#that i forgot abt bc it was set *yesterday*

[hiddenbeks]

more than a month after my previous kotor update i am happy to announce that i have finally met jolee and had him join me <3

#el plays kotor #yes im still on kashyyyk dont look at me #i was distracted by other games for a sec lmao but sth made me return to kotor yesterday #and now the party is complete!!! #and i have found 3 star maps and the plot is thickening!!!! #i keep wondering. if i hadn't been spoiled abt the pc's true identity would i have pieced it together by now #bc the foreshadowing isn't exactly subtle #or maybe it just feels unsubtle to me precisely because i know what is being foreshadowed.... #but like. from the very beginning carth is like hmm its kinda sus that you happened to be on the endar spire #and then all those conversations with bastila that make u go hmmmm what's that supposed to mean #and then... when getting the star map on kashyyyk the hologram says sth abt you matching the required behavioral patterns or whatev #and that the last time it was used was five years ago And you can reply with 'hey revan was in these parts five years ago right' #like!!! yeah!!!! it was me!!!! i was the last user five years ago thats why i match the pattern i am revannnnnnnn #i have to know. did the first kotor players back in 2003 figure it out by this point hngngngnhng #or like any other players after 2003 who played and managed to avoid spoilers #anyway back to jolee. he is so cool but also so squishy on god #apparently some ppl give him a blaster to keep him out of melee but like you cant give a blaster to a jedi..... so uncivilized....... #i set him to use force powers until he runs out of force points #but the moment he runs out of force points and jumps into the fray he goes down. sigh #maybe im doing something wrong again. maybe i should let go of my jedi pride and just give him a blaster #i should also probably use all those energy shields and battle stimulants i have hoarded. i keep forgetting abt them lmao #also!!! @ the mutual who sent me that kotor related ask also more than a month ago i just wanted to let u kno. i have replied to it #i mean if u missed it or if u didnt get a notif or forgot or anything else that's cool !! #i just get all worried that ppl might think i havent answered and that im ignoring them if they dont indicate they've seen the reply gfhgfh #but that's a me issue. i just wanted to make sure u knew 🫶 #anyway!! next stop manaan maybe #but first a detour to tatooine to deal with mission's useless deadbeat brother

[exopelagic]

I have been in this city for ONE WEEK and I’m ready to leave forever

#maybe I just have a headache and am annoyed by my boss. #but man #I’m doing a six week internship okay and not only did she not actually know what she wanted me to do at ALL #but she’s just now set me doing this Other Thing that she didn’t properly explain before she goes on holiday for a week #I think I just have a headache bc she’s very nice but oh my god please decide what you want me to do #i have to write this report and she sounded like she was figuring out what she wanted in it as she was telling me #and this comes after the first week of doing what she tells me before she tells me it’s wrong and unusable actually bc she forgot abt X #I have taught myself so much coding. #R is EVIL btw but it still beats writing a report on a niche method of data handling that’s basic enough that nobody in the field talks abt #which means for someone who is decidedly Not in the field and doesn’t have anyone to teach you you’re fucked #idk maybe I can find a textbook or something #>:( #this report is gonna go the same as everything else has so far I know it #I’m gonna make some maps that are wrong or not the way she wants and I’m going to write some stuff abt how to do it #and then be told that what I’ve written is shit bc you’re meant to be focusing on this thing she didn’t bring up before #like I was TRYING to figure out what she actually wanted me to do yesterday but she just got annoyed and was like you’ll figure it out when #you’ve done some reading #>>>>:( #maybe this is just baby’s first Real Job (they’re not paying me.) or whatever but man. #ughgddhh i should finish the dumb code I was doing and then read some stuff before 5 #I may or may not have a meeting with her if she has time before her train so I should probably be ready to get some answers

[birdybirdnerd]

someone needs to lock down my fate docs so i cant access them and write it instead of somewhere else, which is supposed to update day after tomorrow and which is only a third done. fuck

#personal #somewhere else #fate or a fools errand #look in just getting to an exciting part if the story with fate #that ive been setting up and jazzed abt since like. the beginning #also the banter with the party is fun to write ajd sometimes i just.get possessed by bitchy aja #meanwhile i still. uh. dont have the ending of somewhere else fully fleshed out yet #since SOMEONE (glares at myself) decided to rewrite it on a stroke of inspiration at three am #and then had Another stroke when i realized i wanted to write it in a diff format from the rest too #why do i do this. why do i put myself in situations #why must i be cursed with visions #also why have i onlu slept twelve hours over the past two-three days #bc tHE SHIP WONT STOP FUCKIN ROLLING #was so excited for babys first multi day transit. now im just jaded and tired #also yhink i forgot my meds boyh yesterday morning and the morn before.bfuck #took em today tho do Not want any more symptoms #.okay i need to stop rambling in yhe tags this was abt fic right? whatever

