#I really can't believe i let myself be disheartened by it at first

[hypnoneghoul]

Hi,

I've come across your post about the perceived decline of the Ghost fandom on Tumblr, and I wanted to share some thoughts that have been on my mind.

I completely understand your concern about the impact of people being rude or harassing on the community, and it's disheartening to see negativity affecting what was once a vibrant space for enthusiasts. However, I believe it's crucial for us to reflect on our own interactions as well.

In any community, fostering a positive and inclusive environment is a collective effort. While we may identify instances of rudeness from others, it's equally important to examine our own contributions to the conversation. Sometimes, unintentionally, we may convey messages that others perceive as rude, and it's essential to remain open to feedback.

This is why I want to tell you that a lot of actions you did/things you said can be definitely considered rude and disrespectful as well as your wording/the way you express them.

Instead of solely attributing the decline to external factors, let's also consider how our individual actions shape the community. Constructive dialogue, empathy, and respect go a long way in nurturing a healthy and thriving fandom. By fostering an atmosphere of understanding, we can collectively contribute to revitalizing the spirit of our community.

I value your dedication to our fandom and believe that together, with mindful interactions, we can create an environment that truly celebrates our shared passion, but that doesn’t work if it ends in disrespect.

i agree with you completely on this. Im not even close to considering myself someone perfect or better than others, the truth is I really don't like myself, especially my anger. I always say my messages and askbox are open to any kinds of messages. I try my best but I'm human and I may not realize some things, what is important is that if I'm made aware of them I do my best to change my behaviour. that's something one person on here decided not to do after being made aware of some things politely, so the situation became more heated. this ask anon is the first time anyone had ever told me on here that im rude and disrespectful sometimes, thats why i may have not been aware. I'm not saying that means I'm perfect because I'm not, I appreciate you telling me this and being polite about it. you're pretty vague tho, and I can't change anything if I don't know what exactly I did wrong, what had possibly upset people. nothing like that was ever brought to me so I'm just not sure what you'd like me to do. i just genuinely don't know what actions of mine would be considered rude. if you'd feel so inclined as to inform me i really want to know

#hypnone's asks

[jimintomystery]

Tears of the Kingdom ending stuff

What happened with me is, I did the Dragon's Tears quest right away, so then I was extremely motivated to hurry up and get the Master Sword and finish the game. I think that kind of disrupted the "intended" order of what I was "supposed" to do. I ended up going after Ganondorf with all the sages but just 20 hearts (of a possible 40). I can't believe that worked.

Spoilers below.

After I got the cutscenes about Zelda turning into a dragon I was remarkably disheartened, and I found it difficult to keep playing. What kept me going was the idea that the Master Sword quest would have to mean locating the dragon, which gave me a slim chance of finding a way to restore Zelda. But there was nothing I could do about the dragon, so I realized that I just had to defeat Ganondorf and see if that made any difference.

The whole quest in Hyrule Castle with the fake Zelda was a long slog, and I had a good idea that wouldn't be the ending. Then the Fifth Sage quest was another long slog, so I figured the real final battle would be a nightmare. I wanted to grind in the shrines and git gud but in the end I was too impatient to beat Ganon's ass and find out what happens to Zelda. I got my 20th heart and was like "fuck it, let's see what happens."

I went down into Gloom's Approach just to see how far I could get. I should have figured there'd be entirely too much gloom, and enemies covered in gloom hitting me with gloom. I didn't bring nearly enough sundelion meals and my anti-gloom clothes weren't enough. The main problem was trying to engage every monster I encountered. That worked when I was chasing down fake Zelda but this time I was running myself ragged. By the time I got where the sages disappeared, and a Gloom Hands grabbed me, I had two hearts left and I was like "just teleport out of here, we're not anywhere close to the end."

I stocked up on sundelions and made a bunch of gloom recovery meals. What worked for me was like two sundelions and two fish or meat so you recover 6 gloomed hearts and also fill 4-6 hearts. I think I made about eight meals, but I had way more sundelions and I was planning to hit the shrines for more hearts. But then I got impatient again and wanted to do a recon mission.

On my second attempt I avoided every monster and did a fair job not getting hit. That worked a lot better than I expected--very few monsters chased after me and forced me to take 'em out. When I reached the Demon King's Army, I wasn't as depleted as I planned to be, so I started seriously thinking I could go all the way. The army isn't too bad, really, if you run around to the edges of the fighting and let the sages do most of the work.

I like how the fight with Ganondorf is presented. With the power of the secret stone he's practically a god, but he's very much a man-god who relishes the chance to swordfight with a worthy opponent. Ganondorf wants to stand there and slug it out with me, and that's exactly how I like to fight. We didn't do any fancy dodging or parrying or flurries, really. We just stood there trading shots, but i had the Master Sword and I packed a (lot of) lunch. The first stage was easy.

After that, Ganondorf turns all Super Saiyan Elevnteen or whatever and his health meter grows all the way to the right edge of the screen, to really drive the point home. Now I'm just sick of this dude. He's like "this time I'll take more than your arm" and I'm like "don't forget to catch these hands while you're at it." He's bound to kill me but I went in expecting to lose, so I'm just gonna hit him as much as I can.

I wasn't expecting the second stage to be so...reasonable. Ganon's got duplicates running around but the sages are back to cover that. I don't think he did any special moves until I got him down to half his health. Then he started doing his little dodge thing, but I figured out how to counter it surprisingly easily. I almost wonder if the game could detect my basic ass fighting throughout the game and calibrated Ganon for my skill level. Or maybe I'm way better at this than I think I am. Regardless, I liked that I could just keep fighting the final boss the same way I fought everything else in the game--straight-ahead, walk through two hits to give one, I'm a mess but you shoulda seen the other guy. Gimme that Captain America versus Thanos vibe.

That made it extra satisfying when Ganondorf is so mad I beat him that he eats his secret stone to turn into a dragon. He's not just mad that he's losing, he's mad because some punk kid with a sword is choppin' him down to size. Of course, if he turns into a dragon I know I can't stop him, but I know I won't have to do it myself. Sure enough, here comes Dragon Zelda to help me out. Took me a while to find the Demon Dragon's weak points, but at this point it's pretty much a victory lap and you can take your time killing him. I thought that was a nice touch.

After Ganon is destroyed, Link's recall power randomly activates to de-dragon-ize Zelda. Which, great, you love to see it, but I'm not exactly sure how or why that happens. I wish that bit was more plot-heavy. The game makes you search for the revelation that Zelda turned herself into a dragon, and the reason why. I was hoping a similar experience would be necessary to turn her back. Instead it just happens out of nowhere, for no apparent reason except that her dragon form is no longer needed to help fight Ganon. Oh well, the important thing is that I get to see Zelda wake up and realize everything went better than expected. And of course she and Link don't kiss or anything. I have to do everything around here...

#video games #the legend of zelda #tears of the kingdom

[deaneverafter]

Come Get Me

"I've got a few of those myself." I so want to know more about these cases that keep Beau up at night, that he can't let go of 👀🧐🕵🏻‍♂️🔍 And just more about of him in general, we've only really seen him at work so far, and with people. I want to see what he does when he's at home, reading, watching the Dallas Cowboys' games. I love his scenes with Jenny, but I could definitely sacrifice his scenes with some other people (oh, I don't know, all the scenes of him getting insulted by the McCallisters, for example. Just a suggestion 🙄) to learn more about him, his past cases, his brother and what happened in Dallas, what he likes to do for fun, how he really feels about having to have uprooted his whole life in Texas.

That scene with the rifle and the roof, that was such a smart move 🥺 Here's to the smartest sheriff around 🔥 AND he's funny "Janky meth lab" right to the suspect 🤣🥺

Beau not wanting to believe that a teenager could've committed the crimes, it just shows that he wants to believe the best in everyone. And it makes me wonder if this is part of the reason he can't realize how badly Carla and Emily treat him, even though emotionally he feels sad and disheartened after every single interaction with them 😔 Controversial opinion, but my man deserves better than this, he deserves to be spending his time with people who actually respect him and enjoy his company, people who actually like him.

"Well, why hang on to information like this all these years if you didn't expect someone like us showing up? We want to solve this case." I love him so much 🥰 How much he cares about justice and doing what's right, he really is a hero 🥺 And promising the cop that they're going to solve the case, finish his work and get justice, it has me feeling Emotions™️ It was such a caring and reassuring gesture, but also such a noble thing to do ❤💌

That one strand that always manages to escape 😍🥰🥺❣

Just when I thought my "I want to be just like you when I grow up, Jenny Hoyt" feelings couldn't amplify, she shows up rocking that ear cuff 👌🏻

There weren't a lot of "character" moments in terms of interactions this episode, but Beau and Jenny deciding together wordlessly to go comfort the rest of the gang was so sweet, they're both so protective and empathetic and soft 🥺💕

And it's so funny to me that in that interrogation, Beau and Jenny really went "let's be bad cop, bad cop" 🤣 They're so in sync they're always both good cop or both bad cop, and the best part is, it works 💫✨🤣💅🏻👌🏻💯👑

A lot of duos are forming on the show, but you know Beau and Jenny have my heart 🥺 They work so well together, literally (and emotionally) have each other's backs, support each other and can still joke around, and the slow burn has me in my feels 💕 And, as always, their conversation and banter is the best, her reminding him that psychopaths can exist at any age 😥🤣

Literal faves 🤩 I'm going to get ragged on so hard for saying this, but 10/10, even if there wasn't a big mystery, I could just watch Beau and Jenny solving episode crimes all season long!

Donno tearing up talking to Tonya and talking about how he has something to lose for the first time in his life, they're so cute together, little criminal team 🥺

Lmao, not Denise milking that trauma to keep hugging Beau. Girl, I see what you're doing, hands off Jenny's man! Hashtag, it's the girl code 🤣

Man, the scene with the murdered teenager's dad was so heartbreaking 💔😭

"I'm going to call Beau." What, he's not a "manbaby" and "so sensitive", now that she needs something from him? 🙄😒 Carla needs to go away, seriously. I honestly just need the three McCallisters to leave Beau alone right now, all they do is demean and insult him when he's around, and then remember him when, and only when, they need something. And I guess Beau is not "overprotective" and the "worst" when Emily needs consoling over a murder (or just wants him around to have an insider on the investigation? Seems much more likely based on how she's treated him so far 😒)? What, Avery wasn't enough for that? 🙄 And people blaming Beau for Emily sticking her nose where she shouldn't, what are you guys doing? 🙄🤦🏻‍♀️ Beau investigating is not the same as her snooping, he's doing HIS JOB, she did not learn this (or her rudeness) from him. Anyway, we've seen how she treats him. You think she took after him in any way? She is not "just like her dad", she's the furthest thing from him. And unfortunately, I just know that we're going to also have Carla trying to blame Beau and his job for Emily's snooping, instead of taking a good look at her own parenting and Avery and his influence 🙄 Also, side note, you're telling me that Donno and Tonya were able to find out that there's something shady about Avery and his business in a matter of hours, and Carla, a woman who's lived with this guy for years, has no idea? I'm not buying that. Maybe she just doesn't care ☕ I don't think the writers mean to make Carla as condescending and mean and manipulative as they have, nor Emily as rude and selfish and annoying and unlikable as they have, but there it is. And there's a disconnect because we're supposed to be invested in their safety, because they're connected to Beau, but it's such a one-sided relationship, Emily never wants anything to do with Beau until she needs something from him, and Carla just wants to continue to put him down, every interaction that he has with either ends with him looking on the verge of tears. So it honestly has the opposite effect, I literally cannot find it in myself to stand them, let alone care about them. And they've been given absolutely zero traits to make them tolerable likeable as individuals, so there's nothing that makes me care about them gor themselves, and then when they treat Beau like trash, it makes me actively angry at them. So why am I supposed to care if something happens to either? Avery's an ass, but..... like, the narrative isn't trying to make us care about him, so it isn't an issue.

I'm not going to lie, I'm a little scared Cormac's going to walk into something he shouldn't and get deaded 😱

There's something seriously wrong with Buck, I know there's supposed to be some stress induced weird behaviour or what, but seems to me that he might decide sooner than later that he actually enjoys Sunny's unhingedness.

Walt and Paige going full unhinged killing team, it's interesting.

The Bleeding Heart Killer, I think the pieces are slowly starting to fall together, and I'm interested to see if it pans out like I think it's going to 🧐🔍

#Beau Arlen #Jenny Hoyt #Big Sky #Big Sky: Deadly Trails #Big Sky State of Mind

[dae-rise]

1st anon you answered here again - Thank you for the article links, I'll deffo check them out. Apologies as well for the assumption that you might not have considered poverty/indigenous ppl etc, as it's not something you can tell unless it's mentioned or known in person.

I think i'm so used to seeing people who are vegan to be on the extreme ends of the scale (extreme hostility towards all others who eat meat vs those who don't care at all abt what others eat but just are vegan themselves), that seeing your calmer view is actually a breath of fresh air, and it actually does make me want to further research the topic.

Whilst I don't think I'd ever be able to be a dietary vegan, I'm actually quite glad and surprised that you can be considered vegan for other reasons, such as just not buying leather - again, I think it's difficult to find views like this as the majority of views online can be quite extreme. Thanks for opening my eyes to this as well.

And finally, I definitely do agree that many ppl can be oblivious to animal agriculture and its effects, and I do think that if people are in the position where they can't eat vegetarian/vegan, they should still advocate for the improvement of animal welfare.

I do hope that you aren't too disheartened by any negative comments you got - I know I'm on anon too, but I'm just a bit scared to speak off anon, and I would feel awful sending hateful messages behind an anonymous mask. I hope you have a decent holiday season regardless.

You have no idea how happy it makes me to hear you say all of this! When I turned vegan (not so long ago) I felt so much joy and willingness to share my passion for the topic, only to quickly find out that people tend to criticise vegans on the spot. I have sent sources before like I did with you, but they weren't even looked at. It seems like vegans are commonly seen as individuals who are annoying, extreme, privileged and whatnot. And I'm sure some of them are like that, as it is with every other 'group' really - but don't let it mislead you into believing all vegans are like that. Truth be told, I have yet to meet one single vegan who is like that. Besides, where does this idea of the 'annoying vegan' come from? We all have it in our minds, but why? Have we actually met one? Honestly, being at a dining table with others as a vegan has been the complete opposite for me: I'm the one who gets questioned, annoyed, criticised and made fun of. I still remember the very first reaction I got at a restaurant, as soon as I revealed I am vegan: "what, is your dog vegan too? Hahaha!" and from that point on, everyone at the table began talking about veganism and how extreme it is, in front of me, without listening to me. Everybody was suddenly a nutrition expert and began trying their best to show me a point that makes veganism invalid. It felt really bad and uncomfortable, and the same thing has repeated over and over, except for a few nonvegan friends who were simply curious about my choice and asked me normal questions. I shared my experience with other vegans and they've been through the same thing if not worse. Sorry for rambling, I just really want to tell you I understand, and that I had the same idea of vegans in my mind before becoming one. But being one has opened my eyes a lot. I personally don't like classifying myself as me vs. them, that's a dangerous path to take… before being vegan, I am a person, just like you, just like them, just like us. There are no sides, as I see it.

Thank you for apologising, I'm sorry as well if I made you feel uncomfortable in any way. I promise I did not mean to guilt trip anyone with my drawing, and it's absolutely great that you came and told me what you think about it! It means the world to me when someone tells me what they think or feel about my art. You're right, online views can be extreme, and I admit I have reblogged posts that felt like an accusatory finger pointed at nonvegans, but I'm still learning. Those posts feel kind of comforting, especially when others attack my beliefs (which happens a bit too often with veganism). But I'm going to try my best to keep in mind how it might sound to people who aren't vegans.

Oh, and yeah, right? I've always thought that being vegan means not eating any animal product or byproduct. A lot of people have this misconception in their minds, so when I read the actual definition of veganism, I was surprised! I quote, "Veganism is a philosophy and way of living which seeks to exclude—as far as is possible and practicable—all forms of exploitation of, and cruelty to, animals for food, clothing or any other purpose" it is just so liberating to read, isn't it? All I need to do is whatever is in my power and within my possibilities to reduce, as much as I can, my contributions to the animal agricolture industry. There is no such thing as a perfect vegan. But I can still do something, and that will be enough. For example, I personally chose to go down the dietary route (I just baked a vegan blueberry cake, hehe!) but I have yet to exclude animal products from my clothing (I have some clothes that partially contain wool, but I decided not to donate them for now - I'm taking it one step at a time). As you can see, it's really not as black and white as it is commonly believed. I'm just doing what I can.

It's okay to be on anon. I have an idea of who you are, but of course, I can't be sure. What matters is that you were so very kind with your asks and I'm grateful ❤️ Well, the other anon is clearly going through a lot and I just wish I could've helped more. There are far worse things I could've received so I'm okay, don't worry! Please let me know what you think of the stuff I linked you. Don't let anything guilt you. This will be simply you reading about things and learning from different sources. And I applaud you for it!

Merry Christmas, if you celebrate it ⭐

#vegan #veganism #anon ask

[personifiedrose]

i'm never good at math, and was never the kind of person that was active in recitation. so i tried my best (for the first time as a student) to do an advance study to make my advantage in quizzes and other written works (i seriously suck at participation so there's no other way but to rely on the other option) i had my sister to teach me things i couldn't understand even before our teacher could discuss it. and i did learn our topic. but only for a meantime.

when it was time to have a seatwork, i got a low score. i said i would try better the next time, but still ended up with disheartening remarks on our LONG TEST (which matters most than everything we've done). our teacher gave our papers to us today, and i want to burn each of them into ashes. i lost hope for math. maybe i'll get an 83 or 84 this first quarter (which will upset my WHOLE FAMILY; will serve like slap on my face; and make my nemeses rejoice upon my failure and humiliate me endlessly)

that's not the only thing. i think i really lost my faith with school today.

math was our first subject, so imagine how it set off my mood and prevented my brain from processing any other thought than pain and embarrassment.

so, it indeed affected my English class. our teacher came, holding our test papers ready to be checked by us too. she gave the other half to me (first row, center aisle) and i took ONE and passed it beside me.

