed and smiled. "Yeah, sure you are."

~~~

When Y/N first saw Sirius in his animagus form, he was as big as a wolf, with pitch-black fur dark as the night. He was huge, his paws were bigger than Y/N's own hands, and he had sharp teeth that could easily tear a person apart. But, Y/N knew he would never hurt anyone unless he had a darn good reason to. Y/N for sure knew he would never hurt them. Nor, kill Peter and some Muggles.

Continuing to stare at the large dog in Sirius's chair, Y/N's eyes widened, their brain finally connecting the missing pieces. Sirius escaped not only a couple of days ago. When Y/N found out, seeing his face in the papers after so many long, hard years without him, they had to throw the paper out. How did Y/N not think of that sooner? And there he was, sitting right in front of them. In their home.

"Sirius?" Y/N called out to the dog, hesitantly.

Their heart was beating loudly in their ears, feeling like it was going to explode out of their chest.

The dog lifted its head, looking at Y/N. Eyes wide, Y/N sucked in a deep breath, feeling an onslaught of emotions take over them. Standing up quickly, not caring if their empty plate fell to the floor, they walked to the glass sliding door and closed the curtains, doing the same with any other window. Making sure no one could see inside their home, just in case, if this was Sirius, the Ministry of Magic would be looking for him, along with the Dementors. They could lose their job for this, but they didn't care.

"Sirius..." Y/N spoke up softly, going over to the dog.

The dog got down from the chair, shook out its fur, and walked over.

"No one can see you. You're safe." Y/N whispered, as the dog tilted his head and whined.

Eyes widening with a thought, Y/N scurried off, grabbing Sirius's old robe from the back of their closet. Going back to the dog, they dropped the open robe on the dog's back, going back to the bedroom to grab Sirius's old slippers.

Freezing at the living room entrance, Y/N's eyes widened, heartbeat stops. There stood an awkward-looking Sirius. Hair a curly, long mess, streaks of dirt across his face. Tightening the knot of the robe around him with his bandaged hand, Sirius looked up, freezing as well. A sad smile slowly spread onto his face. He was back in his human form.

"Hello, Sirius," Y/N spoke softly, tears finally falling down their cheeks.

"Hello, love." He spoke, voice deep with age.

At the sound of his voice, everything became real, and Y/N didn't waste any time and ran into his arms, dropping his slippers on the way.

"I'm sorry, Sirius," Y/N whispered, sobbing, wrapping their arms around his sides.

"I should be the one saying that," Sirius spoke, wiping away his own tears, holding Y/N close.

"I missed you so much." Y/N sniffled, hugging Sirius tightly.

"I missed you too, love." Sirius smiled, kissing Y/N's forehead.

"I'm so happy you're here." Y/N sighed, nuzzling into Sirius's chest.

"I'm so happy to finally see you again," Sirius spoke, petting down Y/N's hair. "I missed your face."

Y/N laughed softly, pulling back slightly, looking up into his gray eyes.

"I know you didn't do it." They mumbled and Sirius nodded, looking down at them.

"I didn't know if you would." He spoke, looking up and around the room.

A lot has changed. Y/N had changed. He changed. In the end, it was all a good change.

"I see you redecorated a bit." He spoke and Y/N let him go as he went to the mantel above the fireplace. Picking up a framed picture of Y/N holding baby Harry before Dumbledore took him to his Aunt's and Uncle's house, Sirius smiled as the picture moved. Y/N smiled down at the wrapped-up baby in their arms, gently booping Harry's nose, as the baby cooed.

"How is he?" Sirius asked, and Y/N walked over to stand beside him, looking down at the picture.

"He's doing alright, minus Mr. No-Nose threatening his life. He comes to visit after school before he goes home or to the Weasley's." They spoke and Sirius nodded.

"He looks just like James." He spoke, voice bittersweet.

Y/N nodded, leaning their head on Sirius's shoulder.

"Don't forget Lily's eyes." They spoke with a smile, as Sirius placed the frame back on the mantle before picking up another, one of Remus and Y/N playing chess.

"Remus comes over almost every month, when he's not busy." Y/N explained, and Sirius nodded, setting the frame down.

"I'm glad that you weren't alone." He spoke, noticing the other pictures around the room, none of them were him.

Y/N noticed what he was probably thinking, speaking quickly, "I couldn't look at them after a while. Everytime I did, I would remember the good times, and I wanted to move on with my life."

Sirius looked down at them, a small frown on his face. "Did you?" He asked and Y/N looked up at him confused.

"Hm?"

"Did you move on?" He asked and Y/N shook their head, taking Sirius's hand into theirs.

"I couldn't. You're still the love of my life." Y/N spoke, smiling at him.

"That's good," Sirius said with a smirk, gently squeezing their joined hands, and kissing their knuckles. "Cause, you're mine."

Eyeing the ring on Y/N's finger, Sirius smiled, kissing right below the ring. "I'm glad you kept it." He spoke softly.

"It was the last thing you gave me." They spoke, and Sirius nodded, dropping their hands to their sides.

"Well, now that you're back, and staying, let's bring out those old photos." Y/N spoke, before leading Sirius to the bedroom.

"I'm staying, eh?" Sirius spoke with a teasing smirk, only for Y/N to nudge him gently.

"You can't get rid of me, Siri." Y/N spoke, opening the closet and pulling out the steel box. Sitting on the floor, backs against the bed, the two began looking through the old photos they had together.

The first photo was of James, Lily, Peter, Sirius, Remus, and Y/N. They were all sitting on the couch in the Gryffindor Tower. James and Lily were sitting side-by-side, Lily laughing at something James whispered to her. Remus was stuck with Peter in the middle, closing the book in his hands. Sirius was sitting at the other end of the couch, Y/N sitting on his lap, arms wrapped out his shoulders.

"Fifth year..." Sirius spoke and Y/N nodded, leaning their head on his shoulder once more.

The next photo was of James and Lily's wedding, Lily in a beautiful white dress, looking like a princess. And, James, holding her as they danced to their favorite song. Laughing, with hearts in both their eyes.

"That was the day I knew I wanted to marry you." Sirius spoke, as he sat the photo down and picked up the next one.

"Really?" Y/N asked and Sirius nodded, smiling down at the next photo.

It was when Sirius proposed to Y/N, down on one knee, as Y/N covered their face as tears fell down their face. Obviously, they said yes.

"It was the best idea I've ever had?" He spoke, honestly.

Smirking, Y/N spoke, "Better than yours and James's pranks?" To which, Sirius laughed, deep and rough.

"Better than any prank, love."

"Well, I can't wait until all this dark stuff is over and we can finally get married. But, before anything else happens, you, sir, have to take a shower." Y/N spoke, helping Sirius up and gently pushing him into the bathroom, handing him some of his old clothes.

"Alright, but wouldn't you like to join me?" He asked with a smirk, and Y/N laughed a blush on their face.

"Just take your shower." They spoke with a smirk, shutting the bathroom door on him before Y/N headed to the kitchen to start up on some lunch.

#sirius black #fluff #cute #slight angst #harry potter #sirius black x you #young sirius x reader #old sirius black x reader #sad #feels

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dykefever · 1 year

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Okayyyy I finished tsasog and without further ado here is me simping:

God I missed your wolfstar the UST, the chemistry is unparalleled. I need my wolfstar pathetic and intense and pining mutually right off the bat and you delivered. Don't think I didn't see Remus's reaction when he caught sight of Sirius in his church that first time!

Ok some of my fave metaphors (not incl. religious) that have stuck with me: spit watermelon seed for Lola. Holding a cherry pit under his tongue waiting for Remus. That whole description of James in the last chapter omg.

Having never watched Fleabag bc of the triggers, to me, the way you described missing your dead friend, and what it felt like for Sirius right after she died-- it's accurate. All of it. Thank you for treating it tenderly and honestly. It made me feel less crazy tbh.

Ok onto the Hot Priest bit. Again, only you and only wolfstar will have me buying into The Hot Priest (like yes, Sirius, Get On Your Knees for Remus where you belong. The fingers on his tongue, like he is receiving the Eucharist, the Body of Christ, only hello it's the body of Remus John Lupin). I weirdly grew up with a brand of priest where being hot was part of their whole thing to like "attract people to God" but then like try being fifteen and in confession and having to tell said priest you let your bf touch your boobs shit got weird.

ON THAT NOTE. I am FERAL for all the religious/sacrilegious metaphors and perversions and commentary. I already talked about Sirius receiving "communion," but Sirius crucifying himself on a FIRE ESCAPE with his pathetic love for Remus? Perfect. If you ever need a beta for that shit PLEASE let me put my catholic education to werk. I once wrote a metaphor comparing a sex facial to the baptism of Jesus in the river jordan. I got a lifetime of knowledge.

I'll end with this: Remus, after he leaves the church and goes to Sirius and professes his love-- that experience was beautifully depicted. Remus saying that religion is a source of goodness and truth and peace, and if you aren't experiencing that, then it's not what you are meant to be doing: SO TRUE. And then there's that feeling of freedom and happiness and joy you have when you are brave enough to truly follow your path, even if it means giving up an identity and a life and a truth you once believed. It's terrifying but exhilarating once you make it to the other side. But yeah, that idea of bone-deep, constant "suffering," as Remus called it, while staying in the church, and then realizing that that is not what church or God or love should actually feel like- that is the *only* way a truly devout person will ever have the strength to walk away from it. You nailed it.

