#late night reflection

[deductions-and-magic]

How our minds limit our perception of beauty…

the expanses we cannot see: of stars shining beyond our atmosphere, of atoms vibrating in our body

of colors we might never fathom, of experiences we might never encounter

of time that flows and tangles in a tapestry unknown, of which

we are just one thread

#random thoughts #late night reflection #poetry? #i wrote some words

[kaeyachi]

Kaeya had always been an efficient and hard-working individual (he had to be to support Diluc in the background as his brother rose thru the ranks after all).

He has so much free time because he completes all his work way ahead of schedule. And if he still has enough time, he adds more to the workload in secret.

And once all of that was done and over with, he makes time for everyone. He has to. He feels as if every moment has to be given to someone else.

No one knows how he does it. No one has to know.

Every mission has a dozen strategies in line, and every battle plan is made with efficiency in mind. His perfect record will not be tarnished. He can't risk it (even if it baffles others that he would willingly activate a ruin guard just to prevent a failed mission. Jean disagrees with his methods, but Kaeya can say that the results say otherwise)

He needs to be quick.

Efficient.

Perfect.

And so he comes and goes like the wind.

Kaeya values time because he knew every second counted. He can't just stand there as if he were frozen. Time could run out in an instant.

Kaeya had only been late once his entire life.

He'd rather he never be late ever again.

It took one day of being of being imperfect for everything to fall apart. On that tragic day...had he gotten there on time... then maybe...

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.

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" Come on, let's get moving, traveler. We're not frozen in place after all. " Kaeya teasingly says. He stiffles a giggle at the traveler's exhasperated sigh.

"Yeah yeah, we've heard enough of you calling us a slacker. Can't you be a bit more patient?" Paimon whines at him.

Kaeya snorts, but acquiesces, hiding the shaking of his hands at the thought of being idle.

He imagines hearing a clock ticking.

Kaeya knows that that is his own problem. He tries his hardest to relax as he waits for the traveler to finish whatever they're making on the alchemy table because, seriously, it is supposed to be a relaxing day. There's nothing major going on, and his schedule is once again empty as intended. What's the hurry?

Kaeya taps his foot on the ground as he waits. He wishes he could take his own damn advice when he tells others to relax.

#kaeyachi randoms #kaeya #kaeya alberich #this is actually shorter than it originally was can yall believe? #kaeya with anxiety truther there i said it #kaeya cant stand being IDLE #get it? get it? #you see that is a play of words in reference to when he is stood idle on our screens. he is one of the more verbally impatient characters #and we also see it reflected on his actions both in fighting and at work. he has a speed boost bonus and if he isnt teleporting he is #actually moving so fast that he seems like it. this is what i also concluded that results him in large amounts of free time that only amber #seemed to be hardpressed about. the people of mondstadt find him reliable and approachable despite the lax attitude and frequent nights at #angels share. we also had lore tidbits before of kaeya straight up saying he finished all his work and jean saying that he also did the #backlogged ones. It is actually insane that we hear him relaxing frequently and i bet its not because of the lack of horses COZ LOOK AT HOW #BUSY THE OTHER CAPTAINS ARE. Also id like to think that he is a toned down noelle and that is why jean told him to watch over her training #give us noelle and kaeya interactions pls i kinda need it tbh #to all those that reached this far into the notes i actually have more to say so get ready #if it wasnt clear the only day he was late was when crepus died. everything fell apart for him that day so i can see some obsessive need to #just keep running around and doing things as efficient as possible. I also think that he found the knights slow and inefficient in several #occasions and he is willing to put them in the line of fire just to get their hearts pumping with adrenaline (and fear lol). idk kaeya is #just so anxiety-coded. impatience-core. Mr. dont waste my time type of guy. and also wow look i found a way to make his idles become angst #silly me ehe #oh youre still here? how about i tell you that kaeya-efficiency-alberich probably knows where everyone is at any time of the day? #can we honestly please give him more free time i need more of him tbh #fun reminder that bro is working around 3-4 jobs casually lmao #i also just realized that the notes is a whole nother post on its own #AND THE ACTUAL FUNNY PART IS I CAN STILL ELABORATE MORE ON THIS LMAO #wait let me add this one tiny idea too but he thinks time is so valuable. bro lost 2 dads and lost time with his bro + he significantly #lessened his time at dawn winery for quite some time. i can see why he is extroverted now.

[high-voltage-rat]

Actually I'm still thinking about it. Another interesting way in which RvB is anti-war is the way that the Director fills the role of a villain and antagonist (especially in the Recollections trilogy, where he's a faceless villain we never see but is responsible for everything that happens).

