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casboobs · 2 years

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well woke up crying for a good hour so yeah uhm it's one of those days where i really wish i didn't have to feel existential loneliness à la victoria pedretti in that interview iykyk

i don't know when or how i will be back but i do plan to be back later today

#loneliness detachment feeling weird and there is no end to this suffering #i am so tired of feeling this #I HATE IT HERE #later besties

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shubbabang · 2 years

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Shout out to everyone who is just so tired So so exhausted So very very tired so very fatigued so sleepy and tired So

#I am literally so mentally exhausted lately I feel like my brain is swelling #I feel dazed and cloudy and yet I must keep going despite being the most tired bitch in the universe

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heartoflesh · 1 month

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I want out of this pain... I want out of this mental torture that suppresses my mind. I've wanted to die. How do you medically induce amnesia?

The only thing worth going through this pain is the gain of heaven some day.

#I never thought I was someone with anxiety or depression but I am now swimming in it and I see why people take themselves out...#I won't do it... I promise I won't but I understand.#The pain is so tremendous... The pain is immense... Greater than any physical pain I have experienced...#I had a brain tumor once and had to go through brain surgery for it #but even that.... I'd experience that 10 times over again if it meant I didn't have to experience the emotional pain I have been traversing #I would willingly experience kidney stones for a third time... a FOURTH time if it meant i didnt have to experience this mental torture...#I'm suffering greatly #and i'm so distraught.. I am so caught up in despair and anguish.. I want to be at home all day praying and reading my Bible...#I want to be at peace because my mind is in disarray #I want to be away from the chaos of life because my mind is chaos rn #I don't need any more of it #tags #im trying so hard to trust God and to cling to Him #But I am literally HOLDING ON FOR DEAR LIFE like LITERALLY #i am so tired of feeling this #I am so tired of my situation #and why it had to happen in this way to me #this is quite literally a nightmare...#poetry #poem #writing #creative writing #writer #writers #writing community #writeblr #writers and poets #writerscommunity #writer community #writers on tumblr

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dead-n-cide · 10 months

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God damn it, I just want to be okay for someone other then myself.

#fuck #tired #intrusive thoughts #my heart hurts #i am so tired of feeling this #i am tired

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theswedishpajas · 1 year

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Just take it from me.

#my art stuff #super mario #Luigi #Wario #Mario #Waluigi #I don’t think I’ve ever drawn wario before #and I am scared at how well he turned out.#take the L #take the W #take the M #take the ???#meme #doodle #sketch #I absolutely love the expressions they’re making #luigi looks so tired #Wario is just proud of you #Mario doesn’t get what’s happening but acts like he made the trend #waluigi just wants to feel included but has no idea what the fuck is going on #no thoughts head empty only WAH #edit:#A friend informed me the upside down L is a real letter and is pronounced like R #and I can’t help but imagine He thinks he’s being smoothe and doing one of those sleezy purr growl things and thinking he’s being flirty #it makes the wink so much worse #I love Waluigi but god he’s so lame (affectionate)#edit 2.0:#it is pronounced like G #idk where I got R from #’’grrr“ is even worse for waluigi

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iiflywithmeii · 2 months

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i just wanna cut everyone off and rot away in my bed

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 8 months

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anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd)#because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

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ghouljams · 7 months

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You know Ghost has to be the best fucking pillow. He's a giant of a man, beefy and strong, with a nice warm layer of softness covering his muscles. He's a radiator of heat. Laying on the couch, can hardly fund one that's long enough his feet don't hang off the edge, you just want to drape yourself on top of him. Snoozing against his chest, your legs tangled with his, he drags his fingers up and down your spine soothing you deeper to sleep.

Sleep is so hard for Ghost to come by, but he's happy to be of service for you. And maybe he even finds himself dozing, his fingers trailing slower and slower until his head drops to the side, his eyes too heavy to keep open any longer. He naps on the couch with you, snoring as you raise and lower with each intake of breath into his barrel chest. Neither of you have ever been safer, neither of you less alone, neither of you have slept better than you do right now.

#cod x reader #x reader #simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley x reader #ghost x reader #ghost mw2 #ghost call of duty #ghost cod #simon riley cod #i am so fucking tired i wish my boyf was here so i could sleep on him #i wanna sleep on Ghost i bet its nice #Darling notes:#die wraps her tail around Ghost's leg to hold onto him #Love always wraps her arms around his waist when she cuddles up #Goose always pushes her face into Ghost's neck so he can feel her breathing

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rouge-the-bat · 8 months

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ribbons of genderfluid rage

#genderfluid #lesbian #feel free to use ig?#i just. am so fucking tired of this non-men bullshit #multigender

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 4 months

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Laios's three Boy Best Friends. And yes, they hate him.

#dungeon meshi #laios touden #toshiro nakamoto #chilchuck tims #kabru #BF in this context could be boyfriend or best friend. The line is so blurry.#Chilchuck less so but whatever is going on between Shuro and Laios & Kabru and Laios is giving strong:#“dude if you were a girl I'd date the hell out of you”. And from the genderswap extra's that sentiment is canon for BOTH.#This was made prior to the translation of the Laios & Kabru & Shuro restaurant date comic and honestly I am just feeling vindicated.#I don't even know what to call this dynamic other than a situationship. There is so much going on between all of them.#Even on a purely platonic reading - the miscommunication and male yearning for friendship hurt so bad.#When we got the Big Hug scene in the epilogue arc I was whooping and hollering! Pure catharsis moment!#I also don't like hugs very much so I really felt it went Shuro ('hates being touched') went in for the bear hug.#Do not get me started on the agony of 'always lying' Kabru telling the truth (I just wanted to be friends)#and 'always believes' Laios thinking it's another lie and brushing him off.#I am once again supporting dungeon meshi day by posting art. Please watch dungeon meshi.#obligatory edit because I’m tired: YES. Chilchuck cares for Laios and him admitting it was a huge part of his arc #YES he is more just fed up with him that actually hating him.#I needed a third guy to be canonically done with his ass for the THREE WEED SMOKING GIRLFRIENDS reference

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archivebottles · 5 months

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Happy birthday to the most special girl in the universe!! Wanted to try something ambitious and ended up with the biggest comic I've done to date

#signalis #ariane yeong #elster #overestimating elsters ability to paint so ignore how it looks probably way better than she could have done ok?#myart #i have nothing cool to say here i am so tired. i baked a cake from scratch lol and that took so much out of me...#im old..#im like cycling(hah) thru three diff elster designs bear with me here #elster seems like the type of person to be really good at gifts..kinda feel like u gotta be when ur on the same ship for um like. 15 years

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uncanny-tranny · 4 days

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I recently had to do a project in one of my psych classes, and man, I knew that CBT was used for every little thing, but seeing over and over, "do CBT! CBT is the best for every mental illness!" was so jarring. I'm absolutely biased because of my own experiences, but I just don't think it's as universal a treatment model as it's touted.

If you didn't benefit from CBT, it's not because you're lazy or didn't try hard enough or lacked intelligence or foresight into your own needs. Frankly, it's a therapy model that (I think) shouldn't be the only readily-accessible model and among the only therapy models covered by insurance. Some of us should not be treated in a CBT model and that's okay. It's not a sign of poor character or unreasonable demands, and if you don't think it's a model that works for you, then it's your right to express that!