Hope this ask isn't too unhinged but like what is the point of fandom if you cant pull shit like this amirite? Thank you for sharing your writing-- you are doing the lord's work. xxooo

hello hello!!!! i love this ask definitely not too unhinged thank you for all ur lovely words :-) and thank you for including the bits from the last ask i somehow deleted 😭😭

i actually can’t write r/s without UST and like intense amounts of pathetic pining it just doesn’t make sense to me thank you for seeing my vision and loving it!! i’m really honoured you read this work despite it having some triggering material for you - and then also feeling i honoured the events that happen and treated it well. whenever i write difficult topics (grief, mental health struggles, unhealthy relationships etc) im always trying to approach it with care and honesty and vulnerability! drawing from what i know and how i think that character would also react to these events. but yeah thank you :-) particularly irt religion which i have some knowledge of but not hugely, i actually ended up doing a lot of research and like reading priest’s experiences in the church and why they chose the profession etc and then why some leave. and i’m glad the last part resonated because religion isn’t inherently evil or bad and i didn’t want r to be like i don’t want any of it! but to actually connect with his faith again to realise that the way he was practicing and engaging with his religion was no longer healthy and no longer the best way to like connect with it and god!!

and damn i wish i had gotten you on board for the religious metaphors 😭 you would have taken it the next level aidjfjw but thank you so much for all these lovely words!!!! just loved reading all this :-) xxxx

#answered #hihimissamericanbi #tsasog

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bwbatta · 3 years

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The one where you get together (1)

Abstract: Y/N and Sirius have been friends since they first met on the Hogwarts Express, so when they do get together, they decide not to tell their friends straight away. (Friends AU)

Pairing: Sirius Black x Lupin sister!Reader

Warnings: Swearing, talking about sexual content

Word Count: 3.5K

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You could still vividly remember the first time you met Sirius Black.

Boarding the train to Hogwarts the first time, you managed to find a compartment with your brother, Remus, before it was descended upon by two rowdy boys with large grins.

James Potter and Sirius Black had, with no hesitation, introduced themselves to you and you quickly became friends, especially when you pulled your money together and bought a various selection of chocolates from the trolley. When the sorting hat placed all of you in Gryffindor, it only reaffirmed your friendship.

It wasn't just the four of you in your little group though, the boys were placed in a dormitory with another boy, Peter, and you shared a dorm with two other girls who also became fierce friends of yours; Lily Evans and Marlene McKinnon.

Of course, growing up together through Hogwarts had it's arguments and fall outs, though somehow you always seemed to remain friends.

It wasn't until your seventh, and final year of Hogwarts did the surprising pair of Lily and James get together which solidified your friendship group even further. Between Sirius and you, the bet you had made in your fourth year regarding when the pair would get together, finally came to an end where you had happily took your winnings with a smile and paid for a bottle of Firewhiskey to celebrate.

After graduating, you ended up moving in with Marlene, finding a perfect two bedroom flat for you to share, close to Diagon Alley. The boys had taken a page from your book with Sirius using some of his inheritance from his great uncle and buying a flat directly across the Leaky Cauldron.

Whilst he had invited Peter to also live with him and Remus, the boy politely refused with the intention to stay with his parents for a while.

James however, had asked Lily to move in with him almost the second they graduated and the pair had moved to a little cottage in Godric’s Hollow. It wasn’t long afterwards that James had proposed to Lily which led to the current series of events.

About an hour before, you and Marlene had walked down the aisle in the gardens of Potter Manor in your bridesmaids dresses, while Lily had donned a white dress and followed you. Standing opposite your brother and Sirius, the latter caught your eye when your friends said their wedding vows.

With a wink, Sirius had your attention and you weren't exactly sure what it was that felt different, but something definitely did.

As the reception started, you watched Lily and James take some of their wedding photos together. The smile on your face was something you couldn't help as Remus appeared at your side, a similar expression on his own face.

"Remember when Lily hexed James so hard he vomited out of his nose because he proposed to her?"

"I'm pretty sure it made him like her even more to be honest, James is weird like that." You snickered, accepting the drink from your brother. "Who would've thought we'd be here not even four years later?"

"Tell me about it. If you plan on getting married anytime soon though, please give me some warning." Remus joked, nudging his shoulder against yours.

"I think I need to actually date someone before I marry them, but thanks for being so optimistic about my dating life." You grinned at him before seeing Sirius making his way over to the two of you.

"Well well, if it isn't the Lupin twins." Sirius laid an arm over both your shoulders. "How long do you reckon it'll be before Lily's creepy uncle makes a move on Marlene?"

"At least after two more drinks." Remus chuckled. "Which reminds me, I promised I'd save her from any men tonight who wanted to dance with her that, and I quote, looked like they had to use a stamina charm in bed."

"Good luck with that." You snickered, waving your brother off as he disappeared in the direction of the blonde.

Sirius didn't say anything else as he took a seat at one of the tables and pulled you down into his lap. It wasn't uncommon for the two of you to hug or cuddle, having done so numerous times in the Gryffindor common room, much to Remus' annoyance. This only really resulted in Sirius being more affectionate.

Being twins, the two of you were naturally closer than normal siblings which resulted in Remus being protective over you since the only blood family you both had left was each other. Your parents, especially your father, had grown fearsome and disgusted at what Remus was, despite it not being his fault when Greyback bit him all those years ago. Your father began to resent you after you constantly took Remus' side and played his constant advocate.

"Hey, what're you thinking about?" Sirius nudged you, grabbing your attention. His expression was unreadable as he watched you watch Lily and James interact with each other.

"I don't know, it's nothing." Sirius nudged you again, looking for a proper answer. "I look at them and I just wonder if I'll ever have that, you know? Someone who looks at you like you're their whole world."

Sirius didn't say anything at first, but pulled you closer. He wouldn't admit it but he often had the same thought cross his mind.

"You'll find them."

"Are they fucking hiding from me?!"

"If they've already met you, then probably."

Smacking his chest, you couldn't help the contagious laughter that bubbled from you, echoing that from the wizard.

"Being serious though," Sirius grinned at the pun he just made, "who wouldn't want you?"

You smiled at him warmly, not knowing what to say. It wasn't often that Sirius was, well serious. The boy loved a joke, but he also loved his friends and knew exactly what to say to them to cheer them up, especially you.

"Thanks, Siri."

"Hey, James and Lily are about to head off for their honeymoon." Remus said, knocking on Sirius' bedroom door at Potter Manor, stepping inside to see Sirius rush back out from the ensuite bathroom only in his shirt and boxers. "What happened to you? You disappeared from the reception."

"Uh, dropped cake down myself, had to come and change." Sirius told him quickly.

"You do realise you're a wizard right? You could've just vanished the mess?"

"Ah yeah, of course, how stupid, sure could've. Anyway, I just need to put on some clean trousers and I'll be right down."

Remus frowned. Something was off but he couldn't work out what it was. Putting it down to Sirius drinking too much, he waved the man off, exiting the room.

"Alright well, hurry down, James was asking for you."

Remus exited the room and Sirius quickly closed the door behind him. Turning back to the bathroom, he watched as you opened the door with a tentative expression, trying to zip your dress back up but failing.

"Do you think he knew I was here?"

"Don't think so, here, turn around, I'll do it." Sirius turned you around, quickly zipping up your dress before resting his hands on your waist. "So, we haven't done that before."

"That is correct."

It was slightly awkward between the two of you, why was it awkward? Oh, maybe because you were both fucking like rabbits not even moments before your brother knocked on the door. It had never been awkward between you before though and you didn't like it.

"Why is it so awkward?" Sirius chuckled as you spun around before him.

"Right! It's like I don't know what to say!"

"We're just two friends who've had sex one time, there doesn't have to be anything awkward about that!"

"Exactly, it doesn't have to be a big deal, it was a one time thing, we can just go back to the party and no one will know!"

"Yes, good plan, lets go!" Turning towards the door, Sirius started towards it with a new determination, completely forgetting one issue.

"Sirius?" He paused, looking back at you, "maybe you should put on some trousers before we go down though."

"Good idea."

Waving James and Lily off, you stood alongside the rest of your friends as Marlene appeared, pulling you towards her by your waist.

"Ugh, please tell me we're going to get some good booze and continue to get fucked up at ours?"

"Is that an open invite?" Remus asked with a grin, "Think I spied an extra bottle of Firewhiskey knocking about near the top table."

"100%," Marlene grinned at him, "after all, it's the least I could do after you saved me from so many creeps tonight. I will thank you in the form of hosting a small afterparty with the inner circle. Right, Y/N?"

"I'm up for it, I'll go see if I can grab that extra bottle you mentioned."

Taking off towards the top table, your eyes scanned the tables one by one until you felt a presence behind you. Already knowing who it was, you didn't bother looking back at them.

"I've got a fresh bottle stashed under my bed upstairs if we wanna grab that one?" Sirius said lowly in your ear.

"That sounds like a plan," you said slowly, "though I thought we said it was only a one time thing?"

"Weddings don't count, right? I swear that's a rule somewhere."

"...How long do you think we can be before the others get suspicious?"

"10 minutes?"

"Sounds good, lets go."

The pair of you said nothing more the entire night on the matter and ended up just having a good time with your friends. The boys ended up sleeping on your sofas, not trusting themselves to apparate safely considering the amount they each had to drink.

It wasn't until mid morning when everyone started to rouse, that you offered to make everyone a cup of tea to help with the hangovers that had started to form.

"Hey, make mine extra strong, will you?"

You laughed, turning to face Sirius.

"You need the caffeine that much?"

"That answer is a strong yes."

Pouring the boiling water into the mugs, you passed Sirius' over to him as he smiled at you in thanks.

"So, yesterday was something." You smiled, taking a sip of your own drink.

"Yeah... something stupid, right?"

"Yeah, totally stupid." There was a brief silence between you as you weren't exactly sure what to say next. "Look as much as I enjoyed it, I don't want us to become awkward or ruin our friendship or anything because of it."

"Good, because I was going to say the same thing." Sirius nodded, leaning against the kitchen counter top. "As good as the sex was, and trust me it was good, it's not worth making our friendship awkward or anything not knowing where we stand with the other."

"Right, yes, that makes a lot of sense." You both took another sip of tea as you listened to Marlene and Remus in the living room laugh about something. "Unless... wait no, it's nothing."

"No, what it is?" Sirius asked.

"Unless... I don't know, we keep fucking in secret and just don't tell the others?"

