#until i was done and then fix it so it'd go back to normal

[piplupod]

shoutout to the time i thought juggalos were just a random type of clown in the same way rodeo and pierrot is, and I off-handedly mentioned them in a conversation about clowns to one of my DQ managers when I worked there, and she fucking lost her mind laughing and I was like. damn. I didn't think my joke was THAT funny but okay. and then I never looked up what a juggalo actually was until just last year, like four years after I'd stopped working at that place 🧍

#when u dont have internet access very often u don't use ur small bits of time to look things up #esp when u dont have any unmonitored internet access fjdkdl #i was scared to look things up at school and i couldnt look up very much on the home computer #and my mobile had net nanny installed on it lmfao it was set for like... 12 yr olds #NOW GRANTED. I ACTUALLY DID MANAGE TO BREAK NET NANNY ON MY OWN COMPUTER. u have to move some files around inside the program files #and then u can basically break and un-break it as u please #so i could have it on to keep up the charade that i had it installed and it was monitoring and reporting my good boy usage #but then when i wanted to do stuff like... go on tumblr. or look up slang or whatever fhdkdl i could break the program #until i was done and then fix it so it'd go back to normal #this didnt help v much though bc i couldnt lug my laptop to school v often #and i wasnt allowed internet at home fhfkdl unless I was using my mother's laptop for looking up piano music LOL #eventually i also figured out how to break the program on my phone too but that one was more luck than anything else i think #anyways. all this surveillance made me good with tech stuff but im not Good w tech djdkdl i just know how to look things up #and i learned a bit how the backend of programs work or weird tricks for hidden folders and stuff on laptops #hey why tf am i rambling abt this in the tags fjkdl I've lost the plot #anyways good morning everyone please look up words that u may not know the meaning of before u use them #i do this too often now fhfjld. i have to look up words that i DO 100% know the meaning of just to make sure i dont have it wrong somehow #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[hero-hoe]

Owner!Ghost with dogboy!Soap who gets puppygirl!Reader as a gift.

MDNI. 18+ ONLY

Hybrid au. Kidnapping tw, naive!reader, Fem!reader, handjobs (m/m). Ghost and Soap are a little off. Sadomasochism tw

Ghost who's had Soap ever since retiring being discharged due to injury and thought "fuck it, I need something to keep me busy", so he gets himself a retired dogboy. Nothing wrong with 'im, they just tend to cycle hybrids out after a few years of use. Any longer and they go a little wrong in the head. Something about their genetics and how they could get too into their tasks and needed human handlers on the outside.

Ghost is pretty sure the one he got is a little messed up anyway. Fine by him, the man had done his fair share of awful things, too far beyond being considered a good man anymore. At least having the mutt gave him purpose again, he was losing his mind trying to fit back in with polite society on his own. Johnny was Price's idea to get Simon out of his house, to take care of himself instead of wasting away in a bare bones cabin in the countryside. Take the dog on walks and all that, get a membership at one of those expensive city gyms that let hybrids in so they could both keep up on their training.

Johnny would bark his ear off about his time in the military, causing messes he never had to clean up and getting paid for it. And he didn't push when Simon said nothing about his own experience. And then they settled into a decent enough routine, too intimate to just be hybrid and handler, but Ghost wasn't a man who liked labels. They were just Johnny and Simon, that's all that mattered.

He got a good dog. Sure, he was a bit off, but nothing that couldn't be handled. He barked a lot, hated strangers, refused to sleep anywhere but Simon's room after the first few nights. And he was energetic, always bouncing off the walls or chasing down random animals in the woods. If he brought back something to snack on, Simon never minded, so long as he clean his own mess. Ghost wasn't above rubbing the dog's nose in the blood and mud puddle left on the kitchen floor. Good thing Johnny learned the first time.

It'd been a few years, Ghost hadn't bothered to keep track, but his silly pup was getting restless. Only after the third time coming home to Johnny humping himself stupid in the toy he'd gotten, teeth sunk into the pillows, did Simon finally take him to the vet. Trying to handle the situation himself hadn't helped, and he didn't like seeing his boy so miserable, even if he looked beautiful because of it. Simon swore Johnny never looked better than when he was desperate and on their sheets, fucking into a silicone pussy like his life depended on it and whimpering into a slobber covered pillowcase.

Everything was normal, the vet said, a waste of £150. It's actually a good thing, they told him, means he's healthy and happy enough to breed and is having ruts. Gave him three options: have Johnny fixed, let the mutt handle it himself every time, or get him someone to play with. Simon was offended at the idea of getting his pup snipped, immediately shutting the thought down. But he couldn't keep watching Soap sob and beg, pleading for something Simon didn't have. He held Johnny in his arms each but after that, making sure to stroke his needy pup through every orgasm needed with a hand around his neck for stability.

Johnny was a good dog, Simon relented. Never once bit without being told and made sure to moan nice and loud whenever he was hit. He deserved a treat.

So Simon did his research, went to all the shelters and breeders and even searched the parks for a new treat for his boy. Nobody was good enough, he thought, until he found you. Soft, sweet, and so, so innocent. You didn't hesitate to take his hand when he offered you a treat and some ear scratches, wandering away from your old owner and right into his truck.

You ate the special biscuits he gave you and fell asleep with a dopey smile on your face, so happy when he told you he was gonna take you home and introduce you to his puppy.

Johnny was at the door like always, waiting on his knees at the time Simon said he'd be home. He was anxious and confused today, able to smell you from outside as soon as Ghost pulled up. You smelled so good, but he hated the idea of Simon bringing another dog home. Was he not enough? He'd been so good, why would his master need another pup?

"Settle, mutt." Simon huffed as soon as he heard Johnny's whine, the hybrid kneeling obediently at the door with his ears tucked back. "Stop the damn whining. Got you somethin'." He huffed, shifting you in his arms.

Johnny scooted closer, staying on the ground and sniffing at you cautiously. One of Ghost's massive hands laced into a well maintained mohawk, tugging tight until he calmed down. The pain grounded him, a reminder that Simon was there, that he wasn't being replaced. "Fer me?" Johnny asked, taking another deep inhale along the skin of your thigh where is dangled over Simon's arm.

Ghost hummed, the sound pulling another whine from Johnny's throat. "Smells s'good." He whispered, eyes dilating as he crawled closer. "She's pure bonnie, Sir."

Straddling Simon's boot, rutting mindlessly against his shin while taking in deep huffs of your skin, Johnny couldn't wait to play with you.

#cod x reader #ghoap x reader #ghost x reader #simon riley x reader #simon ghost riley x reader #soap x reader #john soap mactavish #john soap mctavish x reader #hybrid au #owner!ghost #cod drabble #soap drabble #ghost drabble

[lemonyko0]

Drabble in which jk just rlly wants you to play with his hair...

» koo drabble since his recent live inspired me <3

» fluff, established relationship

so, you made a mistake. well, by normal standards it's not really a mistake, but definitely a recurring pattern since jungkook has learned it's a sure-fire way to get attention and affection from you. it'd be more interesting to say it was some sexy look, or a particular pair of jeans, but unfortunately that's not your reality.

instead, for the third time in one day, you hear the footsteps of your oh-so loving boyfriend pad around the house undoubtedly looking for you.

you tilt your head back on the couch and watch as he comes into view, smiling as he sees you, “y/n~” he coos, excitedly hopping over the back of the couch and right into your lap.

when you last saw him he was playing video games, occupying the tv in your bedroom so you left the room. so there is no true reason why his hair should be as horrifically messy as it is right now, and yet he’s snuggled himself between your legs and is staring at you expectantly, waiting for you to fix his hair. he wants you to run your fingers through it like you always do, to fix his part and comb it with your nails, massage that pretty head of his and sprinkle it with kisses and you'd love nothing more than to give into him, but you don't.

you pretend like you have no idea what he’s after, and smile at him, “hi baby, done playing?”

he nods, leaning his head against your chest and ruining his hair even further, “yeah, my team won each round.”

you grin and instinctively reach a hand out to his head and pull back quickly, and instead rub his cheek. he pouts in response and you ask, “what?”

he sighs as he picks up your hand and moves it to the top of his head and staring at you in wait.

you chuckle as you let your hand slide down to his jaw and pinch his cheek, “does your head hurt? i bought more ibuprofen yesterday.”

“no.”

“then what?”

the pout grows each second you're not petting him and he whines into your body, “why aren't you fixing my hair?”

“you want me to fix it? i thought you were trying to leave it messy since you keep making it like that.”

you hear him quietly sigh between your arms as he starts to piece it together, “i was just making it messy so you’d fix it. i didn't think you’d catch on.”

you hum, “ahh, so you just wanted me to play with your hair? you could’ve just asked koo.”

he shook his head, “that's not as fun.”

“so it's more fun when you're tricking me into doing it?” he nods cheekily, staring up at you with a grin. “you think you're soooo slick.” you roll your eyes and start to poke at his ticklish places as he squirms around on the couch trying to escape you, but you've got him tied between your legs and weakened by your relentless teasing until he’s pleading with you between giggles and his reddened face.

“pl-please! y/n! i'm s-sorry! please!” he laughs and you pull back, resting against the couch once more as he catches his breath, and if at all possible, his hair is even worse now than it was before.

“gosh, now your hair’s actually a mess.”

he rolls dramatically off of the couch and onto his butt on the floor, “guess i'll go fix it myself.”

you chuckle, watching him not even move a muscle. he slowly looks up to you and just stares in wait. he then pushes himself closer and closer to you until his head is practically in your lap, staring at you with a cheesy grin. “please?”

you take his face in your hands and lean down to him, “i love playing with your hair koo. just ask.”

he nods excitedly, “so will you?”

you pat the couch and he resumes his original spot, just without the pout. he relaxes against you, grabbing your legs and wrapping them around his torso, arranging you exactly how he likes it and asking if your comfy.