AND THEN IT WAS THE WRONG WAY. i think i didn't hear her instructions that we, who sat on the first row, should take papers initially and pass it BEHIND US. i should've taken papers, not just one for myself.

soooo, my english teacher (who has been FOND OF ME BEFORE AND ALMOST MADE ME LIKE HER ASSISTANT ON OUR FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL) saw this opportunity to humiliate me and faced the class and said,

“Why are you guys passing the papers one by one? It will take us long if you do that. *then i was brought back to reality because i felt everyone's burning eyes on me* (and then she rolled her eyes) Please, you are Grade *********** students. You should be able to pick-up simple instructions. IF YOU CANNOT UNDERSTAND ME (she knows full-well i understand english but still said because i might as well be illiterate because why the hell i didn't follow her?) PLEASE USE YOUR COMMON SENSE. PLEASE.”

those words stung, and i could recite it even when i'm asleep. the thing is, i knew this person, my english, once believed in me. it's sad that i let her down because of a petty reason. because i can't follow simple instructions. i hate english class. i hate tension. i hate the feel of me getting the spotlight because i did something wrong. i hate how they say mean things loudly, rubbing in salt into the wounds. i hate my stupidity. i hate myself. i hate everything about me.

those are the WORST HIGHLIGHTS of my day. today has been chaotic enough that my day couldn't go brighter that the highlights were also the most dull and somber. they stood out because they are ugly.

the rest of the day, i lost myself into flying again. i found myself havingt he right answer but failing to say it or even raise my hand because i was shy and alarmed enough to be humiliated even more.

it. was. like. this. everytime.

i don't want to see any of them.

i don't want to meet my teachers and prove something so they could give me a higher grade.

i don't want to chase.

i don't want low scores after i did my best.

i don't want humiliation.

i don't want to be this small in everyone's eyes.

but i am already are. and it sucks.

but above all,

i don't want to go back there anymore.

[studyinginthestorm]

Term 3 Pre-report Review

Hello darlings!

So I've just about finished the third term!! I wrote my last exam on Thursday-chemistry and physics-and my report will be out on next Thursday which I am so excited about!

However, I'll only be seeing my report next term and so I'm just posting this little round up/summary of the term from what I know.

CAT: 90% report result

Unchanged from term 2, 5% short of goal

Practical Paper:

46/55

Weighting: 50%

Report result/report percentage: 42%

Theory Paper:

52/55

Weighting: 50%

Report result/report percentage: 48%

Accounting: 78%

Dropped by 4% since term 2, a whopping 15% short of goal

Task:

47/50

Weighting: 25%

Report result/report percentage: 24%

Final Paper:

72/100

Weighting: 75%

Report result/report percentage: 54%

Math: 92%

Increased by 10% since term 2, and 6% above goal

Task:

40/50

Weighting: 25%

Report result/report percentage: 20%

Final Paper:

48/50

Weighting: 75%

Report result/report percentage: 72%

Other Subjects: I have not yet received weightings and/or marks for these classes and therefore can't comment on my performance yet

English

First Additional Language

Second Additional Language

Physics (includes chemistry)

LO

PE

My thoughts/opinions

PE: I'm missing my athletics day and we missed our assessment date for this class so I'm probably going to be getting the average from athletics day.

LO: We only had one assessment for this class for the term and it was a two part research project that I will admit was done fairly hastily due to no fault but my own. I do think I'll do well enough; not my goal of 97% but okay.

Physics (includes chemistry): For this class we had a practical task + write up and a final paper. The practical task when brilliant and I had a blast doing it; I'm sure that I'll get an A for it. However I don't know the weighting of the task. As for the theory paper; well it was actually quite an enjoyable paper and my studying definitely paid off. Admittedly I learnt nearly an entire term's worth of work the day before since I absolutely could not concentrate on it before then no matter how I had tried. All in all I think I'll do well enough on the paper and score above 80% for it since I messed up a question on waves and am bound to have made at least a few calculation errors. Honestly; I'm not sure where I stand for this class in terms of my original goal.

Accounting: Both of my parents have degrees in accounting so bringing home an 80% is considered terrible; though more for my mum than my dad-who is learning that academics aren't everything-amazingly. Anyway normally I do much better than this but then again only two people got above 80% for the final and most people got below 60%, another thing about this paper was that there was an error that affected the entire income statement that was only caught in the last 5 minutes and so we all had to adjust this and alter our work and we were not given any additional time. Also, there was an error in the memo; I'm certain that it was a trading stock deficit and not a surplus-and I can explain why I believe so if anyone wants to know. Anyway results for the class have definitely slipped and need some work, but while I'm obviously a bit disheartened, I'll be okay and I will bring home my 90% next term. I'm gonna be fine. Totally fine. Let's just hope that my mum will be too.

Math: I'm getting a good grade for this class and I'm really, really proud of myself and all the effort that I put in for the final paper. I worked hard and it shows. While I know that I could have done much better if I had actually studied a bit more for the task I am proud. The best part is that I got the 2nd highest score in the grade (for the final paper); the guy who beat managed to find one mark to break our tie. Which was so wonderful, scoring so high and so well on the test reminded not only that I love math, and that I'm a dab hand at it with a little effort, but also that I can be the best, or at least at the top. That I was always at the top before-and I love that feeling so much. And just how badly I want it back. Just how much I want to win. What can I say? That score reignited that competitive, smart-ass, academic thirteen year old in me. And now I want to win again.

CAT: AKA my best class and one of my favorites with physics. I'm extremely a little bit disappointed in myself over my mark for my practical test for this class. It was 50% of my grade and I messed it up, especially considering that this normally my one of my, if not my strongest, point in both this class and school in general. So, while I'm extremely disappointed (no need to sensor it since I said I was being honest) in this score (46/55) and it will bring my final score down with it I'm going to give myself grace. It was a tough week; I had a death in the family that week and my dad was also gone for business then, and either way we're all just humans. We make mistakes and that's allowed.

First Additional Language: We had to write an essay for this class and do a prepared reading and both went decent enough. I scored 90% for the prepared reading but I have no clue about it's weighting nor my results for my essay and the weighting of that. We're supposed to get them back on Wednesday but I won't be present for that. I think that I should bag my 85% though.

Second Additional Language: We had an essay and a final test for this class; the final went well enough considering that the date of the paper was adjusted every five minutes. We were anticipating writing accounting the morning that we wound up writing the paper and so that was quite jarring. As for the essay; well I actually didn't turn in more than a paragraph for my first draft as we had a death in the family that week and my dad left for business so I lost my head a bit. I had figured that this would be fine seeing as I would just put in extra effort for my final copy. We didn't do a final and so this grade is going to be pretty crappy.

English: Oh dear god. This term was a bit of a disaster for English. Everything went wrong. We had a speech and and a final only since our writing piece got absorbed into the final. We did the speech at the end of August but I still don't know my score or the weighting-largely since I have been too much of a chicken to ask. My speech was funny, well researched and unique enough. I had spent a decent enough time practicing but I messed up when my PowerPoint presentation started freezing up on me; my voice started to shake slightly, I began to confuse my jokes and dropped some of my cue cards because my hands started to shake with my voice. Basically I messed it up. I think I could pull a 75-85% for it at best. I felt terrible as my English teacher is one my favourite teacher and I disappointed her, myself and did not do my speech justice. I thought that would be able to make it up in my final as it was on literature-my favourite course-and on The Hunger Games-a novel I know like the back of my hand. That didn't happen. We all anticipated an essay on the themes and symbols seeing as we had barely touched on the characters. Even with knowing all I know about the book, even with having the best, most detailed, deep, insightful answers from everyone in the grade, even so that my teacher uses my book as a marking guideline instead of her textbook and wants to take my book after our final literature paper-I still panicked when I saw the essay and blew it. The cherry on top? I accidentally missed out two poetry questions I knew the answers to.

#adhd and school #study blog #adhd studyblr #studying #productivity #actually adhd #student #studyblr #study hard #studies #honest studyblr

[bunny-rambles]

my baby ;;; you're not selfish for feeling sad or lonely, you're human, and it's human to experience disappointment :(((

let me tell you a story tho: when i was a bit younger than i am now i was actually a pretty famous fanfiction writer. seems silly now that i think back on it but i actually was :' the type of famous where i woke up with people writing that they wished to be able to write like me, or that i was their inspiration, or that they hoped we could be friends. and you know what the funny story was? at the time my writing was atrocious. utterly, terribly, cringe-worthy type of writing, the type that makes older me want to go back and slap younger me in the face.

after that i took sort of a gap year, talked to some senior writers, improved my writing a lot, and when i came back guess what? my time had kind of ended, all the people that used to follow me where not there anymore and i went to receiving tons of comments to every single one of my stories to having like, one or two and mostly from my closest friends. yet the fics i wrote in that period were undoubtedly better than anything else that i had written prior. and it was kind of disheartening, but in my case at the end of the day i came to realise that writing was a thing that made me happy, first and foremost, and if by doing that i could make someone else happy as well it didn't really matter to me whether it was one person or one hundred, even if i never really stopped thinking about all the what ifs. sometimes i still wish i was the type of fanwriter that receives praise and appreciation and has people drawing fanarts on her works. because i'm human, and as such i have ambitions, i have dreams, i feel hurt, and all the likes.

what i was trying to say with this useless story is. first of all, recognition and praise doesn't make your talent. you're no less good of a writer if no one reads you and you're no necessarily better if you have thousands of followers. you're you, and what you write is a reflection of you, and it's good and it might be improvable as everything human is, but it's also perfect as is, and you shouldn't let even yourself think that it's not. but secondly, feeling sad is human, feeling left out is human, and you shouldn't feel bad about feeling like that, like you're selfish for suffering or something.

this was supposed to be comforting in some way but eh, unfortunately i never had a way with words when it came to feelings. what i was trying to say though is, i unfortunately can't fix your problems like i had some sort of magic wand. but if i can tell you how good i genuinely think you are every single time i write to you then i will, because i think it's true. and if one day i'll find you with thousands of followers i'll be really happy for you and i really wish you'll achieve that, but that won't change the fact that i still get a smile on your face whenever i see you posting a new work :3

and speaking of works! i've seen your new ruby piece and will rush to check it out, but the part of me that still believed me to be able to make a point wanted to write to you first. feel free to answer to this or not, it was more of a incoherent babble for you ahah

goodnight my sweet buns, i'll send lots of hugs to hold you tight whenever your mood drops even a lil bit

con affetto,

- 🍓

Hm,

I wish I could make myself believe that I’m not selfish or greedy for wanting to have my feelings noticed, but at this moment in time, I can’t bring myself to. I feel like sometimes, maybe I should never show emotions to anyone. Other times, I feel like this is my safe place, and maybe it should be okay to express when I’m not feeling my best. I’m 50/50 with everything at this moment in time, and I’m still working on not feeling selfish for experiencing emotion. It’s a work in progress.

Anyway, apologies for going off topic, I know exactly what you mean. I’ve been writing for years, just never published any, and I too got compliments that (now) I think were just completely undeserved. Now I’m improving, I wish for those comments back, because now I feel like my writing is at the standard I want it to be (at times, sometimes it still feels stiff and emotionless to me) but I just never get them. It’s very disheartening.

Like the Ruby piece, since you brought it up, I think last time I posted the first part I got a lot of notes, now the second part, although yes has a lot of praise instead of silent rb’s, is barely at 150. And I think it’s so much better than almost all of my posts !! It’s the longest thing I’ve written, the longest I’ve worked on a piece, and had the most enjoyment out of writing it. Sure, it might not be perfect, but I enjoyed writing it. And truthfully that’s all that should matter. It’s just, when I spend so much time on something, I’d want it to get what I think is suitable attention. That was really off topic, sorry. My head isn’t feeling very good so I’m rambling a lot more.

But… Thank you. I don’t think my writing is perfect, but I’m glad you think so. And I’ll try not to feel selfish for feeling the things that I do.

It was comforting, I’ve reread this a few times since you’ve sent it in. I wasn’t expecting you to say anything since you rarely send more than one message if I’ve not responded, but it was a very pleasant surprise. I’m sending back my love and hugs, thank you so much for being here for me. Even as a faceless anon, I still considering you rather close to me now, purely because of how sweet you are to me. Thank you (again) I’m so happy my works make you smile, and I hope to continue to make you smile while you’re here

Buona notte, fragola amica.

ti voglio bene <3

#bun speaks #🍓 anon

[ahwait-no-yes]

something I love about spite is that it can make me draw the weirdest things even with absolutely no energy but hey if the one who prompted this can be salty on main so can i 😎👊 (this is being queued by the way so by the time it posts i’ll be as right as rain altho the end was my brain being random lol)

ohoho sorry I wasted your precious time with my BS “assumptions”, i’m sorry you completely ignored something I repeated twice💔 sorry not everything is meant to be taken at face value 💔  i’m not normally aggressive online (passive or otherwise) but I don’t take kindly to being called insane for their own mistake

#saiouma #oumasai #danganronpa v3 #ahwait-no-yes can't draw #ahwait-no-yes rambles #saihara shuichi #ouma kokichi #im not even gonna bother tagging properly im too tired #yeah I understand it was very flawed #but you walked into it and read the whole thing #aware of the very thing you're annoyed about #it's like #if you were allergic to nuts and ate snickers knowing that #ahahaha okay im done #salty post will be salty #I really can't believe i let myself be disheartened by it at first #their point was fair enough and bias didnt belong there #thats not what im salty over it was that they completely twisted my words #alr no im not gonna spend more time on this #op i like your blog & i get your point but rethink the accusation first

[anxiousnerdwritings]

May I ask you some yandere comfort?

I unfortunately got into a car accident a couple of days ago; got T-boned, fortunately nothing broken, but lots of bruises and a huge stitch on my thigh (not to mention the pain killers have been a pain, ironically enough).

I just want a (preferably romantic) yandere to fuss over (kidnap) me. I can't think of anybody in particular; so if you could, surprise me with whoever you think would be the best for this situation.

Please and thank you 😊!

And definitely be safe while you're on the road. Holidays and just a small shift in the weather can make people go crazy 🤪!!!

(So sorry to hear that and I’m sorry for getting this to you so late. I hope you’re doing well! And I hope this makes you feel better!)

A Place Meant To Be

Pietro couldn’t bring himself to try and care about what was happening around him right now. His vision was tunneled, focused on getting to where he needed to be.

His mind was racing just as fast as his legs were. He couldn’t believe it when his sister had told him you were in a car accident. Knowing how her brother was (especially when it came to you) Wanda had made it very clear that you weren’t seriously hurt and that you were safe at home now but Pietro had stopped listening at that point. The only thing on his mind was getting to you. He needed to be by your side, that was the only way he could accept that you were okay.

As worried as he was, Pietro was also a little disheartened. Why did you call his sister and not him? He could have been by your side even sooner if you had. He could have been taking care of you already if you had just depended on him first.

Pietro had been keeping himself under control in regards to his feelings for you on the request of his sister. Wanda was well aware of his infatuation for you. She even encouraged it but you were her best friend and she cared for you just as much as Pietro but on a different level. She didn’t want her brother rushing into things and scaring you away before you were ready. So, she persuaded him to take things slow and as much as he detested it he tried but with you having gotten hurt this time around and without either he or Wanda their to protect you, Pietro was done with holding back.

Once he got to your front door he didn’t bother to knock, having knowledge of where you kept your spare key he let himself in.

You were surprised to see him of course having obviously not known he would be visiting. “Oh! Hey, Pietro. I wasn’t expecting you. Wanda didn’t have to send you to check up on me, you know. I told her I was okay.” You didn’t look as bad as Pietro had feared but he still wasn’t buying that you were completely fine.

“She didn’t. I was worried when I heard about the accident. I thought I would check in on you myself.” He wasn’t necessarily lying but there was more to the reason why he was here.

“Oh, okay. Well, thank you. That’s very sweet of you.” You smiled. He loved your smile. He wanted to wake up to it every day and go to sleep to it every night. He wanted to be the reason for that smile.

“Do you need help with anything? Or do you want me to run any errands for you? I’m not really needed anywhere else, I could stick around if you want. I hear I’m pretty good company to keep.” Pietro wanted nothing more than for you to use him to your hearts content. He would do anything for you.

He just wanted to hear you ask him to stay.

He wanted you to want him around.

He wanted you to need him.

“I think I’ll be alright but thank yo-” A sudden wave of dizziness washed over you as you tried to get up from your spot on the couch. Pietro was quick to your side, gently pushing you to lay back down.

“Maybe I should stay after all. I can’t leave you in good conscious, not like this. Besides, my sister would kill me if she knew I left you to fend for yourself.” You needed him, that much was clear. And he would be here for you, always.

He would take care of you.

He would love you.

He was yours to depend on.

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[gc-genshin]

Chapter Four: Epiphany

Epiphany (n.): a sudden insight or understanding of something.

Pairing: Various x female reader

Summary: You get an idea of what's going on… sort of.

Warnings: Explicit language.

Word count: 12.7k (holy shit my bad)

A/N: Uh… *taps mic* hello?? Is this book still relevant?? Did y'all miss me? Lmao, lot of shit happened the past months so I wasn't really able to focus on this story unfortunately. I hope this extra long chapter makes up for the wait! Plus this isn't proofread and I'll add the taglist later, I'm ready to post this chapter.

Happy reading!

Your first week of working at the Wangshu Inn was… uneventful, to say the least.

Other than being hectic trying to take care of guests because of Lantern Rite, nothing really surprising has happened. Which you suppose was a good thing.

After your little drinking incident that happened a few days ago…

—

“Perhaps…” Xiao started and you waited with a baited breath, nervous as to what he was going to say. “You are in need of some assistance, you imbecile.”

You looked at him with hazy and unfocused eyes. In your drunken stupor, you could only respond to him with an embarrassed laugh.

“Aha, yeah…” You trailed off awkwardly. Your eyes then began to droop dangerously low as a sudden wave of drowsiness had hit you. Xiao could only watch as you instantly passed out in his arms while letting out small snores. The adeptus let out an aggravated sigh as he picked up and carried you to your shared room, already regretting the decision of taking care of you.

—

It was safe to say you didn't see him for a day or two.

Today was Friday. One day before the Mingxiao Lantern was released. Goldet had decided to already pay you for your two weeks because of how hard you were working, which you tried to decline, but Goldet was as stubborn as you so you reluctantly accepted the money.

You were sweeping the reception area, bored out of your mind. You were done with all of your chores but you still wanted to work and be productive. You turn your head when you hear Goldet heave a sigh.

