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#i’ve been trying to squeeze in some fic-writing but i’m struggling
bumblebeehug · 8 months
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i feel like i’ve been really inactive here :( not posting as much fairy tail stuff, just reblogging… i’m actually not feeling very interested in the whole fairy tail thing currently, i’ve been wanting to rewatch the anime but time and interest has never overlapped. so i guess i’ll still be up to date with the hyq and some nalu fics and other things in the nalu tag but i’m struggling to feel fired up, for lack of better words, so i’ll probably continue to lay low in the fandom for a while.
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feyhunter78 · 2 months
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I just found your page and I totally didn’t read all of your Miguel O’Hara fics. One I love how you write kissing you caught that spark off a kiss with someone you love in a way most books don’t get right.
I can’t sit here and sing your praise all day but I do have a question. Fully up to you and if it’s just a Drabble that ok but will you ever being writing something else for Side walk kisses? It’s so cute and I can see more moments with Miguel and Y/N just being silly cute mindless college students so helplessly in love. Fluff smut angst whatever you decide to Drabble in I will be fully ok with
(This is the first time I’ve done an ask so sorry I I seem a little over excited)
AHHH I love when I'm people's first asks, it always makes me feel so special!!! I thought I'd try my hand at a bit of angst for you anon!
Insecurities
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You know you shouldn’t be jealous. Shouldn’t feel bad about yourself, shouldn’t be debating making up some excuse and dashing off to the humanities building to rid yourself of this pit in your stomach like a snake sheds its skin.
But that would require leaving Miguel alone with Xina, and you think you’d rather die than do that. So, you’re stuck in the courtyard right outside the library, holding onto Miguel’s bicep possessively as you struggle to keep up with the flow of conversation.
Now you wouldn’t say you’re an insecure person, sure you have your insecurities like everyone else, but they don’t plague your mind, or weigh heavily on you as you go about your day-to-day business. Right now, though? As you take in Xina, her long thick dark hair, her stunning almond eyes that sparkle with intelligence, the flawlessness of her skin, the way she so easily keeps up with Miguel as they discuss the intersection between genetics and robotics, you’re feeling pretty insecure.
“That’s exactly what I was thinking, when making your calculations you have to factor in the deficiencies in the code, just as you have to factor in potential genetic flaws.” Xina says, a smile tugging at the edge of her lips, excitement clear on her face.
“Of course, with genetics it’s harder to eradicate flaws than in code, but I could see it following a similar pattern.” Miguel responds, nodding at her words.
You’re so lost. If they wanted to discuss the intricacies of the English language or the way philosophers can so heavily affect the development of a nation’s culture you would be there, front row and ready, but science? Science is not your forte.
Xina laughs and smacks Miguel’s arm, pulling you out of your thoughts, Miguel is laughing too so you do the same which draws her attention to you.
“Oh, y/n, I’m so sorry, we’ve been so rude, what do you think?” She asks, and you can’t tell if she’s genuinely curious, or just hates you.
You stumble for a moment, then say, “I agree with Miguel.”
She laughs again. “You think Charles Darwin would be a good computer programmer?”
Miguel joins in, and for the first time ever his laughter sounds sour to your ears.
“Oh, um, no, I just—”
Xina smiles sympathetically at you, but it feels a bit patronizing. “It’s okay, not everyone can keep up with us.”
Okay, maybe running and hiding was a good idea.
“Y/N is actually top of her sorority for GPA, she’s read more books than anyone else I know, and she helps me write all my lab reports.” Miguel jumps in.
“That’s so cute.” Xina coos, looking at you as if you were a kindergartener presenting her with a crayon scribbled drawing.
You give her a tight smile, then squeeze Miguel’s bicep. “Hey, I’m gonna head to class, but I’ll see you later?”
He nods, and lets you go, reabsorbed in his conversation with Xina.
You toy with the bracelet Miguel got you as you sit at your desk, waiting for class to start. It’s a pretty thing, a birthday present, simple and elegant, highlighting your birthstone, the words, mi dulce, engraved on the inside in a small, flowy script. It jingles pleasantly as you mess with it, and glints under the florescent lights.
“The professor isn’t here yet, right?” Kelsey slides into her desk next to you and starts unpacking her bag.
“No, he’s running a little late.” You say, absentmindedly shading one corner of the blank page in your notebook with your pencil.
“Okay, good because I have something kinda fucked up to show you.” She says, pulling out her phone and scrolling until she finds what she’s looking for.
You lean towards her, the thought of gossip perking you up a bit.
“So, you know that Ava girl, the bitch who used to date your man?”
“I wish I didn’t, but yes.” You grumble, feeling that familiar gloom settle back over you.
“Okay well she’s been trying to get with this Kappa Sig, and you know how the brothers are like obsessed with me because my brother is their president and an absolute legend as they always remind me.”
“Yeah, it’s the reason we got into their parties freshman year.”
Kelsey’s brother was a decent guy, all things considered. Older than you two by a year or so, with the charisma of a cult leader but lacking the desire to start a cult. Throughly satisfied with his fraternity and the Fortune 500 company he’ll go on to work at once he graduates. He was nice enough, extending his protection to you and anyone else close to his sister while in the Kappa Sig house.
“So, one of them texted me about her trying to sleep her way through the frat, but then, my brother sent me this video. I gotta warn you, it’s not school appropriate.” She says as she slowly turns the screen towards you.
At first, you recoil. It’s Ava, half naked, and some guy, on a bed that looks vaguely familiar. The guy’s face is out of the frame, but he’s shirtless, his pants pushed down exposing his dick to the camera, Ava’s hand wrapped around it pumping furiously. “Um, what the fuck is this?”
“Just wait.” Kelsey says quietly, glancing around the room to make sure no one else is watching. They’re not, they’re too busy with their own phones or side conversations.
You half watch the video, feeling weird about watching, your idea of a good time isn’t watching your boyfriend’s psycho ex jack some guy off.
The guy finishes, his hips bucking and Ava saying something you can’t hear since Kelsey’s sound is off.
The camera shakes as Ava picks it up and shows off the face of the man. Dark hair, glazed brown eyes with hints of crimson, perfectly formed lips parted. You know that face, but you don’t want to accept it.
“Is that Miguel?” You’re horrified, sick to your stomach, head spinning, every unpleasant feeling and sensation you could feel erupting all at once.
You can see Ava go to grab his face, guide him lower, moving to take off her underwear, and you turn your head, unable to watch any longer.
“I’m sorry, I don’t know when it was filmed, but Darren said he had one of the brothers send it to him yesterday then made all of them delete the video from their phones. He knows Miguel’s your boyfriend, said he was just looking out for you.” Kelsey puts away her phone and looks at you, eyes searching your face, before giving you a one-armed hug. “I’m so sorry y/n, I can ask him to see if he can find out when it was filmed?”
You want to cry, you really, really want to cry. “It looks recent, that’s Miguel’s bed, I’ve been there, I’ve slept on that bed, I—I can’t think about this right now. Thank you for telling me, and tell your brother I said thanks too.”
Kelsey nods and squeezes you tighter before letting go and giving you a sad smile.
The professor finally shows up, and you throw yourself into your notetaking, graphite digging into the pristine white paper as you try to drown out the images in your head with the sound of your professor droning on.
Part 2 here!!!
TL: @bat-bae, @nyctophilic0vitnir, @smokeywhalee, @obi-mom-kenobi, @prowlingforfood, @penggion, @crystal-crax, @oharasfilipinawife, @generalkenobitrash, @melsimps, @chrishy973, @farrowroyale, @palesatan, @scaryplanetdestroyer, @denzmallows, @36namey, @scoobysnakz, @ihateuguys, @idkbros-world @smartyren, @deputy-videogamer, @blackrose8425, @amberpanda99, @marshhbs, @queerponcho
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thatdesklamp · 2 months
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Hello, and (for the moment) ‘see you in a while’ from old desklamp.
(Quick edit now I’ve written this all out: Oh, lordie—I’ve just realised that this sounds like I’m announcing I’m giving up on IW. I’m not! I promise. This is all about how I’m trying to facilitate my writing process. IW is not being dropped: let’s get that out of the way first, lmao.)
Hello all! I’ve been doing some self-reflecting, and I’ve come up with this: I’ve struggled with writing ‘Intrinsic Warmth’ for a long time now.
Alll too often I’ve been sat with my laptop for hours having only managed to squeeze out one or two paragraphs that I don’t even like all that much anyway. I haven’t felt satisfied by writing for a long time, and so I just haven’t written anything. It’s been months since I’ve written something worth reading for IW, and I’ve been having a think as to why.
I think it comes down to two things; I’ve been feeling a lot of pressure in writing IW, and I’ve become too fixated on the instant gratification of feedback from you guys.
First: the pressure. IW has gotten bigger than I ever considered it would be, especially recently (as in, in the jjk season 2 era). The support and feedback continues to blow me away, and I’m staggered every time I stop to actually consider the magnitude of the response that IW has gotten. It’s genuinely crazy.
All that is to say: I wasn’t prepared for this!! I don’t mean that in any resentful way at all, I want to be clear. Moreso that it’s easy to feel a bit overwhelmed by it all. I know that, relative to other huge ao3 fics, IW isn’t even that huge. But I also recognise that in the ‘Gojo x reader scene’, it’s pretty up there, even if we’re just looking through a ‘filter by most kudos’-ed fic angle. There’s a been big response, and I’m just one person, lmao. But come on, I absolutely love it, and I’m so grateful that people have enjoyed the stuff I’m writing—but as more and more people have been picking it up I’ve felt a definite pressure put upon me. It’s a pressure to write well, and to write more, and to write good things more often. This isn’t to do with anything anyone’s said, don’t worry, but more as an expected consequence of IW picking up traction.
I feel more and more like a ‘popular author’, and feel like I’m doing you guys a disservice with my infrequent updates. I truly do appreciate the reassurance of ‘you can update whenever you want!’, genuinely, but I’m also an ao3 reader myself! I empathise with and understand the frustration that must be felt when I go months between updates. Writing has never come at the expense of my personal, academic or social life (hence why I’ve never tried to tie myself down with an update schedule: I’d never be able to keep to it), and I’d never want it to. I want to keep writing as it’s always been: one of my hobbies. But as IW increases in popularity, it feels like it almost *should* take priority over other things, and this has left me feeling pretty overwhelmed.
My second reason: I’ve also become a tad too dependent on feedback. When IW was in its fledgling stages, I didn’t show it to anyone at all, and was ‘writing for myself’ in the barest sense of the phrase. Only one of my irl friends has read any of it, and when I was first uploading it, when I had about 5ish comments per chapter, any feedback I was getting would always be secondary to my own. I was writing for myself, because I enjoyed writing and I enjoyed what I was writing about, and it just so happened that there were a few people who felt the same as me.
It’s very different now! And I much prefer it now—it’s every writer’s dream to have had such an overwhelmingly positive response to their writing. And now it gets to the point where I can check my emails, or look at my tumblr notifications, and there’ll always be new for me. And whilst I absolutely love this, it’s pretty addictive, checking again and again, seeing what people are saying. This positive response from others is more instantly gratifying than the slow, steady, personal enjoyment I get from writing.
It sounds silly, I know, but I’ve been writing this hunger games fic (completely spontaneous, likely never to be published), and no-one’s read it but me, and it’s reminded me how much I really do like writing. I’ve loved the process of writing it, because the only person whose opinion I’m listening to is my own.
I don’t want to discourage people from reaching out to me, leaving comments, even talking about IW, anything like that. That’s not what I mean. But this is me recognising that I should probably take a step back from the non-writing side of writing: being active on tumblr, constantly checking asks, making posts, etc. Know that whilst I may not immediately respond to you, once I get back in the swing of things over here, I will do. I just need to sort out my personal priorities a bit, I think.
Saying this, I know I haven’t been all that active recently (this has honestly been intentional: I’ve been trying to wean myself off it, lmao) but for the immediate future, I’m making that more definite: I’m going to try to revert my focus to writing. I’m going to stay off tumblr for a bit, until I’ve gotten back into the swing of writing and don’t find myself so focused on the feedback side of it all. Hopefully this’ll spark up some more genuine passion in me! Please know that if you’ve written an ao3 comment, I have read it. I don’t know when I will respond to them, but I definitely will, I just want to keep my focus on the personal side of writing for the moment.
Thank you to everyone! Again, this is just me going off the grid for a while: not a big fuckoff goodbye or anything. If this is unreasonably theatrical, blame my drama GCSE. Going off to do some writing now. See you guys!
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shawnxstyles · 1 year
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glory girl
warnings: no plot smut; praise kink, dirty talking, some edging/orgasm denial, and unprotected sex. ends in fluff :)
note: this is a blurb. i should be working on other fics, but i’m a little too obsessed with tom right now, so i needed to write something hot now!! BYE
soft dom!tom
tom’s lips brush the skin of your neck, soft and gentle like you were delicate. he flicks his hips deliberately slow, so you could feel each deep thrust thoroughly. you felt the ridges of veins along his cock rubbing against your walls blissfully. it was sensual and sweet, yet so, so dirty.
your neck strains from being tense, while you bite your lip to remain quiet. you were shy, even if you and tom lived alone and you knew no one else was listening.
“don’t get shy on me now,” tom whispers in your ear with a small pant. in a plank position, his muscular arms flexed with intensity each time he moved. he brushes a strand of hair from your perspired face to see you. “wanna hear those pretty noises.”
you whimpered, legs trembling as tom rocked back and forth into your soaking cunt. gushes of your wetness leaked around his cock, making him twitch and pulse inside of you; that picture alone could get him off. with you nearly withering underneath him, you were the most precious thing tom’s ever seen. your hair was fanned beautifully across your pillow, your nipples were pointy and hard, and your face of desire spurred him on.
“so pretty, my love,” tom massages your breast with subtle pinches while you quietly yelp. you moan sweetly, his words adding even more pleasure. tom knew you loved being praised, being admired. at first, it felt embarrassing to share, but tom loved complimenting you already, so he was excited when he discovered you really liked it.
plus, tom would do anything to make his girl happy and satisfied.
“t-tom,” you pant, the words struggling to leave your scratchy throat. your hands trail up the length of his arm, squeezing his tensing bicep, until they become laced in his brown curls. his calloused fingers circle your throbbing clit, the roughness scratching each nerve explicitly. you curse to the ceiling, stomach tightening as you feel your orgasm near.
tom rams into you impossibly deeper, lifting your leg to reach a new angle. you gasp at the new feeling as your nails grip snuggly on his locks. you were so close, just a little more and you would melt into him.