“of course.” you kiss the side of his head and you don't need to see his smile to know he is, and to no surprise at all he’s practically purring the second you run your fingers through his hair, and asleep in your lap within only a few minutes.

you can't fault him though, as you're out like a light too in half the time.

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thanks for reading and if you wish it didn't end so soon, i have tons and tons more in my masterlist, coded and everything <3

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[hope-you-brought-kneepads-bitch]

Villain Attraction Pt 2

Summary: After leaving Wanda alone with your question you waited for to come back to you, you knew she would do and you couldn't wait, you couldn't wait to show her just how fun being a villain could be

Words: 1,740

Warnings: 18+ Minors DNI, er kissing, Wanda being a simp for reader because obviously, talk of sex

A/N: Not proofread but we'll just go with it

"What are we doing?"

"Waiting for Wanda" you simply replied

"You know she is coming back?"

You smirked "oh yeah she's definitely coming, give her a few hours Venom"

"Okay, I miss her already"You waited a total of two hours before the door clicked open revealing the beautiful redhead who stopped in her tracks when she saw you staring at her

"Hi..." her voice was quiet but you heard her "come sit my love" you patted your leg but Wanda aimed for seat besides you, when Venom's head formed looking at her

"Wanda our lap is much more comfortable and I do believe that is what Y/n meant"

She rolled her eyes but decided to sit on your lap trying to get comfortable feeling arms wrap themselves around her "I'm so glad you chose me" you nuzzled into her neck and felt her relax turning her head to kiss you on the lips slightly surprising you but you let yourself enjoy it

"She is crying Y/n"

Venom's voice rang in your head making you pull away from the girl looking at her face "Wanda honey why are you crying?"

"Nat said I was a traitor and deserved everything I get from you" her voice crack made you sad "oh Wanda you know Nat can't talk, she was a villain for years in the red room, you're not a traitor, you've just realised you're better off with me"

"It still hurts"

You sighed picking Wanda up when you stood and lead her to your bedroom, somewhere she has been a few times before and she tensed.

"It's okay Wanda I just want you to be comfortable, we won't have sex if you don't want too"

She relaxed again allowing you to place her down on your soft bed and kiss her forehead

"I didn't know a villain could be so soft" she spoke up and you chuckled "only for the most stubborn and hottest witch around, now do you want to sleep naked or in my shirt?"

"Your shirt please" Wanda sat up reaching for your shirt that you had on "this one? Don't you want a clean one?"

Wanda shook her head "noooo I want that one so it smells like you" you just laughed taking your shirt off leaving you in a sports bra which Wanda admired but quickly frowned on seeing some heavy bruising on your abdomen

"What happened?"

You were confused momentarily until you looked down "oh yeah, I did something stupid so Venom won't heal me so I have to deal with the pain"

You passed her the shirt watching her as she took her own clothes off not letting you see her naked for long before she stood up and dragged you to the bathroom

"Are you saying I need a shower?" Your laughter bounced off the bathroom wall and all Wanda did was sigh "I'm going to clean your wound, the dry blood and wet patches aren't attractive"

"I beg to differ, remember when we met after I fought Tony? You were all over me" you kissed your redhead girl slipping your tongue inside when she groaned, before anything could happen though she softly pushed you away "let me clean you first"

You huffed "god Wanda if I had them you just gave me blue balls"

She giggled grabbing a towel and dampening it gently wiping the dry blood from your body and you winced trying to hide any pain, it'd been a while since you felt pain since Venom normally healed you, but after you had been kicked out of the avengers tower you decided to pick a couple of fights with some drunk bar guys, they had refused to heal you, but you guess you couldn't complain now with Wanda cleaning you

"All done" Wanda brought you out of your thoughts and you looked down gasping "wow! Did you rub too hard and get rid of the bruising?"

"It was I who fixed you Y/n, I feel like you had learnt your lesson so I healed us"

You rolled your eyes "thank you for the lesson Venom I appreciate it"

"Do not be sarcastic with me Y/n I can make you pay"

Wanda looked at you worried but you shook her fears off "they don't mean it, if I hurt so do they, they'd be hurting themselves"

Wanda still looked concerned but less so and kissed you on the cheek "will we be okay?" Such an innocent question with a lot of heavy implications, so instead of answering right away you picked her up again and walked back into the bedroom laying her under the covers and tucking her in

"We'll be okay Wanda I promise, not to sound mushy but you're safe with me, you never belonged with the avengers, you belong with me and I'll spend everyday proving that to you"

Wanda was trying not to fall asleep listening to you but her fluttering eyes betrayed her so you rounded the bed climbing in and bringing Wanda back into your body "go to sleep my love, tomorrow is a new day, we'll show the Avengers just who you are"

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"You looked so hot today my love" Wanda pushed through the door followed closely by you "blood suits your red hair"

You brought her into a deep kiss smearing the blood over her lips making her pull away suddenly

"Blood isn't very tasty baby" she laughed but you just shrugged "it's a sweet taste"

"Hmm maybe I'll get used to it" she kissed you again slightly grimacing at the taste but ignored it when she felt Venom's tongue lick at her lips for permission and she actively accepted

"How sweet" you both snapped back looking at the door seeing Natasha and while Wanda tried hiding away you just smirked at the woman "come for round two? I can keep fighting all day Natty but Wanda might get jealous"

The Russian ignored you and instead pushed through the house and sat down on the couch confusing you, Wanda and even Venom when their head appeared out of your body

"You are not welcome in our house Natalia, you should leave"

The alien growled at the woman and she just smiled "you two need to stop"

Even Wanda scoffed at her request "that's pathetic Nat just get out"

Nat rolled her eyes "come on guys what do you get out of being villains?"

"Have you seen Wanda right now? She's hot, that's what I get out of being a villain, horny Nat okay? That's also what I get out of it"

Wanda couldn't resist laughing and kissed you "I can remedy that later baby"

Nat coughed to get your attention back to her and you rolled your eyes "I forgot you're still here, listen Nat either leave or take your shirt off so I can stare at your chest for a little bit"

Venom sensed something before you did and spoke in your mind

"She is confused Y/n, I think she also wants to be a villain"

You raised an eyebrow looking down at the ground while listening to Venom's reasonings, when you felt Wanda poking you, you had to look up and gasped when you did. Nat had taken her shirt off and was in some not very there red lingerie bra thing

"Uhhh damn okay I don't know what to do now uhhhh Wanda what do I do?"

You looked at the redhead who was now blushing looking at Nat's chest "well at least I know what you're thinking"

"Now what?" Nat simply asked but neither of you could speak properly "I just-i just don't know what you want Nat"

"Something more than what I have now, being an Avenger is okay but constantly being a hero and trying to save the world is incredibly boring, I need excitement"

Nat's little speech had you thinking, it didn't make you sad or feel sorry for her, she wanted to be a hero, plus she did just kick you in the ribs earlier and they still hurt

"Prove it"

She lent her head to the side "what?"

You doubled down "prove you want excitement"

Wanda finally yore her eyes away from Nat and looked up at you "what are you doing?"

You lent down to whisper in her ear "no idea babe but I don't think she'll leave unless I do something"

You looked back up seeing Nat had come closer to you both and you resisted jumping back in slight shock and instead deciding to be bold "you want excitement Nat?"

"Yes"

"Kiss me then, kiss the villain that kicked your ass not more then a few hours ago"

She sighed knowing you were right but agreed and lent forward placing a soft kiss on your lips then pulling away and you frowned "the hell was that?" You ignored her strange look and gripped her hair pulling her into you and kissing her hard, snaking Venom's tongue in her mouth was the fun part when she groaned at the invasion, you loved showing their tongue off.

When she eventually had to pull away from lack of air her face was a picture, eyes wide, hair a mess and her lips swollen "you're a good kisser Nat"

Venom prevented you from kissing her again and it annoyed you "Venom what the hell are you doing?"

"This feels off Y/n I don't think she is being truthful"

Before you had anytime to react you felt the all too familiar feeling of her widow bites piercing your body making you collapse

"Y/n!" Wanda readied her powers but an electro shock arrow hit her back sending her also to the ground on top of you

"Took you long enough Clint" Natasha picked her shirt off of the floor putting it back on watching Clint take the arrow off of Wanda "you seemed like you were enjoying yourself actually, a few more minutes and I would've have to close my eyes"

"Let's just get them back to the compound" Nat rolled her eyes and picked Wanda up slinging her over her shoulder waiting for Clint to get you "Jesus Christ why is she so heavy?"

"Probably the alien, its all the humans they eat"

Clint huffed as he managed to throw you over his shoulder "well the alien needs to go on a diet"

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#marvel #wanda maximoff #mcu #wanda maximov #wanda maximoff x reader #marvel incorrect quotes #natasha romanoff #natasha romanov #marvel au #marvel imagine #clint barton #venom x reader #venom reader #incorrect venom quotes #wanda maximoff x venom reader

[crippled-peeper]

this is kind of just like. a general complaint. ive had back issues for years and years. severe enough that my entire upper body is warped. but everyone just told me im "too young" to have back problems...my mom even lied and said i didn't have scoliosis, and literally just admitted to me in january that she knew about it and chose not to do anything...i could have been braced or something as a kid...but now i have severe throbbing pain, unstable joints, and possible nerve/tissue damage, and im having to pay for everything relating to it. absolute joy. and even though my problems are minor compared to yours, it is really fucking frustrating when people just blow off having a medical disability. im sick of the "too young" thing, or people saying "have you tried stretching?" i did PT for two years now and it's only gotten worse...they even said it'd take over 10 years to make any changes. but yeah yoga will fix it im sure. people are soooo normal about medical issues. ugh

you know what’s kind of wild is that even though you say your problems are “minor” compared to mine you’re actually living through the very first pages of my spinal disability story

My mom did the exact same thing where she like… pretended I did not have scoliosis (despite doctors telling her I had it many times) until it was so irreversible and bad that they had no choice but to fuse my spine as my bones had grown completely misshapen.

