#it's like the world wants you to be vulnerable in order to fully understand it

[yaayviolence]

i read my 5th grade english book and it feels like someone just kissed my heart with the kind of love which i've known only when I was a kid, never after that, and wow it feels so much vulnerable because she was everything and maybe im trying to be something but i can never be her. never. also I want to cry

#my #growing up has many layers #it has desperation freedom relief loneliness #but something which i never want to deal with is #absence #absence of that feeling that dreams and love and so many things which i had as a kid #i do want to grow and be my bestest version and have a life which will give me the same feeling as a mary oliver poem #but it just....... #it feels soo vulnerable growing up #it's like the world wants you to be vulnerable in order to fully understand it #i don't think that i'll have to deal with it #but i guess i do #maybe im not ready for this now

[elysiansparadise]

Heyyo !! Hope you're doing well. I have a question if are going continue your planets in houses series for 8th House moon

Hello! I’m doing just fine, I hope you too. Of course I will continue, until I’ve covered each placement. 🤎 

Moon in the 8th house

They are people of complex nature, since many of them tend to be very cautious when it comes to opening up to new people, they do not trust their hearts so easily in others and they can even show themselves as very self-sufficient in the emotional field, however, these natives internally desire a deep degree of emotional intimacy, even bordering on emotional. They prefer intense, meaningful ties that really contribute something to their lives rather than something superficial and vain. This is usually something difficult for them because it is difficult for them to open up and want to meet new people. This is due more than anything to a fear of appearing vulnerable, manipulable and, mostly, due to bad experiences with previous relationships. It’s likely that the relationship with the family, mother or a specific member was tense and taught them to always be alert for any sign of lying or betrayal. They detect people who show false emotions or who lie, as they stand out for being observant. They may prefer to make decisions based on their mind rather than their heart, and it is likely that at some point in their life they ignored their emotional needs, both other people and themselves. They fear that they will feel a lot and get hurt or that the other person will not give themselves in that devoted and passionate way with which they do it.

For them it is crucial to give their all when it comes to something important or meaningful to them, they do not give themselves halfway. They find it difficult to be expressive, but once they are comfortable enough they are very constant with their demonstrations of affection or appreciation. They have this ability to feel the emotions of others and tend to accurately deduce the emotional triggers and needs of others. They have a genuine curiosity to know the core of those who matter to them, they will want to know every part of your mind, your history and everything that your heart is silent about, this in order to understand you better. In the sexual field, they need a certain emotional closeness or feeling in love to fully enjoy. A pretty face is not enough for them and they tend to be very attracted to complex, interesting and understanding personalities. They give themselves completely, body and soul, and there is nothing they like more than feeling that their partner does the same. Aftercare is crucial and necessary.

They know how to be alone and highly value their time with themselves, they are introspective with their emotions and they like to get to the root of things. A lie can be something unforgivable for many of them and they will always prefer a very honest truth over a white or sugar-coated lie. Their intuition is very strong and they may feel an attraction or even have a knack for things like tarot, astrology or similar things. They read you like a book, but you can hardly do the same with them. They have a deep connection with their unconscious. It is likely that since they were children they have had very intense spiritual experiences and that the mystical world seems truly fascinating to them. They have one goal [among their many goals] to become the adult they felt they needed when they were children, since it is likely that their inner child carries a feeling of fear and insecurity. They are people who behind their strong and empowered personality is someone sensitive and compassionate. People often see them as a very strong pillar in which to fully trust, and it is likely that only the natives themselves are aware of their emotional intensity, as others describe them as calm and collected most of the time.

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#astrology #natal chart #moon in the 8th house #moon #birth chart #astro note #8th house #moon in the 8th #moon in the 8h #moon in 8th house

[failing-to-write-again]

"Beloved I-"

"Oh, now I'm beloved? Funny I swore I was 'that lady' not a moment ago"

"My love please-"

"Oh no, do not concern yourself with this lady she is perfectly capable of seeing herself to bed"

You mutter as you sit at the vanity removing your finery after a particularly tense ball. You hear the bedding crumple slightly as he sits, noticing from his reflection in the mirror out the corner of your eye as he runs a hand through his hair.

"You must understand that I was trying to protect you. Vampires do not 'date' as such, and in these circles marriage is a contract. You would have been hounded."

You sigh as you feel the pressure alleviated from the adornments left on your head all night. Licking your lips and pursing them as if such physical actions could quell your frustration.

"There is protecting me from hounding and then there is throwing me to the wolves while they fawn over you."

You pause turning your head to the side to look at him not a reflection.

"While you had countless women hanging on your arm and begging for dances I was questioned and harassed by strangers."

"Why didn't you say, who crossed you?"

He stands coming to stand behind you, holding his hand awkwardly unsure if he should touch you in your state.

"I did try, Reiji!"

You spin around fully and stand glaring at him.

"At any sign of approach you shooed me away as I got looked through or glared at like some dirty rag. And then you placated them! 'Oh no, I have no idea who that lady is.' It took your father stepping in to stop one of them biting me when they realised our arrival together was simply coincidence"

Reiji's face shifted from guilt to fury. Looking to the side as he shifts his glasses further up his nose. For a moment only the ticking on his desk and your tense breathing audible.

"Why would he step in. He's the one who ordered I say nothing."

He hung his head, shaking it slightly before gently reaching for you arms and guiding you towards the bed.

"My love you must understand, I had to prioritize your well-being long term."

Biting back tears as he sits you on the bed, you pick at the seams of your gloves. You spat your next words.

"You were so cold, and then you got angry I danced with your father when he was seemingly the only thing protecting me. I was terrified and yet it's my fault? You dismiss me as if I'm nothing and then get angry at me when someone else does your job"

He inhales, as if stalling. Slowly he kneels, his face coming in to view as be tilts up your chin to look straight at him.

"Love, I may have. No I made an error in my judgement on the best way to act to protect you. I should have communicated my approach before."

He shifts bringing you right food to rest over his unbeating heart. Slowly opening them and kissing the exposed skin of your ankle.

"I want to build you, your own world. A life of happiness for you where you need never deal with unfair struggles once more. But to do so I require his approval to give you title."

He leaves the shoe to his side and switches focus to your left foot. Focusing his gaze entirely on the task, finding it difficult to be so vulnerable and not in control.

"I desire no other the way I do you. It infuriated and vexed me to have these feelings pulling me so far from the course. Any woman who has ever approached me before has been dealt with in the same manner. Mannerly but ultimately fruitless words, enough to placate but never crossing a line to anything past passive. Until you"

He lets down your foot after removing it from the tight prison of a shoe you've worn all night. Slipping your hands into his and gazing up at you at last.

"You are my answer and focus. I am drawn to you as though I am the only one effected by your gravity. Do not be foolish enough to think I am a scientist who does not correct after a failed result. In future I will never let you leave my arm all night should you bless me with your company again."

You finally smile, squeezing his hands lightly, and leaning ever so slightly forward.

"You are a foolish man at times dear."

"How could I not be when you call me that so sweetly?"

Magenta eyes swirling with adoration draw you in. He shifts from kneeling with one to both knees to regain some height over you once more, tilting his head and leaning in pressing his lips to yours. A suddenly ungloved hand touching against your cheek. Your arms moved up to ground yourself, gripping his suit's lapels, pulling him closer. After a moment his pulls himself away, his tongue touching his lips as the taste of your lip gloss lingers.

"Am I forgiven beloved? Or will you be 'able to put yourself to bed' hmm?"

His eyes crinkle slightly as he grins at you. You chuff slightly before pulling him in by the collar, of course he allowed you this for once, vampiric strength dulled to allow his human some control.

"You ever call me 'that lady' again and I will choke you with your tie."

"Would you rather beloved or love?"

"My most dear and beloved love, you who brightens my night and whom I beg to receive kiss."

"I do believe you will cause a mass fainting should they hear that."

He climbs onto the bed as you lay back, one arm holding him up the other resting his hand on your waist. Your arms looping around his neck, nails lightly scratching the nape of his neck.

"You forget I can be just as possessive as you my dear. I'm not a massive fan of sharing"

#diabolik lovers #reiji sakamaki #reiji sakamaki x reader #tooth rotting fluff #romantic Reiji #just sum a lil sweet idk #did I write this to avoid studying? #i don't even know why you would say such a thing! #but yes #yes i did

[cooki3face]

Don’t you hate it when women who are in their power, at the height of the careers, or have so much potential to continue to be successful and become something end up trapped by bum ass niggas who are envious of their success, disrespect them constantly and don’t want them to do better. It’s the worst. It infuriates me so deeply. We love children, it is never the child’s fault, it is often never fully and wholeheartedly the woman’s fault sometimes women are victims of abuse, sometimes women are too in love to make decisions in order to save their lives and their careers. BUT, I wish that we would start making better decisions. Especially, if we’re going to be unmarried and dating these bum ass men whom do not amount to anything or half of what we’re worth or potentially could be doing.

I love to help us make better decisions from a spiritual standpoint so when we’re talking about pregnancy and children, let us talk about the fact that our children inherit heaps of our trauma from us, our children are spiritually affected by the people whom make them up. I take a lot of the stances I take in terms of women’s livelihoods, their rights, the health and safety of children, BECAUSE, I understand how important it is that children and woman are protected and are given the opportunity to live and have the best lives possible. We are talking about the people who guide these spirits from the spiritual realm into the physical and spirits that are vulnerable to all these things the moment they are sent down to be conceived by us and brought into this world, into the physical, into the 3D.

We are talking about women and children and all of their divinity here that are constantly being put in the worst positions possible, we cannot continue like this as people. To the new world or in general. That is not to say that men and the masculine energy in general is not divine in all of his (their) glory but we live in a world today with countless wounded feminine and masculine energies who are running around like headless chickens adding fuel to a fire that is engulfing Mother Earth and her creation.

#self love #self care #self improvement #self discovery #dream girl #self expression #healingjourney #self healing #manifestation #divine feminine #divine masculine #opinions y’all aren’t going to like #Mother Earth #womens safety #protect women #raise your standards #protect children

[winxanity-ii]

𝐁𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐌𝐄

╚»★«╝ 𝐁𝐍𝐇𝐀 𝐌𝐞𝐧: 𝐎𝐦𝐞𝐠𝐚!𝐈𝐳𝐮𝐤𝐮 x 𝐅𝐞𝐦!𝐀𝐥𝐩𝐡𝐚!𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 ╚»★«╝

ɢᴇɴʀᴇ: fluff? angst?? Should i just create my own genre, lol

‌🇷‌🇦‌🇹‌🇮‌🇳‌🇬‌: non-explicit(?)Idk y'all i made this kinda edgy

🇵‌🇴‌🇻‌: 2nd person; You/Your

🇩‌🇪‌🇸‌🇨‌🇷‌🇮‌🇵‌🇹‌🇮‌🇴‌🇳‌: in which, the world you knew, the hierarchies you trusted, and the persona you donned are all called into question by a single, impulsive act.