“Lantern Rite is nearly here, why don't we decorate the inn this year?” She asks you.

That line sounds familiar. You tilt your head, feigning confusion. “Lantern Rite? What's that?”

Goldet looks at you surprised. “Oh! Don't you know? On the first full moon of the first month each year, Liyue celebrates the Lantern Rite. It's a festival to commemorate the heroes from the past. After dark, the people release Xiao and Mingxiao Lanterns into the night sky.” She began explaining. “Ah... "May the flames of wisdom spread to all, and never be extinguished." This is the meaning of the lanterns. We believe they act as the beacons in the night, guiding bygone heroes back to their homeland.”

You gaze at her in wonder. “That sounds like a magnificent festival.” If I cried during the cutscene from the game, I wonder how much of a mess I would be if I was able to see it in person.

“Do you want to get involved in the Lantern Rite?” Goldet asks.

You nodded. ���From the way you were talking about it, it sounds like a wonderful experience.”

Goldet clapped her hands excitedly. “That's great! The festive period leading up to the day itself is all part of the celebrations. If you're looking to take part, it's not too late.”

You thought for a moment. “Wait, so you're telling me that I don't have to work?” You asked Goldet.

She let out a small gasp as if she was shocked you would even suggest such a thing. “Oh Archons no! I would never ask you to work on a holiday such as Lantern Rite!” She exclaimed. You blink at her a few times, caught off guard by her slight outburst, and she laughed at your expression. “Haha... During this time, we pray to bring peace and ward off bad luck. Liyue locals call it "bidding farewell to the old and welcoming the new."

After hearing Goldet exclaim, Huai’an, her husband and the innkeeper, came to see what the commotion was. “Verr, are you alright? I heard you yell.” He asked with a concerned look.

Both you and Goldet turned to him. “I'm fine, dear. I was just explaining to [Name] the history behind Lantern Rite.” Goldet tells him. “Can you believe this will be her first time celebrating it?”

Huai’an gives you a look of surprise. “You've never experienced Lantern Rite?”

From the way they were talking about it, you almost felt embarrassed to say no. You hunch your shoulders and meekly shake your head at him.

Huai’an noticed your timid state. “Well isn't this exciting?” He quietly asked Goldet. He then turned to you. “Lantern Rite truly is a wonderful experience so I have no doubt that you'll enjoy it. Plus I can teach you how to make Xiao Lanterns!” He gives you an encouraging smile.

You give them both a wide eyed stare. “So… I'll be able to go to Lantern Rite? You don't need me for anything?”

Goldet shook her head while laughing. “No, you silly girl. Everybody will be in the city to release lanterns, so the inn won’t be very busy that night.” She gives you a soft smile. “Go and have fun.”

Shit I might just cry. You looked at Goldet teary eyed. “Boss!” You wept comically. “You're too kind, boss! Paying me in advance, giving me a roof over my head, letting me go to Lanter Rite! What did I ever do to have such a wonderful boss?” You cried out and glomped her into a hug. You were totally using your younger appearance as an advantage to act more childish because you would have never done this with any other boss.

Goldet laughed at you, reciprocating the hug. “And what did I do to deserve such a wonderful employee? You've been working so hard since you've started, it would be cruel of me not to let you go and enjoy the festival.” She tells you while swaying side to side. You've come to realize that Goldet was starting to become like the older sister you never had.

You both pull away from the hug. “Plus,” Goldet began, “I paid you early in advance so that you would be able to go shopping.” She gives you a cheeky smirk. “Can't have you wearing my clothes and your uniform the entire time you're here.”

You laugh at that. “You're right.” You grin at her and Huai'an. “Thank you both so much, for all that you've done for me.” You say sincerely.

“Of course [Name]. Now go have fun shopping.” She gestures to the balcony. “I think you've just about swept the floorboards down to splinters.”

You thank Goldet again and give her one last hug before running to your room to change. But as you were making your way up the stairs, Goldet called out to you. “Oh [Name]! Um… also,” she trailed off uncertainly.

You crinkle your eyebrows in confusion. “What's up?”

“If you're able to…” she cleared her throat. “... could you... try to convince Xiao to go with you?” She asked. She then let out a sigh. “We're not close, I wouldn't know how to ask him myself. But it seems that you've grown familiar with him.”

You look at her confused. You? Being close with Xiao? Yeah, the thought sounds nice but there's no way you have already ‘grown familiar’ with him in just a week. If anything he tolerates you at best since you've forcefully wormed your way into his life.

“Really?” You tilt your head. “Xiao doesn't seem to be one for crowds.” Sorry Aether, I might have to steal your idea. “I mean, I'll try and convince him but I can't make any promises.”

Goldet let out a resigned sigh. “I suppose you're right… Anyway! Just thought I'd mention it. You should get yourselves down to the harbor.”

She then shoos you off with a smile. “Get going! If you leave too late, the city will be crowded with people and you won't be able to make the most of it.”

You nod enthusiastically. “Yes ma’am! Happy Lantern Rite!” You wave to her and Huai'an.

They both wave back. “Happy Lantern Rite!”

—

You burst into your room, practically vibrating in excitement at the thought of having your own clothes. You hurriedly started to strip out of your uniform, unaware of the curious gaze that came from your current roommate.

Xiao was currently leaning against the railing on the balcony that accompanied the room and was wondering why you were in such a rush. As he turned to question you, he instantly turned back around upon seeing you reach behind yourself to start buttoning your dress, keeping his gaze on the scenery before him. Xiao let out a deep breath and rubbed his forehead in aggitaion. I just can't get used to her doing that.

However, when you start to undress, you notice Xiao quickly turn around out of the corner of your eyes. Halting your movements, you call out to the young adeptus as you buttoned your uniform back up. “Sorry Xiao! I didn't know you were there!” And you made your way to the bathroom.

Hearing you say his name made Xiao tense up in surprise and furrow his eyebrows. He was one hundred percent certain that you would have just kept undressing in the middle of the room, being the shameless mortal that you are, but you didn't. You instead moved to change in a different room. Huh… perhaps she does have some decency.

You quickly came out of the bathroom after that interaction, dressed in Goldet’s clothes for the last time. Seeing Xiao still out on the balcony, you walk up to his side while enjoying the warm breeze.

Xiao looked at you from the corner of his eyes, nearly seeing the excitement radiate off you. “Where are you going in such a rush?” He asked. You perk up when hearing his voice and swivel your head to him.

“Goldet is letting me go experience the festival!” You exclaimed excitedly. “Isn't that great?”

Xiao rolled his eyes and let out a scoff. “What's so great about releasing glowing trash into the sky only for it to return to the sea?”

You hummed. “Well, it's like any other tradition I suppose. It's not so much the actual festival or ritual that matters but more of the meaning behind it instead.” You shrug. “Plus it gives me an excuse to go shopping, you coming with?”

“No.”

You let out a groan and roll your eyes. Even though you were expecting it, you couldn't help but feel a little disheartened at his answer. “Why not?” You question. Although I already know why.

Xiao gave you a look. “I don't enjoy large crowds of people.”

You let out a sigh. “Fiiiiine,” you drawl out, “no means no so I guess I'll stop bothering you about it.”

Xiao raised an eyebrow. Really? She's going to quit just like that? He looked at you dubiously.

“For now.” You added mischievously with a smirk.

There it is. Xiao should have known better. He found out that you were too damn stubborn to give up easily pretty quickly. He shook his head at you. “Do you plan on leaving soon?” He changed the subject.

You nod. “I was going to leave as soon as I changed but then I saw you and just had to talk to you.”

That made Xiao scrunch his eyebrows. “You just had to talk to me? Why's that?”

You look towards him and give him a closed eyes smile. “Because I wanted too! Plus you're my friend and I enjoy your company.”

Xiao gave you a once over. A heavy feeling settled in his chest when you referred to him as a “friend”. That word left a bitter taste in his mouth. Everyone that he ever considered a friend had either died or left him in some way, and he never bothered to keep in contact with the current adepti, so the thought of you wanting to be in his company was worrying. Who knows how long it'll be until his karmic debt finally catches up to him…

And drags you along with him.

Xiao narrowed his eyes at you. You immediately took notice of his tense state and swallowed at the harsh glare he gave you. Uh oh. You let out an uncomfortable laugh. I don't think he liked that.

“What have I told you about getting close?” He asked harshly which caused you to curl in on yourself slightly.

“In the thousands of years that have passed, I have taken countless wraiths,” he began, “so if you want no trouble, it’s best you keep your distance from me.” After he finished scolding you he turned to leave, going to do who knows what. You watched as he seemingly stormed away. Slightly panicking that he was leaving because you had upset him, you steeled your nerves and asked the first thing that came to your head.

“But what if I want trouble?”

Your question made Xiao stop in his tracks. He turned to look at you confused. You wore an expression that was full of confidence that waived slightly.

“What if I don’t want to keep my distance away from you?” You continued. “You told me to “stay out of your way or all that awaits me is regret”, right?” You quickly stride over to him and jab a finger in his chest.

“Well guess what honey? That's a risk I'm willing to take.” You tell him fiercely. “I make my own choices and if I happen to make bad choices then I will deal with the consequences of those choices.” You place a hand on your chest and glare at him determinedly.

“You have no say in what I ultimately can and can't do, Xiao. Only. I. do.” You finally finish and place your hands on your hips defiantly.

Xiao looked at you blankly, trying to process what you had just said. When he finally did, he looked at you sternly. “Is that really what you want?”

“More than anything.” Your eyes bore deep into him, not wavering in the slightest in your decision. “You saved my life. The least I can do for you is offer you my company and assistance in any way for not letting me splatter all over the ground. Even if you don't want it.”

After a few heartbeats of silence, Xiao reluctantly gave in and sighed while crossing his arms. “You are the most troublesome human I've had the displeasure of knowing.”

You smiled triumphantly. “Glad we're on the same page!”

“Well I'll be heading off now. Do you need anything?” You ask as you start heading towards the door.

“Nothing in the city would be of use to an adeptus.” He responds. “Don't forget your blade.”

You promptly made a 180 turn and walked towards your nightstand where a little dagger laid. Since you weren't able to fully wield a bigger weapon and don't understand how they do the whole whooshy thing to make their weapons disappear, I think he called it “particulation” or something like that, Xiao insisted that you had some form of weapon to protect yourself with.

You grabbed the knife and clipped it parallel to your belt, allowing your shirt to conceal it. “I don't see the reason as to why I have to have this thing. Aren't the Millelith scattered along the road to Liyue?” You then turn to Xiao and tilt your head. “Plus I can just call you whenever I'm in trouble.” Though that would probably be a last resort for me.

“I don't trust those lousy soldiers.” Xiao huffed.

You raised your eyebrow and pursed your lips, nodding in agreement. “Yeah… I don't blame ya.”

“Anyways,” you shrug, “are you sure you don't want to come with me?”

Xiao only shook his head. “Best you go alone. There's no need for me to be there.”

You look at him with big doe eyes, trying to convince him to at least walk you to the harbor. “But the road from here to Liyue Harbor is long and full of dangers... I need someone to ensure my safety!” You exclaim, seemingly scared.

“That's why I gave you your blade.” The adeptus gave you a bored look upon his handsome face.

You then startled Xiao when you clapped your hands into a prayer position and brought them to your head. “O Vigilant Yaksha, please escort me safely to the city!” You cry out.

Xiao tensed at your sudden decloration. Normally, Xiao was used to other’s praying to him and hearing their wishes but when you did it, it made him feel… fidgety. You seemed to hold yourself in a high regard that you didn't let anyone have control over your actions, so it was odd to see you with your head bowed to him.

Xiao crossed his arms and looked away from you. “Quit that. There's no need for you to bow to me.”

You perked up, an excited gleam in your eyes. “So you'll come with me?”

“So be it. I won't be going into the city though.” He retorted.

You throw him a smile. “That's fine!” You straighten back up and open the door. “Come on, let's go!” You wave at him.

Xiao shook his head at your antics and began to follow you. And to think that she's a grown adult. “Wait.” He called out.

You stop in your tracks and look back at Xiao confused. “Huh? Why?”

Xiao walks up to your left side and grabs your bicep. You looked at him even more perplexed. What is he doing?

You then began to feel a strong gust of wind swirl around you and in an instant, darkness flooded your vision and a familiar feeling of nausea came over you. When you opened your eyes again, you saw the gates of Liyue below the hill you were on.

You put your hands on your knees, trying to keep from puking everywhere, as you begin to process that Xiao had just teleported you both to Liyue.

“Here we are.” Xiao released your arm.

“Would have been nice to know beforehand.” You groan. After feeling like you weren't going to empty your guts out, you look up and let out a small gasp.

In front of you stood an archway that led to the bridge that entered into the city. Looking beyond that, you could see the beautiful Chinese architecture of the buildings that filled Liyue Harbor with the magnificent decorations of Lantern Rite along the city. You gaped at the scene before you. Holy shit…

Xiao swiveled his head to give a hard stare. “Don't go and cause any trouble.” He warned you.

That caused you to let out a snort. “Yeah, yeah, sure. What are you, my dad?” You raised an eyebrow at him. “Why did we teleport?”

“So I wouldn't have to listen to talk my ear off all day.” He responded bluntly, causing you to let out an offended gasp. “And I told you,” he continued before you could tell him off. “so long as you are in Liyue, it is my duty to protect you and not let any harm come to you.” Xiao reiterated.

“Wow… you really are my dad. But that's a pretty big responsibility. You sure you can follow through with it?” You question.

“Are you questioning my abilities as an adeptus?” He asked gruffly. He then leaned in closer to your face. “I always take care of my duties.” Xiao finished while staring you straight in the eyes.

Your eyes widened in surprise at his declaration. The way he said that so firmly and confidently made your chest feel light before tightening, a familiar feeling of guilt settling in, causing you to look away and frown. Shit… not now.

Noticing the change in your demeanor, Xiao tilted his head confused. “What's wrong?”

Shaking your head to get rid of the self-deprecating thoughts that were forming, you look up at him with reassuring eyes. “It's nothing.” You tell him with a small smile.

Going back to your seemingly old self, you give Xiao a look. “Alrighty,” You turn towards him and hold out your pinkie, “pinky promise it then.”

He gave your pinky an inquisitive look. You furrow your eyebrows in confusion. “You have heard of a pinky promise before, right?”

Xiao squinted his eyes at you. “Is this another strange human gesture?”

“Eh, I wouldn't necessarily say it's strange. More endearing than anything.” You hold your dominant hand and make a “give it” gesture. “Give me your hand.”

Xiao hesitantly puts his hand in yours. You close it into a fist, only leaving out his pinky. You then bring your own pinky and lock it with his own. “Now say your promise again.” Xiao looked at you reluctantly. You let out a groan. “Come on dude, just do it please?” You say giving him your best puppy dog eyes.

Xiao sighed. “I promise, so long as you are in Liyue, that I will protect you and not let any harm come to you.” He looked at your still entwined pinkies. As he said this, a gentle breeze drifted between the two of as if it was sealing the promise between you and Xiao. Xiao watched as the wind suddenly made your hair flutter around you and the way the afternoon sun casted just the right amount of shadows on your features as you looked up at him. At the moment he didn't see the fifteen year old features that made up your current face but the mature, more sharper features that he saw from your most recent pictures and student ID.

“Now what?” Her hands are really warm.

You give him a smile. “That's it!” You then let go of his pinky, bringing your hand back to your side.

He looked at you confused. “That's it? Nothing special happens?”

“The special thing about pinky promises is that the person who broke the promise gets their pinky cut off by the other person who made the promise.” You say to him.

“That's quite gruesome for such a little act.” Humans confused him so much.

“I think it was more of a scare tactic for kiddos than anything really.” You shrug. You then started walking to the city. “I'll see you later Xiao!” You call out with a grin.

“Be careful.” He told you with a subtle nod, which made your smile somehow even brighter, before teleporting away. You then turned back around and practically skipped to Liyue.

—

You made your way down the hill and soon came upon the gate that led to the city. In front of it stood two guards, you couldn't bother to remember their names, who gave you a nice ‘welcome to Liyue Harbor’ as you walked past them. As you walked over the bridge you saw the Mingxiao Lantern standing tall in all its glory. Continuing on, you finally stepped foot in the city. With a look of amazement on your face, you spun around while trying to take in all of the decorations.

I can't believe I'm actually here… You let out a disbelieving laugh and began to feel your eyes become misty. Am I really tearing up right now? Oh my God I am. You shake your head trying to get your emotions in check. As you carry on walking further, the infamous somewhat creepy shipowner, Bolai spots you looking around like a lost puppy. Which you really weren't, you were just hypnotized by the decorations.

“Hello young lady!” He called out to you. You whipped your head towards him, slightly startled. When you realized who was talking, you made a small grimace. Oh… it's that really creepy guy that I don't like.

As he makes his way towards you, you put your guard up as you straighten your back. “Hello.”

Bolai raised an eyebrow as he stopped short of you. “What a strange accent. Are you perhaps foreign?” He questioned.

You furrow your eyebrows. I have an accent? “Something like that.” You reply with a shrug your shoulders nonchalantly and a ghost of a smile on your face. Ain't no way in hell are you talking about yourself to him.

Bolai narrowed his eyes at you suspiciously. How interesting. “Quite the mysterious one, you are. Tell me, young lady, where do you hail from? Fontaine? Sumeru?”

“Sure.” You tell him halfheartedly. Why the fuck is he grilling me so hard? I should probably give him some sort of answer so he'll leave me alone. “I traveled a lot so I never really had a distinctive place to call home.” You smoothly lied. Well… it wasn't entirely a lie.

Believing your little fib, Bolai’s face softens into a look of realization. A young girl like you didn't have a home growing up? Is that what you were hinting at?

Taking notice of the subtle pity look that crossed his gaze, you groan internally. Great, now he's going to think that I never had a home. Whoops!

“Well just know that you are always welcomed here in Liyue,” He reassured you, kinda. Your eyebrows raise slightly in surprise from that. “And if you ever need anything, and I mean anything, you can always come to me.” He finished ominously while giving you a smile that seemed a little too kind.

You leaned your torso away from the strange man and looked at him mildly creeped out, yet kept a polite smile on your face. “Duly noted… thanks.” Trailing off, you maneuvered your way around and sped walked away from Bolai. A fake shiver runs through your body. Ugh… just as creepy as I remember.