[attyattlaw]

cross posting yesterday's rambling thread for posterity and because tumblr lets me edit things. anyway this is a sorta long thing and i might add things i forgot to mention in the twt thread

i tend to draw on-model canon because im a coward + just personal preferences. but the way i convert the canon designs into my artstyle is that i take the distinct features oda gives them and then combine it with personal headcanons to complete what should look like a unique human. Starting with Trafalgar Law, who is unfortunately a bland-ass conventionally pretty boy

someone commented a while ago the law hat drawing tutorial i made a while ago didn't make much sense and i realize its bc of the specific way i draw law's face: heart shaped (ba-dum-tss). That meaning, a narrow chin widening into a mild defined jaw, wide cheekbones, and up to his know-it-all brain dome.

given that, the pudgy guitar pick shape of his head i mentioned here should make a lot more sense.

i don't think this design point is unique to me, as most conventional pretty anime boy gets given jaws like this. a lot of law artists tend to veer into this head shape. just how life be sometimes. other points: flat, thick eyebrows is bc im a hairy gal and i need to feel better about myself.

Killer gets to be more interesting, because he shouldn't be considered conventionally attractive. my idea behind killer's is that those individual features is smth he would be insecure with enough to hide himself in a helmet but i draw him with all the love in the world actually. i'd like to think its how kid sees him or yknow, law, bc he's my kin assigned blorbo and maybe you ship lawkill as a guilty pleasure too i mentioned before (and ruined people's days) when i said whenever i draw killer he looks like griffith before i put on his goatee. the upper half of his face is distinctly feminine, with the lower half kinda over compensating. other than that uhh...idk. stan killer

Kidd is the bane of my existence, i feel like i can never draw his face consistently. yet at the same time he's so damn fun to draw everyone gotta try it.

my problem with kidd is that this mf does have eyelids. most kidd painters out there interpret this as him having deep set eyes (think Matt Smith or jeffrey star) . and yeh skill issue on me i should practice that. other notes, i try to make him younger than canon makes him look. he is my babygirl and he deserves to look cuddly. my band au kidd version has the honor of being allowed some chubs. he's just tries to look older and more menacing with edgy makeup. also i try to give him dimples when i can because, well i can.

Rosinante last bc i lost steam after kidd. the thing abt cora is that aside from not having eyebrows, everything is structured with the generic one piece man template. which means i gotta do everything myself doffy is there bc the way to figure out how to draw these two is to give them minor differences from each other, that being doffy gets slightly sharper features. in canon, these two are also rly wide boys (more of an oda style feat tbh) but i make them long. though bigger brained donquixote artists know that of these two brothers, doffy should be the wiry-er built. anyway that's it. in conclusion, i need to draw more girls actually i feel like im becoming misogynistic by osmosis from oda's style and now i draw girls all looking the same too.

#one piece #trafalgar law #eustass kid #eustass kidd #op killer #massacre soldier killer #donquixote rosinante #donquixote corazon #donquixote doflamingo #was gonna do robin and perona too at least but like...i have a job and stuff

[mattslolita]

update about the boy!

NO BC Y DID UR CHRIS FIC HAVE ME 🫦🤤😫💃

SO yesterday (sunday) he came over to mine, and my older friend was also here cuz she came round saturday night. she has a baby and shes like 8 months old. basically he was like playing w her an making her laugh (HES GOOD W KIDS OMG😊😊😊) and my friend went "thats ur man right there" and i laughed. he heard her and jus looked up and smiled at me 😏😏

when she left we were chilling in my room and i forgot all abt this tbh, but he gave me the charm he bought last week 😍😍😍 then cuz its his mums birthday soon we were looking for stuff to get her. then we thought of buying this cute box of fake pink roses that look real from some website and a charm from pandora and then a perfume she wants.

