#your honor i am eternally obsessed with them

[otdiaftg]

Thank you

Dear AFTG Fandom, Friends, and Family:

To say that it has been a tremendous honor would be an understatement. I am immeasurably proud of what this account has become and it’s due to every single one of you. Your passion for this account was the driving force at the end and I can’t thank this fandom enough for being a rock in the storm of all of this.

I began this account as both a love letter to a story that has consumed me since I was first introduced to it, but it was also created to prove that I could sustain something for this long and this intensely immersive. During this past year alone I have been dealt hands that were not always the best, but this account kept me above water, even through the many sleepless nights. It energized and empowered me through all of your retweets/re-blogs, likes, and comments.

I also want to highlight and thank all 40 artists that gave me permission to share their incredible work. The scenes came alive due to their immense talent and exceptional hard work. Every artist was kind and considerate, incredibly understanding and just as invested in this project as I was. I truly can’t thank them enough for their trust and support.

Thanks also need to be delivered to my wife and best friend who, without their constant push and patience, none of this would have happened. They were my first followers, my biggest fans, and were Abandoned so many times during the course of this and yet encouraged me to keep going. Maybe now we’ll finally have time to play all those games we’ve downloaded over the last year :).

I also want to thank Nora for…. so many things. For the creation of this story, for the encouragement when this account became so big YOU even saw it, and for becoming a dear friend in the process. You’ve been an inspiration throughout this in more ways than I can say.

And finally, I want to once again, thank all of YOU. The followers, the commenters, the re-posters, the veteran fans, the new fans, the obsessed fans, and the casual ones. Fandom can be such an intrinsic and beautiful thing. Pulling people together and bringing a life to these characters through our own individual experiences. We are all our own Foxes in a way, tied together with the understanding that second chances are immeasurable and the family we make are the best ones of all.

You gave this account a shot. And for that I am eternally grateful.

you were amazing.

🦊 🧡- Kelysium

#aftg #all for the game #neil josten #tkm #the kings men #the foxhole court #andrew minyard #palmetto state university #psu foxes #andreil #on this day in aftg #otdiaftg #palmetto state foxes #otdi all for the game #nora sakavic #the foxes #on this day in all for the game #kevin day #nicky hemmick #aaron minyard #coach wymack #betsy dobson #abby winfield #matt boyd #dan wilds #renee walker #allison reynolds #thank you you were amazing

[greenandhazy]

okay but it's the fact that CQL is in large part about what you would sacrifice for the people you love, and in almost every other instance in the show, that sacrifice is portrayed as, if not necessarily the Right decision, at the very least evidence of fundamental goodness. the Yunmeng trio, Wen Qing for her brother and Nie Mingjue for his (Fatal Journey counts 100%), Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji, Song Lan and Xiao Xingchen, they make difficult choices for love and that makes them Good even if it doesn't make them happy.

and then there's Jin Guangyao and Nie Huaisang. whose identities are so fundamentally wrapped up in being His Mother's Son and The Little Brother, respectively, and they are so singularly devoted to the legacy of their relative that they will continue to fight for it long after death. they will sacrifice others in a heartbeat. they will lie, they will scheme, they will cause others pain. they will endure humiliation after humiliation. they will put on a persona that makes their true selves unrecognizable even to the people who know them best. ultimately they will sacrifice their own morality, their own goodness, in a way that would probably horrify the people in whose names they make this sacrifice.

I am falling asleep and these are random disjointed thoughts but other things that drive me feral about them is:

the backstory CQL gives, Meng Yao being at the Unclean Realm for (?) a length of time, and allll the visual signifiers of a close, basically familial relationship between them

(I know fanon likes to talk about "the Nie braids" as a sect-wide thing but they ARE NOT. they are a HUAISANG AND MINGJUE AND MENG YAO THING. litcherally no other Nie disciple wears them, not even Nie Zonghui! that's so significant!)

CQL/FJ leaning hard into the suggestion of the brothers being more or less on their own, very little discussion of their parents, leaving room to lean into the idea of NMJ fulfilling a parental role as well as a brotherly one, and the parallel between him and Meng Shi being even stronger

the final flashback to Meng Yao and Meng Shi, and how it's framed to suggest that as coming from Huiasang--a cherished memory Meng Yao passed on to him?

I've seen this floated around on tumblr before, about how it's very likely that Jin Guangyao underestimated the depth of Huaisang's love for his brother, based on how his love manifests as overachieving. so that moment of revelation in the temple being not just "oh, you're the one who was behind this the whole time" but "oh, you and I have this same sickness, this same depth of feeling."

the character songs. I'm obsessed with them. the fact that Jin Guangyao's is a constant litany of questions, uncertainty, revolving around "How many people are willing to know your true face?", while the Nie brothers' song has their relationship as this unshakeable foundation, to the point that they're the only two characters represented by one vocalist. the Unclean Realm being unquestionably "a place of deep love" and the only uncertainty being "when will we see each other again?"

(...and that being answered in part by the title, the repeated use of farewell with connotations of permanence. Huaisang defying death, wanting his brother back in any form possible, while Jin Guangyao literally meets his doom because he is so concerned about earning his mother an easier time in her next life.)

mutual obsession over Nie Mingjue. Meng Yao keeping his head in his treasure room. there are lots of jokes about how LXC is left out of the get-along coffin, but can we talk about the fact that Huaisang sacrificed his moral compass, the reputation of his sect, the life of a troubled teenager, and 10+ years of his life all so he could free his brother's mutilated body from Jin Guangyao's clutches... and at the end of it all, Jin Guangyao is the one who will be with him for eternity?

in conclusion: I love them, your honor.

#nie huaisang #jin guangyao #the untamed

[inexplicifics]

Sorry but my asexual ass is obsessed with Aren and Esra and the way Esra is just *there* unquestioningly and they are a pair and there's clearly love but they need time and no one is rushing a damn thing and how through all the uncertainty he's grappling with, Aren does not have to worry about Esra or relationship statuses or eternal pressure, they just have each other.

Thinking about them makes me cry your honor.

*hands over tissues*

I am so glad they resonate with you!

#questions answered #accidental warlord au #esra of the bears #aren of the manticores

[alwaysxlarrie]

50 feel good fics for sad/bad days

alright sooo i meant to post this a while ago but life got in the way so here it finally is!! considering recent....news, maybe it was just a blessing in disguise & the universe had me wait until we really needed some feel good fics. i had a lot to recommend, but instead of making a list that was 545311 miles long, i’m gonna split it into two parts. so here’s part 1! happy (belated) valentine’s day (especially to @lemonade-soul -- hope you enjoy this now that it’s finally here lol) !!!!!

the order: alphabetical !

5 golden rules by ladidah (4k)

look our mans harry is just out here trying his best and ya know what? louis is obsessed with it and him and i am obsessed with them and this fic

you smile like the sun by softspoken (1k) 

i simply do not think i could explain how cute this fic is so i just need you to read it and then you’ll understand

a+ for effort by embro (7k) 

look me in the eye and tell me that nervous harry, protective/supportive louis, shy flirting n banter on harry’s part n innuendos and obvious flirting on louis’ part, and both of them being teachers doesn’t sound amazing to you 

all i need is oxygen (and you) by @lululawrence / lululawrence (11k)

sus writes the cutest slow burns that always leave a smile on your face. harry pining over louis & louis weaseling his way into harry’s life ??? does it get any better ???

anybody have a map? by @2tiedships2 / 2tiedships2 (13k)

the way melanie writes louis’ internal monologue but also just dialogue in general is so *french kiss*. i adore her fics!!!

ain’t that a kick in the head! by keysmashlesbian & @karasunonolibero (22k)

this is such a funny fic but it’s also so cute i could read it 3823748 times and not get bored

all your mates are here by @londonfoginacup / ladylondonderry (36k)

have you been looking for a lovely crack abo lite fic set during christmas? if so, you’ve come to the right place! here she is!

as golden as the coast by softandslow (12k)

the visualizations & descriptions & relationship dynamics written in this are so cute and pure. captain niall always wins baby !!!