You stared at the tea in your cup before raising your eyes to meet Sirius' grey ones which were wide, a grin on his face.

"I guess that would work too?"

"Yeah... anyway on a totally unrelated note, Marlene's visiting her family tomorrow night at like 7."

"Noted."

"Where's my bloody tea, Y/N!" The blonde in question strode into the kitchen sluggishly. "I swear you've been in here for 4 hours making it."

"If you were a little more patient, Mar, I was just about to bring it out for you." You rolled your eyes but handed the mug over to her anyway.

"Thanks, how're you two feeling this morning?"

"Rough." Sirius grunted out as the three of you headed back into the living room. "But what's new there, really?!"

"You should really try cut back on your drinking, Pads." Remus mentioned, taking the cup of tea from you with a smile.

"You should cut back on your chocolate."

"Chocolate doesn't give you hangovers." Remus countered with a smirk causing Sirius to just roll his eyes as he sunk down into an armchair.

"Either way, I hope Lils and James are having fun." Marlene stretched out on the other sofa, placing her legs over your own. "I know James will be with the things Y/N and I packed as a surprise in Lily's bags."

You snorted into your cup as you remembered the countless lacy items you'd snuck into Lily's normally conservative wardrobe.

"Well, James might be happy about what you packed, but he certainly won't be happy with what we packed." Sirius snickered as Remus held back a laugh.

"What did you do?!"

"We might've exchanged his entire bag of clothes for an entire bag of Cornish Pixies." Sirius grinned. "I'm already expecting a howler from Lily at some point in the near future."

Sirius didn’t have to wait long for Lily’s reaction as only moments later he heard an angry shout through his two way mirror he shared with James.

As planned, Marlene visited her family the next day and no later after she flooed away, Sirius appeared at the front door of your flat. The same happened after Marlene was picked by Dumbledore for an order mission and Sirius happily flooed into your flat only moments later. You were convinced he’d bugged your flat somehow.

James and Lily returned from their honeymoon a week later, effectively surprising you as they flooed into your flat with no warning, causing you to stuff a naked Sirius into your closet. It was safe to say he wasn’t impressed after Lily insisted she make a pot of tea to ‘catch up’, and ended up staying round for several hours.

You barely managed to hide the snicker which escaped your lips when James asked if you knew where Sirius was.

With the newly married pair being back, the two of you decided to come up with a plan as how to sneak around without the others knowing.

Somehow, it didn’t really go to plan.

Sirius insisted that you should come over and take a bath with him one night, especially as Remus was due to be out. You couldn’t help but agree to the idea, mostly because you got to spend time with your very sexy male friend who looked very good in bubbles... and also the fact his bathtub was a lot better than your own.

The bathtub in question was a massive claw-foot tub which could fit the two of you and your two roommates if you so desired. Compared against the shitty little tub Marlene and you had in your flat, it was a no brainer.

Which is why as you sat in between Sirius’ legs, your back against his chest, you couldn’t help but feel more relaxed than you had done all week.

Sirius was leant back against the tub, his arm around your waist with a glass of Firewhiskey in his other hand. The two of you had nicked this particular bottle from James’ ‘secret stash’ which everyone knew he hid under his cloak, under the stairs. It was all too easy for the two of you to sneak in and borrow it for the time being.

“You know, Prongs must be real blind if he can’t see how many people actually know about his hiding spots.” You snickered as you took the glass from Sirius and took a sip.

“I think it might be all the brain damage after getting hit in the head so many times.” He grinned.

“How long do you think it’ll be until he notices the actual bottle being gone? A few days?”

“Give him some credit, it’ll be at least a week.”

The two of you chuckled before you heard the fireplace roar with flames. Footsteps quickly made their way towards Sirius’ room before heading towards the bathroom.

A panicked look between the two of you was exchanged as a knock was heard on the door.

“Pads? It’s me, I’m coming in.”

Sirius quickly took the glass of Firewhiskey back from you as you dived underwater, praying the bubbles would cover up the fact you were there.

The door opened and James stepped in about to say something, before he stopped and observed the scene before him. Sirius was sat covered in bubbles with candles lit around him. Despite the calm expression on his face, the fact you were lying between his legs in the water had his heart racing.

“Did you need something, Prongs?”

“Uh, yeah, have you seen the bottle of Firewhiskey which I was given as a gift for my wedding?” James asked, very obviously looking at the opened bottle on the side of the bath.

“Didn’t even know you got given one, mate. This was from Y/N.”

“And if I ask her, will she give me the same story?”

“Positively. Anything else?”

“Yeah, you want to order some Chinese?”

“I mean I- NO!”

His outburst was a surprise to both James and himself after you had pinched him underwater signalling you were running out of air.

“Really? Lily’s got me on this diet and-”

“James! Get out!”

“Fine! Okay! No need to shout at me, I’ve seen you in weirder scenarios.”

James left and shut the door behind him just as soon as you jolted up, gasping for breath.

“I’m sorry, he wouldn’t leave! He wanted to ask me if I fancied some Chinese.”

“Chinese?” You asked, turning to look at him over your shoulder with a contemplative look on your face. “I could go for some chow mein.”

“Prongs!” Taking a deep breath, you disappeared underwater again just before James appeared once more. “I’ll have a large chow mein, sweet and sour chicken, some of those prawn cracker things and the spring rolls.”

“Spring rolls? I swear only Y/N likes them.”

“Thought I’d try them out since as she’s always yapping on about them.”

“Alright, back in a bit.”

James left and shut the door again. You emerged from the water, leaning back on Sirius again as he relayed off what he’d ordered.

“You ordered me spring rolls?!”

“Yeah, I remembered you liked them.” Sirius shrugged, wrapping his arm around your waist again. “Even if they taste like arse.”

The group had gathered at Marlene and Y/N’s for an evening where despite Lily’s constant health kicks, she relented into ordering pizza for the group.

“Hey, you guys will never guess what I found out today.” Marlene grinned.

“You’re secretly a guy?” Sirius snickered from the armchair, only to receive a cushion being thrown at his face by the blonde.

“No,” Marlene scowled at him, “Alice and Frank got engaged!”

“What?! How’d you find out?” Lily asked as she cuddled up to James in the other armchair.

“I ran into Alice at Headquarters earlier and she showed me her ring.” Marlene leant back into the sofa as she brought her legs up to lay them over Remus’ lap. “We best be getting ready for another wedding soon.”

“I’m sure we’ll hear more at the meeting tomorrow.” James said grinning. “Who knew Longbottom had it in him?!”

“Alice certainly did.” You snickered, leaning onto Remus’ other shoulder. The comment got another round of chuckles from everyone present as Lily shot you a less than impressed look.

“Alright, I say let’s call it a night if we have to be at the meeting early tomorrow morning.” The redhead rolled her eyes at you all before standing up and brushing her dress down.

Everyone else seemed to follow her lead as Marlene and you stood to show everyone out.

“Yeah, I need to sleep as much as I can with Moony’s snoring keeping me up all night.” Sirius grinned, stepping up beside you and Remus.

What no one expected to happen was for Sirius to dip and find your lips in a kiss, his hand wrapping around the back of your neck to pull you closer, just as he had done for the last few weeks.

The rest of the group stood with slack jaws as they took in the scene before them as they watched Sirius kiss you. Pulling away, you caught each other’s eyes as realisation set in and your own eyes went wide.

“Marls,” Sirius shook off his slight hesitation before heading straight over to Marlene and pulling her in for a kiss of her own. “Lily.”

Stepping forward to give Lily a kiss goodbye, Sirius couldn’t help but notice the wide eyed look from both James at kissing his wife and Remus at kissing his sister.

“Pleasure to spend time with you all.” Sirius grinned at everyone’s expressions before entering the fireplace to floo back to his own flat.

“What the hell was that?!” Remus asked with wide eyes, securely on you.

“Probably some leftover greeting from Lily and James’ wedding. Lils did have some french cousins, perhaps he picked it up from them?” You chuckled, trying to play down the laugh you so wanted to let out.

“Yeah, it did feel french.” Marlene snickered. “I’m not sure if I feel happy about saying that I’ve kissed Sirius Black though.”

“Well, he can keep his lips to himself and not on my wife.” James scowled at the fireplace where Sirius had disappeared moments before.

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fruitcoops · 3 years

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okay so we all love dad dumo and he's an incredible parent but even dumo isn't perfect. Could we maybe have dumo snapping at logan (or sirius, if it strikes your fancy, but i love dumo+logan dynamics) and then apologizing for it like a parent actually f*cking should

Oof, yes. Combined with asks for Sirius and Logan bonding, as well as some pre-Cap and James. SW credit goes to @lumosinlove!

TW for parental figure disappointment

The car rumbled. Dumo’s hands squeaked on the wheel as he flexed his fingers. Logan felt like he was going to throw up.

Can we turn around real quick? No, too vague. Can we go home so I can use the bathroom? No, he’ll say I can wait another ten minutes. I forgot my phone at home? No, he saw me put it in my pocket. Logan ran through every possible way of asking to go back to the Dumais house without giving away his dilemma; with each scenario, they grew further from where he needed to be.

“Hey, Dumo?” he began quietly, swallowing around his dry mouth. What was it his father always said? Honesty is the best policy. “We need to go back to your house for a moment.”

“We’re already running late,” Dumo said, not even sparing him a glance in the rearview mirror. The traffic around them was a mess. “If we go back, we’ll miss the first part of warmups.”

“I know, but it’s kind of important.”

“So is the game. If it’s your wallet, you don’t need it right—”

“I left my skates by the front door.”

Dead silence filled the car as Dumo slowed to a stop at the fourth red light. Logan’s heart sank and his stomach crawled into his throat. “What?”

“I left my skates by the front door,” he repeated, staring at his hands. “I’m sorry, I wasn’t thinking—”

“Tabernak, Logan!” Dumo snapped. He felt something inside him wither and die. “First the nap, then forgetting to wash your jersey, and now you left your fucking skates behind? What’s going on in your head? You are an adult now with responsibilities, and it’s your job to keep track of your shit.”

