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while playing chapter 4 I accidentally phased into ouma (which is a glitch) so my GENIUS self had a whale of a time doing all this for a good 10 minutes

im still laughing about how funny it looks

#saiouma #oumasai #saiou #ousai #TAGGING IT AS THIS IS MAKING ME LAUGH TOO #of all the content i could provide for the ship it had to be #this #erM #danganronpa v3 #ndrv3 #ouma #saihara #LOL BYE I CANT EVEN #last night i put them as my pfp for discord #and my friends were all just #''?!?! what is your icon'' #it wsa PRETTY FUNNY #ahwait-no-yes rambles

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I drew this a couple days ago, to comfort myself from something bad that’s happened concerning my family. I’ve been meaning to post it since then, but last night, I think I lost the third most important person to me (not her life thankfully, but I don’t know when the next time I’ll ever see her will be- if I ever can) so I’m bringing this up again. you’ll be in my head and my heart forever.

#saiouma #oumasai #saiou #ousai #there's a vent under the cut #just saying #ouma kokichi #saihara shuichi #kokichi ouma #shuichi saihara #drv3 #ndrv3 #danganronpa v3 #my brother keeps saying yare yare lmao #i'll miss you kiro #JJ tries to draw #ahwait-no-yes rambles

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me and my gf were playing skribbl.io yesterday and she surprised me when she made saiou a custom word hehe so of course i drew it, i dont have a ss but she also wrote smth like “I thought you’d like this”

bonus: my chicken

this is now my discord icon for a little  i love it that much ^

#saiouma #oumasai #saiou #ahwait-no-yes can't draw #danganronpa #drv3 #saihara shuichi #ouma kokichi #yeah i cba tagging very much #ahwait-no-yes rambles

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so basically my friend told me today about her dream she had that involved a demon and of course my mind went “...SAIOU AU”

here’s our convo so it makes sense:

if I had the motivation i would DEFINITELY write a fic about this- the fluff/crack/angst potential is t h e r e

and as a bonus doodle,

story is under the cut (it’s long)

“I was gonna keep this in tags but hsdf;j” is what I originally wrote here until I started thinking about this more and sorta wrote the whole plot-

-> as ouma’s killing the other monster things he flirts with shuuichi while the poor demon has never been flirted with so he’s stood there all confused and ??? (his version of blushing would be like, the fire coming from his small horns gets bigger and brighter)

-> the one he summons ends up being like. kaede and they both just end up having to lecture shuuichi on why it is that he should not want to die so easily

-> eventually kokichi and kaede wanna give him a hug so they try to but shuuichi’s Extra Hot™ (from being a demon and also probably blushing) so they both immediately regret that choice but kokichi laughs and gives an obligatory pun about shuuichi being hot which only confuses him because ‘of course im hot?? im a demon??’ while kaede explains what ouma meant

-> imagine shuuichi crying (fire tears..) at the generosity of these two strangers who a) aren’t absolutely terrified of him, b) refuse to hurt him and c) actually *want* to help him and ouma actually inwardly understanding a little bc he’d never imagine someone actually wanting to be with himself either

-> saihara now wanting to know what it’s like to live as a human with ouma and akamatsu but being unable to find a way (except for maybe being undercover?) but promising he’ll bring ouma back to him (he’s aware of the whole aging phenomenon in the lil demon world so he wants to keep their time short) and ouma finding that now he has something to look forward to

-> the 👏 mutual 👏 pining 👏 that commences after they both have to leave each other (if kaede knows kokichi in the real world she’d definitely tease him a little knowing he has a crush- this is probably good potential for building oumaede friendship)

-> it takes a while before ouma and saihara can see eachother again because getting the two to escape without killing saihara exerted a lot of energy on him, but they do get to! about once a month to be safe, and they get to know stuff about eachother like which shops ouma likes to steal from and shuuichi’s really loud demon friend he once had (aka momota)