after like 2 hours we decided to go out for smth to eat (wingstop bc ITS FIRE and im fussy asf). when we left we saw 2 of his mates and one of them said to me "im jus gonna hav to pretend im interested in you to get him to make a move atp" 😭😭(he dint hear)

then we got home. i was laying on my stomach on my bed and he was downstairs talking to my mum (God knows abt what🤔 ) and he came up and layed next to me but dint say anything instead jus looked at me. then i said "what?" and he jus sighed and said "nothing" AND obviously it wasnt nothing but i dint wanna push it. i told my friend and she was like "he wants you so bad its UNREAL" LMFAOO 🤣(real)

today at schl we had science and we had that COVER/SUPPLY TEACHER AGAIN OMGGGG!! i wanted to cry like bro LEAVEEEEEEEEE!!!!! she made us answer true or false questions related to biology (ibsr idk the difrence between biology chemistry or physics its badddd) 😭😭😭 and if we thought it was true we had to go to the left side of the room and false, on the right (games you'd play w a fucking toddler, grow up!) and i knew the answer too one of the questions (SURPRISINGLY 😉) BUTTTT... i literally cant tell my lefts and rights (im dyslexic but also jus super dumb 🥹) so the boy was like "yes but what side do we go on" and i was like "hold on" and he went "YOU DONT KNOW UR LEFTS AN RIGHTS?". he was pissing himself w his friend and the teacher was like "how are you in top set w/o knowing ur lefts and rights?" first off pipe down, second, fucking LEAVEEE the SCHOOL MAN! he was takin the mick the whole day and then said " you wanna start learning how to drive as soon as you turn 18 but the driving instructors gonna go 'turn right' and ur gonna go left, straight into the fucking river" VIOLATED! (SO TRUE THO) 😭😭😭😭😭😭

side note- i was sitting on the grass with two of my friends today and this girl whos in my brothers year like 2 years below said hi to me then she went "ur rlly pretty" I LITERALLY LOOOOVE PPL LIKE THAT. she was so sweet omg i wanted to cry 🥲🥹

AWWWWW HIM JS LOOKING AT U IN ADMIRATION IS THE CUTEST THING EVER !! ur momma was prolly giving him the talk LMFAOOOOOO

im soso glad u liked the fic bb❤

STAWP BECAUSE I DONT KNOW MY LEFT OR RIGHTS EITHER ITS SOOOOOO EMBARRASSING I BARELY REMEMBER CS I REMIND MYSELF IM LEFT HANDED LMFAOO

that girls so sweet OMGGGGG !!! if he doesn't ask you out soon ISTG.....

#lilly's love letter💌 #answered 💌 #mattslolita 💌

[7rashstar]

i didn’t rly sleep last night yap sesh below the cut

missed mayday festivities because i am debilitatingly socially anxious but then went camping for a friends bday and felt refreshed by being able to see soooo many stars and be outside…(and go on the most extreme hike of my life dude omfg)

while we were camping my digi cam fell out of my pocket when i laid on the ground to look at the sky and stars and it stormed that night and my camera got destroyed. hoping the sd card is salvageable..

creepy had hella ticks on him (including one thats head got stuck in his uhh..wiener lol) went to the vet got em removed in total there were 8 (!!) that we found. he has so much fur man idk there could be some more on him but at least they’d be dead atp because i ALSO finally got a flea tick preventative that he can take monthly. it’s been impossible to get a vet appointment anywhere, especially at the clinic i’ve been taking him to since he was a bb. praying he didn’t contract anything from the ticks…we’ll get a blood test sometime in september-december

bestie soup told me u could see the northern lights in the city last night + they sent me some pics but i pulled a leg muscle skating n it hurt too bad to waddle over to the overpass (plus there’s been several shootings in my neighborhood the past couple weeks outside my building so i don’t rly like going out at night rn anyway)

yesterday oomf texted the gc n said a friend of a friend asked him where to listen to my music online bc they loved my set :’)) the last time i played a show was the beginning of march!!!! that made me feel rly good so now i have more incentive to finally upload things to soundcloud again. might work on that later today…like. might,…finally post something

he said he sent them a link to my old bandcamp and i forgot i never deleted my music there i only scrubbed my sc so i went over n listened to what i posted. it was kinda cute. in 2020 i started using ableton for the first time consistently and actually tried to figure out how to make stuff w it so everything f from that time is like. ahh. i’d do that so different now!! but at the time i was so proud of myself and that makes me feel kinda fuzzy (in a good way) like noticeable artistic growth yanno? n also knowing that version of myself who was constantly suffering and seeking an End still felt excited abt what i was making. it’s cute. my old self is someone ive made peace w and hold close to my heart in the ‘it’s different now and it’s Awesome’ way like fuck yea lil buddy you got clean and made it out alive. that’s sick

some of my old music goes hard asf too tho. a lot of unreleased stuff on my google drive i dug thru after listening to my bandcamp i don’t even rly remember making but i was like :0 !!

i was up until 5:30am working on a flyer !! i wanna make more flyers!! i miss making flyers. i’m outta practice and using procreate bc i don’t have photoshop anymore so still a newbie on the program front but i think. i did a good job and it looks cool so that’s nice

i rly wanna skate but my leg hurts i feel like that spongebob guy

#my leg!! #sleepless brain foggy screwed up my med schedule this week ramblings #to the void #thx for listening

[sidneypoindexter]

I saw Hadestown yesterday! Here's my review/overview of it!

