#and please stay alive

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[shittygothbitch]

:;+-

#it's about to get So Cold for the next few days #and Zoe is Not looking forwards to it #she does Not like being cold!!!! #i just. idk what i want rn #i feel like shit today (mentally) (physically I'm great rn) #i showered early enough yesterday at least that i didn't do anything dumb #I'm rly trying to get back to some type of fucking normal #but idek what that means for me anymore #is this my new normal?????? #...... fuck i hope not #if it is then.... #i guess I'll just have to learn to deal #i want to talk to the people i love but I'm so scared of taking up too much space #to any readers: i love you. you've done so great so far. I'm proud of you. I'm sorry you've had to be strong for so long. please stay safe #and please stay alive #i love you

[luyo-mi]

These 2 omg

#when deuce dropped a damn cauldron on ace I choked #like how is ace alive run #I love them so much #please tell me they stay by my side throughout the story😭 #ace trappola #deuce spade #twisted wonderland

[joyboying]

luffy and law saying "i love you" to each other truly hits so different when you remember ace and cora-san literally their most important person said "thanks for loving me" and "law i love you" before they died to them. their similar backstory when it comes to this gave it more nuances almost like a proof for second chance or a promise to each other that surely this time whatever lies ahead before them the outcome will be different.

#luffy and law saying i love you as a form of pleading; please stay alive #looking back they are always keeping each other alive like marine ford and dressrosa?????? oh my goddd #i love them so much it hurtsss #lawlu #lulaw

[ttimecode]

these are so funny to me. i love this guy

#madcom #'he has a hard time staying alive' LET ME TAKE CARE OF HIM PLEASE #i stop him from running onto oncoming traffic (i need to test myself if its safe first) (vehicular manslaughter) #he likes dancing (stare) #we can 🥺 dance together 🥺🥺 (we are both going to fuck up) #i love him so much. my big guy 💙

[marielle-heller]

The Evil Dead (1981), dir. Sam Raimi

#the evil dead #sam raimi #bruce campbell #ash williams #evil dead #horroredit #my gifs #my edit #cheryl i love you please stay alive and marry me #ooh i could be brandy's other cool aunt #cheryl PLEASE

[twingeof-cosmic-angst]

I'm laughing so hard why is ianto such a snitch

ianto: hey boss! check out this sexuality crisis!! "Interesting."

What a critter bro. MIND UR BUSINESS YOU WEIRDO‼️‼️ literally wait like a week and you'll be having some revelations of your own gayboy

#“its his job to make sure torchwood stays secret” he had not a SINGLEE reason to cc Jack in on this one #ianto is literally THE teachers pet smh (said as a ianto kinnie) i love him so much #is it torchwood that makes the strangest people alive or are people who end up joining torchwood just Like That #also please dont let this distract you from how hilarious tosh is shes my favorite person ever #“are you following this Auntie?” shes the best oh my god #torchwood #ianto jones #toshiko sato #torchwoodspoilers #rusty goes on a dw rant

[insomnya777]

i think joel smallishbeans should blast ur so gay by katy perry and sing his heart out to it i think it would fix him

#joel smallishbeans #hermitblr #trafficblr #boat boys but also not #i mean all those verses are very boat boys coded #especially the first verse #“hope you hang yourself with your h&m scarf” “you need spf45 just to stay alive” themmmm specifically joel to etho #so #yeah #this song is very him coded #joel if you see this. please kindly look away and never alert me to the fact that you saw this because i would have to crawl into a hole #for literally the rest of my life #smallishbeans #nya talks

[purpletrashcans]

something something i'm still waiting for a radio silence movie

#please god or netflix or whoever bless us with a radio silence movie please i neeeeeeeed it to stay alive #it would cure my mental illness #dont you want to cure my mental illness #i'm just gonna gaslight gatekeep girlboss my way to this movie #aled last #frances janvier #daniel jun #raine sengupta #carys last #radio silence #universe city #alice oseman #osemanverse #stuck in universe city

[potato-lord-but-not]

HOWDY IM SO SORRY IM FANGIRLING A BIT BUT I LOVE YOUR PICREW SO MUCH?????? ITS THE BEST PICREW IVE EVER SEEN ALL OF THE HAIR IS DELICIOUS AND THE BAND SHIRTS AND ARUGHSGGSGA

oh holy shit wait you also designed the will wood poster??? HOLY SHIT???? I didn't know that???

let me die for you please

YEAH BABY THATS ME THE PICREW GUY !! THE WILL WOOD GUY !! A MAN OF MANY TALENTS !!