back to seventeen by @ireallysawanangel / crimsontheory (26k)

listen, when i say i have a thing for harry crushing on louis before they even interact in the fic, i mean it. this is such a cute and sexy take on childhood crush to lovers. i’ve said it once & i’ll say it again -- i adore the way nicole writes their dynamic & you will too!!

baby thinking of you keeps me up at night by ballsdeepinjesus (9k)

something about the way louis goes from condescending & over it in every way in regards to harry to just like fully in it and infatuated w him soothes my soul sm. and the way harry’s just there, ready for him like ‘oh fuck yeah lets goooo’. i’m obsessed. plus it’s got thigh fucking and we love thigh fucking

breathless for an eternity by cabinbythesea (7k)

i mean ok listen this is essentially mostly just porn w some plot but!!! i adore larry’s’ dynamic and the way you can tell that they clearly have an instant connection and that they care about each other and are so supportive to each other and i just ugh. such a good fic.

charm your pants off by @evilovesyou / 4ureyesonly28 (2k)

look louis just wants to take a cute patient on a date and who can blame him???

darling, can’t you see by @tommokat / tommokat (11k)

this!! fic!! is!! so!! cute!! the way louis & harry’s relationship changes and develops throughout the fic is so heartwarming and cute and the smut at the end???? andi very pleasantly surprised me w the smut and i am so happy about it

everywhere and nowhere by @2tiedships2 / 2tiedships2 (16k)

the way harry courts louis & wins him over is so cute!!! once again, i love how mel writes out their relationships, the banter, the internal monologues, etc. would def recommend 

freeze this moment in a frame and stay like this by @rosesau / rosesau (5k)

niall truly takes one for the team in honor of harry’s infatuation constantly like the good bff he is and you know what? it lands him a no-longer-moping harry and a new bff louis. the way that as soon as they have a bridge to get to each other, larry become inseparable is truly *chef’s kiss*

found my hallelujah by @ireallysawanangel / crimsontheory (34k)

if you were wondering, no i will not shut up about this fic ever. there is some angst in this, but i’d say it’s more hurt/comfort overall than anything. right off the bat, harry & louis are enamored w each other & it’s so cute n lovely (look nicole all i’m saying is that i would pay such good money for a part 2 lemme tell u. speaking of which, i actually just realized that i think i left this comment almost word for word on the fic LMAO)

give a little sing to the singles by @londonfoginacup / ladylondonderry (31k)

look i’m obsessed with emmu’s advent calendar fics & what about it ???? the crack is just written so well while still keeping things realistic and i love seeing harry’s relationship w everyone change & develop as the story goes. not to mention niall’s plotline?? and the ending??? where’s that lady gaga gif when you need it??

gorgeous (it makes me so mad) by @artxghoul / resurrectdead (29k)

i have raved about this fic before & i will continue to rave about it!! no one can stop me!! i adore how cracky but still cute and sweet and hot and wonderful it is from the moment larry meet until the very end it’s got the best vibes. the plot twist at the end makes it 10x better too. 

i made a map of your stars by @brightbluelou / brightbluelou (5k)

not only is this a super adorable popular louis worms his way into shy harry’s life, i think it’s also a lovely fic that touches on making friends who accept you and help you feel comfortable when you’ve got anxiety. it’s such a cute lil fic and i adore it

i’ll be there by @allwaswell16 / allwaswell16 (5k)

as you may have guessed, enemies to lovers can make me a bit wary. but i trust anitra so i read this anyway (i may or may not have read this before we became friends but that is neither here nor there thank u) and i’m so glad i did!!! it’s so cute n cracky n i adore it n their relationship development

i’ve been thinking ‘bout it all day by @kingonafiftymetreroad / lsforever (7k)

she’s a slow burn (techincally. or i’m just impatient. but who’s to say honestly), but she’s so cute. i know i keep saying it about these fics, but the way larry’s dynamic is written!!!!!  larry’s friendship is so cute that you really don’t even notice until they cross the line to more than friends and you’re like ‘oh hell yeah, here we go!’

just one look (and i fell so hard) by @disgruntledkittenface / disgruntledkittenface (15k)

the way louis is just so protective & supportive of harry & their dynamic comes so easily is adorable & like watching a flower bloom. i love this fic sm

just jump by @jaerie / jaerie (9k)

louis helping harry come out of his shell is so cute n sexy at the same time ugh we love to see it

kiss from a rose by @chloehl10 / lovelarry10 (15k)

shy, anxious harry getting secret admirer notes??? louis being a cute lil soft bean with him????? i cry, i really truly do

knock knock, i love you by beautlouis (86k)

if you’re interested in ~90k words worth of fluff & larry falling in love, read this asap immediately!!!

late night talking by @kingsofeverything / kingsofeverything (53k)

lauren knows how i feel about this fic bc i gave her live commentary unprovoked, but like??? it’s so good??? i told her that i think louis is sneak dating harry and she didn’t confirm this but she didn’t deny it either, sooooo. it’s the theory i’m going with hehe. flirty louis and cautious yet yearning harry are written so well. this also appreciates the ‘hey babe’ lyric from written all over your face in the way that it was simply meant to be appreciated.

let our hearts collide by @crinkle-eyed-boo / crinkle-eyed-boo (76k)

ok!!!!! listen!!!! i’m not saying she’s not angsty, b u t !!!! this shit is so good. you’re guaranteed to leave with a smile. kim does such a good job of creating & developing louis and harry’s relationship while (sometimes to my dismay) remembering to also keep up liam & harry’s relationship for as long as it’s necessary LMAO. but it’s just such a lovely, heartwarming fic that makes any tears it might also produce so worth it

lazy days and pancakes for two by @cyantific / cyantific (4k)

ugh this fic is so cute. when i betaed it, my heart was constantly melting at the fluff and i was constantly giggling bc of the banter & humor incorporated. it’s just so sweet and gives you such a realistic vision into what their irl daily life on days off might be like i cry

midnight memories by grand buzz (2k)

i would cry if there were a sequel to this. the author does such a good job at giving you a visual of harry being endeared yet exasperated with louis and louis being unapologetically mischievous as well and i’m here for it !!

masterpiece by rainbowslovehl (11k)

ok so, like. take fetus x factor larry’s dynamic of harry quite literally chasing after louis and just hoping to impress him with every breath he takes but just like. with grown adults. that is larry’s dynamic in this fic and i am telling u, it’s so good and cute and funny and read it asap pls

may we all have a vision now and again by @gaycousinlarry / momentofclarity (4k)

the best way i can describe this fic is bittersweet, but in the best way. louis can and will make harry feel unprecedented emotions in any & every universe

make him want to sin @becomeawendybird / quickedween  (9k)

i mean, harry immediately infatuated and louis immediately being flirty? am i nothing if not predictable? there are some plot twists as well! well. for harry at least. the reader has hindsight 20/20 hehe. i’m also obsessed w the dynamic at the table.

my saddle’s waiting by realitybetterthanfiction (28k)

listen, this fic has a special place in my heart bc it’s based in chicago yes, sure bUT the character & relationship developments that take place throughout the whole thing is phenomenal. i think the subtle things in this fic really make it so captivating

nothing but a little bit of love by cabinbythesea (7k) 

this says it’s not rated but it gets quite steamyyy at some points. but i’m just a sucker for louis chasing and seducing harry and showering him with love and that’s quite literally what this is and we do absolutely love to see it

our lives, non-fiction by @indiaalphawhiskey / indiaalphawhiskey (113k)

ok look, there is actually a decent amount of angst in this, but imo it’s v much hurt/comfort as well. the way india writes smut & dirty talk??? *french kiss* but even more than that, the character development, relationship development?? how louis & marcel support each other once they find even ground??? this fic will leave you w a smile and some tears to go w it and i’m obsessed. it’s on the longer end, but so worth it (i am in fact doing a fic rec list on long fics bc it’s me and who am i if i don’t continue to make fic rec lists in 2023???)