In his memos to the Chairman, the Director emphasizes his sense of duty and obligation to the military- he becomes irate for the first time when he feels that it's being implied that he was derelict in his duty... or that the work he did out of that duty is being criticized for being against the military's interests. He also talks about Allison's death in a way I find... interesting.

"You see; I never had the chance to serve in battle. Nor did fate provide me the opportunity to sacrifice myself for humanity as it did for so many others in the Great War. Someone extremely dear to me was lost very early in my life. My mind has always plagued me with the question: If the choice had been placed in my hands, could I have saved her? [...] But, given the events of these past few weeks, I feel confident that had I been given the chance, I would have made those sacrifices myself... Had I only the chance."

The idea of sacrifice is central to the way he talks about his wife's loss, to the way he talks about the war in general. He talks of sacrifice with a sense of veneration- that it's something he aspires to do, that he longs for. There's a few ways we can interpret "I would have made those sacrifices myself"...

-That in Allison's place, he thinks he would have laid down his life too.

-That if given the chance, he would have given his life to save hers.

But most interestingly...

-That he would have sacrificed Allison's life for the continued survival of humanity, if that was what duty called for.

...And personally, I think all 3 are true.

In most war media, the Director's perspective on sacrifice is very common. Sacrifice is glorious and heroic- to die in battle is an honour- and it's the only way to ensure the group you serve survives. This is a tool of propaganda- nobody wants to go to war just for the sake of it, you have to give them a reason that the risk of dying or being permanently disabled isn't just acceptable, but desirable. Beyond that, most people don't want to do things they think are immoral- you have to convince them it's important, a necessary lesser evil. You teach them to sacrifice their morals, too.

The way they train soldiers to follow orders and to kill, is to convince them that they, and the people around them, and the people they care about, will all die if they don't. It's drilled into your head from day one. It's the way they ensure their commanding officers won't shy away from sending their men off to die. The message is constant- sacrifice is your duty, and duty ensures your people's survival.

In the Director's eyes, the damage Project Freelancer caused was his sacrifice. He never got the opportunity to sacrifice himself during the war- so he sacrificed others, as military brass do. The Freelancers- including his daughter. The countless sim troopers. Any people he considered "collateral damage" on missions. And when the opportunity to do so presented itself, he sacrificed a copy of himself- Alpha- and he sacrificed a copy of Allison- Tex.

The very thing that derailed his life- the loss of his wife- he made it happen again. He put her copy in dangerous situations, let her exist in the position of constant repeated failure, created the circumstances that would eventually lead to her death. He put their daughter in deadly situations that nearly killed her repeatedly, provided her with impossible expectations leading to self-destructive behaviours in the name of duty, implanted her with two AI knowing they could cause her permanent harm. He was confident he "would have made those sacrifices himself" because he did.

The Director is the embodiment of the military war machine. As an antagonist, he is a warning against buying into the glorification of sacrifice. He's a condemnation of the idea that one should be willing to do anything to win a war- that duty to the military is the thing that ensures survival... All the messages that are pushed to ensure recruitment and obedience of soldiers.

He's a reminder that swallowing the propaganda leads to you doing terrible things... and in the end, you're a broken man left mourning the losses that you suffered even as you repeated them, convinced that it was all necessary.

#late nights with ali #ali watches rvb #not video games #rvb #red vs blue #leonard church #the director #director rvb #idk why I'm so fixated on thinking about the anti-war interpretation of rvb right now but I'm apparently going ham #it's just so fucking. wild to me. listening to the director's messages in S6 always has me thinking 'oh man this guy ate the propaganda up' #the OPPORTUNITY to sacrifice yourself??? homedog you sound like the kid in high school who brags he's joining the army as soon as he's 18 #to be clear: a lot of my thoughts on this stem from the fact that I come from a military family. I spend a lot of time with people who... #...bought in to the military propaganda and indoctrination. I see an amplified version of their perspectives reflected in the director. #to the military man sacrifice is the highest calling. sacrifice of your life. sacrifice of your morals. sacrifice of your wellbeing. #the things the director did were all in line with that fucked-up form of sacrifice. #and that they're portrayed for the evil they are is an important protest against the war machine's messaging.

[ontosgold]

I adore sun/moon ryomina dynamic... but specifically how ryoji is the moon to makoto's sun. in the way that the moon is a reflection of the sun's light. without the sun there is so moon, but also the moon brings meaning to the sun's existence...