#ask #ty for the love tho I’m glad you like the picrew <3 #please stay alive tho <3

[leaflettucesstuff]

DC is not ready to face the truth that battinson simply cannot have the traditional Bruce v. Jason angst

#Jason still comes back from the dead and does his crime lord thing #except when Bruce finds out he just🥺 #my baby is alive🥺 #I have missed you so much🥺 #battinson just goes my baby is back🥺 #I don’t care about his war crimes Gordon he is my baby🥺 #and jason would be like oh shit i’m sorry please don’t look at me like that #Jason can’t stay mad at his dad when Bruce is just so happy he is there #and really that’s all either of them want #batman #bruce wayne #battinson #batfam #jason todd #red hood #batkids

[goobiestar]

Hello everybody this is an emergency!!! Pls buy my commissions!!!!

Pls reblog if able to, im begging, this is the best I can do

So, as some of you know I am a 15 year old living in San Diego, California and prices here are impossible unless you are rich or have family to back you up. So, we don’t have that actually.

My mother quit her job awhile ago but recently got back into another job, she didn’t have a go-to job after quitting her other one which made us 6 weeks behind rent/payment, making us loose over 40k, I am not able to get a job yet so for now, i must do comms.

In just 6 days, we might loose cable, electricity, water, anything! If we dont do something, something has been eating our bank and we need over 4k and right now we have.. $1.36 in total in bank.

Hopefully, i might be able to get started on commissions, please if you’re able to, we might loose something in less than a week if we dont do anything, if you arent able to buy and rb—please just atleast try to reblog, i am panicking right now and I have no idea if this is an exaggeration or not, we NEED money!!

I am only using Venmo:

@Goobiestarstar

Please pm me here on tumblr or on discord (Goobiestar⛱#6188) if interested

(I am so sorry these prices are high, if able to i would really appreciate tipping)

#//important #PLEASE REBLOG!!! #KEEP IN MIND I AM VERY NEW TO COMMS.. SO PLEASE.. understand if i sound stressed or confused im not familiar with many things still #I WILL BE SLOW.. and i am really scared doing this because im goong head first to stay alive rn #will take paypal soon #but for now venmo #i dont think im gonna get any i think this is the end for now im sorry yall #i am just so tired and so scared its too hard to sleep #emergency commissions #art #PLEASE TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY #i am done acting like everything is okay everything is NOT okay rn #i am actually so scared rn its not fun seeing people out on the streets every day and i dont want to be with them #my dad usually exaggerates so…

[ezralva]

Official art Kusakabe Atsuya

#i forgot this official art exists #love how it's the batto sword drawing but evening moon is metaphorically behind #are we finally gonna see the complete form of evening moon sword drawing prowess in this week's update?? #please stay alive #kusakabe atsuya #atsuya kusakabe #jjk kusakabe #jujutsu kaisen

[catgirlcrisis]

its actually so crazy how the writing team was like “lets make grief and loss important themes for alisaie as a character” so in BCOB she learns about making peace with her grandfather’s death to live life on her own terms, for her own sake. she goes out herself to explore eorzea. and then emery dies while shes powerless to do anything about it. and then she almost dies believing that urianger was going to betray her and the scions. and then she watches the same tower her brother was supposed to be in get bombed not knowing if he escaped in time. and then she watches the people she loves be picked off one by one, physically present but spiritually gone, while being powerless to help them. and then she loses contact with alphinaud (again) not knowing if he’s okay. if he’s safe. and then the next time she sees him immediately its his limp body being carried by a stranger. and then she begs the warrior of light to not leave her alone. and then she watches tesleen die powerless to do anything about it. and then she watches the warrior of light nearly succumb to becoming a sin-eater, risking dooming not only the fate of the first, but the source. and then she finds the cold bodies of licinia and her sister, ultimately more victims of their despair than anything else, people who she’d been trying to help. and then s

