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celestialsister0918 · 9 months
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Part II of the “Never Say Never” series is up on AO3 as of this morning! Hope you’ll give it a read and a bookmark. Excited to continue Nat and Bruce’s story.
Where on earth am I not a threat?
Having taken over the quinjet (and Bruce Banner), Hulk begins making a life for himself.
Missed our window.
Did we?
Devastated after the departure of the only man she ever loved, Natasha throws herself into training the Avengers’ new recruits and being right hand to Steve Rogers on his peacekeeping missions around the world.
As tension grows among the team and new intergalactic threats emerge, Natasha and Bruce work through the scars from their pasts in hopes of one day finding a future together.
Sequel to "A Window Not Missed"= “A Window Closed” — Rated M
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alies22 · 10 months
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A few Brutasha one shots i wrote
Almost a year
https://archiveofourown.org/works/47852755
Bruce and Natasha are completing a year of dating, she didn't think they would do anything since the relationship is still secret and she's not one to celebrate dates like that, but Bruce makes a little surprise.
They dont know we know
https://archiveofourown.org/works/47878504
Tony Stark catches Bruce and Natasha, figuring out that they were in a relationship for a long time and kept in secret. He decides to tell everyone and go spy the couple.
Tony’s worst ideia
https://archiveofourown.org/works/47900359
Everyone knows that Natasha and Bruce have an affair. Tony gets drunk and has a terrible idea to help them assume it.
It's the worst idea he ever had.
Pets, Kids, and Love
https://archiveofourown.org/works/48531652
Years after Bruce and Natasha broke up, some events and coincidences put them in each other's life once again.
Will they overcome the past and get back together? Or is it all over?
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themculibrary · 18 days
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Bruce And Natasha (Brutasha) Masterlist 2
part one
and you were my eyes (how could I see again) (ao3) - spidey_taurie (onecentwriter), the_cat_in_the_void T, 5k
Summary: He’s a mess. He’s such a mess. He loves being happy and having friends and he hates himself for loving and for breaking his rule and putting other people in danger, god, don’t you care? He’s a monster, true, but for a long time he’d hoped to keep that term on the greener side of him. But it’s not wrong—he’s risking the safety of his fr–teammates just so he can have a bit of fun, a bit of joy.
And then there’s Natasha.
God, it’s always Natasha, isn’t it?
Or; love is not something Bruce Banner ever thought he could have again.
A Simple Little Dare (ao3) - DutchRenegade G, 1k
Summary: When Nat turns out to have the lowest average that semester, her friends come up with a dare. Will she kiss the stranger in the corner of the bar reading by himself?
Beauty and the Beast (ao3) - Panda365 bruce/natasha, pepper/tony T, 47k
Summary: A few weeks after the battle of NY, the original 6 are adjusting to life at Avengers tower.
Through various missions and time off the clock, the team must put aside their differences to save others and each other from their own demons.
(This is a Bruce/Natasha centered story full of angst, comedy, and friendship. Be warned of potentially triggering topics of suicide, anxiety, and depression.)
chaos runs in the family (ao3) - magecraft G, 1k
Summary: Alexei doesn't think Bruce is worthy of dating Natasha. By his own standards he is proven very wrong.
Dancing With A Stranger (ao3) - Panda365 T, 5k
Summary: Bruce is back after the events of Ultron. Natasha has moved on...or so she thought.
flirting for geniuses (ao3) - screamlet G, 5k
Summary: Inspired by this tumblr post about Bruce and Natasha and how much more fun their dynamic could have been if the writing gave them a chance to be their horrible awkward selves.
In the Heat of the Moment (ao3) - onward_came_themeteors T, 4k
Summary: If Natasha had joined Bruce in the shower during Age of Ultron.
like there's no goodbyes (ao3) - natashasbanner M, 9k
Summary: Sometimes saying goodbye and moving on are the right thing to do. But it can also be the hardest. Bruce couldn't keep living like a ghost in the halls of the compound, but that meant leaving behind Natasha. She wasn't ready yet.
It broke his heart but it had to be done. He focused on helping people again and the last person he expected to encounter was Natasha herself.
Goodbyes were hard but for one night, they didn't have to be.
Massage Time (ao3) - Hawkeye_Beauty M, 2k
Summary: Natasha Romanov needs a massage to get all the kinks and knots out. So Clint recommends Banner. Banner is great at massages……And other things.