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🇦‌/🇳‌‌: Y'all forgive me, I wanted to be mean to deku🫣 also, inspired by one of my fav bloggers @yanderenightmare AMAZING Alpha!Katsuki x Omega!Reader oneshot here. Plz check it out, y'all it's so well written i wanna snort it like coke 😩❤️❤️

★·.·´🇲‌🇾‌ 🇭‌🇪‌🇷‌🇴‌ 🇦‌🇨‌🇦‌🇩‌🇪‌🇲‌🇮‌🇦‌/🇧‌🇳‌🇭‌🇦‌/🇲‌🇭‌🇦‌ 🇲‌🇦‌🇸‌🇹‌🇪‌🇷‌🇱‌🇮‌🇸‌🇹‌`·.·★

You've always known you were destined for greatness, coming from a long line of superhero alphas whose feats were the stuff of legend. From the moment you could understand the world around you, your ears were filled with tales of valor and strength, stories of how your ancestors used their formidable quirks to save lives and maintain peace.

It was no surprise, then, that on your 5th birthday, amidst the excitement and anticipation, your own quirk manifested, revealing an ability to manipulate plants, control their growth at will, and harness their natural forces.

This power was not just an extension of your being; it was a testament to the lineage you hailed from, a legacy you were born to continue.

With each passing year, your pride swelled. It became not just a part of you but defined you. By the time you presented as an alpha on your 15th birthday, you were fully entrenched in the belief system that had been passed down through generations.

The world, as you saw it, was divided among alphas, betas, and omegas, with alphas reigning supreme. To you, it was the natural order of things, a hierarchy that had always been and would always be.

High school became your kingdom, a place where you could assert your dominance, surrounded by beta and alpha lackeys who hung on your every word, eager to witness your next act of superiority.

You thrived on the attention, on the power it gave you, wearing each detention like a badge of honor, a symbol of your unyielding spirit and refusal to conform.

It was just another ordinary day when you caught sight of her, Uraraka, a small, timid omega girl trying to navigate the crowded hallway on her way to lunch. Her mere presence felt like an unwitting challenge to your authority. "Oh, Uraraka," you hissed, her name rolling off your tongue with a predatory sneer, as you backed her into a corner. "Always trying to blend in, aren't you? But we both know that's impossible for someone like you."

Her eyes widened, a clear sign of her fear, as she stuttered your name in reply, looking down with her shoulders hunched in a vain attempt to make herself smaller, to disappear from your imposing presence.

"H-Hi, L/N-san," Uraraka managed, her voice barely above a whisper, betraying the turmoil swirling inside her.

"Oh, come now, Uraraka, you don't need to be so formal with me," you cooed mockingly, watching as she curled further in on herself, as if trying to escape your gaze by sheer will. "We're just having a friendly chat, aren't we?" Your words dripped with sarcasm, each one designed to undermine her already wavering confidence.

The sight of her, so vulnerable and afraid, only spurred you on. "It's just, I can't help but notice how... out of place you seem among us. It's almost as if you don't belong here." Your tone was casual, as if you were commenting on the weather, but the underlying malice was clear.

Uraraka's response was to curl in on herself even more, if that was possible, her arms wrapping around her books like a shield against your words. Her attempt to make herself smaller, to hide from your scrutiny, only made her stand out more in the crowded hallway.

"You’re an Omega. You know that means you’re nothing to us Alphas, right? You're here for nothing but our will and pleasure," you taunted, your canines flashing in a display of undisputed dominance. The predatory glint in your eyes mirrored the sharpness of your words, each syllable aimed to wound.

"And useless—don’t forget how dumb they are without us!" chimed in one of your beta lackeys, his laughter echoing your own, fueling your disdain and sharpening your smile. His contribution was like adding fuel to the fire, encouraging you to continue the barrage of insults, enjoying the power you wielded over Uraraka with just a few cruel words.

"Yeah, always stumbling over your own feet, aren't you, Uraraka? It's like watching a toddler." Your chuckle was harsh, imbued with a cruelty that you knew hit deep. You reached out, not to pull at her hair this time, but to lightly tap her forehead, mocking her inability to retaliate. "Remember last time? When you tried to stand up for yourself? That was hilarious."

Her tears, now brimming in her wide, brown eyes, made them glisten, a testament to her vulnerability. The sight, instead of eliciting sympathy, bolstered your sense of superiority. "Y-You're so mean to m-me, Y-Y/N-chan," she hiccuped, her voice quivering like a delicate leaf in the wind, pressing herself further into the wall as if it could shield her from your words.

Your moment of triumph was abruptly interrupted by a sharp "Hey!" Turning your head, you saw him—Aizawa, an omega teacher, yet his presence commanded a respect that even the alphas hesitated to challenge.

Your lackeys, ever the cowards when actual confrontation loomed, scattered, leaving you standing alone. "Tch, pussies," you hissed under your breath, rolling your eyes at their retreating backs.

With a heavy sigh, you recognized the end of your entertainment and pushed yourself away from the tearful omega. "Here we go," you muttered, bracing yourself for the inevitable lecture. Despite Aizawa's omega status, there was an undeniable aura of authority around him, a quiet strength that demanded attention and obedience.

His face, usually impassive, now bore a frown of disappointment, his gaze barely glancing over Uraraka's tearful, shaking form before locking eyes with you. "Detention," he stated simply, his voice firm, leaving no room for argument.

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☆ Letting out a string of curses under your breath, you storm out of the detention room, the school corridors bathed in an orange glow as the sun begins to set. The scolding from Aizawa for bullying, followed by an after-school detention, didn't phase you in the slightest. What truly irked you was the inconvenience of missing the scheduled bus ride, which meant a long walk home from school.

Still simmering with anger, you couldn't help but wonder how Aizawa had managed to catch you in the act. It was usually an alpha or beta teacher patrolling the halls, and they always let you off with a mere slap on the wrist, dismissing your behavior as "growing hormones." But this time, it was different. Aizawa had given you a thorough chewing out, emphasizing how unfair it was to use your secondary gender against Uraraka and lecturing about "respect" and other ideals you tuned out with a grumble.

You couldn't help but wonder if someone had tipped him off.

As you were about to round the corner, a familiar timid voice caught your attention. "T-thank you for alerting the staff, once again."

"It was no issue, but you need to understand I'm not going to always be around. You have to start standing up for yourself," replied a voice you didn't recognize.

Curiosity piqued, you peeked around the corner only to find Uraraka standing before a stranger. From your vantage point, you could only see his back and the unmistakable fluffy green hair.

Uraraka stuttered out another thank you, giving him a short bow before hurrying away. You watched, hidden from view, as the figure turned back to his locker to pack up for the day. The sight of his side profile, as he obliviously continued with his routine, only fueled your anger further. How dare he interfere and get you in trouble? Who did he think he was? Watching him leave, you made a silent vow to remember his face, to exact revenge when the opportunity presented itself.

The encounter with the nameless savior did more than just bruise your ego; it sparked a fiery obsession within you. His unassuming demeanor and fluffy green hair, coupled with his audacity to challenge your authority, marked him as your next target.

In the weeks that followed your initial encounter, your focus on him sharpened to an obsession. Every moment not spent in class or detention was dedicated to gathering information on him.

It was during lunch one day, as you sat in the crowded cafeteria, that you spotted him again. He was on the other end, sitting alone, his lunch tray in front of him as he pored over a notebook, completely engrossed in whatever he was writing. The sight of him, isolated yet content in his solitude, piqued your interest even further.

In a moment of passing curiosity, you leaned over to a Beta—Kaminari—sitting next to you, one of the many who sought to curry favor with you. "Who's that?" you asked nonchalantly, your nod was subtle as you directed his attention towards the greenette without making it obvious.

The Beta's eyes lit up at the opportunity to provide information, eager to gain your attention and perhaps, your approval.

Darting his eyes towards the aforementioned male, then quickly back to you, a frown forms on Kaminari's face as if the topic left a bad taste in his mouth. "That's Izuku Midoriya," he said, his voice laced with a hint of disdain. "He's an Omega, but thinks he's something special. Always going on about being a hero, as if he could ever stand a chance."

Interest piqued, you continued to watch Izuku, your curiosity deepening with the Beta's every word. "He's a target for bullies, especially Katsuki Bakugou. But it's his own fault, always trying to play the hero, sticking his nose where it doesn't belong," he added, his frown deepening.

The mention of Katsuki, an alpha known for his volatile temperament, intrigued you further. "Bakugou, huh?" you mused, more to yourself than to the Beta beside you.

"Yeah, and Midoriya just takes it. Never fights back. Thinks he's being noble or something," Kaminari scoffed, shaking his head in disapproval. "It's pathetic, really. He's delusional, thinks he can actually challenge an alpha and make a difference."

This newfound information provided by the Beta painted a complex picture of Izuku that was both intriguing and slightly infuriating. Here was an Omega who dared to dream beyond his societal station, exhibiting a resilience and determination that was, in its own way, admirable. Yet, according to the Beta, his actions were seen as foolish, a futile attempt at heroism.

As you turned your attention back to your meal, your thoughts churned.

Your gaze lingered on Izuku for a few moments longer before you turned back to your meal, your thoughts racing. The more you mulled over the Beta's words, the more your initial intrigue twisted into disdain. Knowing Izuku was an Omega, the very notion that he dared to challenge the societal hierarchy—and by extension, you—ignited a deeper sense of animosity within you. How dare he dream beyond his station, and more audaciously, act in ways that subtly defied the unspoken rules that governed your world?

The very idea that Izuku, with his quiet demeanor and lofty aspirations, could consider standing up to the likes of you or even imagine himself as a hero was almost laughable. It was a direct affront to the natural order, to the superiority you had been taught from birth was your birthright as an Alpha. His existence, and the pitying yet somehow respectful tone of the Beta as he spoke of Izuku's heroics, felt like a challenge to your authority, to the very foundations of your beliefs.

As lunch continued, you found yourself stealing glances at Izuku, each look fueling your growing resentment. His mere presence, the way he carried himself with a quiet confidence, unaware of or perhaps indifferent to the social turmoil around him, grated on you. In your world, Omegas were subservient, not silently rebellious or aspirational beyond the roles prescribed to them. Izuku's defiance, however passive, was a blemish on the natural hierarchy you upheld.

You resolved then, with a cold certainty, to put Izuku Midoriya in his place. It wasn't just about reasserting your dominance anymore; it was about reinforcing the very principles that you believed made the world turn. If Izuku represented a challenge to those principles, then it was your duty, as an Alpha and as a defender of the status quo, to quash that challenge.

The bell rang, signaling the end of lunch and pulling you from your reverie. As you stood up, tossing your trash into the bin, your mind was already weaving plans.

Izuku Midoriya, you're gonna learn your place...one way or another.

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Finally, you found the right time to confront him. It was a regular day, the sun setting, painting the sky in hues of gold and pink as clubs dispersed for the evening. You had meticulously positioned yourself near Izuku's locker, blending in with the dwindling crowd, waiting for the moment he would come to pack up for home.

Sure enough, as the hallway began to empty, Izuku appeared, his steps quiet and measured. He didn't notice you at first, too focused on gathering his things. But when he turned to leave, that's when you chose to step out from around the corner.

"Midoriya, was it?" you called out, your voice loud enough to cut through the lingering chatter of departing students. You made your way closer to him, your steps deliberate, each one echoing ominously in the almost empty corridor.

Immediately, you sought to intimidate him, a tactic you knew all too well. With a swift movement, you pushed his belongings out of his hands, scattering papers and books across the floor, effectively cornering him further into his locker.

