#social anxiety tag

[selectivechaos]

people see me in public as a really anxious person, and somehow think it is a sort of performance. like i am Pretending to be anxious and mute.

they either think i am trying to:

long post ⚠️

🌹 get attention

(aka: i’m having a panic attack, but it’s just a funny melodramatic performance to you, huh)

🌹 be cute

(there’s so much fucked up about thinking this.

1) anxiety hurts me; it doesn’t make me act cute; it makes me act Scared.

2) sometimes my social anxiety makes me act in ways i think are likeable/cute, or in ways i will be judged for the least. yet it doesn’t make me personable, and i just think that anything done out of fear shouldn’t be seen as an asset the individual has/aims to have.

🌹 deceive you that i can’t speak.

those who don’t see disability as something that varies situationally.

“you were speaking to me when it was just us!”. well yeah, congrats, that’s how situational mutism works.

another note: there is a focus by ableists on the idea of disability being faked,

and trying to reveal or uncover that someone Actually Can do something.

and this is represented in internalised ableism by the idea that disability has to be an Absolute Can’t,

as opposed to a ‘can-but-where’s-the-energy’ or a ‘can-but-need-support-to’.

the second a wheelchair user moves their legs, or is imagined to have moved their legs, the ableist points it out.

the second i make a sound or am imagined to make a sound, the ableist points it out.

the second a depressed person is happy,

an anxious person calm,

an insomniac gets a bit more sleep,

and all we ever hear is: “see! maybe it wasn’t that bad. when you really put your mind to it, you’d be able to speak to them.”

#long post #selective mutism #situational mutism #social anxitey #fuck ableists #ableism tw #mentalheathawareness #actually mentally ill #social anxiety disorder #social anxiety tag #sm tag

[lost-in-derry]

Reblog if it’s ok for your mutuals to tag you in posts they think you’ll like even if you don’t talk often.

#I always have the urge to tag people and then my social anxiety is like #no #you’re bothering them #mutuals #my post

[rottingbxy]

i'm afraid of school ｡ i'm afraid of the internet ｡ i fear everything and everyone · i can't stop thinking about how people perceive me ｡ i CAN'T not care about those things ｡ is ending me · i don't know what to do …

#✦ 🗝️ | eden chats | #social anxiety tag #social anxiety #socially anxious #anxiety disorder #anxiety #SAD #social anxiety disorder #bullying trauma #actually bullied #childhood trauma

[critter-covenant]

BOOM frowning critters yuri be upon ye

Catfeine and Dogpressed by @/eggritos!! :D

#The brainrot for these two I have is BAD sorry If I'm a little abnormal about them #They rotate around the forefront of my brain at 400 mph at a 43 degree angle everyday they are so everything to me heart emohjidhfslfj #catfeine and dogpressed created by eggritos! They're here on tumblr and on twitter!(more active on latter) #Not tagging them because I am evil and devious (social anxiety frowns) insert evil laugh heree #catfeine #dogpressed #poppy playtime chapter 3 #smiling critters #poppy playtime #frowning critters au #frowning critters #smiling critters au #Trope where they both accidentally fluster each other all the time without noticing and without even trying #the gay panic is continuous! AND mutual! #they're so silly to me augahuhuahfakjf #cough anyways

[eggcromancer]

Last Line Challenge

Rules:

In a new post, show the last line you wrote (or drew) and tag as many people as there are words (or however many as you like).

Tagged by @starriegalaxy Thanks jestie!! It's my first time doing a challenge, I'm excited! ✨

Last Line: "It was an accident" <- from the @daycarefriendpickup magma sesh! Sun may or may not have lost control and y/n may or may not be bleeding out as a result (oops...)

Last Art: I've roughly 20+ sketches ongoing and 0 motivation to complete any of them so take all these wips! HYAHHHH!! 💫💥

Agent Dusk from @lavenoon's amazing Accidentally Undercover AU 💕:

Colour studies on Agent Dawn (same AU as Dusk) and the most mentally sound™ Sun:

More scribbles....

And ..... this.... (why did I draw this)

This is an open invite for anyone to do the challenge! (because I'm have crippling social anxiety and I don't want to be imposing ajdhska) If you are looking for a sign to do the challenge, this is it!! Time to get to it!!! 👉👉 (Or don't! I'm not the boss of you!)