“tom, can i come? please, please,” you plead with a familiar lustful haze blurring your vision. you couldn’t hear anything besides tom’s words.
“no, you’re gonna hold it. i know you can, baby,” tom encourages with a grunt, hissing as you squeeze around him dangerously snug. if you keep doing that, he would come on the spot. he’s trying to make this last, but it never gets easier with you. you were his biggest weakness, yet you gave him immense strength. “be a good girl for me.”
your loud moan echoes in the air. you clutch hard against tom’s length, trying not to come without his word. his thumb and index finger rolls over your clit teasingly while his tip hits that spot inside of you that makes you scream. you yank his hair harshly, praying he would let you come already.
“please let me come! i’ve been good,” a whine escapes your mouth while your chest heaves in exhaustion. your desperate begging and your hands laced in his hair have him struggling to hold on himself. he moans into the cradle on your collarbone, resisting every urge telling him to blast his load into you right now.
“just a little longer, sweets. you’re gonna feel real good,” his mild pacing thrusts are agonizing because you’re right there and you can’t release it. your teeth sink deeply into your bottom lip and your back arches painfully off the mattress. “i’m fucking you nice and deep, aren’t i, honey?” tom’s eyes are dark with lust and hints of honey, and his cheeks were a tad rosy from the sexual heat in the room. he rubs over your stomach, feeling your muscles contracting to hold in your orgasm.
“oh, you’re so deep. can feel you in my tummy,” your eyes screw closed as your core tenses and you clench around him harshly. your spread legs shake desperately, unable to hold it any longer. “please!”
“let go for me, darling,” tom’s husky voice alerts you, and your body tumbles into that longing release. “look at me. i want to see your pretty face while you come on my cock.”
your foggy brain isn’t working enough to hide your echoey moans and whimpers. your face pinches with a scrunched nose as you try your best to keep your eyes wide for him. your nails scratch tom’s scalp as the euphoria washes over your body like a tidal wave. your heart beats sporadically in your chest at the overwhelming pleasure. hearing and seeing you unfold, tom’s movements become sloppy and slippery as your orgasm coats his shaft.
tom stares at you in all your glory, a moment of disbelief hitting him that you’re all his.
“fuck, baby. ’m gonna come. fill you up so full, you’ll be leaking with my cum,” tom groans, dick twitching as his balls tighten before his cum is shooting out of him. his moans are gravelly compared to your angelic ones, crisping the heated air around you with its masculine tone. his ecstasy occurs in flashes and heavy breaths.
tom makes sure each drop is tucked into your warm cunt, thrusting slowly to ensure it. you smile at the feeling of his orgasm coating your walls until you're full to the brim. clenching, you try your best to keep all of it inside of you.
“good girl. such a good fucking girl,” breathlessly, tom kisses your sweaty forehead while his heart floats in his chest. you smile wearily and run your hands through his damp curls as they stick to his hairline. “always so good to me.”
“i could say the same about you,” you grin with amusement. tom chuckles before kissing you sensually, making your eyes drift closed. your hands cup his soft, chiseled cheeks as everything in the world fades away.
when his mouth deattaches, yours is left aching for more as always. the tingle of his rouge lips lingers when he rolls over to your side and tosses the comforter over you both. he faces your backside and drags you close, securing an arm around your waist.
from the liberating blissfulness and the warmth of tom’s warmth, exhaustion haunts your body and a yawn arises from your throat. his cum threatens to drip out of you, even with closed thighs.
“tired, darling?” tom asks while caressing small circles on your torso. his subtle touch was addicting and comforting like a lullaby to a baby. you hum in response, eyes fluttering closed. your breathing and heart rate soon balance, and the tension within your muscles begin to ease.
you slip away into your dreams with one of them cradling you.
“i love you,” tom whispers to the sleepy girl in his arms. he kisses your shoulder delicately, encompassing the perfection of this moment. as his own eyes start to close, his breathing steadies comfortably. he doesn’t fall asleep until his heartbeat matches yours in perfect sync.
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giggly-squiggily · 11 months
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FRIEND! Could you imagine a four way tickle fight between Bachira, Kunigami, Isagi, and Chigiri?! Like a free for all! Like imagine the absolute chaos and humor. Team Z is highly amused because like who wouldn’t? The biggest menaces on the team going at it and not only are they the biggest menaces, but some of the most ticklish on the team as well. Like their amused, but know better than to intervene because faster than you could say “Blue Lock” they will get attacked by four mischievous and tickly pups.
The PUPS! Ugh, I can't get enough of them! They are so fun to write! I had to make this into a fic- I HAD TOO! It's been too long since these four had a full blown tickle fight (well-maybe not that long for them but for me writing it? It's been a hot minute) I've gotcha covered, friend!
CW: Swearing
Cloud 9 (Taglist): @myreygn
It was late into the evening when war began.
“AH! Bachira!” Isagi, who was halfway into his sweatshirt, spasmed at the feeling of fingers prodding his side. “Can you at least WAIT until I’m decent?”
“Huh?” Bachira looked at him curiously, tilting his head. “But I didn’t do anything.”
“I literally just felt you poke my side.” Isagi turned to glare, crossing his arms protectively over his torso. “Don’t lie.”
“I’m not, Isagirin!” Bachira hopped up, bouncing over with playful eyes. “If I poked your whittle ribs, it’s go like this! Poke, poke poke!” He sang as he jabbed Isagi multiple times in said spot, making the taller boy squeak and back up. “See? I’ve got a whole system!”
“Oohohkay, okay- so maybe it wasn’t you. But who..” Isagi turned to look around him, trying to find the culprit. Most of Team Z were either at dinner, showering or doing some sort of cool down post workout. Alongside them, Kunigami, Chigiri, Raichi and Gagamaru remained.
“Are you sure it wasn’t you? I think I’d know if someone el-eheheheehehahhaha!” Isagi squeaked, breaking into giggles once more when Bachira poked him again. “Stahhaap! Sthahhhap!” He caught his hands, glaring some. “Lemme find the culprit first!”
“Oo, so you’re saying I can tickle you after we find them?” Bachira’s eyes sparkled, grinning all teeth when Isagi blushed. “We better find them soon then!”
“Right…” Isagi turned back to the room, his eyes falling on Kunigami. He was closest, and seemed to be struggling to breathe. Upon further inspection, Isagi could see him fighting down a smile, puffing with laughter.
“You son of a- Come here!” Isagi charged, tackling the ginger from the side. At least- that was the plan, had Kunigami not been built like a mountain. The most he did was slightly nudge him. “Why are you poking me?”
“W-What? I’m not!” Kunigami blinked, his smile growing at Isagi’s glare. “I swear to god, I’m just sitting here!”
“Why are you laughing then, KuniKun?” Bachira rolled up fingers already poking towards the back of Kunigami’s ribs, making the hero arch with a ‘tch’. “What’s funny?”
“Yeah, tell us Kunigami!” Isagi was quick to join, worming a finger behind Kunigami’s armpit and watching the bigger boy start to crumble. “Why are you so smiley?”
“Ah! Ahehehe-D-Don’t! Pfft- I was juhuhuhst thihihinking about eahhhaherlier!” He snorted out, trying not to squirm too much. Every poke and tickle from these two was making it harder to do so. “I dihihihidn’t do ihiihiht!” 
“Uh-huh. Likely story. What’s your alibi?” Isagi questioned, going full tickle mode now as he dug his whole hand under Kunigami’s arm, making the bigger boy yelp and cackle. “Tell us!”
“Gonna tickle you until you dooooooo~” Bachira cooed, reaching around to get his belly. Kunigami was torn between doubling over and arching away, his laugh booming across the room like one of his mighty kicks. “He’s so ticklish!”
“Nohohoohoohoho! I diihihihihiihidn’t I swehhahahahhahhahar!” Kunigami cried, cheeks pink and eyes squeezed shut. Figuring he wasn’t getting out of this anytime soon, he jumped into action, grabbing Isagi and yanking him into his lap. “Bahahahhachira, geheheheht him!”
“No! No, Bahhahahachira, sahhahhhahahve mehehhhehehe!” Isagi cried as the hero’s fingers dug into his ribs, making him spasm and sink. “Hhhehehehehhelp!”
“Hmmm….” Bachira did neither. Instead, he looked across the way to a rather quiet Chigiri. The redhead was seemingly asleep, eyes closed and head tipped forward as he breathed deeply. The problem was that however- his breathing was far too intentional.
Scooting closer, he positioned himself before the other, leaning in so they were nose to nose. “ChiChi~”
Chigiri cracked an eye open then screamed, falling backwards.
 “For fuck’s sake, Bachira!” He yelped, scrambling to recover. Bachira cackled and leaped, quickly going for his belly and sides. “Gehahahahhaaha! Nohohohoho! Nohohohooho fahahhahahhair!”
“Oo, ChiChi said a bad word! Chichi said a bad word!” Bachira cooed, laughing along with him. “Was it you, missy? Did you tickle Isagi and cause all this mischief?”
“Whahhahaht are you tahahhhaalking about? Of cohohohohourse nohoohohohooht! Ahehahhahhahaa- Bahahahchirahahhahhaha!” He squeaked, covering his face with his hands as he tried elbowing the other boy’s hands away. “Sthahahhahap thahhahhahhaht!”
“Hahhahahhang on, Chihiiihihigirihiihihihihi!” Isagi yelped, suddenly determined to save the other. Reaching out, he gave Kunigami’s thigh a squeeze, making the Hero shout and flail. With a burst of energy, he charged and tackled Bachira, taking him down into the nearest futon and going in on his back. “Tahahke this, you little shit!”
“Geahhahahhahhahha! Ishahahhhahahagiihihihihihihi!” Bachira howled, shoving at the other’s shoulders as he squirmed and thrashed beneath him. “Whhehhehhehehehe hahahhahve to gehehehehhehhehet Chihihihihihiihihhii!”
“Already do.” Kunigami called, easily grabbing Chigiri’s foot before he could escape. “Come here, Princess.”
“Hero, I swear to god I will break your nose-” Chigiri squeaked when he got pulled over, any remains of his threat lost as he squealed. “Nohohohohooho! Nohohohoohot the knehehehehehehehehees!”
“What? Huh? I couldn’t understand- say that again?” Kunigami teased, putting a hand to his ear as he carried on squeezing Chigiri’s knee. “Keep tickling your knees? Okay!”
“Trahhahahhhhhaitohohohooohor!”
“You love me.”
“Iihihihihiihihishahahahahgiiihihihihiihi!”
“Yeah?” Isagi grinned, delighted in how red Bachira was. “Wanna fess up?”
Bachira nodded, gasping for air as Isagi slowed down. “SIIHIHKE!” He cried then, quickly flipping the tables and sending them tumbling into Kunigami and Chigiri. Before long it was a free for all- tickles flying to whomever was unfortunate to get grabbed.
“God, they’re like a pack of newborn puppies.” Raichi rolled his eyes, shaking his head at the four idiots playing.
“Yeah.” Gagamaru nodded. They shared a look, grinning then.
“We’re terrible.”
“So bad.”
“Think they’ll realize it was us?”
“Nah, they’ll be too tired to figure it out.”
“I’ll hold you to it.” Gagamaru rolled into his futon, getting comfortable. “What happens if they do? Figure it out I mean?”
Raichi thought about it with a hum. “Blame Kuon?”
“Blame Kuon.” Gagamaru grinned, shaking Raichi’s offered hand.
Thanks for reading!
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lopsicle · 1 year
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Ahh, it’s been like months since I’ve posted anything! I am acc working on three fics rn, I only expect one of them to be finished soon though, so I figured I should write some quick headcanons to at least put something into my blog, and I decided on The Owl House as I’m pretty fixated on it at the moment!! These may also be a bit rambly! Also
There are Major Watching and Dreaming spoilers below, you have been warned!
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Luz Noceda:
•Practically a 50/50 switch. She loves getting tickled, but also doesn’t mind dishing it back out. I also feel like she’d try to deny the times when she’s in a lee mood and try to focus on tickling others to keep them happy, but the others can definitely help her with that!
•Her worst spot is her ribs, no doubt, she goes mad with laughter if they’re even touched. Other bad spots are her knees and stomach.
•Her favourite kind of tickles are cheer up tickles, she thinks it’s fun to give them, and desperately needs to receive them sometimes.
•It’s easy for her to catch onto if someone wants tickles, but if they’re being difficult, she’ll still make them ask!
•Speaking of, she cannot ask for tickles in the slightest, she gets too flustered and worries about being needy!
•Even though Amity and Eda have told her it’s okay
•Her main was of asking is initiating a tickle fight but giving up half way through
•Her tickling style is really random, she can go from scribbling, to squeezing, anything to keep her lees on their toes really!
•She can also be very attentive of a Lee’s needs and even switches up teases depending on who she’s tickling!
•Also let’s talk about Titan Luz? Calamity Luz? Whatever people are calling that form of her!
•TICKLISH HOOVES! I absolutely live for ticklish hooves, I honestly think she has my favourite character design ever!
•She has fangs which is amazing for raspberries or tummy noms, she can be such a vicious ler in this form, I wish it stayed!
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Amity Blight
•A switch but definitely a whole lot more lee then ler! Being the youngest she was obviously the victim of tickle attacks from the twins, but once she got better with abomination magic, she was sure to get revenge!
•Speaking of, if she’s in a lee mood and doesn’t want to ask, she will use her abominations to tickle herself, though she doesn’t have to do that much anymore because Luz always makes sure she has tickles!
•Her worst spot is by far her neck, a second being her ears! Soft, fluffy tickles work really well her, like she will scream!
•In addition, if she’s being tickled anywhere else, she’s generally prefers more sharp tickles, like nails tracing or poking against her, the kind of tickling you’d see in a tickle fight!
•Also she wins those, period, even if she’s mostly a lee, she can be an absolutely cruel ler, only stopping when her lee is completely out of breath!
•And she uses abominations to hold people down if they got too squirmy
•Also when Luz found out Amity was ticklish, the witch never had peace from that moment on, she was constantly trying to tickle her!