Despite the fact he was taller than you, his slouched frame made him seem as if he was trying to hide away, wanting to be anywhere else but here. His reaction was exactly what you expected, yet there was a hint of something in his eyes that you couldn't quite place—was it defiance? Courage? Or merely resignation to yet another confrontation?

"It's come to my attention that you've been playing hero again," you began, your tone dripping with mockery, each word designed to belittle. "Standing up for those who can't stand up for themselves?" You drawled the word 'hero' out slowly, inflecting it with scorn, ridiculing the very essence of heroism—a concept you found utterly ridiculous in a world governed by the strict dynamics of Alphas, Betas, and Omegas.

Your smirk widened as you leaned in, eager to see his reaction to the bait you were laying out before him.

"How dare you even think of being a hero and saving others when you can't even save yourself from a simple bully? Katsuki, if I'm not mistaken, yeah?" Your words were calculated, aiming to undermine his sense of self and heroism.

Mentioning Katsuki was a low blow, an attempt to remind Izuku of his vulnerabilities and failures. You observed him closely, looking for any sign of hurt or hesitation, any indication that your words had found their mark.

This seemed to set Izuku off. His usually slouched frame straightened, and he turned around to face you, his expression unreadable. "Everyone deserves someone to stand up for them, no matter their status," Izuku replied, his voice steady and firm, a stark contrast to the mocking tone you had used.

You couldn't help but laugh, the sound echoing off the walls of the nearly empty hallway. "And what about you, Midoriya? Who stands up for you?" You stepped closer, deliberately invading his personal space, aiming to intimidate. "Seems to me like you could use someone to protect you from, well, people like me."

There was a slight narrowing of Izuku's eyes, a subtle but clear indication of his annoyance or perhaps determination. However, his stance remained unchanged, unwavering in the face of your provocation. "I don't need protection. Not from you or anyone else," he declared, his voice carrying a quiet confidence that seemed to fill the space between you.

The boldness of his statement took you by surprise. It was unexpected, coming from someone you perceived to be just another Omega, someone who, by all accounts, should have been easy to dominate and intimidate.

Yet here he was, standing his ground, challenging the very foundations of the hierarchy you had been taught to uphold.

The audacity of his response fueled your anger further. With a swift movement, you pushed him into the locker, nose flaring as you gripped the front of his uniform. "Careful, Omega, you might wanna watch your tone. Because from where I'm standing, you look pretty cornered to me," you purr, your eyes narrowed to slits, expecting him to cower under your grip.

But in a flash, the roles reversed. Izuku's quick movement was wholly unexpected, and before you knew it, you were the one pressed against the wall, his forearm against your chest.

"I'm tired of people like you thinking they're so much better than everyone else because of some perceived status. Power isn't determined by your status. It's how you choose to wield it." Izuku's voice was calm, but there was a sharpness to it that cut through you. "You think you can intimidate and bully others just because you're an Alpha? That's not strength. That's weakness"

Feeling your inner Alpha bristle at this, you prepared to push him off, to reclaim your position. But then, Izuku did something completely unexpected, something that no amount of physical strength could have prepared you for.

He leaned in closer, invading your personal space in a way that was almost confrontational, yet it wasn't his proximity that disarmed you—it was the sudden wave of his Omega pheromones that enveloped you, weaving around you like an invisible force.

The scent was immediate and overwhelming, strikingly fresh and minty with an undeniably “green” essence to it. It was like standing in the heart of a rainforest just after a heavy downpour, surrounded by the lush, vibrant life of countless plants and trees, their leaves heavy with dew.

The smell of early morning grass, wet and alive, filled your nostrils, inexplicably drawing you in, making your mouth water and your gums tingle with a tender sensation as your canines instinctively elongated, reacting to the potent biological cues Izuku's pheromones were sending.

As the scent enveloped you, a warmth unfurled in your lower stomach, a sensation both foreign and intoxicating. It was as if Izuku's pheromones were reaching out, threading through your aggression to soothe and tame it, leaving you feeling unexpectedly vulnerable.

His smirk, slight and knowing, seemed to say he was fully aware of the effect he was having on you, challenging the very notion of Alpha superiority with nothing but his natural Omega essence.

"You know," he began, his voice now, carrying a weight that demanded attention, "I've been watching you. Your arrogance, your belief in your own superiority... it's quite telling."

He took a step closer, his presence enveloping you in a way that felt both intrusive and enlightening. "I've never understood why Alphas like you are so haughty, acting as if they're the epitome of strength and power."

You found yourself unable to move, not just because of the physical barrier he had placed between you and freedom moments ago, but because of the invisible hold his presence now commanded.

Izuku leaned in slightly, his voice a whisper yet loud enough to echo in the now silent hallway, carrying a mix of amusement and a hint of something more profound,. "The truth is, Alphas like you bend to the will of Omegas like me."

Before you could process his words fully, Izuku reached out, his fingers deftly catching a curl of your hair, twirling it gently. The proximity allowed him to lean in close, his nose just inches from the side of your neck, where your scent gland pulsed with a mix of emotions. The intimacy of the gesture, the invasion of personal space was disarming, and you found yourself frozen, caught in the intensity of the moment.

His eyes, a clear and penetrating gaze, met yours as he pulled back, leaving a trail of confusion and an unexpected desire for more of his insight. "Since you want to have control so bad," Izuku said, his voice lowering, laced with a challenge, "then I'll show you how it feels to lose that control." His eyes flashed the distinctive Omega yellow.

Instinctively, your eyes flashed red in response.

Yet, despite your anger and the primal urge to assert your dominance, Izuku's pheromones had done their work, leaving you momentarily incapacitated, unable to act on your aggression.

Izuku leaned down, his eyes lidding as a wicked smirk grew on his lips. "Oh, what's wrong? Not so big now, huh?" he cooed, running his nose along the slope of your scent glands, an action so intimate and provocative that it sent a shiver down your spine.

His voice, laced with a mocking tone, cut through the haze of pheromones that had clouded your senses, sharpening the humiliation of being so thoroughly outmaneuvered by an Omega.

The proximity, his scent mingling with yours, the heat of his breath against your skin—it was all designed to disorient and dominate, to showcase his control over the situation. The irony wasn't lost on you; in this moment, Izuku, the supposed weak Omega, held all the power, leaving you, the Alpha, completely at his mercy.

His actions, so bold and unyielding, were unlike anything you had ever experienced. They challenged not just your physical dominance but your very understanding of the dynamics between Alphas and Omegas. Izuku was rewriting the rules, showing you that the real power lay not in brute strength or societal labels, but in one's ability to influence and control the emotions and actions of others.

Izuku pulls back, the intensity of the moment hanging thick between you. His lips curve into a half-smile, an expression of satisfaction or perhaps amusement at the effect he's had on you. "I kinda like you like this, quiet, pliant," he hums, his gaze leisurely raking over your form. You stand there, panting slightly, a testament to the tumultuous effect his pheromones have had on you.

You hadn't anticipated the power of Izuku's natural essence to impact you so profoundly; it was as if an internal battle was raging within you. On one side, your Alpha instincts screamed for dominance, to regain control over the situation, to not be swayed by an Omega. Yet, on the other, Izuku's pheromones left you willing.

Izuku hummed to himself again, muttering practically 100 miles an hour, deliberating on what to do next. Finally, after a few moments, his eyes snapped back to you, lips pulling into a wicked smile. "Hm, since you were so willing earlier to protect me from Kaachan, how about you stay true to your words, huh?" he sarcastically asked with a tilt of his head.

Before you could react, Izuku forced your mouth open, tilted your head back, showcasing your elongated canines. It was seconds before you realized what he was doing, but before you could move, he tilted his head further, yanking you to him, making you mark his neck.

The sensation was electrifying, overwhelming every sense you had. Your body acted on its own, instinct taking over as you felt your canines sink into his skin. The moment was brief, yet it felt like an eternity, marking him in the most primal way an Alpha could claim an Omega.

The rush of emotions and sensations was unlike anything you had experienced before. Heat coursed through your veins, spreading a warmth that felt both comforting and invigorating. It was as if every fiber of your being was alive, buzzing with an energy that connected you to Izuku in a way words could never explain.

As your teeth punctured his skin, a connection instantly formed between you two, a bond that was both ancient and immediate. It was a tether that pulled you closer to him, not just physically but on a deeper, more instinctual level.

Your protective instincts, which had lain dormant, now surged to the forefront of your mind, chanting a relentless mantra of 'mine, mine, mine, mine.' This wasn't just a physical claim; it was an emotional one, marking him as yours in a way that left no room for doubt.

Your arms subconsciously tugged on Izuku, bringing him even closer, as if trying to merge him into your very essence. You bit down harder, not out of aggression, but to solidify this newfound connection, to make it known to both him and yourself that this bond was irrevocable. It was a moment of pure primal assertion, your Alpha instincts fully taking over, dictating your actions with an intensity that was almost foreign to you.

As soon as the act was done, Izuku stepped back, a hand gently touching the spot you marked, his eyes gleaming with that omega yellow. "See, not so good being on the other end, is it?" His voice was laced with a victorious tone, yet there was an undercurrent of something else—something that didn't match the triumphant look in his eyes.

You stood there, shocked, your own eyes still flashing red, a mix of anger and confusion swirling within you. The implications of what just happened began to dawn on you slowly, the reality that you just marked an Omega—a clear sign of claiming him as yours.

What were you going to do now? The school's dynamics would shift undoubtedly once word got out. Typically, the marking of an Omega by an Alpha was a significant event, often announced and accompanied by a period of courtship, a public declaration of mutual respect and intention.

But this? This was entirely different. An Alpha marking an Omega out of the blue, especially under such unconventional and unexpected circumstances, was unheard of. And not just any Omega, but Izuku Midoriya, the one Omega who had stood up to you, challenged you in a way no one else dared.

Your interactions with Izuku had been minimal at best, characterized more by conflict than any form of camaraderie or courtship. The school would be buzzing with rumors and speculation, none of which would likely be favorable or understanding of the situation's complexity.

Izuku adjusted his uniform, the wicked smile never leaving his face. "Well, I guess this changes things, doesn't it? I'm curious to see how you'll handle this." With that, he picked up his things, leaving you alone in the corridor, your mind racing with thoughts.

You were so used to being in control, to having others bend to your will. Yet here you were, outmaneuvered by an Omega who not only challenged you but also forced you into a situation that you never imagined possible.

As you watched Izuku walk away, a part of you knew this was only the beginning. You had to figure out what this meant for you, for him, and for whatever strange, twisted relationship you now found yourselves in. The school, your friends, your family—they would all have opinions on this, but for now, all you could do was stand there, trying to process the whirlwind of events that just unfolded.

This was not how you expected your day to end, marked by an Omega, your pride wounded, yet a part of you couldn't help but feel intrigued by what Izuku said. What did this mean for you? And more importantly, how were you going to face him tomorrow?

**omg y'all, i got it bad for izuku, but let me know if you'd like a part 2 👀

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[snowmist-hashira]

Heyyy i have a request can you please do Muichiro with a reader that has BPD??? Thank you!!<3

[Chapter title: Symphony of Support]

[Requested] Muichiro Tokitou x Reader

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Pushing the door open with one hand, Muichiro entered the apartment, carefully holding a bag of groceries close to his chest. Before he could fully step inside, he was greeted by a pair of hands embracing his waist. Though taken aback at first, he quickly recognized the familiar signs. Muichiro's heart sank as he recognized the signs of Y/n's disorder, careful not to startle her further.