packed lunches, sticky fingers, and accidental levitation by @londonfoginacup / ladylondonderry (10k)

this has such phenomenal writing & like idk if this was intended to be read like a crack fic but it’s got such crack fic enegy and i’m obsessed w that. it’s also such a fucking creative fic it’s actually kinda mindblowing imo

promise not to fade away by you_explode (9k)

one thing i love about this fic is that it could’ve very easily been incredibly angsty and a slow burn. but instead the author decided to have mercy on us and make it short, fluffy, and sweet. and threw in some hot smut as well. it’s just so soft and wonderful and i’m so ?? i think this is one of the first fics i ever read from this fandom & it’s never left my mind since

ready to fall by @crazyupsetter / whoknows (21k)

this is the perfect combo of crack x serious/sweet imo. who is louis if not sneaky, mischievous & a tease and who is harry if not infatuated w louis, persistent & accommodating?? a wonderful pair, we love to see it. obsessed !

stars will align for us by @2tiedships2 / 2tiedships2

since mel mostly writes omega louis (& phenomenally at that!) you better believe i savor the absolute shit out of this omega harry fic. just the way louis does his best to protect harry and weasels his way into harry’s life while he always maes sure he’s okay and that harry knows he enjoys spending time with him and i just ???? my heart melts everytime i read it 

stood up by panda_bear21 (8k)

listen i have a thing for punk louis & harry already crushing on louis before they interact during a fic (i blame the way fetus harry was so obviously obsessed w louis for this) and this fic has both of those things. there is some light angst & mentioning of closeting, but the fluff so v much outweighs it.

staring across the room by @allwaswell16 / allwaswell16 (26k)

harold thinks he can resist the charms of louis tomlinson but really ... he should know better than that. this fic is so cute, sweet, and the sequel???? my heart!!!! this fic has my heart through n through n through

‘sup by @mediawhorefics / mediawhore (6k)

i! love! larry’s! dynamic! in! this! especially when harry puts his foot in his mouth and louis chases him down and is like ‘yeah, no. we’re gonna talk, darling.’ i cry and i laugh. sidenote: louis saying ‘sit your ass down’ is everything to me

single bells ring by @absoloutenonsense / nonsensedarling (16k)

i love this non-traditional abo take !!! the way louis’ attitude changes the second he lays eyes on / talks to harry is the funniest and cutest thing. louis is so mischievous and harry is so coy and the lil plot twist at the end wins you over without a doubt

tell me what you need by @disgruntledkittenface / disgruntledkittenface (2k)

listen. we have mischievously flirting louis. we have always-puts-a-foot-in-his-mouth-but-still-manages-to-endear-louis-anyway harry. we truly do love to see it!

the first time i ever saw your face by sweetrevenge (5k)

this has such a cute plot twist that i didn’t see coming, but adored! this is essentially just harry swooning over louis & honestly?? who can blame him??? not me!!!

when did i first know? i always knew by @panye / eynap (7k) 

stephanie works hard at producing fine shiall content and i am here to recommend her lovely work to you. we’ve got larry, we’ve got ziam, we’ve got romance, we’ve got a proposal, we’ve got smut. what more could you ask for??? read it. appreciate it. love it. 

why’d you come in here looking like that? by @homosociallyyours / homosociallyyours (7k)

i’m someone who doesn’t love it when miscommunication is a plot device so i love that megan had them talk out any confusion that, let’s be honest, can very easily happen when online dating. but the cute, awkward flirting and banter is so good. i love this fic from how soft louis is with marcel at the end and the way louis asks him out as well ???? my heart !!!!

we’re watching a television with no sound by orphan account (2k)

harry and louis’ immediate connection is so sweet and cute. just like the way they’re so tactile and comfortable w each other within minutes of meeting & you can feel the fond so strongly is just *chef’s kiss* honesty. i reread this fic like monthly, if not bi-weekly.

you’ve been taking up my mind by styleandsin (10k)

fanboy!harry/famous!louis ?? on a recommended list of mine ?? who’s shocked ?? absolutely no one. i love the premise of this fic and how their relationship/dynamic changes n develops quickly but in a way that doesn’t actually feel too fast -- just like irl tbh

young hearts on the chase by @polaroidlouis / daffodilsforlou (7k)

i love the spin that this has where the omega does the courting. the way louis just .... lets harry weasel his way into louis’ daily routine is top tier. they’re so soft and fluffy w each other it’s just so cute pls read this thnak u

please remember to leave kudos & comments on any of the fics that you read and/or enjoy!!!! 

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[lurkingshan]

SHIPPER TAG GAME

Tagged by @negrowhat to give away all my fandom secrets. I came up in the US, so most of these will be Western shows. Also be aware that I'm old and been around in fandoms for decades, some of you youths might not even recognize these ships.

1. What ship were you completely obsessed with when you were a teenager, but now you don't care anymore?

Felicity and Noel. I was very into them (and very anti-Ben) when I was first watching this show at the tender age of 14, but then I rewatched it as an adult, realized Noel was a classic Nice Guy with some clear warning flags, and settled into Team Ben.

2. Which ship would you consider your first one?

Hmm maybe Elizabeth Wakefield and Todd Wilkins? I think I started reading Sweet Valley High at, like, age 8. For TV, I was a sitcom kid and I was obsessed with Dwayne Wayne and his flip-up glasses as a child. I loved him and Whitley. Damn now I want to rewatch.

3. Your first fanfic belonged to which couple?

The first I read? I am pretty sure the honor goes to Buffy and Spike.

They were the first ship I remember having that classic fanfic brainrot combo of 1) captivating me entirely with their dynamic and 2) canon leaving me unsatisfied. I lost months of my life over at Elysian Fields.

In terms of the first fanfic I wrote, the honor goes to Ian and Mickey.

I was big into Shameless for its first four seasons. But then the show went way off the rails, the fandom went with it, and I quit watching and scrubbed all my fandom activity off the internet.

4. Do you remember the first couple you saw a fanart over?

I honestly have no idea. Probably something Buffy, I was doing a lot of internet dwelling for that show.

5. Did you ever get into ship discourse?

Getting into discourse is my whole entire thing LOL. I have survived many, many ship wars and let me tell ya you haven't seen unhinged until you've been knee deep in the tags in a long-term fandom with multiple ships for the protagonist. One of the things I love about BL and nearly all Asian dramas is that we go into every show knowing who the main pairing is, so we don't have to fight about ships.

6. Did you used to have any no-otp or have it currently?

Hmm I was a big Buffy/Angel anti and that was before Spuffy was even a twinkle in my eye. I never liked that man in a romance until he got hooked up with Cordelia in his own show (but then they ruined it ugh). I was also very anti-Harry/Hermione back in the OG HP days (let characters have meaningful platonic relationships!).

7. Who were the couple in the last fanfic you read?

I've been on a Lan Wangji/Wei Wuxian kick of late.

8. Currently, do you have any OTPs?

OTPs are eternal! Like I said above, since I mostly watch Asian drama now, they're baked in. My fav of my current watches is Ten and Prem.

9. Is there any couple that, to this day, you are extremely mad about not getting together?

YES I AM STILL MAD ABOUT ROBIN AND BARNEY.

You show me two characters who are clearly uniquely compatible, you give me a brief taste of their extremely fun and non-traditional relationship, and then you break them up and stick her with the milquetoast Nice Guy protagonist in a total betrayal of your entire narrative premise? Fuck off forever, HIMYM, I will see you in hell.

10. Is there any ship you used to dislike but now you think they are kind of interesting?

Hmm nothing comes to mind. If I decided to hate a pair in the past I am pretty likely to still be hating.

11. Do you have any ship that, in the past, was considered normal but now you would be cancelled over?

I would like to see you try to cancel me!! I'll echo Eboni here and say Brian and Justin, though of course there were people who hated them because of the age gap back in ye olden times, too. Fandom spaces are mostly women and women in queer fandom spaces often struggle to account for the totally different culture and power dynamics between m/m pairings.

12. What was your favorite crack ship?

I don't really do crack ships, I am a canon pairing girlie.

13. Who is the couple you read more fanfics of?

I don't know who the ultimate winner is, but I think it's probably a neck and neck competition between Spuffy and Wangxian as my most read pairing.

14. What most of your ships usually have in common?

There's actually a lot of variety in them in terms of personalities, appearance, and tropes. I think what makes me really click into a ship is the feeling that the two people are uniquely suited to each other and well matched to go through life together.