Mistletoe (ao3) - Panda365 T, 1k
Summary: Natasha hates raw conversations. And Bruce isn’t a mind reader.
Red For Forgiveness (ao3) - alinalotus T, 3k
Summary: When Natasha bails, Fury sends the only person capable of saving her to bring her back. "...only she doesn't hate him, not even a little bit..."
Running With It (ao3) - blue_the_unruly T, 1k
Summary: At Clint and Laura's farmhouse, Natasha opens up to Bruce about her past, and the two are finally able to find healing in each other's arms.
secret moments in a crowded room (ao3) - natashasbanner T, 1k
Summary: Natasha let Tony talk her into attending a Stark Industries fundraiser. But she didn't have to suffer alone.
Starved (ao3) - hulucthulhu E, 3k
Summary: Bruce is sure his window with Natasha has closed, but they're alone, and lonely. Maybe they can help each other though, after all, what else are friends for? Everyone needs a hug sometimes, right?
such a dork (ao3) - NumberFivesBottom T, 1k
Summary: Bruce overhears Natasha talking to Wanda about him. Their relationship blossoms through one act.
Unspoken Promises (ao3) - ourendlessaffair T, 3k
Summary: Bruce and Natasha share a bed at Clint's farmhouse and they face their feelings for each other.
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nicoline1998enilocin · 2 months
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Hi, and welcome to my AU Masterlist for ''Fifty Shades of Brutasha''. It is nice to welcome you to my little corner of Tumblr! 🤎
On this Masterlist, you will find all of the stories within this AU, including fluff, smut, and angst. Each story will have its own appropriate warnings. If you'd like to check out what else I have written, you can check my Natasha Romanoff Masterlist or Main Masterlist.
Please note that this AU occurs in the same universe as 'The Love Of My Life', though both AU's can be read separately. For now, I hope you will have fun with everything I will create in the future for their story! 🤎
I do not work with a tag list. If you want to be kept up to date when I post new fanfics, you can follow @nicoline1998enilocin-library 🤎
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| 🥀 ~ Angst | 🤎 ~ Fluff | 🔥 ~ Smut |
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Coming soon!
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hunterofartemis151 · 1 year
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Hi! Welcome to my page!
I use this page for my fanfic writing. You can find me by this name on ao3 and Wattpad, and by CrofterKing on ff.net.
These are the fandoms I will write for:
Harry Potter (any gen)
Percy Jackson, Magnus Chase
Marvel (Primarily MCU)
Hunger Games
Heartstopper
Wednesday
Sanders Sides
Ted Lasso
Our Flag Means Death
Hazbin Hotel
Dead Poets Society
What will I write? Great question! Here's a list:
Anything LGBTQ
Reader insert
Depending on the prompt, smut
ALL THE FLUFF AND ANGST YOU CAN HANDLE
Disabled characters
Age appropriate relationships (same age to five or six years between depending on younger person's age)
Time travel! This means based on the above I may write a fic between to characters if the younger person time travels back to meet with the older person back in time.
Most common AUs. Just ask!
Imagines
Blurbs
What WON'T I write? Here's my list:
Child (under age of consent) with an adult in any romantic or sexual relationship. If they're old enough to be the younger person's parent I don't write it. See above for my comfortable age range, and the one exception (time travel) to the rule.
Certain kinks. I've read a lot of shit and I... will not write stuff. If your prompt is ignored and you've put in kink specifics don't re-submit it. I may add a list here later.
Hateful content towards any specific person or community.
IF THEY'RE RELATED IT AIN'T HAPPENING
Nothing sexual with age regression
What ships I'll definitely write for:
Wolfstar
Moonstarchaser
Jily
Jegulily
Jegulus
Solangelo
Percabeth
Pernico
FierroChase
Hearthblitz
Stony
Stucky
Stonucky
Brutasha
Spideypool (NOT TOM HOLLAND RYAN REYNOLDS)
Pepperony
Steggy
Cartinelli
Katniss and Peeta
Haymitch and Effie
Charlie and Nick
Tao and Elle
Darcy and Tara
Wenclair
Any sanders sides ships except Creativitwins
Tedependent (TedTrent)
Roy, Jamie and Keeley
Keeley and Rebecca
GentleBeard / BlackBonnet
Radioapple (With immense respect to Alastor's sexuality and romantic orientation)
Dusthusker/Angelhusk
Anderperry
Reader with a character/character(s)
Maybe more, just ask!