#One day... I'll beat my social anxiety *clenches fist while a single tear runs down my face* #Some of these wips will never see the light of day again :'D #But the I'll defo finish the Accidentally Undercover wips!! #Agents Dusk and Dawn have my brain in a chokehold.... #fnaf security breach #fnaf sb #dca fandom #moondrop x reader #sunnydrop x reader #my art #tag game #last line challenge

[invisible-brandy]

i mean that picture is literally them

ref under the cut

#thank you zee manchesterau and bethanie danrifics for inspiration #yeah im listing yalls usernames as if they're last names lmao #also im not tagging either of you because. i dont want to bother you even tho logically you're gonna be excited bc art but like #social anxiety babeey #anyway #i need to stop looking at it before i stop liking it #dan and phil #phanart #phan #dnp fanart #dnp #phil lester #dan howell #hdgh.jpg

[feralboo-the-weirdo]

You know what is just mind boggling? Neurotypical people exist. Like there are people who can just DO things and not have depression, anxiety (in every form ever), RSD, sensory overloads, and not get overwhelmed. Like there are people who can work for eight hours every day and still do things after. People who can make phone calls with no struggle. Who aren't constantly bombarded by a cacophony of thoughts both good and bad when they do things. Who have anxiety but it isn't crippling. who can spend hours, WEEKS with people and not get tired or fear that everyone there hates you. People who have no idea what Depression or intense trauma feel like. People who hear instructions and do it right first go. People who can follow a conversation without zoning out, or having to mask.

Like. Do neurotypical people actually exist?

Because I can't even imagine what it would be like to be neurotypical. Or mentally healthy. Both sound alien and foren. But like. Obviously they exist because neurodivergent people wouldn't struggle so much if not for how the world was structured for Neurotypical people but I don't know if I've ever met a neurotypical.

idk. food for thought I guess.

#neurodiverse stuff #adhd problems #childhood trauma #adhd #high functioning depression #trauma #highly sensitive people #depersonalization #toxic family #emotional abuse #neurodiversity #neurotypical #social anxiety #social issues #random thoughts #random post #idk how to tag this #relatable #rsd #adhd rsd #neurodivergent #adhd stuff #neurodivergence

[carpathiians]

sketches

ref

#rdr2 #rdr2 fanart #javier escuella #john marston #jovier #uhhh its implied i guess #im working on other stuff but ill leave this here in the meantime #sorry for only ever drawing these two im not normal about them #thank my social anxiety for not letting me act crazy on here bc otherwise id be so annoying 🙏 #ive been taking it all out on my notes app it looks fucking BAD in there #anyway #john is so hard to draw I hate him and his stupid giant eyes </3 #gotta get better at drawing then both tbh #thats why its taking me so long to post #I keep drawing shit and then deleting it #ok weird rant over if anyone reads my tags im sorry #my art

[apotelesmaa]

I don’t think ppl give enough credit to rui for his dedication to fucking with people (outside of tsukasa of course) like. Knowing & acknowledging that nene wants nothing to do with him and Tsukasa on her first day of second year and deliberately following tsukasa to loudly ask if she’s getting along with people (just to be a jackass)? Implying his gift to akito will explode even though it won’t bc he wants to bug akito? Like I think rui at his core is full of love and a desire to make ppl smile but I also think he’s 200% committed to the bit first and foremost. If something will be funny he’s going to do it regardless of the consequences. Guy filled with zero social anxiety & a never ending desire to embarrass his friends.

#‘he’s insecure’ is very fanon. like I think he has hang ups over that obviously as one does when one is excluded from their peers for being #odd. but he’s never had that issue w the general public. w friends? a little. but he’s kinda moved past that #gestures towards the Halloween wxs story and (heavy sigh) rmd. #project sekai #in general I will die on the hill of rui and Tsukasa having so much more self assurance and confidence than ppl give them credit for #if u want a fail girl nene is right there. open ur eyes. #consequences of ppl only viewing him thru a shipping lense… #*nene* is socially anxious #rui canonically trespassed on ppls property to put on solo shows for several years. #i could go on a rant abt tsukasa & the portrayal of him w social anxiety despite the ample evidence against it but I don’t feel like doing #it in the tags bc it is entirely unrelated. rui and Tsukasa (handshake emoji) horrifically misrepresented by fanon. #2 end on a more positive note: everyone think abt the comic where rui is perfectly capable of understanding emu #and he has the ‘all perfect’ text after comprehending her fascinating vocabulary. beautiful. perfect wxs relationship moment. #read curtain call again. & the other rui focuses. main story in general. etc.