They sent me to PT (like you were) and they danced around it a lot but ultimately nothing really could be done. I remember she (my mom) even eventually took me to get fitted for a brace, but by then it was far too late and they told her it wouldn’t do anything.

One year later at 15 i had my spinal fusion at UNM children’s hospital. I had an extremely rough recovery and was in the ICU for days followed by months of rehab and relearning stupid shit like how to put a shirt on again and how to put socks on

due to the mechanical forces on the spine, I probably would’ve never gotten my severe herniations and spinal cord injury above my 10-level fusion if I never had the fusion in the first place, too.

So I’m often plagued by thoughts that are exactly like “what if you took it seriously? where would I be right now? Probably not here, maybe somewhere better” that are really upsetting sometimes. If only she’d gave a shit all those years ago, right? but also it’s been so long now and she’s actually dead now (from Covid of all things) so I’ve got nobody to be mad at about it anymore

Keep advocating for yourself, even if you are young, and even if your spinal disability seems “minor” because spinal disabilities have this awful tendency to escalate over one’s lifetime . Don’t be afraid to seek the opinions of multiple doctors if you ever consider/need surgery. It’s not “doctor shopping” or anything shameful . It’s the rest of your life that’s going to be affected.

#spinal disability #death #surgery #scoliosis #spinal fusion

[tealmaskmybeloved]

Toxic Consequences AU: Chapter 1

Ally or Traitor?

(As always, notes will be under the cut. Enjoy!)

Kieran hated how everything went. Those two exchange students got to keep Ogerpon while he, the one who admired it since he was little, didn't.

It was unfair, and Kieran knew it. Not only that, but Florian and Juliana lied to him about the truth, that Ogerpon was the victim and that the Loyal 3 were villains.

Even his sister lied to him about it all...

Now Kieran was the Ogre in this situation.

Everyone else was against him, he truly was alone.

Until he wasn't.

Kieran was sitting behind the store Peachy's when he glanced ahead to see a strange Pokémon in front of him.

The Pokémon was about the size of Kieran's head, and had a pink outer shell covering its round body.The Pokémon looked a lot like a Pecha Berry, except a bit different. It stared at Kieran with glowing yellow eyes, interested in him.

"Wowzers..." Kieran mumbled. He'd never seen this Pokémon before, although it did resemble that odd plush at Peachy's. Maybe it was a new species or something?

The odd thing stared back at Kieran, it seemed to know why he was so upset, much to his confusion and bewilderment.

"You're an odd Pokémon, aren't you? I-I mean, I've never seen one like you before..."

Kieran started to get a little excited. He might have discovered a new species of Pokémon! He could get all the fortune and fame and not be the sniveling, pathetic, weak-

Kieran stopped himself from finishing that thought. He didn't want to linger on thinking so lowly of himself.

But it is true, isn't it?

Kieran glanced at the Pokémon. Was he going crazy or did he hear it talk? It wasn't really like normal talking. Rather, the voice echoed in his mind.

The voice came back, stronger than last time.

If you were stronger, then people would like you.

If you weren't a pathetic coward, then maybe you'd be seen as useful.

If you weren't so WEAK, then maybe Ogerpon would've chosen you!

That one snapped Kieran out of his state. He wanted to do something, anything, to fix his current situation.

Kieran looked back at the peach Pokémon, and to his surprise, it was offering him.... mochi?

Kieran's grandmother used to make mochi, and it was his favorite snack... but it was never that deep purple color.

It didn't seem harmful... so Kieran accepted it. He took a bit out of the purple colored treat. Upon tasting the mochi, it was incredibly sweet, like Pecha Berries, but nothing like Kieran tasted before.

"Wow... this is really good." Kieran said, smiling.

Despite the treat being a delight, Kieran was instantly reminded of his current situation again. Of being lied to about the Ogre, how they got to be friends with it... how they get to fix its mask....

Wait..... fix its mask.... that's it!

If Kieran took the mask and was able to fix it then surely Ogerpon would want to be with him, right? Then he would be able to show it that he's not just some weak kid, and it'd go with him! It had to work, it had to!

Yes, yes. Steal the mask. Bring it to Loyalty Plaza when you do.

Kieran looked back at the odd Pokémon. It wouldn't hurt to listen to it... besides, he didn't have any other options.... did he?

... No. It had to be done.

He made up his mind. Kieran knew what he had to do. He had to steal the Teal Mask.

HELL YEAH CHAPTER 1 IS OUT WOOOOOOOOOOT

I probably won't have the new chapter a day schedule I've been doing so far, but I'll try my best.

As always, feel free to send asks relating to the AU!

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[armpirate]

UNDER HIS SKIN || JJK || Ch. 1

Pairings: tattoist!jk x fem!reader

Genre: smut, angst, friends to lovers, tattoo au, virgin reader.

Summary: They say there are two versions for every story, and it's important to hear both of them. Everybody is hearing your side of the story, but it's just fair to get to know his.

After breaking up with his girlfriend, the only thing he wanted was to have fun with no attachment. You wanted to get rid of your virginity, and he wanted to tick you off his list. What he didn't expect was getting so emotionally attached to you that he would regret the deal.

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MASTERLIST

7 months ago

The rhythmic sound of those knocks in the door, simulating the 20th Century Fox intro, gets on my nerves. Because I already know who's the person behind those knocks, and because he's been doing that every single time he's come over. 

Why won't he fucking knock on the door like a normal person.

—I'm not home —I scream, resting my back on the couch. 

—Just open the door —he whines.

I groan, standing up and walking to the door. I know Tae won't leave, even if I tell him to. He'll just stay here, being a pain in the ass until I give in and open it. 

—You look horrible.

It's the first thing he says as his eyes land on me. And yes, I haven't looked my best in days -or weeks-, I've probably been wearing these pajamas for a little too long, and could be I haven't showered because my own smell isn't bothering me yet. But that doesn't give him the right to come here and tell me directly, especially when he's trying to come in. So, annoyed with his comment, I roll my eyes and push the door to close it again.

—I was just kidding —he stops me from closing the door—, kind of.

I sigh, done with whatever he's trying to say, but letting him in because I know he'll manage to get in anyway. Just a week ago he stood out of my door for three hours because I wouldn't reply to his texts nor answer his calls. 

—Why are you here? —I mutter, walking to the couch again.

—I wanted to see you —he shrugs, following my steps.

—You saw me this morning —I sit on the couch—,  when you went to the studio. And you also saw me when we went to get lunch this afternoon —I remind him—. Fuck, I see you more than Mark, and that says a lot.

—I wanted to see you... a lot of times —he adds—. Everyone's worried about you —he sits next to me.

—It's not like I'm going to kill myself for being alone —I chuckle, resting my head on the backrest.

—No, but you're a mess. Soo didn't want me to tell you, but she's preparing an intervention.

Of course. Why am I not surprised about my sister sticking her nose in my business. It'd be weird if she didn't.

—She knows you haven't met up with anyone. 

I look at him in disbelief. We two are almost tied to the hip, but he's now saying I barely hang out with them. Does he want to move in with me or what?

—Forcing you to hang out with me doesn't count —he snaps—. Leslie is out there living her life, yet you're here, looking miserable for someone that doesn't deserve it. You're way better than her, and she didn't deserve you.

Taehyung is a good friend, he seriously is. But the fact that he's trying to cheer me up with those words, when not even three months ago he was crying and throwing up over a girl he dated for three weeks, is laughable. It's not the same situation at all.

And he knows it.

I dated Leslie for almost five years, we were living together, we were working together. And out of nowhere, I find out she's been cheating on me for months, using our bed. And instead of talking to me and trying to make things up, she left and now I have to get used to her not being around, not smelling her scent, not seeing her smile when she turns to me as soon as she wakes up...

I went from having everything to not having anything. Nothing at all.

—I wanted to marry her —I admit.

Taehyung interrupts his rant, a heavy silence growing among us. I feel his eyes on me, while my gaze is still fixed on the ceiling.

—I was going to ask her to marry me —I scoff—. I even booked a table at the most expensive restaurant, and reserved the diamond ring of her dreams... For nothing.

When I look at him, I see that look full of pity everyone has been glaring at me since it was known Leslie left me. The only reason why I don't care about being around Tae is because he was the only one that didn't look at me that way. Yet there he was. 

—Don't look at me like that —I complained, pissed off.

—Like what? —he changes his tone— I can't look at you right now —he fakes a sob—. Your smell is blinding me... literally.  If someone needs tear gas, they can just throw you out there and get the same result.

I let out a laugh, remembering why I tolerate him so much. 

—Don't be an ass. It's not that bad —I smell my t-shirt.

—You have to be kidding me. You were wearing this same t-shirt this morning when you were working —he grabs the edge of my t-shirt—, and yesterday you were wearing the exact same one. When was the last time you showered?

—I don't know —I shrug again.

—She won't come back. And it doesn't matter how long you go without showering, or without meeting us. She left Mark and the studio, she left you... She's a selfish bitch. And don't look at me that way.

He points his finger at me when I lift my head, only to throw him a glare.

—I know how important she was to you, but you need to let it go —he stands up—. Go out, hook up with girls, give yourself a treat... —he lifts his eyebrows— And let's start today. Jimin is throwing a party at his place.

—I don't want to go.

—Either you go there, or I'll tell him to throw the party here. Your choice —he looks around.

