#c-ptsd

[thelatestkate]

#mental health #encouragement #recovery #affirmation #reminder #cptsd #c-ptsd

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd) #because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

[lilliryth]

Fuck, man. Neurodivergent love. I’m never going to get over it. Depression love says “I will do my best to stay for you.” DID/OSDD love says “Every face of this brain is endeared to you.” Autism love says “I will do anything to reach you, to give you the understanding I never got.” BPD love says “You are a vital organ of mine, and I am one of yours.” Bipolar love says “Wherever I may go, I will come back to you.” Post-traumatic love says “I will always show you gentleness in this reckless world.” ADHD love says “I will try for you, no matter the obstacle.” Anxiety love says “You are my safe space and I am yours.” ASPD love says “I choose to, on purpose, for you.” OCD love says “I will stand guard for you.” Neurodivergent love. Neurodivergent love. Different brains in love, oh my G-d. These colors are uncountable and they are my religion.

#throw in the intersection of queerness with neurodiversity and the effect is tenfold #thoughts #society #fav #neurodivergence #mental illness #mental health #depression #autism #bpd #bipolar #ptsd #c-ptsd #adhd #anxiety #aspd #ocd #cluster-b #lgbtq+

[neuroticboyfriend]

time with complex trauma is like. i need to do everything all at once and if i don't i'm a failure, even if there's nothing to do. three months ago feels like yesterday but i can hardly remember yesterday anyway. i'm running out of time. for what? i don't know. i need everything to slow down but my life is so stagnant. i can't go to sleep because the day can't end, but i need the day to end or i'll go insane. i'm constantly worrying about the future but it feels like i have no future. i'm running out of time. for what? i don't know. time has no meaning but every second is the end of the world.

or is this just me?

#someone tell me they relate #i never see anyone talk about this kinda thing #softspoonie #cptsd #trauma #ptsd #complex ptsd #complex trauma #traumatized #actually traumatized #c-ptsd #post traumatic stress disorder #trauma victim #trauma survivor #vent

[severussnapemylove]

Things that make me murderous: Snaters who are like “why didn’t Snape just grow up and get over it”, as if c-ptsd from a lifetime of abuse at home and school doesn’t cause damage to the mind and can’t just disappear the minute you turn 18. Untreated, unhealed childhood c-ptsd in adults is a nightmare. It is hellishly hard to function in society emotional stunting and anger issues are common. And it’s made so much worse by continuously being around triggers of your trauma.

#severus snape #pro severus snape #c-ptsd #mental health #Trauma #tw trauma #tw childhood trauma #anti snaters

[maggotwithanf]

hey PTSD havers, my arch nemesis (the trailers for The Nun) are back!!! For some reason this movie series has trailers with MASSIVE SOUND SPIKES at the very end of their pre-skip cycle (so you CAN'T skip the jumpscare/loud sound spike unless you physically mute your TV/unplug your headphones/realize it's happening so you can manually mute).

reblog to save a fellow PTSD-haver from having a fucking panic attack at 9AM whilst watching youtube

#i fucking hate these #and i'm a massive horror fan so i get these all the time #i can't believe i remember the FIRST time this happened #if you use loud sound spikes to force ANYTHING in an UNSKIPPABLE AD you can burn in fucking hell #fuck you #ptsd #c-ptsd #neurodivergent psa

[recoverr]

may all of the things that lack gentleness and kindness fall away; i don't want the sharp edges of cruelty to shape life around me. i don't need tough and rough. i want people that know the tenderness of our bruises and choose not to weaponize hurt disguised as "tough love."

#recovery #mental health #self care #actually mentally ill #trauma recovery #trauma survivor #complex ptsd #c-ptsd #self love #gentleness #kindness #self worth #relationships #compassion #reminders #mine.

[mentalhealththingz]

#alt text available #c-ptsd #dank memes #memes #mental health memes #mental health #period memes #funny memes #mental health meme #mental health jokes #periods #period cramps #period pain

[system-of-a-feather]

People are allowed to hurt others.