You continued further into the city. Your head was constantly moving from left to right, up and down, taking in the gorgeous decorations that littered the buildings and streets. Pulling out the Mora pouch that Goldet gave you, you recounted the money that you earned from your first week working. 60,500 Mora… that should be plenty right? You paused. Actually, isn't that a lot of money? This seems like a lot for just a week of work. After pondering a few moments, you shrug the thought off.

You made sure to visit almost all the food stalls that were on the harbor to experience Liyue’s cuisine authentically, as well as how to make Xiao lanterns. After doing all the activities you possibly could, you made your way up the gigantic steps that led to the main road of the city.

As you made it to the top, you put your hands on your knees trying to catch your breath. From being on your feet all day from working plus the training the Xiao puts you through, it's safe to say you were pretty damn tired. You're kidding me. I can not be this out of shape! You thought.

Heaving one last breath, you straighten back up. You looked out to see the streets bustling with people with a slight grimace on your face at the crowds of people. You absolutely hated crowds of people because being around them just completely drains your energy.

However, your curiosity and astonishment motivated you to move forward. As you walked through the city, you kept an eye out for any clothing shops because you needed your own clothes, since that's pretty much what you came here for.

Letting your gaze continue to search through the windows of various different shops, your eyes landed on an article of clothing that caught your attention. You quickly make your way to the store and opened the doors, causing a bell above the door to let out a little chime and alert the store owner and other shoppers of your presence.

“Welcome!” They called out. You give them a small wave in response as you make your way over to the outfit. Once you made it, you reached your hand out to feel the smooth silk of the fabric. It was a beautiful sleeveless, purple dress that reached the middle of your thighs. Around the skirt of the dress laid two longer pieces that were a darker purple and draped along the sides. The top of the dress was two different colors, the right being a dark purple that were the same color of the longer pieces while the left was a lighter purple that matched the skirt, and had a high collar and with an opening in the chest area. The dress also adorned what looked like a wide obi belt, but you weren't too sure. The whole dress was trimmed with gold accents and had gold swirls all along it. Next to the dress were a pair of low ankle boots that matched the color theme.

This was the one.

You yoink it off the rack and look around for the owner. When you found them, you asked if they had any dressing rooms to try on the dress to which they led you to one. You begin to strip as soon as the door closes behind you. I really hope it fits otherwise I'll be heart broken.

As you slipped the dress over your head you zipped up the side and fastened the button on the collar. When you turn around to face the mirror, your eyes widen in surprise. Holy shit… I've never had a dress fit me so well. The dress sat magnificently on you and accentuated your curves. However… You looked down at your chest to see that your bra from your universe was most definitely visible thanks to the opening that went from the collar of the dress to the belt. I'm gonna have to do something about that. Looking back in the mirror you took notice of your tattoos. Those as well. You thought for a moment. Plus I don't particularly like wearing dresses unless I have leggings or something underneath it.

You begin to take the dress off and put your other clothes back on. I wonder if they would have some kind of body suit or something… You put the dress back on the hanger but continue to hold on to it. Making your way back towards the racks of clothing you begin your search.

As you walk through the aisles of clothing, you notice a black full body suit hanging on one of the racks. Bingo! You thought with a smile. You made your way to the suit, but you failed to notice the other body that was backing up into you.

Feeling a sudden weight on your right side, you stumble a little due to the force. However, the person that ran into had lost their balance and started to fall to the ground. Eyes widening in surprise, you were quick to catch them by grabbing them under their arms. When you looked down to check on the person to see if they were okay, you felt your breath hitch.

Staring back at you startled are lavender colored eyes that were lined with dark, thick lashes that belong to the one and only Ganyu.

You begin to feel your cheeks grow warm as you look down at the gorgeous half-adeptus in your arms. Ohfuckohfuckohfu– “Are you okay?” You asked worriedly. When you looked up to see what could have caused her to trip, you were greeted with the sight of a man that looked a little too pleased with himself. As he looked away from Ganyu and up to you, you made sure to give him the coldest glare you could manage – which made the man’s smirk falter and back up just a little.

Fucker.

Ganyu blinked as she came back to her senses. “Y-yes! I'm alright.” She gives you an appreciative smile. “Thank you.”

You return her smile. “It's no problem.” As you help her upright, you lean closer to her ear. “Do you know this guy?” You whispered. She looks at you from the corner of her eye and subtly shakes her head no.

You looked up to the creep and gave him an ‘innocent’ smile. “Is everything alright here?”

Realizing the slight hostile undertone in your voice, the man gives you a strained look. “Y-yes, everything's fine!” He stuttered and gestured to Ganyu. “I just thought I'd give this young lady a little help.”

Your eyes flicker from her back to the man. “She looks to be just fine on her own. What does she need help with?”

The man’s opens then closes, trying to think of a good excuse. “I… uh… well, she-!” You cut the man off with a raised hand.

“I'm going to stop you there. You're making yourself look like a fool.” You chastise. “It's obvious what you're doing and you're clearly making her uncomfortable. I suggest you stop now before you keep digging your grave even deeper.”

Eyes blown open and mouth agape, the man stares at you in shock from your words. Was I really that obvious? The man thought. He felt himself cowering in on himself under the heavy gaze of the two girls.

“Well, whatever.” He scoffed while avoiding eye contact, seemingly trying to act tough. “It's not like she was actually attractive.” Yet he received no reaction from either of the girls, as they continued to stare. The man began to fidget from their silence, then quickly turned around and left the store.

Both you and Ganyu let out a sigh. “Thankfully, that's over.” You tilt your head at Ganyu. “Does that happen often?”

“No, that was the first time it has ever happened.” She reveals. She then bows toward you. “Thank you for helping me.” When Ganyu straightens back up, she places a hand on her chest while giving you a sweet smile. “My name is Ganyu, secretary of the Yuhai Pavilion.”

God, she's even more gorgeous in real life… You flush a little as you give her a small bow in return. “It's nice to meet you, Miss Ganyu. I'm [Name] [Last Name].”

“It's a pleasure to meet you as well, Miss [Last Name]. Again, I do apologize for bumping into you earlier.” She tells you.

You wave your hand dismissively. “Just call me [Name], please. Calling me by my last name makes me feel old.” You joke.

Ganyu tilts her head curiously at you. “If I may ask, how old are you?” She asks innocently.

You pause, processing her question. Damn it. “I'm fifteen.” You manage out. I really hate telling people that because then they'll treat me like a child…

“Really?” She wonders aloud. “You're quite mature for your age and you seemed to know exactly what to do in the situation that happened earlier…” She trailed off.

You freeze hearing that. Oh shit! Has she caught on already?! You let out an awkward laugh. “Yeah, mature…” You say while making a subtle face. Although Xiao would disagree otherwise.

“Anyways, thank you once again for helping me. Is there anything I can do for you in return?” Ganyu asks.

You bring a finger to your chin and hum in thought. “Actually there is.” While Ganyu waits patiently for your request, you give her a smile. “Would you know of any stores that would have a body suit?”

The beautiful half-adeptus perks up in response. “As a matter of fact, this store has the same ones that I wear. Let me show you.” She then beckons you to follow her.

You do so with a skip in your step.

—

You and Ganyu soon left the shop, with you now wearing your new outfit that screamed main character. Thankfully the body suit was able to cover all of your tattoos. As you continued through the city, making light conversations with Ganyu, you watched as two little boys, who looked to be around the age of ten, chased each other around the streets while laughing. You watched them with a small smile. While you didn't like kids, you didn't necessarily hate them either. Plus it was kind of your profession to be able to take care of them as well. But you definitely didn't want any kids. Well, right now at least.

You watched as they weaved through the legs of strangers, trying to avoid getting hit. However, as the one with light blue hair raised a hand out in order to tag the other little boy with darker blue hair and an asymmetrical cut, a man that wasn't paying attention to what was in front of him went to take a step and kneed the poor boy hard in the head. The pale blue haired boy went down in an instant.

You let out a snort and raised a hand to your mouth to hide that you were laughing. “That poor kid just ate shit.” You couldn't help but let out a few chuckles at the kids unfortunate situation. Ganyu looked at you confused from the corner of her eyes. I'm a horrible person.

“I'm so sorry, buddy! Are you okay?” The young man that hit the boy asked as he crouched down. He received no reply as the boy laid still. The man started to shake the boy, seemingly beginning to panic.

“Hey…” He called out once more. “Are you okay?” He shook the boy frantically. Still, he received no reply. “This isn't funny, kid. Wake up!”

You stopped laughing and straightened your posture as your ‘doctor mode’ kicked in. Now you were getting concerned. Thousands of scenarios ran through your mind as to why the kid wasn't getting up. Is he concussed? Is he faking it? What's going on?

The other little boy that was running away, turned around when he heard yelling. His orange eyes widened in fear. “Chongyun!” He cried out and began running back to his friend.

Realization dawned on you. Those kids were Xingqiu and Chongyun. Your feet moved before you even noticed it as you rushed towards Chongyun and the man. Ganyu jumped when you began running and raised a hand to stop you. “[Name], wait!” But you were too far away to hear her over the people walking around.

A crowd began to form around the two to see what was happening. This caused the young man to panic even more. He looked up to the crowd. “Is there a doctor here? Please, anyone!” He cried out desperately, yet no one made a move to help.

You shook your head at the crowd. I see that the Bystander Effect is still a thing here. Xingqiu made it to Chongyun before you did, then got to his knees as soon as he reached him and started tapping Chongyun on the shoulder. “Chongyun?” He asked. “Wake up ‘Yun!”

You finally made it to the crowd and started elbowing your way through. “Excuse me! I'm a doctor, please let me through!” You yell out to the pedestrians. They turned and looked at you skeptically. Your lip curled up into a sneer at the people's ignorance. I don't have time for this.

“I said MOVE!” You yell out startling them in the process and forcing them to move. “Thank you!” You say exasperatedly, not forgetting your manners apparently. You quickly made your way over to Chongyun and got to your knees behind his head, gently placing your hands on either of his cheeks in order to stabilize his neck, in case he had injured it. Xingqiu noticed you and looked at you with tears eyes, worried out of his mind for his friend.

You looked to the man who started this whole mess. “What's going on? What happened?” You asked hurriedly while you checked Chongyun’s pulse.

The man seemed to be in a daze as he answered. “This kid just came out of nowhere. I had accidentally hit him with my knee and now he's not waking up.” He explained shakily. “Then this other kid just now showed up.” He pointed to Xingqiu. He then looked at you confused. “Aren't you a little young to be a doctor?”

You look at the man and give him a glare. “I don't think that matters right now since I'm the only one who even bothered to step in and help the poor child.” You glared at the rest of the crowd when you finished which made them avoid eye contact with you. Murmurs started to float through the crowd. What was this girl doing? Who is she? She's clearly too young to be a doctor.

You ignore their not so quiet whispering and look over to Xingqiu, giving him a reassuring smile. “Hey buddy,” you started softly. “What's your name?”

The normally composed boy let out a sniffle. “Xingqiu.” He responded. “My friend, Chongyun, isn't opening his eyes! Can you help?” He asked pleadingly.

“Don't worry baby, I'm a doctor.” You tell him, the pet name subconsciously slipping out of habit from when you worked with kids. “I'm going to help him and make sure he's okay.” Seventy beats per minute. Normal heart rate. Nineteen breaths per minute. Normal respiratory rate. If he wakes up soon, it'll most likely be just a slight concussion. You mentally start going down the checklist for head trauma patients when Chongyun finally opens his eyes.

Quickly taking notice, you yell at the crowd. “Everyone back up please! The kid is waking up so give him some space!” The crowd immediately backs away. You look back down at the boy who was wincing from the sunlight.

“Hey honey,” You gently try to get his attention, “can you hear me?”

Chongyun opened his eyes fully and looked at you, confused before squinting from the sunlight. From his position on the ground and the way the sunlight was hitting his baby blue eyes, you were able to see that his pupils were equal in size. Good. No anisocoria, no serious brain damage.

“Wha…?” Chongyun groaned out. With your hands on his cheeks, you gently tapped them to shift his attention back to you.

“Hey honey, look at me.” You instructed. “What's your name?”

The boy paused for a moment. “Chongyun.” He answered.

Alright that's one question. “It's nice to meet you Chongyun.” You smile at him. “Chongyun, do you know how old you are?” You continued.

“I'm ten.” He responded a little quicker this time. You nodded your head at him. That's two.

“Do you know where you're at, Chongyun?” You made sure to keep saying his name so that he would focus on you.

After a moment of silence, he responded. “I'm in Liyue.” He then closed his eyes and let out another groan. “My head hurts.”

“I know, dear. One last question, okay?” You tell him. He nods. “Do you know what happened to you?”

He thought for a moment. “I was… I was chasing Xingqiu,” said boy perked up in response to his name, “we were playing tag. I almost caught him then it suddenly got dark.” He opened his eyes and looked at you. “Why did it go dark?”

You give him a look of reassurance. “Your noggin got hit pretty hard and you fell down. You were asleep for a few minutes but you'll be okay.” You tilt your head. That's the last question. A and O times 4. He's alert and aware. “Does your head still hurt?” You asked as you began to palpate his neck, feeling for any serious injuries. You removed your hands when you found none.

He nodded. “Do you feel pain anywhere else? How about your neck?” He shakes his head in response.

“Good. Do you feel like sitting up for me sweetie?” You ask. Chongyun slowly moves to sit upright with your help and you guide him to the curb to sit on so he was out of the road. Xingqiu crawled over to his friend to see how he was doing, with you reminding him to overwhelm Chongyun. As you look out towards the crowd, you see Ganyu, who was carrying a cup of what you assumed was water, make her way over to your little group. She hands you the cup, which you thank her profusely, and you give it to Chongyun.

“Drink it slowly.” You advise him. “I don't want you choking on me now that you're awake.” You tease gently while sending a subtle wink to Xingqiu, causing the young boy to giggle.

He gingerly takes the cup from your hand. “Thank you ma’am.”

“Thank you, ma’am!” Xingqiu tells you as well.

“It's not a problem.” You reassure both of them with a smile. As soon as they saw that Chongyun was okay, the crowd dispersed and continued what they were doing. However, not without whispering amongst themselves how seemingly a teenager knew exactly what to do when taking care of an injured child.

You continued to sit with the two boys to monitor Chongyun, in case something suddenly went awry. Ganyu stayed as well, astounded at the young girl before her.

“What you did was quite impressive Miss [Name]!” The half adeptus praised. “I didn't know you were so vast in medical knowledge, and at such a young age too.”

You let out a few chuckles. “Well you only just met me today Miss Ganyu.”

She then gives you a sheepish look. “I was surprised to see you help him so quickly,” she leans in closer to whisper to you, “given that you were laughing at him earlier.”

“Oh… yeah,” You let out an uncomfortable laugh. “As long as they're not seriously hurt or in any danger, kids getting hit or falling is hilarious to me.” You let out a wince. “Wow, that sounds awful.”

“Yet you didn't hesitate to help him as soon as you saw that something was wrong.” Ganyu pointed out.

You lifted your hand to pet Chongyun on the head. “Well I've always wanted to be able to put my life to good use and help people in some way, so what better way than this? Helping people in their times of need.” You give Ganyu a cheeky smirk. “I may act all tough but I'm actually a big softie.”

“I'm well aware of that now.” Ganyu chuckles.

As you visited with the half-adeptus and two young boys, you failed to notice a pair of red eyes gazing at you with a look of mischief.

—

After triple checking that Chongyun was okay and him constantly telling you that he was, you wave the boys goodbye who returned it in full. Ganyu then tells you that she should continue running errands for Lady Nigguang and you may or may not have freaked out a bit inside when you heard her name. Waving to the half adeptus as well, you continue to wander aimlessly through the city.

You soon found yourself at the Wanmin restaurant, chef Mao working swiftly in the kitchen. He soon brought out your order and after paying, you made your way to the south side wharf. As you make your way to the dock, you sit down on the edge and look out at the ocean before you while swinging your legs. You welcomed the smell of salt water and the ocean breeze that fluttered around you, yet it did nothing to quarrel your racing thoughts.

I can't believe I've already been in Teyvat for a week and still don't have a fucking clue as to how I got here in the first place. You slide your hands down your face and clasped them together in front of your mouth. And Xiao has been no help to me in that matter unfortunately. The guy still doesn't talk to me that much anyways. Plus training with him has been difficult as well. I've learned that he's a super strict teacher and I've only managed to construct only two Geo items with him this past week but that was only when I was extremely frustrated or upset, so I have no clue as to how I'm going to be able to properly control the element… or that ‘particulation’ thingy with the weapons as well.

You drop your head in your hands and let out a whine. This is all so confusing! I really wish someone or something just give me some fucking answers!

You then look up and run your hands through your hair. Turning your head to the left, you see the giant Mingxiao lantern that was ready to be released once it was dark enough. You let out a sigh and try to relax. I should probably start looking for a place to watch it when it releases tomorrow. You stand up and start walking back to Feiyan Slope. Soon you crossed over the little bridge that connects Chihu Rock and Feiyan Slope. You decided to stick closer to the buildings to try and stay away from the crowds.

However, as you were too preoccupied to not hit anybody, you didn't notice a hand reaching out from an alleyway until it was too late. You felt a harsh tug on your left arm which caused you to let out a yelp. You quickly caught your bearings and when you turned to slapped your assailant, you froze as you saw a pale face that looked to be thirteen years old inches from yours. Red eyes with strange, floral shaped pupils came with the face and was framed with dark hair that faded into red.

Holy… Hu Tao? You wondered. But she looks a lot younger? Younger than this “me” that's for sure.

You give her a confused smile. “Um… hello?” Am I just going to meet every character in Liyue today?

“You're the one Mr. Zhongli told me about!” She exclaims. “It's nice to meet you! My name is Hu Tao!”

You swore you felt your soul leave your body when you heard his name. ZHONGLI?! HE’S LOOKING FOR ME?! OH SHI-! You're cut from your thoughts when Hu Tao starts pulling you. “Hey! W-wait!”

“C’mon! Mr. Zhongli is waiting for you back at the funeral parlor. It seemed like he wasn't too happy with you so we shouldn't keep him waiting any longer!” She giggles.

Yup, I'm officially dead. Maybe now I can go back to my world and be normal again.