He knows me so well, that he's aware he got away with what he wanted by the way I sigh and let my head fall back. 

—Today will be your first day as a single man —he cheers, with a wide smile.

✸ ✸ ✸

Currently

I park my motorbike outside, next to the entrance. A wide smile forms on my face as I keep seeing people coming and leaving the pub, all looking sober enough to go for a second round to the nightclubs nearby. 

—Hey, Brooke —I smile at the brunette behind the counter.

—Hey, cutie —she smiles at me—. What can I get for you?

I know it could be an innocent question for anyone else. It should be an innocent question. But the way she's looking at me, while licking her lips, gives that question a totally different meaning. Both of us know that if it weren't for her position here, I would've made a move on her the first time I saw her in the inauguration.

—Your boss —I reply—, and a beer.

She throws a wink at me. Brooke serves me the beer first, and walks away to look for Taehyung, where the hell he must be right now. 

As I look around, I see some girls looking my way, and turning those small smiles to smirks as soon as they're aware I'm looking back. One blonde girl in concrete gets my attention, and seems like she's going to come my way, but stops. Soon I know the reason why.

—Kookie —he greets with a smile—, what brings you here?

—I was just passing by —I give a sip to my beer—. I wanted to see how it was going. 

—Oh, so you're finally taking your responsibility as a partner?

—I'm not a partner though. 

I only gave him the money I got from the ring I bought months ago. I wasn't counting on it anyway, so when Taehyung kept saying he wanted to open a pub -and only needed 5.000 dollars more, I saw it pretty clearly.

—For me you are —he shakes his head—. What do you think? —he opens his arm wide, referring to the whole establishment.

—It's good to see you're doing good.

Honestly, I haven't come here since the inauguration day. But I heard some people saying this was the new "It" place to spend a good time at night. And seeing the amount of people here, and waiting outside, I can tell they weren't lying. It's doing great.

—Are you still growing your hair? 

—Hmm —I nod—. I won't grow it longer than shoulder length, but I like how it's looking.

We talk a bit more, but Taehyung ends up leaving when Brooke calls him on the other side of the counter. I stay in the same spot, enjoying my beer, looking around... Nothing deep until someone gets my attention. 

She's sitting by herself at one of the tables, and she keeps looking around, her eyes scanning through every single person that's here. But it doesn't seem like anyone catches her attention, because she moves from one to the next one. Until her eyes finally meet mine. She's surprised to see me looking at her, but that doesn't stop her from looking. Her gaze doesn't leave me, and she tries to scan me the same way she scanned the others. The only difference is that this time she was caught, but  she doesn't care, since her eyes go over my body with no shame. 

I do the same. I scan every corner of her face, every curve... And I'm feeling tempted to move away from here, and take the first step.

She's playing a game I love. Who will hold the look the longest? And who will make the move first? And the new girl loses, her eyes drift from mine. 

I turn to my glass, and take a quick look at all the liquors carefully placed on the showcase, going through all the names I'm able to read from my place. I'm focused on trying to read one of the names when I feel someone tapping on my shoulder. 

There it is. I knew she would give in first...

But when I turn around, with that proud smirk, I don't see her. Instead, there's a brunette that's almost as tall as me, with a ridiculously big and wide smile. Her hip is slightly swayed to the right, while her finger keeps twirling around one of her locks. 

—I'm Tonya —she introduces herself.

—Jungkook —I smile at her.

I know she starts talking, because I see her red colored lips moving, but I can't pay attention to a single word she's saying. My head is still stuck on that other girl. And for that exact same reason, I look for her over this girl's shoulder, finding her eyes perking with curiosity and a glint of disappointment. As soon as she's aware I caught her looking, she moves her gaze away again and takes a long sip of her drink. For a moment, I believe she'll come right to where we are standing and interrupt us. But she obviously doesn't.

I see myself battling between two choices when I see her standing up and walking to the counter, just to pay and leave. 

—I'm really sorry, Tania —she stops her endless monologue—. I really have to leave right now.

—It's Tonya —she laughs, uncomfortable—. But sure, don't worry. Do you have Instagram or somewhere I can find you?

—Ask Brooke —I point to her—. She'll help you out with that —I start walking towards the door.

—Can't believe you're making me do that again —Brooke rolls her eyes when she hears me say that. 

Most of the girls are never that into me to reach out to a stranger and ask them about me. But those who do, get some lame excuse from someone else whenever they ask for my phone number or social media. Brooke is brilliant for that. Last time, she managed to say I was some kind of hustler, fishing for a new victim. Others probably just said they didn't know me, which is true. 

When I head outside, I see her body standing in the middle of the pavement, her head turning left and right, while she keeps checking her phone. 

—Do you need a ride? 

#fanfic #ff #jungkook #jeon jungkook #jungkookxreader #jk #bts #wattpad #kookie #smut #jungkook smut #tattoistjk #tattooau #jungkook pov #armpirate

[lakesbian]

What would Alec do with Panacea/Dauphine’s power, anywho? I feel like it wouldn’t end well for anyone

he's actually not one of the worst options for it to go to because he's primarily interested in Chilling and remaining Safely Away From Scrutinizing Public Eye. and he also doesn't have morals developed well enough to have a moral crisis & subsequent explosive mental health break over it. and he also doesn't feel most of his emotions strongly enough to be too impulsive with it. it would make his rare Joker Moment significantly worse, but he wouldn't be like...Worse Than Amy in terms of overall impact on the world. and he's actually more likely to fix what he fucked up than she is, given a week or two to realize "oh wait, i shouldn't have done that, actually."

jean-paul, however, would be a fucking nightmare. jean-paul would be brainwashing people left and fucking right. the heartbroken is his cult fambily now and every body love him and so nice to him all of the time forever and give him hugs and buy him snacks and play video games with him too :) and they all hit dad with rocks for him until he dies :) and then cherie stops being mean to him and gives him fun outfits :) and all his brothers think he's cool and don't call him gay anymore :) and his mom likes him now and cooks him mac and cheese :) and everything is fixed forever :)

y'know, until the system intervenes w/ intent to treat him as a cult leader on par w/ his father & detain him & then tosses him in the birdcage when he inevitably fights back by making any scary capes or cops breaking into his house and home shit themselves to death. so yeah it'd suck for him. but if you just like. dropped the powers on Normal Alec all of a sudden in the middle of his undersider era he'd be p sensible and lowkey about them. oh and he and aisha would do some freak shit. but in a cute way. :). like how dauphine melds her and victor's arms together when he's flying her for the first time. entirely consensual freak shit which she explicitly requests, as in canon, but still absurdly hyperintimate. highschool first ever bestfriendships are just like that. brian and taylor would also hate him being around aisha 10x more and also probably intermittently get paranoid that he Did Something to her so that would suck. it would make his life worse but this would not stop him from yearning for it. like i said he's like a dog begging 4 chocolate wholly unaware it's going to murder him if he ever gets any

#ask #worm spoilers #scarf don't look

[siriannatan]

Solutions to Insomnia - Scott fWhip

My quest to drag S1 fWhip through terrible situations with a comfort Scott on the since continues, it would seem…

fWhip could not sleep at all. Not an unusual occurrence. He became known for skipping sleep. Staying up later than healthy. Yawning and falling asleep in weird places. It became so normal even his closest allies, family stopped worrying. Just a fWhip thing, he'll be fine.

The only person who seemed to hate it was... fWhip himself.

He stared at the ceiling. Unable to sleep. Vaguely aware it was nearly midnight... So much for going to bed early. He stared at the ceiling and thought back to the worst moments of his accursed insomnia.  When and why he chopped his hair off and is still refusing to let anyone fix the mess it is. Not like anyone expects him to be put together in any way. Not like his allies cared if he was doing okay. They would just leave him sleeping in their meeting room and not even tell his advisors where he was. Sending all of Grimlands into a panic.

But that was two weeks ago. Things were fine even if Gem was still unhappy with the whole Rivendell alliance and fWhip's arranged marriage to the younger prince. But that was fWhip's business. And Sausage and Pearl voted yes. And it wasn't like he was anything special himself. No half-dragon. No wizard. No Pearl.

Just plain, normal fWhip with only his brain and a bad knee. Totally useless without his crossbow and explosives. Not like he could have any good ideas that did not involve explosives.

He sighed, turning to his side for what felt like the millionth time that night. Why can't he just sleep normally? Why did he have that unplanned nap earlier, after running one last time over this year's plan to get the heating in town for the upcoming winter.

fWhip was about to go and find something to read or do until he passed out when there was a knock on his balcony door. He was not expecting any guests tonight. None of his allies would come to him with any issues. With a yawn and heavy, exhausted steps fWhip walked up to the window. Not bothering with the lone robe tossed over a chair.

To his shock, on his balcony was none other than his fiance Scott of Rivendell. Looking at it all like he didn't just fly all the way from Rivendell. Which he had to have done to get to Grimlands before any note made it. If one was sent at all which it should. "Oh... Hello... I apologize if I woke you up..." the elf chuckled as always oozing confidence.

"I wasn't sleeping anyway..." fWhip shrugged totally not sure what to do with Scott. "I won't have angry elven military knocking on my door looking for you tomorrow?" he asked to start with. Just to be sure and let Scott inside. It was slowly getting chilly in Grimlands.

"No, no, I told my parents I want to visit you... Since we're supposed to get married and stuff..." Scott clarified, looking about the dark room. "I kind of underestimated how long it'd take to get here, I was not counting on making it for dinner but still not this late..." he chuckled nervously. Looking briefly at fWhip's messy bed.

fWhip hummed and nodded along. Forcing his brain to try and think if any guest rooms are ready at all and ready enough to house his future husband. Unfortunately, he rarely had guests. "Unfortunately I didn't have any guests lately so I'm afraid my guest rooms aren't quite suitable..." he sighed, messing his already messy hair even further. He couldn't even offer to give Scott his own bed in it's current state.