I'm a bit nearsighted, and I forgot my glasses, and I sat in one of the back rows. So I had a hard time seeing the stage. Most everyone was blurry figures to me, and half the time I couldn't tell where Eurydice was bc her colors blended into the members of the chorus/workers. But Hades had a stage presence that made him noticable, Persephone's bright green dress in Act 1 and black dress in Act 2 + her distinctive silhouette made her visible, the feathers on Hermes' suit glinted in the light, and Orpheus wore a lot of white. So it was mostly Eurydice I had a hard time seeing.

I wear headphones basically all the time IRL because noise overwhelms me, but I had my headphones off for the whole performance because I was so into it.

The choreography and lighting and set design was great!

Hermes was fun, but a bit too theatrical. He was putting on a show and not really interacting with the other characters like a person.

Orpheus. Oh my god, Orpheus. he was such a little dork. When Hermes called his name a second time in Road To Hell, he looked up and gave us all a little wave and I waved back. He kept tripping over himself and bumping into people.

When Hermes said abt Orpheus "You might say the boy was... touched," my mom leaned over to me and said "Yeah, he's totally on the spectrum" (referring to Orpheus).

Eurydice's vocal range was a little low, so she strained her voice on the high notes. She was still a very good Eurydice.

The audience kept laughing during Come Home With Me because Orpheus was being so ridiculous

During Come Home With Me, Orpheus held out his hand to Eurydice, she almost took it, but then she pulled away.

Holy shit the choreography of Wedding Song. The chorus moved the tables and chairs around. At one point, Orpheus walked on the tables.

At one point during Wedding Song, Orpheus' mic glitched out for a few words...

At the end of Wedding Song, Orpheus held out his hand to Eurydice the same way he had during Come Home With Me. This time, she took his hand.

When the lights went slightly off during All I've Ever Known and we just saw the silhouettes of Orpheus and Eurydice, and one of them lifted the other up and then they went to the floor and one lay on top of the other, then rolled off... Damn, get it Orpheus and Eurydice.

Orpheus and Eurydice were sitting and holding each other at the beginning of Way Down Hadestown, only to separate in surprise when Persephone stomped in with "That was not six months!"

There was a door at the back of the stage that opened horizontally on cue, and there were nine lights behind it. When Hades showed up, the door opened, the six lights on the right were lit up to mimic a train, and smoke poured out of the entrance.

After Eurydice sang "kinda makes you wonder how it feels..." everyone was still for a few seconds. Then Orpheus leaped in front of her and spread his arms wide as if to protect her from the Fates and Hades.

Orpheus had a little table in the corner where he sat for Epic 2 and Chant.

During Gathering Storm, Epic 2, and Chant, there was fog/smoke on the stage around everyones feet.

Eurydice dropped her ticket when she was given it during the Chips Are Down intro. She had to pick it up. What's more, Hades didn't say the line "Your ticket" when he gave it to Eurydice.

During both Gone, I'm Gone and Flowers, Eurydice sat at the front of the stage by herself.

When Orpheus said "with all my heart" during the Wait For Me intro, he was holding the red flower, and put his hands on his heart.

During Why We Build The Wall, Hades stood at the front of the stage with a stand microphone, and the workers all stood still on each side of the stage near the band. At the end Eurydice came in via the automatic horizontal doors.

When Orpheus found Eurydice during Come Home With Me (Reprise), he almost tripped over himself in his excitement to get to her. Then he picked her up and they did this:

The lights kept shining Super Fuckign Bright during Papers.

Papers (Instrumental) and the way they simulated Orpheus getting beat up was great choreography.

The Fates werenot good at Nothing Changes. They went way too fast. It was weird, because they were great in all the other songs.

During Hades' "I CONDUCT THE ELECTRIC CITY" line, the lights shone super bright. My mom had to cover her eyes, but I was transfixed.

Hades' "Oh, it's about me" line during Epic 3 was more "aww, it's about me" in this sort of "aw, how cute, you think this will help you" patronizing way

When Hades said "Where'd you get that melody?" he lunged towards Orpheus. Persephone had to hold Hades back.

I cried during Epic 3.

During His Kiss, The Riot, Hades sat down on a stool and there was a spotlight on him.

