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So maybe a year ish ago I found this horn at a thrift shop.

This past weekend I got the opportunity to go to paganicon for the first time. One of the main programs there was the sounds of the Iron age. This amazing person had instruments that were historically made to be similar to norwiegen and norse/Scandinavian of those times. She played them, sang songs, and told stories. Even sang a song of the sagas.

Some of those instruments were made from different goat horns and other animals. Now I believe this is a real horn except for the mouth piece. It is plastic and was made to fit on the end of the horn.

Anywho because of the event I had learned something new about my norwiegen heritage. I honestly don't know much about the different things of my heritages because I have many blood lines and there has been alot of disconnect in culture and community due to generational trauma.

However this weekend I had learned what this horn was and how it's used. It actually has many uses. A horn was sounded to give thanks to hosts of parties or events. A horn was sounded to give thanks to the guests of events. A horn was sounded to honor ancestors and spirits of the lands. A horn was a musical instrument that provided music at parties. It sometimes made the people dance! A horn was sounded to communicat the arrivals of guests. A horn was used to send prayers to the gods. A horn was sounded to call childeren back to the house.

Horns were used for so many things and it sounded like almost every villager had one for the uses they needed it for.

I am proud that I found this gem thrifting. I am so glad that I bought this now after learning about it. I now know how I can use it in my practices and connect with the gods and ancestors with it. It is a beautiful horn.

I was thinking of cleansing it, blessing it, repainting the flowers on it, and putting some runes on it to make it my own.

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autumnsvoice87 · 1 month

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So maybe a year ish ago I found this horn at a thrift shop.

This past weekend I got the opportunity to go to paganicon for the first time. One of the main programs there was the sounds of the Iron age. This amazing person had instruments that were historically made to be similar to norwiegen and norse/Scandinavian of those times. She played them, sang songs, and told stories. Even sang a song of the sagas.

Some of those instruments were made from different goat horns and other animals. Now I believe this is a real horn except for the mouth piece. It is plastic and was made to fit on the end of the horn.

Anywho because of the event I had learned something new about my norwiegen heritage. I honestly don't know much about the different things of my heritages because I have many blood lines and there has been alot of disconnect in culture and community due to generational trauma.

However this weekend I had learned what this horn was and how it's used. It actually has many uses. A horn was sounded to give thanks to hosts of parties or events. A horn was sounded to give thanks to the guests of events. A horn was sounded to honor ancestors and spirits of the lands. A horn was a musical instrument that provided music at parties. It sometimes made the people dance! A horn was sounded to communicat the arrivals of guests. A horn was used to send prayers to the gods. A horn was sounded to call childeren back to the house.

Horns were used for so many things and it sounded like almost every villager had one for the uses they needed it for.

I am proud that I found this gem thrifting. I am so glad that I bought this now after learning about it. I now know how I can use it in my practices and connect with the gods and ancestors with it. It is a beautiful horn.

I was thinking of cleansing it, blessing it, and repainting the flowers on it and putting some runes on it to make it my own.

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autumnsvoice87 · 2 months

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Paintings I've been doing. I find night scenes and dark silluets to be more in favor of my current talents. I love blending colors and love water scapes and just making outlined shapes. The longer one I played around with a Crayola glitter crayon. It's got some sparkle in it and I love it! I feel like I've improved.

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autumnsvoice87 · 2 months

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Butterfly in watercolors. Butterflies signify transformation. Sometimes you have to go through the hard shit in order to transform into your true self. Never forget who you are inside! Release the powerful beast inside you!

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autumnsvoice87 · 2 months

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Don’t blame yourself.

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autumnsvoice87 · 2 months

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Thisssss! I am also late dx. 🙃 it baffles me as to why we can't just accept eachother as is. Why all the judgement?

I'm all for the movement of "if you're going to accept all autistics, that means all autistics. Even the weird ones" etc

But I much more fancy that we just accept weird people point blank. They don't need to share a diagnosis. They don't need to make themselves smaller just to fit into the world.

Cuz, as a late diagnosed autistic, my weird ass could have used just acceptance. Regardless of why I was weird.

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autumnsvoice87 · 2 months

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I'm having spring fever lol 😆 I've been doing more flowers and ostra stuff.

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autumnsvoice87 · 2 months

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Felt like doing something cheerful. Tulips. Mixed media.... made with water colors and metallic markers.

It looks like a little kid did it but doesn't the innocent happiness look cool? I like it. Makes me smile for some reason.

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autumnsvoice87 · 2 months

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Last night, I had a bad anxiety attack that made me spiral down a dark habit hole. I am polyamorous but I also have the dark secret of having fear of abandonment issues. I was suddenly so scared that everyone was going to leave me. I decided to give my love of junk journaling a try for some art therapy. This is what I did. I've been getting a great response on Facebook and thought I'd share this as well on here since this piece is an embodiment of my emotional hell.