Scott just chuckled. "I don't mind sharing if you don't. We are supposed to get married, eventually," he hummed, shooting fWhip a smirk that could only be described as flirty. "We don't have to tell my brother, he'd flip over something as simple as just sleeping in the same bed," he added, still looking over in a very flirty manner.

"I'm afraid I'd make for a terrible bed mate." fWhip chuckled regretfully.

"Why so?" Scott asked with a raised eyebrow. His short coat was already off and hung over a chair.

fWhip chewed the words in his mouth for a second. "Insomnia. I have trouble falling asleep and sleeping," he said, deciding Scott should know ahead of time. 

The elf just giggled. A very nice sound to fWhip's exhausted brain. "Have you tried sharing a bed with anyone? It could help, let your brain relax, knowing you're not alone?" he offered, with another of his many layers being removed.

At this point, fWhip was ready to try anything to finally sleep well so he just shrugged and agreed. He could deal with consequences if anyone found them too early. And offered to loan Scott something to sleep in. The elf 'forgot' to pack anything. fWhip guessed he just wanted to leave the palace in Rivendell. Luckily at least some of fWhip's sleep clothes fit the elf. Why must Scott be so tall?

Once they were in bed, Scott wasted no time cuddling up to fWhip. He was cold but not unpleasantly. More like comfortably chilly. fWhip could quickly feel himself drifting away as Scott chattered about helping him fix his hair as he played with it. He just hummed along as he slowly fell asleep in Scott's arms. Probably his best sleep in a long time...

If he didn't have THE dream. A red sheep looking at him with big, black eyes. Unblinking. With nothing but an endless shallow sea of blood and red fog rolling about. Dark grey sky with no clouds or sun. Blood Sheep, words came to his mind on their own. Technically the main god of Grimlands...

fWhip could not move or do anything other than hold the Sheep's stare. It felt like an eternity and like just a few seconds at once when She let out an echoing 'baaa'. And the vision was over. And fWhip woke up. 

He was still in his bedroom. Still in Scott's arms. The sun has long risen. And fWhip felt rested like he never did. Weirdly thirsty...

#my stuff #my stories #empires smp #fanfiction #empiresshipping #empires fwhip #empires scott #scfwhip

[mamamittens]

Major Tears of The Kingdom Spoilers while I act a sentimental fool and nerd with a "what if" scenario

Okay, so I was thinking (oh God not again) about the Divine Beasts and the Light Dragon.

If you don't know about the deal with the Light Dragon yet and don't want to be spoiled, scroll away sweet summer child! Same goes for the final battle in Tears of the Kingdom!

So it really does bother me that the divine Beasts and the champions (baring Mipha) are just??? Gone??? Like, everyone acts like they never existed?!? And it's unclear if Link in ToTK went through BoTW cause so much of the landscape is different?!? The shrine of awakening is straight up gone, the ancient towers missing, and you don't have any of your shit but the horses?!? Why?!?!?

Like, Tulin (my precious baby who has done no wrong, ever) is referred to as the first Rito to create his own wind but like.... RIVALI DID THAT?!? Like, he had to be squat so maybe they mean in midair but still?!? And Yonobu has a slightly different ability from the shield, like he lost it or something?!? Why?!?

And the divine Beasts are totally gone, no one mentions them and it's not like they were small?!?

Where did they go?!?

Naturally, I had a fun idea for a little... Fixy fix.

Imagine if, when Hyrule Castle went up (again) and all that shit started up, the Divine Beasts were still parked right where they were when you defeated Calamity Ganon (maybe his spirit self and defeating the calamity is why hydrated Ganon has to hide his ass away under the castle on top of being bent over by Rauru for thousands of years--yeah I said what I said and I know exactly how that sounds.

But they didn't activate. They were totally silent while their respective people suffered. And because of that, the races assumed they'd been abandoned by their protectors (baring Mipha, who the Zora assumed she'd simply fulfilled her duty with the end of the Calamity and moved on). And that's why they don't talk about the champions aside from maybe a few hushed comments, a bit bitter that they'd been left to fend for themselves.

And as you fight the area's bosses, there is like, a midway point where suddenly the Divine Beasts jolts and fires a single attack, triggering the second stage before powering down again. When you beat the boss, the Divine Beasts shudder back online and trample over to the nearest chasm, diving in. Maybe a stray voice line from the previous champion about it not being over yet--referring to the round two fight below in the Depths.

And the Divine Beasts are understandably fucked up from the fall, eventually you find them near the boss area.

I thought it'd be cool if Vah Medo was partially frozen over by Colgera with one of the weak spots now over the engine and inaccessible to be hit, so it's left for last. And when you do go to try and bust it open, a sudden updraft sends you flying as it explodes, Ghost Rivali mocking you for needing his help. Beast defeated once and for all (the respawn is a normal variant), you receive the Rivali's Gale again accessed the same way as in BoTW so it doesn't mess with Tulin's Vow.

Vah Naboris is grounded, legs broken (RIP) and the Gibdo Queen almost sneaks up on you but a bolt stops her. Halfway part is the Queen lurching to his inside Naboris' chest cavity while shooting out spawns perhaps? And going in to kick ass until the health is gone triggers a cutscenes of Naboris powering up and electrocuting the shit outta here. Urbosa giving you her lighting attack, letting Riju's be a long range attack and Urbosa being close range area of effect.

Vah Rudania perhaps triggering a spray of lazers or trapping the Gohma? Maybe it skitters up a wall out of reach until Rudania skuttles over and slams it back down for a finishing blow before you're given the improved shield ability? Sounds neat to me, honestly.

Vah Ruta probably starts spraying water, giving the mud spots a time limit and perhaps slamming down the trunk when the Mucktorok tries to go inside to take over the Divine Beast? Finally, you get Mipha's ability again, requiring no button prompt.

They all have their cheeky little lines before stating that it's time they rest and let the Sages handle things from here.

As for the Light Dragon, you absolutely should have been able to tell at least Purah and Impa about Zelda. They both have no idea how to help but set up a station to observe her move through the sky, maybe tooling up towers for extra height to reach for additional research?!? And they decide to craft a gift to show Zelda that they believe in her and maybe see if there's truly nothing left--thats right, you make her a flower crown of Silent Princess's. Maybe with Champion fabric woven in alongside mini flags of the kingdoms, idk. And they're naturally upset when it appears to do nothing but produce a single tear.

This builds up to the boss battle where a cut scene plays just as Ganon takes off with Link. Purah and Impa turn their gaze to where Zelda previously was flying peacefully only to see her gunning towards Ganon.

"I-Is that?!?"

Sages might limp into frame, Riju and Tulin carried by Yonobu and Sidon, all beaten to hell and back but alive.

"It's her!"

And maybe the addition of the flower crown means you slowly heal while riding her to get a good vantage to kick Ganon's ass, idk.

Maybe she has the flower crown still when she turns back for extra points. Her bob braided with flowers and beads representing the crown in the end cutscene, the flower crown displayed in her study.

The Champions turn into Poes at the end, either drifting off as they finally move on or to be collected by link and given to the bargainer statues. Maybe for minis of the Divine Beasts with their Champions that'll be displayed in your house?! Or flags or something idk, something sweet and commemorative.

Anyway! That's just my thought for something that'd be really cool and sorta poetic. Really burying the past and letting it move on, perhaps with a few speeches from the different regions about the champions trusting them to handle hardships on their own now, giving the task of defending the realm to a new generation.

Or maybe I'm full of shit, idk. But I do gotta go to bed, so there's that 🤭

#tears of the kingdom #legend of zelda #spoilers #light dragon #divine beasts #alt endings and quest linez #give me back my son #i love that asshole bird #he just wants to prove himself #and the whole gang is so damn wholesome #i want Tulin to recieve and approving nod from Rivali alongside the first sage

[1-800-bloop-12]

Algiophobia ┈┈┈┈․° 2

ˊˊ𝘿𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙝𝙪𝙧𝙩 𝙢𝙚..ˊˊ

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🇲 🇴 🇳 🇩 🇦 🇾

ˊˊSchool sucks huh?.."

I looked up at the strange person, holding my book bag tight, weird thing to do, especially with a stranger. I don't know you..

ˊˊ Yeah.. Thankfully, we're done with exams and stuff.. Today's the last day.ˊˊ

ˊˊ Well, I'm glad you made it.ˊˊ

I looked up at them, blinking slowly while a smile spreading on my face, ˊˊ Thank you.ˊˊ I said. They only nodded, I guess it was a You're Welcome.

I looked down at my phone, seeing no notifications as usual. I huffed, looking back up a far waiting for the bus to at least some what come. ˊˊ They drive so slow..ˊˊ I groaned, looking back down at my phone, deciding to at least scroll on tiktok or Pinterest.

Maybe I should skip school today...

But that's very bad.

Very, very, very.. Bad-

ˊˊ But it'd be worth it..ˊˊ I stood up from the bench, picking up my book bag and putting it over my shoulder. I walked home, putting headphones on and turning on Beautiful Stranger, reminding me of last week. A smile formed on my face softly moving to music.

* Maybe we would have exchanged a few words.

ˊˊ A fairy tale moment could have occurredˊˊ Softly twirling the cord of the headphones, the people only do small glances before going back to what they're doing. I forgot to plan something.

What do I do today?

* But a beautiful stranger will have to remain.

My eyes glanced up at the birds on the wire, pretty normal, huh? Anyways, maybe I should go to the mall. My parents gave me money for it so I guess it would be nice.

* A stranger until I see him again.