•She gets very flustered from baby talk and coddling in general, though that’s not to say she doesn’t like it
•Also teases about her blush will kill her on the spot
•She can be so sweet during aftercare, both a lee and a ler! If she’s a lee, she’ll be mumbling a whole lot of giggly ‘thank you’s’ and sometimes cuddling up to the ler depending on who it is, and when she’s the ler, she’ll always tell the lee that they did amazing and took a lot of tickles!
•Unless she’s being a mean ler, which she can be a lot of time! Soft ler Amity is for Luz and Luz only! And sometimes Willow, okay definitely for Willow!
•Also her laughter is either the most bubbly soft thing you’ve ever heard, or full of screaming, no inbetween
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Willow Park
•Definitely more of a ler in the group, but struggles with meeting her needs when she’s in a Lee mood, she can ask just fine, but she never wants to bother anyone with asking for tickles
•That being said, she is such a sweet ler, she uses such playful teases, and generally prefers using softer tickles unless a lee asks otherwise!
•Always checks up on a lee when tickling them, and she’s so nice to them afterwards, she’ll offer lees water and always give them whatever they need after a tickle session!
• Occasionally uses her vines or plants to help her, but only if a lee is being difficult
•Her teasing style is really praise-y, calling a lee adorable and cute and generally just showering them with compliments
•Even though she can’t handle it back
•Speaking of, her armpits are her worst spot, followed by her back and feet, she’s probably the least ticklish out of the Hexsquad but that still means she’s very ticklish!
•Her laughter is fairly normal, though she does try to quiet herself down to snickering whenever she’s laughing as to try and not be annoying, though her lers normally coax her out of things like that, either through soft reassurances or just jabbing their fingers into her armpit to really get that laughter outta her
•Constantly gets into tickle fights with Gus, but when the two team up to wreck someone, it’s practically over for them
•Night tickles are the best for her, just the thought of trying to keep her giggling quiet while being tickled to not wake anyone up is too flustered for her to take!
•Also her dads constantly tickled when she was younger, I don’t make the rules
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Gus Porter
•He’s pretty open about tickling, though is cautious not to ask too much as to not come across as needy
•When he thinks he’s asked too much, he’ll use illusions or just tickle the other person to provoke them into getting him back
•Has no trouble saying the tword and constantly uses it to fluster the others
•If someone is having a hard time asking someone for tickles, Gus will just pop up and ask for them, even if the other person didn’t ask
•He sees tickling as a helpful thing, to either destress or torment whoever was unlucky enough to catch him in a ler mood
•Yeah, this child is EVIL when it comes to being a ler! The lee could be in the middle of trying to actually ask for tickles and he’ll just go straight for their death spot!
•Will constantly tease the lee with ‘What’s wrong? I thought you wanted this!’ Or ‘Don’t lie, we both know you love this!’
•Would cast illusions of the lee getting wrecked in front of them casually
•The type of ler where he could just wiggle his fingers and the lee is already in anticipation
•But he’s also an absolute baby when he’s a lee
•Curling up, kicking her legs around, clinging onto the ler, he’s the cutest Lee, it makes you forget about how vicious he can be!
•Also ticklish stomach, like a death spot for him, he will scream and kick you if it’s even touches
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Hunter Noceda/Deamonne
•He thinks he’s this big bad ler, but everyone knows he’s just this total lee who’d probably fluster himself with his own teases
•His ears are a melt spot, he calls it a ‘weak spot’ though, melting is too childish for him! Though he will always thank a ler who tickles him there!
•He’s the definition of a walking tickle spot, he could barely handle Flapjack nuzzling against his neck
•He didn’t even know what tickling was for most of his life until Luz tried to tickle him one time, and he was hit with the worst lee mood ever!
•He also never ever asks, he’s far too flustered for things like that, however occasionally, Luz or Darius give him a mask to use while he’s trying to ask for tickles so it’s not as flustering for him!
•Also he shut down the first time Willow tickled him, and that only encouraged her to do it even more! Like I mentioned, it’s one of her favourite ways to destress, and Hunter just likes the feeling!
•Any tease can get to him well enough, compliments and nicknames are his favourites though!
•Has this crackly laugh that’s he pretty insecure about, but Willow thinks it’s absolutely adorable!
•The squirmiest lee on the planet, this boy can’t sit still for the life of him, it’s impossible!
•He is the reason Willie has to hold lees down with vines sometimes
•When he is a ler, he can be sort of awkward with teasing, but when it comes to actual tickling, he is a menace! He’s actually made notes on the different tickles people prefer and makes sure to use them!
•The first one to lose in a tickle fight, it’s not even a competition!
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Well, there’s my first list of headcanons for this show! I’ll be sure to make more for different characters, and maybe even expand on these because I feel it’s a little short, but I’d prefer to get some content out!
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queenimmadolla · 10 months
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So like are you only reading POC reader fics?? Idk if like I just don’t think this way or don’t think deeply enough but you mentioned the flush thing and I didn’t know that was like exclusively white cause Asian flush is a thing too.
Like how does one even know what white coding is? Do I need to do research then before writing fics to make it inclusive?? I feel like I write what I feel and I what I want to read. Why do writers have to bend over backwards to accommodate everyone??
Oh, I’m so glad I got this ask because I can point this out now. This right here, is what I’m talking about you guys. We have someone who can read fics and not have the illusion shattered because they fit the pale/light skinned/white reader demographic. The ostracizing does not effect them, so they do not really care. This is the ignorance I’ve been booming about. I only read fics that don’t imply the reader is white.
No, you’re correct, flushing applies to anyone with a light skin tone! The Asian flush is very much a thing, I was referring to how white people’s skin flush because that anon stated they were white, but I made sure to elaborate the term flushed applies to light skin.
White coding is when you write something that someone else (a person of color) cannot look like or do because the reader is implied to be (and this is gonna come as the shock of a century) white. For instance, the flush thing. People with light skin get pink or red when their face flushes, blush and such. Now, a dark skinned black person—for instance—does not flush outwardly. There is no pink or red on their face when their face heats up because of their dark skin tone. So when someone writes:
“Your face flushed, and you squeezed your eyes shut in embrasssment”
or something, it breaks the illusion of the reader insert because now that black reader knows the reader depicted in the work is meant to be light skinned and if there’s mention of that, there’s usually more descriptors implying she’s white such as long straight hair, being described as pale, biologically related to a white character and their family, etc.
Writers ‘bend over backwards’ because they don’t have to. You’re literally eliminating the amount of words you’d have to type of a description to make sure thousands of people can see themselves in your work.
The only time people bend over backwards to do something is when they go the extra mile to describe their reader as some skinny, white person. And if you don’t want to do that, which it’s sounds heavily like you don’t, I’m not gonna sit here and hold your hand to try and get you to. I really hope I’m wrong though (although it’s not even the tone of this ask—you definitely worded that last sentence to make being inclusive seem like a negative chore).
In the end, you can write what you want to write, but not everyone is gonna read it, I know I’m not. Which also goes into the numbers thing, because I see people crying about that constantly, and it’s because people with this type of ignorant mindset (be it purposely or because they don’t face these things) exclude a ton of people.
And I understand you wanted to use the anon to say this, but maybe think about why you did. Would the people who follow you be disappointed you think like this? The people who read your fics? Is that telling?
You shouldn’t feel like eliminating these words (and I know very well you know what white coding is because you stated you’d have to bend over backwards to not do so) is a chore. This is precisely why I only read works that are POC friendly. You may not mean this to be harmful, but it’s because I don’t want to support people who think like you nor would I even be able to see myself in your works.
In fact, I’ve gotten so used to the white coding that I struggle greatly to ever picture myself, and that’s the problem. You get the privilege to imagine yourself but thousands of people don’t because you don’t want them to, you don’t care.
That’s why.
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puuvillaa · 6 months
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I wrote most of By Appointment Only for The Fic That Haunts You, an event whose purpose was to finish a fic that has been haunting you. A part of that was to have a check-in each month and write a bit about what's going on with the fic, and I have all those check-ins saved.
If you want to get a look at what was going through my head as I worked on the fic, now's your chance.
—The fic
What is the concept?
Alphas need to have mates by the time they turn 30. Remus doesn’t have a mate, so he needs to be assigned one. He meets James and they decide to bond.
Why has it been haunting you?
I started writing it quite a while ago, then never finished. I like the idea a lot and want to write more omegaverse as well as wolfbucks.
What is your goal for TFTHY?
Posting the fic by the autumn of 2022
What is your starting word count?
23,775
—Check-ins
Date: 29.4.2022
Current word count: 28,915
How do you feel about the project today?
I’m excited about it
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Date: 1.6.
Current word count: 38,264
How do you feel about the project today?
Okay. It hasn’t been the first thing on my mind for a while now
*
Date: 2.7.
Current word count: 42,649
How do you feel about the project today?
Still very excited over the plot twist I came up with, but haven’t had time to work on it much
*
Date: 1.8.
Current word count: 43,722
How do you feel about the project today?
I’m moderately happy with how it’s going. I finished ch 9, figured out how to finish ch8, and decided what to write for ch 10. This month, I want to add at least one full chapter to it.
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Date: 1.9.
Current word count: 62,740
How do you feel about the project today?
I’m happy with my progress, but struggling to figure out how to end it. I have 12 chapters written, and I have started chapter 13 and have some notes for a future chapter. I also know what’s going to happen in the next few chapters. My goal for this month is to keep thinking about the plot and if I could possibly end it around chapter 15.
*
Date: 1.10.2022
Current word count: 71,763
How do you feel about the project today? I’ve decided that there will be more than 15 chapters. I’m currently writing ch14 and have some of ch17 drafted. I’m trying to squeeze everything into 18 chapters, but it’s looking uncertain. I haven’t had time to work on this much due to other projects. My goal this month is to finally figure out how to edit ch12, so I won’t need to take a break from posting once I get there. I would also like to finish ch14, but it’s not my main priority.
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Date: 1.11.2022
Current word count: 71,944
How do you feel about the project today? I haven’t had much time to work on it, but it has been in my mind. I restructured some of my future chapter plans, but still not sure if that works. I did end up having to take a break with ch12 because I didn’t have time to edit it enough before my posting day, but I did read it through and made some edits, so it’s going to be much more simple for the next round of edits. I didn’t really write anything new, my word count just went up from having to add stuff to ch12.
My goal this month is to keep thinking about this, edit ch12 and hopefully finish ch14, but this is still not my priority project. I’m just tentatively optimistic that nano will help me move several of my projects along.
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Date: 1.12.2022
Current word count: 73,440
How do you feel about the project today? I finished the sex scene that was chapter 14, so I’m excited to move to the next chapter that won’t have a sex scene in it. This is still not my priority, but I’m hoping I’ll still get a chance to get at least some writing done this month.
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Date: 1.2.2023
Current word count: 73,440
How do you feel about the project today? Last month I managed to figure out the structure for the next chapters, and I’m really excited to start writing again, but I haven’t had time. I still won’t be able to prioritise this fic because of all the fests I’m doing, but hopefully I’ll soon have a moment to work on this.
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Date: 1.3.2023
Current word count: 77,715
How do you feel about the project today? Excited! I wrote ch15 and started ch16, so there’s been good progress too. Slightly worried about future chapters, because I’m not sure what should happen in them.
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Date: 1.4.2023
Current word count: 94,723
How do you feel about the project today? Excited still. I'm currently working on ch18, and I have good plans for two more chapters. I'm sure I'll figure out what should happen then while working on these chapters.
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Date: 1.5.2023
Current word count: 96,726
How do you feel about the project today? I’ve been stuck on ch19 for a while now, but I did resolve the issue I was having with it, so I'm hoping to work on it soon again. I still don't know what will happen after ch20, but hopefully I’ll figure that out as I write.
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Date: 4.6.2023
Current word count: 96,751
How do you feel about the project today? I haven’t had time to really work on it, but I did finish the scene I had been stuck on. I've been thinking about the chapter count and wondering if I should actually end it after chapter 20. I still need a bit more solid idea on how to finish chapter 19.
This month I won’t have time to properly work on this, but I could read through what I have written so that my plans will clear out.
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Date: 1.7.2023
Current word count: 96,751
How do you feel about the project today? I haven’t had time to work on it, but I have thought about it.
This month I'll continue not having time to work on it, but I could possibly read through what I already have to see what to do with the end of ch19.
*
Date: 5.8.2023
Current word count: 96,751
How do you feel about the project today? I still haven’t had time to work on it, but I have thought about it.
This month I might read through it.
*
Date: 1.9.2023
Current word count: 96,794
How do you feel about the project today? I’ve started reading through it, and I wrote a couple of sentences. This month, I’ll probably just finish reading it.
*
Date: 1.10.2023
Current word count: 96,794
How do you feel about the project today? I wish I could work on it already. I’ve been thinking about whether I’m going to end it at chapter 20, and I’m pretty sure that’s the smart thing for me to do. This month I probably won’t have time to work on it at all, but if I do, I will.
*
Date: 1.11.2023
Current word count: 96,938
How do you feel about the project today? I just started reading through it today, and my goal for this month is to first read it and then finish it.
—Final check-in
Date: 30.11.2023
What is your final word count? 108,591
How do you feel about what you wrote? I'm sad it's over, but I also think that it tells the story I intended to tell. I'm already thinking about a sequel, though. I'm really happy that I finally finished it.
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Welcome back River 💗 Hope your doing ok and drinking plenty of water ^^
I really enjoyed reading your new fics ; I especially enjoyed reading yandere Luffy and Sanji (you got me shipping them XD ) and the way Koby had me convinced that pirate love river did set up captain starfish demise (seriously love reading that one )
I really enjoyed reading your aus fic from crossing to zoo (I also enjoyed reading your platonic fic )
yandere Sabo made me laugh poor boy can’t catch a break hahah 10/10 you did an amazing job writing him , I can imagine him being like that if he was a yandere ^_^
hope your doing ok 💗
Hey! It’s nice to get a message in my inbox from ya and sorry that I haven’t been talking to you in our DM’s as I’ve been dealing with some personal issues that have brought up a lot of anxiety for me about random shit but don’t worry! I’m 100% safe!