Before Eurydice left with Orpheus, she went up to the workers and shook hands with all of them, and the tallest worker pat Eurydice on the head which was adorable. You really got the sense that they had a camaraderie from working together, and they were wishing her good luck.

The smoke/fog came back during Doubt Comes In.

When Doubt Comes In started, all the lights went off. Then somehow they solely lit up Orpheus, and he was in this complete dark walking. Eurydice was slightly illuminated by the lighting on Orpheus, but just barely, so she looked like a ghostly shadow behind him.

During Doubt Comes In, the Fates would occasionally turn on small lanterns they were holding, to make 3 small pinprick lights. Then they would go out again.

There was a little weird run around scramble at the end of Doubt Comes In because rather than a lowering platform, the stage had a door at the back, so they had to get Eurydice back there.

During Road To Hell (Reprise), the characters who had changed their clothes came back in their original clothes? I'm guessing the chorus and Persephone changed their outfits during Doubt Comes In, and Eurydice held her coat tight around her so she probably put that on over the Act 2 overalls.

When the cast was bowing at the end, Persephone blew the audience a kiss.

Mom wanted us to leave as soon as the bowing and stuff ended, but I was standing there completely transfixed by Raise Our Cups.

They turned the microphones down/off for Raise Our Cups.

#txt #hadestown

[oceanmoss]

girl wtf i told my fathwr i forgot my art supplies with him yesterday (silly, normal) next thing he sends "i'm at your door rn" IM . at uni . and ure not gonna knock on mom's door or smth r u 🤨 bc she'd literally like pass out or smth. pls act normal im soooo tired of having unhinged parents set me freeeeee AND HE DOESNT EVEN HAVE INTERNET SO HES NOT SEEING MY MESSAGES ABT BEING OUT . bc he's a tight-fisted bitch and won't pay shit to have functional communication w ppl -_-

#well his fault this is the Worst day to pick for such clownery #pls take the art supplies i don't want them if that's the price 😭😭 #🧷

[zoekrystall]

Just ranting abt horror tropes and how I am picky

Love how that layout change kicked me more into spooky mood again but man I fucking hate how much ableism is in horror movies. I forgot why I don't watch horror movies at like all since forever but adore horror in gen until I searched for ones without any ableist shit in them. If it isn't physical seen as creepy it's the narcissist/sociopath/psychopath villain trope and I want to start strangling producers. The last one I watched was skinamarink and that was like my first one in forever next to an old japanese one like two three years ago w a friend. Will prob rewatch otgw and some classic horror movies. Maybe when focus watch some anime w horror elements. Since like. Getting me to be scared is anyways hard nowadays I consume horror games all year round (albeit only through let's plays). Also idk if it just seems like that or if I got bad luck there but a lot I did want to check out bc of people saying how oh so brutal they are always got rape scenes when I checked which is an immediate no and I just I'm tired man. Also yes I like survival horror I like resident evil silent hill ofc I like a lot of horror game classics but like. Those aren't creepy imo. Those don't evoke the same fear. I want psychological fucked up horror cmon. Gore is cool and I do enjoy it but less in a creepy more in a "yay! ♡" way like sometimes murder makes me feral like an animal. Which is anything but being scared. Like I want to be the one murdering them I want to sink my teeth in and violently shake my head! If you can understand german the youtuber corrupted got pretty much the same taste as me. Back to movies and shows I think the problems also is I just prefer games way more. It's so different just watching people being in a situation vs having to control them maybe even having choices to dif endings and all (even just watching a let's player evokes it enough). Fear and hunger is amazing! 1 and 2! I watched the vods by cdawgva and the game has a neat story characters designs etc. But like. In regs to scary is it not what I exactly want. I bet if I would play myself would I dislike it bc I hate fighting and all. I think bc it touches on the psyche n all is it one I def like more but ig it's more the worldbuilding than the game itself? And then it's for me a yknow horror game but not a scary game. Idk how to explain it maybe a scary game is also just not possible for me and if that is the case then I mean? Fear and hunger nailed it a lot I think. I think I start to analyze automatically more than just let myself be spooked without my brain constantly thinking abt the setting. I mean I like a lot of horror rpg maker games bc of the story setting n all. I think I just enjoy what I enjoy but man is it a shame to only be scared once in a full moon nowadays. I think the suspense is v important? Joey said on a trash taste ep I watched yesterday how a lot of japanese movies nail it w you think there will be smth but then there's nothing so you are constantly on your guard. Maybe that's why if I do I usually watch japanese horror movies. Ik I def don't like when the hard stuff like immediately drops. Def hard to pick my horror taste apart oof.