This list may change, and I'll alter it as I get requests!
I'll post it on here with links to the other sites I write on.
Unless I get a prompt that sticks in my brain, it'll be oneshots.
I in no way endorse the actions or thoughts of JK Rowling.
Also I'm in school so that will take precedence over writing.
Cheers!
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springdandelixn · 2 years
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No one asked for this but I’m posting one regardless.
What’s your name? What can I call you?
Call me Bean or Beanie. 
Who are your muses?
A while back, I used to write for ScarletVision (Vision and Wanda). I dabbled a little on Brutasha (Bruce and Natasha) as well, but now my main OTP is Jorleesi (Jorah and Daenerys).
I now mostly write Reader fics with my muses Jorah Mormont, Vision, and Loki. 
Other characters I have written for are Steve Rogers, Thor and Tony Stark. I may add some Game of Characters soon.
What genre do you write in?
I personally prefer writing dark, angst and smut. Not so much on fluff but I don’t shy away from that either.
I also prefer writing AUs than canon. I dunno. There’s just something fascinating about taking out characters from the environment we know they came from and putting them in new ones.
Do you take requests?
I do when I announce that I do.
Can I be added to your tag list?
I don’t have one any longer but you can follow my archives blog and turn on notifications if you want updates on my stories or updates on new stories I post.
Miscellaneous Notes:
I don’t have a posting schedule. Mainly because I write very slow and I don’t want to keep your hopes up when I don’t post on a date I’ve mentioned. So, updates will come when they are ready to be released into the wild. 
TBH, ask me questions about my fics. Send me anon questions or DM me about why you want to strangle my character or why you want to cuddle them. I would love that a lot.
That is all. Thank you! 
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babovens · 4 months
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20 Questions for Fic Writers
EEEEEEE thanks for the tag @toastytoaster22!
1. How many works do you have on Ao3?
Five! All one-shots (because multi chapter scares me)
2. What’s your total Ao3 word count?
23,559 (wooo!)
3. What fandoms do you write for?
Mostly Mob Psycho 100 (at least that’s what I post).
I’ve got WIPs for Mother 3, Persona 5, Breaking Bad, The Avengers, Pokemon, Danny Phantom, and Super Mario Galaxy.
4. What are your top five fics by kudos?
Let Go (which I wrote in a day lol)
Philophobia (the fic that was free therapy)
Yoroshiku Matsuoka San (the first I posted!)
Off Button (another wrote it a day)
It Should Have Been Me (my one Mother 3 fic because that fandom is tinyyyyyyyyy haha)
5. Do you respond to comments?
YES! Or I try to anyways haha. I’m so thankful when people not only read my story and kudos it, but then take the time to WRITE A COMMENT?!?
Y’all are doing God’s work out there.
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
“It Should Have Been Me” for sure, though none of my fics have straight up “bad” endings. There’s at least a little hope in each one. But with Mother 3 having the whole “Tanetane Island” business, it’s a rough night for all the kiddos after that 🫠
“Philophobia” and “Let Go” are close seconds with hopeful endings.
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
“Yoroshiku Matsuoka-san”, the fic based off of the one and only “Issho” by Toasty! It’s still the longest fic I’ve ever written, sitting at almost 12k, and it’s still my fave I’ve posted. It’s all kinds of fluff (with only one angst scene) and ends with Reigen tucking Teru into bed and then giving him the safest, warmest hug 🥺
8. Do you get hate on fics?
LOL I’m not known enough in the fandom to get hate, and I hope I never am 🤣
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
Yes, but I keep those fics to myself. Even then, I wouldn’t consider them “smut,” and more like “graphic sex is present in this story, but it’s less about the sex and more about the emotions the characters are feeling.”
Most of them are safe ways for me to explore any type of sexual feelings I have while also sorting out what exactly it is I’m feeling. Because of this, most of them center around asexuality and kinks I’m curious about.
10. Do you write crossovers?
YEEEEES! Yes yes yes! I haven’t posted any, but I have WIPs of:
Super Mario Galaxy x Mother 3 (because Lucas needs a mom and that mom is Rosalina)
Earthbound x Mob Psycho 100 (Psychic kiddo meets psychic kiddo)
Danny Phantom x The Avengers (because I think science obsessed Danny and Bruce Banner would get along preeetty well.)