There’s no need to worry at all and everything is going to be absolutely fine with me! And that isn’t me being like that sweaty smiling character who keeps glancing behind them in a horror movie while trying to convince everyone that there’s no monster like genuinely, I’m gonna be fine
Things are just stressful right now in all honesty and I’d rather not get into it too much as it’s my private life
I’m glad that you enjoyed my new stories as well! I actually felt really insecure about a lot of them like the Koby one especially as I felt like a mischaracterized him big time to the point where I was just like “Fuck, this is awful…”
I am glad to hear that it was actually pretty good though and I’m also happy to hear that that I’ve turned you into a LuSan shipper as it’s one of my favorite ships in One Piece in all honesty! Like one of my many fankids is actually their kid with Sanji being her Mom
Also I am glad that you liked the platonic fic as well because G8 is one of my comfort arcs like I got sick with a sore throat a few days ago and just wound up on my side watching my favorite episode from it because the characters really make me feel safe and comforted
So I decided to try share that with you all too in the form of a Familial Yandere Fanfic about them! I hope that it did manage to spark a little bit of that same energy as I thought that the ending alongside the rescue from those evil NPC’s was very sweet if not scary in a Yandere sense
I very much struggled with the Sabo story too like I was half tempted to be like “Fuck, I can’t do this…” but then came that idea and all turned out okay!
Plus I can see Sabo going through like twenty stress balls in a day if he’s fighting his Yandere urges like the people around him are just staring wide eyed as he pops another one, grabs a new one, and then pops that one like two squeezes later
Also I am trying to drink a lot of water so thank you so much for reminding me! If you would like to talk more though then I think some of my anxiety is wearing off a little and I do have this Poppy Playtime x One Piece thing that I can tell you about in DM’s if you’d like!
Anywho, I’m gonna get back to trying to wind down with some Animal Crossing but I am glad to see that you still like my stories! And sorry for not talking to you much in DM’s
And for anyone else whose reading this part then feel free to send me a message in DM’s if you’d like to chat or listen to me ramble endlessly about my many OC’s
Or send me a message for the Discord Link and I’ll send you one back to join! But remember! No minors allowed!!
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koolkat9 · 1 year
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Hey I know you haven't asked for fics requests but all your fics really help me with my anxiety, so... could you maybe (if you have some time to spare and you want to, of course) write a fic about England helping Canada (or any character you choose) with a panic attack? I really like the way you write and your last fic "my prince" was really special to me ♡
That's so sweet of you to say! You actually caught me at a good time with school winding down. My fanfiction requests aren't technically open, but I could never turn down a prompt with Arthur and Mattie!
Rating: T
Relationship: England + Canada
Word Count: 620
Read on AO3
I Always Come Back
The boy had always been skittish. That was the first thing Francis had warned him about when they were finalizing the treaty. A shy, anxious little thing he was. He didn’t talk for weeks when Arthur first arrived at the little cabin Matthew called home. It was even longer before he started accepting affection from him. 
Arthur still noticed the little things even decades later. The way Matthew’s leg bounced whenever Arthur sat him down for a serious talk regardless if the boy had done something wrong. The avoidant eye contact in the calmest of moments. The sleepless nights before Arthur would return to England that Matthew thought he was keeping hidden.
But that was just how Matthew had always been. And other than some struggles in social situations and the repetitive longing looks out windows or whenever the door opened, Matthew seemed to be thriving. 
Until it all came to a head when Arthur was late returning to Canada. 
He arrived to a backdrop of dark, threatening clouds. Just a regular summer thunderstorm, he had thought. Nothing too concerning as long as he got home before the worst of it hit. It wasn’t until he was met with silence when he entered the house that his stomach started doing flips.
A small scrap of paper lay on the coffee table.
Matthew,
I didn’t want to leave you, and I tried to tell you, but you didn’t answer. I need to get groceries. I made some cookies. A little pick me up. They’re on the   dining room table when you’re ready.
Love,
Uncle Allie
Was Matthew sick? He would have Alastair’s head if Matthew was and he didn’t let him know about this sooner. He stormed up the stairs only pausing to collect himself for Matthew. It was Alastair he wasn’t happy with, not Matthew. And Matthew had the nasty habit of blaming himself for the conflict in the household as it was. 
“Matthew love?” Arthur called, knocking at the door, “I’m home–”
There was a loud thud on the other side. Arthur burst into the room without hesitation. Matthew was crumpled on the floor, shaking violently, choking on his gasps, tears streaming down his face, fingers clawing at the floor like a trapped animal. 
Arthur carefully approached, kneeling beside him. “Matthew… It’s alright poppet. Are you feeling ill? Deep breaths now.”
“I-I-I…I can’t…” Matthew sobbed. “Make it stop…Please.”
“Matthew, I need you to try. Do it with me. In.” Arthur took a deep inhale. He held it until the boy followed suit. It was sharper than he would have liked, but it would do as a first step. “Good. Now out.”
They exhaled together. “Good. Let’s do it again.”
They repeated the exercise over and over until Matthew's breathing returned to a somewhat normal rate. 
“Let’s get you back to bed,” Arthur offered. He helped Matthew up into a sitting position, but the boy just swayed. “Are you dizzy?”
Matthew nodded. ���And My…M-My legs feel like jelly.”
“Okay then.” He scooped the boy up into his arms. “How’s this?”
Matthew tensed for a moment. He took a few more deep breaths before letting himself sink into Arthur’s embrace. His tiny hands squeezed at Arthur’s coat tighter than Arthur ever thought possible of him. 
“I got you, lad,” Arthur whispered, “I’ve got you.”
He sat himself and Matthew on the bed, never letting go of the boy once. A long conversation would have to follow about what exactly that was, and the poor lad was probably thirsty after all that crying. But for right now, Arthur knew Matthew just needed to be held, to know that he was there. That he came back. That he would always  come back. 
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nobodysdaydreams · 9 months
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😭😍
A pleasure to hear from you Milk! I hope you're having a wonderful evening!
😭- angst or sad WIP snippet
“Here you are.”
SQ looked at the book she was offering him.
It was his father’s book on happiness.
“I’ve been handing them out to everyone who looks nervous,” she explained cheerfully. “This book changed my life. The author, Dr. Curtain, is a visionary and genius. I promise, it’s well worth the read.”
“Oh…” said SQ slowly, looking down at the face of the man he was trying very hard not to think about. “Thank you, but um…I’m actually not feeling nervous at all really.”
“Are you sure?” she asked, grinning at him. “I really must insist you take it. You need it. We all need it. Because we all deserve happiness.”
SQ did his best not to shudder at her unsettling gaze and forceful tone.
😍published lines or a section of a fic that you loved writing?
Hm...a lot to choose from here. I was debating between a couple passages, but in honor of you and Maren, I decided to include some prime Garrison and Curtain divorce drama content. I loved writing all the friendship breakups in SOS (because I'm just silly like that <3), but Garrison's and Curtain's is especially fascinating because of how alike they are in the way they use their intelligence to try to solve their own traumas and violate ethical boundaries. It's like they're constantly in this game of chess together and they're both losing but so is everyone else because they refuse to stop playing. That's the best way I can describe it. Please enjoy!
From Chapter 16 of SOS, "Moving Forward"
“And all I want,” continued Garrison carefully, “as your friend, is for you to be happy too. You deserve it. You’ve sacrificed so much for so many years…for all of us…for your family…you deserve to experience the profound joy that you have worked to give to so many others.”
Curtain felt it again. That feeling he got whenever people complimented, praised or supported him. The feeling of the world around him getting brighter, calmer, safer. Finally, Garrison was acting like his friend again. She wanted to support him. She wanted to help him. She cared about him. And the more Curtain listened to her voice, the more he wanted to keep hearing it.
Perhaps he should listen to her advice more often.
Garrison carefully began to synchronize her body movements.
“You are brilliant,” she continued, “a visionary. And all I want, more than anything in the whole world, is for you to be happy. For you to choose the happiness and joy that you deserve after so much suffering, frustration and pain. To be free of your burden.”
Curtain relaxed, he smiled at Garrison. This was what he wanted. To be free of his burdens. To be here again, with his friends, who cared about him, who would never hurt him again, who wouldn’t betray-
…who wouldn’t betray him.
But they always betrayed him.
They always abandoned him.
Always.
Curtain closed his eyes and shook his head, doing his best to shake Garrison’s voice and influence from his mind.
She had come close, far too close for comfort.
Well of course she had. Garrison knew him. She knew what he wanted to hear. She knew just what to say.
And really, should Curtain have expected anything different? Nicholas betrayed him. Wetherall betrayed him. Why should Garrison be any different?
Garrison watched as Curtain abruptly broke his gaze away from her, squeezed his eyes shut and began to shake his head. Upon realizing her plan had failed, she felt an overwhelming sense of despair.
Her technique had been working! She’d come close, so close, and yet… somehow Curtain had broken out of it. Garrison didn’t know how that was even possible, but she should have known something like that was bound to happen. What had she been thinking? Curtain was surely going to do something awful to her now.
“How dare you?” Curtain whispered angrily, his eyes still shut as he struggled to get the words out. “How dare you try to…to…”
Curtain paused, eyes closed, still trying to pry his mind free from the temptations that Garrison’s words had offered him.  
Then something else occurred to him.
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moonlit-reveriee · 3 years
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Baby Blue
technoblade x fem!reader
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concept: techno is scared of ‘corrupting’ the reader, but the reader’s kinda into it...
content warning // NSFW, virgin!reader, very minor angst?, small argument that gets resolved
listen to this while you read: BBBlue (Single) by Olivver the Kid
(this fic was heavily inspired by the lyrics of this song, so i highly recommended giving it a listen!)
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When Techno found out you were a virgin, he was terrified. Not necessarily of the thought itself, but of the implications.
He’d never forget the look on your face when you told him. You tried to be casual about it, but he knew you well enough to spot the dusting of pink across your cheeks. You nuzzled yourself closer into his side. Whether out of embarrassment or something else entirely, he couldn’t tell. All he could feel was his heart dropping as the voices chanted at him to “ruin her”
Of course you, his pure sweet angel, would be a virgin. He once again crumbled under the idea that you had chosen him. How on earth could a person like you even think of being with a beast like him. Yet alone, giving up your virginity to him.
He hated how horribly turned on he was by the thought of taking it.
The voices had been relentless about it ever since. They were hyper focused on your every move, twisting every thought of his into something promiscuous. When you rolled out of bed in the morning and stretched, a small sigh escaping your lips, it was endless cries of “make her do that again” “you should fuck those moans out of her” “make her scream”
While making breakfast together in the morning, they wouldn’t stop telling him to “bend her over the counter” “take it right here”
Even at times where he was alone, the voices preoccupied him with endless thoughts of you. He was fairly certain they had forced him to imagine every possible way in which he could have you. “imagine fucking her against the wall” “you can be gentle for the first time y’know” “she’d feel so good writhing underneath us” “press her face into the mattress instead” “make her get on her knees and suck you off” “she’ll be such a pretty little slut for us”
He tried to take care of himself as often as he could, but it was becoming impossible to keep up with. There were only so many times a day he could jerk himself off alone behind locked doors. He was desperate, and sexually frustrated to say the least.
He felt disgusting for it.
After a week of this torment, he could barely even look at you yet alone touch you without the voices and his own guilt pounding against his skull. You couldn’t even think about broaching the subject again, because he was avoiding physical contact like the plague. He wouldn’t come to bed until he knew you were asleep, and would leave long before you woke.
As much as he tried to hide it, you could tell he was tired. Something was wrong, but you knew that he’d never just tell you about his problems unprompted. Techno was insufferably stubborn in that way. After several days of avoiding your gaze and leaning away from your touch, you chose to confront him.
“Techno”, you called for his attention quietly, trying to sound stern while remaining gentle with him. He didn’t turn to fully face you, but he glanced at the spot on the wall just above your head.
You struggled to find the words you wanted to say, so you settled on telling him, “Techno, you look tired.”
He turned his attention away from you. “Just a lot of work around the house this week. I’ll be fine after I rest.”
“Then come to bed with me.” You saw the way his body tensed and tilted away from you at that simple suggestion.
“I just need to write a couple letters first. You can go ahead of me.”
“Techno...”, you whined, daring to take a step closer to him. He gave you an almost panicked look, “why does it feel like you’ve been avoiding me?”
“I haven’t been avoiding you”, he responded quickly, trying to look through you instead of at you.
“Yes you have”, you responded firmly. A flash of guilt washed over his face at your tone. “You haven’t kissed or touched me for nearly a week now. I don’t even know for sure if you sleep in the same bed as me anymore. Fuck, you barely even talk to me.”
Angry tears threatened to spill down your cheeks, but you wanted to hold them in. Techno felt his chest tighten at the sight of it. He instinctively turned and reached out to comfort you, but forced himself to freeze.
“There”, you said, gesturing towards him, “just like that. You’re stopping yourself. Why are you doing that?”
He repeatedly opened and closed his fists at his side, wanting to have any conversation other than this one.
“[y/n], there’s just a lot going on in my mind right now”, he said. It wasn’t a complete lie. “I just need to work though it.”
“Then let me help you.”
“No”, he responded a little too quickly, “I- I mean, I just don’t want to talk about it with you yet...”
“Why not?”, you retorted, trying to squeeze any information you could out of him.
“I just don’t, okay? It’s uncomfortable, I don’t want to talk about it yet.”
“... is this about me being a virgin?”
“I never said that”, he replied, but the tension in his shoulders was enough to tip you off.
“Ah geez Technoblade, if it was that much of a problem for ya, you should have just told me”, you said sarcastically, “instead of avoiding all physical contact for a like week straight!”
“It’s not a problem, [y/n].”
“Certainly doesn’t feel that way.”
Techno huffed in frustration, grabbing a fistful of his hair at the root. He wasn’t sure if he was more upset with himself, or the fact that a few of the voices were still begging him to “please fuck her already”
“Love, I wasn’t avoiding you because I didn’t want it. They”, he tapped a finger against the side of his skull, “they want it so badly. It’s driving me insane.”
He breathed in and out shakily, trying to gauge your expression in the brief moments before he continued.
“I’m a monster. I’ve spilt more blood than anyone every should in a single lifetime. My appearance is more beast than man.”
He looked up briefly to find you staring right at him, a tight-lipped frown upon your face.
“What does that have to do with any of this?”
“I- ... I don’t want to corrupt your innocence”, he admitted.
“What on earth do you mean by that?”
“[y/n], you’re so perfect”, he answered almost breathlessly, “you’re so kind and so pure. Just living with me does enough to taint your reputation, I don’t wanna-“
He cut himself off to swallow thickly. He almost seemed scared of the words he was going to say next.