[craycraybluejay]

apparently it is morally wrong to have a crush/sexual feelings for anyone in general. Like. the whole 'dont sexualize literal people ewwww.' i really really wish less teens were on the internet because of this kind of stuff. we are mass-producing mental illness and i am not kidding.

like imagine being 15, having a crush on someone in your class, going on the internet, and being bombarded with all sorts of people saying its wrong to experience sexual thoughts towards people in your peer group. its wrong for adults to have sexual thoughts about other adults. its even more wrong for you, a teen, to have sexual thoughts about your classmates.

you are 16 now and very lucky to be in therapy with a well off enough family. you confess to your therapist how evil you are for wanting to touch or look at that one girl in your class. she looks at you with confusion, like how your mother looks at you when you ask her why you have a computer and your friend doesn't. why is it fair. everyone's confused about you and you are confused too. you're evil, you must be, because you have dirty disgusting feelings. you deserve to be mocked online, says dogluvr15089. you're an evil monster, says @Official Priest of West California. you're a pervert and sexual predator, says fandom_m0m321. they have stupid names and no faces-- but if all of them are saying it then it must have some truth to it, right? your therapist is saying something but you don't hear her, you're in your head wondering if you should punish yourself, how you should punish yourself. when you're back in the room with her you ask her what's wrong with you. she writes you a diagnosis for ocd and anxiety. you take the drugs, like the good, righteous, pure teenager you want to be. they make you feel weirdly empty, and not very hungry, and kinda sleepy. they might give you dementia in your 50s but who cares. you deserve it for being gross. you look through the comments even on other people's stuff, the comments telling them the same thing you were told. you're still punishing yourself for natural feelings-- seeking out the same degrading bullying when you don't get enough of it. you don't tell your therapist you are doing this; because you know she would tell you to stop and you don't want to stop. it's a compulsion. you talked about those last Tuesday.

you're 17. you haven't asked anyone out. by some miracle, a girl who likes you takes the initiative. you stumble through the date awkwardly and anxiously, trying not to touch her, flinching away when your fingers brush over a cheap burger. she asks if you're okay, and then asks, "don't you like me?" She asks, "why do you look like you're scared of me or something?" You stay silent. But then when it happens again, she gets up to leave and the rejection causes the dam to break. You try not to cry, because that's Emotional Manipulation. You choose your words carefully, because you don't want to accidentally Gaslight her like the evil thing you are. You stumble through it but you tell her you're sorry, you tell her you've never had the chance to date. You tell her, shaking like a leaf, like a dumb idiot, that you really really like her and she's very pretty and you're scared to say Hot or Sexy so you don't. And you tell her you're scared. You're really scared she'll see you're a bad person and leave you for someone more pure and good. You try really hard to phrase it like a PR team would. She tells you that's ridiculous, laughing like sunshine and kisses and god, sex. But most of all you've never heard someone so flippantly tell you how ridiculous of a notion that is. She makes you feel brave. You tell her what people have been telling you, scared that you're Trauma Bonding her but pushing through. She, with more surprise, again tells you it's ridiculous. She's not laughing anymore, but you want to make her laugh. You ask with a voice too small for your age if its okay you think her laugh is really sexy. She smiles so brightly its blinding, and says she thinks you're sexy too. You hold hands when you leave together. You go on more dates later, and the two of you talk about your problems and your dreams. And she shows you how to yell at "internet dumbasses." And you still go to therapy except this time you think it's working, because this time you Get It. You get it's ridiculous, and you're happy enough to try to heal.

And you know what? You're one of the lucky few that got that chance. Many teens struggle with mental health problems due to the internet. Not all of them are caused by this purity bullshit. Some of it is body image-- accounts that encourage eating disorders and low self-esteem. Some of it is trends and feeling lonely and unlikeable. Social media doesn't just excaberate mental illness. Sometimes it really and truly produces it and this fact needs more awareness.

