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kitchenlittle · 1 year

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I want to make a little PSA and warning about future content being posted to my page very soon. I will not stand for the slander of writers who choose to write about Miles Morales due to popularity of the movies. Let me make something clear since it seems there are many fake Marvel Fans out there who know nothing about the universes. THERE ARE UNIVERSES WHERE MILES IS ALREADY AN ADULT.

Earth-8 comes to mind where Miles is LITTERALY a full grown MAN MARRIED TO GWEN STACY and they have 2 CHILDREN TOGETHER. Their names are Charlotte and Max Morales. LOOK IT UP IF YOU DONT BELIEVE.

Every universe has a differing age/look from the Miles Morales we see in the movies and know why? BECAUSE THERE IS DARN NEAR THOUSAND IF NOT INFINITE universes of Miles. SO YES. There is a universe with events just like the movie with slight differences and Miles over the age of 18. So litteraly any story about about Miles would litteraly be cannon in someway!

Just like how we can have a Adult Peter Parkers like in the movie exist at the same time as underage Peter Parkers like Tom Holland's. Or should I say," -Dr. Strange and the little nerd on Earth 199999 (AKA Tom Holland)"~Miguel O'hara. And if you were paying attention to the movies you'd know that Miles cannonly exist in live-action human form. Uncle Aaron played by musician and actor childish gamebino mentions he has a nephew who wants to protect to Spiderman. You see that same prowler Childish Gambino Uncle Aaron captured in the new movie. He was captured by Hobie Brown and locked uo as anamoly needing to be sent back to his universe. Meaning that Adult Miles can exist at the same time as kid Miles!

NOT ONLY THAT. But here is some hyprocracy I have found. THE ANIME FANDOM. The most popular characters in the anime are 15- 16. FROM Deku and Bakugou FROM MY HERO, to Luffy FROM ONEPEICE, to Sukuna/Yuji from JUJITSU KAISEN and many many more. Most main characters are highschool age. HOW IS IT? That they can age up charecter that alot of times we will never see 18 or older and write a fanfic sometimes while the charecter in the story is still 15-16 and get a away with it. But Miles Morales authors go out their way to age him up before they even write it and litteraly aren't wrong since their are universe where he is older, are weirdos and pe***. I don't see some anime writers doing that? Make it make sense?

I PERSONALLY DONT EVEN WRITE FOR FOR CHARECTERS THAT DONT HAVE A CANON ADULT VERSION OF THEM AVAILABLE FROM THE OG CREATORS IN MEDIA. Guess who fits the criteria? MILES MORALES.

A message for my unsure authors out there.

~So for all my writers not their scared to post their fics. Label it Earth-8 Miles who is a father and husband to Gwen and say it's a headcannon of what ps happend he's 18-25 before he got married if you feel that weird about it.

Some of ya'll are fake fans who completely missed the point of the movie and it's implications. Don't come in my DMs telling me to take anything down because I'm not. You will be blocked and locked out of interacting with my page. And if you feel uncomfortable block me. Just know if you block you will be missing out of 50+ fics I've been working on 18+ characters for about a year now and will be posting starting in July. It's littersly an event I've been working on called the 'Lemon Fest', since it's my birthday month.

Once again every charcter I write about had a cannon adult version of them made by the creators or is already an adult. I was going to keep this a secret by I've gotta protect my fellow authors especially if they are being wrongly targeted. Wanna get mad? Wanna get angry at some authors? Get mad at the ones the ones that write about you favorite anime charecters that are likely 15-16 then ask them to delete it...oh wait...you won't.. because if done that would litteraly be deleting 3/4 of the fanfiction written on this site.

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pygmypyncher · 7 months

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Hello, hope this is ok. Just to say how much I have enjoyed your writing for Bodies. Your writing is so beautifully detailed, and the internal nuances are delightful to wander amongst. I have read all TRC books, not my favourite, but I really like your fics, but Oh boy, I can see how your writing has developed since then. So, just a big thank you for writing all these pieces. (Do you have any recs for queer media that you have enjoyed?)

Thank you so much for messaging! It's really lovely of you to say!

Also very glad to hear my writing has come on since the TRC days! I was very proud of those fics at the time, and really do still think of them fondly, but I am aware of how much I've grown as a writer since then (hence the slight jumpscare this morning, for which I can only apologise!).

Queer media! Let me dredge my memories for a bit, and I will no doubt mention stuff you've heard of or watched/read already. There are doubtless SEVERAL things I've forgotten, as it is well past my bedtime, but if any glaring omissions occur to me I'll send them on! Shows: Recently I've really enjoyed Our Flag Means Death - you've probably at least heard of it (and as you've been looking at my AO3 you'll have seen I've written for it), and it's completely different from either TRC or Bodies tonally bc it is, in essence, a pirate sitcom, but there is honestly nothing so unashamedly and joyously queer out there at the moment. The fandom is a bit of a terrifying juggernaut, so I suggest treading neatly round the edges and delving into some absolutely top-tier fic (of which there is no shortage) if the whim takes you. On the other side of the pirate scale is Black Sails (DO NOT compare these directly they are very different beasts). Excellent story, very dark and gritty, great pay-off. Deadloch is another great show - Australian detective black comedy, filled to the brim with lesbians! The Haunting of Bly Manor is just a gorgeous ghost/love story with some brilliant characters. Feel Good is one of these unexpectedly heart-breaking sitcoms that I can't recommend enough even though it took me a year to build up the courage for a rewatch A League of Their Own (TV) is just brilliant, and i am GUTTED we're not getting a s2 I'm gonna stick Miss Fisher's Murder Mysteries here too, bc even though it isn't actually all that queer (but it DOES have Miriam Margolyes, which definitely qualifies it), it's super camp and has what is possibly the only straight mc romance i've ever been invested in which is saying something Books: KJ Charles is a favourite of mine. She writes really great, quick-to-read queer historical romances that always have a great mystery and body count. The Will Darling Adventures (1920s pulp action-mystery with a romance between an ex-soldier who now runs a second-hand bookshop and a disgraced aristo) are my absolute favourites of hers, but everything she writes is very solid. I've also really enjoyed The Locked Tomb by Tamsyn Muir series so far - very complicated Space Opera, again chock-full of lesbians. Sex: Lessons From History by Fern Riddell is a really interesting non-fiction book about, shockingly, attitudes to sex through history, and takes a delightfully non-heteronormative approach to it that I wasn't expecting going in. As Meat Loves Salt by Maria McCann is an all-time favourite read of mine, but is quite challenging as the main character is Not The Greatest Guy and it does carry some hefty stuff and warnings. Girl Meets Boy and How to Be Both by Ali Smith are both just brilliant stories with some great Gender Stuff going on.

Like i say, I'm sure I've missed stuff! And it's a bit all over the place because, as well as replying to your AO3 comments too early this morning, I am now answering this too late at night. I am sorry, but can do nothing about it :P I hope this is a little bit helpful at least! <3

#vmcgmidlifecrisis #ask #answered #dammit i meant to answer this privately sorry #but can't undo it without deleting everything

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desultory-novice · 9 months

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So some more details for Kirby and The Circle of Time:

Some lore I'm including for this is that Kirby and Zero both spawned from Void in its orb state, whereas Eifilis spawned from Void in its beast/Termina form. As such, Kirby and Zero warp space in order to surpass time,,whereas Eifilis warps time in order to surpass space. Kirby and Zero also act more like blackholes,,whereas Eifilis acts more like a sun.

Marx here is still very chaotic neutral. He's helping the main crew because "Kirby owes him a ten tier cake." Of course, that partially a lie, for he does care for Kirby. He still wants that cake, though.

Magolor acts as the party shopkeep and the sort of... lore keeper of the group. He appears at random locations,,selling various upgrades for party members and also dropping hints at lore for this game.

Shadow Kirby plays a huge part in saving our Kirby.

Hi Winter!

Elfilis as an offspring of Void! Oooh, I've never heard of that before! I really like it!

Plus "warping space in order to surpass time" "warping time in order to surpass space" Hello?! That is SO cool sounding?!

Plus the black hole/sun comparison!

I love your description of Marx's motivations, his false ones and his real ones! And I've always thought Magolor would be a great RPG shopkeeper! I'm glad someone's going through with that!

As for shifting the project...

You know, there's nothing wrong with that. Programs like RPG Maker (not sure if you were thinking that or not) are supposed to make it very easy to make an RPG but... that's only an RPG if you're using their resources. I should know, I tried to make one for a different fandom I was in.

I ran out of resources about one town in and found I was spending sooo much time making custom stuff I wasn't progressing on it at all. (And that's ignoring the time spent making custom character sprites/portraits for my party.)

And if it's story-based/has a good story (as I believe it does, based on what you've told me) then you're not losing much by writing it as a fanfic! Just some random battles, and who needs those, right?

...I do wonder about Nintendo take downs though. I've heard they can be brutal, but there's another Kirby RPG project that just came back from the dead and Gamble Galaxy (?) Stories didn't seem to run into any trouble. It's true that would be a really awful way for your project to end though.

(That's partially why, for my own Kirby fan game, I've been thinking I might just work on it entirely in the background. Not doing anything more public than the kind of vague hints I've dropped before.

And then, when it's done, just drop the thing on social media *BAM* and run!! Hope that people circulate the tapes after the ninjas get to me! They may take down The Crazy Idea, but at least the version traded back and forth on secret Discords will be the full version, and not a demo doomed to be forever unfinished!)