“I don’t want to ruin this part of you either...”
A heavy silence filled the tiny sitting room of techno’s cottage. In those few seconds, your eyes widened ever so slightly as his words suddenly clicked in your mind. This hulking boar of a man, an undisputed war criminal, was scared. He was scared of damaging you, your reputation, or your recently revealed ‘innocence’. Compared to himself, he saw you as a pure being who could be tainted by unwholesome thoughts.
If what he said about the voices was true, then his actions of the past few days would’ve made sense for him.
“Oh techno...”, you muttered softly, tentatively placing a hand on his jaw. His posture was curled inward, making him look small despite his size. He was stiff at first, but allowed you to lift his gaze to meet yours. He searched your eyes desperately for an indication of your reaction. You gave him a reassuring smile.
“Do you remember when we first met?”
A small wave of confusion washed over his face, but he nodded anyways. “It was at the festival...”
“That’s right”, you said, moving the hand on his face down to rest over his shoulder, “and do you remember what I did that day?”
“You threw an axe into Schlatt’s shoulder”, he answered, watching as the scene played out in his memory.
You lived with Niki in her bakery at the time, and witnessed firsthand the injustice she faced during Schlatt’s presidency. As the chaos after Tubbo’s execution occurred, you took the opportunity to hurl your axe where Schlatt stood upon his podium. The blow wasn’t fatal, but that wasn’t necessarily your goal. You just wanted to see the man in pain.
“It was a lucky shot really”, you admitted, “I wasn’t even aiming properly.” That managed to draw a small smile onto Techno’s lips.
“And do you remember”, you continued, “when I tried to confront the Butcher Army by myself?”
He grimaced at the thought. You had told him you just needed to make a quick trip to L’manburg for some supplies, leaving him at home alone to recover from the previous day’s events. You returned that evening with a sprained wrist and a couple large bruises forming on your body. None of them were trying to kill you, but you took a pretty good beating from Quackity just for trying to confront them.
“Why are you bringing all of this up now?”, he asked.
“Because”, you said, “this is the evidence that will support my next point.”
He looked bewildered by that statement, but continued to listen.
“I’m not a perfect person”, you resumed, “I have blood on my hands just like you do. I know it’s hard to compare to you, but I’m not devoid of my own sins. I can be mean, I’ve hurt people. I’m not a pure, angelic being who would quiver at a single inappropriate thought. I think you forget that sometimes.”
He let your words swirl around in his head; he couldn’t deny the logic in them. The evidence prevented him from denying the truth of your statement. He could almost be mad that you’d talked him into a corner, but he was more overjoyed at the fact that you knew him well enough to do so.
“And you know...”, you spoke quietly, letting your hand fall down to rest on his chest, “if you did somehow ‘corrupt my innocence’ as you say... I really wouldn’t mind that.”
Techno’s breath hitched in his throat. There were a brief few moments, maybe minutes, where he just stared at you. Then his lips were on yours; sudden and clumsy, but passionate. You gripped the fabric of his shirt as he grabbed at your waist, desperate to have you in his arms again.
“I’m sorry, I had to”, he muttered, his lips left hovering a hair’s breadth away from yours.
“You’re so silly sometimes”, you sighed affectionately, rubbing small circles into his collarbone. He gave you a gentle smirk before pressing another kiss into your lips.
“I’m sorry darling, I really am”, he said as he drew you into a tight hug. He took in your scent and the feel of your skin for the first time in days. It felt like he could survive off the feeling of your arms wrapped around his body alone. He wondered why he ever let himself be depraved of this.
“You know I trust you, right?”, you spoke with your face pressed into his chest.
“I’m not sure why, but yes.”
You decided not to reprimand him for saying that. You could help him unpack all that later. Instead, you brought your head up to whisper in his ear.
“You have my full and unconditional consent to take my virginity whenever you’re ready.”
Techno inhaled and held his breath, though for what, he wasn’t sure. It took a while for the full weight of those words to sink in. He leaned back to stare at your face, bringing one of his large and shaky hands up to cup your cheek.
“Are you sure?”, his eyes were wide with trepidation, practically pleading with you to tell him the truth. You leaned into his palm, indulging in the feeling of his skin on yours.
“I want you, techno. I’ll wait as long as you need me to.”
Techno was lost in your words. The sudden absence of guilt left his heart light and airy in his chest. For the first time in days, the voices were only a gentle murmur.
“she’s so beautiful” “she wants you” “make her feel good” “show her how special she is” “make her smile” “she’ll be so pretty” “she’s always pretty” “be gentle, no need to rush”
“make love to her”
“... I think I’m ready now.”
───※ ·❆· ※───
ayyyy guess who finally finished writing something!!!
parts of this feel a little rushed but ehhhhhh i was just excited to finally post it. i looove writing techno as an extremely self-conscious character who’s too caught up in their own head to see how ridiculous they’re being. so, this was a treat for me to write
i hope you enjoyed :D
-moonlight
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You’re Ours to Protect
Had a weird dream last night. Thought you might enjoy it. 
Reader: F
Characters: Toshinori Yagi (All Might), Aizawa Shouta (Eraserhead), Yamada Hizashi (Present Mic)
Summary: Your time as an anti-hero might finally be coming to an end. With three pros on your tail it’s a miracle this didn't happen sooner. (Reader has a quirk but it’s not very important to the smut.)
Length: 4.5 K (I have come to the conclusion that I am incapable of writing below 4 K)
Warnings: non-con, yandere themes, slight bondage/restraints, voyeurism, vaginal fingering, vaginal sex, anal fingering, anal sex, M/M/F, mostly clothed male, naked reader, slight cum swallowing, Eraserhead and Present Mic are in an established relationship in this fic. 
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Hands were on your body, hands that shouldn’t be there. Your mind was stuck in a fog, your limbs so heavy you could barely move them. What was going on? You strained to remember, thinking long and hard about what might have led you here as calloused fingers blazed trails along your exposed thighs. You managed to wiggle your limbs a bit, shaking off the haze that muddled your brain.
You groaned, trying to open your eyes so you can get a better understanding of your surroundings. Your hands were restrained behind your back but it seemed your legs were free. You'd murder who ever had their fucking hands on you. As your eyes adjusted to the light you couldn't help but groan again as the figure in front of you came into view. You tried and failed to subtly use your quirk, this didn’t look good.
“Eraserhead. Didn’t realize you were still wasting your time looking for me. Not my fault I beat you to that criminal. Hero’s leaving trash like him alive is such a stupid concept. He was a murderer you know.” 
You looked around to the best of your ability as you spoke, you were sitting on a plush dark green couch in what appeared to be a relatively empty basement. You had been stripped of your gear, leaving you in your underwear and an oversized t-shirt. Two men were flanking you on the couch. The one to your left you didn't recognize. He was ridiculously tall, as well as skinny. Blond hair a mess as two long bangs hid his eyes from view. To your right was a pro you did recognize. His emerald green eyes sparkled in delight behind his civilian glasses as he grinned down at you. So it was their hands on your body currently. They’d die first then. 
“So, what does that make you?” the dark haired pro murmured, leaning forwards and somewhat regaining your attention. 
You ignored his question, opting to look about some more. There wasn't a one-way mirror or any recording device in sight. Were they interrogating you off the books? This whole situation seemed off, these were heroes right? They’d convict you and leave you to rot in a dingy jail cell somewhere.. but this didn't look like a normal interrogation room. 
“I know this is my first time getting caught and all but this doesn’t really seem up to protocol. Gonna haul me away after having fun or something?” You shifted your gaze to the obsidian eyes in front of you, leaning forwards to mimic his posture. 
Present Mic barked out a laugh, hand squeezing harder on you thigh much to your annoyance. “Sorry babe but prison won’t be your final destination! I mean after all y’aint evil, just a lil misguided is all, nothin’ three pros can’t fix.” He ended his sentence with a pinch to your leg. 
“If you don’t get your fucking hands off me I’ll kill you!” You snarled, turning and getting up in Present Mic’s face. The tall blond to your left pulled his hands back, scooting away as Present Mic continued to leer down at you. 
“HAH little girls got some bite, but we already knew that. Don’t think I didn’t notice you trying to use that quirk. I’m hurt now! You really would try to kill me huh?” he mocked with a fake pout, but you could see the amusement in his eyes. 
“I’m sure you’ve already realized by now you can’t use your quirk. It wasn’t easy making a device to cancel it out, but thanks to our newest colleague here the hardest part was collecting your DNA and picking what color collar we wanted.” Eraserhead leaned forward, fingers tugging on the collar you only now just realized was around your neck.
You tried to bite him, but he pulled back. If only you could wipe that stupid smirk off his face with a heart attack. Your quirk was the ability to clot blood after all. A handy trick if you found yourself injured, but even more so for killing once you learned how to properly control it. No one really batted an eye at an ischemic stroke due to the clotting of an artery to the brain. Well.. almost nobody.. 
“You have a very impressive ability,” the tall blond stated, “in all honesty we probably wouldn’t have caught on if we hadn’t watched you kill. You’ve induced countless of natural looking deaths, but upon closer inspection you target people whose crimes would have landed them in jail. Noble, but very misguided. You’re pretty reckless though, what if you had gotten hurt?” 
“So fucking what if I did.” You kept your eyes glued to Present Mic as you responded, trusting him a lot less than the man behind you. His eyes narrowed dangerously at your snarky rebuttal.
“Language young lady, and that’s no way to talk! What would compel you to risk your life, why don’t you trust your hero’s more?” 
You clenched your teeth in frustration but didn’t respond. You were done cooperating, not like you were doing much to begin with though.
The scrapping of a metal chair on concrete drew your gaze as Eraserhead stood up. 
“Back up Zashi, I’ll take over from here. Toshinori you’re fine where you are.” 
You couldn’t help but struggle a bit at his words. “What do you mean, what the hell are you going to do!? You insane or something? Just turn me in to the police!”
“You really don't pay attention do you. Hizashi already said you’re not going to the police. I don’t know what skeletons you have in your closet, or why you started killing people, but that will come out in due time. For now you don’t have to kill anymore. The three of us will take care of you, without the law sentencing you to life. We’ve been hunting you down for so long. We’ve been very patient, but right now you need us to help show you what you’ve been missing. Running around all by yourself, you must have been so lonely.” Eraserhead finished up his little spiel as he stalked forwards, looming over your sitting frame. 
“Don’t fucking TOUC-gah!” You had been so focused on Eraserhead’s approach you hadn’t noticed Present Mic coming at you with a gag until it was too late. 
“Yagi already asked you to watch that dirty mouth of yours, don’t worry though babe once you simmer down a bit we’ll take it out.”
“Ple-please Hizashi call me Toshinori we’ve been over this.”
You gave Eraserhead your best glare as he stopped in front of you. He smiled softly at your defiance before wedging his knee in between your legs and slamming his hands onto the couch, caging you in. Wait by show you what you were missing.. these hero's were going to..?
You tried to talk reason, but all that came out were muffled pleas. None of it coherent. 
“We’ve been watching over you for 5 months now kitten. Trying to find the best way to approach you but in the end taking you somewhere safe seemed to be the only logical solution. While getting this house ready for your arrival we all started to feel as if you belonged here all along. I know it’s not fair, we’ve had so much longer to get to know you, but you’ll know us just as well soon enough.”
It was official. These pros had lost their damn minds. They actually figured out how to justify what they were about to do to you. Your promise to only kill criminals was really coming back to bite you on the ass. 
You brought your legs up and tried to kick him off, but were quickly thwarted by two pairs of hands grabbing them and pinning you down. 
“Now now sweetheart none of that, Shouta here is just going to show you our conviction. No one will ever hurt you again now that we are here. Now that I am here” The last part was mumbled more to himself than the group. 
Something must have happened to these men to cause their hero complex to grow into something so twisted. But that was no fucking excuse for their actions. They needed therapy, not someone to play damsel in distress with.
Shouta lowered himself between your legs until he was kneeling on the floor in front of you. You tried to plead with your eyes, beg him to stop, but he met your gaze with something bordering love. That wasn’t good. Breaking eye contact he looked down at your underwear, bringing a hand up you held your breath as he gently brushed against your core. 
“You can’t even begin to imagine how much I’ve dreamed of this moment. You truly are something special, and yet you treat your life with such little regard it’s maddening.” He trailed his knuckles against the thin fabric as he spoke, your traitorous body sparking heat in your lower abdomen in anticipation. 
Pulling your underwear to the side he slowly began to slide his fingers up and down your progressively wetting folds. 
“Well now, someone secretly enjoyin’ themselves baby,” Hizashi all but purred, his hand squeezing your flesh while his gaze was transfixed on where his partner was violating you. You couldn’t help but let out a pitiful whine. It was absolutely humiliating being spread out before these three men. 
The noises your wet cunt were making were no help to your embarrassment, and they only got worse once the dark haired pro rid you of your last line of defense and began to insert two of his fingers. 
“H-how does she feel?” Toshinori couldn’t help but ask. His face was flushed red, along with the tips of his ears as his vibrant blue eyes watched Shouta’s fingers slowly sink inside you. 
“Tight, shit she’s tight. She’s perfect, so fucking wet for her hero's. I’ll work you open kitten don’t worry.” You couldn’t help but clamp down on his fingers at his words, earning a deep chuckle in response. 
“See now, such a good girl aren’t you. Prison is no place for you kitten, though if you want we can always role-play your wardens.”
Role-play my ass we’re already living it, was all you could think bitterly. 
As if he read your mind Shouta couldn’t help but continue to antagonize you, thumb beginning to make light circles against your clit as he pumped his fingers, adding a third and quickly burying them knuckle deep. Soft whimpers slipped from your mouth as you tried in vain to wiggle away from Eraserhead’s deft fingers. 
Hizashi was getting impatient, removing one of his hands to grasp your breast through the t-shirt you had on. His slim fingers began to pinch and rub your nipple, though his eyes never left your cunt. 
Toshinori was struggling in his own way. Raspy breaths with slight coughs as he grew more and more aroused. He too removed a hand from your leg, but instead made quick work of the zipper on his pants. Taking his semi hard cock in his hand he began gently stroke himself while watching your display. 
You truly were everything they had ever wanted. But you didn’t want this, despite your bodies responses to their ministrations. You could feel it, Shouta seemed to know exactly where to stroke as he worked you up tighter and tighter, velvety walls clamping down at your approaching climax. 