#christian country #usamericans #purity culture #puritanism #mental illness #teen mental health #my teen years were ROUGH but not like this man #therapy #moral ocd #ocd #anxiety #mild antipsych commentary #mental health #social media #anti conservative #anti purity culture #narrative #writers on tumblr #ask to tag #writerblr #the kids are not alright #dating #crushes #feelings are normal #internet problems #internet culture #psa #rambles #buzzwords #misused mental health terminology

[selectivechaos]

things i didn’t consider that take energy:

- anxiety disorders take a lot, a lot, a lot of energy. constant fear and hypervigilance. muscles preparing to fight or flight. sometimes my whole legs would shake and go weak after a scary situation like an interview or conversation with an authority figure.

- social anxiety disorder takes a lot of energy. constantly evaluating how you think others perceive you and how likely it is that they will laugh at or humiliate you. adjusting clothing, hair, eating habits, sounds and words, in order to meet perceived expectations or avoid anticipated judgement.

- selective mutism takes a lot of energy. constant evaluation of how likely that person you’re afraid of is going to ask you a question. the fear build-up in the time before your turn to speak in the meeting. routinely going into these environments like school and work where you know you will be mute and anxious; and the mental energy it takes to put yourself through that. constant consideration of who you’ve spoken to and whether they know you speak or not.

- dysphoria takes a lot of energy. unsafe binding doesn’t just cause pain but also significantly reduces the amount of oxygen getting into your body. it can make you tired and out of breath. adjusting clothes and all the things you have to do before you leave the house, or even just leave your room.

- depression takes a lot of energy. the mental burden of constantly dealing with thoughts that attack you from inside your own brain. and the fact that everything is ten times harder when you do it depressed, is exhausting.

- ptsd takes a lot of energy. flashbacks are exhausting, hypervigilance is exhausting, sleepless nights and nightmares are exhausting.

🌹 be gentle with yourself when you’re tired. it’s okay to be frustrated at having to make adjustments and do less because of fatigue. 🌹

#selective mutism #social anxiety disorder #actually mentally ill #social anxiety tag #sm tag #anxiety fatigue #depression

[idiotictammi]

Merry Christmas!!

It’s finally done :D

Never posted anything on this website before lol, but thanks to @starryluminary for letting me join the noco sleepytime collab. (Cause now I have a reason to mwhahaha)

#td noah #td cody #td noco #noco sleepy time collab #bad at tags #noco #noah x cody #my social anxiety was at a all time high lol #Haven’t posted my art since 2020 and that was on amino (never going back there again) #first post

[tokyoteddywolf]

Psychic/Ghost buddies :D

Obsidian "Sidia" belongs to me and my Obsidian Mew AU

Pigment belongs to @xxtc-96xx

I really love Pigment and their shenanigans, easily my fave character :3

Also I haven't drawn fanart in forever so uh, here ya go, hope ya like it :)

Transparent vers under the cut!

#pokemon #mew #mewtwo #the obsidian mew au #fanart #anything with sidia in it i usually tag with the au's tag #my art #when ur supposed to work on your comic and instead get sidetracked- #also tiny shoutout to Jay for encouraging me about this bc social anxiety go brr

[shittyakechiweekly]

me doing an art presentation to a bunch of teenagers: so here's all these cool jobs that exists that no one tells you about! look at all this shit you can do! also i compiled a 3 page list of resources for you on art careers, portfolios, and so on! i spent weeks on this earnestly trying to get people into art because people are heavily discouraged from working in this field!!!

the teenagers, eyes void of life from either fatigue or boredom: . . .

me: . . pl-please don't hate me

#me and my social anxiety werent made for this #i got some participation in my second run of the presentation #which is nice #but for the most part it was dead silence and blank-stares #sorry for the ventish post yall #anyways idk what to tag this as #not akechi

[cheatsykoopa98]

how do you cope with being the most annoying human being in the world?

I hate being socially anxious

#vent #sorry I forgot to tag stuff #like #its so weird #I feel so unwanted #I guess I saw a post from someone that triggered some memories #like every time I join a server or a group nobody ever talks to me #even when I post stuff there #but when its other people they always talk to each other #why dont they just kick me out already? #social anxiety #I guess

[verave-evare]

i hate it

#langblr #language learning #japanese langblr #<- tagging bc it’s my target language #i hate it bc i need to talk to people to actually learn it and i *want* to converse in it #but when someone speaks to me my mind goes blank and i can’t process what they said despite recognizing it #and then i don’t respond (at least not in japanese) due to my social anxiety