As for your last ask...

God, I would love that! Honestly, I feel like that is a worthy fan-game project all on its own! I don't know how complex it would be, as Chao Garden seems to have stuff in it that people are still figuring out to this day (?) but Chao Garden as a (mini) game really ought to have dozens and dozens of spiritual sequels.

I think what makes it stand out from other "collect cute pets" game like Neko Atsume or that recent bunny island game that just came out IS the interaction element. You can walk around and tour the garden on your own two feet. You're not just collecting adorable PNGs.

But given that Waddle Dees are already shown to have slight color variation in Kirby and the Forgotten Land.. plus Key Dees and Golden Dees... And oh, giving Waddle Dees little animal features!!

Yes, that would be good.

If it's not in the cards for the fandom to make, maybe HAL will grace us with a mini-game similar to that down the line...!\

#Kirby #Dess Concepts #Dess Quick Asks #Waddle Dee

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dbblovesklance · 11 months

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This has been bouncing in my head ever since Voltron ended years ago, and I'm sure several people have ranted about the same thing, but I really need to get this off my chest. My mind is full and I need to write it out.

It's time to Screech about Klance!

First thing's first, I stan Klance and I'll die on that hill!

I'm still upset wasn't Klance wasn't canon.

Not necessarily Klance in particular, but the idea of them.

Where two 'rivals' butt heads and annoy one another constantly yet, grow closer and become a better team through eventual respect and appreciation. One moody loner and one goofball against the world. It shouldn't work, yet no matter how many times I see fanfiction written about these two, countless times over am I reminded just how well it would have worked.

And that's the part that gets me the most, it works! Their relationship works!

Whether or not it would've been properly given a chance, that I do not know.

And I can't help but think after all this time why we haven't a sci-fi story depicting a mlm relationship (specifically like a Klance version though I'll take any at this point)?

I know why it doesn't happen. I know.

But I can't help my yearning for more. For a relationship that is the main part of the sci-fi story, a necessary and impactful section for the story. Or maybe a sub-plot that we see on the underbelly and it bleeds into the main plot. One that you would miss the tiny details for along the way and slowly builds into a bigger section of the story.

It is not ostracized or frowned upon, rather, their story doesn't focus on their struggle in being LGBTQIA+. They are simply allowed to exist, and love. Love so deeply even the stars would rattle from their heartbeats.

They end up becoming a couple and they are important to the story, but it's not this whole thing. In so many shows, it's always a thing, and yes, for a moment it should be addressed that significance on them being together because 'the world wouldn't approve blah blah blah,' except only in passing. As they are in space, laws and beliefs hold no candle under the oceanic, starlit sky.

I want a sci-fi story with a mlm relationship where both are important to the story, and neither of them die at the end! Let the straights die for once if you're so desperate for death. Let's be more creative, there a far more interesting plotlines that don't include killing off a character.

While it might sound contradicting, half of me is glad it wasn't canon. Or at least grateful that a good portion of the fandom, if not the majority, saw the significance between these two, and how much potential they had? The amount of countless fanfictions (over 33k!! at this point) that have them fall in love. Over and over again, we see it work. It works!

I don't if it would have held up as well if it had become canon. The what if's are filled. We've seen them be together, the build, their lives, their passion, their tender care. I'm not sure if it would have had more or less, and I have a feeling I know the answer. For all the world has given me, one thing I'll forever be grateful for is people's unending will to find love in the more unwilling places. Every nook and cranny, a small blush against the ears and a slight hidden dimple at the corner of a slow smile.

It only continues to grow more and more, continuously pulling countless people towards a wonderful beginning and holds them close as they drown their thirst in all the many what if's that were never answered.

I know the fanfictions help ease my soul in the what if's for what could have been, and I'll never ask for more, really I won't...yet, I still yearn.

Despite it all, I still yearn.

#got a little weird at the end there whoops #anyway the potential was wasted on them as it always is #now I want a dynamic like them but only if it's sci-fi and has the same aesthetic as Voltron only better overall story #it's a lot to ask for but ahhhhhHHHH #anyway #screeching done <3 #not sure if this is like tone deaf or whatnot #i had to think it out so sorry if it seems scattered and things are repeated - i had to silence the brain before slumber #klance #keith x lance #vld #voltron #voltron legendary defender #writing #fanfiction #fanfic #dbb screeching #dbb drabbles

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thebardscipher · 1 year

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🤩 Who is your favorite character to write? Oh this depends on fandoms and fic and au lol Let me go look at my AO3 to see what I'm currently playing in lol or played a lot in in the past...

For Sonic in general its probably Tails (there is a reason like 90% of my AUs center around him). He's just this kid that's smarter than most adult but at the same time is still a kid. Also I like writing him having a slight rebellious streak because I write him at like the age of ten, and "I'm not a child anymore, I don't need to be guarded at all times, I've done things on my own, I can help out here!" (And also, his role model is AND he was raised by Sonic who is also very much a "I'm going to help out even if the situation could put my life at risk" person) so I like writing him going "I'm going to do this potential dangerous thing!" "No, you could get hurt!" *Already leaving to do said thing* "You can't tell me what to do!" Except in one of my AUs, where my favorite character to write is Kero (yes, Kero for Cardcaptor Sakura) because its such a DIFFERENT setting and set of characters. Sakura is this NORMAL 4th grader who is suddenly flung into having magic, questions the fact that there IS magic but not HOW THE MAGIC WORKS. Isn't willing to pick a fight (which is part of Sakura's charm DON'T GET ME WRONG! Her being an absolute sweetheart even to things that could possibly be threatening her life is one of my favorite things about her) and creates a whole new card due to her emotions. And instead of dealing with a kid like Sakura, Kero is now dealing with this chaotic ten year old who goes on world saving adventures every week. Who's response to "If the cards are not caught, a great disaster will befall the world" is "Is it going to break into pieces? Surely it can't be worse than that, so I think we can handle this." Who doesn't question the magic, BUT ASKS HOW THE MAGIC WORKS and has a full notebook of what Kero can tell him up to that point and who, again, is in a fight on a near weekly basis. And again, Kero and Sonic will tell Tails "Hey, this cards sounds dangerous and life threatening....maybe we should wait until you have a card powerful enough to take care of it" and Tails is like "No." and sneaks off in the middle of the night. For Disney Dreamlight Valley currently, its my self insert/the player character. You could argue Oswald and coming up with all the little stories that the characters in the valley are slowly remembering, but I think writing The Player Character is more fun because she can be as chaotic as I want her to be or as "Okay let's solve this mystery" as I need her to be. Also I can throw in little bits about myself (there's this section of her walking on sand with Donald laughing at her because she hates the sand. That's me....sand is no...) and have it still completely in character. I feel like this might be a cop out though soooo sorry. For when I wrote a lot of Ducktales fanfics, it was Lena. I like characters who have a small dip into villainy but throw the show of kindness and love and just the fact that people care about them, they realize that they don't have to be. And relationship she had with Webby and its just *bounce bounce bounce* vs "yeah sure whatever" was fun. Its been a while since I wrote in that fandom though... Its like 2:30am and I feel like my thoughts are a bit rambley now, sorry about that lol

#asks #sonic the hedgehog #disney dreamlight valley #ducktales #my writing

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titus-androgynous-87 · 2 years

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I don't actually know what characters you like, so choose two of your faves for the minific with N. (The color green), perhaps?

Writing has been like pulling teeth with me lately, because the Funny Little People Who Live In My Head aren't cooperating much. But when do they ever? I went with some OCs for a story I'm writing since these days, I'm really only tangentially involved with any sort of fandom (but for future reference, I really enjoy: The Locked Tomb series, She-Ra (2018), Resident Evil Village, Iron Widow, Batman, Superman, and Studio Ghibli movies)

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Nadine sat at her vanity, chin in one hand while she picked through her jewelry collection with the other. She had always prided herself on her appearance, even before the transmutation. After all, it was difficult to unlearn the lessons she had been ingrained with growing up: never leave the house without a hat and gloves, a proper young lady never goes without a full face of makeup (nor does she wear too much, lest she give her beau the wrong impression), brush your hair 100 times before bed, put deodorant on your panty liners so you don't offend your date with "intimate odor." That last one she'd gladly left in 1952 where it belonged, but she still devoted considerable amounts of time to skin and haircare, which was a bit of a moot point, what with her technically being dead and all. But there was something comforting about keeping up a human routine, something to ground and soothe her when coven business got messy.

She sighed in irritation as she inspected, and then discarded, a large brooch of turquoise and seed pearls, arranged in alternating concentric circles, set in silver. Her gaze flicked to the ornate wall clock hanging near the door of her dressing room, and her burgundy-stained lips pressed into a thin line. She was going to be late: something she detested more than almost anything else. Nadine once again turned her attention to the open jewelry boxes, neatly organized necklace trees, and panels of earrings. She absently spun one of the necklace trees, frowning slightly at the strings of pearls, delicate silver chains, and statement pendants.