#a wild lux appears #Like I love the iconic characters but haven't really watched any classic movies #Maybe I will bc there's more of a time disconnect but like. I want to be scared not laugh and side w the killers idk man #I am picky #Also obv if you like em you're good I am anything but a 'nO prOblEmATic mEdIa' person

[glacialmaples-pkmn]

I haven't played genshin since abt mid March bcs I wanted to put all my focus into SIF, then the SIFAS thing happened, and then life stuff happened and eventually I forgot. so needless to say I've missed a bunch of stuff (including kaeya skin :( ).

so yesterday I decided it would be a good idea to start it back up! only I didn't get to play it yesterday bcs it took 7 hours to download + install everything.

so I played it today!! and. playing it with a proper monitor, sitting close enough to see tiny details, and being able to use headphones is. an experience. has it always been this detailed?

what do you mean it's not supposed to be a blurry mess and I don't have to fiddle with the audio everytime I want to do dialogue stuff?

ever since I started playing genshin I played it with my laptop connected to the tv so I had to be mindful of everyone else. now that I can play it properly, it is a very different (but a very welcome) experience.

now to mess with the graphic settings so I can see even more details without making my laptop sound like its about to take flight lol

#maple crunches #what do MEAN there's tiny details on the screen? #and has the sound always been this clear? #anyways. bandori isn't really hitting the same as SIFAS did and I'm starting to get why I dropped it and SIF for genshin (and later SIFAS) #I think for bandori + SIF it's the lack of auto play? I loved to auto play feature in SIFAS #even if I wasn't watching the mv I could still participate + rank in events w/o having to sit down and sink 2+ hours daily #I could do it passively. sure it took longer and I didn't get the highest scores. but I loved it #SIFAS I miss you </3

[nouies]

Hellooooo from your Secret Santa🎄🧑🏻‍🎄🤍:

I hope you didn't think I forgot about you, because I didn't! <3 Here I am💕💕

Don't worry, I'm enjoying these messages a lot! They're not stressful at all and I'm loving writing to you<3

I'm really glad to read that you had a good day yesterday! Do you teach kids or teenagers? And to answer your questions, I do not like football; my family wasn't a big football fan growing up so I was never interested on it. I love fics, the whole reason I kept my sanity during lockdown was because of fics. Naps? My #1 true passion. I love sleeping and I love long naps with my dog next to me<3

I had a very easy day yesterday, no work for me so that means no stress at all and I was reall thankful for that, Today in the other hand, was a little bit stressful, my boss and I are getting a lot of fights lately but nothing too serious, I just think it's a rough patch between me and her. We'll get throught it. How was your day? Hopefully you had a beautiful morning and now you're having a happy evenning!<3

The number we coincide on it's 13, for some reason or another it has always been present in my life! I do think we will get along really well once you discover who I am<33 Maybe we are in the same hemisphere, maybe not, who knows?👀👀

I'm an introvert just like you, it's hard for me to be out of my comfort zone but once I feel good in it, there's no one who'll shut my mouth, lmao. Cats are beautiful! I only know so little of them because I've never been so close to one:( But I think they're amazing and cuddly <333 Love 4 non blodes!! It's my mama's favorite band and I also grow up listening to "whats up?" omg, now I'm thinking if we have the same age mmm. As a favorite song, I don't think I have one because I love music too much that's difficult to choose one. But I'll tell you the first song I ever learn how to sing was "My happy ending" by Avril Lavigne, that song was my anthem when I was 8 years old, I think.

Wel well, it's getting really interesting to know more about you! I hope you don't think I'm a creep for asking so many questions hahaha soooo for today I would like to know if you do like and enjoy christmas? and tell me a memorie that makes you really happy everytime you think of it. I'll be waiting to read it <33

Another long message just for youuuuuu<33 I feel this was a listless one, I'm not on right set of mind because I'm sleepy hahhaa I've been up since 4am so sorry :( but tomorrow you'll get a better message. I promise! But still, I really hope you enjoyed this message<333

Sending you big and long hugssss wherever you are xx

hello lovely! so glad to hear from you!

i’m sorry you didn’t have a good day today and i hope everything gets better between you and your boss. i know what it’s like to have a difficult relationship at work, so i can only pray for it to not take a toll on you.

abt my job, i teach teenagers! that’s why it can get a bit stressful at times but i tried to understand them bc i was a teenager once as well lol. what kind of fics do you like? i feel like my taste has changed the last couple of years, and maybe the lockdown had something to do with it bc i tried to read as much as i could. and i take naps with my cat! although he takes his own whenever he wants and only joins me when he feels really needy :D

i already like you! i feel you’re very similar to me bc of what you told me abt you being an introvert. it looks like we both like to talk a lot once i feel confident enough. i’ve got the feeling you’re younger than me but still a 90s baby? i’m 30 (my biggest flex is that i get to be louis’s age for half a year and then zayn’s for the other half).