Soon the young girl brings you to the doors of the Wangsheng Funeral Parlor. You gnawed on your lower lip. Fuck… I'm more nervous now than I was when I was taking the MCAT. Maybe because I'm meeting a FUCKING GOD?! You begin to slightly hyperventilate, the reality of the situation finally sitting in. FUCKFUCKFUCKFU-

You are once again snapped out of your internal freak out by Hu Tao pulling on your arm. The girl pushes the doors open while bringing you with her. The inside is about what you expected from a funeral parlor with coffins lining along the walls along with different types of shrines. After a few twists and turns, you and Hu Tao reach a very intricate door with a plate on it that says “Consultant: Zhongli”. You clench your jaw as you could practically feel the intense aura that radiated from him even through the door.

Without even knocking, Hu Tao busts through his door. “Mr. Zhongli! I found her! This is the girl you were looking for right?”

The wind gets knocked out of you upon finally seeing him in person and your knees about damn near buckle from underneath when you make eye contact with him. If you thought Xiao’s eyes were intense, then you don't even know how to describe Zhongli’s.

The Geo Archon narrowed his eyes towards you. “Indeed it is, Hu Tao.” His deep voice rumbled throughout the entire room and shook you to your core. “You may take your leave now.”

The young girl pouted. “Aw… and I wanted to see you scold her.”

A quick glance from the corner of his eyes was enough to make Hu Tao take the hint and leave, however not without whining on her way out.

As soon as Hu Tao was gone, Zhongli stood up and took large strides towards you, causing you to start panicking. Hu Tao, why did you have to leave me alone with an Archon?! Soon the man towered over you, forcing you to look up at him. The shadows that casted over his being due to him blocking out the overhead light made his striking amber eyes all the more intimidating. You felt like you were about to be pounced on like a mouse cornered by a barn cat.

Then Zhongli lowered his face closer to yours. “So you're the outlander who took my vision without permission.” He accuses. You feel your breath hitch in your throat and your palms beginning to clam up. You had never been more intimidated in your life and you have fought against people twice your size no problem before!

“Oh…! Um, t-that was me?” You stutter out. Your eyes widen when you realize just how fucking stupid you sounded.

Zhongli coolly looked at you. “Of course it was you. I knew that you were not of this world the moment you arrived in Liyue.” He tells you firmly while staring straight into your soul. “Now, do inform me on how you were able to acquire this power without a Vision granted from me?”

The silence was deafening in the room. You thought you were just about to faint until your experience from working under pressure in the emergency room decided to kick in and not fail you as you quickly composed yourself.

“In my defense,” you raise your hands. “it was completely out of my control.”

Zhongli raised an eyebrow, unconvinced.

You let out a sigh. “Here's what happened. A saw a Statue of Seven in Guili Plains, in all of its glory, and as soon as I was near it I felt a pulling sensation. Later that day I was extremely frustrated and all of a sudden a rock pillar just came out of the ground.”

Zhongli hummed in thought before finally standing back to his full height, allowing you to breathe again. He brought a hand to his chin and looked down in thought. “Interesting. I have not heard of such instances where that has ever happened, with me or any of the other Archons.” His eyes met yours again. “So what makes you special? So special that even the adeptus Xiao has decided to look after you?”

You couldn't help the exaggerated laugh that bubbled out of your throat. “Ha! I wish I knew, but your guess is as good as mine sweetheart.” You pause. “I also know that you're Morax too… if you haven't figured that out yet.” You finish meekly. WHAT THE FUCK AM I SAYING?!

The Geo Archon’s eyes widen at you. “How did you know that? Where exactly did you come from?” He interrogates.

You quickly explain to him the same thing that you told Xiao, that he was from a video game and that you were aware of what was to come in the future as well as how you somehow physically de-aged.

“Interesting.” Zhongli thought for a moment. “It appears that you come from a similar universe in which our’s exists but in a completely different manner.”

“How much of our universe do you know through this ''game”?” He questions.

“I know of some future events that will happen, but the lore of the story is still a complete mystery. We don't even know how long the main story of the game is.” You say.

Zhongli pondered. “I see. If you know what is to happen in the future, then it would be best to let things run their course and not intervene with it.”

“Yeah, the butterfly effect and shit like that.” Your eyebrows shoot up in surprise as you subconsciously swore. You quickly slap a hand over your mouth. “Sorry… it's a bad habit.” You apologize quietly.

Zhongli decided to ignore your mishap. “So you're aware of what could happen. And since you're already aware of my identity, I presume that you know that I go by Zhongli now?”

You nod your head. “Yes, I do.” You then realized that you haven't introduced yourself. You quickly bowed towards him. “My name is [Name] by the way! [Name] [Last Name].”

Zhongli nodded. “It's a pleasure to finally know the name of the outlander that took my Vision without consent.”

You make a face at his snarky comment. “Is it a pleasure though?” You muttered rhetorically.

“Let's continue with your situation.” Zhongli diverted the conversation back on track. He then looked towards you. “Perhaps if you tried to remember the events that happened to you before you came here, that may give us a better idea as to the reason why you're here.” He then gestures to one of the chairs in front of his desk. “Please have a seat. It will be easier for you to remember if you're comfortable.”

“I do remember being on a bridge but that's the only thing I know now.” Moving to sit down, you tuck your dress skirt underneath you and cross your legs, trying to look somewhat professional. You take a deep breath as you gather thoughts. What happened before coming here? What was I doing? You lean forward and rest your elbows on your knee while interlacing your hands, then put your forehead against them. You close your eyes and your eyebrow twitches into a furrow as you begin to concentrate. [e/c] eyes move rapidly behind eyelids as memories start to form.

“A hospital…” You began. “I was working a shift in the hospital.”

—

“Hi Miss Bradford!” You cheerily call out as you knock on the door. The old woman looked up from her magazine and smiled at you with dull blue eyes.

“Dr. [Last Name]. How are you doing sweetheart?” She asks softly. Miss Bradford was a quiet old lady in her seventies with salt and pepper hair and the brightest, most gorgeous blue eyes you had ever seen.

That was before she had started chemotherapy.

Miss Bradford was your most recent patient. You had treated her a few months ago when she came to your emergency room with intense chest pains. After taking multiple different CAT scans and MRIs, you and several other doctors had concluded her diagnosis as breast cancer. Although you admitted her to Oncology, she kept having complications when she had started chemotherapy; causing you to see her quite frequently.

Today was the day Miss Bradford would start her third round of chemo and you decided to bring her her favorite lunch before starting. Miss Bradford was hell bent on beating this cancer but after her most recent round she had started to lose her appetite. Which was never a good sign for a cancer patient.

“I'm doing well, thank you. And I thought I told you to call me [Name]?” You grab a chair and pull it up next to her bed.

She gives you a small smile. “But you worked so hard to earn the title of a doctor. I'm only giving you the respect you deserve.”

You shook your head playfully at the older woman. “How're you feeling today?”

She let out a sigh. “Tired, but better than yesterday. I'm ready to get this damn treatment over with.” She grumbled.

“That's good! Do you feel like eating today?” You ask.

She shook her head. “Not really but knowing you, you'll probably force me to eat anyways.” She looked at the plastic sack in your hand. “Whatcha got there?”

“Well hopefully this will bring your appetite back for today. It's your favorite!” You raise the bag higher and place it on her food tray. “Almond Tofu! I remember you telling me that it was your go to desert when you lived in Singapore, so I had one of my foreign exchange friends teach me how to make it.” You let out a dramatic sigh. “I can't tell you how many times I messed up baking this damn dessert.”

Miss Bradford looked at the sweet treat with tears in her eyes. “Oh, [Name]…” She let out a wet laugh. “You didn't have to do that.”

You smiled at the older woman. “I know I didn't have to, but I wanted to.”

She suddenly reaches over as quickly as all the tubes hooked up to her allowed her and brought you into a tight hug. You fretted over her before she cut you off.

“Thank you, [Name].” She whispered. You reciprocated her hug gently.

“You're welcome, Miss Bradford. Though I can't guarantee it'll be just like the real thing.” You playfully warned.

She let out a laugh as she pulled away from the hug. “I'm sure it will be wonderful.” She gives you a grateful smile. She then evenly separates the dessert and gives you half of it. You shook your hands no at the offer.

“No no, Miss Bradford, I made this for you so you don't have to share it with me.” You politely decline.

She glares at you but smiles. “I know I don't have to but I want to.” She quipped.

You gasp. “How dare you throw my own words back at me!”

“Just take the damn dessert, Dr. [Last Name].” She laughed out loud.

Letting out a sigh, you grab the plate from her and begin to eat with her. You both chatted for a couple of minutes after finishing before you were paged to be back down in the emergency room. You grabbed the plastic container the dessert was in and threw it away. As you moved the chair back to its proper place, you looked at Miss Bradford.

Reaching a hand out, you place it over her own. “Thank you for eating today, Miss Bradford.” You tell her sincerely. “I know it's getting hard but all of the nurses are telling me that you're doing great.”

“Just two more rounds and it will be over.” You encouraged her.

The older woman nods as she grasps your hand and gives it a tight squeeze. A nonverbal thank you.

“Do you need anything else before I leave?” You ask.

She shakes her head. “No, Dr. [Last Name]. I'm quite alright. Now go save some lives.” She lets go of your hand and shoos you off.

You roll your eyes teasingly. “I'll be back to check on you after your treatment. Try not to see me this time around!” You open the door and wave back at her. “Good luck! You got this!” You then swiftly leave the room and head back to your station.

As soon as you were gone, Miss Bradford’s smile dropped immediately. She laid her head back and lifelessly looked at the ceiling. Tears started to fall from her cobalt eyes as she thought about you and the gift you had made for her.

“I'm gonna miss you, [Name].” She whispered into the empty room.

—

After three days, you fortunately had the day off from working so you immediately went to go see Miss Bradford.

You soon made it to the familiar room. “Hi Miss Bradford! How do you feel-” You stop in your tracks upon seeing Miss Bradford lying in front of you. The older woman looked nothing like what you had seen three days prior. Her beautiful salt and pepper hair had begun to fall out and her skin looked like it was barely hanging onto her bones.

You quickly come back to reality. This is what chemo does. And elderly people tend to not survive the drug. You remind yourself.

You take a deep breath and walk towards the bed. “Miss Bradford?” You call out. “It's me, Dr. [Last Name].”

The woman slowly opened her eyes. Her bleary and glazed over eyes tiredly searched for the voice calling out to her before landing on your form. Her dull blue eyes light up in recognition.

“[Name].” She croaked out yet still gave you a smile.

You give a smile right back to her. “Hi Miss Bradford.” You greet softly. You squat down next to the bed so it was easier to make eye contact. “How're you feeling?”

She let out a tired sigh. “Like shit.”

You chuckled quietly before you both sat in silence for a few moments. You open your mouth to say something but the older woman beats you to it.

“I don't think I'm gonna make this round, sweetheart.”

You clench your jaw hearing her statement. “Don't say that.” You tell her firmly. “I thought you wanted to kick this cancer’s ass?”

The poor woman couldn't even manage a chuckle. “Don't all patients say that?” She asked. She looks past you and out the window. “I think it's my time. I can feel it.”

She then closed her eyes and gave you a grateful smile while reaching up to cup your cheek. “Thank you, [Name], for sticking by my side even when my own children didn't. I couldn't have asked for a more wonderful doctor to take care of me.”

You held the hand that was on your cheek and gave the older woman a sad smile as if to say “I'm sorry for not doing enough”, yet she seemed to understand what your smile conveyed as she began to caress your cheek as a means to console you.

“Keep saving lives, Dr. [Last Name].”

The steady flat note of a heart rate monitor tells you that your patient has finally passed away.

Her hand that was on your cheek laid flaccid on your own. You closed your eyes and let out a shaky sigh. After a few minutes of sitting in silence with your deceased patient, you press the nurse’s call button. You then place her hand next to her on the bed. Shortly after several nurses come into the room and begin to console you while covering Miss Bradford’s body with the sheet. You watched them as they wheeled her out of the room.

She told you to keep saving lives and you plan on doing just fucking that.

—

It was dark out when you finally left the hospital after you said your last goodbyes to Miss Bradford. The temperature had dropped significantly causing a shiver to run down your spine and goosebumps form on your arms.

You're not going to lie. Even though she told you that she was ready and already accepted her death, you couldn't help but feel like you failed her; so you were feeling pretty depressed. Everybody was so determined to get her healthy again, to go back to a somewhat normal life again. But it was never that easy.

You passed several buildings as you continued home. Soon you were passing your current town's local park when you suddenly stopped, a sudden feeling of anxiety had come out of nowhere. It felt like there were eyes on you, watching your every move. Your face sets into a hard glare to try and look intimidating. You turn around in a circle trying to find any suspicious people, yet you only found yourself alone in the street which unsettled you even more.

A sudden rustling causes you to whip your head to the right. Your eyes immediately lock onto a bright pair of golden ones that look at you from the tree line. Neither one of you refused to blink or look away, seeing who would back down first.

Your eyes widen when the other set of eyes seem to just dissipate into thin air. After a few moments of trying to process what the hell just happened, you shake your head.

I must be going insane. You thought. When you turned around to continue home, your gaze caught sight of something on the sidewalk. On the sidewalk was what looked like gold flecks of dust hovering in front of you. Being the completely logical person you were, you tried to kick the dust away from you. However doing so only caused more gold flecks to appear and soon a trail of them started to manifest that led into the forest where you saw the pair of eyes. You looked at the trail bewildered. What the actual fuck is going on? You drop your head and let out a defeated sigh.

“Yeah, I'm over this.” You mumble out loud. You walk through the trail dead set on going home and sleeping for the entire day tomorrow. Now you weren't going to lie, yes you do get upset whenever one of your patients pass away, but normally not this upset because that was part of your job; it's bound to happen. But Miss Bradford’s death seemed to be taking a bigger toll on you than you thought.

However, as you tried to walk through the trail it forcefully turned your body to walk to the forest. Your eyes widen as your adrenaline spikes and your fight or flight kicks in as you start thrashing around, trying to release its invisible hold on you.

“Hey, wait! Stop!” You cry out. You whip your head in all directions, trying to look for someone to help you. “Help! Anyone, please!” Yet all you received was silence from the empty street. While the gold dust continued to push you toward, you still tried to fight against it though you quickly began to falter thanks to the mentally and physically taxing day you just went through.

As if it had sense you were giving up, the trail abruptly stopped pushing you. For a split second you thought about running off again but decided against it. You watched as the trail formed and led even deeper into the forest where the bushes and trees were so thick that not even the bright moon that was above could illuminate it. Your eyes flicker down to the trail before going back to the forest then back down to the trail. You grimace at the trail as if you were saying “do I really have to?” to it.

All of a sudden, your head whips up to the tree line as you hear music softly playing from it. From your limited musical knowledge, it sounded like it was a harp or some type of string instrument. You feel your muscles relax and your heart slows its frantic pace as the soft melody coursed around you, like a warm comforting blanket that had just come out of the dryer, and a sense of peace had washed over you.

The logical side of your brain was screaming at you to not listen to it. To not be a dumbass and see where it was coming from. To run away as fast as you could while screaming for help, yet you already knew that wasn't going to work. But the hypnotic song that the harp-like instrument was playing kicked that side of your brain to the curb as it lured you into the forest.

Your feet moved before you even realized it and soon you began to bush limbs away. After a few minutes of trying to follow where the music was coming from, it started to get louder and then light filtered through the trees. You quickened your pace and pushed away the last of the trees, but froze in your place as the music suddenly stopped and at what you walked upon.

In front of you was nothing but a vast and endless bright blue sky. From above where the sun continued to glow brightly but seemed to be twice the size of what it was before, to below you where you could see a single hint of land anywhere. Clouds rolled by thanks to the gentle breeze that blew past you and tall pillars were littered throughout the area, some were even floating!

You turn back to the forest behind you with a confused expression before looking back at the open sky. Wasn't it just night before? And why is this… oddly familiar? Where have I seen this before? You wondered.

You jumped nearly ten feet in the air when you heard a noise at your feet. You look down to see individual slabs of concrete form a bridge several feet out in front of you and the gold trail resumes onto the bridge.

You stare at the bridge processing what just occurred. You could practically hear the Jeopardy theme song playing in the background. You sharply inhale and your eyes widen when finally realized why this was all familiar.

Motherfucking Genshin Impact! I thought I recognized this loading screen!

You place a hesitant foot on the bridge, expecting it to crumble but it stood sturdy. You take another step, then another, and after four steps the bridge begins to form out again. You keep walking as the bridge does so. You do this for a few moments, giggling to yourself about what is actually transpiring.

“I really have gone insane.” You laughed. “Ah, and my future was so promising.”

A loud boom from below cuts you off from your self deprecating thoughts. What the hell? You get down on your knees and crawl over the edge of the bridge to see a huge black rip in the sky.

“Outlanders,” A voice boomed out. “your journey ends here.”

And out stepped the Unknown God.

Oh shit. You gasp quietly as your heart rate accelerates at the sight of her. She's hotter in person. You looked around for the twins and quickly spotted them on a platform just below the Unknown God.

“Who’re you?” The queen herself, Lumine, calls out.

“The sustainer of heavenly principles.” The Unknown God summons a black cube in her hand. “The arrogation of mankind ends here.” She then creates a cube below the twins, forcing them to jump out of the way. They spin in the air and summon their, much cooler than the ones in the game, wind gliders with swords in hand.

The Unknown God sends multiple horrifying trails of cubes after the twins, forcing them to fly and twirl out of the way of them while causing the whole sky to rumble somehow. Soon the twins fly towards the Unknown God and collide with her creating a huge explosion.

The explosion caused the bridge you were on to shake due to the force. You grabbed on tighter to the ledge in hopes of keeping your balance, but an aftershock made you slip off from the edge. You let out a terrified scream as you suddenly began to fall.

Your scream caught the trio's attention and made them look at you. The twin’s faces morph into a shocked and horrified expression as you fall while the Unknown God’s eyes narrow in recognition. “There you are.” And sent cubes after you, yet you are completely immune to what's happening around you thanks to the wind that was blowing in your ears.

Lumine quickly yelled to her brother. “Aether, catch her!” She diverted her attention back to the god. “I'll take care of this!”