Nadine paused as one such pendant caught her eye. It was a large, baguette cut emerald set in an ornate cage of black gold filigree and hung from a medium weight chain, also of black gold. She hadn't worn it in quite some time, as the green of the emerald didn't stand out against her skin as much as she liked (not like her beloved garnets and fire opals). The light caught itself in the facets of the gem, reflecting and refracting to sparkle and dance. Before she could change her mind, Nadine plucked the emerald necklace from its place and fastened it around her neck. The weight of it felt nice, enough to remind her it was there but not so much as to make her uncomfortable. The stone sat just above the swell of her breasts, offering itself to be admired as well as a dangerous temptation. Nadine felt a thrill race up her spine as she thought of Kieran's own verdant eyes following the necklace's path to its inevitable conclusion.

With a slight shake of her head and a sharp intake of breath, Nadine looked herself over one more in the vanity mirror, checking that every detail had been accounted for. Satisfied, she gracefully rose from her seat, sweeping up her small clutch as she stood, and exited her dressing room. She'd kept Kieran waiting long enough, but she had a feeling they wouldn't mind.

#writing #writing ask game #WIP: immortal longings #answered

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cruciatusforeplay · 4 years

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This is part two of a hella big post. Check out part one here. These are all a lot more recent, so I'm gonna try to be less spoilery, but there are gonna be some.

A not-so-brief history of Hawkeye in Comics Part Two (spoilers below the cut)

A note on events, dying and doubling down on Hawkeyes

Comics love doing big events, and I'm not covering them in here. Partly because they are huge and complex and to just focus on Hawkeye would be an injustice to the stories, but also because the amount of stuff I would need to spoil would be way beyond just a little Hawkeye. Clint was involved in Secret Wars (1984), which was one of the first crossover events of its kind. Another notable era is 2004-2009, where there is an incredible amount of superhero politics driving big narratives. If you're new to comics, you might not know that characters dying is common and rarely permanent. This is relevant because while I said that I wouldn't talk about events, I think it would be pretty uncool to not mention that Hawkeye dies and is brought back to life (Avengers Disassembled, House of M, New Avengers #26). It's around here that Clint picks up the Ronin mantle.

This is also when Dark Reign/Dark Avengers is going on. For anyone who'd like some Clint whump from this era, there's a top notch naked torture scene in New Avengers Annual (2009). Clint is involved in several other big events and crossovers over later years, but that's definitely a seperate list.

In the time where Clint is dead, Captain America is hanging out with a group of newly formed Young Avengers, including archery badass Kate Bishop. Cap suggests to her that she take up the Hawkeye mantle and gives her Clint's old bow. After Clint returns, he becomes initially her mentor, before they form a very close friendship. Clint is initially doing Ronin things, but even when he lays down ninja robes, they decide to be very Hawkeye about the whole thing and both keep calling themselves Hawkeye, despite the obvious confusion this causes.

Hawkeye's ears: Hawkeye vs. Deadpool #0-4 (2014)

This is a fun little miniseries that you could treat as a Halloween special if you so desired. It's set in the time after Fraction's run and there are a few callbacks, but nothing major if you've not read that. Clint is a little short-tempered and hypermasculine in this run for my personal taste, but it's got lots of grumpy Clint Vs sassy Wade while they vaguely attempt to team up. The thing this run does really well is Clint's deafness, despite the lack of visible hearing aids. There are comments around lip-reading, wearing aids when wearing other headgear, there's some sign language, and this is the run where Deadpool pulls his mask up so Clint can lipread and see his face while he signs (facial expressions are really key in sign language). It's lovely. Otherwise the run gives you a Kate cameo, some Deadpool and Hawkeye disaster/shenanigans, and perhaps most importantly, the return of the skycycle.

Key background: All New Hawkeye #1-6 (2015)

This run is often overlooked, but the art in the flashbacks is beautiful. We get some key information around Clint and Barney's abusive home situation - with their dad who drank and beat them, and how they ended up in care after their parents died, and subsequently their early days in the circus. There is a definite shift in how Barney is characterized as a bad influence compared to the 2003 run. It parallels with the rest of the arc which focuses on Clint and Kate Bishop working together to get some kids out of a very bad situation. The rest of Lemires run is a little weird and has no major repurcussions for anyone except Barney (which I won't elaborate on because it's relevant to the Fraction run).

Back to your roots: Tales of Suspense #100-104 (2017)

Seeing Clint cycle back and return to Tales of Suspense is really lovely. This comic is one of my all time favourites. It's incredibly tight story-telling with a great plot and really fun dynamic. The premise is Clint and Bucky teaming up to figure out the body trail being left after Black Widow's death. Clint is obnoxious and a delightful mess, Bucky is sporting a permanent scowl and is hilariously level-headed. It's a lot of fun and it's a lovely build on the tension and teamwork between these two idiots (who I, as an avid Winterhawk shipper, am completely gone for, but even without that, this is a great comic.) It also has some killer covers, and the facial expressions are absolutely hilarious.

Hawkeyes together: Hawkeye #13-16 (2017) and West Coast Avengers #1-10 (2018)

The Hawkeye run is Kate Bishops run and it has a larger continuing storyline that runs from the beginning of her Hawkeye and way into WCA, but I've listed the issues that you'll want for Kate and Clint shenanigans, and you should be able to catch up without the rest if you don't want it. These comics are ridiculously fun, especially West Coast Avengers, which has Kate leading the team this time. There's loads of jokes, and it strikes a nice balance between Hawkeyes being disasters and being hyper competent. Truthfully, this is Kate's show, and Clint takes a backseat, but their dynamic is killer here so I think is deserves a mention. There are also plenty of Clint related wardrobe malfunctions and Lucky the Pizza Dog is around.

Our most recent boy: Hawkeye freefall #1-6 (2020)

I haven't read this one yet, but it's been extremely well received by the fandom. As a result, good news: no spoilers! It's a short run, which may have had something to do with it being published during 2020, and specifically around a time when Marvel were experiencing some major distribution issues (which would have led to digital release only and as a result lower sales), but that's all guesswork because I haven't actually researched it. This run has someone dressing as Ronin and letting Clint take the blame for their nefarious deeds (oh no!). Clint makes some classic Clint (read: dumpster fire) decisions, and the art looks fun and vibrant. Can't really give you more without reading it myself 😅 If you need more Clint still, he's also rumoured to be knocking around in the 2020 Black Widow run, but I've not had the money to get my mitts on that yet either.

Notable AUs:

Marvel is a big fan of throwing a well known cast into an alternative universes, so there are a few other places to look for him.

The Ultimates universe was largely speaking a bit of a shitshow, but they did give us a very dark and gritty Clint, so if that's your jam, ultimate hawkeye is the place to be. Old Man Hawkeye appears alongside Old Man Logan, and they are both, you guessed it, old. It's not the only time we get Clint as a wrinkly dude (the second half Lemire's run also has some timey-wimey stuff happening), but this is a version of Clint who is going blind (granted we've seen that before too, but this is a darker vibe than Blindspot). Wanna know who the greatest marksman is without his sight - old man Hawkeye for you! Finally there's the Zombie 'verse: zombie Clint is a little confused, but he's got the spirit. Clint got zombiefied and then left in some rubble as only a head for 40 years before getting picked up, so he's a little worse for wear. If you need that in your life then Marvel Zombies is your universe. For a full rundown of all the universes including animated and MCU, click here.

Notable aliases:

Clint's been a few other people than Hawkeye in the 616 universe (the main Marvel Comics universe). He used one of Hank Pyms growth serums and became a giant strongman in Avengers #63 (1969) and stuck around in his Goliath form for more than a few issues. After Cap had died, Clint returned from the dead and tried on Captain America for all of one issue in Fallen Son #3 (2007). He decided (with a little help from Kate) that it wasn't right to wear the uniform, which in turn led to some interesting tension between him and Bucky Barnes when Buck did become the new Captain America. Finally, there's his most well-known alternate persona: Ronin. Clint becomes Ronin after returning from the dead, wanting a break from his Hawkeye persona and an opportunity to become Ronin arises in New Avengers #27 (2007). Clint is not the only person to have used these aliases. Additionally, Hawkeye has been used not only by Clint and Kate Bishop, but also by Bullseye during the Dark Reign.

The things we haven't talked about

Like I said at the very beginning, there is a lot of Clint Barton knocking around in comics and even with all this there's a lot of content I haven't focused on. For instance, I've not talked a lot about his relationships, beyond his marriage to mockingbird (and really I only scratched the surface with that), and honestly once you start getting into interpersonal relationships we're starting to move on from what can be done in a Tumblr thread.

There are also some topic specific threads floating around, which you might like to look at too.

@vaguelyrotten has done a run down of some great dumpster fire Clint Barton comics (some of which I haven't listed) and you can see that here.

@bobbimorses did a great summary of Clint's historical deafness for instance which you can find here.

There's also this little bit all about Clint and Bucky in canon (thanks to @nightwideopen ) and how Winterhawk became a thing (thanks to @1000-directions )

This is slight sidenote, but @clintscoffeepot did a really great comprehensive of Fraction Clint's apartment which is just a really useful writing resource and you can get that here.

There is also this website which I stumbled across fairly far into writing this post which does actually look like it might be comprehensive.

If I've missed anything major, or listed something incorrectly or you just have some Clint related opinions that I need to know about, do hit me up.

#clint barton #Hawkeye #hawkeye comics #hawkguy and other costumes #deaf hawkeye #comic #comic books #marvel comics #let's talk about comics

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thesunnyshow · 4 years

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EPISODE 5: MINA

Writing Blog URL(s): @jaemina00

Name: Mina

Age: 20

Nationality: British

Languages: English, Bengali

Star Sign: pisces

MBTI: INFP-T

What fandom(s) do you write for?

