#ptsd mine

[eruverse]

Someday I will write 90s Amerus fic. That day isn’t now (biggest writing block rn), but someday. Many of the 90s fics in the English fandom are too incorrect in my opinion when it comes to historical contexts — and I know why, but it is 😄 grating

#russian and american/western perspectives are divided on the 90s #and my sources are russian bc duh theyre also the biggest losers in the 90s. so ofc I study them #i find western perspectives abt the 90s to be rly underwhelming #which. well. they didnt go thru the pains personally. so maybe #but for vanya it was downright traumatizing ptsd worthy #ptsd mine #many many thoughts abt this #such as: no vanya wasnt SAD per se abt ussr dissolving. he lit had a hand in this via Yeltsin #idk i hate it when vanya is only narrowed down to a communist and nothing else #gorbachev lit adopted democratic-ish measures nearing the fall of ussr #vanya was rather open to the whole idea bruh. he embraced independence as a federation #he wasnt happy kicking giggling abt it but he embraced the change. ussr also feel much less chaotically than the empire (revolution) #so he wasnt just… some proud power hungry commie mourning lost power #didnt say that side is absent completely but it is more nuanced than that yknow #also RF prob thought things would stay the sameish power wise just that it is no longer commie (gross oversimplification just for this post) #but most ppl lack nuance in thinking 😄 #kinda giving the vibe of just ‘ussr/russia loser america winner’ #not even founded in reality #also Yeltsin was America’s bitch but I can see this isnt a popular opinion in the other side #heyyy Vanya understood what Alfred was doing and was in a way compliant

[recoverr]

you're not a monster. you're you. you're flawed, yes, but you're also incredibly alive. just human. real. capable of great things, capable of change and growth, too. don't define yourself by the inner critic lashing out at you. you're not your worst moments.

#mental health #recovery #self care #self love #positivity #reminders #healing #be kind to yourself #trauma recovery #cptsd recovery #post traumatic stress disorder #complex ptsd #childhood trauma #trauma #mine.

[dying-weeds]

#vent #mine #ventcore #my words #spilled words #traumacore #actuallytraumatized #trauma #actually ptsd #trauma vent #traumacore vent #grief #angercore #trauma art

[nyazai-osameow]

a silly little comic of a convo i had with a friend one night

#bsd #bungo stray dogs #dazai bsd #ranpo bsd #Dazai #Ranpo #souheki #comic #my art #mine #ptsd mention #i made this awhile ago but just never posted it #also got damn this is my first og post in awhile #i think. idk. time doesnt exist for me #kinda forgor this account existed until recently--

[bpdohwhatajoy]

#yeah………… #bpd #borderline personality disorder #cptsd #ptsd #trauma #traumatized #memes #not mine

[beaulesbian]

One Piece ep. 1103 || "Oh, somebody was guarding the ship."

vs. manga chapter 1071

#roronoa zoro #opgraphics #opedit #kaku #rob lucci #straw hat crew #thousand sunny #one piece #one piece ep 1103 #one piece ch 1071 #mine #gif:one piece #gif:op anime #long post #one piece spoilers #sorry using the manga translations again. i like zoro's line better in it! its just much more dramatic loll #was waiting for this part!! sorry brook it was a good addition but i like how it flows faster in the manga panels so i giffed it like tha #i love how both lucci when fighting luffy few eps earlier and now kaku seeing zoro just have ptsd from enies lobby alksdsj its so funny #op spoilers #egghead arc #egghead spoilers

[bakudekublogblog]

talking to normal people about mha is always so enlightening because someone told me they didn't like season six and i was like???? THE BIBLE??????? YOU DONT LIKE THE BIBLE??? BAKUGOU KATSUKI RISING?? THE APOLOGY??? THE CHASING AFTER HIM TO FIGHT SHIGARAKI, THE REVEAL KATSUKI HAS BEEN WORRIED ABOUT IZUKU, IZUKU'S FERAL RAGE WHEN KATSUKI IS STABBED, KATSUKI BEING THE ONE TO FIND IZUKU AND THEN THE ONE TO BRING HIM HOME??? YOU DONT ENJOY THE SACRED TEXTS?? and then i'm like oh right not everyone is a fujoshi high on that sweet, sweet bkdk yaoi