“I know,” Logan said quietly.

Dumo huffed. “Clearly you don’t! Do you just not care? Is that it?”

“I care.”

“This isn’t a college team, Logan.” Dumo’s accent grew harsh around his name. It had been a bad day for him—Adele came down with a nasty cold just after Celeste left to visit her parents for the weekend, and there was always an added pressure with home games. Logan knew that, and he knew he should have been paying better attention.

“I know.”

Dumo muttered a curse under his breath and pulled onto a side road, then swore again when his duffle bag slid in the passenger seat. Logan closed his eyes; there was no way they would make it all the way to the house and back to the rink in time for pre-game rituals. Damn it, Tremblay. What were you thinking?

They drove the rest of the way in silence. Dumo parked the car with a quiet “go”, and Logan hurried inside with a slight nod to the babysitter as he grabbed his skates before slinking back to the car with his head hung low.

“I’m really disappointed in you,” Dumo said when they reached the freeway again.

“I’m sorry.”

He received no response.

They won the game despite skipping all their superstitions, no thanks to Logan. He played like shit; Arthur barely gave him four shifts the whole night. Finn shot him a concerned look as he rinsed off and slipped back into his street clothes, but Logan didn’t have the energy to confront both his best friend and the upsetting feelings connected to the aforementioned best-friend-slash-secret-crush. If he tried, he’d certainly end up doing something stupid.

He packed his things, slung his bag over his shoulder, and followed Dumo out to the car like a stray dog with his tail between his legs. “I really am—”

“I don’t want to hear it,” Dumo interrupted as they pulled out of the parking lot. Logan pressed his lips together. “Are you hungry?”

Starving. “Kinda.”

“I’ll heat up some leftover lasagna when we get back to the house. Will you pay the babysitter and make sure the kids are in bed?”

“Sure.”

“Thank you.”

Logan ground his teeth around the steady ache building in his chest—he hated disappointing people in general, but it was a whole different story with Dumo. He was his second father, the person Logan admired most on the team. He gave him a home and a substitute family to ease the homesickness, and was always there to cheer him on. And Logan let him down.

They went through their nightly routine silently, which was a sharp contrast to their usual banter. Marc and Louis refused to go to bed at first, nearly bringing Logan to tears in his frustration, but he eventually got them settled down and tucked in. By some miracle, both the girls were already asleep.

“I’m going to call Celeste,” Dumo finally said as Logan unloaded the dishwasher. He nodded without a word, not trusting his voice.

As soon as the dishwasher was full and running, Logan took his phone out and dialed the only person he wanted to hear from. It rang twice before connecting. “Hello?”

“Hey.” His voice cracked and he cleared his throat. “Hey, Cap, what’s up?”

“Not much.” Sirius sounded confused, and more than a little tired. “Ça va?”

Logan’s eyes burned. “Not bad. Do you have a minute?”

There was a rustling noise from the other end, followed by the clink of keys. “You’re at Dumo’s, right?”

“Oui.”

“I’ll be there in ten.”

“Thanks,” he managed around his tight throat. “See you soon.”

Hushed voices came from the living room and Logan padded down the hall, knocking gently on the doorframe. Dumo looked up and furrowed his brow. “Un moment, mon amour. Are you alright?”

“Sirius is coming by in ten. We’re going to hang out for a bit, if that’s okay.”

“Tell him I say hello.” Without another word, Dumo uncovered the base of his phone and returned to his conversation. Logan nodded and headed back out into the hall, swallowing down the tears forming behind his eyes.

Ten minutes turned out to be seven minutes—Logan was simultaneously flattered and concerned—and a soft knock startled him out of his thoughts. Sirius already looked worried when the front door swung open. “What happened? Is everyone okay? Did something happen to Celeste?”

“She’s fine. Dumo says hi.” And he’s horribly disappointed in me. Logan took several deep breaths through his nose to control the tremor in his voice and Sirius gave him a worried once-over. “Can we drive around for a bit?”

“Of course.”

For all of his bluster and general brooding vibe, Sirius continued to be the king of empathy and (in Logan’s opinion) a secret mind-reader. The second his arm draped across Logan’s shoulders and held him close as they walked down the sidewalk, he felt some of the pressure in his chest release. “Sorry about the late call,” he sniffled. It was a cold night—the snot threatening to drip from his nose was frigid already. “I just—I needed to get out for a minute.”

“À tout moment.” Any time. Logan didn’t feel deserving of that kindness after the mess he had been on the ice. The heaters kicked on as soon as Sirius started the car and Logan closed his eyes, leaning back into the warm seat. “Can you tell me what happened?”

“It’s so stupid.”

“Doesn’t sound like it.”

Logan took a moment to breathe before shaking his head. “I forgot my skates. We were already running late, and I forgot my fucking skates at the house.”

Sirius hummed, but said nothing.

“It’s—Dumo has been having such a horrible day.” Tears clogged his throat again. “And I took a nap earlier because I stayed up late last night like an idiot, and Adele’s sick so he had all the kids and no help while he was trying to get ready, and then I overslept so it was already going to be rushed and forgot to clean my jersey and then—and then I forgot my skates. God, I’m so stupid.”

“Don’t say that.”

“It’s true.”

“It’s not.” Logan wanted to kick him for being so infuriatingly patient. Sirius glanced at him out of the corner of his eye. “That’s not why you’re upset, though.”

“He’s—” Logan broke off and swiped the first tear away with his sweatshirt cuff. “He said he was disappointed in me.”

“Ah.”

“It’s such a stupid thing to be upset about.”

Sirius sighed through his nose and pulled into the parking lot of a 24-hour Taco Bell, then turned off the car and faced Logan with one eyebrow raised. “Stop doing that.”

“Doing what?”

“Belittling yourself.”

“Okay, Heather,” Logan snorted. Sirius reached over and flicked him on the forehead. “Hey!”

“You forgot your skates. Big deal. We’ve all been there.”

Logan shot him a glare. “You’ve never forgotten your skates.”

“Yes, I have. My very first game with the Lions, actually. Except I didn’t realize it until we were already at the rink.”

“Did Dumo drive you back?”

“The whole damn way. He was mad as hell, but he did it.” Sirius’ face softened, and he poked Logan gently on the thigh. “Stop kicking yourself for this one. It sounds like it was a bad day for you both.”

“I still feel like shit.”

Sirius shrugged. “I bet. Disappointing Dumo is the worst feeling ever.”

“He wouldn’t even let me apologize.”

“He will.”

They sat in silence for a full minute as Logan tried to find the right words. “How did you deal with it? Letting people down. It feels like I’m drowning, sometimes.”

“Really, really poorly,” Sirius half-laughed, crossing his ankle over his knee. “It wasn’t until I was named captain that I started accepting that people weren’t lying when they forgave me for fucking up.”

“Why?”

“Believe it or not, the people I was around as a kid didn’t make a habit of apologizing to me when they did something wrong.”

Logan looked up from the faded letters on his sweatshirt sleeve and sniffled. “Thanks for bringing me out here.”

“Pas de problem. I figured you could use some company outside the house.”

“You’re the best.”

“I try.”

“You succeed.” You’re like a brother to me, actually. “Is this what James did for you?”

“No,” Sirius laughed. Affection took over his face, bright even in the dim light from the streetlamps. “No, he snuck me onto the roof of the rink with massive amounts of junk food and stayed with me until the imposter syndrome faded. It was fantastic, but we nearly got hypothermia several times in the winter. This is much more comfortable.”

“Thanks for helping me keep all my fingers and toes,” Logan said wryly. He lapsed back into silence and folded his forearms on the dashboard, sighing at the pleasant stretch of his back. “I know I have to go back eventually, but I’m scared.”

“Honestly, Logan, I bet he’s already forgiven you. He knows it was an accident.”

“But what if he doesn’t?” The words came out as little more than a whisper. Sirius’ hand rested hesitantly between his shoulder blades until Logan leaned back into it, then began rubbing gentle circles.

“He does,” Sirius said softly. “And he loves you so much.”

Logan sniffed back more tears. “Really?”

“Ouais. You’ve been living with him for nine months now, and he’s so proud of how far you’ve come.”

“How do you know?”

“Because he told me. Last week, after your hat trick. People fuck up, Logan, but that doesn’t mean they’re unforgivable. You don’t need to flay yourself for one bad day.”

Logan shut his eyes with a slow exhale and buried his face in his forearms. “I think I’m ready to go back now.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah.”

“D’accord. Buckle your seatbelt.”

He straightened up and stretched, wincing at the crack of his back. Sirius drove out of the parking lot and hummed under his breath to the radio, but Logan didn’t miss the careful glances out of the corner of his eye. “You don’t need to worry about me,” he finally said. “I’ll be okay.”

“I know,” Sirius said casually, though he looked like he was holding something back. Logan didn’t press; Sirius would talk in his own time if he wanted to. He opened his mouth, paused, then sighed. “But I do worry about you.”

“Why?”

“Because.”

Thank you, Captain Black, for the most media answer of all time. “You really don’t have to.”

Sirius parked the car and leaned his head back against the seat. “You’re my friend, and I care about you, so I worry.”

Logan blinked at him. “You care about me?”

“Obviously,” Sirius muttered. Even in the darkness of the street, his cheeks were pink. “Now go on, you've got someone waiting for you.”

“I care about you, too.”

“Out of my car, Tremblay.” Despite his words, a smile quirked at the corner of Sirius’ mouth. Logan socked him lightly on the arm and opened the door, shivering in the night air as it bit through his hoodie.

“Drive safe, Cap.”

“I will.”

The walk to the front door felt less like a trip to the gallows and more like coming home; Logan felt his muscles relax, and saw the curtains shift as someone moved away from the window. Dumo opened the door before he could even knock.

“I’m sorry,” they said in unison. Logan raised his eyebrows and Dumo opened the door the rest of the way, ushering him inside.