-> one day though saihara tells ouma that if he keeps doing this he’ll die of exhaustion (it takes a lot of energy from saihara to get ouma in and out of there) and ouma calling him an idiot but really being worried. saihara tells him not to worry about him even if something happens to him, and makes ouma go back to the real world

-> ouma doesn’t hear from him after that

-> he worries he might have been killed or saihara forgot about him and feels stupid for being so hopeful in something so childishly impossible and starts trying to forget about him

-> the real world is aware of demons cause people talk about them (and obvs you can tell when someone’s gone to their.. dimension thing because you can visibly see them age) so still denying that he’s curious and likes saihara still, ouma tries to go to libraries and do his own research on demons and ends up finding out that saihara specifically comes from a bloodline that makes him quite powerful if not for that he wouldnt want to take the risks that come with it and then lowkey gets excited again for saihara while still in ✨denial ✨

-> it’s been almost a year when saihara has enough energy (and more) to ensure that his new plan is successfully carried out and that ouma (and potentially 1 more..) gets back to the real world safely. he created this plan when he figured out how to exist in the real world- by sacrificing the thing he cares most about

-> so when ouma suddenly gets that off-feeling people get when they’re leaving the real world he feels very many emotions at once (giddily going ”ohh my god its not this it cant be this no way oh heck tthisis not happening not a chance”) until he sees the face he’s been waiting 4 months for again except this time it looks.. frighteningly cold

-> ouma’s instincts are screaming at him that something is very, very wrong here especially when he can’t hear any warmth when saihara says “Welcome back, Ouma. It’s your final time” and explains the whole ‘kill these monsters then kill me’ thing again

-> ouma’s confusion inevitably turns to annoyance as he kills the dudes (there appears to be a lot more than there was last time) and fires questions at saihara (‘is this saihara?’ ‘what happened to you??’ ‘do you even remember me?’) while saihara stays silent for the whole time thinking about how he really doesn’t want to be doing this. 

-> eventually ouma decides he was wrong (again) to have put his faith in a guy- a demon- he only met once a month.. even if said demon gave him something to look forward to

-> when he finally gets to saihara alone he internally notes that saihara cant look him in the eye, but he finally speaks to tell ouma that now either himself or ouma will now die (saihara knows this is for sake of the sacrifice, but he can’t let ouma know else it won’t work)

-> ouma refuses to fight him again, expecting saihara to snap back into the meek demon from a year and some months ago, but rather than that happening saihara actually says something like “if you won’t kill me, I’ll have to kill you” and swings at him

-> even if ouma was on his full guard, he still would’ve been surprised by how strong saihara actually could be when he tried to fight- and of course saihara can’t stop now that he’s started but ouma hears the hesitation when saihara asks “are you going to kill me yet?” and gets annoyed that the whole time he spent with him and even akamatsu meant nothing. saihara smiles sadly knowing he’s achieving his goal but ouma thinks he’s smiling at the thought of dying and gets somehow even more annoyed

-> during their whole fight, insert “I’m alone, Ouma, and I will always be” line from saihara, “No amount of talking can convince me otherwise, Ouma. I’m sorry it took so long, but it was foolish of you to trust a demon you met only once” or something and yes it hurts saihara too but ouma’s staying silent and before saihara can continue, ouma fires back with “You’re right- you are meant to be alone. You were always meant to be that kind of guy” and stops dodging to start finally attacking- this is when saihara knows he’s pretty much achieved his target: sacrificing ouma’s trust in him

-> just as ouma swipes at him, saihara’s lil spell thing is activated that takes saihara back to the real world, disguised so people don’t see him as a demon. but now ouma thinks he’s just killed saihara (I just attacked him. and he is gone. i dont know what that light was but i must have just killed him. oh my god im a murderer.”)