#bkdk #bakudeku #it took all of my willpower not to be like my brother in christ i'm a fujo i'm gonna like anything that bkdk appears in #i'm not here for the powerscaling or the pacing or if they should be third years #i tried to say it like “oh lol i know everything that's gonna happen hhaha i am one of the crazies who stays up for leaks” #but i wanted to be like listen man i'm really only here for the homoeroticism idc about whatever it is youre talking about #not that i dont love mha as a whole i think it's got such a fun sandbox world and cast #it just feels like someone being like omg tell me if that new restaurant is good #and i'm like what the fuck i'm in the kitchen doing cocaine with the cooks #i was a waitress i'm allowed to say this #like we are not consuming the same thing #i'm in the goddamn trenches my emotional state depends on how homoerotic mha is gonna be #i'm in the deep underbelly of bkdk hands and soulmates and yearning i dont even know what you're talking about #i like mha an annoying amount #i wanted to be like remember when i came into work skipping and singing that was because we got bkdk sunset/ptsd scene #i'm a little freak goblin dont ask me if it's good i dont care that it's good I CARE THAT ITS MINE but also fuck you its good #it's the best fuck off if you dont like it you arent worthy of it #hori this is why you should give in and make bkdk canon the fujos are the ones who really love you

[silenthillpuppy]

#stupisd evil brain can’t even forget properly #why would u forget the good things too #i hate u #die #i can’t look at my memory album cuz I’m scared I’ll get rlly upset 😀 #mine #vent edit #ventcore #trauma vent #cuz that’s probably what caused it lets b honest here #actually ptsd #nostalgiacore #divinecore #angelcore #dreamcore #weirdcore #????

[bpdshan]

it’s not fair that i have to keep my cool and not be as reactive as my body so desperately desires to be. i need to scream.

#actuallyborderline #bpd #actuallytraumatized #trauma #ptsd #mine

[etteraths]

#typography #text #words #mine #anger #angry series #trauma #traumatized #actually traumatized #ptsd #mental health #feelings #wrath

[kittykatninja321]

Jason: so yeah I’m on mood stabilizers now

Tim: for the pit madness?

Jason: 🤨 no it’s cause I’m bipolar. What the fuck is pit madness?

#I am very much team Jason is just normally mentally ill. Bipolar is just a little theory of mine but the ptsd is for SURE #In bftc he experiences what could be called a psychotic break down but since he’s the villain it’s framed as his mental illness being his #fault because he’s broken but he won’t kiss the feet of Saint Batman and accept his help. And funny enough I think Daniels is the 1st #person to use pit madness as an explanation for Jason’s behavior. And then in lost days it’s kinda hinted at #but it’s not used consistently. And because ‘pit madness’ is an inconsistent explanation I am ignoring it and deciding he’s just got #normal mental illness. As one might expect considering everything #Jason Todd #dc

[recoverr]

i hope it hurts a little less. day by day. week by week. i hope the ache in your chest eases. maybe it won't entirely, maybe it will. may the thought of feeling joy again alone be enough to keep you going, even if for a while.

#mental health #recovery #self care #self love #reminders #positivity #healing #complex ptsd #cptsd #mental heath support #mental illness #wholesome suggestion #recovery suggestion #trauma recovery #trauma survivor #mine.

[dying-weeds]

#mine #vent #trauma #words #spilled thoughts #traumacore #ventcore #actuallytraumatized #actually ptsd #traumacore vent #trauma vent #venting #my thoughts #ptsd vent

[whatiswhump]

Whumpee has memory problems.

It started with the trauma but then never went away after.

Old memories fade and jumble if not held onto tightly enough while new ones are hardly etched in most days.

Writers always say they’ll never forget certain moments but Whumpee is ashamed to realize they don’t always remember the name of their childhood bestfriend, nor the stories their dad used to tell, or what color the house was...

For Whumpee, it is an exhausting confusion. Even the trauma, most of it flies away in wisps- only hints at what happened to them. The feelings of horror remain but not even the solidity of what occurred can be a certainty.

Because they don't even have the proof that their misery is their own.

If they can't fully grasp it do they deserve to suffer it? What if they made it up? Or it wasn't as bad as their breathless night terrors told them it was?

They just don't know...

#Memory and whump #the brain protects us #refusing to lay down memories in times of duress #good and bad memories... muddle in fog #whumpee #emotional whump #trauma recovery #ptsd recovery #complex ptsd #abuse survivor #trauma #childhood trauma #whump #mine #whump prompt

[bpdohwhatajoy]

this the one lol

#cptsd #ptsd #trauma #traumatized #trauma memes #not mine

[sadieshavingsex]

wow. there is no one who can love you the way you want and need to be loved except yourself. there is no one who can undo and replace the painful upbringing you received from your parents or your God but yourself. nobody is ever going to be able to provide the level of care, understanding, and due diligence required to help you heal. nobody. nobody else can fix you and help you. you are the only person who can fully love yourself, know yourself, understand yourself. it’s you. it has to be you. nobody else can ever give you that or be that for you

#mine #relationship anxiety #sex therapy #exvangelical #religious trauma #sexually repressed #ex christian #ex fundie #purity culture #christian purity culture #bpd #fawn response #ptsd #anxious attachment #inferiority #I’m so sad but it’s so true nobody I look for out in the world will ever help me or have the answers #it’s me or bust baby