The moment the door closed behind him, Dumo wrapped him in a hug. “I’m so sorry for what I said earlier, Logan. You made a mistake, and I shouldn’t have come down hard on you.”

“I’m sorry I made us late,” Logan said into his soft shirt. “And for not helping earlier. It won’t happen again.”

“All is forgiven.” Dumo patted him on the back of the shoulder and held him at arm’s length with a sad smile. “I should have kept a better handle on my temper. You don’t deserve to be spoken to like that.”

Logan bit back the urge to say it’s okay or I deserved it and instead pulled him in for another hug. “Thank you for everything you’ve done for me. I didn’t realize how much you’ve helped me until today.”

Dumo made a quiet sound and held him tighter. “It’s a gift to have you here.”

Logan squeezed his eyes shut as a wave of emotion rolled in his heart. “There is nowhere I would rather be,” he whispered. They stayed like that for a long moment, swaying slightly, before Dumo stepped back.

“Get some rest. We have early practice tomorrow.” He mussed Logan’s hair and gave him a nudge toward the stairs. “Bonne nuit, mon fils.”

Mon fils. Logan’s breath caught for a second and he smiled. “Bonne nuit.”

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maraudersftw · 3 years

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hi claudia! if you're accepting prompts, I'd love to see your take on either 'james thinks they're fake dating but they're actually really dating' or 'james isn't even aware that they're dating' because I really like an oblivious!james 😂

Hi, beautiful! This is such a classic prompt, and I had a blast writing for it. Combined both your options to put together something that reeks of obliviousness. Hope you enjoy!

Oblivious

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He's quite ashamed of the high-pitched yelp that leaves his lips, it's true.

But James doesn't think there's any other reaction to be expected when one finds oneself unceremoniously shoved against the wall of an empty alcove. The surprise only mounts at the feeling of a body, soft and warm, pressing against the front of his chest and stomach and lower, but dissolves when he registers the familiar feel of it. Of her.

"Evans," he groans, one hand unconsciously tangling in the length of her long, thick hair. "What—"

But she doesn't tell him what; the flash of a lethal smirk and dancing green eyes are all he's allowed to witness before she's got her lips on his, got her tongue prying his mouth open, her hands running through his hair and rumpling his uniform shirt without care.

James finds he doesn't care much for decorum himself.

"Merlin—" he kisses her back, brows scrunching at how easily everything about her overwhelms him, even when she's barely trying. The sweet smell of her, the way she pulls in breath, tugs at his lower lip, all of it magic more real than he's known. He tries to pull away, head muddled with some strange cloud of intoxication. "Fuck, Evans, I can't—"

"Are you sure?" She grins wickedly, pressing closer and leaving no room for doubt that she feels him, feels his eagerness. "Looks to me like you really can."

He strokes a thumb over her jaw, resistance waning already. "I wanted to talk to you."

"Uh oh." Lily leans back slightly, one eyebrow cocked even as she smiles easily. "That sounds ominous."

James's heart thumps, already against the idea, but he knows he has to do this now. It's been three months since he'd first found himself on the other end of Lily's glorious, wandering hands after she'd told sixth year Gryffindor, Jonathan Jenkins, that she was dating James when he'd refused to leave her alone despite multiple refusals. And though that first kiss had been quick and chaste, with a profuse apology from her right after Jenkins had left the common room in a huff, things had spiralled out of control. They hadn't expected Jenkins to be such a fucking gossip, and by the end of the day, the news that James Potter and Lily Evans were dating had penetrated ears everywhere in the castle.

When Lily had asked him to play along for a bit until there was no more danger of Jenkins hounding her like a wolf, she'd thought he'd been doing her a favour.

If he'd been a normal friend and not secretly in love with her, James supposes it would've been a favour.

But now—three months down the line—he's gotten greedier. He no longer just wants Lily to keep snogging him. He wants her fully, publicly; no pretences.

Typical of him to want to ruin the one good thing he has with her now, after seven years of struggle.

"Hello?" Lily pulls at his tie, jerking him out of his thoughts. She's still smiling, though a concerned light has entered her eyes now. "Rather cruel of you to keep me hanging here with such dreaded anticipation."

He's forgotten words. "Um."

"Oh, for Merlin's sake—"

James looks up and away at the sound of that voice, finding Sirius sauntering down the corridor, the Marauder's Map in his hands. Lily pulls away a bit at his appearance, but her palm stays firmly planted against James's stomach. "'lo, Sirius."

"You're bloody late for Transfiguration," he accuses, grey eyes narrowed, and James is finally reminded of the reason he'd been walking down this shortcut in the first place. "Thought I'd come find you two, given that neither of you can be counted upon to keep your head on straight these days."

"We've no reason to." Lily shrugs, grinning. "Head duties."

"It's McGonagall."

"She likes us," James supplies.

"Fucking unfair," Sirius grumbles, pocketing the parchment as he walks away. "You're just as bad as Prongs, Evans. Worse!"

Lily laughs at his disappearing form before turning back to him. "Reckon he might be right."

James inhales, misery eating his insides. "Lily, I—I can't do this anymore."

It takes a few seconds, but then her smile falls, brows stitch together, hands dropping. "Can't do this? What—what do you mean? Are you breaking up with me?"

"No!" His hand jumps to his hair, heart instantly loathing the upset look on her face he's brought on. "I mean, I can't break up with you if we were never together anyway."

But Lily's frown only deepens at that. "James, what—" she shakes her head. "What the bloody hell are you saying?"

"That this is too difficult! All this confusion and pretending to be with you when I know none of it's real—when I know what I feel is real. I'm just—" he stops, insides twisting together. "I'm sorry, okay? I like you too much to keep this going. I thought I could've been happy with pretending to be your boyfriend, but I'm not. Not anymore."

"Now hold on a fucking second!" Lily reels back, eyes so wide and shocked that it gives him pause. "What do you mean by pretending to be my boyfriend? You are my boyfriend!"

"Yeah, but not really."

"James." She slams him back against the wall, hand on his chest almost angry in its force. "What the hell are you saying? I asked you out last week. In the Great Hall?"

"That was—" he's shaking his head, dismissal ready on the tip of his tongue, when the scene repays in his mind. Lily had stopped him mid-meal with a squeeze on his arm and asked him if he wanted to go to Hogsmeade with her this month. And though there had been a new shyness to her expression then, James had assumed it'd been for the benefit of their friends, who couldn't stop grinning and laughing and talking about turned tables. "That was...real?"

Her jaw has unhinged, disbelief shining clear in her eyes. "Are you fucking kidding me? So, you've been thinking we were pretend-dating all this time?" He stays silent. "Oh my God, James. Why the hell would I be accosting you in hallways and snogging you, then?"

"Because...I'm a good kisser?"

Lily takes two steps back, shakes her head again. "Hang on, are we back in 1975? Is this fifth year?"

But James laughs, relief and euphoria mixing together to create a massive wave of emotion that has him reaching forward and pulling her back to him. His fingers grip her neck, her hip, and he ghosts his lips over the flush of her cheeks. "I've been going out with Lily Evans for a week."

"I don't think that counts anymore."

"Shh." He grins into her skin. "Don't ruin the moment."

"I'm ruining it? When you're the one who—" Her complaints die out against his mouth with his strategically placed kiss, which James figures he's allowed to do now, given that he's her boyfriend and all that. Lily stops for a beat to huff the words out. "Two minutes. Then Transfiguration."

"You're brilliant."

"You're a tosser."

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slytherinspired · 3 years

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Better Days - A Sirius Black Imagine

Hi! :) There you go! I am sorry about the end, I really couldn't help it, I hope you'll forgive me!

For any pending requests, I am very sorry about the delay. As it turns out, my job is taking a lot of my time. When I started this blog, I was still a Uni student, avoiding her studies and essays by writing her fantasy world - but now you know... Adult life is in the way. But I still do want to write and always will be. Just a little less often...

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'Stella!' you mumble under your breath.

You know very well that begging the child to stop running around is futile, but you can't help but scold her. She is no longer a fragile little being that you were once afraid to break with your simple touch. Now this same little person babbles, knows how to walk, and takes great pleasure in knocking all the objects that are in her path, as if every time she'd expect something else than those objects falling to the ground in a disturbing crash. You close the book you are trying to study and take a good look at her. It takes your breath away every time. The little dark curls around her head and her piercing grey eyes, the smirk on her face when she's goofing around. Her warm laugh... It takes all the negative away.

But your tone was too harsh when you said her name out loud and now the child's lips are starting to quiver. You shake your head, preparing to face the tears as as the shrill cry of your daughter leaves its way to your ears. You feel like you're about to cry as well when the front door of your little flat opens. Through the doorway you see Sirius, putting his helmet on the floor, and an innocent smile spreads across his lips. He whispers something, but you can't hear him through the incessant crying of Stella. He tiptoes to you both and takes the child away from you. Taken aback, her crying suddenly stops and a big smile takes shape on her little red face.

'What happened there, bunny?' he asks with a soft voice as he wipes the tears away from her delicate face.

You shrug and sigh.

'I wouldn't let her play with the fish food.'

Sirius snorts.

'Oh,' he laughs while looking at his daughter. 'I didn't know Stella was a fish, are you a fishy, Stella?' He starts to tickle her. 'Are you a fish?'

The child laughs warmly. He scoops over and presses his lips on yours. You feel relieved. You don't even have to ask him; he's already putting the child in her high chair while he goes in the kitchen to prepare her tea.

'What's on the menu, bunny?' he shouts while he rumbles in the little fridge. 'Carrots?' He shakes his head. 'Nah.'

Stella looks at him, completely fascinated.

'Oh! Chicken and peas!' he exclaims, holding a little pot of a questionable colour. He stares at the pot for a coupe of seconds.

'Definitely not,' he says.

'No,' you repeat, laughing.