15. What do you absolutely hate in a ship?

When I don't believe they can actually make it.

Tagging @my-rose-tinted-glasses @twig-tea @imminentinertia @shortpplfedup @stuffnonsenseandotherthings @littleragondin.

#phew i made it #tag game #shan shouts into the void

[thecatslug]

So I was wondering if you had to give your Strahd a personality trait, ideal, bond, and flaw in the style of the 5e system what would it be? The one's in 5e's Van Richten's Guide don't feel right but also don't feel fully wrong. Idk.

Intriguing question! I’m not a huge fan of the 5e I/B/F system, but here’s my best shot at the biggest ones;

Ideal: Pragmatism (Lawful Evil)

Traditional Morality can be a stumbling block to practical solutions. It is better to be ‘evil’ when necessary than to fail when it matters most.

Ideal #2: Honor Thy Word (Lawful)

You are nothing without your word. Keep the promises you make unless broken by the other party (e.g., thieves forfeiting his protection; War Against Azalin ch. 6).

Bond: I am the Land

After spending his life fighting for Barovia and literally bonding himself to the land (I, Strahd ch. 2 | WAA ch. 6), Barovia is rather important to him. Though he may not show it conventionally, he does care about the place in his own twisted way. He will go to exceedingly unhinged lengths (WAA ch. 14) to protect Barovia and its people when it is truly threatened in his eyes.

Flaw: Psychopathy Under Duress

In times of desperation or extreme stress, the emotions’ of others are no longer logically factored into decision making to the point of basically forgetting anyone has or is swayed by them.

Flaw #2: The Challenger

It takes considerable willpower to not call people out, rise to a debate (WAA ch. 6), or to a challenge of authority.

Flaw #3: Tactless

Though he tries his best, he has little to no true tact in matters of emotion or the heart.

Flaw #4: Goddamn Nerd

It is difficult to fully resist launching rambling philosophical discussion on a topic he finds intriguing (WAA ch. 6).

Flaw #5: Mental Instability

From clear and clinically delusional obsessions (e.g., Tatyana) to chronic depression and executive functioning deficits- he is hardly a picture of stability. Overall, mental illness has had likely the most detrimental impact on his behavior, decision making, and life in general- and will continue to kneecap him for, well, eternity.

{I slapped in some source notes on where I’ve drawn specific points from, but everything here is, at its core, sourced from his novels!}

For those nerdy souls that clicked on the “read more” thing, hi! Good to see y’all!

I wanted to add a quick point on how I usually notate his (and most of my NPCs’) personality traits, because why not.

Myers Briggs (MBTI) -> describes a person’s style of cognitive functioning/processing which impacts how they solve problems and see the world (Strahd is an INTJ. He is introverted, logic driven yet intuitive, and skilled in taking the bigger picture of a situation, analyzing it, and implementing often out of the box solutions based off of his analysis. INTJs tend to wax philosophical at times and have an essential drive for knowledge as well. Emotions and social graces, however, are tossed out the window.)

(Just read War Against Azalin if you’re skeptical. His crackhead plan to save Barovia and chapters of philosophical musing are evidence enough. If you think he’s an extrovert, read I, Strahd and tell me if chucking letters at people in bat form to avoid social interaction is extroverted behavior.)

Enneagram -> describes a person’s core desire and the fears they stem from (Strahd is an enneagram 8 wing 9, protecting himself though controlling his own life is his core desire, fear of being harmed or controlled by others is his core fear. However, he can reign in overt aggression when needed, opting for long term vindictiveness and more manipulative shows of dominance all while being about as extroverted as a potato- hence the 9 wing.)

Vampire: The Masquerade Roads and Paths system -> Great inspiration for describing lawful evil character “moral codes”. LE characters have their own rigid moral codes which I try to write out. VtM’s Road/Path system gives some good ideas on what those can look like, and how certain “ideals” may rate in a hierarchy of importance. (I borrow inspiration from some tenants of Road of Kings: Path of the Tyrant to notate his core values).

#hi yes I’m alive #i’m back with another essay #strahd von zarovich #curse of strahd #ravenloft #strahd #ravenloft2e #dnd npc #LFOS

[thelonelyme]

♤𝐉𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐚 𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐬♤

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𝐆𝐚𝐦𝐞: ディズニー ツイステッドワンダーランド[Twisted Wonderland]

𝐏𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐠𝐠𝐢𝐨/𝐢: Malleus Draconia, Silver (Vanrouge), Lilia Vanrouge, mc.

𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭: Malleus reacts to mc's awakening from silver's kiss. [mc x Yandere Malleus Draconia]

𝐀𝐕𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐙𝐄: FEM READER, This is the second part of "Spoiled", so if you haven't already read that, make sure you do. Yandere content, scenes of explicit torture, threats, physical and psychological violence, misogyny, explicit scenes of murder.

𝐓𝐚𝐠𝐬: @banjovamp ;)

"And tell me... How would it be possible? Tell me... Tell me if it's possible when what I've been doing for the last ten years was just trying to break that spell. Tell me, Tell me, TELL ME." His fingertips had turned white from how much pressure he was putting on your hand.

He most probably broke it already, but at this point, even a single grimace, a scream of pain, an involuntary reflex- anything would be fine.

By now you seemed more dead than alive, your skin had begun to cool down your arms, gathering the necessary heat in your chest and stomach. You hadn't eaten for years, decades, but you didn't age. Your fingers were completely frozen, if somehow you would come back, surely there would be a lot of problems in rehabilitating them; your lips once so sweet and rosy, so kissable and lovable, were now colored a pale blue, not so obvious but still quite visible.

Malleus could no longer look at that pitiful sight.

A woman as charming, beautiful, fantastic and tameable as you, reduced to a thread of death by none other than your self-proclaimed husband, the one who, by ruining your life, has filled his.

In an eternal limbo with no way out, if not by an impossible means. He should have been the one you should have loved, otherwise this would never have happened; if you hadn't turned against him nothing would have ever happened, if only you weren't so stubborn, ungrateful, ignorant and stupid, nothing would have ever happened. In fact, you would both be sitting in the gloomy castle garden as you snuggle up to watch your adorable son play with Lilia and annoy Sebek as he gently rubbed your swollen stomach of his love for him.

"Malleus, I know what you are going through, I know what an immense pain it feels to realize that all the efforts made are only in vain, I have been through it. But the only thing I can advise at the moment is not to obsess over the matter even more; you are spending more time with her than you should with your child! He is growing up with no one, and you more than anyone else should know what it feels like. You are bringing an entire kingdom to destruction as yourself, now you spend more time in this room, without letting anyone in. As much as I hate to say it, you absolutely have to take your life back in your hand and that of your people as well as that of your children, they are still small, but they are beginning to no longer believe the lies we are telling them. I am not speaking to you as an army commander, I am not speaking to you as an honored knight, but I am speaking to you as a father, make the right choice, now, your majesty, goodnight. " With this, the elder fae left the room, being followed by the two knights in the corridors of the castle to put to sleep the two kids.

To let go.

He could never let you go, your bond should have been forever, but then, why are you separated by this invisible wall?

"The spell can never be broken except by the kiss of true love."

If it wasn't him, who? Who would ever be that peasant who would have lured you into his trap? There would be thousands of possibilities, one more terrifying than the other for the dragon king.

But from that thought an idea was born, one that, however convoluted it might sound, would be able to solve both problems.

Finding a new calm, the fae cured your shattered hand bones with a twist of his wrist, then brought his face close to your sleeping one, making the two hot breaths collide with each other, and lovingly whispered that they could finally reunite once and for all.

· ─────── ·𖥸· ─────── · ·

The next day, the monarch of Briar Valley made sure he knew who it was that had captured his soulmate's heart. As much as his draconic instincts were screaming and wriggling inside of him, he resisted the temptation to slit those filthy people who were now taking turns kissing your hand.

He consoled himself knowing that he would then take care of the punishments himself that, despite having sent the order himself, that useless dust of society would have to pay for even thinking of looking at HIS lovely wife.

Unfortunately this could only have happened with the inhabitants of his kingdom, after all he would not even want to have to deal with useless and boring battles against other countries in the world of him.