Clickbait phrasing aside, I think it is an important thing in life to acknowledge that people - including you - are allowed to hurt people, especially if you are a survivor of trauma. It's one of the things I have to verbally restate to my fiance who relatively recently got hit with the trauma bus after repressing it for a while, but you ARE allowed to hurt people.

Of course, intentionally hurting someone is a dick move.

Of course, unintentionally hurting someone is a sucky situation for them and not a cool and fun thing

Of course, hurting someone is not the ideal but even then

You are allowed to hurt people. It is not this horrible moral failing or evil behavior or completely reprehensible thing to hurt someone. Intentionally or not, if you hurt someone, it is not something that makes you unredeemable or tainted or unlovable or a horrible person.

It is part of human nature - part of life - to every now and again make poor decisions - intentionally or not - that end up affecting another person poorly. May that person be a stranger or a close friend or what not, its just part of life experiences to run into these situations and it is OK to hurt others.

You don't need to be punished. You don't need to grovel. It's not the end of a relationship in any inherent means.

And while it is okay to hurt people, whats the MOST important thing is that when you realize you've hurt someone is to acknowledge it and - if its someone important to you - do what you can to apologize and try not to repeat the mistakes made

But everyone hurts people every now and again.

Expecting yourself and the people in your life to live their entire life without ever getting a speck of dirt on their hands (for those that struggle with analogies, "live their entire life without ever hurting anyone") is something that just won't work out in the long run.

Hurting someone is a singular action that does not have to define your life moving forward.

What does matter is how you handle and respond to it.

#alter: riku #boundaries #relationship advice #relationships #recovery #trauma #ptsd #c-ptsd #self esteem #depression #anxiety

[thelatestkate]

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#mental health #positivity #recovery #cptsd #c-ptsd #depression

[baldurs-gate-official]

Seeing Astarion and thinking

#bg3 #astarion #c-ptsd #ptsd #seriously im so happy they did such a good job #i barely ever see good ptsd rep in general #so many ptsd characters get killed off as a sort of 'happy ending' and i hate it #and the rep for CPTSD is even scarcer #ive seen characters who *should* have c-ptsd but the writers just stick them with symptoms for regular ptsd #and even when there IS rep they stay away from the difficult parts of it #the ugly parts #the anger and the hard parts of healing #people want the gentle pitiable version usually #but this kind of ptsd involves such an emphasis on control #lack of trust #emotional dysregulation #its not pretty. its rough. its...terrible #i cant describe how happy it makes me to see those parts tackled #and tackled SO well #and he can have a happy ending #even though he cant walk in the sun...in a way it makes it happier for me to see #i have so many injuries from my abuser that will never heal #but i have to live with it and accept it #astarion has to do that too #but it doesnt make him less worthy of love #it doesnt mean he isnt worthy of happiness or that its unattainable #idk im just...not used to seeing someone have the same condition as me #ive seen very few characters outside of bg3 who had ptsd #and most of them were killed off #and it was painted as a happy ending for them and it makes me sick to think thats what people see for people like me

[ace-culture-is]

C-ptsd ace culture is everyone telling you that the only reason you're ace is because of your trauma and eventually you'll "get over it."

#asexual #asexuality #ace culture #ace culture is #actually ace #anonymous #c-ptsd #maybe you’re ace because of trauma #maybe you’re not #it doesn’t make you any less valid or real

[neuroticboyfriend]

After seeing this Mental Health Pain Scale a while ago, I realized that it doesn't really work well for people whose mental wellness changes frequently (ex: people with BPD or C-PTSD, addicts), and very extremely. So, I made some tweaks for myself, and hopefully it can help others:

Here's a version with a table :) Emotional Distress Scale

0 - I feel great! This is the best I’ve felt in a long time!

1 - I’m feeling really good! There’s no distress to address.

2 - I’m feeling good. If I start feeling bothered, I can be easily distracted or cheered up.

3 - I’m okay, but there are some things bothering me. I can easily cope with them, though.

4  - I could be better. There are a few things distressing me right now. It’s not exactly easy to deal with, but I still have the skills to get through it.