Breaking Bad x Mov Psycho 100 x The Avenegers (I’m not gonna explain this one. It’s for one of my best friend’s eyes only XD)
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not that I know of (please don’t 😢)
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
Not that I know of (please do 🤩)
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
Nah, not a fanfiction. Ngl, that sounds like a nightmare.
14. What’s your all time favorite ship?
Oh Terumob no question XD
Well, I say that, but I have The Big Three which I like all for different reasons.
Ash x Misty (Pokeshipping) for being my very first ship, and it will always have a special place in my heart. (The fluff ship, if you will.)
Bruce Banner x Natasha Romanov (Brutasha) because there is SOOOOOO much potential with these two that the MCU just threw in the garbage and I’m MAD ABOUT IT! I’m writing and drawing what I WANT TO SEEEEEEE!!! (Aka, the angst ship)
And then Terumob, which has been the source of some of the best, most heartbreaking fics I’ve ever read. Get these kids some love. (The perfect blend between angst and fluff).
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
Hmmmm not doubt I will, but it’ll take me years XD
It’s “Adrift,” which is my love letter to my favorite fairy tales, musicals, romance tropes, and just life itself.
I can’t see myself finishing it until I’m older though. Simply because the ending is supposed to represent how everything in life will work out in the end, and that there is a plan for each and every everyone of us in life…
… but I don’t know how that ends. I don’t know how my own life story ends, so how am I supposed to know how this one does?
16. What are your writing strengths?
I’m not sure if it’s my strength, but I love writing dialogue!
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
Ahdkfhsldjf The process of actually writing and not just daydreaming 🤣
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
Well, since most of my fave shows are from Japan, that would be wild to write all the dialogue in Japanese haha. I’m similar to what Toasty said, where if there isn’t a translation for the word in English, I use the Japanese word with Romaji. I also try to use Japanese Honorifics to the best of my ability.
19. First fandom you wrote for?
Super Mario Galaxy! I wrote it for a project in 5th grade lol.
20. Favorite fic you’ve written?
Hmmmmm… finished fic would be “Yoroshiku Matsuoka-san” because I love that it made so many people smile!
But my favorite WIP is both the BB X MP100 x Marvel crossover and “Adrift”. Both fics fit into the category of “I’m writing what I’ve always wanted to read.”
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reviiely · 2 years
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(Sorry this is so long. But. Angst.)
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broadwayfan92 · 2 years
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dionysus-drabbles · 2 years
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Goodbye, my love
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Pairing : Bruce Banner x gn!reader
Word count : 475
Summary : angsty oneshot where reader confronts Bruce about being in love with Natasha at a gala
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“I know you’ll never love me, Banner,” “Y/N, I…” “Stop,”
It was that singular word that silenced Bruce. Your voice trembled with so much pain, and even without looking straight on at you, he could tell from the tension in your jaw that you were gritting your teeth. He wanted to say something, he needed to say something, to show you that he cared, but he was speechless. He placed a hand on your upper arm, his thumb angled to rub over your skin through your clothes, but you flinched away at his touch, shoulders tensing.
“You can’t be sure that I don’t love you,” was all he could manage to say. “But I can be sure that you love her,” you sighed, tilting your head to the side ever so slightly as your gaze landed on the girl in question; Natasha Romanoff. From an outsider’s perspective, it would even look as though her and Bruce were dating. You just admired their friendship from the sidelines, and despite Natasha’s constant reassurance that her feelings for him were entirely platonic, you knew Bruce well enough to know that his weren’t.
Their environment was loud. It was a charity gala of some sort that Tony was hosting, and you and Bruce had attended together, though the silence between the two of you spoke volumes. “I’m sorry,” those two words were the only ones Bruce could say that made sense. “I never meant to fall in love with her,” “You loved her before you loved me, though,” you let out a sad, unaccompanied chuckle. The tears that blurred your vision threatened to spill, and you blinked fiercely in an attempt to stop them falling. “I…I did love you. I promise, I did,” there it was. Did. Not do. “When did you stop?”