He called for the occasion all his former schoolmates, from the now successful businessman Azul Ashengrotto to the now athlete Jack Howl, to figure out who that person was to take revenge.

No one will ever be able to take his wife from him, or they will be eliminated like those useless creatures that they are.

Peasants, nobles, dukes, even duchesses participated in the very unusual event. But none of them had been able to wake you from the cursed sleep.

Finally losing that thin thread of patience that was left to him, he ordered that all the people who had even dared to touch you before, were trapped in the castle, while he headed into your rooms with your body softly asleep and modeled on his strong arms. As hot as the situation was, Malleus could do nothing but soften at the tender sight of you and your children sleeping together.

Even if for just one moment, he thought that this was not the result of a spell, but that it was the result of an eternal love between him and you.

"Don't worry, my love, everything will work out soon, so we can be real family again" He said softly whispering in your ear, aware that you couldn't hear him, and tenderly kissing first your forehead, then the bridge of your nose, and finally your cheeks, before leaving the guard of your room to one of his most trusted knights.

When the young monarch was gone, young Silver entered the room.

He knew you hated him, and he hated himself too: he hated himself for never trying to stop this, he hated himself for not having stopped his master in time, and he hated himself for ignoring everything.

After all, even if ignorance is bliss, it will always lead to an inner emptiness and regret for not having known before.

"Sorry ___, sorry, please forgive me-please, please.." Silver sobbed faintly, slumping along your figure, staining the palm of your hand firmly in his hands with silver tears.

You would never have deserved all of this pain.

You never did anything. He'd rather be burned alive a thousand times over than let you go to your fate.

"Sorry.." He brought his face close to yours: his cheeks were red and wet from crying, while he sobbed slightly at every memory of your requests for help. He didn't want to do it.

He kissed you.

"You are forgiven"

"W-w-what? What ever- How?"

"I forgive you" You said hoarsely, not having used your voice for years. But for Silver, those simple words would have been heaven on earth.

As if by magic, the doors to the room swung open. Malleus entered. He knew something was wrong. He knew that brat was dealing with his wife. All those glances, even if helpful, all those words you thought he could never hear.. A fae couldn't be less if he didn't have senses amplified than a humble human.

"YOU BASTARD!" Malleus lunged at the man, biting his throat. Silver screamed. At that moment he couldn't care less of you, he finally had between his fangs the filthy traitor who had got in the way. You screamed in terror as the delicate skin on Silver's neck began to peel off his neck. If no one were to intervene instantly, he would be dead.

But neither Lilia nor Sebek did anything.

With one last yank, Malleus tore a large piece of flesh from the now dead human. Blood was everywhere and still flowing from the huge gash in his neck.

Nobody cared, as long as it wasn't too long, he could easily bring himself back to life with an ancient ritual, which, fortunately, Malleus didn't know.

"I advise you to go and change, you wished you could be in a more pleasant condition to atone for your betrayal."

Part one

Part two

Part three

Part four

#yande.re #yandere #fanfic #my fic #yandere x reader #yandere twisted wonderland #yandere malleus draconia #yandere malleus #x reader #anime #yandere malleus x reader #yandere twst #malleus x y/n #malleus x mc #silver x reader #twst silver #silver vanrouge #angst #cw: gore #yandere Malleus Draconia x reader #twst malleus #twised wonderland #disney twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #twst x reader #yandere malleus draconia x reader #malleus draconia #malleus x reader #malleus x yuu

[unholycringebirther]

OBSESSIVE IAN DUFF X GN!READER

SUMMARY: Ian’s taken a turn for the darker side, his thoughts have gotten obsessive as he convinces himself you’re the same level as a deity.

WARNING: Obsessive thoughts, unhealthy worshipping, incessant calling and texting, very brief mention of cheating, MINORS DNI.

WORD COUNT: 936

The messages and calls build up unanswered, and despite the ache in my heart I can’t help the dull sense of relief that I haven’t been blocked yet.

Not that I don’t deserve it, I think to myself bitterly as I sit down on my mattress, the cool night air from the open window brushing against my exposed skin.

Everything hurts, the lack of their smile, their presence, their texts, it eats me alive, loneliness pulling me under into a dark, thick sea until I’m clawing pathetically at them to pull me up, to pull me away from the coldness of their tears, tears caused by me.

Desperation laces my fingers as I type another text, it’s late, I should be asleep and logically, I know they probably are, but I can’t stop myself.

I know I should leave them alone, that I should respect their boundaries and stop reaching out so frequently, but something grows inside me as every day passes, something dark twisting around my heart as I fall from their good-graces.

It’s sickening, almost as nausea inducing as the bile that rises in my throat when I think about the night I spent unfaithful, I don’t know how I could’ve looked at anyone else, not when it feels like my ex-lover is the centre point of the earth, pulling everything I am towards them in a enchanting pull.

As the darkness wraps around my heart, my thoughts change, the love I have for them turning to almost worship, the voice I loved listening to late at night shifting until it was above even the song of a siren.

I’m not worthy of them, they’re a deity to this cruel, cruel world and nobody is worth their angelic light.

But as I open Amazon in my browser, I can’t help but attempt over and over to prove that I’m their best follower, the priest that will worship in their temple ‘till my orange hair turns grey and dusty.

Every god needs offerings, and I’ll offer my heart, my soul, everything I am to them, they own my being and I’ll love every second they take me back, I’ll beg for it, take me please, I’m yours.

But right now, the materialistic is all I can give, despite their eternal perfection so obvious to me now, everybody else misses it, and they’ve been rejected from jobs aside from that yogurt place they despise.

I know I shouldn’t be mad at the world, I’ve been so blinded by their light that I missed it completely, but I can’t help the resentment that builds in me at the idea of anyone mistreating them, of rejecting them anything they could ever desire.

But twistedly, a sick gladness washes over me, that means I can provide, to prove im worthy of forgiveness, that im worth the trouble, that I can return to their temple to praise them like they rightfully deserve.

I know what they want, and I scroll through amazon, clicking constantly on things I know they’d love, adding them to my cart and watching the price tag build, they could never afford this themselves, but that’s alright, i’m here for that.

Finally, when the quality of the items starts declining down the list I click the cart, ready to checkout for the next few hours at least, typing in our apartments address.

I stare at my phone, silence booming loudly throughout the apartment as I think, this isn’t enough, not nearly enough, I’m not sure anything ever will.

But that doesn’t mean I can’t try, or won’t, I stand suddenly, moving to my window to gaze down at the campus grounds, part of me regrets coming here, I should’ve stayed in our shared home, happy and warm, where I had the honor of belonging to them.

But I’m here, and that’s opened new doors for a better life for us, I’ve received a offer, one that I’ve mulled over for weeks, wondering where it would slot in to the life I’ll build for me and my god.

I’ve been sent a email about one of the auditions I’ve tried for, a high budget reboot of an old show that the name escapes from me, starring as the colourful main character.

Wealth and fame was promised as part of the deal, it was tempting for the wrong reasons.

I wasn’t special or important in any way, there’s nothing about me that stands out from the crowd, I don’t have looks or anything, my mothers made sure to remind me of that.

But with fame, with my name out there, I could become somebody, even if that somebody was a clown, it was better than staying the nobody that desperately claws at the legs of a higher being, begging for another chance after I so foolishly threw my first one away.

And with wealth, I could buy a better home for us, gift them only the best clothes, food, and luxuries that exists in this world, I would give and give until maybe, I could prove I’m worthy of their gaze on me for even a second.

Yeah, that could work out nicely for the both of us, but I can’t exactly email them back this late at night, so instead, I pull up my gods call ID, I’ve been sent to voicemail hundreds of times, but it was worth it on the off chance they’d pick up, and to hear their siren-like voice message over and over.

I can’t buy them a temple for worship just yet, but I can still prove my dedication with yet another call.

#sunny day jack #somethings wrong with sunny day jack #sdj #swwsdj #sdj ian #ian duff #sdj ian duff

[eldritch-spouse]

Okay, this is my last resort!

I'll just gonna give Mother a cold shoulder till the end of time! Total ignore. Zero reaction. Let her know she's nobody to be until she let me go.