NCTzens

When did you post your first piece?

This year back in late May or early June

Do you write fluff/angst/crack/general/smut, combo, etc? Why?

Mostly fluff because I'm a sucker for the way your heart can literally ache in your chest but also angst because it also causes such strong emotions.

Do you write OCs, X Readers, Ships...etc?

All X Readers so far

Why did you start writing on Tumblr?

It started really as just a pass by of time, I love creative writing and kpop so it just seemed the best way to cross them. I was incredibly bored due to quarantine and thought it was a good way to enjoy myself and not let my brain rot away but I surely fell in love with it.

What inspires you to write?

Any moment really. Late night thoughts or just the people I'm surrounded with. Music I think is especially great because it allows you to feel emotions without actually having to go through the experience and scenarios and then you can write based on how you felt those emotions through the song.

What genres/AUs do you enjoy writing the most?

Like I said before I really like fluff, recently I've been more interested in AUs like reincarnation and a lot of psychological beliefs as well as mythology and the supernatural.

What do you hope your readers take away from your work?

Feeling. Whether it's a feeling of happiness that made their heart swoon or the aching of sadness, I hope my reader just feel through my writing.

What do you do when you hit a rough spot creatively?

I take a break and step back from my writing. Sometime, being so stuck in your mind makes it much harder to write. So I stop writing for as many days as it takes for the ideas and the flow to comeback to me naturally and without being pushed. In this time I usually try to find inspiration from music and other stories.

What is your favorite work and why? Your most successful?

As of right now I really like 'Love Me Now' and 'Nighthawk'. Love me now is based off NCT 127's song and I loved how I just wrote what I felt in the exact moment I was listening to it, it holds a special space in my heart for that. I also love nighthawk because of how stuck I was with it. I was planning and drafting it for the longest time and everytime hating what I've written and restarting, so I have some pride in now finally actually liking what I've written. Most successful however is 'Firsts' I do love it but because it's of the first ones I wrote so there is a slight cringe to it now.

Do you think there’s a difference between writing fanfiction vs. completely original prose?

The only difference I see is that when writing fanfiction you have a name and a face to go with it however everything else is the same. You have to come up with how the characters are presented, what's their dynamic, what's the storyline and how it's going to be presented. You still have to showcase emotion, action and dialogue as well as everything in between.

What do you think makes a good story?

A story that has you engaged and feeling something. Like it makes you almost sad that you've finished it and makes you want to come back to read it again.

What is your writing process like?

It varies it can be like have an idea I make a plan on how I want the story to progress and how I want it to end, I try to think of how I want my characters to be portrayed to my reader and how the dynamic between characters is. Then I write multiple drafts and slowly eliminate based off which one I hate and which ones I like until I'm left with the best one and then I reread and either add or remove bits and go over grammar and spelling. Or I just go with the flow, honestly it's a process of cutting and writing again and again until I'm somewhat satisfied.

Would you ever repurpose a fic into a completely original story?

I don't think any of my fics are good enough to be the basis of a story and I most definitely don't think I couldn't write a full original story.

What tropes do you love, and what tropes can’t you stand?

Honestly I think every trope is okay if it's well executed and well written. Even tropes that are classified as clichés are nice to read when the writing style is engaging.

How much would you say audience feedback/engagement means to you?

It means a lot because it allows room for growth and development. I really just want to know how I can become better what people like so I know what is successful and what isn't.

What has been one of the biggest factors of your success (of any size)?

The fact that I like what I've written? I don't know but I think that it's important and I'm just glad that I do. In fact I kind of find that alone to be a success.

Favorite color: It changes but as of now pastels and especially yellow

Favorite food: literally any food

Favorite movie: The green book

Favorite ice cream flavor: Chocolate

Favorite animal: Giraffe

Go-to karaoke song: Can't sing for my life :/

Dream job (whether you have a job or not): I'm studying law right now so the end goal is hopefully in human rights

Coffee or tea? What are you ordering?

Iced Americano or Mocha frappe

If you could have one superpower, what would you choose?

Teleportation I think is really cool, just imagine being able to go anywhere in the world in the span of a few Milliseconds.

If you could visit a historical era, which would you choose?

Probably the 20th Century, just seeing the world go through both world wars, the cold War, Vietnam and so many other political problems going on as well as so many revolutions both industrial and literal is both scary and such an exciting time to be alive.

If you could restart your life, knowing what you do now, would you?

I think it's fun not knowing everything, it's definitely scary but there's an exciting buzz to it also I don't think me restarting life with what I know now would make a difference.

Would you rather fight 100 chicken-sized horses or one horse-sized chicken?

I don't think I could fight one chicken sized horse let alone 100 but I most definitely can't fight a horse sized chicken. First of all, that's a big chicken and second, chickens are actually very fiesty. So I have to go with 100 chicken-sized horses.

If you were a trope in a teen high school movie, what would you have been?

Probably the main characters best friend who judges every stupid decision they make and making it clear with lots of sarcastic comments but is their nevertheless fully supporting them to do more stupid and impulsive things.

Do you believe in aliens/supernatural creatures?

Yess!! I find it almost impossible that we are the only intelligence in this much bigger universe. We are just mere specs and there has to be another form of intelligence out there.

Fun fact about yourself that not everyone would know?

I can fold my tongue in a three leaved clover? Lmao

Do you think fanfic writers get unfairly judged?

Yes! Just because it's based on someone in real life and isn't conventional story writing people expect it to be bad but actually there are so many amazing authors who write so many unique fanfictions. People also only expect it to be plotless but it's far from that.

Do you think art can be a medium for change?

Definitely, I think art is a great medium for change. It can really play with someone's emotions and really open their eyes to new perspectives and wider horizons. Art can really change a person's ideologies on just about anything. It's powerful and allows people to find themselves as well as get lost in a world you've created.

Do you ever feel there are times when you’re writing for others, rather than yourself?

I don't think I've come to a point like that yet, I enjoy writing so far and maybe it's because I'm fairly new that I haven't experienced this yet.

Do you ever feel like people have misunderstood you or your writing at times?

No I haven't but again I haven't written much or for long.

Do your offline friends/loved ones know you write for Tumblr?

Yes and actually depending on how I feel about a certain piece I let them read it and ask about what they think.

What is one thing you wish you could tell your followers?

I hope you find some comfort or even happiness in my writing, I hope it made you smile or put you in your feels and you just overall find it enjoyable. Also don't be afraid to talk to me or send asks!!

Do you have any advice for aspiring writers who might be too scared to put themselves out there?

Just go for it! If you like what you've written then others are bound to like it, as cliché as that sounds it's true. At the end of the day if you love writing, it'll show in your work and others will fall in love with it too.

Are there any times when you regret joining Tumblr?

So far no. I've had a very pleasant experience with reading other people's amazing work as well as writing my own.

Pick a quote to end your interview with:

“Art enables us to find ourselves and lose ourselves at the same time.” - Thomas Merton.

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thedoctor1002 · 4 years

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Idk, I never posted one of my fics here but guess I'll try ~

Also, English is not my first language so feel free to correct me QwQ

Fandom: Psycho-Pass -season 1- (is this still a thing?)

Characters: Kogami Shinya, Sasayama Mitsuru, OC

Prompt (it was in Italian, so I'll translate): write a story using three among these words: cloud, dusk, thunderstorm, storm, hull, bay, shelter, sail, night

Title: Log date: 2110/02/28 (Friday) 22:04

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The lights of the bay flicker dynamically before your eyes.

They dance hypnotically, of the same cyan colour of your office’s walls, but with a whole different beat. They drink the red and white trails from the traffic, they shatter and multiply in the tears of an inclement rain. I know how much you hate it, you just can’t stand going on recon with an umbrella. On the other hand, I love it.

Rain brings us close together under the waterproof cloth and I manage to observe details that neon lights often hide from me: the precise way you part your hair, the last few drops of the jasmine perfume on your jacket, your long lashes. Shion thinks they’re fake. We always fight over it, can you believe me?

After all, you’ve never been the kind of woman to wear such frills.

A notification arrives, the acid light of your impalpable PC breaks through the sacred dark from where you pretend you don’t see me. It digs your silhouette and paints you like a ghost on the huge windows of the Public Safety Bureau.

Your jet-black hair lay on your back like varnish pouring over the white silk of your blouse.

“Pulling an all-nighter, Inspector Matou?” I ask casually, exposed. With you, after all, I always am: you’re the only one that can shush my shitty jokes.

But this time you laugh slightly: nothing more than a spike, a trembling breath that shakes your ribs and lips.

“The forecasts say that the storm won’t stop until tomorrow morning,” you tell me, sitting at your desk, “also, I’ve been delaying this paperwork through all week, it's about time I get it done. Might as well do some overtime and get rid of it, don’t you think?”

“You’re such a workaholic.” I label you, realizing how lucky I am being allowed to do it: Ginoza, that prude, would have never let it slide “You should leave some for the rest of the precinct: make 'em earn their wages.”

A tired smile crosses your face as you tap your fingers on the keyboard. It’s so clear you’re trying to avoid my glance.

You used to look for it.

You looked for my eyes at briefings, in that discrete way that eventually shocked everyone. You looked for them among alleys, as soon as you heard a gunshot or the chocked sound of a fight.