5 - I’m not okay. It’s getting harder to do the things I want to do, but I can do them. My coping skills aren’t working as well anymore, but enough of them work to get me through the day. I need some support.

6 - I’m feeling bad, and it’s very hard to do the things I need or want to do. Most of my coping skills aren’t effective right now, and it’s taking a lot of energy to stay stable. I need help.

7 - I’m feeling awful. It’s hard to focus on anything but my emotions, and/or I’m avoiding things that distress me. I can’t do much but try to take care of myself, which is already hard in itself. I’m running low on, or have run out of, effective coping skills. I need a lot of help right now.

8 - I’m feeling awful, and I can’t escape it anymore. How I feel is affecting every part of my day, and I’m reaching the point where I can’t function. It’s hard to sleep, eat, socialize, etc. I need help before I can’t handle anything.

9 - This is approaching the worst I could feel. I can’t function anymore. My emotions have totally consumed me. I may be a danger to myself or others, or I may be neglecting myself. I need urgent help.

10 - This is the worst I’ve felt ever/since [last time]. I can’t care for myself at all. My emotions are so intense, I’m at imminent risk of dangerously acting on them. I need crisis support immediately.

11 - I have acted on my emotions and hurt myself or someone else. Everything else in my life is impossible to comprehend. I need medical care and/or crisis support immediately.

Note that this doesn't really work well if your positive states end up being unhealthy (ex: mania, idealization, etc.), so it's geared towards negative emotions. This is also meant to be about how you feel NOW. The other scale works best for viewing your overall state.

#softspoonie #bpd #mental health #cptsd #c-ptsd #complex ptsd #bpd awareness #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #mental health crisis #crisis support #mentally ill #severe mental illness #serious mental illness #severe depression #depression #major depressive disorder #mood swings #mentally unstable #personality disorder #cluster b #actually cluster b #npd safe #aspd safe #chronically ill #chronic illness #mental health support #mental health awareness #disabled #disability

[allsadnshit]

some excerpts from "Yang Deficiency, And Milky Residue" 🌀written in frustration and care for the bodies that carry our precious history with us for better and worse + the process of understanding illness and change in a society that doesn't take care of us

#personal #Substack #chronic illness #chronic pain #c-ptsd #endometriosis #nobody in Taipei loves me

[vizthedatum]

Self-compassion includes falling apart and being a gross mess.

And not feeling guilty or embarrassed about it at all.

#self compassion #falling apart #healing #trauma #neurodivergence #self love #ptsd #c-ptsd

[tetsunabouquet]

Oh my god, now both the Kiryu twins have votes on my Kinktober fanart poll for round 3. As a Kiryu twins supremacist, this gets me overjoyed. Not only were both so unique and complex in their own ways, but they are the best looking male characters in the series if you ask me which is always a glorious bonus. Hot privilige wins and being tormented since birth these twins each developped their personal flavor of troubled badboy with a good heart that doesn't goes to the absolute toxic levels of Kaname Kuran. How he was the second love interest still is beyond me, but it is nowhere near the crime of Vampire Knight Memories Volume 8, when apparantly that mayor had Ichiru cloned, and in the very volume they introduce him, he is killed off! Like, what the fuck?! And all Zero does is having a sad little moment before moving on after killing his twin for the 2nd time?! Once again, the way Zero's trauma is handled is awfully poor. I usually don't like diagonising characters but in Zero's case as someone with C-PTSD (technically I was diagnosed with PTSD but they had no seperate diagnostic test for C-PTSD): I can say for certain that Zero at least has regular PTSD and the way it is handled makes me want to cry out of frustration. It's so terrible, and such a missed story opportunity. Because as it currently stands, all it served was for Kaname Kuran to have a way to resurrect Yuki, by cloning. Fuck this shit, Matsuri Hino, this is a crime to all Kiryu stans and Marichiru shippers! I hate you for doing this to me.

#tetsutalk #vk #vampire knight #ichiru kiryu #zero kiryu #vampire knight memories #kiryu twins #ptsd #c-ptsd