'HA!' Sirius shows another little pot in his hand. 'I feel like it is a sweet potato kind of night, wouldn't you say bunny?' He flicks his wand and the little pot flies to Stella while a floating spoon flies from the jar quietly towards the child.

'How was your day?' he asks as he walks to her.

'I never thought that studying to be a healer would be easy,' you reply, looking at the many books resting on the side table, 'but with this little monster, it's impossible to retain any information.'

Sirius replaces a strand of your hair behind your ear.

'I know, love. I'm sorry it has to be like that.'

You lean your head on his chest as he plays in your hair a little bit.

'Is it good, my love?' he asks Stella as she's having a fight with the floating spoon. She looks at you both and smiles proudly. Sirius snorts.

'Even with puree all over her face she's the cutest.'

'Isn't she?' you reply. 'That's what makes it hard. I can't be angry at her for too long.'

'I'm probably biased,' he says, 'but I really do think she's the prettiest baby in the whole world.'

'Totally not biased,' you reply, closing your eyes.

You feel yourself drifting from reality. You're so tired you could just sleep there and forget about the whole world. Sirius' presence is enough to reassure you that everything is going to be okay. Your eyelids are heavy now.

'Mama,' says a voice afar.

But you're too tired to get up. Sirius is going to take care of her, that was the deal. He said that you would have your nights to recharge a little bit. But he doesn't get up.

'Mama!'

Now the child is crying again. You feel gradually woken up from your sleep, reality is slowly catching up with you. Something tells you you don't want to wake up, you want to stay like this forever, in Sirius' embrace. Stella is screaming at the top of her lungs and you wake up suddenly.

'Sirius, why are you not -' you stop mid-sentence.

You're alone with Stella. For a moment, you're looking for him, where has he gone? But it slowly comes back to you. Every time you wake up, you have to cope again.

Sirius isn't here. He doesn't know he has a daughter.

Sirius is in Azkaban.

Sirius is a killer.

And Stella only knows to call your name.

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slayingqueenchal · 1 year

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Hiiii, will you write a part two of Stay away from

me, y/n? Pretty pleaseeeee

your Wish, my command

Stay away from me, y/n (2) | Regulus black x reader

PART 1 | PART 2

Like the first one y/n is james's little sister, and an insecure reg black :( , a bit slow, and it's about y/n being reminded about him, (happy ending), fluff and angst

Y/N/N : your nickname

You left him standing, going to your friends. You had go act like everything was fine. "Hi" You said, coming to the Gryffindor table.

"Hey! " James said. "Hey" You replied back. You sat besides James. "Everything alright? " Asked Remus. Remus, Remus was the most un-oblivius boy in the whole marauder. But you knew you had to reply with "yeah, I'm fine," And 'smiled'.

"Good were coming to the zonko's, you want anything? Or do you wanna come" Asked sirius. "No, I'm good" You said. "Uhm, I need to go to my dorm, uhm goodni, I mean, good morning! " You said going to the Slytherins common room.

You felt a wave of emotions coming through. You couldn't sob in the middle of the great Hall can you, anyone who does that is mental.

While going to the common room, you saw him with Pandora. She was a good friend, but you couldn't help but be jealous.

But it wasn't your place to be jealous was it? He did say 'I love you' but it's nonsense. The only person in the black family that'll like you is sirius, and he's your other brother basically.

Ofcourse you went to your room, and cried. Its as if you broke up with someone, but you Were not dating. It hurts more than that.

You curled up your covers and just try not to think about anything but thats when it hit you. You know he loves you, or so he said, and, you Love him. Why dont you just solve this? But it isnt that easy isnt it.

Having to go to his not-so-good-friend isnt a very good idea, but its theres no choice. Not now, you're not going to talk now.

"Geez y/n, are you alright? " Pandora asked, carrying a bixt. "What the-How did you? What? " You took off your covers.

"I asked some first year to open it for me, 'said I was meeting a friend" Pandora then said "well, Regulus wanted to give you something".

"No he doesn't" You sighed. "He does, here" The ravenclaw gave you the neatly tied dark green box.

You opened it, and the first thing you saw was a purple pygmy puff. And berties botts beans. And a letter. You opened it.

'Dear y/n,

I'm sorry that I, said such things and have been ignoring you. I haven't seen you anywhere. And I think James know, heck, the whole marauders know. They've been giving me.. Some stares. And I knew from that you've told them. I'm sorry.

I just want you to know that I was not avoiding you because of you. It was because of me. I have feelings for you, I like you. It's not like how sirius likes you. It's different.

I love laughing with you, in a different way from Peter. I love studying with you, in a different way from Remus. I love you in a different way from James. Everything about you is perfect too.

And if you want to talk, I'll be in the courtyard, meet me and 5

Love, R.A.B'

"Oh Reggie, wait, isn't it still 12? " You asked. "No, y/n, It's almost 5! " Pandora rushed you outside, carrying your pygmy puff.

You walked to the courtyard, and there he was. Sitting. "Reg? " You said. "Y/n, you came? " He said.

"Of course, I did, reg" You said. "Look, I'm sorry about everything I said and done, I swear none of it means anything" He said.

You stomach dropped. "It doesn't mean anything?, the I love you part was nothing? " You asked.

"Depends on how you want me to feel," Regulus looked at you. "Reg.. I love you, and my best hope is that you do too" You smiled, weakly.

"Y/n I love you" Said Regulus. "But what about your family? " You asked. "I'm going to do it like Sirius, I guess.. I'll be bad, get kicked out, and we can be together" He said. Bittersweet, mostly bitter.

"Reg, no, you can't leave your family" You backed out from him. "No, y/n, they're not my family, you are" Regulus said

And you probably know who stayed for the whole summer in you and James's house.

"Brother, I have 100% forgiven you for your doings" Said Sirius while hugging regulus. That moment is where Regulus's life became better.

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charliedawn · 3 years

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Remus x Reader

"Second chances"

(Warning : sadness ahead.)

You look at the piece of paper in your hand and smile as you see the famous Hogwarts train..the same train you took a few years back as a student. And now ? You would be returning as a teacher. You get on the train and look for a place to seat. You see that all of them are full but one, with only three students and a man inside. You open the door and sit down with a wide smile.

" Hi ! I'm Y/N L/N. The new potion assistant."

They all politely shake your hand while telling you their names as well. Your eyes widen when you hear that Harry Potter is among them. You are about to tell him that you were an old friend of Lily when the red-head next to you interrupts you, his face as white as a sheet.

" Wait..Potion's assistant ?! As in, assistant of the donjon bat ?!"

Hermione gives him a warning look, but you only laugh lightly.

" Donjon bat ? Is that what kids are calling him those days ?"

They all seem surprised as you don't seem offended, only mildly amused.

" Wait..You know professor Rogue ?!"

It's Hermione's turn to be surprised and you only nod in response.

" Of course I know Severus. We were friends.."

" Were ?"

Harry picks on and your smile turns downward as you remember that Severus and you hadn't talked to each other since..Lily's death. However, you don't have to answer the boy that the train abruptly stops. You frown before looking outside and freeze when you feel thee familiar cold air entering the wagon.

" Dementors.."

You whisper as the temperature lowers more and more. You then see the darkness making its way towards your door and then, the door open ajar, letting the monster inside. He inspects all of the passengers before finally landing his attention on Harry. The boy is paralysed by fear and the dementor takes it as an opportunity to get a taste..However, the sleeping man and you get up at the same time and yell.

" Expecto Patronum !"

The flying nightmare gets ejected out of your wagon and leaves you all try to get your breath back. You automatically crouch beside Harry to make sure he is fine and the stranger kneels beside him as well.

" Are you okay, Harry ?"

You ask and he nods silently.

" Yeah..What was that thing ?!"

Before you could answer, the stranger does it for you.

" Dementors from Azkaban, they're searching for Sirius Black."

At the name, you close your eyes and feel nauseous..To think that Sirius could be the one behind Lily's and James' death..It just didn't make any sense to you. Sirius was the best friend of James, and a good soul..But no matter how much you fought to prove he had nothing to do with it, nothing could be done. This is why you had gone. The pain was too much..The only guilt you had was to have left Severus and Remus behind. You wonder, are they the same now ? Where is Remus even ? Is he alright ? However, the stranger gets you out of your thoughts by standing up and extending a hand towards you.

" I should probably go see if any of the other students need help, while you can stay with Miss..?"

You smile and accept his hand for him to get you up.

" L/N. Y/N."

Suddenly, his grip seems to tighten and his eyes to darken as he looks straight at you with what you can only imagine to be sadness and he takes a step back, as if your touch had suddenly shifted to burning lava. He doesn't tell you his name, even though you feel as if you had already seen him somewhere and walks out. However, he turns one last time to give a piece of chocolate to Harry.

" Here. Eat. You'll feel better."

You want to follow him, ask him for his name and why he seemed shocked by the mention of your name. But, you have to stay with Harry, as he was the perfect victim for the dementors. You decide to do as you were told and stay with the Golden trio until arrival. As soon as you are out, you search for the mysterious man, but cannot find him anywhere. The trio enters a carriage and you climb up with them, sharing it with a strawberry blond girl with clear blue eyes. A ravenclaw, no doubt. Her cleverness shows behind her eyes as she looks at each one of you until she speaks. She talks about thestrals and your eyes brighten. You always thought that those creatures were amazing and the reflection of past mistakes..However, you wonder, what past mistakes did you commit this time ? You enter in the surroundings of the castle and shiver at the sensation..You were home. Home again. You get out of the carriage and see that McGonagall is waiting for you. She smiles when she sees you and takes you to the Great Hall.

" It's been so long, Y/N. To think that two of my most brilliant students are going to be reunited this year.."

You frown and want to ask what she is referring to, but your eyes land on the man who had saved Harry in the wagon. You sit down next to him and see Severus that addresses you only a dismissive sideway glance. You smile at him, but he doesn't reciprocate. You sigh loudly before listening to the headmaster's welcome speech. It brings back memories, of James dancing on the table, of Sirius singing so high to cover his speech with a modification spell..and Remus. Remus smiling and laughing at his friends idiotic acts, but still defending them. But then, the murder happened..And you had to leave. The headmaster calls your name and you stand up with a small smile, but then, he calls another name..