It took Bruce a moment to find the courage to answer. “4 months ago,” he confessed, and you pressed your lips into a melancholy smile to stop your jaw from dropping out of sheer shock. “I’m sorry,” he repeated. “Please,” you choked out. “Don’t tell me you’re sorry. It makes it so, so much harder to move on. I’d prefer hatred, I’d even settle for apathy, but an apology implies that you still care about me, and…” your voice trailed off, not trusting another word to fall out of your mouth. You cursed yourself. You knew. You knew he loved her, yet you clung to the hope that someday, he’d settle for you, that he’d show you that love. It was a stupid dream, but it was one you wished would come true nevertheless. You rose to your feet, inhaling and smiling; a genuine smile.
“Goodbye, my love. I’m glad that I was a part of your life, even if it was only temporary,”
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One Glance
Fandom: Marvel
Shipping: Natasha Romanoff/Bruce Banner & Daughter!Reader
WC: 380
Warnings: Depression, Self harm (implied), Angsty Fluff
Note: Set around the ending of Infinity War but Bruce is not yet Professor Hulk. Take this with a grain of salt, this is mostly just venting. 
Natasha’s eyes were closed tightly, sound asleep, her husband’s arms wrapped tightly around her body. They didn’t move very much. The moonlight barely even touched their exposed skin through the window. It was dark, cold. Nothing could really make it much warmer now.
She might have been asleep, but she couldn’t find much rest. Everything was uncertain and shaking. Built on sand and not on stone. Her castle crumbled. All she wanted was a little bit of luck.
“You can’t sleep?” she heard Bruce mumble. She turned around and faced him for a moment, smiling somberly as she mumbled her answer, “No. Not really. Did I wake you?” “No.”
They just looked at each other for a moment silently. The cold moonlight didn’t help with the atmosphere. Or the cold walls just bouncing back the cold light. So cold.
Bruce soon fell asleep again. Natasha sometimes wondered how he did it. Just falling asleep like that. Her eyes roamed his face for a moment with a smile. Her dreams were full of ideas. If they could have kids, she was sure they’d have some more by now. Not that she wasn’t grateful for her adoptive daughter. No, she was incredibly grateful. They got a chance they would have otherwise not had.
She was beautiful. She might not look much like a mixture of herself and Bruce, but she was their little princess.
When Natasha heard footsteps passing her bedroom, she looked up. Her door wide open in case there was an emergency. When she saw her pass by the room, she frowned and glanced at the clock. 4:30 AM.
A heavy gulp followed by Natasha’s shaky voice rung out in her own head like an echo, “What are you doing still up? Can’t sleep, princess?” There was a moment of silence. She noticed that Bruce moved as well.
“No, but I’ll go to sleep again now.” Her voice rung out as she passed again, like a fleeting shadow. Tears already flowing down Nat’s face. She knew this wasn’t real, too good to be true.
“Nat, please. This has to stop. She’s gone.” Bruce mumbled as he pressed a soft kiss to Natasha’s head.
it had to stop. But when? And how?
She was gone. And nothing could bring her back.
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celestialsister0918 · 11 months
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Busy on TikTok again. Since I’ve decided I’m in for the long haul writing “A Window Not Missed,” I’m really diving into the Brutasha angst. They really broke each other’s hearts and had the worst timing. This little video captures it I think! Hope you like it. Follow me over on TikTok! celestialsister0918
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princenasim · 3 years
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What are your OTPs (Marvel wise)?
It’s about to be gay as fuck. Go grab a snack and a drink cuz this might be a long one 🥴
SteveTony/Stony: The main one of course. I don’t have to explain why.
Cherik: Lowkey paved the way for gay angst like Stony.
BuckyTony/Winteriron: Wasn’t hooked on it at first until I read their fics. We were robbed as usual 🙄
Stuckony: Kinda ironic considering I don’t ship Stucky but I love tf out of this. Idk 😂
SamBucky: Literally marriage material. I was hooked instantly.
RhodeyTony/Iron Husbands: Don’t really ship them as much as the others but it’s still cute nonetheless.
AgentAnt/WooLang: Jimmy Woo deserved a boyfriend. And that is Scott MF Lang. Honestly had more chemistry with Woo than Hope imo 🤷🏾‍♀️
ClintCoulson/Shield Husbands: Really wished we had a scene with those two but that’s never stopped me before.