She must give up at some point. I am twice more stubborn than all her power

The thing with being a god-figure's obsession is that there is never a happy ending for you. One way or another, they get what they want, because you have no means to rebel. They're plucked off you one by one until all you're left with is the option to submit.

In other circumstances, you can fool yourself into thinking there's a chance, that you'll make it, that they'll lose interest. But not with a god. Not with a siadar. Not with Miara.

Have your tantrums, humanity has always been so fond of them. She can watch you have your fits for a small eternity. Your will is only a human will, this is hardly upsetting to Miara. One way or another, you will come around.

She's being incredibly gentle, and you fail to realize what an honor it is that you're being given the chance to grieve your past life, the chance to grow into your new role organically. But that's fine, Mother doesn't expect you to grasp that yet. You are only acting out because you don't know better. But someday you will.

If you expect violence and pain from the creator merely for ignoring her, then you'd be mistaken. She'll give you time, but never freedom.

#Mother Miara

[rae-gar-targaryen]

NO BECAUSE MY SISTER AND I JUST STARTED WATCHING TITANS AND WE'RE ALREADY ON THE 3RD SEASON JTS SO ADDICTING

However, I have not been able to get out of my head the thought of Dick with a Selina Kyle type of vigilante. Not really bad, but she's not really that good as well.

Like every time they meet, it's a bit of flirting on her part while he tries to slow it down and remain stoic. She once moved so quickly, she left a lipstick stain on his cheek and caught him off guard. God I just know you would write something like this so well!!!!

Oooooh imagine them being enemies as vigilantes but lovers in real life. Sort of a Mr and Mrs Smith situation maybe.

OH GOD THIS IS THE MOST PERFECT IDEA IM TRULY GETTING SUCKED IN TO THIS SHOW. I LOVE A BIT OF WILL-THEY-WONT-THEY... high tension, Mr. and Mrs. Smith situation. I am so HONORED you think I would write it well. Maybe I'll add something like that to the list as soon as I get caught up on the show???? My darling @nymphonet is to blame for this obsession.

Here's what just popped in my brain --

"You're exhausting, Boy Wonder," you rolled your eyes exaggeratedly, tracking his movement as he circles you.

And his eyes never leave you, either -- but, in fairness, they never do. Dick Grayson is loath to admit it, but there's just something commanding about your presence. Magnetic, mysterious.

His lips quirked as he ceased his pacing, stopping in front of you and crossing his arms, mimicking you as he does so.

"Oh, I can wear you out, if that's what you're after."

Your heels clacked as you sauntered toward him, eyes glinting from behind your domino mask, an obvious up-and-down over his form as you stop in front of your quarry, feeling the dynamic between the two of you shift once more -- your eternal game. You prop yourself up onto your toes, flexing your fingertips like claws over the chest of his suit, as though you could feel the warmth of him through it -- feel his racing heart through the center of him. Anything to give him away to you.

You swarm his space before speaking again, your lips brushing his, a hairswidth apart, as they part, the purr of your voice like silk to his ears -- sinful, syrupy, a siren, as you whisper,

"Promises, promises, brown-eyes. But a girl can dream."

You trail your lips along his cheek, leaving a smear of crimson up the peak of his cheekbone, a strike of ardor that he would spend the rest of his night scrubbing from his skin -- but knowing the feeling of your lips would linger long after.

His eyes flutter shut at the feeling, only to snap open at the feel of you departing from him, the retreating clack of your heels ringing in his traitorous ears as you toss over your shoulder --

"Til next time, handsome."

#lovely anons #this was fun #am i really gonna end up stuck on this dude?? #he had big brown eyes so PROBABLY #dick grayson x reader #dick grayson blurb #nightwing x reader #titans blurb

[ellaspore]

So was tagged by @akkrosu to share my 9 Favorite Queer Shows I may be a little late but here they are

1. I told sunset about you

Coming of age story, denial of feelings cinematography and chemistry to die for. It will forever have a place in my heart. I can't explain exactly what it means to me

2. Not me

I am obsessed with the social and political commentary in this series, we reached levels never seen before and which I don't think we will ever reach again

3. The Eighth Sense

I felt like The Eight Sense offered me therapy and a way to relieve all my dark thoughts in a safer manner. It was like being seen and rearranged and told you can do better and become better and there will always be someone who understands, even after your mistakes even after you feel like you lost your way. You can still have hope and believe, you can always try.

4. Semantic Error

It's just iconic, all the scenes, the acting. I can't ever get away from it. The Hyung, the Yaya time, God I love enemies to lovers.

5. Sense8

It was the most Queer Show I ever saw. That's it. No explanation, everyone go watch it and be amazed.

6. Moonlight Chicken

It's a tale about people and learning to love and family. It was beautifully woven and written.

7. My School President

I think what makes MSP so very comforting is how they managed to interwine together the story .Because it's just not a love story, it's about chasing your dreams and not stopping even when you fail, it's about friendship and overcoming difficulties together, it's about family and how to care for them, it's about how important support is, how important understanding and unconditional support can be. How much having someone who has your back can change everything. And waiting and love and respect. Because I feel like this show is full of all kinds of LOVE : family, friendship and dreams

8. Word of Honor

Well villains having lost the will to live having a reason to again? Devotion? Self-sacrifice? Found family? That's the best kind of tale for me

9. 3 Will Be Free

Polyamory, transgender representation, strong-willed women. I will love it for eternity.

Honorable mentions

Yuri on Ice. That's the best sports anime for me. The show I need when anxiety seems insurmountable and I can't see my way out

Be My Favorite. Still ongoing but it already has a place in my heart. Time traveling shenanigans and learning yourself and accept who you are and to be brave and to love

Beyond Evil. Well on paper it is a "bromance" but I have never yelled "Babygirl you wanna fuck him so bad it makes you look stupid" at a show more.

Tagging @lutawolf and all @coconuts-mafia . Easier this way 🤣🤣🤣

#bl tag game

[writingforatwistedworld]

Dear Lilia,

Why haven’t I been getting your cards? Or Silver’s? Are you hiding him from me?? I’m a good person, I swear… I just want to get to know you two ;-; I swear I won’t corrupt your son!

Reader already met the twst characters

I'm sorry but I had to include this:

Idk if they want their acc name out there so I took it out.

Self-aware au

I do not take any responsibility for you reading this no matter which age group you are from!

WARNINGS: Yandere themes, blood, war, obsessive behavior, murder, mutilation, religion

Lilia Vanrouge-Neverending faith

Turning to your right you were greeted with the sight of Lilia. The fae was your desk neighbor in history and a huge help when you didn't know something. Which was not so rare but who could be angry about that? Tapping his shoulder you git his attention. Raising a eyebrow in a questioning manner he waited for you to tell him what you needed. Whispering to him you asked for a eraser. Nodding the immortal grabbed into his bag to take it out only to pause and dive back into it. After a minute he finally came up again with a expression which clearly fell into the I-almost-thought-I-forgot-it category. Handing you an eraser and an envelope he gave you his signature smile before focusing once more on the lesson. Starting at the envelope you didn't even notice the lesson progressing further and further. Hearing then bell ring you were ripped out of your thoughts, wondering just what was written in there. Thanking Lilia you gave him his eraser back without even using it before putting the letter into your own bag. You could read it once school was over.

Dear overseer of the world,

this humble servant if yours was overjoyed after receiving your letter. What a honor! There has never been a moment in my life in which I felt more joy. Pardon my rudeness but it confused me. What exactly do you mean by “cards”? My son and I would never dare to deny you something so tell me, what is it that you wish from us? Whatever it is I will rip it to shreds. I haven't used my sword in a long while but trust me when I tell you that I am not afraid to create a red river in your name. Who dared to question your authority?

My dearest God, whatever you want, you shall have it. Please don't ever think that I would not trust you. My son and I are devoted followers of you who would do anything for you. Since he was a small child I trained him in the arts of the sword. He is at your disposal and ready to follow you into any battle you might face. God is justice, I believe in that. As such, lead us onto the right path. Let us dispose of the sinners that dared to take away your “cards”. Lead us into the battle. We are ready for it.