#why do they keep DOING THIS TO HER #does anyone else obsessively think about this or am i just fucking crazy #her begging the wol to not leave her alone and then later on in ew again going to the wol and being like #'so hey things are crazy right now but please dont do some stupid self-sacrifice thing' #like basically 'dont kill yourself. stay alive please' #i just think a lot about how like #not in an infantilizing way #but the twins start the story at 16 #and are like 17-18 throughout the end #id say shb/ew #and its like. Wow you guys really are going through it huh #to be fair im also the same age learning that this is just what being 16-17-18 is like #but . jesus #NOT TO UNDERMINE ALPHINAUD EITHER #its just crazy how both of the twins are like #so committed to their goals and their ideals #and they keep being like kicked down #and in alisaies case shes like No fuck off I love everyone #and alphinaud is also like beat with the trauma stick 26787422 times #but is like 'that sucked but i still believe the world has a lot of good in it' #like FUCK YES LITTLE GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!! SCREAMS #ffxiv #endwalker spoilers #shadowbringers spoilers #idk what else to spoiler tag uhm #stormblood spoilers #in case anyone needs that. i guess

[striderl]

[Favorite Headcanon Brothers]

#Skibidi Toilet #Cameraman #Brothers/Twins #Please stay alive together till the end of the series

[mari-lair]

Akane’s backpack is super big, arguably bigger than Nene’s, so let’s talk about it.

We know why Nene’s bag is full: her plan was to stay with Hanako forever so she brought lots of things.

But Akane is just part of their rescue mission, which makes him comically overpacked.

He is the only character whose bag Aidairo put a light focus on it too, and they did it twice: First in this twitter art, where he stays up late to pack.

Then in the chibi art of vol 17, where things like the water bottle, food, and berry flavored snacks are flying as the characters fall: All items we see Akane putting in his backpack at night.

Even the fallen items we don’t see him pack, like the band-aids, the bread sticks and such, are all ‘essential’ items, which feels very Akane considering our only other reference points are Nene, who just packed games, and Teru, who packed a chopped demon hand, and yet there isn’t a single fun game or exorcist tool in the art.

But why did Akane pack so much? He has no hidden agenda like Nene, his plan was to work with the team: Once he saved Aoi he indulged enough to hug her, but was still quick to regroup, ready to get back. He even got angry at the Minamoto brothers for fighting instead of focusing on the mission.

He truly didn’t seem to have a grand personal plan, so I’m assuming it was a precaution.

Akane took this mission very serious. All the information he had is that they would go through a well, so he dressed up in complete hiking clothes, including gloves, and even brought a flashlight.

I believe he got ready for anything that could go wrong, including the worst possibility possible: That Aoi might be beyond saving. 

I cannot see any other reason why he would pack a big blanket (which is rolled up on top of his bag), and so much comfort food (him and Aoi likes raspberries).

He wants them both to live, and he will do everything he can to achieve that, but if they had proven to be too late and Akane was informed Aoi can’t come with them, he wouldn’t hesitate to stay behind with her. Because he loves Aoi more than his own life.

Abandoning her again just isn’t an option.

#aoi akane #tbhk #jshk #toilet bound hanako kun #jibaku shounen hanako kun #it fascinates me that he packed food and water and human essentials #the things we need to stay alive #when going to the far shore where people go to die and there is no need for any of it #akane and how human he is at his core despite being a clock keeper makes me insane ngl #shout out to iamhereinthebg for feeding me insanity and increasing my own again #tumblr please show it in the tags I love you #character analysis