Spideypool: Andrew Garfield Spider-Man though. Just to be clear…
ThorQuill: Two totally jacked space gods with daddy issues and dead mothers? Yeah sign me up. Also their scenes in IW/EG>>>
FrostStrange: I pray to God that the MCU would provide us with some material with my magic boys but knowing them…
HawkAnt: Shipped them as a joke at first…I don’t think it’s a joke anymore 💀 also they would be very fucking chaotic together I’m not ready
ThorBruce: Ragnorok is all I have to say.
Hulkeye: Never was a big fan of Brutasha/Clintasha so idk where the hell this came from. I don’t think they ever really had a scene together either of you don’t count the hammer scene from AoU 😭But the more I thought about it, the more adorable they came to be. Especially if Deaf!Clint was involved. Also why do I ship Clint with so many people? 😭
PowerFist: Netflix screwed me over big time. I’m still not over it. Hopefully they’ll get introduced in the MCU. Hopefully…
Fratt: Same as the previous one. Still mad. Also they kind of remind me of Butcher and Hughie from The Boys.
Halex/McSummers: The Hulkeye parallels are so insane to me. Hank deserved better than Raven tbh.
SilverCyclops: Same thing as HawkAnt. Those idiots would be so cute and so chaotic.
Yup. That’s about it.
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nicoline1998enilocin · 4 months
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Hi, and welcome to my Natasha Romanoff Masterlist. It is nice to welcome you to my little corner of Tumblr! 💙
On this Masterlist, you'll find all the one-shots and requests that include fluff, smut, and angst, but each story will have its appropriate warnings. If you'd like to check out who else I write for, you can check my Main Masterlist!
I do not work with a tag list. If you want to be kept up to date when I post new fanfics, you can follow @nicoline1998enilocin-library 💙
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Brutasha || Masterlist || COMING SOON
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|| 🥀 ~ Angst || 💙 ~ Fluff || 🔥 ~ Smut ||
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When I'm with you, I feel like I'm home || 💙 Getting married is something Natasha had not even considered until she met you and fell head over heels in love. Now, it's all she can think about; she wants nothing more than to call you her wife.
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Fifty Shades of Brutasha || 🥀 💙 🔥
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novamirmir · 3 years
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can u write a natasha x fem reader fanfic based on favorite crime by olivia rodrigo where nat cheats and distances her self from the reader and they have been dating for awhile. and nat breaks up with r after she like confronts her about it? thank you love 😁
Genre: ANGST :)
Word count: 986
Request: yes
Warnings: Cheating, couple of swearwords. Not much else I don't think. Maybe just general pain?
A/N: I had so much fun writing this. I mean it totally broke my cold dead heart but I loved this request. I did make Brucie boy kinda the bad guy in this because Brutasha hurts me. I hope this is what you were looking for anon <3
Favorite crime
Loving Natasha Romanoff was…different. It was a whirlwind of excitement, danger and passion. It was the kind of love that consumed you wholly and left you burnt, bruised and wanting more. And I loved her completely.
Know that I loved you so bad I let you treat me like that I was your willing accomplice, honey
The signs first started when date nights went from nearly every night to a few times a month. I was naïve. I assumed it was just work. She is an international spy and full-time avenger. The date nights ceased to exist a month before it happened.
And I watched as you fled the scene Doe-eyed as you buried me One heart broke, four hands bloody
The arguments started soon after. It would be over little things, things that shouldn’t even matter. I would leave a pair of dirty socks on the floor; Natasha wouldn’t put the toilet seat down. It was like a well-oiled machine the amount we would argue, throw things, cry. Well, I was the one crying. Never in front of her though. The scoffs were too much at this point.
The things I did Just so I could call you mine The things you did Well, I hope I was your favorite crime
Yet, even with all the bitter things we said to each other, we would always end up in bed, having rough sex. There was no loving touches or pillow talk. It was raw and carnal and held nothing but hurt.
You used me as an alibi I crossed my heart as you crossed the line And I defended you to all my friends
“Y/n, she can’t treat you like this.” Carol told me as we sat drinking whatever alcohol was placed in front of us.
“It’s fine. I’m sure she was just called away on an important mission.”
Carol hit the bar with her hand. “It’s your damn birthday. She’s your fucking girlfriend. Did she even tell you happy birthday?”
I didn’t answer that. I just took another shot and hoped I could erase the image of her laughing with Bruce the way I used to make her laugh.