And, your holiness, I do trust you with my son. I could never imagine you doing something bad to him. As such, I haven't hid him from you. I still don't understand completely what you wish from us but I will have a word with him.

This reminds me of the time we went up against that foolish king. He dared to put himself above our beloved God. Dared to question your reign. Dared to challenge you. Back then even the humans were unhappy about his plans but they didn't dare to rise against him. I can understand them for a bit. I also would be intimidated if it were me alone against an army. However, this makes his actions even more disgusting. The dear humans who loved you with every bit of their being were cornered until they had no choice but to say that they were on his side. I should have cut his tongue out back then. If I would have done that then maybe his words wouldn't have been able to hurt so many.

So, whoever hinders you from getting our “cards” will be an enemy in our eyes as well. Let us sharpen our steel for you. Your will is eternal. Your will is justice. Your will is balance. But most of all, your will is absolute. Come to us whenever you wish to. Then we shall discuss who our enemy is and plan a strategy against them.

Forever yours,

Lilia Vanrouge

#yandere twst x reader #yandere twisted wonderland #yandere twst #yandere twisted wonderland x reader #self aware au #yandere lilia x reader #yandere lilia vanrouge #tw: yandere #tw: blood #tw: war #tw: obsessive behavior #tw: murder #tw: mutilation #tw: religion

[heretherebedork]

I’m bored at work so have some questions. Am I kind of cruel? Maybe. Good luck XP

Top 5 Vietnamese BL

Favorite lapsits?

Not including KanThua, who is the best side couple?

Is there a show that you prefer the main couple to the side couple?

If you had to rewatch a show right now, what would you watch? (I mean not Tossara though)

Top 5 bromances you’ve seen?

What are your top 10 GMMTV shows?

Cruel.

But let's go.

Top 5 Vietnamese BL

Mr. Cinderalla (I love this show and the vibes and just about everything about it, honestly)

You Are Ma Boy (This one is SO GOOD and SO SOFT and SO SWEET and I am eternally sad that no other shows were made by the creators.)

My Lascivious Boss (so queer, so sweet, absolutely fantastic)

The Most Peaceful Place (I do enjoy this one deeply but I forget it exists sometimes.)

Beef, Cupcake and Him (I love the title almost as much as the show)

And a bonus: Fools, the only bittersweet ending I accept.

Favorite lapsits?

Every single one, next!

Not including KanThua, who is the best side couple?

UNFAIR. Um. Currently airing? TheeTanthai and Asuka x Shu are tied for my favorite. Ever? No idea. Uh. There are just too many choices, too many choices. Um, the side couple in Unintentional Love Story? Oh, they got me good.

Is there a show that you prefer the main couple to the side couple?

Love By Chance. AePete is so good they overrule my love of TinCan without even breaking a sweat.

If you had to rewatch a show right now, what would you watch? (I mean not Tossara though)

At this moment? Something short and sweet. Probably a HIStory, either Obsessed or Right or Wrong.

Top 5 bromances you’ve seen?

Guardian (This could be the entire list but I will be good)

The Devil Judge (... I mean, duh?)

Youths in The Breeze (This little anthology is SO special to me, okay?)

SCI (A special spot in my heart for this one despite how hard it was to find and watch)

Word of Honor (Barely a bromance but it still counts)

What are your top 10 GMMTV shows?

ghffglgf Cruelty. Not in any particular order because I gave up on that.

The Eclipse (KanThua has a very special place in my heart and nothing can pry them out of there)

Moonlight Chicken (my beloved)

A Tale of a Thousand Stars (my other beloved)

Never Let Me Go (I love them, I really do.)

Not Me (The rainbow flag pride scene is forever etched on my heart.)

My School President (I mean, who can resist?)

Tonhon Chonlatee (No judgement, only enjoyment.)

Midnight Museum (I loved this show so much and I miss it so much.)

He's Coming to Me (I love this little show.)

DANGEROUS ROMANCE (No, I don't care that it hasn't aired yet, I am already in love.)

#asked and answered #cruelty #lists upon lists

[khaleesiofalicante]

I've been obsessed with On Brûlera, since you wrote it (also the title. excuse me?!?!? I want to cry every time I hear that song😭) and I'm having mavid feels, so yes, I am going to rant about it😌

Them reclaiming what they lost all those years is so heartbreaking in a beautiful way. From the "small" things like Max supporting David while he anxiously waits for his book release, David being there for Max after a long day of work, to the big ones like moving to France, making it a home, something they wanted more than anything else. Having a home together, but not being able to have it for so long. Slowly but surely reclaiming the things they missed🥹

He doesn’t know why his parents call him ‘difficult’ because his priorities have always been simple. David. David. David. I don't know why, but this is one of my favorite quotes of Max about David, for the simple truth in it. That's all he wants. Something he never gets tired of, something he gets over and over and it's not enough because he always wants more. Kinda reminds me of Rafael saying that if there was something Max couldn't be trusted with, was David, because there was nothing he wouldn't do for David.

To Max. This one is for you too. Everything I do is, and always will be, for you. And also the parallel of David holy shit. David, being someone who loves so much. Being described over and over as someone who loves love, who craves it, who gives it not in a loud way, but in an overwhelming way. He never gets tired of looking for love and giving it away. He is described as obsessed, as greedy for more. He lives for it and will gladly spend his life doing everything in the name of it.

And Max and David find each other. Max, eternally craving love, liking when someone likes him, but when someone loves him? When someone is obsessed with him? That is something he lives for. And he gives the same. He loves loudly, in a brilliant, big way. And David has so much love to give too. He's someone who thought for so long he would die without giving all the love he had inside to someone, thinking all of him would scare people away. Finding someone who takes everything he has, and still wants more of him. Both creating a love that consumes them completely to the point of doing everything in their power to be together, just to have the honor of loving each other.

But leaving that aside, I am so scared for Other Max holy shit... He wants to know what turned this man into this sad, lonely, bitter person. YEAH I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW TOO

I could’ve been him if I didn’t get my happy ending.

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It’s not pity you feel for the man. It’s grief. You mourn all the things he lost, and you mourn all the things he could’ve been.

I created 5 different theories in my mind with just this and I'm not sure I like any of them 😭. Terrified for the next few months, thank you very much :)

He kisses his lips and his nose and his cheeks and his jaw and his eyelids and the corner of his mouth.

He kisses every inch of David’s face until it remembers his lips and welcomes him home again.

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“Because I’m going to kiss every inch of your back,” Max smiled against his skin, peppering soft kisses along David’s spine. “And when I’m done, you’ll only remember my lips.”

I haven't stop thinking about these two lines and I never will💙💙💙

This story is just so beautiful, just like Max and David's love, it also consumes my thoughts 🥺

THIS SONG. THIS FUCKING SONG.

This song and the across the stars theme from Star Wars ends up in every single mavid fic (the angsty ones hehe) because it's SO SO SO THEM.

I have found another perfect song (it fits David so so well) but I am going to gatekeep it until rwrb au drops because it's perfect for a chapter and I want the angst to hit right hehe.

And I looooooooved this analysis and it's made me EMOTIONAL. It's so consuming. Like you said. That's the right word for it. Consuming.

I love these codependent clusterfucks my goodness.

PS - gonna channel ALL this energy into the rwrb au. it's gonna be my fave mavid fic BYE.

#lbaf

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WASSUP YOU LOOK COOL SO TRICK OR TREAT?

begging for a treat, ik absolutely nothing about your stories and wips but the titles are magnificent

also noticed the "vampire lover" and *talk to me i don't bite" and absolutely died

and so in honor of that please pretend that i have arrived at your doorstep dressed as carmilla the og ww vampire (nope totally didnt just finish the book and apsjdksosjah)

Ohh yay I love Trick or Treat asks! It's never too early for Halloween~

I'm trying to make intro posts for my wips currently, so hopefully I'll be able to share them with you when I'm done! You seem hella cool too, I love your blog's aesthetic~

Yeah I am kind of obsessed with vampires honestly, I have a friend who's convinced I am one myself lol~ I'm glad you noticed the small details eeee I adore worldbuilding and always sprinkle some everywhere I can~

Oh Carmilla nice costume! I am dressed as my oc Adelaide Valentine from my wip Blood Moon (intro page in progress, it is a wlw romance between a vampire and her mafia boss) and I will give you a treat in form of a snippet from the prologue of Blood Moon!