-> saihara hiding in the forest to do the lil spell thing again but on ouma (all the time he spent saving on energy was worth it) so ouma gets transported to the real world too and immediately runs to tell akamatsu everything that happened

-> saihara trying to find to blend in with humans from what he remembers of how they act but he doesnt need to particularly eat he just needs a heck ton of sleep so he basically just lives in the forest now. he’s very sensitive to water so he actively stays away from it too (it wont kill him but it does make him sick). he’s still feverishly warm but not scalding and he also decides to work at a store to fit in more

-> ouma regretting what he did to saihara even though saihara hurt him first and realising he misses him

-> saihara ends up accidentally bumping into him at the store he works at that ouma conveniently steals from a lot (”Ouma, you’d make a good demon” “Nishishi! What do you mean? I’m a perfect little angel!”) and saihara gasping when he notices ouma’s unforgettable purple hair and cute smile.

-> ouma finding something familiar about this awkward new staff with the cute face and deciding he’ll visit the shop more often to see this stranger and not because said stranger might help him get over his demon crush

-> then they get to know eachother again for the 2nd time, and as much as this guy is really cute, he clearly knows more than he’s letting on... so of course ouma’s gotta now pay even more attention to him. just so he knows what the guy’s hiding. not cause he wants to know him.

-> one day saihara is sick from trying to protect himself from the rain (cause yk, water bad) so he stays in the forest instead of coming in to focus his energy on getting better and also not blowing his cover. ouma notices he isnt there on that day and asks other staff members where he lives and they’re all like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

-> it rains quite a bit after that, inevitably making saihara even more sick and in turn needing time away to himself, so ouma starts getting worried when saihara stops coming to work

-> saihara really wants to see him though, so one day he tries to drag himself to work in a terrible state where he’s actually almost cold for once and collapses after trying to run to ouma. ouma sees him and tells his manager he cant work nd takes him home himself where saihara wakes up confused

-> ouma lecturing saihara because he worried him and the way he fell reminded him of.. someone (demon shuu).. then he asks vague questions to saihara about if he’s ever met a demon and half-confesses to having met one himself multiple times and ending up falling in love and then probably killing them

-> saihara, in his tired state, tells him his story of how he was raised to believe he had no purpose other than to meet someone who would kill him, eventually finding that person but instead of looking at him with fear or anger he looked at him with admiration and playfulness, how the guy meant to kill him refused to and flirted w him instead. ouma has probably clicked on by this point but saihara continues to tell him he wanted to protect that guy with the power he had so he took time away from his first ‘job’ to find out how to be with him. saihara is probably shaking at this point while he continues telling him about how he found out he had to sacrifice the most important thing to him, so he “went and had a terrible argument with him one day and i ran away. but i’ve never stopped looking for him since, he showed me that even a demon like me can fall in love” (there’s the ✨grand confession ✨)

-> ouma saw it coming from the moment saihara started speaking, but that didnt stop him from being utterly paralysed. of COURSE saihara has to say “When I said you’d make a good demon I really wasn’t lying. Your hand is so warm it could fool even me” which possibly makes ouma completely combust before absolutely bolting out the door and calling akamatsu to tell her to get to his house (”AKAMATSU-CHAN I’M GONNA DIE RIGHT NOW IF YOU DON’T GET HERE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT THIS SECOND”)

-> while waiting for kaede, shuuichi explains that he needs to be Warm™ and immediately holds kokichi’s hold again, while the other’s having a gay panic.. and he doesnt know how to feel because on one hand, his beloved demon is.. right here, in the ‘flesh’, holding his hand, telling him he fell in love with him.. but on the other hand, that doesnt excuse the confusion and hurt he put him through back then, not being able to see him for a whole damn year.. 