And now, every time a siren sounds I wonder if you're around 'Cause you know that I'd do it all again
I was sent on a mission. Tony needed some chemical from some top-secret lab. It was supposed to be the key for fixing the Hulk. I wasn’t confident it would considering the amount of times the building had to be evacuated because of a failure to fix ‘code green’. It took me less than two days to get the right chemical. Less than two days for everything to go to shit.
When I entered the Avengers compound, Jarvis instructed me to go straight to the lab so Tony could start work right away.
“Y/n! Haven’t seen you around in a while. If you could drop this off at Bruce’s room then we can catch up while I work.”
I had missed Tony’s vibrance. He always had a funny story, and the silences were never awkward. It’s bittersweet to think about the damage that we do 'Cause I was going down, but I was doing it with you Yeah, everything we broke, and all the trouble that we made But I say that I hate you with a smile on my face
I wish I could say that when I opened Bruce’s door and saw a certain redhead there too, I was hurt, that my heart broke in two. But that would be a lie. I was so tired I wasn’t even shocked. I just placed the bag down and walked out. I continued walking for what felt like eternity until I reached my apartment 5 blocks away.
Oh, look what we became
That night, Natasha came over.
“Here are your things.” I passed her a box filled with little things she had left at our my place. “I don’t want my things back. Burn them for all I care.” I turned around to close the door, but she put her foot in the gap before I could.
“Let’s talk?”
“No. you know I have hard limits and cheating is one of them.”
“Listen there’s no need to be bitter about it. You just don’t fit into my life. You never could. You were a fun little distraction from my feelings for Bruce because I thought he could never be with a monster like me. And besides” She lets out a dry laugh “He’s got a real dick.”
I wanted to tell her she wasn’t a monster. But she was, just not in the way she thought. She wasn’t a monster because of all those people she had killed, or that she couldn’t have children. She was a monster for not just breaking up with me. For playing this hideous game where neither of us were really happy. Sure, I could have broken up with her but she was never around so when it came down to it, there was no one to break up with.
“Leave. I don’t ever want to see you again.”
“Well that’s going to be tough considering we work in the same place y/n” She rolled her eyes
“Not anymore.” I reached into my pocket and showed her the plane ticket that took me back to my hometown.
All the things I did Just so I could call you mine All the things you did Well, I hope I was your favorite crime
That whirlwind, the danger, the addictive taste of Natasha Romanoff was one of the best things in my life. Perhaps that’s why it completely destroyed me. Why it ruined me for any other type of love.
Your favorite crime Your favorite crime 'Cause baby, you were mine
And yet now, as I sit here looking back, I see that what I was describing wasn’t love, but lust.
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Some Bruce ships and why I like them
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ThorBruce: So pure. Absolute cinnamon rolls. Height differences, post-Hulk and post-battle H/C. Thor making happy sparks. Bruce loosening up as he has a Hulk-proof boyfriend. Being protective of each other. 2012 era flustered Bruce and flirty Thor domestic shenanigans.
Science Bros: The original OG6 ship. Two nerds sharing one braincell. Lab sex. A lot of sex in general. Angst, cuddles, they understand each other. Bruce finding a home. Lots of tech.
HulkEye: Chaotic. So chaotic. Post-Hulk Bruce appreciating Clint's awful taste in junk food. All of the meet cutes. Clint bringing out Bruce's playful side. Hulk is a puppy around Clint.
Brutasha: Smol ruffled boyf and his girlf who could snap him in half. Learning who they are, not just killing machines. Bonding over old sci-fi. Natasha likes picking him up and carrying him places.
American Pi: Super underrated ship. Two quiet gents drinking cocoa together. Bruce helping Steve adjust to modern life. So much fluff. Or it's mega kinky sex, there's no in between for some reason.
Dr Pepperony: The OT3. Bruce being the cautious new addition and getting plenty of love and reassurance. Pepper owns the one braincell of the group whilst her boys stay up late Sciencing. Lots of love and understanding. And sex.
Green Screen: Weird but adorable. JARVIS bonding with him over music choices in the lab. A shared sense of humour. Bruce helping him discover himself. An appreciation for sunset walks. JARVIS watching over him. Scientific chatter. Tech sex (obviously).
Bretty: The original ship. Surprise reunions, Betty following him in the news, lots of texting. They've both grown. Hulk is besotted with her. She befriends Jane and Helen and everyone talks Science. Nights on the tower roof stargazing.
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