And when you found me, it felt like a 7 miles free fall.

“How are the legs going?” I dare to ask. I see the hollow structure of your new shins below the hem of your pencil skirt. They swing a bit underneath the glass of your desk. You didn’t lose your damn tic, your right heel shakes like the needle of a sewing machine even when you seem calm.

You shrug and drink the bottom of an already empty glass of water.

I shouldn’t have asked. It breaks my heart, to see you like this.

You don’t give me an answer and massage the back of your knee with a sigh. Lately, I feel like you’re avoiding me.

You’re turning back into the one you were before: uncompromising, cold and distant. I wonder if the bunch of ingrates downstairs have been calling you Dobermann again. I wonder if you’re still as relentless.

You worry me: your stress level is getting darker and darker. You don’t want old Kasei to take issues with you, not again.

I can imagine how you must have felt, the night when this mess happened.

You most likely got pissed, if I do know you.

I mean, did they really think I got away on my own? I bet you never doubted me: no one knows an Enforcer better than its Inspector.

“Runaway?! Have you lost your minds?” Sasayama?!”

Those were the first words you said when they rescued you. You spoke them way before cleansing your lungs from the rotten water of the river, way before asking Masaoka if you’d have ever got back to feeling your lower legs. They hurt like hell and you had to pull them around like sandbags.

“They got him” you panted, holding tight on your mentor’s coat “They took him away, I tell you!” The one that kidnapped him wasn’t a latent criminal. The Dominator didn’t activate, not even when they shot me. Please, believe me. Check on the log files, please.”

Crime coefficient: 0.

I know that bug still haunts you.

Cause, after all, it’s can’t be anything else: who on earth is that Makishima to fly under the Sibyl Sistem’s radar? Who can fool a network that knows your crimes before you do? And how is it possible that the silhouette that kneecapped you and threw you into a river could possibly be innocent?

You haven’t lost your mind, Inspector: the Dominator betrayed me, too.

Don’t think I don’t know how pitiful must have been, the next three days.

Makishima isn’t real. Forget it, it was just a delirium. You were in shock.

It was the trauma, dear. It was a breakdown. It was burnout syndrome.

You’d use some holiday, darling. Take a week. Take two. Go somewhere far, no, better: just stay at home. Go to therapy. Keep yourself busy, don’t think about it. Work. Also, don’t work: it wears you out!

They put you back on your feet in less than six hours, but nobody allowed you to join search parties. Heaven forbid your stress level getting any darker. Heaven forbid that yet another good Inspector gets demoted among those damn Enforcers. But, still, in the whole IT section, there wasn’t a single nerd that could get that night's logs. That's one funny thing, ain't it?

Woman, sometimes I wish your damn head wasn't that hard. I wish you didn't follow the Forensics to get a lift, so soon after the deed.

At least, you could have listened to Kogami. Shit, didn't you see how pale he was? You didn't even need the Dominator to read him, his stress level was mindblowing!

You should have believed him when he told you you didn't want to enter that alley. First off, it was already full of other detectives and analysts. I have no idea what kind of business you had to do in there. Second thing second, Kogami has an eye for certain matters. Do you think he didn't notice I’ve always been all over you? Not gonna lie, maybe I told him about you, once or twice.

But no, of course, you had to get in.

The software that taught you how to walk on those carbon stilts made you stand your ground and bark a "For fuck's sake, Shinya, move!" worthy of the Dobermann’s reputation. Even those who hadn't been called out made way.

But your new legs didn't hold you, when you saw what they had made of my corpse.

I'm sorry, Katsumi, I never wanted to upset you like that.

You know how much I would have rather have a more heroic death. I don't know, like, in the middle of a shooting, saving the day. It would have been much classier, less tacky, less trash. I think I deserved it, that's all.

You stop typing and rub your temples. You shelter what’s left of your lipstick behind your hand. I wish I could kiss it off, instead of watching you consume it in a ruby red halo in the notch between your thumb and your index.

You lift your eyes only for Kogami, who’s passing by your office like a nurse in its night shift.

“So?” he asks in a whisper, putting more care in that question than I could have ever done. More than anybody could have ever done, because he’s the only one that gets you, right now. You two seem like the only ones who lost something.

You shake your head slowly, staring at the monitor and the dangerously high Crime Coefficient on the display.

“It's not working” you wail softly, misty-eyed. I can’t believe it, is it still you?

“They’re gonna kick me out anyway, if it doesn’t lower quickly” you continue, with that realism of yours. I used to call you a jinx for that but, at the end of the day, you always got our backs. “It’s for the best if I just resign. I’m gonna keep what's left of my dignity, at least.”

The dark profile of my best friend looks through me, as he sits on the armchair next to mine. He would like to say something, a word of encouragement maybe, we all know it in this damn room, but numbers shut our mouths.

“You could become an Enforcer” he proposes.

Goddammit, Shinya, did we work with the same person? Katsumi as an Enforcer?

And there you go, shaking your head. You hold your face in your hands and let your raven hair hide your visage.

“Can you imagine me, following orders? I do know how to work, I can do it better than three-quarters of our colleagues and I’ve never had problems remarking it. They’d eat me alive if they had the chance. Dogs celebrate on the corpses of lions.”

“But lions remain lions and dogs stay dogs.” Kogami finishes, stealing my lines.

I notice the slight trembling of your finger, as you tap your touchpad to send that last confirm.

In a few moments, the system will have your resignation registered. Your profile won’t unlock your Dominator anymore and in a few days time, just enough for you to collect your belongings, you won’t even manage to enter the office.

Who’s gonna explain to old Kasei that there's more of your stuff here than in your apartment?

I’d ask you what do you plan on doing with your life, but tonight’s decision seems definitely brave enough to call it a day.

I look at the tabs you open in your browser, they mirror in the windows behind you.

Air travel.

Argentina, Cuba, States, New Zealand, Germany, Kenya. You go around the world in 80 seconds flat, you multiply your chances and spread them all through the air in front of you, in a complex diagram that doesn’t lead anywhere.

I never wanted to take you away from your home, you don’t deserve this.

You cover your eyes with a hand and use the other one to pick a random selection from your atlas.

Greece.

“Well, at least it’s on the sea.” you wrap up, condensing in a handful of words the only satisfaction you can find in starting a brand new life.

You two stare at the transparent screenshot of your flight, the countdown on the web page seems way too joyful.

“It’s so exciting, Katsumi Matou! Check-in your luggage. Your journey will begin in: 06 days: 17 hours: 34 minutes: 21 seconds”

20.

19.

18.

Seconds pass by, in complete silence.

“Do you think it would be a burden to him?” you ask Shinya, “Do you think he’d understand?”

Who would have guessed that a cynic one like yourself could believe in the afterlife? I wish I were here to ask you. I wish we could have spoken about life, death, sex, about things long gone and things yet to be.

His hand squeezes yours gently, as he looks at you in the eye, hoping to stop the train to Paranoidland from setting off.

“It’s not your fault” he reassures you as he can: the both of you wouldn’t make the average person’s empathy.

But he’s right, though, it really isn’t: I know you’ve done anything you could. It’s always been like that.

“Maybe I owe him” you draft “Even if they don’t believe in Makishima, maybe one day I could have proved he exists.”

The teal of your Psycho-Pass would suit you wonderfully, if it wasn’t a description of your mental health.

What could you possibly do in these conditions? You’d have ended up in a cubicle, filing loss and theft reports. You would have never made it to the dossiers, surely not to those of such a controversial case. Making you end up in a study room would have been my final bullshit. I’m happy with your choice, really. I would have loved visiting Europe someday.

“Don’t talk nonsense.” Kogami rebukes you, externalizing what I’ve been thinking all along: “I’m going to look out for your man: your team has already given way too much. I’m gonna find him, Matou, cold case or not.”

You nod, but it’s clear you don’t believe him. I can read through you, you’re a terrible liar.

I don’t think you don’t trust him, most likely you’ve done the math and figured that working on an independent case is far too difficult for an Inspector, let alone for an Enforcer.

And there it is, my fall. After an exhausting chase, you finally look into my eyes, even though -according to Shinya- you’re most likely staring at the void.

Despite being used to such races, believe me, I’ve missed you.

“I’m just so sorry.” you finally whisper, giving me a bitter smile.

Try and stop me, Ginoza, tell me once again how inappropriate it is: I don’t mind anymore. I get up and I don’t hesitate while holding you and leaving a kiss on your hair, shamelessly.

“I’m going to grab some coffee” I announce, walking backwards to the door like a shrimp, just to look at my dearest friends a bit longer. “I’d get you one, but I’m short on coins. Maybe next time.”

“See you, Inspector.”, Kogami greets you, leaving alongside me.

“Be good.” you wave back, as we were all to meet again tomorrow.

Walking through the dark alley, I can hear an excerpt from our last conversation through the opaque glass of your office.

“You’re jerk, Sasayama!”

I can hear you laughing out loud, through the crackly recording. You laughed at my gall, with that warm, strong, sweet voice of yours, mocking me. Admit it: mine, after all, were the only compliments that could make you blush.

It’s incredible how we managed to joke even inside a car that was taking us on a crime scene. To an external eye, we might have looked disrespectful. Truth is I’ve always feared death so much I just had to laugh at the reaper.