-> ouma ignores all the feelings when akamatsu arrives where she’s brought water and blankets (just in case- i feel like shes the kind of friend who would do that) so saihara takes the blankets and ouma takes the water and she calms them both down and gets them to explain everything slowly and in their own time. its awkward esp for ouma who isnt particularly close with her, but they manage it in the end

-> they decide shuuichi literally cant live in the forest so of course now he has to live with ouma but akamatsu offers to help if it ever gets too much for ouma which obviously ouma denies. she leaves soon and its just them but ouma needs some time to himself to clear his head and he only returns late to see saihara asleep clinging onto akamatsu’s blanket with his life lmao so ouma sighs and brings him more. and if he kisses the sleeping demon’s forehead, nobody has to know

-> ofc its still very much awkward and it takes ouma getting used to having even just another presence in his home, let alone his sort-of-unofficial-demon-bf and saihara’s still sleeping a lot of the time but recovering

-> they probably establish their feelings for eachother properly when they’re more mentally prepared for it, and then 👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨 (they kiss) and are now actually legally boyfriends. i absolutely cannot let this end in angst so they’re happy and love eachother now yay the end

nngl. i talked about this with that same friend and I lowkey want to start writing an actual fic for it now that ive written... literally the entire plot, but if i do that it probably wont be out for a while bc i take 10 years to write lmao-- plus i hardly ever finish what i start so uh yeah.. but hopefully! im not even good at writing fic this is just the plot but yello

#saiouma #oumasai #saiou #ouma kokichi #saihara shuichi #shuuichi saihara #shuichi saihara #kokichi ouma #saihara shuuichi #danganronpa #drv3 #now i realise how dry i text when im listening to someone #BUT MY MIND WAS LIKE FULL OF IDEAS #I WISH I WASNT IN AN ARTBLOCK SO I COULD DRAW EVERYTHING I WANTED #im terrified all this that im writing will just accidentally get deleted and i dont trust drafts for some reason #bruh ive spent my entire day just writing this i wrote those other tags hours ago #ahwait-no-yes rambles #ahwait-no-yes can't draw #a lot of this probably sounds cconfusing but hskldj #all this cause of one dream holy damn #honestlyy i doubt ill write it. but i might try! #why am i nervous to post aa

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may have fallen back into my little mlb hole,, i can never get enough of chat 

#chat noir #cat noir #mlb #miraculous ladybug #miraculous chat noir #mlb chat noir #mlb chat #who knew s4 might genuinely be good? #well gang of secrets was actually beautiful anyway #okay okay anyway #compare this chat to the one i did back in like. june of 2020 #i think my art has improved! and that makes me happy #its time to use the long forgotten tag pairs #ahwait-no-yes rambles #in the tags #🥺 ive missed pairing those tags #JJ tries to draw #ok im gone now!! #but if you're reading have water #(only if you can. if youre fasting dont lmao) #and meds and everyhting #((i havent said that in the tags for ages why am i getting nostalgic and sentimental)) #((OK IM LEAVING NOW)) #I hope nobody ends up following for mlb content tho cause thatll be awkward when theres an influx of saiou eventually

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since i got a phone ive just been almost entirely using that instead of my laptop. which also means im not drawing lmao but i did do a doodle of ouma on ibis (still not the greatest cause its with my fingers but yeh)

#ouma kokichi #kokichi ouma #ouma #kokichi #ahwait-no-yes can't draw #also i have really important exams in like a month so im gonna be busy anyway #drv3 #dr #v3 #ahwait-no-yes rambles

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I spent like an hour or two on this I stg but I noticed the lack of saihara gifs and i was sad about it so i made my own...

 ive never coloured one of these or like actually bothered to learn how to animate so that explains the weirdness but hey i like it at least, maybe you might too 

#saihara shuuichi #saihara shuichi #shuuichi saihara #shuichi saihara #saihara #shuuichi #shuichi #ndrv3 #drv3 #dr #v3 #danganronpa v3 #uhm #ahwait-no-yes rambles #JJ tries to draw #ive never uploaded a gif so i wont make a tag for it #guess it's going in #jj can't edit #for now #i also almost wrote ouma as a tag #im so used to writing both of them in lmao

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lately there’s so many sad things going on.. so remember, you don’t need to wait for your massive life-changer that turns everything on its head when you already have these tiny little things in your everyday life that make it worth surviving. things you want to see more of in future, things that surprise you, things that you learn to love.. these little things are what make you up too. if you looked at your hand right now, you’d realise despite everything, you’re still alive, and you should continue to be to treasure all the little things in life that helped you get here.