You found each man murmuring their own words of praise, anywhere from “That’s it baby girl, take all of Sho now,” to “Such a perfect princess, do you want to finish?” The man between your legs even adding to the mantra of soft words spoken to you. “So close kitten, see what good girls get. You’re going to cum for me okay?” 
He posed it like a question but you knew it was far from it. It was a statement, a matter of fact statement that you couldn’t deny even if you had tried. Your back arched, moans and mewls intercepted but not completely blocked out by your gag as you rocked against his hand. He gladly continued to finger you, watching as you came down from your high and only then removed his hand. 
You were panting hard, shame quickly washing away the pleasure from your orgasm. Sensing the shift in your demeanor Hizashi was quick to pounce, peppering your face in kisses despite your shifty protests and groans of despair. “None of that now babe, after all we’re just gettin’ this show started!” 
Shouta stood and moved out from between your legs, licking some of your slick off his hand before he wiped the rest on his black pants leg. “You got lube Zashi?” Hizashi paused his attack and shot the dark haired pro a million dollar smile. “You bet our babes cute ass I got it! Lemme find it, hold her Toshi.”
Toshinori floundered a bit, cock in hand as Hizashi shoved you closer to him, before jumping up from the couch. Eyes trailing down to his hand you couldn’t help but freeze in shock. Not only was this man stupid tall, his dick was frighteningly large. The older hero noticed your stare and couldn’t help but chuckle a bit at your expression. “Don’t worry princess, Shouta and Hizashi are going to help you today. My sides acting up so I’ll only be watching.” 
As if on cue the man was hit by a coughing fit, and much to your surprise he even coughed up some blood. Eraserhead was still looming over you, leaning over he gently rubbed the older blonds back as he tried to ease him through the pain. You didn’t dare move as all this transpired around you. What good would it have done you anyways? You were effectively quirkiness, and your fighting skills would be severely lacking against the two heroes you knew. You had no idea who this Toshinori guy was, but if he was close to Eraserhead and Present Mic you doubted he was weak. 
You heard Hizashi rummaging behind you through a dresser you hadn’t noticed earlier. Craning your neck, you peered over and cried out in frustration. 
“Tada!” He sung triumphantly, a small bottle of lube in his hand. “Act two can now officially begin!” You could only yell and wiggle about in protest, your arms still tied behind your back. Toshinori’s hand on your thigh moved to gently pat you on the head. 
“Behave now for them okay? If you’re good we can show you the rest of our home after this.” 
You jerked your head out from under his hand and yelled more incoherent nonsense out of frustration. You had expected anger to replace the adoring look in his eyes but you were only met with fond amusement. 
He stood up with a hearty laugh, erection still in hand as he grabbed Shouta’s discarded chair, sitting down facing the couch. Shouta was quick to take Toshinori’s place on the couch while Hizashi took up residence behind you. 
“I have a feelin’ this star ain’t a fan of the spotlight, no need to be camera shy babe.” You watched Shouta roll his eyes at his partner in crime before he began to manhandle you. Hands under your armpits he pulled you up and wrangled you onto your knees facing him on the couch. 
Hizashi slid one knee between your legs so you couldn't close them. Your tied hands couldn’t help but brush up against his clothed hard on, causing him to rut against you a bit in anticipation. 
Without warning he took a solid grip of your t-shirt and ripped it off. You squeaked in surprise, your face heating up as you realized you were the only person fully naked in the room. 
“Was it really necessary to rip my shirt?”
“Sorry about that Toshi! Didn’t want to delay the show with takin’ off her bindings yah dig? You rip them a bunch anyways so what’s another to the pile? But ain’t this just so much better, our baby girl on full display it makes my heart swoon!”
“Just get her ready Hizashi, and no rushing it, you don’t want to hurt her.”
“Aight aight sorry I’ll get to work, you keep her happy.”
Both men moved closer, pressing your body between them. They had propped themselves up on their knees and had you effectively stuck. Shouta gently placed one hand around your neck, giving your collar a tug, while the other trailed down and began to gently work your still wet pussy. 
You stared into his chest, trying your best to space out but jerked back to reality when you heard the pop of a lid behind you. 
“Don’t worry babe I’ll get you ready, I’m somewhat of a pro yah know?” 
That was when you felt his lubed finger gently prodding your other hole. You jolted forwards into Shouta who didn’t even budge in response to your full body weight. Hizashi simply shuffled closer, continuing to push until finally he breached you. You whimpered at the uncomfortable intrusion. 
Shouta's fingers lazily worked your cunt as he rocked his erection against your lower abdomen. Despite the fact that you hated the feeling of his growing arousal you couldn’t help but lean into him to try and get away from Hizashi as he slipped another finger inside. Tears slowly rolled down your face in frustration as the two heroes prepared your body. 
“There we go kitten, you’re doing so well. Just be patient alright and it won’t hurt so bad.” Shouta removed his hand from around your neck and placed it on your head, angling your gaze to the third member of the group you had almost forgotten while pulling you flush to his clothed chest so you couldn’t freely change your field of view. 
Toshinori was leaned back in the metal folding chair, which looked comically small with him sitting on it. His eyes were clouded with lust as he stroked his thick cock. His own pre-cum and spit adding obscene noises to his ministrations. He gave you a lopsided smile as you made eye contact, causing you to quirky avert your gaze. 
By this point Hizashi had worked three fingers knuckle deep into your tight hole, but coupled with Shouta’s work the line between uncomfortable and pleasurable began to mix together. A breathless moan escaped you as the two pros finally got their desired reaction. 
“She’s as good as she’s gonna get Sho, let’s say you and me start the finale I can’t take feelin’ her tight lil hole clamping down on my fingers any longer. Not when I got somethin’ much better for her.”
Your tears flowed a bit faster at your impending fate. This was fucking insane! You might have been a murderer, but you weren't expected to be a good person unlike these men. These heroes who were now violating you.
Since Shouta was in black sweatpants he merely leaned back a bit and pulled them down, cock springing free. He had a solid girth to him, red tip dripping pre down his shaft to his unruly black pubic hair. You heard a zipper behind you as the blond freed himself, though due to being squashed between the two you had no idea what to prepare for. 
Hizashi hummed in contemplation at your tied hands, currently in the way of his objective. “Bonds might have to go Sho, you get her hands?” The sleepy hero merely nodded grasping your wrists as Hizashi swiftly untied them. 
“Ready now primadonna?”
“Ha ha you’re soo funny Sho... but yes, shit, I’m fucking ready.”
You kept quiet this time, head pressed against Shouta’s chest as you listened to his rapidly beating heart. You gave one last pleading look to the lean blond watching intently from the sideline, but all he did was shrug his shoulders with a small smile on his face. 
“You’re going to do great princess don’t worry.” 
You felt the tips of each man at their respective entrance, Shouta's teasing your soaking cunt while Hizashi lightly probed your lubed ass. You closed your eyes and accepted defeat. They gently began to rut their hips, cocks sinking deeper with each thrust. You felt uncomfortably full as they breached you. 
“Oh fuck oh fuck I can feel you through her.” The blond quickly grabbed your breasts, tweaking your nipples like he had earlier. 
“Easy does it kitten, we got you,” Shouta groaned out. 
You weren’t a fan of Hizashi behind you, rocking forward into Shouta as they continued to fuck into you. He squeezed down on your wrists in warning, hot breath fanning the top of your head. It didn’t take much longer before they both had finally bottomed out. You groaned in distress while they groaned in bliss. 
“I’ve got her wrists you help her out alright, and take it easy.”
“Sheesh I heard yah the first time, I’ll help our lil girl out.”
Hizashi snaked a hand in between you and Shouta, finding your clit. 
They both continued fucking into you, Hizashi matching Shouta’s pace as they stimulated your body. You were angry, humiliated, and yet somehow you were so turned on it was embarrassing. You should be thrashing about, snarling into your gag, but instead all you could do was rock your body to their salacious tempo. 
Peeking your eyes open at a particularly hard thrust from Hizashi you saw Toshinori on the edge of the chair. You could just barely make out his raspy breaths and small moans over Shouta and Hizashi’s groaning. His brilliant blue eyes bore into your own. One of his hands worked his long shaft while the other was death gripping his clothed thigh. It almost looked as if steam was pouring off of him. Was he always that muscular?
You didn’t have long to contemplate Toshinori though, with a pinch to your clit Hizashi made sure to regain your attention. He had picked up his pace, throwing Shouta a bit off balance. He leaned down sucking and biting at your neck while rolling your perky nipple. Shouta felt your velvety walls clamp down around his cock, picking up his tempo to match Hizashi’s.
By now you were a mess. Traitorous moans fumbling from your mouth as the two heroes played your body. They had picked up an alternating tempo, never leaving you without a cock inside your body. The pleasure had you throwing your head back, leaving your neck exposed and making room for Shouta to join Hizashi in leaving little claiming bites all along your delicate skin. 
“She’s getting close Hizashi, we’re gonna fuck her through it alright?”
The blond pro behind you only moaned out something that sounded vaguely affirmative, eager to feel your tight walls clamp down on him. 
You were beyond fighting them, on the brink of orgasm all it took was one pointed thrust from Shouta to have you crumbling apart. You pushed back into Hizashi’s chest, his t-shirt sticking to your sweat soaked skin as you clamped down on both of them. Hizashi moaned into your neck, his quirk picking up a bit as he lost his composure. Shouta had released your hands, ripping off your gag so he could grab your face and crash his mouth to yours, swallowing your moans as your newly freed hands grabbed fist fulls of his shirt to stabilize yourself. 
As stated they continued fucking into you, dragging out your orgasm as your walls spasmed around them. Shouta’s tongue delved into your mouth, his own deep moans rumbling into you. 
“Go-gonna fuckin’ cum Sho, n- not much longer.”
In response Eraserhead reached behind you, grabbing a fist full of the blonds hair and giving it a firm tug which was enough to push him over the edge. 
“Sh-shit,” he wheezed, hips stilling as his cum filled your sore ass. “You fu- you fucking dirty cheater makin’ me finish first like that.” In kind Hizashi grabbed some of Shouta’s hair, pulling his mouth away from yours and up to his own. 
“Go ahead and cum in her Sho you know you want to,” Hizashi taunted between kisses. The familiar sound of metal against concrete drew your gaze as the all too familiar symbol of peace stood at his full height. Holy fucking shit it was All Might. 
The two pros ignored his approach, Shouta’s hips becoming a bit more deranged as he fucked into you. All Might reached in between the two and gripped your lower jaw, dazzling smile almost blinding you.
“Be a good girl now and open for me, you don’t have to swallow it all but I’d appreciate the effort.” He didn’t leave you with much of a choice finding it impossible to close your mouth with his grip, which at this point was very sore from the gag. The tip of his large member gently brushed against your lips as he shuttered at the feeling of your soft flesh. 
By this point Shouta was thrusting aggressively against your battered cervix, mouth locked with Hizahi’s as he finally reached his own release. His hips stuttered as warmth filled your cunt. 
Now all that was left was All Might. Your jaw strained to accommodate him, but he seemed to be more than aware of your limitations. He simply pushed the tip in, one hand stroking his shaft while the other gently pet your head. 
“So pretty,” he cooed down at you. “Just like that princess, I’m gonna cum now okay?” 
You simply kept your mouth open, tongue flat against the underside of his still cock as his cum filled your mouth. The bitter taste made you sputter, cum running down your chin as more took its place. After a couple more spurts he gently pulled away, some of the bitter substance sliding down your throat while the majority ended up down your chin and onto the couch below. 
All four of you were panting, frozen in time until finally All Might disappeared in a large cloud of smoke. The man you had originally believed to be some unknown hero named Toshinori now stood in his place, shyly looking down at you. 
“I guess that’s one way to show her huh big guy.” Hizashi jested. 
“I-I know probably not the most ideal but I couldn’t help myself,” he murmured a bit embarrassed. 
Hizashi and Shouta pulled out, their cum immediately running down your legs causing you to cringe a bit at the sensation. 
“You guys.. fucking suck.” was all you could think of at the moment. You waited for the rage, for them to berate or attack you, but instead all that met you was a chorus of soft chuckles.
“Figured you wouldn’t be easy to convince kitten, but don’t worry. Between the three of us you’ll come around.” 
These three men must have some thick fucking skulls to dismiss you so casually, that or their obsession was a lot deeper than you could even begin to comprehend. 
“Some fucking heroes you are,” you grumbled lowly.
“Some fuckin’ heroes we are indeed cutie! HAH get it? Cause we just fucked yah?” Hizashi laughed at his own joke while Toshinori and Shouta groaned. 
“Alright don’t make me gag you next, let’s just get everybody upstairs and clean up. We’ll do the house tour later kitten, for now we’ll just show you to your room.” 
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I have a request for your future work. If you are comfortable writing this topic, I'd love to read it.
I have always had very bad cramps when I'm on my period. I also have PMS so I struggle with pain a week before my period starts. And It makes me think, if I could not let go of this cruel pain until menopause, I'd rather stop living. (Sorry it sounds heavy)
I want Bucky to comfort women who are struggling with serious period cramps ( Dysmenorrhea ) and PMS.
Thank you for reading my request! You can ignore this if you are not feeling right!
I love you so much❤️
Of course!!!
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PMS for Please Make it Stop
Bucky x reader
Summary: Reader suffers from severe cramps and PMS symptoms on and in between her periods. Bucky, her boyfriend, comforts her as much as he can.
Word count: 1666
Warnings: talk of everything that comes with periods, pain and cramps, PMS, fluff
A/N: Thank you for the request, and I am so sorry that it’s so painful for you! I’ve had a lot of experience with “that time of the month” feeling completely unbearable, and I hope that this fic is helpful! I don’t know exactly what you’re going through because each person has different symptoms with different severities and time spans. I truly hope that this helps you! I’m always here to talk as a fellow person with periods and the emotions that come with them!
Tags: @mardema @buckfics @stucky-on-spiderman @buckys2thicc @abitgryffindorky @barnesplums @thatfangirl42 @freigeistundanderes @babyboibucky
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You rolled over in bed, curling in on yourself and using your pillow to suppress a groan. It was early morning, you could tell because the sun was up but Bucky hadn’t left for his run with Steve yet. It was that time of the month again, the one you hated so goddamn much. The one every woman hated so much. But it was never just the few days of blood they had taught you about in sex ed.