With a soothing voice, he spoke softly, "I'm back."

Balancing himself, Muichiro gently placed the bag of groceries down and wrapped his arms around Y/n, providing a secure embrace to help calm her racing emotions. Muichiro understood the importance of remaining calm during these episodes, as he had witnessed them before. He knew that sudden movements or loud noises could exacerbate her condition, so he maintained a gentle hold, allowing her to find solace in his presence.

“Welcome back…” Y/n spoke, her voice muffled as her face was buried to his chest, Muichiro’s gaze soften at the sight of her girlfriend’s vulnerability. “I thought you left me.”

As Y/n continued to cling to him, he could feel her trembling. Muichiro pressed a tender kiss to the top of her head, conveying his love and support. " I’m sorry, you were sleeping so I didn’t want to wake you up." he murmured, his voice steady and reassuring.

Muichiro tightened his hold around Y/n, reassuring her of his presence. "I would never leave you, Y/n. You mean the world to me," he whispered, his voice filled with sincerity. "I know it can be scary when you wake up and I'm not there, but I promise I'll always come back to you."

Y/n looked up at him, her eyes filled with a mix of relief and lingering vulnerability. "I just get so scared sometimes," she admitted, her voice still trembling slightly. "It's like my mind plays tricks on me, and I fear that I'll be left all alone."

Muichiro cupped Y/n's face gently, his touch tender and filled with warmth. "I understand, Y/n. It’s okay, I'm here to listen and support you," he assured her. "I'll do my best to help you through those moments. We're in this together."

Recognizing the need to comfort Y/n, Muichiro gently released his hold on her and took her hand, guiding her to the couch. Sitting her down, he offered her a reassuring smile before speaking softly.

"I'll prepare some warm beverage; do you want to drink something?" he asked, his voice filled with care and concern.

Y/n looked up at him, her eyes reflecting a mix of gratitude and vulnerability. "Yes, please," she replied softly. "A hot chocolate would be nice.”

Muichiro gave her a reassuring smile and released her hand gently before making his way to the kitchen. He understood the importance of creating a calming environment, so he began to prepare their drink with care.

As the water boiled and the aroma of the beverage filled the air, Muichiro's thoughts drifted to Y/n's well-being. He knew that these episodes could take a toll on her, both emotionally and physically. He wanted to do everything he could to support her, providing comfort and stability in moments of vulnerability.

Once the drink was ready, Muichiro carried the warm mugs into the living room and handed one to Y/n. He settled down beside her, their shoulders touching, offering a tangible connection and a source of comfort.

"Here you go, Y/n," he said softly, his voice filled with warmth.

Y/n took the mug gratefully, feeling the warmth seep into her hands. She took a sip, allowing the comforting flavors to wash over her and provide a sense of grounding. She glanced at Muichiro, her eyes conveying gratitude and appreciation.

"Thank you, Muichiro," she whispered, her voice filled with sincerity. "For being here, for understanding, and for taking care of me."

Muichiro's gaze met hers, his eyes shining with affection. "You don't have to thank me, Y/n," he replied softly. "Taking care of you is something I gladly do. You mean everything to me, and I'll always be here to support you."

As they finished their drinks, Muichiro noticed the exhaustion evident in Y/n's eyes, a clear sign of the emotional toll the episode had taken on her. He gently placed his hand on hers, concern etched on his face. "Y/n, you look tired. Why don't we take a nap? Rest will do both of us good."

Y/n nodded, grateful for Muichiro's understanding. "I think that's a good idea," she replied softly. "I just need to catch up on some sleep."

As Y/n settled onto the soft and inviting bed, her eyelids grew heavy, fighting to stay open. Muichiro observed her struggle, a warm smile adorning his face. He reached out, running his fingers through her hair in a soothing motion. He carefully settled himself beside her, making sure to provide the warmth and comfort she needed, he pulled the blanket over their bodies, creating a cozy cocoon.

As Y/n snuggled closer, Muichiro whispered softly, his voice a gentle lullaby, "I'm right here with you."

Y/n nestled her head against Muichiro's chest, finding solace in the rhythm of his heartbeat. The warmth of their shared space and the steady rise and fall of his breath provided a sense of serenity that washed over her.

Muichiro continued to stroke her hair lovingly, his touch soothing and calming. “Rest well, Y/n.”

Y/n gave out a small nod, allowing her heavy eyelids to finally surrender to the weight of exhaustion. The room was filled with a tranquil silence as they drifted into a peaceful slumber together.

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[bird-inacage]

Love in the Air: Sky’s Nonchalance is a Front

Sky has a tendency to say things he doesn’t truly mean, or say things that are at complete odds with his actual feelings. To truly understand Sky, you always have to deduce the implicit things he doesn’t say, and read between the lines.

He often makes rebuttals that may come across as uncaring or disregarding. But we know better. He explicitly mentions this to Rain in Episode 4, “Every time I say you’re annoying, I never mean it.” Yes he may be the friend who rolls his eyes and emanates an air of sassy, dead-pan annoyance but he does care, and he cares greatly. 

It’s only when Sky is in a vulnerable position, that his honesty tends to reveal itself. Usually this occurs when he’s not in a position to objectively filter or control his thoughts and feelings (such as when he is sick and/or tired).

Interestingly enough, Prapai has now seen Sky when he is both at his most sick and his most tired, and knows Sky does this. He knows better than to take what Sky says on face value. Prapai has proved to have an uncanny knack for seeing straight through Sky’s verbal and non-verbal contradictions. Now even more so since he’s gotten to know Sky better, and he’s even more attuned at picking up on this sensibility.

The first example of this in Episode 11 is when Sky lets Prapai into his dorm, despite being almost half-asleep. He always behaves as if Prapai’s presence is a nuisance or an inconvenience, and never fails to shirk him off upfront. But as Prapai is putting him in bed, he reveals that he stayed awake in order to ensure he could let Prapai in and more importantly - that he wanted to. This is very telling. It shows that Sky does truly care and is being considerate in his own way, forcing himself to stay awake so he could see Prapai.

Then immediately after, he makes an adorable and candid comment about the drawing Prapai left on his palm, which instantly reveals how much Sky treasures it, despite pretending at the time that he wasn’t affected by the gesture. Prapai is incredibly moved. Sky doesn’t say these types of things freely or easily when fully conscious, and so when Prapai does get to hear these comments, it makes him incredibly happy. He’s immediately overwhelmed with his love for Sky, because these are all signs that prove Sky reciprocates his feelings.

The other clear example we get is when Sky gets seemingly ‘annoyed’ by Prapai’s apparent clinginess the morning after, and he retorts "I slept with you so that you’d stop pestering me”. Now we know for a fact this isn’t true. And so does Prapai. I almost feel like Sky is aware of how obvious a falsehood this is, but can’t help himself from saying something flippant anyway because he’s so uncomfortable with sentimentality.

Sky doesn’t just use nonchalance to feign strength and togetherness, but he also uses it as a front to project indifference. Because that suggests he’s not as invested and therefore ‘compromised’ as he would like to be. Indifference projects a sense of impenetrability. Like nothing you say or do can affect me, phase me (or hurt me). As soon as you care about something or someone, there’s a chink in your armour. There’s potential ammunition that someone could use against you or to hurt you. That’s why feigning an air of nonchalance makes it very hard for someone to target your real weak spots.

Having been a victim, I think it’s even more natural that Sky projects an aura of tight control and agency over himself and his feelings. By playing tough, you’re trying desperately to convince the whole world and yourself that you are as such. That you cannot and will not be easily compromised.

As Sky falls clearly more in love with Prapai, we see his true feelings slip through more and more frequently. He’s no longer able to maintain that air of nonchalance as seamlessly as he used to. His genuine responses are slipping through because his feelings for Prapai are overriding his ability to keep up appearances.

Sometimes Sky’s nonchalance has more of a playful or teasing air to it. Like he’s deliberately dangling his real feelings over someone for his own amusement. This often is the case with Rain particularly. And we are beginning to see this more laidback nonchalance creep in with Prapai too. That indifference is leading towards more of a sparring or bantering dynamic where Sky withholds his true feelings as a bargaining chip to get a desired response from Prapai. As seen in Episode 10 when Sky retorts “Whether now or later, I’ll always win”, (I’ll always have the upper hand because I don’t care as much as you do). Which Prapai responds with, “What choice do I have? I already lost to you.” Sky’s is secretly delighted with his answer, because he wants (and enjoys) hearing how much Prapai adores him.

As an interesting comparison, Prapai use his playfulness and teasing as a form of front also. But it’s not used in the same way that Sky does (as a defence mechanism). Prapai’s front is often used to mask his more serious and sincere traits. I think this helps Prapai be somewhat disarming, and allows him to benefit from the element of surprise. Most people will assume he’s dumber and less switched on than he actually is in reality, and therefore sorely underestimate him. This allows Prapai to out-manoeuvre someone without them even realising.

But when they are together at least, Prapai is candidly upfront and direct about how he feels, and is sincere almost to a fault. This compliments Sky really well, because he needs someone whose intentions are crystal clear. Similarly, Sky needs someone who can discern his true feelings, despite his impulsion to contradict himself via his nonchalance, which Prapai does really well.

#LITA #love in the air #love in the air series #LITA meta #LITA analysis #prapaisky #prapai x sky #sky x prapai #sky's nonchalance and prapai's sincerity #they just compliment each other so well #yes opposites attract is cliche but i love a yin and yang dynamic

[danpuff-ao3]

Rarepair Tag Game

Thanks for the tag @cindle-writes!

Tagging: @writcraft, @perverse-idyll, @lizzy0305, @tackytigerfic, @sitp-recs, @consistentsquash, @mxlfoydraco, @wolfpants, @crazybutgood, @siriusly-sapphic, @stonedregulus, @broomsticks, @phoebe-delia, @nv-md, @ashesandhackles, @teacup-tai, @billsfangearring, @snapesnailtape, @fangqueen, @charlotterhea, and uhhh...anyone else who wants to play? And no pressure to the zillion people I tagged. It's just for funsies and I'm curious about what folks like! 😄

Rules: List the top rarepairs that you like outside of your OTP, and why you ship it! (Criteria for what makes a rarepair is up to your own discretion.)

My OTP is Snarry and I'm pretty sure most ships I like outside of Snarry are rarepairs haha! Let's seeeee...🤔

Harry/Scorpius

As I like to say: Snarry is my husband, and Scarry is the hot poolboy. I am a devoted wife, I swear, but sometimes...Well, sometimes a gal fantasizes about the poolboy, what can I say? 🤷‍♀️ I often struggle shipping Harry or Severus with other people, but Scarry feels less like a struggle and more like temptation. And while I find Young Severus ships easier to read (as I can imagine all roads lead to Snarry), I suppose Scarry can be enjoyed in the terrible universe in which Harry's actual soulmate was gone. (Not me vehemently defending myself for my guilty pleasure ship, noooo 😂)

Anyway, all that to say, I often wondered why I shipped Scarry myself. Why it's so much easier for me to enjoy than other Harry ships. Sure, it has the age gap thing going for it. And "son's best friend" going for it. And "son of my childhood rival" thing. Okay so yeah maybe it does make sense. 😂 What it lacks (in my imaginings) is all the fire I generally am drawn to, but ah well. It has enough else going in its favor. And really, what I'm only just now recognizing is that this sort of came together for me the same way Snarry did: my great love of the characters separately. I read the Cursed Child and fell in love with sweet cinnamon roll Scorpius. Which turned into...me being into Scarry!