" We also have a new teacher of defense against the dark arts: professor Remus Lupin."

The man stands up and bows slightly forward, but you are too shocked to do the same..Even after he sits back down, it take you a few seconds to sit back down. You decide to look over to Severus that is staring right at you. However, he doesn't linger and only looks at the students, knowing that among them is the son of Lily..Harry Potter. However, as soon as dinner is over, you want to talk to Severus, but he walks out quickly, followed by the waves of new slytherin students. You sigh before turning around and falling face to face with Remus that seems as surprised as you.

" Y/N ? It has been a while.."

He smiles sadly with his eyes translating a sort of melancholy. You smile back and nod.

" Indeed Remus..It has been a while. Didn't think we would bump into each other here. Of all places."

He chuckles while looking up at the ceiling, as if trying to find his words from the gargoyles..

"..This is where Sirius took the old quidditch teacher's broom and broke it in half..I remember the earful we had gotten from McGonagall.."

You smile fondly at the memory of Sirius whistling while riding said broom. You look at each other and stay in comfortable silence, until a familiar low and deep voice makes itself heard behind you.

" Well, if it isn't the beauty and the beast..Reunited again. How charming.."

You turn around to face Severus that seems highly unimpressed, an eyebrow raised and arms crossed over his torso. His hair is longer and he is dressed in darker clothes than you remembered him..but besides that, he hadn't changed much. His eyes still hold a sadness and hatred that the loss of Lily had only worsen. You are about to talk when Remus does it for you. He takes a step forwards to stare directly in Severus' eyes.

" Happy to see you as well, Severus. Glad to hear that your long-lasting sarcasm hasn't faded over the years..I take it that you weren't aware that miss L/N would be coming back as well..?"

Severus doesn't falter his gaze, not even taking the time to give you a side glance.

" Obviously."

It is only then that he looks at you with a flicker of hurt in his eyes, but quickly gets back his composure to look back at Remus.

" You both have class tomorrow. I would advise you both to get back to your private quarters.."

And with that, he walks down the corridor without giving you a second glance. You want to go after him, but Remus stops you at the last minute.

" I wouldn't do that if I were you. Severus hasn't been quite himself since you left and seeing you again may be..painful to him ?"

You look between Remus and the way Severus had gone and finally agree.

" You're right. I shouldn't intervene too much.."

He smiles for a second before turning around to walk towards his own quarters. You can only stare at him until the light of his wand disappears completely. You smile sadly, knowing that your return wasn't painful only for Severus..Remus waits until he is in his room before letting go of his emotions. He soundproofs the room with his wand and takes a shaky breath before screaming so loud that it hurts. He doubled in pain and slides down to sit and bury his face in his hands to hide his tears. He had Sirius to save and now, another ghost from his past had come back to haunt him..He sits on his bed as images of the past swirl in his mind.

Flashback :

Your younger self is running through the woods, looking for someone. She finally finds a quivering Remus covered in blood and a dead deer by his side. Young Remus looks up at her and starts sobbing as he extends his hand towards her.

" Please..Don't go. I'm sorry. I know I'm a monster but, I don't want to be alone.."

She only smiles compassionately before kneeling in front of him and taking his hand.

" You're not alone Remus, and you're not a monster either."

He seems stunned for a moment, but smiles hopefully before taking you in his arms, crying in your shoulder.

" You..You don't think I'm a monster ?"

You hold on to him even tighter and answer confidently.

" Never..I would never think that."

He backs away a bit to ask, his voice filled with hope and desperate need.

" You'll stay with me then ?"

You smile and nod.

" Forever.."

End of flashback.

Remus lies down on his bed and closes his eyes, listening to the different sounds he can hear from the outside. After a while, he falls asleep, his head filled with memories of you..and how you betrayed your promise.

Next day :

You wake up just in time for your first lesson with Severus. You dress rapidly before running outside and barging in the great hall. Multiple head shot up to look at you, and one of them is Severus that looks at you with barely hidden disdain and the same unimpressed expression as last night. You also quickly notice Remus' empty seat and sigh before taking your place. You just have the time to grab a toast that the food disappears and the headmaster stands up to announce the beginning of classes. Severus doesn't wait for you and walks out of the great hall in a hurry as soon as Dumbledore is done talking. You have to hurry to catch up with him and are relieved when he waits for you in front of the class.

" You didn't need to go so fast..I nearly fell three times following you !"

You complain, but he only snorts.

" Incompetent and lazy..That's a good start."

You can't believe his words and humph loudly before following him inside. But he doesn't acknowledge your disapproval and only starts looking through his papers, preparing the class as the students would soon arrive. A few minutes later, the students sit down and you wait for Severus to make the introduction..which he doesn't.

" Amortentia. You have 40 minutes. Be quick."

You frown as he sits back down at his desk and leaves the students to do the potion on their own. You see many struggling and decide to go help them.

" Here, you have to be more gentle with the Ashwinder eggs. Come on, let me show you.."

You take the knife and gently cut the eggs to add them to the mixture. But, suddenly, Severus slams his hands flat on the desk, making you and the nearby students jump in surprise.

" Miss L/N! Do I have to remind you that you are not to interfere with my class unless I tell you so?"

He surely thinks that you'll back down and apologize, but you only stand up to face him. You don't step back and stare right back at him before answering straightforwardly.

" Your students should have been more prepared. They barely know which ingredient is which and you want them to learn how to bottle love ?! Dear Merlin, this is insane."

You can see his eyes darken and he menacingly says.

" If you don't like how I teach, miss L/N..Maybe it is best for you to leave !"

Your next words stay stuck in your throat at his forbidden expression and you grit your teeths before getting out and slamming the door behind you. Of course, you get a visit from Dumbledore a few hours later, insisting that you make peace with Severus. You take a big breath before knocking at his door. You hear a few muffled curses on the other side before the door opens, showing Severus with his hair disheveled and covered in ink stains.

" What do you want ?"

He harshly asks while eyeing you up and down in distaste.

" Can we talk ?"

You reply, doing your best to hide your thoughts from him and anything that would betray you. You need to talk to him, and he would listen, that he wants to or not..With another glare, he finally gives in and opens the door ajar for you to enter. You walk inside and look around. Not a lot of personal items or anything other than practical. Your eyes then land on him, looking at you impatiently with his arms crossed and tapping his foot on the ground.

" So ? What did you want to talk about ? How you interrupted my class ? Made a fool out of me ? If so, there is no need. I do not care that the headmaster appointed you as my assistant. Disrespect me again ? And I won't hesitate before throwing you out of my class and this school. You may have thought that our..past..would bring you some kind of special treatment, but I can assure you that that is not the case and I.."

" Are you finished ?"

You cut him off and he seems surprised, but you don't let him speak again before he hears what you have to say. You move forward until your noses nearly touch and thrust your finger on his torso multiple times, as to make yourself clear.

" I don't know what I've ever done to deserve such wrath from you, but those students have done nothing to deserve this. As for our "past", Severus. Consider it erased. I don't know what you thought I was there to do, but I have a job now. Unlike you, I am not stuck in the past. I may be your assistant, but I am not your student and you have no right to speak to me this way. Professor Snape, I am as qualified as you and this will be the last time I will ever let you embarrass me this way. We used to be friends, I thought that maybe we could get along as colleagues, but I was obviously wrong. I am not here to apologize, because you are the one who should be apologizing."

He snorts at that before looking down at you and you can feel the tension rising as he stares down at you with a sneer.

" Really, Y/N ? Are you sure about that ? Your memory must be hazy, let me clear it up for you.."

You don't understand until he looks straight at you and uses his legilimens on you. You see yourself, Lily and Severus playing together. You see multiple memories of your life at Hogwarts together and then, the fall. Severus knocking at your door in the middle of the night and begging you to let him enter. You then see yourself opening the door to a sobbing Severus, carrying Lily's body in his arms. The last memory he shows you is the day that you left, a few days after James' and Lily's funeral.

You come back to see the eyes full of pain and sorrow of Severus that his gripping your shirt tightly. He is keeping himself from breaking up in tears in front of you. You feel bad and try to gently stroke his cheek, but he grabs your arm before you could go through your action.

" Get out.."

The order is so low that you don't pick up on it until his eyes stare right at you and he yells.

" I said get out !"

This time, he drags you out and locks the door behind you. You stay still for a few seconds before clenching your jaw and turning away to leave. You thought you could make peace, but Severus doesn't want peace, he wants to be left alone and hated by all. You tried to talk to him, but he doesn't want to listen. You try to talk to him some more in the weeks that follow, but he ignores and when you're in his class, any step closer to him and he glares at you or yells at the students. As if just by being near you, he would burn to ashes. Before you know it, the Yule Ball approaches and even though you know that Severus is probably not among the crowd, another one is. You see Remus smiling at you and making his way to you.

" Well, glad to see you. I was starting to think that you were ignoring me ?"

You laugh and shake your head.

" No, Remus. I wasn't ignoring you, I was searching to get back a friend that I lost."

He seems to understand and nods.

" I see. Well, maybe you should apologize ?"

You snort, as if you hadn't tried for the last few months..

" I tried, but failed. I only have one year here, and if I don't make it up to all those I've wronged..I may never find peace."

He sighs and guides you away from the crowd of students, on one of the bridges of the school. You then stay next to each other, looking at the night sky and it's you that decide to break the silence.

" I'm sorry, Remus. I should have at least say goodbye but, I couldn't. I was afraid of his reaction. I couldn't even say goodbye to you after what happened to Pettigrew.."

Remus nods before looking at the sky again with a a small dreamy smile dancing on his lips.