I wanted to get a few things from hot topic, But I don't mind chilling at the food court it would make my nose pleased. I don't have a smell/food kink..

Is it weird that I had to say that? I guess so. Who would be thinking you would have that?

Taking out my house keys realizing I was near my house, opening my bottom book bag pocket, taking out my housekeys, and hearing the chains and keys make their usual noise.

I saw my cat, well.. A cat that I fed at my doorstep as if it was waiting for me, meowing as it rolled off its back and on its legs making their way to me, I crouched and petted the cat. ˊˊ Hey man..ˊˊ I coo'd feeling my heart tingle from the cuteness of the cat.

Why are cats so adorable?..

* See him again. 💞

I stood up, going back to my business, walking up the doorstep, hearing the soft paws on the ground and the cat purring. Unlocking my door, I looked down, making sure the cat didn't slip inside, but its adorable eyes looking at me made me wanna scream.

ˊˊ I'll feed you after I get dressed, okay buddy.ˊˊ

ˊˊ Meow!ˊˊ

Adorable..

The cat sat down by the door when I closed it, hearing its fading out purring through the door. Poor cat, why would its owner leave it behind? Now, it has to survive on its own. You could've given it to a neighbor.

Like me!

I place my bookbag next to the door, also taking my jacket off and hanging it on the coat rack. I walk up the stairs and straight to my bedroom, taking off my headphones, fixing my hair so it doesn't look weird.

Closing the door behind me, I look at my desk filled with papers with drawings and my scripts, taking off my shoes kicking them to the end of my bed.

Walking up to my desk and sitting on the spinny chair, looked down and realized something.

Where was my one of mini country balls?..

I remember there was a tiny Belarus here.. WHAT THE FLIP BRUV 😨

Anyways, I picked up one of my unfinished drawings, it was a reference of my dream. Sorry, it just sticked with me even though it's Been like...

2 W E E K S. . .

I groaned as I rubbed my eyes, placing the picture down, getting up from the chair so I can change into my jammies.

Uh.. After I changed, I realized I was supposed to feed the kitty Kat, walking out my room, being mad careful with having socks on and walking on wooden floors.

Walking into the kitchen, I saw my tiny Belarus on the counter, I stared at her.

Ma'am.

Who moved you-

I blinked slowly before turning away, ˊˊ Weird..ˊˊ I mumbled as I walked over to the lower cabinets, grabbing a can of tuna. Mumbling under my breath.

Grabbing an can opener, I positioned the can and start turning the handle. Watching the can opener doing its work. After that I took the loose top off and drained some of the juice out.

Walking to my front door I unlocked it, looking down to see the cat still there. Yeah, this cat loves me. It's meowing putting me back to reality as I shook my head a bit.

Placing the can down, i watched the cat go ravish on the tuna. I scratch their head before going back inside, locking the door as always.

Walking to the kitchen and looking at the counter. The lil Belarus ball was still there.. Just staring into the oblivion.

I'm still wondering who moved you missy-

Picking her up, being EXTRA GENTLE CUZ THIS IS MY BABY!!!! And placing her in my palm, it was adorable-

Walking up the stairs and to my room. I was just coo'ing and babying the little Belarus in my hand, I have an obsession with cute things especially if they're small..

Sitting down at my desk putting her down next to the tiny Poland ball she was originally with, yeah don't move like that ok girl-

I picked up my phone, looking at it with a massive bored face. I can either scroll through tiktok, go on character ai, draw or sleep.

Cuz I barely have any friends and they probably went to school so.. Yeah..

I groaned, placing the phone down. Getting up from my spinny chair and off to my bed, flopping down on it as I turned to my side. Getting all snuggly in blankets and pillows, my scrunched up face now into a calm one.

Why are beds so comfy.. They're the best creations on earth I swear.

My mind slowly started to go blank, only thinking of lil scenarios in my head. Things I could've been, imaging myself with my Comfort Character, or just my favorite fandom/show. It's infinite.

It's like your thoughts are a Void.

It never ends.

ˊˊI won't hurt you.. Just trust me ˊˊ

Fluttering my eyes open I seem too be in a flower field. I was wearing a white dress/Blouse with black pants (or shorts). I could see the shadow of a bow in my hair too, it's two ribbons flowing in the wind.

Standing up, my legs felt really weak as if it was glass on the brink of breaking. But I managed because I was strong 💪. I just looked around, it was sadly a blue hour vibe though..

The fog and the slight light as the sun was below the horizon. So it couldn't really give it's original golden orange color as it usually does. I just watched the Wheat and flowers flow in the wind.

There was a tree...

I started walking to the said tree, with the best of my ability. But I madE IT, yeah mama raised a warrior man. Sitting under the tree looking afar as I watched over the flower field. It's so peaceful.

Sadly it's just dream.. 'But who said it is.'

I know that voice- Looking beside me I saw him but his face was more clearer and less blurry than last time. It felt like I was going to cry.

'You missed me didn't you? Well I missed you too Schatz' He chuckled. I growled softly punched his arm as I felt tears stream down my face, his laugh made me feel comforted. 'You bastard! You left me like that for weeks!'

I hiccuped and sobbed, this was to much. The man I danced with and had me so motivated was Austria-Hungary?! This is so..stupid!

'I'm so sorry, but I was busy with all the meetings and my family to come back. I decided that I'll spend my few moments with you' His arms wrapped around me, softly pulling me into his chest. His warmth calming me down from the break down I had.

'Is life getting better for you Schatz?..' He asked. I shook my head slowly, fiddling with my fingers. 'Mom as been at work a lot, on her days off she goes out. My dad is living somewhere else..' I felt my eyes droop after that.

'Barely have friends either, I do but they barely talk to me..' Letting out a bumpy breath I can hear him hum at my answer to his question.

I can feel his hand petting my head in a comforting way. As if he was trying to bring my tension down. It was working either way..

'I just wonder why I can't stay here for ever.. It's not like I have a purpose..' I whispered, closing my eyes as I rested my head on his chest. He sighed. 'I know you want to, but it's hard because you want to live in your mind.'

'Somewhere you can be free, and do anything you want.' He said 'looking' at the leaves falling and the soon rising sun making the blue hour fade away.

'But you need to wait for me, Okay.. I'll help lead you.' he said. My instincts told me he was getting up so i moved. He stood up, wiping his pants as he looked down at me, who was still on their own knees.

Crouching down as he held my sad tired face. 'Ich liebe dich.' Was the last thing he said before fading away, leaving me once again. Golden hour as now arisen. Laying on the soft grass watching the leaves fall and flower field blow in the wind.

How peaceful.. 'It certainly is dear..'

ˊˊI'll protect you from all things I've seen.. ˊˊ

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#countryhumans x reader #countryhumans #x reader #songfic #comfort

[fixinglitg]

BOAT PARTY: IT CAN BE GOOD? PART 3

So, part 3 huh. Wow this is definitely longer than I thought. I think I'm just gonna continue this up until the point of when you choose between Lily or Aj because WOWSERS. ANYWAYS, check out the previous and following parts out below, or continue reading for more!

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 4 | part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7

So we're gonna start off with the scene you get right as Episode 3 begins.

I like this scene, and I also dislike it. And those first two screenshots are why I dislike it. I don't really like people comparing or being like "oh I'm better because of x y and z" since it comes across as a little egotistical. I don't really know how I'd fix this, but maybe it'd go a little bit like:

AJ: "It's almost a bit... I don't know, it's surreal to think of someone letting you go."

Gabe: "Would you?"

AJ: "Absolutely not. I'd wanna stay and talk, even if we're a little angry. I'd never let you go."

Basically, it's the same thing, but worded in a way that doesn't make it seem like she's making Lily to be this bad person and she's much better. It's more just answering a question asked after stating something normal.

And then this next scene is the positive. I like how she's opening up to us.

Not like Bonnie who thinks she has a chance with S7 MC despite the fact that I've given her fifty shades of no.

Because there's actually something there. Chemistry. Now this is why I think the route has to be done in a way where the person you end up with isn't the one you wanted, and instead you go after "the one" during the boat party.

Because I headcannon this to be AJ and Gabe still liking each other after AJ walked when Lily stole Gabe at the end. Just like with the other LI's if you get stolen. It makes more sense this way. Of course, they were hit by the post casa amnesia that a lot of people in the game suffer (cough cough, season 2) but realistically this would be, well, realistic.

Though rather than saying "do you think something could happen between us?" I'd rather say "Do you think we could have something again? Just like the villa?"

That would be better for the whole idea I have.

Finally, the scene ends with this option. I only chose the middle one and not the top because in the game timeline, these two have supposedly never been together.

But if it knew that we had, then I'd be picking the top one, and the text would be more like-

AJ: "Do you think we could have something again? Just like the villa?"

Gabe: "I'd want that. The feelings I had for you in the villa didn't exactly go once you left. They've been... Lingering."

This whole scene ends with AJ going back into her Cabin, and Gabe saying how she hasn't felt these butterflies for a while. Which all in all is super cute, and you can just feel the romance.

These parts are getting shorter as they go, but I'm mainly trying to show you the scene and explain why it's good. Don't worry, there's probably gonna be a full recap at the end. I just wanna breakdown each part with the new LI first, and then put it all together.

Anyways, if you wanna see the next part, go back to the top!

#litg #litg double trouble #litg fanfic #litg ff #litg mc #litg s2 #litg s6 #litg s7 #fanfic #fanfiction #litg season 6 #litg spoilers #litg stick or twist #litg season 7 #litg s1 #litg s3 #litg s4 #litg s5 #love island the game #love island game #litg season 4 #litg season 3 #litg season 2 #litg season 1 #love island #litg boat party

[seldomscilence16]

Whumptober Day 5: 

"You better pray I don't get up this time round."