Of course in my brain it happens one of two very specific ways 😂 Either Severus is...not there. For reasons. And Harry moves on with Scorpius one day. OR it's a one sided crush on Scorpius' end, which I am also hecka into. Who doesn't like a bit of unrequited love?? (At least, when their OTP isn't suffering for it.)

Draco/Sirius

I'M OBSESSED. WHY IS THERE NOT MORE OF THIS SHIP OUT THERE???? I CRY. Ahem. Anyway.

It's the age gap. It's the cousin incest. It's the "hooking up with my rival's godfather." It's the Gryffindor vs Slytherin of it. It's the Order and Death Eater of it. Also...they're both really pretty. 🤷‍♀️ Those good good Black genes, you know?

Also I just feel like...it can work. One of those things that might start off as sex and becomes really serious even though they both refuse to admit it for the longest time?

Sirius likes a challenge, I think, and Draco can provide one. And there's much more depth to Draco than I think Sirius might initially give him credit for. I see him as being a bit vain and a bit proud, but also insecure and vulnerable. He's sassy and bratty, and spoiled, but also with a lot of hurt and a lot of problems he himself might not be fully aware of. It's the complications and contradictions the Black family knows so well, and Sirius can understand Draco at that level better than most people, but also isn't so tied to family tradition that he can help pull Draco away from it. Sirius can shake up Draco's world a bit. Show him fun, silly things like bars and motorcycles and crappy Muggle flats. But also introduce him to freedom, and letting loose, and finding himself outside of that "Malfoy heir" identity, the way Sirius ran away from his "Black heir" identity.

I don't think Draco will pull away as much as Sirius did, and Sirius will understand enough to meet Draco where he is. And he knows the world Draco comes from enough to integrate into it when he needs to. And I think they'll find a lot of understanding and acceptance together, and learn a lot together, and explore a lot together, and be really chaotic and intense and messy together, and find so much joy and contentment together.

I have many Drarius feelings and I really need to write more of them one day.

Snape/Filch

Delphi sure SOLD me on this one, geez Louise. This is one of those I don't think is forever, but is meaningful and impactful to both parties. (It's gotta end Snarry, y'know? 👀) Love the age gap. And I love it best when it's student/caretaker. Maybe New Professor/caretaker, even. I love the idea of these two outcasts coming together and finding comfort together, and being able to appreciate each other in ways other people don't.

They both have their bitterness, and their sense of cruelty. They're both overlooked and unappreciated. Filch as the Squib looking after a magical castle full of magical people. The butt of many jokes. And Severus, the half-blood, the poor kid, the ugly kid. From a rough background, and surrounded by peers of much better circumstance. Targeted by the Marauders (who cause Filch enough trouble, too.)

It's fascinating to me, to see Filch, who doesn't seem to like much of anyone, being drawn to Snape. Sort of feeling a kindred spirit in some ways. A sense of camaraderie in the way Snape is seen, and treated, by others. Severus' broodiness and bitterness. But mostly sparked by some stunt pulled by the Marauders.

And Filch being the one to see how amazing Severus is. How intelligent and skilled, but looked over in favor of more handsome and charming and well-connected students. And I can see him being a bit torn between smug pride over how similar they are, and sharing that feeling of "yeah people don't see what I'm capable of, either" and then part of him growing to really care for Severus and wanting better for him and wanting others to actually see Severus the way Filch does. And Severus appreciating that, and feeling seen and safe with someone, at least to the extent that he can feel those things. (Wary as he is.) And really enjoying the affection he gets, and pleasure from their physical relationship. And maybe learning at least some small sense of self-worth and confidence in his own physicality.

One day I'm going to write the Snilch-turned-Snarry of my dreams and it's gonna be great, and in the meantime, a gal can dream.

Ginny/Gwenog

LISTEN. 2 lady athletes being hot together? Why not?? Of course with Gwenog being barely more than a mention, a lot of this is built on headcanon for her, but like...

Quidditch hero Gwenog. I like to headcanon her as a Slytherin (primarily due to a Snegurochka fic.) She's a Slug Club alum. She's a famous athlete. So I like to imagine her as a bit arrogant, and sure of herself. And maybe there initially being a "don't meet your heroes" moment between Gwenog and Ginny wherein Ginny very quickly loses her admiration of Gwenog because they meet at the wrong time (imagine they meet at some Slughorn event, haha.) But as Ginny loses interest in Gwenog, Gwenog's interest in Ginny is sparked.

Then one day they meet on the pitch, either as teammates or rivals. Either could be fun! And sort of coming together over their love of the sport and Ginny realizing there's more to Gwenog than first impression led her to believe. Also: there's at least some sorta age gap there, which you KNOW I love!

Also I love the idea of tabloids painting Ginny some type of way when she moves from a high profile relationship with Harry Potter: hero to a high profile relationship with Gwenog Jones: celebrity athlete. And maybe unfairly getting a reputation as a fame whore. And Ginny being super bitter about it because they don't understand!!!!

Anyway basically there's a lot of fun to be had.

Also I have weirdly specific feelings about tall Ginny. Just this tall pretty redhead athlete with short!Harry, and then moving onto her shorter butch girlfriend Gwen. Idk but really tall and more femme Ginny just does it for me. Like...she's like "I have long hair and I can pull off pretty dresses, but also I have the Bat Bogey Hex mastered, and I'll kick your ass on the pitch" and I respect that.

Hermione/Lavender

My newest obsession weirdly??? Even though I've read hardly any fics for it and there's no age gap to be seen. 🤨 Love me some Hermione/Fleur you know (my favorite Hermione ship still), and Hermione/Minerva and Hermione/Narcissa, but lately Hermione/Lavender is doing it for me on an almost opposites attract level?

This gives me a big impression of two people with the wrong idea of each other and having to face their own biases once they start to connect on some level. And then both being Ron's exes is hilarious. Bonus points for that. And imagine them as a longterm couple and they laugh years later over it. "Remember how we both dated the same guy? And we were jealous of each other? And now we're madly in love? Haha, life is funny."

Like, yeah, Hermione can be a bit bossy and fussy, and opinionated and judgmental in her own way. A bit self-righteous. Lavender isn't a very academic sort of person, but she's not dumb, and she's very brave. I like the idea of Lavender finding respect and admiration for Hermione only once she moves past Hermione being "very smart." And even Hermione sees so much of her value tied to her intelligence, and Lavender finding value literally everywhere else. How loyal Hermione is, how passionate she is, her love of travel and culture, etc.

And Hermione having to look past Lavender's "silliness" and face just how judgmental she is, and having to come to grips with yeah Lavender likes to gossip, and dress up, and she's very romantic, and she's interested in Divination, but there's also more to her than that. And that there is still value in things Lavender enjoys even if Hermione doesn't care for them herself, or even "believe" in them. And Hermione finding value in Lavender beyond how pretty she is, or how playful (especially postwar when Lavender maybe deals with heavy scarring and trauma and maybe heavy blows to her self-esteem.) And maybe being seen and recognized for better qualities even she maybe didn't think of herself as having, such as being quite brave and quite strong.

I dunno I just really want to explore them and all of the potential gives me many feelings.

#rarepair tag game #scarry #drarius #snilch #gwenevera #lavmione #wow why do i always have so much to say? #just let me blab on endlessly LOL #shipping

[itssomethingcosmic]

MAG 129

Thematically, this episode is just mmmmmmm so tasty 👌👌👌

We’ve got one of only “Buried manifesting as a fear of drowning” statements in the show after Jon described the door in his mind…

A constant pressure. Sometimes a few drops slip through and I’ll know something. ‘And if you open it?’ I drown.

Then we have this interim for Jon’s descent into the Coffin; setting up the concept of “anchors” — personal ties to another person that are strong enough to pull you out of the Fears’ hold.

And in that time, we also get this very important, very emotional scene between Jon and Martin…

This conversation was so important for them to have though?? Like, not only was it an opportunity for each of them to iron out their previous relationship to show each other how much they’ve changed (Martin has more confidence in himself, Jon immediately corrects his old, defensive tone to trying to express his vulnerability properly)

But in an episode about anchors, and about saving someone from an oppressive hellscape… two deeply lonely people have an awkward conversation when all both of them really want is the other’s connection.

One is convinced that he needs to do this in order to save the world.

The other doesn't fully understand, but trusts him completely. He leaves the door to empathy, compassion, and love open.

#the magnus archives #mag 129 #a mag a day #jonmartin #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #yes i made myself cry writing this

[elysiansparadise]

Hello my sunshine!

I noticed your ask box was open! I'm so happy!

Could you please do an interpretation of Mars in 11H. I have this placement. Thank you.

Have a fantastic day and a wonderful week.

Stay warm and cozy. ❤️

Hello my love, hope you're doing wonderfully. ❤️

Mars in the 11th house

Here we have natives who are more likely to rationalize when something happens that bothers them, they are not usually so impulsive when it comes to reacting and they may want to see things from different perspectives. They are very ambitious people who, once they have a plan or project that they are passionate about, dedicate themselves fully to it and not only think about it, but do something to achieve it. This placement favors those who want to start their own business, as it indicates that they can earn a lot of money working on something of their own or being their own boss. Since I mention bosses, even if they do not like to command, they have leadership skills and ensure what is fair both for themselves and for members of their group or other members of society. They are the voice of those who are marginalized or ignored and many people can feel taken into account by them. They have no problem approaching and talking to other people, in fact some tend to give the impression of being extroverted, but they highly value their time alone and doing things on their own. This is an ambivert placement.

Now talking about friendship, these natives tend to be funny, motivating and supportive friends, they have a curious way of taking care of their friends and they are not initially emotional, but rather take care of them in more practical ways. They may feel more energetic after spending time with friends or a group of people and are sometimes the person they turn to when a difficulty or problem occurs. These natives are those who tell you the truth no matter how painful it is, and honesty is something they value above all things in their friendships. They may attract more friendships with people with masculine energy, protective people, strong temperaments, or people who motivate them in some way. There may be some drama in your circles, arguments, or just having somewhat boisterous friendships. It is very likely that they prefer friends with similar ideas or perspectives in order to maintain a harmonious environment, as they stand out for defending their ideals tooth and nail. They like to defend causes linked to freedom, whether identity or expression, which is why it is a common placement for activists, feminists, people who fight for equal rights or justice for marginalized sectors of society. They have a healthy empathy in which they do not put others above them, but instead seek to understand and support them.