After taking anxiety meds, I felt a lot better. I also felt more stable after sleeping. I do have cptsd and depression/anxiety disorder. I have a lot of trauma in my past that I'm trying not to let ruin my relationships. It's a battle that's really hard. One thing I kept trying to push in my brain last night was that even a broken mosiac deserves and is worthy of love.

I've been feeling really insecure lately because of my herniated disk that's left me physically disabled. I have a hard time doing the things I used to do, and it's taking its toll on my mental health.

I feel so left out of people's lives, and it's not even anyone's fault. Not even I'm to blame. It's not like I woke up and chose this. I also didn't choose to have a traumatic childhood. Sigh. Anyway....here's to mental health awareness.

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autumnsvoice87 · 2 months

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I got a new coloring book, and freya was on there. I put on a poem/prayer on her from another tumbler user. @tears-of-amber

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autumnsvoice87 · 2 months

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The adventures of Sally skellington and Autumn Angelica, the cat.

Comic was made by pictures I took and digitized into comic art by way of a phone app.

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autumnsvoice87 · 3 months

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I was doing some intuitive painting last week. It helped me feel better after a rough therapy session. I love art 🎨. These probably aren't the best, but they are pretty still, I think. Especially the blue one.

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autumnsvoice87 · 3 months

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A SHORT PRAYER TO FREYJA

She who weeps amber, She who weeps gold. May She walk with me, as my fate unfolds.

Freyja the loving, Freyja the wise, may She bless us, every sunrise.

She who is true strength, who beauty defines. May She be with us, by our sides.

-Velvet Rose

This is my prayer but feel free to reblog it and use it in your practice!

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autumnsvoice87 · 4 months

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Freya's message.

I have been trying to work on writing a book about my life story and how my faith has helped heal some of my past traumas. The problem is I can't seem to start talking about early childhood.

I look back, and I've realized I've lived with violence my whole life and trying to write out that pain that I've been wanting to forget about is rather difficult. Who would want to read about all that?

Who would really want to know about how cruel life could be in a society that is in the business of victim blaming, shaming, and toxic positivity?

I was intending to write this book to get it published like my friend did. Thinking maybe I could help others. However, I've barely begun to be healed.

However, the parts of me I have healed I feel is important for continued healing. My recent epiphany is when I did an oracle card reading asking guidance from Freya. I've been getting a lot of mixed messages lately, and I discovered something.

It was a lesson in empowerment. I thought she wanted me to make a brisigner, (sorry if it's misspelled, will edit later), for her dedicated jewelry piece. Which she may still be wanting me to do. However, I realized something. I have a brisigner inside me. I am not sure how to explain this concept. 🤔

It's about building up personal power. In my viking oracle deck, there was a quote that hit me to my core. One of the cards I pulled was the rune uruz.

"Building personal power, developing self trust, self esteem, self care and self knowledge will go along way to securing a strong grounded and authentic sense of self. Our true selves never go away"

In norse mythology, Freya, the goddess, acquired a golden necklace made of Amber and gold. It was made by 4 dwarves and to get it, she slept with all 4 dwarves. She wanted it so bad that she'd do anything for it.

To clarify, I don't think she wants me to sleep around to find my personal power. Tried doing that in my 20's. It didn't work out so great.

I feel like the lesson here is to build up my sense of self power. The necklace she wants me to make is for me to find the courage to trust myself and that I know when enough is enough. Oddly enough, the color of her necklace aligns with the solar plexus. The energy center of personal power.

The necklace she wants me to make is a reminder to myself that my personal power is always there. Brisinger is inside me, for I feel the reason why she wanted the necklace so bad is to remind herself of the power she already had.

In another norse mythology story, when her husband went missing, she cried tears of Amber while she searched for him. That is how Amber came to exist. She made Amber by crying.

To want a beautiful golden amber necklace made from her tears, I feel like it's saying "strength is through learning from your past and knowing that you're powerful and beautiful just the way you are"

I know more than ever that I do need to write this book. Even if it's never published, I feel it is part of my overall healing journey. To tell my story and learn from it as I relive my most painful memories.

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autumnsvoice87 · 4 months

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“The relevant question in psychiatry shouldn’t be what’s wrong with you, but what happened to you.”

— Eleanor Longden

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autumnsvoice87 · 4 months

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Kitties love snuggles. ❤️

#kitty #catlover #cats #warm and snuggly #pets #my pet cat #my pets #my cats #my cat #my cat is cute #my cat is adorable #my cat <3 #animals #love my kitty #love my cat #love cats

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