You hadn’t been prepared for the cramps, bloating, mood swings, headaches, cravings, and pain…
So. Much. Pain.
You could handle blood, that wasn’t an issue for you. You had seen your share of bloodshed on the battlefield. It was the horrible cramps that felt like something was stabbing you from the inside out constantly for a week preceding the bloodshed that was too much for you. It paralyzed you in a way. It hurt to do anything at all. As much as you hated to admit it, you could deal with any cut, burn, or broken bone. But these cramps had you curled in a ball with tears in your eyes.
You let out another groan and felt Bucky stir next to you. He turned over and rubbed one of his hands up and down your arm and pressed a kiss to your shoulder.
“Sweetheart, why are you awake?” he asked softly, sleep still lacing his voice. There were only 2 reasons that you would be awake. Either you had a nightmare, or...
You let out a small whimper as another wave of pain came over you.
...cramps.
“Hey, it’s okay, come here,” he said before carefully wrapping his arm around your stomach, rubbing small circles over your stomach. He brought his body flush against you so his chest to your back, without squeezing you too tightly. You sighed in relief, his warm body easing your pain slightly. He pressed soft kisses to your temple, whispering reassuring words in your ear.
He had learned a lot rather quickly when it came to helping you with your pain. He hadn’t known much at all at first, growing up in the 40’s where people never talked about it. When he had first walked in on you curled in the fetal position, crying and whimpering, he had been so worried. So when you referred to it as ‘just a period’ and that ‘it’s happened before', he was very confused.
He thought a period was something you ended a sentence with.
You had sent him to Nat and Wanda to explain what was happening. You had synced up with them naturally, but their cramps weren’t as severe as you. Everyone's experiences of periods, their symptoms, and PMS differently, but they felt bad for the severity of yours.
He was very confused as to why he had to ask other people about your pain. When he approached the two wide-eyed and confused, asking why you were in severe pain with no injuries, they had to try not to laugh.
They explained the basics to him, and what was off-limits. No assuming it was happening because of mood swings, no expecting you to keep functioning at peak condition, no mentioning how the emotional mood swings were happening
He was just in awe of it - how women were expected to just act naturally as if they weren’t bleeding at a constant rate while dealing with horrible pain and emotional mood swings. He thought that it was amazing that it was expected that they act naturally.
It took a little bit of trial and error and a lot of patience on both your parts, but he knew how he could help make these days as bearable as he could.
He would spend these days close to you, showing you a lot of affection. He would be gentle and patient with you, reminding you how much he loved you. He would get you anything you needed, be it food or pads or tampons. Once you had sent him to get pads and tampons and he had come back with one of every box with a sheepish look on his face.
“I didn’t know which ones you wanted so I got...all of them.”
You had laughed so hard that it hurt, but it was worth it. He made you promise not to tell Sam.
But eventually, he had learned what you needed. How he could help. The heat helped ease your cramps, so he’d hold you close, but not tightly. Rubbing your stomach helped too, in slow, lazy circles.
While he hated seeing you in pain, he loved taking care of you. Anything he could do to help you he would do.
Another cramp made you shift slightly, trying to find the impossible position that would help relieve the constant pain. You let out a small groan, trying to curl in tighter on yourself. Bucky pressed a small kiss to your temple.
“It’s okay angel, it’s alright.”
“It hurts,” you said, voice cracking.
“I know it does, I know,” he said, using his left hand to brush some hair out of your face.
“I just want it to stop hurting so much,” you said, letting out another pained whimper.
“I can’t imagine,” he said, sincerely. He couldn’t imagine the same pain every month with no relief or solution. He knew just how strong you were, strong as anyone on the team if not stronger. Seeing you in this much pain must have meant it was unbearable.
“I can’t make it go away but I’m here to do whatever I can to help, okay?” he whispered against your skin.
“I’m sorry about this,” you said.
Bucky took a deep breath. “Did you choose to go through this?” he asked softly.
“N-no.”
“Then you have nothing to apologize for.”
You nodded slightly, your heart melting. You tried to take slow and even breaths. After a few moments passed, he asked “Can I help you to the shower? You always say how much the hot water helps.”
You paused for a moment before you nodded, and he pressed another kiss to your temple before standing up and moving to the other side of the bed to help you stand. Moving from your position sounded like the worst idea right now, but you took a deep breath before taking his hands. You sat up slowly, groaning as your hand wrapped around your stomach. You stood up shortly after, bending forward slightly as you made your way to the bathroom with Bucky. He had noticed a bloodstain on the bed, but he didn’t say anything. You didn’t need to know that.
He turned on the water for you, checking the temperature every few moments. Once he deemed that it was hot enough but wasn’t going to burn your skin, he told you and gave you a quick hug before giving you some privacy. You had always enjoyed intimate showers together just...not when you had your period to worry about. When he closed the door, you started to slowly undress to get into the shower. You got into the shower, sighing in relief as it helped soothe your cramps.
Bucky, meanwhile, was working fast. First he texted Steve that he wouldn’t be able to make it to training today, knowing he would understand. He then moved to make the bed with clean sheets, so you wouldn't see the small bloodstain on the current ones. He didn’t want you to worry or feel bad about it. He grabbed a pair of sweatpants and one of his t-shirts that you had always loved. He cracked the bathroom door open and placed them on the counter, careful not to disturb you. He then quickly ran down to the kitchen, still empty for the moment, and grabbed a few of your favorite snacks along with a few water bottles to bring back upstairs.
When he came back to the room, he noticed the water had been turned off. He set the water and snacks on the bedside table as you opened the bathroom door, hair in a messy bun and looking much more refreshed. “Feeling better?”
“A little,” you said quietly before wincing slightly. Bucky gave you a small smile before taking your hand and bringing you over to the bed, him sitting down and leaning against the headboard. He helped you sit down between his legs so you were able to lean your back against his chest. You laid your head back against him and he wrapped his arms around you so his human arm was on your lower stomach, his metal arm resting over it. You let out a small sigh, relaxing back against him. He pressed a small kiss to your temple, rubbing smooth lazy circles on your stomach.
“Try to get some rest, doll.” he whispered. “We can watch your favorite movie when you wake up.”
You turned slightly to look up at him. “But you hate that movie.”
“But you don’t,” he said simply.
You felt tears brim your eyes even though it felt so stupid. “I love you, Bucky.’
“I love you too angel,” he whispered, pressing a last kiss to the side of your head. “Try to get some rest.”
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Hello! I’ve been reading your Doctor Strange fics for a while and so far I have loved every single one!!! And so, I have finally decided to reach out a request a fanfiction :) I was hoping, if you feel up for it, a super angsty Stephen Strange x female reader??? Like she’s dies in his arms- I know dramatic but I am one for theatrics ;) anyways, like, maybe while she’s dying he’s thinking back on a whole bunch of domestic little moments of them as a couple- like early mornings with her on the counter as he makes breakfast or late nights watching movies on the couch??? And when he snaps back to reality it’s just her reassuring him that’s he’s going to be okay, not as concerned for herself as she is for him? Feel free to take complete creative liberties with this :) I’m not super picky and am sure I will love whatever you write! Thank you so much, I can’t wait to see what you do with this <3
Shattered Glass
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Stephen Strange x f! Reader
Warnings: Super super angsty with death :') , but there's fluff mixed up in there too
Summary: After the battle, Stephen finds a wounded (Y/N) on the ground and tries to think of a way to save her but fails.
A/N: I hope you guys like this 💖💖💖 !! Honestly though I loved this writing idea but it is very angsty :') But if you like my writing, feel free to leave a request, I love doing them :)
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Stephen bit his bottom lip tightly, hoping to prevent the tremble that began as he took in her weak figure, her soft, delicate skin was splattered with copper colored liquid, lips turning a pale, sickly blue, as he watched the deep crimson stain in her lower stomach grow in size, dying her dirt-covered suit so that it resembled the same deep wine that she loved so much. Ripping off the bottom of his tunic, he pressed the material against her wound, the doctor in him racing for a solution without success, as some of the scarlet liquid quickly took control of it, reaching his scarred hands, staining them, making him notice the warm, salty trails that streamed down his cheeks, dripping onto her chest. Tilting his head up to the dull, grey sky, he began to blink rapidly, a futile attempt to stop the tears from falling down, a form of denial perhaps, which availed to nothing as they only grew more tormented and vigorous, like waves of a heartbroken storm.
His soft sobs, made her heart ache, numbing the dull pain that was increasing, enveloping her body, as she reached a dusty hand out to cup his cheek, "Darling, it- it's ok", gaining his attention so that he tilted his head down to gaze at her again, voice frail and fractured as she spoke, "Just- just look into- into my eyes", forcing the tears that threatened to spill over her face down, when she took in his broken expression.
As he continued to stare at her, he could've sworn that he heard his heart crack, like glass, amidst all the shouts and sorrow that boomed across the expanse, her braided hair had come loose, spreading wildly around her head, like a crown that was sticky and knotted in certain areas, her sparkling eyes were now dull and foggy, like she wasn't entirely there, even as she forced a painful smile on her face, she still looked ethereal to him. Swallowing the lump in his throat, he steadied his voice, trying to urge the edges of his lips to curve upwards into a smile, for her, but they seemed to have a plan of their own, appearing more as a grimace, stammering out, "(Y/N), I- I can- can fix this-", using a free hand to grab hers, rubbing gentle circles into her icy, skin with his calloused fingers, "Just- I need- Just stay awake- please", his gentle voice almost breaking as the words came out.
His voice snapped her back to reality as her mind began to drift into the endless empty space, using her little strength to squeeze his palm that was intertwined in hers, "It'll be ok Stephen", frowning at the worried look that reflected through his eyes at her, struggling to speak as she tried to keep herself from straying away from him, ignoring the temptation of peace that lingered in the back of her head if she simply let go, hoping to calm his racing heart before that, "Do you- um- do you remember what my favorite part of the day is ?".
Pressing his lips together into a narrow, very fake and forced smile, he pushed down the pang of agony that flowed through his body, with each thump from his heart, wishing that he was the one in her arms, instead of this, knowing that it would be infinitely less painful than the current situation, "I- What ?", lying to himself that if he keeping her talking would give him time to think of a way to save her.
Her expression softened slightly, eyes turning to the sun for a moment, as if she was moving back in time, a flashback within her own mind, before turning back to him, the words streaming from her lips easily, "Movie nights with you", fixating her gaze back on him, filled with affection and adoration as she did, distracting his panic-stricken mind for a second as he thought back to the comforting memory along with her ----
"Stephen, if you aren't here in the next five seconds", she exclaimed from where she lay snuggled into the fluffy, silky covers of their bed, feet tucked into each other, the neon lights from the television screen reflecting onto her face, as she peered through the open door frame, expecting her sorcerer to walk through soon, "I'm going to watch this movie without you", hoping her threat would urge him to walk faster.
However, she found that her lips curved upwards into an excited grin as he walked in, balancing the large, shiny, cream colored bowl in his arms, filled to the brim, with golden, buttered, salty popcorn, playfully rolling his eyes at her earlier statement, "I think you can wait a little longer", handing the bowl into her outstretched arms, "especially for popcorn". He lifted the covers, making her hiss softly, as he tucked himself under it too, smirking as he felt her press her body into his, tangling her legs up with his, arms snaking around his waist, clutching softly. She hummed contently when one of his hands reflexively settled on her legs, enjoying the warmth he brought, as he lovingly rubbing the exposed skin, while the other steadied the bowl of popcorn between their intertwined frames, careful not to dirty the fresh sheets, as she reached for the remote, clicking the start button.
After half an hour, (Y/N) found the room strangely silent, Stephen's usual sarcastic comments not filling the space, making her giggle uncontrollably until her body was sore and she had almost fallen of the edge of the bed, close to an injury, turning her head to gaze at the man in question. She bit her lips hard, to stifle the laugh that grew in her throat when she was took in the sight of her boyfriend next to her, head tilted back in an extremely unattractive angle, mouth agape slightly, a trail of drool tracking down his chin, as he leaned slightly more towards her frame. Without tearing her eyes from him, she stuck her hand out behind her, aimlessly grabbing around the bedside table, searching for the cool, surface of her phone, her mischievous grin growing at her success. Tapping at the bright screen, she positioned the smartphone strategically in front of the sleeping sorcerer, clicking the button, snickering at the golden opportunity she was presented with. Unfortunately for her, she let out a high-pitched yelp, startling the man before her, forgetting that her flash was on, the sudden brightness in the once darkened room shocking her, making her jump back slightly. Composing herself, she tightened her grip on the slim, rectangle object in her hands, having played out similar situations multiple times, knowing that she had to defend this thing like her life depended on it if she wanted to keep this picture, soon to become the crowning jewel in her collection of pictures of the great sorcerer supreme, sitting back up only to be met with a knife-like glare. Sending him a sheepish smile, she promptly shoved herself of the bed, falling on the floor, making her groan in pain slightly before running out the room, giggling as she called out, "Love, I'm so sorry but this is so worth it", her voice filling the empty corridors.
Stephen remained amongst the tussled covers of the bed, sighing exasperatedly to himself, flopping down to the other side of the bed, creating a loud thumping sound, as the sounds of her footsteps grew quiet, too tired to chase after the woman, opting to yell from where he lay, enveloped comfortably in warmth, "You are so lucky that I'm in love with you".
---- A small trickle of joy flowed through him, making the edges of him mouth curl upwards into a small smile, promptly morphing into regret, thinking about how he should have chased after her, the bounding laughter, bouncing off the ancient walls of the sanctum they called home, relished in the brilliant luminance of delight and happiness that she radiated, like the sun of his world, where he existed only to revolve around her. Bringing himself back to the melancholy of the situation, he focused his attention back on the woman who was using his arms as support as she gazed into his eyes longingly, so full of devotion and love for him. He had-, has-, correcting his inner voice sternly, always loved the way she loved, so intense and passionate, throwing her whole being into it, the emotion practically seeping out of her, filling his own heart, once darkened in despair from his accident, making his head spin and turn giddy, like she was a drug that brought such extreme ecstasy, helping him find the light in his life again.