“Oh, come on, what would it take? Come with me to the Precinct’s New Year’s dinner, the 17th is around the corner!” I kept annoying you, as you were too busy driving to mind my dumb flirt attempts. I still can’t get how we never had an accident. “Be good, Katsumi, give me a joy to live for!”

“You could always ask Shion, you know? You always give her more attention, after all.”

I hear the subtle sound of the wheels stopping, the parking brake cracking and it’s like Ogishima’s outskirts appear before my eyes, in that same January night. That place gave me goosebumps, but I would have hated if you understood it.

“Here we are” you announced, with still a bit of resentment in your voice. You unlocked the passenger’s door and I remember I left your Dominator in the car’s trunk: I didn’t want you to follow me. Not that time.

“You scare me when you pay so much attention” you commented, noticing how serious I got “will you tell me why are you insisting so much to keep on searching? Kogami got the guy. Tomorrow we go, we arrest him and it's thank you, next.”

My answer has been recorded as a distant and muffled noise, but I still can trace it: “He’s not the one, I tell you. I have another suspect, but I need a more solid base. And you’re staying, Inspector.”

“Staying?! You’ve gone crazy!” you laughed, locking the corporate sedan behind you “If something were to happen to you, or worse if you didn’t come back, Kasei would…”

“I said you’re staying: it’s dangerous.”

“Sasayama, our work is dangerous,” you replied, contemptuous, understanding that clearly among the gear I brought I didn’t count yours and going back to the car to get it “One more risk won’t make a difference: if I have to drop dead, it can either be here, at home or god knows where.”

“Will you join me for the precinct’s dinner, though?”

And here is a sequence that the voice recorder surely can’t have grasped, but that I could remember even in a thousand years. You cast an outraged glance over me from above the trunk’s door, panting through a half-smile. You shook your head, tucking your hair behind your ear. And finally, after refusing my invitations since 17th November, during lunch break, you smiled shrugging.

“Deal, come on, just make way” you sighed, as your heels echoed on the wet concrete “Still, you’re a jerk.”

“I recorded it: you have no excu-”

The audio file interrupts.

End of recording.

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rpbetter · 2 years

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Hi Vespertine. I know you've gotten a lot of "drama" asks lately, so it's totally okay if you don't answer this right away, etc. A roleplay blog with over 400 followers, most of them active, recently dragged me because I don't write with certain kinds of roleplayers. No gender discrimination or anything, just basic stuff, like I only want to roleplay with people who don't make muses and drop them all the time. The person slandered me as a hard-ass who "takes things too seriously", and so many people liked the post, which consisted of only four lines of my rules, taken out of context, without ever getting the full picture. I got a lot of crap in my inbox, especially "FUOD" messages. With 400 people following that blog, most of them being very active in a certain fandom (and the same fandom my muse is from), I'm highly discouraged, and I'm afraid nobody from that fandom is ever going to touch me again. I'm already nervous as hell because this same person pulled a similar stunt last year. I had blocked them, but it didn't keep them from trying to smear me this time, too. How do I move on from this, and not let my anxiety over the situation win?

Thanks.

Hey, Anon!

It's all good, unfortunately, there are a lot of shitty people out there, and they really do seem to all act up at once. Whoever is putting the Act Like Asses juice in the water supplies globally every four to six months needs to find a new hobby, just like everyone who feels it is an acceptable, if not righteous, use of their time to harass people. I'd like to know who started the thought that it's ever okay to screenshot things from other mun's rules in order to drag them instead of simply not interacting with those you find disagreeable, but it isn't okay, period. Absolute end of story. Just block, don't follow, don't interact, it's that simple.

I am so sorry this happened to you, after you saw this person as trouble and made the effort to avoid them like a responsible adult, no less. No idea what causes people to feel like it's perfectly alright to do this sort of thing, but I suspect it has nothing to do with the actual content of the rules, posts, or messages they're taking wildly out of context. Everything to do with seeking attention and validation while watching the person/people they are invalidating and sending a mob after suffer for whatever imaginary slight they've come up with to justify doing so.

I think the first key to not letting your anxiety win is one of the difficult things to do when you have anxiety - thinking logically.

It is definitely additionally unfortunate that they have such a big following, and so much more vexing when so many people like a post who are willing to believe the worst about someone, but it doesn't mean all four hundred of them are actually in play. Many could be on hiatus and will return without ever having seen this idiocy going on, many might not return at all. Some are not going to be willing to believe this, they'll even be put off by them pulling such a stunt, especially when it doesn't sound like it is the first time, but they're unwilling to attract attention to themselves by unfollowing, blocking, or openly disagreeing. After all, this person appears to have a record of bad behavior, it's a promise that some of their followers are too afraid to leave, lest they be harassed next.

There is no way that all four hundred believe this or agree with it. You can't get four people to agree on something less charged! So, try to keep that in mind. You'll have a handful that totally agree, and some more that are performatively agreeing. They're either "agreeing" simply because the mun used the right buzzwords for them (you're ableist, hate OCs or homophobic, for example, because you are only interested in long-term interactions and have expectations to that end you're clear about, you said you can be selective about OCs because you have had too many trying to assume the position of your muse's relations or romantic partners, or your muse is heterosexual and you made it clear you won't be doing queer love interest plots) or they are "agreeing" because they want to appear favorably to this mun.

Those who are in agreement with either the accusations or the behavior itself are not people you want to associate with any more than you did this mun. Anyone they're interacting with or influencing is the same. Of course, you want interactions, and no one wants to be labeled, but you don't want to be involved with those who are willing to blindly believe this kind of thing, willing to send that kind of shit to anyone's inbox, or willing to spread rumors about other RPers they've not even interacted with. Try to remember this as well, and to think of it as them having inadvertently sprinkled snake repellent in your garden.

The other key to combating the anxiety depends on how you tend to find motivation and engage with emotions.

For some people, a determination to demonstrate that they're not the person they've been accused of being is good motivation. Knowing that, if any of these people want to actually bother to look at your blog, they'll clearly see you're just a RPer with different preferences, nothing more. Continuing to be visibly engaged with other muns, putting out your replies and other content, while being a reasonable, nice, adult.

For others, spite is a great motivator. The RPC seems to have readjusted this to mean that a mun is going on the offensive in return, being hateful to others, and so forth, but that's not being motivated by spite. Being thus motivated is refusing to accept someone else's erroneous interpretation of you, or being run off of your blog and out of your hobby because of it. Every time you start to feel anxious, you try to hit a pause button on that with the thought, "no, I'm going to put out a headcanon or reply because fuck that guy, they don't have the right to ruin my time, and I hope it burns their ass that I'm still here ignoring them and their behavior."

The determination of turning it into a joke is good for still others. This is so stupid that it is, literally, laughable. Neither those who interact with you nor those with a scrap of reading comprehension feel this way, it's just one creep with an asinine grudge and their equally rotten walnuts for brains flying monkeys. Embracing this with the idea that if something is ridiculous, it should be allowed to be ridiculous - worthy of ridicule. Putting a spin on something meant to hurt them can make some people able to refocus on what they'd rather be doing, RPing.

Taking something from all of these as suits you individually might be a good way to keep anxiety, and this person, from winning.

Some other things that can help are:

Focusing on what you're good at and enjoy as a way of self-validating and sort of reminding yourself that it isn't you, it's them. Being creative, so long as you're not so upset that creativity is refusing to come to you, frustrating you more, is one of the best ways to combat negative emotions and work through things. Maybe it would benefit you through some catharsis to write out a similar feeling situation with your muse, but it could help to do the exact opposite as well, writing something far removed from it or creating art, gifs, or edits if those are things you're capable of.

Relying on your support system to help you get through tough moments. No, unfortunately, we do not all have them, or our available friends might be so few that we feel like we're venting at them too much because we can't spread it around. However, if you don't have a support system, or that system is one or two people only, you might be able to find a safe space otherwise. You can always come back here and vent, and if you need to, nothing said in my IMs leaves them, I'm totally cool with burner accounts, and if someone asks for something not to be published, it isn't. I was also going to make a post about this when a bit more alert and with more time, but until that happens, I do actually have a blog for those no longer feeling that the other vent/confessions blog is safe that I can recommend! I don't know how they feel about direct mentions, so I'll just link it. It's roleplayerconfessions.

If you have only a few people available, or that you trust and feel are in a good enough place themselves, as someone who has always been the vent-safe friend in small groups, I'm sure they wouldn't feel like you were abusing friend privileges or anything like that. The atmosphere of tumblr is such that good messages go awry in record time, that's the case with the good message of "don't use others as therapists or never allow them to talk about their positive and negative feelings" becoming the bad message of, "speaking of a single negative thing in your life is 'trauma-bombing,' making others therapists, and being a toxic friend. Also, you're a drama monger for this."

There is no nuance in the majority of PSAs, but humans are made up of nuance! So long as you're not legitimately bombarding someone with nothing but stressful messages every time you speak, having the ability to still take an interest in what is going on with the other person, talking about other things as well, and so on? It's fine and a normal part of friendship with another person to share downs as well as ups and to allow friends to support you when you need it.

When the anxiety starts to feel like it is winning, expressing what you're feeling to a friend or appropriate blog can be a good way of sort of allowing anxiety to come out in a different way. This way you're not allowing it to spiral inside, instead, you're metaphorically writing it down and burning the page or tying it to a balloon string and letting it go (though, please, no one do the latter for real, it's bad for wildlife, and if you're going to do the former for real, do so in a fireplace, fire pit, or other location that isn't going to burn your living space or catch the natural environment on fire). Sometimes, if we allow our fears to have their moment in a safe space, they no longer seem so valid and we can let them go again for a bit. Eventually, it becomes easier to do that with no externalizing necessary.