Aether jumped into action and quickly flew to you. He willed his wind gliders to move faster than the cubes and was soon on you. He then flies underneath you and catches you bridal style. You let out a loud “oof” as you roughly collided with something and opened your eyes, which had subconsciously closed when you fell, to see Aether flying away with you in his arms and away from the cubes.

Aether looks down to your wind blown form. “Are you okay?” He asks gently. How you could hear him over the wind, you didn't know, but you could only stare at him in shock, not actually believing that he was real.

Taking in your silence as being in shock from the fall, he flies higher in the air and turns to the Unknown God to see his twin getting sucked into the god’s cubes.

“Lumine!” He cried out. He looked between you and his sister before ultimately throwing you over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes while keeping a firm hold on your thighs. He zooms to the god at high speeds which catches you off guard.

“What the fuck?!” You screech. You were starting to get a little motion sickness from all of the sudden movements.

Aether dips behind the god and swings his sword at her which causes an even larger explosion than before. You let out a scream at the loud sound. You could feel Aether’s chest rising and falling rapidly under your legs due to him panting. You hear him gasp and you turn over his head to see what was happening, though you already knew.

However, the sight of the smoke from the explosion coming back and encasing Aether’s hand was more terrifying in real life than it was in the game.

“Hold on!” He orders then quickly readjusted you so that he had a hold of your waist. You wrap your arms around his shoulders and cover your face in his shoulder, bracing for any sort of pain. Soon your vision started to turn black, but before it covered it entirely you heard Aether scream out to the Unknown God.

“Wait, don't go! Give my sister back!”

—

A/N: Kazuha is now officially the ninth member of the harem. Also, y'all... Inazuma? Lord help me I want to add Gorou and Thoma to the harem as well.

Side note, for all of the male characters that have a "young adult" physique like Aether, Kazuha, Xiao, etc. they're taller than they are in the game, from 5'6"-5'8" (Xiao still being the shortest) while those with an "adult" are anywhere from 5'10-6'2", because I said so lol.

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[sozzledjuja]

What I think some of the Lolirock characters' sexualities are

In honor of Pride Month I'm going to share my takes on what I think the Lolirock characters' sexualities are. Keep in mind these are all my opinions, so you're obviously allowed to disagree! (However, if I see ANYONE saying that I'm pushing sexuality onto teenagers, just shut up, because you know damn well you wouldn't say anything if I just said all of them were straight; which they're not, by the way; everyone in this show is incredibly fruity)

Iris- Pansexual (I honestly don't think she would care all that much about someone's gender identity, but more about said person's personality). I did briefly consider bisexual with a preference for Nathaniels.

Talia- BISEXUAL. With a preference for girls. And also probably demi (Do I need to explain myself? Of course not). And I thought she was a lesbian at first, but then, you know... KYLE. Lots of love for our beautiful bi icon!

Auriana- Phewwwww, this was a tricky one... on one hand her personality gives off a whole bunch of pan vibes, but I don't wanna dive into stereotypes. Also, the fact that she's constantly ONLY talking about boys?... I don't know... So, I'm not 100% sure, but imma say either bisexual with a preference for guys or straight and bi-curious (feel free to share your thoughts about this one, cause I'm really drawing a blank here).

Praxina- LESBIANNNNNNN (this is probably the only one that isn't debatable for me, I mean, have you seen her?). I literally CANNOT believe that some people still think she's straight, like, HUH-? WHERE? Good god, if you have any doubts that she's into women, I would probably advise you to rewatch the whole show, like, seriously. Maybe try No Thanks for the Memories or Forget You first, since those two are literally her GAYEST episodes. Like, you can't convince me that she wasn't crushing a little bit on Iris at that point. In No Thanks for the Memories, she DIDN'T NEED to spend the full 20 minutes of the episode holding hands with Iris. But this little evil disaster did it anyways. And let's not forget all the blushing in Forget You. Characters in this show don't usually blush, UNLESS it's because they're crushing on or experiencing romantinc feelings for someone. Honestly, it makes me really sad that some people in this fandom are purposely ignoring all of the meaningful interactions she's had with GIRLS in this show, and just deciding to smash her together with some random guy, she has never even spoken to. Like, I love crack ships, I really do, but you can see why this kind of thing is a little disheartening. It's like they ran out of important male characters to ship her with, so they just picked a random dude. But anyways... bless her in all her gayness!

Mephisto- Bisexual, I think. With a preference for women (he had that little crush on Auriana, so we know he's into women). He could be straight, ofc, but he honestly gives me bi vibes. He even did that little "💅" like two or three times. Though I do understand why he's usually shipped especially with the three main princesses, and that's because (let's be honest) he is the only well developed male character that we have. He has depth, he has charisma, he has humor, he's not just a one-dimensional character. And there aren't a lot of other equally explored boys in this show except maybe Nathaniel and Lev. But neither of those four two have actually interacted with Mephisto for more than a few seconds, which makes it more difficult for people to ship him with any of them.

Lyna- I'm gonna piss off a lot of Lynissa shippers out there, I already know it, but I'm pretty sure Lyna is straight. She's definetly a huge ally tho.

Carissa- Asexual and biromantic, I don't make the rules. I can't explain, it's the vibes.

Nathaniel- either straight or pan. i don't have an explanation for this one.

Gramorr- Bi. He definetly used to have some sort of thing with the King of Ephidea at some point. And Morgane. I must clarify that, as a member of the community, I most definetly do NOT claim him.

Here are some honorable mentions:

Lev- Well, damn. He's either very straight or very much bisexual. I honestly cannot tell

Izira- Woopp- I don't know. I can't tell for sure, since the only people we've seen her interact with were her sister and other minors, so... not much to go from... But one thing is certain, she is NOT straight. Either lesbian or bisexual with a preference for women

Aunt Ellen (Ellira)- She's a lesbian. You cannot look me in the eyes and tell me she isn't attracted to women (she and Lara definetly had a thing and you can pry that from my cold dead hands)

Doug- GAY. I don't care what y'all say. He was gay. They were fooling us. THEY WERE FOOLING US THE WHOLE TIME.

Missy- straight. no comment

Deinos and Kakos- i don't really care enough to thing about it honestly

Jodan- GAY. That's it, he is.

Morgane- bi? i dunno, maybe

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH FOLKS!!!!!!!🏳️‍🌈

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[musicallisto]

Hello love,

Congratulations for the 800 followers! You absolutely deserve this and so much more! I'm happy to see how your blog grows and that you're still providing all of us with wonderful content. You're one of the first blogs that I've started to follow here on Tumblr and I'm so lucky to have found your blog ♡

As for your celebration event, could I please request a 🍨 vanilla milkshake with a male Peaky Blinders Character?

I'm more on the curvy side (and insecure about it) and I'm ALWAYS wearing black (which I love, no matter what others say or even more if they object). As for my personality, I'm a highly complex, paradox and complicated individium. I'm unbelievable patient, timid, awkward, kind, forgiving, open-minded, compassionate, thruthful, gentle and calm and I've been told that I have a calming effect on others, that I can easily ground anyone and anything, no matter how troubled their mind is. I prefer vintage over modern things. I think rather deep which often leads me to overthinking everything, which in turn leads me to doubting (very much) myself. You would be surprised how timid and reserved I am, I'm sure you wouln't notice me in a room full of people if it wouldn't be for my different appearance (but I like it this way). I'm always well-meaning, yet often misunderstood (maybe because it's hard for me to articulate myself). I can be incredible lazy, clumsy and forgetful. I've always felt like I don't really belong anywhere, so I've started to distance myself from others a while ago. I'm a outsider, weird, a dork, not normal, a loner and I fucking love it, because I like to be different, I would hate to fit into just one box and to be like everyone else. And I like people who are not ashamed to be their 100% true self, no matter how different that is from the mainstream. I'm the most loyal person you'll ever find, once you earn my trust, I'll always be on/by your side, no matter what. That says a lot, because I'm hard to scare away. Sometimes I feel alienated from the people and things surrounding me and I'm sure that I annoy and bore them. I'm very nervous and insecure around others, which is why I try to avoid people and why I'm not talking all that much around them (though, I'm a really good listener). I'm easily overwhelmed by large crowds and much light/noise, that's why I don't like to go outside, I prefer to cozy up at home. I would never intentionally hurt a animal and I'm not eating any meat, which is very important to me. I believe that there isn't a ounce of cruelty inside me. I'm unassuming and understanding, I only believe what I've witnessed on my own and I have endless acceptance for almost everything. Due to my Insomnia, I'm a night owl. I have strong personal values, am very opinionated and I'm really in-touch with myself and even though I'm extremly insecure, I would never reduce or change myself and views/opinions for someone and I neither have a problem to challenge authority and advocating for my beliefs. I'm a perfectionist and sometimes I really hate it. And, as you can see, I'm unable to be brief. My favourite colours are dark green, black, gold and dark purple. My greatest passion is music, even if I can't sing or play an instrument.(I prefer rock/punk/pop/80s/90s) It's the most calming and therapeutic thing when it comes to my anxiety and depression and I could never live a day without it. You will never see me in the street without headphones in my ears and even when I'm at home there's music playing almost all the time. I could talk for hours about music and what it means to me. And otherwise I love to watch films and series (I like fantasy, horror, psychological thriller, science fiction and psychological drama and almost anything from the 70s, 80s and 90s). I love rainy days and to go outside while it's pouring big, fat drops. What I love the most is to drive around without a destination, while talking and listening to music. And I love to spend time with my cat, if I could, I would have endless animals who live peacefully and loved with me. I enjoy to have deep talks and to be challenged to think. I love to take late-night-strolls, while gazing into the sky and watching the stars/moon. I have a fascination for dark and macabre things.

I really hope that's not too much? But thank you anyway ♡

Have a good day!

thank you so much for your kind words, you have no idea how much it means to me to know that I was one of the first blogs you followed ;; here’s your vanilla milkshake - and it’s also my first time writing for peaky blinders, but I hope it’s alright; and I hope finn shelby will find the portrait I paint of him accurate enough...

Birmingham was a drab and disheartening place enough without the war adding to its joylessness; but somehow the streets are even worse to bear deserted than when they’re bustling and fetid. Especially for a ten year old boy who wants nothing but to play with someone, to talk to someone, to see someone.

With his brothers off fighting somewhere in France and his aunt too busy with her businesses (adult stuff that Finn has absolutey no interest in attempting to understand), the youngest Shelby has been fighting off an affliction worse than consumption and measles, because much more insidious for a boy his age; boredom

and he’s so sad, so irrevocably sad, with no one to bruise his knees with and throw mud at, that he just aimlessly wanders the empty streets whenever aunt Polly isn’t looking, to find a semblance of stimulation

(he used to enjoy the solitude, it gave him time to imagine delirious stories in fantastical worlds and read the most enthralling of novels, but not anymore. four years of reclusion is an awfully long time for a little boy.)

and it’s during one of his escapades that he first meets you

you’re a little girl his age, dressed in a pretty dress, wearing pretty booties and holding a pretty little woven basket, but your face is stuck on the most grouchy frown he’s ever seen on a little girl, and you don’t walk, you stomp down the wet pavement like a wrathful titan

And it’s probably the first time in four years that he’s been this close to making a new friend, so he walks up to you, despite how rusty his communication skills have become

“Girls don’t frown. It’s unbecoming.”

(Yes, pretty rusty indeed; but in his defense, he’s ten, he’s bored, he’s lonely, and he’s only ever heard Ada say it, and Ada is the most level-headed of his siblings, so anything she says must be true, right?)

“Shut up.”

(Well, if it was unbecoming of you to frown, it’s even more to rebuff someone so rudely. You don’t even spare a glance and continue walking; he has to hurry to catch up to you.)

“You can’t say that. It’s a bad word.”

“How do you know that?”

“My family says it all the time, but they told me I can’t say it.”

“Well, my family is not your family. And I hate my family!”

You’ve yelled the last words at the sky, so loud that the crows on the neighboring roofs have taken off in a startled flight.

“They want to wear this stupid dress to go to the stupid market to buy stupid meat. I don’t even want to eat meat, that’s cruel! And I don’t even want to wear a frilly dress! I want to wear black!”

And in saying so you tugged at the pink and white ribbons that encircled your waist.

And Finn couldn’t help being extremely intrigued at this little girl who said bad words and refused to eat meet and wanted to wear black. It was the most exciting thing to ever happen in all the duration of the war.

“You want to wear a black dress?”

“Yes, but my mama won’t let me. She says it’s too sad because of the war. But black isn’t sad! Black is beautiful!”

“Maybe I could find you a black dress. I’m sure my sister must have one. Where do you live?”

And, loyal to his promise, the following morning he had run to your doorstep and snuck into your house - a proper Shelby talent, to be able to go unnoticed or make a ruckus depending on the occasion - with an old, crinkled mourning dress of Ada’s, that had probably belonged to his mother and had been mended several times

And it was obviously five sizes too big for you and you looked more like a ghost from one of Finn’s horror novels, your arms floating in the sleeves and the hem of the skirt pooling at your feet, but your smile was the brightest light he’d ever seen in this whole damn town.

“Do you like it?”

(He didn’t really know why he sounds so nervous. Maybe it was having a friend, a real friend, and doing something personal for them... or maybe it had to do with how fast his heart beat, watching you in that gigantic, shapeless dress)

“I love it! Thank you so much, Finn!”

From then on started one of the most wonderful friendships Finn would ever have, and what would bring a ray of light to the grim existence of a little boy in the midst of a global war

Despite the ration cards, despite the loneliness, despite the worry that tugged at his stoic aunt’s eyes for her son and nephews across the Channel... he found an unspeakable solace in your friendship

And one day, without a trace, you were gone

He knocked on your door; gone. He asked all the neighbors what had happened to the family that lived there; gone. He wrote you letters and sent them to the confines of England; gone. He got scolded by Polly for marking numbers at random on Tommy’s state-of-the-art telephone; gone.

Suddenly he was back to the bleak existence he had battled with before meeting you, and the hollow inside his chest only grew wider as the days went on, because he had no explanation as to what had happened to you, and worried every single day

Thankfully, the war ended not long after, and his brothers came back home, all alive and unscathed - well, for the most part

Fast forward more or less ten years, and much has changed in Finn Shelby’s life and in old Birmingham, but the memory of you still stugs at his heartstrings

One evening, he’s tasked by Arthur to run some errands, send a few messages, scout a few places; the most dangerous thing his older brothers will ever let him do

His task leads him to a bar in the center of town, one that pours its joyous light and music into the street outside; he’s there to meet with a client, arrange a meeting; nothing he’s hasn’t done already

But the evening takes a turn for the unexpected when he recognizes the girl sat alone at a table, enjoying the musicians’ jazz with an air of pure bliss on her face

It’s been ten years, of course, but... it’s unmistakable. That face, that silhouette, and the black ensemble from head to toe... and he’s always had a knack for remembering faces, especially those that mark him deeply

Suddenly he’s frozen on the spot, and he has forgotten why he came to the bar in the first place, what his target looks like - all he knows is you, and how beautiful you look in the dim light of the bar, and the undisclosed and unknown feelings he had for you at the time come flooding back.

Except this time, he understands, and he fears them, because he doesn’t have time for any of this, and it’s way too dangerous for you and him

But he can’t just pass you by and not say a word?

He swallows, hard.

And walks up to you.

“Y/N?”

You open your eyes, and your face flashes with recognition, and a little bit of pain as well. Even if you fled without a word, and left him hanging all these years, he’s incapable of rancor

“Finn... wow, you’ve changed so much.”

“You haven’t.”

He gestures at your face, your clothes, how you savor the music like the finest drink in the world, and you laugh and blush, sending his heart into overdrive

“Where were you all this time?”

“I’m so sorry, Finn... my brother died in the war, and... my mom sent me to live with my grandparents in Scotland. We were all destroyed by grief... I needed to get away.”

“Without explanation? Not even a word?”

“I wanted to write to you, so bad, but... I couldn’t remember your address. I couldn’t remember anything about Birmingham at all...”

He nods, slowly, in understanding.

The war opens wounds that never heal, even after all the most beautiful friendships and love stories in the world.

“But I’m really glad I found you.”

His heart is pounding in his throat. Maybe it’s a sign of destiny that he found you here, tonight, alone, and ready to welcome him back. Maybe it’s a word from fate, that you can never truly be apart.

So he takes the seat in front of you, and you smile, that shy but bright smile of yours, and he forgets all about his mission, his client, and his brothers.

They’ll have to understand.

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#lunamooney2406 #sleepover800 #ship request #peaky blinders #peaky blinders ship #finn shelby #finn shelby x reader #peaky blinders headcanons #finn shelby headcanons #for some reason the first thing I write for a new fandom is always SUPER LONG but that's because i get rlly in my feelings

[konpithepuppy]

[TRANSLATION: anan No. 2231; 12.2020]

7 MEN SAMURAI SOLO INTERVIEW + MESSAGE + CROSS TALK

Scans not mine

Neither an English nor a Japanese native speaker

Feel free to correct me, thanks

7 MEN 侍

Dignified and Bold

7 MEN 侍's long-awaited first appearance on anan. Experiencing a turbulent 2020, these 6 people are pursuing a new entertainment. Challenging the stage play 「DREAM BOYS」, looked closer at their real selves.

Nakamura Reia

I like to make each of my choices the correct answer.

I was originally a kid who skateboards wearing a cap over a long hair and loose jeans. That's why I didn't have interest in being an idol, rather, I thought that having a neat appearance was lame. But, when I unwillingly went to the audition, I was selected to be a member of Snow Prince choir so I couldn't quit...My awareness changed when I started working as Sexy Boyz with Kishi (Yuta) and Jinguji (Yuta). It was different from my lenient and care-free self, I am positive and had the desire to improve myself with my works, I really got motivated. During the time when Sexy Zone who is close to me also debuted, I am the only one who didn't feel impatient or frustrated, rather, I felt "yabai". Since then, I started to think to do my best to be an idol seriously.

I am happy that Johnny-san chose me to be the center of 7 MEN 侍, but I am not the type who pulls everyone, the other 5 members have better skills than I am, they are also reliable, and on the contrary, I am being supported by them. It's just that, only my mental strength is strong. I totally don't care about things like criticisms from the society. Something like it is better to say bad things about me rather than attacking the other members. Because more than those criticisms, the fans are telling me that they like me. Or rather, this toughness might be my unique talent (LOL).

