i have apparently never learned how to be interested in people normally. For most of my life this was solved by just accepting the people who approached me first because if they did that they'd inevitably be more ok when I just wanted to know them but do that in a normal manner
like I'm terrible at details, but I'll write you a poem because you're my friend and that means something, I don't know your birthdate, I've changed my vocabulary because some words I've noticed are triggers for you, I have no clue what hair color you have, they are afraid they'll never actually know love because of their father, I love you more than I know how to put into words, I will never tell you out loud, I'm going to be painfully aware of the spaces left between us when we sit on the couch, we don't touch, I don't know how to hug my friends like that, I just want to know you, I don't want you to know I'm observing you, I want you to like my company so much, I don't want you to need me
and that's all just so much, that's so much when most people go through life only hitting that level with one or two people but that's the only level I ever want to hit with people, you matter to me or you don't, I have so little time in my day and so much to learn about the people I care about, why would I waste any of that potential talking about the basics of the weather and other nothing's with someone
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Tumblr is for people who have tasted love and crave love. It’s a chat room for the broken hearted. Where we share photos that sum up the feelings from when we were happy, and where we find the words for the moments we had none.
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It’s “OFF WITH THEIR HEADS” season
But I’m not painting the roses red
There has to be a penalty for perpetual treason
“Retreat”, I said to myself, “leave the roses white”
The Queen of Hearts is tired of the bloodshed
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A little too much by ???
I think I fall in love with people,
a little too much,
just in the way they sound at 4am
or how they look when they smile.
And it's so addicting,
when their eyes light up,
because you've remembered something
they may have said.
But I can't help it
because I see all that you are,
when you don't really see it yourself.
And sometimes I wonder how someone's heart,
grows so cold,
and I think, that maybe it's because
for a while, it was left out in the rain.
You know somedays I struggle,
when there's nothing left to say.
because I still don't know how to convince you,
that out of everyone,
and all the ones that leave
I'm always the one still standing there,
with an umbrella,
just big enough,
to cover your heart.
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its 4/20 please take some time to remember everyone that has died / been incarcerated / lost any chance at a normal life for your right to smoke ur fuckin mids.
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Annabeth is so much stronger then me I'm just saying if my mum got pissed and punished me for something my field trip partner did after i was nothing but the perfect child for the last 5 years meanwhile the guy who actually did the thing got nothing but praise from his dad yeah no Luke wouldn't even have time to ask me if I wanted to fight against the gods I'd already be starting my own revolution
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