There is also the importance of something tumblr is bad at, self-validating and realizing the significance this plays in boosting confidence. It's not only alright to feel good about yourself and what you can do instead of going with the patented tumblr wallowing, and often fake, terminal humility, it's good. There is something about yourself you like and something you can do well that you can be proud of, even if it feels like neither is true...or not true all the time.

What you like about yourself doesn't even have to be something approved of in tumblr culture, such as "I'm a compassionate person" or "I tend to be level-headed," it can be that you think you have great hair, that's absolutely fine as well. Whatever it is, remind yourself of it, embrace it, be proud of it! And what you're proud of being capable of can be anything from writing well to the ability to find anything, no matter how obscure, in searches. This doesn't have to be something glorious either, maybe you just make a fabulous grilled cheese. I make a damn fabulous grilled cheese myself, there are many inferior grilled cheese sandwiches out there, it's definitely something to be proud of. Whatever it is, remind yourself of this as well, go do it and bask in your own glory!

If it does happen to be something like writing that you can show off on your blog, do it. Sharing what you are proud of that you're capable of is a wonderful way of self-validating. Putting something out there, especially when you're having anxiety about being here at all, says that you're confident about it. If you can do that, if you can be confident about sharing this with others, you can feel a bit of that confidence. It isn't necessary for anyone else to like or comment on it, you want to feel this from and for yourself. The whole point is solidifying that you have every right to be here, you contribute to the community and your writing partner's lives, and no one has the power to tear you down unless you allow it. And why would you allow it? You're confident in yourself, you don't have time for this nonsense in your life!

If it doesn't happen to be something you can put on your blog in the same way as writing, find some other way of putting it out into the world. Perhaps you rock at plants. Show them off, obliterate us with your arcane foliage knowledge, feel the radiant embrace of your accomplishments being shared with others! Maybe it actually is the sandwich, but don't Instagram your food, make it for a friend or family member, offer it to a neighbor you know is busy or stressed who could use some comfort food tonight. You've done something really cool, stretching back through all of human history, sharing something delicious that you made with someone else.

The point is that there's something you do well you can use in this way to put your anxiety back in the box.

Anxiety is like a cockroach, you can count on it coming back, but you have to find ways to not let it run your life, offline and online alike. You only have to find the repellent that is going to work best for you. That might take experimentation, but you can do it! And I hope you do, as I am in the spiteful motivation category myself, I cannot stand seeing the worst people triumph with their bullying. You deserve to win, you have every right to put whatever you require and desire in your rules that isn't harassing someone, and you do not deserve a smear campaign for anything at all.

It isn't your fault that this is happening, you ran into someone shitty and did exactly what you're supposed to in blocking and avoiding them. I know it doesn't help entirely, especially with the additional frustration of having your words taken determinedly out of context to fuel this and seeing people actually believing all this, but there's no validity to it. This person doesn't actually know you, to them, you're just a blog they're exacting some manner of revenge upon, not a real human being they wouldn't even try to get to know. Whatever they're saying, it's only what they could be certain of others willingly misconstruing and taking out of context.

That's exactly why they only took a tiny portion of what you wrote, and why they used whatever popular accusation or three that tends to go with taking RP "too seriously." All one has to do to start a smear campaign in this RPC is to pick an inflammatory topic and manufacture incredibly weak evidence to pair with buzzwords and phrases like "too serious." They know that others will jump on the bandwagon to attack a target they've dehumanized by labeling them as toxic, demanding, elitist, and ableist because the target said in their rules that they aren't going to interact with those who are not reliable partners interested in long-term plots. Once people do not see you as another person, they're not going to bother with the, apparently, monstrous task of exercising their own cognition and seeking out evidence for their own judgment.

This is always the foundation of things like callouts and other smear campaigns for the same reason it is found in horrific actions offline throughout human history. If people are already primed to be riled up about something, it's only necessary to drop that word in relation to a person or group of people, and they're off, ready to tell a stranger to die or commit acts of violence and bigotry offline. Truth, genuine evidence, maturity, and recognition of another's personhood even if they anger you is nowhere to be found with this sort of vilification and mob rule. It is not, and never was, about safeguarding the community or calling out harmful actions. It never will be, that's only the clothing it wears.

If you are in a relatively large fandom, the good news is that you'll have plenty of people who either didn't hear a word of this or didn't care. That's the upside to the major downside of there being a higher ratio of those willing to pull this kind of thing and to buy into it. In smaller fandoms, you have less of an opportunity to remain anonymous once someone has their sights set on you, and the majority of that fandom might be made up of people like this. Plenty of your more dedicated - I'm sorry, too serious - RPers have a tendency to stay away from drama and in their own, more insular, corners. When RP is a primary hobby for you, you're more invested in that than you are what bad behavior is starting up this week. I'm sure you can relate to that! It's just difficult to keep a logical handle on this when it's about yourself and in your face.

You can try to find those pockets of dedicated RPers in your fandom, and I suspect you already were, since it is a concern that this person will have negatively colored the perception of you. It can be difficult because they are little pockets who do not venture outside of themselves all that often, but once you do find them, it's worth the effort!

You can also take a break from your own fandom for a little while to help with easing your anxiety. If new people come to you, great! Accept them if they are applicable! Otherwise, try to think of some fandoms you are interested in doing crossovers within and seek out RP there. Check out RPers who have muses not from your fandom, but who do have AU verses for their muses in it. That way, you have the opportunity to still interact within your canon world without interacting with your fandom. It's always interesting, I think, to see what happens in your muse's canon timeline if there is the difference of a muse present in RP that was not there in canon. It's interesting to see how you can create your muse for another world, too. This can be a fascinating exercise in character discovery, you're taking the core of their canon personality and experiences and finding ways to duplicate these in a manner that is believable for this universe - and seeing the differences in your muse when you can't do something identical to your canon. You can discover things you weren't aware of about the muse, even if you've been writing them for over a decade. This could even be helpful in boosting confidence and dedicated interest in other things to combat anxiety while you're distancing yourself for a little while from the source of that anxiety.

Again, I'm so sorry that the RPC is like this. You did everything right, you are in the right, but there will always be someone who will come out of the woodwork to harass you regardless of how much you stay in your lane, are honest and polite in your rules, or make efforts to avoid them. No one should ever have to feel anxious about participating in a hobby because of bad behavior from others. I genuinely hope that you can find a way to overcome this and get back to enjoying your time to the fullest! For what it's worth, I'm certain others out there will read this and know exactly what you're going through. You definitely have the support and commiseration of more muns than you'll ever know!

#answered #anonymous #harassment #anon harassment #callout culture #I know it's not exactly that but it is in the same sphere #rp rules #muns behaving badly #rp problems #rp advice #anxiety in rp

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lilchangbinnie · 7 years

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Fic Recs ❀

okay so, dis gonna be my faves I’ve read recently with a variation of series, oneshots, smuts, fluffs, etc… None are mine, the url of the author will be by the title of the writing. Also, I'm a multifandom hoe so, I’ll try to have a mix of my favorite groups in the list, but for now its mostly exo and bts. Enjoy ya nasties xoxo.

about a girl (8 part series) - @rudeboywonho

dad!namjoon, CEO!namjoon, reader becomes his daughter’s nanny, a little angsty but also fluffly so is worth a read and his daughter is such a gem

vibrations (M) - @seokvie

sub!jimin, ass play, vibrating butt plugs, hot as shit… I’m sweating

owned (12 part series) - @ibangtanthings

reader marries cold rich namjoon to save her family but in the time being, they both get to warm up to each other slowly, angsty at first but has a really heartwarming ending

zipper (M) - @jiminniemouse

bestfriend!jungkook, this boy convinces the reader to watch porn with him and you already know how this ended, obviously smut

buzz (3 part series) (M) - @floralseokjin

it all starts with yoongi bursting into the reader’s room when they were about to masturbate with their new vibrator, smutty as heck

aquiver (3/9 part series) (M) - @floralseokjin

after many attempts to orgasm by himself and failing, yoongi follows namjoon’s advice and goes to a sketchy place for his solution and there he finds the reader

spill the tea - @jae-bummer

reader talks about her feelings about jooheon to his members and he overhears the conversation, cute and funny, kinda short but it’s still one of my faves

where is my mind (M) - @tayegi

werewolf!hoseok, can’t handle himself when he sees you because of his heat but you don’t seem to mind, cute ending

for a good time, call: the horndog (M) - @tayegi

lengthy jimin smut, sex in the studio, hilarious ending

cabin (M) - @krismebaobei

you spend most time with jongin in your stay in the cabin with exo and this makes Chanyeol a bit jealous but when y’all get a moment alone, you let him know you are his, plus a funny ending

class president (M) - @btssmutgalore

“class president candidate jimin would do anything to get your vote” fuck.