" You remember when we used to watch the stars together ? It was on one of those nights that I asked you to the Yule Ball. I was so nervous..I can't believe the years that have passed. The people we lost along the way. And even though, we're still here. The beauty, the beast and the donjon bat..You never wish that Lily or James were still here ? Instead of Severus and I ?"

You frown and shake your head vividly before taking his hand to squeeze it lightly.

" Of course not, Remus. Nobody should have died. What happened..It was unfortunate and cruel. None of us deserved it. And between us ? I always wondered if you weren't the beauty in this story of ours."

He looks at you with widened eyes and you only chuckle at his surprise before looking at your hands. Once he understands that you weren't joking, he laughs as well before adding.

" Why ? Because you were my princess in shining armor ?"

You smile up at him and gently caress his scarred cheek. He instantly closes his eyes and melts into the soft gesture before pressing his own hand against yours.

" Always, Remus. No matter if you are a werewolf, a man or a beast..It doesn't mean that my heart stopped belonging to you. Leaving was the most painful decision I ever took."

Remus opens his glassy eyes and tears start rolling down his cheeks.

" Then, why did you leave me ?"

You feel your heart tighten in your chest and take a step back, digging the tip your fingernails in the palms of your hands to prevent you from telling him the true reason.

" I'm sorry, Remus. I think it is better that I don't stay close to you..It may be dangerous."

He frowns in incomprehension before asking, his voice trembling with sorrow.

" For you ?"

You would have laughed at the question if it wasn't for the emotional is which he asked it. You turn around and shake your head again.

" No. For you, Remus. There are things I had to sacrifice to be here today. Things that I may never get back. Become attach to me, and you'll suffer.."

He frowns in confusion, but before he could take your hand, you walk away. As soon as you are in your room, you sigh loudly and start sobbing. You knew it would be painful, but still..Suddenly, hands wrap themselves around you and you lean in, knowing perfectly who it is.

" Are you sure that it was a good idea to come ?"

Severus asks and you can only wipe your tears and try to breathe better as he holds you even tighter.

" No..But it was necessary. We both have someone we want to protect. I saw Lily's child, he looks like her."

He nods, but prevents you from turning around to face him. When you finally succeed in turning around, you see that he was crying, and an empty bottle of firewhisky was on the carpet.

" Oh Severus.."

You moan in sadness at the sight of him in such a state. He is drunk and can barely look at you in the eye.

" It isn't fair. I know why you left..but it is still not fair."

You bat your eyes heavily, as to not cry in front of him and agree.

" I know, it wasn't fair..But, it's what had to be done. I couldn't stay, Sev'. I had to do something."

He sits down on a nearby chair, not having enough force to stay up and supports his head with his hand to look at you.

" And ? Did you ?"

You smile and nod.

" I did. It won't bring back Lily or James..But it will save others."

You decide to finally show him and take out the thing you had been searching for all these years: the time turner. His eyes widen significantly and he looks at the object for several minutes before standing up again and observing it more closely.

" Incredible. I thought that there was only one in the World.."

" Two. This one is a prototype, and it would break if even one alteration to the time-line was to happen."

His breath quickens as he touches the object and weighs it in his hand, as if to check that it is real. Once he is completely convinced, he frowns and asks in a trembling voice.

" W..Why didn't you use it to rescue her ?"

You don't need the name to understand who he is referring to and you shake your head.

" I'm sorry, Severus..But, Lily is too important. She is the mother of Harry and without her death, the Dark Lord will never be defeated."

He groans in pain as his dizzy mind starts spinning around and he has to seat again in order not to fall. You sigh and take a blanket to cover him.

" You can sleep here tonight..Just, sober up."

Once his eyes close, you take a shaky breath before looking at the time turner in your hand..If he only knew what you know, he would understand that you had no choice. Too many deaths haven't occurred yet. Deaths that you could prevent. You lay on your bed and sleep quickly takes over you. When you wake up, Severus us gone and replaced by a neatly folded blanket. You sigh before standing up. However, you can see that it is still dark outside and have a sudden strange feeling that something isn't right. You grab your wand and get out to see Severus' cape disappearing at a corner. You decide to follow him and get outside, near the Whomping Willow. You eyes widen as you understand in which moment in time you were..Pettigrew. It doesn't take you long to know what you are supposed to do. You dive under it and succeed in entering the secret passage which leads to the most important episode of Harry's life. You enter the room just in time to see Sirius about to denounce the treachery of your long lost friend: Peter Pettigrew. You also see Severus with his wand withdrawn, about to attack Sirius. You quickly get out your own and disarm him. He looks at you with surprise and betrayal.

" Why ?!"

He shouts and you answer with a sad smile.

" Because I believe in second chances.."

He grits his teeths and shakes his head in disapproval.

" There are no second chances.."

Severus is about to grab his wand again when Remus uses his wand to throw him away. You look at Remus that seems caught up in the situation but then, you see him look up and stare at the full moon..You know what is to come. You could stop Pettigrew now, or try to save the love of your life. You walk towards Remus confidently while Sirius is trying to calm him down the best he can. You put a hand on his face and force him to look you in the eye.

" Remus, I know you can hear me. I'm here. And I'm not giving up on you. So, don't you dare give up on yourself..You are a teacher at Hogwarts. The best teacher. You taught me to never give up, to always see the bright side and now, I need you to find that bright side in yourself and keep holding on to it. Do not look at the moon. Look at me."

He seems to hesitate for a moment, but finally, his eyes get back to their usual color and you take him in your arms, not wanting him to fall on the floor. Pettigrew is long gone by now, but you are glad to have at least helped Remus control himself. At least, he will remain a teacher..You smile and then, Sirius puts something in your hand, the marauders map. You look up at him with confusion, but he doesn't explain. He takes your place and carries him towards the castle while you tell Hermione and Harry to go in the forest, follow their destiny. They don't seem to understand, but you trust them enough to know that they'll do the right thing..You leave them go ahead and use the Time Turner, knowing exactly where you are supposed to go now. It is time..

You appear at the battle of Hogwarts and look around for Greyback that you see following Remus in the castle. You only have a few seconds to think about what to do and finally decide to follow them. Greyback has Remus cornered and you put yourself in front of him defensively. You yell a protection spell while pointing your hand out towards him.

" Protego Totalum !"

You then run towards Greyback at full speed and make him fall headfirst against the wall that collapses with both of your weight. But just as you are about to fall to your death, Remus, that had been fast enough to get out of the way, grabs your arm and shouts.

" Hold on !"

You look up and smile at him before taking the Time Turner in your hand.

" Don't worry..I've got it covered.."

You then look up again with tears in your eyes. The Time Turner is broken, but he doesn't know that..You had altered greatly the time-line, it wouldn't work.

" Remus ! Before I go, I want you to promise something to me !"

He nods, his eyes looking down at you for a moment and you smile with tears in your eyes.

" Promise me that, no matter what, you and Tonks will live ! I want you to be happy, Remus..Enjoy the second chance I have given you. I love you, Remus."

He frowns at that last part but, before he could answer, you let go of his hand and fall, the broken Time Turner clutched in your hand. You know that it was meant to work only once, that any shift in the time-line would break it..A life for a life. You think of Ted, his child that would see him again. You think of Tonks, she would die without him. And finally, you think of Remus..You look up at him one last time and smile genuinely at him.

" Nooooo !"

He cries out when you let go of his hand and fall to your demise. However, someone stops you from falling to your death. You open your eyes and see Severus with his wand withdrawn. You smile gratefully at him and he smiles back. But, you don't have the time to warn him as you see Nagini crawling behind him. He grimaces in pain as the giant snake bites his ankle.

" Severus! No!"

You run towards and catch him as he collapses. You cradle his face in your arms and gently remove the hair from his face to look him in the eye.

" You fool! Why did you do it?!"

He takes your hand in his and smiles while giving you his reason.

" I couldn't lose you..like I lost Lily. At least, this time, I wasn't too late.."

You can't help but smile tenderly at him and kiss his forehead.

" No..You weren't."

You then see Harry running towards you and you feel your heart sink, knowing that he needs a tear from Severus..his last tear. You start sobbing while tightening your hold on his body, even after his last breath left his body. Remus is by your side and puts his hand on your shoulder.

" He's gone..Come on."

You look up at him and, to your surprise, see that he was crying too.

" T..Tonks ?"

You ask and he shakes his head negatively, adding to your pain as you look back at Severus.

" I..I thought things would be different."

Remus kneels down beside you and closes Severus' eyes significantly, a sign of respect and sorrow.

" He was a great man..Better than many of us."

You nod in agreement before replying sincerely.

" So was Tonks. I'm sorry for your loss."

You look at each other and instinctively throw yourselves in each other's arms. There are so many things left unsaid, but for now, you would comfort each other the best you can.

A few weeks after :

You are about to get on the train, ready to leave this damned school and all of its miseries behind when you hear someone running after you. You turn around to see a panting Remus.

" Is it true ? You love me ?"

He asks and you wait for him to get his breath back before answering truthfully.

" I do."

He stares at you for a second before straightening himself and looking at everything but you. He rubs the back of his neck nervously before asking you.

" I..I was actually going back to the muggle world to take care of Ted. I have no experience whatsoever at being a parent but, I guess that if I had someone with me..It would be easier. I mean..If you want to ?"

You freeze for a moment, wondering if you had heard him right. But, once you are sure you didn't imagine him asking you to stay with him, you smile and take his hand.

" I guess that there are worst ends than this. Very well. Lead the way, Remus."

He only chuckles before going inside with you. However, just when the train start, he leans in and kisses you. Before you can reciprocate, he takes a step back, blaming it on the abrupt movement of the train. But, the small smile he gives you while walking ahead makes you think otherwise. You finally smile too before taking your suitcase and following him.

" Looks like you were wrong Sev', everyone can have a second chance.."

This was a request from @remusbabyvampire. Hope you like it. 😁

#remus x you #remus x reader #remus lupin #severus snape #imagine #fanfic #fandoms #harry potter and the prisioner of azkaban

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