#ouma kokichi #kokichi ouma #ouma #kokichi #danganronpa kokichi #danganronpa #danganronpa v3 #drv3 #dr #v3 #JJ tries to draw #ahwait-no-yes rambles #all i can bring myself to draw lately #is just vent doodles after vent doodles after vent doodles #so this.. is kinda nice actually #wanted to draw shuu hugging him but oh well

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something I love about spite is that it can make me draw the weirdest things even with absolutely no energy but hey if the one who prompted this can be salty on main so can i 😎👊 (this is being queued by the way so by the time it posts i’ll be as right as rain altho the end was my brain being random lol)

ohoho sorry I wasted your precious time with my BS “assumptions”, i’m sorry you completely ignored something I repeated twice💔 sorry not everything is meant to be taken at face value 💔  i’m not normally aggressive online (passive or otherwise) but I don’t take kindly to being called insane for their own mistake

#saiouma #oumasai #danganronpa v3 #ahwait-no-yes can't draw #ahwait-no-yes rambles #saihara shuichi #ouma kokichi #im not even gonna bother tagging properly im too tired #yeah I understand it was very flawed #but you walked into it and read the whole thing #aware of the very thing you're annoyed about #it's like #if you were allergic to nuts and ate snickers knowing that #ahahaha okay im done #salty post will be salty #I really can't believe i let myself be disheartened by it at first #their point was fair enough and bias didnt belong there #thats not what im salty over it was that they completely twisted my words #alr no im not gonna spend more time on this #op i like your blog & i get your point but rethink the accusation first

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wh!!!!?? 

altho tbh this is long overdue cause I have quite a few more now but I didn’t really knoww what to draw for it so just have the boys,,

thank you to everyone though!! I feel like I hit 100 like a month ago or something HAha this is actually really surprising! i appreciate all your support very muchly~ (im just too tired currently to express it lmao)

i used saihara as my icon for instagram hehe

#saiouma #oumasai #saiou #ouma kokichi #saihara shuuichi #kokichi ouma #shuuichi saihara #ouma #kokichi #saihara #shuuichi #shuichi #danganronpa v3 #ndrv3 #drv3 #dr #v3 #danganronpa #[ahhh milestones!!] #ahwait-no-yes rambles #JJ tries to draw #haaa i probably would tag more #but iiim so tired #pfft #I also have hw due tomorrow #that i forgot abt bc it was set *yesterday* #idk i mostly cba she wont care too much anyway #ill just do it in class 😔👊

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“I thought I’d never see you again..”

aha.. click on it pls tumblr completely killed the quality 💔 

this took about 3-4 hours and ah, its been a while since i tried to properly colour. I started on it this morning in an obviously not exactly happy mood then had to go but finishing this was on my mind for the entire day and i’m happy i did 💜 I also liked the lil grayscale version of it too!

#ouma kokichi #kokichi ouma #ouma #kokichi #danganronpa v3 #danganronpa #ndrv3 #drv3 #dr #v3 #dr kokichi #JJ tries to draw #ahwait-no-yes rambles #you know i almost just gave up at the background #a park isnt what i had in mind at first #it was actually meant to be like #against a shop in the city or something #but well #im not that artistically talented to do that yet #but im glad i didnt just give up on it entirely #like i normally would haha #sad little kichi

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had to split it in half bc of tumblr’s 10-image limit thing BUT I illustrated one of my favourite moments in among us

I swear down my heart was RACING when this happened though because

it happened in around 20 seconds, the killing cooldown was 10 seconds, the impostors were 2 kills away from winning, all the others in the gc were dead (we have a rule that you cant talk if you die) 

was really fun though! the heart-pounding ones are always the best

#among us #among us comic #comic #among us oc #ahwait-no-yes rambles #JJ tries to draw #I HATE HOW LONG THIS TOOK #black's name was actually hiro tho #HIRO IF YOU'RE OUT THERE #THAT WAS A REALLY GOOD GAME