Although these people are open-minded when it comes to meeting many people, it is somewhat difficult for them to open up emotionally, they tend to be really defensive with their emotional world and may feel that they have to appear strong, if accompanied by other aspects of style, it can make them feel difficulty expressing their most vulnerable side. One of the good things about this placement is that they are very firm with their boundaries and do not stay in places where they are crossed or ignored. They would much rather be alone than in bad company and they have no problem with being alone at times. They seek to form friendships with more practical parameters without getting carried away by just feeling happy with the other person. They need friendships in which they feel they can trust and with whom honesty and loyalty is guaranteed, so even if they appear friendly, they remain alert and observant. In the sexual area, these natives are very open and experimental with their partner, they really like to surprise and be surprised in intimacy, and they always make sure not to fall into monotony. They don't just care about their pleasure, for them it is important that their partner also feels pleasure and feels satisfied.

#natal chart #astrology #mars #birth chart #mars in the 11th #11th house #astro observation #mars in the 11th house #mars in the 11h #mars in 11th #mars in 11h #astro note

[soaringwide]

Hello, I saw your giveaway and I would like to participate if it's still possible. I would like to know through a tarot reading about my future career. My biggest goal is to have a successful life so having a good career it's like really important to me.💜

Hello @gj4xdw, thank you for reaching out!

I see an issue with divining the career you will have, because I don't think there is only one given career path for anyone, the choice is yours to make, life doesn't happen to you, you make the choices that shape it.

You also didn't define what a ''good career'' is, I assume you mean financially, but I will also take personal fulfillment into account if the message arise.

Regardless, I'll try to see if some specific fields come up and rephrase your question a bit, and maybe add some steps or reflections you need to do in order to start walking that path.

What fields can you consider for a successful and fulfilling career?

So I wanted to define three potential paths but I ended up getting similar answers for the three. However, there are some slight differences in approach so I'll let you read what they are about.

The first idea I'm getting is a career that requires working around people's limitations and struggles to help them overcome them, by being using a rational and logical approach but also by taking emotions into account in order to help people process them and understand them. So what I'm getting is something that has to do with the field of psychology or psychiatry, but could also mean being a therapist or personal coach of some kind. In that sense you could be working for yourself as an independent rather than attached to a company or clinic.

The second idea also has to do with care given to others, helping people in difficult or vulnerable situations and bringing them joy and light. The idea of working as an independent is showing up again. Could be working with children or animals. The idea is being a figure that inspires wisdom and leadership in this field. The idea of helping create or remember good memories also came up.

Lastly, and again, it seems to point out at being a counselor of some sorts, this time in order to help people follow their heart and make decisions. Could be related to being an advisor of some kind, or a coach regarding matters of love and relationships, or weddings. I'm getting helping people achieve abundance on some level, perhaps by helping them achieve their goal, or an event, or a vision of theirs.

What to keep in mind to achieve success in your chosen career?

First of all, don't shy away from seizing the opportunities that may arise for you. There is an idea of being quick in your decision and acting fast not to let something go. Be confident and decisive in order to take advantage of the situation. Look for a position that is dynamic and stimulating and that help your sharpen your decision-making skills and show what you are capable of.

However, be mindful not to rush into something head first without having weighted the pros and cons first. Make sure the decision you take is grounded in logic and reality and not on irrational ideas and erratic energy. Keep a balanced mindset but don't let yourself go to indecision either.

Furthermore, be patient with yourself when settling into your new career as it will take time to feel fully comfortable. It will be good to balance the quick moving energies with a more grounded approach not to overheat yourself. You will need to rely on the mentorship of someone more experienced than you in order to ease into the process.

You will also need to be careful not to overextend yourself which could lead to you being fed up and overwhelmed with your job. So take time taking care of yourself and keeping an inner balance and contact with your inner world.

There will be a lot of new information to learn and process, so again, be patient and balance yourself while you are in this process, it will be worth it in the long run.

You chosen path will bring you success if you stick to it, are methodical and driven. Know what you want and go get it. Be determined to take control over your own destiny because you are the one with the hands on the wheel. The message of balance came back again, this time because you will need to temporize your feelings and doubts while nurturing your ambition. Both will be present so try not to negate one or the other. Negative emotions aren't to be banished, they are signals of pain here to warn you when to slow down or when a situation doesn't sit right with you. And your ambition is like a plant you need to water and take care of in order to have it bloom. Be perseverant and you will find the success you seek. The obstacles you will face will teach you a lot and make you stronger.

That's it for this reading, I hope it was useful and do tell me if you have some feedback!

#free tarot reading #tarot reading #tarot #soaringwide tarot reading #soaringwide #tarotblr #tarot community

[explorevenus]

Okie so I've been rewatching Nicole stream RE2 to review all the stuff that has happened to baby Leon during his no good very terrible worst first day of work, and I was thinking of Leon deeply attaching to a darling connected to Raccoon City. I'm leaning more towards one who managed to survive it all through sheer luck and just trying to get as far away from it as possible, immediately. They have some Massive survivor's guilt about all the colleagues and friends that were left behind. They try to stay with family, but it's hard for their family to fully understand the severity of what happened or provide the mental health support necessary. I imagine that Leon finds darling through forum posts and messages boards discussing Raccoon City. It's a huge event, and I imagine that there would be plenty of online discussions and internet sleuths trying to uncover the truth behind what happened - similar to the reaction to 9/11 in terms of surprise, severity and the spread/flow of information around the same time (1998-2002). The idea of online government surveillance was not a concern to the average person at this time, so while darling would be keeping their identity anonymous from others, they wouldn't have many other external pressures preventing them from speaking about their experiences. Leon grows attached, just through reading their posts, and wants to protect them and help them heal. I don't want to steal your ideas but I do really love Leon wanting something permanent in his life, some sense of normalcy that entices him with the promise of peace and security. I love the idea of him attaching all of this to the goal of having your love and acceptance and it drives him crazy. It takes him a while to finally meet you in person; he manipulates things around him so that there happens to be an apartment just in your price range right next to his when you're searching for a place of your own. He's right there to help even if you don't have many boxes to carry into your place and he's such a gentleman and reassuring your nerves at settling into a new place yet again. He offers to be your reference when you apply for a temp job he recommended for you and insists on celebrating on this little victory when you get the job. He's so supportive of you in a way you've never felt before that you end up developing a crush on him - it doesn't help that you've been trying to stay polite with the way you look at him since you first met him. The man is so afraid of accidentally crossing a boundary that will lose your trust forever that he ends up coming off as very innocent to you, and when you start to engage in behaviors that you think make you a dirty creep (learning his schedule, trying to find where he works, keeping a look out through your peep hole for any guests he brings over), he gets flustered realizing that you're actually reciprocating his feelings. He uses this to get closer to you, deploying a strategy of letting you talk about your trauma until you are distraught just for him to stop you from spiraling into it and holding you and walking you back from the edge into the comfort of his arms. After a while of this, the extended vulnerability has you wanting reciprocation from him, and he uses this to really lay on the feeling of loss and wanting to overcome it daily by protecting people. He weaponizes his trauma by telling you that it eases his mind to selflessly keep people safe and how awe struck he is of you for surviving all of it and still trying to keep a normal life with an apartment and a job and new friends atop the ashes of the old ones when most people would have succumbed to despair. He admits how deeply unfair the world is to "trauma survivors like us" and tops it all off by saying that he wishes you didn't have to act like none of it happened in order to keep up with your life's demands, if it were up to him there would be justice where you would be cared for, safe, and have all your needs met. His words imply a kinder government for its citizens but both of you know it's him for you.

(I hope this is good just a rough idea for now)

-🍒

okay i love EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS.

i’m a total sucker for yandere!leon playing the long game :’) cherry anon you’re a LEGEND

#goddess on the mountain top #yandere!leon kennedy #🍒 anon

[egipci]

hello please expound on "he wouldn't be proud"

Hello! Alright, so, a couple of months ago there was a bit of analysis going around about the first half of Devil's Trap, specifically about how Azazel had possessed John to use as bait, etc. (If anyone knows what I'm talking about please send a link my way). And I remember thinking, isn't it strange/interesting that an extremely powerful demonic entity spent 24+ hours in John's brain, presumably scraping data, and still couldn't come up with something to fool Dean in the cabin? And you could say, well Dean knows his father better than anyone. And I love that-- not only because I'm invested in their relationship but also because I think that's true. Dean is John's longest relationship/partnership, and I think by the time John dies Dean is adult enough to have a more mature/nuanced understanding of his father, Dean is his confidant, they share all sorts of secrets that Sam is not privy to and which are revealed continuously over the course of the show (up to s14), Dean looks up to him and studies him and for that reason I would even say that John is probably the person Dean knows best, at that point in the narrative. So, yes, Dean is the person who knows John best in the world.

But I find this take not fully satisfying, because, actually, what Azazel says should have worked. This is how the dialogue in Devil's Trap goes:

Almost everything Azazel says a) is true and b) Dean knows is true. 1) "I won't miss" is the reckless bravado we see John exhibit throughout and which Dean actively calls him out on so --- sounds like Dad, and it's not crazy to imagine that he would want to take the kill-shot after he dedicated over two decades to hunting Azazel; 2) "Sam and I get obsessed" --- Dean himself has said this multiple times, and "You look out for this family" is what we observe to be true by watching the show, and we know Dean agrees --- and this actually could have been the weird un-Dad-like thing to say, but that's not what Dean singles out. It comes down to "he wouldn't be proud of me," --- and I actually think Dean is wrong here!

Maybe John wouldn't say "I'm proud" outright, but he surely wouldn't "tear [Dean] a new one," and we know this because pretty much every time we see Dean stand up to John in person, John folds.

We see this a couple of times in Dead Man's Blood.

After which John just turns around and gets back in his car and there is a momentary truce. He doesn't lash out at Dean, he doesn't try to instigate a physical fight, he doesn't say anything humiliating or try to undermine his position as mediator, etc. It's stark how differently he reacts to Dean and to Sam in this scene.

There are also the more obvious moments where the camera pans to Sam's face to show that "oh shit Dean is really stepping out of line here":

Sam is doing his oh shit face, and you can tell Dean is close to shitting his pants (if he hasn't already) --- but but again, there is no explosive reaction here. John just explains that 1) Azazel is extremely powerful, 2) John expects to die, and 3) "I can't watch my children die" --- he's vulnerable with them and expresses his anxieties and pretty much confesses his willingness to die for this mission. This conversation ends with a "this is an order" and they leave having (silently) agreed to follow John's plan. Of course, they don't, and we get this moment at the end of the episode:

Look at their little freaked faces--- and not only is John cool once again, he also agrees to their plan.

Next episode, Salvation, we have this interaction:

and Netflix doesn't transcribe this fully for some reason but John says, "You're right. I'm sorry," at the end there. Is he being dismissive? Sure. He doesn't clarify that "in fact, I was there in Lawrence," which leads me to believe that if he were there somewhere off-screen in Faith he wouldn't have mentioned it either. But, point stands, this guy is not getting off the bed to start a fight, he's not shouting, he's not throwing insults, etc. He's consistently mellower than we and Sam and Dean expect him to be, from the first time we see him interact with them in Shadow and reconcile with Sam (Sam is anxious about this moment throughout the season, but not Dean! He knows Dad is proud of Sam.)

And this scene in Salvation ends up with him going off with the decoy gun and giving up his shot at Azazel because he trusts his kids. He thinks they're competent! He respects them as partners on the job! And maybe he didn't always think this but after the events of the past year he's changed his mind. He's proud of them and he's proud of Dean, and he tells him in In My Time of Dying.