Since I came to like acting because of「Koi no Yamai to Yarougumi」, I want to try playing NG guy who has an older girl as the partner kind of role like「Himemon」or 「Kimi wa Petto」.

Is becoming an idol my fate...? But after all, everything is from the choices that I made by myself. I decided to go to the audition, I was taught by Johnny-san about how wonderful to be an idol, and I've continued being an idol up to now. From now on too, I would like to make each of my choices the correct answer.

Q. To have the luck on your side, do you have your own ritual?

Before the live, with the meaning of "please look over us", I talk to the photo of Johnny-san that is placed in the backstage room, I also put my hands together. I am the type who is moderately nervous but I don't hate that feeling of being encouraged.

Motodaka Katsuki

It seems that the feeling of home when the 6 of us gathers is very valuable.

I started singing, dancing, and playing on stage when I entered Johnny's. But, being completely absorbed in an instant than being skillful is my strength. But, with the keyboard I am in-charge of, my experience playing the piano since I was 3 years old was put into use. At that time, I really didn't like playing the piano. It was like that but I got the sense of perfect pitch. I am thankful to my parents to let me, who hates playing piano, attend the class.

I am attending college now but during my high school, I got a lot of advices from Snow Man's Abe (Ryohei)-kun. Since I have been chasing him on his back for a long time, I have been encouraged on how he flapped big his wings as Snow Man. Honestly, 3 months before the first concert as 7 MEN 侍, I wanted to see the world from the different point of view so I planned to study abroad in New York. At that time, I once again tried to think about this job. And then, I realized that I grew to love this job. The good sides and the bad sides, as a human being evaluated directly, there's a sense of accomplishment in here. That's why, studying abroad became not necessary for me until I take a break from the work that I love.

This year, I had a lot of chances to be in quiz shows alone, and I thought "Is being not with the members this disheartening?"...To that extent, I can feel that the feeling of home when going back to 7 MEN 侍 is very important. The members often tease me, but since I am not a talkative and interesting type of person, I become happy too when I made them laugh when they tease me. But behind the scenes, the members are relying on me and I often receive personal consultations too. 7 MEN 侍 who is in the process of exploring it's form, now and from now on too, I want to support everyone. And in the year 2021, even if we encounter struggles, this may be the year where we can have a firm grip to make great strides!

Q. To have the luck on your side, do you have your own ritual?

This is just my own value but I don't believe in luck. Everything is result of my own decision and it is my own responsibility. I don't want to blame "luck", and I also don't want to think that what happened is thanks to "luck". Suppose there is luck, pulling that luck towards yourself is a great deal of effort.

Sugeta Rinne

An idol is a wonderful job that has the charm to inspire people's hearts.

When I was an elementary student, I went to Hey!Say!JUMP-san's live and when I saw a girl who is in front of Yamada (Ryosuke)-kun cry and laugh, I thought that an idol is a wonderful job that has the charm to inspire people's hearts. Rinne also wants to be like that so Rinne uploaded everyday in ISLAND TV during stay home. I had worries like, "Won't they get tired of me?" but it turned to "I am sure the fans are happy with this, right?"

Rinne's special skills are acrobatics and sports, and I was able to appear in shows like 「Honoo-no Taiiku-kai TV」や「SASUKE」. For me, I think a person who is athletic is cool, and since you will want to support a person who is working hard, from now one too, I want to appeal as a Johnny's who can do sports. It would be nice if I can also appear in 「Run for Money」this 2021.

The senior that I admired is Ueda Tatsuya-kun. There was a time during a race in 「Honoo-no Taiiku-kai TV」, I showed off to hype up the audience and my time got slower. During that time, I really got scolded by Ueda-kun saying, "You can't win like that." Since that was the first time I got scolded throughout my Johnny's life, I think a senior who can properly scold his juniors is cool.

In 2020, I got 1 million yen when I guested in 「Quiz! Only 1」, I think Rinne is a guy who can grab luck. Before, when the my previous unit was gone, it felt like I have lost my chance...Given that I thought of quitting Johnny's if I am not going to be put in a group until 2020, I am so glad that I went to talk directly to Johnny-san. Since I now have a group original song and individual job, I think this is really the time to give my all.

Q. To have the luck on your side, do you have a ritual that only you doTo have the luck on your side, do you have your own ritual?

Before the actual show, I watch videos of my senior's lives starting with Hey!Say!JUMP-san's. Since I think having a proper image of "idol" as " a work to make people happy", I can do a better performance.

Sasaki Taiko

The 6 of us, even though we are late bloomers, I believe that we can definitely bloom.

The one who opened my path to Johnny's is Takahashi Kaito-kun. I also sent my resume when I heard that Kaito-kun who I thought cool when I saw him in a dance contest. With that, now that I am working as the same Johnny's, this is an amazing fate! I talk about music with Sato Shori-kun who likes the same band as mine, and I also receive dishes that he makes. Kishi (Yuta)-kun who Shori-kun is good friend with, took me to a his favorite soba stall saying, "It's a delicious shop." Since then, I've been addicted to that shop too.

I have been practicing dancing and playing drums when I was a kid, but Johnny-san chose my drumming skills more. At first, even though I am very thankful to be able to show it, I have become greedier and greedier, and I honestly thought that "I can also dance"...But 3 months before Johnny-san passed away, I heard from Oriyama (Nao) of Shounen Ninja that Johnny-san said, "Sasaki is good at dancing too." From here, I want to say with confidence that I am also good at dancing that Johnny-san had recognized. After all, dancing is a must in Johnny's! In addition, while polishing thoroughly my singing and acting too, I want to reach for something extraordinary.

With 7 MEN 侍 changing the members twice, a self-conscious was born each time and I have come do develop mutual trust with them. Even if these 6 people bump into a big wall, if these 6 people are together, they will be able to cross over it, they are probably late bloomers but I believe they can be successful and well known. (T/N: lit. 花を咲かせられる (flower can bloom; it is like an "idiomatic expression" for becoming successful and well known) In 2021, if possible, I want to do a live where 100% of the audience can go. It is going to be a live where they can think "I am glad I am supporting 7 MEN 侍." I'll cry if that happens (LOL).

Q. To have the luck on your side, do you have your own ritual?

I do things as I please like how I kissed Hamada Masatoshi-san of Downtown in a variety show, but I am really very nervous...Before the show, I am the type who right the character "人" 3 times on my palm, I do it seriously (LOL).

Konno Taiki

I think I could grab the chance because I was able to meet Johnny-san.

I like Kimura Takuya-san since I was 3 years old, and thinking that I want to be like him, I sent my resume to the agency. In year 2020, when I was able to go and see Kimura-san's tour, I told him those feelings, he said, "Let's take a photo together." I thought that a star is different after all.

From the start, even before joining Johnny's, with singing as my strong point, I love singing in front of people. I often sing Misora Hibari-san's 「Kawa No Nagare No Youni」. But when I hit the puberty, I came to hate my own voice. I stopped singing for a while but during my 4th year in Johnny's, when I casually hummed to Kinki Kids'san's 「Anniversary」near Johnny-san, he praised me saying, "You're good in singing!" More than anything else, I am glad that Johnny-san who loved me like a parent recognized my singing which is something that I am trying to make as my strong point. From that moment, I worked hard because I wanted to be praised by Johnny-san, but when he passed away, it felt like I have lost my aim. But for Johnny-san, he hates negative remarks the most. That's why it is not the time to feel down, aiming seriously for this group to debut, I feel like that timing completely changed my awareness towards work. I think I could grab the chance because I was able to meet Johnny-san after all. If that didn't happen, no doubt I am not here now.

2020 is the year where I got to experience a lot of things for the first time. Especially with the stage play 「The Happy Prince」, I was able to feel the enjoyment of plays. I think it would be nice if I can challenge campus love story in a drama or movie this 2021.

Q. To have the luck on your side, do you have your own ritual?

When I want to calm down, I use a perfume that has a sweet vanilla scent. Since「The Happy Prince」is my first stage play, I was very nervous. When I used this perfume during that time too, it was able to relieve my nervousness.

Yabana Rei

A performance that will also remain to the memories of those who are not knowledgeable about music.

I took the audition 4 times. For the details, you can try watching the episode where I talked about it in YouTube channel (LOL). Even if I passed the document screening but I couldn't go to the practice, I will repeat the cycle of going through audition again. If ever I continued [being a Jr.] during my first audition, I might be dancing and I might not had been able to make an appeal with musical instruments as my special skill during the band boom of Johnny-san. I am being told, "You're not Johnny's-like" because I say that I am better in playing instruments than dancing. It's just that, if I didn't enter Johnny's, I won't be playing instruments until now. So I can say that it feels like a wonderful destiny to be playing instruments as 7 MEN 侍.

Other than the bass that I am in-charged of playing, I also play guitar and harmonica. The first instrument I started with was drums and I got very hooked with 「Taiko no Tatsujin」(LOL). If you play different things, you will pick up the characteristics of each sound and you will be able to make songs too. I also want learn about the theories so I am attending college of music. I am a complete geek as regards to music (LOL). Me going on a rampage on stage is the result of me thinking on how I can show 7 MEN 侍's style. In the letters from the fans, letters with "you are cool playing the guitar" is not few even though I am playing the bass. Since there was a time when I also don't know clearly the difference between the guitar and the bass, so I can understand that feeling. That's why I want to do a performance that will remain to the memories of anyone.

With the aim "to be not less than what I am now" for next year, I want to be able to do more work than I did for this year. ...by the way, this is not a prank, right? I am very overwhelmed lately and I still can't believe that I am having an interview for anan (LOL).

Q. To have the luck on your side, do you have your own ritual?

Going to this certain shrine. Since I visited there alone during New Year, we had talk about changing the instruments we play and I have luck on my side. I like that it is quiet there even though it is located within the city, when I found that shrine, I prayed to the god of works.

Message

To Nakamura

To stand as the face of the group, you stand as the center of the group. His personality is my pace and gentle-mannered. Since you are not the "follow me!" type, that's why I think the members with strong personalities are also kept in place. Because I get stiff in front of seniors, Reia's sense of "being loved by everyone" is really nice. Even though you have the longest history in agency in the group, you are not prideful at all, Reia who can understand the things he can't do and who can rely to others is amazing. (Motodaka)

To Motodaka

Our overwhelmingly highly educated member. And yet, you are not annoying because you are a cute guy who is an overeater and carelessly says foolish things like "therefore!?" (LOL) Before the group was formed, you are a companion who I find easy to talk with, but you see me as a senior, right? The way you call me too was "Reia-kun". But I am happy that you interact with me on equal terms lately. (Nakamura)

To Yabana

Banasan is seen as someone reliable, and among the fans, I think they see him as peculiar, funny, and has a lively image. But unexpectedly, he has a delicate side too, and he is fairly a considerate person.He is really a very nice person that sometimes he looks pitiful. Well, I also usually tease Yabana (LOL). That's why, everyone too, please take good care of Yabana more! (Konno)

To Konno

He doesn't seem elusive at first glance, but I think he is stubborn. Konpi definitely won't cross the line he can't compromise with. And, he hates lounging around doing nothing. When work is done, he will be the first person who will say "I'm going home." At the start of 2020, when we changed the atmosphere of our band, I was struggling with the hook part's harmony, but Konpi can properly play the sound. I am super jealous of his talent! (Yabana)

To Sasaki

Among the members, he has the biggest gap. Despite being called as "mad dog", he still makes weird faces and also jokes around doing things that are not Johnny's-like. Since he is a youngest child, he might also have an impression of being a brat and naughty. But in lives, he shows a sparking cool dance, and he has a excellent style too. Since his range is really amazing, I hope you can enjoy his both sides! (Sugeta)

To Sugeta

You have the cuteness like an idol. Especially you like Yamada-kun, you have Hey!Say!JUMP's DVD and there was a time when we enjoyed watching it together. Also, your muscle is amazing, you are really healthy (LOL). But in reality, you are the type who will be silent when you get mad so I will ask Reia, "Why is he mad? Did I do something?" (LOL) Thinking of the members, I think the member who likes 7 MEN 侍 the most is Rinne! Since you always listens to our original songs. (Sasaki)

Cross Talk

Motodaka: anan is the magazine that my mother often buys. Thus, I am happy to be able to appear in anan! At home, I am always being asked, "Are you going to work today?", but this morning I said, "No, it's not for work" (lit. it's different). I want to make it a surprise [for my mom] once this issue is released.

Yabana: It would be funny if she didn't notice it even if it is already released~!

Nakamura: Even when they have the magazine at home LOL.

What is the history of your group name?

Sugeta: At the time we got the group name, I was doing activities with another 7 people. Rinne and Reia went to Johhny-san asking "we want a group name." And then, Johnny-san told us "I understand, I will think about it."

Nakamura: And then we thought that day was already over.

Sugeta: 5 minutes later, we got called "Samura~i!"

Nakamura: I thought, "Who is he calling Samurai!?" but when I looked around, it is only us who were there.

Sugeta: When the 2 of us went to Johnny-san, he asked us, "Do you know Kurosawa Akira's 「Shichinin no Samurai」?" Then, when we answered, "We know that film," he told us, "Then, how about being called 7 MEN 侍 from now on?" Each of the samurai who appeared in the movie are properly...like this...

Konno: Having strong personalities and skills.

Sugeta: Yeah

Konno: I am grateful that 7 people like that (having strong personalities and skills) were gathered.

Have you seen the movie?

All: ...(Only Nakamura-san raised his hand)

Nakamura: Wait a minute!

Sasaki: Everyone has not seen the movie except for Reia LOL.

Nakamura: It is the origin of our group name so let's watch it~!!

Yabana: Gerin-san (Sugeta) lying to Johnny-san saying "I know the film" is the worst LOL.

Nakamura: It is a wonderful film and you will learn something from it so please watch it!

What is 7 MEN 侍's strength?

Motodaka: Our difference from the other groups is that [playing a] "band" is our strength. As idols, we don't only play as a band but we can also show our dance.

Sasaki: Yeah, having both band and dance as "weapons" is huge, isn't it?

Motodaka: Yeah, since our first original song 「samudama」 is a band song, and our second original song 「Siren」 is a dance song.

Konno: When our next song was thought to be a band song too, our next song came out as a cool dance song.

Nakamura: With this, our third song became something incalculable. From now on too, I want for the fans to look forward to what our new song is each time we announce our new song.

Within the group, who is the member who has the element of "samurai" the most?

Konno: It's either me or Yabana, right?

Sugeta: Is it about the appearance?

Konno: In the sense of sticking with the will.

Yabana: Don't say that yourself!

In Yabana-san's solo interview, he described Konno-san exactly the same way you with what you (Konno) have said...

Konnp: Is that so? Then I shouldn't have said it. Please tell me properly about it. This is embarrassing!

Motodaka: Konpi dragged Yabana with guarantee LOL. For Yabana, getting dragged is just a trouble.

Yabana: Don't drag me into it~!

Nakamura: LOL. I love kanji, I wonder if that is samurai-like. I also play Sengoku. But, if we talk about the body, then isn't Rinne the one who is samurai-like?

Sugeta: Rinne thinks that more than being a samurai, I am more like a ninja.

Yabana: What is that? A self-awareness of a secret mystery from your heart LOL.

Nakamura: Of course we are idols, but I think it is also good to show the manly side of us exclusively during our band performances.

Yabana: We will go on a rampage like Sakamoto Ryouma who tried to change Japan!

Sasaki: For me, changing...or rather it's more like I want to create a new path.

Konno: Defying the public belief.

Yabana: The awareness that we don't want to go with the typical type is something we all have in common, right?

Motodaka: All 6 of us have different personalities but we that the same awareness.

Konno: We don't want to pretend to be someone else.

Sasaki: It's a subjective image but I think protecting a girl is an element of a samurai. It is gonna be a cheesy talk but I want to be an idol who can protect the fans.

Motodaka: You just said something really good! But, what would be the good thing to do to protect the fans?

Sasaki: I think making them happy.

Sugeta: By making our fans happy, as a result, we are able to protect them!

Motodaka: We are saying good things today, aren't we?

Nakamura: With what said earlier , it doesn't feel like you worked LOL.

Currently, you are in the middle of practice for the stage play 「DREAM BOYS」.

Konno: I watched the DREAM BOYS 2019 where Reia and Taiko appeared, and since I thought I wanted to appear on it again, I am so happy to be able to appear on DREAM BOYS again.

Sugeta: Since there is already a vision in Domoto Koichi-san who is directing the play, I am looking forward to recieving direction and guidance even before the practice.

Sasaki: Reia will stand in front of the audience after a while, right?

Nakamura: Yeah. I currently have a feeling like I am seeing the person I love after a while that my heart is throbbing.

ALL: OH~!!

Sasaki: Rinne made a face that he doesn't want to lose [to Reia] after hearing Reia's comment LOL.

Nakamura: Probably, this comment will be used by Rinne on a different interview, right? LOL.

What is the charm of 「DREAM BOYS」?

Sugeta: The burning passion of two men towards boxing is its charm after all, right?

Nakamura: Yeah. The feelings are delivered in a straight manner.

Motodaka: It is a story that firmly depicts humans and their relationships with each other.

Sasaki: Youth! It has the entertainment that is unique to Johnny's so you won't get tired of watching it. Oh, which minds me, as soon as the practice started, Kishi (Yuta)-kun asked, "Is Yabana not around today?"

Yabana: He told me "teach me how to play the guitar please." It is an honor to be needed by a senior.

Sasaki: But (Iwasaki) Taisho is a strong opponent. It looks difficult to keep up with him LOL.

Yabana: Taisho mistook me for a nourishment or something and my energy gets absorbed.

Konno: It looks like Yabana has no time to rest LOL.

By the way, 7 MEN 侍 still does not have a leader, right?

Sugeta: *raised actively his hand alone*

ALL: *roar of laughter*

Sasaki: If our leader is like Rinne, 7 MEN 侍 is seriously over LOL. This is different from asking in in the werewolf game on who is the fortune teller and you will say, "I am."

Yabana: I think it is his win because he said it first LOL.

Konno: Announcing it during the anan round-table discussion which is a big occasion LOL.

Yabana: Doesn't it feel like the same thing for the MC part in YouTube channel...?

Nakamura: When Rinne realized that being the MC is not that great...

Sugeta: Well, whatever!