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I wanted to know how good i was at drawing with my finger and turns out i’m better than i thought! 

ramble under the cut~

hello you’re under the cut now

I think it’s pretty good for a first attempt although technically my first attempt was actually just

as i do literally every time though I cleaned it up some more after I sent that.. ngl I do like ibis a lot, it has a lot more to offer than i thought it would (probably because im used to this really terrible editing program my parents would have on their first smartphones) but I don’t like how none of the brushes blended well enough I mean smudge/blur isn’t the same and usually I rely on the marker tool (that i use too much) to blend the colours themselves but these ones are a bit too solid and not blendy for my liking but considering that was my first experience with it I think it’s a matter of getting used to and ig if i ever get a phone and use it i could adjust the watercolour settings. you can probably tell i used the airbrush a lot which i never ever do on sai

something I absolutely loved about it though was the way you zoom in, because with sai I have to physically drag the thing and it doesn’t rotate but it’s so so easy to with ibis (probably bc its on phone and you just need two fingers but whatever

also as a random sidenote reading my own typing is weird because I never capitalise the first letter of my sentences it was just the phone doing it for me but it feels like a different person speaking alr what am i talking about now i think you’ve had enough of me now see you

#saihara shuuichi #shuuichi saihara #saihara #shuuichi #shuichi #danganronpa v3 #danganronpa #ndrv3 #drv3 #dr #v3 #JJ tries to draw #ahwait-no-yes rambles #i love using my ramble tag now #also no i dont actually have a phone i was using my mum's

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poorly constructed art summary lets gooooo 

I think it’s pretty funny that november is always my weakest one that i have to fish out a thing for it

and lately im hyperfixating on mcyt but because most people follow me for danganronpa (saiouma specifically) I just dont wanna post mcyt content so instead im out here just staying silent completely lmao.. i’ve got a buunch of mcyt things i wanna do or draw but its not like im actually doing that either

oh well, i thinkk ive improved, i know i wanted to improve my colouring more 

#art summary 2020 #art summary #JJ tries to draw #JJ summaries #apparently i used that tag last year #2020 summary of art #ahwait-no-yes rambles

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I tried making shuuichi and kokichi with [this picrew!]

art is not mine of course, you can find the artist’s socials on the picrew itself

honestly im pretty obsessed with picrews in general but-

#ahwait-no-yes rambles #shuichi saihara #kokichi ouma #saihara shuichi #ouma kokichi #saihara #shuuichi #shuichi #kokichi #ouma #picrew #honestly *love* this picrew #its got so much variety #seeing the hijabs made me so happy hfksd #and especially that there was more than one style of it #cause usually if they're even included there's only one #okay im rambling i just love this #and the skintones too omg it got my own pretty damn well #ok no i need to shush

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look at the amount of posts hehehe but thank you sm for this!! (that was surprisingly fast??) pls take this as a token of my appreciation- much different to a drawing as you can see

and of course i gotta show my ramblings as i made this under the cut

hello you’ve made it!!

^ yk, the start of my madness (also pinch punch failed me greatly.. blurmocurves actually carried)

I showed my girlfriend the full version and she proceeded to make

my filenames are also something else

but! this was still really fun, even if it’s not as good as i wanted it to be! thank you for your support once again!

#ahhh milestones!! #JJ edit rampages #ahwait-no-yes rambles #saihara shuuichi #saihara shuichi #shuichi saihara #shuuichi saihara #saihara #shuuichi #drv3 #ndrv3 #dr #v3 #danganronpa #danganronpa v3 #new danganronpa v3 killing harmony #really why did this take so long?? lmao #I had to try make it as spoiler free as i could #cause my gf is still only on chapter 2 lol #i lowkey wanted the hydraulic press there-- #hehehe