i don’t mind your questions at all! i appreciate them a lot and they’re fun to answer :D i like christmas but i don’t celebrate it as i used to when i was younger. this is gonna sound super cliché but my best memories of christmas were when i still had my mum, and when my youngest nephew was born. nowadays i celebrate louis’s birthday more than anything hehe. do you like christmas though? how do you celebrate it?

thanks for your lovely message and your kind words! i hope you get to rest tonight after a long day! sending love and hugs your way! <333

#bss22 #anonymous #answered

[in-the--middle]

A realization this morning.

This is still abt yesterday. Naisip ko lang, ang tagal pa ng ganong set-up, thru online, no physical interaction. And don sa span na yon possible na he might feel that way again or worse. Baka kapag ganon, instead of sharing it to me, he deal with it in his own way and while dealing it, he'll forgot that he has me.

Na he's busy dealing with it tas he won't explain what it is happening. Ofc, possible na he might act that way again unless ill tell him this sentiments. Kagaya ng ngayon, he became distant, he's trying to prove something for himself. And i felt like he left me to deal don sa effect nong ginagawa nya. I was left to think bad in our situation, to overthink if there is something that i did. Instead of telling or sharing it to me, he chose to deal it on his own, and made me feel like he's someone na untouchable. Yung walls ang taas. We tend to share things when we are happy pero sobrang hesitant na to share it kapag ang heavy na.

Okay, dami ko sinasabi haha. In short, im afraid na if he feel that away again, instead of explaining or sharing it to me, He would be distant again and deal it on his own, and ill be left again thinking what is happening. While he's busy dealing with it, i am consume by the negative thoughts bcs he didnt give me a chance to hear him.

[goddesstrolls-archive]

also

i might be joining a dnd group here ;v; im planning on offering to DM 

its two guys, whom i assume are adults but might not be, and also an 11 year old, so thats gonna be fun

#bastet speaks #theres a game shop just down the stret #street even #but even tho its close its still difficult to actually get to hdsfhghf #i think they're closed today but i forgot to ask yesterday abt the details #but i was thinking all night of making a campaign/setting n stuff bc that sort of thing is my JAM #i have a dm handbook and monster manual too #just not the players guide

[floralbfs]

the fact that ive used whatsapp (literally like the only app i use to communicate) so little that when i went on the share screen it said i had no frequent chats......

#and to appear on my frequent chats i need to send like two messages bc that's also how much i communicate with ppl i guess 👁️👄👁️ #jdhdjdbdbsbf god ive stopped using social media so much that i dont even have presence to my algorithm...... #even w my best friend my last real (and that's... ““real”” ig) conversation was on like the 22 sjdbsnbd and then like. yesterday or #something we spoke but like we said hi how are u goood! and that's it nsdbsjddjdbbd #and she's usually the person i talk to the most i think #anyways i think i might b back for good!!!! #maybe!!!! snbfsnbd i do feel so much better than a few days ago even if i got thrown into a state of constant near breakdown bc i forgot to #take one of my meds the other day #but anyways <3 #also i havent finished the gifset i wanted to do JDHSJDHSJFBDJ ive got several gifs planned (rly enough for like several sets especially bc #one of the ideas is for a whole set but still) but ive only rly done two JSBFJDJDJSBFB #i just didnt think screen recording wld b this tough i rly thought i was tech savvy😖😖😖 #also they have like wildly different looks since theyre from like completely different scenes and I Never Learned How To Match Gifs #jehfjsjdjd but it's fun and i get an excuse to rewatch every time i want to so :) <3 #ANYWAYS #actually i dont think i have anything to rerail to to justify using anyways jsvfjsbdnd #this was rly like. me finding out ive become a social recluse and ive spoken to literally nobody for A While and now idk how im goign to go #back to living in society. either like online or irl like idek how im going to talk to people thru chats anymore it's all too much #i propose we all go back to like..... idk abt eras. maybe i just want to live in a nicely secluded home in the forest and all of my #interactions with civilization are made thru like my visits to the market at the nearby city or something. and also penpals i communicate #with like once a week #honey talk

[lxghtbound]

@pawnshopsouls said: //Ok but Sparrow Racing+Space Cowboys where muses are stranded on a world and have to do the Lone Ranger/Cowboy thing to get money and parts for their ship. All of them have wild, crazy adventures, all ending with them riding their sparrows into the sunset like the desperadoes they are