Trying to project strength in his voice, he fixated his gaze on her, using his hand to tuck away a strand of hair covering the front of her face, "Do you- um- Do you remember the first time I made you breakfast", attempting to discreetly wipe away the tears that stained his cheeks, which mixed with the dirt on his face, creating smudges of grey and brown across his cheeks. When no response came he felt his breath hitch in his throat, gently tapping her cheek, making her eyes flutter aimlessly around their surroundings for a while before landing on him, giving him a feeble grin, as she stuttered out, "How could I forget", she giggled a little, before wincing in pain as her hand shot out to clutch her side, still keeping the amused expression as she recalled the chaotic event ---
Light streamed into the spacious room, shining into the woman's eyes, stirring her from sleep, to which she responded by groaning, flopping over to her other side, digging her face deeper into the comforting, fluffy pillow, moving an arm around the bed, searching for the man that should have been next to her, with no avail, met only with edges of the silky duvet covers. She huffed annoyed, sticking her head up slightly, blinking a few times to get rid of the sleep in her eyes, as the room surrounding her slowly came into focus, her mouth curling into a frown when she took in the empty space next to her, sighing as she swung her feet out of the bed, planting them on the ground, "Why does he have to be such an early riser ?".
Pulling on a pair of short that were tossed haphazardly on the velvety chair in the corner of the room, she raised a hand to cover her yawn as she walked out of the door, walking slowly, still recovering from her slumber. Her footsteps echoed through the empty space, as she padded along the dark, hardwood panels that made the floor, reaching a hand to steady herself on the banister as she continued down the stairs, groaning quietly to herself, "Why are there so many stairs here ?", wrapping her arms around her frame when she had made it to the bottom, feeling the cold chill of December's morning caress the skin of her exposed skin.
As she turned another corner, she found that she was unconsciously making her way to the kitchen, calling out as she moved, eyes scanning the space around her, "Stephen", looking for her sorcerer, desperately still wanting to curl up next to his body, to steal some of the warmth that his body seemed to always radiate, "Stephen, Where are you ?".
Seconds later, she was able to answer her own question, leaning against the wall, watching the man struggle to make breakfast, frowning over his phone, so absorbed in his task that he was oblivious to her presence, multi-tasking as his eyes occasionally drifted to the iron-cast pan that sizzled dangerously at his side, yelping in pain when a tiny drop of oil jumped from the heated surface onto his forearm, making him jerk backwards, sending the object a glare as he turned the heat down. She gripped tightly at her sides, watching his actions, silently debating on whether she should come to his rescue or not, deciding to wait a little longer, wondering how the situation would play out if she let it.
He turned to his left, where a two plates sat, holding matching breakfast items, eggs, hash-browns and what she assumed was meant to be toast, her confusion arising from the fact that they more so seemed to resemble squares of charcoal, dark as the night sky. Groaning in frustration, "I'm a neurologist and a sorcerer", he gave the reflective, clean, white plates a furious look, eyebrows furrowed together, his lips forming a scowl the longer he looked at it, "Why is this hard ?".
Her eyes drifted towards the toaster that was nestled in the corner of the counter, quickly taking note of the settings, as she moved closer to the man, her steps alerting him, as his head spun around to face, giving a sheepish smile, as she curled her arms around his waist, nuzzling her face closer into the crook of his neck, placing a delicate kiss on the exposed skin, before tilting her head to lean comfortably on his shoulder, as she spoke gently into his ear, "Maybe cause you didn't check the heat settings, darling". Giggling as she watched his eyes move to the offending toaster, to which he turned around so that they were chest to chest, pulling her closer to him, in search of comfort, sighing contently when she began to sway their intertwined frames leisurely, gratefully smiling up at him, "I know what you were trying to do, and thank you". He pulled back slightly, lowering his head from where it was nestled on the top of hers, sighing in defeat, “I really didn’t think it was going to be this hard”, earning an amused grin from her, trying but failing to suppress the smile that began to bloom on his face too.
Trailing her fingers down the side of his face, moving to cup his cheek, running her thumb up and down the flushed skin, as she tilted his head down to meet hers, making their lips connect, instinctively moving in sync with each other, his grip on her waist tightening, in an attempt to tug her closer toward him. Breaking the kiss, she rested her forehead against his, the only sound between the being their soft pants, until the most unpleasant smell floated through the air till it reached her nose, causing her to tear herself from him, shrieking as her hands flailed out, in reach of the soot colored pan, “The bacon-“, tossing it onto the heat mat, conveniently sat next to the stove, “we forgot about the bacon”. He stared at her, as she wiped her palms messily on the edges of her shirt, before resting them on her hips, giving him an apologetic look which promptly morphed into confusion, when the growing laughter in his throat finally escaped into the space around them. Contagious enough to make her join him, she stepped into his comforting embrace, nestling her face against his chest, enjoying the ridiculousness of the situation with him.
--- She coughed thickly, transferring her back to the non-ideal situation, her hand instantly rising to cover her mouth, revealing dark, wine-colored streaks across the skin, making her heart leap in fear, only worsening when she watched Stephen's face contort with concern. Promptly wiping her palms against the material of her suit, she stammered out, fighting the burning pain that was spreading throughout her skin and body, voice almost become a wispy sound of the breeze that blew past them, "I-I'm fine- Stephen", grimacing slightly as she spoke.
He felt that warm liquid stream down his face again, to pre-occupied to wipe them away as they continued down his cheeks, creating an upsetting salty taste in his mouth as some strayed from their original path, making his lips curve into a frown, exclaiming, "No- No- You're not fine", bringing a hand up to shield his eyes from her, more angry and upset in himself than her, "I need to save you". He should be able to save her, he has to, he needed her.
Feeling a roughened palm trail his cheek, he uncovered his eyes, fixating them on the frail woman before him, the soft smile that was spread across her face making his heart pound even more frantically at the thought of losing her. Thumbing away his tears, she brushed her fingers along his cheek, making him sigh defeatedly, knowing the words that would eventually spill from her lips, the thought alone enough to shatter his heart to pieces. "I can't be saved, and it's not your fault", she almost whispered out, feeling the wetness of her own tears, pouring across her bloodied skin, hot and agonized, the true reality it finally washing over her "You- You'll move on ... eventually, you'll learn- learn to live without me". She bit the inside of her cheek tightly, teeth pushing aggressively at the tender surface, stopping the intense sobs that she thought would overcome her. How could she leave the man she loved like this, not by choice, but they were at a dead-end now.
Using a finger he tilted her face up, so that they gazed directly into each others eyes, as he stumbled upon his words, "If- If- I had known that-", feeling the weight of his emotions crumbling down on him, struggling to hold it up, to keep himself strong for her.
Sensing the regret and guilt, running through him, she grabbed his scarred hand, twisting their fingers together, squeezing softly, feeling more like a brush than anything else, but still managed to catch his attention, "There was only one way for us to win", her words wobbly and unsteady, but the sureness in her voice was unwavering, "This is not your fault", bringing a a very slight ease to him.
Feeling herself consciousness grow more distant, drifting into the unknown, she clutched onto him tighter, the agonizing burning that coursed and tore at her body getting stronger, eyes shifting left and right nervously, searching for an impossible relief. Noticing her sudden change in demeanor, he leaned closer toward to her frame, their faces only a few centimeters apart, noses touching, perfectly nestled next to each other, "I'll be fine, let go", finally connecting their lips, for a passionate, slow, desperate kiss, a silent, final 'I love you', moving in sync, their tears creating a salty taste in their mouths.
Breaking the kiss, he positioned his hands on her hair, gently stroking and untangling the knots that had formed in the heat of battle, watching as her eyes fluttered, the light that glittered in them being reduced to a dim spark and eventually nothing, as her chest stopped rising up and down. No longer able to control the emotion, he let it take control of him, the tears falling down freely, blurring his sight, so that everything around him was a muddy mix of colors, only swiping his hand across them to focus on her body, before raising a hand to tenderly close her eyelids. Holding her body close to him, he wrapped his arms delicately around her waist, already missing the way her hands used to instantly intertwine behind his neck, face nestled into the crook of his neck, placing soft kisses on the warm skin, only increasing the strength of his sobs, comparing how she now felt ice-cold and had gone pale, all the life poured out of her, like a broken porcelain doll in his lap. Leaning in, still cradling her, he softly placed his lips on her forehead, rocking her back and forth gently, his tears staining her skin, dampening the spots on her face where hers had already dried. He continued to hold her close to him, wishing he could still go back in time, and put himself in her place, feeling his heart crack slowly before shattering into jagged pieces of glass, clattering onto the ground, echoing in the emptiness of himself, feeling that a part of him died along with her.
Word Count: 3362
- also @thefluffypan I hope I brought your idea to life and that you like it :) -
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Who Hurt You? | Kaz Brekker x Sister!Reader
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Requested by anon: “Can you write a Kaz brekker fic where he has a younger sister who he takes care of, and one day she comes home after having a little fight and all he wants to do is take revenge on whoever layed a finger on his baby sister, but she wants him to stay by her side and take care of her?”
Pairing: Kaz Brekker x sister!reader, Jesper x Reader (platonic), Nina x reader (platonic)
Word Count: 1088
Warnings: angst, injured reader, brief description of injuries, Kaz’s fear of touching, some cute stuff
A/N: it didn't turn out exactly like the request but its close? Also I’m bad at endings but I hope you like it. As always, spelling and grammar are not my strongest skills so please be kind :) 
(Backstory for anyone who hasn't read the books: Kaz and his brother Jordie were conned by Pekka Rollins and lost all their money. While living on the streets they got sick and Jordie died.)
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“HELP!” Jesper yells as he carries your badly beaten and lifeless body into the Crow club “I NEED HELP!”
Nina is the first to run over, clearing a table for Jesper to lay you down on and immediately checking you over.
“What happened?” Kaz asks, rushing over to your side.
“I found her in the alley round the corner, looks like she was beaten up and dumped there” 
“She’s alive, just about.” Nina explains “Her heart rate is very slow and she’s struggling to breathe”
“Can you help her?” Jesper asks
“I’m not a healer, but I’ll see what I can do” she says, placing her hand gently on your chest right above your heart. She closes her eyes, focusing on your heartbeat as Jesper grips your hand in his. 
Kaz stands on the side of the table, anxiously watching for a sign that you’ll be okay. Seeing his little sister, his only remaining family, lying there bruised and bleeding on the table breaks his heart. He scans your face taking in the deep slash on your cheek, the black eye, the dried blood around your nose. His eyes continue to scan down your body at the torn clothes now stained with dirt and deep red blood, until he reaches your hand which is covered in scratches and tightly encased in Jesper’s hands. He stares down at your other hand lying on the table in front of him and he inches himself closer to it, willing himself to hold it. 
He looks back at your face and after taking a deep breath he finally takes your hand in his gloved one. Jesper looks at him in shock but he ignores his friend, choosing to focus on you. His little sister who needs him right now. 
Suddenly you take a deep breath, slowly exhaling as your breathing becomes normal. Nina removes her hand and takes a step back. 
Your eyes slowly flutter open and you look around, taking in your surroundings as you realise where you are. You look at Jesper and he gives your hand an affectionate squeeze. That’s when you realise someone else is holding your other hand. You turn your head to see the black leather gloved hand in yours and look up at your brother.
“Kaz?” You say quietly. He gives you a tiny nod as he allows himself to let go of your hand. You understand how hard it will have been for him to do that, he can’t stand the feeling of touching someone. Even his own sister. 
“How do you feel?” Nina asks, rushing to your side to help you as you try to sit up.
“Like shit” is all you say watching your brother as he now slowly paces the room deep in thought, his cane tapping quietly on the floor with each step. 
“I’ll run you a bath and we’ll get you cleaned up”
You smile at Nina before she turns and heads upstairs. 
“I’m glad you're okay, you gave us a fright” Jesper says, taking a seat on the table next to you.
“sorry about that” you say, smiling back at him
“Who did this to you?” Kaz finally speaks, the smiles quickly drops off your face.
“It doesn’t matter”
“Someone thinks it’s okay to hurt my sister and leave her for dead and I can’t have that, so tell me who hurt you?”
“Please just leave it-”
“Who?”
“Just some guys-”
“Y/N!”
“Pekka Rollins” you finally admit and Kaz’s face turns to pure rage.
“I’ll kill him” Jesper says, jumping up and grabbing the guns from his pocket.
“I already tried that. Kinda why I’m in this mess” you say, letting out a small awkward laugh “I broke into his office-”
“Leave us” Kaz interrupts you, dismissing Jesper but never taking his eyes off you. 
There’s an awkward silence as you and Jesper silently exchange a look before Jesper goes to leave. He stops next to Kaz.
“Go easy on her” he says quietly and Kaz shoots him a look. 
Once Jesper is gone Kaz turns his attention back to you, anger in his eyes. You're in trouble. 
“What were you thinking?! Trying to take on Pekka Rollins on your own, he could have killed you! He almost did!”
“Jordie!” You snap, shouting back at him rendering him silent “I was thinking about Jordie, and how he would still be alive if Pekka hadn’t stolen all of our money.” 
“Y/N” Kaz sighs sympathetically. 
“It’s not fair Kaz. Our brother is dead because of him and he’s just walking around like nothing happened!”
“I know. Trust me, I hate Pekka Rollins just as much as you do-”
“Then why is he still alive? Why aren’t we doing anything?” 
“We will Y/N, we will make him pay for what he did but not yet. We can’t just go rushing in there like you did today. We need to take our time and plan this properly. But most importantly, we need each other.” 
He’s right and you know it, but you don't want to admit it so you just look away. Kaz sighs as he takes a seat next to you on the table, close but not close enough to touch.
“I need you to promise me you won’t try anything like this again” he says
“I promise” you look up at him “and I’m sorry I made you worry”
“I’m your big brother, its my job to worry about you” he flashes a small smile before his face returns to its naturally serious look. He stands up, leaning slightly on his cane. “I’ve got work to do. Do you need anything before I go?” 
“Can you send Jesper back in here?” 
“Why?”
“Because I’ve had a pretty rough day and I could really do with a hug” you say honestly. 
Kaz turns to leave, but stops. He stands still for a moment and you watch him confused as he takes a deep breath and turns back to you. Suddenly he pulls you in and hugs you tightly. After you get over the initial shock you close your eyes and sink into his arms, making the most of every moment. After a few seconds he lets go and takes a few steps back trying to calm himself down. You give him the time he needs to recover.
“Thank you” you say quietly when he finally looks at you. He just nods in response and sits down next to you again “I thought you had work to do?”
“It can wait”
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