#augh sorry brainrotting over them and i need to put my thoughts out there somewhere #they mean soooo much to me they're like my favourite version of the sun/moon ship dynamic ever #I've been listening to colour your night A Lot while working on uni work lately and yeah. yeah... #the moon's favourite little guy... who happens to be the sun he needs to catch a glimpse of what living is like on earth #also i love so much how it doesn't reflect they're personalities like you'd typically expect it to #like the outwardly gloomy and quiet sun... and the sociable and upbeat moon.... aauuhhgh yeah they're so special to me #also I've just been internally clawing at the walls lately bcs i wanna draw ryominas SO BAD but #I've been swamped in uni work lately #so this is how im getting the thoughts out of my brain rn. otherwise i feel like I'd go insane #ryomina #ontos.text

[timothylawrence]

happy new years everyone Wyll's writer took down that dumb quote retweet

#ewbie.txt #schtewpid post to make to begin with. here's hoping he does some reflecting on his biases etc. #anyway. hope everyone had a fun NYE! and that this year treats everyone kindly!! #i was up wayyyy too late last night golly. im too old for staying up past 2

[arkiwii]

that's quite a weird feeling but sometimes I really feel guilty for shipping Saria/Silence. like, yeah, it's a super popular ship. I can't complain about not having much content, because it gets so much more than any other ship in the fandom. and many many people seem to view this ship in a negative light, or as something cringe, or just straight up hate it because of all the jokes around it and the whole divorce thing

I mean yea, "don't listen to people do whatever you want" yadayada and I know the reasons why I enjoy this ship are really valid and more interesting/deep than what people may think (as in, I really appreciate it for the character study and their development). but also I just can't help it but feel really guilty whenever someone tells me they prefer [another ship involving one of them] or that it's super popular

#rambling #just late night thoughts #well “late night” its 7 am but i barely slept it's still the night to me idc #its not aimed at anyone in particular im not saying people are wrong for not liking it I'm just reflecting how I feel personally

[revvethasmythh]

Veth and Fjord make a really entertaining duo because of the way that they butt heads and argue most of the time, but I’m also so interested in all the compelling ways that they are very similar people. Obviously, their personalities are fairly different on the surface level, but many of their underlying issues are the same, as they were formed by bizarrely similar backstories. They were both severely bullied in their childhoods, causing serious self-worth/self-esteem issues that have lasted their whole lives, and they specifically both grew up being told they were ugly and strange by the kids (and adults) around them. They then escaped those damaging environments in the best ways they could—Fjord by ending up on the Tide’s Breath, coming into his own under Vandran's guidance, and Veth by marrying Yeza and having Luc, presumably establishing her own household and getting her out of her childhood home, where her brothers were a main source of the bullying she suffered from. Both instances have them reaching for independence from those who had harmed them, struggling to step into a semblance of better futures, though neither quite manage it in its entirety.

Then tragedy to strikes them both (Sabian’s betrayal; the goblin incursion). And though the circumstances of these tragedies were quite different, they both end the same way: water in their lungs. Both of them utterly changed in the act of drowning, neither of them in control of the outcome. They both become something new and other, something more dangerous than they once were. For Fjord, this is something of a gift, an opportunity to remake himself as he searches for answers. Veth, in a roundabout way, wants the same thing he does. But she doesn't want to remake herself into something new--she wants to remake herself into what she used to be.

This renders Veth and Fjord as something of mirrors to each other. Two people who should not have so much in common, but can see those similarities in the other anyway. Their backgrounds leave them with such similar issues that it's practically inevitable that they butt heads and argue and don't get along half the time, even though they do care about each other. We're talking about two people raised on self-hatred--they probably have some mixed feelings about seeing so much of themselves in each other. And I just think the way their stories are so symmetrical really deepens both of their narratives once you zoom out enough to see the way that their lives reflect each others'

#holds them like marge's potato: ''I just think they're neat'' #anyway stream Under the Water by The Pretty Reckless it's a fucking great veth&fjord song #I mean okay but ALSO a lot fjord's story is about asking what it is to be a good man #and a lot of veth's is asking what it means to be a good woman #their stories are SUCH reflections of each others it's a little insane actually #veth brenatto #fjord #fjord stone #critical role #the mighty nein #is this well written? no. but that's what I get for trying to write so late in the night

[redrcs]

There's no aphrodisiac like loneliness

You shouldn't leave me alone

#original photographers #reflection #late night #The Whitlams #No Aphrodisiac #lamp

[blueeyesfilledwithpassion]

Waves 🌊

Similar to waves crashing into the night.

Emotions stir and onslaught the serenity within.

The feelings build just as the water collects on the shore, wave after wave.

You try to divert your thoughts, feelings and emotions but they're always there swirling about.

Just like the ocean.

Waiting for your return.