HELLO ive been thinking abt this all day today and yesterday i just forgot to answer bc i got distracted drawin flowers LMAO

BUT I LOVE THIS IDEA SM i was gonna say my hunter pack but im tempted to just say scout and maybe prose BC VERY TEMPTED TO WRITE THIS AS AN AU. pspspspsps at all my mutuals who wants to do this. preferably hunters bc of the whole Vibe but others are acceptable if u really want

if it’s in destiny context, imagining a weird signal from another planet outside the system and of course one of them’s like ‘uh, we gotta fucking go check that out that’s cool as hell!!’ esp if theyve never been out of the system before, and they drag along a few friends as well. so they make the trip there, maybe thinkin Wow Space Is So Cool on the way there, but once theyre close enough to orbit the planet, something pulls their ships down. of course no one’s expecting that, so no one has a plan for that

maybe if theres something there, it could have light suppressing tech to add a little more to the stakes. maybe theres traps set up everywhere

could be another division of vex guarding something, and they could steal parts from them. could be another pyramid, and who knows if something’s still vibing inside there. could be something completely and entirely new. maybe theres a colony that no one knew was formed

all they really know is they Need to get off this stupid planet, regardless of how many times tell them theres no way

#ooc #ask answered #GIVING ME BIG RVB VIBES #S11-13 #WITH THE CHORUS ARC #god i wanna rewatch that #i fucking LOVE it sm #mercs my beloved #but with the whole shipwrecked on a distant alien planet #with no idea what's going on? #big big big rvb vibes #esp if theres something really weird and sus going on in particular #SORRY IF THIS SEEMS A LITTLE DISJOINTED #i just let my brain Go

[unicyclehippo]

so I’m thinking abt The Seven as i move my apartment around & this is how i think the girls would help each other move

antiope: arrives at 5 am well before the moving truck so she can help pack boxes & stays the whole day carrying things & helping arrange furniture just so. she borrowed the family car, the big one that has plenty of boot space, to take some car loads with her. she brought lunch & plenty of water. she’s all about safety & lifting with the legs not the back & communicating so we don’t run the couch into the wall dammit!

Zelda: it’s like, it’s maybe stupid or whatever but i made a playlist so we are like, having a good time, having a party. because it’s like moving is so stressful but if you feel like it’s a party I think it’ll go way quicker! she stays for most of the day helping move the heavy stuff but she doesn’t want to impose or get in the way so when it gets down to personal boxes she makes her excuses & leaves

katja: katja comes a little after antiope, she helps Zelda move the heavy stuff. she feels a bit awkward the whole time because she wants to get it right & also not break anything because that would just be the worst so she uses her extensive bridle experience to make sure everything is packed securely. she also brings an expensive house warming gift on the day (and then another for the actual house warming party bc she’s like I know I already gave u one but I forgot that a house warming is an actual party so I got you this) & one of the gifts is extremely to ur taste & then the other one is about horses bc a house just isn’t complete without a horse.

Penny: penny is the niftiest helper ever. she isn’t great with moving the bed or couch or anything but she plops down with the tv cords & the Internet & sets it all up for you. she busies herself in various rooms making sure the cutlery is polished or the curtains hang just So & generally makes the place really neat

ostentatia: I don’t know if ostentatia helps on the day she’s like it’s maybe too much all at once. too many people. so she comes around a day later to help u style the place, she brings food so u don’t have to find ur pots & pans & cook when ur so tired. she sees where the couch hit the wall yesterday n she’s like don’t worry abt it I know a guy & one of her cousins turns up ten minutes later & fixes the wall it’s like it was never there

danielle: Yelle brings plants. a house isn’t a home without a horse of course but it’s nothing without something growing in it. she brings over some windowsill veggies or some of those mushrooms that grow super fast. she comes over the day of the move about morning tea time, just when people are starting to get frustrated despite zeldas playlist & brings a wave of calm & dedication with her like im here to help there’s nothing we can’t do together. totally chill doing messy jobs like cleaning or whatever, literally will do whatever is required

sam: i think she is like ostentatia in a way but she is there on the moving day & she’s like I know where everything ought to go don’t worry about a thing, I’ll tell everyone else what to do & where to take everything. it’s a little presumptuous but she’s also rly good at it. she waits to give a present until the house warming bc she always gets smth that rly ties everything together & goes rly well with the vibe of the place. the only other thing is that i think she’s the person to call if you’re decorating in some way - ostentatia too but Sam specifically for painting the walls or hanging pictures or art etc

#the seven #this is silly but i enjoyed it