Is it 100% certain that John in the specific event of shooting-possessed-man-to-save-Sam would be proud of Dean? It's far from a sure thing, but we know Dean thinks his priority is always Sam's protection, as dictated by Dad. Why would Dad not be proud of him doing his job? Specially when he and Sam agree that there was no other way, it was Sam or the other guy? And when we know John is ready to shoot whoever comes through the door to kill Azazel, including the human victim?

Azazel's bit in the cabin should have worked. The reason it doesn't is because Dean doesn't believe Dad would say that. No matter how their dynamic ostensibly changes, it's too little, too late. Dean has already internalized a certain idea of where he stands in the family and what his dad believes about him --- that's the crux of the confrontation with his dream self in Dream a Little Dream of Me. Two years after John dies for him, Dean's innermost self believes that his father "didn't care if you live or die"!!! That's crazy! And I don't mean to say that Dean is delusional or exaggerates the trauma he experienced at his father's hands-- I'm saying that's how deep that shit runs. It's simply irrational and counter to the evidence. (And obviously even before we get to that point in S3, Dean articulates this same belief in S2 when he deals for Sam's life, believing his life would be meaningless otherwise).

The reason Azazel doesn't win that day is because Dean's daddy issues/ abysmal self-esteem win out, and that just makes me a little crazy! It's not that John wouldn't be proud of him, it's that Dean wouldn't believe him even if he said he were.

Yes, Dean knows his father intimately, and he knows him better than anyone, and still he doesn't know his father would die for him; he sees John sitting by his bedside in 2x1 and thinks that his dad is going to let him die. (No wonder Azazel mocks John with the sentimentalist line-- another thing he knows from being inside his head!). The profound failure to communicate on John's part here is staggering. After raising them single-handedly for twenty-two years, he has somehow left his kids, and his right-hand man/sonwife, with the impression that he would just let them die if it comes to it!!! It's so heartbreaking to watch their interactions and think about Dean's memories with that level of fucked-up-ness in mind--- because I can't help thinking that if Dean had spoken up earlier, as he was growing up, John would have listened. I don't think John deliberately raised Dean to be his dog; I think John's failure is not doing anything to cultivate Dean's personhood separate from himself, which is like, a parent's main job, and withholding the affection he does genuinely feel.

#I think I actually saw a little clip of pink? or drew barrymore? talking about this specifically- like deliberately asking their kids #to rebel against them bc they were too good #anyway-- tumblr deleted about half of this and I had to retype because I'm committed :| #john winchester

[tyrannuspitch]

it makes me very sad that thor is really not good at expressing his emotional needs (believing he needs to appear invulnerable to protect himself and others), and loki is not very good at responding to others' emotional needs (selfishness as a survival mechanism from growing up in an environment that demanded self-sacrifice), and also that... i think loki is specifically bad at seeing thor as someone with needs, someone vulnerable, someone whom he of all people could hurt. :(

like of course loki knows he can physically hurt thor, and he knows he's made thor cry, etc, but i still feel like... it slips his mind. it's hard to focus on and fully believe. his basic mentality around their relationship is like... if i'm keeping thor safe, it's because i don't want to lose him. if i'm trying not to upset thor, it's because i don't want him to hurt me. if i have hurt thor and he isn't hurting me back and i feel guilty, that's because i'm a terrible person and he isn't. (ie, still focusing on himself and punishment, rather than on thor and healing.)

and whenever loki tries to change something about their relationship, he's often still stuck in this mentality.

like, on one hand, we have loki's rage/rebellion. he doesn't want to be subordinated any more and he will do anything to break free - even when thor is not a remotely credible threat! in T1, he tries to kill thor, who is both exiled and mortal, because he can't believe that he can hold the power in their relationship and be allowed to keep it. he can't see thor as his equal - thor must always be more powerful and less vulnerable than him. the "natural order" will always reassert itself; thor can always win.

and then on the other hand, we have loki's self-sacrifice. after T1, he is able to see thor as vulnerable enough to die. he's seen it happen, and he won't let it happen again. he wants to apologise, atone, and protect thor. (*and to punish himself, and to escape, but those aren't as relevant right now.) but at the same time, loki's self-sacrifice hurts thor, and i don't think he ever quite understands how badly. he thinks of it as dying for thor, not as making thor watch me die. he thinks thor will live to remember me as someone who loved him, not thor will have nightmares of my corpse for the rest of his life.

(but of course, as well as underestimating thor's vulnerability, i think loki's lack of self-worth plays into his underestimations of harm - not just "how could i, an inferior, hurt thor?" but also... how could i, someone unlovable, be mourned by thor? i can disobey him, but can i betray him? i can wound him, but can i break his heart? isn't he glad to be rid of me? didn't he always know i was a monster? isn't this what he thinks i deserve?)

the brothers' power dynamic is obviously very very damaging for loki. but i also think that if they managed to speak about it and actively tried to fix the power dynamic just from the perspective of not subjugating loki... their belief in their own inequality might still be incredibly damaging to thor.

like. if you ever managed to get thor to understand how and why his controlling behaviour and mindset towards loki is damaging, he would probably have a massive guilt crash like he did in T1. he'd become very pliant, accepting of abuse, and possible even actively self-destructive, because he's been trying his hardest to keep loki safe and to be kind and forgiving and all this time he's been causing him harm and he had no idea, and maybe that means loki's mental breakdown and suicide attempts and murder attempts and war crimes and every other thing wrong in the world are all his fault, how can he trust himself with anything, how can he expect to deserve anything, how can he possibly begin to make amends...

and i think loki would probably not be looking out for thor's feelings AT ALL in this scenario. he'd be on edge and paranoid because he's confessed something deeply vulnerable that he's struggled to even put into words for most of his life, and now after a thousand years thor claims to be sorry? and to understand? just like that??? loki might even pick fights to test thor's commitment/honesty/etc and try to bring about the "inevitable" return to the status quo quickly, cleanly and of his own accord...

like, i don't think loki would feel punitive; i think the majority of his vengeance in canon is actually, like, 90% cry for help or escape attempt or similar, and would dissipate fairly fast once he felt heard. but i think he would be disoriented and anxious and - again - not quite be able to believe that thor was truly his equal and just as vulnerable as him... perhaps this is just some new method of control in disguise...

this tangent has got away from me but. god. the power dynamic really is fucked up in every direction isn't it. (demonisation vs idealisation, dehumanisation of the weak, dehumanisation of the strong, etc...) what a MESS!!

#space viking tag #hhhhh #meta #ch: loki #ch: thor #th: saint thor #th: suicide + sacrifice #th: fate + hierarchy #r: loki + thor #highlights

[fincalinde]

how do you feel about yi city? i don't really go there but i know i've read some meta about how it's like 3zuns and a lot of people compare jgy and xy and was wondering what you thought.

I don't go there either and writing a post deconstructing the idea that there are parallels between Yi City and 3zun could get messy, but I'll make an attempt. Here goes, this got quite long.

As far as I'm aware, fandom when it conflates Yi City and 3zun draws parallels roughly thus:

JGY = XY

LXC = XXC

NMJ = SL

Well there sure are three guys in each group! I mean actually Yi City has four key characters but AQ is a girl and who cares about those right? Right? Fandom, as always I am regarding you disapprovingly over my lorgnette.

Character parallels (or a lack thereof)

XY is hyperviolent and takes excessive revenge for the smallest of slights and takes pleasure in extreme violence and cruelty. JGY endures an onslaught of slights with smiling forbearance, and while he commits acts of extreme violence always does so under duress or in service of a larger goal (though he can certainly enjoy it to a degree). He even outlines his personal philosophy to XY in Villainous Friends, which XY not only rejects but doesn't even fully comprehend.

XXC is an idealist with limited experience of the depths of human cruelty, vulnerable to being preyed on by bad faith actors exploiting said ideals, and when those ideals are shattered he is unable to endure it. LXC's entire deal is that he has a clear understanding of the gap between ideals and reality; witness, he is the one constantly pointing out how few options JGY has and how that informs his actions.

SL is a man of upright morals who wants to break from traditional clan-based practices. When he loses his temper with XXC in a highly emotional context, he subsequently feels deep shame and tries to find him to make amends. NMJ is a moral stickler, but hypocritical and obsessed with the blood-based legacy of his clan. He flies into regular rages which over time escalate to become more and more murderous; he never attempts to make amends for anything he has done during said rages.

Narrative parallels (or a lack thereof)

Again from what I can tell, a proportion of fandom seems to have decided that JGY is some kind of XY lite, hiding behind LXC's skirts and making a diabolical neko face as NMJ points out how evil he is and LXC blithely ignores it. This is then being conflated with XXC being tricked by XY and SL being the one whose arrival at Yi City blows up the status quo.

Except this isn't really accurate to either group.

LXC and NMJ are not partners in ideals or ambition. They each have very different ways of seeing the world and are each responsible for their own clans. They're good friends, but we know that LXC's motivation for suggesting the sworn brotherhood is to improve relations between NMJ and JGY i.e. to protect JGY from NMJ's wrath, and we know NMJ's motive is to regain authority over JGY. There's no indication that they would have entered into a sworn brotherhood with each other if JGY hadn't been present. They're good friends but they're just not a matched pair like XXC and SL.

JGY does not intrude on some cosy scenario and cuckoo his way into LXC's life by means of deception. He saves LXC's life, protects him, gives him the funds to rebuild his clan, and is upfront about who he is and what his parentage is from the beginning. Obviously he keeps secrets from LXC, but he doesn't enter LXC's life under false pretences. I presume people think JGY's use of Turmoil can be compared to XY's use of corpse powder, but there is an ocean of difference between using your friend's house key to steal a piece of paper you need in order to take out your mutual friend who has repeatedly and recently literally tried to kill you and ... literally tricking your friend into murdering a bunch of innocent villagers and laughing about it.

LXC knows a high percentage of what JGY has done and isn't defending him due to ignorance of his actions but due to a sincere belief in their necessity and/or an understanding that JGY's options are limited and he is doing the best he can in the circumstances. This attitude continues in the temple, when he refuses to turn aside from questioning JGY in an effort to reconcile JGY's additional secrets with the man he knows. Meanwhile, during the confrontation between XXC and XY, XXC is steadfast in his rejection of XY's thesis statement and when he succumbs it is to despair rather than to XY's justifications.

Rather than being oblivious to the danger JGY poses, LXC is not fully confronting the fact that NMJ is incredibly dangerous and an ongoing threat to JGY's life; and, for that matter, the lives of others too. Remember NMJ cut down plenty of his own cultivators under his qi deviation, and said qi deviation was merely accelerated rather than created by JGY's playing of Turmoil. SL is no danger to anyone and continues to selflessly travel and do good where he can. He takes ownership of his mistakes and commits to doing penance in the hope that he can ultimately make amends.

It really cannot be overstated how dangerous NMJ is both to JGY and everyone around him. He's a ticking time bomb and that is not remotely comparable to SL, a genuinely upright man who makes a huge mistake and in trying to put it right stumbles into a twisted situation and gets horribly murdered. SL isn't obsessed with the potential for destruction exhibited by a man who is doing his best to navigate an impossible situation because he has to follow his father's awful instructions or be eliminated; he's trying to stop the man who massacred his temple, maimed him, and used his own best friend as a murder weapon for the fun of it.