captain (M) - @suho-mochi

footballplayer!suho, basically his team loses the game, he’s frustrated and fucks the reader against the lockers, hot shit

sin city (10/? part series) (M) - @btssmutgalore

reader applies and gets a job at sin city, her sweet and dangerous moves make the owner jimin break some of his own rules because of his attraction to her, 10/10 would recommend to anyone in the kpop fandom, favorite series ✩

pop up - @yeolology

teleportor!jongin, you have seen the same boy pop in and out of your life twice and you are devoted on finding him, and you do

watch me (M) - @taecup

jungkook x reader x taehyung, hot as shit, bitch I’m quaking

neither innocent nor guilty (M) - @won-heol

lawyer!wonho, infamous prosecuter Mr.Shin has his eye on the reader during court and he can’t wait to get his hands them even if he just lost the case to her, dAMn

castaway (M) - @kpopfanfictrash

airplane crash au, you’re stranded with Jongin after being the only survivors of the accident and learn how to live with eachother but feelings get caught up in the middle, smut torwards the end, amazing plot

a good day to save lives (4/? part series) - @mxn-yoongi

bts doctor au, nonsense but its pretty funny nonsense, reader is an intern along with jungkook and taehyung while the rest are mostly doctors in different areas

safeguard (3 part series) - @thesammtimes

plushie!jongin, very unique and cute plot, I dream of this happening to me

no strings (10 part series) - @kpopfanfictrash

fuck buddy jimin, from friends with benefits to lovers, fluff ending but has smut throughout the story obviously

nerves (M) - @tayegi

thanks to an experiment the reader’s nervous system is emerged with kim taehyung, weird ass plot but I think its cool, its funny too tbh

higher (9/? part series) - @3kpop2jagi1

really good story, it doesn’t help that i’m suho biased, yixing is my favorite character in the story and if you read it, you’ll know why

taken (11/? part series) - @kimjongdaely

i started reading and now I’m desperate to see how it continues, gangleader!suho, harsh themes & much angst, stockholm syndrome?

go with it (M) - @rapmonluv

sub!namjoon, he expected to have you in the palm of his hand but by the end of the night it turned to be the way around, i need a large holy water after this and you’ll do too

perverted bunny mask (13/? part series) - @btsinned

assassins au, harsh themes (murder, psychopathic tendencies, sexual harassment, etc…) very interesting tho i was waiting for that smut with jungkook

a cinderella story (1/? part series) - @1honeypot

fratboy!yoongi, while you struggle with your crush in real life, little did you know you were sexting him via adult chat

across the hall (3/? part series) - @the-porcelain-doll-xo

neighbour!chanyeol, reader gets tired of her sister pairing her with guys so she lies about having a bf and now is faking a relationship with her cute neighbour

meddling (M) - @ffsjjk

for once you are grateful for your best friend taehyung and his meddling because it brought you to this gentleman named park jimin

sexting (M) - @lilyjhs

sex over the phone, you had known jimin in real life as a fuckboy, n u t

who are you? - @8bityeol

reader becomes invested on the anonymous letters of a fan and wants to find him, “happy delight”, the reader is a thriller book writer, I want a mango slaw

rent-a-boyfriend - @jimlingss

your friend hoseok literally rents you a boyfriend for a month to change your dull mood but he isn’t even your type, very fluffly/creative plot

la douleur exquise (M?) - @cinnaminsvga

incubus!yoongi, you summon a demon just for funs and now he’s stuck in the ground half naked and he’s obligated to stay with you until he sexually satisfies you, read it even if you aren’t a yoongi stan, this had me laughing so hard

handmade gold - @btsxexoxtrash

soulmates!jongin, in a world full of people with their true love, you and your boyfriend go against the odds and continue dating and as he finds his soulmate, everything gets tougher but not all hope is lost, angsty fluff, its really good I promise

camera (M) - @exostace

the reader is a cam girl and her friend sehun wants to help her but when practicing what to do when the camera is on, things get hOT, I imagined this very vividly in my mind and I am fukked

temptation (M) - @exostace

fuckboy!chanyeol sends you a dick pic because he got hard thinking of the time you sucked his dick in Baekhyun’s room, n u t

new nEw NEW!

hey, neighbor - @whimsical-ness

neighbor!baekhyun, reader falls for him, it’s pretty cute

she’s testosterone (2 part series) - @jimlingss

yoonji/yoongi, crack fic, you’re bestfriends with yoonji but later you realise yoonji has a dick, slight smut sprinkled at the end

on the verge (M) - @xhixtape

yoongi suggests the idea of being submissive for once and you both play with the roles, h o t, straight up smut without plot

fantasy (M) - @xhixtape

optional male bias, reader plays with their bias, cockring and teasingggg

quivering, whimpering (M) - @xhixtape

bestfriend!jungkook, he convinces you to help him out since you like being dominate already, he’s willing to be a good boy for you

FIC RECS 2 (I made another list)

#fic recs #kpop fanfic #kpop fic recs #bts fanfic #bts smut #bts scenarios #bts fluff #exo smut #exo scenarios #exo fluff #exo series #bts series #monsta x fanfic #exo fanfiction

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lunchtimerushin · 7 years

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hi! sorry if this is random or if it's a sensitive thing, but do you no longer ship aoka? id on't know if you already explained it somewhere already and i understand it was because of the reposters. i guess i just feel a bit sad since you have always been my favorite aoka artist... but you like something else now and draw more of that than aoka. i'm really sorry, i am glad that you are happy, just a little sad you have left us ..but! i understand you put priority in your own interests.

Hi!! Don’t worry about it; it’s just a slight sore spot but it has more to do with something personal than the community or the pairing itself. I’m really honored to hear that aaa;;

I’m sorry if I disappointed you; it wasn’t my intention. T__T;; Err, in a way to explain myself: when it comes to shipping, I become attracted to pairings that reflect what I’m seeking at the moment. When I was in aoka, it was that desire for companionship but friendly competition. But now, my situation has become a lot more stressful, so I find comfort in the niji/aka dynamic now. _(:3

tldr: I’m sorry if I disappointed you; I still love aoka but I’m a tunnel-vision artist; I’d be really honored if you keep on following and supporting me, but I understand if you don’t. ^0^!! Do what makes you happy! //claps

So…yeah, I got some asks like this here and there wanting to know the full-full story, so I guess I’ll just c/p what I told someone else. I mean it’s not really exciting just dramaaaaaaalallama.

“what did you mean when you said you were in a weird place with ao-kaga?”

It’s a complicated subject since it has been a few years, but I’ll do my best to simplify it! It mostly had to do with the community less than it had to do with the pair themselves!

To start, I always had trouble integrating with tumblr fandoms. I had always drawn in small communities so it was overwhelming when suddenly a lot of eyes turned on me. ^_T!! I wasn’t used to getting more than 20 notes on my art, and then I was left with things in its hundreds.

That is to say, my ego was fed and grew too big. I became stubborn about certain things (like topping preferences and character portrayals; tho now I’ve become more flexible w/ it*) and I had bad encounters with several people from the fandom. (Both parties were at fault haha;; Though objectively looking at it, it was more because of my big head;; orz)

I also felt that because of my past actions, and not to mention several family tragedies caused me to be on the edge more than usual, the rift b/w me and the community has grown farther.

The people who I used to fangirl about aoka with eventually left; some of them started being aggressive and unhealthily competitive with me (in terms of art);; There were huge misunderstandings, yada yada, yeah.;

so…^_T I guess those bad experiences made it hard for me to integrate into another aoka circle. And there was only so much I could have drawn on my own;. Since I sort of lose that close circle of friends and feedback, I drifted I guess. (coughs at tsubasa.)

I don’t regret aoka! I loved it so much; it was just unfortunate I wasn’t able to mesh well into the fandom because of my immaturity and some other unfortunate incidences. ;v;“” I think I will always be passionate about them, but aah, I think for now a break is in order. But, honestly, it’s really easy for me to fall in love with them again.

Here’s something of a secret, I was going through my aoka doujinshi collection with the intent on selling them off. After reading several I got sucked back in lol, and I couldn’t bear to sell away my beloved doujinshis. (I also still collect several artists’ works.) I always wander, but there’s always a 70% chance I’d be coming back ww.

and yea, reiterating with the ships and what I’m attracted to; I like this new ship bc I see myself in Akashi; so many expectations shoved on me, reprieve is really nice in those cases. orz;;;

Yeah;; just don’t mind me skjfh;; I really just do what I like orz… even I can’t predict myself…

But I really appreciate everyone’s patience with me.;; _(:3

I’ve been trying to grow as a better person, but sometimes my life situation just really affects my fandom interactions. and it’s just been really stressful lately orz;; so I’m sorry if I’m not as open or talkative or very prickly as of late….;;;;

EDIT:*: someone asked me to clarify what I meant by: “like topping preferences and character portrayals; tho now I’ve become more flexible w/ it“

I guess I should've made it clear that I mostly meant fanfics when I said that. I just didn't read what I didn't like. While I'm chill with people who liked aoka as a switchship or as a ka/ao, I just didn't read the fics. I started aoka with pixiv comics, so when I journeyed into fics for a while, I backed out of it quickly when I didn't agree with the characterization. It was mostly me not reading people's stuff. (Which, for some reason, someone called me out on it and said that I was a hypocrite?? for writing fics but not reading other people's stuff.) I guess you can call me a hypocrite or someone who was too proud I guess.... _(:3;; I just kind of saw how it wasn’t my cuppa;

#Anonymous #about lunch #lunch talks #zzzzzzzzzzz #im sorry if this shows up in the ship tag or search #not my intention orz

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