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kaidiaries · 1 year

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finally playing far cry new dawn months after finishing fc5 and i noticed that whenever you take the judge/the deputy back with you to prosperity, they’ll usually stand by nick rye aka one of their most sincere and consistent allies in the far cry 5 campaign. you don’t get much else between them besides this interaction but it just made the deputy’s fate all the more tragic for me. you don’t see much evidence of resistance when you meet them at new eden as they’re guarding ethan seed’s cabin, and you have to imagine that they’ve long since passed the early stages of resignation to the role that joseph seed molded them into in that bunker after the apocalypse. but still, a glimpse of an old friend seems to stir up comfort they didn’t even realize they needed. they almost attempt to express something of that nature to nick but it all comes out incoherent so usually they’re content to stand by him. maybe it’s a relief to be, again, helping the side of hope county that they started on, if a little heartbreaking.

basically i bring the judge with me everywhere in new dawn bc they wreck my heart and i don’t care if they need to revived in 80% of the firefights we end up in, i want to keep them COMPANY

#the guilt that properly festered inside the deputy in those early days in the bunker #after what happened to the team they came to hope county with #and all the ways Joseph must’ve so easily gotten further inside their mind with literally no other buffer for the deputy to bounce off #it DEPRESSES ME #I think there was a flashback in the dlc addressing this but I can’t remember what it entailed #but i guard the judge w my life in combat encounters #and i linger in Prosperity so they can be content for a MINUTE #the judge #the deputy #far cry #far cry new dawn #far cry 5 #nick rye #fc5 #far cry deputy #video games

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a-god-in-ruins-rises · 3 months

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i am deeply concerned about decreasing birth rates for a ton of reasons.

but one of the reasons that i personally find most compelling but that no one else probably does (i never see them talk about it anyway) is the decrease of youthful vitality.

as populations age and people live longer we're going to be seeing countries just become boring and stagnant as fuck.

there aren't going to be as many new cultural/art movements and revolutionary ideas or radical visionaries. there is going to be a wasteland of creativity and cultural vigor.

and for me personally this is probably me biggest concern, aside from the possible population/society collapse and then being stuck on earth forever until we go extinct.

#also on a personal level i just find a world without children really depressing #when i was growing up my neighborhood was full of kids and the three parks within walking distance were all full of kids all the time #my neighborhood was constantly full of the shouting and laughter of children #and now those parks are empty and i rarely hear children #it depresses me

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calamitys-child · 3 months

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What's everyone's favourite flowers that aren't like. The normal ones. Like everyone's a fan of roses and sunflowers what's a more niche one. One you don't get in gift sets. Mine's sweet peas

#other good ones are crocuses and lilacs #one time I was ill and depressed and my mum brought me a lil milk bottle full of fresh cut sweet peas from her garden 💖#i like that theyre colourful and i like climbing plants and they smell amazing #posts brought to you by me going to the park on my lunch break just to see all the crocuses

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stil-lindigo · 2 months

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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

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theshadowrealmitself · 7 months

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I like to think that Vulcans who come to understand that Humans just can’t try to process emotions the same way as them, it’s just healthiest to let it out in harmless ways, decide that venting and stuff should be taken just as seriously as Vulcan’s meditation time, and will encourage the Humans around them to complain about what’s upsetting them

People who are used to aloof Vulcans who avoid Humans at all cost running into one comforting a Human

“-and then they said my cheesecake was subpar, and they didn’t even bring a dish!!!”

“The purpose of this event was that every participant brings a food item of sorts, correct?”

“Yeah!!”

“And they did not follow this rule while insulting dishes that were brought?”

“Mostly just my dish but yeah >:(“

“How illogical”

“That’s what I’m saying!!!”

#star trek #Vulcans #Humans #not based on a specific thing #but I used to know this annoying couple that were ‘family friends’#who would show up to potluck dinners and the like and would either bring nothing or bring something really just. out of left field?#like a bag of frozen chicken to a bbq #and then proceed to make sure they are first even if it was stated to let kids go first #would take HUGE amounts before anyone else got a chance to get a plate #and then make off with the leftovers again even if they were already claimed for #and it wasn’t a food insecurity thing trust me I would never speak bad about a person getting food if that was even a remote chance #the adults who raised us knew them really well and we’d been to their house a ton of times #they were just dicks #and yeah. they’d occasionally insult the food. while eating the MAJORITY of it.#it was so weird at their home they would go out of their way to get the healthiest options possible #you know the really bland tasteless expensive stuff that apparently was healthier #but then if they were visiting our house they would. eat all our unhealthy snacks.#that always pissed me off so much as a kid because we actually had a food insecurity thing going on #and also a variety of other reasons that are a bit too depressing to bring up on this post #but anyways we’d hardly ever get to have nice snacks #and this couple would just take them all??? even after we’d tell them repeatedly that it was ours and those snacks weren’t gonna be #replaced #hated that couple #if you’re wondering why they were ‘family friends’ it’s because the couple who raised us #(it feels weird to type it out like that but apparently legal guardians doesn’t fit since they never finished petitioning 💀)#liked having them around because it made them look like ‘such great Christian’s’ being nice to the people #that no one else wanted to be friends with #I always thought that was a really weird and fucked up reason to be friends with someone #this got long sorry 😭

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melxhunter · 7 months

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I feel like there are a lot of people out there who needs to hear this:

If you dropped out of school because of diagnosed (or undiagnosed) ADHD, Autism, ADD, OCD, Dyslexia, Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar disorder, psychotic disorders, schizophrenia etc… You did not fail. The education system failed you.

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missinyouiskillingme · 11 months

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cardo-de-comer · 1 month

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smiling friends! ...well at least one of them is smiling

also some process

#art #smiling friends #smiling friends fanart #smiling friends charlie #smiling friends pim #smiling friends glep #smiling friends alan #adult swim #i usually don't watch anything actually #but my fren showed this show to me and i really liked it...#and then i was having a depression episode and just binge watching it again lol

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isamajor · 9 months

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My medications are pissing me off, I can't stay in front of a screen to write... I have fewer panic attacks, of course, but my inspiration plummets and I have the impression that screens are killing my brain.

#it depresses me #i wanted to write a fic for a friend's birthday but I just can't T_T #I can't play games to change my mind

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endlessmidnights · 8 months

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I hate when people say suicide is the easy way out, they have no idea the pain you must be in to want to end your own life

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monarchisms · 1 month

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“well, maybe shane was outvoted” “this is steven’s fault” “i think ryan-” these are all grown men with dick and balls

#my siblings in christ they’re all co-founders #they all share the blame #equal opportunity roast session. they all suck here (as much as that depresses me)#watcher

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moonlightmagical · 5 months

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the “pressure is kind of my thing” quote from riz being a reply to his mother as he tries to keep a smile on his face as his mom explains their bleak financial situation and how a perfect gpa still probably won’t be enough to get into higher education in the face of a world in which knowledge is paywalled is another type of heartbreaking

#this season is making me so fucking sad and it’s only the second episode #i’m getting episode 2ed but in the most depressing way possible #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #fh #fhjy #d20 #riz gukgak

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stil-lindigo · 10 months

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