Debri | pinned down | "It's broken."

Fandom: Owl House (canon divergence)

Prompt used: Debri, Pinned, "Its broken."

So honestly, no idea where this one stands timeline wise, cause I moved so much around. So its just like… its own timeline, so please bare with me and go with the flow. It shouldn't be too confusing hopefully, but basically; after the portal was destroyed but before the day of Unity, however literally everything that happened before and in between is up in the air order wise lol. So enjoy some Luz angst  

Also, I guess as a PS: sorry for the spacing lol, after last year im writing everything in google then posting and fixing the spacing for the whole thing... meh. If people complain I'll try lol.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

…

The Isles, by normal human standards, were a terrifyingly dangerous place. Luz, despite her human title, was far from normal- no matter how much the world wanted her to be- and found the Isles both weird and positively fantastic! Even with all the mortal danger and stuff. 

She'd done a lot here, been through a lot, stuff no one at her old school would believe. Still, no matter how much she's seen and experienced, some things still surprised her. But this time… this time she was alone. And boy was she in trouble. 

The fight had been her fault. Despite what they'd all been through, there were still some things they just… didn't talk about. And when things are bottled up, they're bound to explode eventually. But it's no excuse, she shouldn't have said what she said, shouldn't have yelled, and shouldn't have run off. She loves her friends, her family in this place far from her mom, and yet she always manages to ruin everything. And now, she supposed she was getting what she deserved. 

They'd been on a little trip of sorts- Willow, Gus, Amity, Hunter and herself- Luz thinks it may have had something to do with the emperor but she'd been… distracted lately. When Luz had turned to run after their fight, she's pretty sure the others flew off- they had their staff's, Luz had caught a ride with Amity because Eda needed Owlbert, so Luz was stranded, she's so stupid… she deserved it- and it was a good thing too apparently. That meant they were out of danger, and that Luz would die the most anticlimactic death ever after all she'd been through. 

Well, she supposed what led up to it wasn't like… completely boring. But she's also mad at herself for letting this all happen after she started a stupid fight because she's terrible-

She'd run off, into forest-y darkness, eyes wet but cheeks dry- she refused to cry, she couldn't, she wouldn't stop if she started and she feared she didn't have enough, that she didn't deserve to cry- and hadn't stopped until she was forced to. The trees were dense here, but that wasn't what stopped her, no it was the demon's trap. A simple little snare shed stepped in, that dragged her up to a crude little house in the trees. 

The demon itself wasn't unlike Grometheus. A grotesque formless thing that seemed to peer into Luz's very soul, but unlike the Grom monster, this thing did not change into her deepest fears but rather ranted in a cliche crotchety voice about Luz and her fellow trespassers being its next meal. Then proceeded to- in great detail- describe the process of how it'd eat them. Luz got lost about 2 seconds in when the words failed to either translate or compute with her brain, but it sounded like a truly awful way to go out. (but at least it wouldn't have been a boring headstone.)

Luz would blame the blood rushing to her head for her delayed reaction of fighting back- because it was far better than the reality- but as soon as she registered that the demon was going to hunt her friends down, she pulled some glyphs out and fought back. And truly, this thing was far easier to fight than Grometheus, despite its quick reflexes, but Luz had not taken into account the house's whereabouts. One wrong ice pillar, one hit to the support holding this house up, one second to panic, before the whole place crumbled and Luz's world went dark.

Waking up had been met with pain, and a bit of surprise at waking at all. She'd thought for sure the fall would kill her one way or the other, but no, she woke to find the sky a darker color, the remnants of the house broken around her, and her inability to move. Between the debri of the house itself, and the branches of the trees that had come with it, Luz was truly and utterly pinned, trapped, and buried. And after that fight… and the fact that even she didn't know where she was, there was no way she'd be found any time soon. She would die here, from her injuries no doubt- she was in too much pain, she felt like a dog that's been hit by a semi- and sure she deserved it, but… she wished she had left on a better note. To tell her friends she hadnt meant any of it, that she was sorry, that it's all her fault. 

Something creaks, crashes, a dirt cloud fills the air and she cant help her cough, despite the agony that rips through her,

"It's broken." She had really hoped to never hear that voice again, "My home, you broke my home!" The screech is ear splitting, and Luz can barely see- is it blood, dust, or hair in her eye she cant tell- but she can feel the debri tremble as the Demon lumbers about, throwing things, rifling through the chaos-

Looking for Luz. 

Well… she supposed she might get a notable ending after all. 'Here lies Luz the Human, killed by her own stupidity, and an angry demon.' Hm, her mama will hurtle a chancla at Luz's spirit when she hears. 

Another screech fills the air and the weight on top of Luz gets impossibly heavier, despite herself she cant help the wet scream that rips from her throat as something moves that shouldn't. She wonders idly if a rib can bend enough to rip through her back, though she supposes she shouldn't be alive long to feel it if that's the case.

A silence rings after her scream, and she bites her lip hard enough to bleed in the hopes the Demon had not heard, or at least couldn't find the direction of it. Instead a cackle fills the air, the stuff around her trembles, and Luz knows she's been found. 

"There you are child, come, it's time for dinner!" The emphasis on dinner is not needed, but Luz can appreciate a bit, even a fatal one. 

As more and more debri is moved, she comes face to face-ish once again with the demon. Ironically, even if she wasn't quite literally pinned, she thinks that stare would do the same, there's a finality to it. 

She hopes everyone will be okay. She hopes King won't be too sad, that Eda won't blame herself, that Odalia will eat dirt before the others arrive back to town, she… hopes for so many things she has no time to hope about, because appendages are forming from the blob and she knows the process is about to begin- even if she doesn't even know what the dang process is!

"Step away from our friend!" 

Awe, they still call me fr-

Wait,

"Guys! What-" her shocked response to their arrival is cut off by another shriek, this close it has her ears ringing painfully and with no hands to cover them, she simply hopes her eardrums are okay. 

Willow and Amity take the lead, Gus taking up the rear, the demon stumbling backwards as they distract it from Hunter's arrival by Luz's side. 

"Titan… hold on, I'll figure out how to get this off you-" 

"You guys came." She mutters it, against her better wishes, but with teary eyes she stares up at Hunter as he looks at her in shock.

"Of course we did. Just cause we fought doesn't mean we would leave you here." He seems hurt by her words so she forces her voice to work.

"I deserved this, I was so mean, I didn't mean any of it, i'm sorry, I-" 

"You did not deserve this!" He takes a breath to calm himself, focusing again on trying to lift stuff, "We all said stupid things, and it's obvious there are underlying problems, we will talk it out later. But right now you need help, and I have no idea what's NOT broken." 

"I love you guys." 

"Yeah yeah" the blush on his face says what he can't and Luz lets a sense of safety wash over her. 

It'd be fine, even if it was broken, they'd fix what was broke.

#whumptober 2023 #no.5 #debri #pinned down #“its broken” #the owl house #fic #talk of dying tw #injury tw #self hate tw #luz talks bad about herself #luz noceda angst #demon oc #threats of being eaten #near death experiences #found family #hunter and luz

[chibinightmares]

❰Part 1 | ESCAPE❱ Strawberries and Bunnies

so I was shown an interesting BL and it had this little explanation for Omegaverse things and omg it's helpful but it doesn't include things like "fated mates" and what not while the concept still confuses me cause I keep imagining everyone has like cute fluffy ears and what not-- sob

The clock barely let out a chime as you stepped out of the shower, drying your hair with a plastic container bitten down in your mouth to prevent it from being dropped or simply just going missing due to the house gremlins that seemingly invade everytime you need something important. Damn gremlins.

Hanging the towel up alongside the rest of the few that you own, your attention was drawn to your phone as the alarm went off a second time. Alerting you that it was only quarter after five, meaning you had plenty of time to put on some proper clothing and prep your mask that was required for work.. though one thing needed to be done first.

Grabbing a sweet flavored drink from the mini cooler that was directly outside your bathroom door, you had it stored there alongside the box that held important documents and medications that you chose to take.. why? The answer was simple as it was brought back into your mind as you buttoned up the white shirt you were required to wear as per attire for the work that you did. You worked as a hostess at a rather well-known night club named "ESCAPE", a popular joint for both men and women to spend their evenings with hosts of all kinds to forget about the boring, dramatic or even downright stressful days that they had endured.

You opened up the drink and popped the pill out of it's almost adult-proof container, honestly it felt as though it was foolproof if not for the little pull down edge on the top, and downed a gulp of liquid before forcing the bitter tasting capsule down your throat. Truth be told, as you stared at your reflection, you were an Omega working at a club that only allowed for Betas and Alphas. Normally, if anyone had come to find out this little secret of yours then you'd have quite some hell to pay.. but surely that day will never happen. Especially since you were a popular host.

It was an unfortunate reality you were forced to deal with, since the medication itself couldn't be taken more than once per week or else you'd start losing yourself to dizziness, fatigue and even moments of blurry conscientious.. not to say those didn't already happen but it'd make it worse. You were already known as a semi-airhead due to having to take the medication but thankfully that helped with your charm. The customers and patrons who came in seemed to adore you for your "cute" appearance and easily sociable personality.

Letting out a small smile as you finished up with your appearance with twenty-five minutes to spare until you needed to get going, you started to put your belongings together while spritzing a familiar and calming perfume on one wrist to apply to the other while taking a second to spare to gush about your own appearance. Generally speaking, it made you happy-- hell, even prideful, to see the outfit that you adorned. The semi-tucked in white button-up shirt with purple ribbons tied neatly in your collar accented nicely alongside your black bottoms, having been given the choice between a skirt that barely reached mid-thigh and some very comfortable dress pants. This was all you could see within the mirror as you fixed up the cuffs of your sleeve before grabbing the bag you needed for work which contained your essentials-- oh! You mentally scold yourself as you grab your phone which you had left sitting out, turning it on briefly to see the hour as it the screen came to life.