Sasaki: Since he stopped doing the MC, he wanted to have punishment games so that he would be shown in the camera even just for a little LOL.

Sugeta: In the filming recently, Rinne is always beside Yabana, right?

Motodaka: Don't tell me that's because if you are standing next to the MC, you will be in the camera too...?

Sugeta: Yup. I revealed this for the first time now.

Konno: In a sense, you are a genius LOL.

#7 men 侍 #translation

[choccorettooo]

𝐍𝐎 𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐒 𝐋𝐄𝐅𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐂𝐑𝐘

ᴋᴇɪ ᴛꜱᴜᴋɪꜱʜɪᴍᴀ x ᴛᴀᴅᴀꜱʜɪ ʏᴀᴍᴀɢᴜꜱʜɪ

A tragic story of which Tadashi Yamaguchi helplessly fell in love with his long time bestfriend, Kei Tsukishima.

In which, Yamaguchi suffered again and again.

Tsukishima got a girlfriend and yamaguchi would support him in every way; in their anniversaries, birthdays, and even when they are arguing, yamaguchi will try anything to solve tsukishima's problem.

He believed that even if it's just staying by his side, he can make tsukishima happy.

Not a while, they broke up. Tsukishima suffered and shut himself out of the world but yamaguchi tried to comfort him but tsukki won't let him.

At their volleyball game at Tokyo, Tsukishima met a certain guy named Kuroo Tetsurō, the Captain Ball of Nekoma Highschool Volleyball Team.

"𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘤𝘳𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦. 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘱𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘰𝘧𝘧 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘺 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘬𝘴. 𝘎𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦.

𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩. 𝘕𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘐 𝘵𝘳𝘺, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦. 𝘎𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯, 𝘵𝘴𝘶𝘬𝘬𝘪. 𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶. "

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Tsukki got a girlfriend? // 01

"Shut up, Yamaguchi."

The same old voice that i adored very much. I let out a little chuckle as i stopped talking and walked by his side. I glanced at him and smiled a bit, I stared at his pokerface more like frowning. He seems to be bored at everything and laid back but tsukishima isn't just like that. He shows passion and works hard when there's no one looking but still humble that's why I...

Fell in love with him. Those moon-like ambiance around him. Surrounded by darkness but still shining solemnly. He has short blond hair, pale skin, thin eyebrows, and and a pair of golden-brown eyes. I'm drowning with those color of his.

"Ah, Yamaguchi." He called out my name, my head unconsciously tilted as a response.

"Hm?"

"I got a girlfriend" He said casually but with a small smile on his face.

Ha?

Smiling while processing what the hell did he said?

"Pardon?? Come a-again?" My voice cracked to some extent while averting my eyes

He glanced at me, with a perplexed look.

"I told you, i just got a girlfriend." He said louder and clearer than before. I don't know anymore if my smile looked fake but I did my best to smile at him.

"Eh? The hell are you crying?"

"Ha?" I touched my cheeks and there's tears, pouring down one by one.

"Gomen, tsukki" I said while wiping off my tears

"I seem to be really happy that you already got your girlfriend now you won't be sad or lonely anymore. I thought you will never have a girlfriend" I uttered continuously and laughed at the end. He stared at me sternly with a mix of vexation i guess

"You. You think i will never have a girlfriend? Ha. Are you looking down on me? You should look out for yourself more." He mocked with a condescending smirk plastered on his face but i just laughed at him and tapped his shoulders

"Congrats, tsukki. Good job. I would be glad if you'll introduce her to me." I smiled then he just nodded his head and I stopped walking to reach out my phone

"Ah! Tsukki, my mother wants me to stop at the hypermarket right now. You can go on without me" I said as i hurriedly ran off away from him. I heard him calling out my name but I just waved my hands, ain't looking back.

Panting and in front of the market, I looked at my phone again.

No new messages

Gomen, tsukki. I lied.

I went straight to the bathroom and entered a cubicle as i sat on the corner, hugging my knees.

What can i do? This is the only thing I can do. To cry my heart out.

As long as I'm standing by your side // 02

"Goodmorning, Tsukki"

I started my day with a warm casual greet to tsukki. We are about to go to our school, same scenario walking with him. He just nodded and wore his headphone and walked straight.

"Ah tsukki, can you help me with my science project later?" I asked but no response. Ah! I forgot, he's wearing his headphone

I tapped his shoulder and drew myself closer to him.

"Tsukki?"

I gasped when he held my hands to stop my tapping from his shoulders

"What do you thing you're doin?" He asked sternly as he crunches his brows.

I took back my hand and scratched the back of my head while averting my eyes, then bashfullness started to swirl inside of me. He touched my hands.

"I a-asked you if you could help me with my science project later"

He shifted a part of his headphone so he can listen to me and stared at me, I can feel the heatness gushing on my cheeks.

"Oh. I can't. I promised Hanami, my girlfriend, that we would hang out after school." He said emphasizing the word 'girlfriend' with a smug look in his face.

I just chuckled and looked away.

"Right girlfriend. I wish I had one too. I'm lonely. Don't you forget me." I joked following with a bitter chuckle

"Oh please. Shut up, Yamaguchi" He let out a small laugh as he put both his hands in his pocket.

"So when is your project's deadline?" He asked.

"Tomorrow. I don't what to do." A tired sigh came out of my mouth and my lips are almost pouting.

"Fine. Just hang out with us, you'll meet my girlfriend and I'll help you with your project. What a drag but hitting two birds with one stone." He smirked a little.

"W-wh-what?!" I clamoured out of shock.

"Why are you even shouting? You told me, you want to meet her." He said irritatedly

"I know but it's so sudden." I looked at the ground, hiding my face.

He looked confused but he just shrugged it off.

"So see ya later. I gotta go to the second floor first. Meet me on the gate after school." And then he left me dumbfounded before I say anything.

After School

Walking back and forth, chest filled with nervousness.

What should I do? What should I do? I feel so embarrassed

What should I say to her? Thanks to you, you ruined my lovelife?

What if tsukki wants to be with her alone?

What if he finds me really annoying?

"Yamaguchi." A familiar voice called my name as I turn around and tried to smile but it vanished as I saw him with her girlfriend, holding hands.

"Tsukki." I smiled once again and waved my hand to his girlfriend.

"So this is Hanami, a 2nd year. My girlfriend." A short introduction from tsukki, she smiled and bowed her head. A girl with a long silky straight dark brown hair, a soft features embodiment. She's also quite tall but cute. Tsukishima's ideal type.

I smiled and bowed my head as well.

"I'm Yamaguchi, 3rd year and tsukki's childhood friend. You really are beautiful." I said consciously and smiled to her sweetly.

"Enough. Let's go." Tsukishima uttered and started walking off.

At the Cafe

We started to talked about random things or how did they get to know each other and stuffs.

We ordered some coffees and bread. After a while, Hanami seems bored.

While we, tsukishima and I are making some progress on my project, she just sat and tapped on his phone.

"Waa. Senpai senpai. Look, BST is coming to Japan. I badly want to go thereee." She clamoured joyfully while clinging on tsukishima's arm. He smiled a bit and patted his head

"Yeah but I'm currently working on my thesis, I can't buy tickets on weekends." He said with a sorry face but not much pleading.

"But-" Hanami's pout really disheartened tsukishima but I can't let his grade to be ruined.

I raised my hand and smiled with nervousness.

"Since I think i can finish this project before weekend so I can buy you guys ticket." I smiled as i offered them help.

"waaaaa yamaguchiii senpaiii, life savior!" Hanami's held my hand because of excitement. I just chuckled and I saw tsukishima mouthed to me the word 'thank you' and smiled.

"haha, no problem" I said while averting my eyes.

They talked and talked. They really seem happy. Tsukishima seemed happy.

I need to be happy for him as well but the throbbing pain inside of me really neglects my emotion.

Seeing them happy, makes me really sad.

I should be the first one to be happy for him because i am his bestfriend. Gomen, tsukki for feeling this way.

They looked at me, and i gave them a smile.

It's alright. Tsukki's happy.

Please anticipate for the part 3 and more!!!( ◜‿◝ )♡

#boys love #anime yaoi #fanfic #tsukishima kei #haikyuu yamaguchi #yamaguchi x tsukishima #tsukishima x yamaguchi #tragic #sad #angst #haikyuu #haikyuu!!

[themclisseconnection]

Our Yacht is Sailing!

What's going on??? Over the past two years, the Earth got hotter, the plants grew taller, your pets grew up, someone you know got engaged or got married, some of you graduated from school and started a new job or a new business venture, reached a new milestone and some of you also joined a new fandom. How many books have you read? Did you learn how to cook? Did you transfer to an unfamiliar city or traveled to a different country? Were you able to maximize your talents, skills and productivity? Hopefully, yes. Hopefully, you were able to discover more about yourselves, just like McCoy and Elisse.

A ship on a yacht? Is that even possible? With McLisse, it is. A yacht— not too big, not too small, private and romantic. McLisse likes to keep it that way.

The photo reminds us of an unforgettable chapter in a Wattpad novel. It's like a lovely scene from a romantic movie. At first look, it seems too good to be true but once it sinks in, you'll go from "It's too good be true" to "It's so good and it's so true." Its caption gave us all the feels since McCoy used one of the fandom's most treasured words, ALWAYS. "ALL WAYS" added more depth to it. Joy, peace, warmth and security are written all over their faces. The post conveys an extraordinary feeling of freedom, a sense of contentment and infinite bliss.

The recent events, losses, madness in the government (grrrrr!) and the global pandemic somehow became our wake-up call and encouraged us to be more expressive, thoughtful and proactive. The pandemic also taught us to take a good care of ourselves and our loved ones. We only have one life to live so we should stop all our doubts and fears from getting the best of us. We should let happiness in. Right here, right now.

Yes. A good news dropped in the middle of a pandemic. It immediately became a symbol of hope for many of us who are slowly being eaten up by skepticism, animosity and hopelessness. We suddenly have a special reminder that things can get better in time. McCoy didn't just post to give a hint that his heart is at peace. He literally shared his joy to us. Every "finally" we encounter in the comment section stresses that they had been holding it in for the longest time.

The comment section is full of good vibes. Their celebrity friends, co-actors, the staffs they've worked with and the bloggers who consistently root for them couldn't help but express their happiness upon seeing the photo. Anyone could tell that they're genuinely happy for McLisse. The crying emojis, red hearts and words "SA WAKAS" and "FINALLY" definitely made a strong statement.

OUR STORY

It's no secret that McCoy had worked on several movie projects with new love interests and he even started a new business venture while Elisse landed as one of the leads in an afternoon TV series. She also got busy with her business.

McLisseians still expressed their support even in their solo projects. Every one clinged to hope and pride was set aside. We wanted them to feel that we are not just here for "kilig." As McLisseians, we knew that a part of us would always root for them even if they already stopped rooting for us. It was painful to hear them talking about us in past tense but we knew back then that deep down in our hearts, our love for them will always be stronger than our ego as shippers. We couldn't lecture them about love. The heart has a mind of its own. We could only check on them from afar and hope that they would be happy with whomever they'd end up with. It even came to a point where we had to let go and let God.

The super loyal, persistent and ever generous McLisseians continued to see the good in every opportunity. We completely understood that every opportunity they received would help them gain more knowledge and experience. Maturity took over. Each one of us learned to focus on the bright side of life with the vision that their new setup would benefit both of them. They would surely come out as better actors in the industry.

McCoy's post got many people saying "Sana all" but to be honest, McLisseians also had our own "Sana all" moments. We had so many what ifs in our list. McLisse's journey as a love team was quite short compared to others. We had to deal with multiple rejections, cancelled guestings/tours and media play during movie promotions. We got to see them acting with different partners and live with the thought that they aren't each other's first on-screen kiss. HEHE AT LEAST, MAY REAL-LIFE KISS. Ch0ur not ch0ur. Every shipper's dream is to collect many firsts and create more memories with his/her ship. Bittersweet, that's how we call it. McLisse had their own record of life-changing firsts but let's not forget that McLisseians had the privilege (Privilege!? Let's think positive. HAHAHAHA) to experience both reel and real pain earlier than the usual. The unimaginable transition and all the intentional shunning also disheartened us at one point. Sana ganito, sana ganyan. Sana maging okay na sila. Sana po mapagbigyan. It was a never-ending struggle of staying positive in the midst of chaos.

Their love team was slowly dissolved. They broke up and eventually got linked to different people. Right there and then, we knew that we had to know our place as shippers. In our hearts, we firmly believed that we could still make a difference.

McLisseians transformed into prayer warriors who fervently prayed for peace and reconciliation every single day. It was hard to see everything falling apart. We had to endure all the sudden changes, disturbing articles and heartbreaking announcements. We lost both reel and real, we had nothing to hold on to except one another, our faith and our belief that one day, they'll be able to face each other again with a smile.

2020. We started the year full of hope and it's safe to say that McLisseians had been waiting for this moment to come. McCoy kept on saying in his past interviews that they wanted to build a strong foundation first before hinting or confirming anything so we had to go along with it. It came naturally. Our GCs were filled with scoops and rumors. Some people had seen them going out again. We were ecstatic but our first instinct was to protect them. Wag mo ipost!!! Bawal! Ang kulit! Eh pero nasa FB na rin eh!?! Admin oh!!! Hayaan na natin sila, low-key muna tayo. 😂

We used to have petty fights over those things. We prayed a lot for things to get better but we never thought that "better" would mean McCoy and Elisse taking a risk and finally choosing each other again. Honestly, we were okay with them being friends after everything that happened but apparently, they're not okay with that. HAHAHAHAHUHU.

We were infuriated by some nasty articles and insensitive people. The world tested our patience. At times, we would think "McLisse, umamin na nga kayo please. Daming mema, mga kuwento na nakakainis at nakakagigil." It was really disappointing how some people took advantage of their situation. They even assumed that the two didn't reconnect at all. We patiently waited for interviews and other venues where they can freely express themselves. Nacancel TWBA dahil sa lockdown!? May interview? May digital presscon? Sana maghint na sila o magbigay kahit konting clue. McLisseians were hopeful at the very least.

(I had to keep all the excitement to myself. I respected their decision to stay in private so I just waited for a concrete proof/a fearless move from either one of them. And McCoy... Grabe. McCoy's post just blew my mind.)

McLisse is friends with every fandom. It's also nice to see other fandom appreciating our loyalty and our efforts. They would often commend us for sticking with McCoy and Elisse even if they had to part ways as on-screen partners. McLisse's recent update has become every fandom's glimmer of hope.

McCoy and Elisse were apart for quite a while. They went out with other people but eventually found their way back to each other. Love is indeed a verb. It's something that you keep on doing. You show up. You fight. You stay. McCoy and Elisse were able to get to know themselves more. They were able to realize the value of each other more than ever. McLisse will have more days together than the days they spent apart. Maaabot na nilang muli ang kanilang mga pangarap nang magkasama. *sobs*

The future isn't as scary as it seems. Optimism has found its way to us. We just know that we trust McCoy and Elisse so much. All the heartaches in the past inspired all of us to be indestructible. Tough times turned our fandom into one of the toughest fandoms out there. Their CHOICE put back all the pieces together. Mareng Kyla's prophecy was too powerful. Love really led them back to us.

McCoy and Elisse will always have each other. (OMGGGGG. IT'S REALLY TRUE,,, I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M WRITING THIS LINE,,, /CRIES IN THE CORNER/)

McLisse will always have us. Always... All ways. ♥️

#McLisse #Always All Ways

[zookeeperproblems]

Sometimes I get in a really bad head-space over the anti-zoo movement. There is so much misinformation out there, and it also starts to feel like a personal attack on my career. I want so badly to educate people on how zoos do so much good, but when it comes to intense anti-zoo stuff, it's too emotionally overwhelming for me. But I can't let it go either, and I let it eat at me for hours after. Does that ever happen to you, or keepers you know? Do you have any advice?

Alright, there’s a lot to unpack here, but hopefully I can make you and others with similar feelings and struggles feel better. 

My number one piece of advice is: it is completely okay to just walk away - from an anti zoo statement, person, etc. When it comes down to the heart of it, we are hardworking underpaid people in a physically and emotionally exhausting career. We do good work every single day. You do not have to single-handedly fight back every yahoo posting “should they really be in cages” or “#EmptyTheTanks” - we would all burn out completely. Defending our field is a team sport. There are many people, including lots of users on tumblr that I interact with, who have the emotional ability and are willing to do the labor to defend zoos/aquariums/etc. under certain circumstances. In my personal life I try to step up when I can to do the same. This is a shared battle. Sometimes you might feel you can have a productive conversation and actually help, sometimes you might be too tired and have to tap out. That is okay. We all have to take care of ourselves first sometimes. It is a real anti-activism tactic to try and flood people with so much to fight against that they burn out and give up. Pick your battles and put yourself first. Because when you DO feel up to it and you are defending zoos to the best of your ability, that will be a much more productive conversation.

The second piece of advice / insight is one that took me years to fully grasp and is still something I have to remind myself of. Most anti-zoo people are vastly misinformed, but will not be convinced by facts that try to inform them. The first half of this statement makes me feel better in a way, because I realize these vehement anti-zoo activists are objecting to things that aren’t even real. Examples are: we take every single one of our animals from the wild (as adults, so they remember the wild and they miss it), we physically torture our animals to force them to do ‘tricks’, we harm or mutilate them for our gain, all of our animals are "sad” and don’t receive any enrichment or stimulus... etc. None of these are true, but I’ve met people who believe every one of those things are 100% real. So when I hear their objections and try to talk to them, I realize hey, my work is actually pretty valid and my animals are living fulfilling lives - they aren’t going through any of these extreme tortures that this person is objecting to in the first place. The second half is disheartening, but becoming more common in all fields of activism (and is a whole different conversation anyways.) Basically, you can link to every article about conservation, show them dozens of species saved by zoos, show them the biggest no-bars-here sprawling zoo exhibit you can think of... and a lot of people will still be more convinced by a single edited photo of a “sad” polar bear lying at the edge of a concrete pool. There’s only so much you can do in that case. 

Both of these things add up to: this isn’t a personal attack, because these attacks are based in misinformation and emotion, not any valid critiques of our jobs as zookeepers. 

(Hopefully my silly gifs served to make someone smile and not make this seem less valid...okay I’m done...)

#zookeeper problems #zookeeper #this got deep y'all #iceyfrog