Me

#my words #self development #self reflection #personal growth #passion #connection #spilled words #spilled thoughts #waves #ocean waves #sea waves #mental awareness #deep thoughts #passionate #intimacy #desire #thoughts #emotions #feelings #late night thoughts #reflections #serenity #meditations #discipline #fortitude #my writing #creative writing #poets on tumblr #writers and poets #poetsandwriters

[p0cket-rocket]

@yuranim_ on twitter for the art

we were too close to the stars,

i never knew somebody like you,

somebody

falling just as hard

#leorio #kurapika #late night #lightning #rain #bittersweet #reflections - the neighbourhood #hxh #hxh fanart #stop this makes me cry

[lele5429]

I didn’t follow a predetermined composition when drawing for Chapter 53 of This is an Adjuration by @not-freyja.

I started by drawing Vio at the centre and then pieced various elements together as they came to mind. It’s my impression of the most memorable elements of the narrative. I can never quite make sense of the palimpsest of emotions that came to me when reading the most ambitious and complex chapter of the very work that brought me back into fandom.

At a certain point I swapped out the eye of Vaati for the eye of Ravio’s hood. The purple-on-purple conspiracy is tickling my mind. I want to know more.

Also don’t forget Ravio has one more letter for Mr. Hero in his sleeve.

It’s just not time yet.

Bravo!

#linked universe #this is an adjuration #art process #linked universe ravio #vaati #linked universe four #four swords #four swords manga #late night reflections #fiction writer appreciation

[quackle]

haiii everyone. happy new ep eve/new ep day, wherever you are in the world :] i wrote another fic! this time it has mkulia, cheating, and a campfire betrayal!

#since i fear for ep nine i figured why not make my fears come to life :3 #total drama #td spoilers #total drama spoilers #quackle writes #late night upload because i don't believe in sleep‼️ #also no proofreading because i genuinely hate reflecting on my work LOL #mkulia

[virgilisspidey]

Wait til the Two Souls Rise boys figure out that 2012 Donnie's eyes reflect light like a cat's

#tmnt 2012 #rottmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles 2012 #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt two souls #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles two souls #tmnt 2012 headcanon #i love the thought of 2012 donnie having very reflective eyes #liek the idea of him scaring the absolute shit out of someone with his eyes all white vs his eyes glowing back at them #it is funny to me #he gave 2012 raph a heart attack once when he went to grab water late at night

[thetruejerrycan]

For years I thought I was just lazy, and always when it comes to interacting over the internet I rarely ever engaged and otherwise just waited for things to come my way. Now that I'm actually taking initiative to get my life turned around, I realized this is executive dysfunction

As of this post it is 4:40 in the morning and I could have closed my laptop and went to bed very easily about six hours ago but I chose not to, and this is not the first and it's not going to be the last time I give in to whatever looks more fun to me than what needs to be done

It's a very good thing that I can observe and understand something so metaphysical in my own self but this is such a bad time to be having this realization. I am so off-and-on about everything, it's the reason I never finish anything, and here I am trying to find paying work

Inconsistency and a lack of organizational skills are really not great traits to have as an employee and here I am coming to the conclusion that I possess both of those traits while I'm trying to make a living for the first time. I may have to come to terms with this on the clock

That's if I get hired, of course. Just sigh. Every day I wake up and wish my circumstances would magically change into something better, something perfect even. But even if I had the means, executive dysfunction would just get in the way. Maybe not then but later down the line

#autism #neurodivergent #executive dysfunction #late night post #self reflection #nd #neurodivergencies

[itzzey]

Love taking pics of full moon 🌕🤎

#moonlight #full moon #moon #late night #night sky #night #good night #picture #natural #nature #love #self love #new beginnings #good vibes #positive vibes #fall vibes #blue moon #self reflection

[scoobydooisadetective]

I just finished The Chosen One. I can't believe I actually watched it so quickly. It was alright.

Now I truly believe they didn't cut Tenoch from anything. It was just that he had such a small screentime that if they showed anything else, they might've given it away. His character just had a long introduction.

I also believe they "used" (not in a bad way, but I can't find the proper word. It's really late here) him for the promo since he's probably one of the most popular/trendy actors from the show. I mean, he's even in the Netflix cover so... Yeah. Even after everything. Hopefully it's a positive sign. I'll take it as one.

Maybe I'm lost here but what I've seen in press doesn't comment Tenoch at all, and if they do they're pretty normal? about it (like, commenting other movies he has been in). I really hope it stays that way so his Google search can start to clear itself from the... Other news.

Anyway.

Tenoch was great, as usual. I'm glad we've got to see him in a new project, can't wait to see his next project.

PS: I honestly can't wait to hear what he has to say about this one. He's probably really happy and proud about the diversity in it.

#spoilers #sort of #late night thoughts #and reflections #man i miss this man so much i basically watched a whole tv show for crumbs #it was worth it #mmm migajas #te quiero tunita