London, England, 1859

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Welcome to the eternal afterlife, Adelaide Valentine.

I open my eyes abruptly, gasping only to find out that I do not need to breathe. My heart lay still in my chest, no pulse working my body or filling my bloodstream.

I look around frantically. I can see perfectly in the darkness surrounding me, almost as if someone has switched on a light. I can see the dark room, see the figure of the strange woman, standing tall. She is watching me almost intently, but as to why, I can only guess.

I get up easily and quite quickly, meaning at least my legs are the same, and only when I hold myself upright am I aware of the burning; a burning, savage thirst in my throat.

And then a sharp pain in my lower lip, and the taste of the same bitter blood flooding my mouth. I run a hesitant tongue carefully along my teeth only to find that my canines have become sharp, needle-like incisors. So that explains the cut in my lip.

“You are beautiful,” the strange woman gasps in a neatly clipped British accent, similar to the one that I have grown up learning.

I turn to face her, surprised when it seldom takes less than a second.

The woman steps slowly, cautiously, almost precisely towards me.

“I have done it,” she says, gently brushing the side of my face with her hand. “I have Turned you perfectly. Oh, so beautiful. You will seduce many, if not all that you come across.”

A feral growl escapes my lips. The woman's gesture is almost possessive, and wrong. I shove her with all my strength, wanting nothing more than to get her off of me. She falls back with incredible speed, flying into the mirror decorating the wall with unnerving force.

The mirror shatters into tiny fragments, shards falling like diamond rain down on the room. The woman falls limp on the floor, the top of her head cracked open and bleeding, liquid staining her ebony hair. Crimson blood too bright to be human spreads slowly across the polished marble floor of the room.

I watch it flow, almost mesmerized by it. Staring at the scarlet liquid makes my throat start to burn even more, and I realize, know the way to put out the flame scorching my throat.

More than anything, I am terrified, looking down at my hands. I have… killed someone. I am overwhelmingly heartsick and want, no, need to get away from here as soon as possible.

I take one last dubious look at the unconscious woman, catching a brief glimpse of my reflection in a mirror shard.

My face is smooth, unmarked, my skin a pale shade of white, but what surprises me most are my eyes. My irises have become the same piercing, burning crimson as the woman’s had been.

I shake my head and sprint for the open glass door, out onto the balcony. I nimbly climb the gilded gold railing, perch delicately on its edge for just a moment before jumping, propelled forward by an almost primal instinct.

I fall at frightening speed through twelve feet of air and land, perfectly on my feet, in a steady crouch on the stone below.

I straighten, looking around me. I can smell the humans- smell the scent of their sweat, the perfume of their skin, and deeper beneath that, the ever-so tempting salty-sweet scent of blood.

They are so weak, helpless, I notice, compared to me. I could simply strike each and every one of them unrivaled.

I relax, letting my newly acquired instincts take over.

Yes, this must be the afterlife after all.

Thank you so much for the ask! I hope you enjoy~

#ask #ask answered! #writing asks #writeblr #writing #writers on tumblr #writers #writing community #creative writing #writer #writers of tumblr #writing meme #writers life #oc : adelaide valentine #wip : blood moon

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Sunday Morning Session

With Songs of Praise

Jeffrey R Holland

We don’t use the cross because the atonement is more important and we want to focus on the fact that He rose again

Because we are a restored church, the restored new testament church, we do not use the iconography that came about much later

The lives of our people must be the symbol of our faith

If any will come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me

The crosses we bear, rather than the one we wear

Lgbtq+ mention and not in the best way

J Annette Dennis 1st counselor relief society

Jack and his dog – how just how do you not notice that? – graphic injury warning

Nothing you do makes much of a difference if you do not have charity

We are commanded to love others, not judge them. Let’s lay down that heavy burden – it isn’t ours to carry.

“Who am I to judge another, when I walk imperfectly?”

Do not judge anyone for anything about themselves – race, culture, sexual orientation, gender, religion, etc.

Each person on this earth is a child of God, and He loves each one.

You Can Make the Pathway Bright

Gerrit W. Gong

Do you remember believing in happily ever after, or at least wanting to? And then we “grew up” (dude I don’t think I did though – kinda obsessed with retellings of fairytales lol)

We believe or want to believe that happy and forever are out there and possible

It is as part of Heavenly Fathers plan

It makes all the difference to know who our family are

1st we are offered the opportunity of resurrection

2nd we can repent through the atonement

3rd God knows and loves us perfectly

4th the Lord gives us divine opportunity to become like Him

5th a symmetry in repentance and forgiveness helps us to forgive others

However we may feel as we begin, we feel whole as we trust Him

Joseph W. Sitati

When we align ourselves with these eternal realities, we feel more peace and harmony in our lives

We find heavens sociality in each other

Story of Korihor

Prioritize the glory of God, not the glory of the world

How we come into this world is less important than who we are when we leave it

Humility before God is a foundational aspect for His disciples

Discipleship is not a burden but a joy

Love God above all things, and love others as you love yourself

When we focus on loving God and others, we understand better our own divine selves and learn how to love ourselves more

Learn to know and honor God and share His love with posterity – will bring great blessings.

We Thank The O God for a Prophet

Steven J. Lund

Talking about FSY

When immersed in the love of God and learning about Christ for a whole week, they don’t come back the same

Finding joy in this world of prophesied destruction without becoming part of the world and leaving behind the distractions of lesser things

After I leave, what do I do to remain strong? How can loving God turn into lasting discipleship

Keep doing at home what you have learned to do here

Your discipleship isn’t just a slogan on a t-shirt – it has become a true part of your life

You don’t have to wear the badge to bear His name

David A. Bednar

The story only conveys divine truth to the receiver as they seek to understand

The parable of the royal marriage feast – Matthew 22:1-14 is the parable, 15-22 is the pharisees response

We as guests are invited (commanded) to attend by the Lord

He gives us garments from His own wardrobe

Why aren’t you wearing what has been provided for you?

Do you have any reasonable excuse? Do not be put in a place where you remain speechless

We have God’s call, and our individual response to His call

We can choose to be chosen, through the righteous exercise of our own agency

Many are called but few are chosen – D&C 121: 34-36

The things of the world are a short-term preoccupation – especially when you consider the eternity of God’s timing in the gospel

How Great the Wisdom and the Love

President Russell M. Nelson

Experiencing the love of them is vital

Many things are coming in these coming days

Where do you find rest in the Savior?

Matthew 11: 28-30

John 16: 33

Because He overcame the world for each of us, we can overcome our own selves

Despite the destractions and distortions that swirl around us, you can find rest, meaning peace

What does it mean to overcome the world?

Overcoming the temptation to care more about things of this world than things of God

Trusting the doctrines of Christ more than the philosophies of men

Does not mean becoming perfect, or that your problems will go away, or that you won’t make mistakes

But your resistance to sin will increase, and your heart will soften as your faith in Jesus Christ increases

How do we do it?

The natural man is an enemy to God – Mosiah 3:19

Anytime you do things that people of the world wouldn’t do you are overcoming the world

Living the doctrine of Christ and creating spiritual momentum

While the world insists certain things bring happiness, they do not! They cannot! They are a hallow substitute. It is exhausting to seek happiness where you can never find it!

Christ has the power to lift you above this world

How does overcoming the world bless our lives?

Entering into a covenant relationship with God binds us to Him, in a way that makes everything about life easier

There is still opposition

You have access to His strength and redeeming power

Take charge of your own testimony, work for it, nurture it, feed it truth. Do not fill it with philosophies of men

Watch for miracles

How does the temple teach you to rise above this fallen world?

Choose Jesus Christ over the world

Letting God prevail in your life = greater peace, confidence, joy, and rest

Ended with blessings for us

Let Us All Press On

#ldsconf #tumblrstake #general conference #genconf #church of jesus christ of latter day saints #sunday morning session notes #reminder that I will be in person for sunday afternoon and notes will take a while