It's not that XY doesn't have affection for XXC; he clearly does love him in his own way, and XXC is the shizun cum father cum big brother he never had. It's notable that XY stops with the corpse powder after a while and settles into his domestic life with XXC and AQ (remember her). But he very obviously has no understanding of XXC's moral framework, and it's not that he learned better so much as he no longer has a desire to revenge himself on XXC and can't quite bring himself to examine that.

Miscellaneous dynamics (oh no, I'm going to talk about pairings)

Guys, A-Qing is there. She is there, like, she is super there, she is our viewpoint character, she is not some optional add-on. She's crucial to the entire dynamic and whenever I have dipped a toe in Yi City I'm usually frustrated to see that the miraculous plot change that has spared XXC has omitted to spare AQ. Or, if she is spared, she gets relegated to daughter or little sister status while XY is elevated to being one corner of the Songxuexiao triad.

So let's talk about pairings. Here is my position, which I must stress is based on MDZS not CQL.

If there is any significant potential for a romantic read on the relationships between any of these characters, it's solely between XXC and SL. They are completely committed to each other, love each other deeply, and are each the most important person in the other's life. SL is committed to finding XXC to right the wrong he did him, and XXC is so committed to SL that when he thinks he's to blame for the death of SL's surrogate family he literally gifts him his own eyes.

The dynamic between XXC and XY is really more of a familial or mentorly one. XXC is providing guidance and support that XY has never received in his life, and XY is responding as a child experiencing actual care for the first time. He's still not capable of understanding or accepting that his past actions are wrong, but, like a child, he thinks he can sweep them under the rug and go on as though they never happened. It's not that he's learnt better; it's that he doesn't need to commit mass violence any more.

But even if you could make a successful argument for XY's feelings being romantic, and even if you could successfully argue that XXC returns them (a massive stretch), whatever kind of relationship they have is fundamentally unworkable and doomed. Sooner or later, even in a scenario where SL survives, XXC will discover the truth and reject XY utterly. In their final confrontation he is hurt, appalled, trying to understand... but he's not trying to understand so he can find his way back to the XY he thought he knew. He's trying to understand in the way a shell-shocked soldier is trying to understand. He shows no openness to XY's explanations and no indication whatsoever that any reconciliation is possible.

XY doesn't understand this at first, but when he does realise it—that's the moment he reveals the presence of SL's fierce corpse. The moment of no return is years in their past, but XY only grasps this when XXC refuses to accept or engage with the narrative he's created in his own mind about how justified his actions are.

It's very telling that, when XXC is being slammed with revelations, the moment that finally breaks him is when he finds out that SL is dead by his own hand. And, to loop back round to dismantling false parallels between Yi City and 3zun, this should really be compared to LXC's reaction to his minor role in NMJ's death. He's appalled in the moment, but it doesn't even come up during the temple discussions and he's constantly seeking explanations and accepting the logic of many of JGY's responses.

#ask #testblog-54 #roquen meta #outing myself as a sl fan #i'm sorry sl #for all the ryvita jokes i made about you and xxc in the past #ur actually my fave #if writing unpaid fanfic were my full time job #i'd have written that postcanon sl fic i want to do #alas there are not enough hours in the day #once again i write meta for mdzs NOT cql #yi city is something where the dynamics differ significantly between novel and adaptation #still no support for the common fandom conflation of yc and 3z in cql though

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Match-Up Exchange

This is part of a Jujutsu Kaisen match-up exchange done for @deeveedeedee for the exchange we arranged! Hi hi, apologies this took me an extra day to get out but I hope you enjoy it as much as I did with the one you wrote me :> I proofread it but I did so late at night so apologies if I missed any typos or grammar mistakes! You seem like a very kind person and I really enjoyed interacting with you, please feel free to hop over to this blog anytime if you have a request or are just looking to chat :)

I’d Match You With:

Kento Nanami! :)

Reasoning:

Honestly I was really torn between two different options for you when reading your description of yourself, and the one I didn’t go with will be mentioned later but when reading your description of how you prefer to receive and give love with a partner that was what made me settle on Nanami over my other choice :] I already think he’d really admire you as a person, and I also think he’d be very compatible with you in a relationship so he felt like the best fit overall :>

Headcanons About Your Relationship:

- First of all, though Nanami knows that compliments can make you feel awkward so he tries not to push you out of your comfort zone, he finds you absolutely stunning and in his eyes, everything about you is notable and beautiful. As your partner, he looks at you so much that he eventually notices even the smallest things about your features - like the soft scar on your nose. which he loves to kiss :>

- Of course he’d never, ever push you, but he hopes that one day you’ll feel confident enough to believe him when he compliments and tells you how much he adores you, so he can explain to you how he sees you as a rare light in the bleak sky he usually lives within. Nanami became so jaded towards the world for quite a while after his experiences both in a regular corporate job and as a jujutsu sorcerer, but getting to come home to you on those awful days where everything seemed so screwed up and horrible in the world has always been like a soothing balm seeping into his skin. He sees you and he’s reminded that there are still positive, shining gems within this world, and you and the students are the only ones who make him feel this way so he hopes to one day share these feelings with you, but is careful to never cross your boundaries or make you uncomfortable by sharing too much or overwhelming you

- He’s also truly a wonderful partner, he understands what's important in a relationship in order for it to fully thrive and grow and he does his best to be the best lover he can be at all times. He’ll never pull any immature moves like the silent treatment on you, even if the two of you have a disagreement he always wants to communicate openly and have a civil discussion and will never so much as raise his voice at you. He’s so patient with you too, as you get more comfortable with him you notice how he opens up more as well rather than getting upset as you show him your truest, most vulnerable self. It’s obvious how much he loves knowing that you’ve grown comfortable enough with him to show him all sides of you with the way he sports such a soft, warm smile whenever moments like that occur

- And he’s not the type to hold it against you if you’re ever having a hard time and run out of patience at some point, he knows you’re only human and everyone has moments where they’ve reached their limit. He always gives you space to de-stress however you need to while making it clear that he’s not closing any doors on you, and whenever you feel more at ease and ready to discuss what he did that set you off, he’s happy to do so and work to find a solution because he knows you’d never intentionally hurt him and that you value this relationship as much as he does

- He knows how you feel about gifts, so although he would happily spoil you if you asked, he typically opts for treating you to a nice meal (either home-cooked or at a restaurant, your choice) or something you’ve specifically told him you want for anniversaries or holidays together if you choose to celebrate. He really enjoys spending quality time with you, too, when he gets home from work and just needs to unwind from the stress of his job even just laying in bed beside you manages to refresh him in a way nothing else can. And he sees the way you take care of him and sometimes do his chores or tasks for him when he’s stressed, and never fails to vocalize his appreciation for what you’ve done and encourages you to take a break and not worry so much about him if he worries you’re stretching yourself too thin

- When it comes to making you laugh, though it may not seem like Nanami’s strong suit and he’s not usually one for cracking jokes, you’re one of the few people he will open up to enough to joke around with when he’s in a brighter mood :> Mostly because he loves hearing your laugh, so when he thinks of a particularly good joke or a comment he knows you’ll enjoy he always saves it for just the right moment and is a genius at comedic timing (though you’re pretty much the only one who knows that since you’re the only person he cares enough to impress with his humor)

- I don’t think Nanami was much of a music person before you met him, but after the two of you get together he slowly finds himself listening to music on his morning commute as he curates a playlist filled with songs that remind him of you <3 Whether it’s songs he’s caught you listening to/singing while you’re together or ones that you’ve shown him yourself, or even potentially songs you’ve done figure skating routines to if you’re willing to share that with him. You’ve opened his eyes to the world of music, and though he doesn’t often seek out new artists on his own, when he does find something for himself that he likes he always comes home and shares his discoveries with you as he wants to be able to connect with you over something he knows is incredibly important to you

- And he’s an absolute sucker for planning cute dates he knows you’ll love in order to surprise you, so one night he takes you out to a roller-skating rink on a couples skate night because he knows how much you enjoy it :> And I actually don’t think he can skate very well, so he’s pretty slow with it and clings to the walls a bit as he occasionally feels embarrassed to watch small children pass him, but the embarrassment quickly fades as he sees you having fun and in your element, and he can’t help but smile at the sight of him whenever you skate up to ask him how he’s doing or offer to skate with him for a while

- And nature dates too! He’d make a whole thing of it, like going on a little hike together around mid-day up to some sort of river or lake and letting you swim in it while he dips his feet in at the edge and prepares a few towels and a blanket for you to warm yourself up once you get out of the freezing water <3 And then he has a yummy picnic for the two of you to enjoy as the sun begins to set, which you watch together before enjoying a night of stargazing to top it off :> He knows quite a few constellations so he’s happy to point them out for you if you’d like, but if you’d rather just sit there and stare at the stars or just talk to one another, he’s more than content with that too

- But even with the way he plans frequent dates and spends quality time with you often, he also knows that you enjoy having time to yourself and is more than happy to give you that time. He strives to find a balance between spending time with you and showcasing his love while also giving you space to be your own person and enjoy time to yourself, and if you ever decline an invite from him and tell him that you’d just prefer some time alone to decompress, he wouldn’t be upset in the slightest and would absolutely encourage you to take all the time you need and lets you know that he’s happy to reschedule for whenever you feel up to doing something together

- I think he’d really adore the fact that you do both gymnastics and figure skating, especially figure skating. He finds both of them so beautiful and fluid and impressive, and while he respects that these are your hobbies, if you ever invite him to watch you practice he’d be absolutely elated because he just loves watching you move so gracefully. It entrances him, he doesn't even realize how hooked in he gets until you finish a routine and he sees that minutes have passed with him just watching you

- He’d also be incredibly encouraging when it comes to your studies. He knows how difficult school can be especially when it comes to higher education, so he’s more than happy to help you study for exams or read through essays or anything else you may ask of him, and he always makes sure you have a nice meal and your favorite drink or sweet treat while studying to prevent you from pushing yourself too hard <3 And he knows how much you love learning so he enjoys being an outlet for you to share that knowledge without feeling like you’re being evaluated or graded. Ramble off to him about something you’ve learned while studying geography while you’re eating and he’s completely hooked, he wants you to be able to be excited about these passions of yours without feeling the academic pressures that often come along with them

- He sees the way you often try to hide your less bright and positive emotions from others or the way you often worry about being a people-pleaser, so he tries his absolute best to show you that you don’t have to do any of that for him. If he ever catches you stretching yourself too thin for the sake of another person, whether that’s him or someone else, he gently ensures that you take a break and take some time to yourself. He’ll turn on a classic horror movie and make your favorite dinner because he loves to cook for you, and just lets you have a night all about focusing on you and rejuvenating your own energy without worrying about anyone else <3

Second Choice:

Honestly I was really considering pairing you with Gojo as well. The two of you are different in a lot of ways, but I still think that for the most part it would allow you to maintain a healthy balance in your relationship and the two of you could work really well together. You share some qualities like a sweet tooth and I think he’d also really like who you are as a person, I just settled for Nanami instead when it came down to showing affection and love as I figured you and Gojo may be a bit mismatched on that scale and while I still think it could absolutely work, Nanami felt like he was a better fit for you in the end

Song For Your Relationship:

Lucky People by Waterparks <3

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