It was finally time to leave.

#omegaverse #x reader #female reader #gender neutral clothing #omega reader #ESCAPE omegaverse

[princessslut6969]

--k but really? This was me 2008-9. Abusive ex-bf, cut off from every single classmate especially friends. Lowest lowest low. Moved out to live alone. Better that way...

Except I'm still human. Literally afraid of the dark. And the only people I could risk talking to, were his friends he left behind. They basically had enough power to not be included in the threats to not talk to me, but if they ever wanted, they could turn me over to him. And that level of anxiety became my new normal, that it didn't even register most of the time. One of those friends said he didn't agree with even what he knew that he'd done & said, & was even aware that hearing only 1/2 the story was not the whole picture. So I took the risk of going over, telling him everything, in the hopes of not just sinking to the bottom, even if it blew up in my face, at least something would happen, which meant there was a chance for it to be something good. A resolution to fix this terrible threat I was living under. Maybe he'd talk some sense into him for me. (Hope sucks.) The first time he invited me to a party, I again jumped at the chance, for anything, even if it was a horrible idea, even if anything bad happened. Just something to keep trying, keep living, anything to feel something. A short burst of normalcy & fun. (I was enrolled in my own college still, but basically not attending & if I did, didn't do any work.) Only --unrelated-- one of the guys who lived at the apt it was at, was high on some kind of rx drugs, and drinking, and started fighting. Lil guy, though, but everyone else was like, whoa, not okay. Most people had left already, then he caused the last few to leave. That friend who invited me, called the cops on him. THEN told me after the fact. "Uh, then I need to leave. I'M NOT 21!" (20.5) Cursing ensues, he hadn't realized, but we left immediately. He was in an awkward interim between moving out of the dorms & into the apt we were actually just at. But at the moment, his stuff was still at someone else's place entirely. Where there was only a blowup mattress... for the 2 of us. I wouldn't say we had even flirted at all. But shared bed (omg human connection), turned into snuggling (omg touch starved), turned into kissing (omg it'd been so long), turned into him cleeearly reaching to finger me. Thaaat, I wasn't sure about. I was clearly shirking away from that. He clearly got that, so while he didn't advance, he also wouldn't retreat. I panicked for only the prospect of having nothing in me but actively seething hate for relationships & dating, etc. Terrified I'd get invested & emotionally broken further than I had ever thought possible again. "I'm not really looking for a relationship right now." "Neither am I." Oh, good! But, still not sure for some reason about the fingering. Until, that is, he said the magic words. "I wanna eat you out." OH, WELL, WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST SAY SO!

No way I was passing that up.

And I got hooked. Within a week, I asked to come back for more. And more, and more. Virgin still, but only for 3 more months. It became routine. I didn't pay towards drinks at the parties & sometimes he paid for food. On nights I was there, & sometimes only for the night, he'd drive me back into the city the next morning. Once I, too, moved out of the city to nearby him + co, but was still attending college in the city, he would drive me back and forth. Instead of paying for a $230 railpass. Which was explicitly negotiated. ...so it was a different type of "railpass." And I secretly loved that aspect of it. It was awesome sex every night, that he wanted. I could certainly ask, though, but while he'd sometimes say no, I felt like I couldn't say no. Not that that was ever a problem, actually. Him simply asking/starting something, with me having that in mind, would instantly turn me on, without fail. I mean, I probably did refuse sometimes, if I had a very good reason. He was extremely chill, very staunch on etiquette, generous & accommodating. But really, I loved *feeling* like I couldn't say no. It would get & keep me so turned on constantly. Like, I had to have sex with him, to pay for my rides. Instantly wet & cock hungry. There were lots of times while hanging out around other people though, where he'd do or not do something to be rude to make a point to them that we weren't dating. During parties we never stayed around each other. Other people did try to tell me like, that when i wasn't around, he talked like we weren't dating, etc, he'd be flirting with other girls. At least these convos happened when I was drunk, so I just felt extra naughty in giggling, "Oh, we're NOT dating, no." Only a couple times I remember him being like, hey, it's been a lil while, where's mine? You want me to drive you, then, ya know... Well that was enough itself to remedy it. Loved being a slut with safe consistent dick & no relationship to worry about, cuz, god I was so lonely & hopelessly depressed otherwise... . . . P.S.- While we were in that routine of him driving me to & from every single day, & specifically even in the routine of anal every night... That was when I was working on editing a short film in this same computer lab, same computer, same times, same days, all quarter long. When, week 2, this guy came in... "Is there a class in here?" Now, HIM-- First of all, I didn't even hear what he had said cuz my brain was literally screaming YES so loudly. No, there wasn't a class in there. He got embarrassed, thinking I was laughing at him, but as he ducked & quickly headed through the room to the back, my brain next went, Oh, there you are. Only, I had never seen him before in my life. Again, I shook it from my head, cuz relationships BAD. Those thoughts of recognizing a soulmate like that - all bs that my subconscious just spit back out randomly. Stupid, doesn't mean anything. And this guy? Oh, I instantly knew I wouldn't be able to FWB this guy. If I let this go 1 neuron farther, I would ruin something wonderful. Didn't make sense, but felt like, DO NOT TOUCH, both for my own good, & I would break him. He kept showing up at the same time, every same days, same times, sat at the same computer with a perfect view of me from behind. Always asked ME if there was a class in there. But the quarter ended with nothing else happening. ... NOWADAYS, 😏 he says that what he was thinking during that period, was: 1. "You intimidated me. I saw you flying around [Final Cut Pro], like, oh god she's so smart and talented!" 🤩 2. "Besides the sexy librarian look you had going on - that was obvious - but I could tell, too, that girl looks like she takes it up the ass." 😅 "And ya know, for any of those nights during that period, you were right." 😅

#moping about the past turned into cooing over hunny #<3 #storytime #hunny #old fwb #longpost inside

[princess-pill-enjoyer]

Passed out off a morning dose and woke up to the sweet sight of an email from my old uni 🙃

I thought I settled that for a while as I said I didn't have the money for that and the lady said it was fine. Buuuut apparently that had a time limit as well so they now want me to pull $400 out my ass or they're more than likely gonna send that shit off to collections

Part of me doeent even care. It ain't like I'm going to jail over 2k and I have literally nothing of value. No car. No house. Annnd no money. Sooo yeh have fun tryna get yall shit lmao. But I know that's a pretty stupid way've looking at it. Ruining my credit this early on probably ain't s great idea.

Ah. This sucks. My dad really doesn't want to drive me around cause of how much gas is now, the work from home shit he and my stepmom are doing is having me wait a month for some dumb junk with my mic, had to turn down two different jobs due to my dad deciding they're not for me.. bruh. Atp. I'd just walk to work. It'd probably at least be an hour long but. Fuck it at this point. Only thing is I live in one of the most infamous places for human trafficking so I'd definitely have to stay alert and try to go on different routes here and there to not make my routine as obvious

I probably woulda been able to float by for another month or so if my dad and stepmom would've paid me back. They owe me like $500 and half that comes from some shit they borrowed a year ago now. Plus, i accidentally eavesdropped on them grabbing my dad's phone instead of mine. They apparently been borrowing a lot from soneone else as well soo yeah even if they did have the money i dont think they have that to spare rn

The other option woulda been to take out extra on my student loan but my mom already took the excess out so I'd have to apply for a whole new loan. If I were still in school that'd be no problem but my incident in April makes me hesitant to make big commitments like that. I was so close to ending my shit just off owing 7k but a whole new semesters worth of debt just for me to possibly fail again sounds like a tragedy waiting to happen lol

Sigh. Days like this are so hard. I used to stick around because of an age goal I set for myself which sometimes felt like my only motivation. But it's just like nowadays I'm long past every age goal I've set and the plan was stay around until it started being inconvenient/not fun to be. Annd as of now it is looking mighty inconvenient. It makes me question why I'm even trying anymore. I never wanted to be here for this exact reason you know?

I feel like I'm just here atp. What am I working towards anymore? What do I even like to do? Do I honestly even like my hobbies or do I just like the distraction from my head? Even if everything fixed itself in the future and I started living a normal stable life, would it justify ignoring my damn near lifelong wish to not be here?

I'm gonna try to get R's attention and make sure she's not too fucked up then take a gram and head to bed. I am not mentally alright enough to have those questions circulating rn

HA apparently if I don't poof $400 up by Monday they're charging me damn near $600 extra

I am. Done. I just wanna sleep and not wakeup atp. I'm so done. I never wanted to be here in the first place and now I gotta drag myself out of an addiction, get over an unrequited love, find a job that fits my dad's parameters, pay off a mysterious 2k AND my 15k of loans. What the fuck. I never signed up for this and I would've ended my shit before my stupid fucking age goal had I known things would go to shit this quickly. I'm tired of feeling horrible for not wanting to do anything. I'm so tired of fighting myself to do the barest minimums and having it not be enough time and time again. I'm so fucking tired of all this up and down. God like. One day I'm in one of the best schools for engineering with hella open house money and the next I'm a fucking basement dwelling dropout with no money and no real desire to go out and do the shit that'll MAKE ME MONEY. And to top it off I'm fucking addicted to otc allergy medicine that is literally bottom of the barrel to the point that even WITH it being so accessible everyone knows how shit it is and leaves it alone. But not me ofc. My dumbass just had to screw up shit further. What is my problem at this point. This is my fault. I can't keep staying in this stupid limbo of barely doing anything but not having the guts to make that a reality. Atp I'm either gonna have to pick on or yhe other. My money's on the second but we'll see :)

#vent #update